#allie caulfield

[tequilguy]

caulfields

[evilrobotdog]

Holden and Allie

[rosquinn]

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[gangles-toybox]

I'm not sure why exactly but the way I view Holden is similar to how I view Jax which might be a silly thing to say but..I believe that we will see a softer side to Jax and therefore I believe they're both good honest people who are just trying to survive the situations that life has dealt them the best way they can.

Also the way Jax avoids going to Kaufmo's funeral reminds me of how Holden literally couldn't go to Allie's(though whose to say he would even if he could, if he could handle seeing his body and knowing he's dead) I just..much like Holden, I can't bring myself to hate Jax

[imyoursoftfuzzymann]

here's this terrifically intelligent boy from citr

[cxmembert]

[lifeisabaddream]

Does anybody else feel like Charlie is loosely based off of Holden’s brother Allie? I get that kinda vibe from him.

Reading the Catcher in the Rye

Solitaire makes so much more sense to me now.

[aliceosemansolos]

That scene in The Catcher in the Rye, chapter 25 is so beautiful to me. I'm talking about the scene where Holden crosses the street and he pretends he's talking to Allie. I wish I could call up J.D Sallinger and ask him about Allie. Allie being a symbol of hope for Holden makes me so happy.

[holdens-baseball-mitt]

Reunion.

[fionacle]

THE WAY THE DUCKS REPRESENT HOW HE CANT FUCKING MOVE ON AND HE CARES ABOUT THINGS NO ONE ELSE DOES OR AT LEAST NO ONE ELSE WANTS TO ADMIT IN AND IT MAKES ME CRY

THE WAY NOT GETTING ON THE CAROUSEL AT THE END SHOWS HES FINALLY STARTING TO TRY TO GROW UP

THE WAY HE NOTICES THINGS ABOUT PEOPLE

THE WAY HES SO IMMATURE ABOUT ALL THESE ‘PHONIES’ BUT THE WAY HES KINDA RIGHT

THE WAY HES BI AND AUTISTIC

THE WAY HE CARES BUT HES STILL A BIT OF AN UNFEELING PRICK SOMETIMES BUT THE WAY ITS USUALLY BECAUSE HE CARES TOO MUCH

THE WAY HE HAS SO MUCH CARE IN SUCH AN UNCARING WORLD AND YET ITS SOMEHOW MISINTERPRETED BY EVERYONE HE MEETS AS LACK OF CARE

THE WAY HES DROWNING IN HIS TRAUMA AND HIMSELF AND HE JUST CANT MAKE IT INTO THAT ADULT WORLD

THE WAY HIS ONLY ALLY IS HIS SISTER, AND MAYBE THAT TEACHER TOO I GUESS

THE WAY HES A PATHOLOGICAL LIAR

THE WAY HE CAN BE SO MEAN BUT FEELS SO BAD ABOUT IT BUT THAT DOESNT MAKE HIM ABLE TO STOP

and sorry if this is phrased rude i genuinely don’t mean it that way, but the way everyone just reads the book and says ‘ew he’s such a dick’

Holden Caulfield you’ll be special to me forever ❤️

[inky-snowdrop]

Two Pairs of Star-Crossed Lovers

A Life Is Strange and Until Dawn Oneshot/Poem

Pairings: Chloe Price/Max Caulfield (Pricefield), Chris Hartley/Josh Washington (Climbing Class)

Rating: T (13+)

(canon typical violence)

Originally Posted on Ao3: May 16th, 2019

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Two pairs of star-crossed lovers

See the butterfly drift away with the breeze,

It’s wings beating lightly and without a sound,

Causally and lazily making it’s way out of their view.

Amongst the broken bottles and sweet grass,

Strewn out against the snow and wooden totems,

They laugh and flash toothy grins,

The tiny insect quickly forgotten as the sun begins to set.

Two pairs of star-crossed lovers

Share a past prior to the events that have yet to unfold,

Becoming friends,

Accomplices to each other’s crimes,

As children, no less.

