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oh my god it’s happening guys. it’s happening
#toto wolff#GREY HAIR??????? GREY HAIR??????????#first the eyelashes now this#about to lose my mind actually thanks#we won’t survive this lads
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“you’re hurt?!”
“i’m not hurt.”
“you are hurt — here … and … and here too!?”
“hmph. this is nothing.”
there’s a brief moment of silence, then a low huff from him as his gaze shifts to the floor instead. “fine. ill be more careful next time. i promise.”
comm from 🎊 @puppetgearing
#— ⚘( ၴႅၴ moevie.#this is queued but surely i am tossing and turning trying not to jerk awake to stare at this /pos#i must split into two for this … there is celebratory evie ( 🎂 ) and then there is the evie clone losing her mind over this ( banished to a#separate room and yet her ‘OH MY GOD NICK’s can be heard from here … i’m so sorry#omg … i am actually losing my mind trying not to type a 50 page note on every single thing i love about this — what a treat it was to be#able to grab a comm from nick !!! the coolest ever !!! i am literally about to go on a 5K run at the crack of dawn there is no other way fo#me to not literally explode from excitement ajsnskdkdkd thank you nick !!! T T#rbs r ok but no pressure ofc !!!
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Loki + searching for Mobius moments after disaster
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#loki spoilers#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#THE ROMANCE OF IT ALL 🥺😭#those s1 shots have lived rent free in my mind for YEARS now then s2 said thanks have more??#giving me all my rights because i talked about it constantly after the finale and it still wasn't enough lmao#taking the excuse to lose my mind over this again and running bc this is what love looks like to me. the one person who makes it all okay#and somehow this season has delivered that message time and time again in every ep what an actual gift 💖#loki s2 spoilers#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs
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My controversial opinion about Hob Gadling is that I believe he’s absolutely the sort of guy that “puts things behind him”, and tries to wash his hands clean of the things he feels icky about. This is implied pretty well in the show, with him blithely moving from soldiering and robbery to printing, from slaving to… whatever it was he was doing in the 19th century instead. That being said, this is not at all the same as actively trying to atone, or even making a concerted effort to be a better person, and I really wish fandom could tell the difference!
#the amount of times I’ve seen people argue that Hob has redeemed himself and ofc feels really horrible about his role in the slave trade#but there is ZERO textual indication that’s true#in fact judging by how he acts in the 19th century and how he was after all the other shit he did that he maybeeee feels kind of sheepish#and would just like to move on thanks!#i love flawed characters and I love monstrous characters and I love hypocrites and I love friendly amoral assholes#Hob is genuinely a super compelling character and embodies the sort of greed of humanity we see in other forms in Madoc and Burgess#he’s got a more friendly face and he’s a slightly lighter version of it but sandman presents humanity as fundamentally flawed and greedy#and Hob is that to a T#I’d really love it if fandom embraced this version of Hob#making him a fluffy anti-racist progressive hip college professor is just so weird#or especially when they have him espouse progressive views… in the past???#look Hob is actual facts a worse person than the Corinthian in a lot of metrics#when I see 17th century Hob talk about the beautiful diversity of humans I just lose my mind a little#also he’s clearly a wolf of Wall Street yuppie asshole in 1984#hot take Dreamling would be more fun and spicier if people leaned into Hob’s canon traits more#both Dream and Hob are kind of awful#I actually like Hob!#but… man I do not like fanon Hob one bit
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I think the worst thing about having very vague/spotty memories because I was so young when it happened is feeling like I can’t ever fully accept that it DID happen. I will always second guess myself—even though the evidence is always with me (the body keeps the score, as they say). I will probably never tell anyone who knows him about it because what if I’m wrong?? What if I’m making up these flashes of “memory”, and seeing “signs” in my present self where there are none just because I want an easy answer that would explain the way that I am???
It would be such a horrible thing to accuse someone of if it wasn’t true. Especially family. Even just thinking it feels cruel and unfair to him sometimes. And there’s no way for me to get the truth unless he were to confess it to me himself.
I fantasize about that sometimes—I like to picture him apologizing to me at some kind of reunion, scared out of his mind that I’ll tell someone about it and ruin his life. Or even unapologetic, making jokes about it. At least then I would have confirmation. At least then I would have validation for the last twenty years of my life.
Anyway if anyone else feels like this, you’re not alone.
