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Maybe I'll make a post on this at some point but like, something deeply fucked up about TNP and Po3 that people have totally forgotten about is how badly they try to whine that "Tigerstar Had Good Traits :("
Firestar does it, Brambleclaw does it, and they keep doing this after it becomes this GRAND irony that Firestar almost gets Tiger'd to death in a fox trap because he was too trusting. Bramble gets his pity award of keeping deputyship and then cries to his son about how No One Saw The Good In Tigerstar :(
And it's wiiiiild that no one else in this fandom has done anything with the fact that Leopardstar broke the Warrior Code to appoint Hawkfrost, who had no apprentice, an extremely aggressive and warmongering Tigerclone who says things like "Tigerstar wasn't the worst cat to look up to." ONLY qualifying trait was being kinda like Tigerstar.
And she practically did that the SECOND Mistyfoot went missing. And then Leopardstar continued to be one of the most violent and xenophobic leaders through Po3, joining with WindClan to attack ThunderClan.
What I'm getting at is that like, a few years ago, with books like "Blackfoot's Reckoning" and "Shadow in RiverClan" it's like they suddenly decided to retcon in a bunch of "redemption arcs" in hindsight. They just pretended like there was this grand high reckoning with TigerClan, when there literally wasn't, and if anything that caused SERIOUS problems for the cast that the authors didn't fully acknowledge as such.
And now ppl haven't actually read the main series and are just working with their recent memory of all these retcon books.
But TNP and PO3 are still there, and you can go and see the ACTUAL timeline where Leopardstar is really not apologetic at all, and Blackstar is a useful stooge for the very next wannabe dictator that strolls in, in spite of the new side content that COMPLETELY mischaracterized them for their plots to work.
#I just wish people could be more critical of this#And im not entirely anti-retcon. Mind you#But I am here because i think these retcons make them WORSE characters. It's BAD for a character to GET a book with a redemption arc and--#Then they don't change at all and act like totally different people later in the timeline#And Leopardstar is the worse one between her and Blackstar BECAUSE she has sooo many active choices here#Im confident in my choice for BB the more I think about it. Leopardstar's dismantling of the bonehill was good#But it works better as a tragedy imo with the rest of the series in mind#That for a brief moment. A fleeting whim. She could have changed.#But she never did.#And Blackstar who was FAR less repentant at the time DID eventually turn around.#At the end of the day one of them appointed Hawkfrost as codebreaking deputy.#And the other did not.#And I think it's fucking bullshit the way that Leopardstar's retcondemption implies that Hawkfrost was just so tricky he mislead her#The old and experienced leader who had been fooled by a tiger before and was soso sorry for it. Just got tricked.#Like fuck off. She never had a redemption. Stop trying to tell me she did 15 years later#She's a girlboss who empires too close to the sun in pursuit of power and drags everyone down with her#Not a sad weepy smolbean#Bone babble#Warrior cats analysis
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ngl i’m still worried. like i Do have complete faith in ncuti gatwa but what i Don’t have is much faith at all in rtd’s writing about race
#which id managed to sort of convince myself was maybe#it’s been like 15 years he’s had time to learn better#but the comment Immediately about ‘different colors’ in todays ep#and w the toymakers past.#i’m hoping for the best i really actively am but i’m hesitant#not even writing about race just writing that has anything to do w it#i will never forgive him for martha jones#and my cynicism is saying bringing dt back for three eps and specifically being pretty good about trans people and disabled people#is a good favor investment so he can keep a progressive image and get away w racism#i don’t actually believe that for the record#i’m just worried ncuti gatwa is gonna have to deal with Some Bullshit that’s gonna get blamed on him instead of rtd yk#which is bad for him bc it means a bad working environment and also like. taking the blame for something he didn’t even do#or that if he pushes back on something bad he’ll get branded as difficult to work with etc#anyway. worry once suffer twice or whatever and i think i said all this when the announcements were made#it’s just on my mind again#i want the best for the show and the people making it yk?
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#ncuti gatwa#doctor who#fifteenth doctor#15th doctor#dr who#this is !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#from what i have seen/heard so far of dw. the doctor's white privilege has either been#only slightly alluded to in terms of informing the themes. Or w at best good intent but handled extremely badly/clumsily (fly high ten.)#it seems like fifteen will be written/portrayed w their race actively in mind this time which makes me v excited for their run!!#hoping. hoping and praying and hoping to the stars that rtd got people of color (specifically BIPOC) in the writers room this time#15 era
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this is apparently a Supernatural blog now
do you ever think for wayyyy too much about that scene where Dean and Cas thought that they were saying goodbye forever in the finale episode of season 8? and the fact that there were two other dudes literally visibly falling in love with each other like 10 feet away? and you start clawing your own face off?
no? just me?
