#alex writes tlou

[actual-changeling]

"Joel?"

Ellie shifts slightly so she can look up at him, cheek squished against his biceps. The movie is long over, but the best part of the night is dozing off pressed against Joel while he reads or whittles away at something. Sometimes he even reads out-loud, voice rhythmic and soft, lulling her to sleep. He glances down at her and lowers his book, arm coming up to wrap around her.

"Yeah, baby?"

She chews on her lip, trying to find the words in her tired mind, and Joel's thumb gently rubbing her shoulder is the opposite of helpful, her eyelids fluttering shut.

"What's Tommy, like, to me? He's your brother but I don't. I don't know where I fit."

Joel stays silent for a litlte bit, seemingly properly thinking about her question, and she curls up tighter against his chest, pressing her face into his shirt somewhere below his neck. She's tired enough to fall asleep like this even with the lights on, and she chose this moment exactly because of that, knowing that the fatigue will prevent her from freaking out too much; so far, it's doing its job.

"Tommy is whatever you want him to be, babygirl, there's no pressure."

"I know", she sighs, answer kind in his typical Joel-fashion, but useless.

"I just don't know what to call him, to other people, I mean."

Explaining her relationship with Joel to the other children and teachers at school was already a task, and while the latter didn't question her answers, she's given up on trying to convince her classmates that Joel isn't her actual dad. The spark for this conversation had been an encounter with one of the newer arrivals, whom Tommy had introduced her to as 'my brother's kid', which, sure, probably the easiest way of putting it. But-

"Someone called him my uncle, and he didn't correct them. I don't know if-"

"If he's okay with everyone calling him that?"

Ellie nods, glad that he understands what she is getting at, and he holds her a little tighter as he pulls her further into his lap. Joel presses a kiss to her temple, her forehead, then her hair before settling with his chin resting on the top of her head, his hands rubbing soft circles into her back.

"You're my kid," he says plainly, "which makes you a part of his family, and since he's my brother, yeah, I guess uncle is accurate. I don't think he minds."

"You sure?"

The last thing she wants to do is upset either of them, and she and Tommy have actually been getting along quite well, bullying Joel and doing all the things he doesn't want either of them to do - in short, making him go grey twice as fast as before.

"Very sure."

(He doesn't want to tell her just yet that Tommy has been calling himself her uncle since day one, introducing Ellie as his niece in turn.)

"Alright."

Ellie wraps her arms around his waist when Joel lowers them onto the couch, safely trapped between him and the backrest, and she holds on tight even while she drifts off, sleep coming easily and gently, closing their eyes with a gentle touch. He will carry her to bed later, enjoying the opportunity to simply feel her breathing and alive against him for now.

"G'night, Joel." (Saying it doesn't sound right, but she doesn't have to, they can both sense it. Her friends calling him that no longer sounds quite as wrong.)

"Sleep tight, baby." (They all know, and Tommy is intentionally driving the point home, but he doesn't need to tell her; she knows. They both do.)

That's my niece, Ellie.

Oh, she's my brother's daughter.

Joel is her dad, idiot.

Must run in the Miller family.

Family, they all know, is way more than just shared DNA. It's the people you trust, who will keep you safe.

It's everyone you come home to at the end of a long, long day.

[actual-changeling]

this is supposed to be a small lil analysis cause i notice something. if it turns into more it's not my fault the tumblr text box just does things to me guys

Okay, a little bit of background information that I think is relevant first. Joel is the older brother, but I think people underestimate how much younger Tommy is. Joel was born in '67 and with Tommy it's either '72 or '73 but I'm going with the latter simply because I prefer to make him those few more months younger. Now, a six year age gap between siblings is a lot, which probably everyone who has siblings can tell you. My sister is not even three years younger and we still grew up in vastly different worlds and connecting over common things got harder the older we got. It doesn't mean you aren't close (Joel and Tommy are incredibly close from what we see pre outbreak), it simply means that most of the time, the older sibling shoulders a lot more responsibility a lot earlier and slides into a caretaker role for their younger sibling(s).

With SIX years between Joel and Tommy, it's not wonder that Joel is anchored into that role. On top of that, Sarah was born in '89, which means Tommy was a whopping 16 years young when his brother had a child. Suddenly Joel had both a baby and a baby brother to take care of, and we know he took/takes that role very seriously, he doesn't know any different. Tommy's potentially in undefined danger? Time to risk everything and drive across half the US to bumfuck Wyoming where he may or may not be.

Joel gets to Jackson, and that first hug is everything tbh, the honest, open happiness gets me every single time, but it's also an amazing contrast to this hug.

Tommy is the one to initiate it and they hold each other very closely, face buried in each other's shoulders/necks, but that's not the part I noticed/the one that sparked something. If you look at the gifs, you can see that Tommy closes his eyes pretty much immediately, just allowing Joel to hold him and letting go of his worries for a second. His brother got him, he intends to come back to him (-> "Can I borrow your rifle" meaning he will return it eventually), and Tommy hopes this is a temporary goodbye, but it still hurts. He saw Joel break down in front of him for probably the first time in twenty years, he sees him attached to another child, worrying himself sick about keeping her safe, and he wants nothing more than for both of them to be safe. He wants his brother back. Tommy closes his eyes and places all those emotions on Joel because that's what he is used to. Joel is the older brother, he is the one who comforts Tommy (who came to him by initiating the hug) and his role is clearly defined.

Once Tommy opens his eyes again, he holds on for just a little bit longer before letting go.

Joel on the other hand? His eyes stay open the whole time, he is just staring off into nothing and trying to take some of the worry from Tommy's shoulders because that's what he does. He feels responsible for everyone he cares about and if anyone gets hurt, either emotionally or physically, it's a personal failure for him. He is the older brother, he is the caretaker, he HAS to make sure they're okay or he fails to fulfill his purpose.