Blue permeates the soul’s of these children;

Two the color of the purest sky reflecting the bay’s water.

The others, an indigo darkness shrouded by fog and smoke

Hidden high in the mountains.

Two pairs of star-crossed lovers,

Guardians of the light in the human spirit

And the darkness in the human soul.

Two within the past,

Changing what could not be changed

And visiting planes of reality not yet discovered nor explored by humankind.

Magic, the most pure and yet deadly kind, is their ally.

Two predicting the future,

Choices that seem small and insignificant

Carving into the lives of every person upon the accursed land.

Not magic, oh no.

Curses linger near, always watching, always listening.

Ghosting across the physical and mental worlds like a disease ready to take hold.

Two pairs of star-crossed lovers,

From across the harbor and into the town,

Filled with a sticky heat and the smell of fire making love to the Earth,

Comes a celestial being and her magnificent gifts.

Powerful is she,

Auburn hair angular and good,

Time and space lingering upon her fingers.

She knows not how this power came to be hers,

And yet it still chose her.

Her other,

For there is always another,

Is a fallen angel,

Giant wings of butterfly blue growing from her spine and drifting into her hair to ravage wildly about her pale face.

They, the chosen and her angel, embody the world of the past,

Bravely trusting Fate herself to bring their dreams of being together to the light of day.

Sadly, Fate tends to have a sense of humor.

Two pairs of star-crossed lovers,

Hailing from the frost lands of the North,

Where it is not uncommon for men, women, and children to betray their human nature,

A puppeteer watches quietly from the shadows as his trap has been laid.

Revenge plays heavily upon his string pulled mind,

Smile charming and deceiving, eyes shining and full of suffering,

None can see behind the laughs;

None can see the hatred that boils within.

Mistake number one.

The other,

Trusting and naive,

Hopelessly in love though destiny dictates otherwise,

Can read through the strings and gauze of his partener like one might read a book.

A ghost of his former body,

Sorrow binding and chaining him down to the Earth as he desperately claws for breath though he cannot give up hope;

He must never rest.

For what friend (what partener) would he be if he abandoned the puppeteer now?

Mistake number two.

Two pairs of star-crossed lovers,

Each trapped forever,

In a never ending cycle of

What is,

What was, and

What will be.

Or, perhaps the most daunting of all,

What COULD be.

All four trapped in a web of their own design,

The vibrant azule wings that once held the aloft ripped and mangled at their feet.

All four embracing the storm that howls and shrieks at them,

Faces flushed from fear of the unknown and voices hoarse from screaming back at the wild rain and snow.

All four bonding through a love created in the innocence of childhood that was cultivated and fed as they aged;

The effects of their death-marked love not only echoing about their bedrooms with sighs and gasps, but also out into other places and other realities that go on forever.

All four sharing an early grave;

Hair wet and lips cracked and bleeding;

A concussed head and crushed limbs, if not completely ripped from their original homes.

Two pairs of star-crossed lovers,

Destinies changing as rapidly as the wind changes course.

And as the storm dies, the screeching lowering to a hum during the afterglow of it’s rage,

It takes with it the souls of two of the children, their bodies physically broken or mutated beyond repair

And it takes the remaining children’s spirits, leaving them behind sobbing and hallowed remains of the people they used to be.

Forever craving,

Forever yearning,

Forever alone.

Two pairs of star-crossed lovers

Await the beat of the butterfly’s wings

As the sun begins to rise,

Praying that the storm that will soon follow will not be their last.

And,

If it is,

Try to find solace in each other’s arms

One last time.

