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omegalomania Ā· 1 year ago
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i kept forgetting to do this, but i finally remembered we got permission to upload the full pieces done for the SEASONS ZINE! they're not quite as good without @deathchic's gorgeous prose accompanying them, but they were really exciting to put together.
full breakdowns of the symbolism and unobstructed views of each card can be found beneath the cut, fully transcribed. as a warning, they are LONG.
my category was "fall," which encompassed the folie and save rock and roll eras, including the welcome to the new administration mixtape and pax am days ep. seeing as i've a great deal of love for all four of those works and fall out boy has four members, i decided to highlight each work by creating a tarot-inspired card, each featuring a member of the band.
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Welcome to the New Administration: Pete Wentz
Pete was the primary organizer behind the viral campaign for CitizensFOB, making him the ideal pick for this card. His card prominently features his bass guitar with the iconic Clandestine logo.
Repeating Number 4: 4 stars above the eagle's head, 4 markings across the cube at the center, 4 members of the band
The tri-colored drapes behind Pete were suspended behind the band on the mixtape cover. The curtains parting over a black background signifies the oncoming hiatus.
The cube-like geometric shape in front of the eagle represents the single promotional art done for "America's Suitehearts," which was one of the tracks demoed in the mixtape and one of the singles that connected most prominently with the themes of the mixtape.
The shield Pete carries and the eagle mounted behind him are both symbols that were used to promote the CitizensFOB viral campaign, featuring the catchphrase: "For Our Betterment, There Is More Mayhem."
Pete's apparel is what he was wearing for the Believers Never Die Part Deux tour, in which there was a lot of direct satirization of Wall Street and American politics. All the band members were wearing suits and looking visibly battered, and Pete had a nosebleed. Patrick also has a nosebleed on his own card; both Pete and Patrick's cards are pre-hiatus projects.
The symbols at the four corners of the card are indicative of the imagery surrounding the campaign. The pointing hand comes from the cover for the mixtape; the airplane is a reference to the "Mailbaick Vaintey and Pidetaerson Firm" videos and accounts that were used in the viral campaign; the wolf head is for the "Alpha Dog" demo, which made its debut on the CitizensFOB mixtape and namedropped "Welcome to the New Administration" title in its demo form; the boomerang is for the "Lake Effect Kid" demo, which also made its debut on the CitizensFOB mixtape.
"The Citizen" is an obvious reference to the "Citizens For Our Betterment" campaign name.
The card features 12 colors, all colorpicked from the Welcome to the New Administration mixtape cover. This represents the 12 artists who contributed the mixtape musically (not merely speaking roles): The Academy Is..., Butch Watcher, The Cab, Cobra Starship, Fall Out Boy, Four Year Strong, Gym Class Heroes, Hey Monday, The Hush Sound, Panic! At The Disco, A Rocket to the Moon, and Tyga.
The background elements are indicative of the state of the band prior to the hiatus: the leaves are in tatters and shreds. The sunflower is a native Chicago variant, Helianthus occidentalis, late-blooming sunflower that lasts well into early fall. Sunflowers obviously have a strong association with the sun, but they also stand for adoration, loyalty, good fortune, vitality, longevity, and prosperity. The bright yellow color also associates them with intelligence, happiness, and friendship. Van Gogh had a famous Sunflower series, leading to the obvious connection to Infinity on High, the album preceding the Folie era. This made it a good pick for the pre-hiatus cards, since it was loyalty and friendship that led to the hiatus and ultimately to the band's longevity and vitality. Both Folie Ć  Deux and the Welcome to the New Administration mixtape had more yellow tones than their post-hiatus counterparts as well, thus the pick of a yellow flower.
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Folie Ć  Deux: Patrick Stump
Patrick has stated that Folie Ć  Deux is the most "him" out of Fall Out Boy's discography, making him ideal for this card.
Repeating Number 4: 4 electric bursts from the microphone, 4-sided symbol mounted on the microphone, 4 ruffles on Dr. Benzedrine's front
The card features 13 colors to represent the 13 tracks on the album itself (excluding bonus tracks). All colors were colorpicked directly from the album cover.
The anchor is a reference to the lyrics of "27," with a crown symbol on it in reference to "Headfirst Slide into Cooperstown on a Bad Bet."
There are 9 stripes on the upper side of the background, as a reference to "West Coast Smoker" - the suicidal cats have 9 lives.
The microphone represents Patrick's role as vocalist. It is also a reference to "(Coffee's for Closers)," as the microphone stand is electrified.
Patrick's right half is modeled after his costume in the "America's Suitehearts" video, "Dr. Benzedrine." He has a nosebleed in reference to the lyrics of the song that is his namesake, "20 Dollar Nose Bleed." Both he and Pete represent pre-hiatus projects, and both have bleeding noses.
Patrick's left half is modeled after his costume in the "What A Catch, Donnie" video. He has 20 stripes on his shirt - half black and half white, keeping with themes of duality. The 20 total stripes also references "20 Dollar Nose Bleed."
The background on the bottom half is shattered into 15 visible fragments, indicating the 15 tracks of the full album (when including bonus tracks such as "Pavlove" and "Lullabye"). There are also 27 fragments scattered between the two halves of Patrick, representing "27" and the 27 club.
The symbols at the four corners have dual meanings, in keeping with the theme of duality. The bee is both a lyrical reference to "Lullabye" and a nod to the intro of "Disloyal Order of Water Buffaloes"; the storm cloud is both a nod to the lyrics of "She's My Winona" and a reference to the "Mr. Sandman" character in the "America's Suitehearts" video; the horseshoe crab is both a reference to the lyrics on "The (Shipped) Gold Standard" and to the character of "H. Shoe Crab" in the "America's Suitehearts" video; the sunflower acknowledges the lyrics in "27" about shooting the sunshine into one's veins and nods to the flower on the hat of the "Donnie the Catcher" character in the "America's Suitehearts" video.
