#age gap crush

[lonerbutluvertcc]

Me walking into the new semester only to crush on the fucking lecturer once again

[kissofpoisontcc]

I wanna dance snuggled up close to him,

Underneath the cool starry night.

I wanna feel his arms around my waist,

As we slowly sway to the beat of the music.

I want him to stare deeply into my eyes,

And begin to kiss me slowly and softly,

Like he never wants to let me go.

[r3m3k]

Not very normal, but lately I was manifesting phone call, text message or just a talk in person from "K" and I just saw a car the same colour and model with almost the same car license plate just like his and I'm very confused because I don't know if it's a sort of a "sign from the universe" or if I'm insane and fucked up

[countingdots-tc]

“come see me more” …sir you scare me shitless

[coffeeconfess]

When I was a little girl, I'd see women talking about how they're in love with a guy who never texts them back or who leaves once they've slept together, and I never understood. If they don't put in effort, they're not interested, so you should just move on. You deserve better, why wait?

I miss that little girl. She was a lot smarter than me. If she saw the shit I'm pulling now, she'd throw her lunch box at me. She'd be so, so mad we're pining over someone we can't have. It goes against everything we stand for, I stood for. That little girl swore she'd never cry over a boy, she was repulsed by the thought. I've cried over him, multiple times. I love him. And he will never love me back. But I keep holding onto some delusional sense of hope, when it's been months since I've seen him in person. That little girl would be furious. You're wasting your time for a guy who not only isn't interested in you, was never interested in you and never will be? You know that's not logical! How is a naive little girl who still looks for fairies in her garden so much more grounded than an 18 year old who's been to hell and back? Maybe I traded one fantasy for another. I preferred the old one though. Hunting for fairies filled me with wonder, waiting for prince charming eats away at me every single day. I'm rotting away in my tower, and no one is coming to save me. I think the only one who can save me is that stubborn little girl.

[sheeteddykeformation]

So I zoned out for a bit during a briefing on a field trip

For context, my female professor was wearing shorts

Overthinking me: Shit, you’re staring at her naked legs!!! Gay panic me: Who cares, I’m a woman! Overthinking me: But you are gay! Gay panic me: She doesn’t know that… Overthinking me: So you’re admitting it’s sexual? Gay panic me: Romantic maybe... Anyway, I’ll just stare at a man’s legs for a moment as well. Overthinking me: But then you have to look at her again, because you want her to know that you’re listening. Gay panic me: Okay, upper body half then… Overthinking me: No no no no!!! Now you’re staring at her boobs! Gay panic me: Okay, face then… Overthinking me: Aaand you’ve made eye contact! The thing you were trying to avoid at all costs. This is sooo weird… Gay panic me: Her eyes are beautiful though… And now that I am looking down again, her legs are great too. And you see the little red spot? She has cut herself while shaving, it means she’s human. She is human and she has the perfect body, and she’s intelligent too… I mean she is an actual professor! And she‘s great at explaining. You know how earlier I didn’t know how this measuring app works, and she showed it to me and she demonstrated it with my phone and she had to bend down because she is so tall and when she held my phone our hands touched and her hair brushed against my cheek, and although it was raining I thought I was in heaven…  Overthinking me: She is 42, married with a child and most likely straight. Gay panic me: But she has two golden retrievers… Overthinking me: I get it, you have a type.

It has been several weeks and delulu me is still not over that crush…

[queer-and-nd-coded]

i was folding some paper tags when he came out of the the office and just stood there, looking at me.

i gave him a small smile, which i think he reciprocated. i don't quite remember because my heart immediately started to beat faster. i had to do something to distract me from it.

so i asked him if he had watched oppenheimer, which he did. he liked it a lot and was dumbfounded when i told him i haven't watched it yet. he gave me a quick spoilerless review of it before having to head back to the office.

the whole day i kept thinking about how he went to me for no reason. i know i shouldn't dwell on these things, that the chances of him even liking me that way are close to zero, but... i just can't help it.

[whydoilikeoldermen]

LISTEENNNNN id let an older man do anything to me bro

[lonerbutluvertcc]

But anyway here are some Wrapped TC memes which nobody asked for

[kissofpoisontcc]

As much as I realise you’re toxic to me,

That I need to let you go.

You’re like poison to me,

As you tear apart my soul.

Yet somehow my heart won’t let you go,

As it clings to you with every beat.

As much as I may try to cut you out,

My poor heart will sit by the door waiting.

[r3m3k]

Once I was manifesting "K" in the evening and I was so delusional about this, that the next day I wanted to tell my friend, that he invited me for coffee when I realized that I was just manifesting that and it didn't happen actually

[countingdots-tc]

constantly praying he’s thinking about me as much as I think about him

[coffeeconfess]

*rocking back and fourth* know it's for the better know it's for the better know it's for the better know it's for the better know it's for the better know it's for the better know it's for the better KNOW IT'S FOR THE BETTER KNOW IT'S FOR THE BETTER

[compscitc]

Hello! It’s been a while since I’ve been on here and a LOT of things have changed. So first of all I am no longer in school and I’m on to my second year of university. I study computer science which I really like and am happy with! So the most obvious thing is that I have no longer a crush on my high school teacher cause a lot of things went down and he left from our school for another school so I was kinda forced to get over him :( he still holds a place in my heart but it’s more like I’m glad that I had the opportunity to meet him and have this minuscule relationship with him even if it was nothing for him, nothing erotic and only platonic but there is warmth left behind in his spot.

Though it’s been almost three years, my preference for older men in places of authority has not stopped and I have developed a new crush on one of my professors who taught me last year programming 😭 yeah I know I know you would say it’s literally the same thing as before BUT there’s a big BUT here and hear me out 😭

Let me say first that the problem is that first semester I couldn’t really establish a relationship cause he was rly kinda distant with me and I felt like he disliked me but would make lighthearted jokes etc. Second semester came and he was like a different person, rly warm with me, making casual convo, I have literally walked to the bus station with him talking for like 15 minutes and all cause he rides the bus with us, he has told me multiple times (as a joke?) to go for a coffee with him and all that, my desk at the lab was next to his so he talked to me a lot and made jokes with me, always telling me to do jobs for him if he forgot something etc you get the jist. He made a POINT to tell me he is single cause I said something that didn’t make sense and he was like “oh god she’s going to be the death of me and I’m single, I’ll die single” (about me) and I’m like ?!?!?%{^{>\* HELLO?!!:?:2€37

The BUT here is well the fact that he is single and that there might actually be some chance that something happens. The problem is that I don’t know how to approach him bc I have only his academic email and I cannot find him for the life of me on any social media so I’m thinking to join him for a bit and a small talk before my lessons this semester cause he will have lessons at the labs at the same time as me. Plsssss I need help im loosing my mind cause I think I am attracted to him but I am not that sure yet, all this started as a joke last semester with my friends calling me “his girl” cause he was always talking to me and asking me to do favours for him and me denying it but now I don’t know how I feel (?) oof anyways big update for everyone here 🥺🫰🏻 love you all and I hope I don’t sound weird 😭

Oh did I mention he is nearing 47 years of age?🥹

(Also I used to be idontwannabemeanymore just so you know 🖤)

[whydoilikeoldermen]

the parasites in me wanna be bent over 😞

[lonerbutluvertcc]

Me vs the burning desire to curl up in his arms and lay there forever more