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bronzeys · 4 months ago

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fuck off they’re fucking everything <3

#lucy bronze #she is so down bad #they’re basically married idc #actually losing it I cannot handle this #my faves are so so so in love

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shittywriterbrain · 1 year ago

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i will never be normal about the you wear fine things well scene. i will pause that shit five times and rewatch it again and again and rant at my screen about every single thought going on in ed's head and how fucking perfect the music and taika's acting are

#actually no kidding i have gone insane over this scene every time i watched it #the fucking little piano melody when ed looks up at stede is just AAH perfect #our flag means death #ofmd #god i just watched it again and #someone take away my space bar. i cannot be trusted with the space bar. i WILL pause it right after ed looks up bc the music in sync with #the acting is just too much for my little brain to handle #im losing my mind over this

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icyfox17 · 6 months ago

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taffywabbit · 9 months ago

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i just woke up so i haven't actually watched the pokemon direct thingy yet, but i heard they mentioned they aren't pushing out another console release at all for 2024 and if that's true then frankly THAT news is way more hype than any actual game announcement could ever be. go girl let us wait!! this is genuinely what i've been begging for for years now

like, oh a new Legends game? that's neat i guess. oh wait it's being given literally ANY time to cook and they aren't crunching Game Freak to hell and back in order to pump out a bunch of half-baked annual releases for the first time in ages?? NOW we're fuckin talking. LOVE to see the torturous cycle broken

#buny text #pokemon #granted they may have just delayed their plans simply because nintendo still isn't releasing a new console til pretty late in the year #and they cannot feasibly keep trying to squeeze things down into a format the switch can (barely) handle without losing goodwill #but i'd like to hope that this also proves they don't need to be pumping out 3 console titles and multiple DLCs in such short spans of time #i'd love to see what might happen if the pokemon devs were ever given the kind of long thorough dev cycles that the zelda team gets #like let gamefreak cook for as long as they need and release when they actually feel it's ready. please.#as frustrated as i am with how SV turned out the majority of my frustration was that you can still FEEL the devs' passion in there #but it's massively overshadowed by jank and lack of polish and design decisions that would only ever be made under intense time pressure #the last chunk of that game's story is cool as hell but getting there was such a depressing experience that it's very hard to recommend #these are clearly artists who still have good ideas and interesting experiences to create! give them the time they need to do it properly!

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wrenbee · 24 days ago

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✨Screaming and crying✨

#dragon age spoilers #da:tv #dragon age the veilguard #solavellan #Aura Lavellan #inquisitor lavellan #I cannot actually handle this #i’m losing my mind #🥹🥹🥹

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msburgundy · 2 months ago

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i am fighting for my life, i am so tired of my neck trying to destroy me lol

#when will they let me get my stupid surgery 😩😩😩#i think i did actually get a good grade in having a tongue at my last appt though #i am now able to do things i was completely unable to do in my initial exam and i don't think i was expected to get that pre-op #so I'm cautiously optimistic that after this next one or maybe the one after i could get the greenlight #my ability to eat has been improving too i think actually but that has been miserable because my body is so not used to it lol #and it kinda comes and goes #the more relaxed i get about it the better i do overall but then i also choke more often fjsjd so you win some you lose some #and i once again cannot sing AT ALL #that also comes and goes but it's completely unpredictable for me #there's also nothing that can be done about the breathing for now it seems #i definitely handled it all a lot better when i didn't know what was wrong but now that im so aware and know there's a solution #it drives me completely crazy lol

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orcelito · 4 months ago

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ok i am actually so very angry and there's literally nothing i can do to fix it. life keeps going on. she might even be happy. and fuck dude, i'll make sure im happy too, i was a fully developed person before she was in my life and i'll continue to be one without her. but God Damn, the fact that she can just do something so blatantly awful and unfair to me and then run off without any actual repercussions is just so fucking rankling to me.

like perhaps she feels guilty. she said she did when it was all going down. but it was just something she "needed to do". so obviously she didn't feel guilty enough or she wouldnt have done it like that lmaoooo

i really did deserve to have a good solid yell at her. but unfortunately, by the time i did see her in person i just wanted her out of my fucking life. so. no yelling was done, unfortunately.