But then, just as Tommy is about to let go, Joel closes his eyes, too. He can feels his brother pulling back and grants himself half a second to just let go. To stop thinking of himself as the guy in charge and try to pretend that for that small, rare moment, he doesn't have to worry. Someone else is shouldering his responsibilities, his emotions, holding him to comfort him and not the other way around.

Joel is fucking terrified of failing Ellie again, Pedro says so much with his eyes and you can see that fear just brewing in them. He needs to keep Ellie safe (after not doing so time and time again), he needs to be there to protect her both physically and emotionally, needs to make sure no one gets to her, that she never has to witness the horrors she already has (which is a whole fucking lot even before Silver Lake).

But that split second? That heartbeat of him closing his eyes in his brother's embrace before Tommy pulls back? He can pretend that crushing pressure is gone, take a breath, be not an older brother or a partner or a protector, but just Joel.

The last time he had something close was with Tess, who shouldered the planning part at least, but Joel still felt 100% responsible for her, blaming himself for every single little thing that happened to her under his watch, including her death. You can feel how his anxiety skyrockets when she is out of his sight or he isn't between her and the danger, it's that tangible.

That one moment, Joel closing his eyes, is the first time in twenty years he got an allusion of comfort and relief.

And then Tommy pulls back, his eyes snap open again, and he's better, he is, finally embracing his connection to Ellie and assured that his brother is okay. But he slips right back into the same role he has had try his best to fill since he was six year old and held Tommy in his arms for the first time, now knowing exactly what happens when he fails, and no one has ever taken that burden from his shoulders and no one ever will.

THE LAST OF US | 1.06 “Kin”

[ellies-little-gun]

So, the other day I was talking to my friend @catsarecutebutaliens about the scene in episode 7 where Ellie stitches up Joel and they said the following:

The world is going sideways with pain, her face blurring between tears and the sunlight reflecting off of her skin, and all he can think is Ellie, her name a prayer on repeat and the only thing keeping him from giving up.

Which prompted me to write this:

He grabs her arm, feels pain worse than his wound when she says ah, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck in response. He's hurting her, he knows he is. He's causing her pain, so he forces himself to let go. Forces himself to leave his hand on her but not to grip. Forces himself to stare up at her, to memorize her face because he knows he isn't going to be able to see it much longer. Does his best to muffle his sounds of pain because he doesn't want to scare her any more than he already has. Doesn't want to cause her any pain, doesn't want to scare her. He did that to Sarah in her last moments, caused her pain, scared her. He doesn't want to spend his last moments doing the same to Ellie. Doesn't want his death to haunt her dreams the way Sarah's haunts his.

And they responded with this:

The stitches are done, but the pain doesn't subside, sharp and throbbing and blunt all at once, and he has been on death's door enough times to know he won't be able to keep himself conscious any longer. It doesn't matter, though, because Ellie wiped her hands clean of his blood, something he cannot allow himself to think about or he will throw up his guilt and he cannot force her to see more blood today than she already has. She wiped her hands clean and is kneeling next to him, her palms hot against his freezing skin, and when he blinks up at her, he cannot tell if the tears running down her cheeks are panic or relief.

"You'll be fine," she says, prays, and he takes it as a command, "You'll be fine, Joel, okay? You- you gotta be."

There is so much he wants to tell her, so much to apologize for, but darkness and shadows are dragging him under, and all he can do is weakly grasp her arm and tug - a request. She chases after him, curls up next to him with her hand pressed to his chest and his next exhale sounds like her name. He'll be fine, not because he deserves it but because she does.

So, I wrote the same scene but from Ellie's POV:

The stitches are done. They aren't her best work but they'll have to do. They're painful, she can tell by the way Joel grits his teeth. She's had enough stitches to know they pull something awful. She always hated stitches. She scrubs the blood from under her nails, from off her skin. Tries her best not to think about the last time she did this. Scrubbed the remains of her best friend from under her nails, tries not to think about how Joel and Riley's blood feels the same. Warm and sticky and stubborn. It won't come out from under her nails, no matter how hard she scrubs. Same as Riley's so after a while she gives up. Washes the blood from her skin but leaves it under her nails. Knows that that may be the only part of Joel she can take with her, if he goes to be with Riley.

"You'll be fine," she says, more prayer to a god she doesn't believe in than actual belief, "you'll be fine Joel, okay? You-you gotta be."

There is so much she wants to tell him. About how she cares about him, might even love him. But she doesn't because that feels too much like goodbye. Feels too much like admitting he won't get better. She'd done the same with Riley, hadn't said she loved her until she was gone. She regrets it every day but she still can't bring herself to say it to Joel. Because he'll be fine, he'll be fine. He has to be, because he deserves it, even if she doesn't.

And they responded with this:

When he comes to, nightmares and reality are a blurry purgatory filled with spiking hot pain and ice in his bones, but he is unable to process any of it. Louder than the beat of his dying heart, louder than the slow drip of melting snow from the broken windowsills, is the almost soundless whisper of Ellie crying. Joel cannot open his eyes, cannot move, all he feels is a tiny hand pressed to his chest and a wet cheek against his neck. She never cries loudly, never lets the sobs he can see wrecking her chest actually escape, but somehow he still always knows, still wakes to it in the middle of the night.

I'm sorry, he wants to say. I'm here, I'm sorry.

His fingers weakly twitch against her leg, his head turning the slightest bit as he seeks her out, seeks to comfort her, and when the darkness reclaims him, all he can think is I can't do this without you.

So, I wrote the same scene but from Ellie's POV again:

Ellie is a strong motherfucker thank you very much. She is capable and smart and witty. But she's also only fourteen. She's still a child, despite the fact that she never had any childhood to speak of. So, yeah she is crying right now, what of it? There's only so much one person can take onto shoulders that aren't strong enough to carry the weight before they collapse under it. And Joel is asleep, asleep but not dead. Not dead she knows because she has her ear pressed to his chest. Listens to the somewhat steady beat under her ear, tries her best to keep her sobs in her chest, does her best not to let them escape because she doesn't want to wake him up. It's the middle of the night, and Joel needs his rest.

