#all thingz lovely

[all-thingz-lovely]

Someone needs this right now. Therefore, this is for you 🤲🏾

Trusting! (rd 1 Peter 1:6-7).

**Sometimes you will face situations that are bigger than you are, making you feel as if you have no answers or resources to continue on. Everything in you says, "Give up!" But don't do it. Friend, you're in the midst of a faith test. God isn't punishing you, and He hasn't forgotten you. Rather, He is providing an opportunity for you to grow spiritually and believe Him for greater things. So make a decision to believe the Lord in spite of everything. Don't look at your circumstances or pay attention to the opinions of others. Listen to the Father. Open God's Word and trust what He says. He is teaching you that Jesus really is sufficient for every need you have. There's no challenge too overwhelming or pit too deep--He can always deliver you. So expect Him to prove Himself faithful in this difficulty. Amen!

[sri-rachaa]

pretty vampire prince in a pretty crown <3

[hatsukeii]

WHAT THE FUCK OMG

UM THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH????? WHAT RHE FUCK HOLY SHIT THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THIS IS! INSANE

guys i could change my asks pleading into an inbox event would we be interested…

[spookythesillyfella]

HEY! JUST SO YOU KNOW, YOU’RE AN AMAZING FRIEND. even if things feel overwhelming right now i do promise there’s a brighter future waiting for you. it’s gonna take some tim and yeah it’s probably gonna be a rough ride.. . but you’ll never have to face it alone. i'm not going anywhere?? if I have to mail you a box of kittens to prove it , i will!!! please keep going. i know you got it in you oh by the way. (whispers) when you feel like it. you should share more about your au! probably got me hooked on the storyline i won't even lie.. i'm attached to them all. i need my daily dosage of them to survive. ANYWAYS ILYYY/p !!!!! TAKE CARE

thank you so much for the ask . doll

im really sorry that all my annoying postz prompted you to send thiz ask in the first place . but thank you for taking even a short moment of your day to remember the fact im real – thank you for offering me a small spot in your head

i don't really know if i have any fun au factz to really share – ive been struggling a lot recently with my writing n stuff . so im deeply sorry about that – but i think i can talk about some hv ficz that i am planning to make

my main hv fic [the original one] waz like 40k wordz long and haznt been touched in over a year – ive gotten so distracted with other projectz and so i 1) never got around to finishing it and 2) looking back on it . i really want to rewrite it becauze i feel like my writing style haz changed a lot since back then

i will admit that ive been trying to arrange the whole storyline in a prjsk -esque manner ; the whole structure of everything lookz a little something like thiz :

– main fic ["High Voltage"] [establishing the band . itz characterz . layz down the groundwork for whatz to come]

– brendon focused fic [i will admit that "Team Building Exercise!" kind of fitz the bill here – although we're still a bit far from what i really would've liked to get to]

– shrig focused fic

– tony focused fic

– tracey [and / or colin] focused fic [theze two can kind of count az a double feature . since you cant really touch up on one of them without the other]

– sketch focused fic

– larz focused fic

[the order iznt 100% set in stone also so pleaze take note of the fact that some of theze thingz can . and most likely will . change]

[phinjeet]

* dont want 2 b needlessly mean in pnf post tagz but damn i do not care 4 the doof/perry plot in primal perry at ALL , what do u MEAN ppl dont think of it az the Army Of Baljeetz episode u guyz r so BORING

[objectum-crush-gush]

I love this account so much ❤️🩷 it's so cool seeing other objectums on tumbkr talk about their crushes

💻

[hatsukeii]

help i fw this a little too hard OK NO SLEEP TIME

katsuki being a pr nightmare was nothing new.

he didn't spare people his thoughts, cursing his way through the press and speaking his true feelings constantly. it's why he was liked, it was his unique charm they'd say.

but this time, a dating scandal had come out. well, more of a romance one.

his private twitter was leaked, one he'd mostly use to detail his feelings on the day. among the dozens of posts that were expectedly vulgar and self assured, recent ones stuck out.

over fan posts of you, a model he seemed to have been a huge fan of for a while. it became evident just how much of a loser he was. he'd quote them with small words like, "i bet her parents high five when they see her face," or "she looks just as good as prime all might did."

his name was trending heavily the next day, he was noticeably annoyed, now he'd have to make a whole new spam! he was called by his agency, which he expected.

though as he walked in, he did not expect to see you, golden with the afternoon sun and greeting him with a warm, smile. not a practiced one you'd use for photo shoots, no. he could tell the difference.

his manager cleared their throat, signaling for him to sit down before they started.

"i think we should capitalize of these crushes of yours."

he grew big eyed, looking at you now from the corner of his eye.

you felt the same way??

taglist: @k0z3me @darhinadadragon @maddietries @i-the-fluffo @uy242c @irenne-stans

[plushpyromoved]

just met someone in the public bathroom who started talking to me [she waz very sweet] but she said I give off "homestuck energy" 😭😭😭

[meo-eiru]

I LOVE UR SILLY LIL ELF SM BBBUT CAN YYOU DO Silas with a darling who just LOVES making or seeing him cry. (aherm ahem Dacryphilia) Like they'll find out all the thingz that would make him turn on his waterworks and try to stop their lips from curling into a smile whenever their devious lil tricks work. I JS CAN'T GET THE IMAGE OFF MY HEAD LIKE WHYS HE SO ADORABLE 🏃🏃🏃

Maybe you do it by constantly insulting his appearance? Or maybe even worse you tell him he's a bad mom? Tell him he looks scary and you don't feel safe with him?

