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Jing Yuan's "It's hard to discard one's past" line during Yukong's mission fell on me with the weight of a tombstone
#It's been several days and I'm still thinking about that line#And the weight it carries when it comes to Jing Yuan himself‚ of course‚ but also Dan Heng and Blade#How the line works for the two of them in opposite ways and yet how it's true in both cases#God I love him so much#Unfair that he isn't my favourite character#He checks all the boxes. The place was carved for him‚ and yet#And yet haha#So often it feels life is but a never-ending flow of carefully crafted expectations‚ goals‚ schemes‚ intentions and objectives#all unravelled by 'and yet'#And so often it feels mastering the 'and yets' is the key to success more than methodically planning#But I am rambling incessantly again#And about unrelated nothingness#I don't know how I always end up doing this ugh#At this point it could be considered my main skill#I talk too much#Sorry if this appears in the general tag for real. I don't know what to do at this point to organise things in my blog#It's over fifteen tags. It shouldn't appear. It used to not appear ugh#Jing Yuan
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listen there really was just something about how in the book, snow’s 3-page descent from hesitant lover boy to deluded mfer happens entirely in his mind. lucy gray gives him no indication whatsoever that she suspects him, that she’s going to leave or betray him. he’s just sitting quietly in the cabin waiting for her to return when that seed of calculated suspicion, which he has needed to survive the capitol, takes a hold of him and chokes the life out of any goodness left inside him. it really drives home your terror as a reader that “oh my god did he kill her? did she escape? what happened to her? why would he even think that?” in a way that when the movie had to adjust for visualization it lost some of that holy shit this guy has lost it emphasis.
#seeing some discourse and im not saying lucy grey didnt know#im saying she never dropped the kind of hints that she knew like she did in the movie#or if she did snow isnt worried about them until he very suddenly is consumed by them#snow is not concerned about whether or not she believed him. of course she did! hes snow!#but then shes gone…. for a while……#and its the sudden immediate drastic unravelling that comes across so clearly in the book#that i knew wouldn’t translate to screen yet still cant help but miss#the hunger games#coriolanus snow#tbosas#lucy gray baird#not a crime or anything just a note that i cannot stop thinking about#the ballad of songbirds and snakes#this is all from memory of reading it quite a while ago. so maybe 3 pages is an exaggeration#but i remember it happening VERY quickly and without much external cause#like we as the reader have no indication as to whether shes nearby or not.#snow has no idea either. he just SUSPECTS. and his suspicion breeds the hatred that has been bubbling inside him all this time#he hates how she undoes him. he hates that he WOULD run away with her if shed let him keep his secrets#and he HATES more than anything that she makes him WANT to tell his secrets#he wants to be vulnerable and reveal the ugly nasty parts about himself and still be loved#but he does not let himself and it is everyone’s downfall#he chooses cruelty bc it is easy and familiar and makes him feel more powerful than the vulnerable give and take that real love requires
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the most difficult thing about growing as a person socially, as in getting out of your shell and noticing that you are, is that there will still be times when it doesn’t feel like you’ve grown at all! times when you can’t really connect with anyone around you, times when you fail to enter into an existing conversation, times when you say the wrong thing (or nothing at all when in hindsight you probably should’ve). but that’s also kind of the best thing, because that’s the thing that helps you realize that sometimes, it’s not you or your lack of skills or any shortcoming. sometimes certain environments just aren’t for you and certain people aren’t your people, and that’s okay. that’s human. it’s okay to not feel the progress you have made all the time.
