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car sketches while waiting for the bus
#from 6 months ago#cars#ink#ink drawings#bus sketches#drawing#my art#art#ink sketch#car drawing#honestly cars are hard to get right#all that persecptive!#that i need to practice lol
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Everything I've read in Jan. 2024
Yona of the dawn
Yona was the first story that i read this year and damm was it the right way to set the tone for the year. It's a story that has all of the elements that I adore in the fantasy genre, its got the action, political drama, the multi-facted characters. I won't be saying much about this manga because i have already have an older post talking about my favorite aspects, so if you want more in depth thoughts you can search for that
Kashoku no shiro
Now here is a fun setting, Taisho era Japan with supernatural elements. Quick run down of the story, people are being affected by a mysterious disease that makes flowers bloom all over their bodies, once the flowers wilt so does the person but there are cases where they recover and become even healthier. But plot twist, the ones who survive will become demons who feast on human flesh. So thats where our protagonist Shiraume comes in, she acts as 'bait' for these demons, essentially luring them out for her master to slaughter
If i had to tell you what drew me to this story, it would be the art style, like it is drop dead gorgeous. Also the design of our heroine is just my type too which is a bonus
Plot wise it does feel a little all over the place, it jumps persecptive quite often. Like it jumps form a detective story, to a josei love story, to Demon slayer which feels kinda jarring for me. But the backstory of our protagonist was done quite well, one thing i can praise is that our heroine isn't a simpering doormat. It's true that she has lived a hard life but she just keep living in the best way that she can manage. Shiraume is never the type to mope around or bemoan her fate, she takes charge and endure, she does everything in her power to live for her loved ones.
Its a good read all in all, but since theres only about 20 chapters that are out i can't really tell if this is gonna flop or not. I'll be keeping on eye on it to see if the author manages to get it together.
Bibliophile princess
The most mediocre otome isekai story i've ever fucking read. Its vanilla, like 'sex with the lights off no kinky shit' vanilla.
Story-wise, it's a very simple set up. Book enthusiast Elianna is in a contract fiancee relationship with the crown prince who i cannot be bothered to remember or google the name of. She is beloved by all of the staff memebers, all the secondary male characters love her and she has a great family but oh no! It seems that the prince has fallen for another woman, which means that her engagement with the prince will be ending soon. Yeah if your an otome isekai reader you can guess where this is going, villainess tries to ruin our heroines rep by spreading false rumors yada yada yada...
Similar to Kashoku no shiro, what drew me in was the art nouveau style. I mean the amount of details in the illustrations are amazing, coupled with the dreamy pastel color palette it creates this feeling that you really are in a fairy tale world
One of my main problems with the first volume is how weirdly structured the story is. Like it begins with the prince asking Elianna to enter a contract relationship with him and them jumps to a four year time skip for no apparent reasoning? Like we don't get to see alot of romantic development between them so now suddenly Elianna is in love? But moving on, i felt like Elianna has like little to no self awareness or agency. The first volumes conflict is about how this noble girl is rumored to be the princes lover and is planning to take Eliannas place. At this point you would expect to see our heroine stand up for herself and assert her place in the court right? Wrong. She was basically left in the dark about whats truly going on until the end of the volume. It was revealed that the noble girl was a villain all along who was trying to frame Elianna for shit she didn't do, also conveniently our MC has a mile long list of accomplishments that we as the reader didn't know about, and apparently she didn't either. So yeah, the male leads basically was protecting her for the whole story and she just wandered around feeling insecure about being replaced
Cold game
Do you like the story of king Henry the eighths six wives? Do you wanna see all six of them do a battle royal for the chance to become queen? Do you like crossdressing heroines? Well look no further than Cold game
Our MC is princess Aruna of the B kingdom, yes i know weird name but bare with me here, who is meant to be engaged to the king of the E kingdom. But here's the sus part, he already has a queen from the S country but he's demanding another wife from the B country? Quite the odd request but since B is weaker than E they had to comply with the demands. Aruna knows she's being sent as a sacrificial lamb but her lord father told her to hang on for a bit, one day he will get her out of that place. So to protect herself, Aruna swap places with her handmaiden and pretended to be crossdressing knight.
