#all im saying is that my mom isn't like that
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asking my father two questions (what do you want to eat on thursday and can you drive me to x place) and he fully malfunctioned and glared at me for all of dinner for daring to ask him stuff.
#all im saying is that my mom isn't like that#I LOVE BEING AN ADULT DAUGHTER LIVING AT HOME#ophelia blabs#living at home is great since you're saving money but living at home is awful bc you start to become more on the same level as your parents#and you realise#that an almost 60 year old man cant figure out his own schedule without help#anyway
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advice for getting out of christmas eve service with my parents??
last year i was too late in packing and getting to their house to go, which i was completely okay with. i didnt want to go. my sisters later told me the service, on christmas eve, was focused on a detransitioner's return to god, complete with the mother who cried saying she had her baby girl back. (apparently my mother cried at this story as well)
i tried simply refusing to go to a christmas morning service once and it started a shouting match and ended with threats to kicking me out of the house. so.
#exvangelical#ex christian#deconstruction#i actually dont remember if my attempted refusal was last year lmao but the way my mom talked yesterday haha....#'you need to leave earlier to make sure you get to church' hmmm i do not want to do that#and before anyone says 'youre an adult they dont have to make you do anything' i am currently living with my dads mom and am very grateful#for that. we're like half an hour from my parents and they talk all the time so any catastrophic thing has the potential to affect this#also any time i 'make things difficult' it's worse for my sisters. actually just me being at the house makes my mom on edge i think#she's always ready to snap in a way she apparently isn't when im not there
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i really need to learn how to be less stubborn abt my principles bc if i disagree with the concept of something i will simply not do it which is really not helping me get a stable job or function in society <3
#personal#i say this mostly jokingly but like KSJHBGSDG#for context i disagree with the concept of college entry essays so i never wrote one. so i went to community college instead#which isn't a bad thing but it did exasperate my mom LMFAO#she was like clara just write the damn essay and i was like no . im not gonna beg some college board--#--to believe me when i say im better than every other applicant. i'd rather not go at all than do that
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yall I want TDS3 tickets so badly 😭 but I don't know who to even go with and I'm not going by myself.... but I'm also seriously thinking I'm just gonna go ahead and try to get tickets on friday anyway
#last year i went with my mom and she enjoyed it#but im not entirely sure she wants to go again#and then my best friend doesn't like kpop at all lmao#but I don't know i might be able to get her to go w me but#i dont know how she'll feel about the traveling in chicago by ourselves thing#bc when we last went there together for a concert we were with her ex and he did the driving#so my last option is my brother lol because i asked the other day if he wants to go to chicago#and he did say yes so i told him attendance at the concert is mandatory#kpop is also absolutely not his genre of music#even though he listens to a little bit of a lot of stuff like country and pop and broadway musicals#like dude you'd love the theatrics of kpop and the gaybaiting they do? thats something he might like#and then one of my choices was my moms best friend bc she said after she saw my moms videos of tds2#that she wanted to go see a kpop concert because she loves showmanship so she saw the eras tour and#fell in love so i think she would like kpop. she loved the wrist light things TS did so lightsticks are definitely#something she'd enjoy and the choreography#i really think it's just the language barrier that's preventing my brother and best friend from wanting to go#and the language barrier that keeps my mom and her best friend from probably enjoying the music as much#because my mom loved one direction so a kpop boyband isn't too far off from that#oh also i think my friend will tell me no because i've already turned her down for plans like a week or two before that#because i won't have PTO to use at work because i'll have just gotten back from a vacay that uses i all#and then i'm gonna turn around and take 2 days off for a concert (travel time sucks)