"The Mirror" references the theming of duality on the album, as well as the fact that the vinyl required a mirror for one to read the tracklisting since the text was printed backwards.
The card features heavy themes of duality to suit the theme of a "madness shared by two." The image is bisected in several respects: Patrick is fractured in two, both halves wearing different costumes and expressions; the shadow in the center is split down the middle; the broken heart in the upper half is also two faces; the image is divided both horizontally and vertically; and a dichotomy of fire (the electrified microphone stand) and water (the anchor).
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Save Rock and Roll: Joe Trohman
Joe took a much more active writing role post-hiatus and on this album in particular, making him a good pick to represent Save Rock and Roll.
Repeating Number 4: 4 symbols, 4-pointed symbol holding up the others
The card features 11 colors, representing 11 tracks on the album. All colors were color-picked directly from the album cover, with an emphasis on reds, to suit the "red palette" imagery surrounding the album.
This card is saturated with imagery from the 11-part video series the band released in conjunction with the album, "The Youngblood Chronicles." Joe is wearing the costume he had for the majority of the video series prior to his death.
The card features heavy fire imagery due to this being a motif on the album and on the associated video series, with smoke rising up in the background. This is indicative of the band "rising from the ashes" post-hiatus, and also symbolizes the resurrection of Joe's character at the end of "The Youngblood Chronicles."
The guitar-axe weapon is from the "Death Valley" video and would have been his weapon if he weren't dead at this point in time. The card prominently features Joe's guitar, albeit turned into a weapon, as befitting the theming.
The four symbols mounted behind Joe are also from "The Youngblood Chronicles" - the symbol representing the "Silence the Noise" group; the symbol associated with the gang of child bikers; the symbol the Prince of Darkness tattoos on Joe's hand; and the crown-and-volcano symbol associated with the band post-hiatus. The symbol upon which these four icons are mounted is found on the floor in Heaven in the "Save Rock and Roll" video.
Joe is the only one who does not face the audience directly, and is turned in profile. Given the fictional nature of the narrative of "The Youngblood Chronicles," he has the most distance from the fourth wall.
The symbols at the four corners of the card also draw from imagery from "The Youngblood Chronicles." The disco ball is from the "Where Did the Party Go" video, in which Joe's character dies. The briefcase is a consistent object throughout the entire series, and serves to incite the entire narrative. Patrick's hook hand, also seen throughout, is significant due to Patrick's unwitting role as Joe's murderer. The snake, seen in "Young Volcanoes" and "Just One Yesterday," is representative of the group's collective trauma.
"The Defender" is a reference to the names of the characters of Fall Out Boy in "The Youngblood Chronicles," as they are referred to as "The Defenders of the Faith" in the longform video's opening credits. This title is in and of itself a reference to the title track on Save Rock and Roll.
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Pax Am Days: Andy Hurley
The Pax Am Days EP is closest to the band's hardcore roots in terms of sonics and composition, and Andy is the most active in hardcore circles today, which makes him an ideal pick for this card.
Repeating 4: 4 holes in the American flag, 4 supports visible on the toms and bass drum, 4 tears on the left side of the wall
The card features 9 colors, all color-picked from the EP cover, per the 9 tracks on the EP (counting the bonus "New Dreams" Naked Rayguns cover).
There are also 9 tears on the right side of the wall, also befitting the 9 tracks on the EP.
The black-and-white checkered background represents the Pax Am studio where the EP was recorded and after which it was named.
Andy is the only one whose card features him looking directly at the audience, to signify the more intimate recording sessions behind the EP, in which studio chatter and laughter can be heard between every track. Being the drummer of the band, Andy's drumkit is naturally featured very prominently.
The crown-volcano symbol that's become synonymous with the band post-hiatus is (barely) visible mounted on Andy's bass drum. This is a similarity Andy's card shares with Joe's, as they both represent post-hiatus projects.
The American flag was also present in the studio for recording. The flag being torn and shredded on the card relates to tracks on the EP that discuss disillusionment with the American dream ("American Made"). It is also indicative of the eras preceding and following the Pax Am EP (Folie Ć  Deux and the Welcome to the New Administration mixtape, and then American Beauty / American Psycho).
The four symbols at the corners of the card all represent lyrics present on the EP: the crown comes from "We Were Doomed from the Start (The King is Dead)"; the lion comes from "Demigods"; the black widow comes from "Hot to the Touch, Cold on the Inside"; the skull comes from "Love, Sex, Death."
"The Believer" is a reference to the final compilation prior to the band's four-year hiatus, "Believers Never Die." With the band returning seemingly from the dead, it seems that believers truly never die. This is paired with Andy reportedly being the only member of the band who always believed they would get back together, even if none of the others did.
The background elements for the post-hiatus cards feature leaves with much more reddish tones. The color red has a great deal of symbolic meanings, including high energy, vitality, strength, and prosperity. Additionally, the fallen leaves are rich and whole, to contrast the shredded-looking leaves in the background for the pre-hiatus cards. After the hiatus, the band's overall health and mentality was much healthier.
The flower in the background is a Madame Julia Correvon clematis, a wine-red Chicago variant of clematis that blooms in the summer and fall. Clematis flowers are associated with mental acuity, wisdom, travel, aspiration, and mischief. Red clematis in particular is associated with passion, energy, good luck, prosperity, security, physical vitality, and courage. This, along with the red color scheme, made it a good flower to represent the cards for the post-hiatus projects.
