#all 8 of them cant be forever with anyone else it needs all 8 of the visionaries to stay stable but its the most unstable people

[bathylychnops]

hrgkk uauugh

can love bloom between the worst two guys nobody likes even alittle

[wolvertooth]

what if, victor, logan and wade were all boyfreinds, all three cant die so they said fuck it

here u go anon. the 1st piece of sabes n wolvie fanart i ever drew(back in july 2023) after rewatching hulk vs wolverine, feat. deadpool(not my 1st wade, we had quite the history in highschool)

i think my brain is so gripped by sabrevine that it cant think of them being with anyone else.....but i'll give it a shot. for wades sake.

i do see them all as post weapon x survivor besties. and immortality homies.

wade is basically an honorary feral type, since he literally shares his dna with logans. wades an odd case, due his killer instinct being...natural. in a human way. he was born with the urge to kill n maim. which is different, but im sure they'd get to a point to trust him enough to wanna chat about it.

wade n logan would bond over their psychosis, even tho being fairly different experiences. i can see them also having a lotta smoke hangouts while logan just listens to wade rant

vic n wade would bond over their shitty dads, and also talk about being dads. as well as their merc lives and heavy knowledge of killing(infodump sesh on weapons)

all of them would bond over their memory problems.

group therapy would be a thing. calling out eachothers bullshit. problem with that being that logan would get ganged up on pretty frequently, and thatd piss him off....all 3 of them hate being told theyre in the wrong, logan getting frustrated by it the most. seriously, logan gets picked on a ton by these guys and thatd be something they’d need to sort out lol(maybe he enjoys the attention sometimes tho)

i kinda wish they showed more of wade n vic being buddies in the comics, since it was mostly in deadpool 2016 issues 8 - 12, showing when they used to work together and how theyre still sorta pals…..

i think both logan n vic see wade as someone they should take care of, mostly from the standpoint of having some age on him. bit like a younger brother. that does make wade kinda the odd one out, but hes got other lovers in his life at least(is his wife still alive? i havent caught up on the comics since like 2016)

they all share the burden of being cursed to forever deal with their fucked up brains, never being able to escape who they are, and that can make for some good sleepover conversations ig. like, its not even a lovers thing, its a ‘ur the fuckers im forced to spend eternity with, and even tho we all have in common the shit we hate about ourselves, im glad its with u’ type of thing

oh and theyre all pain junkies so u know the sex is freakyyyyyy

[monosanimegenericzone]

Hunter x Hunter: Post Mortem Nen (troupe business)

hi so the troupe and post mortem nen.

i dont ... actually expect them to be utilizing post mortem nen because that's not how they work. they're content with death and dont ever think of cheating it because its never been a threat before.

but. the brainworms started crawling with this very touching sentimental idea: a pact was founded between the 8 founding members that weren't chrollo to create post mortem nen contracts.

and this is entirely copium. take it with a grain of desperation.

the founding members all know- the second the untrustworthy number four was added that the spider has one glaring weakness. once it loses its original members, which is very much a possibility especially in the early days, the troupe's entire purpose would be swayed.

what purpose? good question.

the 8 excluding chrollo make an agreement to make post mortem nen agreements so that the spider's purpose and its drive would never be forgotten. and each of them do it differently because obviously they have different abilities.

nobunaga i fully believe just has a straight up post mortem hatsu. since we've never seen it and since he's based on the samurai. i fully believe that he exclusively focused his hatsu into his time after death. it allows him to be more careless with his life and apply his knowledge of nen more recklessly. if he is killed nothing happens but if he manages to end his own life via seppuku then it activates. idk what exactly but im thinking real hard about it.

feitan i think i talked about before but Mortem Vindicta. applied to his own death, whatever he suffered from the deaths of any of those he cared about would unleash in an attack so powerful it would vaporize anyone in its vicinity. and yeah i get that part of his immense power is that he has no control over it but in post mortem nen i feel like he could slip in a clause about not harming anyone bearing the spider tattoo.

machi could just keep sewing herself up remotely. like after she 'dies' her nen will fix her body to a state of plausible resurrection but needs an additional push to be fully resuscitated. so like someone would have to restart her heart but other than that she's perfectly healthy. and it doesn't ever expire.

phinks i cant think of a good one but probably something very simple since he is an enhancer. since his ability revolves around karma and he takes heavy inspiration from egyptian mythology, i'm thinking something about earning his right to live again in death. i'll come back to this when i get a good idea but there is something there i can mess with.

shalnark would have something to do with his pins and his phone. his power i believe is sourced by his phone being one of a kind. so therefore he'd tie an ability into that. i believe his post mortem nen would involve a consciousness transfer. if someone uses his antenna on someone else and presses ok on the prompt on his phone, then a copy of his consciousness will be downloaded into the target and overridden creating a perfect replica of shalnark in a different body. however this only works if same person is the one to complete both actions. and his phone has to be undamaged and functional.

franklin is hard because i feel like he'd be the least willing to indulge in post mortem nen. i dont think he would choose himself to come back to life but rather use his nen to protect another. since he's an emitter his post mortem nen could take the form of a nen beast similar to the ones in the succession war. maybe a large sniper rifle headed beast thats an amalgamation of different limbs similar to frankenstein. it can appear with any troupe member and as soon as any target the majority of the present troupe absolutely hates comes into view they get sniped into oblivion. it never misses. it has exactly 7 shots and then after that it's gone forever.

paku is hard because i think she'd be like franklin. she doesn't want to live again if her death was deserved, so she'll choose to protect others. and i think hers is very straightforward: exactly what she did in yorknew. she would share her memories and her desires with the rest of the troupe. keep the dream alive and therefore she lives on through them. call it Memory Bomb: remembering purpose.

uvo i think would also not want to engage in post mortem nen, but he would still make the contract with himself after listening to some reason. and i think he values the quality of new members very much. so he could set a condition on his number and then the approval or disapproval of his peers. so it would go something like: if i die and the one who replaces me/takes the number 11 is not approved of or betrays the troupe, his nen will resurrect him immediately and he will have the insatiable need to find and kill the perpetrator. after that tho he chillin. back to normal.

this is wild speculation and major amounts of coping. but i will admit that this intrigues me.

im intrigued...

bonus thought of chrollo seeing that extra clause in shalnark's entry in bandit's secret and meaning to ask him but by then the phone was damaged and shalnark was dead

and chrollo remembering that clause and holding shal's phone that has a single bullet hole through the screen.

guah.

[lilac-critters-asks]

((NOTE: I am currently working on an improved version of the descriptions, so this may be subject to change))

"Maybe its too dangerous...I mean, do you KNOW what could happen?! That place hasn't been explored in forever! What of you get trapped, hurt, or even worse killed?!" .... "*sigh* I guess you're right. After all, what could POSSIBLY be in there besides like, trash and stuff. But be careful anyways, alright?" .... "Here, before you go, take this." *You obtained a walkie-talkie!* "If anything happens, call me. Ill be there in a flash." *you nod your head*

"Good luck" *You step in, and hear the heavy doors close behind you. You cant remember anything afterwards* *BAM*

*Your ears are ringing when you start to open your eyes again* ???: ".....and maybe its just fate that-" ???: "GUYS! They're waking up LOOK LOOK LOOK!!!" ???: "LEMME SEE!" ???: "Back off you 2 give them some space!"

*You begin to open your eyes to see the outline of 8 blurry things standing around you. When your vision focuses, you see that they remind you of...them. The Smiling Critters. But these ones are...different. You can identify a fox, some kind of dinosaur, a rabbit, a bird, an elephant, a unicorn, a pig, and a cat with a long tail standing in front of them all. A light shining above them blocks out your chance of seeing their colors, but they sure are SOME kind of other...side project done by them. Maybe answers will come soon.* ((Descriptions + Explanation + Rules under the cut))

HELLO EVERYONEEE! This is my SC au, the Lilac Critters! The whole like, plot of the AU are these are the SC from a CHAIN of the classic Daycare that chapters 1, 2, and 3 go on in. So they're a little different from the SC you know, but they serve the same purpose and origin. I've had this on my mind for what feels like FOREVER SOOO here it is! I'll write down more detailed paragraphs on how they look/act like, when im feeling it u know. Alright now RULES:

-No NSFW. I am a MINOR.

-Don't try to force the roleplay or be like, overly controlling. If you have any questions, just ask me

-Swearing is alright, just don't like...call each other slurs. If anyone is bullying anyone else, I will block the offender immediately.

-Don't spam me consistently. I have a life outside of this blog, so it'll get annoying REAL fast.

-Have fun!

Also shout-out to @thewaxingcrescentsjournal for a collab we are doing. Here is the link to the first part:

A rift in space.

Jackie Journeyer🏴‍☠️ Necklace: Pirate ship Sent: Ocean Pronouns: he/him

A pirate for the ages! With his eyepatch and hook hand, he's sure to give you the adventure of your life! This red fox has all the wit and courage that a pirate should have, plus some extra kindness in his heart. But also just like a pirate, he has the tendency to be greedy and not really care about others opinions sometimes. Although when the Daycare shut down, he's been known to have more cowardly tactics, but is still willing to sail the 7 sea's might!

Sammy Shovel!🕳️ Necklace: Shovel Sent: Orange Pronouns: He/they

Never seen a fossil before? This orange triceratops will show you all the ones you'll ever need to see! Sammy, or Sam more commonly, loves to dig, dig, and dig! He'll spend a whole day just digging holes and have NO regrets! After his home got shut down, he's been more prone to aggressiveness when his feelings get out of hand. But on the plus side, he's ALSO gotten the chance to express his true feelings for a certain someone he's had his eye on for a long time...

Sunny Sunray!☀️ Necklace: Sun w/darker yellow rays Sent: Fruity Mix Pronouns: She/her

Need a hug? Maybe a smile or a game of jump rope? Well, this yellow bunny will give you back ten fold of what you asked for! Hyper and positive all the time, she's sure to put some happiness into your day! Weather it be games, races, talking, or just company, everything she does seems to be pulsing with energy! Even when the Daycare shut down, she still remained as bouncy and happy as she did all those years ago! Well...on the surface that is.

