#aka aspergers

[thotslayerdio]

pro tip: doctors are bullshit and don't know a single thing it doesn't matter what the doctor said, informed self-diagnosis is valid.

i'm in a weird boat vaguely similar to yours RN. when i was 16 i was diagnosed with autism (after years of researching and convincing my parents to get my evaluated...). i recently had another neuropsyche evaluation, but this doctor thinks i'm not autistic and actually have something called "social pragmatic communication disorder". (nothing is official yet, i haven't gotten the paperwork. still waiting since march LOL.) anyways, this happened even though four other doctors (as well as my therapist) think i'm autistic.

you can get a second opinion, or you can do what i did and say "fuck it, doctors don't know me as well as i know myself" (which is true BTW).

Kinda hate that when talking about autism being a disability, some people only focus on the sensory part and ignore every other trait that can be disabling, or minimize those. Autism isn't only about sensory issues and these are not the only thing that make us have difficulties and be disabled.

Communication difficulties, social difficulties, difficulties with emotional regulation, rigid thinking, executive dysfunction, etc, are also traits that can be very disabling, and cause meltdowns and shutdowns, btw.

Not saying that sensory issues are not important, they are but they are not the only thing that make autism a disability.

[osokasstuff]

my 2 cents about h slur (slur for intersex people) because all my dash is filled by this discourse. /not negative towards discoursants

(0) h slur is a slur. perisex people can't say it. even if they're standing up against it's usage. "h slur"/"h word" is right here. explains what someone means without actually using it. intersex people can reclaim it if they want. but no one can use it to refer to random intersex people or in a derogatory way.

h slur shouldn't be used as biological term. that's my reasons why:

(1) it was originated as a slur for intersex people (humans) specifically. people may argue that "in actual science it means different," but

(2) this slur WAS and IS actively used for describing intersex variations/intersex people/intersex bodies. there WERE intersex variations that were called "true h-slur-ism" and "pseudo h-slur-ism." there ARE PEOPLE (DOCTORS AND SCIENTISTS) RIGHT FUCKING NOW who still use these phrases to describe intersex people/their variations. this meaning ISN'T GONE. even if some sources & guidelines proclaim it to be outdated, IT HAPPENS. it happens right now during medical abuse and scientifical fetishization of intersex people. (aka people in science still use h word to make intersex people suffer).

[PT: this slur was and is actively used for describing intersex variations/intersex people/intersex bodies. there were intersex variations that were called "true h-slur-ism" and "pseudo h-slur-ism." there are people (doctors and scientists) right fucking now who still use these phrases to describe intersex people/their variations. this meaning isn't gone. even if some sources & guidelines proclaim it to be outdated, it happens. it happens right now during medical abuse and scientifical fetishization of intersex people. (aka people in science still use h word to make intersex people suffer). /end PT]

(3) okay let's ✨️imagine✨️ the hypothetical scenario where all science & medical workers stopped to use h slur to people. they use it only to cosexual/dichogamous/monoescious/whatever organisms. will all people be such educated? well, the idea of "let's stop using h slur on people" started decades ago? and we're still here. people (including medical & scientific) still use h slur for intersex people. moreso, not medical/scientific professionals still widely think that h slur means intersex. that it's a scientific word for intersex people. IT'S VERY DIFFICULT TO CHANGE MEANING OF SUCH A LOADED WORD. [PT: it's very difficult to change meaning of such a loaded word]. plus people are very reluctant to learn about intersex people & intersex rights. you know, you can see it in all these discourses. so. even if in our perfect hypothetical where medical & science workers are very open to listening to intersex people (very far from reality). h slur still will be misused. and that leads us to the next point.

(4) why do we need to preserve term that isn't really accurate (includes very different types of organisms and doesn't say anything specific about how actually reproduction of the species works. like. cosexual gives specific info. dichogamous gives specific info. h slur? nothing specific), is widely misused, has history of horrific violence, and literally offends people? why do we need this word? do we really need it? some terms change. because they're found inaccurate/offensive/shitty/bad for other reasons. example: asperger's syndrome. this term has history of eugenics, is inaccurate (it's still autism), and is offensive. so it was considered outdated and changed. (but people still use it sometimes, so it takes time to leave harmful terms behind). so like. everyone survived. why everyone can't survive living h slur behind?

[nicodrawings]

Dump time featuring Billie Morales aka Silly Billie

Update 2: oh! Also the first two illustrations are based on Yotsuba art!

