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platonicmoonwater00 · 4 months ago

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frrrr personally i do headcanon peter as asexual but not aromantic(i have an original character of mine that i ship him with), also he actually has a personality!!! omg!! but nah i didnt used to hc peter as ace but i started recently. lemme explain my hc of peter real quick.

first of all, he's a huge drama kid whos good enough to be the star in every play but the "hot" guy who cant act for shit always gets it which really pisses him off. also he plays the drums(i do not take credit for this idea cos i got it form tcoptp) but he isnt in music class bc he started when he was in in primary school and would js be so far ahead of everyone else. also he is like super loyal(ironic ik but i never write canon compliant fics so it's fine) but hes got a really loose tongue so cant always keep a secret, but hes just doesnt think before speaking, hes not malicious.

he was also a huge people pleaser in primary school and at the start of of high school but in like year 8 he was like fuck this and now he seems like a pushover so people get surprised when he goes off at them when they try to walk all over him.

i also hc that after he first started dating his gf they yknow *did the deed* and he was like completely repulsed. he went through a few stages where he was like "maybe i dont really like her" or "maybe it'll get better cos this was our first time" and "holy shit, what's wrong with me" which is a sad one cos theres nothing wrong with him. but eventually he talks to remus about it and remus already had kinda guessed that peter might be ace bc of past comments he'd made. so remus is like just kinda listening and nodding and lets peter get all his feelings out.

personally as soon as i talk to somebody about something thats confusing or frustrating me they dont even need to say anything and i kinda js end up answering my own question or figure out a solution by myself.

so he kind of just ends up realising and is like "OH" and so he does a bunch of research and a LOT of am i ace quizzes and is eventually quite sure of it.

and mind you this was like half a year into his relationship so my man was nervous like he made it into a really bad thing in his head and thought that everybody(especially his gf) would hate him. and he thought she'd break up with him and no one will ever date him again. but eventually remus hypes him up enough to tell his gf and shes from a traditional family but is like insanely open minded even though her family isnt so she hadnt heard of asexuality before but he explians it to her and shes soooo accepting and understanding and i love that for them(her parents are bitches about it when they find out tho after peter and their daughter get married)

sorry i have been waiting for a long time to dump this on someone. but i totally agree, making peter ace or aroace js because you think no one will like him or should be shipped with him cos hes fat is so silly billy like girly he was really nice. i mean even if we're being canon compliant, they genuinely never thought he'd betray them, like ever. and lets be so fr its not like he was a total pushover, i mean if we are still being true to the books(i never am) then james was a stupid kid who had some of his values skewed so he wouldnt have befriended or stayed friends with someone that was completely useless?? and its not only fatphobic to make peter useless like people do but its also kinda acephobic like "oh hes useless and fat and unloveable and no one would want to be with him and i dont want to ship anyone with him imma make him ace ig" like girl no.

and its really weird honestly like i know plus sized people who are super nice and have really good personalities AND i know plus sized people who are really popular and really bitchy. but half of the perceptions of peter are js him being useless and not having a personality? which is stupid bc theyre people, not aliens and they have personalities. is that such a strange concept?? like what???

also i totally agree about the plus sized lily thing like i feel like plus sized lily is SUPPOSED to make us accept our bodies but like a lot of the fanart makes me feel bad about mine. like i have prominent stomach rolls, thick thighs that i hate, back fat and yknow the fat next to your armpits that sticks out when you wear singlets. also i dont exactly have a double chin but you definitely cant see the line of my jaw. i dont have an hourglass figure either. so now im going from oml im supposed to be skinny to hey maybe its ok not to be skinny to oh its ok not to be skinny but im supposed to have a jawline and an hourglass figure????

LIKE WHAT

sorry i did say id explain that 'real quick' but i got carried away

also peter isnt a 'prude'. he drinks and smok3s w33d and goes to party hes js ace. like id also like for us to demolish the stereotype that ace people are goody two shoes pls. like if anyone in the marauders doesnt do ^ that stuff its james lets be so fr.

Fatphobia in the Marauders fandom

I have spoken briefly on this before, but I think perhaps it is time we stop making Peter a prude, or unable to find a date, or "a late bloomer". I'm really fed up of regularly seeing posts saying these things with no explaination or supporting headcanon for why.

I think if you want to make him asexual or aroace for legitimate reasons then that's fine, as someone on the ace spectrum I love seeing good representation, but so often it feels like people do it because they can't think of anyone to ship him with because they don't want to ship someone with the fat kid. It's not because he turns bad later, because he's not bad during the Hogwarts years. But it is consistently Peter, someone who is not conventionally attractive, who is portrayed as some undesired sexless character who betrayed his friends because he couldn't get laid or have some great love like them.

Guess what, fat people date too!! Fat people are capable of having interests that aren't related to food or proving their worth through other ways. "He's fat but it's okay because he's really good at chess". NO. Peter can want to date, Peter can participate in talking about sex, Peter can have a partner and it not be a big deal that "him of all people" pulled someone.

If you don't think that this is a genuine problem in the fandom then you might need to re-evaluate. This is not the representation plus-size people deserve.

"But Lily is made plus-size and gets put in ships, plus-size Lily is hot". Plus-size Lily is still usually drawn in a way that is acceptably fat by society's standards. She's curvy with thick thighs and an hourglass figure, with a jawline and a small stomach. Give me fics of her an apron belly and a double chin and a realistic waist where James or Mary or Pandora or anyone still thinks she is the hottest shit. Please. We deserve this.

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323398149 · 1 year ago

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You dont need to sort through it as “quickly” as possible. Take a deep breath. Now take some more. Go easy on yourself. No one would be so annoyed that they would hurt you. And if someone were to ever hurt you then please let me know so I can hurt them….take things one step at a time. See what you actually want out of life. You have to know what you actually want before making concrete steps in that direction.

I cant know who this was from but I've read it a million times in the last year or two from whenever it was sent.

I just logged in thinking, this is a tumblr vent not a finsta one.

I'm so overwhelmed by life and growing up (the usual, am I not always in this state? Jk I guess a couple years ago, no, that wasnt what i was talking about on here lols)

I was gonna be like nobody prepares you for interviews and job applications but technically they do in grade 10 careers but gee the real deal is so much scarier and like.... it really is just based on you. Like some ppl just got it and others don't. I have no social skills lol and out here in the real world it really shows.

It's like gr9 RUSH all over again. I went from being the cream of the crop in my cohort in uni and being amazing at leading meetings and connecting with classmates to suddenly being back at the bottom of the barrel. It feels like they poured us from one barrel to another bigger one except you know how the foam gets left behind when you pour steamed milk into a cup? It feels like that. It feels like I'm just hanging out there by myself still stuck to the sides of the first barrel when everybody has moved on and I don't have the social or even technical skills honestly to get myself from the first barrel to the bigger one without the flow of the rest of the crowd to carry me. As soon as we hit 4th year it became every (wo)man for themselves and stopped being collective. Like for the 18 years before that we all progressed forward together every year at exactly the same rate yknow? I got complacent.

I didn't realize we were just walking towards the starting line for a race and were expected to start running at the whistle of graduation. It's like I didn't even know the route of the course that we were on and now I finally just got a hold of a map. Or it's as if I'd never heard a whistle before so I didn't realize that was our cue. Or lmaooo like I sneezed at the exact same time as the whistle and ended up not hearing it. So now I gotta figure out how I can keep going even tho I can barely see everybody turned some corners and I can't even see what's on the other side of the bend yet.

But the point is that I've found the map now so imma just have to figure out a route on my own and trust it and keep going.

