#ahhhh i posted this on the wrong blog at first

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Rinka Watanabe: 3A +2.06 GOE » 2024 Japanese Nationals

[cruelsister-moved2]

iykyk exactly what im referencing but the phenomenon of making a blog with a quirky hyphen url dedicated to something as the very first step to making that thing part of your life gives me such second hand embarrassment 😭 like the langblrs that immediately reblog 1000 language learning google drives and inspirational quotes and translated poetry in their target language and then their most recent post is like i just downloaded duolingo!!!<3

like wouldnt you at least learn one sentence in russian and see if you like it before trademarking sarahochkas-russki-journey dot tumblr dot com? and I'm curious bc u see 1000s of these blogs in this initial stage but much fewer of them that made it any further so are 90% of them just immediately giving up and quietly deleting the blog or whats going on there

[wttcsms]

Hihi i saw ur request box was open & i just couldnt resist! A big confession to make here, uhh ive been such a big fan of u and yr writings and also u were the v first fanfic blog i came across a couple years ago so yea, u literally open my third eye to a whole new world of fics👉👈 🥺

i feel like you havent written angst in a while–and bc i miss ur angsty haikyuu fics– sooo could i request post-breakup college!au with atsumu or iwai (honestly anyone who'd best fit the scenario cuz i trust ur characterization👌) abt the aftermath of the breakup, them seeing us on campus and unconsciously following us with their eyes, reschin to help out on instinct only to realize theyre no longer together, thinking about what could've been just reminisce reminisce

ahhhh im sry honestly dont know how to expand more on the idea

thank you for stealing my ficvirginity😃

pairing atsumu miya x f!reader word count 2.1k content contains exes still in love, college!au, mutual pining author's notes hi <3 i remember you (eycee, right?). don't be a stranger! you can always dm me and say hello :) thank you for the constant support. not sure if this fic is angsty enough, but i wanted yours to be the first req i do <3

“Hi, welcome in! Let me know if— Oh.”

Your voice falters, recognition and maybe even something similar to embarrassment flits across your face, and a split second later, you go back to smiling like nothing’s wrong. Like the two of you haven’t spent the better half of this month actively avoiding each other at all costs, even though the sprawling acres of the University of Tokyo suddenly feels too small. The entirety of Japan has felt too small ever since it became his mission to never cross paths with you ever again. 

This mission of his started just a little over two weeks ago, on the very same day you decide to use his heart as your own punching bag. The worst part of it all, though, is the fact that he doesn’t even hold any type of contempt for you. It’s a cruel sort of joke; sometimes, Atsumu Miya feels like everything bad that happens to him is just some sort of sick punchline in a sitcom instead of real life. 

Usually, when girlfriends find out their high school sweetheart is going to be a wildly successful (and rich) professional athlete, they’ll do anything in their power to hang onto him.

You decided to snip the invisible string tying the two of you together, and you did it so effortlessly, so quickly, that Atsumu had to make sure that he hadn’t been imagining the last four years of your relationship. 

He’s got his hands shoved in his pockets, and he’s torn between staring at you like a total creep or looking at everything in the campus bookstore but you. He settles for the former, scared that this will be his last opportunity to really look at you. 

Neither of you is saying anything. It’s a Saturday and so no one else is even in the bookstore this morning, and Atsumu wants to say something, anything, but he’s never been that great at carefully picking his words, and he’s scared out of his mind that he’ll say something stupid and prove once and for all that you had been right to break up with him. Better yet, he wants you to say something. He wants you to give him a better explanation instead of the bullshit you told him in his apartment. 

We just want different things.

What does that even mean? He thinks he would have shouted out that question, if only your little break up speech hadn’t caught him so off guard. Different things? The two of you wanted different things? Sure, Atsumu likes to sleep in a freezing cold apartment, and you need the room to actually be at a reasonable temperature. And maybe Atsumu has a penchant for overly fried, greasy foods when all you want (and deserve) is a fancy dinner. Maybe Atsumu wants to be at a sports store instead of browsing aisle after aisle in Sephora, but he doubts these different wants have accumulated so much that you felt you had no choice but to break his heart. 

“Hey, Miya.” You say it softly, dropping the perky customer service voice you greeted him with before you turned around and realized who he was. And he flinches. He fucking visibly cringes at the way you speak to him, walking on eggshells and going back to formalities like he’s barely above a stranger to you.

Miya.

(Did you know that he wanted to make that your last name?

Do you know that he still does, even now?)

“Hey,” he replies back, curling his fingers into fists inside his pocket. He thinks his voice comes out all scratchy, like how it always sounds when you don’t use your voice nearly enough. He clears his throat awkwardly. Everything feels awkward; everything feels wrong. He says “hey”, but what he really means to say is please don’t call me Miya; you know the color of my toothbrush, you don’t have to call me Miya. 

“Were you looking for something?” 

You.

Subconsciously, Atsumu finds himself seeking you out. He walks by another girl on campus and almost breaks his neck with the speed he turns around to catch a whiff of the perfume wafting from her body because he swears it’s the same fragrance you favor. He walks by the building that houses all the classrooms for your specific major, even though it’s located on the opposite side of his own classes because he secretly hopes against all hope that he’ll run into you, and you’ll see him and fall in love with him again. He goes to the same restaurants the two of you frequently ate at together, and he orders your usual because you can never finish your entire meal and always have him finish off the leftovers for you (and the food is always good, but somehow it doesn’t taste the same when your utensils haven’t touched it first). And he doesn’t even need to be here, doesn’t even care enough about his stupid class to go out of his way to buy the study guide, but he knows you’ve started picking up the weekend shifts at the campus bookstore, and suddenly, he cares enough about passing to get the damn study guide. 

He shrugs. “Just some stupid workbook to study for an upcoming exam, but it’s not that serious.” 

“Oh. Is Dr. Furata giving you a hard time again?” 

“How do you do that?” Atsumu blurts out, wanting to kick himself for giving too much of himself away. You already own every centimeter of his heart and maybe his soul. You don’t need anything else from him; he’s almost certain there’s nothing left for him to give you, but he can’t help but impulsively ask the damn question that’s been running through his mind ever since you left him behind. 

Did you know that when you’re confused, your brows furrow together, and you get this adorable, endearing crinkle in between them? Do you know that he still finds that same expression as cute as he did when you still called yourself his girlfriend? 

“What are you talking about?” 

How can you just stand there and act like you never crushed his heart? How do you wake up in the morning and not feel like your life is missing something important, like you’ll never feel whole again? How can you keep him wrapped around your finger, and then have the audacity to not even realize it? How did you let him go so quickly? 

Practicing caution, he swallows hard before clarifying, “How do you know everything?” Because if you can act like he’s just a polite acquaintance, like he’s nothing more than another fellow classmate, he can try to play pretend too. He can act like there’s not enough history between the two of you to fill up every damn textbook in this stupid store. “Yeah, Dr. Furata’s been on everyone’s ass. Somethin’ about midterm grades being worth a quarter of our overall grade.” 

“Believe me, you’re not the first victim of Dr. Furata’s to come wandering in the store. I think I have a few more of the workbooks he suggested in stock. Let me go check.” 

It’s instinct at this point for Atsumu to just follow you. If he uses his imagination, it’s almost like he’s back to browsing in a makeup store, walking aimlessly in every aisle, following you loyally because he’s happy to have you lead the way and he doesn’t care where he ends up, so long as you’re there with him. 

But this isn’t an afternoon date with you. This is him following a bookstore employee. After you find that study guide, which is really nothing more than his flimsy excuse for seeking you out, you’re going to ask him “card or cash?”, ring him up at the register, and he’s going to walk out that door and have to act like he’s still not in love with you. All the while, you’re doing fine. You’re fine right now, and you’re going to be fine when he leaves, and you’re probably going to be fine, five years down the line, when you’re happy with someone else and Atsumu is alone because in this little hypothetical, he still hasn’t gotten over you.

