#adhd sucks like it does

[menacarychamber]

My honest confession I've been doing nothing but be on my phone for like a week i only wrote a bit today and that's it i feel like a dum dum right now help

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bros before Ho(oh my god is that Hanguang-Jun?)

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[puppyeared]

Pokeymon

@ask-willowleafeon @ask-shiny-umbreon

[us-the-voices-and-more-voices-2]

a quick reminder to everyone

I have SEVERE LEARNING DISABILITIES

I am literally disabled because of my learning disabilities, I have faced literal descrimnation because of it.

everytime you call us retarded or a retard you are ACTIVLY upholding the systems in which I am trapped in.

I take more offence in being called a retard than anything due to the literal DECADES of systematic abuse and descrimnation from the medical system, every single government resource, and almost all school alternatives.

fuck you greatly if you use these words against us, I have to live in a country where they hate people like me and would rather us dead than to do literally anything to help people like us.

call us what you will, but I will never call anyone retarded because it’s a basic decency reserved for everyone.

I’m a very happy retard, fuck your ableism!

I will happily live and love and learn even if THE LITERAL GOVERNMENT doesn’t want me too.

(yeah being a mid supports autistic with other learning disabilities and disabilities in general that made me unable to attend a school just means I deserve to die. 100% legit I deal with this literally all the time always fuck the Australian government)

so again fuck you all greatly, for using a literal slur against me one that has been used against me since I was a baby.

fuck you all, genuinely.

did I forfeit my rights to be treated as a human being the moment I had a bit of trouble learning things? Because if I did I’d like to break someone’s teeth with a brick.

Edit: the language and lines between what the fuck developmental disabilities and intellectual disability are is confusing as fuck.

I have gotten very confused between the 2 because they are grouped together half the time.

My apologies to everyone for being utterly confused where I fall because it is extremely confusing to figure out, and internationally it varies wildly according to my brief reading.

I did not mean to be mean or anything I just was genuinely going off what I’ve been told most my life lol.

Shout out to my developmentally disabled brethren you are loved

[the-toxinz-arcade]

ranbicblooded ..!

(ranbic-blooded) NOT FACTKIN NOT FACTKIN!!! LITERALLY CANNOT EXPRESS HOW NOT FACTKIN THIS IS!!! I AM JUST REALLY REALLY NORMAL ABOUT MY HYPERFIXATIONS GUYS!!!

a term for when one has the blood / DNA of Ranboo (METAPHORICALLY!!!) running through their veins.

[thefloatingstone]

You know what's a big problem that i have never seen ANYBODY talk about??

There are so many posts about needing to accommodate people in public who, due to a condition or mental health problem they have, might act out of the ordinary. People who talk to themselves or who have physical ticks etc etc. And the thing is I FULLY agree with this.

The PROBLEM is people who say this always seem to think any kind of nervous or fearful behaviour is ableist. That if you are unnerved and become afraid or just stressed while around them in public then the only reason for doing so is because you are being ableist.

But here's the thing;

I have a generalised anxiety disorder. It is a splinter skill caused by my ADHD. I can function but it is a constant in my every day life that manifests at different levels of intensity depending on what I'm doing. I am extremely lucky that I am not strongly affected by being in large crowds of people.

But you know what DOES raise my anxiety? Interacting one on one with people I am not super familiar with. Hell even people I AM super familiar with, I can be an anxious mess in my head even if I don't show it. Everything I say or how I react is measured in my head to see if I have done so "correctly" and I am constantly watching and analysing the other person's reactions to see how they respond to make sure I have not done something wrong that they might object to.

Now imagine taking THAT level of anxiety that is already amplified by FAMILIAR interaction with people i KNOW and picture how that anxiety responds to interacting or speaking to someone who, due to their own mental health or otherwise condition, behaves in a way my anxiety doesn't know how to respond to "correctly".

My anxiety has a full blown MELTDOWN.

I have had shaking adrenaline reactions to hanging out with someone who has autism who I don't know but am speaking to because they are part of a group I am hanging out with. And because their autism manifests in difficult social interaction, my OWN anxiety has no idea how to interpret how they behave to make sure I am "interacting properly".

It's not because I consciously have a stigma against people with behaviours or ticks. It is literally my own condition clashing with the other person's condition. So even though I may mentally be well aware that this person is not harmful, it doesn't stop the anxiety from just freaking the fuck out because it has no idea how to navigate the social interaction.

As a result, if I am on a public bus and a person sitting near me is talking to themselves or having a tick or anything like that, I may get off the bus and wait for another one. Not to be a dick or because I have some sort of hatred for this person, but because I have an anxiety disorder that is getting triggered hardcore.

