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got back into the write streak ^^

[dexiiexox]

Boyfriend headcanons for Matt Sturniolo🩵

a/n: Hello hello again :)) First time writing for the love of my life Matt😍😜 and these are just some headcanons I imagine for Matt, aka; feeding into my own AND your delusions😚🥰

ALSO I’m not from America or anything so I just picked Taco Bell as the random restaurant/ fast food place💀

I still hope you enjoy reading though!

Matt Sturniolo x reader

warnings: kissing, maybe some sort of angst?(not really)

summary: what the title says, headcanons of how I think Matt would be as a boyfriend🩵

SORRY FOR ANY SPELLING MISTAKES❕

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I’ve seen this headcanon a lot, but I agree with it so so much, and that is Matt and back hugs/hugs from behind. I can just picture it so perfectly

It’s an early morning and you’ve slipped out of bed before Matt, you went into his bathroom and you’re brushing your teeth.

Meanwhile you hear Matt get up, he walks into the bathroom all sleepy and he hugs you from behind, arms around your waist, head in your neck and a groggy morning voice.

"good morning"

"morning.."

I also feel like Matt would want you to be open with him about how you’re feeling and if anything is bothering you

He would want you to be comfertable enough with him to where you can talk to him at any moment no matter what, he doesnt care if you think you’re being overdramatic or stupid, becuase to him it’s not

You’re the most important thing to him along side his brothers, and he would sit there and listen to everything you had to say, holding you in a side hug and rubbing your back

You and Matt are sat on his bed, he had noticed you being a little off today and he decided to ask you about it.

You originally decided against telling him, but both you and Matt knew better, he knew you well enough to know if you were lying, so you just sighed and sat down on his bed.

A few tears escaped your eyes as you told him all about the feelings that were overwhelming you.

He just sat there, by your side rubbing your back comfortingly listening to everything you said.

"It’s going to be alright baby, I’m right here"

Matt always made you feel so seen and heard, he was everything you could ask for and more.

After you’d called down a little, he wiped your tears with his thumbs and kisses your lips before you both layed down and spendt the night cuddling in bed.

I also feel like Matt is the type to always and I mean ALWAYS ask you if you want anything as well, no matter where or what it is

Wether its buying food, just stopping at the gass station, him looking for clothes, stopping for a coffee, it doesnt matter, he’ll always make sure just in case

"you want anything?"

"want me to grab you some as well?"

"you sure you dont want anything?"

I feel like Matt would enjoy late night drives with you. Wether it’s just the two of you being bored, that you guys just need to get out of the house or just to talk in private, I think he would enjoy it still

You could drive around and talk about random things or serious topics, sometimes you would grab food and just sit in a parking lot and just talk while you guys eat

Matt would definetly let you wear his clothes, he’d give you his hoodies and sweaters whenever you got cold or needed it. No questions asked. It could be snowing and he’d be near death already, but he would still have given you his hoodie (we love Matt💕)

You, Matt, Chris and Nick were out in town, not for anything in particular, but Nick was looking for some new shirts, and the rest of us just tagges along since we didnt really have any other plans.

Chris wanted to stop by the grocery store as he was out of pepsi and he also wanted some snack for later.

Once we all got back in the car again, we all agreed to go get some food. We decided to stop by Taco Bell, for once we also decided to eat there and nor take it with us.

Today had been somewhat chilly, but I hadnt brought a jacket with me. A strong wind blew by me and a few strands of hair went in my face. Matt took notice of my body language, seeing my high shoulders and how I was somewhat hugging myself to try to bring myself some warmth.

He locked the car doors and came over to me, laying an arm around my shoulder. He pusher some strands of hair behind my ear.

"Want my hoodie?" he asked.

"No no, it’s alright Matt, it’s my own fault for forgetting to bring one" I let out a dry laugh.

He gave me a questionable look and started taking off his hoodie disregarding what I just said. After taking it off, he handed it to me.

"Here" he just smiled at me.

"Thank you Matt" I put on his hoodie already feeling warmer by his body warmth still lingering in it.

"Of course sweetie" he gave me a quick peck on the lips and intertwined our hand as we started walking inside.

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These are all the headcanons for Matt so far, I hope you liked them, I really enjoyed writing it :))

I might make a part 2 later if anyone wants that and just send in any requests or ideas if you have any!

I hope youve had a good day or night and dont forget that youre absolutely worth it!! <3

-dexiie💕

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collage made by me with pictures from pinterest

moonknight!system x female!reader

a/n: Thank you, for all the lovely interactions I got with my first chapter! I'm glad you like it as much as I do and I hope this 2nd chapter meets your expectations&lt;;33

Warnings: no use of Y/N, fluff, NOT beta read, gushing about the moonboys, flustered awkward dorks, plot-twists, Jake being a menace, (eventual smut, the chapters will be marked individually), inaccurate depictions of DID, egyptian mythology and religion (although I did extensive research I took liberty in changing some things to adhere to my plot...), if I missed anything or made any spelling mistakes pls don't hesitate to tell me!

Summary: You haven't seen Jake for a while and are sure you won't ever meet him again. In fact you've convinced yourself to be unbothered by that theory and are planning to live with it. In typical Jake fashion, those plans are to be disrupted with a surprise visit to his new, favourite part of town...

2,700 words

Two weeks later

You continue working on your latest hyperfixated studies in the library and try your best to forget about him. You knew it was probable that you weren't going to see him again. So you quickly went back to drawing the library kitten, when you weren't working at the shelter or studying. You tried your best to stick to the cat and really focus on her cute paws and the green spots in her honey coloured eyes…but even those somehow remind you of him. This of course brings back the feeling of you pressed between the bookshelf and his front. His thumb on your chin and his crooked nose so close to brushing yours…how in the hell were you supposed to forget? Him and his advances rivalled many good romances you had read about. The library was starting to feel stuffy so you decided to take a break from sketching and to go get a coffee in the cute place next door. 

Giving the kitty one last treat before stepping out the door, you turn around to wave the cat goodbye ‘byeee barry! See you again soo-’ you stumble backwards over the sidewalk landing on someone. You’re about to apologise when-

‘we really gotta stop meetin’ like this, nena’ Like in any bad romance you meet him again by literally falling into Jake's lap. You look over your shoulder and see him smirking while resting his chin on your shoulder, making his face be much closer than you had expected. You scramble to your feet and dust off your sweater. Leaving him sitting on the floor. ‘Not even gonna help me up?? ay…que mala’ he tutted. He stands up swiftly, looking very pleased with himself. 

‘Hello to you too Jake, i-if you could excuse me I really need to go get my coffee’ you say while you push past him, walking two steps but stopping when he stands in your way looking almost panicked.

‘W-wait wait darling, let me buy you a coffee…please?’ 

You almost make a comment about the very british nickname but are taken aback by his uncharacteristic pleading eyes. It seemed very unlike him but you weren't about to refuse the pretty man you’ve been pining over. ‘Alright- Sure Jake, let's get coffee’ you say smiling but feeling like something's off. You walk slightly ahead, leading him to the nearby cafe. You can see Jake in your peripheral vision, he looked really nervous, seemed to be twitching weirdly and muttering some intelligible things. Maybe he was just in his head about something...you didnt wanna pay it any mind. You entered the „Moonbean “ café. It was this cute and cosy place with lots of natural light and many plants. After you get your ice coffee and Jake (to your surprise) buys himself a black tea with oat milk and honey, you sit down at a corner booth.

‘Ssso, ahem Jake. Is there anything you wanted to tell me or..?’ you ask, trying to make this situation seem like a normal sircumstance. ‘um yes! Or well no…it's kinda hard to explain but I need to know how you know…well- me..?’ he says while glancing into your eyes intently. ‘...okay, Jake I don't follow..’ you laugh awkwardly. ‘Okay so here's the deal' he rubs his hand over his face distressedly, 'I have DID, also known as dissociative identity disorder a-and we are two people in this system. Marc and Steven- well me! Steven' he takes a deep breath and keeps going. 'So, I wanted to have a coffee with you because we have been feeling like there might be a third consciousness, sharing our body that we don't know about...’ Steven says just a smidge too fast ‘...okay…Steven…what makes you think I have got any information on this third consciousness?’ you ask genuinely curious. You have read about DID but you have never actually talked to anybody that lived with it. 

‘Well…you did call me Jake about five times which leads me to think that erm- you might know a thing or two about him.’ just now you noticed how his entire presence was completely different from Jakes. Jake led with his chest and had a confident smirk practically glued on his face. Steven on the other hand looked tired and like he wanted to hide from any discomfort around him. His shoulders were rounded and his eyes looked like those of a lost puppy in need of a hug, which you were very inclined to give him. Unfortunately for you, his lack of confidence did not make him any less attractive. Which meant you still couldn't tear your eyes away from his features and had to work hard on not embarrassing yourself like last time. Remembering you had to answer him you perked up ‘right, well- I only know him in passing. How come you knew he was at the library?’ you say trying to redirect his attention away from your potentially…strange connection to Jake, don’t really wanna out yourself as a stalker…‘Funny story actually- erm I found this wood-panel in my floor that had a burner phone, gloves, a flat-cap and a small notebook with a folded piece of paper hidden inside. These items confirmed mine and Marc's belief that there might be a third. What surprised us more tho, is what we saw when we unfolded the paper…let me..’ he clears his throat and reaches into his satchel, he hands you the paper but looks to the side, avoiding eye-contact. You unfold it…and immediately want to die. ’oh fuck me- so um- w-what made you think it had anything todo with the- um, library?’ You try to keep your composure but it's very hard when the drawing was of course the sketch he’d taken from your collection two weeks ago. Naturally, he’d gotten his hands on one of the more "racey" drawings you’d drawn of him, you weren't entirely surprised that stalking a handsome stranger could ever come back to haunt you. 

‘So the paper has a footnote printed on it with an address…see? Right here a-above my- well Jakes bound wrists- ahem well yes so then w-we came here and bumped into you…’ his sentence died out and he shyly looked away while blushing. Steven was an adorable man, you were finding it hard to really focus on this serious conversation when all you could think about was how his hair was so unruly this time and his curls were bouncing above his eyebrows, making him look even prettier. How he wears his clothes two sizes too big, hiding his broad shoulders beneath 4 different layers of fabric. You snap out of it ‘so um- any idea who drew it?’ you ask while feeling a warm sensation crawl up your back and your heart-beat increasing ever so slightly. ‘Well- since it’s more…intimate in nature we assume he is perhaps seeing someone..?’ Inhaling sharply you try to stay calm. You really didn't want to tell them that you, a stranger, drew this but seeing Steven so exhausted and distressed convinced you to do the right thing. ‘ um- so..ahhh well…I drew that…’ You closed your eyes and squinted, opening one eye to see Stevens reaction. He was frozen, you swallow strenuously ‘um- Steven..? Everything okay…?’ you ask reluctantly.

 He stares into your eyes and is blushing intensely, looking like a red traffic-light. He's so cute. ‘Yes! I am fine- sorry love, I-I just did not exp-’

 ‘not expect that a total stranger would draw a lewd picture of you? Well, yes I definitely understand that notion’ you laugh. Funnily enough, Steven's nervousness was helping you calm down a bit and not feel as awkward. But something tells you that having this conversation with Jake would've absolutely killed you. ‘Yeah, I also did not expect to immediately run into the artist behind our one and only clue about…Jake, is his name?’

 ‘Y-yes his name is Jake..’ even just saying his name made you feel flustered. Steven noticed your change of demeanour and found it pretty interesting, choosing to interrogate a bit further. ‘Darling- you were saying you know Jake in passing. Would you mind telling us more about the times you saw him? ’

 Were all of this man's personalities into giving you heart-melting nicknames? Maybe someday you’d get to meet Marc well enough to find out… you can’t stop your mind from conjuring up a rom-com-like sequence with them…baking together and going grocery shopping, getting caught making out in your paradise library and going home to keep climbing him like- a hand waving in front of your face interrupts your intriguing daydream. 'Are you okay, love? I know this is a lot to process- if you need a break just tell me, yeah?’

 ‘oh! Yes! I mean no- I am fine. Sure Steven, I'll tell you about Jake.’ You sit up in your chair and begin to tell him about seeing Jake for the first time. He puts his elbows on the table leaning in, not wanting to miss a single detail of your story. 

‘-so yeah then he walked out with this thick leather bound book. It had some Moons carved onto it's cover, that's all I can remember. Then I didn't see him for about a month, until he came back last week to return the book.’ You notice Steven's eyes light up at your mention of the moon-details.

‘he didn't buy the book?’ 

‘he couldn't, the book is a unique scripture and can only be loaned for a maximum of 30 days.’  

‘okay…but something still confuses me. When did you meet him, if he only came back to return the book- and how did he even get the drawing you made of him?’  God, you really didnt wanna talk about this. Maybe you could find a way around actually telling him about what happened, to avoid the embarrassment. ‘Well- he came in and gave back the book. Then he went to look around …and we accidentally bumped into each other. I dropped all my things and he picked up the drawing and kept it without me knowing. We introduced ourselves to each other aand…that's it! Then he left!’ 

‘huh…are you sure that's all that happened?’ He says, his eyes turning darker. you were starting to sweat. You never were a very good liar, especially if attractive people were the ones asking the questions. ‘Mhm! Yeah. That's all’ you haven’t been looking him in the eyes. Jake might have intense and hooded eyes but Steven had impossibly earnest and rounded eyes. You could never lie while looking into such an adorable face. only you hadn’t noticed that the man before you wasn't Steven anymore- ‘hola hermosa. You miss me?’ your head whips back towards him at the familiar nickname. In the short amount of time he had somehow, slid over to your side of the booth. ‘Chiquita…why don't you wanna tell him the truth, ah? You scared he might leave when you tell him about your...stalkerish tendencies? Steven is a smart man, he won't leave such a gorgeous woman behind...’ he winks at you moving closer so your thighs touch.

‘Jake- what is going on. Why aren't you talking to Steven? He’s saying he doesn't know anything about you- fuck me this is all too much’ You say exasperated. You jolt up feeling his breath on your neck. ‘mmh querida i’d love too but I think this cafe might not be the best place for such…improper activities…’ by now he's long moved into your personal space and started caressing you right above your knee, still breathig over your neck. ‘Jake- i-i am being serious I-’ His hand moves up your thigh gingerly and he starts grazing his nose over the spot under your ear. You’ve already forgotten what you were even talking about and why you were even in this coffee-shop to begin with. Your eyes were fluttering and you were breathing deeply trying to stay calm, feeling his hot breath fan over your neck. Once again, trapped between his chest and wooden furniture. He smelled so good, like dark coffee and vanilla, mirroring the bitter sweet smell of Stevens black tea perfectly. If you could buy his smell as a laundry detergent you would douse your linens in it. He circles his arm around your back and waist and lets it rest on your hip. You expose your neck further to him, inviting him in to keep going. You hear him chuckle and wait for him to start kissing your neck. Just as his lips are about to touch you, you feel his hand twitch on your hip, causing your eyes to snap open. You were surprised to see a pair of round and frantic eyes staring right back at yours. 

‘Oh Jesus christ! I am SO sorry, love. I don't know what came over me! P-please I promise. I really can’t contro-’ you cut in before he could continue his panicked rambling. 

‘Steven, it's okay! Don't worry, I-I understand this isn't really something you can control. No need to panic.’ you give him a warm smile which he returns with a blush. Putting your hand on his shoulder trying to reassure him with your gentle touch. His rather dreamy expression gets interrupted by a tense and pensive one. He shakes his head, seemingly shaking off his serious expression. You let go of his shoulder, placing your hand back in your lap.

‘so- just- just based on observations I-I just feel like you might be closer to Jake than you first led us to believe…?’ It wasn't as much a question as it was a statement. You really needed to come clean, even though this would most probably leave you a blubbering, flustered mess.

‘Alright, yes. But it’s not what you think- we never actually did anything intimate…we-we just came a bit close to it like twice or something…’

‘close to what exactly? Darling, i-i don't mean to be rude but we are still talking about things that happened with my body here, so I’d really like to know what happened...?’ You understand why he is getting frustrated but this was really hard to tell someone. Especially because this someone looked exactly like the person who you were just pressed against mere moments ago-

he interrupted your train of thought by calling out your name ‘sweetheart- please. I'm begging you to just tell me what happened’ he takes your hands in his making your arms tingle ‘yes! sorry Steven- this is just a lot to process. Okay i’ll tell you…’ You finally told him about the second “meet-cute”, when you dropped your things because you bumped into Jake after being too focused on his features and had lost sight of him. How he got closer and closer to you and you were trapped between him and the bookshelf. How you, just as before, brushed noses and almost kissed before being forced out of your bubble. After relaying the past events between you and Jake, you looked up from your twiddling fingers and were greeted by a glowing red Steven. He was tugging on the loose skin around his fingernails and had his hands barely peeking out of his too-long sweater, looking right past you. He had a sheen covering his face and couldn’t stop fidgeting. 

‘Steven i am really sorry if i made you feel uncomfortable, if I’d known…I just- I- I don’t think you understand-’ 

Now he refocused his gaze on your eyes and looked even more stunned than before. ‘Sorry to be so forward but- ugh just look at you! How the hell was I not supposed to study you?! You are every artist's dream, with those angular facial features and the inky black curls adorning your head I just can't believe you are this unaware of the effect you have on a room. I know I sound like an absolute cree-’ before you can keep going he cuts you off ‘Would you like to go on a date with me?’

You stopped talking, mouth open without a sound coming out of it. Did he just ask you out?

‘I- if you don’t want too I unde-‘

‘NOno! I mean YES- yes I’d love to go on a date with you, Steven…’ you bit your lip, trying to contain your grin and saw that Steven was doing the same.

You gave him your number and left him alone in the coffee shop. After turning around to wave goodbye one last time you cross the street and walk home. ‘Oh my god’ you giggle to yourself and make your way home.

a/n: I am so happy you guys liked the first chapter of this fic and hope you like this one aswell!! more chapters are comin' with more tension and plot-twists aaand maybe even a certain marc...

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[dragon-queen21]

this is a spur of the moment, no plannings going into this one because im not doing very well but shhh!!!!