Update: ok HC time, if you wanna know more keep reading as usual.

BILLIE SECTION

-I made Billie 5 years old.

-I’ve mentioned this before but Billie has Asperger’s.

-She didn’t talk until she was like 3 going on 4.

-Her nickname is "silly billy"

-Miles always says "how's my favorite girl in the whole wide world?" when he comes home from school on the weekends.

-Miles is a doting big brother and helps take care of her as well as connecting with her interests.

-As much as she loves her parents, she thinks the world of Miles. She's up under him the most, especially when she's over stimulated, stressed or sleepy. His heartbeat calms her.

-She has a limit to physical contact and taps when she’s ready to let go. She usually only hugs her family. Her and Ganke do hand touches instead of hugs.

-The family helps her navigate her environment and her emotions as well as socializing but never push anything that makes her uncomfortable. They always ask questions and have special routines to help her.

-A part of her routine is on Saturdays they go to the park so she can see the pigeons.

-Miles does not like pigeons, but tolerates them for Billies sake.

-They also have special songs for her like "🎶when you walk across the street take ur eyes off your feet🎶" to remind her to look both ways and pay attention when walking across the street since she can get distracted easily.

-The songs they use also attach her to music. So whenever they go to ganke he plays the piano for her and they make songs up and when she hears a song she likes she starts stimming and wiggling.

-She also takes interest in drawing because she sees Miles drawing and they draw animals and watch Steve Irwin on Saturdays too.

-She doesn't understand figure of speeches so if you say "don't sweat it" she would be like "...sweat what?"

-she doesn’t show a lot of emotions unless she’s feeling something intense.

-She rarely sees Miles in superhero mode in public but when she does she just goes “SPIDER!” and smiles and he waves at her.

-Moral of this story, she is loved.

HOBIE

-He lives with his grandparents in the Bronx area (I’m not sure which side yet tho).

-He loves his grandparents very much.

-One time at a punk rock concert a wise man told him “the most punk thing to do is to take care of yourself, don’t be reliant on the system to do so, cuz they ain’t”

-He told his grandpa the following day and they had a heart to heart about it considering that Hobie was very depressed at the time.

-So with that being said, health is incredibly important to him.

-Some ppl tease him and call him “straight-edge” but it don’t bother him much.

-Hobie officially meets the other spiders when he’s 16.

-Clicks with Gwen and Miles almost immediately.

-Especially Miles, Peter always jokes and says that they were definitely brothers in their past lives.

-Gwen and Hobie bond over music.

-Gwen gets the crush first.

-But unlike Miles she’s more forward and doesn’t wait a billion years so she’s asks him out.

-Hobie says yes.

-Only one that knows how to drive by the time he’s 18.

OTHER STUFF

-Gwen’s relationship with her father just…never gets better in my AU. He’s just an ass and as far as Gwen is concerned they’re not family, they’re just related. With that being said, although it’s never acknowledged, Gwen definitely sees Peter as a father figure in her life. She even has him as her top emergency contact. Peter started to understand this when she was 16, he never questioned it and sees her as his oldest daughter. When she’s had really bad arguments with her father she goes to Peters and spends the night.

-Peter and MJ’s home is open to all the spiderkids. No questions asked.

-Peter and MJ always say “On our taxes we have one kid” when people ask them how many kids they have.

-When Peter gets home he sees how many pairs of shoes are at the door then yells “how many kids are in the house?" They usually yell in response which gives him an idea as to how many kids are there.

-On average there’s no less than 2.

-One time he asked and a really deep voice responded along with the kids.

-It was Venom.

-All the spiders have their own therapist’s but every other weekend there’s a group therapy session for kids with powers funded by S.H.E.I.L.D. It’s not required that they go but it’s open for them regardless, just sign up and come in.

-Ganke donates some of his legos to the program and helps assist sometimes with running it since it’s not ran in the best shape.

-This connects to a bigger problem of helping hero’s with their mental health and stability, especially when they decide to retire.

-If you read the other AU list I had, this is the reason why Ganke switches his major to Social Work when he goes to college.

NICKNAMES

Peter’s nicknames for the kids:

Miles-“Junior/Little Man”

May-“Mayday”

Gwen-"Gwennie Pie”

Ganke-“Goober”

Hobie-“Hobie” (obviously)

Anya-“Ani”

Ganke’s nicknames:

Friends-“Gee” judge calls him “G-money”

Miles’s mom-“Honey”

Ganke’s mom-“Gee-Chan”

The boy that bullies him AKA Sean “Gay-ke”

Peter-“Goober” (as I’ve said before)

Venom and Eddie-“Boy”

Miles’s for when he’s feeling affectionate-“Cariño”

Anyway that’s all I got for now! If you have any questions about my AU please feel free to ask away. I love talking about it as you can see.