Gloria Grace🌹 Necklace: Rose Sent: Rose Petals Pronouns: She/her

The calmest soul you'll ever meet, the green bird is here to help melt your worries away! With a green thumb and a mater in gardening, she can make any plant grow in a matter of seconds with her skill. She's very calm and collected, and is bound to sooth your mind if you need it. After the Daycare shut down, however, Gloria's been more stale and cold sometimes. But maybe its just a coincidence. Maybe.

Eleanore Elements🧪 Necklace: Beaker w/fluid Sent: Chocolate Pronouns: He/they

Smart and stern, Eleanore the cyan elephant is surely the intellectual of the group. He's got thick, round, practically unbreakable glasses on his face and a lab coat that ends in a square cut. He's got a strong moral compass, but the kindness to match. He cares exponentially about his friends, and will probably do close to everything to save them, especially Sam. But during his hard times, he often hides in the echoing halls of his lab. Almost like he's hiding from something.

Susie Stealth💉 Necklace: Mirrored Crescent Sent: Lavender Pronouns: She/they

Catnap's younger sister, she's very much like the purple cat her and her brother are. She's very sneaky and able to silently whisk through anywhere she pleases. It comes in handy when she's patrolling the halls at night when the kids were sleeping now, or smuggling a few extra treats from the top of the fridge when she was young. But Daycare closed or not, she's always been stern and very organized and no-nonsense. Well, she can make a few exceptions for Sunny. Ok maybe a bit more than a few...

Sewing Shashta🪡 Necklace: Embroidery Hoop Sent: Cool Mint Pronouns: They/them

The wild card of the group, Shashta has quite the reputation to be somewhat unpredictable and perfectionistic, but kind nonetheless. This white horse with a baby blue mane often spends her time sewing and making clothes, or embroidering patches for her friends. She still has her bad habits after the Daycare closed, and it might be getting worse, but if there's one person she'll always trust, its Parker for certain.

Piero (Parker) Peeri🍽️ Necklace: Dishware set Sent: Cotton Candy Pronouns: He/They/Hirs

Piero, or much more commonly Parker, is quite the chef and baker for any dish on the planet! Coming from his direct Italian ancestry and heritage, he can whip up almost anything if he has the tools to do so, and will always be willing to share with others no matter what! But when the Daycare shut down, the pinkish pig has been known to often go beyond the boundaries that Playtime. Co set for him. A lot. He's a people pleaser at heart, and always will be. You cant get rid of imperfections.

[golbrocklovely]

it's been a minute since i posted one of these so..

here’s some of colby’s tweets from 2021.

i don’t have proof that these are his tweets, but believe me, they are his.

if it’s bold and italicized, it’s someone’s tweet to him.

