#aj on the left is mine

[ladysantos]

everything u want

[retromochi]

lovingly still drawing mlp redesigns in the year of our lord 2024 these are kind of for a very casual next gen au of mine, but honestly i just like imagining ponies in different ways :-) (more info + headcanons under the cut!)

fluttershy: - trans (she/her), sapphic, autistic - she's a deerpony mix, with her maternal grandmother being a deer and her maternal grandfather a pegasus. - has sensory issues with cutting her hair, so she's content to just let it be long. - has large wings, but not a lot of strength. she's better at gliding, and can't really get herself into the air very well. - tallest of the mane six. twilight: - nonbinary (they/she), bisexual, autistic - all ponies have magic in them that can give their bodies physical changes, with twilight being an extreme example. the star patterns on her chest appeared after wielding the elements of harmony for the first time, the stars on her hooves appeared after becoming an alicorn, and the yellow streak in her hair appeared after defeating tirek. - has fairly bad eyesight, but prefers using her glasses rather than using magic to fix her vision. - can't fly as fast as most pegasi, but has good endurance. - shortest of the mane six, although she's only barely shorter than rainbow. pinkie pie: - gnc (any pronouns, but loves being called sister), pansexual - her full name is rose quartz pie, in line with the rock and gemstone theme in her family, but pinkie was a nickname that just stuck. - chiffon swirl/mrs. cake is her maternal aunt, they have more in common than pinkie does with her mom, but pinkie loves them both equally. - her strength nearly rivals applejack, she has super strong legs from bouncing and jumping everywhere. applejack: - bigender (he/she), sapphic - inherited her father's hat and her mother's hairbands - all of the apple siblings have accessories left to them by their parents. - prefers going by AJ or jackie, only granny smith usually calls her by her full name. - ties up her hair when working, and keeps the fetlocks on her back hooves trimmed short.

rainbow dash: - nonbinary (he/she/they), queer, ADHD - like twilight, rainbow has extreme examples of her body changing with magic. her cutie mark got longer after performing each sonic rainboom, and the colors in her hair appeared after she got her cutie mark to begin with. - originally named bluejay dash, changed her name to match her new look. her parents still call her "jay" from time to time. - never quite shook the rainbow crash nickname, she's a great flier but not so great at landings. has a fair share of scrapes and bruises, but they dont bother her. rarity: - cis (she/her), omnisexual - part crystal pony on her dad's side, her mane and coat have a slight crystaline look to them in the right light. - changes her hairstyle a lot, but has it tied up when working in her studio. - crafts beautiful jewelry, in addition to her clothes and accessories.

[haveihitanerve]

Jingle Boys Pt4: 

(29:44)

Hot DAMN its been a minute, so sorry to keep yall waiting ik you care very very much about these rambles of mine detailing what happens in the video you watch(lol right ofc waiting anxiously every day on the edges of ur seat i know) anywho- here it is Jingle Boys Pt4 hopefully I’ll be better at updates…

Time Warp

Tom starting strong with an intro and fun hand movements while Sam and Aj clean up in the back- Sam picks up the hat and AJ pauses and turns back and then the camera cuts away but Sam stops for the fraction of a second to check in with AJ and i've completely lost my mind but here we are

“When you really needed the toilet?” *concerned Tom activated* “babes…” (and i didn't know it then but this sparked my usage of the endearments babes ever after💀)

Also meanwhile aj leans to ask sam something? Who points at Luke, who is laughing, aj cracks a smile, and they have a lil back and forth across stage like frickin cuties

Now either AJ is missing his drink or something is wrong with the chair- im assuming its a drink, because he looks at luke like he left his glass on the other side of the stage, but they could also be discussing who is playing next… lemme focus on the actual game what am i doing

“First lego set!” Tom is thrilled lol “Thats the christmas spirit!” The captions felt the need to do all caps for this… i agree but am lazy so

“First lego set!” Turns around and has to address AJ and Sam to actually get them to pay attention- they don't give two shits lmaoo aj glances at Tom and then just returns to his talk with Sam and sam doesn't even spare Tom a single glance😭

Anyway AJ leaning over to say “imma fuck off back stage you have fun with luke.” to sam(you have no proof thats not what he said) and then jumping back to fix the chair??? For some reason but y'know slay king

Sam immediately grabbing the chair and ruoning whatever AJ had planned for it- which actually works in AJ’s favor because here he comes lmaoooo

This is my favorite bit of the entire show its so glorious

Part 1 of the Curse of the Trike:

Aj looks afraid of the bike which is never good- but the way Sam looks over in confusion and concern- and Luke literally springs from his chair to see if aj needs help before sitting back down again to continue the actual plot is too cute

“Freeze!” Tom’s little head wobble of ‘wtf did you expect me to do? You cant let me have this type of power aj” “fifteen seconds ago!” and like his shrug of ‘this is pure gold why wouldn't i do this’

Luke's shoulders tensing the second Tom says freeze, already preparing to laugh, and then folding when Tom does exactly what he expected lmaoo

Part 2 of the Curse of the Trike: Cocky-j who then fails even more spectacularly the second time around 😭

Luke giving up on the plot and just laughing at what aj does(istg the amount of times AJ just distracts the others from the point of the plot by being an interesting side character will never not be funny to me it is peak)

Tom’s little head grab of disappointment and pure delight is gorgeous

Shaking with laughter “its christmas! Its christmas its christmas!” 

Absolutely love how Sam goes “dad! Dad!” and Luke goes “careful grandad.” when technically AJ is Sam’s grandad and Luke’s dad but y'know its lovely

“Oohhh!” *gives up on trying to be a good plot point* “Im fucking knackered.” LMAOOO aj never change

Also Luke’s shoulders caving for a split second of laughter and Sam covering a quick smile is wonderful too

“Freeze!” the way aj tenses lmaoo he is expecting only torture from now on for his little escapade lol

Tom’s growing amusement as he realizes where Sam is going with the plot and the way he tilts his head to rest on his hand and just watches them is so cute

“The architecture!” Idk why Tom went :o when Sam says that but its too cute not to include so here ya go

Tom’s delight at Sam’s moving of the plot- and then having to change positions like three times because he’s so excited with all the possibility AJ has just perfectly handed over to him- he cannot wait to abuse this lmaooo

“Freeze!” Practically jumping with excitement omfg hes giddy XD

“Do it in reverse.” Staring off into the cosmos as though that’ll lessen the blow, Luke breaking because he knows what’s about to go down, Sam having to figure out how to speak backwards because there was actually a plot that he’s been working on, and AJ’s shoulders just slumping in defeat XD

Tom encouraging AJ 😭

“Now forward in double speed!” he finally gets the desired reaction from AJ lol: “NOOO!!!” pure despair in his voice lmaooo

Aj limping as they call scene and him and Tom eyeing each other across stage lol 

AND SCENE!!! 

I know that was a short one, so sorry, but I tam tired... and figured something was better than nothing right? (again ik yall are just dying breathless waiting for this ik ik im very important🙄)anywho

Hope you enjoyed this quick one, hopefully ill be better next time and be quicker and get the whole thing done soon…. Anyway enjoy! And as always thanks for reading…🙏😅

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[shuuuuush]

Just Hang Up! | Sharky

Summary: Sharky and you are both too stubborn to turn off the video call.

Warnings: "shit" is used, and just fluff, you both being idiots seeing who would end the call first 🤪

A/N: no special colour font title cuz I'm lazy, and also just thought of this short cute idea bc of Sharkys insta live earlier today (14th of September)

"I still cannot believe that happened to you today!" You exclaimed into the phone, mouth still agape from shock.

Sharky and you were currently on a video call, he called you after a video shoot and was on the way home, except that he had to take the train back to get there.

He told you all about what happened at the shoot and the shocking spoilers for the next videos to come out on the beta squad channel.

About how Niko and Aj became the idiotic duo, which somehow made the video like 10 times better in his opinion, it added more to the comedy side of the video. Although at times he'd beg to differ, Sharky would say he's also kinda funny. (You've backed him up on that definitely)

"Yeah, kinda ironic, huh?" Sharky chuckled, reminiscing about what happened earlier, suddenly glancing off to the side as he heard the train announcement.

You couldn't hear it too clearly but from the few words that you did hear, you could tell it was an announcement for the next train stop.

"Is that your stop, Sharks?" Grinning as you thought of him coming home so quickly, ready to leap into his arms and give him the best hug.

He shook his head, causing your smile to turn upside down. Shutting your eyes as you sank back onto the couch you were sitting on and sighed.

"How much longer??" You groaned, turning to your side as you leaned further into the couch, now able to lean your hand against it to hold your phone.

Hearing laughter on the other side of the phone, you opened your eyes to see Sharky laughing, a cheeky smile on his face.

"Aww, you missed me that much?" He chuckled, his smirk growing even bigger as he saw your face.

"Well, obviously." You mumbled quietly, turning your gaze as you didn't want him to gain any more pride than he already had.

"What was that? I couldn't hear you?" He inched closer towards the screen, placing a hand over his ear indicating he "couldn't" hear.

"I SAID WELL OBVIOUSLY." Yelling into the phone as you rolled your eyes playfully, a small smile appearing onto your face as you hear Sharky laughing on the other end, clutching his stomach.

"Shut up." You mumbled, not being able to hide the growing smile when you see Sharky's one recovering from laughter.

"Love u too, babe." He winked, your contagious smile affecting him, grinning at you with his pearly whites.

He moved closer to the phone and scrolled downwards, a sigh escaping him as he rolled his eyes.

"Shit, my phone's on 20%," grabbing his phone on the left of his side and tapping the screen to check the percentage. "My other one is almost dead, too."

You nodded, waving a goodbye to him, "Alright babe, that's fine. See you later."

You waited for him to end the call as he waved back at you, both of you staring at each other through the screen. The whole minute of silence, expecting the other to end the call, made you two laugh.

"You go first." You chuckled, smiling as you watched Sharky cross his arms, shaking his head.

"No, you go first. I don't wanna end the call and make you feel bad."

"I won't feel bad, just end the call."

"Why don't you end it?"

"Why won't you??"

"Just end the damn call Y/N."

"You literally can press the end call button. Your phone's about to die anyway, just press it."

"Oh my days, babe, I'll feel bad, I don't like ending calls first."

"Sharky, as much as I love you, it's not the end of the world if you end the call first."

"Just end it. You're holding your phone anyway, mine's on the table."

"I'm not pressing shit."

"FINE." You heard him curse under his breath before grabbing the phone and pressing the end call button.

You laughed in victory as you texted him really quickly.

You 💟

See?? That wasn't that hard, was it??

Sharky 🦈

Stfu

You 💟

Love you too babe 🫶

Sharky 🦈

🙄

.... ily too❤️

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[corvoqueen]

Way Down We Go

AJ x Private Security/Crime family reader

「 You 」

I sat up on the rooftop of the building next door of the club my brother was currently at. With his friends… If you could call them that. More like work acquaintances, without the work. His little thief friends, Takers. Is what they call themselves, the dorks.

