#accidentally mistook it for you being upset

[beingofthestars]

xe let out a sigh and nodded in response to the first half.

hm. how about you tell me more about your flowers, kid? any in specific that you associate with anyone in particular?

xes trying to shift the conversation to something steven might actually want to talk about! :3

[Hai moon! I offer up your son! His hair seems to be a mess. His eyes are puffy, and his cheeks are probably stained from crying so much! Also, this time? He's not in his usual suit attire. Sure, he still has slacks? But Sly seemingly has Joe's shirt on their shoulders! His voice is probably cracked. He is… A mess.]

 

"I just wanted to check in with you. Hha. If.. it’s a bad time I can come back later.-“

@ask-steven-stevenson

hi steven! you are currently in xis sisters house! xis sister isnt here at the moment, however, so its just you n moon. xe steps forward, attempting to reach out before hesitantly folding xis hands to xis chest. xe looks concerned.

hi! hello, kiddo! nonono, its never a bad time for you to visit! is something up?

[gildead]

with regards to the last reblog, i'd like to make the case that vagueblogging/vagueventing can actually incite more drama than just being direct with people.

because you're not directly addressing the problem, you're going to cause a lot of people to get anxious you're talking about them. take it from me, because this happened in personal experience. i once mistook a vaguepost for an attack on my friend who had a duplicate muse, and because of that, we were practically STALKED and lied about for two years (perhaps even longer) until i chewed out the person publicly for doing so. i hold no ill will towards the other person involved, and i hope they've made steps to become a better, more responsible person.

years before that, someone who was extremely abusive to my friends and me was vagueblogging about our RPC and how WE were the toxic bigots they needed to get away from, shortly before we called them out for literal predatory behavior and their own bigotry. if you know, you know.

point is, vaguing is not the solution. sure, maybe you'll feel a little better for five nanoseconds, but then what? you haven't actually resolved the problem. you haven't actually addressed what's going on with you. chances are, you're now more likely to let the issue fester and blow up to become a bigger problem than it would've been if, you know, properly addressed it.

i've previously stated i want this to be the year we be more direct with each other, and that still stands true. dedicating an ENTIRE BLOG to enabling people to latch onto resentment and allow negative feelings to fester is a huge cartwheel in the wrong direction. if someone accidentally upsets you, talk to them. if someone is a danger to the community, EXPOSE THEM.

(yes, you can reblog.)

ps. addressing the general problems of a whole community is not equivalent to vaguing.

[rosyandraw]

Speaking of Damen’s POV. I’ve always wondered what Damen was thinking in Chapter 5 when he just got back from secretly rescuing Auguste and Laurent ask him whether he wanted to fuck him. Idk because the way you wrote it seemed so ominous.

Did Damen ever suspect that Laurent was ever groomed at all? Because I think it’s evident that Laurent portrays obvious signs of unhealthy experience like how he assumes that every favour should be repayed with sex etc.

Would love to know more on Damen’s introspection of Laurent. And ngl for someone as protective as Damen, I’m surprised that Damen didn’t take action on Bastian sooner. Like just beat him up already djdghshs

Okay this might get long so I’m very sorry! And I’ll put it under a cut because it could potentially be upsetting or triggering and I don’t want anyone to accidentally see it.

Damen’s awareness of Laurent’s abuse in canon and how I translated this.

Firstly, thank you so much for this question, and yes, it was meant to be a little ominous or dark because you guys all know what it implies.

I’ll start by saying it is a tough topic to navigate in fiction because the nuances can get lost on page and there is no one size fits all.

And that’s always very present in my mind when I think about Captive Prince and the way it deals with -and the ways it doesn’t deal with- Laurent’s abuse.

For Damen in particular I based NMFY and Damen's behaviours/reactions entirely on my opinion regarding the canon.

Did Damen consciously and actually think the words “Laurent was groomed”? No.

Do I think he was aware on many levels of the things he was witnessing, and cataloguing of Laurent's behaviours, and it's likely source? Yes.

I think Damen, like many of us, would never just assume something so brutal regardless of what’s in front of us. It’s not a standard thing to think or assume regardless of the people and circumstances around the person. Most people do not go around thinking of it because it is abhorrent and outside of -most- people’s experiences. I think as good people we -like Damen- would shy away from the conscious admission of the thought because we don’t want it to be true. Even when something is “off”.

And I believe that is at the heart of Damen's understanding in canon (and in my fic by extension). Canon Damen is very good at compartmentalising and actively not thinking about the things that upset him. His ability to repress his pain (Kastor, Jokaste, being made a slave, not getting to say goodbye to his murdered father, the prep and ring scene, the post, Ancel... the list goes on) is unparalleled and speaks to his own trauma response mechanisms. I think this very much extends to Laurent and the fact that he was, as Damen said "mishandled"

He actively shies away from it. He notices little things here and there and then quickly swerves away. An example that springs to mind right now from very early on is Pg 13 of Prince's Gambit:

There was something uneasily transgressive about the idea of sleeping in the place meant for Laurent’s uncle “the prince stays here often?”. The castellan mistook him to mean the keep, not the rooms. “Not often, He and his uncle came here a great deal together in the year or two after Marlas. As he grew older, the Prince lost his taste for the runs here. He now comes only rarely to Chastillon."

Damen made a leap but he doesn't tell us exactly what that leap is. We just know that the intimacy of Laurent sleeping in his uncle's bed made him uneasy. That something felt off. But the castellan mistakes Damen's meaning implying it is something normal and follows up with what is essentially the reason he thinks nothing of it. And then food arrives and Damen rushes off to it with the air of someone desperate to cut the conversation. A flash in the pan; noticed, documented, and quickly buried. One instance of many.

So, yes. I think Damen was only waiting for confirmation both in Canon and in my fic. He was actively repressing everything he had noticed and rejecting the conclusion he desperately did not want to think about.

Because what if he was wrong? That’s a terrible thing to assume or bring up or bookmark in your head about someone when you don’t know.

I think in Canon, and likewise what I attempted in my fic, it equates somewhat to: Schrödinger’s awareness. He doesn't know, but he also does.

In Chapter 5 of NMFY it gives Damen pause, like most of Laurent’s glaring markers, the same way they do for Damen in canon. It’s something he makes a note of and something he endeavours to not question out right -not his place- and to make sure Laurent feels safe enough to know Damen would never do what Laurent expects.

This part in particular I based on Laurent’s assumption following how drunk he gets at Marlas in Kings Rising, that Damen probably fucked him. Laurent in CP and Laurent in my fic are both aware that being out of it (drugged, practically asleep, incredibly drunk) means it’s easy to fuck him and all he has to really do is lie there and it’ll be over quick, because his submission or compliance is the expected norm. Neither upsetting nor angering to him. Just is what it is. An expectation from experience. He’s less trouble when he’s half conscious: this he knows and equates it to ideal time to fuck him because docile is preferable and his comfort/consent has never been part of the equation.

In my fic Damen clings to the idea that Auguste would have said something if it had been true of Laurent. So whilst he’s aware something about Laurent is off, he consciously shuts the ideas down. But Damen doesn’t take time to be convinced both in my fic and in canon, he just absorbs it. There are no questions, it’s just bringing a hard buried suspicion to the forefront as fact.

As for Bastian I think Damen wants to so very badly. But he’s also aware that he can’t really do that given who they are. And he’s never exactly certain that it’s his place to do so. He (and me by extension or is that the other way around? Haha!) needs Laurent to pull the trigger so to speak. He’s protective yes but Laurent has his own agency and Damen wouldn’t overstep that.

Especially in a modern setting and in this setting in particular where he has to worry about the press and the truth of a certain situation which he can never afford to have out. Anything with the police is a no go for him. Just in case. Damen is aware that the Royal family, the secret service, they’d all flip if someone dug up -or dragged up- the truth so its best not to tempt fate. Which absolutely isn’t to say he can’t be pushed but as of right now he’s conscious of Laurent and his choices and what he might want -or not want- and his place in all of that. He’s not petty enough to lash out with jealousy at least. Like in canon jealous Damen is more derisive and sulky than aggressive or petty.

I am very sorry this got so long but I wanted to give it a proper answer 💕💕

[captmickey]

20. "Please, you need rest" with Graham and Valanice?

It was funny. She had always thought that, being from Royalty, most rules and laws were relatively similar, give or take a few minor differences based on the regions. 

Yet Daventry confused her. 

While the basic rules were there, and between understanding the citizens and how the neighboring kingdoms felt regarding her new home, even the captain of the Royal Guards advised her it was best to approach it more as a base guideline instead of actual rules. When she asked why, he just let out a long and tired sigh followed by a “trust me, Your Majesty… it’s best not to think too hard about this.”

Graham described it as ‘to avoid accidentally upsetting others who are rather firmly planted in the ways prior to his rule’. 

She had to admit: she was confused. 

And that confusion was apparent during the blitz of introducing her to the masses. Each meeting with the aforementioned crowd was… disastrous to say the least. Valanice felt her face flush with embarrassment whenever she mistook an old folk lore or a prior treaty between Daventry and the neighboring kingdoms. Number One’s words were in her head, how she shouldn’t think too hard, but the more she thought, the more she panicked. And before she knew it, the entire event was over. It all… genuinely felt like a blur. 

And to her internal horror, there was another event in two nights time where she will meet the leaders of the various regions.

It was one thing as a princess, it was another as a soon to be queen.

Because of this, and because of sleep constantly eluding her, she knew she wasn’t going to get any real rest, not with those lingering thoughts of how she should know better. She was from royalty after all… and she didn’t want to come off as ill prepared in this new kingdom. 

Valanice sat on the floor of the office, the fireplace lit and illuminating the paper upon paper strewn about on the floor in an orange light. She had to get this right, she wasn’t about to make the same mistake again.. She couldn’t. She wouldn’t.

His voice grabbed her attention as she looked up, seeing Graham by the door in his own pajamas. 

“Another late night?”

“Oh, Graham!” Valanice sounded startled. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean– did I wake you?”

“I mean, when I turned over and my hand hit the mattress… again.” Graham tried to joke, covering his mouth with his hand to hide the yawn. He eyed the room and a brow went up. “What’s going on here?”

“Hm? Oh…” she looked at the room, a blush crept on her face, “this is um… homework.”

“Homework?” He moved to sit on the floor across from her, making sure not to sit on any parchment and picking one up to examine it. “Did Number One say he was going to quiz you?”

“No, it’s not him quizzing me… it’s me quizzing me.”

“You… quizzing yourself?” Graham lowered the paper, his joking expression switched to that of concern quickly. “This is the fifth night in a row… please, you need rest.”

“I know, I know but…” Valanice looked away, a frown was forming on her lips. “I can’t, not yet.”

“Why?”

“Because of today’s meeting. I didn’t like how it went.”

He stared for a moment before resting his forearms on his knees. “I thought it went pretty well.”

“Well yes, for you it was fine, but I just…” Valanice finally properly frowned. “Okay so it’s not just today, it’s been just… just over all. But especially today, I botched that entire meeting, it was a total disaster! And I couldn’t stop thinking about it.”

“But you didn’t botch it.” Graham countered softly. “Not in the slightest.”

“I kept confusing people’s names and Daventry’s current standings.”

“The standing thing is fixable, and also kinda understandable if you’re coming in from somewhere new… which you are.” He explained. “Names though? Totally human. I’ve been a king for a while now and I still sometimes confuse names. Heh, sometimes I get a nudge from Wente or Amaya when I mess a name up.”

“It’s not just that though.”

“Oh. What were you referring to then?” 

“It’s Daventry.”

Graham paused and chose to stay silent, letting Valanice get whatever it was off of her chest.

“It’s just… I don’t understand this kingdom. I love it, truly. The people, the scenery… everything. I love it, but I don’t understand it. And it’s making me doubt my ability as a monarch. Where I’m from, there’s this… image to uphold, this almost omnipotent feeling, but here? I feel, I don’t know, small? And I feel almost cruel for thinking that and… ugh.” Valanice lowered her head. “I’m rambling and confusing myself.”

“In short, you’re confused.” Graham tried to summarize. “You… have a particular background and it’s not clicking. You’re trying to think how you’d normally behave and it’s not working.”

She nodded. “Even after Number One told me to not overthink.”

A chuckle escaped. “Sounds all too familiar.”

At that, Valanice looked up. “It does?”

Graham nodded. “My first year as king? THAT was a disaster. I kept screwing up my title, bumbling between king and knight, Llewdor and Daventry, I even got kidnapped by year two or three… heh, I’m pretty sure I’m the reason Number One is greying the fastest out of all the guards. But being with the right people… it helped ease the anxiety of it all, helped me even find my footing and realized it was best to approach it as myself instead of as the late king before me.”

He shifted himself closer, looking at Valanice. “Believe me when I say, any mistakes you’ve made were hardly noticeable, if at all. Actually, you made me feel sheepish on how much I dropped the ball in my first year. Any stumbles that happened? I can promise you it wasn’t apparent. I was pretty certain you were just making jokes with how you smiled, laughed, and moved on like nothing happened. Daventry is a learning curve of a country, not going to sugar coat that… but you never once made it look like that. You came off as a native of the country.”

“It’s silly.” She wiped her eye with a sleeve. “And I know it is, but I’m always so nervous I’ll say one wrong thing and just… ugh.”

“That’s me on a day to day basis.” Graham joked. “Our first meeting was that, remember? I’m not just the king of Daventry, but I’m the king of foot in mouth.”

Valanice laughed, still wiping her eyes. 

“Look, I know we have more to come, and I know you’re trying to be ahead of the game, and its admirable, but if you want my opinion? Just keep being you… the people love you for that alone, no need to try so hard. Plus…” he rest a hand on her knee, leaning forward more, “if you want, you could always give me a signal and I’ll come rushing in to be a real knight in shining armor.”

“Sword and all?”

“More like goofy smirks and puns.” He smiled softly. “But we both need sleep for the pun to be fully effective, especially to the ambassador of the Green Isle’s delight.”

“He doesn’t like puns?”

“Quite the opposite, he adores it. I’ll give you my personal cheat sheet tomorrow.”

“Sounds like a plan.”

[im-captain-basch]

Whoops, accidentally had Cranky and Wrinkly when they were much younger on the brain and wrote fanfic about it.

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"Why do you like me as a friend?"

Donkey looked up from the stack of books he'd placed down. Inari sat on a table across the room. A perfectly good chair stood askew to her position, ignored in favor of being able to swing her legs back and forth. Her elbows rested on her knees with her hands cupping her face. One—or at least Donkey—would think based on her words that she was upset, but she seemed rather content. At least, that's how it appeared outwardly.

"What do you mean?" he finally asked.

"You could have literally anybody else in the village or even in the rest of the kingdom as your friend—you're the prince for stars' sake!" she blurted with absolutely 0 restraint, throwing her arms out.

"Yeah, and…? You're not my only friend, Ina. There's also Karate and—"

"I know, I know, it's just… out of all of them… you hang out with me the most…" She tapped the tips of her fingers together, pondering her next words. "Aren't you… afraid of what people will say?"

Donkey took a step towards her, teeth bared. "Why are you asking such things? Whose putting these thoughts into your head?"

Inari scrambled off the table, rushing over to him. His words made her panic, and she realized he might have mistook her meaning to be something else. Book-smart the prince certainly was, but people-smart he most certainly was not.

"No one, I promise! Well, I guess I'm doing it to myself." She sighed, turning away from him. "What I mean is… aren't you worried people might take our relationship differently from how we do?"

Inari had already experienced a couple of their other friends asking her about it. It had been as a joke, more or less to tease her for how close the two of them were, but it made her worried now that everyone else perceived it the same way.

"Ina, you're a very good friend of mine, and a very talkative one at that. I've always found that interesting about you," Donkey said, placing his hands on her shoulders. "However, while usually I can tell what you're trying to say while using twice as many words as needed… I genuinely can't at the moment. Please explain?"

"They might think… we're dating…?" His eyes widened, and Inari thought there was the faintest hint of his face flushing at the mere thought, but she ignored it for his sake. "I don't want anyone to get the wrong idea, least of all you, so I'm just mostly afraid, is all."

The two shared a silent look for a few moments. Donkey broke out into a mischievous grin.

"Next time someone suggests it, you should say we are actually dating."

Now it was Inari who turned red in the face, though her change was much more evident than his.

"Th-that is a bad idea!" she stammered.

"Is it? We're not considered too young for it to be taken seriously. Besides, if anyone asks why—which I'm hoping they don't—just tell them it's for the same reasons we've gotten along so well as friends. Although I guess that was your original question, huh?" She nodded. "Well, there's the fact you're really smart, you're always willing to help everyone you can, you're actually… kinda… cute… uhm, we enjoy a lot of the same books, there's never a dull moment with you if I'm being completely honest—"

"Wait, what was that third one?"

"We enjoy a lot of the same books," Donkey said nonchalantly. "Look, there's a lot of reasons to it. In the end, I actually feel like I can just be… I don't know, normal around you, instead of what I am. Some people have tried to be my friend only because I'm the prince, but it sometimes feels like you forget that when we're near each other."

"That's because I don't see," Inari pretended to swoon, acting as if she was head over heels for him, "Donkey Kong, beloved prince of the Jungle Kingdom and heir to the throne!" She grinned wide, dropping the rouse and grabbing his arm in excitement. "I see a really smart person who I am good friends with and have a great time arguing about things with. If that makes you feel like you're one of us 'little folk', then I feel like I've already accomplished something with my life. Although, ideally, we'll be old coots and I'll be talking to you like it's bingo night and we're arch rivals who have lived in the same retirement center together for decades."