(first off, im sorry i didnt say something sooner, ive been seeing your concerning posts lately. are you okay? seriously? i dont know if this is a line im crossing but if you want i could drop my blog if you ever need to vent. im sorry if thats too much i don’t understand things like this sometimes, but i genuinely hope your okay.)

but i wanna speak about lil sanji real bad, because i had a dream i was little and ive been having a lot of ideas about him lately and i need to project. also in honor of the sanji fan zine thats coming out (and that im totally not considering buying for 85 dollars as a early birthday gift) (or late since it ships in march lol)

- um idk i feel like hes a quiet little, especially before the crew found out he was a regressor, he doesnt really wanna talk, he just wants to be around someone. like i can see him pre coming out finishing like lunch or something and coming out and just sitting with nami and robin and theyre like “hello sanji kun do you need anything?” only to be confused when he doesnt start twirling like a love sick school girl.

^ or him going up to zoro PEACEFULLY and just plopping down and zoros fighting DEMONS not to say something brash and ruin the moment because sanjis clearly not in the mood, or if he looked close enough, not in the right headspace to deal with a attitude

-or even post coming out i imagine him just making everyone take a turn in holding him, not like pick up holding just. in the aquarium or something sitting on someones lap holding him close. give my guy some comfort PLEASE

- has one specific stuffed animal he keeps with him all the time. like first thing he asks for when hes tiny, f pacis, f sippys, give him his STUFFIE!!!!!!!!! youll never guess what it is (its a fish)

- i know a lot of people say sanji woukd be scared of the bigger members of the crew, and i so agree with that, but BUT the bigger members of the crew holding sanji like a actual baby? proportionally hes closer to the size of one if their hands

- no thoughts in this guys head, its just straight static. when hes younger, he has to like actually try to force two coherent thoughts together. i dont know he regresses really little a lot of the time, id say he stays closer to babyspace/toddlerspace than anything on the older side (he has so much trauma to work through)

ok im done im really sad so im gonna go to something productive to not. be sad byeebywwbyewww

📷

Thank you. I am just… having a time of it right now. People are… cruel, we’ll just leave it at that. And no your not crossing any line, if anything your words warmed my heart. I’m doing alright. Not the best not the worst just, fine.

I’m sorry you’re going through things as well :< We can suffer and be sad together <3

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~I’ve seen talk about that zine floating around. 85 dollars is a lot but it would be fun to get.

Let me know if you do get it!

~“twirling like a love sick school girl.”

<- okay that made me chuckle. I can imgine there were so many alarm bells going off in their head. And maybe the just think that “oh Sanji’s… quiet”

~Zoro just aggressively chomping down on his sword and training to keep himself from saying something he knows will be stupud and unhelpful. And Sanji just seems so… soft and Zoro is like 95% sure this is some horrible mistake

~Attention starved. He’s just attention starved. Give the baby cuddles

~I’m quite partial towards the head canon of Zoro buying him a stuffed turtle. Sanji looking back and forth between Zoro and the plush before declaring “moss.” With no other explanation. Is that the plushes name? Is he just saying Zoro’s name? Who knows, certainly not Zoro.

~See I’m telling you. Caregiver Franky + babyspace Sanji. Just kdbjdbd best duo. (I just really really love cg Franky)

[nogenderbee]

Hi thereee ! Im a huge fan of your work (ur writing is rlly amazing ehejeidkwiwn) and ive had this ideea for a while so like

Reader and the pjsk guys (maybe tsukasa and rui, separately) are hanging out in reader's sekai (wich doesnt have a song yet) and the boys decide to confess to reader and reader accepts their confession the song from reader's sekai gets born, what would be their reaction?

(Also this is my first time requesting sorry if i didnt do it properly!! •○•)

Awhh thank you so much! And I absolutely love this idea, it's just so so sweet!! You can say I had a little too much fun writing it so... I hope you enjoy it just as much as I enjoyed writing it <3

Tsukasa, Rui are the reason for readers first song

TagList: @alicewinterway18 - come get your future star!

I won't tag you here since you'll get pinged either way heh

After Tsukasa discovered that the both of you have your own SEKAIs, it definitely was his idea that you should start hanging out with each others SEKAIs. It just so happened that you mostly hanged out at your SEKAI since your was usually free and his was often crowded by his troup.

So when you told him you don't have any songs, he decided to help you find the right feelings but of course he still had friendly hangouts with you. Today was one of those days when you just hanged out but he had some more serious plans, and fact that he was stressed was painted all over him, but he kept telling you that he's alright.

When he finally felt like it was the right time to tell you his feelings, he went on one knee and took your hand in his.

"YN, I am very aware that you probably think of my only as your friend but this star cannot hold his feelings any longer! The truth is, I have fallen deeply in love with you so will you give me this honor of being your lover?"

The moment was already so unbelievable for you and for him as well once the word "Yes" left your mouth. He literally stood up and hugged you tightly once he heard this one pretty word.

What both of you didn't knew this is the fact that his confession helped you create your first song. Unlike him, you noticed it the next time you were about to hang out in your SEKAI so of course you showed him. The song described the moment, your feelings, what you saw, how nervous he was, how he felt so perfectly! And the two of you even were singed as artist even though none of you remember singing that but I guess that's just the charm of SEKAI?

When you showed him that song, he was stunned... but in a good way! He simply couldn't believe that confessing his true feelings towards you was all he had to do to help you create your song. He doesn't mind tho, after all he helped you and now got you as his lover at once!

"W-We what?! So... at the end I helped you create your first song? I knew a star like me could do it! How about we get singing that song? It can be pretty fun!"

If there are some cheesy lines in the song then he may stutter a little but he quickly tried to go back to normal since he wants to impress you and a star shouldn't make mistakes like that. But he mostly wants to just impress you.

After Rui discovered the two of you have your own SEKAIs, he definitely was interested in yours so it's not a surprise that you hanged out mostly at there.

When you were hanging out there with him, the two of you usually just wandered around and maybe discovered some new places or things about your SEKAI. So of course he definitely noticed that you don't have any song but decides not to mention it and instead he tries to help you create one.

Today tho he had a plan in mind. He knew that you probably will hate him after it but he simply can't hold it inside him anymore. So when he felt confidence in him, he proceed to tell you what he wanted.

"YN, there's something I need to tell you and it's alright if you won't want to see me afterwards... but I really feel for you and if you let me then I'd love to be someone more than just a friend for you."

He really was ready for you to kick him out of your SEKAI and say no you don't want to ever breath the same air as he but surprisingly you agreed, and he couldn't be any more happier.

Although Rui felt like something happened right there, he thought it's just his imagination so none of you really noticed that song was created. After he left your SEKAI tho, you wandered around it alone for a bit of time and saw a song that wasn't there before, because hey you didn't had any song! And when you checked it out, authors happened to be you and now your boyfriend.

When you showed him that song, he really was shocked that his confession could create a song. But of course he listened to it and remember he'll pay really close attention to lyrics since he knows that songs are made from true feelings. So if there's something cheesy and we know there definitely is then he most likely will tease you about it.

"Awhh~ You really do have strong feeling for me, don't you? And I thought I was the cheesy one in our relationship!"

To be honest, he's a little relieved to know that you really do love him and not playing just some jokes on him.

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[hanzhen0506]

hi,can i request something for dohoon,like reader is a trainee and she bump into him,and he become interested in her

~’There, Do you get it?’~

Hello! Its Zhan! I couldn’t really understand it well so hopefully this is with your standards! Im so sorry if this feels rush too. Thank you for requesting!! <3

”Excuse me!” You shouted through the hallway, avoiding the people in your way as you were being chased by your members for a game at break time. “Hold the door!” You shout at the person in the elevator and he put his hand between it to stop it. Without a moment of hesitation you jump towards the guy as the elevator door closes. Stumbling both of you in the process. “Sorry!” You said getting up and helping the guy up. “I-its okay! A-are you alright?”

“Yea, thanks for holding the door.” You thanked him and took a better look, you gasp realizing who it is and you quickly bowed. “Im so sorry Dohoon-sunbaenim!”

“Oh! Its okay! Really!” He said trying to bow lower.

“No! Im so sorry” You said kneeling and he laughed. “Your so cute, can I ask why were you running?”

“It-its just a game with me and my members, it was finally our break time and we thought of playing a game.” “Ohh I see, when’s does your break time ends?” You check at the time in your phone and you freaked out. “Now! Omg I have to go now! Bye!” You said leaving the elevator and taking the stairs back up. “Wait! I didnt get you name…” Dohoon said right after you left. He regret it because you never told his name or a trainee of what. He sigh, arriving at his floor and leaving the elevator.

“Okay guys! We have a special guest today to teach you enhance your dancing, welcome tws!” Our dance teacher announce, all of your members freak out once they saw Shinyu, Dohoon and Jihoon enter the room. You were no exception, making eye contact with Dohoon as he smiles and waves at you. “Please, introduce yourself.” Shinyu ask as each of your members introduces themselves.

“Hello, my name is y/n and I look forward to your teachings, thank you!” They all clap and ask for your group to dance. We agree to dance to “BFF” tws and they clap again after seeing the performance. “I have somethings I would like to add for y/n, could we be here?” Hed says guiding me to one side of the room.

“So, y/n right? Your dancing is so good!” “Hehe thanks! Do you have any tips to improve it better? I feel like im lacking something.”

“Actually, what you lack is confidence.” He explain the dance move and how to fix it, you listened carefully and imitating his movements. “Can I touch you? I want to fix something.” He asked, readjusting your pose, making you blush at close contact “There, do you get it?” You hum. He continued dancing with you in his arms, following like a puppet. But with a mis step, you fell to the ground accidentally bringing Dohoon with you.

“Sorry!” You apologized again and he shook his head. “Mistakes happens, lets try that again shall we?”

Once practice was done, then tws said their goodbyes, yet before leaving Dohoon slip you a note to your hand that reads “I hope to see you debut very soon! Fighting! Lets meet again sometimes and maybe join me in that little game of yours! -Dohoon” you smile at the letter and put it to your back pocket, continuing to practice what Dohoon taught you earlier.

What you didnt know is that Dohoon was still close by the door admiring you reading the note and dancing from afar and in awe. In hopes to dance with you again someday.

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(Please do not steal my works!)

[insomnicbypasser]

Ho boy what a past two couple weeks am i right guys??? This post will just be me throwing my thoughts at the wall dont expect any sense of consistance im going to be topic hopping probably also just to let you all know this post wont have much if any neg because i honestly font hold those feelings towards purgatory sorry xD however if yall do have neg stuff feel free to have an open discussion in the replies i wanna study yall under a microscope

THOUGHTS BELOW

Alright first of all lets give it up for Bolas guys lets be honest no one not even they themselves thought they were gunna win fr

As a sole Bolas watcher ill have to say these streams have been the most fun ive had watching a stream in a while ive legit fixed my sleeping schedual just to watch these streams lemme tell you

I know that alot of people are unhappy with the ending that we got today but just to remind everyone that i dont think the admins or quackity would do anything TRULY permant without discussion with the cc's

Maxs death was obviously planned days in advance and seeing as the cc's didnt know anything about the eggs conditions or whereabouts i think its safe to assume none of them are actually dead

I trust quackity and qsmp not to do something that would obviously be so unsatisfiying to both the players and the fans, mostly because several months of build up definitely wouldnt lead to that

I think purgatory will be used as a learning experience for qsmp staff as how to make events more enjoyable, and i have no doubt that the week(s) inbetween this purgatory event and the next will be spent working out bugs and making qol changes, we cant expect everything to go perfectly without making mistakes

I think that the ending to purgatory played into the whole theme thats been hammered on over and over again by quackity both in and out of game: this event is made to make you unhappy and uncomfortable. It was tailored to brew conflict and make you unsatisfied, whivh judging by peoples reactions worked very well!

This event is definitely going to make past and future experiences sweeter. Were going to look back on pre purgatory as the good ol days before disaster and look at post purgatory as the catharsis period after a disaster. Puragatory is defintely the growing pains need to bring new life into the server, ots the absence that makes the heart grow fonder.

I have a serious question to ask people down in the replies: how many of you came back to qsmp or started WATCHING qsmp because of the purgatory event. Ill be honest after the first couple months i only tuned into mr charlie slimecicles streams and those were few and far between but after puragtory started i began to feel the insatiable lust for more qsmp so i began to watch recap videos and vods at a horrifiying pace. I started watching other povs because of how well bolas played off of each other and i didnt want to miss a single second of their shenanigans.

This single event has made me more excited for qsmp content then anything in the past couple months. I got a fucking twitter account for christs sake just because i wanted to know wehn people were going live and to see recaps on what the other teams were up too.

I know these past two weeks have been stressful and uncomfortable for some people so i ask yall to take a step back and detoxify so we can come back to this with clearer and fresher prespectives so we can focus on the fun and intruiging aspects of the event

Lets wallow in the angst and let chaos take the wheel with theories and ideas on how everything will pan out from here, i have hope that everything will turn out in the end even if its brought about woth blood sweat and tears :) as long as we all have fun in the end thats all that matters yall

[1-800-c0sm1c]

꒰you get me so high !꒱

your old best friend (whom you very much still have feelings for)  is the last person you were hoping to see when you get into trouble in avidya forest.

character x scholar!gn!reader

includes tighnari !

warnings : none.

word count : 3914

a/n : sorry for being inactive ! i just got back from an mcr concert recently so i wrote the last half of this exhausted, i hope its coherent still ! i am so very normal about this fox boy (lying).

youre not sure whether youre just abnormally clumsy, or dangerously stupid, but tighnaris best guess is a little bit of both. 

you should know better than to walk around the rainforest by yourself, its common knowledge, but you were far too stubborn to listen to anyone elses warnings before you set out on your travels this morning. the most embarrassing part was that you didnt even find the items you needed for your latest research project for the akademiya before you wound up in trouble. 

you had made the rookie mistake of wandering away from the designated path throughout the deep forest, and before you knew it you had tripped and found yourself caught in some vines. no big deal, at least at first. attempting to free yourself, you found the hold around your body had become tighter instead of loosening up, and at that moment, you had realized youd fucked up.

the thorns had begun pricking into the skin of your arms and legs, and you cursed yourself for wearing a short sleeved shirt and shorts. you finally managed to swallow your pride and call for help, praying that you wouldnt draw attention to any hungry animals in the nearby area.

not too far away, a familiar pair of ears perked up at the sound of your distressed voice, making a quick pace over to where you were, quite literally, screaming from. although tighnari knew it was you the second he heard you, he still couldnt help but feel slightly shocked at seeing you in person again. he cant recall how long its been since you were studying side by side at the akademiya.

"alright y/n you can relax. struggling will only make the vines tighter, as youve clearly already figured out, and your screaming really hurts my ears." your eyes widen at the figure standing in front of you. out of everyone who could have stumbled upon you in the forest, tighnari was the last person you were hoping to see.

"oh.. hi tighnari. uhm, fancy meeting you here, huh?" you awkwardly laugh, hoping he doesnt ask you for an explanation before helping you out of your predicament. he raises an eyebrow at you. "any particular reason youre so far off from the designated trail? i thought something so obvious could get through your thick skull, but i guess i was wrong." you cant help but scoff at his comment, he hadnt changed a bit.

"you can lecture me all you want, but can you at least help me out of here first?" he sighs before examining the root of the vines, presumably figuring out how to free you while damaging the least amount of the forest possible. he looks at you for a moment, silently asking if its alright for him to touch you, and when you nod your head you feel his gloved hand firmly wrap around your upper arm. "your muscles are too tense, relax them." he states. you try to let go off all the tension in your body, but when you do you only feel the thorns dig deeper into your skin. you can begin to feel blood drip down your limbs.

tighnari gently unwraps the vines from around your arms, being careful to not rip the thorns from out of your skin. he places them on the ground next to you, before kneeling in front to unwrap the ones around your legs as well. youre not sure why, but something about the position change makes this whole situation just that more flustering, and you try your best to hide your red face from him. of course he notices it, but he simply assumes its just from embarrassment and continues his work.

after all the vines have been unwrapped from your body, tighnari grabs your hand and leads you back towards the path. he mentioned something along the lines of "not trusting you to walk behind him without getting into more trouble" under his breath as you walked back to the ranger station.

you cant stand the awkward air between you two, and casually ask "what were you doing all the way out here, anyway?" without even looking back at you tighnari quickly responds with "its my job as a forest ranger to patrol these areas, is it not?" ah right, you probably could have guessed that. you mentally beat yourself up for that one. but although tighnari seemed uninterested, hell never grow tired of your seemingly stupid questions, despite yourself being a scholar, he finds it amusing. a cute smile is secretly on his face the rest of the journey.

upon arriving, tighnari leads you to his workshop, and instructs you to sit on the lone bed while he fetches the remedies for your wounds. you glance around the room, there isnt much personality in the decor but you suppose theres only so much you can do while in the middle of avidya forest.

not long after tighnari has returned with supplies in hand, and silently begins work on patching you up. you feel small under his stern gaze, and eventually opt to staring at the floor like its the most interesting thing in the room. both of you can sense the tension, but whether its not commented on because of fear or stubbornness is a question that may never be answered, no matter how many knowledge capsules one may use.

you hiss when tighnari applies ointment to some of the deeper cuts, and he fights back the urge to apologize. of course its going to hurt, its stupid to even try to comment on it, he thinks. but he still finds himself muttering a soft "sorry" under his breath as his cheeks grow slightly red. he tries his best to ignore it, the awkwardness is all in his head anyways, after all.