No matter how many times you say these his cries never lessens. Each time he cries like it's his first time hearing it. It's killing him. The thought of not being a good mother for you is killing him. He is failing you. You were supposed to feel safe with him, yearn for his presence like yearns for yours.

Each time he fails to notice the smile you're trying to hide, each time he just turns into a crying mess of an elf.

He never thinks worse of you. No matter how much your words hurt him it's not your fault. It's never your fault. He must be doing something wrong. Yes it must be it.

Silas will listen to everything you say, and he'll try to change himself no matter how extreme of a thing he must pull. You deserve the best mom, and he wants to be that best mom. He's willing to abandon his entire self and become someone new for you.

So won't you praise him at least once?

[nordidia]

raphie doodles from a rage filled day

(first one is the only kinda /srs one, u can laugh i promise bc if this wasnt me i'd laugh my ass off /pos) i had to project. also i love my friends sorry i yelled at yall xx

just period thingz... surely it has nothing to do with my genuine anger issues. no its just all hormones i promise guys. trust.

its a little pathetic i was genuinely warm inside and inches away from trashing my desk for ZERO FUCKING REASON. WHY?!?! WHAT THE FUCKAEHNGHJSDAGHAH send me to hell im begging

that second panel is something i actually do irl to iben when i need him to stfu so fucking immediately and he has dubbed it "the jojo stare" and its so fucking funny until i need him to stfu so fucking immediately (he drew this one time when i did it at him)

[voidzphere]

☆ MASTERPOST // INTRO !!!

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hii !! im killer, but my friendz + mootz call me killz !! welcome to my blog ^_^ i love u too brutiee @mewobrute <33 (more stuff under the cut!!)

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✩ ABOUT ME !!! >_<

FIRST OFF, HERE ARE SOME OF MY FLAGZ !!! :3 ↓↓↓

my main prnz are he/it/bite, but i alzo use vamp/fang/bone/skull/blood/gore/knife ! (plz dont refer 2 me w they/them)

my special interest is undertale + utmv ! (if that waznt obv enough..)

i love love LOVE horror gamez .. some of my favz rn are kinitopet, imscared, house, ddlc, rental, and bonnie's bakery :]

I HAVE A PERSONA ! u can find itz ref sheet here :] i uzually draw myself as either him or juzt killer sans !!

I LOOOVE MY MOOTZ, FRIENDZ, AND PARTNER <333

some of my current hyperfixationz are fionna & cake, smg4, regretevator, atsv, invader zim, adventure time & dialtown !

i have a guestbook !! leave a little note for me to read if u want :3

some of my fav bandz/artistz are talking heads, misfits, bad brains, rio romeo, lemon demon, will wood, pixies, melanie martinez, alex g, 6arelyhuman, goreshit, sex pistols, potsu, the living tombstone, etc. !

some of my fav songz are alien blues, vampire culture, laplace's angel, dr sunshine is dead, seriously?, genius of love, at the movies, charlie's inferno, etc. !

✩ my tagz !

#killz art - my art !! :3

#killz rb - reblogz

#killz yapz - my yap sessionz

#killz answerz - answerz to my askz

#vent kinda - my (kinda) ventz

#tag/ask game - self-explanatory

#killersanz - stuff related to my killer sans ask blog !

#killz fingie doodlez - stuff i drew w my finger :3

#killz srb - self reblogz

#killz sans - my sonaaa ^_^

✩ dni

basic dni criteria

istz + phobez

epiciller, /r + /sx errorink, etc.

pro/dark/comship (or whatever you call your weirdo selvez..)

irl doublez (unless i knew u beforehand!!) (im irlz of killer, reaper, & epic.)

minorz who post nsfw cuz ion wanna see that shit man go do ur homework

slander of my interestz/special interestz + hyperfixationz like stfu

mockery of me and/or my traitz (i.e my typing quirkz)

unwanted criticism, especially if i didnt ask for it. stfu part 2

anyone i've had drama with + my exez (fuck you)

HOMESTUCK. and hazbin hotel + helluva boss (tbh i dont rlly care if you like these mediaz and interact with me, just dont talk abt it in front of me yknow)

✩ byi + boundariez

i have autism + adhd, BPD, & typing quirkz !! tone indicatorz are optional when talking to me, but i appreciate them.

i'm an irl + fictkin ! i have a few c-linkz as well.

im not a roleplay account btw /srs

my art requestz are alwayz open ! can't promise i'll alwayz do them, but they help me out with inspiration though :3

DO NOT REPOST MY ART. i will find you

if you use my art, credit me. you dont alwayz gotta ask me before usin my art, but i appreciate it if you do !!

my askbox + dmz are alwayz open !! i love meetin new people n gettin to know em :] im fine w tagz, commentz, & spam-likez/reblogz too !

i might accidentally spam-like (i get too excited).

just because i make suggestive jokez and im hypersexual doez not mean i'm not sex-replused from time to time.

im a DID system and use i/me pronounz. i don't talk about my DID often becauze i see it as unimportant to other ppl.

i'm nonhuman !! plz do not refer to me as human. i prefer skeleton termz over everything else. im ur favorite homozexual cryptid-skeleton :3

i tend to ramble, say thingz that are out-of-pocket, have trouble with volume control/typing in all capz, make inappropriate jokez, flirt with & tease my close friendz, etc. if u ever find any of this bothering, plz inform me and i will stop.

i love drama + gossip, i will argue with strangerz on the internet just to spite them bc i find it funny ^_^ (only if theyre in the wrong and deserve it.)

i have strong opinionz and will shit-talk you if you're a weirdo who deservez it.

my blog, my rulez <3

★ last updated: 12/5/24

[sri-rachaa]

Gavin — for @gingerbreadmonsters.