[nic0-r0bs]

My Headcanons about L from my fanfic November 8th, 1997:

- L's eyes are actually grey. They are drawn black but in the anime there's a lighter outer ring, and I liked the idea of him having incredibly dilated pupils from being "stoned" from excessive glucose and caffein intake (a reference to Sherlock Holmes drug addition). Also, I've drawn "not so stoned L" and he's such a cutie! Might draw him again.

- He has almost no eyebrows nor eyelashes from rubbing his eyes too much because he never sleeps.

- He's canonically 1/4 English, 1/4 Japanese, 1/4 Russian and 1/4 Italian or French. Therefore in my fic he used to live with his mother (half Italian/half Russian), an alcoholic, and had a caring Italian great-aunt, who had married a Frenchman. On Sundays, his great-aunt brought him to gramps and granny. Gramps was an Italian soldier sent to Russia during WWII who escaped and was saved by a Russian farmer girl. Since L also canonically "stayed in England" for five years and entered Wammy's House only at 8, it made sense to me that his maternal grandparents would be immigrants in the US.

- He is neurodivergent, in my mind has Asperger's, and as a child he couldn't understand other people's emotions, reactions and feeling. His auntie got him psychology books (she used to be a teacher so she really encouraged him a lot) to help him understand people better, and he became so obsessed than after that he started reading books on cryminal psychology, because "normal people" minds had started becoming boring.

- He has sensory issues, and the ones linked to food have a double take. On one hand he loves sweets because he wasn't allowed to eat them, so when he discovered them he became obsessed (I'm picturing Tim Burton's Willy Wonka as a child during Halloween, I even wrote a one-shot about it). On the other hand, he can't stand "normal" food because to him it tastes like ash, because his mother would tap her cigarette in his dish while he was still eating, telling him that it was taking him too much time to eat (he already had a hard time eating in general).

- He has a strong sense of personal space (except, apparently, with Light, as we can see in-canon) and dislikes touch (except with Misa's ass in-canon, If I may add). But, as I ponted out, those rules don't apply to everyone 👀👀👀

- Also has OCD, and when he didn't live with Watari (aka Alfred Pennyworth) he used to clean and do laundry because everything had to be exactly as he expected. I also picture him wasting days to decorate a Christmas tree because it needs to be perfectly symmetrical and balanced.

- Speaking of house chores, he would also love cooking (his Italian blood showing), and used to do it often to remember his gramps and auntie who he liked very much.

- I pictured Wammy's House as an academy for gifted people which at a certain point has been funded by Thatcher government to train spies or detectives for the Cold War. L would rather be a detective than a spy, but has the necessary training, if needed. (Other OCs of mine instead went full bounty hunter/undercover agent, notably J and K. Mello would also be in spy program while Near would be in detective program).

- I liked the idea of having Watari older. A child soldier himself who served during WWII in the SAS (and he met Sir Christopher Lee!). I imagine Watari having good intentions with his academy for orpahned and gifted children, but he just couldn't understand what children in time of peace need. Or what they need in general. But then he grew attached to L and spoilt him without shame.

- L has endured a trauma which has caused him to regress at an infant stage. He used to be less hunched over and more athletic but he started feeling too overwhelmed and has worn out over the years. The clothes he wears were the same he had on the day of that traumatic event, and I pictured him moving towards the darkness, hand in pocket, day after day, growing more and more scrawny and curled up on himself (I should draw some panels for this!).

- He Falls First. But won't realize it because as much as he has studied psychology he's too arrogant to understand his own feelings.

- He's pansexual, and poly. I mean, he found Misa hot and we've all seen how obsessed he was with Light in-canon. I picture him being very open on those matters.

- ... and would be kinky af in bed. 💀 There I've said it.

Edit to add

- Tennis players have a hell of a physique. Just imagine L if he ate and sleep like a normal person and trained like a professional tennis player 👀👀👀👀

[condemnedgrievances]

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It's hard being Kankri Vantas. It's hard, and nobody understands. It's hard because you have aspergers which kind of puts a wrench in your want to get people to understand. It's hard having aspergers. It's hard, not only because of the point previously mentioned, but because it sounds like ass burgers. It's a pain in the ass burger to have aspergers. It's a pain, and whoever named it that is a dick.