I'm sorry, she wants to say, I'm here, I'm sorry.

Because she is, he got hurt protecting her. This is her fault, just like everything else. Anna, Riley, Tess, Sam, Henry. All her fault. His fingers twitch against her leg, and she feels his head turn towards her. Feels his cheek come to rest on top of her head. Feels him sigh against her and all she can think is I can't do this without you.

[cultofsappho]

my brain is desperately trying to mesh my hyperfixations rn so...

would anyone read a rwrb last of us au? 

alex is the dishearted smuggler who agrees to take the immune guy (henry) to the fireflies only to realize henry’s never been outside of the QZ before and has to rely on alex. first they’re tentative, hateful allies with a job until they spend more and more time alone together, surviving the apocalypse, and slowly the dynamic changes. 

enemies to lovers zombie apocalypse au anyone?

I mean can you imagine the: “Alex, what did you do?” “I saved him” 

[actual-changeling]

ellie who has never known the unconditional love of a parent. ellie who has been denied open affection and physical touch her entire life. ellie who has no one who cares about her now that riley is dead, thinking that her purpose is to die for a world that has been killing her since day one.

ellie who meets joel and inexplicably finds herself trusting him despite everything. ellie who listens to her gut and knows joel would never hurt her, will protect her with his life, beat someone to death for her.

ellie who has all her love for riley with nowhere to put it and a gigantic hole in her chest where the love of a parent should be. ellie who had to grow up too soon and is drawn to joel, who cannot but orbit him closer and closer.

ellie who is incapable of fighting it and commits to joel from the second she meets him. ellie who looks up to him and sees all the shining good parts that have dimmed over the years, sees them come back to life as he allows the sun, allows her, back into his heart. ellie whose skin has never known gentle parental touch and melts under joel's because he has so much of it to give and nowhere else to put it. ellie who curls up against his chest and wraps her arms around his neck and doesn't just find safety in his embrace but in him.

ellie who learns how to live with her homeless love and grief for riley because joel does the same, shows her how to. ellie who sees the way joel looks at her and finally feels like the child she is with a parent ready to fight the entire world with bare hands. ellie who has survived unimaginable cruelties but still finds joy in shitty puns and giraffes and sunlight on her face and joel's smile.

ellie who is finally loved by someone the way she deserves and realizes her purpose is to simply be.

joel who is filled with immeasurable amounts of love for a girl who was taken from him too soon. joel who has no idea where to put this love. joel whose memories are a minefield. joel who holds onto the empty space filled with grief as his way of holding onto sarah.

joel who knows he’s going to care about ellie from the minute he meets her. joel who knows they’re going to be inextricably linked. joel who fights tooth and nail to not care about this girl.

joel who is terrified of implications of that. joel who thinks that having somewhere to put his love means forgetting and replacing sarah.

joel who slowly realizes that loving ellie isn’t replacing sarah. joel who surrenders and stops fighting caring about ellie. joel who starts to laugh easier and smile a little more. joel who starts remembering sarah without it hurting so much. joel who looks at ellie and sees someone so different from his babygirl but so similar because teenage girls are still just teenage girls even during the apocalypse.

joel who finally has somewhere to put his love.

[actual-changeling]

In the grand scheme of things, a month is not enough time to really get to know someone, especially if said person is clearly still going through a lot of shit and clinging to his brother like an octopus. They have been spending more and more afternoons with each other, always with Joel in the middle, and he likes to think they're on a good path to being friends.

Tommy might not know Ellie well, but he does know her, and it's easy to see that she is currently incredibly uncomfortable and Joel nowhere to be seen. The dining hall is loud during meal times on the best of days, but today it is outright chaotic, and Tommy remembers how overwhelming it had been during his first few months in Jackson. On top of that, Ellie is so small she can probably barely see through the crowd, just a piece of driftwood caught in the current and pulled along in whatever direction people are moving, and without Joel there to enforce her personal space, she is drowning.

His body is moving toward her before he even notices what he is doing, stopping himself once he does; there's a chance Ellie would be quite upset if he tried to swoop in and "save" her, well aware how much she dislikes being close to anyone who isn't Joel. But then Martin starts talking to her, good guy, usually very friendly, and all color drains from her face, and Tommy decides he'd rather have Ellie elbow him in the stomach than face his brother's wrath over not stepping in.

The crowd parts around him when he moves through it, the distance between him and Ellie closed within seconds, and he stops on her right, keeping himself in her field of vision so he doesn't startle her (he did that once on accident, never again). He nods at Martin, though his feelings are far from his priority right now.

"Hey Ellie, have you seen Joel somewhere?"

Trying to keep his tone light, he has one eye on the people surrounding them and one on her, still trying to figure out where the hell his brother disappeared to, he never leaves her alone if he can help it. He's not quite sure what he expects Ellie to do, but it's definitely not her hands snapping up to grab his arm so tightly it's almost painful, nails digging into his skin. She is shaking, trying so hard to be aware of the room around her that her eyes are almost fluttering, and it takes him a few beats to react.

"Gonna go 'n find my brother with this one, Martin."

It's not a question but he nods, giving his shoulder a quick squeeze before merging back into the crowd, and Tommy is incredibly thankful for that. The second he is gone, Ellie deflates, falling against his side, and Tommy brings up his other arm around her and gently places his palm on her back, relieved when she doesn't flinch. Asking if she is okay seems unnecessary, she clearly isn't, so he just tries his best to provide her with as much space as possible as he navigates them to an empty table in one of the quieter corners near the back exit, casually pushing people away when necessary.

Ellie sinks into a chair and doesn't let go of him, knuckles white, and he settles next to her, keeping an eye out for Joel while talking to her.

"Anything you need, sweetheart?"

The endearment slips out, force of habit, and her gaze is suddenly glued to his face, pupils blown so wide her eyes seem black.

"Don't leave."

"I won't, promise. Do you know where Joel went?"

She shakes her head, fingers around his wrist loosening a tiny bit.