Happy Birthday to our wonderful, beloved, amazing, and absolute bestest girl- Ginger!!

[hatsukeii]

guys…900… i love you all sooooo much????

is this time for an event? i could put series on hold…😋😋😋

[bladefuck]

INFO POST ONNN;

andrew blaze!; also known az pioneers productions, waz the perpetrator of the eaton township weis supermarket shooting, which she worked at at the time of her death. the shooting took place on june eighth, 2017 in eaton township pennsylvania.

the attack on weis supermarket was a murder-suicide az well az a workplace shooting. four people in total died including andrew. zero were injured physically.

the weaponz she used were two pistol-gripped 12 gauge mossberg 500 pump action shotgunz. at the time of ze shooting she had been working there for seven whole yearz.

andrewz life

andrew blaze waz born in september of 1992, in the american state of pennsylvania

az a child she waz described az being rather shy, not many friendz and not fitting in with her peerz.

ever since she waz young, andrew said she contemplated death, likely much more than the average child. because of all of these thingz, andrew frequently spent her time alone, thiz continued into her later life. thiz iz also when she began drawing and watching youtube, which would become a huge part of her life later on.

in highschool she developed a love 4 filming, and still loved watching youtuberz who were popular at the time.

thiz inspired her 2 start her own channel, so on june of 2008 she made her first youtube channel at the age of sixteen, which waz known az pioneers productions.

at the start she primarily did letsplay content w/ no face attached, but eventually she began including her face in content and branching out into more varietyz of content, primarily skitz. eventually she went viral with a fred parody, garnering over 10,000 viewz which waz a lot at the time.

thiz led to her gaining much more subscriberz and around thiz time iz when the name andrew blaze formed.

however, around the timez of 2008-2010, you can begin to see a decline in her mental health visible through her postz, even if nothing seemed off at the time.

two frequent characterz who showed up in these videoz were known az froggie and whale, two toyz that appeared often in skitz, though eventually she filmed a video that showed the death of these two characterz, with her stabbing them under the watch of ember.

the videoz began getting more violent, and involved death and shooting people much more frequently. though with the youtube landscape at the time, thiz cannot be used az definitive evidence that thiz iz solely because of her mental health.

she statez that she frequently thinkz about death, to the point it often consumez her thoughtz. along these linez, andrew also said she doesn’t understand how people could live past thirty, and seemed to gain the view that she wasnt supposed to be on thiz earth, and that she waz only able to go back to where she came from through death.

nobody commented on these viewz.

at age eighteen andrew began going to college, specifically to get a bachelorz degree in mazz communication. though she wanted to focuz on her youtube channel full time more. it waz around thiz time she began working on a project known az the ‘westborough high massacre’ which waz meant to be an animated film. thiz film waz in her wordz dedicated to the animated character ember mclain from the tv seriez danny phantom, a show about a boy with powerz fighting ghostz. though ember waz not a main character, she quickly became andrewz favorite, and eventual obsession that only rampz up throughout the yearz.

in the show ember waz a human girl who died and came back az a ghost.

around 2013 iz when her obsession with ember turned more intense, and much more negative.

around thiz time iz when she began saying online that she waz meant to be a ghost girl, not a human. she began making skitz of what she thinkz the afterlife iz, where she reincarnatez az a ghost girl and reunitez with ember.

she frequently struggled with her gender around thiz time, and also went through many traumatic eventz involving death.

the first of which was her grandfather in 2006, and she statez that hiz death iz the first time she saw a dead body and began contemplating what death meant.

her brotherz friend tom/tim (i couldnt find which one was the right name ack!) also passed away in a car accident, and though she wasnt too close with him it still hit her.

shortly after, her close friend matt passed in a car accident.

she stated ‘to(i)mz death sucked the life out of me, mattz death killed me.’

at twenty three yearz old andrew graduated college, and now didnt know what to do with her life. she wanted to do youtube but it wasnt going well.

the income she had waz from a grocery store she worked at, since her father waz the manager.

her mental health only continued to drop, and she continued rambling about wanting to be a ghost girl and how nobody around her carez.

around thiz age she began creating her suicide tapez.

on these tapez she statez she planz to die first may seventh of 2019

she callz these collectionz of tapez EGS, and spoke about everything in her life and the mental health spiralz she went through.

she revealed she went through gender identity issuez and because of thiz would frequently wear feminine clothing in the house when her family waz away.

it waz around thiz time she also began to gain a fascination with the perpetratorz of the columbine shooting, particularly eric harriz.

in these tapez she said she just wanted someone to notice her, and that throughout her life people have continuously failed at that.