Was I spying on my brother? Sure. But in all fairness, he isn’t always a good judge of character. Hence why I’m here now. Because the knuckle head and his stupid plans are going to be the death of me.

I pull up my laptop, that had been running background checks on my brothers new crew. Alderige, Alexander James. Cute… perhaps my brother doesn’t have bad taste after all-

Ping!

I jolt, picking up my phone hastily. To see a notification from my brother, speak of the devil.

Thorn in my side

Need help.

No hi how r u?

Usually u leave me on read. Anyway hurry up and get ur ass here. We r waiting.

And where would here be exactly? And whose ‘we?’

Christ how dumb do you think I am? Actually don’t answer that.

I snicker at his response, before typing mine.

Fine, I’ll be there. Tell ur boy band I’ll be there soon.

Thx sis x

eww don’t ever call me ‘sis’ again

ok… sis

I leave him on read, maybe he does have a point. Chucking all my equipment back into my duffle bag, slinging it over my shoulder. Making my way to the stairs as I head to the club my brother and the rest of the Takers were at.

「 Narrator 」

Meanwhile…

Aj was lounging on one of the various couches while Gordon and your brother, Alec were discussing the plan for the upcoming heist. Though he appeared to be in a world of his own, Aj was paying more attention than it seemed.

He visibly perked up after hearing your name, he knew Alec had a big family. He’d mentioned it before, from your two other sisters. Him, your parents and obviously your dog named Flash. But he never mentioned you, at least never around Aj. He couldn’t help the curiousness that crept up inside of him, Gordon was usually very picky about allowing outsiders into their plans.

So what was so special about you?

Aj jolts after taking an elbow to the ribs, grimacing at the feeling. “Have you been listening to anything I’ve said for the past hour?” John asks annoyed, though a small smile tugs at the blond mans lips. Not at all surprised by Aj’s brazen behaviour.

Aj picks up his fedora that had fallen to the floor, smoothing his hair back. Before placing it back on his head, “yeah man of course.” His gaze averts to John. His friend’s face held a look of disbelief, busted.

John chuckles at Aj’s obvious distraction. “You might wanna be a little less obvious when your eavesdropping man.” He grins, leaning back against the lounge. Crossing his arms over his muscular chest. The muscle of his biceps straining against the sleeves of his shirt.

Aj lets out a huff, “no clue what you’re on about man.” Trying to dismiss John’s eavesdropping accusation against him.

John raises a brow in amusement, clearly not believing a word that came out of Aj’s mouth. “Yeah, whatever you say.” He smirks, before standing up. Heading over to Gordon and Alec, giving Aj a teasing wink. Who just gave John a playful glare in response, before slumping back in his seat. Crossing his arms over his chest in annoyance. Looking like a toddler throwing a tantrum, making John chuckle.

While the Takers were distracted you managed to sneak in through the back entrance. Watching as they all bickered amongst themselves, oblivious to your presence. You decided to remain undetected for now, placing your duffle bag down on the countertop of the bar. Heading behind it to make yourself a drink.

Grabbing a cold martini glass, pouring in a shot of vodka. Filling the rest up with cranberry juice, before topping it off with three maraschino cherries. Hopping up, you sit on top of the bar. Cross legged, siping on your vodka cranberry. While looking through the blueprints of the bank someone had so callously left on the bar countertop.

Hearing the faint sound of heels clicking you turn your head. Lilli approached the bar, jumping slightly as she made eye contact with you. Sitting there sipping on your cocktail, the blueprints laid across your lap. Her jump scared expression making you giggle, she placed a hand over her heart. A smile tugging on her lips. “Hi,” you whisper.

“Hello,” she replies. Her voice soft, as her kind eyes bored into yours. She moved towards the counter, extending your hand for support. She takes it, propping herself up on the counter beside you. “I’m Lilli, and you are?”

You give her hand you were holding a shake. “Y/n, nice to meet you.” You see her eyes avert to the blueprints on your lap. “Wanna see?” She nods enthusiastically, making you chuckle softly in response to her enthusiasm. Picking up the blueprints, holding them out in front of both your faces.

“What are you doing here?” Lilli asks curiously, while scanning the blueprints.

“Alec asked me to come,” you shrug nonchalantly. Pointing at the best points of entry on the blueprints.

“How do you know Alec?” She asks, while you take another sip of your cocktail.

“He’s my brother,” you pick up a maraschino cherry. Popping it into your mouth.

Her eyes widen in obvious surprise, “Alec is your brother?”

“Unfortunately,” you grin playfully. “Speaking of which…” you pause, turning to face the group. That were still engrossed in conversation. “Earth to boy band can we get this show on the road? I have shit to do.” You raise your voice loud enough to grab their attention.

Watching in amusement as their heads snap in your direction, fast enough that they could’ve gotten whiplash. Making you and Lilli laugh, “so oblivious.” She chuckles.

Looking through the group, you see John’s familiar face. “Johnny boy, long time no see.” A soft blush adorns his cheeks in embarrassment.

“Huh?” The blonde man beside him, looks at him bewildered. Which you recognised to be Aj. John just looks back at you and chuckles.

“Y/n, good to see you again.” He waves, as Aj mutters something under his breath. Though your attention is pulled away by a soft tap on your shoulder. You turn to see Lilli with a sheepish smile on her face.

“Can you make me one of those?” She ask hesitantly pointing at the drink in your hand, making a smile tug at your lips.

“Of course,” you slide off the countertop. To behind the bar, hearing someone clear their throat. You look up, meeting the familiar hazel eyes of your brother. “Hey big bro.”

“I didn’t ask you to come over so you could drink.” He quips, with a sly smirk tugging at his lips. Causing you to narrow your eyes at him playfully.

“Well I was bored,” you retort. Ruffling his dark hair, making him let out an annoyed grunt.

Lilli leans a little closer to the both of you. “To be fair, she was sitting here for a while. Not that you guys noticed.” She added in your defence, as you mixed up the vodka cranberry.

“Do you want the cherries?” You ask, raising a brow. She nods in response, “yes ma’am.” You say with a salute. Making her let out a soft giggle.

Alec clicks his fingers in front of your face trying to get your attention, “uh hello? Back on topic please.” Making you roll your eyes at his behaviour.

“You’re so dramatic big bro, relax. Take a breather,” you tease. Hearing a chuckle from behind Alec, then a mop of blond hair peeking through. A big toothy grin on his face, as he steps to the side of Alec. In front of you, holding out his hand. Gently taking yours, bringing it to his soft lips.

Placing a gentle kiss on your knuckles, “it’s a pleasure to meet you. I’m Aj.”

A soft chuckle befalling your lips, amused by his irregular behaviour. “Let me guess, you have a thing for the Godfather?” You tease, looking up at his fedora. Alec’s hand immediately shoots to his mouth, muffling his snort. Aj bites his bottom lip gently, giving your hand a soft squeeze. Before you pull it out of his grip, popping the cherries into Lilli’s drink. Sliding it over to her, she whispers a ‘thank you.’

“I do actually, have you watched it?” He leans onto the bar, practically looming over you. The low lighting in the room reflecting off his blond hair. Making him look almost… angelic. Though his playful smirk suggested otherwise.

“No, though if you like that thing you should come to our family reunions. The resemblance is impeccable,” you quip. A wheezy laugh erupting from Alec. Aj seemed undeterred from his friends reaction, leaning even closer. His long lean fingers gently brushing a strand of hair out your face, tucking it behind your ear. With the utmost gentleness, as if you were made of porcelain. His eyes so transfixed on his movements, it was like he was in a trace. So were you, not that you’d admit it. Alec and Lilli observed quietly, aware of the tension. Eyeing the display of affection with curiousness. It was no secret that Aj was a flirt, but this was something that even your brother hadn’t witnessed from him. After a moment you pull back snapping yourself out of your trance like state, withdrawing from his gentle caress. Clearing your throat, “well… Let’s get on with it. We have a lot to do.”

[purfectmlpblog]

Next batch of fanart spam tonight, here's a batch of my personal current HC ships within the Equestria Girls-world of the "Diamond Verse" (aka: my "Universe A"/main ng ship AU). Mainly being mix of EQG ships that are either longterm OTPs of mine, and/or just pairs I think could be narratively interesting/creative to work with (-which prob explains why a good chunk of these are crackships lmao).

(Note: ofc as these are just my own personal ships, DO refrain from sending any hate or however if you disagree with these pairs; I'm just here to vibe with silly technicolor horse-human ships, soooo... yeah, don't take this too seriously lol🙏)

Ship explanations below for those curious 👀:

-Sunset Shimmer x Flash Sentry-

From exes torn apart by greed & power, to slowly rekindling friendship thanks to Sunset's change of heart… never would either expect that things would fall back full-circle through them regaining feelings again~ ❤️‍🔥

Was it a perfect transition? Probably not. Would there still be days of Sunset doubting herself, even with Flash's doting patience with her? Absolutely. Yet even so, as every phoenix burns bright… Sunset's happy to finally put her past behind her, embracing these changes everyday with Flash proud to cheer her on~ 💙❤️

-Sci Twi x Aria Blaze-

No one in their school would've ever expected the Dazzlings of all people to redeem themselves among a normal school faculty… yet the M6 proved them wrong as one by one, these once-pesky sirens have worked to become better beyond their hypnotic singing prowess.

With these two in particular, the purple second-in-commands seemed to be an interesting match of opposites; the cool-tempered punk and the giddy nerd. Whilst Aria may deny feeling much for Sci Twi when they're out and about… there's no denying the warm glow on her face whenever Twi does something like banter on about science facts, take her exploring the town, or even just the lil things like gifting her a plush that "reminds her of Aria" (aka: a sea-star lol). Silly, insignificant things the old Aria would've declared back then… but now, when it all comes down to it, she'll be glad to throw the biggest siren hands to keep this adorable dork safe & sound~ 💜

-Fluttershy x Adagio Dazzle-

To tackle redeeming the main leader of the Dazzlings was a task no better to give than to Fluttershy, the soft-spoken Element of Kindness herself. Of course, her dear friends were worried of how she'd handle being around someone so "conniving" like Adagio… but well, if her pony counterpart could handle bringing a Draconequus down-to-earth, then why not her human self with a siren baddie?~ ;)

And so, that's what leads us to today… as now the once haughty Adagio has gained a new sense of pride lovingly doting to her butterfly-winged angel. From fancy dinner dates, dancing, and occasionally playing with some duet karaoke… there's no prying apart these star-crossed sweeties~ 💛💗

-Applejack x Sonata Dusk-

With Aria & Adagio out of commission in terms of villainy, all that's left was Sonata Dusk… while arguably not a huge threat with her impulsive "simpleton" ways, there's still big a risk to let her roam about freely. And so, among the M6 to take the job of calming down this sneaky siren was none other than Applejack. I mean, the gal's handled plenty of pests with her natural-born firmness, this shouldn't be a problem���

…well, which is what she would've said, if it weren't for the revelation just how much of an annoying, perpetually-clingy cat Sonata can be when it comes to "bonding". Hmpf, well whats an AJ to do, if this pretty lil pest's not gonna be leaving her side anytime soon, now…? What to do, what to do, indeed…~ ;P