One of the best things about this story is the political intrigue. Like from the get go, we are shown that the court is a brutal place where an inconspicuous letter can be the cause of your down fall. People here will always watch your every move, everyone fears one another to an extent. Also the side characters are so fucking cool, like these people can star in their own spin off kinda cool.
#every thing i've read#review#shoujo#shoujo manga#otome isekai#cold game#kashoku no shiro#akatsuki no yona#yona of the dawn#bibliophile princess#manga recommendation#recommendation
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"Yep!" Ink snickers but she sweatdropping a little when Echo and Navarro come over to see the extent of the damage they accidentally made.
----- Flashback ---
"You guys..." Navarro takes a deep breath as he is trying to calm himself down. To anyone else in Kali's fraction, it's like Navarro just came back from anger management. But they all know that Navarro doesn't do anger management.
Kali's fraction members who are with Kali and Rex; Wesley and Zeb are sweatdropping seeing the angry members from the persecptive fractions of Cursed Vixens and the DBT. Jinx defends herself that the building wasn't seriously damage since it is still up. Until now.
The building fall on them. They would been of crushed if it weren't for Rex's aura barrier. A huge dust cloud came up and what remains is a huge pile of rubble.
Navarro twitched an eye at this. He slowly turns to the culprits.
"Hahaha. I guess they aren't up to code?" Ink grins.
"You...." Navarro tries to calm down but couldn't anymore, "YOU DUNCE DAMN IDIOTS! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU TWO?! WHAT THE FUCK!? WHAT THE FUCK?!" Navarro said, showing the destruction they caused.
"W-we're sorry! That's our bad?!"
"Don't give us 'That's our bad'?! WHO SAYS YOU CAN BE SPARRING NEAR THE BUILDING! DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH IS THIS GOING TO CAUSE?! OUT OF BUDGET?!" Navarro said.
"Uhhh..."
"OF COURSE NOT! YOU'RE SO FREAKING GROUNDED!"
~~~Flashback~~~
"A little overboard?" Kali repeated, "A LITTLE OVERBOARD?!" Said Kali as she can't believe these two. She points to the building that they destroyed. Most of the floors inside that building was a mess.
"Ummm..." Jinx blinks but she looks to Kali then at the building.
"YOU CALLED THAT OVERBOARD?! THAT'S MASSIVE PROPERTY DAMAGE, YOU MOROOOONSSS!!" Kali shouted at them. "Who's going to pay for this?! I'm calling your second-in-commands right now! Because it sounds like you two have no brains or something!"
"Oh come on! We do! We just had a little fun Kali! Right Ink?" She said happy but heard some rumbling as the building from inside caved in to make Jinx wince and sweatdrop.
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"I know right!? I never seen her that mad before." Jinx giggled to remember. "Though, It was like Ashley said. The only one that can calm Kali down was Rex. Even he was shocked when seeing the building come crashing down."
~~~~~~~Flashback~~~~~~
"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU TWO DO!?" Echo's eye twitched to see the mess that even Rex was trying to keep Kali calm even if he senses her anger raising at an alarming rate.
"Kali..easy now..calm down." he said worried but he knew how she was.
"OH come on Echo! It wasn't that bad! AT least the building is still up!" she said with her hands up before Jinx blinks feeling the area shaking. That's when she saw only for Rex to create a aura barrier protecting him, Kali, Navarro, Echo, Ink, and Jinx as the building came crashing down. A huge dust cloud was seen as the area was a mess. Jinx had her eyes closed but she opens them to see a huge rubble pile.