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[alley-roses]

okay so I'd like to make a case for why holden caulfield is actually a likable character

first and foremost is the fact that he's incredibly vulnerable, he doesn't have the narrative voice he does because he's annoying or just a bad person - he's a child who's traumatised. throughout the book it becomes very obvious that holden has no support system. and yes, to be fair, that is partially his fault because he is a self isolating and self alienating character, but that is a direct response to him not wanting to get hurt (will expand on later). i'd specifically like to point out the lack of support he has from his family. a quote that stuck with me quite seriously is from chapter chapter 20 when holden is at central park, imagining that he is going to die and how his family would react. he says "I felt sorry as hell for my mother and father. Especially my mother because she still isn't over my brother Allie yet." holden is extremely aware of the people around him, and whilst he may often come to dubious conclusions from his observations (he is the unreliable narrator, afterall), I'd argue that this time it's a reasonable and likely true observation. allie's death affected holden directly, but it also affected the rest of his family, thus affecting him indirectly as-well. to further this point, regardless of whether allie's death affected how emotionally available holden's parents could be for him, they have a rocky relationship regardless. (in reference to his mother) "She bought me the wrong kind of skates - I wanted racing skates and she bought hockey - but it made me sad anyway." (chapt. seven) now I get that this could seem insignificant at first, his mother got him the wrong skates, so what - he sounds ungrateful. but really this quote symbolises the miscommunication between holden and his mother. whilst his mother wants to understand holden, she's probably struggling to do so. this then stems outward, as throughout the book, holden feels as if no one understands him at all. holden's father doesn't come up as much, but from what is mentioned, they don't seem to connect a lot either. in reality, it seems that the only people in his family that holden feels connected to is his brother D.B. and his little sister, pheobe. but of course, holden still limits himself with D.B. because he assumes/perceives phoniness in him (+ there's the physical distance and practicality issues with them communicating). and whilst pheobe does have a positive impact on holden, she's still just a very young child and would realistically not be able to (and shouldn't be made to) help holden process his own struggles. so it is established that holden has no support system. this alone, paired with the fact that he is only sixteen and navigating an undeniably difficult transition into adulthood already makes him vulnerable, but what makes it worse? the fact that he has unprocessed trauma and grief surrounding the death of his younger brother, allie. personally, i'd argue that allie is what the whole book comes back to, constantly. holden idealised allie (and continues to throughout the present setting of the book) as innocence personified, and as this amazingly kind and intelligent person. and then he died. this was something incredibly unfair, and obviously there wouldn't be any reason for it, something that'd make it incredibly hard for a thirteen year old to process. basically, at thirteen, this was holden's first insight into the adult world, where things happen out of your control, even if they're unfair. this is also likely the first time holden took to isolating himself as a coping mechanism "I slept in the garage the night he died," (chapt. 5), inferring that holden's unhealthy self-isolation stems from this trauma, which I think is something we should have sympathy for.

however, despite being self isolating, holden does try and connect to people, it's just that he has a tendency to foil those relationships (usually because he is reaching out to people who are completely mismatched to him) e.g. carl luce and sally hayes. still, I think the relationships established at the start of the book are more significant. with stradlater, holden really tried to be friends with him. he defended him to ackley, even though he himself thought of stradlater as a vain womaniser, and he wrote a composition for him, despite not having to. it was only when stradlater was ungrateful in respect to the composition that holden wrote, not knowing that it was about his dead brother, in which holden reached his breaking point with stradlater. ackley is quite the contrast to stradlater, though. he's generally disliked/a loner, and holden doesn't sound very forgiving of him initially, but the way holden acts suggests sympathy towards ackley. yes, he's cold with him, but he does let him stick around (despite having many gripes about ackley's poor hygiene or lack of room-reading skills), because he wouldn't want ackley to be lonely - because holden himself is lonely, and there are more similarities between holden and ackley in that sense than holden would likely be willing to admit. jane gallagher also comes up whilst holden is still at pencey, and she's unique because she's the first person we're introduced to who holden feels positively about for the whole novel. but there are only two really significant reasons why holden likes her. the first is that she's someone whom holden can actually relate to, she's gaurded and won't be vulnerable with people she hasn't known for a long time; "Ask her if she still keeps all her kings in the back row" (chapt. 4) shows her reservation. the other reason why holden likes her so much is because he views her as innocent, and innocence is the one thing holden values and wants to protect. this becomes evident when holden recalls a time she cried infront of him, and he began to kiss her tears away, but wouldn't (and jane wouldn't let him, either) kiss her mouth. this theme becomes more prevalent throughout the book as holden is very nice to children, all the while resisting his transition into adulthood because he doesn't want to lose his own innocence (or, lose any more of it) and lose sight of what's important to him. I think a lot of people take issue with holden's incessant complaints about phoniness, but the truth is, he's only scared of becoming phony/an adult because he thinks he'll forget about allie if he does. his issue with phoniness isn't necessarily that people are being fake: [at a movie theatre] "She had this little kid with her that was bored as hell and had to go to the bathroom, but she wouldn't take him. She kept telling him to sit still and behave himself. She was about as kindhearted as a goddamn wolf." (chapt. 18) holden thinks movies are phony because he sees people get emotional over them whilst ignoring real issues. in this case, a mother is prioritising the movie over her son, and holden worries that if he engages in 'phony' activities such as movie-watching, that he'll no longer care about allie. and right now, he cares a lot. ultimately, the point i'm making is that holden has a lot of positive traits that are seldom acknowledged, but you have to look beyond the surface of his character to recognise them.