around thiz time she created a character known az mckenzie, and that in her past life thiz waz her name and she waz dating ember from danny phantom

thiz obsession quickly became unhealthy, and eventually she depicted an entire world full of characterz similar to mckenzie and ember which would eventually be known az emberz ghost squad

she ran multiple different social media accountz depicting these characterz, and eventually used them to spread her online journal and tapez before the massacre

she began talking about her fascination with the columbine highschool massacre, a mazz shooting that took place in the year 1999 in the state of colorado perpetrated by two highschool boyz who promptly commited after the eventz.

she said she wanted to ‘make them proud’ one day.

the previouz mentioned ‘westborough high massacre’ animation began to fall through around the age of 23/24 (2017)

she hired va’z who were being slow, and hired an animator who eventually declined because of the nature of the film, which only further angered andrew.

in one of her videoz she said the day she uploadz her animated seriez iz the day she diez, and that she couldnt wait any longer.

around thiz time andrew went out and bought two shotgunz, and there are still videoz out there of her practicing shooting them. they would later be used in the massacre.

she never had a concrete answer az to why she waz planning what she waz doing, just that 2017 waz the time for her to go back to her real home, which she claimed held other ghostz.

andrew believed she waz from a different dimension, and hated waking up everyday in thiz world knowing her purpose waz somewhere else.

at thiz time, she decided she couldnt wait longer and moved her death date to june seventh, 2017.

she wanted to take otherz with her, and it would either be her family or her coworkerz.

she frequently said she would kill people publically, but nobody said anything or tried stopping her.

andrew often left thingz out in the open, but nobody ever questioned it.

she often posted to the twitter accountz she ran with hintz that she waz going to kill people soon, but once again, thiz waz never brought up and no effortz were made to stop her.

az june seventh approached, she posted a video discussing who waz going to die. through a coin flip, she determined she would shoot up her supermarket.

thiz iz when she went onto make her final video, in her car discussing what could happen after her death, reflecting on her life and motivez, and how surreal it all felt to her.

on june sixth 2017 she posted a video of her silently walking through the supermarket she worked at, zooming in on the exitz

on june seventh, 2017, her animated seriez ‘the westborough high massacre’ finally released, and it featured a prologue of her sharing her hate for the people who dropped the project. the general plot waz of her and another ghost squad character going on a massacre in a highschool setting.

thiz waz posted mere hourz before the massacre.

the massacre

on june seventh andrew waz working the overnight shift, making her final post to any of the egs twitter accountz saying goodbye, az well az sharing her journalz and media filez of all her tapez.

andrew waz working with four other employeez, and nobody else waz in the store.

because they were all on the night shift and tired, when they saw andrew walking around they didnt bother investigating. in actuality she waz blocking all the exitz of the store so nobody could escape.

she finished blocking the doorz a little after one am, and grabz her two shotgunz.

andrew first killed a female co-worker after shooting her multiple timez. at the same time another co-worker looked up and saw her, looking down at the body.

she looked up at her coworker, before for unknown reasonz sparing her and walking onto the next aisle.

andrew next killed a male coworker while the woman she spared called the police and tried hiding. she begun firing more and more at unknown locationz. at thiz time the coworker escaped the store and hid in a bush while on the phone with the police.

andrew finally killed another male coworker, and at thiz point begun open fire at anything in the store seemingly at random. she attempted firing at propabe tankz, but they wouldnt go off.

andrew walked to the deli section of the store, and thiz iz where the massacre ended az she took her own life.

shortly before her death, she tweeted out on her own twitter account ‘goodbye humanz, ill mizz you.’

at thiz point the police had arrived and begun examinationz of the crime scene.

police got a warrant to search her home, where they found plenty more supplies such az ammunition, and grabbed hold of thingz like journalz and her tapez, which iz where they finally gained motivez and backstoriez for andrew and why she did what she did.

it waz found that shortly before the massacre andrew emailed the voice actor of ember mcclain, saying thingz such as how when she readz thiz email andrew will be dead and she haz found her true purpose and will be back with her ghost squad.

it waz found andrew waz wearing female garmentz at the time of her death and found with an extremely high amount of benadryl in her system, which could cause thingz like hallucinationz and agitation.

only one person survived the massacre, the girl andrew let flee.

— tagz for reach! @antimony-121 @columtard @rh1nest0neluvvsu @jafarfeet2 @gothiclanza @dorksarelazy @grungecal @babypinkdecember @vodka-cal @expocorpse @youhaveacatinyourlap @v0dkasrighthand

[ddoxhan]

my love is all mine

my baby here on earth showed me what my heart was worth so, when it comes to be my turn could you shine it down here for her?

word count : 4.4k words

genre : fantasy; alternating between fluff and angst that would make your heart clench; childhood best friend! aeri x pianist (but actually a time traveler)! reader; arriving at this dimension, you realized how much you still love her

t/w : mentions of death, apocalypse thingz

a/n : full version out weeeeee :D that was some roller coaster of realization and pain knowing that nothing lasts but one thing :') please do leave some feedback so I can improve when it comes to plot heavy fics and enjoy !

tic, tic, tic, tic.