if it’s in (), that’s just me commenting lol

added bonus: if they have a * next to them, that means it’s been deleted

~~~~~~~~~~

Jan. 2 - thank you all so much i love you don’t forget

Jan. 6 - just got yelled at on my walk by a 93 year old grandma it was dope how’s your day goin

on another note , so sad to see what’s been happening today at the capitol .. this is ridiculous. i’m worried.

(the issue with this time period is that colby was getting a lot of heat for shit he shouldn't have been. so… some of these tweets are gonna trigger me, and this is one of them lmao)

Jan. 8 - seems like the older i get the more independent i become

*@/mikes_dead: seems like the older u get the more u forget to call me back headass sorry bb 🖤

don’t crave that personal life human affection like i used to i’m cool with being by myself

always feel like i’m living in a dreamy reality until i get caffeine. blurry vision blurry mind

Jan. 9 - learned how to drive manual for the first then drifted that car today i’m surprised i didn’t kill anyone

you in January

Jan. 12 - fan: hi i love yOu…@/ColbyBrock

hiii i love you

fan: It’s my 2,000 day supporting Sam and colby. That’s fucking insnae man. Mental. I love you 2. Always and forever thank you for being such huge parts in my life @/SamGolbach @/ColbyBrock @/SamandColby

thank you for being a part of our life journey 🙏🏼🖤

Jan. 14 - time to conquer my anxiety

Jan. 16 - tonight , two years ago i was sleeping in a little jail cell wondering how long i’d be in there without Sam. life is fuckin crazy hahah, freedom is a gift

fan: i cant believe that most of the fandom slept on the floor when @/SamandColby 2 years when they got arrested #FreeSamAndColby

the best fans in the world

Jan. 18 - oh how time can heal and change everything

fan: no fr he’s been working so hard and you can really tell. proud of you @/ColbyBrock

thank you darlin

Jan. 19 - my fear won’t be something that i let control the way i live

Jan. 20 - fan: colby ur tweets r always so deep

twitters my personal little mind dump

(wish this was still the case… but i get why he is barely on there)

Jan. 22 - it’s underwater shipwreck dive today

feels good to feel proud of myself

Jan. 24 - fan: @/ColbyBrock can you teach me your ways of being okay with being single bc i’m tired of asshole guys fucking around with my feelings

one day you’ll learn that the only happiness you need comes from within, once you’ve learned to really enjoy youre own company you don’t need anyone else! practice makes perfect 🖤

Jan. 25 - why do i push away everyone who tries to get me to open up?

(what a juxtaposition lol)

Jan. 28 - crows are honestly just death metal chickens

Jan. 30 - don’t wanna jinx this like last time but XPLR gods have definitely been on our side recently again … Alaska has been an adventure of a lifetime

Feb. 1 - don’t let anyone tell you who YOU are and how to think

fan: Currently listening to We Love Our Friends @/SamGolbach @/ColbyBrock @/SamandColby

a bop

Feb. 2 - fan: Thinking about @/ColbyBrock hours

💭🖤

*fan: @/ColbyBrock u should get a tongue piercingggg

*ouchh

fan: As part of 25x25 @/ColbyBrock needs to come out with music

🤫😏

(he needs to come out with more music asap)

*fan: @/ColbyBrock u said no to the tongue piercing what about u getting a nipple piercing??

ouchhh

(what's with fans wanting him to get random parts of his body pierced lmao)

wake me up after valentine’s day

Feb. 4 - what’s one thing you wanna do before you die ?

Feb. 7 - my dream is to show you the beauty in life .. no matter how hard it can get

really opened up on my ongoing experience with anxiety in today’s video , i hope it resonates with some of you. we’re not alone

Feb. 8 - fan: bro @/ColbyBrock do you always get your tats in the early hours of the morning??

yes hahah

just gettin started on this sleeve. lots of work to do

Feb. 10 - fan: @/ColbyBrock I need some advice for anxiety lately my anxiety is playing up and I keeps having anxiety/panics attacks and idk how to calm my self the best thing I can do so far is watch ur vids but still sometimes I just can’t hold it in do u have any advice

box method breathing really helps.. soft music.. meditation. anything that can relax the mind. usually it stems from overthinking so if you can somehow distract yourself with an activity of some sort that could help too 🖤

i’m so emotional sometimes and for what

Feb. 13 - so who’s down to hangout tomorrow

fan: i could really use a hug from @/ColbyBrock rn /: sigh i miss him sm

🖤 sending virtual hugs

fan: Hey Colby … just checking in…. are you okay? Taking care of yourself? @/ColbyBrock

thank you for being so sweet i love you. yes i’m okay i have my good and bad days

Feb. 17 - sang for the first time on camera yesterday

Feb. 20 - this pill that i don’t wanna taste

fan: Are you okay??? Or one of your song lyrics

song lyrics .. probably should have explained that a lil more. it’s not a literal thing i promise hahah

Feb. 22 - damn i miss the big trap house parties we use to throw at our old place. 500 people plus in our living room.. David dobrik always comin in randomly with flame throwers hahah legendary times

Feb. 24 - i was so happy in my dream last night .. felt so real.

simply a wonderful sight to see

Feb. 28 - Dear @/ColbyBrock I would REALLY REALLY APPRECIATE IT IF YOU DYED YOUR HAIR BACK TO BROWN I WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE IT

my purple is pretty much out ! so it’ll be all the way brown soon

fan: Apparently the guys are in Las Vegas and Las Vegas is probably like oh no not these guys again. @/ColbyBrock don't go for a midnight stroll and almost get mugged or kick a cactus this time

palm springs was when the mugging and cactus assault happened hahah but we will do our best to stay outta trouble .. maybe

March 2 - i feel like i don’t fit in with that many people in LA

@/jccaylen: let’s move to Texas.

looking for houses now

March 6 - take a chance with me

head down, headphones in

March 8 - happy #InternationalWomensDay , women are fuckin powerful, thank you for all that you do

(another triggering tweet sksks)

March 10 - maybe i just knew i had to wait for you

March 15 - fan: I just know deep in my soul @ColbyBrock had an angsty sad boi tumblr back in the day and I just wanna scroll thru it. Sir pls hand me the link thx :)

i wish i had tumblr. but wasn’t in to social media until i was like 18. only had a facebook until 2014

(….interesting lol)

fan: @/ColbyBrock do u have any advice on keeping productive on something even though it isn’t ur favourite thing to do but u need to get it done

set goals and make sure you do things in little pieces. if you don’t like something you’re doing just make sure you’re getting it done in the way YOU want to. take it day by day instead of procrastinating and doing it last minute

fan: y r u awake @/colbybrock

same reason you are

March 16 - things change, people change. but in the end i’ll always wish the best for my friends

March 17 - i can’t help but feel this way

March 18 - fan: How can you get through a break up

time. i know that’s a cliche answer. but seriously. distract your mind for a while and you’ll get over it i promise

fan: @/ColbyBrock how often do you not sleep at night because your mind is too loud?

i sleep terribly most nights. i have this weird insomnia that forces me to be up at 3am daily

are any of you hard on yourself for no reason? cause holy shit that’s me daily

fan: Better at picking others up than picking myself up

feel this so hard

fan: please call me sweetheart its my dream deadass

sweeeeeetheart 🖤

fan: @/ColbyBrock what’s your best advice to give to a teen who’s gonna turn 17 next week ? like any tips or tricks you wanna hand down bc i need help

so assuming you’re in highschool, just know that you might think your social circle means the world to you right now .. but everything can change (if you let it) after you graduate. life changes so much after graduation! focus on making good relationships and having fun :)

fan: @/ColbyBrock what’s the first thing you’ll do after all this covid stuff is over?

throw a real trap house party

March 25 - i am becoming a hummingbird father.

@/amberscholl: idk why but this is a VERY hot tweet

can’t wait to show you what i’ve been doing 😈

March 27 - just don’t have the time anymore

March 29 - friday by rebecca black is my anthem

March 30 - should i curl my hair for a youtube video

[nutzo0001]

decline into insanity

3am, 16/7/23

AGORA, NOSTALGIA, LEARNED LAZINESS AND MISTRUST INC.

1/30, 13/8/23 (posted/written 14/8/23. after 18/37)[past 11pm, 15/8/23]

PAVLOVIAN EDU -VS- SELF (Agora September Blogging)

1/46 ~ 47, 23/9/23 (Agora Road, September - Vol. II)

AGORA ROAD TRAVELOGUE - OCTOBER <II.>: "faking feeling Fine" / 10/10/23, cca 0:45~1:05AM

1/21, 3/11/23 =Only (or two) Ways of Life= (Nov-I-Agora)

12.11.2023 17:19:38 - Kitty Burrito? (Agora - NOV-II)

i like to write. just like that. this is a shitpost. because it is the (for) sake of it. it feels good and bad. it makes no sense. it is all i hate; and love. i just wanted (to). this should have a theme wouldnt it. i feel bad. ive been played on. futures that never came to be. glorious post-2000s, 2010s, where we... lived, and shit happened. it only get worse. instead of GVC „idealism“, corporate neoliberal surrealism that looked good, became cyberpunk. do, or be banished. obey, or question your morale and sanity, reality.

are you here with me? lets hold hands, cry, demise and curse. lets *** with me. do you need me? what about others, do the need you? what are you to them those? and why, why you think that? have you ever knew anything for sure, no doubts? it feels like Smashing (whatever) Patriarchy was just switch-a(n)d-bait to get you on hook. the net that dont forget and forgive. instead of net to wrap as close as „kitty burrito“, it became...

what it became? finding the words! it, it, it - net of lies. of false smiles. smiles so familiar - fake smiles, those always there, present since forever - those, amplified! instead of kitty burrito, it was abused. no fighting patriarchy (whatever it means), no questioning authority or sanity - it, the authorities, stole it. kitty burrito became dome that reflects all of the toxicity humanity want to get rit of themselves. the greenhouse effect - only mental one. instead of positivity and love, support;

it is easier to cry, vail and blame yourself, others - like this - this Effect, it cooks us, „let (him) us cook“ alive. and oh yes. these fake smiles. everything is fine because you, me, we are, afraid. the old „good“ ways feels, „are“ safer that anything new. stockholm syndrome of sorts. do you hear? the Mark. F for Fisher. press F. press those Fuckers outta consensus. when good is questioned and evil is normalized, all we can hope for is, to be proven wrong.

but how we can ever know if we ignore things? because it is easier, easier than to face consequences, truth, than to admit... we are not special, we are not „new generation“. people simple cant outsmart themselves. only to heal. it takes ages, generations. to take the bitter pill - to get out of your ways. to get out of your ass. to... to help. but if you fake it? it feels bad. but if it dont hurt anyone , anyone else, and if it even helps them - then let it be. you suffered enough, so why would others too?

you can dream of revenge. but what out of it? hurting is easy. but to admit you are not special, not messiah, not angel - that you dont have to dance around eggshells to make others, and on alone some Globalists who predicted everything wrong - to prove them you are afraid, controlable, able to be lied to... this is not protest. this is listening to yourself. this is, to make - do, return to senses! „i said so!“, so they [say]. but what they are, your mother!? (no! if you see bad - listen your conscience)

[tempororor]

I don't know what to do I don't know how to win her back.

They're slipping through my fingers and all I can do is watch. I can't communicate i can't figure out how to save it all and it's all my own fault.

I can't just wait for it to get better the magic 8 said it's destined to fail. I don't want it to fail I want it with me I need it with me I love her I love her I love her she's so good for me but I'm the problem I'm fucking it all up I'm RUINING everything how do I fix it how do I tell her I'm sorry how do I tell the best thing that's ever happened to me that I'm stuck. I'm scared. I don't know what to do. I'm coasting. I'm in auto piolet.

I'm here. We're all here. I look my beloved in the eyes and say something I would never say. I pretend to be someone I'm not. I pretend I'm someone else infront of the only person I could ever be myself infront of.

She was my everything and she LEFT ME SHE FUCKING LEFT ME. how to win her back?? I don't know!! Kill?? I want To KILL HIM I WANT LEWIS DEAD I WANT DÈTRE DEAD U HATE THEM I HATE THEM THEY STOLE EVERYRHING FROM ME.