They laughed at the thought.

[edrick-rolling]

Send 📩 For a random Headcanon about my muse.

@goldenxglyphs asked: 📩📩📩📩📩📩📩📩📩📩📩📩📩📩📩📩

//Oh and I'm the crazy one bc I sent 6 huh? XD

1.) Edrick speaks his "I love you"s very freely, because he feels everyone he cares about deserves to know that they are loved. That they mean a lot to him, that his love is freely given and he cares about them.

So it's not uncommon in the slightest to hear him telling his friends he loves them. But it won't bother him if they don't say it back.

2.) Eddy has the isles equivalent of a mini fridge in his room. When he makes little meals for Hunter, he stashes them inside it. So whenever Hunter picks the lock to his balcony doors, he'll always have something delicious waiting for him~.

3.) While his relationship with both parents is rocky. Edrick is a BIG Mama's boy, and he often asks his mother for advice when it comes to his illegal firework side hustle. He likes to hide in a big old beanbag chair he put in her office one day~.

4.) Edrick is actually surprisingly knowledgeable about Blight industries, business, stocks, partnerships, their merchendice, ect. If the Emperor's coven were ever to come to collect the abomitrons, and his parents weren't available? He could handle the business functions just fine on his own.

5.) He fell in love with bard magic when he was 6, and found an old, worn down Kalimba. Eddy managed to figure out how to play a simple nursery rhyme, and when he began to sing along, he unknowingly used bard magic to make water from a puddle rise up and dance around~.

The Bard coven has held his heart ever since.

6.) SPEAKING of the Bard coven. Edrick has several Raine posters, every album they've ever released (some are even autographed), as well as various Bard coven clothing articles.

7.) Snowball, one of Edrick's Palismen, wasn't carved well. Not by him anyways, and he didn't get her on Palismen adoption day. Snowball actually climbed into his basket when he was potion ingredient foraging one day, and Eddy unknowingly brought her home.

He originally mistook her for a sickly animal, because of her naturally laid back, sleepy nature. And it took him longer than he's proud to admit to realize she was in fact, a Palisman.

8.) Speaking of Snowball her special Palismen ability is summoning Clouds~. Which she mostly uses to make cozy cloud beds! But Eddy can use this to make clouds to ride on, or catch people, or to hide in, he can make small boiling rainstorms, snow, hail, freezing rain, lightning, fog ect. Basically any Cloud-based weather shenanigans???

9.) Edrick was more upset over finding out Emira had also been stood up at Grom, then he was over being stood up himself.

10.) For my Edrick, the episode "lost in language" doesn't happen. Or at least, the "stealing" Amity's diary part didn't. He wanted to sneak in just for the Wailing star and to play with the living books. Finding Amity's secret hiding spot was completely accidental, and he feels bad for messing with her safe space.

11.) Edrick has a "safe space" of his own as well. A decent sided shack buried away in the forest around Blight manor, where he makes his fireworks, potions, and stashes away all of his bard magic grimoires and instruments. It also has snacks, a crystal ball, dozens of fairy lights, a hammock, and a tiny bathroom.

Currently; Hunter is the only one who knows of the shack's location, and the only one with a key to get inside. Regardless of whether or not Eddy is there himself.

12.) In Eddy's mind? Luz has already been accepted as family. It makes him so happy to see Amity loosening up, and becoming her own person thanks to Luz. So regardless of what anyone says, he thinks Luz is a wonderful influence. That's his 3rd sister, his sister-in-law, the Blight minus the "B", and he's slowly attempting to learn Spanish to be able to talk to her more~. As well as learn more human-safe recipes he can make.

13.) In my "Jade Bard" verse, Edrick has unfortunately killed someone before. When he was a year into his apprenticeship with Raine, and out on a mission with some scouts. They were ambushed, and in self defense he hit someone with an electricity spell. Which wouldn't have killed them on its own, until they fell off their staff and into one of the Isles' non-boiling lakes.

He hasn't cast an electric spell since, and still has nightmares, and immense guilt over the event.

14.) While Edrick IS allergic to The boiling Isles' Spider milk, he would be able to eat Cow milk products just fine. So if any Luzs wants his help with anything, they will have it if they bring him some yummy dairy goodies 👀 (jk he'd help either way)

15.) Edrick ALWAYS has snacks on his person. They're the GOOD snacks, and he's always happy to share these snacks as well.

16.) He is very fluent in Latin, and probably another Boiling Isles specific language, even if he likes to pretend otherwise.

[feuqueerfire]

My Stand-In Eps 1 - 10 Live Blogging

Whelp, I have succumbed to curiosity and am also afraid of being spoiled for the ending (idek if there are supposed to be "spoilers" but yknow), so I'm starting a second on-air show even though I'm already watching Wandee. I'm watching it because everybody's seemingly obsessed with it but am also sooo nervous that this show will stumble in the last quarter the way so many shows/BLs tend to. Please let them stick the landing.

Seems like it's about somebody dying and the mother resurrecting him only he came back Wrong (because the wrong person came back in the body)? I know people hate Ming for taking advantage of Joe but also are annoyed with Joe for not standing up to Ming and also something about sneezing... Also it's adapted from a Chinese novel I think? Interesting how many Chineve BL novels are being adapted in other countries now

Ep 1 (June 25/26)

Watched a bunch of intense shows in a row (A Shop for Killers, The Worst of Evil, Infernal Affairs) and was gonna do a sweeter show with Lovely Runner but I'm gonna save that for my train rides, so I decided to start this instead.

omg wait I saw a post that said in the book apparently Ming's supposed to early 20s and Joe was late 20s (well I think the post was smth like Joe how are you a 29(?) year old getting manipulated by a 21 (?) year old lol) but because Up's older, I thought they aged him up. However, they at least kept the younger-older correct because Ming calls Joe P'Joe... <3

I Know Joe dies but that was still like... oh.

oh WAIT! I misunderstood... I thought a different guy took over Joe's body and I was like hm, I wonder if we'll ever see this original Joe again but our Joe went into a different man's body okayyyyy that makes sense. It also makes the sneezing during sex alerting Ming of Joe (or something??? idk) make more sense bc i was like huh?

and the other guy's name is Joe too

Wut - a guy who Joe knows kinda

omg Joe's original body is still not found after falling off that mountain, it's been 2 years for him too

seems like Wut knows Ming too but does Not like him

Wut says Joe reminds him of Joe (the one he knows. whom Joe really is.)

Ah, Joe's real mother died long time ago, so he's making the best of having the other Joe's mother with him

Joe decides to be a stand-in in the other Joe's life ahh. Joe is so used to being a stand-in that he will not just exist that way in the life he leads

ah, mention of Tong who I think people really hate? He's a superstar and Joe used to stand-in for him

lol, Joe accidentally mentioning liking P'Jojo's wife chicken feet cooking.

Joe and Ming first meeting in an elevator despite Joe trying to avoid Ming

oh, Ming held onto Joe and asked if they'd met before and Joe says he must've mistook him for somebody else which is funny because the first time they met, Ming mistook Joe for Tong and backhugged him or whatever, it seems like

also they'd met 3 years ago = a year before Joe's accident ig

3 years ago - OG Joe and Ming

yknow what I should go to sleep rn

okay i am back

lol Ming thinking Joe (Tong's stand-in) was Tong. but also that means Ming and Tong were a thing? or smth like that?

oh Mek plays P'Tong

Ming just came back from studying abroad

Tong shooting down Ming even though Ming came just to see him

is May Ming's older sister that he was thinking of seeing? and why'd he get mad hmm are Tong and May a thing/going to be a thing?

Ming ignoring Joe and giving curt responses until he's even more mad/upset at Tong and then he's like "let's go to your place" lol

fumbling Joe lmfao

lol I'd seen the jokes about Ming and Joe both wanting to top. I didn't realize it was original guys though I don't think. I'd thought 1) it was in the present timeline 2) a different Joe is in OG Joe's body and that's why 3) Joe and Ming are in a relationship, thus having sex, and their sexual dynamics/positions was already established and the new Joe didn't know.

but no, it's Our Joe during their first night together

"Wait, you're a top?" *THUNDER* *SUSPENSEFUL AND EVIL MUSIC*

this is so funny, they fr stopped having sex and put their clothes back on instead of just doing handjobs/blowjobs/other possibilities if neither wanted to bottom lmfaoo

owghh, I think Joe and Ming are cute, which is bad because I know Ming's gonna be a pos later and people also get frustrated with Joe

"Even if you're not fucked, you're full" about Ming eating plss

y'all were about to fuck but can't even just sleep in the same bed?

WAIT he just learned Ming's name lmfao I couldn't figure out which 2nd person pronouns he's using for Ming but he's been using Phi as 1st person pronoun

he's never tried bottoming or tried having sex?

does Ming want to get serious with Tong?

oh they fr don't have sex that night

did Ming wash the dishes and disappear?

big empty house. Ming rich as fuck

right, so Tong and May are indeed together. now Ming you gotta get over your sister's boyfriend lol i can't believe he's playing pretend dates with his sister's bf. does Ming hate his sister or smth

ah, Tong and Joe look similar from the back

drunk Ming calling Joe to come for dinner (after Tong had left) and also not telling Joe where he got his number

oh, Joe cannot win against this man

I was nervous for a sec that drunk Ming thought Joe was Tong but nah, he knows that it's Joe and that he's a virgin lol

damn, they really had sex? idk how drunk af Ming did it

"Then, I felt like I was in a dream. Not knowing that it was a nightmare" aw Joe

Ming caused Joe to die...??? is this about the phone call where Ming was maybe crying that Joe received right before his stunt or what

also ep 9 recently came out and I think Ming confesses to Joe or something because I keep seeing glimpses of a clip/gif and saw a little bit of the subs on it but keep scrolling quick

What an intriguing first episode, I'm looking forward to the rest. I didn't know half the episode would be in the 3 years ago timeline, is that how it is for most episodes or just this one to set the scene and next eps have fewer flashbacks.

Joe being a stand-in for Tong physically in acting and emotionally as Ming's boyfriend/lover/whatever they become. Also, isn't it insane that Joe just went back to work at the company that killed him lol

Ep 2 (June 26)

Ming was so drunk that he can’t even remember?!

loll this where the recognized by sneezing during sex thing comes in ig?

ah, Ming wants to tag along to the set to see Tong. I wonder how much Joe realizes Ming’s feelings for acting like after all the first time they met, Ming mistakenly hugged him thinking he’s Tong…

oof, Ming saying and emphasizing that he wants last night to be hidden

Tong is irritating

Does Ming feel jealous/irritated seeing Joe with the female costar?

Joe watching Ming and Tong and the shots/directing for it is so good, the way he's watching them through a mirror + him blurred in the foreground while we focus on their convo in the background.

Did Ming just pointedly look at Joe to see his reaction to him feeding Tong

why is Ming jealous and confronting Joe about it, I'm dead. Ming's the one who wanted to keep this a secret and it's not like they're dating or exclusive

lol Ming acting like it's Ridiculous to suggest he'd like Tong

also Tong must know that Ming likes him right? And he indulges him occasionally just to keep stringing him along? Is he using May as a beard and actually likes men/Ming specifically or does he just like the attention and actually likes May?

oh, Ming's mother is in the picture, so the house is not empty

the girl talking about their parents arranging marriages

pls Joe trying out the "send them funny messages" to flirt but it's a joke about him being a stand-in lol

this girl is so real (even as she fakes with the adults lol)

Ming appearing made Joe lose concentration and fall when he was talking about how focus is important for their job...

so much mirror stuff

Ming really just want Jor turned around all the time, facing his back that apparently looks like Tong's... ah...

How are they having sudden penetrative sex in a gym bathroom with no condoms, no lube, nothing omg

the sneeze lol

"Ming, do you like doing it from behind?" I can only sigh

Joe being touched by Ming's little actions but it's like girl... he's gonna end up skewering you

Joe being nice while interacting with the gym goes today bc he's in a good mood and got laid lmfao

I've heard about Sol and something about offering Joe money that he didn't take because he took up Ming's offer instead or something

Ming's jealousy and possessiveness

Drunk Joe getting excited and hugging Ming in front of Sol

Ming keeping up the "I'll take good care of him" pretense only to have Joe sleep on the floor in a pile is so

"What's in your to make me jealous?" oh, let's kill Ming

"Don't be so full of yourself. You are just a stand-in" ohhh we actually have to kill Ming what the hell

and yet after all those cruel words, Ming's eating ramen the way Joe cooked it and even turned down his sister May's offer to invite Tong to hang out with them.

what does that mean? What's May like right now? and what does Ming almost drowning as a child have to do with anything? or actually is that the reason she's apparently always ill or smth?

Joe's turning down Sol which is fair enough if he doesn't like him (I like them together though lol) but Joe's talking about how he now knows what love reall is and it's like... from where did you learn this? How do you know that? Certainly not from the few days you've spent with that fucker Ming

ah Joe how can you be in love with Ming omgggg

And Ming overhearing all this like aghh

poor fucking Joe, he's been alone since he was a kid and wants somebody so bad so that he's not lonely anymore. alas, he has fallen for Ming who can apparently do such touching stuff but...

okay, Joe can't mess around with other people... what about Ming?

well this time Ming begrudgingly admitted his jealousy

they are so cute when they're having fun together

Joe kinda reminds me of Tol from Triage and Cha Yeo Woon from Love for Love's Sake (those two also remind me of each other) because they're so tall and big/buff but so wide-eyed and vulnerable

Ep 3 (June 26)

these voiceovers are always so ominous lol

"Who says I'm your faen?"

Joe is always sooooo kicked puppy like he gets so excited and smiley -> Ming treats him bad -> smile drops but he doesn't defend himself, looks away with a sad expression

Ming finds Joe cute and endearing but makes himself stop smiling... girl if you like him, just like him!!!

damn, what's this Akkroyata (?) group that sells houses. is it his family related?

Joe please don't get into fucking crypto

foreign production film that needs a stuntman but the guy warns that it's unlicensed + money laundering scheme + nobody's responsible if a stuntman dies... right before this Joe was talking about needing extra money... and in the ep 1 incident scene, the crew were speaking in English... whelp.

let's just let Joe be the male lead at this rate bc wtf is this. fuckass Tong

ah, lose-lose situation if he does badly, they'll hate him. if he does too well, they'll hate him. once again fuck Tong

I guess Joe's been alone for so long that it doesn't occur to him to know where Ming's from/who his family is

ah, Joe's stand-in dance scene isn't gonna be used because it looks very bad to have him replace Tong in a scene like this

I hate to see it because they really are so cute when they're cute...

Joe gets so excited when Ming is nice to him lmfao it's pitiful

literally everybody leaves the table and abandons Joe when Tong comes... this is literally Tong's own fucking fault bruh

"Ming and I are together now." Does Ming know that?

Sol why didn't you come back just a month earlier?!?!?!? we could've had a whole different story right now

the mess just grows. Ming sees Tong and Joe hugging -> drags him to the bathroom to aggressively makeout -> Tong sees them making out

Joe as a side character. Sol's right-hand-man... hope Ming won't lose his shit

let's kill Tong

Joe knows nothing about Ming's crush on Tong, his rich family

Joe now knows Ming's background but doesn't wanna ask him directly

this watch... the box is similar to that watch box from ep 1. is the watch similar too?

Ming's approval literally makes Joe so happy, it's truly so .

Sol to save the day lol

May clocked Ming and Joe and seems supportive

Tong's gonna propose

that big screen of Ming staring at Tong looking cool in the movie but uh, it's his back in an action scene, isn't it likely it was Joe?

Ming crying omg

first movie, so it probably was Tong and not Joe stand-in cuz idk if he was there from the very start

so weird to see Ming seemingly more innocent and uh not necessarily evil in these flashbacks when he first met Tong

ouch, being the reason you meet your favourite actor and bring your sister along but then see them hitting it off and kissing and such.

the name-engraved couple mugs were Ming's gift for Joe. so cute

"This is the best Christman in my life." despite the little spectacle in the middle ig

excited Joe because Ming back-hugged him only TO CALL HIM P'TONG ahh

Joe realizing everything all at once about him looking like Tong from the back, Ming mistaking him for Tong, only having sex facing backward, the fact that he's Tong's stand-in even to Ming...

Whelp, there go the cups

Ep 4 (June 27)

This is supposed to be the last full-flashback episode I think? I think I'm okay with the multiple episodes of the flashbacks because I'm binging it but I might've been wanting the current timeline more and more if I was watching it weekly

oof, cold Joe but not yet bringing up last night because he needs to get to work

this Director Pao is such a pain too. he keeps hiring Tong because of his followers despite knowing he doesn't do his damn job and keeps using Joe as leverage, not caring that it puts Joe in a terrible position. let's kick Pao too

Joe please... you cannot show or persuade P'Tong's fanclub in any way. just keep being a side character and move up to main role later on, especially because you literally have Wut supporting you and kinda looking out for you. don't take Tong's role because you can't stand that Ming's using you as Tong's replacement. eughh

JOE SAY NO. how can you suddenly have so much conviction when you're a doormat with Ming, goddamn. like you know the guy literally didn't actually want to give you the role and wanted you to say no and if you now take the role and fuck up, you're cooked

at least Joe told Ming to get out of his house but it's not like Ming's gonna just let it go like this... Joe didn't give any reason

aw fuck, confrontation.

Ming being like you can't order me around. i however will order you around

what is this Sol and Ming fight, please

and Joe also hurt his back omg... how are those two the one trying to fight but he's the one who keeps being hit

Ming being teary-eyed during their convo at home.