[velvet-vox]

Am I the only one here who thinks that Anne would be amazing at flirting?

Like, probably the best out of the Calamity Trio?

I'm not saying this just because Anne has the thai rizz coupled with the black woman swag, though it's undeniable the fact that adult Anne is objectively hot; I'm talking about her education, references, personality type and attitude.

In other words I'm talking about her mother.

That woman is not a girlfailure, and even if I doubt that Anne has inherited even half of her mother's pull up skills (though I doubt she ever even used them. Her husband definitely was the one who pulled up on her first, and accidentally, yet again proving the fact that Anne has attractiveness in her genes and running through her veins), Miss Boonchuy definitely taught her daughter how to swing at someone, even if romance wasn't the main thing being learnt here, and beyond that, there's still enough evidence to tell that if Anne ever seriously tried to pull up on anyone, aka the girls, she would have the easiest time in the world.

Genuinely, the only thing probably impeding her parents hooking up was their obliviousness, which Anne inherited as well.

Marcy is an autistic idiot (affectionate), she wouldn't want to flirt with any of the other girls because she doesn't consider them as an option; in her mind, she has already labelled them as friends, so it's impossible for her to also date them at the same time. She would have the hardest time out of any member of the Amphibia cast, due to a combination of an inability to pick up social cues, a lack of an interest for romance (I'm not in the aromantic Marcy crowd), and a lack of any rizz whatsoever that isn't coming from the Asperger's syndrome.

Sasha.... Oh boy. You've seen her in the second half of the third season, right? Girl was downbad (fan's head canon) for Anne and was passively sabotaging her plans for her. Sure, she's a tough tomboy, but I doubt that if she ever started dating someone she would be able to use her smarts and brawns to good use.

[eggzeroni]

Yesss Slytherin gang 🐍🐍🐍 your interests make you sound so cool goddamn. I’ve been seeing so much Sherlock content on tumblr recently but I’ve never actually watched or read anything to do with the franchise. So this is an open invitation for you to info dump about Sherlock lol. I hope you’re having a good day!

Hello! Hope you're having an amazing day too!

Thank you so much! That really brightened my day 💕

As a lot of people know, I am the biggest Sherlock fan you will ever meet... Probably.

I love the case books, the mangas... But what I love most is BBC Sherlock. It has my heart forever. So here's some random things to know.

People in the Sherlock fandom love to ship Sherlock and John. Usually people don't get it, but you have to watch the show for the ship to make sense.

Sherlock's full name is William Sherlock Scott Holmes in BBC. COOL!

Sherlock's favourite colour is pink. PINK! <3

The Reichenback Fall is a part where Sherlock actually dies, but people loved him so much that Arthur Conan Doyle had to actually bring him back. 😭 (This is book lore)

He has bipolar, Asperger's Syndrome and I'm pretty sure he has Autism.

The only person to beat Sherlock was Irene Adler, aka The Woman, aka dominatrix which if you didn't know, means someone who likes to me the dominating one in... Well... I'm sure you can see where this is going. I didn't know this, I googled it :')

And yeah I could go on but those are some favourites of mine. Thanks for the fun ask! ❤️

[sombredancer]

How to be a more interesting character than the Main Hero (Pt.3)

Shangjue and his didi (pt.2/2)

Yuanzhi wants to save Shangjue from any kind of pain so badly, and not only because he feels guilt for brother's loss, but also because he is able to see brother's true personality: Shangjue is an invisible root of Gong tree.

When an assassin and didi have a conversation in the final part of the drama, she says that there are people, in front of whom Shangjue could be vulnerable, but Yanzhi smirks and says that the Martial World won`t allow it. And it happens to be true: he knows that Shangjue’s fiancée is an assassin and he knows that, no matter how much Shangjue is into her, she would not hesitate to kill him if she had a chance, so Shangjue`s soft spot for something (such as a woman he likes) would be his doom. But he needs to look invincible, because the whole clan counts on him and relies on him.

Because Shangjue is a root of Gong clan, everyone sees only thriving and green branches and beautiful flowers (which are wealth, power and secure of Gong clan), but no one sees that it wouldn`t be possible without a root, strong yet hidden under the soil (aka one hardworking man).