He is trailing behind you in this bookstore, and your back is facing him, and he’s panicking because he doesn’t think he’s capable of not loving you. 

Just two weeks ago, you knew him better than anyone else in the world, maybe even better than Osamu, perhaps even better than he knows himself. Now, you just give him a polite smile as you grab the small stool to reach the books located at the very top of the shelf. 

“God, I hate the way we organize everything in the store.” You say, lightheartedly complaining. He knows you do. He knows because he’s known you for nearly a decade. The two of you have grown up together. You made this same complaint sprawled out on the couch in his apartment. 

When he doesn’t reply, you look down to see if something’s the matter, only to do it too quickly that you find yourself losing your balance. Before you can come crashing to the floor, Atsumu is quick to catch you, and you pretend that his protective embrace isn’t comforting. You pretend not to notice that he’s wearing the cologne you bought him for Christmas last year, and you continue to pretend that you don’t miss him at all, that you don’t still love him. 

And for a second, the two of you both pretend that you’re still with each other. That it’s perfectly okay to savor this intimate moment, that his arms wrapped around your body right now isn’t awkward in the slightest. He’s staring at you with a sort of starstruck, boylike wonder, and it’s so familiar, so sweet, because it’s the way he always used to look at you. His lips part slightly, like he’s about to say something, and—

The loud ring! interrupts whatever moment the two of you are sharing, and you nearly jump out of his arms. You hear the distinct footsteps of another student, and you adjust your shirt before remembering where the two of you are — what the two of you are. Not a couple. Barely even friends. Just a bookstore employee and a student that needs a book. That’s all the two of you are allowed to be.

“I should probably go check up front and make sure they don’t need any help.” You tell him, biting down on your lip. “Anyway, did you need anything else, or would you like me to check you out right now?” 

He blinks a few times, as if still in a daze. “Uh, yeah, sure.” The tips of his ears are flushed a light pink. “Y-yeah, I’m done here.” 

The two of you practically race each other to the front of the store, and you step behind the counter to scan his workbook. He drums his fingers, looking around the store. When he’s nervous, he likes to be moving. You know this. 

Just looking for an excuse to use his hands, Atsumu mindlessly picks a pack of gum off a nearby rack and slides it towards you so you can also scan it. You know you shouldn’t say it. You know it’s supposed to be a clean break. Instead, you tell him, 

“Actually, if you want, I have the fruit variety flavor.” 

“Huh?” This catches his attention. 

You reach into one of the boxes that have just been shipped to the store, rummaging through a tiny one before revealing a shiny, new package of gum, this one advertising all the flavors based on tropical fruits. “Would you rather have this one?” 

“Oh, yeah!” As if truly forgetting what the two of you actually are (exes, strangers with too much history, two people still pretending like they’re not in love), his eyes light up. “How did you kno—” He doesn’t finish the question. He knows the answer to the question. 

You’re quick to finish ringing him up, the “polite strangers” illusion being completely shattered. It’s obvious, really, that there are always going to be parts of Atsumu that still live deep inside of you. You can only hope that this isn’t the case for him. 

You hand him the bag, and when he grabs it from you, your fingers just barely graze each other’s. Atsumu is scared — scared that this might be the last time he ever feels your touch. 

And because you’re a glutton for punishment, you find yourself telling him,

“Don’t be a stranger.”

You can’t tell who’s more devastated: you or him.

[knwatchesmonkiekid]

i NEEEED TO RANT RN OKAYYY!?!?!? JUST LET ME!!!

ALRIGHT ALRIGHT IM OK IM OKK IM NOT OK

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

LOOK I KNOW I MENTIONED THAT THIS BLOG IS DEAD... IT KINDA IS... BUT I NEED TO RANT ABOUT S2E7 B4 I GO CRAZYYY!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! WHAT!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?

spoilers for season 2 ep 7 dwon below btw

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

MACAQUE IS BACKKKKK?~???!!!!! AND HES JUST AS EPIC--- IF NOT EVEN MORE EPIC-- THAN BEFORE??!?!?!?

OH MY GOSHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

okay

lets get started...

first off... may I just say... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THESE LMK EPS ARE AMAIZINGG!????? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

second...

MK's fear of Monkey king picking the wrong successor is soooo EPIC?!?!?!?! look i know that LadyBoneDemon (lets call her lbd) is evil... but dang.... she sure knew how to plant fear and doubt in MK lol.

"those who bring light into this world, inevitably bring darkness to those they hold dear"

that line....

why does it seem like Macaque and Wukong have a very very important backstory that will affect the plot later on!?!??!!? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

THE WHOLE SHADOW COMPARION THING AND MK LOOKING AT HIS SHADOW!??!?!!?

AHHHH AND HIM THINKING THAT MONKEY KING WAS THEE "Hero" and he is the "warrior"!?!?!? AHHHHHHHHHHHH EPICCCCCCCC

AND OH MY GSOHHHHWAS SOO SMOOTHHHHHA HHHHHHHHHHHH

EEPICCCCCCC

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thats soo sad tho... When Macaque said that he prob should unload his secret insecurities he said that he would be there all day....

WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED TO THIS MONKEY!?!?!?!?

WHY DO I WANT TO GIVE HIM A HUG!?!?!?!?

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OKKAYY OKAYYY OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

WHAT THE HECKKKKK!??!?!? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! OH MY GSHHHHH THE COMPARISIONSSSSS AHHHHHHHHHH

AND THE WAY MACAQUE'S EYES WIDDENED!?!?!?!?!?

WHAT THE HECK IS MACAQUE AND WUKONG'S HISTORY!!?!?!!? HUH?!?!?!?

I WANNA KNOW SOO BADLYYYYYY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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AND THISSSSSSS

"You're a bit too much like him"

EXUCESE ME WHAT!?!?!? WHAT THE HECK IS THEIR HISTORY!?!?!?!?

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AND THISSSSSSSSSSSS ENDINGGG

first of... the animation with the lbd-related scenes are epic...

BUT OVERALL AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! WHAT!??!?? NOOOOOO MACAQUEEE BABYYY U BETTER BE OKAYYYY!!!!!

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alright... im good now.... i let it allll out....

welppp i may or may not come back here again... we'll see ig

anywyas thanks for coming to my rnat!! Byeeeee

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[a-thousand-winds-that-blow]

Hi! I'm @coffeewritesfiction and I'm gonna take you up on that "tell me about your WIP" thing you mentioned in your intro. Welcome back btw! Good to have you here.

Okay so, my story is called Black Velvet It's mostly on my sideblog runner-owen rather than my main blog because... I don't remember why I did that honestly. Anyway! It's a queer gothic fantasy story, set in a Victorian inspired world of eternal night, with a trans man protagonist. His name is Owen Rosedown, and he's a member of the Theria Runners' Society, a guild of detectives for hire. He works with the Knight Hunters, who protect the city from danger (or are supposed to at least). He was hired by Lord Aurum Vim-Calyx, the current leader of the Knight Hunters, to help deal with the looming threat of evil vampires, specifically Aurum's arch enemy, the vampire god known only as the Scarred Man.

So in Black Velvet, Owen and Aurum go on a mission to retrieve a journal supposedly owned by a vampire tactician who lived in Black Velvet Castle centuries ago. However, when things go wrong, Owen is given the blame and ordered by Aurum to stay at Black Velvet until he finds the other journals. This is believed to be an impossible task, one given to Owen out of Aurum's anger. However, after a powerful storm breaks, the Scarred Man and his allies take over the castle, intending to kidnap all the humans to the vampire territories, including Owen. Especially Owen, who the Scarred Man has always desired . Now it's a race against time for Owen to find a way to defeat the vampires and escape before the storm ends. And the key to their escape is in the journals of the Tactician...

I hope I didn't bore you with that 😅 I probably should've asked first before I dumped all this on you. You can delete this if you aren't interested in it, I understand! But if you are interested I'd love to hear what you think based just on this so far. ☺️ - Coffee

You totally didn't bore me!!! Thank you so much for sharing!!!!