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Granted I have the overall geographical and cultural knowledge of a 4th grader but from what I can tell the nuclear family model really does seem to be a white colonial invention
Different cultures have different approaches but I mainly hear about either large family units where multiple generations support each other and raise their children and grandchildren together or an "it takes a village" approach where children are raised somewhat communally
And I can't really speak on it much or claim that these families were free of abuse or that children aren't often an oppressed group basically everywhere I know of but the way ownership of your children is so engrained into white society is so bizarre
Like once you notice it you can't unnotice it even the most loving well meaning parents don't know what to do about it because everyone is so isolated from their own families and their own communities so you wind up with 1-2 parents who have full legal ownership of their child and are raised in a culture where you don't have personhood until you're 18 and all attempts at self actualization before them are seen as clueless rebellion. Like our culture is so divorced from the concept that a parent is someone who is helping mentor and care for their child so they can thrive as a fellow human being and it's actually so alarming
And ik this problem isn't unique to white and colonized people but it's honestly really soothing to hear about how other cultures approach and view parenting and community as a whole and to internalize it doesn't have to be this way
#like i was reading a book by Sabaa Tahir who's Pakistani#and the perspective on parenthood portrayed in it so healing#like when Salahuddin mentions that his mom taught him not to thank his parents growing up#''Ama taught me that saying thank you to your own parents is unnecessary. Akin to thanking your lungs for breathing. The times I tried#she looked at me like I’d rejected Saturday-morning paratha.''#and like obviously the idea isn't that your kids should be ungrateful im assuming that it's their behavior and overall respect thats thanks#but as someone who was raised thanking everyone for everything especially my parents no matter what it really stood out bc even little stuff#like that can make a huge difference yk? since I can remember white adults particularly my parents taught me i was a burden#and that their taking care of me was an act of kindness rather than a responsibility and I don't think it's some big conspiracy to make kids#feel horrible but it's not really teaching gratitude it's just teaching guilt#thats just one example tho#I also am at the extreme end of white cultural isolation (neither of my parents are close to their families we've never lived near them and#they specifically isolate us from everyone so the difference is a lot more drastic for me than it probably is a lot of other people#but when i hear ppl being close to their neighbors or anyone that lives near them i go a little insane with longing tbh#like what is that like? to grow up in an environment where your world is more than just your parents approval?#where there's some kind of insulation between you and all of your parents problems bc there is no one else#this was not a ramble with any kind of conclusion tho akehrjdhr#and once again I am absolutely not saying that child abuse is uniquely white bc. el em ey oh thats not how any of this works#it's just that white cultures view on children is sickening
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the unintended byproduct of having the finch app where the cute bird helps you do self care is that after you open the app she will send you little notifications throughout the day being like hiiii my day is great how are you doing which is great i guess generally but right now i'm like. back in the throes of cptsd issues and also crying over a doctor's appointment so i don't really care how your day is going lychee. and then i feel guilty because lychee the bird has only ever loved me but like i don't. care. right now.
