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becoming-anime-obsessed · 7 months ago

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Why the fuck do we now have Tripolar Singularities or whatever the fuck he called it???? Because we didn't have enough problems with normal singularities?????

#bsd #bsd 114.5 #bsd 114.5 spoilers #bsd spoilers #this is a disaster #like. we had oda and the mimic incident. verlaine and guivre. chuuya and corruption. why do we need an even worse singularity?????????#what is happeninggggg #actually losing my mind over here #istg if verlaine doesnt come out of his stupid fucking basement to help deal with this-

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eaeaeasaggresively · 2 years ago

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but its just A SWEeET sweEeet fanTasyy babayYYYyyy when i close my eeyEYeyyes you come and attain meeeEEEeee

#actually losing my mind over here #this is why you dont deprive urself of sleep children #sleep is important #probably #maybe #on second thought who even needs sleep #not me (clearly)#anyways yes you should be concerned right now #off to look at Rui fanart i go *zooom*

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egophiliac · 1 year ago

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just thinking about hair and faces

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #i don't THINK this counts as face horror but just in case #face horror #for your daily dose of me losing my mind over anime characters #i don't know why the hair thing surprised me so much. i think because i thought it was funny that lilia named silver after his hair color.#like ha ha lilia is hilariously bad at names how cute and silly!#oh. oh it's kind of a Thing.#anyway i am excited to see where the heck all of this stuff with silver's various dads ends up!#we still don't actually know who killed meleanor!#we still don't know literally anything about dad draconia! (dadconia? dradconia?)#we don't know what happened to the macguffin gem with its magical dad-saving powers!#(surely this will not come back to save a certain dad at a later point. of course not.)#man i was not expecting episode 7 to be all dads all the time #i mean i'm here for it but #hey remember when the highest stakes were who was gonna win the big talent show #then robots started kidnapping people and now we've just escalated from there #episode 8 our cat is going to turn into a drippy ink kaiju and we're going to have to mecha battle him to save the world or something #each member of diasomnia pilots a limb and we gattai into a giant robot dragon and hold on i gotta submit this spec script to aniplex brb

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yrsonpurpose · 1 year ago

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Alex & Henry ± the fact that you loved me all along.

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inklore · 6 months ago

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how many times have i watched the carriage scene? yes. thanks for asking.

#my neighbors going to think i’m getting hot and heavy over here when i’m actually just losing my fucking mind #bridgerton #colin bridgerton #penelope featherington #colin x penelope #polin #bridgerton spoilers #here laur goes again..

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sparkles-rule-4eva · 3 months ago

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She is made of LOVE 🩷🌹✨

It was my turn to draw a concept of Super Amy! 🔥🩷

#i actually drew this the day before the trailer came out #but decided to wait to post it here till after the initial hype of the trailer was over haha #which was fine i was losing my mind too and still am lol #anyway here she is now!! ive been so excited about this piece #sonic the hedgehog #amy rose #super amy #super amy rose #chaos emeralds #sth #art #my art #fanart #amy rose fanart #digital art

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moonkhao · 3 months ago

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hi.