#and that goes for every type of growth#backstory of this post:#after I came back after a few months of doing my international internship I felt so much more confident#it was easier making friends and walking up to people#i took more chances#and generally just heard it a lot from those around me who kept telling me how much i’d changed#this was further supported by my first office job that went pretty well#but then came my grad internship. and while i love the work and have met some great people I noticed it was difficult again#there was one office lunch where no one spoke to me at all! it was my first week and I didn’t know what to say#if i should even say anything#we were all sitting at the same table#not one person even glanced my way#it made me doubt myself; i was doing so well before#was that even real? why can’t I just speak up? this is not the way to connect with people#especially in my first week!#but you know what#i was still doing well. i just had to factor in the fact that these were all middle aged people talking about reality shows i didn’t watch#and bikes i knew nothing about#as well as people who knew i was the new intern yet didn’t speak to me at all even though I’d introduced myself to them all individually#and even so#people I couldn’t really talk to about MY interests outside of work either#my point being:#it’s okay to not feel a connection with everyone you meet#it’s okay to fall back into old habits even though you’ve developed new ones#it will never unravel the process you’ve made and the connections you’ve built#you’re doing fine#after this internship I will surround myself with people who reaffirm that belief#growth in the self#self love#positivity
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iceman + his concern for maverick post-hop 31
#icemav#top gun edit#ice is a FASCINATING one to watch post-hop 31 imo because while yes‚ obviously‚ the focus is on maverick and his grief and devastation#ice is there the whole time in the background‚ watching. and he's visibly disturbed by what he's seeing. because yeah -#he and mav had a rivalry going and yeah he called maverick dangerous and reckless to his face and he stands by that - he does.#but the problem is that this time - this one fluke freak accident of a time - it wasn't maverick's fault at all.#an unrecoverable flat spin brought on by a compressor stall from ice's jetwash isn't something that maverick could've outflown#by sticking to textbook maneuvers. it was just shit luck and shitty circumstances aligning to create a tragic mishap.#but now - now ice can see the way maverick is unraveling in the aftermath#and i'd bet that on some level it terrifies him to see that.#he's used to seeing maverick with all that brash cocky confidence with the moves to back it up.#he's maybe even had a bit of fun jockeying against that. not that he'd admit that out loud. (yet)#but maverick's spiraling now - a hollowed out shell of his former self - leaking grief and self-doubt and despair everywhere he goes#and it actually hurts to look at for ice‚ seeing maverick like this. seeing how much maverick really REALLY fucking cared under that facade#and wondering if maverick is finally taking the stuff ice said to him to heart‚ but applying it all wrong.#so he watches maverick and eventually that concern builds to a point where he tries to offer an olive branch in the locker room#you can SEE how carefully he gathers himself - how much he's holding back - he doesn't want to say the wrong thing to maverick NOW#he doesn't want to make this worse than it already is. so it comes out stilted. it's earnest - but restrained. he can't find his footing.#he doesn't know where he and maverick stand now but he's sorry - that goose is gone‚ that maverick's going through this‚#that he doesn't know how to help or what to say‚ and - crucially - for his own part in this.#but he wants mav to stick around and push through this. even though he's dangerous. even though he's reckless. ice wants him to beat this.#so when maverick shows up to graduation‚ ice is encouraged. and he's a little warmer. maverick really might pull through.#but then‚ all too soon‚ it's ice's life on the line in maverick's hands. and it scares the shit out of him because maverick's not ready#and now ice - and slider - are going to have to pay the price for that.#and then‚ against all odds‚ maverick pushes through. he comes back for them. he comes back for ice.#and after that...well.#after that‚ ice does know what to say: a vow.#my amvs#linds original
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For some reason whenever I start thinking about post canon Rookanis, I keep thinking about Crimson Peak and I think that's because there's some huge potential for major Gothic Horror going on here. One of the enduring traits of gothic fiction is that there's something wrong with the house (the supernatural element essentially, hauntings, ghosts, etc) because there's something wrong with the family and boy is there a whole hell of a lot wrong with the Dellamortes.
Rook makes for a fitting gothic heroine naively joining this really fucked up family and culture because every Rook other then a de Riva really doesn't know much about how the Crows really operate and has gotten a very skewed view into their world dealing with Teia and Viago acting as patriotic freedom fighter, and no Rook would really know the full extent of Lucanis' very messed up family dynamics because that man does not talk about his trauma, so Rook is walking into a nightmare blind. And that's just the political and family drama, imagine how much more interesting it could get with an element of the supernatural because magic, ghosts, and hauntings are all a thing in dragon age.
The Veil usually gets really thin in places where a lot of blood has been spilled and how many people do you think have died in the ancestral home of a house of assassins? How many members of the Dellamortes do you think died inside there as a result of Crow infighting and in particular Caterina's bid to remain First Talon? How much pain and suffering mark its halls from the generational trauma of the systematic physical, psychological, and emotional abuse required to turn children into trained killers? If there was anywhere perfectly primed for a haunting, its Villa Dellamorte.
