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happenssweet · 20 days ago

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hit 300 and 50k sometime this week i do not even have words tbh.

plotting fine line now.

#happenssweet speaks #happenssweet is bad with words #and she also just woke up from a four hour nap #after not sleeping all night IT’S FINE #plotting scheming planning

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year ago

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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

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deus-ex-mona · 4 months ago

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i miss her…

#cant believe i forgot about her till the photobook q&a im so sorry witch mona~~~~~~~#press f for honeypre atelier gachas it was gone too soon™️#(currently e x t r e m e l y worried and stressed for tomorrow like never before b u t i have to appear like im fine sobs save me monachann)#(can i go on a stress-prompted tangent here about something inane? no? toooo bad im gonna go off anyway~~~~)#ok so. like. since witch mona is the image i have up ‘ere and since it’s still 七月… today’s tangent will be on irl spooky stories!!#s o. presenting a decently repressed memory from my childhood that resurfaced while i was hibernating at home:#anyways. well. thoughts about the afterlife can vary from person to person yes? there’s no one true correct belief after all #but the one question that unites us all is probably the one and only ‘are ghosts real?’#and well. for personal reasons i think so. i mean i’ve seen this one dude i hate get possessed a couple of times so welp. cant deny it ig.#wild story about that actually. back in the day my family’s finances were allegedly doing so badly that [dude i hate] had to pick up #a *c e r t a i n* side hustle for extra cash. that side hustle? literal grave digging at the cemetary. at night no less #and *ofc* he wasn’t respectful about it in the least so ofc some spirits followed him home. yay. free roommates.#one(?) of them even took residence in my room at the time and im 80% sure they ate my history textbook :( much sads #anyways well once that guy had too much to drink (which was rather often tbh) he’d get possessed. fun!#the only possession i ever saw was the n-rarity angry ghost who’d just huff and puff in silence with unfocused eyes most of the time #he’d occasionally put on a leather jacket too. but that was like a r-rarity event that didn’t happen that often #my mother had the chance to also witness the mosquito (who tried to barge into my room for fresh blood) and the 姑娘 (self-explanatory)#which is kinda unfair tbh. i wanted to see the ur-rarity ones too :( mostly bc it’d be funny to see a guy i hate act ooc (impure intentions)#oh right. how did we get the dude out of his possession? we just shook his arm really hard. prolly caused some lasting effects but who know #i think he could also just sleep off the possession but idk i was asleep for the ur-rarity incidents.#cant ask the one witness of it bc i dont want to bring back unnecessary flashbacks of [guy we hate]#anyways it’s been years since we moved out from that place and i still want my history textbook back. mostly for the principle of it but—#and so that’s the tangent of the day. i feel weirdly less stressed now thanks witch mona #i do wonder how my grandparents are faring on this 七月 though…#b u t !!!!! tomorrow’s date on the lunar calendar says it’s an auspicious day for wishful activity and starting a new job!!! so… maybe~~~~?#hauauauauauauauuauaaaaaa anyways insane tangent over stream mona’s new album ok bye #oops forgor to disable rbs i hate how easy it is to forget to use this function man

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disappointeddyke · 3 months ago

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I think I’m starting to burn out

#worked alottt yesterday and did a shit job giving a little presentation to parents and families for curriculum night #didn’t get home til after 8 from the school #teacher development day today so all the teachers get time to prep but as the art teacher I’m forced to work childcare/babysit all day #not like I need to prep lessons it’s fine #and then I go to my second job 9-2am tonight #I can’t wait to sleep all fucking day tomorrow and have a little self care weekend #was so excited to have Monday off too but now my second job wants me to come in to do a narcan and de-escalation training so #I’m just so tired #mine

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mr-urple · 5 months ago

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Sometimes I hate having the latest timezone because I get really insecure at night but everyone's asleep so I can't ask for a hug from my family and god it kind of sucks