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wickmitz Ā· 2 months ago
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I decided to start talking about Wick and Rocky's relationship because I like their dynamics too, I like seeing Wick scared of Rocky and Rocky being aggressive with him, which is unusual because Rocky is rarely aggressive with anyone, but of course Wick is an exception to rule
Also my mini opinion about their possible relationship, I think that if Rocky didn't have to fight for his place, then he and Wick could become friends, or at least tolerate each other a little, I also see some superficial similarities, their gentlemanly and romantic natures, and their common love for explosions (remembering the quarrymen chapter), but this is my assumption, I think that I don't understand the characters' personalities well, so I can be wrong in this assumption, something like that. So, what do you think about their relationship?
for starters, i cannot thank you enough for this ask! as iā€™ve said previously, i have many thoughts on these two, so itā€™s nice to finally be able to share some of them. although given the extent to which i think about them, i apologize in advance if this is sloppy and sort of everywhere ā€¦ while iā€™ll try to structure things the best i can, i cannot promise iā€™ll succeed! but hopefully this is an enjoyable reply nonetheless.
one of my favorite things about rocky and wickā€™s relationship is absolutely how aggressive rocky is towards the aristocrat ; he is prone to glares and cruel jokes and borderline hissing whenever the man is within his line of sight, or can be brought to a wailing-fit over the mere mention of his name from miss mā€™s mouth. there is a childishness to it, but a very prominent threat as well in spite of rockyā€™s usual incompetence. so he goes out of his way to posture around wick, readily lying and adorning himself with the gangster drapes he so badly wants to wear, in the hopes that it intimidates ā€¦ will even badmouth wickā€™s family and make fun of his name and rock related obsession to mitzi, and so on so forth! yet all of this is very reminiscent of schoolyard bullying rather than anything too severe, though we as the audience understand rather quickly that rocky would bash wickā€™s head in with a tire iron if he could. ( translation : if it wouldnā€™t earn the tears or hate of a certain beloved mitzi may ) and itā€™s all very intense despite the absence of actual violence! and i understand why many fans see this as unusual for rocky and believe that itā€™s only wick who makes him act so aggressively, but iā€™d argue it isnā€™t really wick at all that prompts such scary reactions from him ā€¦ and that rocky is a deeply angry character whoā€™s a.) been boiling quietly for a long, long time and b.) has turned wick into a punching bag of sorts for this inner world of resentment and hurt. basically, when heā€™s judging the well-to-do or poking fun, his eyes donā€™t look at wick and actually acknowledge him as sedgewick sable ; instead this is a being, something vague and metaphorical, who threatens to upseat rockyā€™s permanence in the lackadaisy and steal away his savior, and heā€™s had a hand in the violinistā€™s misfortune for a long time.
obviously, rocky doesnā€™t think wick robbed him of his family twice over and made him homeless, but he is channeling the fear and anguish of those events into his loathing for wick, if that makes sense? itā€™s easier that way -- to finally have an outlet for everything bleeding inside of you, to be able to bite and claw at something without feeling conflicted or having to take personal accountability for your own mistakes ā€¦ which is something that i think rocky does struggle with to a degree. he is sort of a finger pointer! his pain has to be worth something, it has to be for someone else ; spending years homeless and losing his last bit of family was for freckle, and the scrambling of his literal brain was for mitzi, and that means he canā€™t ever be angry with them! well, except that he is, somewhat, but he buries it deep down instead of feeling it. with freckle there is a sense of strain between them -- an air of ā€˜you owe meā€™ from rocky to freckle as he uses freckle to appease miss m, and he constantly pokes fun at his cousin too. itā€™s lighter than his jabs at wick, but thereā€™s a constant pestering, a reminder of how good freckle has it : how heā€™s got the mom and the house and the job and the girl most notably. i donā€™t think rocky is intending to come across as mean, and to his credit he hardly does! but itā€™s rather clear to me that some part of him, some hidden and deeply hurt part, is rather indignant about taking the fall for freckle all those years ago. which he canā€™t understand, because how could he? he made that choice, he decided to take accountability for something he didnā€™t do because he loves freckle and knows itā€™d be so easy to believe this family tragedy was roarkā€™s fault ; the devilish child he was, all troublesome and too broken to properly fit anywhere. so there is a disconnect born here, where rocky canā€™t comprehend that heā€™d be angry at freckle, so instead these not so great feelings are placed elsewhere and silently boil over time. and with mitzi ā€¦ i donā€™t think heā€™s angry at her per se, but there is a frustrated and desperate chorus of : why him and why not me, when iā€™m the one out here dying for you? which is certainly unpleasant. of course, rather than allowing those feelings to be more aimed at miss m, whom he feels unloved by, he ( again! ) represses these emotions and allows them to fester into his greatest fears and fantastical complexes. i think there is a lot of other miscellaneous anger he could have towards others too ā€¦ perhaps some part of him is sore upon seeing ivyā€™s normal lifestyle, watching her go to university and knowing thatā€™s been taken from him. or an ache felt when hearing stories from zib and the band and how they used to travel successfully, living as nomads, and rocky is all too reminded of his similar lifestyle and how he couldnā€™t make it work as effortlessly. people with immense trauma are more prone to irrational anger and jealousy, to viewing everything around them as unfair and believing itā€™s even more unjust that so many people get to live comfortably while theyā€™ve suffered. a situation that gets more messy when youā€™re someone like rocky, a man whoā€™s willingly made choices that have harmed himself and wants to continue on with his smiling, bumbling fool of an act. he does not want to be angry, does not want to see it within himself, i think, which leads to an accidental increase of it.