"Alright, I'm sure he'll be back soon, someone probably just distracted him."

They both lean back, the relative silence between them oddly comforting, and Ellie nudges her chair across the floor until their armrests are pressed together, her breaths coming a bit slower and deeper now. The affection curling around his heart is familiar, warmth blooming in his chest, and it's easy to understand why Joel fell for her so quickly and completely it almost killed him. She relaxes while they wait, head tipping to rest against his biceps, eyes closed, and the open display of trust is so sweet it makes him ache. Despite not spending a lot of time together, she clearly thinks of him as someone safe, probably due to his relationship with Joel, and Tommy finds himself hoping that maybe they can build something on that foundation. Ellie is Joel's kid, which makes her family, and Tommy looks out for his people.

It takes Joel about fifteen minutes to finally return to them with a panicked look on his face, clearly out of breath, and he stops dead in his tracks when he sees Ellie half draped over him.

"I'm sorry, baby, someone was asking about some construction work I did yesterday, and-"

"It's okay," she interrupts, blinking up at him and stretching out one hand in a clear demand, "Tommy got me."

Joel stills, eyes flicking between the two of them, and he simply shrugs his unoccupied shoulder, it's not like it's his kid, after all. He takes Ellie's hand and falls into the chair next to her, leaning over to press a kiss to her hair, and Tommy doesn't even try to hide his smile. To everyone's surprise, Ellie stays right where she is, holding Joel's hand with a death grip but still using him as a pillow, and the look he shares with Joel is one of mutual confusion and resignation. She starts talking to him about some space book she's been reading, ignoring the last twenty minutes of her life, and they silently agree to wait out the masses before getting their own food, Ellie seemingly content to force both of them to listen to her ramble about an astronaut he has no idea about.

Yeah, she got them both wrapped around her finger, and Tommy finds he doesn't mind it one bit, hoping that maybe this is not only a second chance for Joel, but for him, too.

[aethelwyneleigh27]

Cod Characters General Dating Headcanons (part two)

+ Random and Some bits of Chubby Fem S/O Headcanons with mentions of different nationality S/O

+ What type of BF/GF they would be

Including Valeria Garza, Farah Karim, Kate Laswell, Alex Keller, Gary "Roach" Sanderson, Nikolai Belinski

+ Some Poly! Farah x Reader x Alex Headcanons

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3

Fem terms and pronouns like she/her are used for the reader

ꕥ HOPE YOU ENJOY! ꕥ

My rules for requests and characters I can write for

Please comment if you want to be added to the taglist, the next part or cod content alone. I also have content for TLOU and Resident Evil, so please specify.

Taglist: @marshmallowinamess

A/n: Hi lovelies! It's me again Lia, currently working on this one while I haven't even posted the other yet because I wanna post early and I love Valeria. Y'all don't got shit on me, I'm writing this shit while I'm in class AHAHAHA. Btw more Resident Evil content soon...

Disclaimers/warnings: Typical Cod things, OOC characters???, Unrealistic, Some suggestive themes and language, I'm so sorry but English is not my first language so please don't come after me. Most of the content I've seen are on TikTok and Tumblr I don't actually play the game but I love the characters so much, same with any other content I have for other video games.

Tiny sidenote: the reader in this has been describe to be shorter than the characters and has been mentioned to have a soft body rather than the muscular type.

Valeria Garza

ꕥ (Just saying, I'd let her step all over me)

ꕥ The El Sinombre falling in love? No shit she's... semi-normal??

ꕥ Black cat/Doberman girlfriend for sure. She's extremely protective and extremely terrifying when she wants to be. Scary dog privilege if you get it. (Occasionally it's funny to imagine her as a Chihuahua)

ꕥ Dates all kinds of women, body type and other things don't matter to her because she doesn't have a type. If you catch her attention then that's that.

ꕥ Loves spoiling you in everyway possible, just sit pretty for her and she'll take care of everything. Doesn't give a shit on the amount of money she spends on you, you want it? You got it.

ꕥ Loves it when you need her, it's one of the ways she feels loved and appreciated. Would never say it out loud but loves it whenever you show her your appreciation by doing manual labor.

ꕥ The idea of you being her pretty little housewife is sending her to heaven.

ꕥ Spanish pet names galore, culture is something of importance to her so will definitely teach you Spanish if she had the time.

ꕥ Would be interested learning about your culture as well because if you're gonna know about hers then she ought to know what to call you in your language. (Definitely not self-indulgent because I'm Filipina and I know she'd pronounce it somewhat correctly)

ꕥ Doesn't ever let you know about her cartel business. You can never know and she will never allow you to get ever get involved. You're too precious to her and god forbid anything will happen to you, she will destroy the world if she had to.

ꕥ She's more of a masc lesbian, she's the type who likes to be in charge in a "I'm the one who wears the pants in the relationship" way. She's very dominant.

ꕥ Doesn't ever even consider to be submissive, with the amount of shit she's been through. She can be vulnerable with you but in no way, shape or form could you ever top.

ꕥ You're an escape from the life she knew, it was peaceful with you. At first she wasn't used to it, definitely has reoccurring thoughts of something going wrong. You dying, getting kidnapped, falling into the hands of her enemies so constant reassurance.

ꕥ Would absolutely kill for you, no hesitation. The literally definitely of "I would burn this world for you", would absolutely deny it but you know otherwise.

Farah Karim

ꕥ Tabby cat coded girlfriend, she's down to earth and chill. She's that one neutral person everyone adores, she puts her best efforts into a relationship for sure.

ꕥ Has and will help you do your make-up all the time, doesn't matter whether you asked. She'll observe the specific way you do it and do it perfectly.

ꕥ Sweetest girlfriend ever, she has dominance tendencies but it's mainly because she's quite assertive and often makes the decisions. Can't help it, after all her field of work requires her to one up egotistic men.

ꕥ That being said, I think she's had some mild PTSD about how they treated her. Sure it made her tough and she didn't like to be bossed around (unlike angry Mexican man) but I like to think she keeps you out of it as much as possible.