#personal #tp #f23

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gedzilla · 6 years ago

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my coworker is being pretty fucked to me today and i was already on the edge of a Big Breakdown when i got here hours ago, she’s making it so much worse and i dont know why she’s doing it

#you dont tell me i ‘probably have early onset dementia’ when i didnt 1)fucking ask and 2)... LITERALLY DIDNT ASK AND DODNT DESERVE TO BE TOL #D THAT WHETHER ITS A JOKE OR NOT #she hasnt even said shes kidding about it but she was smiling when she turned away im like #fuck #shes been pretty okay and ive been really nice to her and supportive and i never make ‘jokes’ like that with any of my coworkers #everybody just kind of undertood that im not the person to do that to but shes just doing it all day #i was talking to a customer and they asked if i was having a bad day which i nodded at and shes like ‘ wait YOU’RE having a bad day???????’#and i didnt grasp the sarcasm because Yknow.#and i nodded #and she went oh i know im kidding i know you are :)))#and i apologized for not being able to detect sarcasm very much #and shes like ‘ oh you cant???’ and im a dumbass and nod again and she is smiling and then we go back to our business of ringing people up b #but god damn am i paranoid shes going to use that against me now #i wish i was home i wish our other coworker was staying past 9 so i didnt have to be alone with her i dont want to be around her #:^(

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irradiatedsnakes · 4 years ago

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[ID: 7 drawings of monster!mechanisms designs. they are as follows: 1. a colored drawing of ivy alexandria that has been partially passed through the deep dream generator neural network, giving parts of the image a swirling, surreal appearance, often resembling eyes. 2. a digtal sketch of nastya as a ghost. her eyes are obscured by her glasses shine and she is covered in blue wisps, and dripping blue from her mouth and hands. 3. a digital sketch of drumbot brian as a centaur sitting down. his horse half is also mechanical and resembles a clydesdale. he also has horse-ish ears. 4. a sketchy bust of vampire marius. he looks smug, and looks to the side with a fanged smile. 5. digital sketch of partially-transformed werewolf gunpowder tim with doglike ears, claws, and a tail. he says "ok why did getting turned into that somehow give you a pitchfork." with a quizzical expression. 6. digital sketch of jonny d'ville as a devil or demon, with horns, pointy ears, cartoony wings, and a thin tail with a heart-shaped tip. he's holding a hellish pitchfork, looking confused and says "what? i already owned this.” 7. a traditional sketch of harpy/siren raphaella. she holds here feathery winged arms out, while her mechanical bat wings are unfurled behind her. her lower half is that of a bird. end ID]

ok ill post a couuuple. self indulgence machine go brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

ok so u know like back in the gravity falls fandom there was that really popular au called monster falls where everybody got turned into some sort of monster/mythological creature? i fucking love that scenario and have been making my own little “everybody gets cursed by a witch or something so now i get to draw these fun designs” aus for like everything i like (never did it w tma oddly enough? good inspo just never struck.) so here.......is..........this. not everybodys pictured here but go under the cut for a list of what everybody is plus some extra notes and stuff

lets just goooooo alphabetical order

ashes - OKAY HONESTLY STILL NOT 100% ON ASHES im THINKING half-dragon. yes i know i already went dragon for them in the furry au its just a good fit and also looks Cool, but also waiting out to see if i can think of anything better

brian - CENTAURRRR also again. yes. i know i went 4 horse for him in the furry au. its just good and has fun brian vibes. wanting to draw centaur brian was the thing that led to this au happening

ivy - ELDRITCH SOMETHIN OR OTHER...idk what youd call that exactly. but you get the gist. cosmic horror, eyes, unfathomable patterns and things. doing the deep dream stuff for her in that picture was very fun and im very happy w how it came out...definitely something to revisit in the future. not sure how i wanna draw her when...not doing a whole colored digital thing, but well cross that bridge when i can draw again

jonny - he’s. he’s a devil? a little demon guy? like. yeah. of course. this guy was fucking meant to have little wings horns and a cute little demon heart tail. he has somehow become MORE bastardly

marius - VAMPIRE MARIUS ONCE AGAIN HES JUST FUN. hes just fun and the aesthetic suits him. i cant wait to draw him in a fun little cape with one of those big dramatic collars you know the ones. vampire marius is of course @ alientoastt’s idea!!

nastya - BANSHEE...or ghost in general but there some banshee stuff i feel could be fun to integrate. apparently in some tellings banshees can turn into crows? i love that very much. but anyways hmm..some notes abt the design in thsi post shes not quite where i want her to be. this was done on that collab canvas the other day and like...was mostly noodling things out having fun, those flamey looking bits are a very nice motion very fun to do but NOT wwhat i want for ghostya. i want her to be more. drippy. very drowned person vibes. fire and upward-floating motif not what i want. but it was fun to draw. also i think theres some potential comedy in there with “person who predicts deaths” among crew who habitually murder each other

raphaella - SOMEWHERE BTWN HARPY & SIREN (the bird kind not the mermaid kind) very excited abt her. lots of fun potential poses here. doing her design was a bit tricky- sirens tend to be just like- big birds with human heads? but i didt wanna do just that that takes away too much of her design recognizbility yknow to Just have her head. so she has a people torso, bird from the waist down, plus her arms are wings. which means she has Two pairs of wings. which i for one think is incredibly fun like you remember in httyd2 valka’s dragon w the four wings? yeah. also avent figured what bird in particular shell be based on- for the ufrry au i went w african grey parrot but dont feel like that here. ill think on it

tim - WEREWOLF TIM DUH. DUH. also i think werewolves are especially funny in scenarios like thse cus like- okay everybody suddenly ahhh cursed ahh monster whatever. but then tims just there like. i mean i feel fine lol and u get to have the fun surprise of Oh Suddenly Werewolf. also the question of how exactly werewolves who change based on the moon function in a. spaceship. i like to think its entirely fucking random i think thats funny

TS - ANIMATED SUIT OF ARMOR!! I DONT HAVE MUCH MORE TO SAY ON THSI BUT I LOVE . THIS IDEA. and i will never draw it. because fuck drawing and designing armor oh my god

anyways i think thats??? all i have to say on this??? agdvjdkb. if you wanna talk about this at all (or if u wanna see more doodles...) im totally open to that. ill be real i get weirdly embarrassed about specifically this kind of au (like. monster stuff in general especially werewolf/vampire stuff i could not fucking tell you why. gotten better abt it over time though hey im actually postin this shit!) so im just happy i posted it afhcgvjdkvdg .

as for story type things like how. this happens. frankly i dont know thats not my forte. but the little bit of whatever ive got going on my head has the Terrific Trio of ivy marius & raphaella doing Research Science Whatever down on a planet somewhere get into contact with a Cursed Artifact or whatever the fuck and eventually get back to the aurora like. oh. uh. it happened to you guys too, huh. but thats like whatever honestly im not in it for the writing im here to draw fun centaur man etc.

if you made it to the bottom of this winding fucking ramble know that i love you. mwah. that was fun to write out i like thought barfing about stuff like maybe 3 people will care about

#art #mechanisms #no tags i dont think djgvdhbkdhbd #1 #2 #the mechanisms #ok im gong to hit post . ok #scopophobia

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sw33t-oubliette · 2 years ago

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OKAY STRAP IN BITCH/AFF THIS GETS WILD

it starts with me evan writing a letter to himself, which his therapist told him to do to improve his confidence, letter got put into text here, and then the absolute BANGER that is anybody have a map starts, i cant do it justice by explaining it just listen to it

and uuh its about evan an connor's moms trying to figure out how tf to handle mentally ill teenagers-

evan and connor bump into eachother at school and connor pushes him and sets off WAVING THROUGH A WINDOOOOOWW

AND !!!!! the whole falling in a forest part is about how uh.*clears throat*.he attempted suicide in a forest by jumping off a tree.thats how he broke his arm

ANYWay after that he starts writing letter 2 which you can read here

after he writes letter 2 connor signs his cast, VERY plot important

then connor confronts evan abt letter 1 which he found in the computer lab, ends up not giving it back, this is where it gets . very Dark

connor kills himself . and they find evans letter to himself and assume evan was their friend. connors parents ask evan about it and he denies it but theyre like "BUT LOOOK !!! YOUR CAST !!!!!! THEY WERE BESTIES ABSOLUTELY" and evan HAS to confirm the allegations because how do you even convince them otherwise.