Okay omg where to start. WORLD BUILDING! I'm so interested in a world of eternal night. How does that affect the flora and fauna of the world? Are there different animals/plants than in real life? Would that mess with the food production? Are humans constantly Vitamin D deficient or did they evolve past that? If there's no day, what regulates temperature? Is the sun still there, but hidden, is there magic afoot, geothermal energy, something else?

You say Owen works with the Theria Runner's Society and the Knight Hunters. Do these organizations have connections beyond Owen? Do they normally work together, or is there a rivalry between the "protectors" of the city and the detectives for hire?

What kind of crimes does Owen usually investigate? Theft? Homicide? Terrorism? Domestic violence? Stalking? Etc. etc.? How do you write "deal with the threat of vampires" into a contract? Is Owen the only one Aurum hired? If so, why Owen, when there's a whole guild of detectives?

WHICH BRINGS ME TO - the Scarred Man apparently wants Owen specifically?? I'm so intrigued by that. What's special about Owen? What is he hiding?!!

You say the Scarred Man and allies take over the castle - does this mean that, despite it originally being a vampire castle (I think? a vampire tactician lived there), it has since been taken over by humans? or did the vampires leave and humans just squat? How many other people were there besides Owen when the vampires invaded? Was there a society living there, with families? If so, would Owen feel beholded to protect those families/help the others escape the vampires, or is he more concerned with his own mission? Both options would make interesting characters!

Okay "vampire tactician." What does that entail? What did they conceive tactics for? War? Invasion? Politics? Magic? How could the answers inside help reckon with current-day vampires? Does the Scarred Man still use those tactics?

AHHHH I'm so interested!! Please tag me in anything you post about this!!

[livingasaghost]

i have no business writing a stupid post about the wicked movie because like! come on. we left cringey read mores in 2018 right? nope! wrong!!!!! my emotional support musical, MY blog!!

can safely say i had low expectations but like also there were 20 years of expectations buried within me so i was really hoping for something special ya know? and objectively i did have to turn off my musical theater brain because wHEW there were some choices and they were made and they should not have been....but! even if it isn't my favorite movie musical of all time (moulin rouge and mamma mia and les mis my beloved) i think this is quite literally the best we could have gotten for this musical.

and the thing that was sending me the entire time was like...the scope of this thing. like i have had the desire to watch a wicked movie for as long as i have cognitive thought honestly. since i was like eight or nine years old. i still remember being ten and dramatically sighing thinking ahhhh maybe one day i will get a wicked movie... and then time passed and i saw the show three separate times and i just kept thinking that maybe someday that dream would come true. so when i was watching it tonight it really was one of the rare moments where like i reached through the ether to younger me and was like WE MADE IT! WE ARE HERE! WE NEVER THOUGHT WE WOULD GET HERE BUT WE DID! AND IT IS GLORIOUS!

and it's like yeah so many of us have personal connections to wicked and it was very much a musical of my generation but i always forget that so much of who i am is built on this fucking show. it was the first musical i found on my own. it was the first show that i begged my parents to get me tickets for. it was instrumental in my upbringing and my inner life and i cannot separate parts of myself from the wicked musical because they've been connected for twice as long as they haven't. and at the heart of all of it is the person i shared it with.

it's funny because a lot of my friendships have bonded over wicked, and again, we all liked wicked growing up so it wasn't like i couldn't connect the female friendship show with everybody...but it did start somewhere. and that friendship has now been dead for almost twenty years. i don't think about her, i buried us a long time ago, and for the most part i don't think about what might have been because hey, it's over and i don't even think we'd like each other if we met each other now. but when i watched this movie, i was over-fucking-whelmed by her presence. and a younger version of me along with her.

she was galinda and i was elphaba and even though i didn't understand the deeper meaning and context of the show at the time, we still were just two bEst friends ya know? and so when the opening number started, my heart dropped out of my chest and i thought oh, there you are. i've missed you. where did you go? and when elphie and galinda had their special dance moment i was sitting there bawling, hoping even now that she'll see this same moment in theaters and that she has no choice but to think about me the same way i was thinking about her. that no matter what happened at the end or all the years and time between us, somewhere out there it's just the two of us at nine years old, singing these songs at the top of our lungs, making each other laugh without a care in the world.

and when elphaba asked glinda to come with her, i burst into tears thinking, oh, she left me behind didn't she. she didn't want to come with me after everything. and regardless of how glinda's character plays out in act two (gee, what could happen!!!) it still hit me that she had tears in her eyes as she helped her best friend fly.

as much as i thought about the person i lost, it also felt like such a privilege that i could reach out and touch the nine year old version of me. we don't have time machines but there is a red string of fate connecting who i am today with who i was back then, and i wanna tell her that we made it. when elphaba's falling and she sees her reflection...when she had her moment to sing the wizard and i...it's like no time had even passed at all. i was still singing in my childhood bedroom to my little CD alarm clock. and i was so terrified to be a person, so unsure of myself, so full of dreams. and i hoped that one day something would happen to me.

and tonight i sat there in a theater in a big city that i live in all on my own, next to a friend who cares about me more than so many of the friends of my youth ever did, feeling overwhelmed by the friendships i have now and the career i've built for myself and the person i know that i am now, less than six months out from turning thirty...and i got to hold hands with my younger self and tell her it's all gonna work out in the end. and that she should enjoy those sleepovers as much as possible. that just because glinda doesn't get on the broom with you, it doesn't mean you can't fly high on your own.

but god, i wish i could go back one more time. just to tell my person thank you.

(i do have to say......i live in fear for part ii...........there will be mass casualties, no one is going to survive that fucking film...whew.....)

[yourlunarspice]

so many good ones mmm ok. 3, 14, 49 <3 <3

Ahhhh thank you so much for your ask, Llyn! I love getting responses to ask games. It's gives me an opportunity to ramble about the most random things, lol

3. What are some tropes or details that you think are very characteristic of your fics?

Something that I've always tried to do with my fics is about descriptions, and I'm gonna try to explain it properly. There's always a risk of writing too much description. With too much description, you get something akin to Tolkien that is vivid but it drags the storyline/pacing down. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE visualizing a scene and wanting to write down LITERALLY EVERYTHING, but that's not practical.

For me, I try to only put the barest information about setting (if it's important) and focus on the characters and their blocking through the scene. This ensures that the story isn't bogged down with unnecessary descriptions but gets the important parts solidified in the reader's mind.

One example is in my first bnha story Those Damn Flowers, where young Aizawa was walking down a hall as he reflected on recent events. It could have been a hall at UA, his home, or some other place; point is, it wasn't important. It lets every reader have a unique perspective on the scene's setting (and, by proxy, Aizawa's clothes and the people around him) while keeping the important parts (Aizawa's thought process and physical reactions to them) unchanging.

14. Are there any tropes you would only read if written by a trusted friend or writer?

Noticing really comes to mind, tbh. I get most of the fics I read through AO3feed blogs, and I don't really pay attention to the author. If the summary looks good, I check it out, simple as that.

That being said, if I had to give an answer, I don't really read most fantastical AUs (i.e., fantasy/dragon, steampunk, fallout, space/alien, etc.), HOWEVER, if a trusted friend or writer wrote something in one of those more fantastical AUs, I'd give it a shot.

49. What are you currently working on? Share a few lines if you’re up for it!

I've been writing/posting some weird stuff lately, lol. Most recently, it was 'No Cure' (one of my favorites), but before that it was 'You call it 'torturing', I call it 'mercy killing'. Same difference' and 'Do you know how to tell where a corpse is buried?'. Real snappy titles, I know.