#i know most of you didn’t even realize i was gone #but man…#my mental health was like in a state of 📉📉📉 in the past 30 days like we love being mentally ill and fucking insane <3 #it was mostly bc i panicked and started obsessing over possible water damage in my flat kind of out of nowhere #like it started when my landlord came to check my bathroom bc my downstairs neighbours had water stains on their ceiling back in july #which had been caused by their shower curtain apparently but i was already spiraling when my landlord told me so i was sure it was my fault #i was assuming it was bc of me bc i had sometimes been spilling some of my bathwater and i was like WHAT IF IT HAS GONE THROUGH THE FLOOR?#and it didn't help that it has been hot af and very humid in my apartment LIKE WELL OVER 25 DEGREES AND 60% HUMIDITY #anyways i couldn’t shake this not matter what i tried and my fucking insane brain made me think i was going to get arrested for like #flooding the whole building or for causing some sort of mold infestation #i had SO MANY panic attacks; i wasn't able to sleep; i wasn't able to eat; i was on edge and panicky basically 24/7 so fun fun fun :D #and i kept waking up in the middle of the night and HAD to go check my walls or the space below my kitchen #it was compulsory like i couldn't not get up and go check and tbh i would've thrown out all of my furniture if i could've to check for mold #(and shhhh i know how fucking insane this sounds but having a mentally ill brain that's anxious all the time does suck ass sometimes 🥲)#(the worst thing about it tho was that i was SO AWARE of how insane about this i was being and yet i couldn't stop losing my mind over it)#(also i was so ready to move tf outta here bc i couldn't handle being triggered 24/7 which is why my mom let me stay with her last week )#i was so out of it that i couldn't even let myself do the things i usually enjoy... like at all #like watching my shows or spending any ungodly amount of time on tumblr... or replying to messages i got from people who i love #ig this goes to show HOW bad this actually was for me mentally bc usually tumblr and my shows are like my safe place #anyways we finally had a leak detection dude come over today and we had him check the water levels in my walls #and he said everything is fine and he specifically told me i should stop worrying about any water damage BC THERE IS NO WATER DAMAGE #he also said that the weather has just been insanely humid this year so it's not surprising that the humidity levels are higher than usual #i’m still a bit scared about some possible mold but ig this is good enough for now #i am aware how ridiculous this must sound for anyone who's reading this now but couldn't let it go not even with meds so let me live pls :(#TLDR I WAS GOING THROUGH IT BUT I AM BACK I THINK AND I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO START BOTHERING YOU WITH MY GIFS AGAIN <3 #AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE HEART KILLERS STUFF YET ASIDE FROM ONE OR TWO PICS LIKE :(#OH AND I NEED TO START WATCHING SUMMER NIGHT ;_;#sabrina talks #@AIRENYAH GIRL I AM SO SORRY I WILL PROBABLY REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW MORNING ;_;<3

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lichqueenlibrarian · 8 days ago

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Quit flirting, you two.

#Spock making an Actual Expression at Jim #I’ll just scream for a bit it’s fine #star trek tos #star trek novels #spock #jim kirk #s'chn t'gai spock #time for yesterday #a.c crispin #a.c crispin I am losing my mind over here

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kingofanemptyworld · 1 year ago

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genuine question, am I really not supposed to read into the fact that Kaneki ate part of Hide’s face, of all things? his mouth??

#tokyo ghoul #tokyo ghoul re #kaneki ken #hideyoshi nagachika #hidekane #I never actually finished re but when I found out what happened to hide… I mean #Tokyo ghoul is chock full of symbolism and I’m supposed to see some deeper meaning in kaneki’s decision here?#or hide’s for that matter???#it’s one thing for your platonic best bro to say hey eat part of me so you can fight and survive #like. you’d go for something he can live with and possibly hide. like the shoulder. or side #or his leg #I know Kaneki isn’t totally in his right mind but that makes the decision so much stranger actually???#his mouth. he ate his mouth #sorry I’m still losing my mind over this revelation