time skip evan gets invited over to dinner and . for forever starts

evan says they had emails to eachother and he HAS to keep making stuff up and now him and jared have to make fake emails . jareds reaction to this is "yknow his parents think you guys were gay lovers right" which isnt plot relevant but i lost my shit the first time i watched it over that ok anyway next thing

evan and jared start writing the letters, starting SINCERELY, MEEEEEE

evan shows connors parents the emails, family argument shit happens, connor's sister zoe drops this absolute amazing song

evan and zoe talk in connors room, evan has to keep carrying the lie, WAHHHH SONG AGAIN, IF I COULD TELL HER

time skip, everything went back to normal FUCK everybody forgot abt connor his memory fucking disappeared, "once theyve forgotten about me, what do you think happens to you. i mean nobody cares about people like us", DISAPPEAR STARTS

evan gets forced to do a speech at an assembly abt connor, fucking bombs it man .rolls up into a ball mid stage and fucks it all up. but the speech gets posted to the connor project website (the connor project is a project dedicated to keeping connors memory alive that alana [not related to anybody],evan and jared run) WHOP ANOTHER SONG .STARTS SINGING MID STAGE AND IT GETS CARRIED ON AFTER THE VIDEO GETS PUT ON THE WEBSITE

and uuuuh at the end of the song . wahhhhh evan and zoe are dating now .ok

ACT ONE DONE. WE'RE NOT DONE YET WE STILL HAVE A WHOLE NOTHER ACT . IT GETS WORSE

alana and evan start a fundraiser to reopen the apple orchard, jared makes up more shit for the made up shit and evan shuts it down, FUCK EVANS MOM FINDS OUT ABOUT EVERYTHING THEYRE ARGUING, evan apparently doesnt have anxiety issues anymore (HES FUCKING LYING HE VERY MUCH DOES), evan and connors dad bonding which leads to a song:

zoe goes over to evans house, the anxiety issues he VERY OBVIOUSLY STILL HAS appear again, ANOTHER AMAZING SONG

next day FUCKING ALANA IS PUTTING UP THE EMAILS ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ ON THE WEBSITE

jared hates evan now fuck

akward ass Murphy and hansen family meetup, oh my god theyre paying for evans college, evan is literally having a mental breakdown on a chair off to the side, okay evans mom denied the college stuff, ALERT THE MOMS R FIGHTING

oh no. the angst is happening. song time i . guess.the song explains all you need to know

https://open.spotify.com/track/7FIrk5lA1IalpZ3OtieeC8?si=4Ai_0wOSTy6hzOZjfPVo4g

evan considers just coming clean like he should but fucking cant . "HOWD YOU BREAK YOUR ARM EVAN. DID YOU FALL OR DID YOU LET GO.". everythings going downhill. he wrote a fake suicide note WHICH IS LITERALLY JUST LETTER 2 WHICH IS SO GENUINELY TRAGIC. the murphys are fighting again. hes telling the truth now uhoh its all falling apart . song commences

https://open.spotify.com/track/32bZDrurIGh2Cts0l2tRtL?si=5xF6Z_LXQ0uaOCV6jbbfDA

evan self depreciation time, ANOTHER SONG

https://open.spotify.com/track/5M2LiZ8SmRFWl1IJ0F7JNR?si=3zHBRVPFSryUkpfqNkYPxg

okay literally crying as i type this

its the end now. Timeskip, zoe talks to evan at the apple orchard, evan is still severely fucked up, honestly nobody got that much better mentally, another song and its a Mashup of other stuff from earlier and you know im a sucker for that

https://open.spotify.com/track/7vU9VpbmB4ZoztAigpXLlJ?si=RF4BccKlSh-4QZbXXs4Qgg

and thats. it. i honestly probably sucked explaining this im so sorry go watch the og musical on youtube (theres multiple slime tutorials of it it wont be hard to find) bc i did not explain that well i think

somebody who knows barely anything or nothing about dear evan hansen please ask me about it because 1 i want need to infodump right now and 2 its so fucking shocking if you know nothing about it and i need to be the person to tell you about it because i know everything abt it(literally evan irl) and im objectively right abt it (literally evan irl part 2)

#a very unprofessional essay #and uuh i used 3rd person for myself to make this actually make sense but i aM STILL EVAN.#i wasnt lying when i said they put me through the horrors in canon #suicide mention #suicide tw #triggering themes #this probably made NO SENSE i am so sorry. GO WATCH THE ORIGINAL MUSICAL (NOT MOVIE) WORDS CAN BARELY EXPLAIN IT #i hit audio limit #sorry if i got dull around the end. the fucking horrors (my canon) .

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aboardthehavocmarauder · 4 years ago

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Beautiful Mischief [Pt. 3]

Bad Batch x Reader • Angst/Fluff/NSFW (yknow the whole deal) • Mechanic [hidden Jedi] ! Reader • Female reader

Fall on your knees, sweet girl

Sweet girl...

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“SHES A FUCKING JEDI”

“And how the fuck would you know that?”

“HER PETITE FUCKING ASS CANT TAKE DOWN A TREE IN A SINGLE PUNCH”

“You think she used the force?”

“She did! Don’t believe me?! Wait till the next incident”

Y/N frowns outside the cockpit hearing Cross talk about what he saw with Hunter and Tech. She straightens up when Echo came into the common area seeing the angered look on her face. He didn’t say a word. They stood in the silence and Y/N felt overwhelmed all of a sudden causing her to leave the room, before he could reach—-

“Don’t touch her Echo. We don’t know what she’s capable of” Tech states witnessing what just happened as Echo gave him a worried look.

——

“You’re taking on a Padawan? You know what Anakin turned out to be. You think you’ll produce a normal one?”

“They are Anakin’s age now. Not a child. I believe I can train them to be the best”

“A little late to find a force sensitive being”

“I didn’t find her, she found me”

“I trust you Obi Wan. But—“

Don’t be surprised by the hardships

——

Wrecker finds himself in the storage compartment looking for extra ration bars in their food supply when he saw Y/N sitting on the ground propped up against her crate staring at the ceiling.

“Hey?” He tilts his head confused seeing the redness in her eyes and swollen cheeks. “Hey Y/N...what’s wrong?” He decided to sit with her waiting for her to respond and if she didn’t, he would’ve stayed as a comfort.

“I’m a monster Wrecker”

“What? I don’t think so”

“Crosshair does, he’s telling everybody what he saw in the forest. Just another monster in this galaxy full of darkness”

“Okay now that’s a lot of talk. I’m going to need context”

“He didn’t tell you? None of your brothers did?”

“Honestly I ignore what most of them say” Wrecker laughs as he handed her a ration bar seeing her take the offer.

“I worked on your ship for a year before you decided to add me on this journey with you all. Then it’s been six months and as much as you’re all close with one another...I don’t think I’ll ever been looked at normally ever again”

“Y/N...from the time with the scar thing. Scars are scars. It was stupid of us to push you to tell us what happened. As for this recent thing. Speaking for myself, I don’t care what you are. You’re Y/N. A badass mechanic that knows a lot more than we expected. And if shit changes. Who gives a fuck? Imma still like you for you. Besides. Half of my face is a scar and I don’t give a fuck” Wrecker smiles hearing her laugh a little, feeling better.

——

“Two lightsabers? Ha! This will work nicely for you young apprentice”

Y/N stares with grey covered eyes standing still like a solider as the dathomirian receives the kyber crystals for the hilts before handing the new and improved sabers to his mindless slave.

“You’ll receive a new look. Keep you hidden away from the so called Jedi you used to call your family. Little do they know your parents died and adoptive sister left. Or you left her. I’ve always wondered why you did so”

“I wanted to become a Jedi, Odious...” Y/N says groggily before freeing when he started to force choke her. “I’m sorry sir...”

“Mmm. Are you truly, sweet girl?” He smirks pushing her against the wall and keeping her there like a wall ornament. “We don’t want you to remember to good old days...we need information and you will kill for it if it deems necessary” Odious laughs squeezing his hold hearing her choke. “You will kill if they won’t expose their secrets. We will take down the Jedi council”

Soon Y/N dropped on her side feeling the cold ground turn into a cold surrounding. Feeling like death was crawling in but she quickly stood to their feet seeing Odious’s accomplices approach her to start the appearance change.