#i should be like. content. all my labs came back normal except vitamin d is a little low#and my mom is trying to remind me that because my labs are normal that means i'm taking care of myself#and because i'm doing that this isn't my fault (i know that's maybe flawed reasoning globally but it's applicable here at least)#and that hypermobility plus vitamin d makes sense for a lot of the pain like. collagen. makes sense#but it doesn't explain everything and my solution is i have to strength train and exercise and like i DO exercise#i take walks frequently and i know strength training isn't something i've done but like. i guess it's my fault i haven't?#like my dad is just going to appear saying i told you so habibti i told you this years ago . i don't know#i didn't WANT to have some lifelong condition that wasn't my desire but. like. this doesn't. feel right to me#i had a lot of ambitions today but i think i've been productive enough. think i'm just going to cry for a few hours#maybe it's the idea that this will just Go Away and i should have made it Go Away#that it isn't chronic pain because it can just go away if i just Get Stronger. that i can't be mad at it because im in control of it#but if it was something else then it wouldn't be my fault because i couldn't control it. but now it's like. i should have known#neg
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I'm NORMAL (thinking about the fruit dads/the poly boyfriends with Eddie bc I remembered the picture of Max screaming at Chuck)
#like. i also remembered that post where the beefs all crowd around pregnant (human) rory to protect him#i think they collectively would beat chuck to a bloody pulp. i like to think that he would be extremely dead#edgar would definitely get along with rory especially so.... probably blondee and goose too bc they seem more calm and sullen#ozzie would. kind of scare him. but he respects him#max would also kind of scare him but mostly because he has bad associations with Big Muscular People and he's never seen anybody bigger-#-than himself#kibi's mom (im sorry im blanking on her name) and him would probably get along.. idk much about her but i can see her playing with the kids#and as long as someone gets along with the kids they're good in his book#august..... im not sure tbh. i dont know what he's like outside of being sassy and flirty idk how he is when interacting with people he-#-isn't tearing down or trying to bone#i think beau and edgar would get along SWIMMINGLY. SCARILY well.#i also don't know a whole lot about pinot so i can't say much abt him#rex seems nice :) i. ALSO don't know much about him other than he's pleasant and protective though#frankie... i'm not sure tbh#james would intimidate eddie greatly. he is... big and loud. it would very much spook him#tryna remember who i'm forgetting here#louis is chill he'd remind eddie of his brother nate#BUBBA MY FRIEND BUBBA. yeah i also don't know him well but they'd get along probably#oc ramblings#oc: edgar#comrade gang#clown friend tag#clownie rory#clownie blondee#clownie goose#clownie Ozzie#clownie max#clownie August#clownie beau#clownie pilot
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(Out of nowhere, you are approached by a familiar lightbulb-headed Cog.)
Ah, it's you, cat. Thinking you're oh-so-slick. Muttering and whispering under those raggedy whiskers of yours... Thinking I am unable to hear it all...
Well, you've simply underestimated my fantastic hearing. You probably want to know the reason why I'm here, taking a 'break' from my incredibly important scientific breakthroughs? It's quite simple, really!
(She gets close, and squints her eyes.)
I know what you are.
Farewell, now!
(She then leaves the way she came from.)
(Spam giggles immensely, covering her face... it always seems like she's giggling, isn't she? This lasts... at least thirty seconds. Longer than usual.)
And I know what I am too, Sparky! You broke through something, that's for sure. Really, broke through...
(She looks down, continuing to laugh nervously.)
You know, I find it odd you Havent tried to bulb blast me into the stratosphere by now. I mean knowing how you acted with Frostbite. Is there something peculiar about me that you perhaps can't quite track? Something about me that you... don't know what I am?
I know, I know, I'm talking to nobody again. But you were there when I had a moment today with the one the only Frostbite The Bravecog. You may be remaining. Lurking in the shadows. Knowing about these thoughts that I'm thinking.
(The giggling resumes, lasting far shorter this time.)
Your brother's a piece of fucking barp, by the way
(She braces for impact for a few seconds, wincing while smiling, before comically looking around to realize nobody's there. She sighs.)
Wow, okay maybe toony superhero show logic doesn't apply in this situation. Cool.
WAIT I JUST FUCKING REALIZED WHAT SHE MEANT but like. Dude if she meant that then what's the point I mean the whole ahh sellbot department barping knows unless you're Really low on the ladder. Heheh... maybe she did mean what I thought she meant.