I never see this mentioned EVER in discussions about being accommodating towards other people's conditions. And it sucks because it makes me feel like I am a bad person for, IRONICALLY, having a condition that causes me to behave a certain way.

[boxwinebaddie]

HI Uncle Nina <3 Can we hear about how your Rm!Style met as kids?

listen, you guys. i am SO excited for this!!! words cannot express how excited it makes me when i get to talk about the prequel, like they are sooo stikin' cute in the prequel!!! ilysm baby raven and jersey. MWAH!

*eldritchhorror!kenny!nina cracks knuckles n opens up a portal* okay girls, gays n gays, we're going on a field trip,

TO THE PAST!

( i’m chaotic bi ms. frizzle in the pink y2k hello kitty bus )

so, i gotta be honest, my friends, i don't know EXACTLY how old the boys are, but i am gonna say they are anywhere between 6-8 y/o. it's summer time and the broflovski's have just moved to southern park, colorado from sheila's hometown in new jersey...and have moved in right next door...to the marsh family, namely:

ravenstanley r.w. marsh.

who i am using as a primary narrator...FOR ONCE!

because to tell you this was the best day of his life was an goddamn understatement...to tell you that this changed his life, even, is a fkn understatement because this moment, this fateful day GAVE HIS ENTIRE LIFE MEANING. meeting kyle broflovski...was Everything.

again, it wasn't just like 'oh, this boy who moved next door to me is kinda cute, i might have a crush on him'

It Was Dead Serious, Guys.

a teeny tiny, itsy bitsy, ickle ravenstanley marsh heard a single loud, angry, brutal note of the kyle broflovski new jersey slaughterhouse and was immediately irreversibly head over heels IN LOVE with him.

fresh from jersey kyle asked stan if he could open his fresca and the man's synesthesia was flashing, spinning, ringing and dinging like he was playing the world's biggest slot machine and just hit JACKPOT.

and that was before he got a good look at him because...

Wooooowza. <3

all the hundreds of little freckles speckled over his skin like sun-stars, his big, beautiful curly red hair, his gorgeous, glowering mean, green eyes ravenstan was legitimately Breathtaken by kyle's beauty, omfg.

however, the funniest part abt all of this to me is that poor sweet pre!rm rae is legitimately having divine visions and hearing angelic choirs, meanwhile pre!rm jers is just staring blankly at this weird, giant-eyed freaky mouth-breathing rural colorado kid ( who ig is his neighbor now, smh ) that's just staring up at him and sweating and shaking and looks like he's having a Stroke.

edit: i forgot to describe what they looked like so know that ravenstan had come out of the house because his mom told him to say hi to the neighbors and help them with boxes and stuff, say hi to their son, etc.

i think his hair is shoulder length, but its in a lil ponytail, he's in randy's gigantic black sabbath t-shirt, probably has a gigantic edgy boy temp tattoo of a skull or a snake on his neck, smh, little like hot wheels, boy section of target-esqe stickers all over his face and arms, little other edgy elementary school boy marker tattoos on his arms because he literally has always been a rockstar.

meanwhile, jersey, in canon ncu baby kyle fashion, is wearing his gigantic kyle signature orange coat and green ushanka IN THE MIDDLE OF SUMMER because he is self conscious and sheila bought both on sale at the mall during summer when the winter stuff is all half up because she's a thrifty queen and wants him to get wear out of them and break them in...smh.

so he is sweating like hell and just wants to get his fresca open, which is very vintage and still comes in the bottle.

but regarding The Fresca Of Fate,

stan Does eventually ( open / it. )

...in the most chaotic, unhinged way possible, btw.

which is that baby ravenstan bites, rips and twists the cap off with his teeth like a feral fucking animal ( which i think happened because he was legitimately panicking like holy shit, what do i do, what the Fuck do i doooo?!?! i don't know how to get this open but the beautiful spotty boy w/ the perfect voice asked me to do it, so ¡oRALE! )

note: it is this party trick that he'd seen randy do a couple of times and just replicated, but totally ripped his lip open in the process, btw.

anyways, rae hands the fresca back to baby jersey and because he is a fkn idiot but also a superstar ( i love u raven ) shoots kyle the signature stanley marsh wink-peace sign-finger gun combo wombo.

and jersey is just SHOOK because that was, in fact, criminally insane, but also...kinda cool? and an oddly touching gesture because he could have just handed the bottle back or said go fuck yourself, new kid! because he didn't give a shit about this kid from next door and his parents were both busy...but wanted kyle to have his little drinky poo so bad that he literally busted his lip open turning into a can-opener for ky...and did the cutest, weirdest most awkward hand-sign ever.