the other point i'd like to make about holden is that he's a tragic character. even if you ignore the fact that he's a child who was made to grieve his younger brother's death at the age of thirteen, life is repeatedly slapping him in the face. the entire book is him trying desperately to find meaning in life, and struggling. in school he's completely unable to connect to any of his class-mates, or the subject material. instead of anyone trying to understand and deal with this problem, his parents just constantly send him to school after school after school. holden's self-esteem is non-existent and he constantly thinks he'd be better off dead. he is constantly let down by adults in his life, a glaring example being mr. antolini, the one adult holden liked and thought he could trust. holden is so isolated and lonely that it eventually builds up to a mental health crisis that leaves him admitted to a sanatorium. sure, he's a rich kid who likes to complain, but he's also been dealt a really tragic deck of cards.

anyway, uhh... i think i'm done, though I probably missed a lot.

[hopesanddreams15]

"Every time I got to the end of a block and stepped off the goddam curb, I had this feeling that I'd never get to the other side of the street. I thought I'd just go down, down, down, and nobody'd ever see me again. Then I started doing something else. Every time I'd get to the end of a block I'd make believe I was talking to my brother Allie. I'd say to him: 'Allie, don't let me disappear. Allie, don't let me disappear. Allie, don't let me disappear. Please, Allie.'"

Holden Caulfield, The Catcher in the Rye

[gangles-toybox]

it's me i'm the catcher in the rye 2023 (2024 soon) fandom i love the way you talk about holden you have the realest thoughts how are you

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!! THE CATCHER IN THE RYE FANDOM EXISTS STILL?? OMGG GUYS THIS IS A MOMENT IN HISTORY!!

but fr thank you so so much!! :D it means a lot when ppl like my silly lil thoughts on a character from a book from like the '50s hehe

I'm doing quite good myself thank you!! As a little treat, I will provide some headcanon fodder:

Holden loves to go see scary movies for 2 reasons:

1(fake/edgy reason): they show how messed up the world really is and how you can never trust people...damn phonies

2(real reason): he just likes feeling something other than emptiness for once...plus if Stradlater's there with him, he likes seeing how scared he is out of his mind and making fun of him for it.

Also!! I saw you liked my agere headcanon for Holden and I just imagine his age regression is just like him sitting there, in his hat, thinking about life and then it just hits him like a ton of bricks and he's like

:0

Also he doesn't have a lot not only cuz #embarrassment + it just generally being the late 40s/early 50s but one of his favorite things in the whole wide world is probably like a stuffed animal that Allie got him when he was little. He probably got one from D.B too but he threw it away after...yk...