Oh i'm so fucking screwed. What kind of bitch gets filament fever
#bright spark#<- for finding this again later. haha i called her sparky#the way she talks fucking tickles my brain so much im so . ohguohguohoghog SHE#SORRY THAT THIS TOOK SO LONG you see i was in the mindset that i would do this one little thing and then i would do my work which uh.#that leads to so so SO much procrastination. including on fun things! oh so fun things.#today was an event.#i also spent quite a bit of time ruminating i “would she really say that” is worse when shes literally you#to clarify. she is spam's aunt by like. building standards. not really in her found family. so its fucked up but as i said in discord this#is like. a “your mom's kinda hot” level crush. you know. also sorry i really wanted to say filament fever its been eating at me okay#nothing SERIOUS the way my f/os (and spam's f/os (plural now?? i guess?? if today was a canon event)) are#honestly mark still feels like the only real one with her to me but damn it. if spam's reflecting My Changes then she's Reflecting My Chang#spam in toontown unlike my other sonas is the most “its just you again” out of all of them and thats partially because her main#cog connection... is frostbite. they bounce off each other like we literally bounce off each other and damn it shes been so stagnant on her#own because of it. mark happened and she mirrored that because i kept fucking talking about him while we were in character and ideally#i should TRY to fix her. but also man because i'm not doing Serious lore stuff with her i dont. even know if i want to.#i kinda brushed it over the rug by saying that she relies on her constant entertainment so readily because she herself still doesnt feel#like she has a place outside of cogs only. sure she's in high roller backstage sure she's in allan's family now but shes not Doing anything#with herself the way that her friends are. mole's a ranger. frostbite cohosts. wishes... has chip. and something she doesn't have--#living and fully growing as a toon. rather than being haphazardly slapped into a world. and in some respects she's envious of frostbite#finding themselves so quickly because she distracts herself because she's still kinda struggling with it. despite everything. yes she lives#happy and carefree a lot of the time but she keeps buying those dumb phones because when she's truly alone... her mind starts to wander.#that's what mark is for. so that spam can dream of a world where she has a purpose. even if its fake and fragile and just nothing compared#to the great friends that she already has. where she feels like its worth it doing something when she doesn't have anyone. and in that#respect. with the goons ma allan parallels in sonboy the spam cathal parallels shine. seeking tv (and to a lesser extent games) as a#method of escapism. even when one's life is already pretty good. because there's nothing else worth doing without friends or family.#the internet isn't just cool. it gives her something to be when it seems like everyone is something but her. and maybe thats a lazy#excuse for why it seems like she doesnt HAVE anything to call her own but that but damn it i'm trying my best to twist it around.#spam has such a HISTORY yknow? even if it feels like i havent established her much.#spam is the hearts to frostbite's spades not just because they're the duo of all time but because spam's fake stupid love keeps her going#sorry i just started rambling in the tags of this post about spam it. happens. she loves her friends so much i need to reiterate that okay
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Ani Reviews: A Step-by-Step Guide to a Florida Native Yard
I promised you guys a review and here it is. I've never really done a book review before but I'm doing my best to make this Coherent and Helpful.

[Photo ID: a book, titled A Step-by-Step Guide to a Florida Native Yard by Ginny Stibolt and Marjorie Shropshire.]
Out of all the books I checked out from the library this round, I started with this one because it was the shortest out of all of them--if we don't count the appendix and index, its 101 pages long. You can read where I sort of live blogged a portion of this read here.
I think its a pretty good read! It's definitely a lot more relevant if you are the home owner and most directly in charge of landscaping decisions and such. It gives a bit of advice on how to handle making similar changes in an HOA neighborhood, and provides pointers and resources to other books that can also be helpful in the journey to make your landscape a wildlife-friendly habitat. It focuses on Florida specifically, as denoted by the title, and will frequently remind the reader that gardening in Florida is vastly different from gardening anywhere else. So whether you've been a Florida resident all your life, or are planning on making a move on down here, this book can be a helpful resource if you want to transform some or even all of your yard into a habitat.
After the introduction, the book is separated into seven major sections referred to as Steps. There's Assess Your Property, Plan for Drainage and Stormwater Sequestration, Install Trees, Plant Shrubs, Working with Herbaceous Plants, Build a Wild or Natural Area, and Create Spaces for Human Use. If you're more interested in one part than the others, you can definitely skip around to find what you're looking for. I will say, the Drainage and Stormwater section made my head spin a bit.
I will say this: I don't know if the writers ever fully decided if they wanted this book to be targeted towards those who are already gung-ho about native plants and itching to transform their landscape, or to people who are just beginning to dip their toe into the idea. Overall though, it was a nice and informative read, and the illustrations inside are lovely.