And wouldn't an upset and angry spirit seeing how miserable this terrible place is making its two favorite people be a perfect way to stir up the ghosts haunting the halls? I just think it would be fun for Spite being the unwitting source of all the supernatural problems because he's so pissed about Lucanis and Rook continuing to make themselves miserable by trying to make living in Villa Dellamorte work and accidentally bringing the literal ghosts of Dellamorte past to life
Anyways, I want to make a Caterina to face all that she lost holding onto a title that is going to end up dying with her because Lucanis was never going to be who she wanted him to be and made Illario so like her he ruined any chance he had to take her place as First Talon. I want Caterina to reckon with the literal ghosts of her past and realize everything she did was meaningless in the end. That she lost and ruined her family for nothing and all she has left are two broken boys that she destroyed herself and a crumbling, dying House.
I definitely want Lucanis to break the cycle of generational trauma and leave but I can't decide what to do with Illario because I do think that the guy deserves a win and should get a happy or at least bittersweet ending but the idea of Caterina being stuck with the disgraced grandson she ignored and will never be able to properly hold onto the title she fought so hard for and sacrificed so much for because he tried to make himself too much like her could also be really interesting because Illario mirrors Caterina enough that he might just remain stuck in the familial trauma cycle with her
#i'm imagining this all with my watcher rook in specific who is not at all freaked out about the actual ghosts and haunting#but is focused way more on unraveling the why of what's going on to put it to rest bc thats her job#and then uncovering in parallel exactly how fucked up lucanis and illario's childhoods were and starting to get why they're Like That#and all this is on top of dealing with caterina as the grandmother in law from hell and she hasn't even married lucanis yet#which is another whole Thing bc its like Caterina can't decide whether Rook is totally unsuitable for Lucanis#OR she's badgering them about getting married and giving her great grandbabies to carry on the dellamorte name#jokes on Caterina though because if rookanis has any kids they're going to be Ingellvars and so is Lucanis bc he's taking his wife's name#probably going to make another post on this about my rook in specific bc these tumblr posts are really helping me sort out my fic ideas#rook#lucanis dellamorte#caterina dellamorte#illario dellamorte#rookanis#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#datv#the first gothic novel was italian so doing a gothic style story in fantasy italy seems really fitting too
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uh oh
#the cat witchs guild#the misc adventures of mochi and lime#tcwg#tmaomal#mochi#lime#limochi#spice#art#ocs#original#brain fog lime#all kinds of thoughts#he is for real seconds away from acting up#is this the seduction tactics? was his last coherent thought#its not. its just mochi hanging out#(you cant be this sexy and expect me to control myself) he thinks#he falls into this mindspace at least once a day its a miracle he hasnt unraveled yet
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gareth david-lloyd is such a wonderful voice actor. i keep rethinking of his reading of the line "i will always go where you go." and it sounds so resigned and pained, like already solas knows he is going down a path that will lead to death and horror but his friend needs him, the people need him. they need his wisdom and guidance, and he knows taking on a physical form will not only be his undoing, but that of the world as he knows it. but still he goes, because duty comes above all.
#he sounds so sad and defeated in all those cutscenes#the way he played it as if solas already knew due to his true nature that this would all lead to ruin#and yet he foolishly hoped it'd be different. perhaps benevolence turned retribution would see his reason and support him#and all he was met with were platitudes as his true nature twisted and rotted into pride#like when he tells mythal perhaps she would prefer to join him and live as free spirits again because the blight is unraveling#and she placates him first by starting with i always come when my friends need me (when he says he wasnt sure if she'd arrive)#and then she tries to placate him again by using the word 'love' and her va is amazing too because the way she says it#the way a mother would console a crying child and tell them there is no monster under the bed#and it's slightly patronizing too in a way. saying he's wrong and she knows better#and once again he quells his own nature of wisdom even when he argues that he wishes he could believe her but he /senses/ the wards undone#and he sounds so tired. but hes made his promises to her and who is he not to keep them?#his slightly horrified voice when he speaks of having no desire to live as a physical being. :(#dragon age thoughts#solas dragon age#datv spoilers#gareth david lloyd
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xxxHolic Chapter 83
OH this Watanuki cover! Star eyes.
The overlapping ripples on the surface of the water? Like changes in the timeline? Like the water in the Reservoir, which Watanuki helped provide?