all of this is to reiterate that wick is a scapegoat for rocky and nothing more. itā€™s why heā€™s rather hypocritical whenever it concerns the man. for example, it was stated by tracy that he looks down upon wick for his excessive presence at the bar, yet he appears to enjoy hanging out with zib -- who drinks just as often! he makes fun of how all wick ever talks about is rocks, when he himself is prone to poetry rambles that people find irritating or boring, and etc etc. this is also just a human nature thing, to critique someone you heavily dislike and even going as far as to belittle things you love or do in your own day to day because you just hate them that bad! but given rockyā€™s willingness to befriend anyone, it more so reeks of a dehumanization element. wick is every obstacle in his way, every divine force that threatens to send him packing again, so he is equal parts unnerved by wickā€™s presence and angry about it. it is mostly a fear response we are seeing, an emotion thatā€™s morphed into long held resentment and anger. so his actions are extremely defensive, with him trying to push wick far away and keep him and mitzi separate, like some sort of animal attempting to ward off a threat thatā€™s come too close to their home. despite the loaded animosity there, this hate has hardly reached its peak ā€¦ but it shall only grow more intense as things continue onward iā€™m afraid, since as it stands ( in the comic at least ) rocky is at an all time low ā€¦ and is ten times more desperate. iā€™d honestly say wick has become so warped in his mindā€™s eye that he can only strive towards ā€˜winningā€™ over the other man, because thatā€™s all he can see anymore. i think mitzi implying that wick willingly helped her out, the intense head injury, and rockyā€™s fragile emotional state is exactly what pushes him towards premeditated murder in look-see. i donā€™t know how people perceive that arc, but to me itā€™s very clear that rocky actively sought to see the deaths of wes and fish that night. going as far as to lament that heā€™d be, ā€œvery disappointed if ( he ) dreamed them,ā€ and purposefully luring the marigold duo away to have freckle pick them off. while you could argue that this was a smart move, in a gangster sort of sense, thereā€™s still no denying that rocky is oddly chipper about the whole thing and is now seeking death out ; whereas before his methods of vengeance were just, well, ruining peopleā€™s livelihood but ultimately leaving them alive. this isnā€™t to discredit the fact that rocky is going through something! he is in a very muddled and dark place, mentally and physically, but even tracy has said that the head injury hasnā€™t changed rockyā€™s personality -- itā€™s only brought things to the surface.
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source : q&a with tracy .
which, yeah! makes sense! head trauma can cause a person to become a wreck emotionally ( think mood swings, irritability, etc ) but it doesnā€™t completely morph someone either. personality changes may occur, but itā€™s not like youā€™re being rewritten entirely, you know? and given tracyā€™s old statement, itā€™s clear that ā€˜personality changesā€™ arenā€™t a side effect heā€™s suffering from. something that adds to my beginning statement, which is that rocky is a deeply angry and troubled person, more so than fans give him any credit for.
however, to touch upon your mini opinion about these two, i actually wholeheartedly agree that rocky and wick could become friends if circumstances were different. they do in fact have many superficial similarities, but one of the more prominent things they deeply share is never really belonging in the groups they frequent. this is more overt with rockyā€™s character, yet wick faces it too in subtle ways. the well-to-do crowd, seen through the investors, find the gentleman to be lacking in about every place imaginable ; to them he is an obsessive freak who cares too deeply for meager rocks, something they constantly mock him for, while heā€™s also being noticeably set apart from the rest of them ā€¦ he seems younger than the investors, more excitable, passionate, and a little less experienced, and doesnā€™t seem to care for money or reputation as much as them either. there is a constant rubbing between him and them, where what he enjoys is seen as wrong, such as his love for the lackadaisy and his choice in paramor, a grieving widow with extremely dangerous ties. we also know that wick doesnā€™t have many friends at all, with the only two he has being lacy and church ( church is listed as such on his character profile, in a sort of tongue-in-cheek way ), both of whom work for or with him. they are obliged to hang around, and while they care in varying ways, they are prone to judging him just as much. honestly, itā€™s not shocking that wick seeks refuge at his chosen speakeasy! but even there he is rather distant from everyone else. he doesnā€™t speak to zib ever in the comics, nor seems all too close with viktor, ivy, or horatio ā€¦ it is merely mitzi he is close to, even if he knows of the other people who work there. and, once again, wick very obviously doesnā€™t fit in. he is not gangster material, could never be an atlas may replacement, much less someone who could get his paws dirty in such an active way. so he has his feet in two different worlds and doesnā€™t know how to fit into either of them, or which one he actually wants to fit into more. i think in many ways rocky could relate -- these are two very lonely people who wish to belong somewhere and be accepted by some group or another but go about it in all the wrong ways. wick, who is too hesitant to fully commit to what he wants and is worse off for it, and then rocky, who obsessively throws himself against what he wants until he breaks every bone in his body. they also have explosives to bond over, lol, and other miscellaneous things like their taste in women i suppose ā€¦ but this potential bond adds to the tragedy of lackadaisy, where we see two people who on every level should get along but weā€™re burdened with the knowledge that itā€™s an impossibility anyway, because thereā€™s no removing the circumstance of which theyā€™re in.