Joe saying he still has his dignity... well glad you're acting like it

and immediately Ming is on Tong's side... what the hell is wrong with this guy

Ming truly just hit Joe at the back of the head with a bat. oh

unconscious and in-chains?!?!

Ming saying he's gonna keep Joe here with him forever... ah, toxic tops in BL manhwa/danmei/etc, I see you now. because usually in Thai live-action BLs, even the red flag characters don't usually do this (VegasPete are an exception that proves the rule)

wow, how interesting that Tong shows up at the exact right time, almost like he orchestrated this. At least Wut questioned it

Ming's so possessive over Joe

Ming coaxing Joe + them having a heart-to-heart and getting it on while we can literally hear Joe's chain jangling lmfaooo

Joe wants to be behind Ming? Girl, will you guys never have sex facing each other? this better be a trick to handcuff Ming and run away because having sex at a time like this after everything that just happened is wild. but also does this mean Ming was gonna bottom?

okay good

what a wild scene that was, like truly

you don't know if Tong was involved? girl he did this right after Tong called Ming, so you could at least mention that

Joe's now black-listed, fuck

aw man, Joe really feels like he has no choice but the unsafe international production stuntman

Ming and Wut fighting about where Joe is because they don't know his location...

the title of the scene or whatever on the board being Dead Cliff...

Ming calling and saying if Joe comes back he won't be a stand-in anymore etc and the battery running out aghhh I know he's literally about to fall off this damn cliff and I'm still like... well maybe he can escape somehow

2 years later, Ming is working as a model (under Wut/in Wut's team?)

everybody going up and up in their careers while Joe is dead and it's pushed under the rug...

also that watch that Ming is advertising... is it similar to the one Joe had given him?

Google -> Googoo

Joe trying to sneak into his (original) home but suddenly all the lights are on and Ming is cooking inside and eating out of the bowl that Joe had bought him... just like Joe's wishes. and also Joe was like everybody's gonna forget about me soon but I guess Ming will not

oh Ming is insane. he's recreating the "I'll cook and wait for you every day" promise and thinks his P'Joe has returned to him when he hears a creek outside. tbf it is indeed P'Joe (in a different body) but whelp

So did Ming and Joe legit date for a whole year before the accident? I thought it was like... a month lmao

What does the show want us to feel right now? like Ming literally was responsible for getting Joe black-listed in the industry which led him to take the unlicensed stuntman job which led to his death. and he did so by kidnapping and handcuffing Joe. how horrid, how can this be our endgame. But they still show us how Ming has seemingly realized his feelings for Joe for real and holds on to his thoughts and is maybe becoming a reformed person maybeee (idk, he might continue being a pos in the next episodes) and like the last part of the episode is just sad. Also, even for the kidnapping stuff, it was like Ming was more mad that Joe might be leaving him for Sol and the possessive/insecurity/jealousy was because of that, not Only because he was doing Tong's bidding. Anyway, I'm open to getting more mad and hating Ming more, I'm open to a path to redemption even though he's trash

Also, are we ever gonna get Joe's original body back? Because they've Got to have sex face-to-face and Ming seeing Joe's original face, right???

Ep 5 (June 27)

debt collectors for Joe's new fake-mother... this is where the money thing comes in I guess because I remember people being mad at Joe for borrowing money from Ming

girl's gonna get into doing stunts again in this new body that has never done stunts and just woke up from a 2-year coma?

me too, I'm shocked that our Joe who hadn't moved a muscle for 2 years until a month ago is now doing stunts with ease

but why couldn't Joe just go into modelling since new Joe used to do it apparently? easier on the body and I don't assume stunt money is more than modelling?

Ming going to see a fortune teller who has been telling him that Joe is neither alive nor dead...

how can this new body of this random-ass Joe also look like Tong from the back lmfaoo they're never gonna let Joe escape being Tong's stand-in

Joe keeps putting his foot in this mouth around Wut by revealing too much. Ming's onto him but I wonder if Wut would also wonder...

Wut was an asshole for how he kept being mad at Joe last ep (even being like you're no longer my bro if you take that job instead of helping him some other way) but he has quite good instincts, first with being like Tong probably has a hand in Joe not getting to the press conference + now being like ...what are you hiding new-Joe?

Ming wants Joe for an ad and I guess Joe wants access to his debit card at his own house where Ming lives

idk what to make of Ming's assistant

all of Joe's poses being fighting poses loll

Joe still being taken by Ming's beauty and being like ig some feelings passed onto this body as well but overhearing that Ming literally only smiles when he's shooting movies with his BIL Tong

girl I'm so mad, Joe's modelling but we're the ones who are getting to see this face and body, in actuality it's not even this original body that's being captured aghhhh what a beauty and they don't even get to see it

I've seen this gif of Ming begging Joe lol "what's wrong? you're not as good as earlier"

Ming's hobby is putting Joe in Situations

seeing the body of new Joe in the mirror made me mad again T.T not to say he's not attractive or whatever but the original Joe is too good, why wasn't he a fucking model back then man

not this fucking trombone-looking jug again

lol, Joe's getting Ming and Jim drunk

oh. "watch your mouth when you talk about P'Joe. Other people like you because of that name, remember that." On the one hand, it's like okay Joe now knows that Ming was looking for Joe in this new body but on the other hand, Joe is truly a stand-in for himself now. Joe in new-body where everybody looks for the Joe old-body

also i guess maybe Joe purposefully was behaving in a way that Ming wouldn't like? like being so eager and serving them drinks etc

Joe stole Jim's phone (well, borrowed) and is gonna break in to his own old house lol

Sol came back again

Joe's reminiscing over their shared past that Ming has kept around but it's making me nervous that he's gonna get caught, esp cuz we're nearing the end of the episode - perfect cliffhanger

Sol is here?!

I think people who were more into the body-snatching aspect nad how that'd affect the story would be disappointed because they kinda ignore it but I'd pretty much only heard about the relationship drama and toxic Ming, so I didn't expect there to be too much anyway.

Ep 6 (June 28)

good he managed to use his stunt skills to escape

is the mother not gonna make it

Sol and Ming arguing about the thief in Joe’s home

Ming truly the only one who believes Joe is still alive and will return. he sounds crazy and seems pitiful maybe if you can still pity him

oughhh medical bills

man, I've Got to let Joe's ability to do hard stunts in this new body go because they're not gonna address it and it's gonna continuously come up

Joe's plan is always to just get the people drunk lmfao

oof, drunk ming mistaking joe for uh joe

idk why joe thinks ming only likes tong. the real thing he should be telling himself is it doesn't matter if ming loves him or not, he still shouldn't go back to ming

anybody could find the key lol

Sol older than new joe

and Sol is offering Joe money too bt I know he'll turn it down here too

Ming suddenly kissing Joe to remember why he did it last night

bruh, Ming wants Joe to move in/stay with him? Joe standing in for Joe fr, Ming what the hell is wrong with you

girl, Joe thinks Ming's asking him to stand in for Tong as the person he likes?

what am I supposed to think of Ming's assistant fr

5 million baht and a house for his mother for staying with Ming for 1 year. well at least Joe's making the most of this deal

damn, this is lowkey prostitution

People were upset and done with Joe for going back to Ming and taking that money instead of P'Wut or Sol's but like... I kinda get him lmfao like he needs A Lot of money and like... kinda forever now because of not only his own 3 million hospital bills but also his mother's weekly dialysis. He cannot rely on people he likes and respects who are good people for that, especially because P'Wut's like not Super Rich and has his own family and while Sol's rich and doesn't seem to have a family to take care of, Sol doesn't even know that this new Joe is old Joe. So I get why he'd be like Ming, you're one rich motherfucker and also not a good person, I don't feel guilty taking money from you. and idk maybe he just likes being treated like shit or keeps consistently going back to it because of familiarity. Also it's kinda like Ming owes his anyway; although it's not like Ming's giving him the money for free.

Ep 7 (June 28)

fuck i wanna watch the ep but i’m going outside and also underground so i can’t watch it during my commute either agh. whelp im gonna try to watch justttt a bit before leaving bc i gotta charge my phone anyway. And actually instead of starting the next ep I should be reblogging ep 6 posts but i went to nap instead of doing that and now I wanna watch the next ep, not go through archives.

Who is Tharn?

gonna mourn that the people aren't seeing Poon's face one more time

i'm watching this aghast

and baffled

i don't even know what to write

Ming is actually so fucked up I cant believe he's trying to play house with replacement Joee. I'm into it

this kpop idol doing an MV where he has a bf lol seems like it's a thai release but still

not Sol apparently remembering Joe's back in the darkness and correctly deducing it's Joe's from the music video shot

not Sol and Ming having a dick measuring contest over old-Joe-in-new-Joe's-body-who-they-don't-know-is-actually-old-Joe

controlling ass Ming, chill outttt

"A new life... but why do I feel like everything is going back to the way it was?" I too want to ask this

girl, this is the sequel to the movie that caused everything?

I can't tell if Tharn himself will be a problem (like he seems arrogant kinda but noting a dangerous way like Tong or Ming) but Ming will probably cause problems if he finds out lol

did Tharn have anything to do with what caused Joe's coma?

Joe's mother also doesn't like Tharn hm

okay, I was like wtf Joe's asking if he used to date a man but he doesn't know if old-Joe was even out to his mother (I didn't even know if he liked men until this episode lol) and then was like uh i guess we're assuming she's okay with it but turns out she actually wasn't okay with it when she found out 2 years ago

Joe and other Joe both have shitty taste in men, whelp

wow, who would have guessed that the Joes had accidents on the same day

Ming believing in the connection between the 2 Joes and being like did you dream about anybody during the coma lol girl you are correct but it's not something you can ask directly

Ming kept the watch close to him, as expected

okay I have GOT to go but ahh I wish I could watch more.

I'm back and there were guests at home as well, so I couldn't watch it until now, at 11:22pm.

fucking Tong stop meddlingggg. wanting Tharn to mess with Joe so that Ming's not occupied with Joe. Tong wants Ming to invest in a movie and instead Ming's attention is on Joe? not under Tong's watch

Ming's so spoiled and entitled. yeah spend the night with me even though we're all at this place for work and you don't what the other cast and crew to find out; i don't care, so it doesn't matter

oh waitttttt this movie isn't the sequel to the movie that Tong kicked Joe out of? It's the original first movie where Ming fell in love with Tong's back (which was stand-in Joe)? because Joe knows where the crane is supposed to be...

okay, I rewatched the scene (18mins in) where they discussed what the movie would be and it clearly said it's the sequel to Tong's first movie lmfao idk why I missed some parts in this convo, I was distracted rip. and Wut had come in with the stand-in (our original Joe) back then too. makes more sense too because I've seen people from ep 6 mention that in the preview for ep 7, ming finds out about it being joe's back - that makes more sense if we're doing sequel to the original movie

Joe can't catch a break fr. Tharn get off this man

There was no way Ming wasn't gonna end up coming into the room and seeing them. At least it seems like he saw that Joe wasn't the one initiating anything or even reciprocating

not that it helps anything with Ming, he's too much of an asshole

bro Ming is scary as fuck sometimes

the dog comparisons T.T not even in a fun way T.T

MING GET OFF OF JOE

yess okay joe going apeshit and letting anger get the best of him

Ming standing up to Tong and telling him to never talk about Joe again and saying Joe ended up that way because of the 2 of them. never seen this before. hope it doesn't make Tong mad and take even more drastic action

Ming trying to act normally the next day and even saying thank you (not "sorry" though) like. the audacity

ah, Joe was not credited as the stuntman for the first movie but they're giving new Joe credit for this second movie

okay tbh the background for this is nice because I didn't even think that there was a secret that Tong didn't play the scene, I just thought maybe people knew but Ming specifically was dumb lol or just didn't think to check that it might not be Tong. but nah, they had Joe give up the credit to be the fulltime stuntman

Ming in tears while thinking about Joe's conflict as being the stand-in (and the times Ming himself negged him) smh it's so hard to like this man when he's sooooo shitty

not Ming going into the scene randomly in front of all these people

ough, Ming backhugging Joe thinking he's Tong in ep 1 and now hugging new-Joe as he apologizes to old-Joe (who is in new-Joe's body)

the entire cast and crew being confused is killing me, I can't even enjoy this scene of Ming crying and apologizing and begging Joe to come back

I want to go straight into ep 8 (well it's 1:30am so I can't) but I gotta first go through the ep 6 and 7 posts on tumblr.

Ep 8 (June 29)

3 episodes left before I'm all caught up T.T then I'll have to wait for eps 11 and 12 rip.

okay we're not seeing the aftermath of last week's scene which is good for me because I would not be able to withstand the embarrassment

Tong making Joe do these tough scenes again and again let's kill him

"I have (again) become the emotional garbage dump of the two people who made me die" fucking hell

Ming being like oh? Joe's been like a whole new, different person since he woke up from his coma?

Sol knowing that the guy in the video is the thief + it reminds him of new-Joe's back but saying this guy isn't the guy... hm

Joe told Wut that he's Khun Ming's dek

Wut confronting Joe about why he knows and acts so much like original Joe. Joe's second confrontation in just a few hours lmfao

but also I think Wut's acting here maybe was lacking and idk how he should've played it but it felt a bit stiff? cartoony? idk

oh, Sol and Wut believe the thief was new Joe

I was wondering when we'd get the instant noodles making test

Ming stresses me out so much in terms of like what he's gonna do. i know they're gonna have sex and Joe's gonna sneeze though lmfao but I suspect that'll be like the very last scene

Joe going to see his original parents' graves with his new, unrecognizable body is so sad

omg i was wondering if somebody was gonna see Joe but I was thinking oh what if Ming's assistant sees him but Sol and Wut straight up caught him red-handed

was having lunch, so didn't type much but I did have thoughts lol

oh, that guy is Mike - Ming's brother. I saw a meme that had like Ming's brother and father texing him to kill himself (based on ep 10 i think lol) so i guess he's gonna continue being trouble

what's up with the car? is it original Joe's or something?

Ming is recreating his first night with original Joe

bruh, Joe is eager as hell too. haven't seen him be this reciprocative to Ming's advances since he woke up

Ming was so dumb for having Joe's original body with Poon's face and not looking at him while having sex like you foooool. what a face

this is going on for so long

The Sneeze

damn, they found Joe's body? i wonder if the dormant joe is in our original joe body

the orgasm sneeze coming back tohelp Ming truly solidify his belief about new Joe is really and truly incredible

Ep 9 (June 29)

I'm so nervous that I only have 2 episodes left and then I'll have to watch it weekly T.T and omg I won't even be able to watch it as it airs on the last Friday because I'll be at work in person. At least these last few eps are like 55-1h long rather than 48 mins like som of the earlier eps, I'll take the 10 minute increase

how horrid and tragic

does Wut think Ming loves Joe? ah, yea

man, this is so sad. how horrifying must it be to be stuck in a different body and have your original one be dead and decomposed and bones?

Joe attending his own funeral mannnn this is so fucked up

ohh Joe getting mad and physically trying to fight Ming at the funeral like "why are you crying now?" this is so saddd (even though this is suchhh a giveaway)

Joe: "I'll never forgive him, ever." I wish I could believe you joe

Isn't Ming being audacious and saying he's gonna burn all of Joe's belongings so that no memories are left... a bait to get Joe to get angry and prove that he cares too much because he's indeed old Joe?

why does Ming seem so insincere during this trap meeting

Sol's too brave, he overreaches too much. I liked him earlier on but after he and Ming fought while Joe was being hurt (in Joe's original body) I started being more critical of him and now it's not that I think he's bad or anything but I don't want Joe to end up with him

but nobody has more audacity than Ming, my god. get outtt

public stuff is soooooooo

the MC is crazy good at her job for recovering from that, woah

Ming already back to lowkey threatening Joe

this Sol and Ming public fight god shut upppp

what the hell, why is the boss man basically pimping Joe out to Ming.

okay also it's so silly that Ming loves Tong's back from that 1 movie and was angsty about it for like 4-5 years and used Joe as a replacement like lmfao who does that, how are you falling for somebody from their back and then not forming more opinions about them

ah, the back hug makes another appearence

This show ending last episode on the orgasm sneeze (+ phone call) to literally tragedy of Joe's body and funeral this ep is just so T.T

Ep 10 (June 30)

One last ep before I gotta wait T.T We're in the last quarter of the show too. I could watch it now (June 29 night) but hmmm I think I'll save it for tomorrow, just so that I have 1 day less of waiting for ep 11.

Also Ming has just never gotten to see Poon-Joe’s face during sex and now literally never will???? fuckkkkk dumbass Ming you fool

Watching a bit in bed before going to sleep and in the dark, on my small screen, it’s so intimate, it makes me feel even more connected to the characters and the narrative, more so than on my laptop at my desk

And by a bit, I meant 30 minutes. I like watching shows on my laptop and then my iPad and usually not so much my phone because the screen is so small but it made me feel their closeness somehow.

Anyway, I'm nervous to watch the rest of the episode because I think some shit goes down

Ming is so cute in the burrito blanket, you'd never guess all the criminal and horrid shit he's done

Joe's mom not letting up with the teasing lol but also valid questions, even if uncomfortable

1 week for Tong to get hundreds of millions of baht?

are there no movies in existence where Tong doesn't have the lead role? Joe shouldn't need to kick out Tong to get his footing. In fact, he should start as a side character indeed but in a movie without fuckass Tong bruh

the movie they want Joe to lead is called My Stand-In?