No one said it was pain-free

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Returning to Coruscant, Y/N thought she was being dropped off but Hunter assured her it was for Echo to receive some simplicity with his brothers in blue.

Even the clones need to go back to their home.

“You coming?”

“No”

“But come on. The mess hall will have more of those ration bars you like” Wrecker adds as Y/N stayed glued to her seat feeling a weight grow in her chest when she sensed him. “Y/N?”

“I can’t Wrecker...I know we’ll be here for three days but I’m safe here”

“Well you know where we’ll be” He smiles being the last stepping off the ramp as it closed behind him.

But it didn’t take until nightfall for Y/N to step out and take a look at something that over came their thoughts.

——

“You’ll be staying”

“No Obi-Wan”

“Y/N you’ve come so far. Why give up training now?”

“Your master was a grey-Jedi because he didn’t believe in the rules the council had held accountable on us all. I can’t live in a cult that doesn’t want me to seek out for more in my life”

“But you can—“

“I’m not becoming a whore of the Jedi council all because I can fuck every man that steps into the facility. I want to fall in love. I want to be free. Free from my personal burdens. Reunite with my sister. Go home. I won’t be corrupted Obi Wan. You can keep your tabs on me if you like. But I cannot be here”

“Y/N. Please”

“Take a look behind you Obi Wan, and what do you see?”

Obi Wan turns around to look at the city of Coruscant erupt in colors and volumes of plenty. He was about to say something but when he turned around.

She was gone

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And now she’s returned

Y/N stepped into the quarters she stayed in during her time there. The nostalgia started to hit when the familiar feeling returned.

“Leave”

“Y/N—“

“Leave me alone” She frowns clenching her fists. “You shouldn’t have come out of whatever corner you were in”

“Y/N it took courage for you to come back inside this place. Please just let me spe—“

Obi Wan suddenly hit the wall outside of her room as she stepped out quickly leaving.

“General I heard—“ Cody stopped talking seeing Y/N and his General on the floor, triggering him to take out his weapon. “You stay right there”

“Don’t hurt him Y/N”

“I’m not a monster like you Kenobi” Y/N frowns lifting her hands and before Cody could even do anything, she booked it in the other direction.

“What the—“ Cody started chasing after her as Obi Wan quickly gets on his feet following in suit after the two.

Having no obstacle in the way made it easy, until Cody called in reinforcements from Rex and a few more from the 501st.

“This—“

“It’s Y/N. Why would Cody—“

“Cody explain?!”

“Cody stand down for maker’s sake” Obi Wan states. “You can’t just—“

“They—“

“NO” He snaps as the distress in his voice made Cody finally stop thinks but the actions still confused his brothers. “Now leave. All of you. Except Y/N”

As the sun sets on today

We’ll never know about tomorrow

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“General Kenobi. New information has come up”

“What about this time Cody?”

“About fugitive x. You said to dig up anything on them and we got something”

Obi Wan turns to Cody seeing the information on the datapad and taking it, leaving to process this all.

Fugitive X

Name: Y/F/N Y/L/N

Found in the streets of the black market wielding duel lightsabers. Nothing life threatening. But they were found with a kyber crystal that was floating around in the market.

“This...isn’t giving me anything...” Cody frowns flipping through the pictures and finding the video from one of the street cameras of them taking out a knife and suddenly—-

Fuck

——

“Why didn’t you come back once you escaped?”

“Why would I?”

“What do you mean...”

“Just because you had spies in my life to keep tabs on me. Doesn’t mean they saw everything. You......” Y/N stops talking as she brings her knees to her chest staring out in the scenery as Obi Wan sheds his robe to be comfortable around her just enough. “You...you lost your master. Imagine that pain, but with your humanity, sanity...”

“Y/N, what happened?”

“A lot...”

A lot that nobody knows

Until now

#the bad batch #bad batch #the bad batch x reader #bad batch x reader #wrecker bad batch #tech bad batch #crosshair bad batch #echo bad batch #hunter bad batch #aboardthehavocmarauder

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tigerdrop · 4 years ago

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If you ever write Gordon getting dicked down by benrey, I can only image benrey just losing his mind and unable to form coherent sentences just going on and on and thanking Gordon for letting him do this. Just constantly saying how good gordon is to him and thank you over and over again.

bro do i have something for u. i was going off about this exact thing just last night

what if benrey humped gordons pillow.. you know..... like a. its a. its a petplay thing okay fuckin leave me alone. gordons prolly got more than one pillow right. what if......he had his face buried in the other one (or, you know, an other one, idk) while hes doing it b/c it......smells like......gordon......

like hes on his knees bent over, going completely crazy on one pillow, while perhaps hugging his face into the other and his whimpers and moans r muffled and oh god im rabid

rotating in my mind. maybe he wouldnt have been able to get off just from that ordinarily. it was just, like, warming up. he was gonna just jack it over the pillow later (you know, b/c hes fucking gross, and maybe hes entertaining wild fantasies of marking gordons stuff. you know). but its actually gordon saying a bunch of degrading comments (and then saying that if he was a good boy, he would finish what he started) to him that pushes him over the edge and makes him able to come for real

benrey's going absolutely ape bananas on the pillow, uncoordinated and desperate to come, with gordon breathing shit like "fuck the pillow like you'd fuck me" right in his ear. gordon's crazed on the power of being able to make benrey piston faster with just a little dirty talk

god. like. the fucking groan that would rip out of him at that b/c he wants to do just that so badly. not like he can deny that thats what he was thinking about the whole time, right

benrey just starts babbling nonsense on exactly how he wants to fuck him, if he'd let him

like. if hes wanted to do just that for so long, so badly, but hes never been able to prove that hes been good enough for gordon to let him (or at least, thats what hes convinced the issue is. if its up to me, its probably bound up in gordons weird internalized homophobia issues about bottoming.......but yknow thats not the way everybody characterizes him so LOL). and he really starts rutting into it good and hard trying to prove that hed be good for gordon, hed make it real fucking good for him, and maybe if he does it right, gordon will let him fuck him just like that

seeing benrey fuck the pillow as if its actually gordon makes him feel. some kinda way. and maybe he decides afterwards or sometime soon after, he actually DOES want benrey to fuck him like that. and when it happens, hes got benrey by the leash, tugging him and instructing him on what to do, telling him hes a good boy and UH HEY why are you reading this message are you fucking homosexual or somethi

okay. so. like. thinking about. gordon finally getting over himself enough to consider letting benrey top him. but if theyre gonna do this, hes gonna be the one in control, still. otherwise whats the whole fucking point of the bit theyre doing? so hes very strictly instructing benrey what to do, making him sit there and fold his goddamn hands behind his back and not touch, not move, just sit there and watch while gordon gets himself ready, because he dont trust like that. if benrey cant behave here, now, then gordon doesnt believe hell be able to behave when benreys got his dick in his ass. its like the apocryphal "green m&ms" story - if you cant obey the little rules, then theres no guarantee that you can obey the big rules, either

so benreys just watching, and hes fucking sweating, b/c he wants to be so fucking good right now. if he doesnt behave, hes not gonna get what hes wanted for so long, and gordon sure as shit wont let him do it again. so hes patient. he pants, open-mouthed, and his dick just twitches and bobs but he doesnt touch it b/c he wasnt told to. but man, is it hard when hes watching gordon get his fingers inside himself like that. watching his face turn red, watching him sweat, wanting it to be his fingers inside gordon so goddamn badly and just make him beg for more. but hes certain he cant get away with that, so he doesnt, and he just sits there and suffers

what if when gordon first takes benrey inside him, benrey notices a look of discomfort on gordons face that remains there for a hot minute. and slightly concerned, benrey speaks up, “yo you good? do we need to sto-“ and gordon is stubborn and insists he’s absolutely fine, hes completely cool, chill, all that. and hes got this.....! yknow, horny glare on his face, showing he means business and that hes so fucking into this, just as much as benrey is