though i like to believe that despite wickā€™s fear of rocky, he maintains a kindness towards him regardless. i think his worries about rocky are rather surface level ā€¦ he doesnā€™t know the boy at all, really, and thus canā€™t make heads or tails of him, hence him believing the lie in balderdash. so when iā€™m feeling particularly self indulgent, i like imagining a world where theyā€™re forced together and sort of ā€˜stuckā€™ together ; to which rocky finally breaks and exposes his wounds to wick, in every sense of the word, and wick finally gets him. the aggression, the possessiveness of mitzi ā€¦ it is all fear and desperation and a profound sadness, things heā€™d sympathize with. if rocky was able to explain that he loathes wick because if he saves the lackadaisy then mitzi wonā€™t need him anymore and that itā€™s not fair that wick gets to so easily fix things when rocky would give his soul for his home, for her, and how wick could render every sacrifice heā€™s already made for naught by smoothing things over with some greenbacks and he canā€™t lose this, he just canā€™t --! ā€¦ which, well, wick is too kind of a man to be able to do anything except feel awful, even though itā€™s not his fault at all. here we have two people who could coexist! and they should, since rocky logically canā€™t do every speakeasy job ( band member, rumrunner, mitziā€™s shadow, also the guy who gets the money for the hooch ) by himself, just like how wick canā€™t save the lackadaisy with only his cash and limited booze stash. itā€™d be a joint cooperation, a collaboration between them, both equally important in the grand scheme of crimeā€™s every turning wheel ā€¦ but rockyā€™s rage and fear wonā€™t let him see that, and likely never will. still, in scenarios where everything ends up alright for the lackadaisy and the people involved in it ( which is not how canon will go, by the way ), i fancy wick and rocky getting better within their relationship. rocky will always be prickly and quick to upset around the other man sadly, but perhaps he could see wick in a softer kind of light. or at least understand vaguely enough that he isnā€™t out to get rocky, so to speak. and then maybe wick learns that pancakes soothe rockyā€™s ire and poorly makes them anytime he wishes to talk to the man, and other fun things like that! but you should have more confidence in your character analysis skills, because you were spot on ( at least in my eyes ) about them potentially getting along if things were different. itā€™s certainly a fun aspect to play around with, and is important to note when discussing their relationship so you can fully understand just how warped rockyā€™s perspective on things are. and how unstable and traumatized he is too, of course </3 sidenote, but i also hope that throughout everything iā€™ve said here, or anything iā€™ve said before on my blog, that my love for rocky and my own sympathy for him comes across well enough. while heā€™s deeply flawed and i have no qualms discussing said flaws in depth, i also donā€™t think of him as some insane freak whoā€™s evil at his core or anything like that. honestly, i adore analyzing him so much as a character because of how far down his issues go! heā€™s very well written, iā€™ll say, as is wick and many of the other characters, but i digress.
once more, thank you for the ask! iā€™ll end this here because i fear if i donā€™t iā€™ll start going in circles, since their relationship is so vast and very important for rocky in a character sense. hopefully i shed some more light on it though! i love these two to bits and pieces and i wouldnā€™t be half as invested in lackadaisy if their dynamic wasnā€™t so monumental -- at least to me.
#my asks.#lackadaisy analysis.#lackadaisy#rocky rickaby#sedgewick sable#tracy j butler#i also think rockyā€™s sudden taste for marigold blood is him making marigold his other scapegoat#he isnā€™t dealing with anything in a healthy manner and is so traumatized itā€™s starting to spill out of him ā€¦ which is. uh. not good!!#but it sure is whatā€™s currently happening regardless#cannot stress enough that rock is a very ill and traumatized individual who hasnā€™t had a single break in his life#he is constantly in stressful situations that are dangerous ā€¦ and like.#when youā€™re constantly put in those situations you become numb. and angry. and it becomes hard to heal#or to truly connect to others ā€¦ etc#i could talk in depth about rockyā€™s traumas and why theyā€™ve caused this anger issue and this inner disharmony inside#because frankly thereā€™s a lot there! and i hate to say it but people who are hurt normally show their hurt in ugly ways#especially if mentally ill ā€¦ which rocky is imo#itā€™s just the reality of things! this isnā€™t me demonizing mental illness or the effects of trauma. iā€™m just being realistic here#someone as deeply troubled as rocky ( someone with NO outlet and whom hides his feelings from others and himself )#is bound to be. well. troubled!! his smiling facade is merely another mask he wears to cope and to be good for the people he loves#it is not ā€¦ really rocky rickaby ā€¦ rocky rickaby is that and the wrath and the self destruction and more#AHEM but i digress. how rocky treats wick and all that has really done wonders for understanding his character#and i truly love the wick / rocky / mitzi trio so bad. their relationships with each other is what drew me into this world#like. i am shaking them so much. the overlap!! the complexities inherit in their bonds and what that says about the individual characters!#itā€™s amazing truly lol like ā€¦ i have had such fun thinking about them twenty four seven for the past three-ish months#anyway. anyway! i love analyzing these bitches. they can fit so much into them#and iā€™m rooting for wickmitzi endgame and for wick to desperately try to bond with rocky ā€¦ while his bloodshot eye is twitching as we speak#lots of fun!!! lots of pain and agony too ā€¦ rocky is nothing but a painful character alas. that is his nature. but that is also his appeal#and ooops iā€™ll shut up in the tags now i just. have a lot to say. and a lotta love to give to these two!! but uh. yeah <3 loved writing thi
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ananinidraws Ā· 1 month ago
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Part 1 of this year's Art Fight highlights <3333 Starting off with some RTumblr folks <3333
1DK as well as the Magical John on the center belong to @1dkreally
Ingo as well as the Magical John on the right belong to @yinyangle
Fluffy belongs to @fluffydancer618
(and also cameo appearance by @copperexception)
Shay belongs to @justtrashperson
Rathalos belongs to @morkify
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essektheylyss Ā· 9 months ago
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hi hello hi I need to scream for a sec but I HAVE A SHORT STORY IN A PRINT ANTHOLOGY! like a real actual physical book!!! the anthology as a whole is about resource scarcity and specifically the moment a resource runs out, and true to form I wrote a funky thing about time and grief and messy familial relationships and gardening. cuz what is there to do when something ends other than to keep maintaining your plants.
this isn't even to say you should totally buy this thing but if you do want to check it out, it's available for preorder
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snove101 Ā· 28 days ago
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lref as my friends dms/server
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lunarharp Ā· 11 months ago
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figured i'd do this again..bit early i guess..
