#accursed rambles

[accursedvoid]

Y’all ever just be vibing and then BAM! the existential anxiety and dread of the world today just hits you and you have an hour or so just mentally having a bad time about it - then it’s back to vibing and we start the cycle again.

[dni-iftherearedogsonyourblog]

ik I've been posting alot about how much I love transfems but that specific type of husky laugh from girl who's insecure about her voice but forgets about it for just a moment to let out that beautiful laugh. I think can cure many diseases.

[cheebuss]

thonkin about horsey

[nyaskitten]

Hearing that sometimes even adults have horrid nightmares about school is so funny... like school is longterm trauma huh? You cannot escape that shit ever huh?

[guillottiine]

i was bored and found this stupid ship chart and i knew what i had to do

[stormbreaker-290]

Usurjshdj goomorning guess whos started having dreams Abt Tumblr and responding to asks/reblogs that. Aren't real🔥🔥🔥

[etirabys]

ok I'm going to blame my personality less for social failures. auditory processing issues are really isolating. I'm at a large dinner where I'm interested in the subconversations but I can't follow them without leaning in too much or asking people to repeat too often. I took improv with a nearly-deaf person once and was privately pretty annoyed at how difficult scenes with him were. and I don't want to make other people feel that way so I just nod when I don't understand. then I say dumb words because I don't understand. it's hard to make friends in the age of music everywhere

[rosie-kairi]

Many things in my life change over time but one thing that stays forever is the fact that I will always be doodling khuxdr characters in the margins of notebooks and other miscellaneous schoolwork

[goldiipond]

having an overprotective and somewhat paranoid mom can be funny but sometimes i feel like my brain is determined to make her think i never take a single thing she says seriously. i talked about how sometime in the future i'd like to travel around latin america to better connect with our culture since we live in the us and of course she wasn't thrilled with the idea of me traveling across continents but i almost immediately stopped listening to her because she mentioned brazil's high murder rate and "BRASIL NUMERO 1 CAMPEÃO PENTA 🇧🇷☝🏻☝🏻🏆" started blaring really loudly in my head

[viridiave]

a bunch of unhinged questions about the Knights Ardante and the Sacred Flame

Okay it's not just me right. It's WEIRD how the Knights Ardante are just. Not around in Ophilia's story

I know this was retroactively explained away by the sheer losses the Order had to endure during the events of COTC but also?? They were present in H'aanit's story?? It SOUNDED like a fair amount of them were mobilized in Marsalim the moment they heard that Redeye was holed up in the ruins

Was Redeye just so much of a threat that it took more priority over seeing the Kindling through

What exactly were the preparations they made for Lianna before Ophilia took over the role? Was there a scene at some point where Ophilia was denied those preparations because she wasn't supposed to be the person for the job in the first place? Was that Mattias's doing??

One of the stated purposes of the Knights Ardante is that they would assist believers on their pilgrimages

SO WHERE THE FUCK ARE THEY??

I KNOW for story reasons Ophilia HAS to be making the trek alone anyway but it's a little weird how much stock they put in the Lanthorn and they just. Let her go alone?

Wasn't it also stated somewhere that the pilgrimage was dangerous and that some Flamebearers never managed to complete it

Were there people sent to retrieve the Lanthorn in the case of a failed pilgrimage

Actually what even happens if the Kindling fails. Do they just wait for the next one or do they sent a replacement immediately

I'll give them the benefit of the doubt and say maybe it's a pilgrimage thing to ultimately have it be a solitary mission cuz they do also say in the Timeline that 'pilgrimages became popular'

the wording implies that it wasn't a mandated thing, at least for people who aren't Flamebearers

Orsterra was like. FINE somehow in the 700 years that the Kindling wasn’t a thing so maybe it really ISN'T required? But the Ember holds power CLEARLY

Actually for that matter what the fuck even are the Sacred Flames

What the fuck even is the FIRST FLAME

We know from OT2 that the Sacred Flames hold the power to prevent disasters from befalling a continent at least? And that they were MAYBE made from the sacrifice of the other gods in their face-off against Vide? God idk man it's been a while since I paid attention to OT2 lore

Is there also relevance in the way that Solistia has 4 Flames in place of Orsterra's 3. Where did Orsterra's Flames come from. When Aelfric brought them down to the continent how did it look

did it spread like wildfire and the ones we see now are just remnants from that time?