-Pinkie Pie x Rainbow Dash-

…Weeeell, ngl I don't really have a big story for this one, I just wanted an excuse to have RainbowPie (one of my first ever M6 ships) in my main HC verse somewhere whilst still having AppleDash within the pony world variant… yee lol :p

Bubbly lil party girl with her headstrong tomboy gf, a true prankster power couple in Canterlot High one would say~ ;3 To say any of the M6 were surprised when they announced they were dating would… well, okay no one actually was, they could spot those two's chemistry from a loooong mile away~ lmao

-Rarity x Timber Spruce-

Now, this one's perhaps the one pair no one expected to form in this colorful group… as Rarity figured with all her other bffs gaining partners of their own, she'll just have to go find her future beloved herself. Cue her going down an embarrassing list of blind dates, matchmaking events, even simply batting her eyes at some potential suitors at her tailor job only yielded so many results…

And so, Rarity resigned herself to take a break from the madness by visiting the museum's cafe section now & then… which just so happened to be Timber Spruce's favorite spot to hangout, coincidentally-enough. Though not expecting much aside from a brief hello & goodbye… something about their meetup just sparked the two to talk more, grab some coffees and exchange numbers after catching up on their lives. Cocky as he may be on the surface, there was something about Timber that had an odd, wholesome charm to him with his enthusiasm about gems, plants & silly puns… and Rarity has thought about sprucing up her workshop some more…

(Did this bring up any awkward feelings, given Timber Spruce's status as Twilight's ex? Oh certainly, as Rarity would ofc fret about that very night… but well, as she'd come to realize (from even Twi telling her face-to-face), her & Timber had long since moved on after amicably splitting so long ago. So really, as far as Twi sees it… as long as Rarity's happy, thats all that matters~ 🤗💜 )

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So I try to make each chapter longer than the last but...sadly I failed with this one. It's a relatively short one but I hope you guys like it ^^

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Exile: A Nosferatu Fanfic

Chapter 4

You were my town, now I'm in exile seeing you out…

For the first time ever in either of his lifetimes, Count Orlok was out in the snow, rolling a middle snowball to make the body of the snowman. He looked, and honestly felt just as, ridiculous. The wolfhounds helped when they could, but spent the time either watching the pair or chasing each other around the courtyard. Ellen looked over at him and chuckled.

“Not a word, Ellen…” he growled a little.

She couldn’t stifle a laugh. “Oh for goodness sake, you act like I’m doing something tortuous to you…It’s supposed to be fun and you look so…annoyed”.

“This is ridiculous…” the count rolled his eyes, “Is this big enough?”

Ellen came over and examined the ball he was rolling. “I think so. We could probably mold-Oh goodness you can’t be serious”.

He had already used magic to mold the middle ball on to the first, fitting it quite easily. Orlok raised a brow at her disapproval. “What? I literally just-”.

“Magic isn’t the solution to everything” Ellen argued.

Orlok scoffed. “It is in my world…”.

“Yes, and look how well that worked out for you”.

The count narrowed his eyes at her at that. “Watch yourself, micul suflet”.

Ellen shook her head. “You just wanted an easy way out of this, didn’t you?”

“Maybe. Your words not mine”.

“Are you really that miserable doing this? It’s just a snowman” she looked at him, feeling a bit disappointed.

“Why is this so upsetting to you?” he cocked his head, genuinely confused as to why she wasn’t happy with him using magic.

“It just…defeats the purpose I guess. I just wanted to…spend an afternoon making a snowman or two” Ellen sighed.

Her explanation did little to ease the count’s confusion. She had never been against him using magic for simple little things before. This seemed like such a trivial thing to be upset over. He rolled his eyes and scoffed.

“You’re being ridiculous, little one. You’ve taken issue with me using it before”.

“That was for…other reasons” she shuddered as a few memories came to mind…

“Less ridiculous than snow people”.

Ellen sighed. “I just wanted one, ONE peaceful afternoon…Everything just has to be a fight with you and I don’t understand why. And it’s not just now. You’ve always been so…confrontational. About everything. Even if you didn’t have a right to be-”.

A growl cut her off. His of course. “You forget, little one. You have always been mine. Always! That was our agreement! I had every right to be furious knowing you went off and married that useless, childish-”.

“Because you abandoned me! You left me first! You stopped coming when I’d call for you!” Ellen’s voice was more emotional than she intended it to be.

She never wanted to admit it, even to herself, that she had missed him. That something in her felt genuinely broken when he stopped coming to her. Ellen despised that she felt that way, that it was the Demon that made her feel that way. She felt her eyes water, from both anger and sadness. How could he still be so cruel, after what they went through together? After what she did for him? After all they were to each other…

Orlok didn’t respond, just glared down at her. His dark eyes were alight with an all too familiar fury. He didn’t know why he felt so angry once more. It was always anger that got the better of him. Like his shadow haunted those he preyed upon, his rage haunted him. It always had…

“I had my reasons…” he turned away from her.

“And what reasons were those? What did I do that was so wrong-”.

“IT WASN’T YOU!” Orlok roared and shot his long clawed hand out, melting the half done snowman.

Ellen sobbed and looked down. Just one peaceful afternoon was all she wanted. Nothing else. He didn’t need to join her. He could’ve just left her and Furie alone.

“Must you destroy everything you touch?” Ellen sniffed.

He didn’t answer right away. “It is my nature to do so. In the end…I even destroyed you”.

Ellen shook her head. “I chose…I chose you”.

“And perhaps you chose wrong” He shook his head and looked over at the wolfhounds, “Întristare, Durere, Furie! Vino!”

The first two obeyed their master's command but Furie, sweet loveable Furie, padded over to Ellen and stayed at her side. He growled deeply at Orlok, who raised a brow.

“Furie! Acum!” He commanded but the wolfhound growled and barked.

He would not move. He would not leave her out here alone. Ellen's eyes watered a little more as she looked at the sweet, protective hound. He was indeed very poorly named. She hugged him around his neck tightly.

“Thank you, sweet one. Thank you-” she started.

“Treacherous dog!” Orlok snarled but Ellen glared.

“Leave him alone! It's me you're angry with, not him! Do as you must but I will not let you harm these dogs!”

The count turned away and stormed back inside in a fury. He knew he let his anger again get the better of him. There wasn't an excuse for it but pride would not allow him to admit he was the one in the wrong.

Ellen hugged Furie around his soft, warm, fluffy neck, crying softly. What in the world did she ever do to deserve this? Any of this? In the beginning all she had wanted was a friend, a companion. But now she was in, what she thought anyway, was a literal frozen hell with a monster she abhorred and who, seemingly, abhorred her. They were stuck together, all because of a covenant that shouldn’t have meant anything anymore. Ellen pulled away from Furie to pet his head.

“Good boy…you’re such a good boy. Thank you” she told him, managing a soft smile despite what just happened.

Furie wagged his tail, whined and licked her hand softly. Ellen sniffed and looked over at the spot where the destroyed snowman was.

“We may have to make another at some point…It’ll be okay. Let’s just…stay out here a little while. I don’t want to go back in while he’s angry like that. It scares me and I don’t want you getting hurt either” Ellen stood, brushing the snow off her dress, “Perhaps you can show me around. There’s still so much to see here��.

Furie barked and wagged his tail once more, eager to show her around. There was still much she needed to see, to know. This was her home too. It was always meant to be her home…

Orlok lost count of how many times he burned that damn bouquet at this point, but it was far from enough to satiate his fury. Why was it always anger? Why was it always this deep maw of anger that consumed what was left of his heart, what little was left? His clawed hands trembled when he looked at them, anger slowly giving away to a sad numbness. He had no more tears to shed, no more hurt to feel.

So why did his anger persist? Of all things, of all emotions…

Death was supposed to be peaceful. It was supposed to be eternal rest. But why was it only giving him more anger, more sadness, more…grief than anything else? This wasn’t at all what he had hoped for. He didn’t want to be this anymore. He didn’t need blood anymore. The sun no longer harmed him. But yet a loathsome beast he still remained…

Durere came back to the master’s chamber holding something in his jaws, softly so as not to damage it. It was a little soft stuffed bear, handmade a very, very long time ago. Age had seen its fur taken off, leaving behind just a dusty skin. But even so, the wolfhound knew it meant something to his master. He whined, placing the small thing at his master’s feet.

The count peered down at the small, seemingly insignificant thing. A little toy, nothing more. And yet…

He picked it up in his clawed hand and looked at it for a moment, his mind daring to go back to a once happier time. He could hear her voice again, instructing him on how to make it. Orlok remembered having needle pricks for weeks after making so many…And he had done it without magic at her insistence.

But it was the reason they had made such small things that made that small piece of his heart ache in a way that was all too familiar. Orlok clenched his fist around the tiny bear and pressed it to his chest, sorrow threatening to drown him like the very waters of Chaos he sought to avoid...

No.

No!

He was not entitled to mourn, entitled to grief. He didn’t deserve to. Didn’t deserve to heal. Didn’t deserve to move on. He hadn’t earned the right to let go…and from the looks of things he never would…

Still though, he couldn’t hold back the slightest little sob, though no tears fell from his moonlit eyes. He was a monster and monsters didn’t cry.

Monsters did not love.

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[chaoticlittlerat]

Father

⚠️Mentions of death and jail, past stuff, mentions of fighting and other stuff⚠️

Later that night, after another stressful day, Jessie had went to bed. But somewhere around midnight, she awoken up to a noise. It startled her awaken.

She looked around the darkness in her room, still shaken up and startled by what had made that noise. She knew it was in her room because everyone else was asleep. She slowly opens the drawer next to her bed and held up a flashlight, turning it on and held it up to what made the noise.

There stood a figure….

It smiled at her while Jessie stood there in fear and confusion. Hesitantly, she spoke up.

“W-Who….W-Who are you..?”

It was quiet for a moment before speaking in a gentle, comforting voice.

“My dear little Jess…Don’t you remember me? It’s been so long since I’ve seen you, my little one…”

Jessie was taken aback by how it knew her little nickname….Only her dad called her that…

Useless…

“H-How do you…”

“Why, Jessie…I know a lot about you. More than your mother ever did. Don’t tell me you’ve forgotten your old man, huh?”

Jessie’s eyes widened by what the figure had just said….was it….N-No. It couldn’t be…

“W-Wait….Are you saying….Y-You’re my….”

The figure took a step closer to her, offering her a comforting hug

“Yes, my little Jessie…It’s me. You’re father..”

Jessie shivered as tears filled her eyes. She didn’t say anything and just stared in stock. Before she finally jumped and hugged the figure.

The figure smiled as it hugged her back, holding her and let her cry as it spoke again.

“Shhh….It’s alright, dear. I’m here. I’m never leaving you again…I’m so sorry for leaving you so long ago. But I’m finally here…”

Jessie took a moment to calm herself down as she wiped away some of her tears before looking up at “him” and spoke in a shaken up tone

“W-Where did you go..?”

He went quiet for a moment. He seemed to be hesitated to answer but he sighed and looked down at her with a sadden smile

“I….I had to go away for a while for a crime I’ve done. And I….I died. I thought your mother would have told you. But I guess she didn’t…”

Jessie’s eyes widened as he explained.