#ani reviews#ani rambles#out of queue#honestly like this book was a nice source of inspo that would inspire a transformed yard FOR ME#however if someone isn't already interested in native gardening I don't think its gonna push them into it#if all the talk about complicated drainage systems doesn't scare them off then honestly like#the alternative solutions they offer for lawns aren't... detailed on much#i would really love to find a book that focused on alternative lawn groundcovers for Florida specifically that targeted the concerns#i find that most people have#like 'can this hold up to kids playing soccer? to dog activities? if I roll my trashcan over it to get it to the curb is it gonna die on me#because like this book recommends dune sunflower as an altenrative to turf grass but even in the appendix section it doesn't mention if it#can handle being stepped on at all#it does say frogfruit is a good turf grass substitute but also like#frogfruit sunshine mimosa and twinflower are the other 3 it suggests forth and theyre ALL butterfly hostplants#and while the possibility of there being bugs in a turf lawn is far from an impossibility idk the idea of stepping on caterpillars icks me#*out. like even if ur not barefoot#and i know my mom and one of my other friends' first concerns would be 'would snakes hide in it' and idk if thats like#a Fringe Concern that most people don't worry about but I've never seen anyone address it when talking about alternative lawns#i am getting off topic#im ending the tags here byebye
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i know "kids showing respect" usually means "shutting up and doing what their told", but my niece genuinely has no respect for her mother. its kinda fucked up to see, but it's my sister in law's fault; she just has no backbone, and has set no boundaries for that child
#it feels really mean to say but she genuinely doesn't#and i don't mind her being a lenient parent#i mean kids aren't little robots they're gonna fuck up and talk back and be moody#so its honestly good my SIL is flexible#but its to a fault#she'll say smth like 'i'm not going back and forth between floors with an arm load of toys for you#you're almost 8 you can grab some dolls by yourself'#and as soon as my niece pouts my SIL immediately cows and does it#and i do get it its not fun to be strict but she is her MOTHER. her job is to parent and raise her#being her friend should be a secondary concern#and again i don't think or even want her to be a super strict parent#and its not necessarily good for a child her age to be super independent#but an (nondisabled) eight year doesn't her mother in the bathroom with her yknow?#and the thing is my niece is a super smart and indepent kid! just not with her mom because her mom let's her#get away with EVERYTHING. like my SIL just has no boundaries and its gonna cause a lot of problems down the road#mickey.txt#its hard to explain if you don't see it every day but its just not a healthy dynamic#just. im the aunt and it feels like i do more parenting than she does#(which isn't true at all but there are moments where it feels like that)#(also my brother is far from a perfect parent but that's a whole other post. and my niece does respect him)#(again that feels like a nebulous thing and i promise i don't mean in sense of obedience)
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the places where i think religion made me Weird are i think morally doing (consensual) fucked up shit to corpses is fine but i find the actual processes of embalming and cremation to be violating and disgusting on an instinctual level. and also i think judaica tattoos are insanely tacky if not outright disrespectful even when other jews get them. and generally seeing tattoos in jewish spaces is a weird feeling. but overall i am i think a chill guy for being considerably more religious (or idk, knowing/caring more about religion) than the average person. idc about promiscuity or gender roles or whatever. i just feel guilty every time i eat shrimp.