#to cheer me up.. i feel bad atm.. these things don't even make me feel very good tho bc i'm such a narrative/sketch-based artist..#but Proper Beautiful Finished Pieces are what grab attention and look good at the end of the year all neatly lined up lol.....#so looking at a ā€œyearly reviewā€ where i can only choose 'the best image of the month' (??) is like...What have i even been doing...#i did a month by month look back on twt for myself instead..but even that doesn't express the quantity of comic-based stuff..#that i do put a lot of time/heart into..but alas i feel bad bringing even them back..RTing/reblogging my own art simply feels bad lol..#AND WHY IS IT ALL B&W...trying to accept that i LIKE doing that and sketching and scribbling..not like i'm trying to like..Get Artist Job..#this year was so profoundly lonely at times bc i spent all my time drawing instead of socialising and trying to find friends....#please please please have achieved more of your dreams in the future so you can look back at 2023 and think..#It was good that happened so that it got me further to the future. Or whatever i guess.....................#regardless i did have a great amount of fun drawing and improving this year and dwelling deeply & heavily on witch hat atelier.#art-wise and emotionally....march july & september were the best months i think..AUGUST WAS SO WEIRD SUMMER IS SO EVIL ALWAYS.#thank you very much if you are reading this for enjoying & leaving nice tags & such like <3 i've realised how fulfilling that is to receive#really keeps me posting stuff here instead of keeping it all to myself in my head#i wish everyone in this world could have a safe and happy end of year. i wish living in this world were easier
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capn-twitchery Ā· 6 months ago
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did i already send you one? if not: šŸŽ² with elias and your oc of choice please ?
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21. WILDCARD! Dealerā€™s choice :) - (kiss asks from here!)
filed under "fun activities to do with someone after they set you on fire" (@the-dye-stained-socialite )
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dbphantom Ā· 4 months ago
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Garp when that one kid he was asked to take care of is being executed in front of him
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Garp when some kid he just thought was neat is in danger
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kkpwnall Ā· 1 year ago
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if it wasnā€™t for bad luck i wouldnā€™t have luck at all
part one | rated t | 1270 words | cw: parental death
all my thanks and love to my beloved @fragilecapric0rnn for beta-reading šŸ’œ you're a rockstar and your feedback was so so helpful
Eddie was born under a bad sign. Thatā€™s what his momma always used to say. Friday the 13th, and in October? He never really stood a chance and neither did anyone else he got close to. He was like a black cat walking across their path.Ā 
[ keep reading below, or read on ao3 ]
His momma was first, of course. Cursed by the fate of Eddieā€™s birth from the very beginning. And if he hadnā€™t dawdled on the way home from school that day, if he had gone straight home just like heā€™d promised, if he hadnā€™t stopped to pick a bouquet of ditch weed wildflowers for her and got distracted by caterpillars and rollie-polliesā€” Well, maybe he wouldā€™ve been able to tell the 911 operator she was still breathing when he found her.
His daddy was next, not much long after. Eddie worshiped him like a hero in one of his fantasy stories, the charming, devil-may-care, down on his luck protagonist who stole from the rich and gave to the needy. But the first time Floyd brought him out on a real job, just the two of them, when all Eddie had to do was hot wire the getaway car after he heard the signal (three hoots like a barn owl), Eddie panicked.Ā Did he say barn owl or barred owl? Was that two hoots or three? Why did the wires all look the same in the dark?
When the police cars painted him in their flashing red and blue lights, he dropped the wire cutters and ran. Floyd went down in a hail of bullets behind the car Eddie had been trying to steal, and Wayne got his own life sentence when the State dropped Eddie on his doorstep.
Uncle Wayne got the worst of it, obviously. Working himself to the bone, nights and weekends, to put Eddie through school. Not to mention senior year for a second and third goddamn time.
It was too late by the time young Eddie figured it out. By the time he decided to keep everyone at armā€™s length.
Itā€™s safer that way, for everyone.
Chrissy was just the latest in a long line. And heā€™d only lowered his guard an inch, a millimeter, when he saw someone just as lonely and desperate for a friend. Heā€™d only barely started to let himself have an inkling of what an actual friendship with her might be like whenā€”
This is exactly why Eddie doesnā€™t haveĀ friends.Ā He has minions. He has little lost sheepies, he has twerps and shrimps. And thatā€™s it. Thatā€™s enough. It has to be enough.
But all that changes the day he dies.
Or maybe itā€™s the day he finally wakes up. His new birthday, welcomed to the world once again in a cold, bright, sterile hospital room.
And really, the way he sees it, itā€™s all Hendersonā€™s fault.
The little shit wanders in every day at visiting hours and makes himself right at home. He props his cast up on Eddieā€™s bed, and steals the remote to change the channel on the ancient, minuscule tv over to cartoons, and then he justā€¦ camps out! All day!
The kid will not leave him alone, no matter how cold a shoulder Eddie tries to give him. He even broke down and explained everything to him. How heā€™s bad luck, heā€™s bad news. And people who get too close to him end up dead.
But maybe the painkillers theyā€™ve got him on scrambled his brain as bad as the bats scrambled his guts, because Dustin steamrolls right over him.
