#again there is a delicate balancing act of like. i am very private. this may also shock you LMFAO

[moe-broey]

Moe as a self-insert adjacent is so fucking funny though like. I'm not a furry but I strongly think Moe would be. I'm very much a binary transman but Moe is genderqueer and uses it/its. Dear fucking god it wears socks and sandals. What is fucking wrong with you. I prefer combat boots, myself. We are both 5'3" and Have Problems

[arthurian-texts]

There’s a scene in Chretien’s Knight of the Cart that’s absolutely crucial for how I see Gawain and Arthur’s relationship, one that probably sticks in my mind more than any other for how subtly and succinctly it captures so many complexities of their dynamic.

For context, this is right after Arthur agrees to let Guinevere go into a quite obvious trap (which ultimately leads to Guinevere’s abduction by Meleagant) with only Kay for protection, simply because he’d promised to grant whatever Kay asked. We’re told that “there was no one who was not upset” at this decision, but no one dares openly stop it or contradict Arthur - who is, after all, the king.

And it’s then that we get this crucial exchange:

No one’s grief was strong enough to prompt him to follow after her until Sir Gawain addressed the king, his uncle, in private. “Lord, you have behaved like a child, and I am astonished,” he said. “But if you heed my counsel, then while they are still near, we shall follow them, you and I, along with any others who wish to come there. As for me, I could not hold back from racing after them. It would be wrong for us not to follow them, at least until we know what will happen to the queen, and how Kay will behave.”

“Let us set off, dear nephew,” the king replied. “You have spoken courteously now. Since you have taken this matter into your hands, have the horses bridled, saddled, and led out that we may mount without delay.”

There’s always a very delicate balance Gawain is walking in how he interacts with Arthur, and you see it even in how the relationship is described here: the king, his uncle. On one hand, Arthur is Gawain’s relative, which gives him a certain leeway to treat him, if not quite as an equal, certainly much closer to it than most people could dare. But on the other hand, Arthur is the king, Gawain’s king, and questioning his authority too strongly would be considered unacceptable.

And I think you see that balance in such a fascinating way here. We’re told that everyone was unhappy with Arthur’s decision, but only Gawain dares to say so. Not only that, he basically tears into Arthur in incredibly strong terms: “You have behaved like a child, and I am astonished.” Clearly, Gawain feels confident that he’s earned the right to speak his mind to Arthur - to give him a piece of his mind, really, in this scene - and he doesn’t seem remotely afraid that there might be consequences for doing so.

But. But. Notice that crucial little detail there: in private. Gawain very pointedly waits to say anything about this until he and Arthur are alone. In public, around the other knights, Gawain doesn’t say a single word to contradict Arthur’s decision. In private, he tells him he’s acted like a child.

I’m reminded of a post I wrote a while ago about Game of Thrones, pointing out that Jon and Daenerys both make a distinction between being criticized in public and in private. Daenerys tells Jorah and Ser Barristan: “You’re both here to advise me. I value your advice. But if you ever question me in front of strangers again, you’ll be advising someone else.” And similarly after being crowned King in the North, Jon tells Sansa: “You are my sister, but I am king now. When you question my decisions in front of the other lords and ladies, you undermine me.” (Emphasis mine.) In both cases, I think the point was pretty clearly not ‘You cannot criticize me’, but rather ‘You cannot publicly undermine my authority’.

Arthur doesn’t need to tell Gawain this. Gawain knows. And I think you get a powerful sense of the trust between them from this short moment: Gawain trusts that he can speak his mind freely to Arthur without consequences, but he waits to do so until it’s just the two of them. In return, Arthur doesn’t stand on his ego but listens humbly and accepts Gawain’s criticism. I think it’s particularly fascinating that he tells Gawain he’s spoken courteously. On the face of it, “You have behaved like a child, and I am astonished” doesn’t sound remotely courteous - it sounds downright rude, in fact. And yet Arthur clearly doesn’t think so. He not only admits that Gawain is right, he endorses the way he said it as correct and praiseworthy.

I think that’s a great demonstration of how Gawain’s courtesy isn’t just a synonym for “polite”: it’s about his ability to follow social codes for correct behavior. Here, the measure of his courtesy isn’t that he always minces words, but that he understands when it is and isn’t acceptable to speak bluntly.

And I think it’s telling, too, that even when he’s basically telling Arthur off, he still addresses him formally as “Lord”. That might seem like a meaningless formality when the rest of what he’s saying seems anything but respectful, but I don’t think it is. I think it’s a constant reminder that Gawain never forgets Arthur is his king, or the respect that’s due to him, even when he’s openly questioning his decisions. He might seem harsh, but yet it's always tempered by a fundamental deference and he's careful never to overstep those lines.

He knows his place, not in the sense of being a doormat, but in the most literal sense of understanding the multiple - in some ways conflicting - roles he occupies and the expectations thereof: As Arthur's nephew, his knight, his subject, his advisor and right-hand man, arguably his friend and/or surrogate son (or brother, depending on your interpretation) as well. The fact that he manages to thread that needle so well is a testament to just how intelligent and socially adept he is, and the fact that Arthur gives him leave to speak his mind so bluntly to him in private is a huge testament to the mutual trust and respect between them.

[boxoftheskyking]

Something Good, Part Seven

So I was going to edit and revise, but my house is full of flies and I’ve spent most of the night trying to murder them.

This is the best I could do.

In which Wei Wuxian gets yanked around like a fish on a hook.

Part One, Part Two, Part Three, Part Four, Part Five, Part Six

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Wei Wuxian always gets a little cocky after a month of anything. A month into life at Lotus Pier he talked back to Madam Yu for the first time and met the back of her hand. He may have started getting in trouble on his first day of indoctrination at Cloud Recesses, but after the first month he really started his campaign to bother Lan Wangji into giving him a decent fight. Or at least a minute of his time. 

So he recognizes this pattern as he sits among the rabbits, watching the disciples roll around in the grass and play fight with crooked little sticks. The children all wear white, every day. As an aesthetic choice, it’s quite striking—it also appears to give some validity to Su Ming’s claim that misbehaving Lans are turned into rabbits. But as a practical choice, it leaves Wei Wuxian up nearly every night scrubbing out grass and mud and tea and berry stains.

He lets his idea percolate for a bit before acting on it, watching Madam Xiao carefully every time she measures a quickly-growing junior for a new set of robes. 

On a sunny afternoon the youngest juniors—those under ten—are held back by Lan Wangji for a lesson in sect and clan history. Wen Ning tells him it’s a regular occurrence, certain lessons and stories that the older ones heard back when multiple teachers covered different material. It feels private, Lan-Sect-only, so Wei Wuxian takes the older six fishing in the river. 

“Your poor Wei-qianbei never gets to hear secret Lan stories,” he whines as they scramble down the hillside towards the water. The juniors tumble over each other to tell their favorite stories in a fragmented rush—this Lan elder who invented a new path of healing, that student who famously saved a young Lan Qiren from a fierce ghost, litanies of born and adopted cultivators to make one’s head spin. He always enjoys the children’s enthusiasm, but part of him regrets missing Lan Wangji’s calm and steady storytelling. He imagines him sitting down on the floor with the children gathered around him, elegant hands gesturing just enough to clarify, no movements wasted. His patient nod as little Jingyi bounces on his heels to ask a question—not a smile on his face, per se, but not a frown either.

He’s interrupted from his ill-advised reverie by a giant splash as Su Ming slips and falls face first into the water. 

“A-Ming! For heaven’s sake, I’m trying to teach you to fish! Please do not scare every living creature away right at the beginning.” 

He makes them stand knee-deep in the water, still as they can, until the fish return. With all eyes on him, he manages to grab a carp on the first try. Still got it, he thinks to himself, preening for the applause around him.

Remember when it was swordplay that brought you praise? Your incredible skill, your shining golden core?

But the cheers of little ones is the best he’ll get now. And it’s enough. It is. It’s enough.

If a ritual doesn’t take the first time, repeat it.

Wen Ning, kind heart that he is, has placed himself on the shoreline to collect caught fish in gathered-up skirts of his robe. As the others dive and wait and dive again, Wei Wuxian watches him solemnly wrap the wriggling fish in cloth, holding each firmly but gently in his hands until they stop moving. His face is set, lips pulled in, and he nods to himself after each death, setting the fish aside in a delicate row on the shore. Wei Wuxian wants to wade over and hold him, pet his hair and tell him it’s all right, death is hard, but he recognizes the moment of growing and lets it happen.

All in all, they end up with eight fish. Five may have been from Wei Wuxian himself, but he praises the juniors at length as they shake off their feet and try to find their own shoes. Su Ming, as always, is precariously balanced on a rock and engaged in a shoving match with Lan Ting. He’s about to fall, and Wei Wuxian has a flash of the walk back to class with his wet, squelching shoes, so he reaches out and grabs him by the neck of his robes, nearly wrenched off his feet himself. Everyone laughs uproariously and Su Ming apologizes in a mumble, Wei Wuxian tugging on his hair and clicking his tongue in admonishment.

It’s not until they get back to the main compound that Wei Wuxian notices the pain in his shoulder and neck from yanking Su Ming out of danger. He sends the children to clean up for dinner under the direction of Wen Ning and heads to the kitchen to do something with the fish. Gutting and cleaning fish is second nature, and he tosses chunks of meat into a pan and hopes for the best.

He’s glad he’s not the primary cook for the juniors. It’s shameful that he’s so haphazard in the kitchen, given that he’d grown up watching Yanli, so tidy and deliberate, every action perfectly timed. He’d stopped watching after a while, around when he was thirteen. Madam Yu hated her behaving like a servant, so she’d get word from her little spies and swoop in in a swirl of purple and crackling energy to berate them both. It was always Wei Wuxian’s fault, in the end, as most things were. But no matter how much blame he accepted, demanded, it was never enough to make her leave Yanli alone. Eventually, he just stopped going to the kitchens at all. Had he known what was going to happen, that the last time eating lotus root and pork soup would truly be his last time, he would have gone back and watched her, he’d have written down every step and asked her to explain each technique, let him taste every ingredient as she added them. But there’s no use wishing for things already past.

He does grin to himself as he remembers her working, tiny and delicate but steadfast, while Madam Yu scolded and paced and Zidian crackled around her. She never left a dish unfinished. Perhaps he did learn more from watching her than he thought. Maybe she’ll be proud of me. Maybe someday.

He shakes the fish around in the pan, throwing in a dozen odd dashes of chili oil, and grunts out in pain as a spasm goes down his neck to his shoulder. He drops the pan down with more force than intended, grabbing at the muscle and twisting his head around, seeking relief.

“Wei Wuxian.”

Startling and whipping around certainly doesn’t help with the pain, so he faces Lan Wangji with an unpleasant grimace. The bow he makes is sincere but crooked, and when he looks back up, Lan Wangji has come closer, brow furrowed.

“Why are you cooking?”

“The older children caught fish. Well, they tried. So I said I’d cook it up for them. Well, I said I’d try.”

“The fish is sticking to the pan.”

“Damn it!” Wei Wuxian spins back around to take the pan off the heat, but freezes midway to jerk back around and bow. “My apologies, Second Master.”

“You’ve injured your shoulder.” It’s not a question.

Wei Wuxian rolls his neck again. “Just a bit. One of the children fell and I should have used two hands to grab him. I forget sometimes, how slow I am to heal without a golden—” He bites the inside of his cheek, looking down at his hands. “Pardon me, Hanguang Jun.”

He turns back to the fish and takes the pan off the heat, hacking at the chunks of skin that have adhered to the surface. He assumes Lan Wangji has left, but after less than a minute he feels an unexpected hand on his injured shoulder. He reaches back and strikes out with the wooden spatula, nearly missing the side of Lan Wangji’s face. 

“What are you doing?” he gasps. He doesn’t think Lan Wangji would attack him in the kitchens, but it hasn’t been so long since we was hunted by all the clans together. Is that why he’s here? My sentence has changed?

Lan Wangji glares at him. “Helping.”

“Helping what?”

“Your shoulder. Turn around.”

Wei Wuxian stares at him and does not move. Lan Wangji sighs, sounding so much like his uncle, and pulls Wei Wuxian back around. He’s beginning to feel dizzy. Before he can open his mouth to protest, one big hand covers the side of his head and presses it to the side while the other digs into his pulled muscle. Instead of yelling “What are you doing?” again, he can only make a loud choking sound and clap his hands over his mouth.

“Stop. Moving.” Lan Wangji demands, so Wei Wuxian folds his hands primly at his waist and waits for whatever it is to be over.

Lan Wangji’s hands are not just warm, they’re hot, and not just long but big, broad across the knuckles and palms. Wei Wuxian hasn’t really noticed this before, but he certainly does now. First Lan Wangji pinches the muscle hard between thumb and forefinger, sliding his hand down from the base of his skull to his shoulder. After about a minute of this he works his knuckles in, rolling them as he goes. It hurts, more than he expects it to, but underneath the pain is a deep relief. The massage stops suddenly, and Wei Wuxian is just about to turn around when he hears an impatient tsk sound from behind him. It’s his only warning before Lan Wangji tugs his robe over his shoulder, baring his skin.

“Lan Wangji!”

“Wei Wuxian. Stand still.”

Wei Wuxian can’t help the nervous giggle that bursts out as the massage continues. “You know,” he begins, while his brain very loudly tells him Stop this right now, Wei Wuxian, don’t say anything more. “You should just call me Wei Ying.”

The massage stops for a moment, then resumes. 

“That would not be appropriate,” Lan Wangji says stiffly.

Wei Wuxian laughs louder. He’s starting to feel a little drunk as Lan Wangji’s hands move to the back of his neck and lower down to his shoulder blade. “That’s inappropriate. I see.”

“Hm.”

“But I am a servant, you know. There’s no reason for me to have a courtesy name.”

The hands pause again.

“Not just a servant.”

Wei Wuxian frowns. “Well, no. None of us are. None of us are just servants.”

Lan Wangji says nothing and tugs the robe back into place. He doesn’t let go, though, big hands radiating warmth into him through the fabric. There’s a long moment of held breath and the smell of burnt fish.

“Wangji,” a voice comes from the doorway, and Wei Wuxian feels him step back. He feels better than he did, but oddly cold.

“Brother.” 

Lan Xichen inclines his head politely as he steps inside the kitchen. “I apologize, am I interrupting?”