He clings onto this stuffed animal for dear life, especially if he does something to trigger a memory from his trauma. Now, what animal is this? I'm not entirely sure...it would have to be "scary" enough to not be seen as *entirely* weird for a 16 soon to be 17 year old still having it, but also cute enough to still bring him comfort and joy. Maybe like a bat or something, since OH MY GOD I JUST LOOKED IT UP AND BATMAN HAS EXISTED AINCE 1939??? Yea it's definatelllyyy a bat Holden loves batman because edgy.

Anyways-getting back on topic-if anybody ever caught him while he was age regressed I feel like he would just try to hide under the covers or try to respond harshly as he normally does. However, if he's deep into it, his voice might still reflect his age regressed age and he might get made fun of for it :(

Maybe Stradlater wouldn't? After he got used to it of course.

Uh...but yea!! Thank you for the ask and allowing me to braindump...more.

[imyoursoftfuzzymann]

holds and phoeb

[agentmarcuspike]

▶ TOP FIRST WATCHES

rules: post 9 of your favorite films you saw for the first time this year that aren’t new (2023/2024) but are new to you and tag 9 others to do the same

ahhh @pedropeach @guiltyasdave please don’t trust my taste in movies but thank you for tagging me :’)

didn’t watch nearly enough movies for the amount of time i’ve had on my hands. (or read enough books but that is another story entirely.) ended up with the annoying number 98 but i think it might be wrong because i did for example watch the “new” grinch movie but since i couldn’t tell you what happened in it it didn’t feel right to count it. anyway! started the year with a buuuunch of great watches and here are nine of them!

The Good Girl (2002) dir. Miguel Arteta — A discount store clerk strikes up an affair with a stock boy who considers himself the incarnation of Holden Caulfield.

Nomadland (2020) dir. Chloé Zhao — A woman in her sixties embarks on a journey through the western United States after losing everything in the Great Recession, living as a van-dwelling modern-day nomad.

Inside Out (2015) dir. Pete Docter — When 11-year-old Riley moves to a new city, her Emotions team up to help her through the transition. Joy, Fear, Anger, Disgust, and Sadness work together, but when Joy and Sadness get lost, they must journey through unfamiliar places to get back home.

I Used To Be Funny (2023) dir. Ally Pankiw — Sam is a young stand-up comedian and au pair struggling with PTSD, who is weighing whether or not to join the search for Brooke, a missing girl she used to nanny.

Casablanca (1942) dir. Michael Curtiz — In Casablanca, Morocco in December 1941, a cynical American expatriate meets a former lover, with unforeseen complications.

The Fallout (2021) dir. Megan Park — In the wake of a school tragedy, Vada, Mia, and Quinton form a unique and dynamic bond as they navigate the never linear, often confusing journey to heal in a world that feels forever changed.

Spider-Man: Into the Spiderverse (2018) dir. Persochetti, Ramsey — Struggling to find his place in the world while juggling school and family, Brooklyn teenager Miles Morales is unexpectedly bitten by a radioactive spider and develops unfathomable powers just like the one and only Spider-Man. While wrestling with the implications of his new abilities, Miles discovers a super collider created by the madman Wilson “Kingpin” Fisk, causing others from across the Spider-Verse to be inadvertently transported to his dimension.

Black Bear (2020) dir. Lawrence Michael Levine — At a remote lake house in the Adirondack Mountains, a couple entertains an out-of-town guest looking for inspiration in her filmmaking. The group quickly falls into a calculated game of desire, manipulation, and jealousy, unaware of how dangerously intertwined their lives will soon become.

Pretty Woman (1990) dir. Garry Marshall — While on a business trip in Los Angeles, Edward Lewis, a millionaire entrepreneur who makes a living buying and breaking up companies, picks up a sex worker, Vivian, while asking for directions; after, Edwards hires Vivian to stay with him for the weekend to accompany him to a few social events, and the two get closer only to discover there are significant hurdles to overcome as they try to bridge the gap between their very different worlds.