Joe's name isn't here AGAIN?! we gotta kill some people (Tong)

and Tong specifically out here saying he did all the action scenes himself

lmfao Tong explicitly said in the interviews that he did those scenes and the fire one was the hardest, if he brought the name back, he'd have to admit he lied, right?

not surprised that Tong brought in Ming's mother. also, does she know that Tong's like hundreds of millions of baht in debt?

I actually will not be able to rest unless Tong gets his comeuppance

Ming seems so pathetic now since he can't fight his family/parents. i wonder if he can't somehow try to at least turn his mom against Tong so that he can't try to whisper in their ear while Ming tries to figure the Joe thing out

omg Ming's just straight up coming out to his father

I skimmed through the ep 11 preview and it seems so dramatic, goddamn.

Now I have to wait for like 5 more days for the next ep but the worse part is that I'll have to wait 7 days after ep 11 for ep 12 and then I'll be at in-person work, so won't even get to watch it until many hours after the finale is released.

Y'know ep 9 of Wandee was released yesterday and I haven't watched it but what I've heard about the treatment of SA irritated me, and I'm really hoping this show doesn't disappoint in its last 2 episodes. We're in the final home stretch and I've enjoyed what the show has to offer so far.

I wrote this in the middle of episode 7 and I think my thoughts are still similar: Seeing people say they want revenge is so interesting because I didn’t expect that from this drama, so I’m not disappointed. I’m treating it like Vegas/Pete where Vegas is Extremely Shitty and the show knows he’s Extremely Shitty (as is Ming). However, they give him some stuff that makes him pitiful (hedgehog and abuse from his father. For Ming, it’s missing Joe and playing house while hoping he comes back ig and whatever backstory they'll give him) and while Pete or Joe want to leave and resist, they can’t for long. Vegas doesn’t really get his comeuppance for the stuff he did to Pete (the random guy shooting him doesn't count for me because Pete didn't do it and it wasn't because of what Vegas did to Pete) but in the end, Pete goes back to him anyway and even takes care of him in the hospital. I expect that something similar will happen with Joe; he’s seriously soooo like soft and wants family and doesn’t seem to want revenge, he’ll probably just try to resist Ming but obviously won't be able to, both because he loves him and because Ming's persistent. I hope Ming does Some graveling though; I enjoyed Vegas begging. I know that most people want the before-relationship to be the intense/dramatic part and when they get together, things are solved and, often I’m also in that boat like don’t get with somebody who majorly fucked up before discussing and fixing the fuck up but in the Vegas-Pete and Ming-Joe case, these relationships are way too fucked and unhealthy to neatly patch things up and just Be Good from then on. What I enjoy for VegasPete is Post-canon fics where Vegas fucks up again or we see the toll that Vegas’ treatment has taken on Pete or how they try to figure out their relationship (and their sex life). I think maybe I’ll also be into post-canon MingJoe where Ming’s treatment has fucked Joe up and how they try to fix it or have a relationship because even if Ming changes, it's not like you can just... Forget.

Addition from ep 9: I literally need Tong fucked up so bad though omgggg I cannot STAND that man but I've heard that he doesn't really have anything happen to him in the novel + Mek said the director told him to think of Tong as a good person who is ambitious, so they probably won't give him the villain comeuppence treatment agh.

There are people who still dislike Ming and don't want Joe to end up with him but for me, I feel like me liking or not liking Ming doesn't have any bearing on whether I want Joe to end up with him. Joe fully knows what sort of man Ming is, the show and the audience also know - it's not like some other shows where the love interest is a creep, but we pretend it's romantic or that he's a green flag through and through (forever side-eyeing Prapai in the first few eps of the PaiSky arc and people's reaction to Prapai even though I'm a PaiSky fan). So if Joe wants to stay with Ming even after that, I'll be curious to see how it goes, you know.

I had liked Sol and Joe for a few episodes earlier on but stopped once I saw him fight Ming and not stop even as Joe kept getting hurt while trying to stop the two of them. Ming I know is shitty but if Sol also hurts Joe without caring (and also he's just way too pushy for me - another trait he shares with Ming), then why would I root for Joe to get with him (esp when he doesn't like him romantically) while Joe knows how shitty Ming is but still loves him? It's kind of like Love Mechanics where the characters and some of the audience were talking about how Nuea's a better match. I didn't think Nuea was as much of a stand-up guy as people were saying because he seemed a bit skeezy and very pushy to me (though I can't actually remember much because it's been like 2 years since I watched it). So, I didn't want Mark to choose Nuea or Joe to choose Sol because I don’t think these people are like Good even though they’re better people than Vee and Ming. Might as well get with the toxic man you love and give me a compelling story if the other man is also unlikeable.

Also, I want Joe to top Ming just once. I loved Ming being willing (after kidnapping Joe) and I don't need all my fictional gay relationships to be vers (and I don't necessarily think they would suddenly become vers if Joe tops once lol) but I think it could be interesting.

[rubberduckyrye]

@wasted-by-someone

Hi hello I'm here to satisfy your curiosity as to what about the 3.3 quest upsets me personally in regards to Nahida

Thankfully for me, I have this explanation here that you can read about it!

But the short answer is: due to how the story was awkward and rushed, they accidentally implied heavily that Nahida knew that Scaramouche seeing the memory of Niwa would cause him to be suicidal/try to erase himself from Irminsul, and actively chose to trick him into viewing the memory anyway. Despite knowing what kind of mental distress it would cause him and despite knowing that it would trigger him and trigger a suicide attempt, she did it anyway.

I know that the writers of the quest were most definitely not intending for this implication, but sometimes intention doesn't matter. The fact there is merit at all to this interpretation is what I'm upset most over about.

Aside from that thought: Nahida was written very coldly and awkwardly here, and at least in her Japanese dub, voice, sounded very monotone and cold. Almost like the writers mistook her to be a God of Knowledge over a God of Wisdom. I can also tell you that this is NOT normally how Nahida sounds in the Japanese dub of the game, as she has her moments of teasing and is more expressive in other quests and events.

The Traveler is just a case of "Man, you're literally looking at a suicidal person and you're treating them like that?" but that could be well within the Traveler's more asshole character so I'm less annoyed by it and more annoyed by the fact that the Traveler had us go make a god damn detour to Inazuma instead of acknowledging that Scaramouche erasing himself from Irminsul was an Existentialist Suicide.

The characters overall in this quest showed little emotion (aside from Scaramouche of course) that wasn't just some kind of hostile emotion. The Wanderer is also very emotionless, especially considering him going through each painful memory and looking at it, being told that it was his own memory. Just. I'm sorry, you're gonna tell me that he can watch a little kid die and not express intense grief? Really? I think that even if I didn't know a child and I saw them die right in front of me I would be crying my eyes out.

Overall that I gathered from the 3.3 interlude quest was that it was rushed. It was rushed because the higher ups most likely got too scared of making a 5* character actively suicidal and forced the writers to change it last minute to be akin to some sort of weird "self sacrifice" that muddies both the suicidal aspects of it and the self-sacrifice aspects of it.

I made a whole re-write in basically a week (That I'm totally shamelessly linking here if you want to read it) because the quest not only disappointed me and my friends, but actively just, annoyed me. I put Nahida in time out in the tea pot I was that annoyed.

Anyway I hope that answers your question :'D

Man ran into someone making a long analysis post about the 3.3 interlude quest, and like valid interpretation, but...

It's so weird for me, because I'm a weirdo who separates the terms Bad Person and Evil.

I think Scaramouche was about the worst person he could have been. However, that doesn't mean he was evil. He was a bad person because he was in a rampage, raging like a fire that couldn't be put out. He hurt people because he was unable to control that rage, as it too was fueled from hurt. When the whole world hurts you as badly as it hurt Scaramouche, when it dehumanizes you at every point it can, and makes you feel like you can do nothing but suffer because the gods and morals spurn you just for existing--and you don't even want to exist--of course he's going to lash out at the entire world! He hurt innocent people, but those innocent people were part of the world that deeply scarred him. And even then, again, there is lore that Scaramouche was kind to the elderly and to children. It's very possible that when he perceived someone as innocent, he didn't even think to hurt them to exert force or power over them. He helped them, even.

And even if that piece of lore isn't canon, it doesn't really matter. He's a bad person, yes--but to call him evil is misleading. To call him evil is to think in terms of black and white, and not about the shades of grey that exist in the real world.

I will never shut up about how Scaramouche's story was an allegory for abuse, how he was neglected from the moment he was born, how he was failed by his family, how he was manipulated and abused by the Fatui and Dottore--like. There's a whole ass line Signora says to his face that literally mocks him for being Dottore's test subject. He was the ugly duckling, the unwanted child, cast aside and deemed as a demon to be tormented for just existing. The only people who accepted him? They all died. The world literally taught Scaramouche he couldn't be loved or treated kindly, less those people die too.

There are real, living, breathing people who are just like Scaramouche. Who do bad things and are bad people right now because they don't know what kindness feels like, or how to be good. I think the distinction is important for those people in particular, because to just call people like Scaramouche evil implies that they cannot get better. That they deserve to suffer and hurt. That their feelings are invalid.

But being a bad person does not mean you are evil or irredeemable. It means you need to stop and look at yourself, you need to stop and look at the world that you want to burn. Even at your lowest point, there is salvation--you can find happiness. You can recover. You can step forward to a new future where you can become a better person.

For as much as I dislike the 3.3 interlude quest and how it handled certain aspects of Nahida's character and the Traveler, I thought that this message of abused victims who are hurting deserve to find peace and happiness too was a good message to bring home. It was very muddied down by Nahida and the Traveler, yes, but all in all, the 3.3 Interlude quest was never meant to be about redemption.

It was meant to be about healing. About taking the first steps necessary to accept yourself and move forward with your life.

[kaeyazuha]

𝐌𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐋𝐚𝐮𝐠𝐡

❝ May I request the "making him laugh" prompt you did before, but with albedo, kazuha and scaramouche, please? ❞

; I’m so sorry this took so long! Keyboard issues- but I hope it’s okay regardless :D

; 4/4/22

; Fluff

; CW: physical touch, gossiping (scaramouche)

pt. 1 : ft. diluc, xiao, zhongli, kaeya !

     𝗔𝗹𝗯𝗲𝗱𝗼 '𝗞𝗿𝗲𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗽𝗿𝗶𝗻𝘇'

✧ All you have to do to make the renowned Chief Alchemist burst out into honey-sweet laughter is make a fool of yourself: being clumsy with equipment, acting silly to appease Klee, anything like that. Obviously he’d be somewhat upset if you managed to knock over or soil really important notes, but watching you stumble around all flustered just brings a smile to his face. You just look so…adorable; scrambling to apologize and simultaneously clean up the spilled bottle of water that you mistook for something severely important- why is he laughing so hard, this is serious!! You’d sigh, picking up the bottle before you fully caught a look at him- then you were awestruck. He’s beautiful when he laughs, and his laughter itself sounds like a song even a renowned bard wouldn’t do justice.

✧ He’s embarrassed, to put it simply. Cheeks completely flushed, the tips of his ears burning red, and he’d try and cover up his lingering laughter with stray coughs. Albedo’s confused at how easy it was to arouse such a foreign feeling in him- he still had to fight the corners of his lips twitching when you looked over at him with possibly the giddiest smile he’s ever seen from you. He tries to stop laughing, he really does- especially since he notices you “accidentally” knocking a few things over trying to get him to do it again. Sadly, Albedo has remarkable self-control, and probably won’t laugh at the same thing twice.

✧ Unless…it’s you playing dress-up or make-believe with Klee. He will never get tired of the sight of you pretending to be a hilichurl while he goes and saves the princess; you’re almost offended that you get stuck as the hilichurl almost every time, but Klee would tell you later on it’s because she knows it makes Albedo laugh. Why can’t she be the hilichurl? Well, she’s the knight, of course!! Fear not, there’s definitely times where you’re the princess, Klee’s the knight in shining armor, and Albedo’s…oh dear Albedo’s th-

- ✧ -

“-I’m the hilichurl this time?” He attempts to cover his mild shock with amusement, almost offended that he’s been downgraded from knight to a hilichurl. You stifle a laugh, watching Klee happily explain that you have to take turns, no complaining!

“(Y/n)’s always the hilichurl! Jean told me it’s good to let everyone take turns, and I think so too! You do too, right?” She turned to you with a bright smile, hands placed on her hips with a proud stance and eyes that reminded you of an excited puppy. Albedo turned to you, raising an eyebrow with a devious glint in his own eyes, as if daring you to agree. Which, you did. A bit too happily.

“C’mon, Bedo, don’t you think it’ll be fun? I’m sure you know the most about hilichurls between us, anyway.” He sighed softly, crossing his arms before nodding, a soft smile on his face when Klee cheered and practically directed the two of you to your positions. You stifled a laugh, trying your best to be woeful and weepy, and not burst out into hysterical laughter while watching Albedo verbally say “roar.” with a deadpan face.

“No, more expression!” Klee huffed, seemingly offended by his acting- and you watched him shrug before doing the same thing again. The "princess” beside you rolled her eyes dramatically before shrugging, just like he did, and declaring war on the poor “hilichurl.” Klee’s hands floundered around the air when she pretended to fight him, Albedo putting up little defense but occasionally reaching over to tickle her sides. After a long and hard struggle, she turned to you. “I’ll save you!” Klee grinned, pouncing on top of you and hugging you with bubbly laughter lighting up her eyes; she waved around the small wooden stick, as if shooing away Albedo, who raised his hands in surrender. Watching the two of you, as you desperately tried to remain in character- thanking your hero for saving you from the monstrous…monster, he did his best to stifle his own smile- but failed miserably. You continued to hug Klee, who took her role as a knight very seriously (more so than she did when she actually was being a knight) and checked you for injuries. You hummed, patting her head and formally bowing before her, thanking her once more but you couldn’t help but let out a giggle; though, you fared much better than the boy beside you. Out of curiosity, you looked over- shocked by the sight before you.

Albedo doubled over, a hand clutched over his mouth while strange snorting and breathing sounds were muffled behind it- and Klee immediately ran over to make sure he wasn’t dying, only to be pleasantly surprised by his genuine laughter. “Y-You- I- pff-hahah!” He grinned, desperately trying to hide behind his gloves but to no avail as you and Klee tried to pry them away. 

“Albedo!” You gasped gleefully, feeling absolutely elated at the sight of him laughing so freely- something nobody would’ve expected from him. You cupped his cheeks, wiping a stray tear from his right eye and giddily grinned while watching him be reduced to shambles. He looked like sunlight in your hands, stray bits of snow clinging to his hair that bounced with each laugh, his beautiful cerulean eyes coated in a sheen of tears, and the firm grip of his hands on yours.

“He’s laughing! He’s really laughing!” Klee fist-pumped the air, declaring victory like she’d just achieved world peace- though, that’s what this felt like. Watching him slowly come down from bouts of laughter, cheeks reddened and eyes glimmering while his voice cracked lightly, you felt nothing but happiness.

He leaned into your hand, pressing a kiss to your palm, before turning to Klee.

“Next time, please allow me to be the knight once more…”

     𝗞𝗮𝗲𝗱𝗲𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮 𝗞𝗮𝘇𝘂𝗵𝗮

✧ He laughs the most when you poorly attempt to write with him. You could be an exceptional poet- but everyone has their bad days, right? Watching you desperately try and piece together words that really make no sense, he can’t help but find it hilarious! Especially if you do it on purpose, putting together wild sentences that would make anyone cringe- it has him practically howling. But, even when Kazuha laughs uncontrollably, his voice is still soft and sweet. Akin to the fuzz of a dandelion or a soft blanket on a cold day; his laughter alone is enough to fuel poems and songs for days to come.

✧ Kazuha’s laugh is gentle and sweet, the wind would carry the harmonious sound through the air like a song and it was hard to believe you didn’t try and make him laugh sooner! He doesn’t think of himself as much of a gleeful person, opting to enjoy serenity and quiet rather than boisterous atmospheres and behaviors. He says that, and yet, he’s practically hunched over in broken bouts of laughter; tears bubbling in those beautiful eyes and the tips of his ears flushed a bright pink. Similar to Albedo, he’s unfortunately rather quick to compose himself. You’ll have to be pretty creative to get him to sing his songs of laughter once more, but it’s not impossible! And when you do make him laugh…gods is it worth it.

✧ After the first time you make him lose his composure, you’re determined to do it again. And while it’s fun to play coy and bite back his laughter and smiles at your attempts, he does give in eventually. What can he say? The smile that rises to your face when you succeed is enough to set the room ablaze in comforting warmth. It’s one of his favorite sights, your smile. It’s one of his favorite sounds, your laughter. That beautifully broken sound of hysterical laughter that you try to stifle behind your hand- no, no, don’t hide from him. Sometimes, the sound of your laughter is enough to send him into his own fits!

- ✧ -

“My dear, I’m stuck on the final line of this haiku…do you have any ideas?” Kazuha sighed, leaning his head on your shoulder and finding solace in the gentle rise and fall of it as you laughed. One of his hands reached over to rest on your knee, then grabbed at your hand to trace his thumb over the back of it. As you read over the elegant handwriting, letters spelling out flowers and sentiments any archon would feel blessed to hear, he peppered mindless kisses over your hand.

“‘Kazu…how come you’re asking me?” Your smile twisted in amusement, setting down his notebook but keeping one hand resting over the page. “Today’s a bit of an off day, I can’t even remember what I had for lun-”

“Udon noodles and then dango milk a bit later- I’m asking because even though you deny it, you always have such lovely words to add on.” He grinned, fiddling with your fingers and staring up at you with loving eyes. He looked so calm today, truly at peace with the leaves fluttering and dancing in the summer winds. A slight rose tint brushed over his cheeks, like the finest paint over a beautifully smooth canvas. 