The next thing I'm planning on posting is on the 19th, and it's the final chapter of my biggest story yet, Heaven And Earth Between Us. Here are a few paragraphs from Chapter 6: New Beginnings (censored so no spoilers!):

((Also, I knowwww I said I wouldn't read many fantastical AUs, and I don't, but I was inspired to write this, ironically, a fantastical AU. Don't read into it too much))

Toshihiro’Máni met the Death god’s gaze. “I wish for compassion on this soul,” he said. “He did not understand the weight of his actions and died unecessarily.” [Death god] gazed at the corpse before raising an eyebrow at Toshihiro’Máni. “I take it you’re another god?”

“Yes, I control the Moon and the stars. Please, will you help him?”

Hands reached forward and lifted [Victim]’s body out of Toshihiro’Máni’s hands. “Please,” the Moon god found himself begging. “He doesn’t deserve this fate.”

“And you think no one else was undeserving of theirs?” [Color] eyes flashed, pinning Toshihiro’Máni where he stood. “People die all the time, some deserving their fate, others innocent. Your friend is a drop in the bucket.”

Toshihiro’Máni gulped at the sudden anger, but pressed onward: “I just want to save one. And if I can make a difference to one person, that will be enough for me.

“Everyone I know has saved countless lives,” he continued, the faces of Aizawa, Midoriya, Kirishima, …Katsuki flickering in his mind’s eye. “But all I can do is prevent bad dreams. If I can save just one…” tears sprang to his eyes. “...that will be enough for me!”

I'M SO HAPPY WITH HOW HEAVEN HAS TURNED OUT, IT'S THE FIC IM PROUDEST OF

After that, I have something in mind for Shinny boy, but I haven't started writing it yet. It's gonna be another one of those "I need help sleeping, please use your Quirk to help me sleep" stories. I've seen so many of those, but I can't help it. I love the sleepy purple boy.

Thanks again for the asks, Llyn! Sorry my answers got SUPER long

From this ask game

[vaixation]

Hey so I made an edit of the 1 single panel we got of our precious Waning Moon Officer / Yǐn Yù to remove the speech bubble if anyone wants to just use this for literally anything. No credit needed.

Gosh dang I wish he wasn't behind a curtain and had his face down I really want to know what his mask looks like properly but WHAT CAN YOU DO. DANGIT I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY NAMED THE ENTIRE EPISODE AFTER HIM AND HE ONLY SHOWED UP AT THE VERY END TO SAY TWO LINES OF DIALOGUE I'M GONNA LOSE MY MIND OKAY. (Kinda bummed we didn't get his actual first scene from the novel to be honest aww.)

[roccondil]

Hey! What's the meaning behind your url?

Hello! it’s actually wicked simple... and pretty geeky...

anyways, it means simply “love of horses”, and is one of several translations of the phrase into Tolkien’s Quenya. This particular spelling I got from one of the pages on the early Tolkien fansite Arwen-Undomiel.com

[inevitably-johnlocked]

Hi Steph!

So, I watched The Lying Detective for the first time yesterday, and I was wondering what you thought of the episode.

Several things just confused me, like Eurus and Mary, and other things felt downright out of character, like the morgue scene.

If you have any metas too that could explain things, those also would be appreciated.

Anyway, sending lots of hugs and hope you have a lovely weekend!

Hey Lovely!

Ahhhh, I've mixed feelings about the episode. I thought the cinematography was phenomenal, and the actors did the best they could with what they had to work with. Everything else was asinine and EVERYONE was so out of character for me, so it was really hard for me to take in. Just it continued in the same vein as T6T, and I REALLY was, behind the scenes, losing faith in the season but tried to stay positive. I will say it was the best of the three episodes, but the mischaracterization of John and the destruction of their friendship really soured the ending for me. Just... rubbed me the wrong way because Moffat seems to have a kink about hurting Ben on-screen, ick.

The morgue scene was the worst.

I think what hurt the most was that we all had such AMAZING theories coming out of TLD that were just wiped after TFP aired because of how nonsensical TFP was and how badly TFP essentially ruined the entire series.

Anyway, I have a lot of Meta from around that time that don't all fit here, but here are the more notable ones:

MY META

Deeper Still // Deeper Still Redux (Post Episode Thoughts and Predictions

Puzzling Things About TLD

TLD Can Be Taken as John’s Interpretation

John Forgiving Mary is Unbelieveable

What Does “The Lying Detective” Really Mean?

TLD is Fake: How Do The Police Know Mycroft?

The Rug in the Office

Lighting in Smith’s Car on John and Sherlock’s Faces

Why Does Everyone Think John’s Blog is Sherlock’s?

Are we supposed to accept John Beating Sherlock? (Discussion about the lack of apology)

The TLD Hug In Context is Terrible

John Punching Sherlock

It Was In a Morgue

Is it PTSD?

Was Therapist!Eurus Responsible for it?

The Repetition of Speech

Coming Full Circle

Meta About John’s Guilt plus John’s PTSD (not mine)

We Should Have Gotten an Apology (Was it In Character?) (Community Discussion)

John’s Cane

How Would you respond to why John Beat Up Sherlock

The Cane as the Parting Gift

TD-12 Drug MASTERPOST

Sherlock’s Birthday

“What’s the Significance of the Hug?”

What Do I Think Happened After the Hug?

“Isn’t That Right Mary?”

Fireworks

The Guns in TLD

Where is the Bullet?

Not a Tranq

John’s Soldier vs. Doctor Dichotomy (TLD)

OTHERS' META

TLD: 10 Revealing Things That Haunt You Late at Night

TLD: Establishing Shots

TLD: Straightwashing the Hug

Anyway, if anyone has other meta to add, please do. But feel free to peruse my tld meta tag as well :)

[stanfordsweater]

hi! i ... dont know where to ask this so i hope it's okay to come to ur askbox...do u happen to know/have any non au j2 fic recs where j2 happens bc of the perceived chemistry that samdean have (essentially wincest happens or like almost happens so j2 happens)....or like Anything that plays of sam/dean chemistry to lead to j2 happening...sorry for this extremely scrambled ask & thank u wishing u a good day

ahhhh yes my favourite.... 

i don’t read much non-au, but i happen to be obsessed with this trope so i do have a few!!  ....a lot of them have 2005-style homophobia and similar issues, so be prepared going in!

chemistry by glovered: Jensen reminds himself that there's absolutely nothing wrong with a platonic jerk-off scene between brothers. And there’s nothing platonic about his feelings for Jared.

LOVE this one. supernatural gets cancelled after season 8 and is bought by HBO... and you can guess what happens next. it’s excellently written and super funny with angst to satisfy + characters that feel like real people (granted, slightly insane people. but those are the most fun.) jensen spends most of the fic having a small breakdown and it’s hilarious. this one is the closest to your prompt out of all of them, and i urge everyone who likes j2 to read it!!

premium cable by bewaretheides15: It isn’t the fact that Jensen’s a guy that’s really bugging Jared at the moment. It’s more that he’s pretty sure Eric Kripke secretly wants to be making gay porn.

again, supernatural is picked up the HBO, but this time it’s from the pilot. wincest is canon! what does that mean? sex scenes! :0 ! jared has a gay epiphany during the first samdean sex scene. hot and sweet and perfect for this prompt. also happens to be a classic.

arguing on the internet is like... by chash: Jensen doesn't know why everyone always thinks he's the gay one.

first of all, i love chash-- they write some of the best comedic j2 fics out there. i’ll admit this one is pretty dated in terms of the language used! be prepared going in. there’s a weird line about brangelina. it’s very funny, though, and jensen realizes jared is in love with him through tinhat blog posts and arguing over who’s gayer. 