'where am I?'

your surroundings were unfamiliar, as it should be. but with it, came a sense of comfort. whenever you warped through the portal, your head would hurt like the worst hangover for a while. but this time, it unusually hurt less. you were sitting by the piano, a music sheet of chopin, perhaps. you weren't the most well-versed around music.

you stood from the piano stool to slowly observe the things in the room in hopes of gathering more information about this person. undoubtedly, you looked like yourself but this body you possessed wasn't you. you were orphaned, barely survived the apocalypse of your own world, thrown into a dystopian organization served to stop further apocalypses in other worlds.

learning about the countless dimensions you had to travel to, surely, this one couldn't differ more than the rest. the person who lived as you in this world had everything you had ever wanted. loving and supportive parents, friends who were always there for her, a promising future career as an aspiring pianist. but as you gain the memories of this person, the depressing emotions were rather contradicting.

this person felt lonely amidst of everyone, she never felt understood. no one had ever saw through those smiles and laughs. not even this girl who looked like her best friend. then tears started to flow down your cheeks uncontrollably. it couldn't be. she couldn't be.

feeling a little dizzy, you took a seat on the piano stool as you dried your tears and tried to wrap your head around the current situation. of the many dimensions, why this one? you tried so hard to forget everything about her, drown down emotions that were unnecessary for your line of work. it had been forever since the last time you had thought of her. and this time, she wasn't going to just be a memory.

as the metronome lulled you into a daze, you were brought back out of it by the sudden swing open of the bedroom door.

"hey! we literally said to meet up at our usual place! what's taking you so long?"

"huh?"

a girl barged into your room and folded her arms against her chest, seemingly upset that you had stood her up. but you couldn't seem to remember when you had made that promise to her.

it was her. it had been so long, too long since you've seen her with your own eyes. you didn't know if it was a blessing or a curse that you had never encountered her in the past dimensions. but seeing her in front of you, it was getting really hard to not break down in tears.

the wave of guilt and sadness washed over you as you took in how beautiful she still looked, or rather this version of her looked exactly like the love of your life. the love of your life who you couldn't hold onto as her hand slipped from yours, forever gone as she disappeared into the smoke of debris.

you still needed time to gain the memories, so you made up an excuse, hoping she would buy it.

"sorry, it must've slipped my mind. you still up for it?"

you stood from your piano stool as you flashed her an apologetic smile. that made her sigh and roll her eyes, once again defeated by your puss-in-boots eyes cause really, there was never once she had been able to not waiver at the sight of them.

"you bet I am, now get your ass outta here and we have to hurry cause we're already late for the performances."

the look of confusion on your face makes the girl pause in her tracks, extremely confused and cautious of you because you didn't seem to be her best friend, in the sense that you didn't feel like her.

"performances. weren't you there when jaemin told us they'd be busking today?"

"right, yes. the boys' first big performance for that influencer's event."

that part of the memory registered just at the right timing. if you took any longer to respond like her best friend, she would have probably took the shovel in the backyard to whack you. the girl wasn't like your lover, way feistier and carefree. it served as a reminder that she wasn't, this girl was not the woman you had loved wholeheartedly and should not be.

"yes. now let's go."

the girl had to drag you out of your house because of how slow you seemed unusually.

"god, I was so close to knocking some sense into you."

"sorry, I've just been really out of it today."

your infamous cheeky smile never fails to have her shake her head in disbelief. in disbelief of how adorable you always looked with it.

"jaemin! we're here!"

aeri screams across the barricade as the said boy turned his head towards her direction, while you trudged behind her, ensuring that she wasn't falling over anything or anyone from excitement.

you learned her name when you two left your room as your dad shouted her name from downstairs. aeri, it was a pretty name and suited her really well. you couldn't help but draw similarities between the woman you knew and her. but they were also two very different people and that was something you shouldn’t forget.

"hey! I thought you two wouldn't make it before our cue. what happened?"

he had known you two for ages and it was unlikely of you to be late to something, especially when it involved close friends.

"this girl here had forgotten about this. unbelievable if you ask me."

"that's quite true. you good?"

aeri and jaemin truly cared for the person you are temporarily posing as. the gazes that you were receiving felt foreign, accountable to your lack of interaction with people. people who actually mattered to you. each and every time you had warped to another dimension, you would disappear to do what you must to prevent apocalypses regardless of what memories flowed through your consciousness.

it doesn’t take long to get everything in place and run the plans to break the sequence of events, given that you were one of the organization’s elite agents with a flawless portfolio. all that didn’t matter to you, life was already meaningless so why care much?

but the moment you had seen that very smile on her face in that photo frame, you wanted to stay in this dimension longer. even if it meant spending more time than you should in a single dimension.

"yeah, don't worry about me. I just had a splitting headache earlier today and I've just been out of it. I'm all good now though."

you regained your composure after some time and adjusted well with your new surroundings. the reaffirming clutch of your hand in aeri's was very comforting surprisingly, but you didn't understand why.

although she had bore similar physical traits with your lover, there was no reason to feel the warmth seeping through the clasp of your hands. and before your consciousness could give you an answer, your blood ran cold as the image of watching her slip through your fingers into nothing, bringing up the very emotions you were trying to suppress for years.

there was not a single day that you could sleep well as the endless nightmare of that event left you in a void of emptiness and desperation. the desperation of wanting to redeem yourself by saving other dimensions where different versions of her would live, regardless of whether different versions of you were there for her.

but absolutely none of that, would bring your lover back into your arms, safe and sound. smiling at you like those mundane days you had, which you would give anything to get them back.

"great. you two find your seats near the fronts, performers' privilege."

he proudly points towards two empty seats which were inevitably yours since the show had already started 20 minutes ago.