ꕥ Chubby!Reader headcanon is that she literally would adore you, compliment anything and everything. Insecure? Not on her watch, she just makes you feel so loved.

ꕥ Most definitely has introduced you to Price (I feel like he's everyone's father figure except los vaqueros and characters he hasn't interacted with) and don't worry he's already looking after you as well.

ꕥ Poly! Farah x reader x Alex headcanons:

ꕥ You guys following whatever Farah says, towards relationship decisions anyway because you and Alex tend to be indecisive.

ꕥ Lot's of communication between the three of you even if it's just a small thing, consent is always key.

ꕥ Alex following his two wives around a lot, he's mostly behind you guys all the time.

ꕥ Farah is patient when it comes to a lot of things but especially you and Alex.

ꕥ You get head pats from both of them, Farah is in a more praising manner while Alex tends to be in a comforting manner.

ꕥ You cannot tell me these two won't be down to cuddle in any position because I know damn well they would be. More often it's just Alex wanting to be a little spoon.

Alex Keller

ꕥ Golden Retriever boyfriend FOR REAL. This man is the type of man to kneel down and clasp the strap of your shoe or heel when he notices it.

ꕥ You know when you pick up something near a corner of a table or underneath it? He's the type of boyfriend to subconsciously cover the edge or corner of that table so that if your head bumps into it then it wouldn't be as painful or even at all.

ꕥ Having said the first one, he also guides your head whenever getting into a vehicle because god forbid you actually hurt yourself. Not on his watch.

ꕥ Understands why you're insecure and definitely offers a lot of verbal reassurance.

ꕥ Is the type of boyfriend to say "Yes Ma'am" when you ask him to do something, doesn't matter whether it's a small thing or labor intensive. It's kinda become your guys' thing now since people take notice on it.

ꕥ Pouty kind of jealous? Not necessarily whiny but makes this sad upset face at you when jealous instead of something like Ghost or Valeria would do where they'd be glaring the person down jealous.

ꕥ Very thoughtful, he pays attention to what you want and what you need and knows the right timing.

ꕥ Forehead kiss giver, you cannot convince me this man doesn't love doing it. Especially when you're shorter than him, loves resting his chin on top of your head or burying his head in your neck.

ꕥ HATES seeing you uncomfortable, absolutely despises it. That's the last thing he wants you to feel when you're around him. Would understand if there's imminent danger around but it would literally being him back to life if you felt safe enough around him even if there was danger because you're confident in his capabilities to keep you safe.

Kate Laswell

ꕥ (LOVE THIS WOMAN, SHE'S FOR THE GIRLS BECAUSE IT'S CANON. ARGUE WITH THE WALL)

ꕥ She only ever let the TF141 and Nikolai meet you because of course she trusts them enough.

ꕥ They were like "So you're the infamous wife of Laswell huh?"

ꕥ Even before you were married, Kate called you her wife because she was ✨manifesting✨.

ꕥ She loves using it though, sometimes she'd be with coworkers and they'd invited her to go out to pub and drink but she'll refuse saying "Can't, my wife is waiting for me". She'd really rather just spend time with you anyway.

ꕥ Congrats, you made her quit smoking or at least she's trying to. She still does every once and a while when shit gets really bad but never around you because she knows that secondhand smoke is just as bad for you.

ꕥ She doesn't have a type when it comes to people so body is out of the question, if she feels a connection then she feels it.

ꕥ Anything and everything to keep you safe, if something were to happen to you, trust that she'll either get it down herself or if she can't then she'll turn to Price and Belinski for help.

ꕥ As much as possible, she keeps you away from everything. The job she has is just too dangerous and she can't risk you, not when you're one of the only good things in her life that keeps her happy.

ꕥ Definitely a workaholic, something as simple as asking her to eat or rest, maybe take a break. She'll do it, for you and because she knows you care for her.

ꕥ Doesn't half-ass anything, full effort when it comes to you especially when there's a special occasion between you two like holidays, birthdays and anniversaries.

ꕥ Also she loves making you laugh, more often with stories of her experiences with Price and also about how they met.

Gary "Roach" Sanderson

ꕥ (I CANNOT FIND A DECENT GIF OF THIS MAN FOR THE LIFE OF ME... Here's the credits to where I found the photo)

ꕥ Get this man a makeshift antenna, he would adore it. You made it for him because of his call sign.

ꕥ He sometimes wears it on missions but mostly keeps it so that it doesn't get damage because this man is definitely a horder, not in a bad way just anything you give to him is something worth keeping in his eyes.

ꕥ Gary definitely gives you handmade gifts back, when he knows you'll like something or even if it's at a random, he loves making them for you and he cried when he found out you kept those all in it's own box labeling it your treasures.

ꕥ Very shy and reluctant at first but once he's comfortable, he is tackling you for a hug when he gets the chance.

ꕥ Doesn't talk a lot, (it took me to Google when I saw that many people hc him communicating through BSL) but I like to think he does talk. It's just really selective, like a few words.

ꕥ The first time you heard his voice, you looked at him like "???". He looked at you confused at your reaction and he only realized it when you told him.

ꕥ Think that he'll try to learn sign language within your mother tongue you know, it's too cute not to think about.

ꕥ He gives off soft lover vibes, definitely far more on the gentle side compared to his comrades.

ꕥ Something in me tells me this man rambles but only and I mean only when he's already extremely comfortable around you, not used to using his voice much so expect a bit of stutter. Which by the way, he does this without knowing he's rambling and will profusely apologize with his tone of voice slowly getting more quiet. (This is your sign, comfort this man)

ꕥ Likes to crawl around and climb things for fun, another one of the reasons his call sign was formed. The first time Ghost genuinely screamed was when Roach was stuck on the side of the wall and Ghost saw him there. Kinda like when you see a roach climbing up a wall and it flies straight for you in your direction. (Happened to me by experience when I was taking a shower)

ꕥ He also likes crawling around, like this I mean. Hacker!Reader seeing this on the enemy's security camera while she tries to shut them off is just funny to me idk why.