gordon coming more and more undone as he fucks his own ass, his reprieved "control" on the situation slipping, benrey's listening the best he's ever listened and all of it's making gordon so goddamn hot. he tries to make it sound authoritative when he asks benrey to fuck him, it doesn't come out that way at all but benrey's so spellbound by the permission that he doesn't notice or care. just dives right in :)

then, finally, gordon feels like hes ready, and its really obvious how embarrassed he is even when hes trying to play at maintaining control over the situation. hes saying a lot of defensive shit like "dont say anything weird, dont make any weird fucking comments, just. look. if you wanna do this, then, uh. cmon." as he gets himself on his hands and knees and tugs benrey over to him by the collar and basically presents himself to be fucking mounted, because, you know, thats what theyre doing here. thats what their whole fucking game is

now. look. my benreys got a big dick. most benreys got a big dick. this benreys got a big fucking dick and gordon knows this real well by now, so hes insistent that benrey takes it as slow as possible. and it takes every goddamn ounce of his self-control to do as gordon asks, but its so worth it, because just that slow press inside of him for the first time is so, so good. gordons unbelievably tight, and hes making choked sounds and gasping and even though hes being super bossy, hes already gagging for it, practically. and like what you said: benreys fucking desperate to rail him into the ground, but hes also deeply invested in listening to exactly what gordon says and making it as good for him as he can

and he gets himself buried to the hilt, finally, after so long hes sure hed be going soft if it wasnt gordon, if he wasnt so deeply into being bossed around like this. and gordon breathlessly tells benrey to give him a moment, jesus, let him adjust. so he waits. and he waits. until gordon tugs at his leash, and tells him to move. but slowly, okay. so benrey does as hes told, and when he hits just the right pace, gordon does him the kindness of calling him a good boy and his fingers tighten instinctively on gordons hips

thats all he fuckin wants, bro. he wants gordon to call him a good boy and let benrey fuck him silly. (theyre getting to that second one.) slowly, gordon lets him pick up the pace, and hes trying to hard to maintain control but benreys dick is ruining him. gordons legs shake, his arms start to give way, and his back dips lower and lower while he raises his ass higher. and hes so fucking vocal. so much higher and louder than when hes topping. his mouths starting to run off, ordering benrey to fuck him harder while he gives that leash a sharp tug, and "good boy" spills from his lips with a greater frequency

and benreys just pressing him further and further into the mattress, legs braced around gordons in rut like a fucking mating press, and gordons really starting to lose control over the situation. benreys asking him shit like "yo......is it good bro? am i good?" because he just wants to hear it from gordon - yeah, hes good, hes doing so good, hes a good boy. hes gordons good boy. its some of the most effusive praise benreys gotten, and it goes straight to his head. and gordons pulling that leash so fucking tight, bending benrey over his back, while his orders for benrey not to stop begin to bleed into pleas and his babblings starting to get incoherent. and when hes like "please, oh god, im gonna come," benrey goes for the extra credit and reaches around to jerk him off and gordon just breaks

starts hardcore running his mouth and begging benrey to come in him, god, he can bite a little if he wants, its okay, just keep going, and gordon comes with the loudest wail benreys ever drawn out of him. and hes so overstimulated but he meant it when he said he wanted benrey to fuck him until he came, so hes mumbling about how good benrey is for him deliriously until benreys telling him thank you over and over again as he comes deep inside gordon. and then he pulls out and starts licking gordon and nuzzling his head into him and other gay shit while gordon pats his head and weakly reiterates that, yes, he was a good fucking dog and he did very fucking well, thank you

My Final Message. Good bye

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godza · 1 year ago

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i forgor. anyway. 5 hcs lets go

1. he plays hello kitty dream island like its his job. my mom has been playing that and she likes it so midori likes it too. he has unlocked everything possible. he has shown kanata around the underwater hangyodon area and thats all i know about the game since i immediately went underwater when handed my moms phone. he has maxxed out friendship with everybody and probably does in app purchases if those are available

2. his music taste is slow indie despite making the opposite of that. hes tried music composition but sucked ass and was too embarrassed to share lyrics she wrote. he also loves peppy anisongs to help him get through the day! he doesnt listen to music always, but loves the songs he listens to.

3. he loves cutesy anime magical girls. he has shed a tear while watching precure. he knows at least two love live dances he uses for dance practice. he actually likes physical exercise if its fun so he likes to learn dances to keep his own dancing sharp. he also will only sing anisongs in karaoke you cannot get her to sing anything else.

4. his shorter friends like to treat him like a taxi service. just climb on midoris back or shoulders and he'll take you wherever. he doesnt like the extra weight but will do it for his friends. shinobu prefers his shoulders, while tori goes for a full koala hug. hajime is too shy so he just gets a piggyback if midori offers. he likes to feed whoever is on him veggies from his bag. putting carrots into their mouth like an animal

5. after supervillain, he got a therapist and has been taking meds. its not just character development he got put on zoloft. he pays for it out of his own pocket since he doesnt want to trouble his family. a lot of idols go to the same practice so he sees other people come and go there. es doesnt have psychiatrists on hand but they can refer you to one because god knows these freaks need it!

this was soooo fun. i wanna do more but im sleepy. yknow what lightning round. he has a few online friends but he cant tell them hes an idol (probably nda) and theyre so confused by him. "my roommate knows way too much abt guns" "omg someones in the vents again" oh i think mayoi teaches shinobu how to use the vents so shinobu uses them to visit midoris dorm and jumpscare her. midori has thrown plushies directly at him. one time shinobu fell out and midori had to catch him. they both came out with so many bruises. ok thats enough ill talk forever about this guy if enabled

reminder that im midoris biggest fan. per each like of this post i will post a silly headcanon i have about her.

#t #i wanna play the game but my phones charging an my roommates here

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izukult · 4 years ago

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sorry i can’t have you? one up me? so this playlist isn’t part of the matchups i’m sorry😞🤝

here you go IDIOT CHILD ( @rat-bastar ) being your friend is so hard 😁

choke - i don’t know how but they found me

ok absolutely your vibes. if you got the chance you would bitch slap me, we both know it. you big ol bully. this is the vibey pop ish version of a villain song and it’s such a hype song in my opinion idk

love me dead - ludo

we’ve established its a good song ok🤝. idk lmao play this while you’re thinking ab your friend OR her ex gf ;) as of my knowledge those the mfs you simp for or whateva LMAO

lemons (demo)

please. PLEASE THIS ONE IS SO OBVIOUS. you vibes. absolute you vibes. you @ me. you @ everyone. you play this on full volume while you try to convince yourself you hate everyone. you play this while judging every violin player ever. you play this glaring at maliek or whagever his name is. this song is you

piano man - billy joel

i saw this on one of your playlists lol BUT i feel like this is something you would blare on the bus or on your way to a fucking debate tournament you fucking loser

hesitation - hot flash heat wave

such a good song. this also feels like something you would listen to while you think ab other people. i dunno it’s got that sweet, sweet ‘condescending to hide real emotions’ energy and it’s vibey and it’s kinda sad yea

waltz #2 (xo) - elliott smith

don’t even get me started on how big of an elliott smith can i was. you def give him vibes but i mean that as a compliment?? i can imagine you with ur head down hands in ur pockets being all bummed out and angry walking up the hill to ur house idk that’s very niche oddly specific? i never really realized this song had BIG BIG BIG you vibes until i started typing this but i’m listening to the lyrics and it’s like describing you go off ig

everyone hates his parents - falsettos

i know you love falsettos and we both know we love to shit talk our parents so. it just seems to make sense. ALSO i feel like we would argue like marvin and trina or marvin and whizzer or marvin and anyone LOL

colorful penguins - we shore is dedicated

ok i know iM the one working, but this song please. listen to it. listen to the music. to the tone of voice. to the certain old tavern rustic vibe. that’s you. i cant rly describe it but the vibe of this song is your vibe

beachboy - mccafferty

well we have the shared mother’s name in the beginning there and that’s fun for me. also we know that i be smoking and yada yada and i know your friends do too and i feel like this song is just you dealing w ur friends dummy habits and angry fast sing