ā€œIf curses were real, which they arenā€™t,ā€ he posits in his professor voice, ā€œYour dumb curse canā€™t try to kill meĀ again.Ā It already took a shot and it missed, and the worst I got was a busted ankle.ā€
Eddie opens his mouth to tell DustinĀ thatā€™s not how curses workĀ butā€”
ā€œAnd what was its goal anyway? To get you alone and friendless, dead in a ditch? Well then, mission accomplished!ā€
Which isā€¦ weirdly comforting when he puts it like that.
Dustin brings with him a rotating cast of the rest of the fellowship. Eddie finally gets to meet Baby Byers and finds out heā€™s already been recruited to Hellfire before Eddie can even say hello.
More often than not, Steve tags along too since heā€™s already ferrying them all between the hospital and home. Usually after heā€™s spent some time with Red and the other kids in her room, heā€™ll drop by. To check on Dustin of course.
Itā€™s not because heĀ likesĀ Eddie. Donā€™t be ridiculous. He doesnā€™t even know him.
All thatā€¦Ā beforeā€¦ it was just some harmless flirting to keep himself from completely losing it while he was on the run from homicidal bible-thumpers. And Steve was just humoring him.
So he hides behind stupid flirtatious remarks, easy to brush off when itā€™s always undercut with sly winks and salacious expressions. Enough to keep everything surface level. Keep him at arms length.
It doesnā€™t matter that his eyes still seem to linger on Eddie, even when he hasnā€™t said anything for a while. Or that he brings Eddie extra pudding cups from the cafeteria. It doesnā€™t mean anything when he stands in the doorway trying to finish one last story or joke, until the kids almost literally have to drag him out when visiting hours are over.
Because it turns out Steve is an incorrigible gossip. And Eddieā€™s not about to be the one to corrige him. Not when he brings an extra dr. pepper for Eddie every time he stops by the vending machine for a coke and gleefully tells Eddie which of the doctors, nurses, and shady government agents are sleeping together.
A can of coke he taps on the lid with a peculiar rhythm before he cracks it, every time.
ā€œWhatā€™s up with that?ā€ Eddie finally has to ask one day, when itā€™s just the two of them and the Price is Right.
Steve hums this confused little sound at him, tilting his head with furrowed brows as he takes the first sip.
Eddie repeats the pattern, tapping it out on his own can.
Steve blinks a few times, first at Eddie, then at the can in his hand.
ā€œI didnā€™t even realize I did that,ā€ he huffs out a laugh. ā€œItā€™s uhā€¦ something my grandpa taught me when I was a kid. Yā€™know just for luck.ā€
The blood in Eddieā€™s veins freezes and heā€™s stuck like that for a painfully long moment. Propped up against the lumpy hospital pillows with his mouth half open, staring at Steve.
ā€œFor luck.ā€ he says flatly.
ā€œYeah, so the fizz doesnā€™t explode when you open it.ā€
ā€œAnd has thatĀ everĀ happened to you?ā€ Aiming for flirty, aiming for scathing, aiming for anything thatā€™s not desperation.
ā€œWell no,ā€ Steve says with an easy shrug and a conspiratorial smile, ā€œthatā€™s why itā€™s lucky. Itā€™s like picking up a coin thatā€™s face-down on the sidewalk.ā€
ā€œUh, Iā€™m pretty sure itā€™s face-up, darlin,ā€ Eddie says coyly, like every alarm bell in his head isnā€™t ringing a deafening cacophony.
ā€œNah see, you gotta leave those ones for someone who really needs the luck.ā€
ā€œBut thenĀ youĀ get the bad luck.ā€
ā€œNah, doesnā€™t work that way,ā€ Steve says, and fuckingĀ winksĀ at him.
Eddie wants to shake him.Ā What is wrong with him?Ā Heā€™s got it all backwards and itā€™s dangerous. How is he walking around like this?
Whatever, itā€™s not his problem. Steve can do whatever Steve wants. Eddie doesnā€™t need to protect him from himself. Itā€™s not like theyā€™re friends. And really, thatā€™s the best way to protect him.
[ part two ]
[ also on ao3 ]
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kingofanemptyworld Ā· 6 months ago
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whereā€™s my grimmichi soul eater au. itā€™s right there. ichigo potentially has a harem of weapons but functionally he uses shirosaki and the old man as dual swords. grimm as a weapon is just as appealing as grimm as a meister. if heā€™s a weapon heā€™s belligerent as hell and absolutely no one wants to partner with him (the more violent version of Excalibur, if you will). as a meister heā€™s got human-sona pantera as his weapon and he challenges ichigo to fights every time they cross paths. cā€™mon. please. this would be so fun.
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billpottsismygf Ā· 6 months ago
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Episode 4 of Dead Boy Detectives (Lighthouse Leapers) doesn't quite reach the heights of last episode, but it was still good. I really appreciate the way this show is able to blend comedy and darkness. I love its oddball sense of humour and I often catch myself laughing out loud, particularly at Niko, and it never clashes with the dark storylines running alongside it, which takes a lot of skill.
I would be surprised if that's the last we see of the Night Nurse. Although Charles' defeat of her was brutal, or 'extreme' to quote Edwin, it was satisfying to see him get to fight back against someone hurting him, especially after seeing his father's abuse and his death at the hands of his "friends". I also want to know more about him stopping his friends from beating someone up.
This thought is slightly out of left field, but I find it interesting that seeing a male hero hitting a female character, even a villainous one, might have been impossible to include a while ago. It is a very unusual sight and people have pointed out before that usually, when a woman needs to be physically fought in an action scene, she is often only allowed to be hit by a female hero. While obviously I don't mean that it's actually fine to hit women, I do like that maybe we're moving beyond this reductive 'don't hit girls' narrative (combined with the 'it's fine and dandy for a woman to slap a man for comedy' one). Sometimes a woman is in a position of violent authority and is using that power to hurt a man (or boy, technically, in this case) and it's cathartic to see him get to retaliate.
