#alcameso

[smokeandsteam]

animals

no. 4 unknown

[alcameso]

how is the rental application $75, AND if there’s insufficient funds in your account they take $25, AND if there’s insufficient funds my BANK TAKES ANOTHER $30 i didn’t know that shit that happens in monopoly was real- like i knew it was a little real but not in the ba dum tsss kind of way bro FRUCK

[quisqueyanavaliente]

🌞 ARE YOU HAPPY? 🌚

hi! my name is alicia, you can call me that, ali, or @alcameso (main blog). they/she/he are all good pronouns for me. im 27 years old.

my practice follows a profound awareness of the elements, a dutiful respect for divination, a humbling love for human evolution and morality, and a lot more.

if you’d like to know more check below…

🌹 core beliefs 🌻

i have a deep admiration for the elements at every conceivable level. it sounds silly but everything in between the way particles “sing”, to the way clothes feel, to the way we use water to produce energy all have an influence on my beliefs. it makes me mindful seeing how they all connect and seeing myself live as part of them. i thank them often.

divination has found its way into my life in countless ways. i think the way almost all cultures have the desire to tell the future unites us as a species. we want to warn each other about things or give each other hope and i think thats beautiful.

im not necessarily religious, but i do revere multiple iterations of what we define as the “spirit”. i believe if enough people believe in something it makes it real, so i’ve decided to show a common courtesy to everything our species has deemed significant. my personal opinions on whether god is real or if anyone can burn sage aren’t very important in the grand scheme of how our species prays or refuses to. i’d just like to bear witness.

🍄 practice 🐚

cooking is a gorgeous form of worship. i see the elements in the ingredients i use and the way fire metabolizes them. i use soups and teas as remedies. i see the stories of our species in every plate i put together. some day i hope the elements allow me to grow my own ingredients.. but i’ve had no such gardening luck yet, haha.

i pick up bugs, i go camping and let only my understanding of open fire determine if i get to eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner. i swim and hike and let the earth move me, not the other way around. i let myself get too cold and i let myself melt in the sun. i go outside because its raining. i hope the creatures i see tell me a little about themselves, dead or alive. its a passionate relationship.

im trying to listen to my gut. whether im holding a tarot deck, a tea cup, staring at smoke, or dreaming, im trying to let something other than what i can see teach me. im not currently good at feeling my feelings or translating in the name of energy, but i can hear what people don’t say and i get impulses that always lead me in a good direction for my growth. now, i just wanna learn how to do it with a little more intention.

loving.

i think thats why im on this planet- not that i believe we need a reason. i want to leave it better than i found it, so i love my friends, i love my enemies, i love myself and thats enough.

❤️ the rest is just bonus ❤️

personal tags: any post where im just rambling #quisqueya thinks, music that inspires me spiritually #quisqueya uses spotify, evidence that sometimes i can use a kitchen kinda well #quisqueya cooks and, rest assured, this list will grow.

tags relevant to my practice: #shadow, #divination, #energy, #elemental, #religion, #mythology, #spirit, #human, #kitchen, #occult, #creature, and more probably.

feel free to ask me anything!

[smokeandsteam]

after life

no.3 grubloved // no.4 althea davis // no.5 samsketchbook, “how to decay gracefully”

[alcameso]

i literally made the house from popular board game Clue in sims 4 and its available in the gallery if you search Literally The Clue House go use it pretty please thanks

[smokeandsteam]

anger

no. 1 unknown

[alcameso]

i keep thinking i want to read song of achilles out loud to my friends because it’d be so cute and sweet and then i remember The Mountain™️

[alcameso]

dOECHII DA DON DOECHII DA DEAN DOECHII SUPREME

[alcameso]

we though it was a boy cause boys are bigger on average, but then she laid eggs, her name is terrance, shes perfect, also they only live 10 days and we got her 3 weeks ago, so you can only assume im in deep deep mourning and learning to do taxidermy as we speak

[alcameso]

“you know, cans are famously depicted as items that can stack, but the truth of the matter is they don’t, not all of them.”

“so i need you to know that im stacking these cans in one small corner of the kitchen cause im trying to make room, but because of what i just said a moment ago i need you to not approach them with too much karmic debt.”

- me, baking 7 pies

[alcameso]

there was a fly in my car and i was trying to usher it out with my finger but at the same time close the window so it couldn’t get back in and let’s just say if it weren’t for the emergency stop on new car windows that would’ve been it for me

[alcameso]

yeah, sorry i can’t make it tonight, we’re rewatching forbidden show bbc sherlock

yup, the thats the one

oh no, we’re already done with it but now we have to stay home and think about it for weeks

weekends too, yeah, sorry hun

[smokeandsteam]

musings #1

i want long curly mermaid hair that hugs my shoulders, but i also want a big ‘ol afro massive enough to create a gravitational pull on nearby objects, and i want pin-straight hair in a high ponytail that makes me look like a bitchy blonde secretary with an equestrian hobby, but i also want a buzz cut with a built-in alarm clock and when i hear it i shoot out of bed, march into the forest, and photosynthesize.