#I remain amused that I decided to become obsessed with this show fully 15 years late. never mind.#for the record I did watch seasons 1-5 back in 2012/2013 but I already had a fandom I was very active in at the time.#anyway: there will continue to be stupid SPN posting on main if any of my followers want to block the tag 😅#spn#supernatural#spn season 8#spn watch
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HSR verse Kaeya ideas:
Path of Nihility, Element Ice
Fell in stride with that path due to his depression after his conflict with Diluc and belief his fate due to his family's ties to the Abyss Order may be to bring his new homeworld's doom ( in part because of his Father's final words to him ), maintained in growing to find amusement in the impossible and working towards it regardless of the fact
Has every intention to try and defy his so-called fate even still, even knowing all that effort may be for naught in the end. But at least he would like to say he tried
Tends to help people on a whim, without desiring credit for his actions or if it may help them in the long run
His abilities sap the vitality of his enemies, but consume his own when he uses his strongest ability
Due to his family's contract with the Abyss Order, his lifespan is longer than most humanoids, spanning centuries. Though not quite that of a Xianzhou native, like them, his people do still face a terrible curse to become monsters after a time, like many of the Abyss Order.
He is glad his loved ones will never live to see him succumb to it. One way or another.
Though he also secretly harbors the strongest desire to force the Abyss's immortality on them to ensure they can stay with him, and face the same fate. He has to wonder if the slumbering monster in him is to blame for that, or his own attachments
#//Was so VERY close to making him path of Hunt#//But then working out how his 'kit' would work said otherwise#hc; kaeya#//I dunno if I wanna make the Knights of Favonius be like#//A faction of the IPC; or if it can be their own thing#//Do love a version of 'Teyvat' being a thing in that universe#//So the way it goes in my mind; his 'skill' Frostgnaw work the same way as his Genshin self with the talent Cold-blooded strike#//Single target; afflicts 'Frozen Kiss' status upon them. Attacking enemies afflicted with it let him regain HP equal to 15% of his ATK.#//Becomes three-target ONCE immediately after his Ultimate; to same effect; having entered a state called Frostbitten Embrace#//His ultimate Glacial Waltz is multi-target/all enemies on field; consumes a portion of his HP upon activation. Inflicts Exposed debuff#//I like to think his animation is like. Once Upon a December; stepping in a waltz as a blizzard picks up; faint figures around him in it#//Icicles like his Burst forming as he twirls as though puppeteered before he throws his hands out & they pierce through the enemies#//Finishing it all off with a bow; exhaling a soft mist. Like Todoroki or that one Gojo clip djfhbfgkh#//The way I'm imaginging it; the music would be something like the Phase II of the Lupus Boreas fight. Just bc I love it so much jhdbgfjg#//Overall; I do like hints of Lacrimosa for whatever song would be it jfbfbd. Not just bc it’s my favorite piece; TOTALLY not lololol#//Ultimate lines prolly being 'Can't handle the cold~?' upon selection; and 'This moment will be frozen in time!' as it proceeds#//I like to think that like how Jingliu's blindfold disappears during Crescent Transmigration; his eyepatch disappears during his Ultimate#//Eyes are closed through it; eyes opening with a flash when he hurtles the icicles#//It stays off during his enhanced skill; then is restored by next turn#//Or smth; idk; I think I wanna tweak his kit for a bit and detail it more but shh#//This is it for now djkngfk#//Technique is Abyssal Heart; upon activation; he immediately attacks the enemy. Upon entering battle; has a 100% base chance to freeze the#enemies for (1) turn. They will take Ice Damage 50% of his ATK at start of every turn. Frozen Kiss will be applied to them in addition#//Idk if that is too broken; maybe. Idevenk shbjdfdjbgdk#//Will edit as I go/come up with new ideas#//Or if sb gives a bit of advice how to do better. Pls help jhdfbgjdg#//I might wanna learn more abt the masked fools for a potential idea; but I think I am content with just keeping jim Favonian aligned#//For now
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Hi Stella :) I’m in your inbox for the fic ask thing
Here’s the symbol I chose ✿
Howdy howdy :V
✿ did anything major change when you started writing [fic] to when you finished?