You hummed, tilting your head and sighing dramatically. “Fine, fine, I’ll give it a go-” Though you had no intention of doing so, suddenly wondering what that pretty face of his would look like scrunched up in laughter. “Hm…two warriors had never met before. They were like two…flowers…that had also never met before.” He chuckled, raising an eyebrow and motioning for you to continue. “He grew on her like he was mold and she was room-temperature wagyu beef. The lamp overhead just stood there-” A stifled laugh, he turned his head now, and you grinned. Just a bit more, and-! “Like an inanimate object.” There it was!

“What? (Y/n), ple-please-” He laughed, head tossed back and eyes squeezed tightly shut. The wind tousled at his hair, sending stray wisps twirling around his head- his eyelashes sparkled slightly from the sudden dampness. His laughter sounded like a child’s: giddy, eager, and so, so happy. Good heavens above, you wished you brought your Kamera. 

“Kazu!!” You gasped in sheer delight, cupping his cheeks and watching eagerly as he continued to succumb to the few stray chuckles that lingered- and his hands cupped yours. 

“Where did you come up with su-” He snickered, turning away. “Such statements? Actually, please don’t answer that- I fear I might not recover.” Kazuha dramatically sighed, gasping for air as if he were held underwater. 

“Your laugh is really pretty, y’know that?” He was caught off guard by the sudden sentiment, but smiled and pressed a kiss to your palm regardless.

“Not.” A kiss to your thumb.

“As.” Your index finger.

“Pretty.” Middle finger.

“As.” He skipped a finger, kissing your pinky.

“You.” His lips lingered over the empty space on your ring finger, and his cheeky grin didn’t go unnoticed when he smiled up at your flustered face.

If he can’t convince you to pretend he never laughed, perhaps he’ll try and make you forget about it instead…

     𝗦𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗺𝗼𝘂𝗰𝗵𝗲 '𝗞𝘂𝗻𝗶𝗸𝘂𝘇𝘂𝘀𝗵𝗶'

✧ Him? Laugh? Seriously? What were you expecting? For him to choke on his drink and hide behind his hand, stifling small snorts and chuckles behind trembling fingers? For his cheeks to flush red and indigo eyes glimmer with tears? For him to quietly tell you to “shut up and stop looking at me-”? Most definitely not, you definitely did not expect that-- but archons was he adorable. Even if he was laughing at you making mockery of some subordinate he hated, he sounded like an angel. It takes a lot to make the infamous Balladeer laugh, even behind closed doors. It takes just the right snide remark, the perfect insult, or maybe just the perfect disgusted expression at the mention of the person. Or…if you’re desperate and positive he won’t clock you, a few wandering hands along his ticklish sides.

✧ His laughter sounds a bit strange at first, you almost thought he was choking. Don’t tell him that though, you’ll probably never see him smile again- Scaramouche wasn’t raised in a place where he could smile, laugh, or even cry. And so, he’s trained himself to be nothing but cruel. Yet, he finds himself panicking at the foreign yet welcoming feeling bubbling in his throat and tugging at his heart- it actually scares him at first. If you laugh at your own joke, show him that he’s alright, he reluctantly lets a few snickers slide. Then, he’s chuckling. And at long last, he erupts into laughter; loud, broken, but so genuine that it makes your heart pound in your ears. 

✧ He looks absolutely ethereal when he laughs. Head tossed back, eyes squeezed shut with glittery tears brimming in the corners, his shoulders trembling, and that adorable- even goofy grin plastered on his scrunched-up face. His pale skin would be flushed with the prettiest tints of rose, and the sound of his laughter (after he’s accustomed) is downright…cute. Bubbly, genuine, even boisterous at times. He’ll deny absolutely all of this and do his best to never let it happen again, but…how can he say no to that eager glint in your eyes? Darling, he’s wrapped around your finger.

- ✧  -

“Archons, I just want to crush him! He’s so- so- agh-” You groaned, legs kicking out from your chair as you shoved your face in your hands, screaming into your palms and ignoring the eye roll from your lover, who sat just beside you. He sighed, awkwardly patting your back while keeping his tired eyes trained on the book in his hands. You hummed, crossing your arms and leaning your head back into the chair. “I mean seriously how stupid can he be? The orders said keep watch at the doors- so what does he do?” He shrugged, looking over to you before deadpanning at your eagerly-waiting expression.

“...What?” He muttered.

“He walks to the other building and starts flirting with one of the waitresses.” Scaramouche’s face contorted into a strange mixture of shock, amusement, disgust, and the perfect amount of ‘no he didn’t!’ The light thump of his book closing let you know you had his full attention, and he still kept one hand holding yours as he crossed his arms. 

“Seriously? Gods, these people are useless!” He scoffed incredulously, pausing when you held a hand up.

“There’s more.”

“More??”

You smirked, mirroring his pose by crossing your arms. “She was married.”

“No.”

“YES.”

A moment of silence before you burst out into laughter, recalling her shout of disgust and his panicked expression when her surprisingly buff wife came back; and you paused, realizing that it wasn’t just your laughter filling the silence. But his, his laughter; genuine, shockingly beautiful laughter just from watching you recall a story (that you may or may not have exaggerated a bit.) A bubble lodged itself in your throat, stealing your words and trapping them there as you watched- still adding in a few words every once in a while to keep him going.

When Kunikuzushi laughed, you couldn’t help but stare. He looked akin to a boy laughing for the first time; adorable, boisterous, absolutely breathless- and his expression, despite being scrunched up and almost pained from the stomach cramps, was the most relaxed you’d ever seen it. Pale skin was more peach now, indigo eyes practically glittering under the lights, he was gorgeous. Even as he tightly gripped onto your arm- as a warning or to brace himself, who knows?- you couldn’t help but smile like a lovesick fool.

“Honestly, what the hell do we do with the- what’re you doing.” Scaramouche glowered, swatting at your hand that started to travel up his ticklish sides and you relished in the small ghost of a smile that started tugging at his lips. …Before he huffed, grabbing your hand and squeezing it back in his own, flipping open the book he was reading and resuming where he left off. A pout crossed your face, eyeing his disheveled state before he spoke once more, and then you looked up.

“What happened after?” 

“...”

“I can see your hand, don’t even try or I’ll remove it for you.”

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- Ky♡♡

𝗧𝗔𝗚𝗟𝗜𝗦𝗧; 𝗳𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝗿 𝘀𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗻 𝗮𝘀𝗸 𝘁𝗼 𝗷𝗼𝗶𝗻!

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@storytravelled ; @irethepotato ; @paradise-creator ; @lordbugs ; @straymoon96 ;  @stage-lucida ;  @hoshikistarlette ; @lianglee11

[adoringhaikyuu]

they find out you hooked up with their friend/teammate before you started dating | 3

characters: akaashi + iwaizumi + osamu + suna + (gn!reader)

requests: can you do a part 2 to the 'he finds out you hooked up with his best friend' with iwaizumi, suna and bokuto ? thank you and i LOVE your page 💞• by anonymous + s skfhsk s please do a they find out you hooked up with their friend/teammate before you started dating for suna osamu (even better if yn hooked up with his twin omfg) and akaashi 🥺 i love your writing please i will pass away • by anonymous

warnings: the second one is a lil angsty and the last two have suggestive tings 

notes: y’all are too sweet, everyone is 18+ in this! (i’d already gotten another request for bokuto by the time i got the first request so he’s in pt two) + they’re all different lengths btw sorry abt that <3

part one | part two | part three

akaashi:

so you and bokuto hooked up like way before you and akaashi started dating

it was in high school but it wasn’t like there were any feelings involved

...okay maybe he ended up getting a lil crush on you but he got over it

your friends had dared you to hook up with someone to loosen up and you were too nervous to ask your real crush, akaashi (plus you’re not even sure if he was at that party)

and bokuto was kinda chatting u up so u thought why not

(this was before akaashi let him know that he liked you)

it wasn’t until one day that the three of you were hanging out that akaashi found out about it

bokuto had been talking to you and his best friend about this girl he met at a café, he wanted to ask her out but he wasn’t sure how to go about it, so he was asking you two for advice. 

“i’m thinking i take her to watch the stars and then i can swoop in and do my special move. that’ll have her swooning for sure, right?” he smiled to himself and looked at you both as if for reassurance that he was going about this the right way.

akaashi was about to respond when you spoke up first. 

“that thing you do with your tongue?” bokuto nodded, his brows raised up and down, showcasing his confidence. you shook your head immediately, “that’s a little too bold to do right away don’t you think?”

he deflated a bit,  “well... i’m not––” he backpedaled, looking to the side to cover his tracks, “not gonna do it right away...after... a couple dates maybe?” 

before you could say anything else, akaashi spoke up, placing a hand on your thigh to get your attention. you turned to see him looking at you intently, brows slightly furrowed, a small frown on his face. 

“how do you know about his special move?” 

“oh, um...” you blinked a few times and then looked back to bokuto. “we kind of hooked up?” you turned back to your boyfriend and you could see the thoughts processing in his mind. “it was only once though–”

“and what a time it was!–” 

you turned back to look at the loud boy incredulously and he shrugged. “what? i’m just saying you know what you’re doing–”

you rolled your eyes, “you’re not helping here.” you turned to face akaashi fully, taking his hand in yours. you noticed he was a little tense, clearly uncomfortable. “if it makes you feel any better, it’s not like i liked him or anything...to be honest i would’ve hooked up with you that day if i was brave enough to ask you...” 

he looked up at you, eyes wide and quickly glanced down, his cheeks turning pink. 

bokuto spoke up, “wait a minute, so i was second choice?” he crossed his arms and sunk down in his seat, mumbling to himself like a kid. 

you were about to make a comment when you felt akaashi raise your hand and pressed a soft kiss to your knuckles. he gave you a soft smile, “i would’ve liked that...i was too scared to ask you out for a while, bokuto-san is actually the one who convinced me to in the end, so i guess he’s off the hook for using his move on you...” 

bokuto perked up again, “oh great!–”

he pulled you closer to his side, his face serious. “but don’t ask y/n for any more kissing advice or i’m kicking you out.” 

iwaizumi:

when iwa found out that you and oikawa hooked up before you started dating, admittedly he felt a little jealous

but it was mostly just his insecurities, he was used to everyone fawning over his best friend 

and the thought that you were potentially one of those people wasn’t surprising but it kinda upset him

what if you wanted to leave him for oikawa?

you and oikawa were actually the ones who told him that you’d hooked up, while the three of you were hanging out at your place, not thinking much of it since it was a one and done kind of thing for both of you

but you’d noticed the way he’d gotten a bit quieter afterwards, the way he seemed a bit more tense

you waited until oikawa went home to say something

he came back to sit on the couch after locking the door behind his friend and you turned to him. “baby?”

he grunted, eyes focused on his lap. 

“look at me please?” your voice was soft and he couldn’t help but listen, looking up into your eyes sheepishly. you put a hand on his arm, “what’s wrong? i can tell something’s bothering you.”

he looked away and shook his head once, “it’s nothing i just...”

you squeezed his arm reassuringly and he sighed. “just started thinking about you and... shittykawa.”

you moved to sit in his lap and his arms immediately came around to hold you. you placed a hand on his cheek and looked into his eyes fondly and sternly to get the message across. “haji listen to me, i love you and only you. i would never leave you, okay?” 

he nodded but you could tell he was still in his thoughts, so you went on. “i love how thoughtful you are, how sweet you are to me and to your family.” you kissed a spot on his face between every sentence. “i love your voice in the morning when you wake up and the way you tell me you love me every day. i love the way you hold me,” you trailed your hands down to his arms. “and i love your strong arms––” you let your fingers trace his veins and he shifted under you, flustered from your touch and your words. “i love everything about you, haji. i hope you know that...”

he brought his hands up to your cheeks and pulled you in for a kiss, “i know, doll. thank you for that. i love you too, so much. it drives me insane how much i’m in love with you.” his cheeks were dusted pink as he spoke to you and it couldn’t have been more endearing that he was still nervous around you, despite having been together for a good while now. 

“any time.” you smiled, pulling away after giving him another sweet kiss. “plus, you’re a way better kisser than him.” 

he threw his head back and laughed, his hands squeezing your sides as he looked back into your eyes, before kissing you. “oh i’m so telling him that.” 

osamu:

you and atsumu had hooked up once in high school 

...technically

see you were both kinda wasted at a party when it ‘happened’ 

the most you did was kiss and feel each other up, but after you accidentally moaned osamu’s name–––

things ended pretty quickly after that

you don’t know if it’s because you were drunk and mistook atsumu for his brother or if you were secretly wishing it was him, or both

all you know is the two of you agreed to never speak of that ever again

it was embarrassing enough for the both of you

but unfortunately it was one of those memories that came back to haunt you every now and then...even years later, now that you were dating osamu, and living with him

you visibly winced as you thought back to the awkward silence and the way the two of you paused when you said osamu’s name. you shouldn’t have been thinking about this, especially not now, when osamu was literally cooking dinner for you in your home. 

you spaced out for a bit and hadn’t noticed your boyfriend calling for your attention until you saw his hand wave in front of your face. you blinked quickly and looked up at him, “hi! yes i’m here–”

he raised a brow and laughed, amused, coming around the kitchen island to wrap his arms around you and put his head over your shoulder. you sunk into his embrace and he hummed, “what were you thinking about? i asked you what side dish you wanted and you were completely spaced out.” 

you shook your head, “oh um, nothing. i think what we had yesterday would be fine.” 

you tried to move on but he wasn’t having that. he narrowed his eyes as he turned his head to look at you. “well if it’s nothing then you won’t mind telling me, hm?”

his tone was calm but you could tell that he was suspicious and starting to get a little worried. you took a deep breath and buried your face in your hands––it’s not that you wanted to hide it from him, you were just embarrassed is all. 

your shoulders sunk down and you meekly admitted to what you were thinking about, your voice muffled by your palms, the only word osamu able to decipher being his brother’s name. 

he took a sharp intake of breath and stood up, rolling his eyes. “’tsumu? what did that idiot do now––”

you shook your head and took your hands away from your face. “no...it’s not something he did...it was me.” 

osamu crossed his arms and looked down at you, more curious now. “what happened?” 

“it’s not...it wasn’t recent––” he only looked at you blankly, silently telling you to continue. 

you sighed, “well we...hooked up in high school.” you could see his jaw clench. “it was only once, though. and he didn’t––we only kissed and we were fully clothed. honestly it only lasted a few minutes.” 

that seemed to put him at ease a bit more. “well that’s––fine...”

you looked down, “that’s not the bad part.” 

osamu’s hand came under your chin and tilted your head up to look at him, the look in his eyes warm. “come on, you can tell me.” 

you bit your lip, knowing he’d never let you live this down. “it was at suna’s party our third year and we were pretty wasted...we went to a random room and we were kissing and i...” you trailed off, your pride not wanting you to finish your sentence. 

you took a deep breath. “i moaned your name.” 

he blinked at you, once, then twice before he poked his tongue to the side of his mouth, clearly fighting off a laugh. “are you serious?”

you rolled your eyes, “like i would joke about that.” 

“i don’t know if that’s really funny or really sad, i feel like it’s both-”

“hey!-”

he laughed, “i’m sorry, i’m sorry.” he pulled you in for a hug and you reluctantly held him back. “oh man that must’ve been such a blow to his ego,” he cackled.

you frowned, “stop samu, i felt really bad, i still do–”

he rolled his eyes, “he’s fine.” he looked down at you with a smirk, “so you’ve had a crush on me since we were juniors, huh?”

you raised a brow, “do i have to moan his name now to fix your ego?” 

he narrowed his eyes, “not unless you wanna be punished, no.”

that honestly didn’t sound too bad. 

suna:

you and osamu hooked up on and off for a few months 

you were kinda friends with benefits tbh but no one knew about it 

well atsumu found out but that was an accident he just came home earlier than expected one day and caught you two

but other than him, and your best friend, no one knew

not even suna

i mean why would you tell him, it’s been years and it didn’t matter

you’d pushed it to the back of your mind and hadn’t expected it to come up ever again

however––

one day suna went to hang out with his old teammates and atsumu for some reason decided to blurt out that you and his brother used to hook up, not thinking much of it––honestly it’s a shocker he kept it a secret for as long as he did

when suna came home, you were lying down in bed, scrolling on your phone and you perked up when you heard him get in, looking back to your screen. 

“hi baby, how was it?” 

he didn’t answer and you were about to sit up when you felt to hands pull you down by your legs. you looked up, eyes wide to see your boyfriend standing above you, a spark hiding behind his seemingly bored eyes. 

you tilted your head questioningly and he took your phone from your hands, throwing it aside. “atsumu told me something real interesting today.” 

you raised a brow, thinking it was something ridiculous. “oh yeah?” 

he nodded, his hands reaching for the hem of your sweatpants, making your breath hitch. “mhm. and you know, it’s not that i care.” he pulled them down after making sure you were okay with it. “but it did bother me, i won’t lie.” 

he reached for your underwear as well, licking his lips when they were out of the way. “he told me that you and osamu used to be fuck buddies.” you looked up at him, speechless for a few seconds but he kept going. “m’not mad, that would be stupid.” he lied down between your legs and looked up at you, a glint in his eyes. “but i feel like reminding you you’re mine, so i’m gonna play with you for a while, okay?” 

how could you say no to that––

[ttuesday]

Hi! Could you do one where the fellers take care/react to a reader who has depression and is having a bad day/few days? Thank you! <3 <3 <3

I hope you get through this slump anon, honestly I’ve felt the same way too recently but I’m sure we’re both gonna get through this wave of bad days <3

Arthur

Arthur noticed your change in mood after the first day. He could tell something was off but he didn’t want to push you for answers. He had asked you if you were ok and you’d always reply saying you were fine, though that was an obvious lie. 