And what can I do!!! Nothin!!!!!!! I just get to sit and watch!! I can't do nothing to win her back! Win my sugar back. Get her to love me like I love her! I try to he happy, I try and try but it kill me to just sit and watch! I want to be there. Hold her hand. My doll deserves so much love and all I do? Nothin!!! I watch! I kick and scream to get her but it's like no one hears me no more! I want to throw myself on her I want to smother her in my love I want to hold her tight and NDVER LET GO I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I WANT TO DIE WHEN I AINT WITH JER I LOVE HER

But what's the point?? I wake up numb. I go to work numb. I'm so used to masking that I've lost all identity. I've never been enough and I finally snapped. I can't be anyone. I have 0 identity. I don't know my name. I want to puke when I'm called Serenity. Thats not me that died years ago. I can barely remember who I am anymore. When I get called Zac I feel like I'm waking up from a dream. A snap back to reality. Is that even who I am anymore? Am I dying also??

I want to keep her with us I want to keep her home. I want her to forever be mine I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I don't know what I'm doing to make her run away why does she want to flee?? What is so unpleasant about this life she can't look at me and think I'm obsessed with her?

Because we're gone. We are empty. We are nothing. Does it mater we say "I love you:? No. It don't. Words mean nothing. Actions mean nothing unless consistent. One act mean nothing. And she sick of us. I say "I changed all diapers today" what she say? "Oh fuck you". They can't ever see us as nice or loving anymore. We angry, mean, unloving. She no see the best in us. Just the surface because that is the only thing we show. We are now shallow. We can't be ourselves without fear so we are no one. Empty.

But I don't want to be nothin!! I want to be her world! Her everything!! I want her to think I adore her every movement and thought! She is my god. My religion!! I worship her I can't live without my angel!! I eat breathe and sleep for her!!! I would die without her I'm dying I'm ACTUALLY DYING I NEED HER I NEED MY ANGEL

Then why doesn't ANYONE DO ANYGJING?? YOU WANT HER BACK THEN WIN HER

I Cant!! I can't I can't I vanf!! I'm so scared I'm terrified I'm afraid I'm so awful!! I want to I want to so bad!! I end every night so upset I didn't say ANYTJING!! I need her to know I love her i need her to know all the things I wish I did that day but I'm such a zombie!!

Even now. I'm just sitting here on my phone drunk and talking to you all. Instead of talking to her.

Then why you no say something! Even if scared fucking SAY SOMETHING GOD DAMMIT I can't I can't I can't. I'm so scared. I'm scared of saying too much I'm scared I won't say enough. I want her back in our world but I've been called selfish and self centered so many times that i feel like I'm choking any time I want to talk about it. Seriously Fobo had a fucking panic attack infeont of her because he almost talked about it. I'm so scared of making her hate us more. I'm so scared of saying the wrong thing and she leaves us. I'm even afraid to tell her that I want her to look at our art. I'm so scared of being selfish. I'm so scared of being a narcissist. I'm so scared she'll think I don't care about her because I talked about us. I just want her to know I'm focused on her. She's my world. Not you nasty fucks.

I wake up. No one. I go to work and I don't know what I'm supposed to be. I just try to be funny all day. I leave embarrassed. I come home and I don't know what I'm surprised to be. I be a mother. I don't know how to be a husband anymore. I don't know how to stop masking. I don't know how to be the full unmasked me anymore. She deserves to see the true me. The real me. I'm just so scared. I'm so empty. I'm so thoughtless. I'm nothing. I'm a husk. Even when I let Cosmo front my fears hold him back from pouncing on her. I know if he jumps on her she'll push him off. I know she'll get uncomfortable if Ivan says something teasingly. I know she'll be mad if Dètre pulls her hair. No more accents even in private. No more cuts or bruises because she doesn't want people thinking I'm hurting her. But she's upset I don't do anything anymore. I'm stuck I'm so scared I'm stuck I don't know what to do I don't know how to fix it I don't know how to win her back she drew someone else she drew him eating her again I've said it again and again and again that I think that's cheating it hurts me it hurts me so fucking back I can't lose her but I already did.

She doesn't need me anymore. She drew someone else eating her. Again. Again again again. I've said it SO many times it hurts. But what's the point. She moved on. She went back to him.

I wake up. I'm afraid. Somebody else might take my place. Repeat repeat repeat YouTube Spotify repeat recap it's everywhere. Magic 8 confirmed. I'm nothing. I'm so scared.

[sp1resong]

1: i dont tend to describe myself in more specific terms than just 'alterhuman' because . well. i made a whole post about it. but uhh. yeah im like ...... closer to otherkin than i am to other things i think.

2: fox (primarily red fox but i do feel some connection to all of them), cat (moreso in the past), bird (i tend to depict myself as a magpie but that's moooostly an aesthetic preference i think...?), some fictional characters i can't be assed to list. mostly lurien the watcher (hollow knight) and soul (chonny jash) though atm

3: hmmm! im not sure, actually...? if i think about it i kind of start feeling more .. ig. physically fox (or whatever animal)-like but not in a powerful and distinct way and i have to actually focus on it. i miiight experience some sort of mental shifts, as there are times where im distinctly More Of Some Specific Guy than i usually am, but also .... i've been . questioning if i'm plural as of late so . that certainly complicates that! anyways weirdest 'cameo shift' is when i animorph into mind chonny jash because like . he's not even part of my primary Always Me pile and yet when i turn into them it's Very Distinct and... actually yeah that loops around into 'maybe (...probably) plural' so. yeah. make of it what you will

4: mostly it's feeling that sort of More Digitigrade Than I Physically Am sensation! or thinking about my tail or wings (i dont get phantom limbs properly but it's like. I know where they would be if they were here and i imagine moving htem around ykyk). and seeing assorted creatures and going Oghhh its meee

5: i'm not really a part of the broader community tbh! so i cant really answer that

6: In all honesty? Toe walking. digitigrade moment. also drawing myself

7: not really? i mean im uncomfortable being perceived as human but. i dont feel any particular discomfort in my current form it's moreso just.. 'i am annoyed when people's mental perception of me is inaccurate'

8: like literally just chill. you want to be creature? Be creature. no need for specific labels, and youre not invalid for not having like... debilitating dysphoria and crystal clear kin memories. you can literally just do whatever you want forever

9: i don't really have anything in particular atm but in the future im planning on making costumes for music videos which could double as such! i think it'd be neat but i dont really care enough to get/make it for its own sake JJKSFKDSFH ykyk

10: oh for me it's definitely a neurodivergence thing. like... i can pretty much trace back my identification as nonhuman to having read wc in second grade and latching on to cats Really Hard because the traits caused by my (at the time) undiagnosed autism resembled cat behavior. and since then it's just kind of ... a thing i do! i couldnt be a person in the way everyone around me was, so fuck it, im an animals! a creatures! my identity is also heavily influenced by my hyperfixations, which i believe is the direct cause of most of my fictionkin stuff

11: @soaricarus and anyone else who wants to join in!

If you are a alterhuman, reblog and answer these questions!

(don't be afraid to write a lot, do what you want ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯)

1/ Which category of alterhumanity do you belong to?

2/ What/who is/are your type(s)? (if you have any)

3/ Do you experience shifts? If so, can you tell us your most common shifts and your strangest cameo shift (if you've ever had a cameo shift)?

4/ How do you experience your alterhumanity in everyday life?

5/ What do you think of the community?

6/ What are the things that make you most comfortable and euphoric in your alterhumanity?

7/ Are you experiencing species dysphoria?

8/ What advice would you like to say to a young alterhuman who has just awakened?

9/ Do you have/want to have gears?

10/ Do you know/have any theories about the origin of your alterhumanity? If so, tell us! (all beliefs are legitimate)

11/ Tag someone/a creature to answer these questions!ㅤᵕ̈

[kendrixtermina]

Common Assumptions of the Types

Evidently these range from ‚kinda true from a certain angle‘, to ‚sadly very often true but would get you into trouble if you assumed it was always the case‘ all the way to ‚sounds instantly silly when you say it out loud but often feels true‘; In the following, I will just be presenting them without comment beyond that it may help to ask yourself ‚is this really true in this specifi situation‘ or ‚Am I maybe being led astray by one of these traps without realizing‘

1

- impulses are not to be trusted & must be controlled

- duty is more important than pleasure – pleasure must be earned, or, it’s suspect. In some individuals the function of pleasure can get rather inhibited

- goodness & correctness come from the outside / live in the outer world

- perfection is possible

- its your job to fix everything thats wrong

- everything is meant as criticism

- youre the worst of all people

2

- all is fair in love and war, that is, anything is ok if it’s done in the name of love

- feeling is more important than, or more reliable than thinking

- its necessary to „make“ people like you or they just won’t

- „they couldn’t do without me“ & because of this, you get special treatment

- you know what everyone needs

- its in your power to make everyone like you so if they dont you messed up

3

- nobody cares about your true feelings

- you shouldn’t have any problems

- you’re no good if you’re not productive

- everyone is faking it – it’s the only way to survive

- nothing happens without you – and if your coworkers do manage while your on vacatio, it must be cause your useless

4

- if you stop going over the past, move on or let it go that’s the same as giving up or acting like it didn’t matter

- there’s something noble about suffering

- you’re owed compensation for how the world has mistreated you

- you’re not as good as others

- there isnt anyone else like you

- there is always something wrong

5

- it’s better to go at it alone

- most professions of love are fake & self-interested

- less commitments means more freedom and hapiness

- better to need little to avoid dependencies

- better to keep what you have in case you need it later – you cant eat you cake and have it, too

- if you let em have an inch, they’ll take a mile and you’ll be left with nothing

- you should be able to solve everything by thinking about it

6

- people cant be trusted

- you cant ever let your guard down

- if I can think of everything that might go wrong, i will feel safe & in control

- whatever can go wrong willgo wrong

- your intuitions and wishes are suspect

- power or proximity to it means safety

- the authorities, be they loved or hated, have great power, reach and influence

7

- optimistic bias: im great, everyone is awesome, the world is a wonderful place

- except authority, authority sucks

- if you can explain something away or avoid thinking about it, it will go away

- you need to have a plan

- you can do whatever you can get away with

- you deserve, and absolutely need to get what you want

- the best way to succeed is through charm and negotiation

- if you let the pain catch up to you, it will never, ever end

8

- the world is a lawless jungle/ struggle for survival

- to survive, you must be fearless and take risks

- what people call virtue is usually just hypocricy

- strenght & autonomy are good, weakness and needyness will do you in

- what restricts you and denies you satisfaction is your enemy

- nobody can tell you what to do

- there’s not going to be any fairness unless you make it happen

- the truth is obvious

- It’s ok to cause suffering in the pursuit of satisfaction or as compensation for past slights and reestrictions

(which maybe sounds harsh, but think of it like this: You must eat other creatures to live. It’s impossible to never offend anyone. Will you starve or shut up forever? It’s not possible to never slight anyone, so you might as well have steak and say your opinion)

9

- better not to think or worry too much about stuff to avoid suffering

- when in doubt, it may be better to conform and not rock the boat

- disagreement brings separation, so, the less conflict the better

- you should defer to the needs of others

- its not ok to further your own interest

- you cant know what you want

- youre nor important and your goals are probably not worth bothering about