And Watanuki being both above and below the ripples at the same time! Sometimes they fall into the background behind him. Sometimes they flow clearly over him. Sometimes they blend into his clothing as if they’re the shadows of other ripples we can’t see, sometimes they meld with him, becoming part of his hair. Sometimes they overwrite him completely, making his hands partially disappear. It’s a wonderful echo of Watanuki existing inbetween the changes to the universe. The changes to the timeline have resulted in his existence, but he wasn't meant to be more than a ripple that would eventually flatten out and disappear. And at the moment time itself is not currently stable, and so neither is Watanuki.
Oh and the goldfish that are only visible as shadows? Kind of like the spirits Watanuki can see - but also like fragments of people that don’t really exist?
Or is it that Watanuki is like the goldfish too? We can’t see the original goldfish here, but we see the shadow that’s being cast - and the shadow is real. Like Watanuki is a shadow of Lava Lamp, and the other clone people are echoes of the people they were intended to copy. And they’re not those people, but they’re living shadows that are still real and exist, just like Watanuki.
You could also get some mileage out the fact that he’s upside down, since he's a living mirror image - an actual reflection of someone else that could be standing above this pool of water that we just can't see.
And it's especially interesting with Watanuki under water, since Lava Lamp made the wish that created Watanuki IN the Reservoir. The drama in the Reservoir is the point at which Watanuki began, which makes it all the more meaningful that the reason the water exists in the first place is because he helped put it there. Making Watanuki both a ripple in the water AND the cause of the ripple at the same time.
#Oh I love my noodle son#We haven’t even hit page 1 yet#I am already overwhelmed with emotion#(So an ordinary day then)#Not liveblogging the reservoir chronicle#xxxHolic#Xxxholic 83#Watanuki#Watanuki as a reflection of a person#Take away the water and he’s not there at all#But the water IS there and so he’s real#And the water is there BECAUSE he exists#Timeline shenanigans aside do you think that’s partially why Yuuko had him do it?#To close the loop on his existence and make him more real?#If Watanuki put the water and the water is a central part of the timeline#Then the universe can’t delete Watanuki without deleting the Reservoir#If he’s the one that put it there the universe can’t erase him without unravelling all the changes that ever happened#Which may have been a gamble but one that seems to be paying off
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I don’t think I can even remember seeing one singular post about antisemitism since 10/7 (and I’ve seen a lot) that wasn’t met with outright doubt (“has this actually happened to anyone?”), suspicion (“weird that OP hasn’t said anything about X in this post that isn’t about X, must secretly mean something about what they think that they’re not telling us, and it must be bad” or attempts at moral slander to delegitimize whatever incident the person was talking about (…as if OP being a shitbag in whatever way suits your fancy would make the antisemitism okay? …Do you scream racial slurs at transphobes and the like too? Do you think bigotry stops being bigotry or becomes okay if a person “deserves” it? Do you think bigotry can be earned?)
And if the thing being talked about is something like… a worldwide problem tons of Jews all over have been dealing with and talking to each other about, there’s always someone who asks the OP for the burden of proof, when it’s either an easily google-able thing, (from synagogue shootings, to magen davids being banned at pride events and general feelings of being unwelcome from queer Jews, to the hate-crime rape of a 12 year old, to harassment of Jews from college protestors) or in the most annoying cases, said proof/example is sometimes even just sitting in the comments of the same damn post for any old idiot to see with their eyes.
…Do other minority groups normally get this level of straight up disbelief over our experiences from the very people who claim to stand against the kinds of things we’ve experienced and are experiencing, or do people just make a special exception for us?
#jumblr#Like yeah sure buddy a whole ass ethnic group all across the world just one day decided to stop posting about our actual interests#to collectively make up some shit to support a war pretty much none of us want to be happening#to benefit a government few of us have a positive opinion of#in a country that like half us us don’t live in have never been to and potentially never will.#(Unless of course you allow things to escalate to the point where we need to escape yet again.)#You did it! You unraveled the one conspiracy about the Jews that is like totally real this time guys!#Here’s a cookie. You can eat it while I tell you about this secret council of lizard people that control the media and have space lasers#ch.txt
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My Thoughts on Poppy Playtime Chapter 3
Ollie is ADORABLE!!!! "No ouchies or lost body parts?" HE'S A BABY I NEED TO PROTECT!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!! (¬‿¬) I have ZERO evidence for this but my theory is he’s The Prototype.
I’m REALLY happy to see the phone Ollie calls the player on is identical to the one in Project: Playtime! It’s nice seeing stuff introduced in Project: Playtime finally appear in the main series.