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p1x1x · 6 months ago

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#momonina #kindof. embarrassed to post this one bc its just pure fluff lmao… theyre so LAME in this pic (/j)#i can hear mmk going ったく…#nn’s outfits are always soooo cute though #waaaaaah i love the fashion….#miiiight color it though..#edit incoming #future pix here #mmnn #<- decided the drawings of the two of em can have momonina in them but if it leans more romo than plato it has mmnn #bc i rotate them in my head so fast #but as the days pass i get really crazy over them being Not Romantic but still More than That #im losing my Mind tbh #the only thing im certain of is that mmk is definitely a lesbian all things considered like look at her LMAO #everytime i rewatch i do consider how gay her actions are...???#(i've been rotating mmnn around in my mind since ep 1 tbh... the codependency was tempting...!)#but i keep thinking abt mmk herself saying “i saw my past self in you” in like. ep 2 already... and it would linger in my mind #i had written in my notes a While back #like when ep 4 was airing #that it just felt like mmk was trying to be kind to her past self ykno #because she believed that the her now... had failed in her dream #so yknow... by giving the guitar she was trying to have nn continue that dream for her (leading into mmk “guiding nn”)#ofc nn gives back her guitar though and i thank that person on twitter everyday for putting it so well #LIKE AGHHH THEIR MEETING WAS FATE BUT THE ACTIONS THEY TOOK TO PULL EACH OTHER UP... KILL ME!!!!#the choices they make regarding themselves... of staying true to themselves... hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhgjhg #idk how many people will see this edit so im just treating it like the void (haha Void) here #(i've made that joke multiple times to myself now #i still think about. how mmnn were drawn to the honesty of each other #and yet. didnt exactly recognize each other as an actual person yet?#nn loved void and so loved mmk for creating it and saving her life. so mmk was a savior to her

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bruisedboys · 11 months ago

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okay I’m sorry I cannot contain myself any longer. I need him so bad so so so bad

SAVE ME WET CAT OF A MAN 🙏🙏🙏

#if you knew what was happening in my brain rn. I’d be sent away for my health #actually losing my mind like going bonkers over here #he is so pathetic. I want him #the urge to gobble him up #the urge to swallow him whole

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natashasregrets · 1 year ago

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no i’m not GAY i just want to dress like a fucking 1900s NEWSBOY and wear a fucking NEWSBOY CAP and BRITCHES and get girls to like me IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK

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jade-kyo · 6 months ago

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Jade i need to know what your brother's thoughts on Grimmons is bc i cannot imagine how casual watchers view them

Oh god I don’t think that’s a can of worms I want to open

But I can definitely take a guess which is that they’d probably think it’s “woke nonsense” which is so strange cause my brothers don’t like- think there’s anything wrong with being gay? They have gay friends?? But I swear the second it’s a character in a piece of media suddenly it’s pandering, unnecessary, or forced. I think the only time I’ve ever seen them not react this way was Arcane, they’re completely fine with the gay characters in Arcane. Yeah it’s weird and they make no goddamn sense I swear. Like seriously they are the fans RT would be afraid of offending AND THEY DO NOT WATCH THE SHOW ANYMORE

Now my brother who’s in the military might be a different story. I’m closest with him and he’s a lot more open to how media can be interpreted and stuff like that but here’s the thing- he’d probably just be hilariously oblivious to it. This guy thought the romance in Good Omens came out of nowhere. Anything like that goes so far over his head that it’s downright comical. I think I would have to explain it all in detail to him and he’d just be like “huh I never noticed that”

Seriously every time I tell him RvB has had this huge affect and influence on me, more than any other story, he’s just like “that’s such a weird story to be affected by, it’s so silly” and I’m just like bro a dude killed himself inside of another dudes head WHAT DO YOU MEAN and he’ll just be like “oh yeah I guess it was pretty intense at times”

casual viewers of RvB are an entirely different species I swear, it can both be infuriating and hilarious to see

#jadey speaks #rvb #red vs blue #talking to my brothers about any piece of media is absolute agony I swear #they started saying that Caboose had character development and I got excited for an actually intelligent conversation #BUT NO THEY CONSIDER HIM GETTING DUMBER AS THE SHOW GOES ON TO BE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT #LOSING MY FUCKING MIND OVER HERE I AM IN HELL

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judasisgayriot · 7 months ago

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sorry but I bravely refuse to pick a side in the worlds dumbest rpf slapfight, i am a top patrick AND bottom patrick enjoyer and i won't be swayed

