#ahhhhhhhhhhhh wait i love them i love this

[vextech]

i love that i read SO many jayvik fics about the divorce beginning with jayce being horrified at what viktor had done with the hexcore, only for it to turn out that jayce actually did not give a SINGLE fuck, didn't even flinch at the sight of his hand and leg, and was ecstatic when it ended up saving his life. i am absolutely obsessed

[mvrcellas]

perhaps dany was right -- after all, the queen-to-be was sided near myrcella's good and only ear... the attack with darkstar was enough to make the princess realize that yes: she DID overcome a bit. she certainly wasn't the same child from king's landing, nor was she the young girl trying to find her footing here in dorne. she'd lived enough to know that life was full of perils. and JOYS.

she was certain that her mother would be calling for violence if she were to know of her new kinship with the targaryen -- after all, was she not taught her entire life that were daenerys or her brother to come to westeros in order to claim the throne that myrcella would be tortured or killed? was she not warned over and over again about the DANGERS of a new targaryen dynasty? there was much she was taught and more that the blonde has unlearned. daenerys was nothing like she had been told -- and myrcella was grateful for it.

"it will be a terrible one," she murmured almost sadly, offering dany a soft smile. "they're calling for me to be queen -- some, i suppose. even though it was never something i was told i would be or even asked about in terms of WANTING. my mother..." a beat, the girl moved her focus to the fruit in front of her as she peeled the skin off. "i worry for my family. i worry for the people. i worry for tommen. i worry for YOU." myrcella knew that the road was to be paved in blood. there was no avoiding it.

"will you kill them?"

they lay in the shade of the sandship, it's walls high and gleaming in the late morning light. dany felt at home here, the heat a welcome companion. it almost feels like a dream, dany thought to herself, as she pressed another slice of a fruit, bitter and soft, to her lips. to be in westeros at last could be a dream of its' own. but to be in the presence of the daughter of her enemies ...

but myrcella was different. dany had come to realize this over the past several nights she had spent in house martell. the girl held no ambitions for power, only for safety and peace. and the young queen admired that quality. she too wished for nothing more than peace. but that was not the path laid out before her by the gods. the gods demanded blood. the gods demanded a queen.

" how did i do it? " the question was echoed back to the younger with a tone of equal curiosity, " there was no other choice for me. if i had stop moving, if i had looked back at the ruin of my life for a moment, i would have been lost. " at this, the queen presses up on the heels of her palms, silver hair dancing in breeze. " the seven kingdoms are mine by birthright. there is no other road i can take except the one that leads me home, even if it is a terrible one. "

violet eyes settle on the girl, a smile blooming across sun-kissed features. " but do not speak mildly of your own journey, myrcella. you have overcome much. "

[tj-crochets]

Crafting update: -I have abruptly realized I probably should have already started holiday crafting but am ignoring that for now lol - three rows completely sewn together out of fourteen for the new rainbow triangle quilt! One row sewn into a row but it needs one more round of ironing before I sew it to the quilt top. Ten rows to go - I have three coworker's babies (or grandbabies) to make blankets for! I think I'll just go for simple flannel blankets instead of quilts so I can get them all done quickly, but baby blankets!!! :D - I need to mail stuff and if I promised to mail you something recently I swear I still will. I have a pile of packages to mail forming, the local post office just has very restricted hours and the asthma flareup has made leaving the house into a high-spoons activity. So, this weekend? Or early next week at the earliest - oh no oh no holiday crafting

[good-or-bad-luck]

i dont WANT to write the falling in love part i just want to write them making out !!!! why is life so long and hard

[miimo96]

Thoughts on TBHK Chapter 119

"Babe wake up a New chapter of TBHK just dropped and on SPOOKY MONTH no less", The Board is Set, our main characters are here, let's see what aidairo has in store for us today. Judging from the Cover card, it looks like yashiro will FINALLY be going back to the Red house, OH boy, I wonder how shes going to react Now that hanako is ya know....EVIL!? Also I hope kou and mitsuba are ok 😥

Yo I effing HATE this Dude, also Look at yashiro and Aoi"s relationship blooming, ya know i gotta say, the more I keep seeing these 2, the more more im reminded of Madoka magica and how sayaka pretty much played this role in the beginning, and We All know how that turned out 😅

Y'ALL HAD ☝️ JOB!

Ok 2 thing: 1, I Didn't even REALIZE we didn't get the chapter cover Until NOW, and 2, this panel looks Absolutely SICK OMG aidairo How do you keep cooking, also is it me or does the art style for nene kinda remind you of the art style form the VERY 1ST Chapter? Hmmmmm 🤔

So she basically got Yetted out of existence Lol, WAIT I RECOGNIZE THAT OUTFIT, KOU!, KOU!!, KOU!!! Its gotta be Kou Please be Kou

KOU!!! Oh how I've missed you and your traffic earing 😭

AHHHHHH MY HEART 😭😭😭 I love her friendship with kou, yes while Akane and Teru ARE Reliable, kou has something they Dont, EMPATHY, COMPASSION, and HEART, he's such a comfort for yashiro, and he's not always against hanako like the other 2. he's the homie for a reason, and in my opinion, the BEST character aidairo has wrote ^^

Ummmm I don't trust this, how come he's not freaking out and explaining what happened with him and mitsuba and That hanako has gone crazy, it almost feels like he's leading her somewhere PURPOSELY 😧😨