“S-She did tell me you went to jail…But I didn’t know you died..! But…if you’re dead, how are you here right now..?”

“Well…I work with a guy. But it’s personal right now. But, I am dead. But I can still watch over you and your brother. But only at night. I’m not allowed to see you in the daytime. My boss has me working. But the point is, I’m gonna be seeing you again”

Jessie was still confused by all of this but nodded, seeming to understand it all.

“That’s odd but…I’m happy to see you again. I missed you so much, dad. Things haven’t been the best lately. Mom’s been seeing this guy for the last two years named Aj. I think he was you’re friend after we moved here, right?”

He went quiet, but seemed pissed off. He scoffs.

“Of course she’s seeing someone. And it had to be that excuse of a “friend” of mine…Whatever. I wasted my time with her anyway. She’s not any of my concerns right now…You and your brother are my top priority. Is Aj treating you well?”

Jessie was quiet for a moment before letting out a sad sigh and shakes her head but also shrugs.

“I mean…Kinda? He kinda drinks a lot even though he stops. But…They sometimes fight a lot and…I started to freak out a lot. But my mom keeps on forgiving him…I don’t understand why she still loves him. Even Blake hates it and he sometimes gets into fights with mom…She makes us feel bad because of how hard she works to take care of us..But…I feel…unsafe here sometimes..”

He went quiet as he listened to her. He seemed VERY pissed to hear that Jessie and Blake had to go through such stuff.

“I see…I’m so sorry I left you and your brother to deal with such nonsense…I’ll do whatever it takes to help you. But for now, I’ll come and see you each night…Okay? I’m sure I can get my boss to help as well! He did help me”

Before Jessie could say anything, he picks her up and puts her back into her bed and puts the blanket over her, patting her head and kissed her forehead. Being the father she had missed.

“I’m afraid I must go now, my dearest. But don’t worry! I’ll be back tomorrow night. I will be having a word with my boss about this. For now, just get some rest. Okay?”

Jessie was sad that he had to go. But she nodded and smiled up at him, understanding that he had a job to do.

“O-Okay..I’ll see you tomorrow…Goodnight, Dad..”

The sleepiness kicks into Jessie as she closes her eyes and falls asleep.

The figure smiled down at her as he took a moment before patting her head and placed something on her dresser.

“Goodnight, my little Jess….”

Than, Just like that, he disappears into the darkness.

…….

It was the next morning. Pretty early but Jessie had grown to be an early bird. She rubs her eyes before looking at her dresser, seeing…a locket and picks it up.

A sign that a father would always watch over his daughter

End of chapter 2

[belli5]

Skincare — King Kenny

Pairing: KingKenny x fem!reader

Warning: nun just that’s it’s reallyyyy short 😭

Summary: doing skincare with Kenny. Requested.

A/n: it’s been a month lol 🥲 schools been on my ass sm already and it’s only a month in.. also I made this while watching Aj’s live stream so I was pretty distracted 😛 also Kenny has covid ?! 😭

The bathroom was occupied by y/n, in the middle of doing her nightly skincare routine, my face was covered in serum, before doing my last step.

As I lastly was putting on a moisturiser, Kenny walked in.

“Hey.” Kenny said leaning against the doorframe “you look like you’re busy..”

I looked back at him through the bathroom mirror, laughing slightly “just doing my skincare.”

Kenny stepped closer and I washed my hands from all the mixed products that were left on my hands.

“What are all these products?” Kenny genuinely asked “what do they do?”

“Of course each product has a different purpose!” I leaned against the sink, looking at him “Each one does something different, and them all together keeps my skin clean.”

He picked up my moisturiser, the one that I put on lastly on my face. “What does this one do?”

“That’s moisturiser. It improves skin hydration, it can help with dry skin and also it helps from aging.” I explain.

“Helps from aging? How can a skin care product help you from aging?” Kenny asked confused.

“Not like that,” I roll my eyes “I meant like from looking old, like not having wrinkles..”

He raised an eyebrow, intrigued “sounds fancy.” He picked up another product, asking what’s that and what it does.

“That’s cleanser. You can read on the bottle what it does, but it cleanses, hydrates and helps restore the protective skin barrier.” I explain, and he looks at the bottle of the cleanser reading it.

“Hmm..” he read and looked up “maybe I just like when you explain it?!”

I looked at him with a mischievous smile. “How about I do your skincare? You seem pretty interested in this, so why not?”

“Really?” Kenny eyes lit up.

I invited Kenny to sit on the toilet seat, patting it. Kenny took a seat, and I stood in between his legs, feeling the comforting closeness.

I began putting on a cleanser on his face, as I always put on firstly cleanser, I used soft circular motions.

Kenny closed his eyes, feeling comfortable “this feels good, I could get used to this.”

I chuckled slightly, continuing massaging the cleanser into his skin. “I’m glad you’re enjoying this. You should’ve came more often so I could do this on you aswell.”

After he rinsed off the cleanser, I began to get some drops of toner on my hand and patting the toner on Kenny’s skin. Kenny’s eyes still were closed, he was for sure enjoying this.

After toner I gently put the ordinary serum, gently using circular motions. I could tell Kenny was relaxed and almost was falling asleep, his breathing grew slower so I decided to talk to him before he fell asleep on the toilet seat.

“You’re so relaxed.” I smiled at him, his eyes opened, looking at you.

“This is so nice, I almost fell asleep.” He laughed.

Kenny closed his eyes as i began applying the last product finally “we’re almost done, im already applying moisturiser.” I finished up with the moisturiser “I’m really glad you enjoyed this.”

I stepped back, looking at his relaxed face as he finally opened his eyes, got up to look in the mirror “how do you feel?”

“Good. I feel like I’m gonna age less now.” He joked, making me laugh.

“Great. If you apply it even more, it’ll work better.” I said, even though i knew all Kenny did was wash his face and it already even looked better than mine..

“Then we can make this a daily routine?” Kenny suggested, to which I nodded gladly.

[uranometrias]

Heyyyy!! I just read your “goodbye love you flew right by” it was absolutely AMAZING!! It was so heartbreaking and wonderful!!! I am an avid hater of that Jeid scene where she confesses her “love” because to it was so lazy on the writers end and a pretty stupid secret to me because nothing can be done and it’s just so silly for her to come up w that especially when we’ve seen how much she loves Will and the boys, but your fic made it sooo yummy and angsty and romantic !!

Loved the triangle aspect of them dating and JJ being their best friend. I also loved the argument outside afterwards 💋🤌🏻 it was so incredibly well written! chefs kiss 10/10

if you are writing a part 2 for this i can NOT WAIT 😍🫶

hi… first of all thank you so much! 😭🤭 would you believe i got inspired for that fic while i was sleep deprived … i have never been a jeid shipper… when i was younger (aka a 17 year old with an unhealthy attachment to spencer reid lol) i despised them so terribly, but i think now (especially during my latest rewatch) i have grown to appreciate jeid . i don’t ship them, but i do think they made a point to have jj be an anchor for spencer in certain ways && i think in certain instances he was an anchor for jj as well.

all that to say… I do not think they should’ve made it a plot line one season shy of the end of the show… it felt very out of place… at least to me. i read this character analysis that basically said the storyline fit better for hotchniss rather than jeid && i agree, but ofc with so many of the originals being displaced by that point in the series... it sort of made sense that they'd go that route when they had no one else to turn to... but that doesn't mean it wasn't such a lazy left field sort of thing. i feel like the writers overestimated themselves & what they'd established for jj & spencer. jj definitely COULD have become attracted / grown to love spencer... but i would never say she felt that he was her "first love"... it just- agh anyways.

i also think casey's reaction validates your feelings. that secret was not all that lol. it didn't have any real pushback or point because the only people that really knew were jj & spencer... it didn't do much narratively, it didn't change their motivations... it didn't strengthen their bond or anything of the sort... it mostly just gave matthew + aj the room to be able to flirt with one another (which is fine lol) but i agree it's always been a pet peeve of mine...

i think what was most important with writing that piece was that i wanted to move away from the narrative that jj was some monster... it was a really stupid thing to say LOL, but she's not some horrible woman, because she fell for her best friend. which was why she was so clearly guilty... i don't care much for the villanization of her .

all that to say.... i honestly felt like that was a weak plot... it became so overdone (writing the jeid confession with spencer in a relationship) but i have been so excited + relieved to see all the love and people that enjoy the route that i went. this message is so incredibly sweet & i am so appreciative of you taking the time to check out my work !! i am definitely planning a part 2 , i can't wait to share it with you all.

[thesupreme316]

hi i don’t request stuff so bare with me how would aew boys react to you having a big return like Kris Statlander ex: you lost your title and left and you come back and win the title again sorry if this makes no sense i’m not good at requesting 🫶🏼😢

yall gotta stop apologizing for being CREATIVE CUTIES

AEW Stars React to: You Returning and Winning Your Title Back (Fem!Reader)

Pairings: Hook x Fem!Reader, Ricky Starks X Fem!Reader, Dante Martin X Fem!Reader, Darius Martin X Fem!Reader, Eddie Kingston X Fem!Reader, MJF X Fem!Reader, Christian Cage X Fem!Reader

Word Count: 1.1K

Supreme Speaks: thank you to anon for requesting (yall keep em coming), sorry that this took me so long (shit happening). But please enjoy this and p.s you are loved and appreciated

Warnings: not proofread, my regular react wrestlers, GIFS AINT MINE

Taglist: @hooks-martin @wwenhlimagines @sheinthatfandom @hookerforhook @triscillal @cassiesworldsworld @eddie-kingstons-wifey

Backstory:

Either you were injured and surrendered your title (you never lost it technically) or you lost it in a fluke to your opponent (just do whatcha want)

For months you spent away from the company, trying to gain your strength and feeling back

But now, you were back and better than ever

And you were owed a rematch

Right when the so-called champion called out for an open challenge, you were the first to answer that call that night

To your surprise, the whole arena rose to their feet and loudly cheered you on when hearing your theme (ex. Kris Statlander and or AJ Lee)

And after the match was over, you stood tall with your title high above your head again as the crowd again screamed loudly

(Or you can skip this and have a great segment like Trent with Sue’s van)

The entire moment/match went viral

However, they weren’t the only ones happy to see you tho

Hook

Mans had no idea that you were here

Was stunned into silence; with a big ass smile on his face

You were picked up into a hug by him; would definitely whisper sweet things into your ear or skin

“I’m so happy to see you back”

I think this will encourage him to try to win back his title quicker

Hook is the type of person (whether you're his best friend or girlfriend) to take this return personally as it is a start of a new era for you

Wants to celebrate with you in private ;)

HE WOULD ALSO WEAR YOUR MERCH TO SHOW HIS SUPPORT

Ricky Starks

OOOOOO THIS MAN IS SO COCKY RIGHT NOW

I also think he would be that person who would almost spoil your return out of excitement

You thought he was arrogant after he won the Owen Hart tournament? PUH-LA-ESE

Would reference you in his promos

“I’m a part of the winning team. I mean have you seen my hot ass champion of a girlfriend (or best friend; whatever you prefer)?”