"wow, for once, na jaemin has done an amazing job."

"for once, stop roasting me. now shoo, I need to get my hair fixed."

the bickering between the two seemed so natural that you had kept quiet, not knowing if it was your place to interfere the conversation.

this was something you had always feared when you meddle with a dimension, the feeling of belonging. belonging somewhere that wasn't meant for you. would it hurt to feel? no. but it hurts knowing that whatever you did in this dimension, it wasn't you who did it. in the eyes of others, it was someone else. the deeds you do, the memories you share, the love you yearn.

once upon before the apocalypse, life was like this. concerts, outings, bonding, but it was also a time of weakness. your weakness of being powerless to protect the things precious to you, the people once dear to you. but when you've found the power to, you've lost beyond salvation, and there was nothing left to protect.

as you made your way to the seats, aeri couldn't hold back the urge to ask. because the way your eyes didn't carry that special shine her best friend naturally has, concerned her.

she could sense something different seeping from your usual aura. on certain days when you're not in the best condition, there would be times where she can tell that you aren't happy or upset about something and she'd find the right cure to your sour mood.

however, today felt odd. it was seemingly an aura that she hasn't seen from you. you weren't feeling good, but it felt as if you lost the fire in you. the fire you had bore in your soul for your passion. if it had been a bright red fire, it's like it turned into a calming blue one. somewhere in you, you've lost something, never able to ignite a bright red fire ever again.

aeri had convinced herself that perhaps you were tired from piano, burnt out and taking a break from it to regain that passion.

the previous act had just ended, and everyone were to take a five to check if everything was in order. the blaring speakers and annoying mc finally stopped ringing in your ears. instead, a soft voice tickled your right ear, sending shivers down your spine.

"baby, are you really okay? you don't seem to look well."

the girl had leaned in to whisper, and it almost short-circuited your brain with how proximity was out of the window instantly by that small gesture.

"yeah, I'm fine, what makes you say that?"

"you look.. different."

"and you feel different too."

it was as if she had known from the start, that you weren't her best friend she knew. yet, she was trying her best to make sense of her confusion. deep down, you knew that all of this was making no sense. absolutely no sense how you were sitting here with a person in the face of your lover, waiting for your friend's performance in the middle of the summer. all it took was a step out of the house and another step back to report to your superior of your work.

and here you were, reminiscing the memories you had. they were irreplaceable, and will never be. but no one can stop you from making new ones either. just this once, you say. just this once to hold her in my arms one last time.

as your arm grazed against hers, you were looking into her eyes for the first time since the evening started. never have you realized that she had such mesmerizing eyes, pulling you in like gravity.

when you had gazed into her eyes, she spotted a glimpse of admiration, the one that she was ever so familiar with. it put her at peace, reassured that you were alright that night.

your demeanor changed since that night, but she decided to brush it off, convincing herself that she was just overthinking again like she usually does. but maybe, she should have questioned further.

who were you?

you were a fever dream, but also a lifetime nightmare.

minutes turned into hours, and hours turned into days. the sense of time is only perceived in dimensions that were able to escape apocalypse. back at the headquarters, time was fluid, seemingly long at certain moments and short when you don't even notice. which was why you weren't too worried about residing longer in this dimension beside aeri.

"hey, what do you think about love?"

as she laid her head on your lap as you leaned against her bedframe, the question took you aback a little. this very question was presented to you ages ago by your lover, vaguely remembering the scene in your head. but you remembered your response to it, and it doesn't apply to you anymore. 'love is when I find myself staring at your eyes and get the butterflies each and every time.'

"love is like a thorn in a rose waiting to prick the chosen one."

"it's something so beautiful you can't help but to get close to, and once you admire and realize its worth, it pricks you. leaving you to bleed, it creates a kind of pain that numbs you, yet you reach for it again like none of that happened."

"it makes you yearn for it, and when you've had too many wounds, that's when you notice that you're hopeless."

you never forgot how it felt to love her, it was all too familiar when it felt so natural to fall for aeri, which you almost couldn't resist. the way her eyes curve into crescents as she smiles, the way her scent fill your senses when she leans on your shoulder, the way you feel the butterflies when you stare into her eyes.

it scared you.

this wasn't where you were to belong. yet, the feeling of loving her permeated through your entire being, unable to shake off as you willingly dive deeper into your emotions.

"girl, did someone hurt you?"

aeri laughed away, thinking that you were half-heartedly joking and sarcastically answering the question. her best friend wasn't the type to dwell in the topic of love and dating. she had better priorities in life, which was the piano that sat in her room across from aeri's.

the lack of your laughter made her frown instantly, cursing at herself for perhaps making a mistake.

"what's wrong? did someone really-"

"no no, nothing's wrong. I just thought of that when you asked me. it just felt like love is a rose, it can be beautiful and romantic to some, but also a painful past for others."

"well, you're not wrong. remember that guy from middle school? he was literally the biggest idiot in class and he had the balls to confess to you with a bunch of roses in front of the whole school."

"yeah, that was definitely not it."

you laughed along, but you couldn't. the story was too familiar, this was what happened to you ages ago. not this person you were posing as, but you. the details matched your experience, but only that the person receiving the confession being your lover.

it was too hard to just brush it off as a coincidence. many could be, but this was too specific. timelines matched but with only the people as a difference. the thought of this dimension being a parallel universe of yours brought shivers down your spine. what if it was? what if this dimension's apocalypse was inevitable, just like yours?

many what ifs were not going to stop the apocalypse. you were the only hope to save the world, but screw the world. all that crossed your mind as you caressed her hair was only one thing that mattered to you.