In general, I feel like I either have a solid idea of the whole fic (because most of what I write are oneshots) or I develop the fic as it goes so it’s not really a ‘change’ per se... the change tends to be ‘knowing where I actually want to go with it’ lol. also, a lot of times when I write it tends to be during times of stress and transition, so for example that are major changes like ‘when I started writing this fic I was in school, when I finished the fic I graduated’.
oh, for the fic I’m trying to write now (for a given definition of ‘trying’ -_-) the change is: before I didn’t know much about fishing in japan, now I know... still not a lot but I have some logistics. also another major change for it is that I was originally going to do a oneshot of a couple of different scenarios and then was like... hm... with the oneshots being based on hobbies/activities, I can see a way to make this a multichapter getting together fic...’ so that’s A Major Change. actually I have the exact moment I realized this in the tags of a post hang on let me dig it up
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I have done it
According to the DCU Guide, I have read every single Post-Crisis Pre-Flashpoint comic that features main universe Selina Kyle.
And I have to say...
Good lord was that not worth it.
#catwoman#selina kyle#catwoman comics#Don't get me wrong#along the way i read loads of interesting and compelling stories#in series i didn't even know existed#and now there's a bunch of runs i'm looking to check out in full#Gotham Central. JSA: Classified. Simone's BoP. No Man's Land.#but being generous there's about a 15-20 percent of issues that i read that are actively bad#never mind the merely incompetent and mediocre#I will compile and highlights reel reading list if people want#but... all of it? No. Just no.
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I'm not a huge meta head when it comes to lbc (my principle is as long as I survive longer than the enemies, I'm good w whatever) but man there really are some picturas out here that have the most beautiful art but then have the most god awful effects
#👓#'gain 15% dodge when snowing' for example#okay first off when could you dodge in this game#second off when does it snow in this game#does that mean when the battlefield is in snow??#is there a specific visual effect when it is snowing that activates this effect?#how many battles would this even be useful for#and more importabtly#WHY IS IT ON MY GODHEIM CLARENCE EPILOGUE PICTURA#im sure theres some other example but that effect is always the one that comes to mind when i thjnk about#just confusing as hell effects
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I love the fact that I can work as hard as I can manage with a broken tooth and a dying tooth (one on each side, I've been chewing on the cavity for a year) and I still cannot save even $10 towards getting dental treatment (2 impacted wisdom teeth, + tooth broken off under the gum, + bad cavity) because I barely make enough to cover my food and board and the insane energy bill
#I'm just ranting don't mind me it's fine I am continuing to exist as usual I may delete this later bc it's a bit of a bummer to read#I prefer to keep my blogging to fun or otherwise nonserious content because it's supposed to be for decompression no real world drama here#I got into a 3 hour body language study and earned $50 so I spent that as fun money on a couple games during the Steam sale just to#take a break from the constant cycle of getting paid and then immediately saying goodbye to all but about 15 cents#(well it was 1 game Slime Rancher 2 and then 2 expansion packs one for Planet Zoo and another for Cities Skylines long play hours mileage)#I've tried to budget to buy small things like a fan or a toothbrush maybe (mine is 8yrs old and doesn't charge sometimes) but NOPE#let alone stashing away over $2000 for the amount of treatment I need given tooth extractions are $200-$500 each#I use about $50 of groceries a week ($30 USD) sometimes up to $80 if I need to buy some extra toiletries or bonuses like ham/falafel/bread#our last quarterly power bill was $1900 FOR NO REASON even for a winter one#olessan oration#the work I have is HIT/mturk type work which pays amazingly well and I am so grateful because I can't work in a traditional environment due#my inability to sleep/wake on anyone else's schedule and need for engaging work but it also means each worker is basically a contract worke#picking their own hours which is VERY HARD to stick to for me since I may also have ADHD-i but that diagnosis also costs like $2000 in Aus#so I'm doing my best fucking lmao#I have a set minimum hours I want to keep up to and move to full time but I am so exhausted by the constant background noise of#the tooth problems that I burn out very quickly#like the tooth ache isn't that bad#the tooth is actively dying but the pain isn't unbearable it just shits me off at all times#it's bearable most of the time and doesn't affect my sleep unless the temp is cold or something#it's been bad this week tho so I've gone through almost all my ibuprofen managing it#the tooth that broke off broke off earlier in the year and the gum has mostly healed over and the dead root is concealed inside my gums now#that stopped being painful in mid 2021 but when it died it was pretty bad it did stop me sleeping for a couple weeks#Christmas 2021 involved me contemplating ripping the tooth out myself lmao#the nerve eventually died seemingly without an abscess#unless I DID have an abscess but that seems extremely unlikely because abscesses are SEVERE AND HORRIBLE AND LIFE THREATENING#sometimes I can feel the tooth ligament wiggling on its own or I like flex it by accident it's so weird bc the tooth is gone so#the ligament is still holding onto the root but with way less weight#anyway I am eating my mac n cheese n veg with the side that has the missing tooth because the cavity tooth has a big bruise along the gumli#gumline which may be from overzealous brushing (I fill the tooth will temporarily filling putty and it needs to be cleaned well when the#putty falls out)