i want to dye it deep purple and green like some ornate water fowl, but also a deep red proportionate with the blood of my enemies, or maybe a pink and blue pastel balayage that reminds me to always eat dessert first.

i want oxford shoes in black and white, or in tan, with smart little stitches, but i also want gladiator sandals that make people think i might have armor on until they get close enough to be stopped, and i want loud sneakers made, not for concrete, but for two pairs of wheels under them, and i also want boots so long i can throw out all my pants, but i also want velvet combat boots, and really classy black high heels sharp enough to raise the dead.

i really want an entire closet of white linen clothes so i can always have that dumb rich lady look on my face, but i also want draping lace blouses the sun can shine through when i jump over that creek in my latin childhood, and i want crop tops that make my neck more attractive than my boobs, but i also want the boobs. maybe, i even want them to peek out of the bottom a little bit.

i want stiff shirt collars, no collars, and dog collars with the y2k spikes, and i want my heart shaped buttons to have a tense conversation with the mouth of my gold plated zippers. i need a harness that reminds you i can be moved, but only if you’re clever enough to know i don’t mean physically.

i want tight skirts that blur a movie screen so that you hear them before you see them, and long pleated skirts to tuck in all my dress shirts and sweaters so that i give off a vibe of innocence, but my lipstick begs to differ, and i want shiny rubber pants, but then id have a lot of power, and with power comes responsibility for things i’ve only considered dabbling in once or ten times.

i want a bespoke suit that throws out the idea of boobs all together, and i want it in a green so dark the forests will whisper “i’m home”, or a blue so soft the sky will give up. i also want it in the classic black with guns and knives hidden in all the pockets along with a glass-etching laser, a box with a single cigarette left inside, and a crumbled up note with ten or so smudged digits.

i want a satin dress that knows everything about me and kind of blinds you while i sing on a stage, but i also want a soft cotton long sleeve dress that trails the ground like flame at an overlord’s footsteps, and i want a dress with my african ancestry screaming in every vivid thread as it comforts me with the willingness to cry about how beautiful life is.

i’d like to smell like roses, but like real ones that you sometimes find dew, or the occasion bug, on, and i want to smell like vanilla and laughter, but i also want to smell like sawdust and cold air that dries out your eyes. i want to smell like sex and sugar while holding a murderous look in my eyes like the evil people in soap operas, and i want to smell like fireworks and dynamite so you know i’m coming from a mile away, or i want a smell that embodies the ocean and makes you want to swim for your life without forgetting the salt that brought you here in the first place.

so, um, what’s my style?

[alcameso]

we found a giant leopard moth with a damaged wing so we kept it and now i wanna make it my whole personality

[alcameso]

new AH just dropped: high pitched, condescending voice went “please, humptydumpty!” very clearly in my right ear.

???

i just rewatched transformers 3 and at some point they say humptydumpty so i know my subconscious got it from that but, fuckin, why? lmao

[quisqueyanavaliente]

where

the

FUCK

!

is all the anaerobically processed 100% sustainable organic premium soil mix Magic Dirt?

Where the fuck is it? I was excited to buy it online directly from the company, but on their website they just describe their products with no prices and say “Request us at a local gardening supply store!”

First off, no??? And what, bestow the possibility of my existence into the mind of another entire human being on the internet??? Disgusting.

Second of all, I can’t be the only person around here who wants it so lemme just search near by. Walmart supposedly carries it. Nice. Let’s go to Walmart.

Honestly, that was my first real mistake. Lowes and Home Depot don’t carry Magic Dirt, none of the cool plant shops carry it- like, I’ve always know better than to give Walmart the benefit of the doubt, why would I fuckin start now??? $9 bag of dirt??? They’d have to call themselves Whole Foods.

Anyway, they didn’t have it even though online it’s all like “yo mami, you wanna piece of this? curbside, baby, tonight!” but whatever.

So, I get home and search Magic Dirt in every. possible. way. shape. and mode. I can think of to get different results for availability, or even some shitty online retailer that marks up the price- nothing. I go on incognito so the browser doesn’t use my location or recently viewed- nothing. I go on my laptop- nothing???

Like

They have to be selling SOMEWHERE or like

How are they a business? What are they up to? Are they ok?

It occurs to me to check Amazon, even though I fuckin! hate! Amazon!

Get this:

Magic Dirt Premium Potting Soil Currently Unavailable

AND I QUOTE

“WE DON’T KNOW WHEN OR IF THIS ITEM WILL BE BACK IN STOCK”

Well what that fuck am I supposed to do with that, beloved?

Like if that the case, take down the listing until further notice, dear.

Anyfuckinway

I have to find a new soil. Even thought it took me days of studying and researching what makes good soil to find Magic Dirt, I must now deny the knowledge that Magic Dirt is the superior brand for me, and settle for something readily available.

I’m looking for 100% sustainable, organic, perlite/vermiculite-free, neutral pH soil.

Any fuckin ideas?