#speculation nation #the duality of being a deeply resentful and angry person. and being a person that Tries to be mature and peaceful.#like im not gonna actually Do shit even tho i keep wanting to message her just to yell at her some more again #it's like there's a beast in me that keeps yelling for retribution. she wronged me in such a disrespectful and humiliating way #and yet she just gets to walk away like it was nothing? live her life like it was nothing?#be in 'love' with her new 'soulmate' after cutting me off like a rotten limb?#i feel so DEEPLY angry. i want to spit vitriol and fire. i want to dig my claws into her bones. make her really FEEL how i feel.#i want to wander into her dreams and make her experience what i felt. every miserable second of silence.#the humiliation of admitting you might be falling in love only to be told you were never loved at all.#and i want to knee her in the gut and spit in her face and really make her regret ever fucking wronging me #but unfortunately im a stupid fucking pacifist so all the aggression and anger and violence has no FUCKING outlet #ive been. trying to not think about it too much. ive been trying to just live my life. because i dont want her to run my life.#but the anger keeps catching up to me. filtering in when i dont expect it. endless constant fucking thoughts coming back to me #on and on and on and on i live and i eat and i read and i game and i hate and i hate and i hate and i hate and i hate and i HATE AND I HATE #the greatest injustice is that i cannot make her truly feel every single ounce of my resentment and anger #it's so overwhelming i think i could choke on it. and she gets to live her FUCKING happy little life with her stupid fucking 'soulmate'#i hope it collapses around her and she loses her too so she's single and alone and miserable and regretting all of her fucking impulsivenes #she deserves to have it fail after what she did to me. and all i can really do is hope that karma has its fucking kiss for her.#if only curses were real. what i wouldnt give to put some energy into that karmic payback lmfao.#ok . ok ok ok ok love and peace on planet earth. i am shifting out of vitriolic little shit mode.#just had to let some of the steam out. im still angry but i am going to go back to not thinking about it.#i think i should go on a nice long bike ride tomorrow. to decompress and work some of the steam out.#it's something that she can never take from me. something that is so wholly mine. fuck that stupid bitch and fuck her new girlfriend too #...............................ok NOW im shifting out of vitriolic mode. lol #negative/#WAHOOOOOO i am certainly not taking this breakup well. but i dont think anyone would be lmfao.#all things considered i think im doing a pretty great job at handling this breakup.#bc at least im only recounting unrealistic threats and fantasies on my tumblr dot com instead of messaging Any of this to her.#i may kinda want her to read it so that she knows anyways. but i wont message her directly. bc i am Trying to be at least a little mature.#complaining on my tumblr dot com so i dont message my ex with more vitriol. gotta cope Somehow.

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felix-the-lemon-king · 6 months ago

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Double checking all my reblogs to make sure I didn't accidentally just tag everything twst as usual 😔

#I reflexively started typing twst in the tags for Every Single One #sobs sobsob I just caught up to the manga I. cannot handle it.#WHY DOES SNAKE LOOK SO MUCH LIKE SILVER IT IS MAKING THIS SO MUCH HARDER #he even has the cowlick antenna 😭#I am not immune to boy who cannot emote or communicate for himself !!!#he can't even introduce himself without using his snakes to do it 😭#felix once again loses his mind over guy that reminds him over mr silver twisted wonderland vanrouge #aughouggaggdhhhh whahh #I saw him get stabbed and I was expecting it to be another character almost dying and miraculously being saved #but the grim reaper guy I forgot his name announcing his death !!!! I LOST MY MIND #why do they always have to say no additional notes like Are You Not Even Going To Address The Fact That He Is A Snake Man #after all this time I don't even get to know if his dad is actually a snake and WHAT FOR #I am going to CRUMBLE INTO A PILE OF DUST #anyway I love emily and keats and goathe and wordsworth and wilde and oscar and bronte and don and #AND SNAKE 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭#black butler spoilers

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perilegs · 6 months ago

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i'm going to my cousin's bday party tomorrow which is fun and great except that my mom is also going to be there. we don't talk. she literally skipped my other cousin's graduation party just bc i was there.

#for context shes a huge transphobe who wants nothing to do with me and thinks im soiling her good name just by existing #so. im not v excited about that.#but it's something i can handle and i have support around me!#what i however cannot handle are regular mom things. ive gained a lot of weight since i last saw her and #i cannot handle it if she comments on it im so stressed out about it bc she knows just what to say to hurt me #i got chubby after starting t and i think it suits me. especially if i start hitting the gym or something so i'll also have some strength #like im not looking to lose weight im looking to have a dad bod by my 30s #with my soft round features and curly hair i already look like a hobbit so i just need to get a little bit of muscle to complete the look #bc those bitches work outside i know how theyre built #i however cannot achieve that with just my office job so yknow #im mostly just saying this to motivate myself to excercise bc i know it makes me feel good but actually getting around to doing it is hard #also i would love to stop being weak #i just want to be able to lift heavier things #like. it's unhealthy how little i do rn and i dont feel good about it but school has been sucking the life out of me #so i dont have the energy to do things that will increase my mental wellbeing which. not ideal.#agh now that my thesis is done i might finally get around to doing stuff #after a while once my brain and body registers that i'm literally fine #anyways. im nervous about tomorrow.#but it's fine i'll get to catch up with the nice relatives too #leevi talks