Time is melding in on itself, TIME IS MELDING IN ON ITSELF!! Omg she's in the PAST Again 😰😰😰

HANAKO!!!!😱😱😱

I love their relationship, it reminds so much of nobara's and Yuji from JKK. look at her, she ABSOLUTELY yipping with Joy, and he's going right along with her ^_^

AGHHH MY HEART!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!😭😭😭😭

My heart...I really can't say anything more except, MY HEART, this Is LITERALLY the best scene in my opinion, aside from the absolute Masterpiece of the Picture perfect arc, this is DEFINITELY a Big runner up. F$%k Aidairo, What do you DO to my EMOTIONS

What?... What happened on his Birthday? What did the Clock keepers DO, Oh No NOT AGAIN!! OMG aidairo WHY, ok for real can someone please remind what exactly happened on his birthday? I know that on ONE of his birthdays That was day that Tsukasa decided to sacrifice himself to the Red house, and that THAT was the reason why hanako stayed alive, but I don't remember if that was on his 4TH birthday or entirely different day, if it was on his 4th Birthday then Holy shit, it looks like my theory about Tsukasa and yashiro MAY be right, and might in fact, COME TRUE 😨😰😰😰

HOLY SHIT, ya know at this point I think aidairo just wants to BREAK us, Because why do you keep doing this like OH MY GOD please Stop, please Stop aidairo I can't take it anymore, just don't hurt them PLEEAASE, Omg Yashiro NOOOO!!!

[crippling-pages]

i just finished The Reappearance of Rachel Price by Holly Jackson

freaking screaming like what.

First off, Rachel, Bel, and Carter are my new favorites

Bel and Ash>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> I NEED MORE BEL AND ASH

Ramsey is so damn cool. Like he sees his brother and law and 'the heart of the film' go out and do this stuff and he's like "okay wait you need them to sign the papers first" And the part at the end? YES SIR BRO'S THE BIG BROTHER BEL NEEDED

BEL AND ASH

I'm not mad that Charlie did; that horsefucker had it coming. But Jeff? Cmon, really? I liked Jeff... Also Sherry- ngl i thought it was kind of harsh what Rachel, Bel, and Carter did to her- I feel bad...

BEL AND ASH

Carter's freaking amazing. Like thats it.

BEL AND ASH

Bel is an amazing character and I love her so much she is my child

BEL AND ASH

Rachel is so DAMN AMAZING. She's so impressive and smart and just straight up AWESOME.

BEL AND ASH

I NEED MORE BEL AND ASH OMG I LOVE THEM SO MUCH LIKE AHHHHHHHHHHHH

"I don't care about the footage. I don't care about the documentary, that I've fucked it all up. I care about you."

I love them more than anyone could imagine

But yeah i have a lot more thoughts but these are the biggest ones right now this book is a 5/5 its amazing 1000% recommend goodbye i need to cry now

[thesevenwondersofawitch]

Watching Agatha All Along Death's Hand in Mine

Agatha All Along episode 7 spoilers

Agatha pausing between saying ex and best friend when talking about what she was to Wanda👀

Oh my God I can't be the only one that sees like sadness or emotion that flashes in her eyes when he says that Wanda isn't his mom 😭 because she saw just a much Wanda was willing to go to protect her kids and damn

"Hey you want straight answers ask straight lady."😭😂

"The road is a fickle mistress."

Omg the way her expression changes when he says he wonders if she's ever been on the road 😭 like she is remembering what she lost? (Thinking of the head canon where she unknowingly sacrificed her son for power, maybe bringing him with her only to lose him?)

The way Agatha said that the wicked witch was based off of her is so funny and especially her face when Billy says to prove it

Billy: "The horse drawn carri-"

Agatha unimpressed: "Chariot?"

Billy hurrying to fix his mistake: "iot." 😭

The way he said the Sphinx' represent her mysteriousness

WHAT SHE'S BEING TRUTHFUL 👀👀👀

Oh my god she almost killed him with the sword flying 😭😂

Oh my god the ceiling is closing in👀

The way Lila is wondering where they're going and now Jen is like I was literally following you bitch Idk where we're supposed to go

Oh my god I'm sobbing

"how long has it been?"

"centuries"

"eh, long time for you." 😭

Oh my god the way Lila travels through time😭

I feel like the older lady is familiar but I can't place her

Wait what subway station

I wonder if Lila has a family curse too 👀

Oh damn, she experienced her life out of sequence 😭😭😭 that would be so scary

"We are not cool teenager."

"damn using his full name."😭😂

OH MY GOD BILLY IS READING HER MIND😭

"Aren't you furious?"

"I mean always but collectively we've moved on."

The way Lila decides to trust Jen and then proceeds to instead panic over their outfits 😭😂

Awwwwww the way she wanted to protect him by giving him time😭

Lila doing her little stop stop stop dance is me anytime I have a panic attack/PTSD flashback

OH MY GOD IT'S TEEN'S BOOK

Ngl I too would want to put the power away if all I could see was death

I love his little Queer joke😭😂

The way Agatha kept trying to influence what Billy asks😂

Aw my boy doesn't know if he is William or Billy😭

Aw I'm sobbing the way Lila saw how her whole coven would die and she couldn't stop it

Awwwwww the way Lila realizes she's gonna die by falling and decides to use her remaining time to save her new coven because she loves them😭

OH MY GOD THE SEVEN👀

Ngl I kinda dig their vibes

I'm sobbing the way Lila calls Jen her sister in the craft with such emotion

Oh my god I'm bawling

I think she's gonna sacrifice herself because that's the way to save her coven😭😭😭

The way Agatha represents three of swords and that scene has me sobbing

Rio😭😭😭😭

Oh my god the way Rio has arrived to collect Lila AHHHHHHHHHHHH

And the way Agatha shoves the card down on the table, I think Lila knows that Agatha knows

"What can I say, I like the bad boys."😭😂

Oh my god the way she wants them all and gifts Billy back his book😭

"I loved being a witch."