I often find the fate of Shangjue's type of heroes very unfair: a person unnoted takes care of everyone and is rewarded at the end only with sufferings and death. But this story is different, because Shangjue has got his didi, who doesn't care about world but eagerly takes care of him while he takes care of anything else. This scene was the second one during the drama that upset me a lot. I spoiled myself some shots of Yuanzhi crying over brother's body and I was sure he would die because he isn't fluffy and spotless enough to stay alive in Chinese drama. Fortunately, he didn't:

It works vice versa, too:

Yuanzhi is, I suppose, coded as someone like Asperger: he is kinda genius, he preferred insects and plants to people as he was a child, he couldn`t understand why people cry and felt uncomfortable with someone`s touching (he slipped out of Shangjue’s grip when Shangjue took his hand). And Shangjue did a great job socializing him.

Being an adolescent, Shangjue hadn`t problems with feeling expression. Things Shangjue taught his didi in a flashback are the opposite to those the Main Hero’s mum taught MH and to those Shangjue believes now. Shangjue told Yuanzhi that a man should cry because in that case someone would understand one's woe and this sympathizing could help to recuperate one's soul, but now he never cries in front of someone. However, Yuanzhi learned his lesson well and isn`t embarrassed to express his feelings freely.

I found this scene very weird (if not taking into account that the flower is obviously a red herring): the Main Hero and Shangjue both fancy girls, while didi fancies a magic flower. But later, as I finished the drama, I understood: didi fancies Shangjue the most. The unique and almost extinct flower isn`t some treasure for him, it matters only that this flower can save Shangjue`s life and increase his inner powers. The previous one was taken away from Shangjue, and Shangjue allowed it to happen, because his needs didn`t matter to him compared to prosperity of his clan. (Later, as we know, it was spent in vain by a villain, which made me feel terribly sorry for Shangjue). But his didi values him enough to try to take care of him once more (and for this time he has planted more than one, in order something would end up in Shangjue’s hands even if clansmen would need this flower, too. How smart of his!). And I like that his love is not in vain – Shangjue loves him, too, and believes him in any situation, and that warms my heart. I love their relationship a lot.

And the most vivid feeling that he freely demonstrates is a jealousy towards Shangjue’s fiancée (btw, I like that Shangjue understands it and pardons his tantrums):

"Go ahead, tell me what's on your mind." *opens his mouth to start talking* "Well, rather don`t. I can see it on your face." *smiles*

So, in the part 4 I will talk about Shangjue and her. Shangjue. Introduction Shangjue and his didi, Pt. 1 Shangjue and his fiancee

[staydandy]

Fantastic Doctors (2023) - 非凡医者 - Whump List

List by StayDandy Synopsis : Chen Hui is a medical school graduate with Asperger's syndrome. He has superior intelligence but is not good at expressing himself. In the process of treating patients, he was often misunderstood and complained about by patients and family members, causing the hospital committee to question his medical qualifications. Chen Hui must now prove himself during the inspection period before he can continue to work in the surgery department. (MDL) AKA : Extraordinary Medic

Whumpee : Chen Hui played by Zhang Wan Yi (2nd male from left)

Country : 🇨🇳 China Genres : Life, Drama, Medical

Notes : This is a Full Whump List • This is an adaption of South Korea's Good Doctor (2013). Which also inspired adaptations made by America (2017-2024), and Japan (2018).

Related List : Good Doctor (2013) - Full List

Episodes on List : 6 Total Episodes : 16

*Spoilers below*

01 : Chen Hui has nightmare of childhood trauma … breathing heavily … collapses … recalling childhood trauma

02 : Recalling childhood trauma

03 : Punched … (near end) childhood trauma flashbacks, panic

04 : Scared … (accidentally) locked in a room.. rams the door several times to get out

07 : Shocked awake, stands up too quickly … (at end) nightmare

08 : Recalling childhood trauma … recalling childhood trauma

[globofchaos]

Okay I'm back because mild vent, TW mental health , chaotic lifestyle, domestic violence you have been WARNED

I apologize, I reflected now I'm back

I'm chronologically online because I can't Handle my family ..I just can't. I can't go another day of my father accusing me of being a spy , calling my grandmother a demon , I'm tired of dealing with my auntie and cousin arguing over my cousin wanting to live a "child free life "(aka abandoned her kids and travel the world) also weed smoking and alcoholism. Also making everything about her ( like she got fired for having a screaming match with a patient but somehow she is the victim, or the the time crashed my aunties car , or how she constantly preaches about the Bible but does the most unholy shit ever )