"how humiliating to be made of flesh, am i right?" you notice tighnaris ears slightly twitch at your statement. "what do you mean?" he refuses to meet your gaze, for fear his face will end up warmer. you hesitate before answering, "well, for starters, you finding me like that in the forest was not how i expected us to meet again" you both feel your body slightly tense up again, talking about how you felt was never really a common occurrence between you two even when you were close. feelings only get in the way, its the research that matters at the end of the day. a bit of a stupid rhyme but you and tighnari were even more foolish to believe it.

tighnari debates on if what you said is even worth commenting on. nobody necessarily wants to be found like that, but hes not sure how he feels about it being you of all people that he stumbled upon. he refuses to ponder about it any longer and instead, he silently nods his head, before entirely ignoring what you said and letting out a forced laugh. "you know, that other line you said is probably the smartest thing ive heard from you." you pout slightly at his words.

hes not the easiest person to talk to when its not about botany, you know this, but you cant help but feel that maybe your time apart had finally changed that aspect of tighnari, especially since its what you hated the most about him. 

he was so incredibly observant, his ears definitely helping with that, but yet he had an awful time reading the room, specifically when it came to you. or, more accurately, he chose to ignore any lingering thoughts, for reasons youre unsure youd be able to understand.

tighnari, on the other hand, disliked your stubbornness. he wishes you would at least listen to all his warnings about the forest, since its what he knows most about, but yet you would (and still do, apparently) wave off his words, invalidating not only his knowledge, but him. hes not sure how you havent gotten yourself killed yet, but deep down hes glad youre managing to stay alive somehow, even if its off of spite alone. 

that, and of course he wishes you would just ignore the tense atmosphere like he does, so you can both save your breath. many were surprised you had managed to find a friend in tighnari, as not many were able to say the same. they claim that opposites attract, and that couldnt be more and less true at the same time.

back then you both knew that something had grown between you, and yet you both refused to let it blossom for reasons the other cant comprehend. tighnari pretended the feeling wasnt there, inevitably drowing himself in research instead, and you werent going to be the person to say something first, so instead of something more, you had both ended up silently resenting each other. the longer this continued the more strain was put on your rocky relationship. when tighnari had announced he was leaving the akademiya, you had hit a stalemate. 

you assumed that the first night he was gone youd sleep better than you had in the entire time youd known him, but unfortunately you had found yourself unable to sleep. tighnari was usually there to the rescue when your insomnia was at its worst. but he was long gone now, and that was when you regretted holding in your thoughts before he left.

you swore the next time youd see him, youd either have finally moved past your emotions, or have the guts to tell him the truth. now that you had finally meet again, you wanted to scream at yourself for accomplishing neither.

shortly after, tighnari finished dressing your wounds, and mumbled a "finished" under his breath. he takes a seat on the bed next to you, silently stretching his back and neck. before you even notice what youre doing your hand finds itself stroking the base of one of tighnaris ears. your brain is on autopilot at this point, and you wish you could blame your actions on the medicine. 

tighnari was hyper aware the second you touched him, and he almost pushed you off the bed and yelled at you with how sudden your actions were. almost. he noticed the glazed look in your eyes, and he feels a little guilty for not connecting the dots earlier. youre exhausted, the stress from today seeming to be almost too much for you. so tighnari decides hell let you continue, since its so very obvious that you need it and he absolutely doesnt.

by the time you realize what youre doing tighnari is a flustered mess, a deep blush all across his face and neck. you can see his tail swishing behind him and him holding back any noises he might accidentally make like his life depended on it. you immediately retract your hand and he puts a hand over his mouth to muffle the whine that leaves him after you pull away. hes not sure if hes ever been this embarrassed in his life. 

"s-sorry. force of habit, i guess." you apologize, and tighnari refuses to meet your gaze. "its…. fine. you already know i dont mind if its you." he almost dies on the spot after his own words process in his head. hes immediately sputtering out "because we were close friends and all! and… i dont mind if its…ugh…" he facepalms, this is exactly what he was trying to avoid. you know he didnt mean to, but those words made you feel a pain in your heart nonetheless. were close friends, but not anymore. you knew it was true, but it felt taboo to even mention it.

what were his feelings toward you the entire time tighnari had been helping you? sure, you hadnt ended on good terms but he certainly wouldnt have come to your aid if he hated you, would he? he was all the more hard to read when hed trip over his words like this, tall ears falling flat.

desperate to change the subject, he glanced outside to see the setting sun, and swallowed his pride to ask you to stay for the night. "its late, you know. i think its best you stay here until morning if youre comfortable with that." you were now sure that the plant from earlier had killed you, there was no way he was seriously asking that, was he? you squeak out an "okay", surely the akademiya will understand why your research was a day late.

"i will… leave you to rest now. goodnight." tighnari stands up awkwardly, before beginning to walk out of his workshop. you quickly grab his hand to stop him and he looks back, confused. "why are you in such a rush? we havent caught up in ages, you know. surely im not boring you that much, am i?" he stares at you for a moment, before silently sitting back down next to you on the bed.

he sighs. "you should also know then, that im not the most interesting person to talk to." "oh im more than aware." you snicker when he glares at you. "so what is it then?" tighnaris not dumb, hes known you had something on your mind since the moment you met eyes in the forest. but now that youve been the one to further push the conversation, he doesnt feel as scared about continuing it.

he cant help but roll his eyes when you respond with "oh, i have no idea." he refuses to let you back down. "dont give me that. if you have something to say, you should just say it now and get it over with." you laugh sarcastically at his comment. "thats rich coming from you… but yeah, i suppose youre right. nothing good is going to come from keeping it in." 

you take a deep breath in, and look towards him. "i just want to apologize." okay, now hes confused. "youre sorry? sorry about what?" "im sorry for the way i acted when you left. for just… completely brushing off our entire friendship simply because…. forget it, it doesnt matter." 

out of everything you could have said, an apology was not on tighnaris bingo card. it was scarily uncharacteristic of you to apologize, especially to him. plus, this had happened who knows how long ago, so did it really even still matter? "i dont understand why youre bringing this up now. if youve felt guilty this entire time… than perhaps it is me who should be sorry."

you shake your head. "no, its because of my own dumb ego that i couldnt be honest with you. truthfully, even just admitting to that makes me feel a little sick, but i dont want it to plague my mind anymore, and hopefully it hasnt been bothering you." tighnari almost cant believe what hes hearing. your attitude has changed drastically since when you had first arrived, and your words are giving him whiplash. 

he ponders for a momemt before responding. "well, to be quite honest, i cant say ive thought about it much in recent years." ouch. "but i know its far out of your comfort zone to admit youre wrong, so… even though i dont find it to be a big issue, i accept your apology." silence fills the air, and none of the tension from earlier has dissipated. its thick enough to be cut with the dullest of knives. you feel defeated.

"was there… anything else you wanted to tell me?" yes, but the words die in your throat. tighnari decides to take a leap of faith. "well, im sure youve noticed it too, but… i can sense some… lingering feelings." you sigh. "of course ive noticed. but youre insane if you thought i was going to bring that up." he plans his next words carefully. "is that because it had something to do with… the reason why we ended on bad terms?" he sees your body tense up again, and nows the first time hes realized how intense your heartbeat is.

you turn away from him before answering. "what are you implying?"  "oh, i dont know.. maybe resentment? or perhaps… infatuation?... no, actually. id assume a little bit of both." you whip your head back towards him. "...what makes you say that?" he casually shrugs, despite the blush on his face becoming increasingly noticeable again. "lucky guess? obviously i was just assuming the feeling was mutual. you dont think were that different, do you?" he retorts. you sigh. "no, i suppose not." finally, some progress. the path up to this point was rocky, but this was something you both could work with.

“well, your assumption was… correct.” you mumble under your breath, almost completely forgetting about the fox ears decorating tighnaris head. “hmm… are you sure? you didnt sound too sure of yourself there. perhaps this hypothesis needs further testing before we can draw a conclusion, what do you say?” you roll your eyes at him. “how very amusing it is to use my work against me, it makes me want to puke.” there was an unfamiliar glint in tighnaris eyes. youre not completely sure when it first appeared, and perhaps that was a mistake on your part for giving him the upperhand in the single handedly most important conversation you two have ever had.  however you both had already come so far, so you decided to let him keep up his act. after all, you know hes never been much of a charmer, so why not see how far hell take it? 

“oh? youre feeling sick now? are you sure this isnt just a ploy for me to stay longer? youre  at least clever enough to know you dont have to lie to me to get me to pay attention to you.” however, who said tighnari was going to have all the fun? “now we both know thats not true. after all youre the one who agreed to stay to begin with, so why would i pull a stunt to further it? you clearly have no intention of leaving now.”

the atmosphere was slowly starting to become more bearable, even if only by a little bit. youre 99% sure that its the homemade medications alone that are fueling the fire in you right now, that and the cute fox boy in front of you and… hold up what are you even saying? this however, is completely unlike tighnari, to be so forward, and you can only assume its because hes finally let his guard down enough for the first time since he stumbled across you this morning. its dangerous, the way youre making him feel right now. it all feels too sudden and not quick enough at the same time. was he growing impatient? or falling farther and farther behind?

he was a fool to ever be honest with you, is what he would have said only hours ago. but now, for the first time in forever, tighnari doesnt know what to think. hes saying and acting in a way he never would, especially in front of a friend- if he was even still allowed to call you that. but the best part about no longer being friends is there is no worry of ruining the relationship if it didnt exist to begin with. that was how he justified himself, nothing to lose and everything to gain, it was all going almost too perfect. his body was on fire, and if he werent inside he would have assumed he was (somehow) overheating.

“you are right about one thing.” tighnari starts, hes staring directly at you, his intense gaze leaving you feeling unfairly flustered. “that im not going anywhere this time.” you raise an eyebrow. “this time? are you suggesting that… you dont want to go back to being strangers?” he almost wants to laugh at your question, but one look at the scared look on your face and he drops any hints of a smirk immediately. “oh come on y/n, does this erase your doubts?” before you even realize whats happening, tighnaris hand is gently holding your face, caressing your cheek. he glances at your lips, then back towards your eyes. before he gets the chance to ask first, you quickly stutter out, “c-could you kiss me?”  tighnari leans in closer, until your lips are directly on his. as soon as its begun, its over, and he is yet again staring drunkenly into your eyes that you notice have been glossed over for the majority of the time hes been sitting closely next to you.

“are you positive youre really tighnari and im not just asleep right now? because this is exactly how i had pictured this going in a dream, not just your casual weekday… or weeknight, i guess i should say.” he shakes his head with a sly smile on his face. “if it were a dream i bet wed both be way less nervous.” “good point. but do you have to keep staring at me like that?” you hide your flustered face in your hands. “like what?” tighnari asks, back to his completely unaware self. “like… like youre in love or something!” he lets out a laugh that was unreasonably cute. “confidence. dare i say its even more valuable to me right now than a knowledge capsule is to… well you. it just took something to finally ignite it i suppose.” “well im glad thats all it was, for a second there i was thinking you were secretly taking shots while i wasnt looking.” you laugh. “that could have worked too, ill have collei remind me to pick up some alcohol the next time i head into sumeru city.” “make sure you stop by the akademiya to share a glass with me if you do!”  “oooh, drinking on the jobs not a very good look for a scholar now, dont you think?” you playfully slap his shoulder. “thats not what i meant! just come by during a break!” 

the silence that fell over you two was different this time, it was comfortable. you found yourself resting your head on tighnaris shoulder. hes the first to break the silence. “so i guess this means we can start talking again?” “more than just that. dont you think we owe it to ourselves at this point? think about it, this whole time we were both living with this regret and just… chose not to acknowledge it! im no doctor, but i dont think thats good for our health.” he chuckles. “well i cant argue with that. although i will mention i didnt hear an actual confession of undying love from you yet.” “oh, is that what you were expecting? good luck with that. lets just be glad we got this far.” he pouts at your words. “you mean i went through all of this and i cant even get an “i like you, tighnari”?” 

you sigh extra dramatically, and lift your head off his shoulder. holding his face in between both your hands, staring at him the same way he did to you earlier. “i like you, tighnari. a lot, way more than younger me would ever admit to. and im thankful for whatever force of nature that brought us together again.” you place a gentle kiss to his nose, and he stops you from pulling away to kiss you properly.

tighnaris been unsure about many things today, but one thing for certain is you get him higher than any psychedelic mushroom he could stumble upon in avidya forest.

inspired by you get me so high by the neighbourhood , give it a listen if you havent before !

[yandere--stuck]

Bad Blood - Yandere!Batman x Reader x Yandere!Joker

It wasn't just The Joker who had been watching you. And to a point, you were aware of that.

After all, that just came with the territory of being a minor celebrity within Gotham city. It wasn't often that those considered "famous" in Gotham didn't either have connections to the mafia or were locked up within Arkham or Blackgate. 

As a reporter, you were watched on the news, on the streets - occasionally approached by fans, at parties where you mingled with your peers or made connections. All rather normal, really.

But, there were times when you could just feel it in your bones. You were being watched.

Like in the dark of night, the moon following you on your walk home. Alone. When the light from street lamps bathed everything in orange. The streets empty, the occasional car zooming by. It was then that you had felt watched.

It was understandable, something innate in humans, to feel frightened of the dark and the paranoia of being alone. Our imaginations run wild, and we trick ourselves into thinking that there's something out there with us. Someone following our every move, hiding just out of sight. But, no matter how many times you swore you were being watched, nothing ever happened. No muggings, no stalkers, no threats. When you got back to your apartment, unlocking and then re-locking all six of the locks on your door, you were able to let out a sigh of relief - it was just your own paranoia getting the best of you. You weren't being followed. You could relax, knowing that it was all in your head.

But, it wasn't.

Your paranoia wasn't unfounded. The shiver of your spine at the feeling of being watched wasn't your mind tricking itself. But, of course, even when you'd turn around to try and spot someone, something, you hadn't been able to see him. He had hid in the shadows and crouched atop rooftops, keeping watch over you.

He had done so every night. The moment you left the studio, to when you started your walk, and then headed home. He even stuck around to peer through your window, making sure you were truly safe. It wasn't something any of the Robins or Oracle knew about - it wasn't something they had to know. Well… It's not like he exactly lied about what he was doing during the alotted time of your walk home. But, he also didnt want to admit it, either - not that he thought what he was doing was wrong, but… He just didn't want anyone to be worried. To get the wrong idea. And it rarely took time out of his nightly patrol, just fifteen minutes. It wasn't a big deal.

He was just protecting you. That was just his job. He was supposed to protect the people of Gotham. To protect you. He just had a… Fixation, that's all. And when Bruce gets fixated on something, it's like pulling teeth for him to keep away.

Bruce met you like he does with most reporters - at a charity event. He had seen your stories on the news a few times beforehand, and braced himself for the usual song and dance - Vicki Vale trying to score something on the record for something much juicier and personal than the cause he was donating to, or perhaps Jack Ryder trying to rile him up to get him to throw a fit for a story. He was pleasantly surprised, however, when you treated him like an actual person. Sure, it could be that you were off the clock - but really, when were reporters ever really off the clock?

Most people would bend over backwards to get themselves into Brice Wayne's good graces. But, you… You talked to him like he was no different than anyone else. Maybe a bit reserved, but you had only just met, after all. In spite of this, Bruce found himself able to relax, chatting with you about the party, about your days up to then, your different careers. Bruce felt like he could actually be himself. With you, he wasn't Batman, nor was he billionaire playboy Bruce Wayne. He was just… Himself.

Him and you.

He decides to stick by your side most of the evening, you and him talking long into the night. About your lives, your worries, your hobbies, your interests. It had been so long since he talked about such personal things with someone, even Alfred. And you understand. You understand his worries of responsibility, the weight of the world among his shoulders, you understand the suffocation of isolation, you under his inability to move on from the trauma of his past, try as he might. You understand. Of course you do…

You acted as someone to vent to. A listening ear. You offered up advice, even if you might not have the right answers to his problem. Sure, you might not know the full extent of his stress, but it's the thought that counts. It's almost like this night was made for you and him. 

Something like, fate - that is, if Bruce had actually believed in something like that.

After that night, he found himself making a point to watch you on the news. The way you talked on the television is how you talked with him that night. Personable, comfortable, familiar. You might not be talking to him directly, but it warms his heart and staves off the icy chill of loneliness.

He went out of his way to find you during other important, publicized events. Most likely, you probably thought it was a coincidence that you kept finding yourself in his company. You most likely thought him as just an acquaintance, nothing more… But, oh, you meant so much to him.

And, oh, when you talked about Batman? Knowing that it was him you were talking about (even if you had no idea)... He'd be lying if it didn't make him a bit flustered. Your praises, the way you saw him as an inspiration, hoping after every mission that he was alright… And when you look into the camera and say to him, to Batman, through the screen, that you wish him a nice night and to be safe…?

God. He was smitten. And, really, that was his biggest mistake.

Feelings just made things complicated. He had learned that a long time ago. That everything he touched and loved was inevitably destroyed. It's why he works alone more often than not. He doesn't want someone getting hurt because of him ever again. Bruce has enemies, and Batman has even more. 

Even if he had tried to reach out to you as Bruce, as himself, who's to say you would have wanted to be with him? Why would someone like you want Bruce Wayne - someone who most of Gotham portrayed as an immature playboy who never got over the death of his parents. While the second part wasn't exactly wrong, the whole playboy thing was just a diversion. But, how in the hell was he supposed to explain that?

It was easier to just let you go. You'd be happier, and more importantly, safer without his presence in your life.

So, he satiated himself on watching you, protecting you from the shadows, and kept himself sane by rewatching footage of you he's stashed within your home and around your apartment building. If he adored you from afar, that wouldn't hurt anything, right?

… But now, he's wishing he had just taken the chance. He had been good, had left you alone.

And he watched as the helicopter you were in was shot down. Watched as the recording cut off. Heard as you screamed at the top of your lungs. He replayed what he had seen over and over in his mind, losing himself. Bruce had gone so tense in disbelief and grief and rage that by the time Alfred had brought him back to reality, his nails had dug into the armrest of his loveseat.

He had insisted to himself later that night that  investigating the scene of the crime wasn't fueled by personal connection or any feelings he may have. It was Batman's job. And if he ignores all the other bodies in favor of one that is presumed to be yours, it's just because he notices something different about it from the other's, that's all.

The body was decomposed far beyond that of the others, and had been exposed to the elements longer than the others. And to add onto that, the DNA sample Bruce had collected was matched with a body that had been gone missing from Gotham General.

Bruce's heart fluttered with hope and relief. You were alive, you had to be. But, just as quickly, realization crashed into him. If you were alive, it's only because Joker wanted you to be.

... What was he doing to you?

---

You stared down at the meal the Clown Prince of Crime had prepared for you - well, if you could call heating up a frozen dinner "preparing". It's not like you were exactly in a place to complain, though, considering the predicament you were stuck in.

Counting the time you had spent unconscious and Joker getting you situated and up to speed, it was most likely a few hours since the incident. You were feeling rather hungry… But, in spite of all of The Joker's lovey-dovey talk, you weren't quite sure if you could trust him to not serve you poisoned food. Even worse, however, was that you were still tied up - meaning the clown had to feed you, and you were even more unsure that he wouldn't kill you if you refused to eat.

In spite of the circumstances, and the dingy place you were trapped in, it wasn't exactly the worst. Hell, Joker had even lit up some candles for some mood lighting. Not exactly the worst "date", you had been on, sadly enough.

"Ready for some grub?" The Joker lurched into view, straightening his tie as he shot you a grin. "You must have worked up quite an appetite by now, considering all the excitement!"

You smiled in return, hoping it didn't look too strained as you nodded. You watched as he got his utensils ready, cutting up some of the food into smaller bites. You kept especially close attention on the hand holding a knife - though, it wasn't like you had any way to flee if he had decided to turn it on you.