Wei Wuxian turns and bows, trying to assemble a polite smile. He thinks it’s coming off a bit manic. “Not at all, Sect Leader. Hanguang Jun was graciously helping this humble servant with a pulled muscle. Thank you, Hanguang Jun.” He bows again.

“Ah, the new techniques you learned?” 

Lan Wangji’s ears turn pink, but he nods, looking away from Wei Wuxian. Wei Wuxian is fascinated. Like a kid watching a new game, he has to stamp down on the loud internal I want to do that. How do I do that?

“See, Wangji, there is no need to worry. She will be glad to hear you’ve practiced. You will make a fine husband.”

Wei Wuxian doesn’t drop anything, but only because he’s not holding anything. He’s sure his jaw is somewhere around his belt but there’s nothing to be done about that. Lan Xichen, ever the noble, doesn’t comment on it. 

“Wei Wuxian, I was looking for you.” 

Somehow this afternoon in the kitchen has become like a drunken dream, pulling him from the warmth of pleasure and comfort into terrifying waves where nothing makes sense. It’s not a reassignment, he tells himself, but his stomach still sinks to his knees. There’s a smear of chili oil on his left wrist, curving around and disappearing under his sleeve like blood.

“What can I do for you, Sect Leader?”

“I wanted to check in on the children. I know that the incident with the water ghouls was frightening for them, particularly the younger ones.”

Wei Wuxian laughs nervously. “Yes, we were lucky Hanguang Jun is so quick.”

Lan Wangji still doesn’t look at him. 

Husband. A fine husband. Stop it.

“How are they holding up?”

Wei Wuxian chews on his lip. Lan Xichen has always had a quality that inspired complete honesty, but the last thing he wants is to accidentally talk himself back to laundry duty. “Some nightmares. A little nervousness walking by Cold Spring, for the younger ones, but we’ve talked about where the ghouls live and how the Abyss is formed. They’re pretty resilient.”

“But do they feel safe? Here, I mean?”

Wei Wuxian blinks. “In Cloud Recesses? Yes, of course. Why wouldn’t they?”

“After the ambush, things were a bit chaotic. And they haven’t had a guardian for this long in, well, a number of years now. I wouldn’t be surprised if some of the older children expect you to leave.”

Lan Wangji’s head snaps up, looking between the two of them.

“Leave?” Wei Wuxian spreads his hands, aiming for casual. “But where would I go?”

Lan Xichen smiles at him. “Indeed. Thank you for this update, it is helpful for me to know how the children are feeling. Wangji, if you are finished here, I would speak with you further.”

As they turn to leave, Lan Xichen pauses in the doorway. “By the way, how did you do what you did with the talismans?”

“Sorry?”

“At the lake. Your talismans were stronger than any I’ve seen created by a non-cultivator, but I did not sense any resentful energy when you used them.”

Wei Wuxian feels another set of eyes on him, strong and burning like his hands, but he doesn’t turn to look. He tries a shrug. “It’s not too difficult. Just a little extra blood, extra intention characters. We common men do the best we can.”

Lan Wangji leaves the kitchen without another word, and Lan Xichen gives him an odd smile before he follows.

Wei Wuxian finds a stool and collapses on it, wiping his sweating palms over and over on his thighs. The chili oil smears down in a sin-bright line. He’s about to rise and figure out what to do with burnt fish when a teetering pile of midnight blue fabric stumbles past the door. 

He manages to catch the pile before it falls entirely and catches a glimpse of Lin Biming beneath it, red-faced and panting.

“Master Lin! Here, let me help you.”

“Wei Wuxian, what are you doing in the kitchen?”

“Why is everyone so shocked? Here, Master Lin, what is all this?”

“New curtains are going in to the library pavilion, so I’m taking these old ones to—”

“Can I take them?”

Lin Biming glares at him, but the top half of the pile slides directly into Wei Wuxian’s arms.

“Please? Unless they have some important place to be.”

Lin Biming sighs and dumps the rest at his feet. “Fine. Take them. What’s burning?”

Wei Wuxian sighs and hauls the curtains into the kitchen. “Don’t worry about it, Master Lin. I’ll clean it all up.”

 Lin Biming tuts and bustles off, leaving Wei Wuxian with a pile of dusty, discolored fabric, a pan of half-burnt fish, and the hole in his gut churning like a storm.

Part Eight

[wizardwisenmore]

senator shockwave x orion pax on a secret date?

here you go~

It was late in the evening and everything has been closed for quite some time as Luna 2 hangs brightly in the sky illuminating the senatorial building below, making the white stone walls seem to glow. Low, golden lights still illuminate the rooms within despite the late hour so that the building, in spite of its grandeur meant to intimidate, still radiates a kind of warmth and safety. The light of a flashlight carried by a security guard on patrol illuminates a nearby throughway, catching just the brief flicker of movement that’s too fast for the tired guard on double shift to notice before they turn away, letting the throughway fall back into darkness. After a moment, the figure moves, silently stalking the path from the open street to the fence that bars their path, hopping it easily into the crystal gardens that border the back of the building. The gardens shimmer with delicates blues and deep purples that are enough to enrapture any who would look upon it, all for the private pleasure of the senators of Iacon. Quietly, the figure creeps through the garden, ducking between trellises and sneaking around crystalline trees until he makes it to the patio before elegant, glass doors.

The doors are open to the chilly night air so the swathes of pink gossamer that make up the curtains flutter in the gentle breeze. Treading up to doors, he’s careful to check for anyone else in the room other than his target and finding no one other than his target, he knocks on the glass of the door. Senator Shockwave startles, dropping his stylus and twists back in his chair to look behind him to see a familiar silhouette standing in the shadows. As soon as he sees him, Shockwave relaxes and stands to greet him with a bright smile that smoothes out the tired creases in his faceplate. When steps out of the door he’s immediately bathed in moonlight, making his plating look like a mirror pool, still but glistening and beautiful.

“Orion,” Soundwave vents out softly, his voice filled with glee and incredulity, “What are you doing here?”

Orion can’t find his voice for a moment, too busy taking in Soundwave’s visage, memorizing every dip and curve of his plating at this moment as they stand together beneath Luna 2 in secret from all prying optics. He takes in the luminous nature of Soundwave’s optics, feeling small as they contain nothing but him in this very moment and the red and blue accents that are the same tone as his own plating. It was never mentioned, never brought up but Orion knew that in some small way that the colors were a declaration, however small that they were each other’s. 

“I thought you could use a break,” Orion’s deep voice fills the air completely, tangible and whole as he reaches a hand out to Soundwave, “Let’s go and see where the night will take us.”

Soundwave looks to Orion’s hand then back at his desk, his expression turning mournful, “I still have so much to do, Orion…”

“And it will still be there upon your return,” Orions insists, his optics glistening with pleading, “You have been working all hours of the day for some time, the senate can spare you for just a few hours, maybe a night.”

Soundwave bites his derma, his optics flickering just once more back at his work before he takes Orion’s hand with a smile and laughs in surprise as Orion whisks him away from the patio and through the garden only parting with his hand to help him over the fence. Then, they’re rushing through the streets, evading curfew patrols and night watches until they reach the outskirts of the city where there’s an unkempt and overgrown but undeniably lush and beautiful park. Orion ducks through the crystal plants, the delicate leaves tinkling against their armor as he guides Soundwave quickly through the brush only stopping once they reach a clearing. Soundwave can feel his spark whirling in excitement, sending energy coursing through his lines and making him feel alive. He looks up and sees Luna 2 shining down overhead then looks around at the flowering crystal garden that shrouds them. Translucent flowers the shape of bells hang from the sky blue trees and delicate flutes of violet spring from the ochre bushes all tangling together to make a barrier against the outside world. They were alone together, finally alone.

Orion takes Shockwave’s hands once more, far more shyly than before despite there being no one to say, his nervousness evident in the way his optics flicker and Shockwave smiles widely until his face starts hurting. Forgoing Orion’s hands, Shockwave wraps his arms around his neck and pulls him close to kiss Orion’s facemask. The force is enough to knock Orion off balance which causes them both to stumble then fall to the ground padded with rubbery plants so their legs to fling up into the air before landing tangled together with a thud. They laugh as they cling to each other, sparks light and free at this moment as they let themselves act like newly forged mechs again. Their sparks calm and their laughter dies down until they hear nothing but the gentle rustle of the crystal leaves waving in the breeze. Orion looks up at Shockwave and feels a surging wave of affection and peace overcome him as he looks up Shockwave’s helm halloed with moonlight, the stars seeming to hang about him in audience to his beauty.

His facemask snaps back to Orion’s own surprise then, belatedly, feels Shockwave’s hand on the catch to the release, only having a moment to register it before Shockwave’s mouth is on his own, sending him spiraling. His optics flutter shut as he feels the soft press of Shockwave’s derma then the quick swipe of his glossa before letting it in with a gasp. They feel each other’s sparks pulsing steadily behind their chestplates as they tangle together, taking this moment to indulge in each other where no one would, where no one could stop them. Sliding his derma slowly back from Orion’s, Shockwave breaks the kiss then presses his helm against Orion’s with his optics still firmly shuttered. They stay like that for a moment, listening to each other’s vents and feeling the warmth of each other’s plating as they lay together under the moonlight. Shockwave lifts his head and Orion opens his optics to see Shockwave’s face turn thoughtful.

“What is it?” Orion sits up with Shockwave in his arms, holding him close so Shockwave’s helm rests against his chest.

Shockwave sighs and wonders out loud, “Do you ever think about running away from it all? Just, packing up and leaving to explore the stars, leaving Cybertron and all its horrors a million lightyears behind.”

Orion begins rubbing small circles on Shockwave’s back as he murmurs, “Sometimes… Why? Have you been thinking of that lately?”

Shockwave shakes his head and nuzzles into the warm expanse of Orion’s plating.

“No,” he sighs, “It was just a fleeting thought I had now. It’s an option I always think about when I’m around you. The “what if” I dream about when we can be together, really be together. I want this and more but I fear we may never see it in our time, a future where mechs like you and I can be together without secrets.”

Orion takes Shockwave’s hand, getting him to look up at Orion to see the serious look on his face.

“Is that what you want? Do you want to leave Cybertron, just you and I, to explore the stars together?”

Shockwave’s optics turn dim with a deep sadness that all but stops Orion’s spark as it is a sadness he knows all too well even as Shockwave remains smiling, he knows his spark.

“Oh, Orion,” Shockwave whispers, placing a hand against his faceplate, “I know you and I are both too committed to our work, to our people to just run off like that.”

Orion shakes his helm and shock forms in Shockwave’s optics, “I am more committed to you than Cybertron itself. If you were to ask… and all you would have to do is ask. I would leave it all behind for you.”

Shockwave ducks his helm to press his face against Orion’s chest and vents out shakily, just clinging to Orion like he was a lifeline.

After a moment Shockwave says, “I can’t do that to you. I can’t pull you away from everything you’ve ever known, everything you ever loved just for my fantasy. I love you, Orion, so I can’t ask you to run away with me.”

“You are everything I love,” Orion whispers, shutting his optics and resting his helm against Shockwave’s, “but I understand.”

Shockwave sighs and clings to Orion tighter, willing away the rest of the world and all its horrors so he can just focus on the feeling of Orion surrounding him and the cool night air on his plating. They stay together in the quiet, just holding one another tightly until the sky begins to lighten with the coming day letting them know it was time to go. Sluggishly, they rise from their resting place and walk hand in hand from the garden out onto the street, not wanting to let go of each other even now in the light of the early morning where they may be spotted. They don’t let go until they reach the senatorial building again and hop the fence back into the neat gardens of the senators that seem so artificial now after having spent the night in such a magical place. Walking back up slowly up the stone path to the glass doors that are still open, they don’t dare to touch one another now in the glaring daylight.

Orion stops just at the threshold as Shockwave begins the march back to his desk and stops abruptly. The wind that had picked up since last night blows the curtains about his frame, their light fabric brushing his frame. He looks back at Orion, shining in the light of Alpha Centauri, his strong frame stock still in attention as every bit the officer he was and for a moment Shockwave is filled with regret. They should have simply run away last night so they wouldn’t be standing here so near and yet lightyears from each other. Without thinking, Shockwave’s pedes spur forward and he takes Orion’s face in his hands to kiss him once more, the warmth of sunlight returning the heat to their chilly frames. They part with a lingering touch and Orion smiles before shutting his facemask once more. Then, he walks away like a fading dream you wish you could remember for the sweetness it left in your mind and the longing burning in your chest.

[guylty]

How quickly time flies. If Besotted hadn’t reminded me in the comments, I would’ve completely forgotten that I had a last episode of The Impressionists to catch up with. Forgetting the Re-Watch is symptomatic. I may have enjoyed the show, and the wide smiles that Armitage was allowed to brighten the screen with were certainly welcome, but somehow this mini-series was never – and never will be – my favourite of Richard’s works.

It’s not *all* because of the wig and look of Claude Monet. *That* is easily balanced out by the wide smiles! My lukewarm feelings about this mini-series has more to do with my general lack of enthusiasm for impressionism. I fully appreciate the importance of this arts movement for the development of painting and art in general, and I understand the impressionists’ value. In many case I actually do find their paintings particularly evocative, beautiful and touching. I guess, my problem with them is that they have become too popular – which usually makes me turn away from something. That’s unfair – but unfortunately true. But I totally concede that – particularly Monet’s – Impressionist paintings are incredibly beautiful.

Quick Summary

We pick up again in episode 3 of TI with the group celebrating Edouard Manet’s formal recognition as an artist after he has been awarded the Légion d’Honneur. However, Manet is suffering from syphilis and his health deteriorates. He dies in 1883. Monet, OTOH, is living with Alice Hochedé after his wife’s death. The two of them become a couple, marry and eventually settle in Giverny. Monet develops his serial painting technique, always following the changing light.

A large part of this episode is taken up with the life and travails of Paul Cézanne who is seen as a revolutionary new painter by the impressionists. Despite an affluent background, he lives in poverty with his working class wife and illegitimate son. First shunned by the art world, Cézanne’s genius is eventually recognised and he joins the Impressionists as the most celebrated painters in the world. They overcame all the obstacles and changed painting – and art – forever. So much for the summary of episode 3.  

Beards and Hair

I was quite amused in this episode about the changing hairstyles of Claude Monet. Starting out with short hair and a pipe, the next scene in a café he had long hair again. Continuity was a bit lax there, I thought 😂. But at least we could see that RA really knew how to smoke. Yep, as an ex-smoker (almost 6 months to the day) I notice such things. – Eventually the episode settled into short hair for Claude. And I couldn’t help but feel reminded of my personal hero Leon Trotzky…

Tenuous. I know. But fun. Right down to the left eyebrow.