After a few days and seeing no improvement in your mode, Arthur decides to push you a little more. This time after you said you were yet again ‘fine’, he sighs “You sure? You seem down lately”. He isn’t great with his words and scared of saying the wrong thing.

He knows that whenever he feels down that saying around camp can do more harm than good, so Arthur suggests you go stake out Cornwall’s factory with him for a mission. Nothing much happens but giving your mind something else to focus on certainly helps.

If you do decide to tell Arthur about how you’re feeling, he stays quiet and nods along to everything you say. Even if you only tell him a small bit, he feels honoured that you trust him enough to say it and he makes sure you know that no matter what, he’s always going to be there for you.

Charles

Charles could tell from your demeanour that something wasn’t right. It’s the little things Charles picked up on, like how you now had to force a smile more often or how you always seemed distracted during conversations. 

Charles overheard a few of the others asking if you were ok and you always gave the same answer so he didn’t bother asking you that question again. Instead he asks if you’ll go hunting with him. He tells you how he needed an extra pair of hands acts totally casual .

After a nice ride through the forest and some relaxed conversation, Charles leads you through to a small opening where he apparently saw some deer. He hopes being out in nature and away from everyone will help your mind relax.

He doesn’t push you to talk about how you feel, Charles just wants you to have a good time and to have a genuine smile on your face. If you want to talk about your feelings then Charles is happy to listen and try to come up with solutions but ultimately he just wants you to have a good day.

Dutch

It took Dutch a few days to fully realise you were feeling down but he does notice it eventually. First he just presumed that you were feeling down because a job didn’t go to plan but he got worried when you’re mood didn’t seem to lighten.

His first approach to trying to cheer you up is by giving you materialistic goods. Dutch surprises you by giving you a shiny new pocket watch he just so happened to ‘find’ somewhere and he even gives you some money form the donations box and tells you to buy yourself something nice.

But Dutch can see that his plan didn’t work. Sure materialistic items are nice but they didn’t change how you were feeling. It’s times like this Dutch is happy he has Hosea to give him some advice on how to help you.

While the gang is distracted serving up dinner, Dutch pulls you aside and says “I know you haven’t been yourself lately and I know I can’t make you talk to me but if you ever feel like chatting, I’m always here for you”. He doesn’t want you to feel forced into talking but Dutch wants to make sure you know he’s there.

Micah

Micah knows this sounds kinda creepy but he likes to keep an eye on you when you’re in camp. So because of this, it’s actually pretty obvious to him when your mood changes.

When he tries to get you to open up first, he’s very abrupt and straight out asks you what’s wrong with you. But when he realises this method only pushes you further away from him, he attempts to take a more relaxed and calm approach.

When he sees you’ve trailed off by the edge of camp, Micah follows you out with two glasses and a bottle of whiskey. He’s always found it easier to talk when he’s had a drink and he’s hoping you’ll feel the same. 

He doesn’t expect you to tell him all about how you feel but if being there and occasionally annoying you works as a distraction from that dreadful feeling, then he’s happy to do that. He wants you to feel like you can tell him things like this, even though he understands he ain’t the most trustworthy person out there.

John

John can be kinda awkward at times and sure, he doesn’t know how to have those deep emotional conversations but he cares about you and genuinely wants the best for you.

He tries to be subtle about it and says little comments every now and again like “Well you know where I am if you wanna talk” or he’ll compliment you throughout the day, just to make sure you know how great you are as a person.

But when he sees you’re not feeling any better, he starts to worry. On the outside it’s easy to see John as someone who doesn’t notice the change within you but the truth is John sees it but he’s scared that if he brings it up, he’ll accidentally make it worse. 

In the end, John goes with what he feels in the moment. Seeing the sad, drained look on your face, John’s almost sure his heart is breaking. Sighing, he holds out his arms and says “C’mere”. John hugs your for as long as you need, not daring to let go first. Sometimes you’d be surprised how great a hug can be.

Javier

Javier likes seeing your smile. It’s the one thing that’s guaranteed to make his day better. One of his favourite things in the world is making you smile, especially since it gives him that butterfly feeling in his stomach. So he’s recognises when your smile seems too forced or as though you’re smiling without genuinely feeling happy.

Javier sits with you and reminisces about old memories, hoping stories of goofy robberies that somehow didn’t get ye killed would make you smile. And it works! …but only for a little while.

Javier knows that this feeling comes and goes, and that sometimes it can seem like it’s in the background of your mind for weeks. When he first left Mexico, he had strong feelings like this too so he knows how each day can differ and how the feeling fluctuates.

But Javier tells you he’ll be by your side for all of it. He wants to be the shoulder you cry on and for the nights that seem long and dark, he’s there. He lets you rest your head on his lap and Javier hums a few songs as he runs his fingers through your hair.

Bill

We all know what Bill is like. It can take him a while to understand how you feel but the main thing is he tries to help in whatever way he can. At first he thinks that you just feel sad over something. He doesn’t think it’s a big deal and Bill just thinks the feeling will fade in a few days. But it doesn’t.

Something that always helps Bill destress and forget about life’s problems for a while is playing with Cain. He’s convinced that dog has superpowers cause Bill’s in a good mood whenever Cain comes around. One day when Cain comes over to Bill for some belly rubs, Bill gets you to join in too.

You spend the rest of the afternoon with the two of them, using Bill’s bandana to play tug of war with Cain and laughing when Cain flops down on Bill, tired from all the games. 

As ye relax, Bill distracts you some more by telling you a few stories, like when he drunkenly mistook a cow for his horse. Bill doesn’t care if he has to tell you a thousand stories and pet a thousand dogs with you, if it’ll make you smile again then he’s willing to do it.

Sean

Sean wants to be the most helpful person ever. He wants to be there for you through it all, holding your hand each step on the way. Seriously, when Sean sees the shift in your mood and notices you aren’t your usual self then he holds on to your hand and doesn’t plan on letting go anytime soon.

Anytime you want to talk, Sean has no problem stopping whatever he’s doing and giving you his undivided attention. You’re so goddamn special to him and he’s scared of losing you, so he puts 110% into making you feel more comfortable in yourself.

Whenever Sean hears about a robbery or sets up a job, he always brings you along, whether you wanna go or not. He doesn’t think staying around camp all the time is good for you so whenever he goes out, he drags you out with him for a change of scenery

Does Sean know what he’s doing or if he’s helping you overcome this? No, he’s just winging it but this man will literally do anything if it means getting you out of this slump.  

Hosea

This is Hosea, of course he notices when you become more reclusive and depressed. Hosea’s a strong believer in love and support helping people get through anything, and so that’s what he gives you. 

It doesn’t matter where ye are, what time of day it is or if you’re in the middle of a shootout, if you need Hosea then he’s there to reassure you and tell you everything’s going to be alright.

He understands how it can be hard to talk about things like this and how sometimes it feels like you can’t put your emotions into the right words. If you try to talk about how you feel but start to get upset, then Hosea stops you and instead suggests you just sit with him for a while and wait for the feeling to pass.

He never tries to pressure you into talking and if anyone gets pissed off cause you’re not ‘pulling your weight’ around camp then Hosea becomes absolutely furious with them, unholstering his gun making sure the person knows they’re a fool for saying such a thing.

[levisgirll]

i had this idea in mind and i was wondering if i could request a little story hc for it pls! so basically, levi's s/o is a bit of a klutz and can break things sometimes so when levis out in a meeting and his s/o is cleaning his office, she accidentally breaks one of his tea cups and starts panicking if he sees what she's done. so she frantically tries to fix it in the time that she has but levi catches her and she just breaks down and feels really bad but levi comforts her in the way that he can? sorry if this is too specific but you can add in your own ideas as well! <3

𝐏𝐮𝐫𝐞-𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐝 (𝐋𝐞𝐯𝐢 𝐀𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐱 𝐅𝐞𝐦!𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫)

→ text: hello there anon! this is such a great idea and I made it loads of fluff so I hope you enjoy it <3 ty for sharing your ideas and making it specific!🥺

synopsis: just as Y/N thought today would be a normal day and wanting to spend the rest of the day with her boyfriend, Levi, she accidently breaks one of his favorite things, which is his teacup! Y/N feels extremely bad about it and tries her best to fix it, although something goes wrong and Levi notices it. How does her boyfriend Levi react? And what does he do and say to her? get ready cause y/n gets to see a side of Levi she never seen before!

real cute fluff, a lil mention of injury (?), aot world, headcanon fanfic ♡ —

“I’ll see you later Y/N, okay? I just have a quick meeting to attend.” Levi said as he ruffled his girlfriends hair, giving her a small smile. “If you need anything-” Just as Levi was about to reassure his girlfriend that he is always willing to help her out, she cut him off by hugging his chest suddenly. “Don’t worry! I will be fine! And I just only want you back as soon as possible, so I will wait for you here!” His girlfriend said with a cheerful tone and gave him the most purest smile.

Levi loved his girlfriend a lot, and he would always be ready and willing to offer his help, time and effort for Y/N, because to him, she meant the world. His girlfriend was a bit clumsy, and that did not matter to Levi a lot but when it comes to Y/N accidentally slipping, or dropping things. He would never get mad at her but instead worried if she ever got herself hurt. He would always be a step ahead, ready to treat her injuries quickly if the thing she broke caused her harm and he would always then check up on his girl and ask her if she was alright.

He would usually take on many tasks and do them just to help his s/o out. Levi then started to find her pure clumsiness lowkey cute sometimes, for instance when she spills the tea while giving it to Levi and half of it would be gone, he would slightly chuckle and then say, “You made this for me?” And she would get so happy and nodding her head with a bright smile, getting happy how Levi said that. He admired and appreciated her effort for him, but what he finds also cute is when they are cleaning together alone at the stable and she would randomly drop her broom and say “Oops!” and when she tries to pick it up, Levi would just give her his broom and then chuckle “Stop being cute already.” and after he said that he lightly flicked her forehead, making his girlfriend a blushing mess right now and being embarrassed.

Waking up to random bruises would usually happen to his girlfriend when they sleep together. Y/N never had no idea where, when and how that happened! And when Levi wakes up and notices that as the sun shines on her skin, and he sees a small bruise on her upper arm, he would say “How did you get that?”. Y/N would turn her head that was laying on Levi’s chest to look at her arm, and then she would say “I wanna know that too!”. Levi would slightly chuckle and then he would caress it gently, to see if it hurts you, and if he sees no reaction coming from you he feels relieved but still puts a bandage on it later on as you change to your uniform <3

Levi would never let you walk after it has rained, on a wet floor, he would turn around and suddenly pick his girlfriend up from her waist, carrying her in his arms (in a bridal style way) and he would say “I’m carrying you. I don't want you slipping.” This man is ready and prepared to take care of his girl, the woman he loves dearly.

When Levi hears Y/N saying ‘ouch’, he quickly comes to you, as if he was summoned, and just randomly check on you then asks “Where are you hurt love?” Levi is ready, and your boyfriend does think of you 24/7 and cherishes you!

Although, one day her klutziness got the best of her today and it left Levi being really concerned and upset.

After Levi has gone to his meeting, Y/N decided to surprise him by cleaning his office as he always seems to smile whenever he sees something clean, and his girlfriend wants to see her boyfriend Levi smile as much as he can!

While she was cleaning his office in her free time, wiping the table surface with a cloth, she picked his teacup up and with her other hand was rubbing the table. But, she accidently slipped the teacup that was from her hand and it fell on the ground, causing it to break, shattering to pieces.

“Oh shit, shit, shit! I really fucked up this time!” Y/N said panicking and started to pace around, wondering what to do next. Her tears started to form in her eyes and she started to regret what she has done. Levi would so be upset and mad at her now.

Y/N then frantically tries her best to pick up the teacup pieces from the ground and was seeing if she would fix it or put them the pieces back together. She wanted to do this quick before Levi would come in and see what she has done.

But, that was too late as soon as Levi opened his office door, “Hey Y/N, I’m ba- What the hell.” Levi was caught off guard as he saw Y/N bent down, and when he came closer to her to see what she was doing, he then realized there were pieces of glass on the floor and that made him worry. “L-Levi, Don’t worry I’ll fix-” As soon as his girlfriend was about to finish what she was saying to him, she winced in pain as she accidentally cut herself with the small glass pieces since she got startled by Levi’s sudden presence. “Ow!” She uttered a yelp as she jolted from the pain and blood was now staring to form on her index finger.

Levi dropped everything he was carrying on the ground and immediately went to his girlfriend to help her. “Love are you okay?! Let me see.” He quickly took her hand, examining the cut on her index finger and went to his desk to get the first aid to patch Y/N up. Levi was calm and still as he was treating her injury, and he stayed silent while helping her out, focusing on putting the bandage on her accurately, and also to make sure she wouldn’t get even more pain while he was doing it.

Although, his girlfriend mistook that has Levi being mad and angry at her and she felt extremely bad, she looked down to her shoes, avoiding his eye contact and started to tear up. “I-I’m sorry Levi....I-I know you are mad right now, I feel really bad what I have done. I know how much you liked that teacup, I’m sorry I brok-”

Levi cut her off and brought his hand under her chin, to pull it up and made her now looking directly to his grey eyes. He had a calm expression but in his eyes he felt worried for her and his love for her was also shown. “I don’t care about that damn cup. What I care about is you idiot. Are you okay? Is it painful?” He questioned her in a concern tone, waiting for her response and she stood there sitting, her eyes would be wide open and surprised how Levi actually did not care a single bit about the teacup and was not even mad at her clumsiness. His love for her was stronger than that, and nothing mattered to him other than his girlfriend.

“No...” Y/N said in a soft tone and looked away, still feeling bad about what she did and Levi did notice that. He brought her closer and what he did really shocked Y/N. He gave her a tight and warm hug, and he was softly stroking her back gently and lovingly. She then realized that this was Levi’s own way of comfort, his way to let her know that it was all right and he only cared about was her.

This made Y/N a blushing mess and she grabbed on to Levi, and hugged him around his shoulders and softly sobbed on his neck. He was really gentle and soft towards her, and she loved him even more.

After that, Levi would take his girlfriends hand and pull her up, “Let’s go out.” Y/N just nodded and wondered where they would head to around this hour?

They then ended up in town, and Levi was holding her hand carefully and would time to time caress the back of her hand softly with his thumb to ease the pain away and that would give Y/N butterflies every single time he did that.

It turned out that, to make his girlfriend not feel bad about what she did. He ended up buying new teacups, and he would ask her to pick two teacups that she liked. She listened to him and picked the ones she found cute, and wondered why. It was then she realized that Levi finally said with a slight blush on his cheeks, “We can have, matching teacups. Hm, What do you think?”

Now, they have matching teacups <3 He was honestly the best boyfriend to Y/N and he tells her in his own way to comfort her that he is glad she broke that, cause if she didn't they wouldn't have matching teacups “That teacup was shit anyways. I wanted to buy a new set of teacups with you.” Levi would say he wouldn't even know how to even mention it and bring it up cause he was in fact thinking of having matching teacups! He is awkward and shy and would be a stuttering mess if he ever brought it up randomly one day to Y/N so he never mentioned it, but today was the day he would slip it in!

His girlfriend felt pleased and happy, happy about the fact that Levi was really understanding and he would do anything to make her feel happy again, he would never let Y/N go a day not feeling happy and making sure his girl was alright. She would then chuckle after and say, “Well, I’m glad to hear that.”

Levi would then smile at her, feeling relieved to see her smiling and happy again, cause in the end of the day, that was important to him other than a stupid teacup.

Now, Levi would roast ANYONE who touches his and Y/N's teacups. Levi would say to the other scouts that she is only allowed to touch them, use them, clean and even break it.

Then, starting from the next day Levi would sneak in kisses on her hand that got the cut every now and then when no one is looking. This left both of them blushing a lot.

Y/N would sometimes say with a sad sigh “Ugh, I’m so clumsily.” to Levi, but he would then go near her face and hold her side cheek which got her off guard and say “Yea, You are ‘my’ clumsily girl.” He won’t let you say anything negative about yourself slip by and you always feel loved whenever he did that.

Overall, Levi found her absolutely wonderful and her qualities far outshine some of the challenges she faces. Even while she is clumsy and stumbling, she is very skilled when it gets to use her 3D gear, she can just move around very good, flexible and easily avoids titans and Levi is kind of impressed by her skills then says “That's my girl” with a soft smile. Y/N had talent in her blood.

Okay I found this hc fanfic so cute! Levi would definitely never get mad at his girl when it comes to this since this man is very mature and understanding, and he is always willing to make sure she is doing alright and taking care of his girl <3 Levi now uses the new matching teacups every now and then and he would always gets your tea ready using them! (he would be such an excited kid whenever you both used it) so expect to have more tea time sessions with him. Anyways, I hope you and anyone else enjoyed it, and please leave a like, reblog or a message to let me know! Have a great rest of the day and ty for the support <3 

[thefanficmonster]

Tell Me It’s Not Too Late

(Sequel to Switchblade)

Corpse Husband x Reader (Female)

Warnings: Heartbreak, Swearing

Genre: Angst, Fluff

Summary: When is it considered ‘too late’ when it comes to expressing feelings? Is there even a time limit? Is the chance only momentary - is it a second that passes you by with no possibility of returning? All Corpse can do is hope that’s not the case. Cause if it is.....he’d rather not think about that.