I mean there's LEGENDS about the 3 specific places where the Sacred Flames are APPARENTLY so maybe not??

This really started as just me asking about the Knights Ardante

Edit: ok First Flame was a stupid question it could actually literally just be the exact flame that Aelfric brough down from the heavens but also why only put that one Guardian there to defend it. Did Flamesgrace think that was enough to protect it. How necessary is it

Edit 2: ok where did Orsterra's Flame come from is also a stupid question like yeah it came down from the heavens but also like. what other things is it capable of exactly. Like it can manifest directly in individuals like the Flameguards when they've got Aelfric's blessing or something? and it did some weird shit in Ochette's Chapter 4. Does it hold influence over guardian beasts somehow were they MADE from it? God I need to play OT2 again

[ruanbaijie]

I should have a set that's just random spirealm scenes showing the before and after so that yall can see just how tricky it is to colour this show

[dni-iftherearedogsonyourblog]

flirting with transfems is so hard because (and I say this with love) we are all losers. if I'm upfront, she thinks I'm joking. if I'm subtle, she doesn't get it.

I tried to get her to talk about her interests and 2 minutes in she goes "sorry, I rambled off a little bit there" as if the joy in her voice wasn't worth all the worlds wealth and made me look towards the future with hope instead of dread

[cheebuss]

Me explaining how to boil an egg VS Me explaining and justifying my interpretation of Ludwig the Holy Blade based on what limited canonical material is available of him

[kekkuda]

stuck thinkin hard bc I wanna do some bloodborne tarot drawings for the major arcana but I don’t know what to do with Gehrman bc I think most people would assign him to Death bc of the grim reaper aesthetic going on but the classic Rider Waite illustration being a dead knight on a horse trampling over a corpse is just literally Ludwig, just an undying knight rotting away on a corpse pile in bloodborne’s equivalent of hell

like the card also represents transition/change and inevitability which just works so much better with Ludwig’s role in Bloodborne as a cautionary tale of this is what happens to every hunter and even the greatest of us cannot escape it. It just seems so perfect for him I’m not sure what other card to give him because I can’t just assign him to the Moon bc its fucking bloodborne and every character has moon motifs and there’s literally a fucking Moon Presence

So that said I’m really thinking Gehrman is probably just going to be the Hanged Man because of the card’s meaning being linked to sacrifice/surrender, uncertainty, imprisonment, and apathy with a good old side of soft martyrdom. It has a lot of imagery dealing with being unable to escape from a situation or help oneself, often being associated with pause and contemplation which. Man it fits Gehrman so much better than just giving him Death bc of the grim reaper ass scythe and the fact that idk, he kills you. The hanged man also seems to have a common interpretation related to notions of letting go and I mean… come on now

how many times has there been an option to end a game with a character being like “congrats you did it, unfortunately the reward for it fucking sucks so you should just let me kill you (but not really kill you) so that you don’t have to suffer in eternal purgatory” hes the embodiment of severing ties and ‘letting go’ in so many aspects of his character, simultaneously physically attached from the ‘waking world’ yet unable to emotionally sever himself from it. He cannot make peace with his isolation, and he cannot ‘go mad’ from it either. He’s just forced to exist in a place of stasis as hunters constantly come and go and sometimes never come back should they turn or become trapped in the nightmare. Idk just some overthinkin

[ign1ted-ember]

Might just start a new Bloodborne playthrough just to fight Ludwig again

[rotruff]

i'll explain it better whenever i have accurse's full like. Lore or whatever together but i've been thinking a lot abt him interacting with the deities when he finally starts calming down