"....Oopsie..^^;"
#ic#rp#thesilverpeahenresidence#vaninkthedragon#thesilverpeahenresidence ( The Black Flame Vixen - Jinx )#the misadventures of the panther and dragon;rp
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ORLEAN THE INFORMANT
the player can trigger orlean's meeting event by eating lunch at the cafeteria. whatever pc responds, they wont make an good impression on orlean. to initiate orlean's route, pc needs to at least has one established fame or scores a* on all the subjects.
orlean is a beautiful and popular student at school but their vindictive and judgemental nature doesnt make them very approachable. they seems to value beauty (mostly themselves) the most on the surface. its a rumour that orlean runs an information service with their friends, page and ripley, and makes quite a fortune. orlean also takes a liking to talk bad about students, if pc is affected by the rumours, their status at school will decrease.
the chance of a rumour becoming bigger can constantly happen if pc's reputation is lower than 200. beware of your interaction with orlean.
orlean is paired with five attributes: dominance, trust, love, lust and hatred. when pc meets the requirement to initiate orlean's route, they will be forced to be part of orlean's information service and will be rewarded at the end of weekday depends on the work pc has done. orlean's dominance will starts off at 50% along side with trust at 0%. working with orlean's clique equals a tremendous amount of work (which includes weird kink related topics and illegal underworld's information). orlean will manipulate pc into doing what they wants if pc refuses to work on the requests which will raises dominance and makes it harder for pc to refuse later on.
trust will be increased if pc has successfully done the work. there will be at least one costumer request and one orlean's request a week and they have to be done by monday next week. if pc fails to complete them, they have to pay back orlean the service price or orlean will actively decrease pc's reputation for the next three days if pc refuses to pay . pc's salary will depends on how well they do their weekly work: putting up service poster, spreading rumours, finding "work" material and the requests segment, the wages will range from 150£ to 2000£.
orlean's friends will also be an advantage for the player. page the omniscient, will provide the player information about one-time outside work to gain a huge sum of money with the cost of 100£. ripley the guile will gift pc clothes on random occassions.
when trust reachs 80% and dominance to 0%, orlean will have conflicted feelings for pc and love will appear to replace dominance. orlean wont face pc as much as before to the point their friends have to be the one to inform pc about work. when pc asks about orlean, they will always respond back with nothing more than reassurance. instead pc will encounter with orlean more in the orphanage at night, usually after 21:00pm.
orlean will come back to school to confess to pc, after love reaches 40%. if pc refuses, their relationship will be continued as colleagues. if pc accepts, orlean's route will step into its climax. building up love with orlean is similar to any other love interests. although its impossible to increase their lust as it is not available at the moment. orlean eventually let pc do less work and gives them money above 300£ every week.
the route will have two quests to determine orlean's persecptive on pc when love reaches 90%. pc will be approached by the strange man who threatens pc to leak out the r*pe fame that orlean has been hiding to protect their popularity. if the player choose not to side with him, they will process "beginning of youth", they have to protect orlean and themselves from harrassment (encounter rates for both will increase) and if successfully do so after a week will make lust appears as orlean moves on from the rumour. if the player choose to leak the information themselves, "ending of youth" will begin, orlean's route will enter its state.
hatred will now appear at max of 100%, replace all the other stats and cannot be decreased. if pc comes to their room, they will notice page is stealing all their clothes and will be knocked out by ripley. page and ripley will not be approachable. orlean wont be seen at school and orphanage instead will actively seek out pc outside and attempts to kill them. if the player escape from orlean's encounter, the rate will gradually increase and makes future encounters more dangerous. the only solution for the player is to dismiss orlean by killing them. if orlean notices pc is planning to dismiss them, npc initiating nonconsensual encounters with pc will raise. after dismissing orlean, the player can bury their body in the garden of the orphanage (where they will find a rustic knife also buried down there), this will increase pc's crime for 800.
if the player accepts orlean's and jesse's confession on the same day, their dual route will begin.
OPINION
low trust, low dominance: orlean finds you uninteresting.
low trust, high dominance: orlean thinks youre pathetic.
high trust, low dominance: orlean respects you.
high trust, high dominance: orlean thinks youre annoying.
low love, low lust: orlean starts to open up to you.
low love, high lust: orlean wants to compete with you.
high love, low lust: orlean loves you.
high love, high lust: orlean doesnt want to leave your side.
hatred: orlean will kill you.
#degrees of lewdity#dol#dol ocs#orlean#orlean the informant#my baby has been done#i will work on jesse next
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If you could change on thing about cursed child what would it be?
[OOC: So, so many things Anon. I'll have to be honest and admit that I haven't exactly read CC in it's entirety, but I know enough to get the gist of it. I'm not sure how exactly to put this into words, so I'll do a brief insert below: ]
“If you were my daughter, I’d know of you.”