ꕥ Chubby!Reader? Sign him the fuck up. You once sat down near him and he saw how you thought spread a bit and it was so close to his that he was just resisting the urge to touch. The voice in his head shamelessly thinking of what it would be like if you suffocated him with them.

ꕥ He loves peppering kisses, doesn't matter whether it's receiving or giving this man would straight up take your hands and use them to cup his face, his hands still being over yours and would with wait for you to kiss him or kiss you himself.

Nikolai Belinski

ꕥ (I have no clue how to write for nik but I'll try my best)

ꕥ We all know him and his jokes about his "wives" which by the way is not true and you know it.

ꕥ He's husband material however he is quite busy, not that he'd barely spend time with you but he is away a lot. There's an upside to this, he constantly calls you (Let's be real, he prefers calls over texts) just to check on how you're doing and he tells you when he's going to come home.

ꕥ Despite all his jokes, he'd never actually make fun of you. Sure he's sarcastic and talks to himself a lot but he'd never go as low as actually making an offensive joke to his lover.

ꕥ Speaking of joking, your laugh is music to this man's ears. Don't matter if you sound like a dying cat, he's still gonna make you laugh.

ꕥ Surprisingly really sweet, people are often surprised to see that man with a lover. He's very thoughtful in a sense that he's observant, sure he's quite absentminded when around you because that's the only space he's comfortable enough to do so but also because he likes listening to you.

ꕥ Does every safety measure in a helicopter possible if he knew you or Gaz would be in that helicopter, he also makes improvements to it and calls it Gaz-proofing because we all know how Garrick fell off a damn helicopter TWICE. (Idk how he does it, Gaz has some serious plot armor)

[person4924]

hi !! i’m sam !! and uhhh that’s all u need to know but there’s more under the cut !!

(also im trying to make this aesthetic and cute but idrk how so if u have any tips pls pls pls !!)

yes i’m sad (secretly a dinosaur)

basic info

i’m sapphic of some sort and ace!!

i go pretty much by any pronouns atp but she and they are usually the best!! proud genderfuck ✊

i’m a minor. so please don’t be fucking weird.

i’m american (even worse, the midwest 😨) unfortunately but literally as soon as i fucking can im booting it and moving to norway

i’m neurodivergent of some some sort

i play soccer (defense usually but i like offense more) and lacrosse (i just started so idek) currently but i also usually play volleyball but i missed the season sooo

i have a sideblog that is currently a confessions blog but it might change cus no one actually does it!! but if u would like to do a (general) confession then it is @just-a-little-lad4924

i have another sideblog that is for analysis’ !! i mostly do characters and songs but i’ll do pretty much anything (send me a request please please please please please) it’s @person-speaks

just general facts about me !

my personality type is INFP-T

i have 3 cats!! one at my dads, her name is graci (after gracie abrams ofc) and she’s about a year and a half, and 2 at my moms: regulus (guess who named him!! 😱) and libby and their siblings and are currently abt 3 months !! i could yap abt them forever i love them sm

my favorite color is dark green, fav season is fall, fav holiday is christmas or halloween, fav animal is cats or sharks or moths or jellyfish

i appreciate tone tags and try to use them as much as possible

im always bored so asks and everything are super duper cool !

i love love love making ananlysis' of basically anythng sooo if theres like a song or ship or something i could totallly write an essay abt it or smth !

uhhh idrk what else !!

fandoms AKA past hyperfixations that i’m still attached to but im not necessarily still in the fandom: harry potter (fuck jkr !!), MCU, KOTLC, marauders, boy meets world, it, osemanverse, paper girls, teen wolf, owl house, shameless, glee, stranger things, andi mack, tlou, riordanverse, brooklyn nine nine, new girl, hamilton, grishaverse, community, dawsons creek, bojack horseman, criminal minds, ted lasso, scooby doo, everything sucks!, the sun bearer trials, atypical, octonauts, dead boy detectives, will and grace, how i met your mother, the maze runner, descendants

uhhh can u tell i don’t have many friends.

fav movies (not counting fandoms): tick tick boom, my girl, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, little rascals, empire records, bottoms, nimona, little women, 500 days of summer, benny & joon, beautiful boy, call me by your name, lady bird, stand by me, RWRB, addams family values, the breakfast club, spiderman ITSV/ATSV, the outsiders, luca, the perks of being a wallflower, dead poets society, big daddy, the edge of seventeen

once again. i have very little friends. and very many issues.

fav music people (not always up to date i like new artists every day): gracie abrams, taylor swift, noah kahan, mitski, boygenuis, julien baker, phoebe bridgers, lucy dacus, hozier, the head and the heart, conan gray, RKS, queen. harry styles, the fray, olivia rodrigo, coldplay, billie eilish, maya hawke, bo burnham, chappell roan, the smiths, the revivalists, addriane lenker, lorde, fiona apple, alex g, ani defranca, radiohead, montell fish, lizzy mcalpine

just general interests: poetry, art, writing, sitcoms, stand up comedy, greek mythology, the sky (like the stars, moon, sun, etc. astronomy metaphors are my everything), moths, jelly fish, ocean animals in general (first special interest 💪💪), pretty much just animals in general, 90's movies, cinematography, bo burnham (i didnt know where eles to put him), annotating, musicals, actors, spider man

fav books (also not including fandoms): the perks of being a wallflower, the outsiders, i fell in love with hope, ill give you the sun, and more but i dont remember the names atm !

my fav ships (buckle in! i apologize.): wolfstar, jegulus, jily sometimes, pandalily, dorlene, rosekiller, drarry, jeric (bmw), reddie, charlie/nick, tara/darcy, tao/elle, lister/jimmy, pip/rooney, kajemac, sterek, isaac/stiles, malia/stiles, lumity, gallavich, ronance, solangelo, valdangelo, kinda percico, dianetti, wesper, kanej, trobed, joey/pacey, ralvez, spencer/ethan, kindaaa moreid, painland, newtmas, jaylos, harry/carlos (idk the ship name), robin/barney

i might have missed a few but these are My Guys. /gn

links!