However, let’s stay quickly with the look – ok, I am a not a fan of facial shrubbery at all, and particularly not these kind of standalone shrubs on upper lip and chin. If there has to be facial hair, give me a full blown meadow that covers all (beard) or stay with the manicured lawn aka stubble. Looking at the overgrown goatee on Richard’s chin, however, I am wondering whether it is actually his own. Not only because he has always been so proud of his fast growth and thus the conclusion lies near. No, but also because of the tell-tale triangle underneath his lower lip. Mr Armitage has, indeed, a rather pretty beard-growth pattern (see evidence on right).

Elder statesman or ill-fitting wig?

I was quite taken with the elder statesman look he was given in the latter part of the episode, once Monet had settled down with Alice and concentrated on creating Giverny as his inspirational garden. (I don’t really think that Richard has an old man’s face, yet, though, so I finally was reconciled with Julian Glover playing Monet senior in the framework plot.) In fact, I found myself fascinated by the grey temples and the short hair, and I kept screen-shooting.

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I also enjoyed that his eye crinkles came into play…

Things I Loved

As always, Richard – even considerably younger and less experienced than today – was a pleasure to watch. I loved the scenes where he glowed with enthusiasm, happiness and lust for life, smiling widely with glowing teeth. But I especially liked the scenes where you could hear him laugh. It really doesn’t happen very often at all that you can hear Richard Armitage laugh in one of his roles. He is the go-to man for scowling (Guy of Gisborne, John Thornton), growling (Francis Dolarhyde, Thorin Oakenshield) and frowning (John Porter, Daniel Miller). And yet his laugh is an absolute joy. In German we call his kind of laugh “gurgling” – but that doesn’t quite hit it in English. What I like about it is not what it looks like (although I believe that *every* laugh looks beautiful), but what it sounds like. Reminder:

That’s what he laughed like in his younger years. (I think his laugh now has become slightly deeper, more baritone, whereas it sounded more tenor way back in the early 2000s.) And it is infectious. Bookmark and keep near for any rainy day. It definitely works.

Ok, moving on. The old fogey in me also quite enjoyed the mature-lovestory-section of this episode. We were discussing it somewhere in the comments, I believe, and the series didn’t really get into it, but there are suspicions that Monet and Alice Hoschedé started their relationship even before she split with her husband and moved in with the Monets. Her youngest child may even have been by Monet. In that sense, it was lovely that the series spent a little time with Monet’s and Alice’s relationship. I wasn’t quite convinced by Richard’s choice to play Monet as out of breath as if he had just raced a marathon when he catches Alice in the garden and proposes. But this completely balanced everything out:

Why yes, Mr Thornton, I am coming home with you.

Not to mention this:

Gorgeous crinkles, like arrows pointing at happy eyes.

Ok, bonus for the romantics among you:

Yeah, man, this was such a clean show, it almost seemed as if it was made for school TV. You know what I mean? Your history/art/literature teacher wheeling in the big TV and the VCR, and then you’d sit through an hour of veritable and highly educational but mindnumbingly clean-and-boring docudrama? Well, to be suitable for teenagers, no tit may be shown, no mention of sex may be made and no tongue may be used. 😂

And Where It Went Wrong For Me

And maybe that is what ultimately irked me about this show, or what prevented me from saying ” I love Love LOVE The Impressionists!!” It’s not that I need sex in every TV show to keep me engaged. And I am a big fan of contextualising history and presenting it in a way that the viewers can relate to. In that sense it was great that this mini-series made an attempt at showing the personal sacrifices all those pioneering painters had to make in order to succeed with their art. From losing Bazille in the war, via Manet’s syphilis, Degas’ eye illness and declining fortunes, to the overwhelming poverty of Monet and Cézanne, TÍ  is not simply a list of artistic milestones in the painters’ lives, but a look at how they progress as painters as well as men. And herein may also be the problem for me – I never fully committed to the show, and maybe so because of the lack of women in the narrative. Don’t get me wrong – of course I “saw” Camille and Alice, and Mme Manet, Mme Cézanne and various models. But that’s exactly it, “various models”. Sure, you don’t have to explain to me that the 19th century was still a time dominated by men. But that doesn’t mean that in their private lives, men were uninfluenced (and untouched) by women. Or that women artists did not exist or not contribute to the development of art. Berthe Morisot and Eva Gonzalez were part of the impressionist set – they don’t even turn up in passing in this series. The wives and women remain in their traditional role as nurturer, house-keeper and mothers.

Women. Reduced to nurturers and parasol-bearers?

(Left-field thought: Maybe it is also because this show was made in 2006 that women aren’t represented more prominently?) And all that may also be due to the limited amount of time available (3 hours) for a group of painters. In fairness, it would’ve been impossible to depict the lives and times of the impressionists in detail, and hence also a number of *male* protagonists of the movement (Pissarro? Gauguin? Sisley? Matisse?) had to be left out in order to contain the show. However, for me the whole show remained somewhat one-dimensional.

The Disclaimer

For fans of Richard Armitage, however, TI is definitely a worth-while show to watch. The smiles, the laugh, and the mannerisms that are just delightful to recognise. From Richard’s insistent innovative use of his teeth, to delicate hand movements and holding his head at *that* characteristic angle, there are certain “trademarks” in his acting repertoire that superfans such as us have no trouble identifying.

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And Richard convincingly acts emotions and draws the audience into the emotional world of the sensitive artist.

Lastly I want to commend the mini series for producing beautiful images. I loved the wide shots especially because they illustrated so clearly what the impressionists were after.

These shots play with the impressionists’ emphasis of depicting the *moment*, pinpointing the changeability of art, and the transience of life. The impressionists’ penchant for working plein air is ideally illustrated here. And the series is obviously also conscious of depicting movement rather than static subjects, and the different qualities of light – during the day, the seasons, inside and outside, in rain, sun or locomotive steam – as these are impressionist characteristics that are often also attributed to film (and photography). In that sense the series puts the theory into practice.

Last note: Just as I was watching episode 3 of TI, the news came through that a Monet painting has set a new record price for works by the artist. From the “haystack” series of paintings, the picture was sold for $110m in New York. An indication of how *right* the impressionists were.

I finish with a quote by Berthe Morisot, of all people.

It is important to express oneself… provided the feelings are real and are taken from your own experience.

The impressionist painters did that beautifully, and showed us that it can be done and *should* be done. No one better to portray “real” feelings than Richard. And I am always happy to see how he expresses them.

    Re-Watching The Impressionists [part 3] – Finale How quickly time flies. If Besotted hadn't reminded me in the comments, I would've completely forgotten that I had a last episode of 

[lemonsandstrawberries]

Family Style

fandom: Stony (Steve x Tony), MCU 

summary:  The Avengers are preparing a Thanksgiving dinner for all their friends and family and the captains of the team decide to sneak out for some alone time.

length: 1 293 words

a/n: Happy Thanksgiving! I am European, so we don’t celebrate it, but this prompt was so perfect to turn into an Autumn-Thanksgiving fic I had to write it like this. and we need more happy time for Avengers, so yeah. hope you will like it!

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Family Style

Pling.

"Ready!" Natasha turned the oven off. "Thor! Can you take it out?"

"Ay," sporting the biggest and brightest smile on his face, the god of thunder walked to Natasha in bold steps, his hands proudly clad in oven mitts with an image of a turkey with a colorful feathery tail embroidered into the material. He opened the oven and the small kitchen filled up quickly with an amazing scent of roasted vegetables and meat. "Ah, a feast fit for the kings," Thor beamed holding a tray with a massive, golden turkey, big enough to feed at least ten people. In reality, it was supposed to feed more, but there was so much food, no one would leave Clint's farmhouse hungry.

"Just don't cut it yet, it needs to rest," Bruce called, straining the gravy, making sure it would be lump free and velvety smooth. All Avengers were helping in the preparation of Thanksgiving dinner. Wanda and Vision were setting up the table, putting the food out, Clint went to his cellar, looking for some homemade apple cider and cherry liquor for dessert, while Bruce was putting finishing touches on every dish.

"Hey, how many plates do we need?" Wanda popped her head into the kitchen.

"Uhm, let's see - Scott is coming with his family, May and Peter, Peter's friends, T'Challa and Shuri, Strange, Wong, Rhodey, Pepper, Happy, Sam, Bucky, our eight… Just give everyone a plate and put like twenty nearby," Natasha advised. In addition to all the food the Avengers prepared, including Steve's apple pie, various braised meats in Asgardian spices prepared by Thor, roasted brussels sprouts according to Bruce's secret recipe that didn't make them taste awful, but sweet and crunchy, three types of stuffing the recipes for Vision found online, and, of course, the main star of the event, the turkey, all guests offered to bring some homemade dishes. Shuri promised something special, (although Thanksgiving was not celebrated in Wakanda, the royal siblings still got an invitation which they gladly accepted) and everyone was curious what it could be, most of them never tasting Wakandan cuisine, while Peter personally warned everyone about May's famous walnut and date meatloaf - just give it a taste, hum in delight and spit it out when she won't be looking.

"Nat, are the potatoes done?" Bruce asked, helping Wanda gather the utensils and plates and bowls. Luckily, Tony was on top of that and made sure to order everything needed.

"I thought Steve wanted to make potatoes," Natasha pointed out, looking at the stove and a massive pot where whole potatoes were gently simmering. Somehow, Steve was very demanding when it came to mashed potatoes - they had to be fluffy, properly salted and have the perfect balance of milk and butter. They were perfect each year and Steve never allowed anyone else to prepare the side dish. Maybe because mashed potatoes with gravy were unofficially one of Tony's favorite Thanksgiving dishes, one he couldn't get enough of and always filled up his plate to the brim and Steve wanted to treat his boyfriend, serving him the finest mashed potatoes in the USA.

"Don't count on it," Clint said, walking in heavy footsteps out of the cellar, holding a crate with bottles of apple cider, "I saw him and Tony escaping into the field, laughing and skipping. They better not mess up with my crops."

Natasha smiled to the words, and maybe she should dart outside and drag her teammates back, but she had enough help as it was. The captains of the Avengers team deserved a break. "Okay, people!" Natasha clasped in her hands, disciplining the team. "We have an hour left to make this perfect, all hands on board!"

There was a collective call of agreement (and an 'ay' from Thor) and the Avengers resumed their preparations of a family style Thanksgiving for a very unusual family.

The farmhouse was located out of the city, among trees and endless green fields stretching for miles. Autumn was already present and there was some cold wind blowing the colorful leaves around and hinting on upcoming winter, and carrying laughter. The source of laughter was Tony, wrapped in a faux leather coat and waving a blue scarf like a trophy, chased by Steve in a warm blue sports jacket and a black beanie, clearly missing a scarf. Tony was running, his eyes shining and cheeks colored from the cold, hiding behind the trees with the biggest smile on his face and Steve was following, play growling and searching for his boyfriend. It was a classic game of cat and mouse, something both of them wouldn't do back in New York, but here, in the opened field, alone, and surrounded by nature they felt playful as never before.

"AAH!" Tony screamed when out of nowhere, he was hoisted up and tossed into a crisp pile of leaves, Steve diving right after him. There was more laughter, more screaming and their voices were echoing in the empty field.

"Give it back!"

"Why?! You are already all wintered up as it is! You possibly can't be cold!"

"Tony, come on!"

"No, enjoy the wind on your neck!"

Laughing and wrestling, Steve managed to get his scarf back. He trapped Tony more in the leaves and wrapped the scarf around Tony's exposed neck and to complete the picture, he took off his beanie, pulling it on his boyfriend's head, ignoring the protests that he was ruining the carefully planned hairstyle.

"And now you won't get sick," Steve said, sounding pleased and leaned in to place a delicate peck on the dark and cold lips, warming them up.

"Spoilsport," Tony complained in a whiny voice, that didn't reflect in his bright smile.

"I am just looking after you! Your nose is really cold," Steve justified himself, pinching Tony's button nose and squeezing it between his thumb and forefinger.

"AH! Stop it!" Tony protested, laughing more, the hold on his nose making his voice sound funny, almost duck-like. With a laugh on his own, Steve let go and looked at his boyfriend with a loving smile, as the silence was stretching between them, filled with little puffs of breath coming out as white swirls and soft, mutual looks.

"Autumn colors suit you," Steve said with love, brushing both hands at Tony's cold cheeks and kissing him over and over again. Tony's olive complexion seemed to be glowing and the warm colors of the leaves were bringing out golden reflexes in the brown eyes.

Tony smiled, laid down on a canvas of red, yellow and orange. "And you look good in blue," Tony said back, meaning not the jacket, but the clear sky above them, acting as a background from Tony's point of view. The sky never was so flawlessly clear and bright in the middle of busy New York and Steve presented himself especially beautiful, his hair appearing almost gold in the sunlight and the pink of his lips becoming a lovely rosy color from the cold and kisses.

They just wanted to stay here. Under the trees, in the leaves, kissing and warming each other up until the sunset and watch the sky turn dark so they could look at the stars together. The team would understand.

Steve gasped, drawing himself away suddenly. "POTATOES!" he bellowed, dreading what would happen if he won't be the one preparing them. Thanksgiving would be ruined, for sure.

"Just come here," Tony laughed and urged Steve, pulling him back into the leaves and on himself, demanding more affection. Eventually, they would have to go back and celebrate with their team and friends in cheerful chaos, but before that, some things needed to be celebrated slowly and in peace and in private.

[caelin-ismycity]

My Lord’s Disease : Chapter 1

[eliwood and hector actually show up woohoo - hope yall enjoy !]

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For years house Ostia and house Pherea have shared a bond that could easily spark jealousy among other houses- I dare say they had any disputes between them for centuries. Every so often, Lord Elbert would invite Lord Uther of Ostia to the castle. Predominantly, these meetings would discuss politics and business deals, but I would not doubt that Lord Elbert and Lady Eleanora had come to sincerely enjoy Lord Uther’s company.

I was twenty-five years old during this particular visit between the houses. Ashera seems to have also taken note of the inspirational relationship between Ostia and Pherea, for there was seldom clouds in sight. It was not too blindingly bright, yet the balance of shadows and light was most pleasant as the sun’s rays glistened through our war room’s windows. It was almost an optimistic omen that the room would one day never have to be used for its initial intent. But, as I said, that is optimistic thinking and rather unrealistic.