The Joker stabbed at the food with a fork, setting down the knife, as he moved to raise your meal to your lips, while you attempted not to turn your head away. The fork approached closer and closer, and you tried to rid your mind of awful thoughts, like an eye being ripped out of its socket, implanted on the fork's tongues. But, then, The Joker suddenly stopped.

"Oh, silly me! I almost forgot," The Clown Prince set down the utensils, digging into the inside of his suit. With a flourish, he unveiled a bright, colorful, and clearly plastic flower, holding it out to you. "A present for you, m'dear! Go on, take a whiff."

You shook in your seat. Oh, God. You knew exactly where this was going. He had played you this whole time, like predators played with their food. He had made you think he had developed this obsession with you and managed to lull you into a false sense of security. And just when you were sure you were going to make it out of this situation alive, he planned to hit you with his trademark laughing gas and watch as you died.

You held back tears, shivering with fear and despair. And The Joker looked so happy, so encouraging. You were going to die. You had hit the end of the road.

You leaned forward, taking a breath through your nose-

And jumped, letting out a scream as the ceiling caved in, a dark figure crashing through. You whipped your head to face it- and winced as a small stream of water hit your cheek. Blinking once, twice, three times, you slowly turned to the clown and the trick flower in his hand.

Oh. So, it was just a regular trick flower. Not a deadly one. Okay. Okay, yeah. Sure. Great.

Groaning softly, your whole body went limp. You hung your head, shaking it slowly. Whatever. Whatever happened next, you didn't care. You were too exhausted.

"Aw, c'mon, Bats! Don'tcha know it's rude to upstage someone's act?" Joker asked. "Besides, you weren't invited to our little date night..."

...Batman?

From your periphery, you could see it. See him. 

Oh, thank God. Thank fucking God. You were saved! Batman was going to save you!

All the tiredness seemed to instantly fade as you were overwhelmed with adrenaline and relief. You were saved. You were saved. Batman was going to save you. Batman was going to protect you and make sure you were all right. You didn't have to worry or be scared anymore. Batman would do all of the worrying for you.

"You broke out of Arkham, killed innocent people, and kidnapped the sole survivor after almost killing them, as well," Batman seethed, his voice a growl. "You're going back to Arkham, and I'll be taking them with me, where they'll be safe."

"Hey! First off, the whole helicopter thing wasn't me, it was one of my boys. Well… To be fair, I had intended on killing them when we downed the thing, but eh, two birds with one stone, I suppose. I wouldn't even have been mad about it, if my darling reporter here hadn't almost been hurt in the crash," The Joker moved behind you, making you seize up as he grasped your shoulders, massaging them slightly. "And really, Bats, if this is some kind of jealousy thing, you could always just ask to share."

"You're insane." Batman spat.

"Babes, you really need to get some better material," The Clown tutted. "And I was being honest! I'm actually trying to communicate here," You were suddenly spun around, locking eyes with your hero. You shuddered as the Joker nuzzled you from behind, unable to stop your face from heating up. "What do you think, darling? How's about a three-way date with me and the big bad Bat?"

"I… I-I-" You stuttered, unable to get a coherent thought put as you burned with embarrassment.

Could anyone blame you for having a little  crush on Batman? You'd bet a good majority of Gothamites felt the same toward their dear Dark Knight. Hell, you'd even bet that some of the Rogues that the Caped Crusader went up against had feelings for him. It was pretty obvious the Joker did, at least.

And the Joker… He was a monster. A criminal. But, the time you've spent with him… Well, you could better understand how Dr. Quinnzel fell for the man. Despite your knowledge of the horrible crimes he committed, the way he treated you so kindly, it was hard to not get flustered, to not feel special. It was hard to ignore his humor, his affection for you, his pet names, his sweet gestures- no, no. This- this was ridiculous. You had to stop. You weren't thinking straight.

"Get your hands off of them!" The Bat spat.

"But I don't wanna!" Joker let out an exaggerated whine, before descending into giggles. Painted lips brushed against your neck. "Besides, I don't think they want me to…"

You felt hypersensitive, the brush of the Clown's lips drawing a whine from your throat.

Your eyes shot open wide as a pained scream ripped from Joker. You turned as best you could, watching the man stumble back, clutching his hand - a batarang sticking piercing through it, blood bubbling up from the wound and dripping to the floor.

The Joker hissed, bristling with rage. "Bats, why you-!"

In an instant, Batman shot put his batclaw, the claw digging into The Joker's suit, before retracting. The Joker stumbled as he rocketed forward, his face immediately colliding with Batman's fist. Before he could fall back, the Dark Knight caught him by the throat and squeezed. The Clown wheeled and coughed in shock at the closing of his windpipe and his desperation to breathe. The Bat slowly lifted another fist - and hit the other man so hard that even you winced. You watched as Joker fell onto his back with a low groan. The Batman stood above him, glowering and breathing heavily as he looked down on his nemesis.

"Batsy, babe… Ya know I love it when you play rough, but Jesus, warn a guy first, will ya?" The Joker laughed wearily, seemingly in a daze. 

Sneering, Batman grabbed his nemesis by his coat, tossing him aside onto his stomach. His foot came down to stomp onto his arm, making the other man whimper, and the Bat reached down to rip the batarang free from his hand, and in turn, ripping a scream from Joker's throat. Pulling out a pair of batcuffs, the Caped Crusader roughly restrained the man's arms, before lifting him to his feet.

"Careful with the merchandise…" The Joker grumbled.

With a second pair of cuffs, the Bat attached one of the cuffs to the Joker's ankle, the Clown laughing as he attempted to kick at the Bat to heed his progress, and then the other to a metal support pillar protruding from the floor.

And then, in the next instant, Batman was at your side, diligently working to free you from the shackles that bound you. As the restraints loosened, you took in a deep breath before letting out a shuddering sigh. You tried to stand, only for your legs to give out from under you - you had spent so long in that position that your legs had fallen asleep - but it was okay. Batman caught you. He caught you and he held you and pulled you into a hug. A gloved hand petted your hair soothingly.

"It's okay. You're safe, you're okay," The Bat rumbled. "I've got you."

This. This was what you loved most about The Batman. As much as he was revered for the fear he struck into the heart of evil, how he acted as a phantom in the night, fighting back against the criminals that roamed Gotham in the night… What you loved most was what came after. Your interviews with survivors of criminal attacks are what made you grow a fondness for the Dark Knight. How comforting they said he was. How he reassured them, made them feel safe. When he was there, they knew everything was okay. They knew they were safe. That everything was going to be okay.

Everything was going to be okay.

And you melted into his hold.

He continued to murmur reassurances as he began to massage your legs until the static feeling went away and you found the strength to stand - and even then, he let you lean against him as you walked out into the night together.

"You'll pay for this, Bats," The Joker spat, expression dark… Until he locked eyes with you, and his visage softened. "How about same time next week, love?"

Before you could think of responding, Batman pulled out of the building and far, far away from the madman within.

---

Bruce had to fight to keep his driving steady. His body was flooded with adrenaline and his heart rabitted a mile a minute. His entire being felt electric.

He had touched you, held you. And you held him back, reassured and calmed by him. It was everything he had dreamed of. You had leaned against for support and let him help you climb into the batmobile.

He had managed to track The Joker down to one of his usual hideouts that he and Harley stayed at - an old, abandoned amusement park that had been sold to him. Well, would have been sold to him, if he hadn't killed the owner of the property before they could seal the deal.

He kept sneaking glances at you from the corner of his eye. You, resting your head against the window, eyes shut as you tried to get some rest after everything you had been through. You could rest for as long as you liked. He was here now. Bruce would keep you safe.

Bruce took his usual shortcut into the batcave, driving into a cave opening just outside the manor, and you lifted your head, startled by the sudden turn and shift in light behind your eyes.

"Batman, where are we?"

Home.

You gasped as restraints wrapped over your ligaments, tying you down to the seat.

Bruce knew this was wrong. But, after such a long career as the Batman, he had learned that he often had to do the wrong thing in order to get the right outcome. He really wished there was any other way… But, you had a target on your head now. You'd be safe with him. He'd keep you deep within the batcave and visit you often. 

You sputtered, eyes wide with shock and disbelief and… Betrayal. Bruce hated the thought of you looking at him like that. He leaned over, softly pressing a kiss to your forehead. He felt you shiver under his touch.

He'd get you settled and comfortable. He'd reveal his true self to you at some point, but that was for later. You had been through enough for one night.

"You're safe now." Bruce lied promised. "I've got you."

[chaosandsuns]

I’d LOVE prompt number 34 with Jonathan as a hopeless single dad and reader as Ava’s babysitter YOUR WRITING GIVES ME LIFE ILY <3

"how have you survived this long by yourself?"

Johnathan and Ava's babysitter

Johnathan Levy x Reader, no gender mentions apart from being called mommy once (not by Johnathan 😢)

Fluffy! Soft, first kiss into heated makeout sesh, kidfic (kinda)

34: "how have you survived this long by yourself?"

A.n.- not beta'd! Any mistakes are very much mine.

Johnathan walked through the door, hearing your singing drifting lazily towards the entry way from the living room, a disney song, probably one of the movies ava keeps asking to watch on repeat.

Walking into the hall, he watched you both sitting on the floor, with Ava between your legs and you brushing her hair, surrounded by dolls and plushies thrown about, still singing the same song...

"Make the clock reverse, bring back what once was mine" you sing out, humming along to the nonexistant melody, Ava humming with you slightly out of tune as you start braiding her hair.

He jumps at the sudden squeak of the toy he stepped on, unaware he was growing closer to the both of you, lured by the enchanting singing.

You and Ava both look up suddenly, startled by the sudden interruption and you watch Johnathan's face flush as he sheepishly smiles, looking like a kid caught with their hand in the cookie jar.

"Oh hey, Mr. Levi! You are kinda early today, everything alright?"

"Hi! Yeah! And none of that Mr. Levi stuff, youve been babysitting Ava for 2 years now! We are way past that point" he says with a smile.

You finish braiding ava's hair quickly while she struggles to get up and run to her dad.

"DADDY!! I missed you!" She yells and hugs him as he picks her up and twirls her around, both of them laughing.

"Hey kiddo, I missed you loads aswell! How was your day? Were you being good?" He asks as he sat her down, bending down to be on eye level with her, smiling widely.

"Yes, daddy, OFCOURSE I was behaving! Im not 6 anymore!" Ava says, rolling her eyes in exasperation. So much sass in such a little body, who knew 7 year olds were this brutal! "We went to the park and played for HOURS and then we went to get ICE CREAM!!! And we got TWO SCOOPS EACH! It was so awesome!!" Ava smiled, laughing when Johnathan tickled her with a mischievous smile.

"Then we came home and watched tangled 3 times!! And then we played a bit and ate dinner and I took a bath with bubbles and then she braided my hair while singing rapunzel's song!!!" She kept gushing with excitment.

Johnathan looked up at you who stood there with crossed arms, just watching the interaction with a fond smile. "Wow, that does sound like a very fun day!" Johnathan said, still looking at you, smiling softly.

"Alright, Ava, bedtime!" You tell her, making her pout. "But daddy just came home!!"

"Its okay bean, Ill put you to bed and you can tell me all the details about what you did today, okay?" He said, hoping to get Ava to comply. "Alright daddy, lets go!" She said, taking his hand and dragging him to the bedroom.

"Dont leave yet?" Johnathan says, looking over his shoulder at you. You smile and nod "I wont, dont worry".

You start tidying up the living room and picking up all the dolls, plushies and toys strewn about when you hear laughter from the bedroom, both of them laughing about one thing or another loudly, the melodic aound making you smile softly.

A few minutes go by and you start hearing soft singing, a lullaby you didnt recognize, Johnathan's singing. Smiling, you slowly creep next to the door, listening to the soft melody.

You jolt aware when the melody stops, realising youve stood there for a few minutes, emberassed you go and sit on the couch to wait.

Johnathan comes out of the room, "she's asleep", he whispers, creeping closer to you.

"Would you like something to drink? Coffee or something stronger?" He asks once he's far enough from the bedroom door to not interrupt Ava.

"Just coffee, thanks, I still need to drive home" you say, looking at the clock. 8PM, not as late as you expected! Might be able to relax and watch a few episodes from a show before needing to go to sleep.

"There you go", he comes back with the two coffee cups and sits to the left of you on the couch, turning slightly to face you.

Taking a sip, you hum pleasantly, "You remembered how I take my coffee?"

"Of-course I did!" He smiles a small warm smile, looking down at his cup in... Embarassement?

"Well, this is perfect. Thank you, thats very kind of you", you say, hoping to make him feel less flustured about the whole ordeal, smiling warmly up at him, as he beams back at your comment, seemingly relieved.

"So, Ava couldnt stop talking about how much youve done today with her! Park and ice-cream with TWO SCOOPS? You are spoiling her lately."

"No, not spoiling, just taking her out for a fun girls day, you know? She deserves them once in a while, she is doing great at school so far and she's just really a great kid" you say, staring off and smiling softly as you reminisce over the memories of the day. She looked so happy and her eyes practically had stars bursting out of them at the mention of two scoops of ice-cream after the fun time at the park, and she nearly cried from happiness when she realised you knew all the words to the tangled songs.

"You know, I never had time to do that with her. After the divorce it was always just working and writing and trying to keep a head afloat, which was easier when I was just writing papers since I could do it from home but now that im teaching classes again... Im just really happy she atleast has you" he says, casting his eyes down, sheepish at seemingly not providing enough to his daughter. "It was just such a mess at work today and then I finally managed to get everything together and they had me fill in for a different professor so I couldnt go pick her up from school- what Im trying to say is that we are both grateful for you." He says, looking softly at you.

You laugh, trying to brush off the blush raising in your cheeks at his intense gaze. "how have you survived this long by yourself?" You say, jokingly, as he leans into your space more and more, gaze slowly turning into.. something more?? Does he know?

Yeah you have had a crush on Johnathan Levy since you saw the man. Anyone who doesnt is crazy, in your opinion. He wasnt only a walking adonis, carved by god himself like a marble statue, but still soft and round around the edges, not sharp enough to cut, but he was also intelligent, charming and kind. And seeing him with Ava was the last nail in the coffin.

He looks at the kid like she is his whole world, the same way he looking at your right now, with his ruffled hair and his shirt slightly open to reveal that gorgeous neck that you would very much want to taste- and you are ogling the man as he is smirking at you, seemingly aware of his affect on you. Oh no, did he say something and you didnt notice?

"What?" You ask, face heated and surely by now you look like a tomato.

"I said", he leans in, smiling smugly, holding your face in his palm, slowly entering your personal space as your eyes widen 'oh my god this is happening oh god oh god', he stops just a hair's breath away from face. "That I didnt", he whispers, the air hitting your face softly as your eyes flicker back and forth from his lips to his eyes as he does the same. "Oh fuck it" you say and grab his face, kissing him hard and its everything youve ever dreamt about. His lips are as soft and his beard even softer then you ever taught possible. His sharp inhale makes your stomach twist as he grabs the back of your head and tilts it just so and you are sure you've died and went to heaven because a kiss shouldnt feel that good and- oh god thats a tongue oh fuck that man is sure to kill you if you werent dead already.

Opening your mouth slightly, his tongue twisted into your mouth and you have no idea what he just did but that sent shivers down your back and a soft moan escapes your lips. He slid one hand down to your lower back, the other still on your nape, playing with the hairs there as he turns even more on the sofa and slides a hand under your shirt, your own hands frantic, sliding in his hair and tugging softly, earning a deep groan, the other untucking his shirt from his pants and touching the expanse of skin uncovered there that you want to taste for so long and-

"Daddy?"

You both jump apart like you were burnt, Johnathan's glasses askew on his face, hair mussed and you surely look as wrecked if not more.

He keeps his face close to yours, smiling sheepishly, "Hey Kiddo, You okay?" He breaths out, chuckling softly like a teenager caught making out with their girlfriend by his mom bursting into the room.

He looks at your eyes before leaning left, looking at Ava, still not taking his hands off your body. "Whats up, bean? Had a nightmare?" He asks, smiling softly at her as you sit there mortified at what just happened.

You just kissed Johnathan Levy. The Hot Dad™ that you kept telling your friends about. And then the kid who you babysit walked in on you, probably because you were too loud.

That was too much to process and you stared off, looking down at your hands as you sit there and then notice the very obvious bulge in Johnathan's pants and Oh god you just made out with him and he liked it. A lot, from what it looks like.

"Yeah. I dreamt someone came to the house to hurt you" Ava said, sniffling, shocking you out of the deep dark and filthy place of your brain and into soft babysitter mode as you turned around to face her and stood up, walking over and hugging her tightly.

"Its okay, Avey, Its fine. Im here and I wont let anyone hurt your dad. I promise." You say softly, turning and smiling at Johnathan that looked very much shocked at your promise, eyes creased and oh no you made him and his daughter cry, this isnt going as planned!! Abort! Abort!

Johnathan seemingly breaks from his shock at the panic dawning on your face, smiling reassuredly.

You turn back to Ava, picking her up. "How about we go back to bed, and Ill stay with you until you fall asleep again, yeah?" You say, walking with her towards her room, not risking a look back again.

Ava nods against your shoulder, hugging her bunny tightly against you, still sniffling a bit.

You put Ava down on the bed, pushing hairs out of her face and covering her with her blanket again, tucking her in.

"You wanna tell me about the nightmare? Or do you want to talk about something else?" You ask, hoping to be of emotional support to her.

"I dont want to talk about the nightmare, its still scary, but were you and daddy kissing?" She asked without any shame as your face turned completely red.

"I- yeah. We were. Is that okay?" You ask, waiting with baited breath for her answer.

"Yes, thats okay. Does that mean you are going to be my new mommy? Are you gonna marry daddy? I think he will like it very much, he doesnt stop asking about you and he talks about you all the time" she says, then whispered conspiratorially "I think he likes you".

Your face burnt bright red at the thought of having Johnathan as your husband, knowing you will very much like that.

"I will need to ask your dad about that. For now thats a no on being your new mommy but I promise I will let you know if it changes, okay?" You smile and kiss her forehead.

"Okay, I trust you." Ava says sleepily, already half asleep.

You wait until you are sure that Ava is completely asleep before tip-toeing outside the room, and finding Johnathan standing in the middle of the living room, pacing back and forth, wringing his hands.

"Hey" you say softly, and he startles before seeing its you and relaxing a bit more.