'I will keep you safe, even if it meant that I'd never be able to see you again.'

jaemin and jeno had agreed to go together to a frat party you were technically forced to go by some jock you bumped into in the hallway while you were on your way to meet aeri. the dude kept pestering that you blatantly spat in his face that you were going. he didn't mention that you couldn't have people tag along, so you had asked the boys if it was possible to stick around in case things get out of hand.

the girl though, she had the balls to say that she was worried about you. she was going to stick with you the entire time you were there in case some idiots decided to hit on you, she'd be able to swat them away. the audacity, you thought.

if anything, guys were clearly going to swarm over her instead, and you'd have to act as her bodyguard. given that you're a good three to four inches taller than her, that itself would be possible to scare a majority. nothing could get her off your arm as you walked into the house, reeking of alcohol and sweat already at nine. before you could even show your face to that jock and perhaps head to the quietest area which was probably the pool, you felt eyes on her. maybe this was a bad decision after all.

you didn't want to ruin the mood for the many people who were enjoying this, so all you could do was subside that indecipherable internal anger of yours and find that idiot so you could leave this instant. the dirty looks all over aeri made your insides churn and boil, no matter how much you tried to understand why, you never could.

you didn't love the girl, she was a different person from your lover, just bearing identical physical traits. it was something that you had been telling yourself ever since you arrived here two months ago. that was how long you’ve spent being here, than the usual one-week stay.

trying so hard to deny that you harboured feelings for aeri, your efforts were all in vain when all it takes is just a flash of her smile. even during this moment of her laughing along with jaemin and jeno, it reminds you too much of her. the smile you would see when she feeds the stray cat outside your office, the laughter you would hear when you tickle her during pillow fights.

why was it so hard to walk away and do what you were sent to do here initially? why did fail to resist the sweet temptation of being in love again? when you couldn’t even hold onto that hand of your lover? the hand in yours felt so warm, contradicting the chilly feeling that set into place ever since that day.

she started melting the glacier of ice, while you took a step back to freeze it again. because it’s wrong, so wrong.

"I see hyunjin there."

jeno's voice caught your attention along with the name. following his point of direction, you finally spot that jock chatting away in the kitchen corner with presumably his friends. definitely, you weren't going to let the girl tag along cause enough was enough, another guy and you were going to tear this place down.

"aeri, can you stay with jae for a bit? I'll go say hi then I'll be right back. jeno's gonna be here so don't worry."

although she was very reluctant to let you go alone, you showed her those shining eyes, praying it works again this time. thankfully, she gives you a nod and heads off with jaemin first.

as you made your way towards hyunjin, you were extremely disgusted at how his friends were eyeing you up and down, like you were nothing but just an item. him on the other hand, was a lot better surprisingly.

it reminded you a lot of your high school days. the times when your lover had numerous suitors waiting in line to be her one and only. but she had eyes for you. you were still oblivious of the heart eyes you got from her then. it took you years to realize before you dated. it was the exact definition of ‘she fell first, but you fell harder’. until now, it still pretty much applied.

"hey! you made it!"

"yeah, you were following me around for three days, asking me to come."

he laughed awkwardly, even a little shy. what was this boy's deal?

it was as if the tables have turned, you now dealing with these boys who were fawning over her. perhaps in this dimension, you were quite a popular one.

"I just wanted to get to know you more, so I thought of getting you to come and spend some time together."

as much as he seemed nice, you weren't interested, and unwilling to lead him on to thinking you were.

"sorry, I have a boyfriend. but we could still be friends."

a little lie wouldn’t hurt him, and jeno was conveniently standing on guard with his supposedly scary aura which you found amusing.

you extended your hand politely in hopes he wouldn't have a freak out and frantic screaming that his love interest had an alleged boyfriend.

"I see... well then, great to be your acquaintance. I hope you have enjoy your time here."

you started to notice that his friends weren't eyeing you eerily, but rather that it seemed that they were wary of your intentions with hyunjin. it was as if you were about to play with this boy's heart, and that's when you remembered that rumor of a varsity player being dumped by that good-for-nothing cheerleader.

in fact, you witnessed that cheerleader sucking off some other guy’s face in the stairways. you’ve never made such a fast u-turn in your life, which you probably should have when you were making that decision to join the organization. but have you not joined, you wouldn’t have had the chance to meet aeri. and maybe you would have been long dead.

who knows? you might have met your lover in the afterlife when the creatures found you, had it not for the organization.

if fate decided to play a game, you had no choice but to shoot your shot at it.

"thanks for the invite."

"jaemin, please tell me I'm not crazy. I swear that's not her."

"if that's not her, then who is she? come on, aeri. be real."

"I am being real. she keeps avoiding the hugs I give her, and when I get a little closer, she literally freezes up."

the girl ran her hands through her hair in frustration, not knowing what is the truth and what isn't anymore.

for the past two months, she sensed something different about you. were you drastically different? no. something was, and she just knew. but what? these were the questions that had occupied her head for the past week.

she noticed you avoiding her eyes, taking brief glances only, as if you were afraid. afraid of getting your feelings hurt. but why should you? you've been best friends with aeri for as long as you could remember. if anything, you two were inseparable according to reliable sources like jaemin and jeno.

the only thing was, the memories you gained from the owner of this body. it was torturing you more than you thought it should. the smile on her face through these eyes, the sweet laughter through these ears, the gentle touches through these fingertips. endless nights of witnessing aeri fall asleep before you did. just like those times you did when she was your lover.