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 313: Deku VS Lady Nagant

Previously on BnHA: Hawks’s super-hot badass murder senpai Lady Nagant showed up to fire a cupid’s arrow into my heart, and a bunch of literal bullets into my son. Deku was all “oh shit it’s Hawks’s super-hot badass murder senpai, what do I do, let me think back to Hawks’s advice for a sec.” Flashback!Hawks was all “anyway Deku so if my super-hot badass murder senpai ever shows up you’re basically screwed so you’d better abscond the fuck out of there.” Present!Deku was all “lol idek why I flashed back to that conversation since I’m just going to do the exact opposite of what Hawks said” and charged directly toward Nagant because WHY NOT. Overhaul was all “waah I need to get back to my boss who I put in a coma out of love” and Nagant was all “jesus christ why did I even bring you here” and had a flashback to AFO who was all “ILU NAGANT IMMA GIVE YOU AN EXTRA QUIRK SO PLEASE CAPTURE DEKU FOR ME PLEASE AND THANKS” and yeah. Shit is all over the place right now and I love it.

Today on BnHA: All Might gets attacked by a pair of discount assassins and is all “Call an ambulance! ...BUT NOT FOR ME” and it’s really badass but also I really wish he would stop tempting fate like this. Lady Nagant is all “[casually flies around town shooting shit]” and I’d be lying if I said I wouldn’t read an entire chapter of just that. Deku is all, “[gets shot (≥_<)]” and releases a giant Smokescreen which prompts En to show up. En is all, “( •᷄⌓•᷅ ) (⌣̀ Δ⌣́) ( •̀_•́ )σ (¬､¬) (눈_눈)” which I consider to be a high point of both the chapter and of my life. The chapter ends with Deku using the Third’s quirk to launch a bunch of random objects at Nagant so that he can jump up and grab her arm all sneaky-like, and I’m sure this is going to prompt another week’s worth of discourse that I don’t care about at all, but fuck it, I’m having a good time.

OH WE’RE CUTTING BACK TO ALL MIGHT WELL THAT’S NICE I GUESS. CONGRATS ON NOT BEING DEAD

you named your car??

you named it Hercules??

I love you so much??

please marry me you giant fucking dork???

lmao speaking of huge fucking dorks

who the fuck are you clowns. la dee da we’re gonna murder All Might with our synchronized spear attack!! I mean... they’re clearly trying their best... maybe I should just be nice and politely hype them up like All Might is so clearly trying to do

like okay, but we all agree that this is actually the least intimidating attack any of us has ever seen, right?? these guys zipped up their hoodies all serious-like and are trying to attack All Might and Hercules with their Walmart tiki torches, but just, no?? right?? like the only way this could possibly be effective is if they were trying to kill All Might with secondhand embarrassment

“those are assassins” this is a VERY generous assessment, All Might

OH MY GOD THE TIKI TORCHES ACTUALLY KILLED THE FUCK OUT OF HERCULES

[slaps roof of car] this baby can fit so many weaponized festive backyard lighting solutions in it

and yet, even after watching this with my own two eyes, I still can’t take these dudes seriously. idek what it is. anyways r.i.p. Hercules, I loved you a lot but I guess you weren’t actually a very good armored car were you

omg they didn’t know it was All Might??

okay 1) for a moment there I was like “oh hey maybe they’re not so bad after all” but then a moment later it was like “ah nope, they are.” like, that was an interesting .06 second emotional journey there. anyways 2) All Might you have my permission to kick their asses for this disrespect, and 3) anyone else all of a sudden getting “wouldn’t this be an interesting time for Stain to suddenly show up” vibes?? no?? just me???

(ETA: hmm tbh I’ve still got those vibes and they haven’t gone away lol. Stain?? you out there buddy?? do you want to be cool for just once in your life. ball’s in your court pal.)

OH SNAP ALL MIGHT ARE YOU REALLY GONNA DO IT ARE YOU GONNA KICK THEIR ASSES

PROTECTIVE DAD MODE ACTIVATED?? BECAUSE YOU KNOW I’M HERE FOR THAT SHIT, SO YEAH, FEEL FREE

omg he’s shouting at them about how much Deku has suffered lmao and they’re just like falling over from being scolded

so they have absolutely no idea what he’s talking about though, right? “SIR THIS IS A WENDY’S” well whatever, you killed his pet car so he’s in a bad mood now

OH MY GOD

LIKE, JUST SO WE’RE ALL CLEAR, THESE FOUR PAGES SO FAR HAVE MADE ALMOST ZERO SENSE. LIKE MAYBE 2% SENSE TOPS. BUT ASK ME IF I CARE. GO AHEAD AND ASK. I SAID GO AHEAD, IT’S OKAY. ...NO I DON’T CARE AT ALL THANK YOU FOR ASKING

(ETA: also, the more I look at this panel, the more I’m just like, why the hell would you phrase it like that though, sob. way to doubly tempt fate?? are you trying to give Horikoshi a challenge??)

and now back to Deku who is randomly bouncing around the city and narrating it to himself just in case he was confused about why he was doing this

who are you talking to Deku. but thanks we appreciate it

man you gotta love that overconfidence. the smartest guy in the world warned you away from this lady, so SURE, LET’S RUN RIGHT UP TO HER. “I APPRECIATE YOUR INPUT, FLASHBACK!HAWKS, BUT I’LL TAKE IT FROM HERE” well okay then!!

I think it would be funny if RHA.com put little Buzzfeed-style polls in between the chapter pages so they could survey people at random intervals as they read their way through the chapter. like, you finish this page and then there’s a little poll there asking “do you think Deku’s plan of catching up to Lady Nagant and finding out where Shigaraki is will work?”, and you click “no” just like everyone else and then nod as the results show that 97% of your fellow readers also picked “no”, and you chuckle to yourself wondering how many of the 3% accidentally clicked on the wrong option by mistake, and then you keep on reading

ANYWAY, SO

HOW’S THAT PLAN WORKING OUT FOR YOU SO FAR DEKU. nice kick, though!!

omggggggg

ouch

update: Deku’s plan not really working out. sources tell me my boy has been fucking shot. this is an ongoing story and we will keep you posted with the latest developments as they come in

wait what

feel free to explain to the rest of us what all of this “UNLESS...” and “THAT POSSIBILITY...” shit means anytime, Deku

oh lol did he realize she could fly??

BREAKING NEWS UPDATE, CNN’s John King reports that Deku is still fucked. eyewitness reports now coming in that Nagant is doing no-look shots and basically not even giving a fuck. sources described her mannerisms and expression as “sexy, but in like an effortless sort of way.” we will continue to bring you the latest

so now there’s basically an entire page of Deku being all “ah fuck so she’s basically closing in and she could already hit me with impossible accuracy even from Far Away, so if that’s the case then her being Up Close is probably going to be even worse!” making good use of that Big Hero Brain there, Deku

so now what, you’re doing some kind of spiraling kick thing?? how is that going to help

oh lol he’s using Smokescreen to create some cover. aww, good for you Deku you named one of your Smokescreen attacks

OH NO LADY DON’T TELL ME AFO DIDN’T EVEN FILL YOU IN ON THE BASICS

seriously, AFO?? you basically told her what Deku’s exact strategy was going to be but then couldn’t be assed to drop that little, small, barely notable piece of knowledge that Deku is rocking multiple quirks?? is it supposed to be a secret or something?? you dropped the ball here man

damn this is getting intense now

(ETA: the way En is poking Deku’s head in that first panel is fucking sending me, I love this guy so much omg.)

well then what are you planning, Deku?? I’m actually really curious!! I am genuinely starting to be invested in this fight scene not only in the “wanting to see who wins and how that impacts the plot” sense, but also in the “wanting to see how it happens because the choreography and strategy is actually pretty cool” sense, which honestly hasn’t happened for quite a while now! this is fun

anyway so what’s up Deku, are you going to use another quirk?? I’ve been speculating that he hasn’t actually unlocked the last two yet (since Two and Three didn’t exactly seem convinced when we last saw them), but maybe I’m about to be proven wrong

(ETA: well he clearly has Three’s obviously, but Two’s is still MIA, and that’s the one I am of course the most curious about. that’s the one we’re all curious about, let’s be real.)

OH SNAP???