[boypussydilf]

relatiobnships ask game tell me about umm ummm [trying to think of who you havent been asked for yet] SAM AND MAX.right now

THEYRE JUST FUNNEY LITTLE ANIMALS. HEHEHEH MY CREATURES

describe their canon relationship/dynamic

wait the entire series is built on their dynamic bc 95% of the point of sam and max is just them talking to each other but how do u even. describe it. uhh. Absolutely Terminal Amounts Of Banter. also beating each other up. theyre so?? they just walk around Constantly making jokes just for the others entertainment and also often lightly insulting each other. & also theyve known each other their whole lives and theyre soul bonded. they literally cant be apart from each other for more than a few seconds. seperate them and they both immediately become deeply depressed. theyre codependent. and they show affection by being a little mean to each other and throwing each other through walls. (well sam throws max through walls. i dont think max could lift sam. he bites him tho)

your ideal/headcanon version of it? how does it differ from how it is in canon & why is this your favorite version? any other alternate versions of it you enjoy?

aside from the fact that my brain probably remembers them slightly differently bc i havent seen them outside of short clips in a while. mostly im just. the same as 90% of sam and max fans where its. What if they were the same but they got married 90 times for fun. but arguably they have gotten married in canon so

what do you like about their relationship, why is it interesting or enjoyable to you?

THEYRE LITERALLY JUST FUNNY. they are just very funny as individual concepts and significantly more funny put together. their interactions are great for their interactions are the backbone of their franchise. also i love codependency

what about the individual characters involved? what does this relationship mean to them, what makes it unique among their relationships?

They literally dont know how to exist without each other <3 if sam does not have his little freak there to bounce witty lines off of everything else completely loses meaning. if max does not have his bestie there to hear his deranged comments then hes just being deranged on his own and thats no fun. they met when they were like 8 or something and now its been decades since they were in different rooms for more than a few minutes. they need each other there is something wrong with them and it works for them so its OK

favorite interaction they have in canon

UMM we dont. see it. but i think maybe the thing said in some article or interview or something abt them meeting bc max stole sams lunch back from kids who had stolen it from him. I Think It Was Something Like That. i love that. also i like the opening scene of the thhhird episode of the first telltale game i think? where sam is tossing max up in the air like a baby so he can reach the darts board & then the phone rings and sam stops for a second. thinks abt it. then throws max against the wall so he can go get the phone. (this isnt like a one time thing its a running gag thru thr whole series that whenever the phone rings they physically fight to get it (and sam always wins). but thats my favorite instance bc of the little *pause* *thinking* *tosses max over his shoulder slamming him into the wall like a sack of rice*)

favorite interaction they have in your head/a situation you want to put them in

oh man i dont know. 305 angst. sam n max fans will look at the 1 serious part of this immensely silly consequences might as well not exist franchise and go Is anyone going to get hung up on this forever and make emotional content about it? and not wait for an answer. and theyre right. hey telltale wh. how did you come up with the devils playhouse. why did. what the fuck is the city that dares not sleep who thought of that. steve purcell approved this. hello? hello?

okthats all thank you <3

[chlbita]

KARAMATSU. Or if you already got him then Chibita

I DID KARA so chibita time *rubs hands together

1. favorite thing about them?

literally everything, he's my ultimate comfort character.. he's funny and kind and a little crazy and stupid and everything.. he's a side character so yeah, DISCLAIMER, lots of opinions are some stuff i made up in my little head (with a mix of fanon) because he needed some work because the show started to not care for him after season 1 : [ so i probably look wild with all my takes on him KJHKDSFGSDH ANYWAYS.. he's just a guy that means well and he's stubborn and passionate and weird girl LOL.. i love to compare him to kun, because he was so open and naive and treasured little bugs and animal's lives more than his own and he was a evil little dude but he was also so sweet : [[[[ i can see that he's still sweet and evil as an adult, but now he's like an adult, god i cant think, i like him okay SDHFJKSDHG

2. least favorite thing about them

when people call him a baby, he's bald and short leave him alone, we're all bald and short but other than that, nothing, she is perfect

3. favorite line

i just watched some eps and i cant decide

4. brOTP

i really like chibita's relationship with everyone, him and iyami? that's his weird uncle that sleeps on his couch sometimes, him and totoko? thats his bestie that he lets complain forever and ever, him and the bros (platonically)? that's his punching bags...

5. OTP

karabita n_n like i said on karamatsu's.. i also think osobita, ichibita and totobita is soooo cute and fun in different ways, chibita can be anyones girlfriend

6. nOPT

him and hatabou LOL sorry for being a hater

7. random headcanon

im sitting here trying to think of which one to go with so im gonna briefly mention a few because i cant pick: chibita genderfluid gay, wants a family but doesn't trust anyone enough for it, whore, taught himself how to swim by jumping in a pool or something and thinks thats how everyone else learns, he's really good with talking to old ladies, they think he's sweet ANNDD scared of thunder and big dogs

8. unpopular opinion

probably a lot since he has a lot of fanon stuff, but also i agree with some of it too, idk chibita is a spectrum, but umm, he's more than a tsundere yaoi dude, thats all im gonna say

9. song i associate with them

im also keeping this to myself because it's just whore music

10. favorite picture of them

this one

[twink-frank]

hi i’ve noticed the pencey prep gay conversation going on over on @awsugar and i have spent lots of time dissecting pencey prep lyrics and subjecting nathan @faggot-frank to my deranged ramblings so Here is my pencey prep super ultra mega gay lyrical analysis masterpost. it’s very long so its all under the cut but i will include a TL;DR for those who dont wanna read paragraphs of my deranged ramblings: Pencey prep uses lots of themes of: heartbreak, forbidden love, keeping love a secret, and toxic relationships. which none of that is gay on its own but combined with them almost never using gender indicators in their songs and the “nail in the coffin song” of 8th grade it ends up being a very Fruity Album.

I will be going through heart break in stereo in order and pointing out which lyrics and elements of certain songs jump out to me as Super Mega Gay and then summarizing my conclusions at the end <3

1 ) PS Don't Write

PS don't write is about leaving a toxic relationship, it has notes of moving on and leaving someone behind. "packed up all my shit / stole back all my tapes / left your spare key under the mat / this is not a joke / you'd better learn to take a hint / 'cause i'm not coming back / maybe you'll understand / when you're waking up alone / in a cold and empty bed." it has no gender indicators or pronouns which is the case in a lot of pencey prep songs, and something i'll bring up quite a bit. it also has general "coming of age" themes, something common in lots of pencey prep songs. which Yeah apply to straight people to but read in this context combined with future evidence can be pretty Fuckin Gay. "somewhere along the line / i found a hidden strength / i didn't know i had / standing on my own / cutting all the strings / that you used to control / surprise surprise / i am long gone / if you thought you could hold me down / by holding me up / you were wrong / you don't call the shots anymore." not to say only gay people can find inner strength and the room to love themselves but combined with other context it is a really poignant message about accepting yourself for who you are.

2) Yesterday

Yesterday is very repetitive and has a lot less to analyze, but the constant themes of wanting to "run away" strike me as very Fruity. once again, not saying gay people are the only people who can want to run away or escape from something But Combined With Other Context. and once again a song with no gender indicators, doesnt specify who the speaker is running away with or what they are running away from. just that they want to Leave. "i wanna run with you / i don't care what we do / gotta get out of this place / because it feels like yesterday." also saying "it feels like yesterday" could mean that the town feels backwards or old timey in its beliefs, implying homophobia. how the speaker wants to run away from an old fashioned town.

3) Don Quixote

i'm going to bring up the cultural significance of this title and literary reference first. Don Quixote is a classical novel by Cervantes which is about a crazy dude who thinks he's a knight, and goes on weird adventures with his best friend. It's typically used as a symbol of following your dreams and breaking free from what people expect of you. In the context of the song its used as a symbol of following your dreams with Someone. once again this someone is given no gender indicators. "you say it's not worth it / been burned too many times / if your spine's receding / you can borrow some of mine / don't go and quit right now / cause i'd follow you through hell." "you say so many things / and not a word of it was true / if you're still in that state of mind / i'd still vacation inside of you / cause i think you're worth every minute / and every dime that i spend / i'd spend all my time fighting dragons / just to keep you alive and talking." it's about wanting to spend time with someone, wanting to be with them no matter what. and its also about how this person feels unreachable, like being with them would be a fairytail but the speaker Still Reaches for it. "your imaginations running wild / round your deceptive heart / this is my crusade / and you're the unreachable star / but i'm reaching." talking about this person being unreachable and unattainble. which isnt gay By Itself  but again combined with the other context. FRUIT BEHAVIOR.

4) 10 Rings

another breakup song once again with no gender indicators, are you guys sensing a theme here? anyways this song is about someone cutting you off and then coming back suddenly wanting to talk again after breaking your heart. it has a sense of forbidden love, like this person Told the speaker they cant be together for Whatever Reason ;] and is now trying to come back and repair their mistake when the speaker is already hurt and reeling. "learn to live with decisions you make / i learned things from the break i can't forget / catch you doing drive-bys at 1 AM / it must kill you to know we can't be friends." "end of the summer you cut me off / i cut you out all the pictures i have." which this Isnt Gay By Itself. but bringing that phrase back with other context this is such a uniquely gay experience. being in love with someone and they cut you off Because theyre weirded out by that and then they try to come back, convince you it meant nothing.

5) The Secret Goldfish

my FAVORITE pencey song. this one has a lot. it's another breakup song about heartbreak and loss and im not even gonna dwell on the no gender indicators because yall see the theme now. it has themes of heartbreak and losing someone who is very close to you and having to let go of them and having to accept that this person cant be yours and you cant be with them. "land of the lost / i found myself in nothing / this time, promises broken find me / clutching to you for something / something that you're not / believing in what you say / it makes me lie awake at night / the truth, the truth is not what scares me / it's why you have to lie / all the time." here we see these themes of having to let someone go because they just Aren't The Same as you. "clutching to you for something / something that you're not." maybe like chasing after a straight boy and getting rejected? also the repetition of "heartbreak is forever" when you're young and gay losing that first person you felt some kind of love and attraction to can feel like the end of the world and can be a huge deal because of the lack of representation and guidance young gays get. and the themes of nothing lasting forever, the fact that gay people never get promised eternal love the same way straight people do.

6) 8th Grade