( ⚆_⚆ ) ESPECIALLY DR. HARLEY SAWYER!!!! WOW THE TAPE FEATURING HIM TALKING TO THE PROTOTYPE WAS DARK!!!! I knew a man like Dr. Sawyer would be a sick and twisted individual since he created the Bigger Bodies Initiative.
Despite that I was NOT prepared to hear the joy in his voice to experiment on children. It was revolting.
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This exchange:
Prototype: "You stick us. Beat us. Tear at flesh. Do you feel it?"
Dr. Sawyer: "There is a secret inside you, 1006. Valuable beyond all measure. I cut and prod and burn at it, and I get closer with each session . . . So speak, or don't. Fight, or give in. Regardless, I learn something new about you every day . . . (Laughs) It excites me!"
Prototype: "Thank you."
Dr. Sawyer: "You . . . thank me?"
Prototype: "Absolutely. I learn something new about you every day."
THAT FINAL LINE WHEN THE PROTOTYPE IS MIMICKING DR. SAWYER'S VOICE AHHHHHH!!!!
_| ̄|○ I WANNA KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO DR. SAWYER SO BADDDDD!!!!!! He wasn’t around for The Hour of Joy but I hope he suffered.
Leith Pierre: "Normally I'd have Dr. Sawyer do this but he's uhhh . . . out, let's say. So you got me until they find his replacement."
(o ´ _ ` )o The contrast between how Dr. Sawyer speaks to the experiments VS Leith Pierre the Head of Innovation at Playtime Co.
Both dehumanize the experiments in different ways.
Leith Pierre can’t even bother remembering Catnap's real name. He puts on this fake friendly facade. Referring to Catnap as his Pal and Buddy. It's so disingenuous.
Especially when he asks, "Heya Theo! How ya doin' bud?" Pierre could care less about how Catnap feels. It's only when Catnap responds, "The Prototype will save us." That gets Pierre to finally drops the corporate spiel. Admitting to what this place is. Catnap’s prison.
No wonder Catnap worshipped The Prototype after being save when this is what he’s told about his horrific situation.
Leith Pierre: "THIS is your life now. Get used to it."
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I absolutely LOVED all the new features for the Grab Pack. The air jet looked SO FUN!!!! Watching people desperately shoot the flare gun against smiling critters in a cramped space WAS SO INTENSE!!! The smiling critter's small growls and whimpers made me sad.
(ʃƪ 〃’▽’〃)♡ The horror in this chapter was INCREDIBLE!!!! While I had fun playing Chapter 2 I remember feeling disappointed by the scares.
CHAPTER THREE HAD ME HORRIFIED!!!! EVERY JUMP SCARE HAD ME FLYING OUT MY CHAIR, THE ATMOSPHERE WAS AMAZING AND AHHHHH THE HOME ORPHANAGE SECTION!!!!!
It reminded me of PT ∑(; °_°) Especially with the radio informing us that in Elliot Ludwig's house it was discovered he HAD THE BODY OF A CHILD IN A DUFFLE BAG!!?!?!?!?!?!
ALSO THAT ONE RADIO'S REVERSE MESSAGE!!!
"8-8-1995 I find your presence intrusive. After all this time you return. You come in here and yet you kill and murder. You pilate and destroy. Your presence was demanded 10 years ago and yet you didn't show up . . . 8-8-1995 You were supposed to be here. Why weren't you here? You missed the event. You missed the meeting. You missed the party. You have no right to be here . . ."
AHHHHHH MOBGAMES KNEW WHAT THEY WERE DOING WITH THE LIGHTING IN THIS SCENE!!!!!
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I thought I was going to see MY BOY 😭💔!!!!!!
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Huggy Wuggy is completely fine.
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Kissy Missy was so sad and adorable in this chapter. Seeing her stare at the picture and hug herself BROKE MY HEART ( o̴̶̷᷄ _ o̴̶̷̥᷅ )!!! She deserves the world.
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Catnap acting like a child and avoiding school 😭💔
Miss Delight was a minor spoiler I knew about since people used her face in their thumbnail. However I was NOT prepared for her to act like a Coil-Head!!!!
Theodore being described as antisocial and having a peculiar relationship with an imaginary friend _(:ì」∠)_.