spotify!! - my character playlists are my pride and joy and reason for living, i could write essays about how each song could specifically fit the character and situation. anyways!!

discord

airbuds - idk if anyone uses this but if u do add me!!

ao3 - i have 1 fic that is my fav thing ever (a camp halfblood group chat) and the other two... are there

pinterest

tiktok - this is my alt that i blocked all my friends on and i have like my fandom shit but i don’t post that much and im barely on tt to begin with but yeah !!

pronouns page

spotify stats - idk if anyone uses this but also yeah !!

i have a super duper cool discord server that u should totally join too… link

i have a tagging system

sam shut the fuck up - og posts

asks!!! - asks

crazy? i was crazy once - big lists and essay things

sam sings :O - lyric/music posts

it’s so hard to be a lizard… - any jokes i make because im literally bo burnham

art i need in my veins - self explanatory mostly for myself but everyone else should also see this

and i think thats it!! if anyone has any ideas of things to add then yeah !! or how to make it look prettier cusss uhhhh yeah.

oh yeah and this is an official @i-luv-multiple-ppl fan account so !!

and creds to @cafekitsune for the dividers!!

[sicko4smut]

Masterlist

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. @smutmaniac -main blog

Marvel

✰ Baron Zemo ✰ Sam Wilson ✰ Bucky Barnes ✰ Steve Rogers ✰ Bruce Banner ✰ Peter Parker ✰ Wanda Maximoff ✰ Vision ✰

Stranger Things

✰ Eddie Munson ✰ Steve Harrington ✰ Jonathan Byers ✰ Robin Buckely ✰

TLOU

✰ Joel Miller ✰ Tommy Miller ✰ Ellie Williams ✰

Harry Potter

✰ Neville Longbottom ✰ Luna Lovegood ✰ Ron Weasley ✰ George Weasley ✰ Hermoine Granger ✰ Severus Snape ✰ Sirius Black ✰ Remus Lupin ✰ Bill Weasley ✰

X-men

✰ Peter Maximoff ✰ Kurt Wagner ✰ Storm ✰ James/Logan Howlett ✰ Scott Summers (older) ✰ Alex Summers ✰ Hank Mccoy ✰ Sean Cassidy ✰ Jean Grey ✰ Rouge ✰ Mystique/Raven ✰

Gotham/Batman

✰ Bruce Wayne ✰ Edward Nashton ✰ Jervis Tetch ✰ Jerome Valeska ✰ Selina Kyle (Gotham) ✰ Ed Nygma (pre-riddler) ✰ Tabitha Galavan ✰ Victor Zsasz ✰ Jonathan Crane ✰

Peaky Blinders

✰ Arthur Shelby ✰ Alfie Solomon✰

Maze Runner

✰ Newt ✰ Thomas ✰ Minho ✰

AHS

✰ Tate Langdon ✰ Vivien Harmon ✰ Violet Harmon ✰

Twilight

✰ Edward Cullen ✰ Alice Cullen ✰ Bella Swan ✰ Jasper Hale ✰ Charlie Swan ✰ Sam Uley ✰ Seth Clearwater ✰

The 100

✰ John Murphy ✰ Finn Collins ✰ Monty Green ✰ Jasper Jordan ✰

TWD

✰ Daryl Dixion ✰ Rick Grimes ✰ Negan ✰ Michonne ✰ Carl Grimes ✰ Glenn Rhee ✰ Laura ✰ Ron Anderson ✰ Maggie Greene ✰

Miscellaneous

✰ Xavier Thorpe ✰ Tyler Galpin ✰ Bill S. Preston, Esq. ✰ Ted 'Theodore' Logan ✰ John Wick ✰ Charlie walker ✰ Ben Solo ✰ Finn (star wars) ✰ Poe Dameron ✰ Maurizio Gucci (h.o.g) ✰ Johnny Knoxville ✰ Luke Castellan ✰ Eric Draven ✰ any alex wolff/nat wolff character

LET ME KNOW WHAT CHARACTERS, YOU WANT ME TO WRITE FOR IN MY INBOX

[ellies-little-gun]

I've Noticed You Don't Hear Too Well From Your Right Side

Hello wonderful people!

This is the third one-shot set in the We Finish What We Started 'verse!

Heavily inspired by my one-shot Hearing Aid

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Sneak Peek:

She isn’t sure when she started doing it, compensating for his lack of hearing. Acting as a buffer, a defense against the things he can’t hear. Thinks it must have been in Kansas City. After she had seen the proof of his hearing loss, he didn’t hear the glass because he rolled over. Thinks maybe it was even before that, because she can’t think of a time when she wasn’t watching his right.

Can’t remember a time when she wasn’t looking out for him, like he does for her. 

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Read it on Ao3 here.

Need to get caught up on the series? Find it here.

Rated M: any warnings for the show apply to this story. As always, read the tags before reading.

[actual-changeling]

I present the follow-up of when they're inside of Jackson, both Ellie and Tommy automatically try to stay on Joel's left side so they can talk to him without problem, and it evolves into them constantly stumbling over each other's feet and bumping into each other.

They both refuse to budge and are like "we can make this work but I want his left and I won't leave first" and Joel simply watches them almost eat shit several times like "you know you can just like space yourselves out right one in front one in the back" and they both simultaneously go NO I was here first.

(Ellie & Tommy like each other a lot so it's not any kind of serious competition/jealousy but by god they have something to prove now)

The first time Joel, Tommy, and Ellie leave Jackson’s gates together, both Tommy and Ellie immediately try to take Joel’s right side and then just look at each other like the other one’s spouted a second head

[cultofsappho]

look maybe i just wanna write my little canon soft boy covered in blood and shaking with a knife in his hand and swearing to himself to murder any one that touches his boyfriend. is that too much to ask? 