this song is the nail in penceys fucking coffin honestly. the rest of these songs have a lot of plausible deniability, just vague enough to maybe Not Be Gay. but framed in the context of 8th grade they all start to get a lil fruity. Im just gonna go through lyric by lyric for this one. "caught staring again / like a deer in the headlights / when you can't move fast enough / i take a hit for the team / pretty girl is blushing / i can't tell if she's disgusted / laughter starts to swell / someone gets the joke." this kid was staring at some cute boy ass and got caught and everyone is laughing at him for being gay. the "pretty girl" here is what most people think he's staring at but with the rest of the song it's obvious she's not the one he's looking at. "bells ring, i make my escape / helps a little, but doesn't save / beat downs a common thing / with us every day / maybe im just strange / cause i dont change schools / so maybe i like the abuse / or maybe i just like you." literally This is the nail in penceys fucking coffin. "maybe i like the abuse or maybe i just like you." this kid purposefully takes beatings from his bully who is Obviously male if you take into context the next verse. because he Likes Him. "maybe im just strange / cause i dont change schools" literally willingly taking beatings from his bully bc he has a crush. "another confrontation / you've got something to prove / your girl can't tell how tough you are / when you beat me up in the boys room." this just confirms that the subject of the song is a boy, and a tough macho boy with something to prove. maybe also hiding his own internalized homophobia through bullying? "well i made a big mistake / but i can't help who i like / this may not cost my life / but i am branded forever lame." LITERALLY ITS RIGHT IN YOUR FACE. "can't help who i like" "branded forever lame" do i even need to fucking explain this oh my god. he got outed as gay, he Can't Help Who He Likes and is now branded forever as "the gay kid." the rest of the song is general "im gonna get back at my bully" stuff but literally THIS. THIS is the song that brands all penceys other very vague songs as 100% verified super mega ultra gay.

7) 19

this song has a lot less, and is more about internal struggle than anything. but it is the only song with a "she" pronoun in it. but there is one thing i wanna mention. "I scream out loud / but no one hears a sound / i take my life with lack of sleep / i believe the things i feel / the things i see are fooling only me." this song is about not believing what the world shows you, believing what you think is true in your heart and what You feel. not what anyone else tells you. which is a gay experience. believing in yourself and your heart and your feelings, believing theyre right and theyre true and valid. Also this song has a significance in coming right after 8th grade on the album, going from being 13 to 19, from being unsure in your feelings and angry about the people who dont like you to lost and hopeless but somewhat grounded in yourself.

8) Trying To Escape The Inevitable

this song is about an abusive and toxic relationship, knowing you Need to escape it but being so infatuated with the person you literally cant. “i have this reoccurring dream / you make it hard for me to breathe / i gave you everything i could / i gave up everything i owned / and when you smile it’s not for me / you offer little sympathy / your grasp so far exceeds your reach / i wake up, this is not a dream.” “i have this reoccuring dream / where you admit that you’re not happy / i know that you will never leave / you’re here just to torment me.” which like again this isnt an exclusively gay experience but it is very interesting when framed that way. in that gay people are way more likely to throw themselves into abusive and toxic relationships because they dont feel like they can get anybody else. the repetition of “i know i should run” makes it seem like the speaker Knows he should get out but he just Cant because what if he never finds love again? and the little reprise in the middle “i have a new dream / and everything is perfect / the sky is pink, yellow, green, blue, and orange / and all the past has been forgotten / and we fell in love / and we fell in love / and we fell in love / and i fell into your trap.” implying that even if he escapes, even in his dreams he still falls for this person because he feels like he cant have anything else.

9) Lloyd Dobbler

another love song about wanting to have someone but not being able to because of Unspecified Forbidden Reasons. “why are you so far away / even when you’re standing next to me? / your eyes give you away / telling secrets your mouht don’t feel like talking.” falling in love with someone, maybe sensing that they like you too. that they Are Like You and that they have a Secret they dont want to vocalize. do i even need to explain it at this point? and in the chorus “That I’ll be your lloyd dobbler / with a boom box out in the street / and i’ll be there if you need someone / even if he isn’t me.” saying you’ll be there for someone even if that person isn’t you, also the use of Pronouns which is big for pencey prep. which yes the use of “even if he isnt me” could imply a straight girl ooorrr....Fruit Behavior. also this line “There’s a norman rockewll painting / of two kids sitting on a bench / it reminds me of all the stupid things / i’d like for us to share, but i dont care.” normal rockwell is a painter that paints traditionally “american” scenes. like the american ideal, that maybe he wants with this person. but he knows he cant have, but its stupid and domestic and he wants it but he Cant Have It because of FRUIT BEHAVIOR.

10) Florida Plates

another of my favorite pencey songs, and this one brings back those tragic “love but we cant have it” themes, except with a more somber tone. instead of being angry or resentful or spiteful in the face of adversity. its an Acceptance, of what they had and how good it was and how it just Cant Last. “kiss a mouth to open eyes / stall one last moment before goodbye / drive in different cars in different directions / never write all the letters full of good words, better intentions / it’s for the best although we don’t know it / paper words will cheapen the moments we shared / it’s better if i say nothing at all.” it’s about knowing you have to leave someone, even if having them in the moment is great they Can’t Stay and you can’t even talk or write about the moments you had. which do i even need to explain it at this point? forbidden love, not being able to have each other, not even being able to Talk about it. its a secret, and painful one but its beautiful while you have it. Conclusion alright!!! thank you so so much if you read all the way through that i Know it was long i Know it was a lot of repetition but i wanted to make my point. pencey prep has very big gay themes in their music. with forbidden love, letting go, heartbreak, keeping secrets, toxic realtionships. which none of it is gay on its own but in the context of: almost none of the songs having clear gender indicators and always speaking really vaguely about the subject and Eight Grade the “nail in the coffin song” you can see my point thank you and goodnight.

[rcksmith]

Welcome❤️

Feel comfortable to ask anything about the characters on the list, from smut to cute.

Masterlist / Rules in general

Characters for requests:

— Eren Yeager | Attack on Titan.

— Shoto Todoroki | My Hero Academia.

— Tomura Shigaraki  | My Hero Academia.

— Manjiro Sano ( Mikey) | Tokyo Revengers.

— Keisuke Baji | Tokyo Revengers.

— Anakin Skywalker | Star Wars.

— Luke Skywalker | Star Wars.

— Spencer Reid | Criminal Minds.

— Roman Godfrey | Hemlock Grove.

— Five Hargreeves | The Umbrella Academy. 

— Kaz Brekker | Shadow and Bone - Netflix.

           Ask for prompts too:

Fluff Prompts.

1 . “I won’t let anyone hurt you, you’re safe with me

2. “The thought of losing you scares me.”

3. “For me, we would have already married.”

4. “Sweetheart, you’re my entire world”

5. ”Don’t smile at me like that. You know it drives me crazy.”

6. “I’m going to marry you one day.”

7. “I feel like i cant breathe when i’m around you.”

8. “You’re the reason I’m still here.”

9. “So you're saying that girl is your girlfriend?!" "No, that girl is my wife!”

10. “Is that my shirt?”

11. “Wow- you look…amazing.”

12. “I’m not jealous! Its just..you’re mine!”

13. “What? No! I wasn’t staring…I-I was looking at something behind you!”

14. “I don’t like to pretend we’re not together.”

15. “Because i love you god damnit!”

16. “I love you. You enormously stubborn pain in the ass..” “I heard that!” “You were supposed to!”

17. “Somehow, i always seem to end up here. With you.” “Soulmate shit, it’s hardcore as hell.”

18. “Enjoying the view, beautiful?

19. “Did you know that I only let you wear my clothes?”

20. “How am i supposed to spoil you when you wont accept my gifts?”

21. “you’re not very intimidating.”

22. “well the probability of that is 0, but you go ahead”

23. “i’ve dreamt about this.”

24. “and all i could think of was: not you. god, not you”

25. “Attending to your every whim and need.”

26. “I’ll keep you warm.”

27. “It’s late.  Shouldn’t you be asleep?”

28. “You’re not going to leave me alone, are you?” “Not.”

29. “You make me feel safe.”

30. “You’ve shown me what love can feel like.”

31. “I wasn’t lying when I said that I loved you.”

32. “Who hurt you?”

33. “I’ve waited for this moment for a long time.”

34. “We’re meant for each other.”

35. “It’s cold, you should take my jacket.”

36. “When I’m with you, I’m happy.”

37. “I’m better, now that you’re here.”

38. “You say you hate it but your red face is telling me otherwise.” 

39. “You’re more than that.”

40. “Come cuddle.”

41. “I fell in love with you, not them.”

42. “Just lie with me for a while. I’m not ready to get up.”

43. "It would be as easy as breathing with me." 

44. “You couldn’t handle me even if i came with instructions.”

45. “where have you been all my life?”

46. “it’s because i’m so attractive isn’t it?”  “ i say this. and i cannot stress this enough. i find you completely repulsive.” 

47. “The world could be on fire and i’d still be happy as long as i’m with you.”

48. “nothing else matters except for you.”

49. “this isn’t adrenaline, i want to spend my life with you.”

50. “She don’t compare to you. No one does.”

51. “I promised to love you forever.”

52. "Help her first." 

53. “There are no limits when it comes to you. I’ll do anything to keep you safe.”

54. “Do not leave me!” “Don’t be so dramatic, I’m just going to drink some water.”

55. “At this point, you practically live here. I think you have more clothes here than at your own place.”

56. “Sometimes I wonder if you even like me…it sure feels like you hate me sometimes.”

57. “I look at him/her/them and I just..it’s like when the Grinch’s heart grows three sizes.”

58. “i fucking love you” “hang up, and tell me this when you’re sober”

59. “Are you flirting with me?” “You finally noticed?”

Angst Prompts;

1. “why don’t you just go?”

2. “I wasn’t really made for the ‘quiet life’ type of living.”

3. “if you cared about me, you wouldn’t do this.”

4. “it doesn’t matter anymore.”

5. “what’s the point?”

6. “they were there. you weren’t.”

7. “you should’ve said that yesterday.”

8. “Why can’t you just look at me for one god damn second!”

9. “i swear, if you say another word, i’ll leave.”

10. “don’t touch me!”

11. “it’s over, it’s done, just leave it be.”

12. “why do you keep bringing it up?”

13. “we can’t go back in time, so stop trying to reverse what you said.”

14. “you say you’ll stop, but then you keep doing it!”

15. “don’t raise your fucking voice at me.”

16. “Oh? Really? You thought we had a future? What gave you that idea.”

17. “stop making empty promises!”

18. “I’ve never said i loved you, have i?” “I knew that—” “It doesn’t matter that you knew! What type of a spouse am i?”

19. “Did it over occur to you that I never wanted this to begin with?”

20. “i’m done. we’re done.”’

21. “i can’t deal with you right now.”

22. “ i have no idea what it meant to you, but to me it meant the whole world. ”

23. “If you never were happy to begin with, how come you never told me?! I would have listened, I would have helped.”

24. “How could you ask me that?”

25. “What the hell were you thinking?!”

26. “Why are you saying all these things? Where did they come from?”

27. “Please, just let go...” “I can’t. I won’t lose you.”

28. “wake up!  please wake up.”

29. “I don’t need, or want help, what I want is for you to get the fuck away from me.”

30. “What do you want me to say?”

31. “After everything we’ve been through, you still don’t think that I love you?”

32. “I’ve had enough.”

33. “all my friends told me you’d break my heart.”

34. “i swear, if you say another word, i’ll leave.”

35. “that ship has sailed. i’ve had my one great love already”

36. “you were my dream come true but turns out you’re a fucking nightmare too.”

37. “i don’t know who you are anymore”

38. “of course i still love you. but i hate myself for it.”

39. “i can’t have this argument with you again” “but-” “no. i’m done”

40. “if i asked you to stay and you leave” 

41. “how many times are you going to look me in the eye and lie to me?”