#this is not my usual type of post but i feel like im losing my mind i had to get this out#and it’s fathoms easier to put it here than to say anything to anyone who knows me offline#but if you’re someone i actually speak to on this app if you could pretend you didn’t see this that would be great thanks 🙏#trauma posting#ro speaks#childhood trauma#repressed memories#csa survivor#incest survivor#i feel like a fraud using these tags lol#even now i can’t decide if i believe it or not#but like. bro. come on. you know#but DO I??#UGH#vent post#actually traumatized#csa vent#i am feeling very insecure about this post but here we go#trauma journal
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I saw it in your tag game post that you're also fond of the Apollo-Heracles conflict 👀 for a myth that appears in only a couple of sources, it sure has a lot of presence in the vase paintings (no seriously, everytime I think I've seen the last of it, I find ten more)
SO do you have any favorites among the paintings that represent this story??
OMG OMG THIS ASK IS A GIFT. IT IS A GIFT THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR LETTING ME TALK ABOUT THIS
I also think it's extremely interesting that it's a story so popularly portrayed by vase paintings and in such a variety of ways!! It's certainly one of the stories that gets left out of written compilation of Heracles' legend a bit (which is a shame, I think it's a fantastic story) but Apollo had a very peculiar relationship with Heracles in general that I just kind of find amazing (and very, very funny).
Apollo is not a god with any legitimate grudge against Heracles, but he does argue with the mortal a bit like he argues with his favourite brothers 😂Part of why I love the story of Apollo and Heracles fighting over the tripod so much is that it is such a little brother thing for Heracles to be upset with the proclamation his elder brother has given him and so, he throws a great fit, taking up the chair and declaring that he'll just give himself a better prophecy! And Apollo, instead of being a marginally professional big brother, decides to fight him for it until their father has to break up their cat-fight. Like was that not just the plot of the Homeric Hymn to Hermes? Is this not exactly how Apollo treated Hermes when he was a child and now those two are inseparable? 💀
Because of this, my favourite vase paintings tend to be the ones that highlight the personal squabbling between Apollo and Heracles the most. There are some very elaborate ones that have the full host of them - Athena, Heracles, Apollo, Artemis, usually a dog and a doe, I've even seen a couple that had birds and plants etched on them, but the simplest ones that show Heracles about to bonk Apollo with his club out of frustration or depict Heracles nyooming away from Apollo while Apollo (presumably) yells curses about how he's going to fling Heracles head first into Tartarus for daring to take his things? Yeah, those are the premium big brother/little brother things I'm looking for.
(Photo. Marie-Lan Ngyuen)
(Photo. Museo Claudio Faina)
Also the one in the Theoi.com archives is a real classic - perfect energy.
#ginger answers asks#Thank you SO much for letting me talk about this even a little it always makes me smile#Despite their disputes - if you ask me Apollo was quite fond of Heracles#And I think a big part of why I ultimately come to that conclusion is that Apollo never hinders Heracles or withholds blessings from him#He simply calls him a bitch every time he sees him and then makes his life marginally more inconvenient#like any good older brother let's be so fr#It's extremely charming to see him so playful with a mortal he's not in love with/that is not his son#Other moments of Apollo teasing Heracles includes him trying to convince Artemis not to let Heracles catch her doe when he comes#to fulfill that particular labour (again he doesn't actually try to stop it he just puts up a bit of a fuss about it)#and perhaps another of my all time favourites#Personally luring Heracles into Admetus' house so Heracles can wrestle Thanatos while Apollo rescues Alcestis#I DO NOT KNOW WHY MORE PEOPLE DON'T TALK ABOUT THE LUNACY OF APOLLO'S ADMETUS/ALCESTIS PRESERVATION PLAN#He really said “No yeah I know a guy don't worry about Death Incarnate” and then Heracles shows up at Admetus' door like this is a sitcom#The laugh track that plays in my mind every time Admetus opens that door sees Heracles and then looks back at the disguised Apollo like#'HIM?? HERACLES?? Heracles who can break me in seven pieces with a thought Heracles???'#And Apollo just gives him a thumbs up and says “feed him well pookie <33”#Genuinely some of the funniest shit I have the pleasure of reading in greek myth#Another reason I don't think Apollo has any ill will against Heracles though is how Apollo reacts when Heracles#loses Hylas in the Argonautica#Or well some versions of the Argonautica - this is also a story that changes wildly depending on the source/compilation#But Apollo is incredibly sympathetic to Heracles' sorrow and kind of decides there and then that Heracles losing one love#should be the return of another and asks that Zeus let Heracles free Prometheus when he makes his descent into the underworld#Similarly it is Apollo who anoints Alcaeus/Alcides the name Heracles (also dependent on the myth source)#They just had a very fun relationship and it's a serious shame that it's not acknowledged more#apollo#heracles#greek mythology#(Also people do not talk about the fact that Apollo grappled with Heracles to a standstill enough actually)
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“You’re such a pretty man,” Makino sighed, touching her fingertips to his cheek, before rubbing his beard with her thumb. “Your wife is very lucky. Oh—hey.” Her whole expression brightened, her smile entirely cheeky. “That’s me.”