#It's nice being up the latest because then I can somewhat ensure everyone else sleeps at peace (SOMEWHAT)#but god sometimes I wish I could be the one who's wished a good night after letting out my late night thoughts #not condemning anyone btw I just #Idk I'm gonna make vent art like usual it's the only thing i have #sorry if im worrying anyone im fine i swear i just need to calm the fuck down #why am i like this im so sorry everyone maybe i should just leave #i dont do anything good for anyone anyways im not that important all i do is just make everyone worry about me #i dont really do anything to help anyone im so useless im so pathetic maybe i should just delete my account and disappear #fuck im venting again i gotta shut the fuck up #im sorry #im so sorry ignore me please im probably gonna delete this in the morning or soemthign im just being stupid like usual #maybe this is why my dad always calls me a useless retard

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danielnelsen · 5 months ago

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update: peach is doing very well!! she's eating and sleeping normally (sleeping more than normal, really, but that's to be expected)!! after 3 days of not sleeping and a few changes in painkillers, she finally just napped for an hr then, after another day, slept through the whole night (and most of the next day). she's started following all her usual routines again and is very keen to eat! still on some painkillers, but they're not having any horrific side effects anymore

now that im not staying up to keep an eye on her all night (while also dealing with upgrading my computer and my phone and also my sister preparing to go overseas and the dogs barking and howling constantly due to all of the above), i finally got some decent sleep too and slept for about 14 hrs. so today ive got that weird shakiness that i get from sleeping too much, but hey it's better than the whole of the last week

#personal #and i have a working computer that's finally on windows 10 so that's one less thing to have background stress about #and i have a working phone for the first time in.. a year? 1.5 years? idfk. my previous phone was 16gb so i could fit like 2 apps #could barely take pictures (and couldnt store them) and couldnt update most of my apps because i couldnt update my os because no space #so every app ran slow and then eventually my phone would crash if i opened the storage section of the settings #so i couldnt even offload apps so i could delete them while keeping the data for when i downloaded them again #couldnt order medicine remotely because my chemist only lets you do that from the app (not the website)#couldnt control the aircon because that could only be done through an app #missed loads of stuff because i didnt have email notifications because i could only use my browser for emails #couldnt see tumblr polls on mobile because i couldnt update tumblr because i couldnt update my os #left the house less because i had to delete pokemon go and that genuinely helped me go for walks #ive been dealing with all that for a year so this is very exciting and such a ridiculous qol boost #it sucks how much something like that affects your life. what do you mean i need an app for everythingggg #but god im just glad peach is ok. like there was a moment when i was so stressed trying to update my computer because it wasnt working #and then she ate a small bit of food for the first time in 3 days and just. everything was suddenly fine again #and the other night i spent like 6 hrs just sitting here downloading and installing things on my computer #but it was fine because peach was on the chair next to me sleeping through the whole night and it was such a relief #my sister finally got her flight yesterday (after it was moved four days in a row) so that's just one less thing happening #ive started playing bg3 so that's cool and maybe ill get a chance to actually properly watch that new dav trailer lmao #that premiered at 2am on the first night peach was home from surgery and hadnt eaten or slept yet and i was too stressed to care about dav #and it really just went downhill for the next few days #god. ok. today is the first day i can actually breeaaaathe

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shanedoesdoodles · 6 months ago

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I don't think just thinking about my work should cause me a panic attack bad enough to nearly make me faint.

I don't think the work environment that produces that reaction should be considered a good one

#My manager overrided the scheduling system to give almost everyone who's off on Saturdays an early morning Saturday parade shift #Her reasoning is that “If you can't work Saturdays you shouldn't be working anywhere at all”#Which is bizarre for multiple reasons but also her boss is completely fine with us having Saturdays off #But he can't do anything about this because he's in Hawaii #Which also leads to other things that need to be unpacked such as how he can afford that while we're getting paid 10 an hour minus tips #But anyways I have a closing shift before Saturday which meaning I won't be home till around 12 #And ive done some calculations based off of how long it takes me to get ready before and after a shift #And it seems like I'll only have about 5 hours of sleep max between the two shifts #Not to mention that the day after closing shifts I can barely walk due to the strain of the previous night #So that will heavily effect the morning shift #And on Saturday I also have another thing to go two 2 hours after I get off of work #I've asked twice if someone could cover my shift with no reply despite others being answered within seconds #I'm going to fucking die y'all