"Hey!" He says, a bit loudly, looking very anxious. "So I uh, Im sorry I sort of jumped you I just really like you and I was wondering if you wanted to go out with me sometime but if not thats okay and if you have to stop babysitting Ava because now things are awkward thats okay too and I-" is all he manages to say before you walk up to him and shut him up with a kiss.

He relaxes into the kiss, nearly turning to putty in your hands when you step back and say "I would love to go on a date with you, Mr. Levi."

"You know, you really should stop calling me that, we have just made out on the couch a few minutes ago", he chuckles softly.

"Ava just asked me if I was going to be her new mommy" you say, putting your hands around his neck as he puts his hands around your lower back.

"Yeah? And what did you tell her?" He says lowly, leaning close to your face.

"That I dont think we are quite there yet, but the direction sure looks hopeful" you smile, Johanathan smiling back and pulling you in for another heavenly kiss.

"She also said you talk about me alot" you chuckle.

"Well, about that-"

[angsthology]

hi! can i please request angst with gyeongsu where instead of him turning its the reader? tysm is advance!

AH NO, THANK *YOU* i have actually been meaning to do something like this (again) but i keep forgetting abt it ha. anyway i hope this lives up to your expectations, thank u ily (u probably wont love me back after this, its ok) <3

Do it for me and for you | Han Gyeong-su

warnings; aouad canon typical violence, lee na-yeon (yes she is a warning), denial, angst, really bad really rushed (eh, kinda) writing. tell me if i miss anything. — 1.8k words

pairings/characters (in order of appearance); best friend!lee su-hyeok & gn!reader, lee cheong-san, park sun-hwa, lee na-yeon, gn!reader/han gyeong-su.

disclaimer; please keep in mind that english nor korean is my first language so I do apologize if there are any mistakes and/or such, feel free to correct me if im wrong.

a/n; i went through not one but THREE drafts before deciding which one was the one im feeling... (and i still hate it) im so burnt out you guys this is word spew. im also bad at titles ... if u havent noticed (changed the last one bc didnt rlly fit)

“Push it! Just push it away!”

You watched as Su-hyeok struggles to keep the zombie away and push it off as it kept dangling and holding on like it had the will to live (it did but, well, y’know).

You debated on what you were about to do, but what else can you do, no one else was going to have the initiative to help.

Exhaling a breath and bracing yourself, you exclaimed, “Out of the way!” Thankfully, said boy noticed you on time to move his body away from the window, giving you the perfect aim. The bottom of your sneakers collided with the undead’s chest, giving enough force and letting it fall off the rope (hose?) and onto the ground.

Unfortunately for you, that much force has led you too far out the window. Somewhat losing control, your right leg kept moving forward and dangling itself out the window, some shards of glass from the broken window cutting your thigh. You yelped in surprise as you almost followed the zombie to the ground. Now with half of your body out you panicked even more with the pain on your upper thigh, “A little help here, for fuck’s sake!” your panicked complaints seemed to bring your friends back to reality.

Thankfully, Su-hyeok – being the closest one to the window – caught your other leg that was still inside, holding onto your sneaker with strength. You let yourself breathe for a short while before feeling your shoe slipping off (which made not only you but everyone else panic).

“Bare-su!” you scolded.

“Sorry!” he frantically apologized, grabbing a hold of your leg properly as you kept dangling by Su-hyeok’s grip and that only (not that you didn’t trust him, you did, but he was bound to get tired soon). Then the boy looked back at the others who just stood there stunned, “Stop standing there! Help me!”

That seemed to bring the rest back to reality (again, sigh) and running up next to Su-hyeok and grabbed onto your leg and slowly pulling you back in while some of the others removed the shards of glass away so you could get back in safely. When your body was finally within arm-length, Cheong-san grabbed your arm as he helped you in while the others tell you to be careful and watch out for glass.

Finally, you landed back safely inside, letting yourself breathe.

“You alright?” you heard someone ask (you couldn’t bother to see who it was).

“Yeah, sure, why not.” You answered breathlessly.

Your mind was far too occupied by the pumping adrenaline in your body to notice any injuries but luckily your friend paid attention enough, “Ah– you’re bleeding!” warned Gyeong-su.

You looked up in exhaustion, “Huh?” the boy pointed at your thigh, the fabric of your uniform split and blood seeping through it, making the already dark green color even darker. “Oh.” Was all you could say before you feel yourself blacking out.

Almost.

You felt hard slap on your face before you could fall into the unconsciousness.

“Su-hyeok!” scolded Ms. Park.

He only stared back at the teacher, “They were about to pass out!” he reasoned poorly.

“That didn’t mean you could hit them!”

The group was about to argue further when you groaned, “Bare-su-ah, I’ll kill you.”

His eyes snapped to you, “Ah, neo ttong-gae, your ass would’ve been splattered on the ground if it weren’t for me.” He cursed.

“Yeah, yeah. Sorry.” you managed to gather your energy to get yourself up—and stumbling—with the help of your friends. Then you paused, looking back at Su-hyeok, “Did you just call me a butthead?” said boy looked back at you then giving you a sarcastic smile.

Everyone seemed to get on with their own things after that, seeing as you were pretty much back to normal (after hearing the multiple curses that were exchanged between you and Su-hyeok). But of course, she was just paying attention to every detail.

“Hey,” you heard her voice coming from your far right as you were grabbing something on the table while snickering over something—probably very stupid—one of your friends had said. You looked up innocently to that skeptical, irritated, and not to mention disgusted look she always had when she’s addressing some people (you included).

“Yeah?”

“Were you bitten?” her voice surprisingly calm—yet irritating still—which still didn’t mean any good.

You couldn’t help but scoff — of course she was going to focus on that factor instead of expressing her gratitude to you for saving not just her, but everyone’s lives. No ‘thank you’ or ‘are you okay?’ (In a way that she actually cares about your well-being and not just the future of hers being at stake).

But you knew her well enough to not press onto that further and make her make it a bigger argument than it’s supposed to be (which itself was going to be pretty big considering who she was the one who started it—and, you know, typical Lee Na-yeon behavior).

“You’re welcome.” You said smugly with a forced smile playing on your lips.

She whined in annoyance, “Were you or were you not, bitten?” she insisted.

Before you could say anything, another voice came in defense for you. “Yah—can’t you be grateful for once in your life?” you turned around to see Gyeong-su already standing behind you, his eyes flared with anger (that he tried to reduce to a minimal—and failing). “They just saved your life, least you could do is show some gratitude.”

Na-yeon rolled her eyes at the boy, “I’ll show some gratitude when they don’t turn and kill us all.”

You cleared your throat, “Okay then, go ahead; time and place are welcome.” You said smugly while leaning against the table.

She rolled her eyes then pointing at your leg, just above your ankle.

You were beyond annoyed by her but you couldn’t help check what exactly it was that she saw out of curiosity.

Unfortunately, she was right.

All of your emotions quickly dissolved into one of worry and horror.

“Y/N–”

“No.”

Your voice was low, hands shaking as they raised, your eyes scanning over them as if looking for something else — nothing. Only the visible anxiety that made itself present in the form of you quivering hands.

Your feet only moving itself backwards, slow steps as everyone stared at you with worry.

It was silent for a good few moments. You can hear someone inhale sharply, almost saying something—but they were quickly cut off by you.

“I should go.” Your voice shaky but firm. Shaky at the fear that was creeping upon yourself, firmness of your truthful statement.

It was true, you were scared shitless for yourself, but you knew there was nothing else you could do but leave. You didn’t want to hurt anyone—though you probably will after you’ve completely lost your mind, but if you leave now, you would at least not have your last memory of all of your friends staring at you with fear, you will also have the least peace of mind knowing that your friends would be further away from your soon-will-be deathly grasp.

“Y/N—”

“GET AWAY FROM ME,” you snapped, tears that were pooling your eyes, dropped slowly. Looking up, you saw the one person who you’d rather have the farthest away from you right now. His eyes held sadness like your own, soft brown eyes turned weak, the liveliness and playfulness they once held turned to sorrow. Your eyes never left his, you can feel the guilt creeping up on you at the tears that slowly collected in his eyes. “I’m sorry…” you mumbled to all but him.

He wanted to say something, anything. But the thought of opening his mouth only brought a sob up his throat. He couldn’t breathe, his unsaid words were choking him, anything that comes up feels like bile. His eyes stung as he held back the waterfall that could eventually make him combust. He felt hopeless—he was hopeless. You were standing there in front of him with so much guilt in fear, he never imagined seeing you like this.

His actions moved faster than any of his words can.

The boy moved in a quick, swift motion, grabbing ahold of you in his arms before you could protest (alas, you still did) and hold onto you like you were his lifeline—and you are (or, y’know, were), as he is to you. You hated the fact that he was this close to you. He was too close. Way too close.

You were practically dying in his arms as minutes passed, you still fought his grip but he didn’t budge. He doesn’t let you go. He never wants to. Even if it’ll kill him.

He loves you. Every part of you. Even the parts that’ll eventually kill him.

But you couldn’t have that.

As said before, he was your lifeline. And you can’t have the gruesome thought that you had killed your lifeline. That was the last thing you would ever want—even if it was the first thing he would want.

Feeling the liquid metallic drip down your nose, you gathered up all the strength you had—which surprisingly increased after getting bit—and pushed him away. You wouldn’t dare look up, knowing the sight would break you.

“GET THEM OUT NOW!” yelled the pink-cardiganed girl once more. No one even had the energy to tell her to shut her trap, they were all busy processing their own emotions. No matter how many times it’d happened, how many times it will happen (God-forbid), watching one of your friends slowly lose themselves will never be easy, and it’ll never get easier.

Eyes were stained red, though yours for a whole different reason. Su-hyeok and Cheong-san took the initiative to get a grip on Gyeong-su who was ready to bolt towards you and encase you in his death-grip.

You could feel yourself shut down one by one—you felt yourself losing yourself.

Your feet manage to take slow steps backwards towards the broken window, your hands fell at your back, looking for the frame, not even bothering the sharp edges of the broken window.

No one tried to stop you—well, no one else did.

“Y/N-ah! C’mon, you’re fine, you don’t have to do anythi— LET GO OF ME,” he fought and fought to get out of the two boys’ grip, but they—well, Su-hyeok mostly—were much stronger than him. “Don’t be stupid, come on! You’re okay, why are you doing this?” his words became more choked as he begged for you to stay.

Your heart broke at every. Single. One of them.

Lowering your head as you still faced out the window, you shut your eyes tighter at the tears that pooled.

You can feel yourself turning again.

With a shaky voice and a dying heart, you ignored the begs of the person you love most—and will always love. “I’m sorry everyone, stay alive, yeah? Do it for me—or not, I’m not your boss.” You chuckled a little, “This is where we part ways; see you in our next life, I look forward to meeting you all again.” A small sad smile crept into your face for the last time before falling into your imminent death.

You heard a loud scream of anguish as you fall, sooner or later fading with everything else.

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“I Like you too, by the way” WandaNat

Warnings: smut +18

Pairing: Natasha Romanoff x Wanda Maximoff

Summary:  When the power is out, Natasha and Wanda talk about feelings

Words: 2212

A/N: I need to write to avoid my reality so feel free to send some requests in. I didn't double-check this and English is not my first language so lmk if there some awful mistake

It seems like this rain isn’t ever gonna stop and Wanda and Natasha are stuck at the avengers compound. Wanda, being the new one in the group is still getting used to living with the rest of the team, but she has gotten really close to Natasha, the girl Wanda had been having a crush on since she first arrived six months ago. Everyone is on a mission and even tough Nat knows enough to relaunch the power, she is enjoying the company of the witch a little too much to try and fix the lights.

The whole vibe just got so romantic. Candles are placed around the room because the lights are out due to the storm (duh), nice old music playing from Wanda’s battery radio and two glasses of red wine are settled on the table. isn’t it perfect? Wanda’s heart pounds and she gets the whole world’s excitement in her stomach. Her powers let her sense the calm in the older woman, making her wonder if this was a good time to make a move on her.

“Do you want me to make you some hot chocolate? bring you a blanket? it’s kinda cold,” Wanda says as Natasha smiles and nods unknowingly. Wanda is a nervous mess, she goes to the kitchen to make drinks and also to calm herself down. “it’s alright, it’s fine. she’s just a girl, chill,” Wanda whispers to herself but it doesn’t work at all, so the only thing left to do is to go back to Natasha, who is already missing the young girl's company.

“Oh there’s only one blanket for the two of us,” Nat says moving around the room, “I know there were more of them but I can't find them.”

“It’s fine, you can have it.”

“No, we definitely should share it! I mean I don’t want you to freeze,” The spy smirks and makes Wanda wonder why she has such an influence on her. “Come here, Detka,” The Russian says almost seductively and Wanda shyly gets closer to her. They both keep talking comfortably, about missions, gossip about their teammates, and just life in the most comfortable way. Suddenly, Wanda feels Natasha’s hand slowly making its way around her shoulders.

“I wish we could stay like this forever,” it sort of slips out of Wanda’s mouth and she hopes it was quiet enough so that Nat didn't hear it. The older woman smirks and answers without hesitation

“yea me too. you’re a great cuddler, by the way,” Wanda’s cheeks grow red, but she senses some sort of weird intoxicating feeling coming from the older girl: it’s now or never, so she places her hand on Natasha’s lap, not inappropriately but definitely with a hint in the move.

“is it okay?” Wanda asks

“yeah” Natasha says with a soft look in her eyes, “which reminds me, I’ve been meaning to talk to you.”

“Okay,” Wanda attempts to move so she can see the olders girl face better but instead of it she only spills her drink on her sweater.

“Oh, Detka, you better take it off,” Natasha says so wanda did as she was told.

“So what was the thing you wanted to talk to me about?”

“it’s kinda hard to talk to you when you’re shirtless. you know, you’re the hottest girl I’ve ever met.”

Wanda blushes as she mumbles something like “no way.”

“I was actually meaning to tell you that I really like you.”

This surprised Wanda, even with her powers that could have placed her a step ahead from everyone, she didnt consider the idea of her feelings being reciprocated. She doesn’t even think about the next thing she does, pulling Nat closer by her jacket and pressing her lips on hers. a second later Natasha is kissing her back.

“Is that a yes?” she giggles.

“what was the question again?” Wanda smirks but she doesn’t get any response because Nat’s hand is aleready making her way up from Wanda’s waist to her boobs from under her sweater. Her lips are on the sokovian’s neck, beating softly. Rather unexpectedly, Wanda feels a really gentle touch around her right nipple on top of her delicate lacy bra.

“Is that okay, Detka?” Natasha asks again and Wanda doesn’t feel like joking anymore.

“Yes,” she gets to say under her breath as the older girl leaves a small kiss on wanda’s rosy cheeks, her eyes closed and her mouth is a little open craving another kiss.

Wanda spent a lot of time wondering how Natasha would feel under her touch, but she never thought she’d be so soft and patient when it comes to physical contact. It suddenly gets hotter as Natasha undoes the witch’s bra and Wanda pulls her top off of her, She stares at her and at the skin just exposed and bites her lip, lost in her toughts for a minute.

“Like what you see, malyshka?” The spy asks, a large smirk covers her face and Wanda sheepishly nods, feeling her cheeks turn red and her body freezing for a second until Natasha’s soft laugh brings her back in. Eyes wonder on her body and hands finally move, reaching her waist and brushing her fingers against it.

A small chuckle escaped Nat’s lips as Wanda uses her power to disappear the top across the room and uses her hands to caress the older girl’s back as she leans on Wanda again.

"Weren’t you shy just a minute ago?” Nat says smirking and attaching her lips to Wanda’s neck. Nat lips are back in the witch’s mouth before she can think of an answer and she sucks on her lip harshly, getting a shaky breath out of The other girl’s mouth, who moves her hands to the spy’s back and doubts, stopping herself.

“Uh Tasha, is this okay?” Wanda asks looking for her eyes shyly.

Natasha stares and laughs lightly, leaning putting her lips right above mines “oh Detka, are we gonna keep asking that all night?” Her lips brush on Wandas lips as she talks, and she licks the lips reassuringly. Wanda closes her eyes and a little breath escapes lips, she feels a smirk on the other girl as Natasha leads Wanda’s hands to her back again and she unclasps her bra with them.

Wanda feels her mouth fall open as Natasha’s boobs bounce against her frame and lets out a little groan. The spy lips attack her neck, without asking this time, and she starts sucking on the spot under wanda’s ear making a real and loud moan escape her lips. She moves away and stares.

”I’ve been dreaming of hearing that for a long time, Detka” she says biting her lip.

Wanda’s breath stops for a second before a sudden shot of braveness enters to her body.

”Have you, Tasha?” she began asking as the confidence that hit her leads her hands to grip her waist tightly ”what else have you been dreaming about hm?”

She smiles knowingly, She was totally waiting for that question since ever and as the spy she is, wanda wouldnt be surprised if she indeed saw it coming.

“Let me show you instead,” she says pinning Wanda’s hands above her head and moving her kisses from her mouth to her neck, where she sucks, leaving a mark probably. Wanda is about to say something, trying to come up with a bold response, when her teeth nibble on the sweet spot right beneath her ear and she can’t help herself but moan out loud.

“Well, they sound better than I thought they would”

“I feel underestimated, Natty” Wanda answers rising her eyebrow.

“Then you can prove me wrong when I’m done with you” she replies after biting the witch's lip.

Wanda’s chest is going up and down when Natasha’s lustful eyes land on her boobs.

Wanda feels how she could probably cum just by seeing the older girl looking at her that way. She smirks again as she leans forward to kiss the top of the left breast, taking her time to admire it before moving to the other one. Her mouth made its way to Wanda’s nipples. Wanda freezes as she watches the scene and Natasha takes her hard nipple into her mouth, gently kneading the soft flesh with her hand.

The moans start spilling the younger girl's mouth and she bites her lip to prevent them from leaving her body. The spy lips meet Wanda’s suddenly, her tongue opening her mouth and those little moans escaping right into her mouth. Natasha's body shivers when Wanda breathes into her for the first time and she bites her lip harshly, suddenly turning her kiss more aggressive with that simple act.

Wanda’s fingers tangle in the spy’s hair, pulling it a bit when her hands caress her stomach. She moves her hands up to pamper Wanda’s nipples, her moans growing louder as she unconsciously shifts her body so she can grind down on her thighs.

“Shit,” Nat says in a moan when she realizes Wanda’s intentions “you sure?” She asks looking for approval in her eyes.