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not only does michael watch supernatural, he FINISHED supernatural
#actively losing my mind over this instead of doing what i’m supposed to imsofhdkfjf#HIS TASTE IN TV IS. ITS. ITS SOMETHINGKFLDJF#fighting for my life on discord as we speak but . i cannot deny. he IS dean winchester coded-#also i’ve never actually watched spn i can’t talk about it just. yeah. Yeah He Would#the guy had NOTHING better to do 15 seasons of batshit insanity it is#⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc
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i rly like that i'm at a place with my art where i can literally see the improvement from one piece to the next
#it's not perfectly linear and it depends on how much effort i put into a piece#but like. i'm actually developing an intuitive sense for anatomy#i know that i'm still not very good at it but i don't mind anymore because i know that i AM getting better#and that i can KEEP getting better#i can start a piece with a vision and i can make the vision happen on the paper#not perfect! definitely still clumsy! i have things i know i want to work on!#but instead of being frustrated and unsatisfied with every piece bc i only see the flaws#i like looking at my own art now#and it's only rly been in the past year or so that i've been actively working on getting better#so it's just. nice :)#i'm like a level 15 writer level 6 actor and a level 2 visual artist kfsjhfkjdjd#so when i'm suddenly gaining access to level 3 artist abilities it's like OH WOW#whereas it feels like i haven't leveled up my writing in years#anyway. being able to physically see ur progress in a skill is nice i recommend it
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i wonder if i should ever talk about the fact that dara was directly inspired by william aft0n (censored to keep it out of searches). should we talk about that? or is that just like. obvious
#i think it'd be fun to point at all the sources of inspiration the deathspeaker had#i'm not aware of all of my sources because i don't. typically actively Try to take inspiration?#it just kinda happens. i just make stories#but the deathspeaker compared to my other stories is. not like that!#i was 15! i was really into fandom! i wasn't a good writer and was taking stuff i liked and shoving it in my story!#and i think it's cool sometimes to acknowledge those roots#there's stuff you probably wouldn't have even guessed in there#but tbh i don't think i'll actually get into it unless someone asks#it's been on my mind as something i wanna talk about and dissect for a while#but i don't actually have that much to say so i never say any of it#i kinda just wanna point at the things that inspired me and go Well Ain't That Neat and move on#but that's boring so i don't#shrug. if anybody's curious i'll go into it but if not eh whatever
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Why is Alestair such a dumb dumb
#this is old as hell and is also from high school#you can tell it's old because this is before I changed Alec to be a nickname Vi assigned him and not one that he actively encourages#cause she calls him Alec because she finds his real name 'too long' and it bothers him but he never really did anything about it#because when I made him Alec was just a nickname he chose to go by as a child that he later abandons as an adult#but I changed my mind#they are both 15 in this scene#also Idan almost died so that's why Alec is dumb as hell for this but his is also drunk and wasn't entirely aware so#i just realized i made up a word
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Gotta hurt my own feelings rereading old poems (based on even older diary entries) so I can figure out what I wanna unpack in therapy as we approach the 10 year anniversary of something I thought I had healed from until someone else triggered tf out of me 🤪
#I want to both hug and strangle 2013-15 Liv#USE YOUR BRAIN! USE YOUR BRAIN!#but also go to therapy that isn’t NorCal Kaiser adolescent psych because they’re actively gaslighting and dismissing you#how did I write these poems in 2018 without triggering myself#and then some rando manages to traumatize me in just the right way to rip that wound wide tf open#like in 2018 I literallt was like wow turning these diary entries into poems gave me more closure than I ever thought I’d have 😃#and now I am feeling various feelings#don’t mind me I’m literally off my meds rn and out of refills and I lost my psych’s new contact info
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My Experience Buying eSIMs for Gaza by Maia Kobabe
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My Experience Buying eSIMs for Gaza
Project organized by @ connectinghumanity_
by Maia Kobabe @redgoldsparks
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In Fall 2023, I saw instructions on instagram for how to purchase an eSIM card and submit it to be distributed to someone in Gaza.