[actual-changeling]

Family breakfasts with Tommy have become somewhat of a routine.

He comes over on the days Maria leaves for her work early (which is more often than not), eats her granola and drinks Joel's coffee, and they talk about whatever they feel like, though Ellie loves asking him about his recent patrols. She kicks her feet up into Joel's lap and draws it out as long as she can before sprinting all the way to school, but it's worth it if it means just one more story.

Today, though, she's late. Really fucking late. It's not her fault she got a bit distracted by the new book Tommy had brought her last afternoon (it's about SPACE Joel, that trumps school and sleep by a mile), but now she had about five minutes to get out of the house and into the classroom. Ellie barrels down the stairs, bag slung over her shoulder, and has to catch herself on the banister to not slip on the floor once she jumps over the last few steps

"Careful, baby," Joel calls over, worriedly watching her put on her shoes while standing on one leg, jumping to keep her balance. Tommy, on the other hand, looks majorly amused, and she can hear him chuckle.

"Yeah, yeah, old man, I can keep my balance just fine."

She ties her laces so she doesn't trip once she starts running and is about to leave when Joel whistles to call her back.

"Breakfast, Ellie."

Fucking Joel and his stupid rules, but Ellie spins on the spot and uses the kitchen door frame to propel herself toward the counter and pick up two apples for later, stuffing them into her bag with a happy? thrown over her shoulder.

"Mh, have a nice day at school, kiddo," he tries to sound all parental, but she can hear the softness bleeding through and just knows he's holding back a grin. Ellie crosses the distance between them with two big steps and slings her arms around his neck, allowing herself the luxury of melting against him for a few precious seconds when he gently rubs his thumbs over her wrists and lifts her clasped hands to press a kiss to her knuckles.

With a heavy sigh and a silent fuck you to whoever invented math, she pulls back, but not without pressing a kiss to Joel's cheek, basking in the smile he gives her; it's so easy to make him happy, and she does it as much as she can.

Ellie can feel Tommy's eyes on them, he always watches them with a gleeful mixture of amusement and affection, and over the last year, he has settled into the warm parts of her heart, too. He is right between her and the door, sipping on his coffee, so, really, it's not even a conscious choice, more of a reflex.

Her hand comes down on the table when she steps toward the front door and away from Joel, balancing herself so she can lean around the back of his chair and press a quick kiss to his cheek, too. Ellie bites back the small laugh bubbling up when she sees the expression on his face, mouth slightly open, eyes seeking help from Joel, who simply shrugs and picks up his cup again.

Another minute ticks by on the kitchen clock, and she is finally on her way out, the goodbye she yells at them cut off when the front door slams close behind her.

-

("What the hell was that?"

"She is laying her claim on you."

"Whatever that means, Joel, she's your kid, not mine."

"Better get ready to give up your personal space and half your closet."

"My clothes, really?"

"You never know what she might do next, prepare for the worst."

"Are you sure she's not yours? 'Cause this sounds oddly familiar."

"Oh, she is, she just found me all on her own."

"Glad she did, haven't seen you smile like that in twenty years."

"Give it a week and I'll tell you the same thing.")

[actual-changeling]

She doesn't even really notice she said it, probably too distracted thinking about Dina in a swimsuit to have any coherent thoughts outside of "Dina Dina Dina Joel Dina", so she keeps going, pacing around the living room because it helps her focus. She uses her hands to talk a lot, too, so it's convenient for Joel to no longer be in the danger zone of her enthusiastic motions; one more elbow to his face and he will probably lose what's left of his hearing.

Joel definitely tears up a little bit, sitting on the couch with his arm along the backrest, and freezes before breaking out of it with the biggest smile, so caught up in his bliss he only half hears the rest of the story.

While he fully intends to simply tuck that bit of information away, his mind keeps running circles around it, and he ends up asking that evening when Ellie is already curled up and drifting off in his arms. Holding her always makes him feel all sorts of things, warm, sad, filled with longing for Sarah, grieving the years of Ellie's life during which she was all alone, but today it just makes him float with a chest so light he doesn't even feel his heart beat.

"Best friend, huh?"

Joel is on his back, looking up at the ceiling, and he feels Ellie shift until she is in her usual Koala position that seems incredibly uncomfortable from the outside but knocks her out within seconds, her face pressed into his neck. He can feel her words ghost across his skin when he responds, lips brushing against it, and this time he does take them and gently places them right in the middle of his heart, safe for years to come.

"You mattered to me first."

this is so cheesy but idgaf we die cringe <3 so, ellie talks about dina all the time- ALL the time and joel thinks it's rather adorable so ellie has just finished describing in great detail her and dina's trip to the lake that afternoon when joel asks with a smile, "is dina your best friend?" and without missing a beat ellie shrugs and says, "no, you are." joel may or may not excuse himself to cry into a tissue

[kissforthemisss]

about me! 🐺

im ellie or els, im a loser, i go by she/her, im a lesbian (shocking), and i have little boy humor.

i’m literally in love with kate martin please 😭😭

im a swiftie oh em gee !!!!!

i write for wbb, taylor swift, and other people occasionally. so basically my wives

i am pro palestine, if you are a zionist, disrespectfully get off my page. as well as homophobic, racist, etc.

my bsfs are rykkie, alex, cath, aubrey, kayleigh, and maggie

info!

i do take requests, but i also have the right to deny a request.

i can write alternate universes as well if yall want

im lowkey (highkey) a bad writer but i make it work

other things i can write for- womens wwe, tlou, and if you have any questions for who you can request, ask me and i’ll answer!!!

rules!

i can take constructive criticism, but don’t be flat our rude.

i only wrote for women and wlw, if you request for a man or for a “x male reader” your request will be declined.

don’t be weird in my dms, you will be blocked.

if you are a minor, i don’t mind because i can’t control what you do, but please be safe and don’t take anything you see in fics seriously.

masterlist 🪩

free palestine.

[ravensprophet]

tempted to write a short alex rider x tlou fic itd be so fun