Wanda just nods blushing and Nat whimpers pulling away from her chest, untying the other girls shorts and quickly working to get them down as she giggles.

“Take off your pants, Tasha” Wanda whispers, as she covers her body with the blanket and waits for her to get rid of her skinny jeans. She smiles sliding the ripped material off her, and her panties quickly following. Wanda giggles lightly as Nat leans down, moving her body underneath the blanket and leaving a kiss on the stomach right above Wanda’s panties.

“You ready Detka?” She whispers when her fingers tucked into the hem of the Lacey underway making the girl shiver at the contact.

“Go for it” Wanda breathes out as her underwear is being sledded down her thighs and kisses are pressed down each leg as skin gets exposed.

She moans, don’t even trying to hold anything back and using the blanket to cover her upper body and leaving Nat’s head under it.

Nat hands are really cold when she first touches Wanda and so she shivers, Her finger Grazes all the way from the belly button to Wanda’s clit, adding pressure when she reaches it.

Wanda shudders and Nat laughs from under the blanket and moves the blanket to free her head and the younger girl's legs. Wanda just looks at her body in awe during the whole process, from when she’s kneeling down in front of her under the blankets to when she moves out if it. The cold wind hits on the place Natasha just left and wanda squirms. Natasha laughs again, staring at the other girls body in silence and realizing how she is feeling when she moves.

“We have time, malyshka, They won’t be back until tomorrow” she says looking at her eyes and brushing her fingers against her boobs from under the blanket.

Natasha removes the blanket fully and Without saying another word she straddles Wanda’s waist facing her legs. She gets the blanket again covering both of them as She lows herself and starts playing the sokovian’s clit, testing the reactions she is getting to guide her out.

Wanda can feel Natasha's wetness on her stomach and moves her hands to her ass, squeezing on it doubtfully and receiving a moan in return, which makes Nat blow air on Wanda’s core, earning a groan from her.

Natasha stops her fingers and Wanda panics, wondering if she has done something wrong or if the older girl was regretting the encounter until she feels wet fingers on her hand.

She holds Wanda’s hand and leads it slowly into her pussy. Once again Wanda moans when she feels the wetness and Nat laughs. Then the witch finally dares to move her fingers shyly, and now Nat is the one moaning.

Natasha lets go of wanda’s hand and moves back to her own business, she separates the witch’s pussy lips and licks. Once, twice,the sokovian’s breath gets faster. Wanda doubts for a minute and she gets Narasha’s butt closer to her face until she gets the idea, too busy moaning to actually explain her plans.

Nat tights straddle wanda’s face carefully. She goes down again. She knows Wanda is close and decides to add her fingers to the mix.

Wanda looks up to find her pussy, glistening and dripping, she holds her ass and Nat laughs lightly the witch’s center before receiving her mouth for the first time. All her control disappears and she starts moving against the tongue, riding Wanda’s face and making her reach an orgasm on the way.

As Wanda cums, she can feel Natasha’s tongue eating her dry and turning fast for a deep kiss where she could savor herself.

Wanda pulls the russian up again afterwards, she’s looking down at her now and the way her boobs bounce with her breathing shows Wanda how close she is. In fact, she is probably holding back.

“Cum for me Tasha” Wanda groans just a second before she gets to taste Nat’s release on her mouth and feels her body lying on top of hers after.

“I like you too, by the way”

“Oh yeah, I think I noticed”

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Our little love part 2 - mafia/yandere au Drabble {angst + fluff}

As always please let me know what you think, I am actually going to go to bed now my brain is angry with me for not sleeping.

It seemed the cycle was never ending, you fucking up and pissing them off, them punishing you by drowning you in their love, only letting you come up to breathe so you could swim in your own guilt and submit to them.

You wince as the victim to your latest fuck up gets another blow to his chest. Taehyung and Hobi held onto his arms as Jungkook and Jimin kick and punch the poor individual. You know not to speak, it’ll only make things worse. Temperament was a fickle thing in their lives, trust was everything, and you still had to build yours up again.

“Y/n help please,” Kai whimpers as you stood with your arms crossed looking away.

“Don’t fucking say her name,” Jungkook growled before punching your ex colleague in the face. You’re frowning, the need to beg them to stop was fighting for exit on the top of your tongue, but you bite it down and pray Kai doesn’t say another word. You know if you do as he asks they’d kill him. Your punishment was to watch silently.

Yoongi strolls up behind you, hands in his pockets before he rests his head on your shoulder, watching the display in front of you both.

“Nothing to say little love?” He whispers as your friend groans out in pain.

Please don’t kill him, you want to say, but you just shake your head in defeat. You want to believe they’re better than this, but the evidence of the contrary was never hidden from you. They showed you every side of them whether proud of it or not with bold eyes daring you to stop loving them, pushing your boundaries and morals waiting for you to snap. But the breaking point never came, you loved them, you shouldn’t and you knew it, but you did. You were completely and utterly theirs, yet still they treated you like you hadn’t seen the worst of them. Like you would run away the second you realised they were monsters, not that they would let you run far, only far enough to let you take a single breath before making you drown in them once again.

Yoongi wraps his arms around your waist, keeping an eye on your reactions. The asshole deserved it, not that they cared either way, he tried to take you away from them, that was enough.

Kai was your old partner before you took a very early retirement, what you didn’t know was that he continued the case you were working on before you left; the case of the seven men you now loved and the reason you quit said job. He had called you to meet up for old times sake and you, very naively in Yoongi’s mind, decided it was harmless. But if it was harmless why didn’t you say anything to the boys? You thought Kai didn’t know the reason you handed in your resignation, but he had been keeping an eye on you all before he realised you were the key to their downfall. He knew you harboured some feeling for him in the past and thought you’d reciprocate when he tried to flirt his way into getting his hands on the evidence you collected, he didnt know you burned it all. You lied to him and said you lost it, same difference anyway. This prompted plan b from him.

“Y/n they’re criminals,” he had said to you. “You’re a cop at heart you can’t love them.”

You floundered at his words when you realised he knew, and yet he still asked you to betray them.

“Kai I think I need to go...”

It was a mistake, you knew it then, but he followed you out onto the street and you hoped tonight the men you loved weren’t keeping an eye on you. Maybe naive was an understatement.

“Are they coercing you Y/n! Do they have something on you or are they threatening you?” He calls after you. “Because the Y/n I know would never love killers, what have they done to you?”

It was when he reached his hand out to grab your arm that your boyfriends decided to show themselves from the shadows. Which lead to the situation now, Kai beat up and bruised beyond recognition, and you forced to watch. He falls unconscious and they let him drop to the floor, you hate this side of them, it was cruel and cold but you’d never leave. They turn to face you now, their anger still present despite the last hour of releasing it onto your old partner. They don’t miss the way you’re shaking, the shallow breaths as you try and keep your tears to yourself. As much as you hate their violence, you hate their disappointment in you more.

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You’re sitting in Joonie’s lap for what you call the debriefing of your punishment, this happened way too often in your opinion. You look down but he wasn’t having it today, tilting your head to look at him by your chin.

“Why did you get punished today little love?” He starts the same way as usual.

“I went out without telling you guys where I was going or who with,” you say while fiddling with your fingers out of nervous habit.

“And?” Hobi sits across from you in a chair, legs straddling the back and an elbow rested on top with his fist holding up his face. Hobi was hardest to pacify, he was ruthless and unforgiving and while that didn’t extend to you, you still had a hard time with his stubborn anger.

“I met up with Kai, and I let him touch me,” you’ve done this too many times before to not know how it worked. Kai’s ‘touch’ obviously meant nothing to you but for them it was the worst crime anyone could commit against their little love.

You remember the time you nearly tripped in the park and a guy steadied you politely, but you still had to hold Jungkook back from throwing hands.

“Kookie would you rather I fell and hurt myself?” No he hadn’t wanted that so he grumbled in agreement still seething but you cooled it down. “Instead of hitting him maybe you should thank him,” it was a joke but it made the youngest scoff.

“Baby girl why can’t you just be good?” Namjoon’s sigh brings you back to the present. “Why do you always have to test us like this?”

You didn’t mean to, you want to say it but the words are stuck below the sob in your throat. You actually whimper as his tone, bottom lip wobbling pathetically. He hadn’t even told you off properly, but you already felt like a mess as he bathed you in his disappointment. That was the common consequence of your actions and you hated it, you couldn’t do anything right.

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“Jin do you need help with the food?” You ask your eldest boyfriend politely, he was frowning and you thought it was because today’s meal was too much for him to handle alone, his tone of voice made you realise it was because of you.

“No, I’m alright,” he doesn’t look at you as he speaks and you’re left gaping at him like a fish. Jin loved it when you cooked with him, it was your bonding time without the others, although Yoongi would join you from time to time. The others also tried but Jin wouldn’t let them anywhere near the kitchen, they hogged you enough anyway.

You feel your soul deflate, still standing there as he ignored you.

“Are you mad at me too?”

The way you said it made his heart twinge with guilt, but the others were right you wouldn’t learn and your first betrayal was still fresh on their minds. He sighs and you turn away, refusing to crying in front of them for the tenth time that day. What was wrong with you? Ever since that day where they found out who you really were you felt like you werent enough anymore, you tried so hard to make up for it all but you kept messing up. You weren’t like this before, but after seeing the hurt you put them through you were constantly on edge and second guessing yourself. You wish you could go back and stop them from ever finding out.

Jin hears the sniffle as you walk away and he can’t go through with it.

“Wait little love,” he calls for you. “I forgot to cut the onions, would you mind?”

You shake your head, you didn’t mind, but you didn’t trust your voice to answer for you. Youre grateful to Jin for giving you this task, it hides the fact you’re crying, but you know he doesn’t miss it.

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Jimin and Taehyung were giving you narrowed stern gazes through dinner, it put you off your food which resulted in getting told off by Jin just after he branched out to you in the kitchen.

You felt alone, like the seven men you loved were against you and there was no one to blame but yourself.

“I’m sorry,” you say quietly before getting up and removing yourself from the dinner table and dining room, ignoring all of their stares. You decide maybe an early night is best, you could start again fresh tomorrow. You don’t get too far up the stairs before a hand pulls you back, you turn to see Jimin with Tae a few steps behind him.

You’re so used to seeing them laugh and play around that it feels like you’re looking at different people. Even during missions or gun fights, the youngest three were always joking their way through the bloodshed, keeping scores of who got the most headshots and other grotesque games. You remember the time Jimin and Tae called you during he middle of a shoot out, arguing with you and each other over who you loved more out of the two while you begged them to not get shot or killed.

“Why did you go see him Y/n?” Jimin asked, he wore the demeanour he used for enemies and it takes you back to that night.

“I... h-he said he wanted to see me to catch up,” you explain but you know it’ll fall on deaf ears.

“And you thought that was a good idea, to see your old cop buddy?” His tone makes you feel stupid, you weren’t stupid.

“He was my friend Jimin,” you say in disbelief, you know in the end it was a mistake but at the time it didn’t seem like the worst idea in the world.

“You’re ours,” Taehyung moved forward, towering over you even though he’s a step below you. His face is close to your own, eyes burning into yours as he looks disgusted at the words that left your mouth as if they’re still attached to you. “How do you think we felt when you went to see another detective? Do you have any idea what was going through our heads?”

“Tae I love you,” you lean away from him, searching his face for a hint of softness and love in his gaze, but there was only fire. “You know I wouldn’t, you all know I wouldn’t, I left that life for you why would I turn back to it?”

He stalks away from you without a word, Jimin close behind, giving you a final cold glance before leaving you alone. You thought your love could make them better but if anything you made their darkness worse.

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Jungkook needed to vent, the only way he knew how was physically. Obviously it wasn’t the cleverest thing he’s done, taking rounds with the punching bag only to open up the cuts on his hand from beating the bastard earlier. He mutters a few curse words under his breath, why did you make matters worse? Maybe they were being harsh on you before today, finding any excuse to punish you a little, test your boundaries and see if you would run, but today they honestly feared that was what happened. They thought you chose to leave them and go back to the life you had before them, but they’d never let you go, they couldn’t let you go. Despite everything you loved them and they worshipped the ground you walked on. You were everything for them now, there’s be no point to any of them without you. Why didn’t you understand that?

He throws another punch to the bag, spreading his blood across them, it hurt like hell, but the thought of you running back to your old partner still played on all of their minds. He wanted to cry, he wanted to find you and beg you to never leave them, they’d be nothing without you.

There’s a knock on the door and he finds you on the other side, waiting for permission to come in. You never waited for permission, it makes him frown, maybe they were too harsh on you today. He could see you shuffling your weight, insecurity screaming through your eyes, you feared his rejection more than his anger.

He notices the first aid kit in your hand, you must’ve heard him. He doesn’t let the fluttering in his chest reach his face as he sits on the bench, waiting for you to come to him.

His gaze is expectant, daring you to cross the threshold and face him, you were no coward, you didn’t fear them the way others did, why were you behaving so meekly now? You force yourself to move and sit beside him, setting the kit down and pushing your hair back behind your ears. He doesn’t move his gaze away from you, even with the sweat and hair hanging in front of his face.

You carefully take a his hand into yours, sucking air between your teeth at how injured it was.

“I’m sorry you hurt yourself because of me,” you say, eyes on his bloodied knuckle as you press the ointment against the open wounds. “Are you sure you want me to stay, I keep hurting you...”

You try to sound like you’re joking, that you’re okay and the hurt isn’t weighing you down with your doubts. He frowns, they really did take it too far. He sets down the cotton wool from your grasp, taking both of hands into his before kissing each finger delicately without letting you look away.

“You’re perfect little love,” Jungkook says, reassuring you with no question in his voice. “We’re the ones who don’t deserve you, we’re mean and cruel but we’re never letting you go.”

You remember how loving they were before that night, maybe while they accepted the truth at face value they could never really forgive you in their hearts. Maybe that’s why they were being like this, they didn’t love you the same way anymore.

“Do you love me?” You had to know, the doubt was eating you alive.

He looks at you as if you’re insane, maybe you are, you don’t know anymore.

“Little love, don’t you see how much we love you?” He asks sincerely. “We would do anything for that love even if it made you hate us, you belong with us, and no one is going to take you away.”

You could see the crazed look in his face grow as he spoke, you believed him, the honestly worn like a heart on a sleeve. But his answer bought a wave clarity to your hazed vision, you made them like this, you made them worse, you had to leave.

[fwkei]

I dont wanna lose you again.

Hakkai x fem!reader (angst to fluff)

Omg hey guys, it's been so long since ive been on this acc and that bc i lost my password lol 🙁

But anyways I'm back again, school has been kicking my ass but I miss writing so heres me trying my best to fulfill this persons request who has probably forgotten abt it. I'm fr so sorry tho but here it is i hope you still like it even tho i didnt follow the request strictly i had a hard time 😭and lastly like always I'm sorry for any mistakes

CW: Mentions of hitting/abuse.

WC: 7.2k

You felt anxious, this definitely wasn’t the first time Emma dragged you over to a Toman meeting. Emma and you went to the same school since elementary, so of course you 2 became good friends, to the point where you met most of the Toman captains through her. You always knew about Emma’s love for Draken, and she would often ask you for advice about it even though you knew nothing about relationships. And recently you met a girl through Emma, named Hinata but she lets you call her Hina for short.

You walked alongside Emma as she made her way to Draken.

“Emma! why do you still make me come to these things?” you asked signing and pouting in annoyance as she grabbed your hand

“Emotional support, duh~” she said smiling

“Where’s Hina? I think we lost her..” you said, turning your head around to only see members of Toman, concerned

“Oh shoot...Oh! I see her standing over there!” yelled Emma as you turned your head to look at where Emma was pointing

“Hina!” yelled Emma

“I’ll go get her, I’ll meet you by Draken!” you said letting go of her hand and making your way to Hina

“Okay!” yelled Emma running off

You held your hands together as you walked through the groups of men, to make your way to her. It was dark and slightly drizzling tonight, it was comforting.

“Hina!!” you yelled running over while waving your hand, seeing the anxious look on her face go away

“Sorry! We must've gotten separated while passing through them..” you said getting closer to her as she gave you a soft smile

“Oh no! It’s alright-” she said

“Want me to help you find Takemichi?” you asked

“That would be great! You know where he is?” she asked as you two started to walk

“No exactly but- hold my hand, I don’t wanna lose you again-” you laughed holding your hand out as she grabbed it

“Alright!” she said smiling

You 2 walked around the area of the shrine where the meeting was going to be held. You then saw a familiar head. A blonde one with messy hair talking with another Toman member, you instantly knew it was Takemichi.

“Here, this way-” you said as Hina followed you

You’ve already met Takemichi quite a few times because you and Hina started to hang out more. You thought Takemichi was perfect for someone like Hina, and it honestly made you so happy seeing them together.

“Takemichi!” you said smiling while waving your hand to get his attention seeing his head turn to you both

“H-hey! Why are you guys here?!” he said back as you and Hina stood next to him

“Emma wanted to see Draken, and Hina wanted to see you-” you said smiling slowly letting go of Hina’s hand seeing Takemichi starting to blush heavily, you smiled and stood to the side. You tilted your head and slightly looked up to see a boy with blue hair.

It was hard to make him out, you couldn’t tell if you knew him or not. But the slight lighting from the street light lit up some of his features. His hair was in fact blue, but a bit lighter than you thought. He had a scar that ran through his lip. He also had a cool haircut with swirls on the side of his head with an earring.

You noticed he kept looking more and more to the side, as if he was trying to hide his face from you. You thought you made him uncomfortable for looking at him for a couple of seconds and so-

“My bad, My name’s Y/n..yours?” you asked giving him a closed eyed smile as his head turned to your

“I- it’s um..Hakkai-'' he said, clearing his throat after speaking, not looking into your eyes, looking at things around you rather than you. You could tell he was nervous, and you found it cute to be honest.

“It’s nice to meet you, Hakkai-!” you said smiling and holding your hand out, making the boy look into your eyes

You heard his breath slightly hitch, his eyes widened and his cheeks became flushed and his mouth parted. Although he was about 6 foot, you could feel the heat radiating off his face. You watched as he took his hand out of his pocket bringing it out towards yours, you laughed softly noticing he brought his left hand out, while you were also holding your left hand out.

“Oh!” he said realizing his mistake bringing his hand down

“No! Don’t worry!” you said bringing your right hand out, gently grabbing his hand before it could fall.

You felt him tense up, he carefully wrapped his fingers around your hand, bringing his hand to scratch the back of his neck as he looked off to the side. His hand was hot, and yours was cold. You let go of his hand making his head turn to yours. You held your hands behind you, turning around so that you could look at Hina and Takemichi talking.