hannah - swmrs

something about this song just feels like a convo we’d have?? like in my head i can tell what you would say and what i would say IDK LMAO maybe that’s just me but it’s also a good song

problems - mother mother

this song. LMAOOOO. the way you constantly BULLY me i feel like this song is how you present urself to other ppl v some deep shit like how you feel ab urself idk i’m not ur therapist ur apparently mine w how much you be psychoanalyzing me🤨. ALSO you’d scream this dont argue w me

i love you like an alcoholic - the taxpayers

multiple things here. again those crusty cobblestone streets at night after it rains where someone’s getting murdered in an alleyway vibes that you give. and i feel like if u were ever like <3 at someone, this is how you’d feel idc bitch

seashore - the regrettes

i love this band sm pls i want to kiss her. ANYWAY feels again like a you @ the world song. you just feel like someone who would shove someone in a trash can if they said one wrong word about you & i rly appreciate it

gooey - glass animals

this song feels like something that would be on a playlist with “i know this:” and i thought you’d like those vibes. sorry for the peanut butter reference

chicago - flipturn

you feel like someone who would let me play flipturn and pretend to hate it cos you pretend to hate everything i do but actually vibe w it so

everybody loves raymond (except for me) - mookamay

this is the girl i was tellin u ab who wrote the songs ab me YEA THIS IS ONE OF THE SONGS AB ME SO I FIGURED YOU WOULD APPRECIATE A SONG THAT WAS KIND OF A SLIGHT TO ME SO LMAO I PUT IT ON THERE. basically this is a song ab someone literally getting tired of ME so yknow felt fitting 😁‼️ (this one is mostly a joke and i will probably take it off the playlist but it still stands)

power over me - dermot kennedy

you seem like someone who would listen to dermot kennedy which is fair bc i used to scream this shit in the shower i would just have a lil concert and you give me the same vibe this one isn’t that deep

ghost duet - louie zong

lol some serotonin. just this playin in the background while u game

iris - the goo goo dolls

just a rly good song. just a rly good song that fits ur vibe. also if u were ever in love i also stand by saying you would listen to this & think ab them

dream sweet in sea major - miracle musical

if you were ever listen to “soft music🥺✊” this would be your version of it

bs - still woozy

I TOLD U TO LISTEN TO THIS AND I DONT THINK YOU DID YOU BITCH SO NOW I WILL FORCE YOU. also i have brown eyes so basically this is everyone including u @ me it’s ok ur human u can’t be blamed for acknowledging my charm ;) 😁🤝

paper thin hotel - matt maltese

you just seem like someone who would listen to him during a depressive episode

troubled mind - cannibal kids

cant find the right words for this one but like gives me you trying to be there for someone and coming off as apathetic and someone not knowing how to be a proper friend to you and yall just space vibes yknow what i mean?? Idk

bloom (bonus track) - the paper kites

if you and a girl (strictly a girl idc that this was written by a dude no fucking guy gets this song) were in love. like in any way. romantic love, platonic love, competitive love idgaf i just feel like THIS has the vibe for u

kill the director - the wombats

i don’t care THIS IS YOU IN LOVE. I THINK YOUD HATE HAVING REAL FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE. YOUD DEF BE THE PERSON TO IGNORE IT AND YOU BULLY THEM JUST A L I L EXTRA AND YOU DO LIL THINGS THAT SHOW U LIKE EM LIKE IF YOU RLY PAY ATTENTION YOU CAN PICK IT UP but no way you’re gonna express that shit LMAO

i got the blues - big bill broonzy

i dunno this ones just a banger

dirty imbecile - the happy first

this is you having a breakdown. that’s all! thanks queen!

under my skin - jukebox the ghost

very similar to lemons but also different?? you getting pissed at everyone but having a select couple ppl you cherish 👍

song for me - greer

where do i START? you not properly voicing emotions ? preppy pessimism ? dissociation ? vibing ? teen angst ? good vibes ? in love w ideas ?

my explanations aren’t as good as urs but also i’m cool so 👍 ur welcome you’ve been blessed by a personalized playlist from ME 🙄🙌 not from no bitchass capitalist anime character 😐

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tfw-no-tennis · 4 years ago

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mtmte liveblog issue 21

and here we go w/the end of the remain in light arc!

TAILGATE COMIN THRU W/THE SAVE, AS SOON AS THE ISSUE BEGINS...my BOY!!!!!!!!!!!

real Q is how tg managed that 9 ft vertical leap to reach tyrests head

tailgate is so brave and smart I love him ;_;

don't!!!!!! hit him tyrest!!!!!!! bastard!!!!!!!

AUGHHHH seriously tailgate is so brave, telling rodimus to kill tyrest even if it means tailgate will die even sooner - cause we know that even tho tg technically has a day and a half to live, he was hoping to find a cure on the moon - so he’s choosing to sacrifice that chance, however slim, to save everybody ;_; I love him

BUT THEN THE BIG SAVE FROMMMMMM - MINIMUS!!!!!!!!! HE ISNT DEAD, YAY!

‘fully deserved’ MINIMUS ILY

‘this calamitous life,’ the amazing titles continue. jro seriously has a knack for titles

OOOOH NOW WE GET THE SUPER SEXY PANEL OF CYCLONUS...the one where he’s half-shadowed with his sword, walking towards star saber as he challenges him...fucking epic you goth gay

and then the fucking ICONIC part where star saber is like ‘so I'm a religious zealot and that's why I fight, why do YOU fight?’ and cyclonus, never one for meaningless battle talk, just says ‘its personal’ and STABS OUT STAR SABERS FUCKING EYE WITH HIS HORN. CAN YOU SAY ICON??????

aughhhhh and then he says ‘[primus] lets the best of us get sick and die...,’ he’s talking about tailgate AUGHHHH he’s already in so deep, phewww

also can I just say. the harsh black shading/shadowing around cyclonus on these pages? fucking fantastic, it looks so damn good

especially cause star saber isn't shaded like that, so he looks brighter/lighter compared to cyclonus - that contrast is just [chefs kiss]

don't worry, cyclonus, you'll get your rematch. eventually

OHHHH I love the panel of rodimus like DAD WTF????? and minimus is just SO TINY

also I like the contrast of rodimus being covered in like, various chips and nicks and then minimus looks pristine bc he’s been russian nesting doll’d for who knows how long

minimus punching his way out of his own body shell? fucking gnarly

oh okay so we DO see brainstorm dying cause of the killswitch

wow pharma really escaped from his restraints like 4 seconds after being tied up, jesus guys he was RIGHT THERE how did nobody notice that

rung, is the reason you cant go thru the portal bc you feel guilty about the many hipaa violations you've committed? is that why?

SKIDS MAYBE YOU SHOULDNT GO THRU THE MYSTERY PORTAL MADE BY A CRAZY ZEALOT??? MAYBE THATS A BAD IDEA???

who am I kidding, this is skids we’re talking about, this is the kinda stuff he does

pharma why does everything you say and do have such horny energy to it

oh first aid looking SCARY AS HELL over here

again, love the harsh shading on first aid’s face here as he solidifies his murderous intent into actual murder

and there he goes blasting pharma’s entire head off. phewwwwww. so pharma definitely deserved that, but poor first aid

rung watching this happen: welp there's another extremely traumatized person to add to my mile-long list of ‘people who really really need therapy’

alternatively...rung: don't worry first aid he probably isn't dead, the same thing happened to me and I survived :)

first aid: biTCH WHAT [grabs gun]

rlly tho poor first aid, even tho pharma really did deserve that, that's still really tough for somebody who, yknow, dedicated their life to healing people

like, pharma is out here disregarding the hippocratic oath in the most extra and horny way possible, but first aid is putting aside his vows in the saddest way possible (sad for him, not pharma)

also the fact that even if pharma is dead, that doesn't make ambulon any less dead either, PLUS all of the bs w/delphi...first aid’s rlly been thru it huh

good thing perceptor is here to whip up a completely ridiculous sci-fi device at the last possible second

also, rodimus t-posing...or rather jesus-posing...I see it

oh my god minimus is so fcking tiny. I cant...I love it. I'm so sad we never got to see his alt mode

percy: yeaahhhhh this might kill you. anyways, FOR SCIENCE!

