#accidentally rbed here instead of my main blog

[kincallfightclub]

if you just saw that no you didn’t

[stupidfuckingpieceofshit]

alright. youre asking directly so okay. ill just tell you from the beginning. found the last url accidentally when you rbed something from your main (edited in 10/10: pretty sure it was the 'i need to be taken out back and shot' post, if you want to know exactly when.) had seen the url change because i had the page open for like 48 straight hours but brain stole the information from me so i forgot it for, i don't know, a month, month and a half? youd sent me a screenshot of a reblog so in a moment of weakness and fear and obsession and stupidity i tracked down the post and went through the notes until i found the url id forgotten. so yeah i read it. compulsively. its a violation of your privacy and trust and its not okay of me and i apologize for being so fucking insane. like you have pretty clearly said, its none of my business. if you ask me to stop ill stop. and if i had completely believed that you didnt want me reading it i wouldnt have. i dont not want to talk about it but i hadnt been able to figure out how, if you do we can (10/10: you know, hopefully, that i want to talk about anything and fucking everything with you all of the time. deepest depths of our sick sick brains shit. all of it. any of it. idc) if you want to post about it and have me read it and never verbally acknowledge any of this instead you can. if you want to change the url so you know im not seeing anything you can. if youre upset with or mad at me i understand and i'm capable of handling that, do whatever you need to about it, let me know whatever you need from me one way or another if you can.

also, if i had seen that you needed me to come be out there i fully would have. i wish i hadnt been asleep. i always just want to do everything i can to try keep you safe. i dont post here, either, obviously, so sorry about that. you knowing this blog is completely different from what i did because i literally straight up told you the url since it was already inactive anyway. havent been sure if you knew the real one bc i wasnt sure if the time i accidentally rbed smthn from you onto it was a hallucination or not (still am not sure)

and anyways, i love you and im sorry