#just very used to the idea that tattoos are fundamentally unjewish#but like none of this is smth id say something judgmental to somebody over#it's just hangups i notice i have bc of my upbringing#it's also like... i am not particularly religious by Jewish standards#i mean jewish standards are totally all over the place- im an outstanding jew compared to holiday only jews#but a terrible jew by orthodox standards given that i don't keep kosher or observe traditional rules around the sabbath etc etc#but for christains like as far as i can tell half their rules r shit they made up that isn't in the new testament#like they don't approach religious rules in at all the same way (technically don't they just do the ten commandments?)#it seems to be more about how much time you put into religion than how observant you are bc theres not. as much to observe right?#like i think a christian teenager that goes to church every sunday and goes to dinner with old church ladies on the reg#probably they are Very Religious and also prolly sheltered#but me a jew who does that im not even a proper mensch#also being interfaith makes it weird and just not having good extended family in general#my mom is very passionate about judaism but her mom dgaf and all the other extended family is christian#so all i got is like stories about my dead greatgrandparents and all the stuff my mom picked up from them#nobody speaks yiddish or hebrew fluently. there's no objects rlly passed down bc my grandma was ashamed of her judaism. that kind of thing.#all of my jewish culture comes from synagogue and it was similar for my mom growing up too
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Was going to do some oni file digging but got too distracted playing the actual video game. Anyways look at her <3
#rat rambles#oni posting#her icon does not do her justice she is so fucking cute#I fucking adore her#anyways ny thoughts on the new dlc are mostly positive so far although I do have some nitpicks#now to be clear to the fellow lore enjoyers in chat this is a fairly log light dlc unfortunately#which doesnt suprise me since god knows they don't like talking abt dupes too directly in the logs and this dlc is all abt the bionic dupes#which I see as a positive thing generally but I do wish there was a smidgen bit more to justify why they can be printed now#just an extra my log at the start that says woah I found some fancy robo guys in my printing database would have been nice#but other than that I do like the continuing tensions between gravitas and the vexus institute brewing#and I also like the pronoun confirmation on jackie's probably mom I'm glad we're seeing more of her#Im also glad theyve so far had jackie say jack shit abt her probably mom and her going ons I hope it mostly stays that way#I'm open to getting some of jackies words on the family drama but I want it to be shown not told#so like idk. maybe a conversation between them or smth. and keep it vague and up to interpretation#I like my jackie characterization hard to find and unpack#as for the actual gamplay stuff Im definitely enjoying the different playstyle of the bionic dupes a lot so far#I havent gotten far enough into my test run to rly know how they feel in long term colonies but they are quite fun so far#I like how they add some pretty strong early game benefits while also adding a pretty important early research racing#I also enjoy their oxygen tanks but I have noticed that they tend to chose weird and sometimes extremely inconvenient places to refill#I don't think I rly understand their logic for chosing spots yet but I thinkkkk they might be trying to chose somewhere away from general#living areas? I could be wrong though I have seen them recharge directly by cots before but maybe its based on the pod location idk#but yeah this is me screaming at ulti to stop recharging by a tiny spec of oxygen surrounded by slimelung infested polluted oxygen#so basically sending them out to germy or unbreathable environments is theoretically safe most of the time but it's not as safe as a suit#that combined with their adverse reactions to liquid and extreme temperatures does still leave need for athmosuits#which is a good thing to be clear#in theory this also means that oxygen masks can still be of use to a bionic dupe even if it isnt necessary#especially if theyre making large transit that risks them running out of oxygen and trying to refill inside an contaminated area#but yeah if I had one complaint abt the bionic dupes it would be that I wish there were a few more#I get not wanting to bloat the dupe count but you can and will see duplicates within the early game#there isn't a lot of variety with them which makes bionic dupe heavy colonies feel less appealing to me
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i hate getting gifts because first of all are you trying to buy me make me feel obligated to you so I feel the need to be polite and sweet to you all the time and secondly once you inevitably leave what the fuck am i supposed to do with them