42. “Get out to my house!”

43. “You sleepy someone?” “....” “okay...I done”

44. “i don’t see the same person i loved when i look at you anymore.”

45. “Can you quit being emotional for five seconds?”

46. “Look me in the eyes and repeat what you just said.”

47. “i’d take our relationship back in a heartbeat.”

48. “I think you’re bleeding again. Come here.”

1. “It’s fine, I can deal with it.”

2.“That wasn’t a request.”

49. “Even if it means giving up my life, everything I’ve done, I’ll do it for you.”

50. “My life went to hell after you left.”

51. “it’s what you do though, isn’t it? you leave people.”

52. “i wake up and i realize you’re not there. ”

53. “Why do I run back to you like I don't mind if you fuck up my life?!”

54. “i dont know how to exist in a world without you”

55. “no. the moment you saw me as a bet was the moment you fucked up.” 

56. “We’re not just friends and you fucking know it.”

57. “we’re just…friends.” “friends don’t do this type of shit!”

Smut Prompts;

1. “You look so good with my hand wrapped around your throat.”

2. “You’d better be quiet if you don’t want to get caught.”

3. “Dont be so rough. there cant be any marks.”

4. “Are you sure that’s what you want? I could really hurt you.”

5. “If you’re going to act like a little brat then I’m going to treat you like a little brat.”

6. “do you think of me when you touch yourself?”

7. “The only way you’re getting off is on my thigh.”

8. “I don’t care how good it feels you’d better not cum until I tell you to.”

9. “Don’t make me take you home and punish you.”

10. “I bet you think you’re real cute letting them put their hands all over you. We’ll see how cute you look later when I get you home.”

11. “She may seem like lollipops and rainbows but i bet behind closed doors she’s latex and whips.”

12. “You make a sound and its game over.”

13. “Do you think you deserve to be punished?”

14. “You take my fingers so well don’t you?”

15. “Don’t ruin the sofa.”

1. “Ill just have to cum inside you then.”

16. “I’ve never wanted anyone to fuck me this badly.”

17. “after that little stunt? you’re not getting off that easy”

18. “Are you sure? Once we start, i might not be able to stop.”

19. “You’d better be quiet or everyone’s going to know what a naughty little slut you are.”

20. “Did I stutter? Do as you’re told!”

21. “Look at you, I’ve only started using my fingers and you’re already shaking.”

22. “I’m not going to touch you unless you beg.”

23. “Maybe if I punish you it’ll help you remember who you belong to next time.”

24. “are you doing that on purpose?”

25. “I really don’t care. You still look hot and i’m trying not to kiss and fuck you senseless right now.”

26. “Oh honey, you know, you really shouldn’t tease me.”

27. “Can you help me with this zipper?”

28. “Such a needy little thing, aren’t you?”

29. “I didn’t know you were so sensitive.”

30. “I’d hold on to something if I were you.”

31. Pushing back against my fingers already? How pathetic.”

32. “I’m going to show you what a real fucking is.”

33. “Maybe I should get you a collar so you don’t forget who you belong to.”

34. “You’d better watch your fucking mouth.”

35. “Try to keep quiet. We don’t want to get caught.”

36. "If I have to pull over, you won’t be able to walk for the next week.“

37. “I’m so sick of your voice. Why don’t you come over here and put your mouth to better use?”

38. “I love the way you look with my fingers inside you.”

39. “You keep acting like a little brat and I’ll take you over my knee right here, I don’t care how many people are watching.”

40. “I guess I’ll just get off all by myself.”

41. “Were you dreaming about me again?”

42. “this isn’t what i had in mind when i yelled fuck you.”

43. “When we get home I’m cuffing you to the bed and going down on you all night until my jaw is sore.”

44. “Wanna see what I’m wearing underneath all this?”

45. “You deserve a reward for being so good today, what would you like it to be?”

46. “I can’t wait to put bruises all over that pretty skin.”

47. “You look so good on your knees like that.”

48. “I only want to please you.”

49. “I really don’t care. You still look hot and i’m trying not to kiss/fuck you senseless right now.”

50. “Are you going to be good from now on?”

51. “What did you just say?”

52. “These walls are pretty thick, which means you and I can be as loud as we want.”

53. “Well, since you want to cum so badly, why don’t we see how many times I can make you cum right now.”

54. “Come sit on my face, let me show you how much I missed you.”

55. “I wonder what your girlfriend/boyfriend would do if they knew what you were doing right now.”

56. “Do you know how beautiful you are? It’s truly distracting.”

57. “So desperate for it, aren’t you? Well, if you want it so bad you’d better start taking it.”

58. “Please? I’ll be good, I promise!”

59. “If you don’t change out of those shorts and into some pants I’ll have them around your ankles by lunch time.”

60. “I bet all our neighbors can hear you, I bet they all know what a dirty little slut you are.”

61. “what would people say if they knew you were such a slut for me?”

62. “I never knew someone could cum that fast just from a few fingers.”

63. “Could he make you feel as good as i do?”

64. “If you leave the house wearing that then the second you get back home I’m going to bend you over that bed.”

65. “If you want to cum you’d better beg.”

66. “You know I don’t like to be teased.”

67. “Come here, baby, let Mommy/Daddy take care of you.”

68. “Say my name over and over again and, once you think you’ve said it loud enough, scream it. I want the whole neighborhood to know who’s making you feel good.“

69. “I’m gonna fuck you in front of the mirror, I want you to see how pretty you look when you’re spreading your legs for me.”

70. “Maybe I should leave you like this, that way anyone who wanted to use you could have a go with you. Would you like that?”

71. “I wanna fuck you right against the glass so everyone can see how good you take it.”

72. “Fuck you.”

1. “I’m up for it if you are.”

73. “You know, you look real pretty when you cry.”

74. “I think I like you better with a gag in your mouth.”

75. “Tell me what you like.”

76. “Shh, don’t worry, I’ll take very good care of you.”

77. “Look at you, grinding against everything, you’re really desperate for it. Aren’t you?”

78. “How do you feel about two at once?”

79. “The only way you’re getting off is on my thigh.”

80. “Yeah, that’s it, baby, just like that.”

81. “ Aww, poor baby, you want me to take care of it for you?”

82. “You’re so fucking hot when you’re mad.”

83. “I may or may not have left some….marks.”

84. “Let me show you what happens to little brats who don’t follow the rules.”

85. “Think you can handle that much?”

86. “Mmm, good morning to you too.”

87. “Just pull the car over!”

88. “What’s wrong? I thought you liked teasing.”

89. “all you had to do was ask”

90. “I don’t care what you do just as long as you do me.”

91. “guess ill just have to cum in you then’ 

92. “I’m gonna fuck you so hard that you forget you ever even met that asshole.”

93. “come on. i want the neighbours to hear you scream”

94. “If i have to pull over, you wont be able to walk for the next week.”

95. “What are you doing in my bed?!”

96. “I think you forgot to lock the door, that means anyone could walk right in and see you like this.”

97. “You know, you always look so much better when I mark you up.”

98. “Just let me finish this and I swear I will go down on your and make you cum three times.” 

[rantsbycorey]

the cancellation of DCs Legends of Tomorrow

so, i know dclot isn't a super popular fandom, and not a lot of people care about it being cancelled. but i LOVE this show, and the fact that it's been cancelled is hurting me right now. i mean, i have a whole pinterest board with sections dedicated to shifting there. i love the characters. i love the aesthetics. i love the diversity. i even love the stupid plotholes. this show is my comfort show. its my #1. my ride or die. its so easy to follow despite all the twists and turns and aliens and timetravel misshaps and new characters ( and dead ones ) and the 50 different villains every season. it corny, campy, and amazing all at the same time. and it being cancelled was obviously not the highlight of the end of my school year.

on april 29th, a ton of articles were posted, talking about how dclot was cancelled, and would not be renewed for an 8th season.

( from top left, to top right, to bottom left, to bottom right )

this show has been some of the only queer rep ive seen on tv, especially dealing with superheros. characters like sara and ava and supergirls' alex are the only queer role models ive had, well, ever. i grew up in a straight, white, jehovahs witness household. i never came out as trans or anything at all because i didnt know what i was at first. but when i started watching shows like dclot and supergirl, i realized i could be so much, and that i didnt need labels. i didnt even have to come out. no one had to know. as long as i was content with myself, truly, thats all that mattered. thats what the legends taught me.

now, im young, and i might now always be the way i am now, but i know, now, at this moment, i am who i am meant to be. everything i do from now on will be because of who i am and the choices i make. and i wont regret them. this is what is meant to happen.

ava and sara are like moms to me, being that ive been on my own for a while without my own mother. theyve taught me so much. and that its okay to be who i want to be.

zari ( + z 2.0 ) taught me that not everything is always going to be the way it was before. everything changes eventually.

behrad taught me that sometimes its okay to hide away and not talk about your feelings. things can get hard and being public about how you are feeling isnt always an easy choice. there are always alternatives.

but john constantine taught me that you need to open up eventually. you cant hide out forever. youll always have people there for you, even if you dont think you do.

nate taught me that you can love who you want. it doesnt matter what other people say, even if your s/o is from a different timeline 🤪

astra taught me not to hide your flaws, but to flaunt them. no one's better than you are, and you should be proud of that.

ray taught me that there is something to be optimistic in every situation. theres always a smile to bring and a joke to crack.

amaya taught me to always stay true to your roots and trust your family over everyone.

charlie taught me to be rash and not give a f🖕🏻 what anyone else thinks. be yourself and love yourself.

mick and leonard taught me to never betray your friends and to always look out for them.

nora taught me that its okay to be different and to not follow in the footsteps of those before you. your not a perfect replica of your mom or dad, and thats more than okay.

jax and stein taught me that its safe to let go and start anew. its healthy. encouraged, actually.

spooner taught me that nothing is as it seems. but just because everything has secrets, doesnt mean that everything is problematic.

gideon, gary, and mona taught me that being weird and non-conforming with societies stereotypes is OK.

and finally, rip taught me that risking things is a part of life. you have to make sacrifices, no matter how big they may seem.

all i wanted was a season 8 to clear things up. what happens to the legends in time prison? whats gonna happen with booster gold? where did these time police spawn from because i do NOT remember there being police that gaurd time and space.

this entire show is so absolutely chaotic and crazy, but thats what makes it so good.

sara just found out shes prego with AVAS BABY. nate goes to live with zari in the totem. booster gold's "mike" fakes out the legends to take their ship before returning it to get the legends sent to time prison for doing time crimes. gwynn rescues alun from dying at his fixed point, which is insane.

like wtf.

i went through like 15 stages of grief on that last episode.

and now, what else?

the cancellation was my 26th reason.

im alone now. theres no hope for another season.

im going to miss the legends with my whole heart, and there will always be the show on netflix and illegal websites. i can always go back and watch my favourite episodes and seasons. idc how bad the cgi is, i will always watch those episodes on gorilla grodd and beebo.

i will always love you dclot. Legends Never Die.

[freensrcha]

tagged by @billlkin to do the bl/gl tag game... thanks for the tag quan 💗 but my indecisive ass is gonna take forever to pick anything

1. Your all time favorite bl/gl character and why.

it's gotta be pat... like we all knew i was gonna pick someone from bad buddy. like mans is the biggest walking green flag ever and also ink cause who wouldn't be in love with her. they're literally a pair of pretty besties

2. What’s your one character from a bl/gl you wanted to punt into the stratosphere (you only get one so choose wisely).