Requested - sort of, but not in a typical way. Thank you to all the readers of ‘Switchblade’ that wanted to see the story have an ending that’d lead to a new start. Here it is, guys! Hope it lives up to what you expected. Love you all to the moon and back. 💖💖💖

I end my stream after almost three hours of constant scares. I sigh, slipping the headset off my ears so it’s hanging around my neck. I don’t feel that fulfilling feeling that I’m always met with upon ending a stream. I look at the countless scratches and little holes on the surface of my desk - evidence of the fear and frustration I experience while playing certain games. Not all of them are caused by that, however - Coming home after possibly the most humiliating night of my life, that desk and a few other pieces of furniture suffered my wrath and are now decorated with stab wounds that were a result of uncontrollable rage, hurt, self-hatred and self-pity. It took me a while to put an end to my hazardous, switchblade wielding rampage throughout my house, but the tears didn’t stop until the early morning hours.

I didn’t care that my feelings weren’t reciprocated. That was and is the least of my troubles. The most amount of hurt comes from the fact that I ruined something wonderful for myself. Corpse is the only person I’ve felt this close to all my life and now, due to my own poor decision making, I no longer have him. He no longer wants to be a part of the shit-show that is my life. Especially not now that he knows how messy things get when I show my forever-hidden feelings. I can’t blame him. I know I’d be running for the hills if I were him. He deserves a person who knows what’s going on in their life. Who has themselves and their surroundings figured out. Not someone who has an irregular streaming schedule and catches feelings for her best friend, ruining the friendship altogether in the process.

As I stand up from my chair, accidentally hitting the handle of the switchblade on the edge of my desk. I look down at it and how tightly I’m holding it. I seem to not be able to let go of it. Almost like I see it as my last bit of link to Corpse. The remnants of the connection I felt between us.

Maybe I should return it.

No, that’d be weird. I’d either have to go over there and give it back or send it via mail which is worse. It just feels like a harsh gesture - mailing something so meaningful as though it’s as worthless as the bills people get in the mail. I can’t send it through others, I don’t want anyone else getting involved. The more people know, the more real it is.

I’m aware I’m being both overdramatic and irrational, but you have to understand how much pain I’m in. I can’t guarantee the pain will go away or even lessen if I let this switchblade go, but it’s the only thing I haven’t tried.

Only problem is - I can’t let it go. I can’t find it in me to destroy it or throw it away. A part of me is willing to take the suffering of keeping it just cause it wants to hold on to that little connection it resembles. It’s evidence it existed to begin with. I believe it’s worth the pain. The hurt will go away eventually, but the memories are forever. I’ll look back at the time I had an amazing person such as Corpse to call ‘best friend’ and I’ll have something to prove to myself that it wasn’t a fever dream.

“Oh for fuck’s sake.“ I mumble as I finally uncurl my fingers from around the damn thing and put in down on my desk.

I take the headset off and proceed to head out onto the balcony to light what I call a ‘stress cigarette’. I’m not a regular smoker, but when everything just caves, I prefer to resort to a quick puff rather than grabbing a drink. I can say no to a second cigarette but not to a second drink. That second will then turn into a third and so on. And I don’t trust myself when drunk. I don’t personally know, but I’ve been told I’m rather unpredictable.

For the first few seconds while I’m standing there I don’t notice the pouring rain by some strange miracle. I can only focus on the chill of the breeze and the fresh breath that’s finally entering my lungs. I take a moment to breathe in the cool air before I start mixing it with the cigarette smoke. 

With my eyes closed, I hear more than I feel the rain on me. Storm noises always distract me from the actual storm, they calm me down. However, the sudden loud thunder causes me to open my eyes in a matter of milliseconds. I frown, slightly upset that I didn’t catch glimpse of the lightning that the thunder probably followed.

I’m not upset for too long, though. A lightning flashes right opposite me, creating the most mesmerizing of pattern you can see in the night sky during a storm. It’s so bright, it allows me to see my whole, usually unlit garden perfectly in that second or two it graces the sky. 

Wait

My balcony has a clear view of my entire front yard and all it takes a glance to the left to be able to see the front doorstep. 

Don’t freak yourself out, it’s just a trick of the light

I stay quiet and as still as a statue as I await another flash of lightning, my heart speeding past the point of a healthy pulse and into the realm of a near heart attack. The storm seems to be on my side because maybe a minute later another lightning bolt cuts through the black of the night. 

Sure enough, there’s a person standing outside my front door.

Fuck, what do I do?!

The person doesn’t appear to be moving. They are standing just as still as I am, facing towards the house.

I thank the universe the lights inside the house are off. I turned them off cause I wanted the ultimate scary experience playing that game. The only light is the faint glow of my computer screen which is, thankfully, barely visible. I slowly start backing up towards the sliding glass door, never taking my eyes off the figure that I can just barely make out now that my surroundings have fallen into darkness again. If it weren’t for the lightning I would’ve never been able to see them.

I manage to get back inside, soaked as though I just got out of a pool, without making a single sound. Just to be safe, I shut my monitor off. I grab my phone to use as a flashlight in one hand and the switchblade just finds its way into the other, my fingers curling around it tightly, more on instinct than to use as a weapon. I know I probably won’t be able to stab whoever’s out there.

I tiptoe my way down the stairs where all the lights are also off. I flick the blade out as I hesitantly and shakily make my way to the door to look through the peephole. I let out an unsteady exhale as I look at the the figure who is now standing further away and seems to have one arm in the air, curled at the elbow.

Just as I’m about to pull away from the door to dial 911 another flash of lightning illuminates the yard, the figure along with it. 

Can we go back to it being an intruder?

It’s no intruder, surprisingly - to my dismay. 

I turn my phone’s flash off and reach for the switch next to the door, flicking the light on before opening the door and walking out. 

“I NEARLY STABBED YOU WITH YOUR OWN BLADE!“ I yell in a desperate attempt to be heard over the waterfall of rain.

I can finally see him properly thanks to the light in my hallway. He looks like he hasn’t slept in years. He has his hood up but his black locks are sticking out in every direction from under the soaked material, not being protected from the droplets whatsoever. I read the shock in his eyes, almost like he didn’t know I lived there. He doesn’t make an attempt to approach or walk away from me so we just stand there, in the rain, staring at each other as though it’s the first time we’ve seen one another.

I snap out of the trance he has put me in, shaking my head at the ridiculousness of the situation as I step towards him, grabbing onto his wrist, “Come on, we look like drowned rats.” I don’t give him time to react as I drag him inside, closing the door once we enter. “OK, from the top now: Why were you embracing your inner serial killer on my front porch?” I keep blabbering, diverting my gaze to anything but him. “Fucking hell, I could’ve stabbed you! You could’ve gotten really badly hurt! I -...”

“You know, I wish you stabbed me.“ He finally puts an end to my sorry excuse for frustration, I’m aware I look and sound miserable. His voice drags my eyes straight to his, fixing them there. “I know you can’t kill a cockroach on your own, and I know you most definitely wouldn’t even scratch a person, but I wish you had hurt me. Inflict fifty stab wounds on me and you still won’t hurt me as much as I hurt you.“ His hand swiftly pushes the hood off his head, grabbing onto his drenched locks as an expression of pain paints itself on his face. He’s the one diverting his gaze now, “I know what you mistook my silence for and I want you to get that out of your head.“

I wince at the pang in my chest, barely restraining my hand from flying up to rest over my heart, “Don’t humor me, Corpse! I’m not a child and this is not a game!”

“I’m not humoring you. I’m telling you...“ he makes a step towards me, grabbing hold of my ice cold hands, “I’m telling you I’m an asshole that freezes up when it’s least acceptable. I’m telling you I’m the worst at expressing how I feel. I’m telling you I can’t open foil. But you already knew all that. And you still liked me.“ He breaths in, refilling his lungs before continuing his rant, “I know you can be very chaotic. A real handful. A fucking tornado. But I love you. I love you as every natural disaster you represent. And if you could humor me...“ One of his hands releases mine, coming up to push a strand of hair away from my face, resting his hand on my cheek. “...by giving me one more chance. You always let me try multiple times when I stumble over what I’m trying to say. Can you do that, for me? For us?“

I let out a dramatic sigh, rolling my eyes. “If I say yes will you stop showing up like that on my doorstep?“ Of course, my primal instinct is to act tough and cool when my heart rate is once again going at the speed from back at the balcony. The skin of face and neck is red and burning hot. My eyes are rimmed with tears, I hope he doesn’t notice.

“Yeah. I’ll start coming in through the chimney instead.“ He visibly relaxes, a smile dancing at the corner of his lips. He lifts the hand that’s still holding the switchblade, prying it out of my grasp. “No sharp objects, please.”

He drops it in the pocket of his hoodie, finally leaning down to erase any last bit of doubt I have left. This kiss teaches me a lot of things.

Love isn’t linear - nothing about it is linear. Not falling in nor falling out of it. Feelings aren’t digital or binary - it’s not always as black and white as we might want to believe. Feelings don’t just come and go. They are always present, but it depends on us weather they’re suppressed or expressed. We fear the latter cause we fear vulnerability and change. But we also crave the positive outcome we have a 50% chance of getting. It’s a fifty-fifty game, but here’s the thing: if you never express your feelings it’s a zero-a hundred chance that you won’t receive the outcome you’d like.

I took the fifty over the zero chance and regretted it for a day or two. It gave me closure if nothing more. It let me stand under the spotlight and carry my pride on my shoulders despite the tears in my eyes.

My feelings being reciprocated is just another benefit. But no longer being able to call Corpse ‘best friend’ cause he’s now got a bigger and better title is the positive outcome I have been dreaming of. 

He makes it all worth it. He is worth all of it. 

And if I had to go through all that again, you can bet your ass I would.

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True Love in Razia’s Shadow

Adakias and Anura’s love was not true love. Even though the timeline of how long they spent together before they tried to convince the King to let them get married is unclear, the events that unfold makes it clear that it wasn’t and literally everyone in the musical mistook their love for true love, even the Oracle and the prophetic shoreman (I might later discuss why I think they did this) and I have to say I love how the concept of true love is addressed. Arima and Nedrio’s love was true love, Anura and Adakias’ was not. While it’s mentioned that Arima and Nedrio start having feelings upon seeing each other it’s confirmed that they’ve spent time together and that brought about their love. Anura and Adakias don’t have this, their love is immediately a “love at first sight” kind of situation, Adakias sees her and in the very next song they talk about getting married. In contrast Nedrio and Arima spent a lot of time with each other, discussed their feelings openly, encouraged each other and Nedrio provided him real support when he was feeling upset. “O the Scentist and his Genesis, he overlooked my gift and benefit, she’s the only one, who knows what I could have done.”(“The Missing Piece”) From the get go we know that Nedrio and Arima have a real relationship, because Arima immediately states Nedrio knows a lot about him. He basically goes to Nedrio to complain about not being acknowledged and she provides comfort to him, “You must be patient, they will realize, what I know inside, you were meant to lead this world, to greater things, its your destiny” (“The Missing Piece”). And although Arima says the lines first I honestly think Nedrio is the one who originally coined them, not Arima. All the same, Nedrio validates his feelings of frustration and provides genuine comfort. This is how we know their love is genuine and by the way, they never say anything about it being true love but we know it is because of how they talk with each other. Compare this to when the doctor agrees to heal Anura under the payment of she stays with him forever, as a SLAVE, “For the rest of her life in the dark fulfilling doctor’s fantasies”(Doctor, Doctor). Anura is sick, dying and terrified, and then she’s told THAT is the payment she has to make to be healed, and then her conversation with Adakias proceeds to go like this:

Anura: I can’t do this

Adakias: But you must Princess

Anura: Sign my life away….

Adakias: It’s the only way. Trust me I know, how this must go, just do what the doctor says (Doctor, Doctor)

For one thing, it’s important to note that there is never a confirmed reaction of Adakias being BOTHERED by the doctor’s request, or even a hesitation which is already a red flag. But the fact that when she says she isn’t okay with this, Adakias tells her she HAS to do it, instead of siding with her shows that it’s not true love. They’re both convinced it is, but it isn’t and I think this is why when they get together the separation isn’t fixed between the two sides. The true love is between Adakias and Pallas. When Pallas accidentally stabs him because he gets in the way, Adakias isn’t upset with him. Instead he realizes what Pallas has---something they realize together because they grew up with those prophecies---when he [Adakias] dies, everything will be fixed. “This is my gift to you, live for your love everyday”. (The End and the Beginning”) He says this to Pallas, not Anura. Anura makes no comments during Adakias’ death, she is not the one cradling Adakias’ body as he’s dying and she’s not the one begging him to stay alive, his older brother is. “This was never my intent oh god please stay alive….Please don’t let your tired heart stop beating, you’re breathing. Just keep breathing…” (“The End and the Beginning”) And guys, Pallas isn’t just upset, he is DEVESTATED. We see very little of Pallas in the musical but the fact that in just two songs we are able to see his and Adakias’ relationship, and to see how true and genuine their love for each other is, its great. Out of “romances” I have to say this portrayal of true love and the fact that they not only show a pairing with true love, but also provide true love in another form, from a family member, to the characters who aren’t truly in love, is pretty fantastic. 

Musical: Razia’s Shadow: The Musical

Characters: Arima; Nedrio; Pallas; Adakias; Anura

Creators: Forgive Durden

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Waking Up In Vegas Chapter 7

After a night of debauchery, Ron and Hermione wake up in Vegas... married.

Muggle!AU. Romcom!Romione. Slow burning, smutty, angst-fest.

Rated M for reasons.

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"How about right here?" asks Ron, gesturing to a small high-top table tucked away in a private corner of the bar. It looks the same as it did this morning, but it feels different. The turn of the evening has revived the chatter, and the patrons have polished their wardrobes, giving the atmosphere an air of evening excitement rather than morning regret.

"Oh. Yeah, this is fine." Hermione glances around as though looking for another, more public option. Even though certain events this afternoon showed them that being visible doesn't exactly present an obstacle to… things. Just reflecting on those events makes Ron's head spin.

"Great!" he says. "What's your poison?"

"My poison?"

"What do you want to drink? On me," he clarifies. His mind can't help but repeat and rephrase some of those words. Drink on me. The image of Hermione lying flat on a bar table turns his ears pink, and it takes immense effort to divert his eyes from her low-cut dress, which displays just enough cleavage to hold a shot of liquid.

"I'll just have some water." Disappointing.

"C'mon, we're in Vegas," he presses. "Live a little."

"Fine," she says with an eye roll. "Gin and tonic, then."

"I know you can be fun, you married me after all," he says with an air of playful smugness.

Hermione shakes her head. "I still can't believe we don't remember that."

Ron's been wracking his mind to remember anything from last night. He has no photos on his phone to spark memories, no friends for witnesses, only an ominous piece of paper stating the finality of their marriage. He's desperate to see some evidence that it's all real.

"How did you find out?" he says as he waves down the waiter to order their drinks.

"What do you mean?" asks Hermione.

"How did you know we were married? You didn't know when we woke up this morning," he smiles at the approaching waiter. "Two gin and tonics, please."

"No straws," adds Hermione, earning a groan from Ron.

"Two gin and tonics, no straws," repeats the waiter.

Hermione smiles smugly, and he's suddenly reminded of their first conversation, and how annoying her holier-than-thou attitude was. "Actually, I'll have a straw."

The waiter returns a stiff smile. "Great!"

"And food too," says Ron. "How about an appetizer plate to share?" He directs his question to Hermione who shrugs, although reluctantly.

"Coming right up."

"Really?" says Hermione when the waiter turns away. "You're still on this straw thing?"

"You're the one that's 'on a straw thing,'" he says, forming quotation marks with his fingers.

"Do you even know how many sea creatures die because they've swallowed too much plastic?" Her cheeks flush, and her eyes sparkle at her indignation. She's quite cute when she's passionate.

Ron makes a note to bring up the straw thing later, but otherwise ignores her question to repeat his own. "How did you know we were married?"

Hermione opens her mouth to argue, but decides to answer him instead.

"Someone at the bar let it slip. I was ordering drinks, and a woman came up to me and congratulated me."

"Really? Who was it?"

She shakes her head. "I don't know. I figured she mistook me for someone else, so that's what I told her. Then she showed me a photo of us."

"That must have been—"

"Hold on!" she says abruptly, her eyes narrowing at him.

"What?"

"How did you know?"

"Sorry?" he asks innocently, but Hermione seems to see right through his tone.

"Ron, did you know we were married the morning we woke up… together?"

Ron opens his mouth to answer, but no sound comes out. He hasn't thought about how to answer that question.

"Ron!"

He sighs. Honesty is probably the best policy here. "Okay, I knew about it that morning. I found our wedding certificate right before you woke up. I didn't get a chance to bring it up."

Her cheeks flush red again. "You didn't get a chance?"

"No—"

"Oh, you had a chance," she says, rolling her eyes. "We talked about sleeping together, and you didn't think to mention it?"

"No, I didn't," he begins, his tone defensive. "I hadn't even processed it myself. And you seemed quite upset. I didn't want to add insult to injury."

"You should have told me," she says, leaning back and folding her arms across her body.

"I know."