Shanks grinned, delighted. “You are absolutely hammered, aren’t you?”
“Hmm, I think I’m about to be.” She frowned. “Wait—was that not a euphemism?”
My masked Zorro, the unbelievably generous and tantalisingly mysterious Cover Anon, sweeps in once more with another gorgeous cover from Shanties, this time for Penelope (aka, the wedding fic, my beloved), by the incredible @sacred_pirate on twitter.
I...don't know how it's possible to capture the way a fic exists in my mind so perfectly it's like the artist reached into my soul, and yet that's what this feels like. This is one of the most beautiful artworks I've ever seen, and I can't believe it's from my fic, and this fic.
#I.........am actually at a loss for words#I've just been staring at this all day#sacred_pirate if you see this: your style is everything and this cover is so atmospheric you've sucked me right into this moment!!#the lighting and the composition and the sheer SOFTNESS of this cover??#and the DETAILS#the DRESS and the FLOWERS IN HER HAIR#the wedding rings!! Luffy's wanted poster!!#and t h e m#they're *perfect*#Makino is so beautiful I want to cry#absolutely breathtaking#and SHANKS#THAT LOOK#THIS IS THE LOOK THAT'S IN MY MIND WHEN I WRITE THEM#I AM!!! FEELING A NORMAL AMOUNT ABOUT THIS#I'm lying I am absolutely losing it#the warmth and the tender goofiness in this is exactly how I imagine them and I cannot overstate how much I love this#Cover Anon: I owe you my life#I don't know how to thank you enough#I just hope you know how much this means to me#that someone loves these stories so much they'd do this...I am humbled beyond words<3#Shanks x Makino#otp: sing me sea shanties#Shanties for the Weary Voyager#opfanfic#Shanties art
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hey, anyone else watch Alex Bale's theory on how Blue's Clues exists in the Law & Order universe (specifically the episode "Cruel and Unusual" where steve played a kid there)???
i need to talk to someone about this.
desperately.
here's the link in case anyone is curious: (its really good actually go check it out)
youtube
#losing my mind over this theory actually#its absolute crack and no way is it possible that is ACTUALLY true#but he makes so many good points#i cant watch fucking blues clues anymore withou thinking about it#thanks alex that was my comfort show#blue's clues#law and order#Youtube
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twelfth night is not a Shakespeare I have read or seen but now I’m a bit terrified of ever consuming it. I definitely would never touch that audio drama with a 10 foot pole though (so so tempting. I might give in)
i was normal about twelfth night and held many normal emotions about it i really liked it for being this fun very messy queer drama until i listened to david tennant malvolio which ruined my life i cannot stress enough all of my evil derangements are because of david tennant malvolio if he had not done any of that i would have been FINE
#YOU CAN HEARRRRR the heartbreak and desperation in dt malvolio's voice#you can picture his expression so clearly whem olivia says to him 'but out of question 'tis maria's hand'#the 'i'll be revenged on the whole pack of you' line reading made me lose my fucking MIND#i guess this is the biggest weakness of the audio drama is that im too busy like actively being upset over malvolio#to even feel anything about the haha funny everything all works out ending#twelfth night#ws#david tennant#when i read the play (esp 4.2) i pictured malvolio as being very very angry. still staying confident in the wake of#what's still happening around him. cuz it's like malvolio gave me a very 'i'm surrounded by fucking idiots' energy#and the only thing he has to rely on is his mind (which he takes a lot of pride in anyway).#also the play is a comedy and i feel like this is the only way for this scene to be actually funny#dt malvolio causes me evil derangements bc he is. the reverse of this lol#he is on the verge of tears throughout ALL of 4.2 his voice is all fucked up from screaming to be let out#when he says 'i am as well in my wits as any man in illyria' it's as much a desperate plea to feste as it is to himself#he's someone who once took pride in being the only sane one but now he's started to doubt himself n that's a whole other level#of horror for him. none of it is funny whatsoever. thank you david i love and hate you for this#idk how many other malvolios tend to give you the sense that he is straight up traumatized from being put in solitary but yeah
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ohohh fellas I am feeling insane today
#is it hormones or am I just losing my mind? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#the eternal question#don't you just love getting a surge of super healthy parasocial feelings out of the blue????#like I would like to be just a cute level of insane about this guy please thanks#not actual insanity#that's just not cute#ugh#some days I am so fine and normal (ha ha)#other days I am quite rabid#actually it probably is mostly hormones come to think of it but still#sorry for vague posting I know it's annoying#just needed to vent into the void for a bit because I don't want to bother anyone in specific with my crazy ass bs right now#delete later probably#minnie talks
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ohh javieran … javieran post kieran’s death .., javier is a poor lonesome cowboy in america a long way from home with no more sweetheart to sit and talk with him ooohhh can anyone hear me ….