FUCK NO😭

The way she turned the cards so that they would all be impaled 😭 I have chills

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IM GETTING FLASHBACKS TO BLACK WIDOW'S DEATH

Awwwwwwww the way Lila starts her journey again 😭 there's something kinda nice about it showing us how life always starts anew 😭

Soooooooo I'm sobbing and this episode was one of my favorites I think, because it was beautifully done.

[roguelov]

So like I had a morpheus x Reader nsfw blurb like what if dream got bored in the dreaming during a time when he didn’t have duties to attend to and wanted a bit of a game with reader and that involved them running through the dreaming woods and reader is given an objective like they get a 2 min head start and if they make it to the River in the woods they are free but if they are caught *and they will be caught* and morpheus shape shifts into a big cat and chases reader catches them and changes back to his normal form and *ravishes* them

👀👀👀

I AM SO DOWN FOR THIS AHHHHHHHHHHHH I LOVE IT

“Now, run.”

His words echoed constantly in your head as you darted through the woods. Thickets and low hanging branches scraped along your face and arms. You occasionally tripped over roots and rocks, but managed to stay on your feet. The heavy pounding sound of footsteps behind you always kept you moving. You just had to make it to the riverbank, that was all you had to do.

Easy.

Even if a part of you couldn’t wait for Dream to get his hands on you.

You peered over your shoulder.

A gigantic beast, akin to a massive black panther, was directly almost behind you. The feline blue eyes twinkled like moons in the midst of darkness. Dream was getting closer.

You yelped and tried to run faster.

You ducked and skirted around trees. You tried to push your body to do more, to run faster. Yet, even as the river started to appeared in the distance, you were just not fast enough.

A force pounced on your back.

Rolling around, you quickly found yourself on your back with your arms pinned above your head. Your chest heaved, gasping for air as you stared up at Dream in his mortal form.

His eyes still shone like moonlight. “Too slow, my dear,” he hummed.

“Well, I tried, and it’s -“

His hand clamped over your mouth. He leaned down to your ear. “Not another word unless you are screaming out my name.”

Your eyes widened.

He chuckled. His hands skimmed down your body, and wrapped your legs around his waist. “Now, be good for me. I worked so hard to catch you.”

[incomplete-ruler]

Paralive 5th Anniversary Art

Now that I've woken up I've finally gotten around to look at the vid for the 5th anniversary (even though I was awake when it premiered (I thought it was gonna be a full livestream okay?)). So I also decided to post my thoughts about it on here which is mostly: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

(P.S. The screenshots I have may look quite shit since they were taken on my phone (on the highest quality but still))

1. GokuLuck

I just needed to take a screenshot with all of them because they all look so good. My personal favourites are Kenta and Shion of course (I also just realised that Kenta is wearing really baggy pants (or so it seems)).

Also Yuto/Hancho 👀

2. 1Nm8

I LOVE LITERALLY EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS AHHHHHHHHHHH. Rokuta's outfit is so cute (as always) and as expected Kei is giving futuristic Jesus (I still need to research the bible).

3. VISTY

MY ENBY CHILD AND MY SON/DAUGHTER EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THEY LOOK SO CUTE. Everyone here looks so good though (their colour scheme is everything).

4. AMPRULE (it's actually just Dongha)

MY DAUGHTERRRRRR AHHHHHHHHHHHH SHE LOOKS SO GOOD (AND CUTE). She almost looks like some sort of army general or smth (which does suit her).

I also included a cropped version of her full outfit here:

5. 悪漢奴等

I knew even before I saw this full image that Reo and Hokusai were gonna kill me. I thought that the official art where Hokusai had his arms exposed was bad enough...NOPE (can't wait to show my friends this image when I officially get them into paralive 'cause goddamn). Also MY SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON. HE LOOKS SO CUTE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

6. cozmez

Needed to include my bitch Kanata first because he's so pretty (plus this photo is higher quality)

This is also peak trans masc fashion (now that I think about it I don't think I've seen them wear such baggy clothes before).

7. The Cat's Whiskers

And here's my main bitch Ryuu who always deserves to be in 4k (even though the quality is ass). I also wanted to get a close up of my son/future son-in-law Shiki but it didn't look as good as the full image (imo).

Now THIS is absolute perfection. My son/son-in-law looks amazing (so does the lighting). Even the rainbow in the bottom left corner is perfection...

Also Yohei you slu-

8. B△E

I just needed to put Anne first because goddamn they're beautiful.

I'm not even a bae stan but why do their outfits always look so good?? (At least most of the time imo)

I didn't include Buraikan because I didn't have much to say about them, but whoever made all these really outdid the anniversary art for this year. I'm definitely gonna save/look at some of the individual photos if I can find them later.

[echooefrost]

AHHHHHHhHhhHH!!! IT’S HERE!!!