Whenever Lord Uther came to visit he brought little with him. Perhaps a luggage here and there with an escort to accompany him. However this particular visit I could tell would be something else, for by his side at the castle’s front doors was a young man. Similar to Lord Uther, he possessed dark cobalt-blue hair, slicked back in a futile attempt to look professional (most certainly done by Lord Uther himself), yet a strand here and there poked out along his hairline. His eyes matched in hue with his hair; dull blue, large eyes awkwardly glancing around the manor as he clutched to Lord Uther’s leg.

“Lord Uther of Ostia!” Lord Elbert called from the main staircase, undoubtedly just finishing brushing himself up for his guests. Lady Eleanora followed suite with Lord Eliwood in her arms, offering a delicate bow opposed to a curtsy as she typically done. Lord Uther returned the greeting with similar fashion, obviously replacing his own name with that of milord’s, and the house of his with our own.

The trio eventually met at the center of the foyer, lightly chattering about various topics as they always had. ‘I hope your trip was pleasant’ here, ‘You look wonderful this evening, Lady Eleanora,’ there- simple small talk that I had no permission to eavesdrop heavily upon. Of course, as milord’s main paladin, it was still necessary that I stood by the staircase with my spear in hands (though I severely doubt I would have any use for it this evening). I held little malice towards the concept of standing around for hours if it guaranteed my lords’ safety, but I assure you even the most veteran of knights grow tiresome. As the lords began to gradually make their way to the war room, I could see the child by Lord Uther’s side act up, earnestly tugging at his companion’s cape.

As I had mentioned, I had no permission to eavesdrop on the discussion of lords- especially when they had nothing to do with me. But that did little to stop my curious eyes from observing the child make subtle gesture to Lord Eliwood in milady’s arms. As such a scene, Lady Eleanora’s eyes lit up and she looked over at me, shamefully catching me looking over at the small group.

“Marcus, may you come here a moment?” With little hesitation both to respect milady and to satisfy my own curiosity of the situation, I briskly walked towards her, Lord Eliwood perking up at my approach while our similarly-aged guest stiffening at my approach. “We have some things to discuss, I’m sure you’re aware.” Lady Eleanora needed little else to say before I shifted my spear into one of my hands and prepared to cradle Lord Eliwood in the other.

Lady Eleanora smiled at me and delicately shuffled her son into my arms, Lord Eliwood visibly accustomed to the situation as he was happy to start grabbing at my face once in my possession. I had already planned on embarking for the living room where I would read to Lord Eliwood until their business had concluded, but Lady Eleanora tugged at my spear arm, urging me to lean in closer to her. “I’m sure you’ve noticed Lord Uther’s guest, haven’t you?” It was quite hard not to, considering he was the only other child in the room other than milord. I offered another glance at him and where I expected him to shy away once more, he held my gaze firmly this time.

Lord Uther seemed to sense the one-sided tension between us, for he tugged his cape out of his companion’s grip. “Hector, be nice. This is Marcus- a very good friend to Lord Elbert.” ‘Hector’ immediately became flustered upon Lord Uther’s explanation, offering a quiet ‘oh’ as he straightened up. “Forgive him; this is my little brother, Hector. He’s always been a bit cautious- but he means well.” If I am honest, I had little knowledge of Lord Uther’s family, but I suppose a younger sibling was not totally out of the question.

As I predicted, Lord Uther soon asked of me, to put it bluntly, to babysit Lord Hector while he discussed with milords. When I had been sent to become a knight, I hardly imagined this to be within my field of work. But who was I to reject the requests of Lord, whether they are my own or another house’s.

Lord Hector hardly seemed to be the kind of child to like being held, so I was grateful that I did not have to run to my quarters and place my spear back into its holster in order to carry him a few rooms away. Our two groups began to separate, the adults going off towards the west wing, while the children and I going to the east. But halfway out of the foyer, I felt Lord Eliwood struggle in my arms- something he has hardly done since infancy.

“Milord?” I questioned. Perhaps he was uncomfortable with how I was holding him, so I shifted him a bit in my arms. Yet his struggling persisted and I was left thoroughly confused.

“What’s wrong with him?” Lord Hector inquired- rather rudely, might I ask. “C’mon, say something!”

I had the urge to glare at Lord Hector, but Lord Uther’s words resonated within my mind and I remembered that he was only a child (hopefully he will grow out of this behavior when he is older), so instead I placed my spear on the ground and held Lord Eliwood in both my arms. “What’s the matter, milord; do you need something?”

Lord Eliwood glanced shyly up at me, fiddling with his gown. “Can you put me down?” He whispered, stuttering a little over his words.

I could only assume Lord Eliwood was embarrassed due to the presence of another child, not to mention he himself hardly asks for anything. But I was more than delighted to set Lord Eliwood on the ground. Afterall, I could not spend the rest of my days carrying him about.

Upon setting him down and reclaiming my spear, Lord Eliwood wobbled a bit but nonetheless made his way to Lord Hector’s side. The scene felt comforting to observe; Lord Hector displayed nothing but brash manners since his arrival, yet ever the optimist milord was, Lord Eliwood was willing to work past those ailments to ensure the bond between Pherea and Ostia as they grew older. Of course, I could not help but feel a bit anxious as well; Lord Eliwood has always been a delicate young man, and I am not sure I could explain to milady and Lord Uther if I had to return to them with him crying in my arms and an ashamed Hector trailing behind us.

As the three of us neared the living room, I began to hear Lord Eliwood murmur to Lord Hector. Of course, I had no rights to the private conversations of lords- even if they were seven years old. However Lord Hector seemed to hold little regard for this idea as his voice held little restraint responding to milord. “Can you talk a little louder? How do you expect anyone to be able to talk to you if they can’t even hear you?”

I had full intention of scolding Lord Hector as my eyebrows twitched. Once again, I had little intention of explaining to Lady Eleanora why her son was bawling his eyes out in the mere two minutes she left him alone with me and Lord Hector. Luckily, I would never have to confront such a situation, as milord cleared his throat and stood up a bit.

“I said ‘how do you feel about Pherea so far?”

Lord Hector gave a shrug in response, “It’s alright- not as cool as Ostia though.”

I scoffed at Lord Hector’s response but did nothing more other than open the doorway to the living room, a fire already crinkling to life in the fireplace. As I moved my way to the bookshelf (setting my spear against the doorway), I was still exposed to the conversation between the young lords as they refused to quiet their voices. “What makes you say that? Pherea has so many pretty flowers and really pretty rivers! What’s Ostia like?”

“I don’t know, I just like Ostia more. You guys don’t have a lot of mountains- mountains are cool. They’re so tall and scary, and they just show up out of nowhere!” As I reclaimed the small copy of The Lion and the Mouse off the shelf, the silence enveloping the room told me Lord Eliwood was considering Lord Hector’s response.

“Well when you say it like that… But flowers and rivers are just as show-up-y too. Plus you can get really close to them without worrying about falling off them or getting cold,” Lord Eliwood argued.

“What about falling into rivers? And there are bees by flowers; you could get stung!”

Admittedly, I enjoyed the small banter between the two- it was setting them up to learn to handle the differentiating opinions that would undoubtedly spire between not only them, but with their future councils- even if their current discussion was simply about geography. However I wished to conclude the fairytale I currently held in my hands, so I stepped in between the two physically separating them. “All of those features are beautiful in their own right; mountains are bold and imposing, and they are able to provide protection to civilizations like Ostia. In turn, flowers and rivers are small and delicate, and while they might not have the immediate impression of life-preserving as a mountain might, rivers are able to give us water and provide life to fish, while flowers give life to some birds and insects. They’re both important to us and they both deserve respect.”

The two gazed up at me, partially because they might have had to fully process what I had just said. Lord Hector just huffed at my statement and crossed his arms, shyly encouraging his argument to himself that ‘mountains are still better.’

I could not help but to smile at Lord Hector’s childishness as I opened the book, returning to the page I had left off on. Before I could begin reading however, Lord Eliwood crawled over my lap to rejoin Lord Hector by his side. “Now that I think about it, mountains are pretty cool,” he confessed. Lord Hector looked up and at Lord Eliwood, his eyebrows slightly raised.

“Well of course they are!” He replied, a smile ever so present on his young face, Lord Eliwood providing a small giggle in response. “What’s so funny?”

Lord Eliwood just shook his head and began to situate himself in-between Lord Hector and myself. I had expected him to immediately start to cuddle into my side, but rather he sat upright comfortably, shuffling just a bit to fully adjust to his new sitting position.

Lord Hector seemed to care little for seating arrangements, for he opted lay on the ground and to rest his elbows on milord’s lap, balancing his chin on his palms. Lord Eliwood was visibly disturbed for a moment, but he gradually accepted the position as I continued to read where we left off.

[paganchristian]

A waterfall between two huge rock cliffs, from the same trip we took, long ago.

What follows is a long train of worries I wanted to journal to try to talk it out with myself.  Hoping that doing so some clarity will emerge in time.  But,...  Ok,...  It feels like everyone is stuck between a rock and hard place.  And the more that I use these images and metaphors, to base everything I write upon, sometimes I start feeling a little bit silly writing in public, but then I don’t really mind if I’m silly because I do what works to help me understand and feel real and get my thoughts out.  Just journaling in private doesn’t make my thoughts flow or spark up new ideas, nearly the same at all.  My concentration is helped and it just works much better like this, often.  

Anyway, it feels to me like everyone is using their belief systems to help them to get to where they need or feel they should be, or think they should be or they’re trying to do that.  As such, not only do I try to respect everyone’s right to believe as they will as long as they’re not hurting anyone, I also feel like I need to be careful because what I write and say in public and what I do or even what I think and the energy of that all can have ripples.  I believe that it could affect people.  here I am torn again.  Because I feel like people are so very fragile, it is almost like a little kid who has just learned to do something that is important and a big deal to them and they have found something they find to be good and useful and important to them...  and this is what they find in religion.  

Then if someone comes along and casts shadows on their beliefs, throws into doubt or suspicion or worse, then they an lose that grasp on whatever goodness they had before, found in religion.  I don’t want to be that someone who takes away their hope, their light, their morals and sense of stability that they might find or their connection to the divine and the mysterious and powerful grace of spirit.  Because whatever bad things can be in religions, still I think it is clear that so many find something they’re looking for and many rave about how life-changing and magical it is for them.  But if I don’t want to hurt those people who might have a very fragile sense of harmony, love, hope, meaning, which they derive from and depend on from their religion. 

 At the same time I don’t want to deny the truth I experience and to leave in the cold those who are like me, who need someone to speak up about the hopelessness, the confusion, the pain and shame and being shunned and silenced and misunderstood and never having the chance for an honest discussion of their concerns or their needs,... Which means, since many would protest, “Oh no, I will talk to you,” ... but I need a conversation about my doubts and problems that doesn’t end at dogmatic conclusions that bar any rational equal discussion of different experiences.  

Why is it so hard to understand what real honest discussion is, in a situation like this?  I’m not sure, but that has been my experience when it comes to talking about spirituality (I think it’s because maybe, people feel they see the whole truth clearly, so of course, they think they can talk fully and openly and honestly with anyone about that truth and reality.  But their whole definition of reality refuses to acknowledge my own vivid experience of reality I have.  It feels a little like going to a doctor who thinks your sickness is all in your head when you know for a fact it’s not just in your head, ... or it feels like some other situation rife with inequality and blindness to another’s experience).  

It really feels to me like so many people are poised on this very delicate frail thin line, and the least thing will turn them from apparent harmony and balance and kindness and love into so much hate, disillusionment, fear, shame, and that goes for the typical religious people as well as ones more like me, outside the bounds.  As well as myself, well, I’m not quite that fragile, but still in some ways, yes, very much, with my mental health and physical health and life so uncertain, future uncertain in many ways.  With my social life so weak and fragile.  

And, I think that I see what people are so upset and controlling when it comes to silencing dissent and outside opinions.  They are scared the solidarity of their church will be lost, and people will drift along, without a direction.  They are scared individuals will be pulled away from the religion and lose their loving connection to spirit.  They are scared they will be pulled into conflict and arguments instead of just loving God, so no counter-opinion is given much thought and serious consideration so that no one is pulled into that argumentativeness, and they all stay wrapped up in worship and love of God.  They don’t want anyone to consider another religion or idea that might contradict theirs because then it might destroy something so beautiful and it might be like the black swan, the rare event, that was tossed aside and forgotten, like the loyal and perfect spouse, who was betrayed and devalued, and left behind.  If you see the religion as a lifelong commitment, and the relationship to God can be like a marriage in a sense.  But if people often betray and abandon their spouses recklessly, then how much easier to abandon and leave behind religion, for most.  Oh well,... What am I to do?  I don’t know.  

It almost feels as if I’m getting messages about this, about being careful to not hurt and destroy the fragile confidence and delicate good things that religious people have, because the connection to God and his grace and energy can lead people to grow beyond the wrong views, so don’t deter them from God, and don’t weaken the church and don’t send my bad energy in the form of my thoughts (they believe that thoughts affect others quite strongly, in this belief system),...  

And yet, how can I also abandon myself or those who are like me and need a rare open minded alternative view and voice?  Or just myself, which after all may be the only one who really needs or is helped by my process with all this.  And my daughter, who I need to feel at peace with what I even believe before I can teach her.  I guess that I feel like it’s very delicate.  These things tend to turn into debates and condemnation unfortunately.  But I don’t want to do that.  I just want the freedom to speak, to breathe, and to state my own reality, feelings, experiences, doubts, and that should be allowed all of us.  

It’s funny how much loyalty and love seems to be expected towards our teachers and our leaders in the religious path.  But  it’s owed them no more than a parent who raises us in a way that leaves lingering trauma, ...  and no more should these teachers and leaders expect or demand that love and loyalty and resent and accuse us as being hateful to the group or the church when we criticize and openly speak of the wrong we see and feel in it all.  They devoted their lives, gave so much, tried their best, and yes, they might have given us some life-changing gifts if they helped us to connect to God.  

So too do abusive parents give us life and feed us, but the loyalty and owing them anything or fawning has to end somewhere.  What can you owe someone who tries to stifle and control and scorn you, and will not accept and listen and talk on an equal footing with the real you?  I learned this lesson with my own parents and family.  Then I was thinking some bad thoughts about them, today and yesterday, very bitter and cold and what happens but they called today to tell of very worrisome health concerns they are having, the exact people I was thinking of, two of several people in my family who are difficult for me.  Which reminds me of how I still love them, even still,...  And I kind of feel bad for thinking anything bad or feeling so cold, in a way, because they’re by no means all bad.  They’ve given me some very good things too, but it’s so intermixed with bad, with harm and ignorance and cruelty and selfish narrow mindedness.  It almost felt like a sign, don’t think or do cold things to those who hurt you.  Turn the other cheek.  But sometimes I just don’t know what to do...  