And Don't even get me started on my even worse cousin holy shit

When I talk about mature topics like mental health ( especially bipolar , anxiety, autism , Asperger's, depression, narcissism , schizophrenia, PTSD , alcoholism , drug usage like weed ) or disabilities such as wheel chair , or health issues , neglectful parents

It's based on my own experience because it's rampet in my family ( my mother was a party animal that just didn't want to raise me ) granted I don't have a PHD in psychiatrist but I also make sure to do research or based it off my own life . Honesty is don't like being labeled abelist , I've always written Joe as part of the spectrum or Aran being both bipolar and autistic, Joe and Gabby having PTSD from rough backgrounds , sometimes I've written Mac as having a prosthetic leg or having autism , Enzo having PTSD , Aran having high school trauma ( I admit I be projecting the fuck out these guys , the projector so high even batman can see it )

Anyway I'm back, I'm staying if anybody has an issue with my writing style , headcanons or just me in general my dms are open both in discord and tumblr .

[tmbwtanisok]

-> about

TMBW-Tan is an AI specifically designed to become the ultimate encyclopedia, able to gather and recite all the world’s information…however, her creators messed up the code for certain parts, which caused her programming to be too monotropic! The first thing she heard when she came to life was the TMBG song “Birdhouse in your Soul” playing in a different tab, and she was immediately smitten…while this malfunction caused her creators to disregard her, she’s made it her mission to become the ultimate TMBG encyclopedia AI!! Ever since February 25th 2003, she’s traveled the web in search of any and all TMBG information. She takes the form of a cute anime girl, and TMBW.net is like her library + home! She loves to guide people through the website and talk about the band whenever she can…whenever someone contributes to the wiki, she not only (hypothetically) jumps for joy, she also gets smarter!!

To be specific, TMBW Tan is a fan made anime style anthropomorphic mascot for the website tmbw.net, aka “This Might Be A Wiki: The They Might Be Giants Knowledge Base.” She’s inspired by characters like Wikipe-Tan, LMW-Tan, and all those OS-Tan characters based off of operating systems!!

(She is not a real AI chatbot, just a little character. I want to make that clear!)

-> more character info

Hight: 16 Canaries Tall or 5”4

Birthday: 2/25

Age: Ageless, but bodily she appears to be 14-16 years old

MBTI: ENFP

Voiceclaim: Vocaloid4 Yuzuki Yukari (Jun)

Fun Facts (still being added to!)

She’s autistic coded!!! John Linnell once made a (thankfully playful/inoffensive) joke about how TMBG fans spending so much time doing things like contributing to the TMBW is “Kind of an Asperger’s thing” …Asperger’s being a now defunct term for autism spectrum disorder!! Her coding is a big part of her character lol…I want you to take a big fat guess as to what TMBW Tan’s special interest is ;D

While she loves all TMBG songs, she will always have a soft spot for Birdhouse in your soul. Some people even speculate she’s rigging the Song Rating chart to keep it at number one…

She’s pals with both of the Johns, and enjoys talking to/advising Flansburgh while he makes setlists for shows. They have an uncle-niece relationship (Linnell’s kinda totally freaked out by her though…)

She has a strong love for William Allen White, and always keeps a picture of him in her pocket.

It’s rumored that, if you stay on the site long enough, you can faintly hear her singing..!!

[aronlewes]

Reflecting on my favorites

Now that I've semi-retired from writing (for now, anyway), I thought I'd compile a list of my favorite books & characters I've written. Why? I don't know. to inspire myself? To cheer myself up? Whatever the case, I felt compelled.

Books:

The Darker Ages - Just a damn good time to write, and meaningful too. I'm not sure this will ever be dethroned. I peaked too soon.

School for Spirits - I love all the books in this series, almost equally. I love writing in this universe and would be sad to see it end.

Palace of Maids aka Cowboys & Elves - I stubbornly love this one, despite its mixed reception. It's so vulgar and violent -- I think that's why it wasn't so digestible to people. But I love it anyway.

The Ugly Monster Matchmaker Company - the only Caylen McQueen (my other pen name) book on my list. It's just so wholesome, with such a likeable cast. I adore Becky and Groop.

The Wishing Princess - Again, I just really like this cast... especially mad mode Prince Fared and the shady romantic, King Nils. And the concept is unique, I think.

Favorite Characters:

Alfred du Bois. I made trailer for Darker Ages and almost cried when I "saw" Alfred. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zlna3EAXJk4 (he is based on Alfred Enoch, btw, and his AI trailer self resembles him so much). I love quippy characters, and I love anti-heroes. Alfred's my favorite of them all.