“I am of the future,” Delphi insisted, again. “The child of you and Bellatrix Lestrange. I was born in Malfoy Manor before the Battle of Hogwarts. A battle you are going to lose - I'm here to save you.”
With his back turned to Delphi, Harry, pretending to be Voldemort, frowned.
“I am familiar with Bellatrix,” Harry admitted evenly. “And there are certain similarities in your face - but without proof..”
Delphi took a deep breath.
She knew exactly how to show him, had been holding these cards the closest of all since she first adopted the 'Diggory' persona. She felt the familiar tug of a transition tickling in her hair before she even began focusing on bringing her true features forward. Silver strands slowly gave way to unruly black curls, brows thickening, the entire shape of her face changing, her eyes shifting from a dull brown to the familiar emerald of Tom Riddle's own.
"A metamorphmagus." She stated in plain parseltongue, noting the look of horror that flickered across her Father's face. Strange. "I believe that may be passed on through Bellatrix, but Salazar's gift, that came of you.. Father."
[OOC: End Scene, or whatever. Would have been nice for Bellatrix to have any sort of nod for being Delphini's parent, too. Also, I would have lived for the absolute horror it would have caused Harry & Co to come face to face with a Bellatrix look-alike, speaking parseltongue and magically flying with a prowess to match her Father's. Their actual worst nightmare come to life. Fucking hilarious. Plus, I think the metamorphmagus aspect would have been a nice add just strictly from Harry's persecptive. A reminder of Tonks, and the glaring fact that Delphini and Teddy are so closely related, same with Draco. The book entirely ignores this. Sad.]
#this is just one thing of many#oh well#at least we got delphini out of it all#Cursed Child#Harry Potter#Delphini#Delphi#headcanons that should be canon canon
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That’s a good point. I feel like people really generalize and think every single man was an abuser which isn’t the case, obviously. I wonder if men coming home from war also triggered more domestic violence due to PTSD or other issues (not saying experiencing those things is an excuse to hit your wife) but maybe that was a reason for an increase? But man, I just feel like a lot more women in today’s culture are settling and stick with horrible, toxic men because there is no standard for what a “good man” looks like anymore in this current culture. A “good man” today is one who agrees with your politics it seems lol..
Is domestic violence worse than the 1950s or was the 1950s just under reported due to the lack of domestic violence laws or both. I always see people say the domestic housewife “jokes” about being beaten or slapped by your husband but in all honesty, I believe the culture is worse and some men treat women just as poorly nowadays. The standards of how a man should be and how a woman should be are all but gone and this leaves a culture of uncertainty and just settling. I feel we keep regressing in the name of progress in many societal realms.
#I know the standards have clearly shifted from a biblical persecptive to a subjective perspective which is all but dangerous#obviouslyyyyy
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IM A DHARMA BUM WHO WILL TEACH YOU ABOUT KARMA SON THE MOON SHOWS US SIGNS IN THE EYES OF STRANGER SKYS LEFT MY LOVE LIGHT ON NO TELLING WHY I THROW WORDS AROUND TO SEE THEM FLY STAY ACKNOWLEDGING FRESH vision the quest I guess less is more more or less NOTHING TO SAY ALOT ON MY CHEST BREATH REPLACE SPEECH no SPEECH REPLACE DEATH SWOLLOW your egotistic pride PRIDE LET IT ride n swirl from sides CONVERSATE WITH THE SPIRIT INSIDE VISION QUEST LEARNING LESSONS FROM THE WICKED OR the WISE EXPERIENCE the ultimate cosmic teacher unique galactic guide n universal preacher moments the ONLY THING YOU gonna TAKE WHEN U DIE from thee illest low life to the most rightous guy jus a casket of bones so I'm jus laughing alone .I'm jus a poem writer to enlighten writing poems buffalo Souljah dying jus to roam
Coastal breezes essence like sweetest memory that u really never owned easy wind molded concrete right into soil grew negative ions that were always loyal to the side walks crooked lines the lineage is royal
see things from different angels like a prisim white light reflects infinite
combine rise raise up lives daily
FESTIVAL OF LIFE where strangers all COLLIDE WISDOM with reason love the lows and highs do not deny till it's a effortless action evertime that you try with a inate second nature to consistently thrive easier than breathing to live better lives consistently challenge principals apply
the farmers almanac abide it's a natural disasters don't look in its eye listen clear listen up n hear when MOTHER NATURE'$ TRANSFORMATION is WHISPERING my dear move in sync .