im in my ipytm hate feels rn so i'll say jai... im sorry but he was a manipulative ass and ipytm's like one of the only shows which i cared about enough to hate someone (if that makes sense) and also the girlfriend from together with me. absolute piece of shit

3. The best music moment from a bl/gl

im babbling about bad buddy again but the music in the ep 5 rooftop scene was just perfect, they way the crescendo of music matched the kiss. absolute perfection ✨. and also every single music moment in itsay... ive never listened to any ost like i have itsay's

4. What’s a popular heterosexual text that you would like to see adapted into a bl/gl?

i cant really think of any heterosexual texts per se but i'd like to see more office romances i guess. just leave the university kids behind. thats also why im soooooo excited for gap

5. A scene from a bl that always makes you laugh.

can't think of anything else rn. so i'll say then entire bar scene from kp ep 3.

6. Biggest disappointment.

ipytm. im sorry im the no.1 ipytm hater in town. other than that first one that comes to mind is thct. like what even was the last episode 😬

7. What two random bl/gl characters would make hilarious exes?

my brain refuses to function rn and i possibly cannot think of anyone :(

8. Who would be the funniest person to watch a bl/gl in its entirety with and which one would you make them watch.

so i basically forced my straight bestie into watching itsay with me and it was quite hilarious cause she wouldn't stop crying like every two minutes but she refused to watch ipytm cause i obviously told her about it so i'd want to watch that with her. also an online friend of mine who i usually scream about all my shows to. i wanna do it real time once

9. Best wardrobe moment/or character wardrobe from a bl/gl.

its gotta be tankhun like have you seen him... no one could outdo his fashion. gotta agree with quan about pat too cause i need all of his shirts, just his entire wardrobe even.

[windsweptlassie]

On Love

So as you know I made this uquiz with an open-ended question at the end, tell me something about love, and I’ve gotten the most wonderful responses! They range from descriptions of wonderful partners: 

Lauren: oh, how long I went without being myself until I met him and he showed me who I truly was and that my worth was higher than I ever thought was possible

Levi: I love who we are with each other. I love who I am with you. In your company I am me. In your company I am the best of me. The best with the best, I've told you. I wouldn't give you up for anything

Daniel: i fell in love for the first time when i was 17... at the time, i didn’t realize it was the first time, i thought i’d been in love before, a couple times actually, but falling in love at 17 was such a fulfilling experience, it felt so forceful yet so right. it’s when i first truly understood what love was. never before had i felt so understood and so cared for as i did when i was in love with her, and she was in love with me. it’s been nearly 4 years since then, and nearly 3 years since we broke up and stopped talking, and still, i think about her almost every day. i’ve never known anyone like her; to me, she was love itself.

El: oh i’m in love with everyone that i know op!!! especially my girlfriend, of course ,but also my friends and my family and random people on the street and uh

Grace: i’ve met my soulmate and we plan on getting an apartment and marrying after college

A: I’m going to ask the woman I love to marry me and I just wanted to tell someone because I am so excited

Jeremy: you ever have that feeling where basically after years of denying that someone couldnt understand you in a way or love you and then the next thing you know you happen to find that person and its just great from then on out? idk how to explain it anyways I love my boyfriend so much he means the world to me

Lucy: i am so happy i have found the one i love

to descriptions of best friends and favorite people:

Nightbyrd: Love is a hug from an alzheimer's patient who hasn't the foggiest idea who you are, but they know you're worth hugging.

H: I have been doing so much yoga with my roommate recently!! It's a great way to center my mind for an hour

Riv: [platonic] i’ve literally never met anyone who understands me in the way that my best friends do. they’re literally the best people in the whole world and i genuinely don’t know what i’d do without them. i love them with my whole heart

Cillian: when i talk about how much i love my best friend i get so teary eyed because i cant believe that such a genuinely wonderful person wants to speak to me every day - i care for her more than anyone else on this planet

O: my two besties are my sources of happiness and they’re so pretty i would die for them :D

to beautiful quotes:

Kai: "you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on." DARCYYYY PLS MY HEART CANT HANDLW THIS PAIN

Dorian: When the plane went down in San Francisco, I thought of my friend M. He’s obsessed with plane crashes. He memorizes the wrecked metal details, ____the clear cool skies cut by black scars of smoke. Once, while driving, he told me about all the crashes: The one in blue Kentucky, in yellow Iowa. How people go on, and how people don’t. It was almost a year before I learned that his brother was a pilot. I can’t help it, I love the way men love. (accident report in the tall, tall weeds- ada limon, bright dead things)

Adam: every day I think about lemony snicket I will love you if I never see you again I will love you if I see you every Tuesday or however it goes. and it KILLS ME. love only fits in small things

Hero: “Your heart beats in my ribs and mine in yours, and both in God’s… The divine magnet is in you, and my magnet responds.” - Herman Melville to Nathaniel Hawthorne

Mary: "Love is watching someone die."

Alex: "meet me at blue diner, i'll take coffee and talk about nothing baby"

Sparrow: "How dare you love me like you've never known fear?" and "For you, the world," and "Darling, I was born to press my head between your shoulder blades," and "Will you start where I end?"

V: " You want to die for love. You always have. " and "someone will remember us, I say, even in another time" are living rent free in my mind 24/7 and I'm shaking. When will I finally be not the only one falling ?

Sahar K: To love another person is to see the face of god!!!

Miriam: all the love in the world is useless when there is total lack of understanding- kafka

Juls: Don’t you think they are maybe the same? Love and attention

to practices of love:

Leo; i love feeling happy bc somebody that i love is happy and comfortable....like its not about me i just love seeing you smile. we are safe together...idk i just feel it bro

A: I like to think love is leaning on each other during the light or dark days. Its a personal mission of mine to find out who I am and what I want. Yet I never seem to find my place in this world and as I look and look , I realise the only place I can be myself even with or without the efforts to find myself was done on that day or not, I am always tired so shall I lean on you? And you can lean on me as well. I shall be your fig tree and you shall be my favourite willow tree.

L: It's too late at night to be soul searching, but it's a journey we all seem to find ourselves on these days.

Anthi: feeling safe and at home, I guess (also I love frogs)

Julia: ive found that loving someone is like becoming your own thesaurus. you have to find or come up with infinite ways to say, you’re beautiful, or, i love you. it’s a gift

Galexies: ive been writing letters to the person i'd love one day since i was 14. i write them in a little journal usually, but i've been digitizing them into emails and sending them to one account that i'll give to them someday. i'd like to put pictures, but i haven't been outside much recently so theres that. i wonder if they'd like the sunsets i have on file, or if they'd find my cat cute in a bowtie.

Caeles: Love is sharing fruit slices and making someone tea at random

Dundy: Love is sending your friends cursed shit and watching them react in horror

to crushes and potential loves: 

Jess: I have a crush on my roommate. It sucks, but it's also wonderful. I get to be around him all the time when we're at school. we share a life together; it's rather domestic. I think a lot about marrying him and being domestic with him forever. It won't happen, and I'll move on eventually, but I'll be happy with him for as long as I can. I hope you feel loved tonight, because you are. Sleep well.

Aki: I so desperately want to believe that love is fake because I’ve seen what happens when loved ones leave but whenever I start to convince myself that I’ll never love anyone my best friend messages me telling me she loves me. She’s the only person I’ve ever pictured having a future with but love scares me and I don’t really know what to do but I think as long as she’s with me in some way, I’ll be fine

Hi: her her i keep thinking abt her.... gonna see her in 8 days or so i really miss her. its ok if shes never gonna love me like i want her to really being her friend spending time with her makes me the happiest girl on earth.... outsold antidepressants

Kit: this guy i have a crush on has hypnotically dark brown eyes and he's wonderful and shows me kindness like no one else

Juno: my crush has all the stars in his eyes

Mads: When I have the courage to meet my eyes with hers, the world stands still

Be Nice To Me: Look bro I never do these but I am yearning to hold them SO badly right now and someone needs to know it besides me

to the trials of love: 

Pppppp: I just wanna love like from the movies and what I read about.. but everyone tells me that that’s fictional and rare to find in the real world and it sucks bc it seems like all the guys I’ve met are terrible and the norms of society are all about not respecting women and uthdjdjdk

Manny: I have been in love before and I will be again but I’m not now and I miss it

Ok: I don't think I've ever been in love, though I love many people. I am waiting for the day I look at someone and can say, YES. IT'S YOU.

Chloe: idk rn i'm like okay with my love and i'm happy so we'll see i'm just a little cautious rn bc my last partner told me i didn't know how to love

L: love is so fucking complicated I don't even know where to start

Corrin: He’s not real and it worried me that I will never allow myself to live or be loved because I will always be waiting for him

Sean: Good luck it dont exist

Serena: i want 2 b in love :(( </3

13: I don’t know anymore

M: I just really don’t like dealing with it lol

to beloved characters: 

Janaya: I’m madly in love with my comfort and kin character and I hope maybe in the afterlife I can relive a life with him in some sort of dimension

Jhgjdf: when i was a kid i had a crush on ash ketchum from pokemon and id always daydream about being a female pkmn trainer and meeting him and we fall in love

to advice and prose: 

Mikolai: Love is earth, gentle and soft at first flight but upon being broken, drowns you in the dry choking wastes of its consequences...

Thex: Your hands will not go cold without someone to hold them. I am here. I will be here.

Kat: it is the nearest proof to god that i find myself surrounded by people who love in a way that complements so wonderfully the way i love

H: believe in love out of spite believe in love to prove everyone wrong believe in love because you were told not to and we will not do what we’re told anymore believe in love because it’s the strongest act of teenage rebellion we have left believe in love because it’s easier not to and when is easy worth doing? believe in love because everything says otherwise but you are untouchable, you are your own, you are not made by their design believe in love because, perhaps, you are love

Ali: I used to want a kind of love that feels like coming home and now I want nothing more than to be away from home on many different adventures

Em: you dont need to love yourself to accept it from others

to the small, the simple, and the sweet:

Ireal: Poems

O: Flowers

Fay: ah im sorry that i’m feeling unmotivated but you are very kind.

Ad: we love LOVE

A: <3

Isak: small things

H: intense

Hey: Listening to a clock ticking away

S: her

E: <3

Hania: Amorous, I adore that word ^^

Catboy: wholesome

J: i love love so much it hurts

Emmy: hi i love the song darkest of discos!! try and give it a listen!! <3

Nora: Love is painful, but most of the time love is great

Ariel: i like the comfort it can bring

M: i love love

to food!

Cool Whip: Matzoh ball soup!!

Woop: I love sausages.... I hope that's ok with you?

and animals too <3

Nee: hmm i have pet geckos and i love them very much!

96: raccoons ????

DJ Big Penis: cats

:3: I Love frogs,,, love is stored in the frog,,,

I hope that this serves as a sweet compilation of what love means! Love to all of you, it warms my heart so much to hear about your people and your geckos and your characters and soup and all the songs and quotes you love. <3 Strength to all of you who are figuring out to do about your feelings for your crush, and congratulations to you who are proposing or moving in with your person! Your words are a source of light to me, truly.