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almond-tofu-chan · 10 months ago

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chainsaw man makes you think its a sick action anime where a horny guy made of chainsaws murders a bunch of guys and gets a sorta fucked up found family along the way, but then you watch it and its actually about a 15 year old boy getting groomed and everybody hates everyone else but theyre mostly busy hating themselves and then everyone dies

#csm spoilers #chainsaw man spoilers #they introduce like 8 characters in one episode and then kill them like two episodes later #half the characters in the intro dont show up until yhe very last episode and they all get like one line apiece #not eyepatch finding out denji is a minor and then STILL TRYING TO SLEEP WITH HIM???#'i didnt take advantage of you last night right? oh good i totally wouldve gone to jail'#HELLO????? DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF????????#ik anime is like that but i still just couldnt stomach the show after that #she died like 5 minutes later tho so it was fine #you lied to me i was promised found family #and i got a bunch of fucked up teens who need therapy but instead get groomed #feel bad show of the year #i get its not supposed to make you feel good by the end #and maybe its really effective for that #but i was upset by the wrong things i think #i didnt care when any of the characters died because they had just been introduced like one episode agu #i didnt even remember any of their names #honestly not a good show #ive never liked mappas stuff #theyre allergic to filler and thats their proboem #they dont take the time to make me care about the characters before they kill them #tl;dr i didnt like it #chainsaw man #csm

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pynkhues · 5 days ago

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I've noticed that if I type 'iwtv' or 'lestat/louis'.. in the search bar and don't put hashtags infront of the word your posts show up. I don't know if that is how more ppl found your blog but just letting you know! Though maybe I'm doing smth wrong bc I haven't used tumblr for a long time

Oh gosh, that's - - well! Okay! Hahah, I honestly checked to make sure things weren't easily searchable when I started posting, and thought I was flying pretty under the radar, so this is news to me.

#i feel like the homer simpson gif of just slowly walking back into the bushes now lmao #i mean it's fine #i'm less pedantic about it since we got through court #i just didn't have the spoons for fandom outside my little bubble when i was getting three hours sleep a night #getting my sister ready for her divorce and custody trial after splitting with her abusive ex #especially after i became a witness #(which is NOT an experience i recommend by the way)#but yeah we're through the weeds of that now just waiting for a verdict #so i'm a lot more relaxed about it all rn really #even if i do generally speaking still try to avoid main tags for replies #(i do put them on sometimes #like i did for the byronic hero post and that sort of thing #but these days i'm also conscious of spamming tags given i reply to quite a lot of asks)

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fitpacs · 9 months ago

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#not maintagging #my last reblog was like a minute before q went live #i feel sick like this whole situation is fucking awful #nobody is benefitting from anything anymore it’s so sad #i’m going to get some sleep anyway but just wanted to say i likely won’t be reblogging any posts about the stream #but i watched it so please don’t take me not reblogging as ignorance #anyway it’s been a fucking long day so i’m off for the night #look after yourself and others especially after all that’s happened lately #also i’ll be fine but remember you’re allowed to feel however you feel rn it’s valid #i appreciate you all endlessly - goodnight x

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slaytanic · 1 year ago

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My doggo is sick again (twice in two weeks...) and the thing that comforts me now (other than his vet telling that he'll be fine - apparently it's "just" a virus but he's almost 17, so we need to be extra cautious) are colorful, christmas bandages that she wraps his little leg in. So far, we've got white in red Santa hats, blue in white snowmen, red in black socks, and today he got purple with black presents on it 🥹