HER METAMORPHOSIS opposing opposite opposition magnetic at times desire EARTH WIND FIRE for the elements we train but jus shift the paradimn to get over THE GRAIN stay AGAINST ALL ODDS Never give up maintainin your self jus build trust the power you give to words at any given time alters personal persecption in your inner mind 👁️.. sonic chakras awaking vibrating magnetic fields wavelengths, n auras re-creating laws of attraction depends how we deal it's the naked truth no labels will reveal..read the ingredients like a holistic shield then jus before u eat research your meal
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one of the hardest things for me right now while getting evaluated for scizoaffective is realizing everything i thought was a personality trait is a symptom
Hello there anon,Boy is this ever a mood. I absolutely get where you’re coming from, and it is at times very frustrating to see things you perceive as intrinsic to who you are, being called out as pathological symptoms.That said, remember that just because something is also a symptom, it doesn’t mean that it isn’t also part of who you are. Mental illness is not like a virus that has taken over your brain, it’s a pattern in your behavior, mood, personality, persecption etc., which is maladaptive and extreme enough that someone would consider it a symptom.But it’s still you, and there can also be upsides to these traits, even if they are also symptoms.You definitely shouldn’t start feeling like all of “you” is wrong, because that’s a painful and dangerous path to go down, I can say as much...Cat
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Of all the different cultures and socitites within the Throne of Glass and and A court of Throne and Roses universes their is none as interesting to me as the Illyrain one. Equally fascianting is outside persecptiv if it, and the relationship of Cassian, Azriel and Rhysand with their people.
The Illyrains are the worst. They are misogynistic and hierarchical and brutal and nothing more. Except I, espiecally as an indigenous person (Māori - New Zealand) who has being told her own people and culture were savage despite all my experiences of them being to countary, can't totally buy that. No culture is black and white, totally bad or totally good or really superior or inferior to other cultures, and everyone who tries paint a culture as simply one is missing shit. And i believe the same rings true here. We see plenty of edivence of prejudice and brutally in other cultures/communities with the ACOTAR series, both human and fae - The racism and treatment of "lesser faeries," a consistent patriarchy (eg. Feyre vs. High Lady), the court of Nightmares, fucking Calanmai. But no one else is antagonize, so stripped of any beauty within their society, so alienated by outsiders and even insiders, as is the case with out boys Rhys, Az and Cass.
I can't help but to see the parrels between this persecptive and how Europens, both in the 1800s and still today, views Māori, and the societal prejudices at large within both. I'm not saying Sarah J Maas has totally antagonised the Illyrains at large. She's done at great job of protrating the boys complex relationship with their people, how they still love them despite their faults. She's made it clear it's not just the Illyrains that suck, but quite a few society. But I want more.
I want Cassian and Rhysand working out their discontent for their culture isn't just due to their experience but also influenced outside persecptives, from Rhys growing up and hearing how he's is one of those "savage mountain men" and not quite knowing what to do with that identity. I want to learn before the blood rite they have a cemomany under the stars that sends a chill up your spine, but we never heard about it because the boys dimissed it as savage alongside everyone else, the some way europeans consricted over haka (type of Māori dance - you can watch one here) to a war dance and called our chants ugly until we some of us started to believe it. I want to learn more about those tattoos. I want see Illyrains for love their people and their warrior spirit more than anything who see everything beautiful in their culture, and working to change whats wrong and I want to know once again that love and wanting things to change can live side by side.
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- learning that ever teacher sets and marks there own tests with no one checking? No central education?