Again, there's a rift forming between Edwin and Charles as they struggle to be honest with one another. Interestingly, they both seem able to talk to one of the others. Charles opens up to Crystal about his father and feeling angry, while Edwin (although still not saying much) seems able to be honest with Niko in a way he can't be with anyone else. Niko is perhaps becoming my second favourite character, and something about her brand of upfront quirkiness (read: autism) breaks through a lot of Edwin's defences. Their talk on the sea shore was my favourite part of the episode, with them watching scooby doo together at the end maybe a close second.
There have been hints since the beginning of Edwin maybe having feelings for Charles, and this is dealt with somewhat directly for the first time with the Cat King shapeshifting into him, and then that little lingering shot later that Edwin has to shake himself out of. I don't have much to say about it other than that I love that Edwin, who has even admitted now that he doesn't know whether he wants to kiss Monty, has enough love interests - none of whom are ideal in one way or another - to make his sexuality journey, much like this sentence, as confusing and complicated as possible.
Small things:
The washer woman is a cool concept well-executed.
I want to know more about Asha.
I love the Walrus man and am glad he seems to have his own running subplot.
Jenny's "love letters" are giving me huge creepy vibes, but I'm also intrigued.
I missed Esther this episode. Even when she only appears for 30 seconds, it really brightens the whole thing.
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verysmallcyborg Ā· 5 months ago
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had a lot of fun at the pvp & pride art party!!! thank you to the lovely hosts of <TRANS> for putting it together <3 it was nice seeing a bunch of familiar faces and meeting a couple of them ingame for the first time :D
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soysaucevictim Ā· 5 months ago
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Brain is now just imagining Remus play the sax. :,D
... Just remembered the Epic Sax Guy. Pffft. I can't-
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bi-functional Ā· 1 year ago
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Do I already have an au thats got its own folder in my google drive about Visually Impaired Bill? Yes. Do I want to talk about it because I broke my glasses and forgot how blind I am? Yes.
Thereā€™s just something about low visibility and how itā€™s such a concept to play with. My eyesight is Horrible and itā€™s almost impossible for me to get 20/20 vision, you could be standing a yard from me and I wouldnā€™t be able to see your face and my eye sight is just going to keep deteriorating with age. And for those curious, I do have contacts to wear, though like I mentioned, they do not give me 20/20 and also my jokes of being unable to cry or show emotions was taken too seriously by my eyes which decided they would also be unable to produce moisture properly, which makes contacts extremely irritating and hard to wear for long periods of time, even with the aid of special eyedrops.
But also, itā€™s been brought to my attention how likeā€¦ genuinely fun and eerie you can make low visibility, and this isnā€™t me making light of being visually impaired or anything this is just genuine shit thatā€™s been happening to me for the past week and Iā€™d like you to imagine the following scenarios with Bill in mind:
Staring at people completely dead eyed, only to be told to stop staring at them cause itā€™s creepy. Apparently weā€™ve been having a staring contest but I was just trying to track movement of the faceless thing that walked in so I could stay aware of my surroundings.
Being told repeatedly to look at things thatā€™s impossible for me to make out without any aid, fr sometimes I feel like Toph from avatar with the way my family tries to show me shit and has to be reminded I cannot, in fact, see them or what theyā€™re trying to show me.
Having to keep a physical hand on the people I go out with in order to keep a physical marker on them. If I were to loose them in a crowd I would not be able to find them.
The people who choose to adapt to my extremely low visibility and those who choose to be irritated by it. The difference between those two.
With Bill having only One Eye, imagining that one eye having terrible and deteriorating vision is just a concept that I enthusiastically get my grubby little hands all over uk? Regardless of if itā€™s a human au, or if itā€™s an ā€˜axolotl sent me to earth in a human form as punishmentā€™ au or however you want to spin it. An all seeing Eye and being of an alternate dimension warped with dreams and nightmares and unreality being unable to properly conceive the reality heā€™s been so desperate to find his way into is just a Good Prompt to me idk broski.
It is now time for some of the Bill headcanons I have in this department and in that previously mentioned AU folder.
Bill calls Dipper Pinetree after stealing his cap and discovering the embroidered pine tree on it. Dipper had refused to give his name hoping to be left alone but Bill simply found other solutions.
Bill keeping a constant hand or arm around Dipper while in public spaces.
Others initiating obvious and intentional contact with Bill when they start speaking to him, commonly but not limited to group conversations. Itā€™s a more meaningful way to ā€˜maintain eye contactā€™ or allow them to give him their full attention.
Bill also has a contact he can wear when he needs to, but sometimes due to migraines or general discomfort he simply wonā€™t wear it.
This post is already way too long but yeah ā¤ļø Wether itā€™s a human au or not just Bill having to deal with a human version of himself thatā€™s extremely visually impaired as a juxtaposition to the All Seeing Eye of his true form. Thatā€™s all Iā€™m pitching here. I have so many thoughts uk. So many auā€™s.
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ova-kakyoin Ā· 2 years ago
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hate watching anime that is almost ALMOST there when it comes to capitalist critiques
you are so right billionares and corporations would use the discovery of life on other planets to make money and build tourist traps. keep going
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tathrin Ā· 7 months ago
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not me babe. entire world dodged a bullet by handing me that ace of spades card. hot damn but dating me would be awful.
actually being aro is a tragedy. not for me but for the allos. I'm a catch.
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