We are seen as horrible, if we withdraw and remain distant and refuse to participate in and openly criticize so much of what only brings back so many painful feelings, fears and ... What brings up extreme vulnerabilities that haven’t been earned the right for anyone to get that close to our wounds.  Yet they keep acting like the wounds must be given to them, that they’re the only ones who can heal them.  It’s often quite the opposite as seen in those who have suffered spiritual abuse, which is not that uncommon at all.  

[belaborthepoint]

How I got my zoom crush to fall in love with me

I have no hope for the future. I have no remaining interests or passions and I eat nothing but refried beans. I am a ghost of my former self. I am finally convinced that the world is a horrible, violent place and there is no way out. The good thing is, I found love. I saw a hot person on zoom and I made him fall madly in love with me. Indulging in the charade of romance with someone I've never met and who lives in a different state and who has expressed no interest in me whatsoever has been my one source of light in this dark world, and I wanted to share my good fortune by passing along my tips and tricks for making someone on zoom fall in love with you.

The first step in whatever you are doing is to look at instructional drawings on WikiHow. When I looked up how to flirt with someone using a digital medium, there was a big X over a text message with lots of 'hahaha's and 'lol's so I knew that laughing was unattractive. Whenever someone made a joke in the zoom room I made sure to look extremely angry and I sent my crush a message that said "I do not have a sense of humor." To seal the deal, I sent him a video of me crying.

I was worried that my approach might be too subtle, however, when I read about drawing attention to yourself. The article said to wear more makeup than usual, and a hot outfit, so I pulled out my face painting kit and learned how to make it look like my face was like a rat's face with like whiskers and stuff and then I put on a sexy french maid costume. I knew that all eyes were on me in that zoom session and I was eating it up. Sometimes it can be hard to accept attention when everyone is attracted to you because you want them to see you for the person you are beneath that pretty face and also you shouldn't draw too much attention to yourself if you're not a cis man because it's rude and annoying and you're not entitled to that much space, so it's always a delicate balance.

The next thing I learned from an internet article is that you should always be carrying a hot liquid so that people will associate you with warm feelings. But my question was, how will they know what the temperature of the drink is unless it's so hot that you burn yourself? I couldn't think of an answer, so I realized I would have to pour boiling water all over my body, unfortunately. But this could work to my advantage, because I could also use this to draw attention to myself a little bit. I "forgot" to mute my mic, haha, and then I waited for my water to boil and start making a ruckus. Everyone waited for me to go take it off the stove and they were all like "mute yourself" but I pretended that I didn't hear anything for a few minutes and played coy in a fun, cute way. Then I "forgot" to mute myself again, haha, and clattered around the kitchen and dropped some china dishes on the floor and they shattered. Then I was like "okay, about to pour this boiling hot water on top of this teabag in order to make tea!" but then I pretended to slip on a banana peel and I was like "WOAHWOAHWOAHWOAHWOAH" and I swung my arms all around and then fell on the floor. But I forgot to spill hot water on myself so then I had to do it again, and I had to pretend like I'd accidentally dropped TWO banana peels on the floor, which was kind of embarrassing because I would never eat that many bananas in one day but I had to pretend like I was the kind of person who would do that. So then I did the pratfall thing again but this time I lifted up the tea kettle and poured the boiling water all over myself.

Then I screamed and thrashed about on the floor and unfortunately I had to go to the emergency room and get a full body cast for the 3rd degree burns all over my entire body, so I couldn't see how my crush reacted for the end of the zoom session. But for our next encounter, I put some of my sexy lingerie over my full body cast to give him a little something to feast his eyes upon, and I knew that he was loving that because he sneezed two times in a row, which I think was kind of like a secret code to express that he thought I was really hot even in my full body cast. Some people asked if I was okay and I was very sweet and modest and everyone liked that and found me very approachable. This was another thing that was a good tactic, which was to do something kind of embarrassing (slipping on a banana peel and pouring boiling water on my body) to make myself seem more relatable and less threatening since people are often intimidated by my looks.

When two zoom meetings had passed and I had received no DMs, I knew I'd have to step up my game. An additional tip I learned online is that you should connect over shared interests, which initially was a problem because I don't have any interests. But one thing I thought of is that what if I were inside his house? Then we would have the connection of being in the same building. So I flew to his state in a private jet to accommodate my full body cast and then broke his window and hurled myself through it. I used to do long jump in high school track so I'm really good at flinging my body up over things. He was in another room listening to something with noise cancelling headphones on so he didn't hear, and I had the chance to go sit in his bathroom. Conveniently, I really needed a place to poop because I'm scared of pooping on airplanes because I'm worried the gravity will push it back up inside me and clog my organs and kill me. Then I realized it was time for our weekly zoom meeting! So I thought, wouldn't that be so funny if he opened up his laptop and there in my zoom square was someone (me), sitting on his own toilet? That would be so surprising!

Before he got on, someone else said that it was indecent of me to have my camera on while I was pooping, so I had to turn it off until I was done. I finished up and moved to the tub. I thought it would be funny if during the zoom call I washed my hair so he could be like, is that my bathroom? Is that my SHAMPOO? That's funny! Unfortunately I dropped my laptop in the tub and it broke before anyone could see whose tub I was in. But he did have to use the bathroom at one point and he saw me in there washing the conditioner out of my hair. Unfortunately he was more angry and disturbed than charmed, and he asked me to leave his house.

An inspirational quote I always come back to is "it's better to have loved and lost." Margaret Thatcher said that about divorce. I'm someone with a lot of feelings, which is why I went to school to pursue acting and then moved back in with my parents at the age of 25 to wander the rooms of my childhood home wearing sunglasses and smoking CBD out of a long cigarette holder. Not everyone wants to marry me, but everyone falls in love with me at least once. And is it really a romance if there wasn't some drama along the way? I always say, you can't make everyone like you, but you can become an inescapable presence in their psyche for the rest of their days. My crush will never forget me, and for that I am grateful. Our romance was fleeting, like the art of the theatre. You can't hold on to it, and that's what makes it beautiful. Margaret Thatcher said, "you can't always get what you want." I think what connects us as humans is that we all love and we all lose. That's a universal truth. And truth is what it's all about. The beauty of universal truth is why I became an actor and then moved back into my parents' house at the age of 25 to wear long satin robes and listen to opera in the dark. My life may not be glamorous, but it is true. All we can do in these lonely times is to be true and honest and vulnerable with each other. Now is the time to confess your love. Now is the time to hurl yourself through the window of your crush's house. Now is the time to move back in with your parents at the age of 25 to wear old nightgowns and collect dust and stare at yourself in the mirror wondering what has become of the person you once were. I may not be a successful actor, but I do know how to love out loud and with my whole heart, and that's amazing. Margaret Thatcher was actually a mediocre actor in pornographic short films before she became the most famous divorce attorney in the United Nations, and that's what I always think about when I'm going through a heartbreak. I hope this article has helped inspire readers to pursue your own passions and take a chance on love, because that's really what it's all about. As Margaret Thatcher says, love is the answer.

[hillvalleyfilmsociety]

I saw three movies in the last week. They were pretty different to each other, but I quite enjoyed all of them, so I'm resurrecting my film blog to write reviews of them. To 2018, and resolutions to write more!

Call Me By Your Name (2017) Dir: Luca Guadagnino

I was very interested in this pre-release, even though I had never read the book. Luca Guadagnino caught my eye with 2015's A Bigger Splash, which is stylistically very familiar to CMBYN, and which I really enjoyed. Guadagnino shines in the aesthetic of his films, in the beautiful scenery and silences between sparse dialogue. Both create a languid, sumptuous mood - wealth and privilege on show, yet somehow not ostentatious to the viewer.

But where this mood creates distance and miscommunication between the characters of ABS, it brings the characters of CMBYN closer, creates warmth between them, bringing the viewer into Elio's extended family as easily as they welcome Oliver. The film is set over a summer in Northern Italy in 1983, and Guadagino skillfully captures the feeling of a slow, lazy summer pre-internet, where all there is for the teenaged main character, Elio (Timothée Chalamet), to do is lie around the pool swimming or reading, long family meals, piano practice or biking into town.  

Before I go any further, I have to discuss the opening credits, which go on for at least ten minutes and effortlessly set the tone for the casual opulence of the world of the film. Gentle, upbeat classical music plays over photos of classical sculptures - something that Elio's academic father and the grad student who he invites to work with him over the summer seem to be working in the field of - while the credits are written in a messy but elegant script, in a warm yellow shade. All of this somehow worked to already create the mood that pervades the rest of the film - casual wealth and intelligence, warmth and inclusion - before you even meet the Perlmans, and the beautiful villa they spend holidays in.

Some viewers might dislike watching films with wealthy people languishing in villas on holidays, but in the way that Guadagnino presents it, it's enchanting. I loved the feeling of seeing the easy, comfortable way the Perlmans (Elio's family) live on holiday, with their freshly made apricot juice and their family meals in a shaded grove. As I mentioned earlier, it creates a very welcoming vibe that helps you understand the mindset of the newcomer to this idyll, grad student Oliver (Armie Hammer).

The movie is really Chalamet's, and more on him below, but Hammer does quite well in a less showy role as Oliver - who has been invited to spend six weeks at an Italian villa working with an academic he seems to not have personally met before arriving. A great honour, clearly, but it's also awkward, and Hammer plays this slight dissonance well -  he's a non-European American (like the rest of the Perlmans) which is both exciting and awkward to the gathered family and friends of the Perlman. Hammer's Oliver is a lot of contrasts, both interested and scared/offended by Elio, both very confident towards him and very hesitant, both cool and dorky. Armie Hammer's being doing a few lower budget indie, and more off the wall projects since the Lone Ranger debacle didn't launch him into the leading man blockbuster stratosphere, and personally, I think he's much better in these than attempting to be another leading man type. (And for that matter, I am genuinely annoyed both he and Michael Stuhlbarg were passed over for Oscar noms, so they could give two to Three Billboards. It's not like Hammer would have got it, but I think he certainly deserved the nomination.)

As I said though, Chalamet is the standout - it's his story and he does a lot with it. His Elio is very reminiscent of the frustrating uncomfortableness of being a teenager - he's awkward, moody, bitter, cheeky, afraid, delicate and above all, real. What was beautiful about this film is how much everyone loves Elio - he's not always kind and good, but he is also a teenage boy - but his sexuality doesn't shut him off from other people. It's not an isolationist story, like a lot of queer film narratives are. While I can understand the urge to show that side of things, it's incredibly gratifying to see a film about a queer boy in the eighties, where if everyone doesn't know for certain they probably are aware of it in some respect, and they don't seem to care. They just love him, and Chalamet plays Elio's connections with everyone (not just Oliver) beautifully. He certainly deserves his Oscar nomination, even though he's not the favourite to win. He's also in the Oscar nominated Lady Bird, and my feeling is that (hot take alert) he's gonna be big.

Further from this, I love how tactile the characters in this film are. Elio is very cuddly and childlike sometimes with his parents, who are very affectionate to him - and no one tells him "a seventeen year old boy shouldn't do that" which is a blessing. He's very affectionate with the girls he's friends with. His later dynamic with Oliver - once they've admitted to feeling something  for each other - is very affectionate too, kind of awkward but in a sweet way. Not all their encounters are just these highly eroticised moments (which is not to say that none of them are). This makes their burgeoning relationship very real, like a seventeen year old boy fumbling his way toward a relationship that will always be meaningful, a first love more than just lust. Not that his dynamic with his sort-of girlfriend Marzia is unloving, just different, but no less sweet in its newness to the both of them.

On that note, I'm sure some people will say that there was a “lack of explicit sex scenes” in this movie. To that, I say PAH. It’s not like this movie is sanitised and sexless (hello, peach scene. yep.) It’s quite erotic in parts, quite good at conveying Elio's attraction to Oliver, and vice versa. But it feels like (unlike hetero love stories) that queer media is often all or nothing: either completely sexless, even affectionless even in a good relationship (Mitch and Cam on Modern Family didn’t even kiss on screen till like mid season two or three) or incredibly sexualised, and featuring intense sex scenes. This movie walks the rare line between the two - very affectionate (in private, natch) but allowing them the dignity of not being watched - as they always are, even by relatively benign eyes around them - in the moment of consummation. (For more on this - Jason Adams' delicate and moving review, Call Me With Kindness) It’s not even as though there are no on-screen sex acts in the film, either, so I'll say that I think it was a good, well-done balance.

If I had any slight problem with the narrative, it was that I found it hard to understand the progression of Elio and Oliver's relationship pre the mutual reveal of feelings - but that seemed to be a stylistic choice, and ABS was much the same, where the characters barely verbally communicated for a lot of the beginning arc of the film. It could be deliberately unclear- neither of them really know what the other thinks of them until they admit things together, while they're alone for once. Either way, it didn't much mar my enjoyment of their story which is emotional and complex but also very sweet.

The last thing I have to talk about is Michael Stuhlbarg, who is rapidly becoming one of my favourite actors (and who again, I am furious has not picked up any Oscar nominations for any of the great work he did in 2017). He was in two thirds of the films I saw recently, and he managed to be very moving in two small-ish roles. The scene where he tells Elio not to mock his friend and his male partner, that if he can be as knowledgeable as him and as good he'll be "a credit to him". Elio's father is a good man, and you can tell from this moment he doesn't care who Elio loves as long as he doesn't grow up boorish and ignorant. In fact, as much as the love story is engaging, my favourite scene of the file is when Elio and his father discuss Oliver after he has left. It was incredibly affecting to me - Elio's father doesn't come out and say he knew for certain about them, but refers to their "friendship" in the kindest, most respectful way, possibly even hinting about his own sexuality - not necessarily that he's closeted, but that he may have had an Oliver in his past he was too afraid to have anything happen with. Stuhlbarg is just so good, so affecting and plays really well off Chalamét, who allows Elio just the right amount of vulnerability and emotion.