@arythusa My copy of TGS is Finally here!!! Words cannot begin to describe the agony of waiting for this thing to arrive (oh the woes of Australian shipping) It feels so unreal that this is actually a real book now and I can hold it in my hands - it’s truly amazing

anyway, since I don’t have my tablet on me I drew some low quality doodles to celebrate (I also felt the need to impulsively decorate the page around the bookplate) and we have some jekyon because I love them

Thank you for creating such a beautiful book that I shall now cherish forever!

[accio-victuuri]

when i started getting really involved in this fandom, i was always fascinated by the fan works. from edits, comics, fics and most especially the doll culture. it’s not exclusive to bxgs and in the beginning i didn’t get the fuss. but i found myself getting a pair before, and then moving along. one thing i have always wanted, aside from zanbi and bobi pair & mooncake and leopard which is a more recent fandom fave is suo. our dearest grandkid suo. i know we all have different views on fanworks that feature them with a kid but i guess we can all agree that it’s freakin adorable! 🫶🏼

after a year of waiting, it’s finally here! winking/long hair suo baby 💛

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! i’m overwhelmed with the cuteness!!!! the baby clothes? that cute wink? the hair that i can style? it also comes with a baby book, a postcard photo of the family and lots of stickers! so worth the wait!

for cpfs, carrying dolls at events has really become an identity. you know who’s who when they are carrying one and i’ve always found that lovely. especially the time when they took it to road shows of bobo’s films <3 even passer by find it cute and makes them smile.

there will always be some pushback from people who will find this childish but i was never someone who thought too much about what people think of me. i like stuffed toys and cute things, so what? let people enjoy things! in the same way (we) cpfs don’t listen much to negative things thrown at us, we only care about zz/wyb. and then the rest, we live our lives and surround ourselves with positive energy and cuteness!!!!!! 💛💛💛

[saylorsaysstop]

⭐️ TOP 10 READS ⭐️

I wasn't really dabbling with the book community when I picked up reading again in September 2023 but now in January 2024, I've read 32 books (not a lot but I'm picking up speed finally!) and here are my TOP 10 reads so far on my reading journey 💘📚

Starting at #10...

#10: ICEBREAKER | Hannah Grace

This was one of the first books I read. It was also my first sports romance. I didn't think hockey would be it for me but WOWZA did Nate Hawkins change me. His and Stassie's relationship was a quick one that took my breath away. The spice? You wouldn't have convinced me of the fllth in this book when I picked it up. Honestly, the pages moaned when I opened them. Such a good read! Highly recommend. I'm currently reading WILDFIRE (Russ and Aurora's story) and cannot WAIT for Henry's book! He was my favorite side character 💘

RATING: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ | SPICE: 🌶️🌶️🌶️

#9: SECRETLY YOURS | Tessa Bailey

Secretly Yours was my introduction to Tessa Bailey who has honestly become one of my top 5 authors. I love her writing style. A third person typically isn't my cup of tea, but Tessa can change you. This was a great take on a little grumpy x mega sunshine action. Julian Vos is a sucker for his girl and secretly a little freak too. Absolutely loved this! Also, I loved the secret admirer letters back and forth. So good.

RATING: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ | SPICE: 🌶️🌶️

#8: Unfortunately Yours | Tessa Bailey

This is the second book after Secretly Yours. This follows Julian's sister, Natalie, and August Cates. We meet both of these people in Secretly Yours. There's nothing I love more than a marriage of convenience trope with a little splash of enemies to lovers, but knowing that the MMC has fallen in love first. August Cates? He is a WHOLE MAN. An ex-Marine who is set to keep his late best friend's vineyard dreams alive, his and Natalie's explosive relationship is a succulent read... And in the bedroom? Well, let's just say. He makes it fit. 🔥

RATING: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ | SPICE: 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️

#7: ADDICTED TO YOU | Krista & Becca Ritchie

The first book in the Calloway Sisters series follows two very complicated people, Loren Hale and Lily Calloway. Best friends since childhood who both face terrible addictions (Loren is an alcoholic and Lily is a sex addict), they've been playing their families for years that they've been together. They do this so they can help others hide their addictions. But when everything blows up and each realizes the other does have a problem, everything goes south. This book had me in tears. It is emotionally tragic and I adore LiLo SO much. I've read Ricochet and am going to start the 3rd book either this month or in February... Also, you may just fall in love with Connor Cobalt. I said what I said 💗

RATING: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ | SPICE: 🌶️🌶️🌶️

#6: FLAWLESS | Elsie Silver

When in doubt, remember what Big & Rich said. Save a horse, ride a cowboy. If you wear the hat, you ride the cowboy. My first cowboy romance ever and I was hooked from the very first page. We meet Rhett Eaton, a playboy bull rider with a hatred for milk unlike no other. He needs his reputation fixed and handled. Enter Summer. The most sunshiney person you'd ever meet gives this bull rider a run for his money. And the sex? Oh wowza. It's so good.

RATING: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ | SPICE: 🌶️🌶️🌶️

#5: A COURT OF THORNS & ROSES | SJM

My introduction to ACOTAR started off strong. I adored Tamlin (if you know, you know) we follow Feyre Archeron and her journey. I can't say much except you need to read this. It is one of the best series I've ever read, which is why my next 4 are ACOTAR too.

RATING: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ | SPICE: 🌶️

#4: A COURT OF MIST & FURY | SJM

ahhhhhhHHHHHH. I CRIED LIKE A BABY. RHYS?? Rhys is my husband. I can't help it.