Would book a photoshoot just for you to show off your championships

Defs would make you guys match in outfits and would get you in a storyline with him

I def see you as his manager/valet (IMAGINE THE (eventual) HEEL HEAT)

You two would take over AEW as the new IT couple or duo

Darius Martin

Tbh, it gives him kind of a nostalgic feeling when he returned during the tag team battle royal

He would be so incredibly happy for you

Would keep up with all your appearances and matches afterward

“I am the president of the Y/N protection squad *poses with lads*”

Genuinely hopes that everything goes well for you

Will do your signature move to show his support for you

Also, expect a celebratory dinner or movie night

But don’t get it twisted this man is mad at you for not telling him about your return

“WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME? I was just joking when I was gonna carry the cutout of you to the ring”

He was in fact not kidding (he was just a lil goofy)

Dante Martin

THE BABY

With him on the shelf, he is emotional for you

“That was amazing! The crowd really went wild for you!”

Has multiple emotions tbh; happy, anxious, a little sad

Wishes he could really celebrate with you

I also think because of the fact he has been out of action for a while, he’s dreaming of a return like yours; especially with a championship in his mind

I think he would be a little sad because you’re gonna be busy as hell

“I’m gonna miss the off days with just us two.”

To which you promised to drag him all around to wherever you were wrestling

He didn’t have a choice

Eddie Kingston

“THATS RIGHT DAWG!! YALL SEE THIS SHIT?”

Makes a post about you on Instagram

He’s genuinely happy about the two of you being champions at the same time

Will brag to everyone backstage

“YOU SEE THAT BRYAN? I HAVE FRIENDS THAT ARE CHAMPIONS, SORRY YOU CAN’T SAY THE SAME!”

Eddie, just like how I always say, is a very emotional person (even though he doesn’t wanna show it)

But he will make sure that you know how proud he is; even if he gives you a shoulder tackle

I also think Eddie sees every win as a win for the whole crew

Like Darius, he is upset that you didn’t tell him about your return but it made him excited about wrestling again

MJF

THIS MOTHERFUCKER PART 496792466

Would make a backhanded compliment about you

“Although it wasn’t as epic or spontaneous or memorable as my return last year, congrats to Y/N Y/L/N for making her return to the ring! BAY BAY”

After some choice words, he updates his Twitter again

“I reviewed my tweet after Y/N confronted me (with dice, a wooden spoon, and a lighter) I realize that I made some errors. I meant CONGRATULATIONS TO THE WONDERFUL AND ABOVE AVERAGE GENERATIONAL TALENT Y/N Y/L/N!”

Will ask you to shout him out occasionally (imagine having a friendship like him and Adam Cole)

No but for real, he’s happy for you

I think this man would shower you with gifts in private so you can fully get the MJF experience

Will bring you up in interviews; especially about people he can kind of give props to (his words not mine)

Christian Cage

THIS MAN IS MY SUGAR DADDY AND-

I feel like this man would be very proud of you

Would not dare hold your championship as you threaten him about that

But he would announce himself with your title in the same sentence (ex below)

“I AM THE TNT CHAMPION AND I am the significant other/best friend of the AEW Women’s Champion! Therefore, you all should respect me!”

Definitely would tell Luchasaurus to protect you as well

Loves how confident you became since winning

Also remember how I said he’s a sugar daddy?

Mans would buy you anything just for holding the championship at one point it almost becomes an accessory

Even if you didn’t have a championship, Christian would splurge on you just because

YOU DESERVE IT BIATCH

[ashecampos]

BIRDS OF A FEATHER

Aj Campos X reader

Warnings : angst, hospitals, near death experience, motorcycle accident, alcohol consumption.

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Reader has had feelings for her friend Aj for years but hasn’t had the guts to tell her. After being hospitalised and a near death experience Aj ends up telling reader her feelings and it all comes together all the time they’ve spent together and the memories

An angsty fluffy little one shot because im obsessed with billies song ‘birds of a feather’ and thought this would be cute. This took me an hour to write so sorry if it’s bad.

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“I want you to stayyy” Aj says dramatically her arm rested over my shoulder as she pouts, standing at her door, keys in hand and helmet in the other I look back at her with a smile, she slaps the back of my head with a sad look. “Hey we are literally going to see each other tomorrow at school don’t be so dramatic” I say with a sigh. She rolls her eyes and takes her arm off my shoulder to let me leave but not before she gives me a tight hug, suffocating even. “Aj I need to breathe, ur gonna kill me here” I say as dramatically as she did seconds ago just as she lets me go. “Fine leave me…forever” she puts her hand over her heart and pulls a sad face, earning a laugh from me. “Shut up stupid, right I’ll see you tomorrow 7am be up or im leaving without you” I say while walking out of the garden and to my bike. She closes the door and I start the engine, pulling the helmet over my head and pulling out of her street. I ride for around ten minutes before I get to some traffic lights, stopping I wait for them to turn green, once they do I make quick work of pulling out in a hurry to get home to my bed, I hear the screech of tires then I feel pain in the right side of my body before my whole body is flung off of my bike and makes contact with a wall. Then darkness. A lot of screaming then beeping then people talking about head scans and X-rays.

………..

(AJS POV…THE NEXT DAY)

I wake up at 6:30 to my alarm blasting in my ear, I jump out of bed with a little struggle and grab the clothes I left out the night before, throwing them on, I check my phone for a text from y/n but nothing. Weird but it’s happened before, she probably forgot to charge her phone or slept in. Hypocrite much. I carry on getting ready then wait for the clock to strike seven before heading outside, looking out for her motorbike. I wait for ten minutes before calling her, nothing. I wait another ten minutes before Gabi comes out of the house giving me a confused look. “Why are you still here? Wheres y/n?” She says throwing her backpack over her shoulder. I shrug and check my phone again “no clue, give me a ride?” I plead and Gabi nods. Once in Gabi’s car I check my phone another three times while she drives. “Jesus who died here?” Gabi says as we stop at some lights. I look up and see debris and a tow truck on the road, police and traffic wardens stood directing the traffic around the mess. I catch a glimpse of a bike on the side of the road and my heart breaks for whoever’s bike it is, my mind wandering off to y/n “god I keep telling them to just get a car but they insist on having that damn bike, and look there another motorbike in an accident” I say to Gabi, she hums in agreement before turning into the schools parking lot. Once parked we say goodbye to each other, our homerooms being in different classrooms “tell y/n I said their a douche for the no heads up this morning” I say before we go out separate ways as Gabi and y/n are in the same homeroom class.

Walking into homeroom I spot Tessa, one of mine and y/n’s closest friends since well forever. Me and y/n would never have met if Tessa didn’t introduce us.

……

Flashback :

Young Tessa runs over to young Aj paint smeared across her face “hide me” a young Tessa shouts toward Aj. In runs another girl. A young y/n, paintbrush in hand and an angry Gabi following her, a spot of red paint on her forehead. “Who’s that” a young Aj says, a blush spread across her face as the young girl and her sister run around trying to paint the others face. “That’s my best friend y/n, wanna meet them?” Tessa asks earning an eager nod from Aj.

……….

“Hey aj, nice hoodie, feeling nostalgic?” The girl pokes fun at me as we both take our seats, I look down at the hoodie and realise what she meant by nostalgic.

………

Flashback :

The whole gang sit in mine and y/ns hotel room the day before a track meet, alcohol in all of our systems, we play a few games and dance a little before we all end up sitting or lying down somewhere intoxicated out of our minds, y/n had just been through a huge breakup and we are all trying to help her without bringing it up. “I love the outfit but you’re gonna freeze y/n” I say with a laugh as the girl comes out of the bathroom in just her sports bra and some shorts. A blush spreading across my face. “If I turn blue don’t save me” she said while sitting next to me on the floor, taking another sip of her drink, pulling a disgusted expression. “We should really quit drinking while we are ahead we have the meet at 11am” she says “don’t be stupid” I return her gaze, grabbing the drink, she shivers and I take off my hoodie, leaving me in a long sleeved shirt, she takes it and rests her head on my shoulder.

……..

“Funny, speaking of, heard anything from y/n this morning?” I ask while I grab my phone to check again, the girl just shakes her head “you know her she probably didn’t sleep and forgot to charge her phone again” I nod in agreement.

The day goes on and nothing from y/n she hadn’t shown up to school, everyone assumes she just ditched and fell asleep for the day. I try calling her a few times on break but no answer still. It isn’t until track practice that there is any news about her whereabouts.

We all stand on the field waiting on coach when he comes out with a saddened look. “Hey everyone practice is cancelled take the day to rest. Aj, Gabi and Tessa, stay here, we need to talk.” He says allowing everyone to walk back to the changing rooms cheering and smiling. My heart drops already overthinking. “So y/ns mother has just called and she was in an accident” he starts but doesn’t get the time to finish as all three of us are sprinting to the locker rooms to grab our stuff.

We all hop into Gabis car and use google maps to direct us to the nearest hospital. I check my phone and see a missed call from y/n’s brother. I don’t call back just expecting him to tell us the same news we just heard from coach.

Once we get to the hospital Tessa runs to the reception and asks for a room number or anything information on her best friend. Me and Gabi stand a few feet behind praying we are allowed to go in and see y/n. After a few minutes of back and forth Tessa comes over and says “room 344”

We all race up to the room with help from nurses pointing us in the right direction. We end up in the ICU ward and find her room, we walk in and see a doctor checking her vitals or whatever doctors do. He turns to see the three of us stood there looking back at him, my eyes looking solely at y/n. “Hey guys are you y/n’s family, if you’re not you can’t be in here, she’s just came out of surgery and we are only allowing family members in right now.” He stares us down and puts the clipboard down, in a state of panic I turn to him and say “im her fiancé” without thinking, I hold my hand up and show him the ring on my finger. The promise ring y/n gave me as a joke one Valentine’s Day after my first ever girlfriend broke my heart. Even if it was a joke, that ring has never left my hand ever since. Surprisingly the doctor nods and lets us in without another question. “What happened?” I say before Tessa or Gabi can. “Motorbike accident, she has a cracked skull, broken collarbone. We took her to surgery to fix some things but she coded multiple times, we managed to bring her back and we are just keeping her here until we are certain she’s safe to go home.” He says pointing at her while my eyes fill with tears “she’s in an induced coma right now to help with the pain but when she wakes up she’s gonna need you all here to help her through this” I walk over to her and see the damage, broken nose, bust lip and black eye. Bruises litter her skin, the white hospital gown contrasting the purple and blueness of the bruises. I pull a chair over and sit down, grabbing ahold of her hand as the doctor leaves the room, saying something to gabi and Tessa as he leaves earning a nod and thankyou from them both. They both end up sitting on chairs too, Tessa making multiple phone calls while Gabi keeps asking if im okay.