Not to mention, Sufjan Stevens' two gorgeous original songs for the film, but I'll close this out by saying that there's a certain kind of idea about the kind of queer romance film that gets the Academy's attention - that it has to be sad, that the characters have to suffer and end up unhappy, and everyone can discuss how tragic it was. That sort of story is fine, because yes historically many LGBT people couldn't be open or take chances, and many did suffer. But that's not the only LGBT narrative to be told, even when set decades ago - and I'm thrilled to see films like 2016's Carol, 2017's Best Picture Winner Moonlight, and CMBYN tell a new kind of queer narrative where the characters are allowed to be happy even in an oppressive time, where the characters can break up and be miserable because of that (and not because of illness or bigoted violence), where the focus is just the love story. It gives me hope for the generation of younger LGBT viewers to see themselves outside of misery narratives.

4/5 stars

[tpaigeme]

just photos w original music

Dear Democratic Party.

I have a confession to make. The other day I slipped up and prayed.

Should I make a video confessing to my sin? In front of CNN? And the nation? And promise to never do it again? Should I resign in disgrace? An embarrassed look on my face?

I am guilty of party line violation caught in the act..of prayer and supplication to God.

Only you can save us oh great Democratic Party hacks —- the Saviors and Messiahs of our souls and our nation.  

I will meditate on you on a daily basis. Upon my little yoga mat I cross my legs and repeat the phrases, “cross my heart hope to die”,  forgive me for I

have sinned. How can I make amends?

Shame on me!  what kind of proper Luciferian prays, “our Father who art in heaven? Hallowed be thy name? Thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven? Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us? And lead us not into temptation but, (and here’s the kicker), “deliver us from evil.”

Oops I said it again,  “deliver us from evil.”  

I guess that’s it for me and the Democratic Party. Think of the perks I will lose. But, the Lord I do happily choose, renouncing Satan. Only God can save our nation.

If they had taken one tinth of that energy and focused it half as much to saving mountains and streams...the land, as they do to an idea that is so wispy and unclear, “it depends on what is is”...we would still have mountains in WV.  

They destroyed your LAND people!! You were comfortable on your couch watching CNN. Your heart went out to a phenomenon a passing fancy the flavor of the month.  Were the mountains too white for you?  They were raping your mother “to keep the lights on” by destroying the fundamental physical composition of America...Dirt. And ripping it out from under you in front of your televised eyes.

But what threw you into overdrive, What woke you up and ripped the golden pacifier from your mouth ... wasn’t the destruction of the land, the beautiful forests streams and woodlands, it was your own private ultra specific war ... and you exploded! Over a freckle on a sub atomic particle’s ass! An undefinable utopian fantasy that defied sensory perception to all but the most mindful of and vexed by  the anonymity of human existence, the absence of cuddling, by your mommy and daddy who refused to adequately fuss over you who didn’t feel inspired to recognize the 6 year old genius wunderkind goddesses of the universe.  That’s right. you have waged war for 30 years for your right to rule in your happy little universe.  Correct utopian fantasy must be not just worshipped and adored but done so correctly.

That’s what  got you going, spinning sideways out of control ike a top that had run out of petro. Like a drunken Mexican on the streets of Arrested Development.

That’s right. Stop ignoring me or I become a raving mindful lunatic on a yoga mat with a bottle of spring water by my side.

****

Because....you’re sane and they’re not.  

For the first time in my life I feel like I am the voice of reason and sanity and moderation . Lol.  That should give you an indication  of how crazy they are. Theyve out crazied T Paige.    It’s a great time a great day a great time for all the unhinged, unglued mentally unstable nut jobs to come out of the woodwork. They have a platform! The worm has turned. For years 50 years at least detente was a good thing! Now the Sore Loser  in Chief, Hillary Clinton and her chieftains are outraged, they need someone to blame for their loss, to save face.  Why not Russia! ???   So they dig themselves in deeper and deeper. Little do they know it’s their own grave.

How does it feel James to be the sanest voice in the room? Kind a cool ain’t it?  God works in mysterious ways his wonders to perform!

Trumps approval  rating for July is higher than RR Jimmy Carter and tied w Bill Clinton.

The massive mainstream kgb style propaganda media, crooks, elite, and Facebook are, simply put, on the wrong side, behind the curve.  Congrats James.  Pat yourself on the back. Well deserved.

It’s very simple really. It’s all about practicality. If your ideas are so impractical as to beggar description, If you get inflamed and emotionally overwrought with other people’s responses negative impressions of your “solution”, step out of the echo chamber and into the light of reason. It is time for you to question.  Ask a simple question: what is this shit? Or just do nothing. The pressure to conform should be balanced by reason.

old tyme rockin gospel blues to make your drive more 'interesting' without taking your eyes off the road. or not. the visual is quite interesting too.  I may have stumbled on inter-dimensional photography...see if you can find the creatuers that inhabits these one of a kind photographs by t. paige.

Aug 24 and 25

Here is Jim- al X. Zones telling his side of the story. Oops sorry not available.  It’s been deleted since last night when I watched it.  It’s been removed from my YouTube history.

Go ahead try it.  Remember the Dixie chicks? How they were banned? This is no different. Madonna  says she wants to s*** Moamar khadaffi and f*** the guy in the Vanilla H *** but no  repercussions. Sorry Virgin Mary but Hillary blew him first.

It’s coming. Chinese style censorship.  I’m w the ACLU on this one folks. Unpopular opinions should not be banned any more than the library should ban  Catcher in the Rye.  Say goodbye to another freedom as we approach The NannyState.  Men have lost their cojones.  

Notice: You cannot NOT care. You must care.  For this thing right here. Not caring for this thing is not allowed.  You must care about women, minorities, etc because we say so. We don’t care but we’re hypocrites. That’s the difference. We’re all sociopaths. So that’s just how it works because...WE HAVE MORE MONEY AND we are IMPORTANT.  You, not so much. So you see it’s not really hypocrisy.  

ALSO, you are not allowed to care about your self you selfish Nazi racist bastard.

https://youtu.be/PtfAl6I4SM0

This might get me into trouble.

I posted Pray For our Country and got some anti trumpies comments.  They said  I’ll pray for that man in the WH.  Like he’s the only problem is the only one that we needs to pray about.

It’s starting to really piss me off.  Give them an inch and they’ll take a mile.  

Is there another reason to pray?  Is it because bombs are being dropped?  Is it because Obama decided we no longer have to declare war to drop bombs on people? Just pick a country. That we can bomb people anywhere anytime we want?  

Or is it because someone offended you?  Did it offend you when a convicted pedophile got a standing ovation from most of Hollywood including Meryl Streep at the Academy Awards? Or that madonna said she wanted to blow the White House up?   ( remember the Dixie Chicks! )

Or that Hillary Clinton got a child trafficer off the hook? When she kidnapped 30 children in Haiti? Or that this woman now is working for Amber alert? Under a different name? Is it because Muslim grooming gangs in England kept young girls around for sexual purposes for decades?  Is it because refugees from starving Africa are storming the beaches of Spain?  And roaming the streets of Italy with hatchets and machetes? Is it because there are approximately 1000 no go zones throughout Europe? Where the police do not dare go near?   Is it because there are towns in England that have been Muslimized, the churches and the pubs shut down. Is it because the plan under Hillary was to do the same here?

Is it because the real problem here is hypocrisy and fuzzy think.  Right and wrong no longer matter and is no longer discernible or desired by MSM brainwashed people.  Just don’t offend me ... my delicate feelings are all that matters... none of the above matters. But if you go off script, say something that offends me... ohmy! look out! I am on the warpath and I am marching on Washington!  

The problem here is,  “you awake?” is no longer the punch line of a joke about redneck foreplay.

I’m trying to add it all up.  I think I’m making progress:

What happened was nothing compared to what happens later. A descent.

But initially what happened? Each group made their point. Peacefully. Nothing happened. The fact that this had a good outcome, the three opposing groups had their say each in their moment and no one got hurt.

What happens a bit later, media types begin shaming....Your group is to blame. Blame blame blame.  

CNN set it up and dutifully the chorus chimed in. On cue just as we have come to expect.

There is something about creating impossible standards for people that sets them up for control. It’s a means of control and repression common among very manipulative types. (Sociopaths)

The real hurt came later. The attacks began. Now it’s a serious thing we are talking about.

Maligning to a certain extent one group or another.

Perhaps there is something to be gained from all of this. Certainly each group has something to say a point to make.

We see what is unreasonable, counterproductive. To some extent in it’s virulence, and unnecessary.

State your point, without bashing the rest of the world. Behave yourself online. Don’t make stupid comments. Don’t make hurtful comments. Don’t attack. Don’t vilify. Because that’s not what happened in the first place.

Through this lens ljust look at what happened. The boys do the school cheer. The blacks made their points however crude. The Native Americans intervene ostensibly prayerfully to create harmony. Good deal. The smirking white boy, an underage teen, was praying all the time for a peaceful resolution.  An end to the confusion. Admirable.

And guess what, prayers were answered.

Let’s be thankful for that.

Let these antagonistic voices reflect on their own motives, meanspiritedness, within their own souls and consciousness. Is what I am doing ugly, one sided and unfair? “I went off without hearing the whole story. And it devolved into a diatribe. For that I apologize. I got it wrong.”  

Later the Native Americans went to a church. During mass. They were not allowed to go in for fear that they would disrupt the services.

What if someone had come out and said you’re welcome to come in if you are quiet and respectful. Or you can wait and we will have a representative out here to listen to what you have to say.

Can you imagine ... Native Americans and Catholics outside on the steps harmoniously joining together in prayer?

Both sides believe in praying do they not?

Each side attaches solemnity to the act of praying. Then what is to prevent them from praying together?

That moment has passed but another moment is possible. We have had time to reflect, to process and come to a meeting of the minds.

The Pueblo Indians have a legend that some mysterious personage visited the tribe and told them of things to come.  

Thanks for listening.

Rainbows 🌈 and unicorns 🦄 4ever.  P.

https://youtu.be/RH8pseoLmC8

**

Hey John, I’ve seen some of your Facebook posts that come in my feed checked out your page. I knew your dad.

Just remember the words to the prayer, is my best unsolicited advice.  It touches us all and everything better than anything and believe me I’ve searched my whole life. It’s a condensation and distillation of things that are spiritually meaningful to all of us. Best of all they are not my words or anybody else’s of similar human consciousness. We know they come from a higher place and beyond ourselves and they lift us up to that level. That’s my experience which I’m trying to share in this song. People share lots of things on fb, right?

I believe you are musically gifted ... I heard from your dad and others.  I don’t know if we’ve actually met but I remember there was some good buzz when you were younger.  

I’m trying to spread the word and various people come up, in my consciousness, individuals who for one reason or another I really want to share it with.  

So I just wanted to share this with you.

And hope you have a good day. Hang in there John.

TY

P.

https://youtu.be/RH8pseoLmC8

****

There’s no reason to think that by the boys not being where they were supposed to be that there was ill intent on their part ... just wandering off.

Apparently these days just about anything no matter how innocent, like wandering off makes you a bad guy. That is very wrong in my opinion. Having white skin makes me a bad guy. It’s called identity politics, but it’s more like a circular firing squad.

And it’s orchestrated by the truly guilty, the fraction of 1% that control our minds. This control is exercised mainly through the Democratic Party these days but in times past it was the Republicans.

Neoliberals have emerged in the same way that neocons emerged and like a parasite have taken over the brain and diverted it 180° opposite from it’s original purpose and identity.

How can you get the majority of peaceful people to go to war without a pearl harbor or a Gulf of Tonkin or an assassination or a 911. Can you actually create a Civil War over an issue? They can. And they work on it day and night. Rust never sleeps.  

They have all of the tools and resources. Political power, the media, money.

When Mao was losing power he used his wife to destroy a culture.  I see the Clinton’s and their backers doing basically the same thing.  Any means necessary to retain power. Even if it takes down the whole country in process.  It doesn’t matter who you sleep with. Change the laws change the religion change the family destroy the family blame the culture, blame this one and that one, it’s all justified.  

But never blame those w the big $, the ones that have no allegiance but to power and who fund your group. Through their corrupt shell game, foundation/money laundering operation.

I guess what they want more than anything else at this point is civil war. They’ve taken civil disobedience and added violence to the mix and perverted Martin Luther King Jr’s. message or dismissed it.  

But most Americans still believe it. Most Americans don’t believe in what the neo liberals are pushing.  They have seen what the neocons did to this country.  And they are not buying this divisive “movement” to further divide us, either.  

It’s been around for quite some time, three decades at least. It’s never been about uniting us. It’s never been about us. And that’s what Bernie tried  to do and did! Unite us. And look what happened to him.

The DNC has been exposed and yet they keep on going in the same direction. They are still leading the charge off this cliff. Male against female, black against white etc. And these people the majority of them are good people and couldn’t care less. So they’ve come for the children.  

Look how CNN twisted what happened and turned on these boys. Got the whole nation  up in arms against them. Now they get death threats and have been docsed.  

Can you imagine CNN calling high school kids “school shooters?”  But that’s the side CNN took.  Against kids.  These are foul, evil people at CNN. They are supposed to be journalists and they are preaching hatred against kids.

Back to the wandering off bit.  If there was a group of native Americans demonstrating or protesting or just doing something interesting wouldn’t you want to watch? Maybe you might wander off too, to see what was going on? That was the whole wish and desire of the Native Americans.  They wanted that attention. So why were the boys at fault for wanting to check it out? It was interesting. How did they know what would happen next?

But it’s so easy in this culture to pin the blame on the innocent.  And even feel good about it because you are taking up for the “poor oppressed minority.”   But not the poor, oppressed white families faltering in this climate less and less which Bernie recognized. Austerity.

It’s not good judgment, or just, to do that but that’s what happens again and again.  

This time it happened to a group of teenage Catholic boys. Who I think behaved admirably.

Who targeted them?  The minorities that everyone is so quick to embrace even if they are in the wrong. Even if they are railroading an innocent person or persons. Or a whole country.  

I will embrace them too when they realize I’m not the enemy.  I pray for them because I have more in common with them than what divides us if they only knew that we have a common enemy. As long as we are divided the problems will become worse.  Our enemies would fall in a nanosecond if we all united.  

It’s CNN’s job to make sure we don’t. That’s their real mission, and their real job. Not reporting the news. That’s what they get paid for. Hit pieces against kids. Not reporting the news. Not reporting what actually happened.  

No, this time they came after our kids.  They’ve been after them for quite some time. Along with mom and dad.  But Mom and Dad are hopefully both fully awake by now and can see what’s going on.

It’s a whole new ball game when they come for your kids.