#bro these glow in the dark stickers on my ceiling#when i got them i felt so loved and adored for the first time in my life like wow someone#actually cares about me enough to listen to my wandering petty musings#and they comforted me so much at nights like there's light in darkness#now all i want to do is rip them off and burn them#but i already feel so alone in this house#i just feel like if i remove them then this house won't have anything of me like sure some of my clothes#are here some books but my bed was so messsy when i came mom was using it as storage and my study table#was completely unusable mom had put so much stuff like 5 suitcases under it and on top of it more stuff#like um okay i get that i was gone for 3 months but wow you wrote me off pretty quickly huh#like I dont belong here anymore#my dad already says that place isn't my house whenever he gets mad at me or when im not disciplined#like you guys. i wanted to move out at 18 you forced me to live here and now you're sick of me?#lol okay#fuck how will i ever get over this#i was watching that movie today and peter has abandonment issues and he got so upset when lj#was going to move away far from him he was like ok fine since u choose to go so far away let's break up now#because I dont want to wait till 5-6 months and then do it like let's just do it now#like that's such a classic me move being in control of when the relationship ends so you don't have to be there#when the other person completely loses interest and leaves you first#and you know how it got fixed? his dad told him that he loves him and that he's never gonna leave him again#like lol that's not gonna happen to me so i have to find a way to be ok without it#😮💨#pity party of one pls look away everyone
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to avoid thinking about my cat's surgery I've been painting and I am so fucking bad at mixing colors lmao
#im bad at matching colors too#like usually im painting from some random picture i find online but this time im really trying to focus on what im doing#(to avoid thinking about the surgery)#and i am so so bad at color matching lmao#i even used a color match site so i could see what the color of an area REALLY is but even when i do that my colors are wrong#theyre like...the right tone but theyre all too dark#and lightening them with white makes the tone go off#is this color theory? /gen lol I've heard people say you need to learn color theory but i never knew what it was#anyway. for my next trick i will think obsessively about my wip. (to avoid thinking about the surgery)#okay i cant avoid it any longer. i am so fucking glad his surgery is tomorroe#hes having knee surgery and his knee has started CLICKING while he walks#im so nervous i feel like i could go into cardiac arrest but frankly i wish it had been yesterday or the day before#i wish we had taken him to the vet last thursday. i wish i had trusted my gut sooner instead of letting my mom talk me out of it#i wish i hadn't let him walk around with a torn ligament for over a fucking week#i wish we had the vet do xrays on his knees when he was a kitten so we could have prevented all of this#i wish i had a shorter bedframe so he didn't have to jump so high. i wish i could sleep on the floor so i could sleep with him in his cage#i wish i had desensitized him to car rides and vet visits when he was a kitten#i wish we knew who abused him and threw him onto the highway so i could kill them#i wish we had put him on anxiety medication earlier#i wish i was a trained veterinarian so i could do my own exams on him instead of taking him to a place he's terrified of#i wish i was confident enough to give him the injection he needs without fucking it up#god i fucking hope everything goes okay#pretending to laugh about how he'll have a nakey chicken leg isn't even working anymore#wip save me. save me wip
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twitter links w/ hsr men
pairings. blade, jing yuan, aventurine, sunday, gepard, sampo x afab/fem! reader
warnings. NSFW no minors! please read at your own discretion, explicit/18+ smut, established relationships for most, brat taming for blade, mention of being called a whore (teasing manner) for aventurine, mentions of puppy for gepard but there's no meaning about it. aggressive sex, passionate sex, masturbation (fem.) sub! gepard for 1 twt link, fingering
a/n. i don't think i've done one for hsr yet... or genshin so maybe that'll be in the future. sorry (not sorry) guys i'm ovulating (i need them all carnally). also i think for some you need to be logged in twitter for them to work! this only has a couple of characters cause i'm a bit lazy today
blade
✧ fucking you so good from behind, "you like that don't you?"
✧ eating you out in a room just beside his colleuges room, he likes the risk and it turns on him. you feel the same way, right?
✧ teasing you for being such a brat, spanking your tight pussy and rubbing soft languid on your sensitive clit. you'll learn your lesson sooner or later.
✧ the size difference never fails to amaze him. but that's fine, he'll take his time with you.
✧ making you cum just by his slender fingers
jing yuan
✧ riding your boyfriend jing yuan
✧ fucking you in his bathroom while you're wearing his shirt. how adorable of you ♡
✧ best friend! jing yuan who fucks you right and how you deserved to be fucked. "feels good doesn't it? i know baby but you need to keep your voice down.. your mom is here.." it's quite hard to stay quiet while being pounded relentlessly, isn't it?
✧ a 5 star meal in his opinion, nothing beats your pussy.
aventurine
✧ slowly and painstakingly teasing you with his cock, oh, and you're wearing that new blindfold he bought for you!
✧ bouncing up and down on his dick, "like the whore you are"
✧ morning sex (is this based off the artwork recently posted by hoyo? yes)
✧ fingering you from behind
✧ "fuck..." aventurine loves hearing you moan
sunday
✧ "ride my face, please."
✧ passionate sex with sunday
✧ giving your boyfriend an awaited tit job ♡
✧ restricting your movement by binding you. "stop moving or i won't put it in." he says while also rubbing his hardness on your entrance.