RATING: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ | SPICE: 🌶️🌶️🌶️

#3: A COURT OF WINGS & RUIN | SJM

I cried even harder reading this one. Again, I can't spoil it.

RATING: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ | SPICE: 🌶️🌶️🌶️

#2: A COURT OF SILVER FLAMES | SJM

This is by far my FAVORITE. I am a Nesta girly. Deep down, out of all the Archeron sisters, I relate to Nesta the most. And Cassian is my favorite bat boy... Gah lay. I cannot wait for Azriel's book.

RATING: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ | SPICE: 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️

#1: HAUNTING ADELINE | H.D. CARLTON

My number one book... Is Haunting Adeline. I don't want to hear any negativity. This book changed me. I've got so many book boyfriends, but Zade Meadows beats them all. He is unstoppable. This book had me screaming at the top of my lungs and had me fighting for air. Zade had me questioning everything about myself. He is the dark boyfriend for me. I have Hunting Adeline and desperately want to read, but was trying to get through some of my TBR. I started it and cried by the third chapter so I had to put it down because I just KNOW Hunting will wreck me.

RATING: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ | SPICE: 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️

[aintgonnatakethis]

Me again! *waves*

So what are your thoughts on where Rush falls on the identity spectrum? (I’m thinking aspec specifically but also just in general). Any head canons for him specifically?

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh @worlds-tallest-fairy you've activated me, and have joined @tragedycoded in asking a simple question and getting an essay long infodump for your troubles! 😁 I offer you a great many thoughts about Doctor Nicholas Rush, below the cut because LONG LONG LONG

I've always thought of him as demisexual for sure. I can't for the life of me remember where I wrote it (the ADHD makes everything blur together: stuff I've actually written, stuff I've only talked about, stuff I've read, stuff I've daydreamed; so I never know where my headcanons come from >.<) but I do distinctly remember writing Rush telling Young that Gloria was the only woman he's ever slept with. Young's response was something like: "I bet she really liked that", in typical Young fashion completely missing the point!

I've seen him also classed as demiromantic, but I like to lean towards the Love At First Sight trope for him when it comes to Gloria. There must be a specific label for people who experience romantic attraction but only very very rarely, right? Personally I think that would be a good fit for him, and he'd still fall under the aromantic umbrella.

I don't think he has a gender preference for either sexual or romantic encounters. Intelligence and the ability to engage with someone on an intellectual level are far more important factors for him. Was 'sapiosexual/romantic' deemed to be a problematic term? I can't remember, but as a descriptor I feel it works for him. He wouldn't be able to form a connection with someone if they couldn't meet him stroke for stroke mentally. A friend once said that the way he banters with Young is verbal sparing as a love language and they couldn't have been more right!

As for other headcanons, I agree with the popular ones of him being autistic and that he was abused as a child, though for the latter the general use I see is that it was his father who was the abusive one, while I think it's much more interesting if it was his mother. There would be an extra layer of shame there due to society's views on gender and how gender roles/stereotypes are "supposed" to work.

As for my own headcanons… I think he worked on the docks in Glasgow when he was a boy, as back then it would be the easiest way he'd be able to get honest work, and Glasgow as a costal city would have had a booming fishing trade. In the 450k fic I wrote during lockdown, I have this interaction between Rush and Telford (excerpt starts halfway through a scene - Gloria's still alive when Telford recruits Rush and he's driven them to her doctor's appointment. Him and Rush are in the waiting room. Link near the start is to another excerpt which explains the eel thought.)

Telford sat and Rush began to pace. There was a slight ache in his wrists which he presumed was from recoil and it helped ground him as he made laps of the room. The fish were still there; he counted them this time: seven. He hoped the tank was large enough for seven. He knew that fish required more space than was obvious. He could feel Telford’s eyes on him, but didn’t have anything particular to say to him so didn’t turn around. He watched the fish swim to and fro and thought about how different their movements were to that of the Goa’uld. Maybe if he watched eels, like Telford had said, he would see similarities. He wondered if intelligence factored into the way you moved, or whether it was instinctual. What was the most intelligent fish? He knew dolphins were smart. He had the impression that seahorses were too but wasn’t sure where he’d received that piece of information. Were seahorses fish? He supposed they must be. When he pictured fish he didn’t think of seahorses or dolphins or these small pretty things in front of him. He thought of solid and grey and gasping. They were always so fucking cold.

“So,” Telford said from just behind his shoulder. Rush jumped because the state of the room hadn’t had Telford in that position a second ago. A long awkward moment passed where it was obvious that Telford had noticed and it was equally as obvious that he was resisting the urge to say something about it, maybe out of respect of where they were or from a fear that if he said the wrong thing Rush would snap apart. “I’m watching the fish,” Rush said tightly. “You like fish?” Telford asked, sounding careful but almost drifting into boredom despite himself. Rush hooked a hand over his shoulder in an ineffectual attempt to create some sort of barrier between them. “Not particularly.” “You said you knew how to spear fish.” Rush thought this was a strange thing to say. He looked around. He couldn’t see any way to access the tank and nothing that could be fashioned into a spear. He felt if he said that then Telford might produce a spear out of his back pocket in typical absurd fashion. “I don’t think they’d approve of us killing these fish,” he said instead. Telford laughed and the sound relaxed something in him Rush couldn’t put a name to. “It’s not exactly a common talent.” It took a moment for Rush to realise that Telford was asking him a question, and maybe complimenting him at the same time. He knew that normally he would shy away from sharing personal information, even if that information didn’t seem technically relevant. But this wasn’t a normal place; he didn’t like doctors or waiting rooms, and he didn’t like fish either. Suddenly he didn’t want to be looking at them anymore, so he turned his back and lent against the glass, transferring his focus to Telford. “I worked on fishing boats when I was a kid,” he said, trying to resist the urge to throw up. He couldn’t decide whether the genuine interest in Telford’s eyes was calming or disturbing. “It was an applicable skillset.” Telford watched him for a few seconds, and then spoke quietly, “I only learned to swim when I was fourteen.” This, Rush thought, was an incredibly pertinent slice of data. It narrowed the possible places Telford could have grown up considerably. Maybe somewhere within this desert’s radius? Rush didn’t know how many deserts there were in America. He knew there were Great Lakes somewhere but couldn’t have pointed them out on a map even if there was a gun to his head. But it still took huge swaths of the country out of the equation: no coastline, nowhere near lakes or large rivers and a great many places had those things. Give me a map, Rush thought, and I’ll show you where you could have come from.