***

If they had taken one tinth of that energy and focused it half as much to saving mountains and streams...the land, God’s creation, over which we were to be “responsible stewards” not irresponsible psychopaths...as they do to an idea that is so wispy and unclear, “it depends on what is is”...we would still have mountains in WV.

But no, Hell no. They destroyed your LAND people!!

You were comfortable on your couch watching CNN. Your heart went out to a phenomenon a passing fancy the flavor of the month.  Were the mountains too white for you?  They were raping your mother “to keep the lights on” by destroying the fundamental composition of America...Dirt. And ripping it out from under you in front of your televised eyes.

But what threw you into overdrive, What woke you up and ripped the golden pacifier from your mouth ... wasn’t the destruction of the land, the beautiful forests streams and woodlands. No, hell no.

it was your own private ultra specific war ... and you exploded! Over a freckle on a sub atomic particle’s ass! An undefinable utopian fantasy that defied sensory perception to all but the most mindful of and vexed by  the anonymity of human existence, the absence of cuddling, by your mommy and daddy who refused to adequately fuss over you who didn’t feel inspired to recognize the 6 year old genius wunderkind goddesses of the universe.  In your laziness and intellectual dishonesty, you have elevated the smallest vexation and irritation to an Absolute. Your own little fiefdom where you sit, pompous and pussy-hatted on your throne and rule with an iron fist and a divine pussy hat with a clear mandate: Maintain by illogic ucharade-save the Wispies!

That’s right. you have waged war for 30 years for your right to rule in your happy little universe utopian fantasy where you are, not just worshipped and adored but correctly, perfectly.

That’s what  got you going? Spinning like a top that had run out of gas wobbling like a drunken Mexican?

That’s right. “Stop ignoring me or I become a raving mindful lunatic on a yoga mat with a bottle of spring water by my side.”

And I am infinitely mindful of your every infinitesimally small screwup and transgression.

Damn right.

Who knows? What you’re on about. Only you.  

But it’s got you going you up off your ass out in the street raving like a fucking lunatic.

Have at it, motherfucker,  have at it. We’ve already had our way with your mother so have at it!  

****

I wouldn’t say this if it wasn’t important.

Granted there are a lot of people upset about the election. It’s apparent that the democratic party though, has gone too far w their rhetoric. All this about Civil War, impeachment, and every other extreme Kathy Griffin type of nastiness, isn’t that what it is? You tell me? What is it?

Trump’s approval numbers for July according to Gallup, are higher than LBJ, Ronald Reagan and Jimmy Carter and the same as Clinton. Depressing isn’t it?  But keep swimming.  Keep up the good fight. But be careful about unintended consequences.  

There are people that actually voted for Trump. It’s not a crime. They were exercising their rights. Now you want to bash them. I understand. I’ve lived through Nixon and Bush and LBJ.  Mistakes were clearly made and lives were sacrificed.  At this point we have not reached that level of atrocity. Perhaps we should all remember sticks and stones may break my bones.  

There is good evidence that LBJ had Kennedy killed. He was in on it. Lone gunman ... I don’t think so. The Warren report was fraud a massive fabrication.

I’m saying this so that you can see and acknowledge that there is a Behind the scenes network. They carried off that coup . And they carried off 911.  They got Americans to believe a lie. Aided and abetted by the mainstream media.

Do you want to know the truth? You’re not going to get it by being outraged at everything that the mainstream media reports as fact. There is a truth community it is neither Republican nor Democrat. It is both.

I don’t know why Trump won. But Hillary was part of the reason. Number one the way she treated Bernie...Number two Hillary herself.  This whole thing of winning at all costs doubling down, Russian collusion, you need to investigate how that all started. It was a campaign hatched on day one. Opposition research that went too far just like everything that Hillary does.

You have to recognize that even when you protest the other side has a right to their point of you. You have to try to meet in the middle. I was an activist for 20 years before all this happened. One of the things that most of us realized was you can’t let anger take over your life.  You can be angry but use it in a constructive way! Our model was Gandhi civil disobedience discourse.

Also you need to look at George Soros from the other side. What they really want is a police state. They want to stifle dissent.  Which is ironic. You can’t have it both ways. You can’t call people racist who simply disagree on the way to proceed. The kind of solution on immigration etc.  I don’t care if you have the pope on your side calling people out as racists for wanting to enforce immigration laws that already exist that have existed for years in every country. Why would such a radical agenda as open borders be promoted?  Is that not a dangerous idea? Just open the borders to everyone? It would be nice if we lived in that kind of world. But there are bad guys and we don’t live in that kind of world.

There is so much wrong with the liberal agenda right now. It is diametrically opposed to historical liberalism. You hurt your cause w some  of the tactics that are used to promote your cause.  

You need to break away from all of that because number one where is it coming from? Consider the source. The mainstream media which is controlled by the CIA. It is heavily regulated by the CIA. If you would do your research you would find out that Gloria Steinem worked with the CIA.  So did Nancy Pelosi. Gloria Steinem by her own account in an interview went into great detail about those days. They funded Ms. magazine. Do you think that she was the only one? Do you think that practice has stopped?

Go to Ted talks on YouTube and watch the video of the reporter who defected from the mainstream media and is now a whistleblower. It is amazing how devious they are and have become.  

Sheryl Atkinson

https://youtu.be/-bYAQ-ZZtEU

Also look up Maria Kennedy Shriver on Krista Tippet’s “On Being” talk show on NPR.   She talks about some of the mistakes that folks on the left have made. She talks about her faith. It’s a very good interview. She has written a book.

Sorry for any typos, and lack of syntax. I’m typing with my thumb on my phone. 😗

It’s interesting how Hillary and her supporters. And many politicians.  Oh hell the worm turns. Which is exactly what Hillary Clinton is, a worm.  For at least half a century detente has been seen as a good thing by most politicians and Americans. But now, when it is advantageous to the Democrats to save face, they set up a new boogie man. Guess who it is Russia!Traditionally, it has been the Democrats who were prone to not take a hard line on Russia.  But now and at election time sadly we’re supposed to pay Russians! It’s our patriotic duty to hate Russians ... and lovee the cia!!! WTF.  But Hillary says... oh is it Hillary? Oh yes it is. It’s Hillary. Hillary says, and of course she is very objective here. She just lost the election but no matter. She can still remain objective about all of this. She wouldn’t be blaming the Russians to excuse her own failure would she? That would just be too coincidental too convenient.  Take her word for it. You’re w her.  The embattled and bitter Hillary Clinton. Thats a ship I definitely don’t want to go down with.  I never was on that bandwagon. And I am not now.

From the Hills and valleys mountains rivers and streams...A place called Appahchia (pronounced AppaLATCHia)

https://youtu.be/P0725bnDyJ0

*********

Electronic voting in the US is a huge problem.

#1. Both parties have hacked voting computers.  The DNC is famous or infamous for Voter fraud.

#2. They bus people to several locations to vote.   Remember the irregularities in Arizona during the primary? These people kNo there is a pot of gold at the end of anrainbow. Do you think a little thing like fraud is going to stop them?

#3. Diebold has been kicked out of Europe.  

https://columbusfreepress.com/article/diebold-indicted-its-spectre-still-haunts-ohio-elections

https://youtu.be/NFpLKc6S_-o

https://youtu.be/jH30e7YIKeQ

https://youtu.be/BNZTJeu9ddw

https://youtu.be/u4FPuLNjvAc. Fox

https://youtu.be/MoGeDGHmwJU

https://youtu.be/OvF213popIA. Flipped

https://youtu.be/_IAJ5fAm3Cs. Investigators

https://youtu.be/ibK4de85IKw. Calling Hillary Cunton

https://youtu.be/mEp0kUzmLns. 56 Diebold machines

https://youtu.be/VNzrJWIX5Fw

https://youtu.be/cy1IlAXeV30

Ron Paul.

https://youtu.be/Cx5YyiyWOH4

Princeton Diebold Study

https://youtu.be/hDc8PVCvfKs

Steallary Clinton

I’m trying to add it all up.  I think I’m making progress:

What happened was nothing compared to what happens later. A descent.

But initially what happened? Each group made their point. Peacefully. Nothing happened. The fact that this had a good outcome, the three opposing groups had their say each in their moment and no one got hurt.

What happens a bit later, media types begin shaming....Your group is to blame. Blame blame blame.  

CNN set it up and dutifully the chorus chimed in. On cue just as we have come to expect.

There is something about creating impossible standards for people that sets them up for control. It’s a means of control and repression common among very manipulative types. (Sociopaths)

The real hurt came later. The attacks began. Now it’s a serious thing we are talking about.

Maligning to a certain extent one group or another.

Perhaps there is something to be gained from all of this. Certainly each group has something to say a point to make.

We see what is unreasonable, counterproductive. To some extent in it’s virulence, and unnecessary.

State your point, without bashing the rest of the world. Behave yourself online. Don’t make stupid comments. Don’t make hurtful comments. Don’t attack. Don’t vilify. Because that’s not what happened in the first place.

Through this lens ljust look at what happened. The boys do the school cheer. The blacks made their points however crude. The Native Americans intervene ostensibly prayerfully to create harmony. Good deal. The smirking white boy, an underage teen, was praying all the time for a peaceful resolution.  An end to the confusion. Admirable.

And guess what, prayers were answered.

Let’s be thankful for that.

Let these antagonistic voices reflect on their own motives, meanspiritedness, within their own souls and consciousness. Is what I am doing ugly, one sided and unfair? “I went off without hearing the whole story. And it devolved into a diatribe. For that I apologize. I got it wrong.”  

Later the Native Americans went to a church. During mass. They were not allowed to go in for fear that they would disrupt the services.

What if someone had come out and said you’re welcome to come in if you are quiet and respectful. Or you can wait and we will have a representative out here to listen to what you have to say.

Can you imagine ... Native Americans and Catholics outside on the steps harmoniously joining together in prayer?

Both sides believe in praying do they not?

Each side attaches solemnity to the act of praying. Then what is to prevent them from praying together?

That moment has passed but another moment is possible. We have had time to reflect, to process and come to a meeting of the minds.

The Pueblo Indians have a legend that some mysterious personage visited the tribe and told them of things to come.  

Thanks for listening.

Rainbows 🌈 and unicorns 🦄 4ever.  P.

https://youtu.be/RH8pseoLmC8

**

Hey John, I’ve seen some of your Facebook posts that come in my feed checked out your page. I knew your dad.

Just remember the words to the prayer, is my best unsolicited advice.  It touches us all and everything better than anything and believe me I’ve searched my whole life. It’s a condensation and distillation of things that are spiritually meaningful to all of us. Best of all they are not my words or anybody else’s of similar human consciousness. We know they come from a higher place and beyond ourselves and they lift us up to that level. That’s my experience which I’m trying to share in this song. People share lots of things on fb, right?

I believe you are musically gifted ... I heard from your dad and others.  I don’t know if we’ve actually met but I remember there was some good buzz when you were younger.  

I’m trying to spread the word and various people come up, in my consciousness, individuals who for one reason or another I really want to share it with.  

So I just wanted to share this with you.

And hope you have a good day. Hang in there John.

TY

P.

https://youtu.be/RH8pseoLmC8

****

There’s no reason to think that by the boys not being where they were supposed to be that there was ill intent on their part ... just wandering off.

Apparently these days just about anything no matter how innocent, like wandering off makes you a bad guy. That is very wrong in my opinion. Having white skin makes me a bad guy. It’s called identity politics, but it’s more like a circular firing squad.

And it’s orchestrated by the truly guilty, the fraction of 1% that control our minds. This control is exercised mainly through the Democratic Party these days but in times past it was the Republicans.

Neoliberals have emerged in the same way that neocons emerged and like a parasite have taken over the brain and diverted it 180° opposite from it’s original purpose and identity.

How can you get the majority of peaceful people to go to war without a pearl harbor or a Gulf of Tonkin or an assassination or a 911. Can you actually create a Civil War over an issue? They can. And they work on it day and night. Rust never sleeps.  

They have all of the tools and resources. Political power, the media, money.

When Mao was losing power he used his wife to destroy a culture.  I see the Clinton’s and their backers doing basically the same thing.  Any means necessary to retain power. Even if it takes down the whole country in process.  It doesn’t matter who you sleep with. Change the laws change the religion change the family destroy the family blame the culture, blame this one and that one, it’s all justified.  

But never blame those w the big $, the ones that have no allegiance but to power and who fund your group. Through their corrupt shell game, foundation/money laundering operation.

I guess what they want more than anything else at this point is civil war. They’ve taken civil disobedience and added violence to the mix and perverted Martin Luther King Jr’s. message or dismissed it.  

But most Americans still believe it. Most Americans don’t believe in what the neo liberals are pushing.  They have seen what the neocons did to this country.  And they are not buying this divisive “movement” to further divide us, either.  

It’s been around for quite some time, three decades at least. It’s never been about uniting us. It’s never been about us. And that’s what Bernie tried  to do and did! Unite us. And look what happened to him.

The DNC has been exposed and yet they keep on going in the same direction. They are still leading the charge off this cliff. Male against female, black against white etc. And these people the majority of them are good people and couldn’t care less. So they’ve come for the children.  

Look how CNN twisted what happened and turned on these boys. Got the whole nation  up in arms against them. Now they get death threats and have been docsed.  

Can you imagine CNN calling high school kids “school shooters?”  But that’s the side CNN took.  Against kids.  These are foul, evil people at CNN. They are supposed to be journalists and they are preaching hatred against kids.

Back to the wandering off bit.  If there was a group of native Americans demonstrating or protesting or just doing something interesting wouldn’t you want to watch? Maybe you might wander off too, to see what was going on? That was the whole wish and desire of the Native Americans.  They wanted that attention. So why were the boys at fault for wanting to check it out? It was interesting. How did they know what would happen next?

But it’s so easy in this culture to pin the blame on the innocent.  And even feel good about it because you are taking up for the “poor oppressed minority.”   But not the poor, oppressed white families faltering in this climate less and less which Bernie recognized. Austerity.

It’s not good judgment, or just, to do that but that’s what happens again and again.  

This time it happened to a group of teenage Catholic boys. Who I think behaved admirably.

Who targeted them?  The minorities that everyone is so quick to embrace even if they are in the wrong. Even if they are railroading an innocent person or persons. Or a whole country.  

I will embrace them too when they realize I’m not the enemy.  I pray for them because I have more in common with them than what divides us if they only knew that we have a common enemy. As long as we are divided the problems will become worse.  Our enemies would fall in a nanosecond if we all united.  

