#alec caspar oc

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I'm so so sorry to hear you've had a shit day and that you're struggling, friend. I am sending you all the air hugs. You deserve a break and I hope you take care of yourself extra hard the next couple of days!

Ok questions you asked for, and you shall receive!

(trigger warning: potential self harm mention)

Does Josh have a mantra or something to remind himself not to give in/give up while he's playing into Felix's whims?? I know you've said he has to play pretend to survive, but how does he keep himself sane? Or maybe he finds/makes a secret artifact to give him comfort? I'm imagining him being so lonely and dejected after giving into Felix after awhile and I don't want him to get too depressed :(

Would Josh ever hurt himself to try to get away from Felix?

Does Felix find anything else "incriminating" or suspicious to him on Josh's phone?

Does Felix have any other friends besides Kurtis?

Would Felix ever video record Josh?

Obviously please only answer what you have capacity for and ignore anything you'd like! I am definitely a rambler. I am here for you friend and I appreciate you and think you are very cool! 🤗

Thank you so so much 💞😭🫂 all the love to you!!! ❤️

I'll answer in bulletpoints!

Josh always tells himself that Felix may have his body but never his mind - he fights so hard to play along and pretend to keep his mind intact, and to never let himself slip into the delusion. His survival instincts are so strong - he doesn't want to give up, he doesn't want to die (he's scared of dying). He wants to live and not just survive - he tells himself when he goes home, he will make something of his life and break the cycle he was living in.

- in terms of a secret artifact to give him comfort, I've yet to show this in the story - but when Felix raided Josh's apartment and picked up his clothes, he also took a knitted blanket that Josh's mother made for him that he's had since he was born... Felix gives him that. Josh is over the moon to have his comfort item, and he uses it as his motivation and reminder too. (of course Felix always uses it against Josh and threatens to confiscate it/burn it if he's naughty.)

Josh would try and hurt himself to get away from Felix - desperate times call for desperate measures. Definitely when he gets tunnel vision and reaches low points. It would be hard to do so - with the constant restraints, sedation and cameras (Felix won't let him out of sight, not after what happened with Aaron). But if Josh can do something to land him in hospital 👀 he will. Without hesitation.

Felix never turns Josh's phone on ever again. It's switched off and locked away in his desk drawer in his study. He has, however, downloaded all he needs to onto his laptop. Messages, photos, even his music. He does find photos/texts/videos of Josh and Alec that flares Felix's jealousy and he's enraged when he reads messages between Josh and his previous hookups 😬

Felix DOES have other friends beside Kurtis! Only a handful, and a select, trusted few know about Josh. Two others we'll get very acquanited with, one of them coming soon in the storyline 👀

Yes, omg, Felix definitely DOES video record Josh! At all his worst and vulnerable moments, I can assure you. Felix has a whole harddrive dedicated to his pictures of videos of Josh. I love the image of my poor boy just so hurt and out of it - tears streaming and suddenly a flashlight blinds his eyes as Felix films him 🤌

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Idk why but I always expected Alec to be... bald??? I really have no idea how that came to be.

But he's handdome, yandere material maybe 👀 don't be jealous Felix, just get yourself a second darling

BAHAHA 💀🤣 Bald!Alec asdfghjkl - that's amazing, I cackled!

Alec is very handsome 🙂‍↕️ I can assure you Felix is EXTREMELY jealous - he's got some competition and he knows it!!!

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What was Alec’s job before he dropped everything to try and find Josh?

- @another-whump-sideblog

He worked as a financial manager for a tech company! Not too exciting but I'm sure his life is about to get a hell of a lot more interesting 😅😉

Alec actually used to live where Josh does. They'd spend a large portion of their free time together. They'd go on dog walks together all the time too (hence why he's familiar to Milo!). Alec was offered a promotion in his job, but with the caveat that he'd have to relocate and move for the position. Unfortunately for Josh, Alec took the opportunity 😔

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Milo (and Alec) faceclaim pls? 🥺

Here you go!!! ❤️

I really struggled to find a face claim for Alec but this is close enough for now! His hair is the teensiest bit shorter but still curly and he has deep brown eyes 🤎

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Lmao I was shocked tbh... I really thought Alec was a bald man in his 30s, y'know a bit like Mr Clean

I wonder where this association comes from

Not the Mr Clean! 🤣 Ahahaha but honestly, feel free to headcanon him as that if you'd like! 😭🤣

But yeah, Josh and Alec are the same age (23 y/o), they went to school together!