#why do i feel like i see multiple posts a day on this site asserting that one of those things is downright wrong and incorrect #and you're stupid and/or should feel bad for enjoying it #folks it's all RPF smut am I losing my actual mind over here. why are we fighting.#sigh chronic bisexual behaviour of me i guess! can't pick a side in the fight!!#STUPID FIGHT THO. IT'S RPF SMUT CAN ANYONE HEAR ME #anni rambles #again not a specific vague but I've seen multiple posts in the wild TODAY on this #pressing discourse obviously #anyway peace and love in top pete top patrick bottom pete bottom patrick maybe even switching world #i am having fun xx #dont make me bring back my stupid pokemon meme that nobody but me enjoyed

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bondagebimbo · 15 days ago

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LOVE when the pharmacy decides to fucking dick around with my meds so badly that now I’m off my mood stabilizer, my pain meds, and my fucking birth control (in a few days) because they’re insisting I should have extra fucking bottles of each one and I DONT because they don’t let me pick up more than a one month supply of narcotics at a fucking time so do explain where these extra bottles are, hmm ????? and they didn’t have enough caplyta ordered last time to even give me my usual 3 months supply of that so … ???? get your fucking heads out of your asses and give me the fucking meds you owe me ??? like ??? but I’m in a nasty headspace right now so if I call the pharmacy this morning, I’m going to be that cunt ass customer they bitch about all day because this isn’t the first time they’ve done this. in fact, the first time, they straight up committed insurance fraud by marking one of my scripts as filled and picked up WHEN, IN REALITY, THEY FUCKING LOST THE SCRIPT AND HAD NO RECORD OF IT BEING FILLED OR PICKED UP IN THEIR SYSTEM, BUT YET, MARKED IT AS SUCH AND CHARGED MY INSURANCE AN ALMOST 8 GRAND FOR THE FUCKING 3 MONTHS OF MY MOOD STABILIZER THAT I. NEVER. RECEIVED. I’m genuinely about to report this entire pharmacy to the pharmacy board because I’m so fucking done with this place. it needs to be shut the fuck down because you’re telling me, out of an entire pharmacy, y’all share the same IQ point AND dead brain cell, collectively ??? then don’t fucking work in healthcare where people rely on you to know your shit and keep track of their fucking meds because you’re just constantly making shit worse on people since you can’t seem to not fuck around with these meds and not ‘lose’ scripts. fuck out of here.

and I’m pretty much out of weed, which is usually my back up pain management method, without the money to afford a delivery order by their cut off time to order in 3 hours because I just paid my fucking bills and have SOME to go towards it, but not enough for delivery to be free, and I’d still have to walk my ass to one of the ATM’s nearby because they don’t accept my bank as a prepaid method OR any of the cards I have on my person. 🫠

I can literally feel my back spasming and seizing on and off while I’m laying on my fucking side, I’ve had a migraine with a stupid ass aura for almost a week now because chronic migraines fucking suck and i was REALLY hoping this one would be over by now, my muscle inflammations that my pain meds are supposed to limit are already beginning to start their itching deep in my muscles so soon they’ll blossom into a whole fibromyalgia fucking episode and become entirely inflamed, my joints in my hands fucking hurt because of the dreary weather so I really need to get into a rheumatologist at some point soon as well and get that shit figured out, I’m nauseas as fuck from all the pain, and I’m moody, hormonal, and just feel like fucking death physically.