"that's it? sis, I thought she'd turn into a werewolf or had poisonous potions in a secret room or something."

"and you're the one who's telling me to be real."

"and you're an idiot. sounds like she just likes you to me."

a thousand questions popped in her head. then those questions were given their respective answers as she put together the puzzle one by one. maybe, you liked her. maybe, you loved her.

but why? nothing had changed between you and her so why now? she admits that she had felt attracted to you at times, but she couldn't be sure that she had feelings for you. however she was uncertain, you hadn't been the most expressive these days and she wasn't a mind reader.

when she saw you emerging from the crowd with jeno, she knew that she needed answers before the night ended.

unfortunately no, aeri didn't get any answers because she didn't have a chance to ask. her frustration fueled the endless beer refills which ended her drunk on your back as you prepared her for bed.

and you were lucky that she hadn't gotten the chance to do so. for the past two months, every day you woke up to was a curse in disguise of a blessing. the realization that hit you every time that like a reminder at the back of your head, that aeri wasn't your lover. and every single thing you've done with her won't remain as time spent with you, but her best friend who's the best pianist to her.

all she remembers when she woke up the next day was nothing, with a hangover that was giving her the worse headache. and you remember everything too vividly.

that night, as you tucked her hair behind her ear, all you could do was hold back sobs as a tear managed to escape, trickling down your cheek.

you couldn't sit by and enjoy this newfound life any longer. the day this world ends was getting closer and you had a mission to prevent the apocalypse. you weren't waivered by the possibility of a punishment that would cost your life. you were terrified of witnessing another time of losing someone you loved, someone you love.

you love aeri, yes. but was it the remnants of the love you had for your lover? although that may have been the case, you couldn't deny that her and aeri shared countless similarities. it was wrong to keep drawing resemblances between the two. nevertheless, one thing was for sure.

this version of you in this dimension, had loved aeri for a long time.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry…"

"I love you so much."

"please forgive me."

"nothing in this world belongs to me. but this love, my love is all mine, forever for you."

[mythicalartistx]

I know now without a doubt Kingdom Hearts is L—

No actually I think Kingdom Hearts is honestly purposely censored.

I used to be like well I don't think it's inherently the translators faults, Japanese is a tough language for people to know what it's referring to and likes to Americanized certain things like adding heteronormativity and romanizing things. People like romanticizing thingz so I can't exactly blame them it's part of westerners.

Like when you think of relationships most think of straight relationships so that probably what they thought of it's probably about even though the relationship doesn't really develop that much.

A lot of Action movies have the same problem when there is a male main character, there is always a forced romance with some side girl character when it's not a developed or good relationship it's just there to mark of the love interest category.

But now realizing how much Kingdom Hearts censors things, maybe they had an idea.

Some lines are WAY off from the original made to romanticized so much when the original wasn't even anything remotely like that or about a character in that way. And some scenes take out movements and edit it.

They change the entire meaning to censor things for American Audiences.

Nobody knows why.

And all I can think of is to make it have things that American Audiences would rather enjoy having romance in places unnecessarily or censoring things to be "safe"

I made a post about the Dream Drop Distance scene which gotten a crazy amount of attention only on the first few days it's at 300+notes, but the post was essentially about how when Sora was sleeping he tells Donald and Goofy it's his job to keep him on his toes and he puts his arm down in a fist. Then Riku moved his arm slightly to the left and put it in a fist again?

But the scene actually had Riku telling Donald and Goofy how he slapped Sora awake whenever he fell asleep on the beach and it shows Riku moving his hand in a slapping motion, not whatever that awkward motion was.

The thing is DDD was one of the side games and I thought they didn't pay much attention to the censoring in those. And given how gay DDD is and it wasn't as censoring their dynamic.

However, it got censored and it's like why? Did they think Audiences couldn't handle it?

Like it just seems like a silly thing he would do. It's kinda like how some people would pour water on someone to wake them up.

Like a teasing thing which he does A LOT and it probably wasn't that hard.

And other times I heard about how the language had some swearing or words that could be translated that way but of course since it's Disney the western version had to censor that.

The novels and manga actually still have more language in it.

And I think the main problem is Disney. They censor things a lot now.

They used to be more open to this kind of thing, but now they are soft and never take risks. I also heard how their team would edit things that would be in their original movie to tone it down for KH players.

It's kinda sad because there is definitely a lot of meaning to KH that is lost in translation. The battle with Vanitas is one in particular I had realized it's meaning is a bit more than the western version. The western version also simplifies things and tries to condense aspects as well. Xehanort's reason for everything is also worded very differently in the western version.

One of the reasons I look at fan translations is because it gives more meaning to certain events, not only because of dynamics and possible ships that are lost, but also explanations that are no longer there.

I'm so grateful for everyone who tries to retranslate things accurately and sometimes I use a site for certain things I'm curious but by no means do I speak their language and I get translation is hard, I really hope their future installments don't do this especially with KH4 and ML coming up in the next several years.