AHHHH I’M HYPED LOL. ANOTHER SHINY NEW QUIRK LOL SHOULD I PUT UP THE USUAL DISCOURSE DISCLAIMER

(ETA: so yeah, after thinking on it, I’m not gonna say “please no Deku discourse on my blog” this week, but I probably will ignore any discourse that does come my way though, just because I don’t have much interest in getting involved in what would probably be a pretty repetitive discussion. like, I can just sum up my opinions (which is what they are) here instead. in fact here they are lol:

1) I like the SIXQUIRKS and I like seeing Deku be a badass.

2) I also don’t think Deku is too OP. more like he’s exactly as OP as he needs to be at the moment, given that we’re approaching the end of the series. I expect the other kids will also be pretty damn OP when we see them fight again. we’re just at that point now where they’re all badasses (as well they should be; they’ve grown a lot and they deserve it). it’s just that Deku’s the one we’re getting to see right now.

3) of course I miss Kacchan and the others, but for me this vibes much closer to the MVA arc where even though I missed them, I was still having a blast (as opposed to the dark days of the Basement arc where I was pretty much losing it lol). like, even though Kacchan’s my favorite, I still love Deku a lot and this arc has been amazing for him getting to shine on his own (for like the first time, really).

4) y’all know I love the OFA plot and I’ve never been shy about that lol. I like all of the Vestiges a lot. Banjou and his over the top personality; En and his “guy you thought would be serious and :| all the time but is actually hyper-animated and ALL OVER THE PLACE” energy; Shiro who actually is a :| sort of guy lol; Three who I still expect will be fleshed out in a more detailed flashback at some point; and of course Two, who, well. you know what I think about him lol. Bakuverse is still on the table and I’m still hyped. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that we still have yet to see Two actually talk to Deku (as opposed to talking to the other Vestiges while Deku is distracted). did he lend him his power yet?? or is he still holding out?? either way it’s definitely going to be a Big Thing when it finally happens and I can’t wait to see it.

5) Lady Nagant is Everything and just because Deku grabbed her arm doesn’t mean the fight is over yet lol. Overhaul hasn’t come into play yet either. not to mention that even if the fight is over, the “where do we go from here” part still has me excited either way. her connection to Hawks and the HPSC is very intriguing and we’ve barely touched on that as of yet; she definitely has more of a role to play in this.

6) last but not least, I feel like every week the discussion is all about how much focus Deku’s getting, and how OP he is or isn’t, and OFA this and OFA that, but meanwhile I’m actually so invested in the character development here though?? the way Deku has distanced himself from everyone (except for the Vestiges, because of course they’re already dead so it’s not like they can die again lol)?? the way he’s pushing himself far too hard and we can see the shadows in and under his eyes, and the fact that he never smiles, and even All Might has remarked on how he isn’t taking care of himself at all?? the fact that he’s so single-mindedly obsessed with focused on stopping AFO?? the fact that he’s still the same sweet old Deku despite everything and was so kind to that fox lady with the umbrella, but there was also something so sad about that scene because it felt like a reminder of the type of hero that he wants to be, but that he’s not allowed to be right now?? because the stakes are too high and the world is falling apart?? and he feels like he’s the only one who can do something about it?? and that he has to be?? and that he is putting so much pressure on himself right now, and it’s absolutely too much pressure for any one person to bear, and I feel like no one is fucking talking about this lol goddammit.

anyway so yeah. I have feels about this, and every week that slow-burn angst is getting more and more intense behind the scenes, and I feel like it’s all going to hit a breaking point eventually. sooner rather than later. it really feels like a mirror of Katsuki’s post-Kamino arc. where all that angst was just churning below the surface for like twenty chapters and then it finally was like “okay it’s time” and it all came bursting out and we got the best five chapters of the fucking series (in my admittedly biased estimation lol).

basically, I know that most of fandom is billing this as either the “villain hunt” arc or the “solo Deku SIXQUIRKS fighting arc” or whatever. but for me, it’s always been and still is the Deku Angst arc lol. the cool fights are a sexy bonus (the worldbuilding less so because even though it’s interesting to see society at such a low point, it’s also very depressing and gets old pretty fast), but for me the thing that’s really keeping me engaged chapter after chapter is seeing Deku like we’ve never seen him before. seeing him all quiet and withdrawn and brooding and focused on AFO, AFO, AFO, and seeing that “he just doesn’t take himself into account” mentality taken to extremes. I am invested in that. I’m soaking up that angst each and every week, and I’m invested in seeing what comes of it. it’s a big picture thing. week to week this arc might just seem like a bunch of villain fight scenes, sure. but Deku’s emotional journey is the thread that’s going to carry this arc through from beginning to end, and for that I’m willing to be patient.

anyway that turned into a BIG OL’ RANT there but yeah! so those are my thoughts on the disk horse as it currently stands. and like I said, I’m open to discussion, but tbh I will probably just wind up repeating these same talking points endlessly so just a fair warning lol.)

anyway so Three says Deku has yet to use his quirk at ALL but now he’s trying to combine it with another quirk?? damn. also please check out En’s face here you guys

En launching a sneak attack up my favorite character list by the sheer power of his expressions alone. he really knows how to make the most of his screentime

OH DAMN DEKU

at this point the 3% from that hypothetical poll earlier are starting to feel prettttty damn smug, I’ll bet. well shit

what in the fuck

?? so like releasing his chi or whatnot?? isn’t that basically just like base OFA all over again?? also Deku did you seriously just apologize to Gran’s cape

update: Nagant has turned her eyeball into a gun

hm. hmmmmmmm. ...okay yep, still somehow sexy

anyway so she’s just floating up there building suspense, as one does. lord I sure hope she has good reflexes because something tells me she’s going to need them

OH SNAP HE THREW GRAN’S CAPE AS A DECOY WHAAAAT OKAY THAT’S SOME SMART SHIT DEKU

LOL SHE’S MAD NOW

JESUS CHRIST SHE JUST NEVER TAKES A GODDAMN BREAK FROM BEING AWESOME HUH

DEKU ARE YOU JUST THROWING EVERY DAMN THING IN YOUR INVENTORY

but without the cape and the hood how will you continue to look like an enigmatic badass. you really can’t. which means we might finally be moving on from the wandering nomad part of this arc, stay tuned

LOL YOU MANIAC

I hope he went full Kacchan with the dialogue there. his face sure looks like it lol. popped out of a building all mad fdskljlkj omg

well this was fun, shit. I still have basically no idea what Three’s quirk does though lol. like, can he use it to charge up objects with kinetic energy or something?? but then what was all of that talk about combining it with one of the other quirks?? or was that just because he was using Smokescreen at the same time??

(ETA: having seen and read an additional half-dozen explanations of Three’s quirk, I can say with confidence that I still have basically no idea what it is or does.)

anyway so!! Deku is a badasssssss but something tells me not to count Nagant out just yet even so. also I really enjoy seeing Deku flip out on people like he doesn’t have a fucking hole in his torso because it reminds me of A CERTAIN SOMEONE and I always love to see him channeling that feral energy; I feel like it’s been a while

anyways good luck to you both!! I truly wish that both of you could win. but if not, then maybe you can at least become friends instead. you have so much in common, you both can fly and have multiple quirks and you’re both badasses, and plus it would just be really funny to see the look on Hawks’s face lmao

[redxblueihateloveyou]

Hey i really love your blog!!! I just plucked the courage to actually send u an ask fhdjhd but GOSH i love your video edits and your gifs and your meta article posts, you're so articulate and you can explain/describe moments in a way that makes me go "oh wow, i cant believe i haven't seen it that way before!!" Haha ANYWAYS i'm just here to say that i completely agree with what all u said, Free creators might do a lil fanservice here and there for the 25 ships that exists within the fandom's circle, but rinharu's storyline is clearly the most romantic one! And i'd argue it's the one closest to being canon esp after part 1, i mean the fact that they put such an explosive emotional outburst right at the end of the second to the last movie means a lot. It's like reinforcing the fact that this series has always been about them, and everything that has happened only happened either because they met or they grew appart and miss eachother. I kinda feel like maybe.. juust maayyybe there's a chance KA wants to make the ship canon, since it's the last movie and they want to end it on a highnote maybe (bcs honestly i think the only reason they've been holding back is purely bcs of the merch sales, since they don't have a problem showing a wholesome lesbian love story in kobayashi maid dragon) butt i could be wrong, maybe i'm just overly optimistic and delusional, they could somehow ruin it and give an ending that panders to all the ships again 😅🥲, but at least there's a clear-cut guarantee that part 2 would dedicate a large portion of it fixing rin and haru's fight!!! Oohh how can i wait another 6 months now!!😭😭 (sorry for the long ask btw!! 🙏🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️)