“No need to be so nervous you know..” you said smiling looking over at Hakkai who was just looking at you in complete awe.

Hakkai was so surprised that he even touched a girl..surprised that a girl willingly touched him. His heart felt fuzzy, his stomach was filled with butterflies, his hands became sweaty, his face being hot and red, he so desperately wished you didn’t notice. But you did. His mouth parted at your words and smile, he wanted to respond but was just having a tough time. He wanted to make a good impression on you but he felt as though he was already screwing it up. It made him feel discouraged.

“Yeah!” he blurted out, making you laugh at his random outburst, his eyes widened feeling embarrassed at what he had just done.

“Have you known Takemichi for a long time? Or are you 2 new friends?” you asked giving him options on how to respond so that he doesn’t feel pressured

“We’re uh..new friends..” he said clearing his throat again

“I see...th-” you said before hearing your name

“Y/n! Emma’s looking for you-” siad Mitsuya slightly jogging over to you, raising his eyebrows slightly in shock seeing Hakkai next to a girl, and being calmer than usual. Mitsuya gave you both a smile before walking to Takemichi

“Oh-! Where is she?” you asked

“Over there- just look for Draken!” said Mitsuya turning back to you

“Alright...then I’ll get going then..I’ll see you around?” you said questioning yourself as Hakkais eyes widened again and mouth parted

He saw you stand there waiting for him to acknowledge your leaving. You could tell he wanted to say something and so you waited. You really didn’t mind, Hakkai interested you. He seemed so tuff but he’s such a soft guy when you actually talk to him. You hated the fact that you made him so nervous to the point where he had a hard time speaking. But after a bit you tore your eyes from him feeling a little discouraged that he only stared at you. You signed softly and brought your hand up to wave goodbye, not wanting to be avoided again. As you turned to walk away you brought your hands behind you, stepping forward to walk.

Hakkai was still in such shock. He has never spoken to a girl like this, well never had a girl speak to him like this. Most girls were intimidated by him. He hated that they were scared of him, but you weren’t. You spoke to him like you spoke to everyone. He could see your efforts on trying to make things less awkward..but he just couldn’t handle it. And especially since Mitsuya noticed you two, he instantly felt more pressure on him. It's not like Hakkai didn’t like you. The first thing he noticed about you was your voice, it was sweet and warm. It made him feel fuzzy, after that was your smile, eyes, hair, hands etc.. He thought you were pretty, really pretty. He was just so nervous, but when would he ever get this chance again? He’s talked to Mitsuya about girls before so he wasn’t completely clueless. He knew that it was usually traditional for the guy to make the first move, but he just couldn’t. But he doesn’t wanna lose you. The chance he has...will never happen again..so he has to say something..he has to be the one.

“Wait-” yelled Hakkai grabbing your wrist making you turn to him

“Sorry! I shouldn’t have touched you-! I should have asked!” he said frantically letting go of your wrist making you laugh, genuinely

“Hakkai, it's fine! Don’t worry so much.” you said smiling

“Is there something you wanted to say?” you asked tilting your head slightly

“Yeah- I wanted to tell- well ask you that- would you want to...Can I just...see you again?” he asked, stumbling on his words while looking into your eyes with determination, you felt your face get warm at his words.

“Yeah, I’d really like that-” you said smiling, letting him see your flushed face, you saw a big smile grow on his face

“R-really? Oh wow! I- I- I’ll-” he said clearly not knowing how to go about this waving his hands frantically

“You have a bike, right?” you asked smiling holding his hands in yours so that he would calm down making his face red

“Yeah!” he said still bright red

“Great, then how about we hang out tomorrow?” you asked smiling

“Yes!” he said

“So you can pick me up...in front of the ___ apartment complex..is that okay with you?” you asked still holding his hands

“Absolutely!” he said closing his eyes

“Great! Then tomorrow..at 12?”

“YES!” he said, taking your hands and grabbing them with his bigger ones, bringing his head closer to yours making you smile in a surprised way. You looked around to see some people were looking.

“Then I’ll see you then, Hakkai.” you said giving him a closed eyed smile as he slowly let go of your hands, shocked at his own actions

He nodded his head quickly. You waved goodbye and made your way to Emma but he never stopped looking at you till you were out of sight. He cleared his throat one last time, as he so desperately was trying to calm down, he felt a hand on his shoulder and frantically turned around to see Mitsuya smiling at him.

“Hakkai, you alright?” he asked laughing

“Yes!” he said standing up straight

“You look like you’re about to shit yourself..” said Mitsuya

“Don’t talk like that!” he said getting embarrassed making MItsuya laugh harder

“What happened?” asked Mitsuya

“I think I asked her out..” said Hakkai with anxious eyes

“...you think???” asked Mitsuya looking at him confused

“..You asked out a girl? That's so unlike you-!” he laughed

“I need help please-!” he said grabbing his shoulders and shaking him

“Okay! Okay! Stop shaking me, dumbass!” he yelled making Hakkai back up in fright

“I don’t get what you need help with, It’s not like I can stand next to you the whole time you’re with her you know.” he said as the two started walking

“...I know that! I’m not that stupid!” he said

“I just want her to like me.”

“Well if she said yes, it’s obvious she likes you.” said Mitsuya turning his head to him seeing a smile grow on Hakkais face

“You’re right! You’re so smart!” he praised Mitsuya making him sweatdrop

“Just wear something nice, after you pick her up take her to do something you’re good at so you can impress her.” said Mitsuya

“Okay! Bowling! Should I wear a suit?” asked Hakkai bringing his hand to his chin, genuinely thinking

“..there’s no way you’re serious right now.” said Mitsuya making Hakkai feel nervous again

“What!? Help me then!” cried Hakkai

“Just- You know what..come over after today's meeting I’ll help you with your outfit-” said Mitsuya scratching the back of his head as they got into their lines

“Really?! You’re the best Mitsuya!” said Hakkai praising him making Mituya feel embarrassed but happy

Hakkai placed his hands into his pockets smiling. He looked to the side while others were still getting into their places. He saw you, Emma, and Hina under a tree laughing and talking. He watched as Emma grabbed your hands out of excitement and Hina clapped her hands. And you just smiled so big. He felt his heart jump at realizing that you must've told them about your ‘date’ with him tomorrow. He felt his breath quicken at the thought. It made him so anxious and happy. He smiled and looked back up when hearing the voice of Draken calling for everyone's attention. During the whole meeting, he just couldn't stop thinking about tomorrow, and you. It made him feel so jittery, he felt like running a marathon because of it. He was also so proud of himself for not messing it up with you and actually being able to respond back quite a few times.

He looked down at his hands and felt butterflies fill his stomach at the memory of your soft hands holding his.

The next day you got up and got dressed, doing your very best to look good. You had been on the phone with Emma and Hina the whole time you were getting ready, you looked in the mirror finally settling on an outfit after a while.

“Okay! I think I'm good now!” you said smiling to yourself and grabbing your phone

“Finally! Took you long enough” groaned Emma laughing a bit at the end

“Shut up Emma-” you laughed while putting on your shoes

“It’s 12 Y/n! You should get going-” said Hina

“It is?!” you said looked at the time to see it turn to 12:01

“Don’t worry so much! He’s probably not even there yet-” said Emma

“Alright I’m gonna go! Talk later!” you said

“Goodluck!” they both said before you hung up the phone and rushed out of your room

You saw Hakkai with his hands on his pockets as he stood beside his motorcycle. As you ran over you couldn’t help but smile big.

“Hey!” you said opening the gate and walking over to him seeing his eyes light up

“Sorry, Did i make you wait long?” you asked

“No! Don’t worry!” he said taking his hands out of his pockets

“Cool! So where’re we gonna go?” you asked smiling

Hakkais mind went back to Mitsuyas words.

“When you pick her up tomorrow make sure you compliment her-”

“What if I make her uncomfortable?!”

“Hakkai you need to relax-” laughed Mitsuya

“Just whatever you see that you like, tell her. She’ll be happy about it.”

“Bowling-” he said still debating on what to say to you

“Alright!”

“I- uh..by the way..you look really pretty-” he said looking off to the side and scratching the back of his neck

You smiled at his compliment. You knew how much courage that took him, especially since Emma told you he was the type of guy to always be nervous around girls.

“Thank you, Hakkai.” you said feeling your face get warm and smiling big

“Wanna get going?” you asked

“Yeah!” he said

“I’ll hold your bag for you-” he said, holding his hands out as you gave it to him, smiling

He sat first and you sat behind him. You strapped on your helmet as he waited for you to finish. You wrapped your arms around his waist, feeling him tense up. Again, you could feel the heat literally radiating from his body, you found it cute.

“Are you ready-?”he asked turning his head slightly

“Yeah, I’m ready.” you said smiling

He brought his hands to the handles and started the motor, driving slowly at first, making sure you were ok with the speed.

He was still tense, but you could feel him warming up to you more and more as time passed, and you felt happy about it. You 2 didn’t really talk much during the drive. Only things like “are you alright” and stuff during stops. Then, the bowling place came into view and you instantly got excited. After parking and getting your stuff from Hakkai, you 2 walked inside the building. When meeting the man at the front desk and asking for an alley, you saw fright fill his eyes.

“I forgot my wallet-” he said after checking his pockets

“No worries! I’ll pay-” you said digging into your bag and pulling out your wallet and some cash, handing it to the smiling man behind the counter

“Enjoy!” he said as you two started to walk to get your shoes

“I’m sorry!” he said frowning

“There's nothing to be sorry for-” you laughed strapping on your shoes seeing his eyes soften

“I kinda suck at bowling-” you said getting up to grab a ball and swinging your arm to only hit a few pins

You groaned in annoyance as you went back to sit down to watch Hakkai complete his turn.

“You should try looking at the ball instead of the pins when you let go-” he said while the bowling ball hit all the pins down. Your eyes lit up at how he so effortlessly did that

“You’re so good at bowling!” you praised him

“I- thank you!” he said smiling foolishly realizing Mituyas advice worked

“So I should just look at the ball?” you asked grabbing a ball and standing beside him

“Yeah, watch the ball all the way through, if you look just straight forward, you’ll miss the target-” he said looking at the pins while you just stared into his eyes in such awe

“Alright, if you say so-” you said swinging your and tossing the ball as it hit about half the pins now

“Good!” he said praising you making you smile big

“Now, try changing your form and how you actually toss the ball, try it like this-” he said, grabbing a ball and getting into position, tossing it, hitting all of them down, again.

You watched him in awe, you just couldn’t help it. It was so impressive.

“Okay! So...this good?” you asked looking behind you trying to copy his position, seeing his blush a bit

“Mhm, try using your middle and ring finger instead of your pointer and middle-” he said coming up to you, supporting the ball from under while you switched your fingers

“Alright-” you said smiling up at him before swinging your arm

You and Hakkai both watched the ball carefully, it all went in slowmo. When the ball finally hit the pin you raised your eyebrows, hoping you were able to knock all of them down. But-

“Are you kidding-” you said furrowing your eyebrows and signing in defeat seeing one pin still up as Hakkai laughed a bit

“It’s okay, you’re getting better, Y/n.” he said smiling while looking into your eyes

You could finally feel that he was more comfortable around you, it made you so happy.

“Yeah! Next time I’ll get it.” you said smiling back

Hours passed. You two played at least 4 rounds, and after that went to the arcade and played games there, anddd after that took pictures inside the photo booth. One specific picture contains you kissing Hakkai’s cheek at the last second before the camera took it’s shot. You couldn't stop laughing at the face he made seeing that the camera captured it. He turned so red and his eyes were so wide. He felt embarrassed but you assured him that it was okay and that you found it cute, causing him to make the same face again.

About 4 months have gone by of dates with Hakkai, you were never officially asked out to be his girlfriend, but you knew that time would eventually come and you didn’t want to rush him. During that time you’ve gotten pretty close with his sister Yuuzha and sometimes you 2 would hang out too. You never went over to his house during that time, it was either dates would be outside or at your place but you never really questioned it. Once when Hakkai picked you up, he realized he left his wallet at home and didn't want to make you pay so the 2 of you drove back to his place. He acted differently and told you to act like you lived in his apartment complex while he went up and got his wallet. You found it odd but tried to rationalize it by thinking he probably wasn't ready to tell the rest of the people he lived with about you. You were totally understanding about it and never asked him about it.

During this time, you picked up a job at a corner store that was actually pretty close to Hakkais place, and most of the time after your work, he would pick you up and you two would just talk for hours about anything.

And so it was another night at the corner store, your boss was in his office as you stood behind the cashier waiting for customers, it was a slow night so you were too attentive to your surroundings. You suddenly got a phone call from Emma.

“Hey Emma, what’s up?” you asked before seeing the door of the corner store open.

“Hey, nothing really, I’m super bored though-” she said, signing.

The man was tall, and had some parts of his hair dyed, and was wearing a delinquent uniform, the two of you made eye contact for just a second, you smiled at him softly. He didn’t smile back and only turned around, walking around the store. You read the back of his jacket, seeing it had in big letters, ‘BD’ with a dragon through it. You started to feel anxious but Emma’s voice snapped you out of your thoughts

“Hey, you there?” she asked

“Yeah sorry-” you said

“So do you wanna hang out after your work is over?”

“I can’t today sorry Em, I have plans with Hakkai-” you said sighing

Your body felt a sense of tension in the air when you mentioned Hakkai’s name.

“Ughhh, fine then tomorrow can you come to the mall with Hina and me?” she asked

“Yeah for sure, just text me the details.” you said

“Okay, talk to you later, bye!” she said hanging up the phone

You put your phone in your pocket and tighten your ponytail when seeing the man approach you. You tried giving him another smile, to which he surprisingly smiled back, but it was very unsettling. He placed his basket on the counter and watched you closes as you started to scan the items

“How is your day going, sir?” you asked trying to ease up the tension

“Just fine~ ah! So your name is Y/n?” he asked looking at your name tag

“Oh- yeah!” you said smiling nervously

“Will that be all for today?” you asked placing the bag in front of him

“Yes.” he said with the same smile sending chills down your spine

“Alright, your total is 1750 yen-” you said as you watched him pullout the money, and handing it to you in such a gentle way making you feel weird

“Thank you, here’s your change-”

“Keep it.” he said

“Thank you.” you said

“Goodbye, Y/n~ see you later.” he said kicking the door open and walking out

You felt so anxious. His whole presence made you uncomfortable. You were most definitely going to talk about this with Hakkai, but you brushed it off for now because you still had 45 minutes till your shift ended.

Once it ended you pulled out your phone to see a text from Hakkai saying “hey, I’m outside.” You grabbed your bag, and said goodbye to your boss before opening the doors to see Hakkai leaning against his bike smiling big. You jogged over to him, and gave him a hug, nuzzling your cheek against his chest. You instantly felt better and so much more relaxed. You missed everything about him despite the fact you only saw him a few hours ago and texted him all the time. His arms wrapped around you making your heart flutter. You let go of the hug and smiled up at him.

Hakkais heart felt so full when he was with you. He was so happy that things were going so well, and that you were such an understanding person, and never questioned him. The amount of trust he saw you put into him always drove him over the edge. He felt honored that you did. There had been multiple times during your guy's relationship where he wanted to tell you that he loves you and ask you to officially be his girlfriend but his mind always drifted to the thought of you getting hurt because of it.

“Hey, you alright?” you asked seeing he looked a little down

“Yeah- I’m fine, wanna get going?” he asked, taking your bag. He knew you could tell every time he felt bad

“Where’re gonna go today?” you asked strapping on your hemet as Hakkai sat down on the bike

“I wanted to take you out to dinner.” he said smiling big

“Oh I'm so excited!” you said happily, sitting behind him and wrapping your arms around him as he started the bike

Hakkai could never get over the feeling of you holding onto him. It always felt like the first time. Everyday his love for you grew more and more, and it was becoming almost impossible to not tell you about it.

You two sat at the table of a BBQ place, you both ordered your food, and waited. After some talking asking how both your days went, the food came and you two started to cook while continuing the conversation.

“And after about 3ish minutes passed since she left I walked around the store to restock the drinks, and I saw the baby's pacifier on the floor! I didn’t know at first if I should run after her or not, because she was so rude to me for no reason, but then the baby would definitely start crying at some point and it seemed like she was a new mom so I just grabbed it and ran after her car! And it was so hot and I ran for at least 10 minutes...but I got it back to her and her baby so that's good..My boss got mad at me for leaving the store unattended though-” you said sighing while flipping a piece of meat on the grill

“That’s really sweet of you, I’m sure she probably regretted how she treated you-” he said taking a bite of the meat you placed on his plate

“I mean...even if she did I wouldn't mind either way, something probably happened that upsetted her and she just needed to take it out on someone maybe, I’m just glad it was me and not someone else who could’ve really been hurt by her words, you know what I mean?”

Hakkai couldn't help but to just smile at you. You were so nice to people even if they were mean to you. If you hadn't been the nice type, the two of you would have probably never have started to build a relationship. He was just so so so so happy that you decided to talk to him because he would've never had the guts to talk to you first. He’s been really sensitive lately, and he just was fighting back the random urge to tell you everything. But the story you just told, and how you handled it so perfectly. Just made him so full and fuzzy, he just had to tell you

“Y/-”

“Oh my god I forgot to tell you! Today, like 45 minutes before closing, a man walked in, and he had some dyed parts of his hair. And he was wearing a delinquent uniform which kinda made me anxious….I tried to smile at him but he ignored me and when he turned around there was the letters ‘BD’ on his back with a dragon….And then Emma called me asking to hang out but then I told her I’d be hanging out with you tonight and as soon as I said your name it was like the whole energy of the room changed...it was so unsettling. And after that he was a lot nicer to me and even tipped me 500 yen and said ‘see you later’….It was so weird.” you said

“Sorry I didn’t mean to interrupt, what were you gonna say?” you asked looking up at him, as your smile instantly faded

You saw pure distress in his eyes. They were wide and his mouth was apart, not like you had ever seen before. Your eyes softened at him.

“Hakkai, what’s wrong?” you asked with concerned eyes

“...”

No response from him, only the same face now but he slowly looked down. His mind went back to another conversation him and Mitsuya had

“I’m happy Hakkai, she seems really good for you.”

“Yeah! I like her a lot, Mitsuya- I think it’s more than like..”

“You love her?”

“I think I wanna ask her to be my girlfriend, I know she's waiting for me to...but I’m scared to.”