He smiled. “I can’t imagine you being fourteen.” Telford ducked his head and grinned. He looked very charming like that. Rush imagined a fourteen year old Telford flailing about in a pool and found it very amusing. Telford spoke softly, looking up through his eyelashes, “Tell me how to spear fish.” Rush didn’t have the faintest clue how David managed to make that sound flirtatious. What a preposterous idea: to bond in any way over the killing of another creature. Have you ever tortured anyone? Have you ever killed an alien? So what, he was a hypocrite? He didn’t give a shit. “You have to stand very still,” he said. He was holding eye contact and it felt as if he wasn’t able to drag himself away. “If you move they’ll know what you’re doing. You can’t let them know you.” Telford shifted his weight so he was leaning into Rush’s space. The glass at Rush’s back felt very unforgiving as far as any attempt at retreat was concerned. “You’re talking about doing it by hand?” Telford’s voice was quiet and impressed and Rush wanted more of it desperately.

“Yeah.” He lifted his hand and made a spear-stabbing motion. Telford definitely looked appreciative now. “I thought you meant with a spear gun.” Rush shook his head, feeling a little like he was the one underwater instead of the fish behind him. “The fishermen didn’t have that kind of money. We used spears and nets.” Telford’s eyes flicked down over Rush, almost quick enough to miss. “You gut them too?” “Yeah.” The word almost stuck in his throat. He could remember the blood coming from the fishs’ gills after they were cut and how it always seemed like such a small amount of blood to possess. Rush had always thought that fish should be larger than they were, and therefore have more blood. He assumed the idea had come from a childish mind. “I bet you’d look good with a knife.” Rush came back from the visions of blood to find Telford very close, one hand resting on the glass next to Rush’s head. He didn’t want to do this here. It didn’t fit. It wasn’t exact. It didn’t make sense in the context he’d been given. Telford moved and there was a hand drifting gently up and down Rush’s arm. Rush shifted away. “Nick?”

Rush wrapped his arms around himself, as if somehow that would make a difference. “I’m sorry.” He’d entered into something he couldn’t finish. Why did he have to lead people on like this? What did he think was going to happen when he started talking about killing things? He knew what David was like. Why couldn’t he think of these things ahead of time? Why did he always do this? “I feel very guilty right now.” At least that was the truth, even if Telford would draw a different conclusion than what the reality actually was. Rush’s face felt hot at the blatant weakness he was showing. “You shouldn’t feel guilty,” Telford said slowly. “You’re not doing anything.” He was right, Rush tried to grasp. Telford was the one who was leaning forward, invading his space. Rush was just standing here. He wasn’t doing anything. He couldn’t quite convince himself. He let out a self-deprecating, scornful laugh. “You think mere action affects guilt.”

“If thoughts were a crime I think we’d have bigger problems.” Telford very deliberately placed his hand back on Rush’s arm, left it there a few long moments, and then withdrew entirely, taking a few steps to the side and leaning against the glass himself. Rush watched him watch the fish. He didn’t seem angry about the sudden change of direction. If Rush had been in his place, he would have. He would have felt hard done by. He didn’t want Telford to think he wasn’t up to this. He would have continued their conversation if they’d been elsewhere, just not here.

So he's a strong swimmer (though it would depend on if he kept up with it in California as to how strong, as the muscles you use for swimming will get weaker if unused just like any other muscle), and an apt catcher-of-fish. It always annoys me when we have the Young-and-Rush-stranded-on-a-planet-together trope and Rush proves himself to have negative points in his Survival Stat. Not only because of the spear-fishing thing, but also because he grew up in poverty - he would have had to steal and learn certain skills to be able to survive. He definitely wouldn't be useless! Hell, another headcanon is his criminal activity history which I'll get to in a second, but I bet he could rig up some snares as well, from sneaking onto the posh estates' land for rabbits and the like.

Now, crime!

Not too long ago I did a felony bingo tag game for pre-canon Rush, and I came to the conclusion that Rush as a kid had shit going on. He had a lot of run-ins with the police, starting from when he was 8 and acting as an early warner for street dealers, to waiting until rich people went on holiday and robbing their houses, to his discovery that he rather enjoys setting things on fire! 😈 I couldn't quite manage to get a bingo sadly, but I'm interested to know what you think?

As for Gloria, Rush was terrified of meeting her parents because her family were rich and therefore he assumed they'd hate him. Her parents however turned out to be the sweetest people. Her brother was the twerp.