✧ fucking you 'till you're braindead
gepard
✧ your puppy boyfriend who loves eating you out. best meal ever.
✧ breeding you just like you asked, one peak down at the messy sight gets him 10x more hard. good luck with a horny gepard
✧ milking your beloved with a vibrator
✧ teasing your poor husband with a video of your wet pussy while he's at work.
sampo
✧ your boyfriend still continuing to finger you through your orgasm. overstimulated would be an understatement.
✧ making out in your room
✧ fucking you aggressively after seeing his rival, gepard, flirt with you (?? gepard flirting??)
✧ your pleasure is his pleasure//masturbating while eating you out
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After replaying ys origin I've finally gotten brainrot for it which is probably overdue tbh
I'm so ill abt yunica she's such a lame character but she could be so much more
Please consider: yunica is half demon
No there is absolutely no basis for this headcanon in game. However there's also no counter evidence so you can never prove me wrong
She's too strong to be a regular ass human. She's stronger than like all the knights and all the magicians at like 17 or whatever she's supposed to be when the game takes place and there's literally no lore explanation for it. She's just crazy strong for no reason
But if she was part demon....that could account for the discrepancy
Also we know her father is human but her mother is never mentioned ever. I've concluded she never knew her mother and there's absolutely nothing that says her mother can't have been a demon
And I know this isn't canon but I keep coming back to that door you have to open with the evil ring. Like ik in game you just have to put on a protective necklace and then wear the ring to trick the door into opening for you but. What if yunica didn't need to wear the blue necklace. What if she could just put the ring on and be fine. What if putting on the ring even gave her demonic properties. What if those properties were innate to her all along. What if the evil ring is just a method of activation. What if she just needed to be exposed to demonic energy to reveal her innate demonic characteristics.
And what if there's nothing inherently wrong with being demonic. Maybe it's what you do with it rather than the fact of being demonic. But what if most humans are scared of demons by default anyways and assume they're all evil. What if the reason yunica spent so much time with the goddesses is because she didn't feel naturally comfortable around humans the same way. What if the goddesses were the only ones to accept her for being half demon because they've just seen so much there's no point in being frightened by it. They probably met yunica's mother too, anyways. And maybe yunica kept her demonic characteristics secret from everyone, from all her friends, because she was scared of how they would react to her. And maybe because the goddesses were the only ones to accept her for who she was that's why she's so devoted to them. Because they were her one true friends, the only ones who truly loved her unconditionally.
And maybe she has to reveal her demonic nature to her friends to get through that door, and maybe after the initial shock they begin to accept her as well. And maybe she slowly begins to be comfortable with her demonic side as well. Comfortable enough to be able to put the evil ring on again to tap into her extra demonic powers during tough battles. And maybe that's what she uses to fight Dalles in the end. Maybe it's not just sheer force of will that grants her victory, but her finally coming to terms with both of her halves.
Oh hm this got ramblier than I expected I apologize. Good night
#ys origin#yunica tovah#ouuggghhhh im so ill abt this#i have this whole dialogue written out between her and dalles at the end of the game#he considers her a traitor to her kind bc he thinks all demons should be allied together against ys#but yunica disagrees. he might be motivated by hatred and greed but she's motivated by something much more powerful#she finds her strength in love. love for her friends love for her family. love for her country and most importantly love for the goddesses#she may be half demon but she doesn't need evil she's found something better. just like what her mom found#it's just cheesy enough to be a real actual line she'd say in the game lmfao#girl gets so cheesy at the end it's so silly#this isn't even getting into all my thoughts abt how yunica and Feena are clearly forbidden lovers#or about what happens to yunica when she goes to live on the surface#ys origin is honestly a really choppy ass game writing wise#most of the characters are meaningless and yunica's character arc is abrupt and awkward#there isn't much there tbh#but god is it ripe for the picking.#looks at ys origin I can fix you babygirl#well this makes the second ys game that I've come up with elaborate headcanons and a whole nonexistent ship with no basis in canon for#why does this series do this to me every time#wyvern rambles
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