It’s CNN’s job to make sure we don’t. That’s their real mission, and their real job. Not reporting the news. That’s what they get paid for. Hit pieces against kids. Not reporting the news. Not reporting what actually happened.  

No, this time they came after our kids.  They’ve been after them for quite some time. Along with mom and dad.  But Mom and Dad are hopefully both fully awake by now and can see what’s going on.

It’s a whole new ball game when they come for your kids.

***

If they had taken one tinth of that energy and focused it half as much to saving mountains and streams...the land, God’s creation, over which we were to be “responsible stewards” not irresponsible psychopaths...as they do to an idea that is so wispy and unclear, “it depends on what is is”...we would still have mountains in WV.

But no, Hell no. They destroyed your LAND people!!

You were comfortable on your couch watching CNN. Your heart went out to a phenomenon a passing fancy the flavor of the month.  Were the mountains too white for you?  They were raping your mother “to keep the lights on” by destroying the fundamental composition of America...Dirt. And ripping it out from under you in front of your televised eyes.

But what threw you into overdrive, What woke you up and ripped the golden pacifier from your mouth ... wasn’t the destruction of the land, the beautiful forests streams and woodlands. No, hell no.

it was your own private ultra specific war ... and you exploded! Over a freckle on a sub atomic particle’s ass! An undefinable utopian fantasy that defied sensory perception to all but the most mindful of and vexed by  the anonymity of human existence, the absence of cuddling, by your mommy and daddy who refused to adequately fuss over you who didn’t feel inspired to recognize the 6 year old genius wunderkind goddesses of the universe.  In your laziness and intellectual dishonesty, you have elevated the smallest vexation and irritation to an Absolute. Your own little fiefdom where you sit, pompous and pussy-hatted on your throne and rule with an iron fist and a divine pussy hat with a clear mandate: Maintain by illogic ucharade-save the Wispies!

That’s right. you have waged war for 30 years for your right to rule in your happy little universe utopian fantasy where you are, not just worshipped and adored but correctly, perfectly.

That’s what  got you going? Spinning like a top that had run out of gas wobbling like a drunken Mexican?

That’s right. “Stop ignoring me or I become a raving mindful lunatic on a yoga mat with a bottle of spring water by my side.”

And I am infinitely mindful of your every infinitesimally small screwup and transgression.

Damn right.

Who knows? What you’re on about. Only you.  

But it’s got you going you up off your ass out in the street raving like a fucking lunatic.

Have at it, motherfucker,  have at it. We’ve already had our way with your mother so have at it!  

****

I wouldn’t say this if it wasn’t important.

Granted there are a lot of people upset about the election. It’s apparent that the democratic party though, has gone too far w their rhetoric. All this about Civil War, impeachment, and every other extreme Kathy Griffin type of nastiness, isn’t that what it is? You tell me? What is it?

Trump’s approval numbers for July according to Gallup, are higher than LBJ, Ronald Reagan and Jimmy Carter and the same as Clinton. Depressing isn’t it?  But keep swimming.  Keep up the good fight. But be careful about unintended consequences.  

There are people that actually voted for Trump. It’s not a crime. They were exercising their rights. Now you want to bash them. I understand. I’ve lived through Nixon and Bush and LBJ.  Mistakes were clearly made and lives were sacrificed.  At this point we have not reached that level of atrocity. Perhaps we should all remember sticks and stones may break my bones.  

There is good evidence that LBJ had Kennedy killed. He was in on it. Lone gunman ... I don’t think so. The Warren report was fraud a massive fabrication.

I’m saying this so that you can see and acknowledge that there is a Behind the scenes network. They carried off that coup . And they carried off 911.  They got Americans to believe a lie. Aided and abetted by the mainstream media.

Do you want to know the truth? You’re not going to get it by being outraged at everything that the mainstream media reports as fact. There is a truth community it is neither Republican nor Democrat. It is both.

I don’t know why Trump won. But Hillary was part of the reason. Number one the way she treated Bernie...Number two Hillary herself.  This whole thing of winning at all costs doubling down, Russian collusion, you need to investigate how that all started. It was a campaign hatched on day one. Opposition research that went too far just like everything that Hillary does.

You have to recognize that even when you protest the other side has a right to their point of you. You have to try to meet in the middle. I was an activist for 20 years before all this happened. One of the things that most of us realized was you can’t let anger take over your life.  You can be angry but use it in a constructive way! Our model was Gandhi civil disobedience discourse.

Also you need to look at George Soros from the other side. What they really want is a police state. They want to stifle dissent.  Which is ironic. You can’t have it both ways. You can’t call people racist who simply disagree on the way to proceed. The kind of solution on immigration etc.  I don’t care if you have the pope on your side calling people out as racists for wanting to enforce immigration laws that already exist that have existed for years in every country. Why would such a radical agenda as open borders be promoted?  Is that not a dangerous idea? Just open the borders to everyone? It would be nice if we lived in that kind of world. But there are bad guys and we don’t live in that kind of world.

There is so much wrong with the liberal agenda right now. It is diametrically opposed to historical liberalism. You hurt your cause w some  of the tactics that are used to promote your cause.  

You need to break away from all of that because number one where is it coming from? Consider the source. The mainstream media which is controlled by the CIA. It is heavily regulated by the CIA. If you would do your research you would find out that Gloria Steinem worked with the CIA.  So did Nancy Pelosi. Gloria Steinem by her own account in an interview went into great detail about those days. They funded Ms. magazine. Do you think that she was the only one? Do you think that practice has stopped?

Go to Ted talks on YouTube and watch the video of the reporter who defected from the mainstream media and is now a whistleblower. It is amazing how devious they are and have become.  

Sheryl Atkinson

https://youtu.be/-bYAQ-ZZtEU

Also look up Maria Kennedy Shriver on Krista Tippet’s “On Being” talk show on NPR.   She talks about some of the mistakes that folks on the left have made. She talks about her faith. It’s a very good interview. She has written a book.

Sorry for any typos, and lack of syntax. I’m typing with my thumb on my phone. 😗

It’s interesting how Hillary and her supporters. And many politicians.  Oh hell the worm turns. Which is exactly what Hillary Clinton is, a worm.  For at least half a century detente has been seen as a good thing by most politicians and Americans. But now, when it is advantageous to the Democrats to save face, they set up a new boogie man. Guess who it is Russia!Traditionally, it has been the Democrats who were prone to not take a hard line on Russia.  But now and at election time sadly we’re supposed to pay Russians! It’s our patriotic duty to hate Russians ... and lovee the cia!!! WTF.  But Hillary says... oh is it Hillary? Oh yes it is. It’s Hillary. Hillary says, and of course she is very objective here. She just lost the election but no matter. She can still remain objective about all of this. She wouldn’t be blaming the Russians to excuse her own failure would she? That would just be too coincidental too convenient.  Take her word for it. You’re w her.  The embattled and bitter Hillary Clinton. Thats a ship I definitely don’t want to go down with.  I never was on that bandwagon. And I am not now.

From the Hills and valleys mountains rivers and streams...A place called Appahchia (pronounced AppaLATCHia)

https://youtu.be/P0725bnDyJ0

*********

Electronic voting in the US is a huge problem.

#1. Both parties have hacked voting computers.  The DNC is famous or infamous for Voter fraud.

#2. They bus people to several locations to vote.   Remember the irregularities in Arizona during the primary? These people kNo there is a pot of gold at the end of anrainbow. Do you think a little thing like fraud is going to stop them?

#3. Diebold has been kicked out of Europe.  

https://columbusfreepress.com/article/diebold-indicted-its-spectre-still-haunts-ohio-elections

https://youtu.be/NFpLKc6S_-o

https://youtu.be/jH30e7YIKeQ

https://youtu.be/BNZTJeu9ddw

https://youtu.be/u4FPuLNjvAc. Fox

https://youtu.be/MoGeDGHmwJU

https://youtu.be/OvF213popIA. Flipped

https://youtu.be/_IAJ5fAm3Cs. Investigators

https://youtu.be/ibK4de85IKw. Calling Hillary Cunton

https://youtu.be/mEp0kUzmLns. 56 Diebold machines

https://youtu.be/VNzrJWIX5Fw

https://youtu.be/cy1IlAXeV30

Ron Paul.

https://youtu.be/Cx5YyiyWOH4

Princeton Diebold Study

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Steallary Clinton

old tyme rockin gospel blues to make your drive more 'interesting' without taking your eyes off the road. or not. the visual is quite interesting too.  I may have stumbled on inter-dimensional photography...see if you can find the creatuers that inhabits these one of a kind photographs by t. paige.

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Here is Jim- al X. Zones telling his side of the story. Oops sorry not available.  It’s been deleted since last night when I watched it.  It’s been removed from my YouTube history.

Go ahead try it.  Remember the Dixie chicks? How they were banned? This is no different. Madonna  says she wants to s*** Moamar khadaffi and f*** the guy in the Vanilla H *** but no  repercussions. Sorry Virgin Mary but Hillary blew him first.

It’s coming. Chinese style censorship.  I’m w the ACLU on this one folks. Unpopular opinions should not be banned any more than the library should ban  Catcher in the Rye.  Say goodbye to another freedom as we approach The NannyState.  Men have lost their cojones.  

Notice: You cannot NOT care. You must care.  For this thing right here. Not caring for this thing is not allowed.  You must care about women, minorities, etc because we say so. We don’t care but we’re hypocrites. That’s the difference. We’re all sociopaths. So that’s just how it works because...WE HAVE MORE MONEY AND we are IMPORTANT.  You, not so much. So you see it’s not really hypocrisy.  

ALSO, you are not allowed to care about your self you selfish Nazi racist bastard.

https://youtu.be/PtfAl6I4SM0

This might get me into trouble.

I posted Pray For our Country and got some anti trumpies comments.  They said  I’ll pray for that man in the WH.  Like he’s the only problem is the only one that we needs to pray about.

It’s starting to really piss me off.  Give them an inch and they’ll take a mile.  

Is there another reason to pray?  Is it because bombs are being dropped?  Is it because Obama decided we no longer have to declare war to drop bombs on people? Just pick a country. That we can bomb people anywhere anytime we want?  

Or is it because someone offended you?  Did it offend you when a convicted pedophile got a standing ovation from most of Hollywood including Meryl Streep at the Academy Awards? Or that madonna said she wanted to blow the White House up?   ( remember the Dixie Chicks! )

Or that Hillary Clinton got a child trafficer off the hook? When she kidnapped 30 children in Haiti? Or that this woman now is working for Amber alert? Under a different name? Is it because Muslim grooming gangs in England kept young girls around for sexual purposes for decades?  Is it because refugees from starving Africa are storming the beaches of Spain?  And roaming the streets of Italy with hatchets and machetes? Is it because there are approximately 1000 no go zones throughout Europe? Where the police do not dare go near?   Is it because there are towns in England that have been Muslimized, the churches and the pubs shut down. Is it because the plan under Hillary was to do the same here?

Is it because the real problem here is hypocrisy and fuzzy think.  Right and wrong no longer matter and is no longer discernible or desired by MSM brainwashed people.  Just don’t offend me ... my delicate feelings are all that matters... none of the above matters. But if you go off script, say something that offends me... ohmy! look out! I am on the warpath and I am marching on Washington!  

The problem here is,  “you awake?” is no longer the punch line of a joke about redneck foreplay.

Hi Kathy, I'm sorry I upset you. We can agree to disagree? I'm sure there's a lot we agree on.

Number one we are in deep do. But we just know it now but i guess we always have been.  

They tried to kill us once already in the 60s, but somehow we fought back and we won. I wish we could have that kind of unity today. I think there's a way but we need to make certain tweaks. Remember it was all about civil disobedience and Henry David Thoreau.  Mahatma Gandhi.  Martin Luther King. Bob Dylan. And I believe that kind of a movement is still possible.  But they've taken away the music from young people and left them with Taylor Swift.  

Back then we felt that women had our backs. That's not true today. The feminist counter movement became obsessed with attacking men and advancing some strange agenda, apart from liberating women. It became part of the divide and conquer strategy.  

Every movement, is prone to a counter movement.  The countermovement is in many of these movements.  They take the energy from the movement and use it for their own devices and political purposes.  To garner support>votes>power not for the people but for themselves, those at the top of the countermovement within these movements.

There I go again.  But doesn't that make sense Kathy?  It really doesn't matter if we agree even on this. That is just one example of how we can agree to disagree and still survive. This has happened even in the church.  In every movement. Every movement that becomes a household word is fair game and a prime target to be overtaken and used and taken in a direction that it was not intended for. Sometimes the very opposite of that direction. This is true in the case of the church. The goal is to capture the heart. The closer it gets to the heart the more damage is done. If they can’t get to the heart from the inside they will destroy it from the outside as in the case of environmental assaults on our mountains and water.  

One of the tweaks I mentioned was allowing God to inform our decisions.  We have to do this first in ourselves.  We have to forgive for one thing. Remember we had Martin Luther King, a minister, a preacher a church person. Yes we do have to be careful. That’s why I say it begins in our own hearts.

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I really don’t mean to preach. I just think it’s important that we allow God at least allow people who have that in their make up to exist if that is their dream to have it as a part of their solution.  

Some people feel this is an outmoded form of expression.  It certainly can be abused and a means of control which is what God does not want. To me the Lords prayer is the perfect expression of God and also Psalm 23.   But there are many more. These are just two of the ones that have had a major impact on me.  

But I recognize that even in myself there is a war going on.  So sometimes I have to step back and re-center.  When everything is working properly within and everything is in balance that is the only time I really have anything to offer.  It’s really easy to fall off the wagon though.  Trial and error.  It’s not easy to get there.  

This morning I woke up and everything was fine. Then I thought of some injury or slight and immediately my happiness was gone.   Because my focus became anger.  Yes, I do have a lot to be angry about but I can’t focus on it. And I have to forgive from my heart if I want to be happy, is what I realized.  So i’m working on it. Lol.  OK?   Hopefully I’ll change. Become more mellow, lol. Bear w me ok?  It’s important to me to get along with people care about. I understand if you need a break from this deeply flawed person. I know I’m a handful. I try to shield people from my neuroses and unpleasantness, but sometimes it gets the better of me.  I’ve always been kind of an agitator at heart.  But I will always try to make it right.  Right now I think that people just need a break from all of my drama.   That’s the message I’m giving this morning.

Have a good day Kathy. I hope we can agree on more than just a little.

Here is the song that meant so much to me.  TY.

Paige

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