NOOOO DONT LET TYREST SPEAK

oh god and then minimus tells rodimus that he disapproves of his leadership skills, just as rodimus is about to maybe die. phewwww brutal

and then minimus just tears into him about specific incidents (including possibly mentioning thunderclash? I cant remember the timeline on all that lmao)

ooooof I completely forgot that magnus DID lure them there - though obviously he thought things would go a bit different

HHHHHHHHHHHHH MANNNN and then rodimus admits to it - he brought overlord on board. whoa!

I remember that shocked me when I first read it. I was also like, damn how many people brought overlord on board????? it seemed like a lot lmao

god and the fact that prowl goaded rodimus into doing it by being all like ‘what are you SCARED?????’ oooof. that's a blow, the fact that rodimus let that get to him instead of saying ‘uh yeah why would I NOT be scared of overlord’ and telling prowl to screw off

GOD I love rodimus, he’s such a flawed and interesting character

perceptor, who probably heard all of that and really wishes he didn't: ok guys ready to do science????

but rodimus, self-sacrifice is the (optimus) prime way!

now we go over to skids, to see what he’s up to...I fucking ADORE the scenery, mannnnnnnnnn

skids is such a good boy, he just sees this weird glowy orb and is like ‘hi there! hello!’ so GOOD

and then the orb starts talking in pictures, which is sure something!

ahHA I see that symbol!!! I see what's going on here!

and the last-minute science McGuffin worked! woohoo!

the tiny swerve in the corner of the panel where the legislators storm in....TINY

mannn I just love the lighting in the panels w/cyclonus and whirl. so atmospheric

cyclonus, you cant kill whirl, he’s gonna turn out to be your ultimate wingman

oh god the panel of skids running out of the portal just reminded me that his feet are so wack hbvsdjkhfbhjksdf and that one post talking abt it where someone edited crocs onto him...never forget

pharmas body being stolen 👀👀👀

ALSO look I figured out emojis on the computer! I'm such a tech genius lmao

I love minimus firing a gun that's as big if not bigger than he is

there goes tailgate being tiny and brave again 😭

THE SEMI COLONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

TAILGATE MVPPPPP

but then he just falls over 😭😭😭

and we’re back on the lost light! time to figure out what’s happened in the meantime

GODDDDDDDDDDDD IM LOSING IT IM STR8 UP LOSING IT....cyclonus singing to tailgate the whole time that he’s dying....im gonna cry

oh god the panel where cyclonus is bowing his head over tailgate, and the death clock is just There, reading 11 minutes....HHHHHH

GOD GOD GOD and then the heartcrushing reveal that tailgate was literally fucking 2 WEEKS OLD when he was trapped for 6 million years, so essentially he’s been alive for like a year and a half, GOD,

and it’s like, tfs aren't ever really babies or children - I mean, tg may be 2 wks old but he clearly was operating as an adult right before he was trapped - but still man, STILL

and godddd tailgate’s whole little speech about how saving the day is overrated compared to the little moments in life, like movie night or hanging out at the bar with friends....that GETS ME man, that's so poignant and real and relatable, bc often the best things in life are the small moments...AUGH

seriously I've talked a lot about how much I commend jro for writing the cybertronians as such Aliens, with their own completely unique culture and world that arose from them being quasi-immortal alien robots, but I also have to admire how relatable and human a lot of the writing is - the emotions come through so solidly, and really pack a punch. there's a perfect balance of completely foreign sci-fi worldbuilding and touchingly relatable emotional beats....fantastic stuff

anyways. time to continue to feel Big Emotions

fuck that's so messed up, tailgate asking cyclonus to mercy kill him...like it isn't fucked up for tailgate to ask that, because he’s dying and of course he doesn't want it to be worse than it already will be, but the situation is just so fucked up and tragic

hhhh but cyclonus would never kill tailgate because he’s holding on to hope until the very last minute....

I fuckgin love that panel of cyclonus enthusiastically running thru the halls. he has great form

‘yeah we found a cure but it’s too late for tailgate’ that's fucking brutal, jesus

also, swerve taking a break from bartending to bust out some science and cure cybercrosis, nice

I know I literally haven't shut up about it this entire time but the whole page where cyclonus comes in and stabs tailgate thru the chest just looks so 👌🏼👌🏼

now that I've figured out emojis I'm unstoppable

anyways, cant believe they really let us think that cyclonus mercy killed tg like that, jesus

tho iirc jro really WAS gonna kill tailgate originally, but then decided not to which, thank god

and there's magnus, back to being Large and In Charge

and rodimus didn't die! nice. you've still got plenty of character development in store for you my boy

looking very sinister and mad-scientist-y there, brainstorm....

god I love brainstorm. I cant fuckign wait til the time travel arc

ok wtf happened to tyrest???? I mean we’ll eventually find out what happened to him but like, did rodimus & co just leave him there? he clearly wasn't dead...shouldn't they have arrested him or something?

ooooh the ominous shot of luna 1 with The Symbol and stuff....hellooooo

then we flash to cyclonus - now sporting two horns!!! - saying that tailgate is ALIVE!!! thank goodness.....

ah, I love magical alien robot medical nonsense so much

see cyclonus? aren't you glad you didn't kill whirl now?

so cyclonus basically has the spark of a newborn, and tailgate is essentially a newborn - yet they're both also old men...they're a perfect match

and the final panel of magnus telling cyclonus ‘welcome aboard’ 🥰🥰

so, this issue! THIS ISSUE....this ARC....ill talk about the issue first - as I said frequently above, I feel like the art and colors were especially strong this issue, with all the different settings having very unique palettes and visual tones. the shadowing stuff was my favorite, and I also think the paneling was really good - there were multiple pages where the entire page was one drawing, and it was overlaid w/other panels and then the background drawing is visible in the middle/bottom - it’s hard to describe but I think it looks so dynamic and cool

as for the actual story this issue...SO good. things were tied together so nicely, both for this arc and the entire series as a whole so far, and we got plenty more intrigue for future issues even as we closed out a lot of big plot points, and had a lot of status quo changes (no more matrix map! we found luna 1...but lots of crazy shit happened there! etc!)

particularly, the reveal that rodimus was in on the whole overlord thing...that was shocking and perfect, and puts all the previous issues in a new light. this is where I feel like mtmte is a series you absolutely need to read twice (at least), preferably in quick succession (which is what I did - I read it once then before I even finished started reading thru w/ruth, which also helped me pick up on a lot bc I had to explain stuff to her)

anyways, that reveal makes drift’s banishment even more brutal, bc rodimus got off basically fine, along with brainstorm and chromedome (though cd losing rewind was certainly punishment enough). I love the scene of magnus tearing into rodimus about his leadership skills, right as rodimus is ABOUT TO MAYBE DIE. magnus thats kinda brutal, I love it.

