This entire scene emotionally destroyed me but there's one part in particular that was like taking a knife to an already open wound.
So, Gon shuts down after the reveal that Kite was dead all along and his stunned and racing mind is disjointed and contradictory. Most of his statements fit into roughly three categories of desperate thoughts:
Vehement inability to process that Kite is dead. From the statement being repeated multiple times to the amount of "no"s everywhere on these pages.
Taking the blame for Kite's death, in a frankly horrifying show of self-hatred (especially given the context of what comes next).
Blaming Pitou and proclaiming that he "didn't do it" in an attempt to absolve the weight of his guilt.
Heartbreaking. But there's one thought here that's a bit different.
Throughout all of this, Gon has been adamant that Kite, and by extension the situation, can be "fixed" - after all, most every issue that's come up before on his adventures could be resolved nicely. But now, suddenly, it can't. Gon can't stand feeling powerless or helpless, and now he finds himself more helpless than he's ever been. And we get this.
"Somebody help me."
Gon is independent. Gon has a burning need to prove his worth through his own strength. Gon has a bad habit of equating "taking responsibility" with fixing things all by himself and rejecting help from others.
Gon has never pleaded for someone to save him before.
And it's just. Holy shit. Holy shit - he's a kid. He's just a kid. And in just a few pages, he's going to make a despair-fueled decision to throw away his life just to regain any semblance of power over a situation that was doomed to be unfixable from the start. He says, "Let it end. I don't care what happens to me now.", because this is the only way he can think of to make his pain and his guilt and Pitou all just stop, by losing himself to all of his power instead of his grief.
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Once again Watanuki complains about Doumeki eating so much AND THEN IMMEDIATELY OFFERS HIM MORE FOOD, WITH A SMILE
MOKONA WAS RIGHT ABOUT YOU WATANUKI
But also this is the most dramatic eating shot in the world and I’m suddenly fearful that the cooking student put poison in hers
OH. Or I suppose this is Doumeki realising by taste alone that Watanuki did not prepare this one.
HE DOES NOT TRUST THIS POTATO.
THIS IS A POTATO OF LIES.
The chapter suddenly ends there without Doumeki explaining but WATANUKI YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO GUESS.
YOU HAVE ALL THE CLUES. YOU’VE BEEN TOLD THIS INFORMATION TWICE IN THIS CHAPTER.
DOUMEKI ONLY wait what was the precise wording
DOUMEKI ONLY PUTS THINGS IN HIS MOUTH THAT HE UNDERSTANDS
HE CAN ONLY PUT SOMETHING IN HIS MOUTH IF HE BELIEVES IN IT
WAS MOKONA RIGHT ABOUT YOU OR NOT?!?!
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you know---and I hate to say this, it goes against everything I hold dear and if anyone presses me on it I will deny it to my dying breath---but actually? being in the office with people and working together with real live bodies to accomplish things (together!) does have a certain je ne sais quoi that no amount of remote meetings could ever hope to duplicate.
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Doomed Prince
Sonic x Shadow Generations X Metaphor: ReFantazio
if you thought you were done with me shilling Metaphor boy were you wrong ! here comes a crossover !
so in the upcoming Atlus fantasy rpg Metaphor, the protagonist goes on a quest to save their childhood friend : the prince of Euchronia, from a deadly curse. with twists and turns along the way, starting with the assassination of the King !
this is a redraw of this visual !
do you see how beautiful this art is i mean DAMN
anyway i'm extremely excited for this to come out and if you're a fan of games like Persona, SMT, Fire Emblem, Xenoblade or FF, you might like it too !
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Resident idiot still came into work despite being sick and having woken up at 5:30am due to the headache from said sickness
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ohhmy god imagining how looping isa would act in act 5 ...ohhh nooooo
oh boy! i sure have um! thought about it!
i think his 'friend event' stuff would go very differently than sifs. so likewise, the results would be wildly different, too. the fallout! there sure would be some!
the way i handle isa looping is that he recognizes himself getting meaner, getting lost in it all. he sees the descent just like the audience does. and he tries to hold on to himself, how people see him, because what is he if not the friendly and stupid guy they all know him to be!
and then in act five, he gives up the act. not that it was ever totally an act. his friendliness has corroded away, leaving just the cold intelligence he tries so hard to hide.
hed also make it through the house the final time scarily efficiently, but in a different way than sif. brute force and calculating malice and he knows its wrong, the whole time he knows its wrong, but he just cant... stop. he needs to finish this. even if it costs him everything.
because he can always change!!! he can vanish and come back someone totally new!!!! his friends cant all do that, though!
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