tldr; it was brave and reckless and boyish and radiant. and kyle, who usually is highly disgusted by the germs of other people...finds that brings the lip of the fresca bottle to his with ease, sips his drink, which tastes like victory and probably a bit like cinnamon red hots, watches his weirdo neighbor give him the wink peace sign finger gun combo and is so weirdly endeared by this that he...

gives stan a rare kyle smile and even rarer kyle laugh. :’)

and this is so glorious and gorgeous to ravenstan that he literally cannot breathe, his heart is pounding in his chest, he is fkn shaking, goes to say something and immediately THROWS UP ALL OVER KYLE AND PASSES OUT. skhdlksahdsh HEEEEELP NO.

but yeah...that's how dad and dad met. please note that in canon ncu fashion ravenstan followed jersey around like a lovesick puppy, ignoring all of the kids trying to get his attention and play with him, desperate for kyle to acknowledge his existence for literally five seconds or accept his offer of being super best friends...

all the while, jerseykyle is trying to get away from him because he doesn't like other people, doesn't want to be friends, just wants to be left alone and be alone skhdld and is like weird kid with the giant eyeballs PLEASE FUCK OFF ( this does make stan fall more in love with him, stan i need you to go to therapy for the type of guys u like ) and this apathy and disinterest continues until...

stan takes the stark's pond hockey puck for him.

and suddenly, kyle's cold dead heart starts beating again, he sees ravenstan in the hospital recovering from slicing his face and mouth open again, who smiles so hard he RIPS his stitches open again, smh and from that moment on, they are Super Best Friends.

but both secretly want something more, legend says.

-uncle nina, obsessed with the prequel <3

[xmcu-fietro]

anyone know any tips for hacking into that sweet adhd hyperfocused state of mind when you’re depressed and apathetic about life 🙃

[lucifer-is-a-bag-of-dicks]

re-enabled spell check on my notes app since a few errant words slipped by me in my recent fics and instantly remembered why I turned it off in the first place

even when I added the Japanese dictionary to my phone it is still determined to red line every Japanese name, and adding those names to the dictionary becomes a gruelling process if I need to do it frequently

I might just have to take the occasional misspelled word tbh this is so irritating

why can't iphones just have a nice straightforward 'add to dictionary' button, why are they like this

[dragongirlbunny]

the fact that i need to jump through 75 hoops and do an entire college course's worth of research to get bottom surgery is insane. not to mention the financial cost.

[i-may-be-an-emu]

I need motivation I hate adhd

[rainbowpopeworld]

That neurodivergent thing where you have an afternoon appointment and can't seem to do anything before it, except we're talking about your entire 30's and early 40's

[perenlop]

finished “yellowface”. goddamn that was a ride… highly highly recommend if you like villain protagonists

[a-concert-just-for-me]

hiiiiii hello hello could youuu amswer 10 and 22 please?

Hi hi hi! Thank you for the ask!!!

10. Usually trains of thought are resonated with, well, trains- what's something else you'd use to describe your thought process?

A bus. It takes an exorbitant amount of fuel to make the bus even get started on a route you don’t want to take. Then, while on the route you don’t want to take, you stubbornly decide you’re not going to take it anymore; it’s dangerous for some reason you can’t explain. You decide it would be more fun to stop at other bus stops on a more interesting route, so you do that. You avoid the correct route like the plague.

You can only get back on track when you only have two hours left in the day to drop the rest of your passengers off. The pressure helps you get over your aversion enough to buckle down and focus.

Or, if you’re on a route you enjoy for fun, you will complete it 20 times from start to finish with no breaks. When people try to get you to clock back in on the status-quo correct route, you insist, “But I can’t take the correct route yet, I have to finish this one first to make me feel safe enough to do the correct route!”

And then you complete the interesting route another 20 times until you finally feel guilty for neglecting your passengers.

No, I do not have ADHD, at least according to my evaluator

22. What's a strange assumption about humanity that you made as a kid, if you had one?

I think I just had a hard time understanding that things and people and circumstances change over time. Nothing can stay the same forever, no matter how badly you want it to. No one can live forever, no matter how much you want someone to stay on Earth with you. You have to let go, sometimes.

[happypeachsludgeflower]

Things I think about way too often for some inexplicable reason: what I’d do if I time traveled back in time like some time travel fix-it plot and ended up as a teenager in high school again.

[blund3r-bust3r]

huge fan of that bit my brain does where as soon as i start working i have the skin tearing urge to make some kind of art and then i get home and it's fucking honk shoo time baby