as we’ve seen in the series so far, rodimus is definitely a Flawed Hero (all the incidents that magnus brings up prove that), but I feel like this reveal takes it to the next level, and I love that. and I love rodimus saying that he doesn't want to die, he wants to live so he can atone - also, looking at the series as a whole, I adore that this wasn't like, The Final Turning Point for rodimus - it wasn't like he went all uphill from here, development wise...nope, he goes on to make plenty more mistakes, and has to learn from those too, because that's how it works! and I love that

oh man what I also love about rodimus - he seems at first to be the ‘overly confident loose canon action hero star’ type who thinks on the fly and gets it right every time, even if things realistically shouldn't always go his way - but we quickly find out that that isn't quite the case, and I feel like it culminates here w/the overlord reveal. like, yeah, that was a huge fuckup, and you wouldn't really see the blandly perfect 80s blockbuster protag do something like that - or rather, it wouldn't be framed as a big deal

my last liveblog was for hxh, a show that subverts a LOT of shounen anime tropes, and I feel like rodimus’s complex, flawed approach to heroism feels a bit like a genre subversion a la hxh - at the very least, it’s a subversion of what you expect from him as a character upon introduction and first impressions

anyways - I talked abt it above, but I feel like this arc is really the culmination of the whole blending of ‘very human emotions’ with ‘completely alien sci-fi worldbuilding.’ we get to learn a lot about the tfs with the reemergence of luna 1, and we get a lot of threads for future worldbuilding here - but we also get some really fantastic, complex emotions - like tailgate and cyclonus’s (seemingly doomed) romance starting to blossom, ratchet and pharma’s showdown which culminates in tragedy, magnus having the grapple with his identity, rodimus’s deathbed confession, even smaller moments like whirls speech about why he doesn't get ‘fixed,’ and first aid killing pharma then collapsing with grief - there's so much good stuff

also, I gotta talk about magnus bc I love him...the whole russian nesting doll lore is one of my absolute favorite things that mtmte brought to the table, the whole concept is fantastic and adds so many layers to magnus’s character

I just love the magnus armor as this literal physical embodiment of a job - its like minimus is wearing his ‘work clothes’ All The Time. so obviously, storytelling wise, you gotta take that away and see what happens. and I love how this begins minimus’s arc of self-acceptance that spans basically the entire series - it’s seriously one of my favorite character arcs in the whole series, in part because of how subtle it is - it never really takes center stage at any point, we just see the slow progression as the story more forward. aughhhh I just love magnus, he’s such an interesting character

also, Latin talk - I adore the fact that ‘magnus’ basically means ‘big’ (or ‘great/greatest’) - like in your skull, the largest hole that your brainstem passes through in your ‘foreman magnum’ (translation: ‘big hole’) - meanwhile ‘minimus’ is Latin for ‘small/smallest’ (or something along those lines). it’s so poetic, I love it

ill defs talk more about rodimus and magnus and stuff at a later point - ill also do my biological/reproductive spiel at some point, bc I couldn't really find a good chance here. bummer

more at the end, but I gotta read the short story first!

oh man I almost forgot about the canon fanfic here at the end, so: the sound of breaking glass! let’s do it!

so we pick back up during the span of time right after all the on-page Drama - glad we’re filling that stuff in, mostly bc I love the characters and want to see more of them

love the snippets of all the calls that rodimus makes

minimus noting that rodimus has ‘given more orders in the space of 3 minutes than he had in the last 12 months,’ wow. I feel like that has to be in response to minimus criticizing his leadership - and rodimus definitely looks up to magnus as a leader (and bc magnus is his dad ok) and took what he said to heart

goddddd minimus and rodimus having a serious and depressing convo about how many people have died in the last day or so, and then brainstorm skips into the vicinity and dances around (I'm assuming bc SCIENCE!)....glad you’re having a good time, brainstorm, because literally nobody else is. I fuckgin love brainstorm. king of not reading the atmosphere

I feel like rung meeting w/max for an unofficial therapy session in a busted up bar perfectly represents the state of the mental health facilities of cybertron/its affiliates

rodimus talking about redecorating - aw my boy, but that stuffs part of your personality, you don't have to suppress it to be more professional

I do find it interesting that rodimus’s idea for what he’d have instead in his office - only the basics, and a memorial - seems like the kind of thing that magnus would do. I feel like in telling magnus about the overlord stuff, and magnus criticizing rodimus, rodimus is (consciously or not) trying to make himself more like magnus

also, rodimus my man, changing your office to be more ‘serious’ isn't the kind of atonement you should be looking to do - in fact, that seems more performative than anything, trying to change people’s perception of him as a leader rather than making changes that will actively prevent similar mistakes from repeating in the future. I'm totally overanalyzing but I love rodimus okay, he’s so interesting bc he’s always Trying, in some way

oh god I forgot there's a little flashback to drift and rodimus’s final convo w/the whole overlord thing

hhhhhhhhhh rodimus and drifts relationship is so fascinating and I could talk abt it for ages. the fact that drift basically always tells rodimus what he wants to hear, and that's an arrangement that benefits both of them, but they're also surprisingly aware of it? and there's a lot more depth too, with rodimus being very aware of the fact that drift had to spend a lot of time gaining trust w/the autobots, and drift likely thinking about how rodimus trusting him probably gave him cred in this respect...

AUGHHHH and the fact that rodimus seems 100% ready to take the fall for this and resign as captain and whatnot....

and then drift wont let him - but even so, drift taking the whole fall and being exiled was pretty rough (which is talked abt in brainstorms trial later), and rodimus has to feel super guilty for that too, wondering if there were other options...

meanwhile at swerves bar...does brainstorm not remember the whole thing where getaway took the briefcase clamps to use in the escape from the cell? I'm assuming brainstorm consented to this...there was a lot of wacky thought warfare type stuff going on this arc so who knows. or maybe someone did tamper w/the case aside from that - I genuinely don’t remember lmao

‘brainstorm laughed and clapped swerve on the shoulder, agitating an old injury and making the bartender flinch’ OOOH I SEE THAT 👀👀👀

god I love how threatening and sinister pre-time travel arc brainstorm is, god. I love brainstorm

and the 0.1%er spark!!! helloooo

the mental imagine of minimus with just the lower leg part of the magnus armor on lmao...He Boot Too Big For He Gotdam Feet

oooh I love that ratchet knew about the armor this whole time...

oh man I love what ratchet says about how people who’ve known ultra magnus for a long time ‘make allowances’ to account for differences in personality brought on by different suit wearers...that makes a lot of sense actually. the kind of retroactive thinking of like, ‘yeah I've known this person for ages, could've sworn they quite weren't like this before, but...yknow, it’s not like they're THAT different, I'm probably just remembering wrong/time changes people’

its trippy as hell to read getaway and rodimus interacting in a way that isn't absolutely rife with conflict and drama

oh I see getaway casually wondering about being a matrix-bearer, I SEE that

I do really like fort max becoming the new enforcer, and as rodimus says, just bc tyrest lost his marbles doesn't mean the position isn't still important - it still holds a lot of weight and power

RED ALERT!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😭💕 I'm so glad he came back and also gets to go retire and join a polycule. blessed

‘he pictured ultra magnus listening to him and nodding sagely at his words’ rodimus ily

oh ok so tyrest is like, in a (possibly medically induced) coma of sorts

and they FINALLY got comms up and running - that only took most of the story

oh my god and the reveal that STARSCREAM is the one leading cybertron....bro bvhjakdhnfjksdf

omg outrigger, isn't he the youtube vlogger guy?

welp, that coma sure didn't keep tyrest down for long. first pharma escaping his bonds within seconds, now this...

also I'm assuming the implication here is that tyrest clenching his fist like that activated the same type of switch as in the magnus armor - I wonder if there were theories about tyrest also being a small dude in armor lol

THE END! of this arc that is. and s1 of mtmte I believe? or I think issue 22 is the end of the season proper? ill do my s1 retrospective then, this particular liveblog is already so long

anyways, final thoughts - as I talked about above, I love this arc SO much, the overarching story was great, the way it tied together so much of the series so far was great, the characters and relationships were great - I love it.

reading it now, I feel like so much bonkers stuff happened this arc, and yet even CRAZIER stuff happens later, and often in much quicker succession, so this arc feels kinda normal in comparison bvjahdknfajksdfnkjl

but I do think that mtmte does a great job building up to that craziness - things do get pretty crowded in lost light just bc it had to be rushed, but other than that factor, I think the scale/ambition of the plotlines are perfectly built up to as the story moves along

so yeah, I still love this arc. I'm curious if it’ll still be my fav arc alongside the time travel arc - idk, I feel like I might end up being surprised by another arc I didn't consider that'll knock remain in light out of its spot

tho I will say, the arcs are all so different in a lot of ways that its hard to really compare them, even tho its all the same story. I love all of it tbh

so yeah, this liveblog ended up being super fucking long but mannnn great arc! cant wait for more!

#lj rereads mtmte #this is so damn long lmao

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