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tanjir0se · 7 months ago

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At this point I’ve come to terms with pretty much all of my favs dying and do not want confirmation either way please please please

but when Giyuu inevitably kicks it he’s gonna see Sabito again huh. And he’s gonna be just a boy again huh. And Makomo and Sabito will take his hand and lead him into the nexT LIFE HUH AND THEYLL SAY THEYRE PROUD OF HIM HUH and I’ll cry and throw up and cry and cry and cry and throw up forever and ever amen

#please gotouge if you’ve ever loved me don’t kill my mans #but it’s worse because I’m also like pretty certain tanjiro is gonna die too and I actually cannot fucking handle that #Giyuu can’t fucking lose anyone else and hES GONNA LOSE SO MANY MORE PEOPLE PLEASE #GOTOUGE STOP GOVING GIYUU SIBLINGS AND THEN TAKING THEM AWAY CHALLENGE #this is all just my theories and I would. ADORE being proven wrong #but. given gotouge’s track record vis a vis sibling murder…#kny #kny s4

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bronzeys · 4 months ago

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Bronze playing against my club?!?! oh they did this for me actually

#actually losing it i cannot handle this

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hella1975 · 2 years ago

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i always forget taob isnt canon?? this isnt normal. im rewatching ut and i had to take a break because where is the zuko internal conflict? where's the water tribe? where's the hakoda and zuko relationship? where's zi se?? this is my canon now look at what you've done (your writing is amazing ily)

EEK THANK YOU BESTIE <3 ive actually had to limit how much i rewatch atla bc my perception of zuko is just so fucked now. like he comes on screen and i just lose my shit

#like yeah i used to lose my shit about him anyway but now it's actual hysterics i simply cannot handle him he's so funny #ask #taob asks

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nalascat · 1 year ago

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I am freaking out.

As we all know, I am #1 batr stan.

it's all I care about (joking but...)

I have. Never seen this logo before. Barbie and the Rockers has a new logo. WHY DO THEY HAVE A NEW LOGO !!!

this is from the hot topic website bc they have rockers content that I can buy and I search it occasionally and

WHERE DID THESE COME FROM.

The only reason I can THINK there's a new logo is that we (me, as the #1 rockers fan) are getting something new for the rockers. Because why would we have a new logo out of NOWHERE for nothing???

This is GOOD NEWS especially for me, who is in desperate need of more rockers content.

BUT!!! what could it be? A new Rockers line? A show? A movie? Something to do with the 2023 film that comes out next week?????? I WANNA KNOW!! IM SO VERY EXCITED

#i hope that they use the original five if they DO actually make anything new. i dont know if i can handle losing any of the band #bc like. they are THE band in my heart okay. and if i have to lose derek or dana or dee dee or diva i will die inside #they also have the chance to make my headcanons reality. @ mattel hmu i will help u #barbie #batr #barbie rockers #barbie and the rockers #nalas rambling again #bro i TEARED up upon seeing this i cannot handle this. i love them so much #i need them

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bravewolfvesperia · 10 months ago

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/ i will be completely honest, the biggest crime of the vesperia dub really is the almost total removal of yuri being so childish and pouty.

#{ bravewolf mun }#/ he is. such a fucking child. and toriumi is always killing it with him.#sometimes i rly want to play the game in english again just for troy bc i adore troy's acting #but then i freeze up like damn can i rly handle not having the full package for yuri (answer no i can't actually)#like. i have said it before but. it's not troy's fault that he was directed that way #it's just that the dub removed so much of yuri that he rly is just. a shell of what he actually is.#troy didn't even GET to voice the real yuri and that is very sad #i would not give up a thing for this absolute baby who is only mature when it's very genuinely called for #man just wants to have fun but the world makes him Tired #fun fact he's even more of a baby in first strike and i fully headcanon that #losing lambert and in the manner it happened in traumatized him enough to kick some of that baby out of him #and seeing how corrupt shit was on the inside just really put that baby into sleep mode #but the baby still comes back out in the game when it's ABLE to #i love this absolute child of a man and i cannot live without toriumi's insane amount of nuance #and by baby i don't mean annoying i mean he's hilarious and a dork and i would do anything for him #when i hear toriumi go into full dork mode in his lines it's just. that's him. that's MY yuri.#my heart truly swells for this loser i love him