#slaytanic speaks #i havent sleep last night because i was constantly checking up on him #and when my mum brought him back from the vet and i saw that little bandage...#i went awww poor baby #but after his medicines we went on a little walk and he was so excited about fresh snow because it was snowing all night and in the morning #so i really hope hes gonna be fine really soon 🥺

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avaritia-ffxiv · 1 month ago

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I am. So mad. About the lack of region travel. Like I was already before! 'Cause you know, Gia's on NA but my ping there is lmao awful, which sometimes makes content a bit annoying (the cannons in M4 man. The cannons). And I can't play with any of my friends in EU, or the FC that I'm in from when I was still primarily playing on EU. I want to get back to running maps for them!!! That was fun!!!!

But also, when you have a character on EU. I've been playing Saga, and he's on Chaos, and just. The place is fucking dead. It's so fucking dead. On Aether I can queue for anything any time of the day, and depending on the hour it is for NA, the wait times can be longer, but the q will still pop eventually for just about anything.

EU? Haha good fucking luck if you're trying to do something like alliance outside of the more active hours. Saga's needed to do the CT raids to progress the ARR patches, and timing when I'm going to queue based on the hour of the day is just. IF WE HAD REGION TRAVEL I COULD JUST GO TO NA AND GET IT DONE. YOSHI P. WHY.

So anyway I still haven't gotten WoD done 'cause I tried to queue at 9am on a weekday while waiting for my dog to finally come out of her carrier. I'm glad she likes the carrier even after getting brought home from the vet in it yesterday, but man if getting her out of there against her will isn't an exercise in futility.

#sometimes having my main on NA when i'm on an european time zone myself is a bit... annoying #'cause a lot of the time the FC runs events what's the middle of the night for me #and you know #sleep #sleep is good #sometimes i stay up late or get up extra early to join for something but yh #but at this point i'm so frustrated with EU that i'd rather take the time zone and ping management NA is #region travel would solve everything #all of my grievances! gone!!#as for kitty #i put the blanket i had in the carrier to the washing machine right after we got home #and replaced it with a clean one that wouldn't have Vet Scents #and it's also SUPER soft and fluffy #she would've still preferred to get on the couch but i'd removed her steps #'cause she was so shaky on her feet that would've just ended in disaster #i let her on the couch now tho 'cause she was doing fine on our lil walk and all

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that-was-anticlimactic · 10 months ago

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just accidentally spilled an entire water bottle on my bed :)

took my sheets off and put a towel over it. then looked up what to do just in case and. like everything said "use a fan" and "mold could happen so be careful" and now i am Terrified of getting mold since so much spilled and since i don't have any fans. i am so tired oh my god i just want to go to bed

#like genuinely terrified of it molding now #so that's great :)#i just wanna go to bed but i feel like i have to tend to my mattress #but i won't be able to work well tomorrow if i stay up super late tending to a mattress i can't even sleep on tonight #ugh sorry the thought of having to buy a new mattress bc of mold Terrifies me #i am a teacher universe like i save a lot but i do not make a lot of money :)#anyways sorry for rambling it's been one of those nights #i was actually having a pretty good day until then #i was getting settled in for the night... put my water bottle down on my bed while i went to piss #and then i was going to get in it and lie down after a long day of work #aND IT FELL AND SPILLED #like yeah that's on me for being stupid but i like keeping water in my room!!! that one hadn't spilled before so i thought i'd be fine for #the few minutes i'd be gone but nooooooo #okay i'm done now sorry #super tired and super paranoid #and my mom said to put my mattress pad over the shower like bestie i live in an apt you think i'm putting my WHITE mattress pad on the rod?#absolutely not i know that's pathetic of me but idc i DON'T do stains not at all nope nope nope #okay done now for real sorry #just freaked :)#corey talks:)

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seventh-district · 2 months ago

