#writing ramble

[crookedghosts]

my fav thing to do with jason in these mortal aus is make him seriously roman still. like just to mess with leo lol

(the touching of shoulders in question below) -

[holy3cake]

Me: *writing smut*

Am I currently feeling Dua Lipa lowkey sensual or Kim Petras full blown slut? Hm.

[obstinaterixatrix]

I honestly feel like the way you write Yusuke is healing my inner artist a little. Thank you.

It’s Tough Being An Artist, glad to hear that my specialest guy ever could bring you some comfort :V

[the-scarlet-manor]

I thought it'd be nice to say something here and talk about something near and dear to my heart which is neurodivergence and autism. This project has a shit ton of representation about ADHD, autism and OCD (also a bit about dyslexia and dyscalculia!) because me and AZ are both neurodivergent. This is a neurodivergent safe place for anyone, and I thought it'd be special to have my first real ramble here be about Genesis and their autism.

Whenever people do try and represent autism, I think they get caught up in the general symptoms of it that they forget to weave in the general, everyday lived experience of it. I don't think it's anything special to talk about symptoms because it sounds pathologizing at best so what I will talk about is how they generally function. And the best way to describe is kind of machine-like.

They barely feel like a person because of backstory reasons AND their neurodivergence. They feel disconnected from the rest of humanity to a detrimental point that they commonly see human interaction as an equation, conflicts are problems they have to solve, humans are 'it's instead of . just humans. They have a hard time navigating their own thoughts and feelings and frequently find themselves stuck in routines that comfort them. A part of why they're so socially inept is how they've been in survival mode or dissociating for so long they barely feel like a person, much less someone that socializes. A very common point of conflict in the story is how their behavior counteracts with the people around them. They can come off as cold and abrasive and tense without meaning to, despite their efforts to be gentle.

A BIG part of my autism is how disconnected I feel from others. I just genuinely never feel like I am conversing right and social cues just fly over my head if I'm not specifically told something. It's really frustrating and alienating and though I wouldn't call it traumatizing, it sticks with you. And I'd like to protect that to Genesis.

A big theme in L:TSM is humanity. At what point are you human, morally or in a sense of essence? And Genesis is like my main contender for the humanity theme because holy shit how can you fuck someone up so bad that they barely Feel Like A Person. Though I don't think its entirely SCI-REN's fault for how rigid and weird they are, it's just. Man.

Anyway that's pretty much it. I hope this project comforts all the weird and disturbing little freaks of nature stuck in human bodies in the world :3

- JC

[imagine-you]

For years, I really wanted to work on an X-Men story. The first one I ever planned was actually set during X-Men: First Class and X-Men: Days of Future Past. Reader was Logan's daughter (I know it's weird now don't judge me) and basically he had an idea about her but didn't really know her. So, she ends up with the X-Men in First Class and it goes through to the events of Days of Future Past. And it was going to be Peter Maximoff/Reader and Logan was going to hate that so much, but there would have been a lot of familial angst there. I don't know if I'll ever write it, but it's just so funny to me that I always thought that would be the first X-Men fic I finally made myself write. And then I saw Deadpool and Wolverine and my heart just broke over and over for Logan and I had to channel all that into the fic I'm working on now. I'm so glad I finally wrote an X-Men fic, though. It was a long time coming.

[chaosuca]

currently writing about stan during his teen years and while im making sure he’s into music and football and so on, it comes across as me just pulling shit out of my ass, because i never show him enjoying ANY of his passions actively. actually, most of the time i don’t even show him thinking of wendy, even though he loves her quite deeply. and it is all intentional. i like him so depressed and so caught up in his messed up life that he doesn’t really tap into anything else, no matter how important it may actually be to him. these are his constants that he only realizes mean so much to him when his messy lifestyle actually seeps into those things, too, tearing them from him.

[shawtysdelirium]

I'm actually writing a gayass skk fanfic where Dante's Divine Comedy is like the protagonist and where later on Dazai's gonna claim how he's a Dante x Virgil shipper. I'm also making him say all my ideas regarding Dante's idea of love for Beatrice.