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pepprs · 2 years ago

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ok actually yeah. i really need to do dishes and go to bed and not stay up late mentalillnessposting a little too viscerally on tumblr the night before i facilitate a workshop in front of the literal president of the university and the vp of my division (LOL about that btw. actively shitting my pants.) but oh my GOD. so saying goodbye to lia was actually fine in the moment. neither of us cried and we talked about all the ways we’ll still be in each others lives and reasons we’ll have to interact in the near future. and she gave me an extremely heartfelt thoughtful gift and we left on a very hopeful note and i felt better and content bc there’s still the rest-of-life and we’ll see each other there. but like an hour before that as i mentioned i was HYSTERICALLY sobbing. in full view of people i know AND people i don’t. and i just sat there and sobbed while everything carried on around me. everything carried on around me!!! and i feel like im about to sob again thinking about it.

#purrs #delete later #idk. i typed a bunch here and then deleted it and now idk what to say. i just feel so lonely. i have had fucked up relationships with every #single older adult in my life and never had someone who could a) stay in my life b) be consistently present in my life c) meet my emotional #needs d) actually See me and accept me for who i am. Like not one person who can be all four of those things. and i have to be all four of t #those things for myself now because im 24 and i missed my chance. but how fucking shitty and painful is that? especially after a year like t #this. the way it’s literally ending the SAME way last year did. huge scary promotion (which i haven’t even talked about on here or to anyone #but lia today actually. but it might be huger and scarier than i thought. which is good but also HUGE -‘d scary. and not a bad thing of bc o #course but it’s so fucking… perilous? like it makes me feel profoundly imperiled because i have extremely good reason to feel that way. and #i have to endure the mortifying ordeal of applying for my own job AGAIN after the first time was so horrible. lol) and also losing a beloved #mentor figure who understood me in a way no one else did which mattered immensely even if they couldn’t do the whole presence thing or #whatever. and now i only have one older adult in my life left (aside from my therapist who doesn’t really count bc i only see her once a #week and we barely know each other still) who is like. here and helping me and i KNOW i am so sick in the head i KNOW and i should not be #writing it but every single day i am fucking terrified that i am being or will be separated from him emotionally or physically jsut like all #the others so. LOL!!!!! i am normal and well adjusted. but it’s like so fucking painful because im grasping at straws but again the reality #is im 24 and the only people on this earth who it is fair for me to expect all 4 from and who should’ve provided it to me are my parents.#and i missed my chance with them forever and now i have to do it myself. and that’s ok sometimes and i can handle it… except in the moments #where im sobbing hysterically and everything carries on. when i am in my darkest moments i want to run to an older adult and have them #comfort me but i truly cannot do that with any of the ones i still have left / regularly interact with for so many reasons. and it’s so #painful it makes me sick sometimes. and now i have to be the romy and the lia i wish to see in this world. but how can i do that when i #haven’t finished grieving over them leaving which feels like leaving ME — NOW — in this moment when i have never needed more support of that #kind more. how can isummon it within myself. im not ready yet. i need a long hug and a hand to hold that won’t (have to) let go. when im #crying i need someone to take me somewhere and comfort me and calm me down. and im 24 so i can’t ask for it. but oh my god i need it. and i #missed my chance. and lia left today and she only ever did that for me metaphorically but… tonight i feel more alone than ever.#and it’s like i don’t even have the emotional intelligence or whatever to ASK for that. bc im playing by ear and i don’t know how to read #the music of it. im self taught. that fucking sucks. that SUCKSSS. also that’s too strong a way to put it liek obviously my friends who are #closer to my age are INTEGRAL to me being able to function and i learn from them and cherish their support. but just like i can’t be a mom #to me my friends can’t either. so it’s like what the fuck do i do. get steamrolled by relentless grief and rage every day i guess.#also side note. everything carried on when i was in brighton too. i came home early ofc but it’s like nothing changed in my absence. and #that has fucked me up SUPREMELY. i think that might be a root of it. like hm… it seems my presence doesn’t have impacts. but idk

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anotherpapercut · 1 year ago

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I've had a lot of people say something to the effect of "let me know if there's anything I can do" which is a very nice human sentiment but I know it definitely has implications for what things are acceptable and what I really really really need is for someone to come do all my fucking dishes

#i straight up cannot go into the kitchen anymore #like just because the stress of seeing all the dishes makes me lose it. also there are fucking bugs and i cant #i cant handle that #if there is one thing you know about me its that im like deathly afraid of all bugs #ugh. i can't even find a cleaning sevrice that actually does dishes #i dont need the kitchen deep cleaned i just need the dishes out of the fucking way

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