That made Gloria's lips twitch in amusement. Despite her not liking him fighting she did value his strength. Rush could still clearly recall the look of restrained glee on her face when he had punched her brother in the nose, the man having spoken down to him once too often.

I also remember writing a bit in the 450k lockdown fic where Rush tells Telford about hitting Gloria's brother and how from the expression on his face it was the first time he'd been hit in his entire life, and the two of them having a Masculine Bonding Moment™ over it, but I can't find it in the mess that is my filing system (multiple stories in one document with no way of finding specific pieces unless I can remember the exact wording for CTRL+F 💀)

I think he's also got some ADHD going on, though it's undiagnosed the same as the autism. Technically there is free healthcare in the UK, but only at what I would call the 'point of sale'. You can go to a general practitioner and be prescribed meds (unless they're specialised medications which can only be prescribed by a specialist - stimulant ADHD meds being one example - and then you have to go on a looooong waiting list), but you still very much have to pay for the prescriptions. It's obviously cheaper than in the US, but having just looked at my prescription list, if I didn't have a prescription prepayment certificate - which is £114.50 a year - I would instead be paying £1,306.80 a year, which would be impossible to maintain. Fairly, I'm on quite a few meds, but Rush's parents - being the shits they are - wouldn't want to even try to fork out a fraction of that, never mind drive him to any appointments. And after he'd got away from them, he wouldn't try to get diagnosed because of the idea that asking for help = weakness that's been drilled into him.

He's obviously got problems with authority, and I think it's worse when it comes specifically from other men. He's gentle with Chloe in a way he would never be if she were a man. I think this stems from suffering extreme bullying from other men for his entire life, due to the way he looks, speaks, etc. Men like Young who think they're automatically better than him because they're more masculine… Well, I'll have to do a separate post to infodump about Young, but Rush has met a lot of men like him who instantly dismiss him as weak or in need of protection or not up to the task of Being A Man because he's small and has long hair and glasses and isn't performing masculinity correctly. This could tie into the headcanon I've seen going around the last few years of him being a trans man - there are a lot of really interesting discussions going on in the trans community about masculinity, the demand of a performance of it, and the societal consequences for perceived failure that I really relate to. Before people started writing trans Rush I'd deliberately avoided reading anything in any fandom (or indeed media in general) that depicted trans people, due to the fear of transphobia cropping up. I get enough of that irl - I didn't want to accidently stumble across it in my downtime, you know? Thankfully that hasn't happened in the SGU fandom, but I still wouldn't venture into other fandoms to read trans stuff and I also don't know if I'd want to write it myself.

But coming back from that tangent, this attitude he's been received with his whole life informs the way he is now with men like Young: impatient, dismissive, defensive; because he knows the doubt in his abilities is coming, and he's sick and tired of trying to prove himself to people who make snap judgements about him. For example when Young makes the truly absurd leap that Rush knew Destiny would recharge fine in the sun and let them launch the shuttle with a ton of a supplies on it anyway, Rush doesn't even try to defend himself. He's thinking 'what's the point? Why should I put in an imbalanced amount of emotional labour to convince people I'm innocent when there'll just be something else to mistrust me over tomorrow, whether I'm guilty or not?' He keeps secrets like the bridge because he's so used to having to make himself indispensable, otherwise people will discard him at the first opportunity.

I do find it really interesting that he 100% doesn't expect physical violence from Young. When Young tells him he knows about the whole framing-for-murder thing, Rush approaches him without fear. I could even go so far as to say it's a bad acting choice because 1. Rush knows men like Young are violent due to past experience and 2. Young's body language is clearly predicting violence: stepping back when Rush approaches so that they're on level ground and squaring his body straight on. Rush should recognise shit like that! But when Young punches him, there's explicit shock on Rush's face. I want to come up with an explanation for why he doesn't expect violence from an angry wronged military man. What do you think?

What other headcanons do I got… He's good at Domming, not only the main event but the pre and post requirements as well. He has a phobia-like reaction to dealing with his finances due to growing up poor, so Gloria handled everything to do with money. He baits people because he knows they'll hate/hit/etc him soon anyway, so he gets ahead of it and says/does things that make people hate/hit him and that way he's still the one in control. He is super self-sabotaging.

Phew! I'm gonna go have a lie down 😂 Am excited to hear other peoples' thoughts as always!

[kittycatgirlspuppies]

You were Andrew’s wife, beautiful and kind and godly. He loves you so deeply, and is an amazing husband.

Simon loves you like you were his own sister, and he was overjoyed when you and Andrew got married. You and Simon are best friends, something that made Andrew very happy.

You were now pregnant with your and Andrew’s first child. Simon and eden were obviously very excited to have either a niece or nephew.

One day you were in town getting some groceries, your brother in law came with you. Andrew would’ve but he had a bad fever, which was part of the reason you were at the store, trying to find something to help him, probably some broth and special herbs. Though Andrew was not particularly happy about you being so active while nearly nine months pregnant, he knew it had to be done. Simon wouldn’t let you go to town alone or carry anything heavy in your state so he came with you.

