#alprazolam pills

[benzos-world]

Good little pick up

[herokitty1312]

pink xans💗

[goainmyveins]

Fuck off

Ich kann nicht mehr und will nicht mehr

[medsformyhead]

i really want some opiates and benzos.

[drug-love-affair]

900 Xanax bars

& 50 speed pills (not photoed)

[m1nd5c4p3]

[selfmedblves]

Smile for the line!

[benzos-world]

Finally got some more!

[katsy-kitty]

ok I'm gonna be vulnerable for a moment

I'm prescribed Xanax* and while I know it can cause amnesia when taken in too large amounts, what happened yesterday is a bit different

I took one pill in the late evening because I'd only slept for less than 3 hours the night before and wanted to fall sleep earlier and also was feeling anxious. I waited for some time and decided it hadn't done that much of a difference, so I took two more. So, three pills in total - not that much.

Well... I don't really remember going to bed, but:

I woke up in my bed fully clothed - not bad; I sometimes do that even when sober

I left the computer, music, the TV, and the bathroom light on - not THAT hard to imagine; has happened before when sober

I apparently forgot to take my daily evening medication, which is a bit of shame because it improves my sleep quality and also should be taken daily

THERE'S A WHOLE HUGE 1KG PACK OF SALT ON MY DESK IN THE LIVING ROOM

MY BRA IS ON THE KITCHEN COUNTERTOP

THE MILK WAS OUT OF THE FRIDGE EVEN THOUGH I DIDN'T EVEN USE IT (also it was my last one and I doubt it's still good so RIP milk...)

I HAD SOME DRY, USED TEA IN A TEA INFUSER AND NOW IT'S JUST FUCKING ALL OVER THE DISH DRYER AND THE COUNTERTOP FOR SOME REASON

THE MICROWAVE DOOR WAS OPEN BUT I DON'T REMEMBER MICROWAVING ANYTHING (I WOULD have noticed because the light is on in the microwave when the door's open and I have a long corridor leading to the kitchen with the microwave at the end of it - that's how I noticed IN THE MORNING WHEN IT WAS LIGHT, so at night it would be extra visible)

I'd opened a pack of crisps, left one on the countertop and just left the rest OPEN on the countertop without eating almost any of it (I know this one doesn't seem that bad, but I'd never leave crisps wide open because they get stale)

THE SCARY PART: I DON'T REMEMBER ANY OF IT HAPPENING

THANKFULLY, when I checked in the morning, I DIDN'T MAKE ANY TUMBLR POSTS WHILE BEING A ZOMBIE (so all the deranged posts from yesterday are just me)

1.5 year ago, when I was doing reeeaaally badly, I took way more and then went to a birthday party of a person close to me, where I met some of his friends whom I'd only heard about before and had been excited to meet, AND I DON'T REMEMBER ANYTHING ABOUT THAT PARTY OR THE PEOPLE I MET EVEN THOUGH I ACTED AND TALKED NORMALLY AND IT WASN'T APPARENT TO ANYONE THAT I WAS FUNCTIONALLY A FUCKING ZOMBIE. And I cannot ever recover these memories afaik. Do you know how fucking scary it is to not remember what you did the night before? What if I did something reprehensible? What if I was outside and broke the law and got arrested? What if I did something extremely reckless? I DON'T KNOW WHAT KIND OF PERSON I WAS WHEN THIS WAS HAPPENING. I DON'T KNOW IF I WAS MYSELF AND HAD MY NORMAL VALUES AND OPINIONS OR IF I TURN INTO A DIFFERENT KIND OF PERSON. All I know, because someone close to me has told me, is that I am meaner and more egocentric. I DON'T WANT TO BE MEAN

btw for anyone wondering: amnesia IS a legitimate side effect of Xanax and not something specific to me. I'm not sure if all leaflets list it (I'm not in the US), but you can check Wikipedia for more info

*generic Xanax, to be exact, which is the same in effect btw

PS. I don't abuse Xanax anymore and even when I did, it didn't ever any feel-good effects for me; I only used it to numb myself / make myself go to sleep. I don't even see why people use it recreationally (apparently) because if I wasn't extremely anxious, like having a panic attack, it wasn't very helpful or pleasant to take.

All of the above doesn't mean that I am against Xanax. I think it's a great medicine for panic attacks because it (a) works, (b) acts extremely fast for something that's a pill ingested through the mouth.

But it's extremely important that people don't abuse it, and that's why doctors should be responsible when prescribing it and inform patients of the side effects and the harms of abusing it.

Xanax is also very addictive and the addiction is hard to break (not from personal experience this time). And abusing it can lead to long-lasting (I'm not saying "permanent") cognitive impairment even once you've stopped taking it.

[lifewithdrgsaddiction]

2 packs in 3 Tagen gefressen wie smarties ,nun sitzt ich in der in Entzugsklinik seit 3 Tagen und möchte einfach nur noch Sterben ,dies ist meine letzte Chance mein Leben im Griff zu bekommen oder ich sterbe irgendwann an Drogen.

[goainmyveins]

Einfach sich verpissen,sich Tabletten holen und sich bei niemanden melden wird eh nicht auffallen.

[hieristowelie]

(つ✧ω✧)つ

[mywaysthehighway]

Come on xanax hit me

[socialskilledmysanity]

Popping bars is a habit.

So is drinking, smoking, sugar, caffeine, boosting your serotonin with p0rn or anything else that makes u happy

It's all drugs at the end of the day.

But if you talk down on somebody for doing a specific substance (one that isn't as socially accepted as weed perhaps) but at the same time you do (occasionally or frequently) any other addictive substance, If you go as far as blaming them, and thinking you are any better then them for "only snorting a little coke" every once in a while

IM SORRY TO TELL YOU BUT:

U are being delulu, ignorant and hypocritical. Yes, people die off 0piate overdoses.. Yes benz0s have fatal withdrawal symptoms..

and I'm aware it's often just unpleasant to be around people high on these specific class of substances (read my last post about Xanax on my page for further elaboration.)

There's so much I could write about this topic but I don't have the power to do so at the moment.

LONG STORY SHORT:

if you do have a habit, go get help or be safe while chasing it.

If you have friends or family that are addicted. Please encourage them to get help.

If you are either:

DON'T FUCKING BLAME OTHERS. PERIOD.

[sadgrungeworld]

Xanax 2’s

[drug-love-affair]

3 X 30mg hydromorphone (dilaudid)

14 Xanax bars