I’m just. I give up.

this shit is exhausting and painful and so mentally fucking taxing to constantly deal with and I just want a fucking break from all this fucking shit. I wish I could just … not exist … for even just a little while with how fucking painful existing actually feels right now 🫠😭

#i hate that CT weed is so fucking expensive #half a fucking ounce shouldn’t cost me $250 …….. not when I can go to MA and get an ounce for $108 after tax ……..#but I don’t have a way to MA because my fucking best friend. who made plans with me OVER THE WEEKEND. HER. SHE INITIATED THEM.#canceled on me last second even though I texted her early the night before when I know she would see it 🫠#nope instead she waited from the text I sent at 6:30pm until noon the next day to cancel because her period is kicking her ass #NOT FOR FUCKING NOTHING BUT SO THE HELL IS MINE ???? AND IM ANEMIC ??? AND DEALING WITH ALL THIS EXTRA PAIN ON TOP OF IT ????#and I know I’m being irrational and insensitive because pain tolerance is a sliding scale for everyone #but like fucking come on you do this 3 out of 4 times YOU make the plans to hang out and I’m fucking over it.#plus I’m the one that always pays for everything and does she ever even OFFER to hit me back for the COUNTLESS ounces of weed I’ve got her #all because she couldn’t afford it so I said I’d cover it and she never paid me back. I’ve bought her at least a grand’s worth of weed #just over the last couple months and she’s never ONCE offered to pay me back for a single one #like ……… I don’t expect it. I give if I have it. but you can’t even just offer ??? like the invitation to pay me back would be enough to no #leave m ragingly pissed off and feeling used as an atm again for yet another ‘friend’ because they don’t even OFFER to be considerate #of course I’d say not to worry about it but it doesn’t even cross your fucking head to ask if I want anything towards it #like the next time you get paid ??? when you go and spend your own money on weed that day but can’t reimburse me for anything IVE paid for #oh and I always have to give her gas money if I even simply just want to hang out because she’s always fucking broke somehow #and she works in healthcare like bitch I know what you make and you can’t play that you don’t have enough to get by or throw me 50 bucks #towards YOUR weed that I’m buying every once in a fucking while when I’m already paying for everything fucking else #I’m so angry and I know I’m being irrational and bitchy but this is what happens when you’re tripped off your meds cold turkey #and one of them is a mood stabilizer that makes it so you DONT feel this way about people and aren’t so bitter when you’re let down 🫠🫠🫠#because now my rejection sensitive dysphoria is going to be triggered even easier than usual and I’m just.#I actually fucking give up. I don’t even know what to do here. the pain going through my body is so fucking intense #I keep losing my train of thought because everything hurts and then every once in a while a DIFFERENT pain acts up and throws itself in too #I just. I just can’t fucking win.#I hate fucking struggling with my mental state like this when I’m off my meds.#and because I have to be a month without my stabilizer/pain management/birth control it’s going to take me ANOTHER month to get readjusted #to those in my body so I won’t feel normal again until nearly fucking mid to end January the earliest #and that’s fucking bullshit. I’m going to fucking **** myself by the time I get back on these fucking meds since it’ll take that long #fucking hell I just. I give up. I give in. I’m self isolating and cutting myself off from everyone because it’ll be in THEIR best interest #for me to do so when I can’t control my mind like this. I’m so tired of feeling so fucking shitty and I’ve only been off them for two days

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thekingofspin · 1 month ago

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whatever dick decided to put adverts on prime video needs their balls chopped because why the fuck am I getting more ads watching shows legally than I ever have pirating.

#this is an actual joke #i am so fed up of money hungry corporations making my life more difficult than it has to be #arent prime rich enough?#they just wanna waste my god damn time and im sick of it.#YOUTUBE TOO #and any other site with ads #like get over yourself #AND TIKTOK #see even if im not seeing the official tiktok ads every second fucking video is someone trying to sell me some usless crap #i dont want to buy your cheap shit from tiktok shop im here for entertainment and thats it #i want someone to compile how much of my short life is spent watching ads #because life is fucking short and this is too much time to be wasting #(am i gonna stop and get off my ass? no probably not)#i just wanna watch the boys #ALSO WHO THOUGHT IT WAS A GOOD IDEA TO HAVE SUPERNATURAL EXPIRE AT THE END OF THE MONTH #im losing my mind and you all get to hear it #prime i know where you live #amazon prime #the boys #supernatural #tiktok #YouTube #what else did i talk about?

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