Carol from Belles & Bullets. Again, this is the only Caylen entry on the list. Alas, she doesn't even appear until Sky Pirate, book 3. I just love her for being completely wacky & hilarious.

Crow from A Farm Boy in Oz. I felt randomly compelled to reread some of her lines the other day. She's still TOO hilarious to me. I'm not even that funny in real life, so I don't know where these humorous ladies come from. Reading her lines, I almost felt inspired to write again. Almost.

Vineet from School for Spirits: Pretty Dead Girl. He's my definition of the adorable nerd. I love him so much.

Daniul, the persnickety asexual OCD mage from The Black Knight Chronicles series. I think he probably has Asperger's or something. (I think I probably do too)

I'm almost embarrassed by the number of books I wrote between 2016-2023. I was so desperate to accomplish my dream, to no avail. I'm not famous, or even that successful. I'm living proof that manifestation doesn't always work. Just sayin'. 😅

[thewickedbohemian]

A double feature post for a double feature day

(aka my thoughts on this week's So Help Me Todd and the Elsbeth premiere other than I wish both those shows a long and happy runtime together as they're perfect for each other #renewsohelpmetodd #sohelpmetodds3)

So Help Me Todd

Is it just me or was Susan the only chick with good fashion game this episode as you had Margaret and her giant bow on her shirt, Francey's neon pants, Belinda's consistently obnoxious pattern-mixing and even Alex's weird sleeves and for Margaret and Francey (idr about Alex) this wasn't their first fashion offense (yeah there's Allison but she just kinda dresses normal)

Speaking of aesthetics, I repeat again that Lyle's mustache needs to die. My mom who I watch SHMT with says if he had to have facial hair a goatee might work but not this.

I feel like Belinda was intended to be a similar kind of dramatic-foil to Margaret that Todd is to Lyle

So Heather Morris finally shows up...and she's basically playing the Cassandra Cillian to Todd's Ezekiel Jones, interested to see where this goes

Love that Margaret's almost-Mary-Poppins-level-full-of-stuff purse was a Chekhov's Gun

I hate to paraphrase a meme but what da forensic accountant doin'? Is Alex up to no good, is she trying to mess with Beverly the way Beverly's seemingly doing to the entire firm, or is the truth far more complicated

But if she is genuinely a good guy I'm kinda rooting for Lylex, it seems like such a super cute vibe

Elsbeth

If this is truly metaphorically the genderbent Columbo, Tumblr should be all over this

We're barely into the intro-showing-the-crime and Mom's already critiquing the murderer by saying things like would they check to see what's in her system and what suicidal person (like what he's trying to give the impression of) googles "how to commit suicide"

Intro-to-episode/show-proper with the hip hop tour bus setting the tone nicely I see for what's to come

Not saying Elsbeth has any particular neurodivergencies unless she's been canonically diagnosed with anything (though if this show goes on for as long as I'd like it to, if there's enough of a case for anything in particular they could have an adult-diagnosis arc like I'm hoping So Help Me Todd might have if it goes on for as long as I'd like with Todd with ADHD or Lyle or Lawrence with autism) but I have the kind of autism some people call aspergers and some call high-functioning autism as well as Inattentive Type ADHD that used to be called ADD and I've never felt so "seen" by a "quirky crime-solver character" in my life

On the one hand sucks about the giant gap until start proper on the other hand now I have time to binge The Good Wife

Maybe it's just my particular neurodivergencies but the one thing I hated is is a howdunnit supposed to make you internally yell at the TV

I like that what appears to be going to be her cop-partner-person is a woman of color as seeing a female-female lead team in a crime show like this is about as rare as having one where the quirky outsider person is a woman no matter what their partner is

Unless I misheard something did Captain Wagner seriously threaten to shoot Elsbeth if she didn't stay in her lane or w/e, if the mythology's going to involve him being corrupt that better get addressed

[panther-os]

The book Grace is reading while Tommy's on a date in 3x14 is The Highly Sensitive Child by Elaine N. Aron. This isn't a book specifically about autistic children, but it is definitely one with content that applies to nearly all autistic kids and only some allistic ones.

So new headcanon: The book is Tommy's, because her twins are autistic, and Grace grabbed it off the shelf instead of a different one because she suspects Charlie is, too. (And Charlie definitely is because now that I think about it, I really do headcanon that Judd and Grace both are, they just need very little support - which means since Grace is a black woman she's undiagnosed, and since Judd is a white man born in most likely the 80s he got an "Asperger's" diagnosis instead of an ASD1 diagnosis and he's been told all his life it's something he grew out of (aka learned how to mask better).)