Their awkward silence is interrupted by the delivery of their drinks and appetizers. The waiter places a plate of towering nachos, pita-bread, artichoke dip and mozzarella sticks precariously balanced in the shape of a castle. Ron takes a swig of his gin and tonic through the straw, and it makes a loud slurping noise that results in a pointed scowl from Hermione.

"700," says Hermione.

"What?"

"That's the number of marine species in danger of extinction due to plastic—"

"Oh shut it," he says, and once again, the two descend into an awkward silence. Ron wonders if his commitment to the straw is the best way to rile her up. Probably not. "Do you have the photo?" he tries instead.

"Yeah, I have it," she answers, but doesn't reach for her phone to show him.

"Is there some reason you don't want me to see?"

She shrugs. "No, there's not. At least not anymore." Hermione pulls out her phone, unlocks it, and scrolls through a few images before landing on one in particular. Ron finds himself peering at her screen, curious if a glimpse of her camera roll might reveal more information about her life than she'd reveal upfront. He can't help but be curious.

She finally flips the camera to show him the photo, and all he can say is, "Wow."

In the photo, he's lifting her up as if carrying her over a threshold. Her arms are wrapped around his neck, and their lips are pressed together in a passionate kiss, not unlike the one they just experienced on the bridge. They look comfortable with each other — his hand is pretty high on her thigh, and her skin is indented where his fingers press. Naturally, his eyes float across the table to her crossed legs, visible under the hem of her short, blue sundress. It's the dress that Lavender hates, and for a good reason — it makes Hermione look hotter than the Las Vegas desert.

"Wow is right," she says, and he can tell by the playful tone of her voice that her eyes have followed his, and she knows he's gawking at her. She doesn't seem to mind.

"I'm really sorry I didn't tell you," he says, keeping his focus on her dress. "That probably wasn't the best way to find out."

"It was shocking, that's for sure," she says, her words intoned with a smile that he doesn't see.

"Okay, another question for you, Granger. Why didn't you tell me?" Even though she hasn't protested, he still feels like he's been looking at her legs for too long, so he moves his gaze back up to her face, reluctantly passing over her chest. He wouldn't want her to feel objectified… but damn, she looks good.

"What do you mean? You already knew!"

He scoffs. He'd much rather flirt than argue, but he'll take whatever interaction he can get, anything that might lead to another kiss like the one on the bridge. She seems to like arguing, and honestly, he'd love to indulge her. "Yeah, I did. But you didn't know that I knew!"

She looks away, and much to Ron's dismay, uncrosses her legs. He glues his gaze to her face, reminding himself that it would be really bad to look down now.

"You can't get angry at me for not telling you, not when you didn't either."

"I was going to tell you—"

"When?"

"After confirming it!"

Ron gestures to their photo, a smirk on his face. "This is pretty… confirming."

"Yeah, it is," she says, her shoulders slumping in defeat.

"So let me get this straight," he says, leaning toward her and resting his elbows on the table. "When you found out, instead of telling me, you decided to go to Erised Elopements to confirm it?"

"Yes," she says simply, mimicking Ron and placing her elbows on the table, daring his gaze to travel south.

He keeps his eyes glued to hers, and her adorable scowl brings a smile to Ron's face. "You know, Hermione, if we're going to make this marriage work, then these double standards will have to go." He plucks a nacho from the appetizer plate between them.

She lets out a laugh before stopping herself abruptly. Ron's smile grows, knowing an accidental laugh is a genuine one. Her eyes gloss over his lips before pointedly looking away, and Ron considers bringing up the kiss. He tries to conjure up the courage, which only extends the awkward silence between them.

"Make this work?"

He shrugs. "Well, yeah."

"Ron, we're not really married." She's looking at him like he's a delusional five-year-old who needs reminding that the story in a picture book isn't real.

It frustrates him and motivates him to antagonize her in the same way seeing a cute puppy makes him want to aggressively squeeze it. Honestly, if anyone's deluded, it's her. "Ha. Yeah, Hermione, we definitely are."

"But surely, you don't want to stay married," she says, and her words should be a question, but they play out as a definitive statement.

"Do you want to stay married?" he asks.

"I asked you first."

No, you didn't. "Well… I'm not about to marry someone else, so there's no reason to get a divorce at the moment."

She gapes at him, unable to formulate an answer.

"Do you have a fiance I don't know about?"

"No, I don't have a fiance," she says indignantly.

"A boyfriend?"

"No boyfriend either."

Ron relaxes in relief. "Then we can stay married for now. I see no problem."

"You don't even know me." She picks at the plate between them, and their hands brush, sending a flutter directly to Ron's stomach. His palms break out in sweat.

It's true, he doesn't really know her, but not a lot of women make his palms sweat like this.

"Then tell me about yourself," he asks.

She's looking at him both with incredulity and caution. Her tone is softer, almost vulnerable when she speaks next. "This isn't some ploy to make Lavender jealous?"

"Who?" They might be joking about a lot of things, but he wants her to know he's serious about being over Lavender.

Hermione rolls her eyes, but the rosy tint of her cheeks and soft smile betrays her attempt to appear annoyed at him.

"I'm serious," he says as sincerely as possible. "I'd love to get to know you."

She considers him for a moment, her eyebrows raised. "So your plan is to stay married due to convenience?" She plucks a mozzarella stick from the plate and takes a bite, and Ron can't control his gaze from drifting to her mouth.

"Sure. Kind of the opposite of friends with benefits." They haven't discussed benefits yet, but maybe she'd be open to another kiss. Perhaps more than another kiss, but he doesn't want to push his luck.

"Right. Just the paperwork, no benefits," she says, leaning back and crossing her arms in front of her chest. Her arms push against her body in all the right ways, and he feels his gaze drifting even further...

"Exactly. No benefits." He's suddenly looking at her chest — how did that happen? She keeps her arms crossed gently below her breasts; she has to know she's affording him quite the view. His face is heating up quickly, and he wonders if she's amused by it. When he looks up, she's smirking at him. Tease.

"Twenty questions," she says, drawing his gaze back up to her eyes.

"Twenty questions?"

"Yep." She plucks another mozzarella stick from their shared plate, and her eyes roll back when she takes a bite.

He should make sure to remember how much she likes those.

"You said you want to get to know each other, so go ahead," she says. "Let's ask each other twenty questions."

"Why just twenty?" he asks.

"Is that one of your twenty?"

He laughs. "No."

"I am curious what questions you'll ask. It tells a lot about a person."

The pressure's on.

"You start then," he says, challenging her with his eyes.

She shrugs. "So that kiss," she says, her eyebrows raising, before falling quiet.

He shakes his head. "That's not a question. What about it?"

She smiles and continues. "It... got kind of intense."

He narrows her eyes at her. "Still not a question."

"Was it intense for you?" she asks softly. Her hand swipes by his on its way to retrieve another mozzarella stick.

He nods. "It was."

"Did it feel real to you?" she asks back.

"Hey, it's my turn for a question," he says with a smile, and Ron's beginning to enjoy the rhythm of their banter.

"Fine," she says. "Ask away."

"Were you acting?

She looks him in the eyes and shakes her head. "It felt like a real kiss."

"Felt like?"

"It was a real kiss."

He's tempted to kiss her again, right here in the bar, but he hasn't scanned his surroundings to assess whether anyone else from the wedding party is present. Although he wouldn't mind being seen snogging her — fuck, he wants to do so much more than snog her — he should at least spare her the embarrassment.

Summoning his courage, he asks, "Would you want to kiss me again?" His gaze follows her drink as she presses the glass to her lips.

She'd probably be horrified to know where Ron's imagination's traveling. He wants to kiss her again, sure, but more specifically, he wants to get drunk from the alcohol on her lips. If only he could reach out and tangle his fingers in her hair and pull her face to his. He'd open his mouth and let her explore him with her tongue while his free hand cupped her perfect tits over her dress.

If he had more flair for the dramatic, he'd clear their drinks from the table with one fell swoop of his arm — they'd crash to the floor and break, but he wouldn't care. He'd lift her onto the table and run his hand down her body while her legs wrapped around him, pulling his hardened erection right up against the heat of her knickers.

They'd probably get kicked out of the bar for such a display, but he could do so much more to her in his hotel room anyway. Back in his room, he'd one-up his drunken self by improving upon whatever they had done the night before. He was a very generous lover when he wasn't completely pissed, and he wanted more than anything to undress her, memorize her perfect body, and find out what made her tick — find out how many times he could make her tick in one night. Maybe he could set a new record.

"It's my turn to ask," she reminds him.

Suddenly aware of his public location, his growing erection, and Hermione's amused smirk, he forces himself out of the lustful fog and back into the present.

"Then ask."

"I have the same question. Would you like to kiss me again?"

He smiles. "Yes."

"Me too," she says, almost a whisper. Ron has to lean forward to hear her, which suggests her quiet tone is intentional. "It's too bad we aren't trying to convince anyone here that we're married."

Ron takes a deep breath before responding, "I'm sure someone needs convincing..."

"I'm sure they do," she says, leaning even closer, affording Ron another delightful view into her dress — one that really doesn't help him with the growing constriction in his shorts.

But unfortunately, the tent in his pants deflates when he hears a familiar sound — one of heels clacking toward him from across the bar. He groans and pulls away from Hermione at the last moment, wishing he didn't see the look of disappointment on her face.

"Won Won! There you are!"

Ron groans. "Hi, Lavender."

"Oh hi, Hermione," chirps Lavender. "How are you?"

"I'm fine, Lavender," says Hermione.

Lavender seems to ignore her and slips an arm around Ron, who stiffens under her touch. "I missed you. I've been looking for you for hours."

"Well, I've been busy," he glances at Hermione as he speaks; she's observing their interaction closely with curiosity on her face.

"Are you stressed? I can help with that," she says, boldly taking a seat on Ron's lap and threading her fingers through his hair. Her lips were dangerously close to his face.

"Lav—"

"Hermione," interrupts Lavender. "Ginny has something she wants to talk to you about. Some wedding thing. You can find her in her hotel room."

Hermione narrows her eyes at Lavender, who simply smiles sweetly at her. With an eye-roll, Hermione finishes off her drink and stands. "Well, I'll talk to you later, Ron."

"Yeah, uh, sounds good."

Ron watches Hermione walk away — and how glorious it is — but Lavender must notice his attention drifting because she shifts her position to block her from view.

"We need to chat, Ron."

"What was that about, Lavender?" He pulls her hand away from his hair. She looks upset, which is fine by him, because he's upset too.

"What?" she asks, rising to her feet. Her arms form a protective barrier across her body, and she scowls at him.

"Sitting on my lap, touching me, how many times do I have to tell you that it's over between us?" Her attempt to intimidate Ron doesn't faze him, who's become immune to her power grabs over the years.

"Ron! It doesn't matter, it's not like you're really on the prowl this week. Not with all of your best man duties."

With a groan, Ron throws back the rest of his drink before slapping the glass back onto the table. The sound makes Lavender flinch. "You're right, I'm not. That doesn't mean I want your hands all over me." He stands and brushes past Lavender toward the bar exit.

"Where are you going?"

"Back to my room. Don't follow me!" He doesn't want to give her the satisfaction of looking back at her, but he can hear the clicking of her heels pursuing closely behind him.

"RON!" Her shriek causes the bar to quiet down, and people are suddenly staring.

To avoid looking like a total arsehole, he turns to face her. "What?"

The look on her face catches him off-guard. She's dropped her arms to her side, and her expression has softened. She looks sad. Hurt. And rather than kindling Ron's anger, it makes him feel guilty.

"You broke up with me promising we'd be friends, and now you hardly talk to me. I just want to talk about it."

Her eyes start to water, and Ron realizes his attempts to avoid looking like an arsehole have failed. He's not just looking like one, he's being one.

"Okay," he says in as sympathetic a tone as he can muster. "Let's talk."

[crabsxdragons]

Seventeen High School Love Story

ps. this is another imagine from the depths of my drafts, also the seventeen family au will resume shortly because my neurology exam is coming up, i will keep you updated on when i will continue posting it, thank you for understanding

Seungcheol

You were helping a student who were being bullied, the kid was drenched from head to toe so you gave them your jacket. You have no idea that he was watching the scene unfold from afar. Then a couple days later, the bullies messed with you too, throwing water over you just after school. Seungcheol being the savior he is, came just in time to help you by giving you his jacket. He told the bullies not to mess with his girl. Which lead to a very long conversation and a confession as he walked you home that day.

Jeonghan

You were a new transfer student, and was assigned to sit next to him. Since you barely know each other, you were too shy to speak to him. He also seemed pretty reserved, so you never pushed him to talk to you. You actually thought that he hates you. Until he fell asleep in class one day, and you saved him by waking him up when the teacher calls out his name, also giving him the answer to the question that he was being asked. Then you both started becoming closer. Probably a bit too close to be considered “just friends”.

Joshua

He was the popular guy at school for having a really nice voice and being able to play the guitar. Everyone loved to watch him sing during lunch or free time. He’s also so kind and gentle to everyone, making him everyone’s crush. One day he overheard you singing alone in your empty classroom with your headphones on. He caught you by surprise when he suddenly clapped, complimenting your voice. Then, using his magic tricks, he whipped out his guitar of nowhere, asking you to sing with him.

Jun

You first became friends with Jun because he mistook you for someone else. Your friendship with him literally is the best. No days are spent without laughter, mainly because you both have a very specific sense of humor. You got so close to the point where when he’s too busy playing games on his phone during lunch, you’d shove food into his mouth, so he wouldn’t skip lunch. Or when you’re tired afterschool, he’d carry you on his back on the way home. But not without teasing you. Jun realizes that he likes you as more than just a friend, when someone else asked you out for a date, and it made him upset.

Soonyoung

You were in the same class with him for so long, but never really spoke to each other. Until one day, being the hyperactive guy he is, he accidentally ran into you in the hallways, making you drop a stack of books that you needed to bring to the teacher’s office. He apologized a million times and helped you carry them, finally getting the chance to talk to you. The short interaction was enough to have him interested in getting to know you. So he would invite you to have lunch with him and his friends because there’s just something that makes him want to spend more time with you.

Wonwoo

The first time you every talked to him was for a science project. You were absent when the project was announced and the teacher paired you with Wonwoo, who didn’t really mind. He was more on the quiet side, so it was a bit awkward at first. But during the two weeks that you worked on your project, you managed fo warm up with each other. Which is how you get to know him a bit more, especially on his love for books, and your shared love on games. Save to say that the two of you kept hanging out even after the project was finished.

Jihoon

You were a transfer student, and on the first week you found the piano room. You came there during lunch time because you love to play the piano and there’s no one around so you wouldn’t have to talk to anyone. Jihoon likes to go there alone too, and finds you taking over his “secret” place. He started leaning outside the door to listen to you play in secret, until one day you caught him peeking from the door. Leading to piano duets, and lots of conversations about each other’s passion.

Seokmin

He actually has a crush on you, but you’re not that close cause you both have your own group of friends. Sometimes when he throws a joke in class, his eyes would dart to you, to check if you’re laughing too. He’s pretty popular with the girls cause he’s nice and funny, but when it comes to you, he gets easily flustered. Which is why he’s afraid of striking up a conversation cause he doesn’t want to embarrass himself. That is until he gathered up the courage to ask you out, with a group of friends watching his every move just around the corner, ready to tease him.

Mingyu

No one in school does not know of him, Mingyu, the seemingly perfect student who somehow aced in all fields there is. From academics, to arts, and even sports. But he was mostly known for sports since he’s a part of the soccer team. Students would cheer for him during games and tournaments, some even watched him during practice. You had a few encounters with him before, mainly because you were a part of the health team responsible for the soccer team whenever they get minor injuries. And well if there is one thing that you knew best, is how clumsy he is. There is no game where he did not come to you for help. Which you soon find out was just an excuse to get close to you.

Minghao

When lunch time came around, you prefer spending it with a book you’re currently reading. You love poetry collections and sometimes wrote too. One day you accidentally left your poem book at the library, the ones that has little doodles and poems you wrote which was inspired by everything you see at school. One is about this guy you secretly had a crush for, you even sketched his face. Minghao, your crush, finds the book when he was the last one to leave the library. He learned who the owner of the book is and returned it to you, but making you promise that you’ll read the poems for him one day, on a date.

Seungkwan

You always have a crush on him, you think he’s so cool when he plays volleyball and win these competitions. You would watch every game, supporting your school’s team, although you wouldn’t be able to take your eyes off him. On one match, he accidentally hit the ball in the wrong way and it went towards you, who was sitting on the bleachers. So he apologized a million times, and approached you again at the end of the game. Asking you if he can make it up to you with ice cream. You could say that getting hit by a volley ball landed you a boyfriend.

Hansol

You were best friends even before you could spell the word best friends. So you know him better than you know the back of your hand. Both of you are pretty chill, always on the sidelines of every scene, watching and laughing at your friends. You even sit together in class, doodling on each other’s notes when you’re bored, sharing headphones during free time, copying each other’s homework. Everyone thought you were dating, and even complimented how good you look together. Both of you would laugh at them in response. You never realized you liked him too, until you overheard him talk to Seungkwan that he likes you. But he’s afraid of making things awkward and possibly ruining his friendship.

Chan

He was a transfer student who became the school’s talk because of his visuals and kindness. Everyone was talking about him. His name seemed familiar to you, but you can’t put the face to the name. Until you ran to him in the hallways when school is over and he immediately recognized you. You were the one who lent him crayons back in elementary school when he forgot his. He hasn’t forgotten about you after all these years. Imagine everyone’s surprise when he came looking for you in your class during lunch the next day.