“What do you think your brother would take easier? This or this?” You asked holding up two bags of medical herbs. ��Neither, he would refuse both like a baby,” Simon joked, well, sort of. “Well I’ll force him to take one of them either way.” You replied, earning a chuckle from Simon. You were about to say something else until you felt a pop, and then fluid pouring out of your…. “AHHHHH” you gasped in pure horror. “Y/n what’s the matter?!” Simon asked panicking. “My water broke!” You cried. “Wait what?! You’re not due for almost another month!” He cried. “Well I guess the baby doesn’t want to wait Simon!” “Oh my goodness, ok, I’ll get you to the midwife!” You expected him to just support you while you walked, but he suddenly scooped you up like a baby and started running with you towards the midwife. “Just breath y/n,” he said in a worried voice, seeing you in such pain nearly gave him a heart attack. Once he got to where the midwife was he knocked on the door with his foot. “We need help a woman is in labour!” He screamed. The midwife opened the door and Simon went inside immediately. “Put her on the bed!” She ordered, he immediately did. “Are you the father?” She asked. “No, no, my brother is the father, I’m the uncle,” Simon explained. “Ok can you go get him?” Simon looked at you anxiously. ‘Yes’ you nodded. Even though he was hesitant to leave he knew his brother deserved to know that his child was coming into the world. So he ran as fast as he could to get Andrew.

“Andrew!” Simon didn’t even bother knocking, he just kicked the door down. “Simon what’s going on?” Andrew asked in a sick voice. “Y/n is in labour!”

Andrew froze.

suddenly he shot up, not giving a damn about his fever. He and his brother ran faster then they ever had before.

“AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!” You screamed. Your baby was breech, so the midwife was adjusting it.

“AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!” You screamed so loudly. The entire room smelled like blood and sweat.

Hearing that scream made Andrews and Simon’s hearts drop. They bursted into the room.

“Men are not allowed in here.” A midwife said to them. “We don’t care!” Simon hissed while Andrew ran over to you and held your hand and started whispering ‘I love you so much’ over and over. Security had to come and drag both brothers out.

it was a long painful delivery but you managed, and gave birth to an adorable boy.

(I’m so sry I loved this request but I got very distracted, the next request I will get done a LOT faster!)

[thefallennightmare]

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! I just finished reading Fika and let me tell you that was worth waiting a month for it because that was such a beautiful story. I loved everything about it.

Jesse and freaking fruit and interrupting. Someone needs to put that boy on a leash.

Noah and Angel cameo loved ittttttt.

Someone better tell Matt about raccoon family of six so he can raise them.

Was such a beautiful well put together story. I loved the build up. Made me cry but in a good way.

Can’t wait to see what else you have in store for Jolly and Astrid.

Thank you! 🖤🖤 means so much!

At first, I wasn’t going to have this take place in the Just Pretend universe but I brought it up to Sarah and she loved the idea! So now, everyone please welcome Astrid into Just Pretend!

Seriously, yall will have to read Fika otherwise you will be super confused when JP-24 comes out.

@thescarlettvvitch

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[voidsteffy]

Thoughts about 4x01 (AHHHHH)

AH WE'RE BACKKKKK

THAT JUMPSCARE!!! oo you got me, just like s1 got me! (i feel very happy saying that)

Why does Nancy keep confessing her love for Ace out loud to Ryan and Carson? I mean.... Ryan can't keep a secret can he? (or did fanon get to my head??)

love that Nancy is a mysterical (is that a word, did i make that up, look away) success but a adulting failure, we love to be represented

nick being the photogenic eligible bachelor as he should be (I volunteer to be tribute) love that the only eligible bachelors can be Nancy's father or Nancy's ex-bf, we love being surrounded by pretty people

NOT ACE RANTING ABOUT THE BROKEN BAROMETER CZ HE KNOWS WHATS UP (almost, give my man some credit)

nancy is such a team player it's amazing

we're getting so much bess and ryan interaction... does that mean we can't get george-bess interactions anymore? NOOO

ryan honey when a suspecting relic dealer couple give you back your Porsche that they've been holding hostage, you don't drive it out without a full checkup. i mean nick coulda taken a look at it

THE MUSIC GIVES ME THE FEELZ OF S1 (official season 1 till 2x05) WHICH I LOVE

Ace i think the universe is conspiring against you every time you get a step closer you either get arrested or killed (too soon??)

they had such a good storyline with lawyer-apprentice! Bess, why did they ever switch to George? I want more of Georgeeee

the corpses are kickass jumpscarers i must admit as I laugh my ass out of horrified-land

can't believe nancy just left the broken bottle and his name out there (under a paper thingy but that doesn't count bess is nosy as hell) and now he's gonna find it isn't he

it all comes back to that damn clearing, isn't that where nancy had her wraith vision in the drew-a-fish episode?

WHY ARE THEY GOING SO CLOSE TO THE BODIES EWWW

jumpscarejumpscarejumpscarejumpscare— YUP you didn't get me that time hahaaa

GOO I REPORT GOO COLLECT THAT SHIT IT TENDS TO WANDER OR OPEN PORTALS cmon did we learn nothing from Legacies GUYS!

yep he saw it yeah boo she's lying

AHHHHHHHHHHHH HE FIGURED IT OUTTTT

wait is she allowed to tell him um then why did i read all those fanfictions with charades and 2k words on just them playing jacob and bella with werewolf confession all over again? (bcz ur a sucker thats why they were such wonderful fics too)

I TOLD YOU TO PICK THE GOO! PICK THE GOO! PICK THE GOO! ew it's heading towards the water supply! NO it's gonna be sand piper all over again STOP GO BACK DON'T BE SUCH A MALIVORE

um.... so i couldn't live-blog it this time cz timezones are a shitshow but i'm here with my entire notes laid bare i have so many theories and- and- and- AHHHHHHH