- an Americans complains that college was cheaper in there parents day. In my parents day, uni was fucking free in my country
- having to switch between college to mean teritarity education on the internet, and college meaning high school in my country
- also learning to translate your counties school years into american grades
- and USD exchange rate
- sometimes they ask you to transfer metric to imperial and no. Do it yourself
- accepting that you must discuss all social issues in an American context
- how do they know nothing about say brexit it thou?
-being told off when you point out fucked up shit in american, only because no cares about the fucked up shit in your country so what else should i talk about?
- when you bring in a persecptive from your country it is instantly dismissed
- but they having no idea what left and liberal mean
- and that left ≠ liberal
- thinking democrats are left when there actually right and conservative
- wondering wtf they are being taught at school
- watching kids around you in your country switch to american discourse too IRL. Like talking about gun control in an American context without mentioning your own country
-Suddenly Europeans are being calked white not pākehā (Māori weird for those woth only European heritage, widely used in New Zealand society)
- you even discuss trump in you school assignments
- they don't know what Māori means so i need to tell them the people in Moana are my ancestors
- what is this white passing? I'm Māori, but I'm white as. I'm just not pākeha
- actually being confused about people shitty on americans for claiming culture heritage, because the culture you come from is all about that. If you g-g-grandfather was from that tribe, you are from that tribe, and you fucking tell everyone you meet your from that tribe. But the Europeans mad at USAmericans for saying there Irish haven't stopped to consider that other cultures define identity differently, espiecally in countries where the places your grandparents come from is a big part of your history
- As an indigenous person from not amercia, still knowing more about ndn america than them how do you all know nothing???
- the refusal to understand race isn't the only diversity? Like sure the whole casts of a TV show can be white, but it can still have immigrants, or people from different religions or classes and have oppression streaming from that. And sometimes, the people from the area and era being protrayed are just from the same ethnicity? And that's OK?
- Amercians talking about how shit this thing is in the USA and how bad the country is, unaware it a thing in MULTIPLE OTHER COUNTRIES. You get told off when you point that out
- never criticising or dicussing the constitution in any way? Like maybe the right to bear arms shouldn't? Be? A? Right?
- Americans constantly apologing for their countrymen being closed minded and knowing about nothing outside of the USA while not being different?
- you watch coverage of a terrible event on your countries news. They use steady reassuring voices. You feel relaxed. You turn on an america channel. There is a alarm in the background, they talk fast and urgently
- you hear of a place called summer camp. It sounds fun. You try find holiday camps in your country. THEY ARE NONE.
Anyway if you’re from the US and you ever wanted to know what tumblr feels like from a non-USAmerican perspective (please note that the rest of the world is not a monolith either and none of these apply without exception):
Everybody’s talking about brands and stores you’ve never seen in real life. You generally assume they exist, but they might as well be one giant prank the rest of the internet is in on.
You find a post that just sounds wrong. It makes no sense. It’s like OP lives in a weird alternate reality. 9/10 times, it’s just some USAmerican Thing.
You’re still not entirely sure how much an inch is. Or a foot. Or even how many of the former there are in the latter. You maybe know your height in feet and inches.
You have no idea how much a pound is. You’d also like to know how the fuck pound shortens to lbs.
What the fuck is “military time”
Somebody talks about some legal process or something similar. They don’t mention which country’s legal system this pertains to. You know anyway.
People talk about politics. None of it pertains to you. Many posts contain guilt tripping. “How can you not care about this?? Why won’t you reblog this?? People need to know this about x candidate for y position!” You’re busy trying to stay on top of the political landscape in your own country.
You pick up some random slang from the internet. Monkey see monkey do. You’re called racist. You didn’t know it was AAVE. You learnt it from black letters on white background, not from the mouths of people whose faces you could see. How would you have known? You try to unlearn it.
People tell you that you must publicly denounce Chick-fil-A or you’re homophobic. You don’t even know what a Chick-fil-A is.
People say you don’t know LGBTQ+ history. What they mean is you don’t know USAmerican LGBTQ+ history. Nobody cares about your country’s history.
You’re “called out” on using an “offensive” term. It’s (a direct translation of) a completely harmless word where you live.
People expect you to have an idea of how far apart 2 USAmerican states are. You barely know geography past your country’s immediate neighbors.
You randomly switch between British and American spellings. Nothing’s real and there are no rules.