It’s been hours that we’ve been sat here. She’s still asleep I’ve never seen her so peaceful it hurts. I remember all the times we’ve shared. This could be our last. Last night could’ve been our last movie night. “Fine leave me forever” being the last thing I ever said to her. My eyes fill with tears once again and Gabi comes over, placing a hand on my shoulder “you okay?” She asks quietly “I think I love her” I say while shaking my head, tears falling from my eyes. Tessa’s laugh can be heard from the other side of the room as she comes back in. “We know you love her, also doc mchot said she should wake up any time now, so stop throwing a pity party” Tessa says throwing Gabi a cup of jello. “Where did you even get these?” Gabi laughs. “The hot doctor snuck me a few in exchange for my number” she smirks “he’s switching jobs to be a firefighter, next week he starts training” the blonde smirks again. “If y/n was awake right now they would throw this jello cup at your head so hard” I say with a small smile. I feel y/n start to stir in her bed, Gabi and Tessa take this as their sign to leave the room “we will give you two some space” Gabi says, grabbing Tessa’s arm and dragging her along asking about the hot doctor/firefighter.

A groan escapes her mouth as her eyes open slowly, a hand shooting up to rub her eyes. Followed by a hiss of pain. “What the fuck happened?” She says with a laugh “I love you” I blurt out.

—————

(Y/ns pov)

My eyes open and my whole body aches. I bring up a hand to rub my eyes but a shooting pain follows as I hit the bridge of my nose, I bite my lip in agony and bring my hand back down, seeing aj with puffy red eyes, and the fact we are sat in a hospital I look at her again “what the fuck happened?” I ask before laughing a little. She looks me in the eyes and blurts out “I love you” I blink a few times to make sure I am indeed awake and not dead. Once im positive im not in heaven I realise im crying and aj looks at me concerned “I love you too And I don't know what I'm cryin' for, I don't think I could love you more” I blurt out immediately regretting it as I see Tessa and Gabi at the door smirking, we are never going to live this down. So I do the only thing I can think of. Dig myself a deeper hole. “I’ll love you to the day that I die”

[aurorawest]

Bargain of Blood and Gold by Kristin Jacques - 3.75/5 stars

Reminiscent of Jordan L Hawk's Widdershins series, but with vampires and werewolves. Also takes place in Maine, which isn't a very common setting. Unwittingly, I bought the second book in the series months ago, and I realized as it got to the top of my TBR that I didn't have the first book! I had to scramble to order it and I was happy I enjoyed it since, obviously, I already have the second book.

Ander & Santi Were Here by Jonny Garza Villa - DNF at pg 2

Captive Prince by CS Pacat (reread) - 5/5 stars

Prince's Gambit by CS Pacat (reread) - 5/5 stars

Kings Rising by CS Pacat - 5/5 stars

I think I loved these books even more on my reread.

Gravity by Tal Bauer - 4.25/5 stars

Probably my favorite hockey romance that I've read.

The Modern Mythos Anomaly by Juniper Lake Fitzgerald - DNF at pg 132

I actually liked the story, the characters, and the writing in general, but this book just needed another few edits to slim it down a bit.

Lose You to Find Me by Erik J Brown - 4.5/5 stars

Leeward by Katie Daysh - 4.5/5 stars

The blurbs on this book are hilarious, because they're all like, tall ships people, and then Mackenzi Lee, hailing it as a lovely queer historical romance. This was a really lovely book and I'm excited for the sequel. Also hoping for more kissing in the sequel since this was a serious slow burn.

Riley Weaver Needs a Date to the Gaybutante Ball by Jason June - 3.75/5 stars

Starseer by Katya Hernández - 4/5 stars

Be Dazzled by Ryan La Sala - 5/5 stars

I loved this book so much!! Oh my god. Super funny, very romantic. It revolves around cosplay which is of course a special interest of mine.

Northranger by Rey Terciero and Bre Indigo - 4.5/5 stars

Flying Without a Net by EM Ben Shaul - 2.75/5 stars

The Watchmaker of Filigree Street by Natasha Pulley (reread) - 5/5 stars

Striking Distance by Sarah Rees Brennan - 4.75/5 stars

I didn't expect to like this as much as I did. The graphic novels were good but changing to a novel format allowed for much deeper characters. Surprisingly devastating and also really funny.

The Old Haunts by Allan Radcliffe - 4/5 stars

The Gay Best Friend by Nicholas DiDomizio - 5/5 stars

Main character is the best friend of both the bride and the groom, and everything surrounding the wedding becomes a train wreck beginning on the weekend of the bachelor party, when the bride asks the MC, Dom, to keep tabs on the groom for her. As someone who is extremely conflict avoidant with friends but not family and romantic partners, I heavily related to Dom. There's also a romance that I really loved.

Romance Languages by AJ Truman - 4.25/5 stars

I think this was my favorite of the South Rock series. It deals with some more difficult topics—Julian's self-loathing over his body image is heartbreaking (and relatable), and Seamus's guilt over the way his gambling addiction hurt his ex was very well done. I'm a sucker for stories where a character learns to ask for help, not to mention difficult parent-child relationships, and this had both. I also appreciated Julian's arc re: sex and virginity.

Darkhearts by James L Sutter - 5/5 stars

Another bandmates-in-love treasure, with a twist—the main character, David, left the band right before they got famous. He ends up falling for one of his ex-friends/bandmates after they reconnect. The author is a musician himself, and it definitely shows (in a good way). I'm really a sucker for The Burdens of Fame, which this book definitely had, but there's actually a really good arc for David and how he deals with his jealousy and resentment over being left behind. Plus he wants to be a carpenter rather than go to college, which was cool.

Brute by Kim Fielding - 4.25/5 stars

We Could Be So Good by Cat Sebastian - 5/5 stars

What can I say about this book? Why was it so lovely? Why did it make me feel so much? Why can I not rate things higher than 5 stars? It's a million stars in my heart. Aside from just being a gorgeous mid-century America m/m romance (my favorite), this one features an Italian-American main character. The stuff with Nick's family was spot-on. I just loved this book. I felt like I was wrapping myself in a big, comfy, historical gay romance blanket.

Drowned Country by Emily Tesh - 5/5 stars

The sequel to Silver in the Wood. Had a very mythic and sort of folk horror vibe. This one is from Henry Silver's POV instead of Tobias Finch's and takes place two years after Silver in the Wood, which is time that Henry has mostly spent sulking in Greenhollow Hall, sans Tobias. Really highly recommend this duology. Emily Tesh is a treasure.

The Alchemy of Moonlight by David Ferraro - DNF at pg 11

[valiantroeagleangel]

Just once.

Ricky "Horror" Olson x female reader.

Hurt/ Comfort, dry-humping, "hook-up".

From @motionlessindoubt's request, "Getting dumped by AJ turns into immediately dating Ricky (preferred smut, but will accept fluff ofc); it's like those scenarios where you get dumped hard and your friend is there to comfort you, little do you know you'll just end up hooking up together."

Hope you'll like it! <3

You used to date AJ for a couple of months. One year and a half in and you basically looked like an old married couple. Sharing all your friends and stuff. But lately, things got bad between you, so bad that you ended up breaking up two weeks ago.

Everything was now shitty in your life. You knew it would happen, your relationship degrading as the days passed but now it felt so depressing.

Ricky was initially AJ's friend, but with time you both became close. So close that sometimes AJ kept asking you who your boyfriend was. He was really jealous and that bothered you so much. Ricky was such a good person that you just got along so well with him. Couldn't he be happy?

But no AJ was getting angry at you every time you laughed with Ricky. Of course, he didn't say anything to his friend, only blaming you and you were sick of it.

Yeah, Ricky was a good friend, he was caring and tonight was no exception. You were crying yourself to sleep again and as he heard you burst into tears through the phone he immediately came. You liked him and his presence by your side was really calming.

Holding you in his arms you both rested on your couch, watching some stupid TV show as you tried to calm down.

Night time was the hardest. During the day you were busy with work, not having time to think about your break up. But when you were back in your flat at night, you couldn't handle your tears, finding yourself alone with your thoughts. You were barely getting any sleep as you cried much of the time. You didn't even know what you were crying for. It was just so much pain, so much hate and anger.

But tonight Ricky was here, gently rubbing your back as you snuggled against him. You were at peace in his arms and it made you feel guilty, AJ's words coming back at you again and again.

"Why do you smile more when you're with Rick than when you're with me?", "Just go and date him if that's what you want.", "I'm so sick of all of this, that's not fair.", "Ricky is my friend why do you need to have a crush on him?".

Biting the inside of your cheek you felt tears coming back, your breathing accelerating again.

You knew something was weird between the two of you. You liked him so much but you also really liked AJ. He was so funny and caring.

When you both met he was the sweetest with you. He was such a good friend at the time, so when he suddenly confessed to you one day you agreed to date him.

You liked being with him, it was all fun and giggles. But maybe that was the problem. Maybe he wasn't supposed to make you feel like he was just your best friend. Maybe it was what was missing.

Even your intimate life was an issue. It was alright you guessed, but that wasn't anything more. Not that AJ was a bad lover, it wasn't just doing it for you. But isn't it this way that sex is supposed to feel as a woman? Just "meh", you know?

You were getting really confused by your feelings but you knew something was wrong. And the way you felt around Ricky wasn't alright either. Maybe you were just in denial.

Rising up a little, you left his embrace as startled by your movements he rose with you.

-Everything's fine? He asked, worry in his eyes as he saw that your tears were back.

-It's wrong Rick. We shouldn't be doing that. You bite your cheek again, trying to not burst into tears.

Confused, he kept staring at you.

-Shouldn't do what?

-This. You started to agitate your hands around you both. All of this. You should be by AJ's side, not mine. You're his friend.

A knot formed in your throat as your voice cracked. Ricky frowned his brows, not sure that he liked what you were implying.

-What? No. I'm your friend too. What are you even saying?

You shook your head, tears falling down your face.

-We're not friends, Rick. You whispered as you dropped your head down. We can't be friends. We'll never be friends. You paused.

Playing with your fingers you sniffed as his hand came to your chin, lifting your head gently.

-But I don't want to lose you. You said quietly as if you were confessing a crime, your lips trembling.

God, you were such a mess. He sighed at the view. You were so weak right now, so broken.

Slowly he drew closer to you, taking you back in his embrace as he stroked your hair a little. His lips coming to your ear.

-I'm not leaving you. His voice was low and gentle, trying to comfort you. You were the one dumped. He might be my friend but so you are. I can be here for you if I want, can't I?

You squeaked in his shoulder as you sniffed louder.

-I feel like we're betraying him.

You were so tired of all of this, your eyes closing as you lost yourself in his arms.

-Betraying him? Ricky kept lulling you gently in his hold.

-Yeah.. You didn't say more, not knowing how to start the subject with him.

He sighed.

-We didn't do anything wrong, why would we betray him?

His words made your heart ache again. You didn't do anything wrong and you didn't want to. Did you? But why do his words make you feel so empty, even more hurt than before? What the heck was wrong with your heart?

You muttered again.

-Right, we didn't do anything wrong.

But what if I wanted to? You kept this part for yourself, not sure if you wanted to fuck everything up again.

Separating yourself from him your gaze went to his. His eyes looked at you with such a loving expression that your heart missed a beat. His lips were inches from yours, if only he moved a little so he could kiss you.