“Why are you scared?”

“Because I don’t want her to get mixed up with things.”

“Well...I’m glad you said it first.”

“You thought the same?!”

“Of course, delinquents aren’t nice people, Hakkai. They’ll get everything and anything involved with their feuds. Remember what happened with Pah-chin’s friend's girlfriend? And his family?”

“...”

“I’m not trying to scare ya Hakkai, but...if you’re gonna tell her that you love her and wanna be with her...make sure you can protect her first. Bad people can be anywhere, even in your own home.”

“...y-yeah.”

“Y/n.”

“Yes? What's wrong, Hakkai?” you asked, feeling a bit relieved that he finally answered you, but he wasn't looking at you.

“I want to end things.”

“What?” you said feeling your heart drop

“...”

“What do you mean by that?” you asked furrowing your eyebrows in sadness as he still refused to look at you

“We shouldn't see eachother anymore. I’m sorry.” he said

“...”

“Can you atleast look at me when you say that?” you asked in a shaky voice, feeling a lump in your throat, he slowly brought his head up, seeing you had tears forming in your eyes

“So...that’s it?” you asked seeing his eyes soften at you

“...”

“Can you tell me why?” you asked frowning and wiping your eyes

“...I can’t.” he said biting his inner cheek as you looked off to the side

“...”

“....I understand.” you said looking him back in the eye

“Y/n-”

“Keep well, Hakkai.” you said giving him a smile and placing down some cash on the table to cover your part of the bill before getting up and walking out

Hakkai sunk in his chair, he couldn't bring himself to chase after you. Things were going so well between the two of you, something bad was bound to happen, maybe a small fight, or miscommunication, but never something like this. Something where his older brother could be getting involved and possibly hurt you. He was so scared once he realized who you were talking about. The only thing that came to mind was protecting you, and he knew he couldn’t do that. He couldn’t even protect himself. Distancing himself from you is the only way he can guarantee your safety. If you’re no longer seen around him, Taiju can’t do anything to you, right? Well...

After your ‘breakup’ with Hakkai, you weren’t doing so well. You really missed texting him and hugging him everyday but now that was only in the past. You of course did your fair share of crying to yourself and to Emma but it still felt empty not having him in your life everyday. It was becoming almost unbearable and it had only been 3 days. You often found yourself dozing off during work and going through old pictures of Hakkai and you because it helped ease you up a bit. You regretted telling him that you understood why he ended things, but in reality you had no idea. You weren’t the type to be full of yourself about things, but you genuinely felt as though you were really good for him. Afterall, you helped him grow out of his shell a bit, and become better at communicating with people in such a short time, but maybe that was the problem. You never thought you were pushy but maybe you were, maybe even too clingy… You signed and frowned to yourself, resting your head on your hand as you stood behind the cashier, exhausted from overthinking things, you just wanted to say sorry to him and cry.

You looked up at the clock seeing it was closing time. You grabbed your stuff and waved goodbye to your boss, Because Hakkai would always drive you home from work, you no longer had a ride. And so you started taking a bike to and from work.

“What the-” you said seeing your bike chains were cut and that your bike was gone

“...” you just squatted and brought your hands over your eyes, you were so frustrated and upset, this was just the last push. You started to cry. Could things get any worse?

You wiped your face with your hands and just had the urge to run to Hakkais house and cry, but you knew that was never an option to start with. As you got up it was hard to see because of the aggressive rubbing on your eyes, and you suddenly felt an ery presence. You started to blink quickly to try and be able to see better but the sudden impact of someone's hands around your waist caused you to black out.

You heard slight talking and felt as though you were sitting, you tried to move your hands but noticed they were tied behind your back. You started to hyperventilate at the closed feeling of your arms and feet being restrained and a covering over your eyes.

“I think she’s awake-” you heard a male voice say

“Good, just take off the blindfold for now, I don’t want her passing out again.” you heard another voice say

“Alright, Koko.” said the other as you felt his fingers slip the blindfold down your face

You looked him in the eye with such fear, you saw him frown slightly making you confused, you looked ahead of you to see another boy driving. He had dark hair, while the other one sitting next to you had light hair.

“Please- let me go- I won't say anything- I’ll give you anything you want-” you said starting to shake and almost burst into tears

“We’re not going to hurt you.” said the one driving looking at you through the mirror

“Just...try to calm down everything will be fine-” said the one next to you

“No please- you have the wrong person!” you said

“You’re Y/n L/n, aren’t you?” said the one driving

“...”

“Then we got the right girl.” he said as the boy driving turned into a parking lot

“I swear I didn’t do anything!”

“We know, that's not the point.” he said parking and turning his head to look at you

“I’m sorry you have to get involved.” he said before stepping out of the and opening the door on your side

“Inui, carry her in the church will you?” he asked

“Yeah.”

Your eyes were wide, you thought about screaming but no one was even around you, you wanted to fight your way out. But the pure fear that ran through your body just made you paralized, you could just tell by the look of these two boys that there is a huge difference of strength. Your only chance was to comply.

You felt yourself being thrown over the boy's shoulder as he walked into a building. All you could do is watch the ground as he moved your body for you.

You were placed in the front seats of the church, looking around at the biblical art.. Your eyes could barely keep open at this point, it felt like hours of waiting for something to happen. You grew frustrated and angry at how things had become, overthinking got the better of you while you were stuck in your own mind when suddenly you heard the main door open, and to your horrifying shock you saw Hakkai. But not just him, Hakkai was standing next to the man who came by your store. With striped dyed hair and a coat which had the letter BD on it.

But you werent stupid and it didnt take long for everything to click. You understood the situation, like you always did, and you knew you had to play along.

Your chin rising higher and higher as the tall man walked to you and held it harshly, you looked over at Hakkai whose mouth parted in anger, shock, and mostly fear.

“Don’t touch her like that, please.” you heard Hakkai say

The man didn't say anything, and aggressively dropped my chin, quickly walked over to Hakkai and punched him hard. Making him fall to the ground and struggle to gain conciseness. Your eyes widened as you saw Hakkai suffer. This is what he was hiding you from. What he was ashamed of. What he was scared of. What he hated. You watched Hakkai get up and wipe his mouth as the man approached you, Giving you that same smile he gave at the store.

“Now, I’m sure you’re a smart girl and can understand what’s going on, right? Or did my cowardly little brother decide to hide it all from you? Which is it?”

“Both” you said looking at him seeing a smile appear on his face

“HA! I like this one!.....but don't play smart with me.” he said lowering his face to yours

“Hakkai, get up.” he said still staring at you

Hakkai did as he was told and walked over to you both. You couldn't help but start to cry, you felt tears fall from your eyes but you didn't make a sound. You didn't wanna do anything that could possibly trigger Hakkai to get hurt again. Especially by this man,

“I’ll keep it simply for the both if you, Hakkai you either join Black Dragons, or your lady friend gets badly badly hurt, and don't be mistaken, refuse this offer and not only will she get hurt but you, and your sister, and all your beloved friends.” he said smiling at you seeing your tears flow harder

You shifted your eye to Hakkai who looked so unbelievably guilty for all of this, and all you wanted to do was just tell him that it's not his fault. You looked at him and shook your head no, telling him not to join the gang. You understood how life threatening this all is now.

“No?” said the man, and literally within a second, you saw his hand rise up to hit you, But Hakkai placed his arm before you blocking you from the hit, you saw the other arm of the man rise and aim to hit Hakkai, and your body moved on its own, making sure to block the hit that was aiming right of Hakkais head, and doing so, the fist of the man hit you right under your temple, knocking you out cold.

Before fully knocking out your heard the cries and yells of familiar voices, but soon everything became muffled, you just hoped that someone showed up to help Hakkai.

….

You heard muffled beeps, your eyesight became less and less blurry with every blink, your fingers twitched, and your mouth was dry…But you were awake. You looked around to see that you were in a hospital bed, it was very early in the morning, 5:43. The sun was starting to come up and there was frost on the window. You heard a sound from next to your bed and looked down to see

“Hakkai?” you said seeing he was sleeping on the floor, using his jacket as a pillow

You watched as his eye blinked open, and suddenly blinked with shock and happiness

“You’re awake!” he yelled getting up and hugging your hug into his chest making you laugh.

“Hakkai-” you said as your head was being squeezed

“Can you tell me what happened?” you asked looking at him

“I’ll go get a nurse, just wait right here, are you hungry? Thirsty? Do you want me to get something from the cafeteria?” he asked frantically

“Just a nurse” you smiled at him as he smiled and ran down the hall to get help.

You sat back for a moment and tried to remember yourself but nothing came to mind. The door opened and 2 nurses along with Hakkai walked in.

“Y/n L/n?” one said checking their clipboard

“Yes, that's me.” you said

“We notified your legal Guardian that you are now awake from your minor coma and they'll be here shortly. All in all Y/n, you suffered a harsh blow to your lower temple, The trauma ultimately led to a minor coma, you were out for 4 days, so nothing too bad. You will be experiencing memory loss issues for a while but we will offer mind exercises much like how we do for our patients with dementia or alezimers. Overall you’re in great shape and healthy. Will set you up for pickup soon.” Smiled at the nurse as the other one checked equipment before they both left, leaving you and Hakkai.

“Hakkai, what happened?” you asked seeing as he was about to cry

And so he did, he walked over to you and crouched on his knees, you moved so that now you could hug him as he cried into your chest, saying how sorry he was for all of it. You grabbed both sides of his head and made him look at you

“Just please tell me.” you asked

After a moment, he nodded his head, wiped his tears and explained everything. And by everything I mean everything. From the very start where all of it started.

“Y/n, I’m so incredibly sorry and I will never forgive myself for hurting you.” he finished it off, frowning.

“It’s fine, isn't it? It wasn't your fault, I just wish you told me about all of this sooner, but it doesn't matter anymore, I forgive you, just learn to forgive yourself now.” you said taking a deep breath

“So that we can start fresh becauseee.”

Hakkais eyes lit up at your words, as you he watched you stand up and hug him

You laughed, trying to hid the fact that you were crying and said

“I don’t wanna lose you again.”

[thenastyotherblog]

Disclaimer: Im not a transperson not do I wear a binder, I did my best doing a bit of research of chest binding before writing this and I hope is accurate, if not please do let me now! 

@phoenixcharged​ Hope you like it! 

Your binder is killing you.

You were supposed to take it off like what? Two hours ago? But Mr. Stubborn thinks he can handle the pain until lunchtime.

"Its only a little bit of back pain" You thought, foolishly. Your back has endure so much already, whats are some couple of extra hours?

I will tell you what are a couple of hours.

Its not only back pain at this point, is the pressure on your sides, the unholy pain on your chest, the pressure on your ribcage that makes you think of those videos of people crushing a macaroon apart.

Not to mention the fricking heat.

You feel like a steamead vegetable right now, a layer of sweat covering you whole.

Is disgusting.

Finally your class is over and you make a, discret, run to put all your papers and materials back into your bag. You want this thing off you. NOW.

"Hey Teach, got a second?" You resist the urge of sighing in distress as one of your students comes to you, they look apologetic from taking more of your time but they do seem like they need the extra help.

So you stay while in excruciating pain.

Now it feels like someone is trying to vacuum seal you, oh it hurts.

You are on your way to the bathroom, your vision a lit fuzzy, you are only thinking of sweet relif when you face-crash into something, someone?

"Hey, Teach!" Hizashi greets you cheerful. "I was going to pick you up about now! Didnt know you wanted your dosis of me as soon as possible!"

Oh yeah, you two had a little lunch date planned today. You didnt remember because the pain makes you numb.

You can only manage to give him some forceful chuckles, holy mother of god even that is leaving you without air. "Oh hey, Zash" Oh dont talk, why are you talking when it hurts this badly?

Hizashi is quick to realize something aint right with you, he is observant like that. Or maybe is because you look like you are about to hit the bucket any moment now.

"Hey, are you alright little listener? You look a bit…pale"

"Who? Me? Pssht" You wave your hand, trying to take a bit of the seriousness off the situation and while you do that try to straighten yourself up. FUCK. GRAVE MISTAKE. YOUR CHEST HURTS!

"Songbird whats wrong?" The cheerfuness of his voice is now replaced by serious worry. Awn man, you dont want to make him do that face, the "im worried sick about you face" you cant handle the guilt.

"Nothing! I swear!" You laugh some more, air rapidly leaving your, very very crushed lungs. "Lets go! I cant wait for-"

Why is the floor coming closer to you? Oh shit are you falling? You hear Hizashi scream your name as you hit the floor, HARD. You can still hear him say something tho you cannot really comprehend what it is; Oh is so hard to breathe, are you even breathing right now? It doesnt feel like it. You feel hot, like you been outside in the sun for too long. You are thirsty, would kill for a glass of water right now. . Your eyes take their sweet time to adjust as you slowly open your eyes, the infirmary roof lights greeting you. Wait, the infirmary? You try to pry your body up, a pair of hands appearing on your vision. Hizashi. Hizashi is here. "Easy now" He helps you to lift your upper body, adjusting the pillows behind you. You are so thanful for that cuz your back still hurts a lot. "He's awake"

"What- What happen?" You mumble, your throat is so dry.

Recovery girls makes her appearence, mumbling something about how dangerous that was and that you need to be more careful.

"Did you know you are wearing a size too small of binder?" There is no anger on her voice but you still feel like a kid being scolded.

"I- I didnt." You sheepely say, avoiding Hizashi's worry look. "I thought it was the correct size?"

The old lady just shake her head, handling you a pamphlet about chest binding. "It can be a bit tricky but you are supposed to wear a binder two times your size. Boy, how long have you been with the same Binder?" You can feel your cheeks burn. "No more binding for the rest of the day, you hear me? Let your poor ribs rest. And a new Binder is in order!"

"Are they gonna be ok?" Hizashi asks her, he carefully takes one of your hands, squezing it a little bit.

"Of course! I trust you will be here with him?" Hizashi only nods. "Wonderful! Then you can guide him throught the breathing excersices I told you!”

"Consider it done ma'am!"

Its an akward silence after Recovery Girl takes her leave. Honestly you are so embarrased that not only you faint in front of Hizashi but that he also carry you to the infirmary? And witness what an idiot you are? Two sizes bigger? You didnt know that! You think a grown ass trans man would know that, apparently not! You feel like crying but dont! That would be even more embarrasing!

"Lets go buy you a new Binder after class"

"Eh?"

Hizashi is still holding your hand, his whole body exhales relief now that you are awake. There is not even a trace of anger, even when he has the right to. "A cooler desing this time. Ok?” You smile as you gave him a little nod. "That's what I like to see! Now lets hit those breathing exercises!"

[mxthtea]

I hope im not to late with the request. 😅Could I request a HoV x reader!Captain on their first date, how would the other valk's react about this.

I hope I didnt ask to much or something wrong.

Have a nice day stay safe out there everyone!

hey anon guess what. guess what anon.

i love this req

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hov [sirin] x gn!captain!reader warnings: sirin pines but doesn't realize it, i changed up a bit of the story to make this work pff, grammar + spelling mistakes, lowercase writing, tell me if i forgot any description: sirin, the void queen herself, wasn't much of a fan of crowded places or humans in general. but watching you smile while walking with her made sirin think...

maybe you could've been an exception. word count: 783

when you said you'd be going on a date with the sirin, all of the valkyries gave you a questioning look. asking you if that's something you should actually do considering the fact that's a herrscher. i feel like durandal would be the most wary. you are the captain after all, and she has to look out for you because of that.

she tries to make you aware of what going on a date with a herrscher could mean and what could happen to you. your reaction surprised her though.

"it'll be fine, durandal. thank you for worrying but i've spent a lot of time with sirin and i trust her fully. i like her as well, after all," you smiled at durandal and bid your goodbye.

and so, after a few days, you found yourself walking from a park with sirin by your side. for once she had pulled her hair into a ponytail. it was cute on her.

wind blew by softly as you continued to ramble out things that have happened. making jokes on something funny kiana has done, or sighing about another time himeko got drunk. sirin couldn't care less honestly. she didn't like humans after all.

sirin, the void queen herself, wasn't much of a fan of crowded places or humans in general. but watching you smile while walking with her made sirin think…

maybe you could've been an exception.

she felt her face heat up at the mere thought of ever falling in love with a human. how could she?! she didn't like you… did she?

i mean yeah, sirin had agreed to go on this date with you. but it must've been her just agreeing to go along because she wouldn't want to see her favori - her most tolerable human get sad about it. her hidden excitement must've been something kiana had come up with. she wouldn't fall for a human!

"can't you just realize you like them?" the familiar bubbly voice rang in the void queen's head. of course she had to remember that.

sirin remembers kiana asking that. the day before the date, yesterday, kiana had pointed out how sirin seemed less… irritable. lashed out less on the thing the other "bugs" did or what kiana herself had done. the void queen scoffed at the possibility, how could that little girl even imply sirin liked the captain! she couldn't!

"sirin? are you alright? you look grumpy now. did i do something wrong?" you're per- annoying voice cut through the stagnant air around the both of you.

sirin huffed, turning her head to the side and covering her face from you. "what does it matter to you? nothing is wrong, you must be seeing things."

she swore she could hear you smile, and the amused chuckle you let out felt even louder. yet it was pleasant. not an annoying ringing that any of the other bugs you worked with could let out. god that felt so annoying to think.

"if you say so" your smile seemed to brighten as sirin took a quick glance at you, "did you like going out at least?"

ah yes… the date itself. sirin could say she enjoyed it. she liked walking down the familiar streets with your hand holding loosely onto hers as cars passed by and other people chattered about. you both had agreed to go to less populated places for the date. so going to any crowded movie theatres or any festivals that happened to be going on were immediately marked off of the list.

instead, you both of agreed to on a walk. that's it, a simple walk. on the outskirts of a city with some good restaurants to visit. you were familiar with the place and sirin agreed to go out there.

"it was fine enough, i liked the food."

how does your smile seem so bright? how do you do it?

"i'm glad you liked it at least! would you like to go out another time then?"

oh.

another time?

sirin didn't realize there'd be another time. she thought it might've ended by now.

"i… well to entertain you, i will."

"i'm glad then! you can choose where we can go next time, but we can talk about it more once we get back."

sirin let out a huff of recognition. why did she feel so excited to go out with you once again? what did you do?

the constant questions silenced as you two kept walking, going all the way back to where the hyperion was. you bid each other goodbye, walking away from each other to retire for the night.

"fine then vessel…. maybe i do happen to like them," sirin huffed.