OMG thank you so so much!! For watching my vids too! ❤️❤️❤️ It really means a lot to me! Ahhhh wow, thats the longest ask I've ever recieved! 😍 I'm trying to explain myself so hard lol I'm glad its appreciated, bc sometimes I'm like "I don't fucking know how to say this" xD

Well, you know me, I only care for one ship, which is the only one with confirmed info that they're both actually gay and have mutual feelings for each other. There are some other ships in free! I'm fine with (those do not include Rin or Haru in them xD), but I just mostly don't care, bc after reading all the stuff, you can see that in some of those to one the other one is actually like his second option, which I just do not like. Others I just don't even see, bc again to me who witnessed great close male friendships and having two sisters who I'm very close to, I just do not see anything romantic in that.

It's not just Free! tbh, it's like any sports anime these days. They see two guys walking together, it's a ship. And like no one cares if they're just bros. Like I'd get i they did some fanservice fanservice, but like I never saw anyone in Free! crossing the line the way rinharu do. I can without thinking much name you 10 rh moments that no matter how hard you think can't be explain as being bros, but can't name one when it comes to others. I just find some ppl shipping everyone with everyone weird sometimes. It's like western fans see like some eastern actors or singers slap each other ass lovingly and they're like "oh they're fucking" I'm like "yeah, ofc all 500 of them, you're absolutely right". And Free! doesn't do anything even like that, I just do not get sometimes like what moment even brought on some ships. I'm genuinely confused. Albert and Haru? You fucking fell from a sakura tree or smth? I'm...

I'm especially confused when it comes to guys, whose character type is who I call "I only want this one and if I can't have it, then I'm ok" xD. It just always surprised me, when they try to pair up them with someone else, it's like a complete ooc.

I'm also not into this whole "well, if there are gays in this anime, than everyone there is gay". I'm like... huh. It's like with KNB and MDZS I had same feeling. It's like you have already couples there who are canon/borderline canon, why do you need another 10 who don't even interact or just don't even go there? I'm always so confused in those situations. Or like wangxian is married and some are like "no, I actually don't like it, let me write a fic when they're with other ppl". Lan Zhan... being in love or having sex with someone else? Yeah, that's not Lan Zhan, dude, you're writing about someone else. Might as well change the name at this point.

But last time I went to twitter someone had a thread about how if they make s4 of Free! they should mainly explore there Momo's angst (and no, it wasn't a joke), so I'm already like, I'm just.. nothing will surprise me no more. But I'm forever gonna be confused.

Yeah, I eel you about "going there". I mean seeing part of it, it just kinda cemented my confusion, bc I do not get how it can be considered platonic. We were just discussing since yesterday with @freeseafirefly how I now even more perplexed and do not understand how they will resolve it without going into relationship territory. It's just our point here is that like... no one forced them to go there (I mean its not like this whole fandom has some wild expectations or anything already), we were waiting or our usual friendship and swimming and maybe tiny conflict about struggles of pro-careers and some usual rh implications (maybe all the rh gay in dramas as always). Not some pure fanfiction coming to life here haha.

Like why I'm laughing is bc I twice used in my "fics" bringing up him leaving Haru as a force to push the confession, bc there's no way if he adresses this it won't lead to this. And now we not only have this (bc Haru just basically layed it out there), but an actual scene of him playing on their feelings for each other and a literal image of Rin leaving and "taking Haru's heart with him" to the point when he's for the first time in his life openly crying on the ground. And it's not like this scene can be interpreted as anything else, the whole fandom talks same, bc the whole fight was just about them, what Haru said was just about them, there's a literal boom of his heart getting out of his chest, before he falls and now he's heartless.

So our question is like... why go there?

It's like some say that they might still resolve it with "they're special to each other" and swimming, but still like we already knew that, there was no reason to go that far is what I'm saying. And to think that it was planned since forever giving the clues is like... ???

The whole spoon theme also throw me on the loop because like, lets be honest, it's wedding themed. And that part of the interview about part 2 there also made me go...?????? Because I mean, huh?

This is just all in all very interesting turn of events to say the least. I do not see the point of all of this if its not what I think it is, esp after seeing tweets like "even I see a rh wedding and I'm mh T_T". It's just all very unsubtle, that's why we're confused.

Like who knows, maybe we'll really by some magic turn of events get lucky and they really decided that since its the ending, it's okay to go for it. But I also don't wanna to hype myself much, I'm already really happy with it, just bc again, this scene already proves all of my points.

And yeah, I'm sure they'll pander to everyone, bc it's the end and etc and we have to handle everything on the good note and there's a whole line of ppl who's obsessed with us, esp with Haru xD, but like bromance pandering and romance pandering are different things, you know *wiggles eyebrows* and u know who always gets the second one.

[shimano-futoshi]

Give us your top 10 Shimano images

Due to overwhelmingly popular demand... Welcome! To the Top Ten Shimages List 2022!!! The List in which we list the top ten Shimages EVER!!! Now.. At number ten!!!

10: GUNMANO

The Shimage which is a perfect reaction image for those who Insult the Shimano Name. The cold look, matching the icy steel of the barrel as both stare deep into your soul... Chilling. A VERY good Shimage.

9: FINEMANO

Look at him. He's FINE as hell! The Dragon Engine did our boy justice! Just look at those brows. This face encompasses the subtle evilness he employs in the company of others, but you just know, inside, he is struggling to contain his glee at the violent ideas racing through his head. A very Scary Shimage!

8: SMILEMANO

I always whip this bad boy out when a particularly kind user has sent me a nice message and I want to show them how I feel! Truly, everyone of you deserves a Smilemano because you always make me smile when you interact with the blog! This Shimage perfect for when I don't really have the words, but want to make sure that you have, well, slapped a big ol' smile on my face! Good job I don't post Smilemano every time that happens, because otherwise I'd have ten thousand posts and they'd all be this lovely Shimage!

7: KATANAMANO

Perfect shot of his tats, and shows his HENCH BODY. Everyone always thinks "oh yeah shimano is big and uses his fists to solve his problems and thats why puzzle night was an absolute disaster" and don't get me wrong, he does, but! His skills with a blade are nothing to scoff at! For me, it adds a small level of nuance for him, and this Shimage really shows that!

6: CLASSICMANO

HOLD IT! This Shimage is a personal classic. How many times has this face made its rounds on the good and great tumblr blog shimano-futoshi? Let me tell you... A LOT! This Shimage.. How he is almost entirely blocking the gate, signifying his larger than life presence and how he's calling the shots now. You can't get around him! You'll have to go through! Shame all that practice beating the snot out of Mr. Shakedown in 0 made this fight a breeze. Oh well!

5: BACKOFHEADMANO

Don't look for too long, that shine'll blind ya! Do you realise how many times I've had an idea for a Shimanopost and thought damn, I need him facing away from the audience? At least three times, but I digress! It's just a handy Shimage to have, and it's also just really funny. I don't know what else to say besides look at i- AHHHH MY EYES THEY BURN

4: SITMANO

When you're sitting! 😂😂🔥👌😂👌🔥🔥🥚👌 Throw that ass in a circle for this iconic Shimage! That was a good post, wasn't it? Thanks everyone who was involved back in the day. A classic, and I always remember it when I see Shimano sitting there looking absolutely gormless. What's he looking at? Someone else in the room? The wall? That funny cloud shaped like a dog with one eye? Who knows what's going on in that round, shiny head of his!