[voidlingduck]

Finished the opening scene for my dragon riders project, getting acquainted with Morrigan and Rune. It's definitley a little rough around the edges but it was fun to explore and see how it progressed. At about 2k words for this section, and thinking that this next bit is going to introduce another dragon rider pair... so I need to figure out who they are! I really am just winging it so I don't fully know whose coming up next, just some scraps of ideas that I'll do some work to build upon before I jump back in again.

Some interesting things that have come out of this first scene though!

Both Morrigan and Rune engage in practices of divination, Morrigan throws bones and Rune reads the stars for guidance. Thinking about the theme of uncertain futures... now that they have started to bond as a dragon rider pair they also struggle to engage in these practices alone.

Rune tends to have a playful energy, though when more connected to Morrigan a certain sternness comes out, perhaps drawing from Morrigan's more intense and blunt energy.

Getting a feel for the landscape this story takes place in, and figuring out what it would look like to create a place that accounts for both humans and dragons with such vast differences in scale between them.

I'm having fun just writing and playing around and seeing what happens, no doubt a lot will change as I go, but it's exciting and fun and satisfying to sit down and see what happens as I type.

[fogsy-feel]

Debating on whether or not I should just post the Sterek Fic. It's at 20k and not even remotely done (was supposed to be a oneshot) but now it's looking like I might have to post it in chapters.... which would put ANOTHER wip on my ao3

[crookedghosts]

yeah yeah I'll write percy as pez in the rwrb au but oh my GOD the greek/roman thing but it's american/british rivalries is also so jercy coded... I would pay anything to hear prince jason grace call percy perseus. and it'd piss him off at first too but then later it's between that and "let's make love tonight" and percy's just like. fucking fine I guess British princes talk funny but it's hot or whatever sue me.

[holy3cake]

I was writing IHFF today, and I got a little bit emotional reaching this wordcount. I wanted to mark the day I finally reached 80k, and that day is today :)

Anyone who knows me knows how much I struggle with my writing, and I honestly appreciate every single one of you that inspires me to write every day! From saying hello, to liking my posts, to messaging me, I cannot thank you all enough! You've all contributed to this, and I am just thrilled today <3

And I suppose I have to thank Aethelstan and Osbert because otherwise this work would never exist. So thank you Lord King and Lord Osbert for your continued sexiness haha.

[obstinaterixatrix]

[sweats] I never saved xj’s ex’s name. just her initials. past stella….

[attenaeus]

was reminded of a short gothic piece i wrote ages ago for a school assignment (got full marks on it and i am very proud of that), and i've decided i'm gonna rewrite it entirely from memory because i don't have a copy of it now LMAO

no clue when it'll be done because uni is starting up again, but knowing a lot more about myself now it is making a lot more sense as to why i wrote things in the ways i did. i reckon i could make it a lot better now knowing where those ideas come from

[mulholland-driver]

I miss having someone to love

I wanna cook someone breakfast before they're up in the morning, let the smell of savory bacon and cinnamon coffee dictate the trailing off of their dreams as their consciousness bleeds into the here and now, fueling a lazy, sleepy smile because they know the dream continues just a few paces up the hall.

I wanna watch their eyes light up when I ask them how their day was after a long shift at work, helping them take their boots off, knuckling knots out of their shoulders while all the little details of their daily dissatisfactions dissipate like a long slow exhale in winter air.

I wanna hand them the toothpaste in front of a sunset backdrop while we share the bathroom mirror, making cheeky eye contact over foamy smiles as we get ready to greet the night, pillows waiting to be punched down like freshly risen dough by sleepy heads full of dream seeds to be scattered throughout the bed. They bloom in the dark like moon flowers, just to be picked at the break of dawn and left on the sheets beside them to remind them...I love having someone to love.

[imagine-you]

Finally saw the Thunderbolts trailer and I cannot wait to finally write for Bucky Barnes. I've wanted to for years.

Y'all really got me in my Marvel era. Sorry about that. 😂