People talk about multiple hour car rides and you get twitchy just thinking about it. You suddenly understand why USAmerican cars are so big.
Somebody talks about school shooting drills. You only ever had fire alarm drills.
You see a cool statistic. The study’s only about the US. It’s unfortunately of no use to you.
People misuse/misspell words and names from your native language. It’s tiring.
(You feel sorry for the French. Nobody should be allowed to mangle the word déjà vu like that.)
You’re still not over the fact that USAmerican school children are supposed to say that pledge thing every morning. You’re never getting over that.
You still don’t know why the men are fresh or what the fuck a sophomore is.
Who the fuck pays up first and then fills up gas??? That’s made up, right??
Everybody has a weird obsession with some comfort food you’d never even heard of before you signed up here.
Fellow non-USAmericans, please add anything else you can think of.
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My Thoughts on Social Media
A long awaited blog topic: Social Media.
This is a topic I’ve had so much to say about for a really long time, but I’ve never had the courage to write about how I feel about it. But recently, I’ve watched some of my favourite Youtuber’s come out, such as TTLYTeala and BubzBeauty, and explain the same way I feel about social media. They have inspired me to finally share my own opinions on it.
Disclaimer: I am sharing my past struggles, certain struggles, and what I would like to overcome in the future. Whatever I state on here is not singalling out a person and/or trying to make anybody feel bad. But hey, if the shoe fits, wear it. You might want to re-consider some of our own decisions regarding social media and the way it plays a role in your life. I only hope that this simply helps you.
First of all, let me start with the fact that I am very lucky that I grew up without social media. I still experienced having a childhood by playing outside, talking on the actual phone with my friends, and honestly just using my imagination to pass the time. I was about 7 when we got our first computer, which I really only used for “paint”, to type non-sense on Microsoft word, and illegally download songs from Limewire (remember that?). I was 14 when I started using Facebook and MSN, so my childhood was over by that point and I was entering my teenage years. I watch my sister now who is 12, and who has been involved with social media for at least the past 4-5 years. You might think that isn’t normal, but it is. And that’s scary. If social media was destroying my mental health at 14, imagine what it can do to a 9, 10, 11, or 12-year-old.
Social media made high school hard. I wish I grew up in a time where it missed my teenage years as well. I can say I wasn’t the most popular, had a small group of friends, and had a hard time fitting in for a few years, so seeing people and their “perfect lives” through a screen only increased my anxiety, and I always wonder how my life would have been if I didn’t have anything or anybody to look at and compare myself too. In elementary school, yes of course I compared myself to other people, but it all stopped as soon as I got home. I was happy, and I went along my way and did whatever I wanted, without checking my phone every 2 minutes to see what everybody else was up too, outside of seeing them from real life (does that make sense?) Throughout high school, it became a constant comparison and competition to everybody’s life, making sure my life looked like theirs and who’s was better and so on; making sure it looked perfect, becoming so obsessed with it at one point it was all I thought about. Only caring about how many followers I had, if I didn’t get enough likes on a picture (especially selfies) I would delete it immediately, spending so much time taking the perfect pictures only to impress everybody else, but never to impress myself. I was so concerned about how everybody else pictured myself and my life, that I didn’t realize how my mental health was completely deteriorating. Instead of actually talking to friends and working out problems face to face, it turned into just a block, unfollow, and having arguments through text… which are the worst, if you ask me.
Of course, I’m guilty of all those things. We all are. I’m definitely not proud of it, but it’s the way our generation had become. I can confidently say that for a very long while now, I couldn’t care much about my likes or followers. As long as my feed is mentally healthy for me, I find it’s okay… or don’t I?
Yes, 100%, I will unfollow someone I had a past relationship with that didn’t work out for the sake of moving on. I don’t find that being childish, I find that growing up and moving on. No human will ever move on from a friend or a significant other if their life is constantly up in your face. Humans become obsessive, competitive, and jealous, and that’s a normal thing. We all do it. So, in that regard, I find that healthy. But being petty or rude is a different story; and ya’ll know what I’m talking about. We’ve all been there and done that.
