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"More importantly, however…art has no obligation to show perfect societies..."

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3D space

Doesn't make sense

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3rd dimension in my skull

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Exact precision

This nerve is buzzing right here kinda.. where exactly? Hmm.. that's 3d space

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Pinpointing....

Left eye hurt

Left face hurt

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Soft spot

Back of the head

Just below skull ends on the back side

In line with earlobe horizontal

Perhaps 3" toward the center from my left lob

That fleshy part where the skull ends

Having feeling there

Catching feeling there but originating elsewhere

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Not totally thinking clearly

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Not thinking not clearly

.left side also

Big vein in throat there

Maybe jugular

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Left side

Left tendon

Right edge of left tendon

One finger tip length down from the jaw.

Heartbeat strong and hurt there

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Eye lids strong visuals

Maybe mask better

Closing eyes, active eyelids causing more light than cloth

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...

Am I getting sick again wtf

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Migraine

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Ton of bricks

Rain, falling

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Exe. Function

.exe failed

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I clicked on it but the link is dead.

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Pain behind my ears.

That soft spot

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Pain from

New directors

Feeling uncertain.

About everything

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Oh yeah, there's vertigo

My whole body feels tight

Like I'm protecting something

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Im pacing around my house looking for something .

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I can't find it.

I cant relax till I find it..

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Heart beating. Heavier

An inch below my left nipple

Towsrd my feet and to the left

My vantage point

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Pressing into a gap in my ribcage there.

Pushing hard there with a knuckle

Feeling for my elevated pulse there.

Feels heavier there.

Checking my own vitals.

I don't even trust doctors to do that right lately

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Self care is vital

It's the most trustworthy dependable place for comfort, guidance.

Literally anything.

It's never too much

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Punishing myself with more words .

This is how it starts

Predrone

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Crooked beat in my heart

Wriggly beat

Wriggling through my teeny bones in my skull .

Intense fucking pain shooting upwards

Wriggling bones

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Bones on bones norwegian forefathers

Migraines and migration

Describing this phase.

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Im only using my phone today because I had to.

. I had a specific appointment at a specific time.

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I made an appointment for tomorrow and I have someone working on getting me an appointment.

People have been appointed so that I may be appointed as well.

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Im good now.

I thought I was going to die, but now my name is in a book somewhere.

They uses to call it booking an appointment

Sitting on yellow pages to see the newest copy of the yellow pages on my dining table .

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What am I writing towards.

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This feelkng kinda rare

I felt good for like a day and it was like freedom.

Losing it now

Body tightening

I don't have to clench to awake

I can't unclench

Tight skippity butthole for days

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Lights become tracers

Lingering Larry

Lingering ocd lights ✨️

What brought on this pain?

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Interviewing myself like an unhinged cop with too much coffee

Babies and baby momas crying in his ear

Solving this impossible crime.. now dammit!

It's the only time ever

Everything feels

Over important

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.exe failing to execute

Seeing the task.

Wishing I wasn't in pain

4 months straight

Im not lazy i swear

Still getting a lot done

Brain power

Feeling like a useless being lately

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Over clenched body

Hurt body

Can't help others body

Can't help others help me body

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Nikita Gill, from Your Heart is the Sea: Poems; "Your Heart is the Sea," originally published in 2018

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the invention of the word shall

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though shall read the bible

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not found in the bible

Implied meanings thumped as needed

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Its probably a weird alchemical thing tbh

like an ancient recipe explaining chemistry etiquette

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— Louise Glück, "The Burning Heart"

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uhh

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goals

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spring is coming

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analog film

color again

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Geographolgy Geography matters Traveling to the us How’d you get here . Over the pacific? Over the Atlantic? Plane? Boat? . . . Submarine? Jumped out of a plane?? What is this country.

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Feeling like a different person today. . I want to totally change my tone of writing and delete everything yet again. . Poor planning and poor writing, but practicing and observing. . Head injury has me thinking short term. . feeling like im underreacting in the moment . and overreacting to everything later. . when i'm by myself . storing weird anger . silent seizures and silent anger . holding on to weird feeling for no reason . feels like, narcissistic writing for myself. . I guess that's what a live journal is though. . I capsule in time of random things i've been processing. . am I doing this right

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sometimes it's not even enemies to lovers. sometimes you get handed the leash of a snarling, barking dog against your will and realize with dawning horror that you are now responsible for teaching it not to bite

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Elaine Castillo, America Is Not The Heart Jeanette Winterson, Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit Ijeoma Umebinyuo, ‘Confessions’, Questions for Ada Mohamad Hafez, Baggage series Evelyn Waugh, Brideshead Revisited Anne Carson, ‘The Glass Essay’, Glass, Irony, and God Margaret Atwood, ‘November’, You Are Happy Richard Siken, ‘Boot Theory’, Crush

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'Dark oxygen' discovery upends centuries of scientific beliefs - Earth.com

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Shaking the tree . Collecting the fruit . daily . animal crossing metaphores . the turnip wagon . animal crossing.. wondering if the market was more complex in that game. . a complex economy villager just dropped into . metaverse, memecoin, nasdaq, meticulous design cooexisting with outside villager spaces colliding. . deportation of that village that "cute" .. but.. I kinda wanted a cat or a frog not this weird boar thing .