3: SHIMANO THANOSHI

I consider this Shimage the one that pretty much started it all! My first post to reach over 100 (which is a lot for me considering the content I make), and was even acknowledged by the head of the Yakuza localisation team at the time, Scott Strichart, on his twitter! So, you know, all those retweets and likes are MINE, SCOTT, MINE! I'll be expecting my royalties in ShimanoBucks(TM).

2: SHIMANO THICCTUSHY

This Shimage took me so long to make, but I wasn't disappointed! I love it, and not just because it shows off that Phat SHASS, but because I remember the feeling of creating someone I knew people would absolutely despise adore, and the relief after it was finished. I'm not the most creatively adept, so making this and it turning out not bad actually felt great! Also that bout of Shassposting was a good era.

AND NOW. THE ONE YOU'VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR! THE NUMBER ONE BEST SHIMAGE OF ALL TIME IS!!!

1: THE SHOKER

My personal favourite Shimage. I rememeber when I finished it back in the day, and similarly to Thicctushy, I thought I did a mighty fine job! "People were going to hate love this one", I thought! And they did! One of my more "popular" posts and the one I always think of when I think back to the early days of this blog! The Shoker truly is my number one top Shimage of all time!

[ventura-starlight]

angelicstrwbrry's 2k21 year in review >♡<

on March 14th I officially signed away my soul and caved to become an anime blog. the day prior I wrote [for the first time in a while 😭] and basically broke up with my harry potter phase that had conquered my entire personality on this blog for 2 years. and since that day I have been a Haikyuu blog!

When I joined the Fandom I was welcomed by some amazing writers, making me feel more welcome to be an aspiring writer. and although sometimes the writing was cheesy as hell 😐 and the themes were....questionable 😋😋 [basically when I didn't have my sibling helping me]. you have all supported me so much!

about the time I switched blogs I had just reached the 200 follower milestone. and that took me about 2 years to achieve. now at the time of writing this I have 495 amazing supporters. truthfully you all have meant the world to me and I can't explain how much it means to have you all. the past few years have been shit for me but having a support system this amazing hasn't gone unnoticed [seriously- my therapist knows about yall 😭😭] thank you all <3 I love you and I can't wait to see how we grow together <3

STATS BABYYYYY

angelicstrwbrry's survey <3

[please fill out the survey!! it will be amazing to hear from you all and find out what I can do better going forward in this blog :)^^]

Followers: 495

How many writings? 54 [I think lol]

PERSONAL TOP 10: [in no order]

SONGS:

•Put On a Smile // Silk Sonic [literally heaven sent ☹]

•Lo Que Siento //Cuco [thanks damaris for sharing♡]

•Forever // Mumford and Sons [HIPPIE ALERT ⚠️📢]

•So Long // Fleece [let me give this a kiss rn. please]

•Rom-Com Gone Wrong // Matt Maltese [AHHHH 🤍]

•Cry Your Heart Out // Adele [HER NEW ALBUM>>>]

•134340 // BTS [honestly yeah. it's just. so. perfect.]

•Bambi // Clairo [ouchie. but it's relatable so whatever]

•Connect The Dots // Greer [I LOVE THEM AJHHHH]

•Uuuu // Steve Lacy [Steve <3 pls marry me <3 pls <3]

ARTISTS:

•Silk Sonic [gave me everything I needed and more]

•Tyler The Creator [main bae <3 but I love him sm ☹]

•Taylor Swift [I became a hardcore swiftie this year💕]

•Hozier [top artist and!! my favorite tree man :)]

•Mitski [I'm mentally ill. is anyone really surprised? 🙄]

•Faye Webster [I love <3 if you see my insta? yeah <3]

•Matt Maltese [NEW FAV DISCOVERY!!! LOVEEE]

•Ginger Root [pls check him out cause omg amazing]

•Adele [7 year old me is gagging because omfg <3 🛐]

Phoebe Bridgers [once again. mentally ill + therapy]

FICS:

•songs they post you with [simp content but it's cool!]

•how they love you [☹☹ my babies :c]

•simply mine [I LOVE SAKUSA SO MUCH AND PLS]

•almost like being in love [more simps but EEEEEE]

•when we were young [only this sequel >>>>>>>>]

from other blogs....

•mi mariposita by @lalaangeldust [absolutely amazing writer and so sweet! her writings are outstanding and deserve your love ☹☹ the blog theme is immaculate and she has so much talent! MHA ppl, pls go visit!!!!!]

•husband!keiji by @sunkeiji [to all my fellow akaashi lovers out there, you should know sayu by now and omg does she do amazing work! I love everything <3]

•dad!kuroo anything by @kuroosweakness [one of my old favorite type of blogs. she is amazing and so well thought out? seriously works are like poetry to me <3]

•the indeed series by @host-club-hq [I gave been loving this series since day 1 and omgg! this is a kyoya fic series and I love their portrayl of the characters so much! it's not generic and is so well written and ACK]

•haikyuu boys and the one bed trope by @simpforanyanimeguywithdarkhair [I went back and read this a million times since it was posted. so amazing and just the buildup isn't too much. an amazing read for trying to fall asleep at night :))]

PLAYLISTS: check out my spotify ;))

[cinnamonest]

hihi lena !! ( ˶ᵔᴗᵔ˶ )

I am a frequent reader of your blog, but I never had the courage to interact. but I feel that now is the right moment for me to say thanks for everything you have helped me :) sorry if my english is weird, i'm still not confident enough to write this message just with my knowledge, so i'm using google translator.

I've been creating stories and characters since I was 16 years old, it became a frequent habit of mine after I went through some trauma during my childhood and early adolescence. to this day I feel insecure about saying this but, I was (and still have) a lot of interest in dark content, it made me comfortable and less paranoid about the abuse I suffered and the constant fear that this would happen again, since I never had permission from my family to seek psychological help (I live in a very isolated city in my country, here they are very religious and mental health is not important at all) for a long time I felt disgusting and believed I was wrong when I consumed this type of content, even more so because there were many destructive criticisms about who created and who consumed this content. I spent 3 whole years feeling awful for feeling better consuming dark content, until I found your blog this year. you never seemed to care that other people found your type of content wrong, you were never afraid of being exposed to other people's hatred, you always wrote so naturally, knowing very well how to differentiate fiction from reality, it was a shock so big for me at first, I really couldn't understand how you had such courage to post such things, especially knowing how people treat others when they don't follow the standard of "morality" they impose on everyone, but then that this initial shock passed, your blog ended up becoming a place of comfort for me. I always read all of your content, whether it's just an idea from some anonymous person you've decided to interact with other thoughts or a character's yandere profile, any notification from your blog already makes me very happy !! I feel that I am not alone, I feel that I am neither wrong nor immoral to seek this content. and while this doesn't compare to the psychological help I really need, it's still better than being totally exposed to my self-deprecating thoughts about the things that happened to me. and also because of you now i feel much more comfortable not only consuming this kind of content and understanding that there is no problem with that, but also writing dark content without being afraid of other people's hate :)

I just wish you knew that many other readers also feel the same way as me, don't be sad with hateful comments because know that you help a lot of people !! <33 I just wanted to share this, sorry if it got too big . . .

kisses !! ଘ(੭ ᐛ )━♡ﾟ.*･｡ﾟ

AHHH thank you so much!! And don't worry I can read it just fine!

Honestly I've seen so much drama across different fandoms I've been in over the years, none of that really bothers me anymore, I know that most people who freak out over content like this are usually just choosing to be mad when they could easily just block and move on, so I don't get really bothered by it.

But I've gotten so many messages that are all so nice too and that's just?? Ahhhh I never thought I'd actually help people in any way with this and it makes me so happy to know I have <333 I hope this blog can continue to be a source of comfort to you!! That is my goal :3