That “imaginary” friend being The Prototype. Who guided Theodore to help them both escape. Only for Theodore to get electrocuted since he was just a child who didn't know how to safely use a Grabpack.
The Prototype throwing away their chance to escape to save Theodore by bringing him to the staff. Showing The Prototype does care in some way.
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Only for Theodore to be later turned Catnap.
THEN the player electrocutes Catnap the SAME way Theodore originally received his injuries. The Prototype comes to “save” Theodore once again but this time by making Catnap a part of him AND CATNAP ACCEPTS SO WILLINGLY (˃ ⌑ ˂ഃ )!!!!
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It felt like I was watching a religious experience.
I love Poppy Playtime but I do think they show too much in their trailers. Dog day is a great example but even then his scene was *chef kiss*
All the smiling critters crawling inside Dogday as he desperately screamed in agony and for us to run away left me speechless.
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I liked the detail of Dogday calling us angel. I'm excited to see all the AUs people create where we save him.
ALSO THE HOUR OF JOY WAS A BLAST TO WATCH!!!!!
I know Poppy is right that it was just senseless slaughter. How all that death didn't fix or help anyone. Especially when it didn't matter if those killed were innocent or not.
However imagining these characters being painfully experimented on and stripped of their autonomy. Going though years of hell and finally reaching their breaking point. It's hard to not feel good for them getting to release that anger. Even if I know it's wrong.
ALSO I GOT TO SEE MY SECOND FAVORITE CHARACTER BOXY BOO YAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!
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THERE WAS SOOOOO MUCH HUGGY WUGGY IMAGERY IN THIS CHAPTER AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
I'M GOING TO OVER THINK IT!!!!!! I HAVE NO THEORIES I’M JUST POINTING DETAILS OUT!!!!!!
When hallucinating Huggy Wuggy's face is on the employee training video:
“Join the Innovationists, where the bounds of science are continuously pushed. Or join the Counselors of Playcare, whose diligence and care for our children will help shape a brighter future, just you see.”
“Now every one of you has your part in that future, so should you come back tomorrow feeling unhappy for where you are, or what you’ve done . . . worry not, for your supervisor is here and happy to listen! And . . . should you come back . . . years later . . . your conscience finally getting the better of you. May you descend into the dark and the dust, finding all that awaits you are incomprehensible horrors . . . each hungry for your return, each eager that they might find you. Perhaps they’d smile at you from a shadow, their smiling mouths full of teeth and meat and plastic, watching and waiting patiently for their turn at a warm welcome. Or perhaps they won’t allow you such a time to figure your place in the world you’d left. A world that’s theirs now. Welcome home.”
The video transforms into a manifestation of the player's guilt. Not only for their involvement for whatever they did while working at Playtime Co. but for being gone and returning after ten years.
This is also paired with the player's possible guilt for killing Huggy Wuggy and their fear of him.
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The hallucination version being a more exaggerated version of the Chapter 1 Huggy Wuggy vent chase.
When Catnap causes the player to later hallucinate:
Poppy: “Do you even know what’s real?”
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Poppy: “No you don’t.”
THEN AT THE END OF THE HALLUCINATION IT SHOWS US THE DAY OF JOY!!!! Which is very odd when you consider two things. We've been told multiple times we weren’t there and during this scene we didn't know what the Hour of Joy was.
So the player hallucinating being in front of Huggy Wuggy’s podium during The Hour of Joy with a large Prototype hand reaching for us IS ODD!!!
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ALSO THE TAPE IT SHOWS THAT’S WHERE HUGGY WUGGY WAS DURING THE HOUR OF JOY!!!!!!!
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WHAT DOES IT MEAN?!?!?!?!
This is just speculation but perhaps the player's memories aren't as trustworthy as we think. After all we still aren't even sure who even sent us the letter or tape in Chapter 1.
"EVERYONE THINKS THE STAFF DISSAPEARED 10 YEARS AGO WE'RE STILL HERE FIND THE FLOWER"
It’s important to point out the characters from Chapter 2 made ZERO appearance during these hallucinations. Mommy Long Legs, PJ Pug-a-Pillar, Bunzo Bunny and the Wack-a-Wuggy.
Is the Huggy Wuggy imagery used because he’s who we encounter at the start of the game?