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#vent #vent post #cw negative #Seven’s Public Diary #wish i wasn’t so fucking worthless and useless and stupid and selfish and mean #i am just so goddamn sick of my own bullshit. but i never change #i’m so tired of being weighed down by my 56492 mental illnesses. i don’t like being like this #my sleep schedule is so fucked up again and im tired of this constant cycle #this constant fight and endless effort to stay on a goddamn routine #all i want for christmas is a goddamn consistent sleep schedule #i hate sleeping through the day and being up all night but it’s like my body was fucking built for that or something #i don’t like it!! i want to be an early bird who goes to bed at 8pm and wakes up before the sun rises!!! but im the exact opposite!!!!!!!#i wish i just didn’t need to sleep at all. that would be the ideal. so many problems would be solved.#no i Really wish i just had the ability to fall asleep and wake up whenever i actually Want To instead of my body calling the shots #fell asleep at 9 this morning and im so mad that i didn’t get up when i was woken up at 11 #a 2hr nap would’ve been fine and i would’ve made it through the rest of the day and been able to fucking sleep again tonight #but noOOooOoOo i had to give in to the allure of my warm cozy bed and fall back asleep for 9 more goddamn hours #now once again im too awake and rested to be able to go back to sleep. but once morning rolls around im gonna be exhausted again #and i’ll either give in and attempt to take a ‘nap’ and it’ll turn into a 12hr sleep again #or i’ll have to like. walk laps around the fucking house just to keep myself awake through the day #and i’ll be super irritable as a result and make everyone around me miserable too #but everyone is already beyond fed up with my issues and behavior. rightly so i guess. so i lose either way #god there was so much stuff i was gonna/supposed to do today #i don’t know how much longer they’re gonna put up with me being such a deadbeat #you think that’d like. motivate me to get my shit together or something but no. i’m addicted to being unconscious i guess #sleep feels so fucking good. until i wake up. which is funny bc it’s all nightmares and stress dreams anyway. why do i even enjoy sleeping #i guess bc for the first few hours after waking up i experience some modicum of relief from my other mental illnesses’ symptoms #like a soft reset.#and it’s the Only thing that gets rid of my migraines so god forbid i get one of those bc then i Have to sleep regardless of the time of day #anyways! :) that’s enough whining for one vent post. time to go do something productive

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llycaons · 2 months ago

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I'm so glad charlie's posting excerpts from odd geometry bc I don't have the energy or time to do another reread rn...when I was editing I obviously had a lot of commentary and reactions but I can't do that rn 😔

#every few nights from a combination of my schedule not sleeping not seeing my loved ones and not being able to do hobbies night after night #and not seeing the sunlight and rotting at work AND going through the information for the dono lists I briefly break down into tears #like I'm fine but good god doesn't the horrific cruelty of the world just weigh on you all the time? doesn't it all seem so bleak?#but like. I'm fine. we just have to keep supporting each other. I just have very little emotional or mental energy to spare rn outside of t #cor.txt

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jynersq · 1 year ago

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#last night we were both a little sleepy.#a little wine-drunk.#i asked him to play me something on the guitar while i leaned on his shoulder.#he said he only knows a few songs. i said that's fine #whatever you want.#first song: like real people do by hozier #which has a very tender place in my heart because it's the last song i sang for a real performance (2015).#so i still know all the words.#and he didn't know that!#it just happened to be the song.#anyway it was 1230am. anyway my jacket smells like his apartment.#anyway early this morning i said i thought romance was built of small acts of devotion. like how every morning my dad makes my mom coffee #because she sleeps worse and takes longer to wake up and he wants her to not have to worry about another thing in the morning.#when she comes downstairs every day he has it ready for her to take to work.#he makes it separately because he drinks an entirely different coffee than she does. but he makes it because he wants her to have it.#it's one of many small repeated acts of love they do for each other. they're still in love with each other after 30 years.#anyway my boyfriend is a notorious instant coffee fiend.#it's easy and he likes the flavor.#but when we got up this morning he pulled out a bag of coffee beans and a hand-grinder and said: would you like me to make you coffee?

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