Download an eSIM app-> Select Middle East as the region-> Purchase-> Screenshot the QR code-> Do not activate-> send to [email protected]
Image of Maia looking at eir phone. “That sounds easy, I’ll buy one.”
I emailed an Airalo eSIM QR code to gazaesims on Nov 17 2023.
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By January 2024, it hadn’t been activated yet. I bought a second one from Nomad and sent my new QR code and resubmitted my old one.
Image of Maia looking at eir phone. “How long does this usually take, I wonder?”
By February neither had been activated, but Connecting Humanity kept posting about needing more. I bought a second Nomad and resubmitted all of them on February 15, 2024.
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The Nomad eSIMs are much cheaper than Airalo, but what I didn’t realize is that they expire even if they haven’t been activated. At the end of February I decided to try a third company, Simly. Here’s a price comparison:
AIRALO: $39 USD for 3GB, never expires
SIMLY: $22 USD for 3GB, never expires
NOMAD: $16 USD for 3GB, expires after 8 weeks even if unused, only offers in-app refunds
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Connecting Humanity asks folks to wait at least 3 weeks before resending a QR code that hasn’t been activated yet. On March 7 Mirna Elhelbawi posted:
We send EVERY esim we receive. Bear in mind that we are dealing with people at a war zone. They might take it and get killed before activating it, they might take it and their phone gets lost or destroyed. They might take it and search for days for stable internet connection to activate it, and some of them activate it unsuccessfully due to lack of knowledge and the horrific situations they are in. ~Connecting Gaza
By early April, my first Nomad eSIM expired unused. I resubmitted my three remaining eSIMs.
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Suddenly, two of my eSIMs were activated on the same day! The Airalo I’d purchased 4.5 months earlier and my second Nomad.
Image of Maia looking happy and surprised.
Image of Maia looking very intensely at eir phone. “I have to make sure these don’t run out!”
I began buying top-up packages immediately.
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I felt like I had planted a seed in the fall and waited all winter for it to sprout. Seeing it activated was like watching the first new leaves break the soil.
Image of Maia with a watering can labeled “data”, sprinkling water on two little sprouts. “Watering my eSIMs!”
Sadly, only .07 GB of data was ever used on my Nomad. It was never used again after that first day.
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But my Airalo has been in constant use for over a month now. I check on it every day.
I will never know the person I am buying data for and they will never know me. But we are connected by the same strings of hope and grief that connect us all.
Image of two hands holding a phone, which is connected to a flying kite.
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On April 5, 2024 Connecting Humanity reported they had sent more than 250,000 eSIMs to Gaza, equivalent to approximately $6.3 million donated! You can visit gazaesims.com for more info, instructions, and discounts. Here are my referral codes:
MAIA5367 for $3 off Airalo
MB772 for $3 off Simly
MAIA66GF for $3 off Nomad
If you need more incentive, the Cartoonist Coop is doing art rewards. Visit cartoonist.coop/esims4gaza
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Image of Maia, weighing two options. “Buying an eSIM is easy and can make a very direct impact. It can also take a lot of patience and could get expensive over time if you commit to keeping the eSIM topped up indefinitely.”
If an immediate one time donation is more your speed, I recommend Operation Olive Branch and Gazafunds, two places to find Gofundmes aiding Palestinian families.
gazafunds.com
@ operationolivebranch on insta
linktr.ee/opolivebranch
-Maia Kobabe 2024
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this counts as AT LEAST shoujo ai
#uknow what i mean if yur like me who at like 15 actively used 2 google ''CROSSDRESSING ANIME COUPLES............ECCHI"#like. dont get me wrong i was watching yuri h_ntai as well but you know how it is#Lord ....in which sick & twisted mind is this hetero....???? OTAKU BISEXUALS.. GRAB YOUR WA#di4ry
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