[shrimpmandan]

do you mean you feel alienated around self diagnosed autistic people? (aka 99% of the online autistic community) because if so I completely agree. I'm not sure if you have access to it but I go to public therapy for disabled adulta (if you're over 18) and in my group there is a bunch of autistic/adhd people. we usually talk about medication, funny stories about therapy and experiences with growing up autistic and such. it's pretty relieving, and completely different from speaking to autistic people online, which just feels like talking to neurotypicals

No I feel alienated around autistic people. And people in general. It's for a lot of reasons tbh, not JUST being autistic, but I've definitely have had grievances with the autistic community online for some time now. This is because there's this prevalent idea that what does or doesn't work for one autistic person must be true for every autistic person, which inevitably leads to alienation. I'm considered weird and offputting even by the standards of other autistic people. This isn't an uncommon experience for me.

Also, part of my alienation comes from the general politics of the online autistic community. I call myself Asperger's and high-functioning, which while I totally get why other people don't call themselves that, it's just kinda what I grew up with and what works for me. Also being trans on top of that, and hearing so many autistic people talk about how they personally don't understand gender, whereas I didn't have much of an issue with it (I view it through a strictly neuroscientific lens; I don't do well with metaphors and vague feelings). Being told I can't say "retarded" even though I've been CALLED retarded, not to mention directly threatened (I was nearly shot lmao) over being autistic. A mixture of oppression olympics among autists, and also 'higher-functioning' autistic people speaking over 'lower-functioning' autistic people. My stims also don't get represented much (I don't really flap, I've always been more of a rocker/bouncer/vocal stimmer) and I don't fit into the "good autist" role that a lot of people-- both neurodivergent and neurotypical-- want out of me. All this to not even mention how I get alienated for my other forms of neurodivergence, with people in general being extremely ableist towards those with OCD and dissociative disorders.

All I'm saying is it's not self-diagnosed autists who make my life harder. Not when me and most of my family has had to resort to self-diagnosis due to doctors not listening to us or just a simple inability to even see a doctor due to a lack of money and time. Actually, most of the people I click with are the self-diagnosed "I think I might be neurodivergent" people-- whether that's autism, ADHD, or some other various neurodivergence. The self-diagnosed people are my immediate family, as well as my friends who had to figure out they're neurodivergent because nobody else told them, or gaslit them over it. We're pro-selfdx here, and honestly therapy is the least of my concerns right now, at least when it comes to autism. I don't need therapy for being autistic. I don't need therapy to teach me how to be normal. I need therapy to teach me how to live. Y'know, tackling my ACTUALLY problematic disorders, like my severe OCD and CPTSD and what I believe to be some form of OSDD. ADHD... yeah I just need meds for that, it is what it is. But I've been in therapy SEVERAL times for my autism, with people who were supposedly specialized in it, and even they didn't really know what to do with me. So shrug lmao.

For the record I am professionally diagnosed with autism. I'm actually self-diagnosed with most of the other mental health issues I occasionally talk about here (ADHD, OCD, OSDD, et cetera). I'd LOVE to get diagnosed but we're just not in a financial situation where we can rn. I don't like throwing self-diagnosed people under the bus-- more often than not they're just trying to understand themselves and genuinely don't have the ability to access proper resources. I don't really think of the cringe "faking disorders for attention and spreading misinformation" people when I hear about self-diagnosis, personally. I think about people who have been gaslit and told either that they're weird/bad children their whole lives, or even the reverse where they're told they're gifted, before they begin to struggle and then are promptly abandoned. I went through the latter more than the former.

[rdlain]

tbh I have a soft spot for that "color me beautiful/metamorphosis kibbe" shit: as a wee middle schooler entering high school with the outside pressure to be feminine having broken thru my asperger defense system (aka my mean middle school friends staging an intervention telling me I looked like shit not wearing makeup lol) , I found those books at my grandmas and was shook all "aHA! the rules of femininity written out! It's clear! categorial! concise! follow this and I'll be normie-passing! oh how my mean friends will be so pleased~" so took it home with me and memorized the shit out of them.

consequently spent first half of freshman year looking like an avon lady straight out of 1986 before realizing it was stupid and switched to my true style i.d.....alice glass expy, flannel nd docs