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OR SOMETHING MORE AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
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#Something something something the first key we needed in game was held up by Huggy Wuggy while on his podium.#So is The Prototype in the hallucination symbolizing he's the key to answering all our questions or am I overthinking everything asdnsf;alk#Rambling about my Poppy Playtime Self Insert -> I haven't decided what but something happened to my self insert to cause her memory issues.#She remembers small details from her time working for Playtime Co. but not the experiments.#So throughout the Chapters she's slowly unraveling the mystery of not only Playtime Co. but herself.#Everything story wise plays out the identical in all the chapters except one thing.#At the end of Chapter One instead of the box falling onto Huggy Wuggy. My self insert doesn't pull the box down in time.#Just as Huggy Wuggy is about to kill her. He finally gets a good look at her face.#Which she had hidden in the beginning with a mask + hat and hoodie because of the cameras.#As she ran and descended further into the facility she discarded her disguise.#Once Huggy Wuggy realizes who she is he stops trying to kill her.#Since there's not enough lore about the player's backstory yet I haven't decided why.#However whatever reason or friendship or connection they had she can't remember. Whatever it was causes Huggy Wuggy to not kill her.#During Chapter 2 Huggy Wuggy follows besides her. Helping when he can.#He can't help during the tests however since Mommy Long Legs considers that cheating. Mommy even is confused WHY he's helping her.#At the end of Chapter 2 when listening to the tape about Huggy Wuggy being the optimal outcome.#My self insert feels guilty and worries the only reason he hasn't killed her is because of what they did to him.#However the goof reassures her in his own odd way (pat on the head or a hug) that's not the case. In Ch. 3 he's with Kissy Missy and Poppy.#When Kissy Missy attacks my self insert he defends her (no violence just shoving and growling) but Poppy and I dissolve the situation.#Since Huggy Wuggy can't be protected from the Red Gas I imagine he has to wait with Kissy Missy and Poppy.#As for what history Huggy Wuggy and my self insert have to make him not be violent towards her I haven't decided.#The hallucination nightmare imagery remains the same. Although she feels comfortable with Huggy Wuggy now there's no denying he scared her.#Combined with her slowly remember her involvement and the guilt consuming her. Wondering if subconsciously she always knew.#I'm excited to delve more into their friendship and past. Although aggressive Huggy Wuggy is extremely smart.#Using the vents and escaping the facility. He doesn't act like a lost puppy or anything. He has his own agency.#Despite his hunger and aggression whatever their history is it's important enough he wants to ensure her safety.#Poppy Playtime#MaddyMoreauPost
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The fact that Felix believed Oliver over Farleigh about Venetia...
Like, Felix.
Felix. 😩😭😔
He trusted Oliver that much; to the point where he believed a man he had only known for less than a year over a cousin that he had known his whole. Life. A cousin who was more like a brother to him when it came down to it!!
His blind trust in Oliver is ultimately what lead to his downfall.
#For real y'all: Felix was done and absoutley did NOT want anything at all to do with Oliver anymore#And yet...!!#Yet he *still* drank from the bottle that Oliver had handed him#Because he trusted him even after everything had been unraveled!!#*sighs*#Oliver knew exactly how to manipulate Felix and RAN with it#(((As we saw in the ending scenes!!)))#Despite it all Felix and Farleigh were both too pure for this world </3#I love them your honor <3#Saltburn#Felix Catton#Oliver Quick#Farleigh Start#Venetia Catton#babes#love
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He exists now only in my memory.
Avarenya, about Martin the Priest, while staring at the Avatar of Akatosh, probably
#no think about it#tamriel is going to remember a very different martin from the martin the hok knew#tamriel remembers the quick blaze of heroic sacrifice thst was the last septim emperor#the hok remembers that man starting out as a humble yet burnt priest struggling with his faith but willing to step into his new role as heir#the hok remembers the soft voice the tired eyes the sleepless nights the reading in the glow of the firelight#the human desire to have a conversation without decorum#the blue eyes shining when martin unraveled another part of the xarxes those same eyes lighting up when his friend returned safe#and creasing in worry if the hok was hurt#the idea of Martin tamriel will remember is noble but the Martin that was exists now only in the hok's memory#and for most hoks it drives them mad#it's martin septim loving hours#after all this time? always#martin septim#avatar of akatosh#light the dragonfires#temple of the one#imperial city#hero of kvatch#oc: avarenya#martenya#nerevar queue and star#incorrect quotes#incorrect elder scrolls#incorrect oblivion quotes#tes#the elder scrolls#Oblivion#the elder scrolls iv: oblivion#source: titanic
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Me : I really need to continue writing that book I've been working on...