What? No, you didn't want to kiss him. Nothing was going on between you, remember? But his eyes? Oh god, his eyes were telling you so many things. Maybe, just maybe, that you guys were having a moment right now. But you could never admit that to yourself. It would lead to a lot more.

Keeping his gaze on yours he whispered your name cautiously. Afraid that if he was too loud you would disappear, like a dream.

Your heart racing in your chest, you half-opened your mouth, breathing a little bit loudly as you stared at him, startled by the way he called you.

But without a warning, he broke all of this as his lips crashed on yours, slowly moving against you, taking you by surprise.

Your hand resting on his chest you looked at him, disbelieving what just happened. You didn't say a thing, your mind racing as you tried to process what was going on.

Silence growing between you, Ricky started to shift uncomfortably.

-I'm sorry. I shouldn't have- I thought- Well, I thought that you- Anyway I'm sorry, I should probably go.

He started to stand up, wanting to leave but you caught his wrist, pulling him back on the couch next to you.

-Do it again. You whispered, shyly.

What? No. He needed to grab his things and go before it was too late, not stay here and kiss you again. Weren't you just proving AJ right?

But you were really losing your mind. The feeling of his lips on yours has been too brief. It wasn't enough and you needed to feel those butterflies in your stomach again.

He shrugged, his hand gently cupping your face as he laid his lips on yours. Everything was so soft, so gentle as if you could break under his touch.

Grabbing his shirt you deepened the kiss a bit, wanting to explore more of the sweet feeling that was growing in your heart and stomach.

Finally, you pulled away, looking back straight into his eyes.

-We shouldn't be doing that Rick. You weren't really convinced by your words but you had to say them. It was true, you shouldn't be doing that. It was bad and you both knew it.

He nodded, whispering.

-I know.

You stayed awkwardly silent, not knowing how to deal with what was happening between you.

After some time he shifted again, pulling himself closer.

-Let me kiss you again. Just once. After that, we stop.

You quickly nodded, not thinking twice as he crashed his lips back on yours, more needy this time. He wasn't that gentle anymore. He wanted more, more of you and your sweet lips. Clinging yourself on his neck you pushed him a little more against you.

His tongue came to your lips as you whined, separating them.

Things were getting restless between you as he pushed himself more on you, forcing you to lie down on the couch.

-As long as we don't grow apart it still counts as one kiss right? His voice was hoarse against your lips making your heart race a bit more.

You agreed, pulling him back against you.

-Yes, yes it does. You breathed out.

You were panting, losing your mind under his touch. You needed more, you needed him. You didn't even know you could feel like that but everything was so sweet, a weird feeling growing in your core.

Unconsciously you surrounded him with your legs, pushing his hips against you with your heels.

Taken aback he pulled away from your lips. Looking for a response in your eyes but the only thing he found was a weird mix of lust and adoration. You wanted him, but you wanted him all. You wanted his body as much as you wanted his heart. Right now he was the only thing that mattered.

You called him, trying to get his attention as he lost himself in the contemplation of your eyes, your throat drying.

Fuck, he desired you so much. He always did and he always knew it. From the moment he saw you with AJ, he wanted to make you his. But he was your friend before anything else. He wouldn't do anything that could push you away. He just wanted to be by your side, that was enough. He already promised himself he wouldn't try anything on you. So why were you so needy tonight? Why were you looking at him with such an expression? He could lose it all just for your touch, just for you to put your lips on his.

-Rick.

Finally, he heard your voice, focusing again on you, your heels still pressed on his lower back.

-We have to stop. He said, the vision of you and AJ coming back into his mind.

-Yes we have to. You paused. We will.

Another uneasy silence grew between you but you didn't let that settle too much.

-Just thirty more seconds. Just one more time. You plead under him.

How could he say no? You were all demanding. Of course, he would agree. Laying down his lips brushed yours before going to your jaw, trailing kisses down your neck.

Quickly your hands went to his hair, stroking it as you started to whimper under him. But the time passed too fast and soon thirty seconds were done.

-Maybe thirty more, hm? You asked, almost begging. You didn't want him to leave your embrace. You needed him close.

He didn't answer you, his lips going back to yours as he continued to kiss you.

Your feet pushed him a little more against you, his crotch slowly starting to rub your pelvis. You called him again and again, his name making you feel like all of this was real, connecting you to reality.

-Fuck, keep calling me like that.

His head lost itself in the crook of your neck, gently pushing your shirt so that he could have access to your collarbone.

You kept whining his name, your hands roaming in his hair as you pushed your head back, arching yourself a little.

By reflex, his hand came under your shirt but he stopped it, pulling back before it was too late.

-Touch me, Rick. One of your hands left his hair as you grabbed his, putting it on your waist. It doesn't count. It's not a kiss, is it?

He arched a brow, not sure if your theory was reliable but if you wanted to be in denial he would gladly follow you.

Gently his fingers traced the edges of your stomach, going up to your ribcage before caressing the outline of your breast.

Every single one of his touches was so soft, so gentle, filled with love. Cautiously he grabbed your boob, his thumb coming to play with it. His eyes in yours, he continued to caress you.

Your breathing became erratic as you kept your gaze on his.

He watched every one of your movements, your breathing, the way your cheeks were getting redder, the way your mouth was half-opened and the way you moistened your dry lips with your tongue, agonizing for his touch. He watched them all.

The more he touched you the more you needed him, your head finally pulling back you started to move a little. Your hands came over his, squeezing them on your chest. You shifted your hips more when you felt his erection. He was getting hard already. Shit.

Your hands leaving your torso you directly put them on his face, getting his lips back against yours but far enough so that you couldn't kiss.

-Rick, move. You whispered. Please.

Your hips shifting under his he knew what you meant as he bit his lip, unsure if this was a good idea. But you were already too deep in the shit to stop there. Something had already changed between you and you both knew that. It was all too late.

-We're doing it just once, alright? It can't happen again.

You nodded. Oh god, how good his low voice was making you feel.

Cautiously at first, he started to grind his crotch against yours, pressing his pelvis on yours as you whined a little to his face.

Keeping his head close to yours with your hands you continued to stare at each other's expression, Ricky rubbing himself on you.

Fuck this was good. Way too good. How could it feel like that?

-He can't know. Ever. He whispered, his lips dangerously approaching yours.

You breathed out a "yes, never", moaning loudly at the pleasure that was growing between your legs.

-Kiss me, Rick. Please.

At this point it didn't matter anymore, you were already dry-humping each other, a kiss couldn't hurt more.

Without adding anything his lips moved a bit forward, brushing yours as he collapsed on you, pushing himself closer. Your hands went back to his hair, pulling it as he ravenously ate your mouth, his hips rocking faster and faster against yours.

Breaking the kiss, he abruptly pushed his head into the crook of your neck, feeling himself on the verge of coming.

Rubbing yourself eagerly on him, your feet hit his lower back again, pushing him closer each time.

Ricky was groaning under your ear like a beast as your hands kept pulling out his hair more violently.

-Look at me, I want you to look at me when you come. You asked, whimpering as you felt your own orgasm coming.

Your hand dragging his head to you, your gaze met as the view astonished you. He was as a mess as you were, a mix of hot breath and loud groans, desiring you more than he did his entire life.

It was enough to make you both come, taking you by surprise as you cried out his name again.

-Fuck baby. His head sank back to your neck as he felt himself wet his own pants, cum everywhere in his underwear.

Baby? Yeah, alright, you could definitely work with that.

Minutes passed and none of you talked, both way too afraid of what was going on now.

It was just a hook-up. Just once. Just for tonight. It wouldn't happen again.

But you both knew, deep down, that it was so much more. You were just lying to yourselves. It would happen again. It will happen again. Maybe that AJ was right, maybe that you had a crush on Ricky since the beginning.

[mala--draws]

tesh.... and danny.... and AJ......... ough..

I COULDDN'T GET AJ RIGHT !!! but look at the cuties:DD

left to right: danny ( @nosuchthingasdeadlanguages ), tesh (mine!) and aj ( @kalied0skull )

tesh probably bothers both of them during their shifts but gets bored, squats and people watches (aj thinks it's a little weird but doesn't really care, danny is straight up amused by it). tesh just thinks it's a nice change from when he first got to tulsa, he never did feel real good about nicking anything. and now he gets to nap in breakrooms :P

hc danny's a practical girl she smacks on lipstick n eyeliner for her shifts and forgoes the foundation 😌

[idontplaytrack]

Aj x Reader, reader is Dylan’s sister? Truth or dare? Some kind of party game leads to a confession of feelings but reader has a boyfriend? I want some angst lol

✧ Fall Into Me

AJ Campos x fem! reader

Warnings: mature themes, MDNI. angst, coarse language, quarrelling, underage drinking, attempted/sexual assault.

AJ wishes she could turn back the clock to save reader.