I have found time and time again; people live a whole other life on their social media accounts. Isn’t that crazy? For example, I’m sure we all know of couples who argue, fight, maybe even cheat on each other all the time but if you looked at them on social media you would think they were perfect. Although I learned this late (because I can also be gullible as hell), please always remember: not everything is how it seems, and you never know someone’s life behind closed doors. Anyone can make their life look perfect and amazing through a picture they’ve taken, but you never really know what they’re going through. A picture can say 1000 words; real, fake, good, bad. Imagine if people put every single side of their life on social media. You would be getting a completely different persecptive; negative, positive, the good times and the bad times and you would realize we are all the same. We are all humans, we hurt, we cry, we have downs we have ups, so people think and assume someone is happy so they hate on them. Just be nice. It’s not hard. Or don’t say anything at all. I’ve never left a nasty comment on anybody’s picture, video, or post, and I tend to leave it that way. I’ve also met a ton of people in real life, followed them on social media, and have watched these people put up a completely different face to the public. Don’t get me wrong; I used to do that. Honestly, I think we all have at one point in our life. But it’s really sad, because I wish we were able to just be comfortable in our skin and not be so concerned about what everybody else thinks. Again, this applies to myself as well, because I know it’s still an on-going issue for me, even though I’m proud to say that I think it has become a lot better.
Something I find this hilarious, but in such a sad, sad, way, is that as much as I have become better at really not giving a shit, I still hear that voice in the back of mind saying “if you don’t update or post this, people are going to think this”. Example: if I don’t post a picture of my boyfriend or best friend in a while, people will automatically think we’re fighting or we’re not friends anymore and I think that’s crazy. I shouldn’t have to think that or feel that way. I should feel like I’m able to post whatever I want, whenever I want, because I want too. Not because I need to keep up with everybody and make sure they’re satisfied. I find it so sad that before, in order to feel some sort of acceptance, I had to post the perfect “selfie” and get a certain amount of comments or likes, and if it didn’t, I felt ugly. And I would try again the next day, hoping for some sort of ridiculous validation from people on the internet, some being I don’t even know. It’s been an on-going problem, which leads me to my next point.
For the last 4-5 months or so I keep going back on forth to wanting to delete all my social media accounts, to maybe starting with one, maybe just keeping them but deleting the apps off my phone; so many options. I just feel like time is a problem. I spend so much time on them when I know I can be doing other things but it’s really hard. I had a student of mine tell me she deleted Instagram, and I asked her why. She said “it made me feel very anxious to see what everybody else was doing. I felt left out, and I always spent so much time on it, so I deleted it. It wasn’t easy, but I knew it would benefit me mentally.” And I was impressed. It’s one thing to say you want to do it, but another to actually do it and I was proud of her. Because having social media is such a normal thing today, and if you don’t have it you’re considered the weird one, and it’s hard to be the odd one out. It’s really hard. And I think right now I’m just finding better ways to control my time usage, and to really get to a place where I do not give a shit about what others think under any circumstance.
All I know, is that it is hard to keep up. It’s hard to feel like your own individual when everybody else around you is something completely different then you. I grew up in a town where everyone was the same and followed the same path when it came to popularity, partying, significant others, the things you had, the way you looked; it all had to be a certain way, and I was very different. It took a super long time to be okay with it, and I won’t lie and say that there are more days then less where I’m sometimes still not okay with it, but I’m okay with not putting up a fake front on social media. I’m okay with posting more than one picture a day if I want too, I’m okay with posting more pictures of my dog than of me, I’m okay with getting 50 likes on a picture, I’m okay with a life that I love; not that anybody else makes me feel like I should have. I’m happy I’m living through choices I’ve decided, and I tend to continue making that better every day. It sounds dramatic, but think about it- a lot of your “social media” choices change you as a person as well. If you keep up a fake front on social media, you got to try and keep that up in real life too and not everything is a fantasy. You won’t be able to keep up, and it will be hard to realize that your life is not what you painted it to be. And I know, because I went through it.
Look, I don’t even know if any of this made any sense. But this has been on my mind for a while so I thought I’d just type all these clustered thoughts out and hope it makes any sort of sense. I have a blog, why not use it? So here it is.
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