Also me : but what if i did a backstory book on weaver (First hero OC) instead?
A third version of me : YOU CANT POST THAT TILL YOU CONTINUE THE OTHER ONE SO YOU MIGHT AS WELL DO IT FIRST!
second me again : But what if I wrote it anyway
#the forever dilemma#i dont have a lot of time for creating in general at the moment but like weave has me thinking on all cylinders#but then id just have this massive project that i cant finish because i need book contex ive yet to write#ramble corner with major#weave my beloved#i love him so much i wish i could do him justice#lifting from the manga to write this story has been so much fun#its so tragic!#he's so tragic#and i get to swing the chain in there too cause its related to the unravelling series
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ohhhgffhgfdjhgd ive been going through novus anddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd ive been going thru the shit ihad 2 draw. i had to draw.
art under the cut for NOVUS SPOILERS lole
im Still thinking about when fuhzi asked “do you think friendship can survive death itself?” my sister in yarn. if it does not then this is all for naught
also something something beatrice voidcaller something something consumed by the void idk she in da goop
#🎨 : my art#⭐️ : bea#novus spoilers#w101#wizard101#LIKE. FUCKING......#LIKE I FEEL SICKLY JUST THINKING ABOUT IT. ALL OF IT. THE. AAUGHGHRHH#IM UNRAVELING IM HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#AND IM NOT EVEN THAT FAR IN I JUST GOT TO LA VILLE ROSE IM NOT EVEN IN THE REAL SHIT SHIT YET#HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHH.#ANYWAYS. IF YOU WANNA SEE ME YELL AND SCREAM ABOUT NOVUS LIVE IN THE FLESH! VOIDCALLERS ON TWITCH.TV ENJOY AND HAVE FUN FOREVER#edit: THANKS 4 REMINDING ME TO TAG WIZ N SHIT LEE LOOOL THANK UUU
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Do you ever just. Procrastinate so hard that in the week you're supposed to be making tons of progress with writing, instead you just... crochet a whole blanket?
An entire giant crocheted afghan. In one week. Instead of writing.
#speculation nation#technically it's not done yet but it probably will be tomorrow.#which is within a week of when i unraveled it and started all over again (that was on the 11th)#so. ya kno. haha.#i Have made some writing progress. i just need to make more.#gonna try to do the writing tomorrow for Surs.#Sure* lol#i did clean the litter boxes today. wahoo! i need to do the dishes tomorrow. haha.#two more days before school starts. and i do not have much to show for it 😐
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actually whilst im comparing the utena fandom to utena characters i did have a really funny thought a couple of months ago about how people who neglect the impact of touga’s history with csa do the exact same thing that he does. like they’re both like ‘didn’t happen :) not real :) wouldn’t have any tangible effect whatsoever :) now watch me craft an elaborate web of lies that dont make any fucking sense in order to obfuscate the truth (not pictured here)’. guys who hate kiryuu touga when they do the exact same thing he does
#none of you clowns ever want to unpack what goes on in 31 and 32 re: adoption narratives and it makes me !!!!!!#touga is supposedly The Adopted One and yet nanami is positioned as the ugly duckling#but he only makes that implication to keiko!!!! he’s spinning a narrative that’s more favourable to him!!!!!#because he!! didn’t want!!!! or expect!!!!! this aspect of his life!!!!!! to be used!!!!! in schemes!!!!!!!!!!#mfw my sister deduces that im adopted and i overcomplicate everything in an attempt to obfuscate the truth that no one was even poking at#bc my sense of shame is THAT deep and profound that even acknowledging any aspect of my childhood sends it all unravelling#like ok. normal about that one#you literally see him when nanami says it. react with genuine shock like he’s startled he’s made uncomfortable he’s shocked#and then there’s a pause as he Decides to go along with her belief and craft lies to support it#im just. gahhhhh im so normal#like 31 and 32 are such good episodes that i only started thinking about touga’s experiences in them in the past year or so#bc for the previous three i was just like NANAMIIIIII NANAMI NANAMI#there are so many layers to each character and how they all intersect ohhhhhhhh oh#hey guys did you know i like her tragedy#dais.txt#her tragedy her triumph#obfuscation abventures
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