All eyes were on AJ the second she walked into school. Many did a double-take, buzzing about who she was. The girl was no longer dressed the way you knew her to be for as long as you’ve known her. Ten years. Also, you came back to school without your best friend. She’d ended the friendship with you. The summer ended painfully, with more heartbreaks than one. All because of one game.

~~~~~

“Why don’t you want to go to the party? Stacey’s parties are always fun!” Dylan asks. “I don’t like parties, Dyl.” You told him, calmly. Unlike his current mood— he was desperately trying to get you out of the house.

“Come on, you love going to parties with me, y/n.”

You sigh, tempted to agree, but something was holding you back. Or rather, someone. Should you tell Dylan? No, he’d kill ya.

“y/n, you’d be home alone and that’s so boring.” Dylan continues, “You literally told me you hated being home alone.”

You huffed, “Fine. Fine. I’ll go.” You got off the couch, plugging your phone in on the way to your room. “That’s more like it.” Dylan exclaimed. “We’re gonna get so wasted tonight.” You laughed, then sighed while you entered your room and shut the door. You put on the first outfit you saw then proceeded to do your makeup. “We’re leaving in an hour!” Dylan knocks on your door.

“Alright!” You replied loudly.

After getting changed, you went back downstairs. Mainly to check your phone. You had a few missed calls from your boyfriend so you called him back.

“Where are you?”

You flinched at how fast he answered your call.

“At home.”

“Then what took you so long to answer my calls?”

“What? I left my phone on silent and it was charging downstairs but I was up—”

“Don’t give me excuses. You know I—”

“y/n!” Dylan called for you.

“I gotta go, I’ll meet you soon, bye.” You cut him off and hung up.

Putting your phone down, you ask, “Yeah?”

“Stacey says we can go over earlier if we want. So, you wanna?”

“Uh, actually. I’m gonna meet you there. I kinda promised Xander I’d meet him for a bit.”

“Since when? You said you had nothing to do all weekend— and that he was out of town.”

“Maybe he came back early, I dunno.” You shrug, “I’ll be at Stacey’s as soon as I can, alright?”

“You’d better show up, y/n.”

“I will, promise.”

Hurriedly grabbing your purse off the hook, you shove your wallet and keys inside it then left the house with your phone in hand. You walk to a secluded park near home— where Xander was waiting for you. Impatient, antsy…his frame was trembling as his fists were balled up on either of his sides. You had half a mind to run away and just stay home until it was time to go to the party for Dylan, but another part of you went ahead and approached him.

“Xander.” You said, coming up behind him.

“Took you long enough.” He scoffs.

“I literally came here as soon as I called you back.”

“Lose the attitude.”

“What do you want from me?”

“What I want is for you to get this fact into your head. You’re mine. You don’t go around getting kissed, hanging out with your people.”

“My people?” You shot him a bewildered look. He glares at you displeased. You gulped, inching away timidly.

“Who’s this girl kissing you?” He immediately shows you a picture on his phone.

“That— that’s Stacy. Our student body president. She has a boyfriend. My brother.”

“Some girlfriend she is just going around kissing people.”

“It was my birthday. It was pose, nothing more. Her boyfriend is literally in the picture.” You told him, biting back a scoff.

“Did you just roll your eyes at me?” He snarled, hands gripping onto your shoulders.

You seethed, squirming to free yourself from his grip.

“I’m sorry, baby.”

You shrug. He always apologizes but never meant it— it’ll happen again. And again, and again.

“Then this?”

“That’s my brother Dylan, Xander.” You said flatly, tired. “He hugged me, because I got him something he’s been wanting a long time for his gift.”

“Fine. Sorry.”

“Whatever, can we just get to the party?”

“Ew, I don’t want to go to some lame party of yours.” He scoffs, “Come on, get in the car.” His hand ran up your side. “No.” You told him firmly. Your words fall on deaf ears, his hand nearly cupping your breast.

You slapped him, “What the fuck!”

“You bitch! What was that for?” He shrieked, holding his cheek. Xander lunged at you, hand grabbing your neck, “How dare you hit me?”

He pushes you to the ground before you could say anything else. Then, he huffs and got into his car, driving off. “Fuck you.” He shouts as he drove off.

You help yourself off the ground, dusted yourself off and went on your way to Stacy’s— in tears. But checking your neck to make sure there was no bruising. There was redness, which you hurriedly covered up with the makeup left in your purse as you walked the distance to the party.

Making sure the red marks were covered, you rung the doorbell. “Hey! Come on in, girl!” Stacy immediately hugs you as per usual.

“Hey.” You give her a forced smile, hoping she couldn’t tell.

“You know where everything is. Make yourself at home, drink up, eat up— we’re gonna play a game soon.”

“A g-game?”

“Spin the bottle.” Stacy grins, “In the den.”

By the time you got to the den, you were a little tipsy since you chugged the drinks. Desperate to forget the earlier events with Xander. “Just the person we’ve been waiting for.” Dylan announces, “Sit down, join the circle. Let’s get that bottle spinning.”

You were praying that empty beer bottle doesn’t stop at you. And it was going smoothly. But soon came your turn, so you had no choice but to spin it. It lands on AJ. Tipsy, tipsy AJ. Grinning, about god knows what. Was she happy that you made the bottle land on her?

Rules were, you had to kiss whoever the bottle stopped at. So, you did. Xander wasn’t here anyway…so who was stopping you from having a little fun. It was just a kiss, right? The moment your lips met hers, you felt a spark, a fluttering in your chess that made you feel giddy. No, no, no. Shit. You couldn’t feel this way. You shouldn’t be feeling like this.

“I like you.” She whispers.

You froze, somehow or other, your heart was happy. Relieved and scared. All at once. Then, you slowly broke away from the kiss before it got too heated. “I have a boyfriend.” You said apologetically, “I’m sorry.”

That look in her eyes, it broke your heart. You felt terrible. AJ was a really nice person. She didn’t know, because Xander wanted to keep things lowkey. She was a pretty close friend of yours too. You could’ve told her sooner because she wouldn’t have told anyone that you were dating someone already. She has never let out any of your secrets, and never will. But, it was Xander. He’d find out you told someone, somehow. And you’d be his punching bag. You didn’t want that.

“Sorry.” AJ’s apology pulls you out of your thoughts.

The rest of the night went by uneventfully, until you got home and were in bed. You’d received a text from AJ, asking if she could give you a call. You called her first and it takes her awhile, but she answers eventually.

“y/n, I’m so sorry. I didn’t know.”

“It’s okay, it’s my fault. I should’ve just told you sooner.”

“I’ve been sitting here thinking for a bit. I don’t think we can be friends anymore. Because I don’t think my feelings for you will be dying down anytime soon. I can’t hate you and I never will. I don’t want to make things weird for you. Or your boyfriend. Goodbye, y/n.”

You’d barely processed her words before the dial tone was heard. “Shit!” You cursed, throwing your phone across the room. Well, that night? Ended in tears for you. You cried yourself to sleep, muffling the noise with a pillow.

~~~~~

Six weeks later, AJ gets woken up from her slumber by a call from an unknown number.

“Hello, may I speak to AJ Campos?”

“You are.” AJ answered, clearing her throat, “Who is this?”

“I’m calling from Keck Hospital of USC. You were listed as y/n y/l/n’s emergency contact.”

“What?” The blood instantly drained from her face, “What happened to her?”

“She came into the ER with a head injury claiming she fell because she was drinking. But upon further examination, we found that she’d been sexually assaulted.” The nurse explained, “She said we could tell you. The local authorities are also on their way here to find out more about what happened, but if you would like to come over and see her—”

“I-I’m on my way. Bye.” AJ hung up and scurried out of bed, hurrying downstairs to her car and just drove off in her pyjamas.

“Please be okay.” AJ kept repeating to herself as she drove, “I can’t lose you.” Just like that, she’d forgotten why she even tried to distance herself in the first place. Regretting the fact that she ignored you in class when you asked for help on the trig worksheet. She chokes on a sob, “Why wasn’t I nicer to you? Why did I have to—”

After driving for a damn long time, AJ finally arrives at the hospital. Hastily parking her car in the rather empty parking lot, she rushes through the automated doors, asking the front desk which room you were in. “She’s still in the ER. To your left, bed 11. The SVU detectives are with her now. So you may want to wait outside.” AJ ran to look for you, stopping outside the hospital room like they’d told her to. She couldn’t bear to listen to the details— she couldn’t stomach it. As much as she felt that sickening feeling in her stomach, she also felt so angry. Who would do this to someone? Someone as sweet as you? She wishes it was at just a bad dream. But no, it was so very real.

AJ sat in the plastic chair leaning forward, head buried in her hands. Waiting, and waiting. She hears you talking to the detective indistinctly, your voice getting quieter and quieter, then you started to cry. Shit. That sound crushed her heart.

AJ hears them leave the room, she looks up, meeting the sympathetic eyes of the detectives. She got up and walked into the room immediately. You were a wreck the moment you saw her, wanting nothing more than a hug from her. She gave it to you, that hug you’ve been longing for. It always made you feel better. But not so much now, maybe you just missed her.

“I should’ve just left him,” You started, “I should’ve left. I’m so stupid.”

“Honey, don’t say that. It’s not your fault.”

“Isn’t it though? I knew he was hurting me but I couldn’t do it— I couldn’t leave. I was so scared, AJ. I couldn’t do it, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have stayed on.”

“Baby, please don’t say that. It’s not your fault. Please.”

“Someone showed Xander a photo of us at the party during the game.” You continued to talk through tears, “He got so mad...”

“Xander did this?!” AJ’s voice came out louder than anticipated. You flinched and cried harder. “Shit, y/n. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to.” She apologizes profusely, rubbing your back.

“I told them. I told the police already, I couldn’t take it anymore. I told them everything.” You hung onto her even more tightly, tears seeping into her baggy t-shirt endlessly. One you bought her several years ago.

“They’ll get him, okay, baby?” AJ whispers, “They’ll get him. You’re safe here, alright?”

“I can’t go home, AJ.” You gasped, getting into a coughing fit and she broke away just in case. “I can’t go home. My parents will be so disappointed in me. Disgusted by me…I don’t want to tell them about it, AJ.”

Since you were of age, your parents weren’t notified. So far, AJ was the only person who knew other than the police— who you’ve also told to not inform your parents. Thankfully, they agreed and you could only hope it stayed that way. It was going to be a long night ahead. They still had to do a kit, which took quite awhile. But you knew they had to do it, they needed to get the DNA evidence against your abuser. You cried for AJ to stay with you, feeling absolutely terrified. She agreed to without hesitation, staying with you and letting you hold onto her hand to divert the pain away.

————

Hours later, you were in AJ’s car, half asleep as she begins the drive to her own apartment. You were terribly exhausted but fighting sleep. You were so on the edge, worried and anxious about something happening. About somehow seeing Xander show up.

“You’re safe with me. Close your eyes. I’m right here with you.” AJ says, turning the volume of the radio down.

“You said close your eyes

Don't look down

Fall into me and I'll catch you, darlin'

We'll dance in the street like nobody's watching

It's just you and me and the song on repeat in my head”

You fell asleep to that song softly playing through the speakers, giving into the exhaustion. You knew you were safe with AJ— like always. She softly nudged you awake once you two arrived at her apartment building. You jolted awake, but quickly realised where you were and who you were with. “Let’s go, we’re here.” She gets out of the car, shut her door and went over to your side to help you out. AJ was apprehensive, but she eventually wrapped an arm around you fully seeing that you were comfortable with it. You simply followed her lead without saying a word…what could you possibly say anyway?

Quietly shutting the front door, she leads you to her room, asking if you wanted to take a shower. You said yes and she got you a towel and clothes to change into afterwards. She leaves you alone, but in the meantime, you also got a glass of water ready along with the medications the doctor said you could take. She puts them on the nightstand, then she paced her room for awhile, thinking and thinking. Feeling herself getting angrier. She huffs, sitting down on her bed eventually. The bathroom door was left ajar, and she hears a bottle drop. You screamed and started crying. Could she walk in there? She didn’t want to upset you any further.

She stood directly behind the door, knocking softly, “It’s okay, y/n. You’re alright.” AJ hears the sound of the bottle being put back on the shelf, but you continued crying. She doesn’t stop you— you needed some form of release for the hell that was tonight.

Thirty minutes later, you walk out from the bathroom. Freshly showered but still feeling absolutely dirty. You’d nearly scrubbed your skin raw…your head was throbbing and you were starving. But you couldn’t eat. You felt too sick to eat, scared that you’d just throw everything up. “Take the pills on the nightstand.” She nudged you gently, “Are you hungry? Do you feel like eating something?”

You quietly shook your head, “I feel sick. I can’t.” You sat down on her bed carefully, reaching for the pills on the small table. You swallowed them with the water one at a time and put the glass down, staring blankly into space…your mind was racing.

“Hey.” She sits down next to you, “Let’s get some sleep, okay? Come on.”

You crawled under the covers and laid down on your back. AJ wanted to leave, letting you take the whole bed. “Will you stay with me?” You asked meekly.

She stops in her tracks, turning around, “If that’s what you want, of course.”

“Thank you.” You looked at her, then away and shut your eyes.

“You’ll be okay. I’ll take care of you.” That was the last thing you heard before you fell asleep, “I’ll be with you every step of the way.”

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