#someone on tiktok found poor lonesome cowboy in an old archival-esque book of cowboy and campfire songs and as soon as i saw this i gasped#ummm burst into tears actually ! thanks ! i’m so sad !#poor lonesome coyotito who parted from his city and who has no sweetheart to sit and talk with him ☹️#they make me miserable#i was just gonna put this in my drafts but i already have 15 drafts and i fear if i continue to put ideas in my drafts “for later’’ i will#never make another post again … so instead of setting myself up for disappointment i’m just gonna start posting like i do on twt#which is where i post every unfiltered thought i have :)#it’s MY blog and I get to make useless textposts constantly because i know im incapable of making any actual content atm#i’m hoping to draw something based off of this some day though :( i’m already having ideas#usually i sit in my mind palace and tinker with my au where kieran lives but unfortunately sometimes i must face reality and think about#javier’s loss and heartbreak in canon <//3#i need to rewatch kieran’s death cutscene and see where javier is and what he does because i’ll have to write his initial#response to grief depending on that :/#whether he’s frozen in disbelief or actively involved in the retrieval of kieran’s body (if he’s even around at all)#javier isn’t really the type to scream and sob out in pain in the moment but i do think that when he finally had a moment to himself (likely#all the way in chapter six considering how chaotic everything gets and how he’s involved in like … everything following that) (which also re#minds me that he literally goes and gets tortured in guarma immediately after losing his lover. i have to kill myslf. anyway.)#i think it probably hits him like a train and he begins to hack and throw up like the weight of grief is literally crushing his organs from#the inside out 😕 javier escuella the lover that you are sets you up for such devastating heartbreak im so sorry#idek how much i want to tag this. maybe ill pull a moss and start using my own tags for characters#rdr2#image#hero's talking to himself again#hero’s kieran#hero’s javier#hero’s javieran#just so i dont have to clog up tags 💛#i will tag#javieran#as normal though
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TBH people are so deranged about hozier. i love his music and he seems like he would be great to converse with for a few hours but can we just. Remember hes just a person and stop saying insane things lol and also mitski and boygenius fans--and i say this as someone who had mitski and julien baker as their top artists on spotify more than once, yall need more than grass go to therapy i mean it get ahold of yourselves 😭
he absolutely is just a person and people talking about him as though he is a fictional blorbo is just.....bizarre. i love his music deeply but he is also literally just a guy called andrew
#honestly i think its just the inevitable consequence of these things happening online now which doesnt make it better but i am also.#not surprised?#i DID lose my mind over eat your young but i would also rather lose my mind in convo w people and not publicly on twitter#w zero moderation re what i'm saying about an actual living person like hello???#havent experienced the mitski and boygenius comments directly thank god but i did see the flurry of tweets when phoebe bridgers talked abou#feeling more or less engaged to paul mescal. and then everyone lamenting that the sad music was going to end#idk i just think some things should stay in the gc#ask#anonymous
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kablam
#🐦⬛🐕 .#彡 fittsy!#彡 cherishing.#彡 inbox.#hi fittsy!!! *wipes residual tears and snot* wow this is so amazing *breaks down into a sob again* your art style is so beautiful! *bangs f#fist on the floor and screams in (positive) agony* FITTSY WHAT WAS THE REASON … WHAT WAS THE REASON…… IM PAST A POINT WHERE I CAN THANK U PR#PROPERLY ]: tears combined my poor eyesight = me angrily (positive) wiping my tears so i can actually see this lovely piece of art JENDNXMD#first i think (lip trembles & a sob slips out) we can talk about how stunning your art style is right!! 😭 im shaking dude /gn JEJDJ lets tal#talk about that- i love the way you do faces & your coloring!!! i think it’s coloring right? i want to teleport into your art and live in#this world if that makes sense? your art style is such a good representation of how sweet & bubbly your personality is (whips out entire#roll of paper towels since a tissue isn’t gonna cut it for how much tears there are) i love how you draw hair in specific …. my hair especi#especially!!! you captured my :’) MY LOOK :’) (bangs head against wall repeatedly) fittsy …. im so emotional about it .. what was the reason#im unsure if i am physically capable of talking about how good he looks in your style…. im slamming my eyes shut and typing without even loo#looking because im SO RED EJNCJJCJ fittsy ……. you really drew him blushing …. at ME ??? I DIDNT DO ANYTHING TO INCUR SUCH A REACTION FROM MR#MR MOZE MR SHADOW MR CROW FEATHERED WEIRDO …. im losing my mind …. he looks so squishable …. u could really just— just poke his cheek a bit#and he might explode into little pieces …. but i would put him back together ….. IM LITERALLY LIKE DIZZY LOOKING AT IT IM SO ):#this pic is already on my homepage …… fittsy im gonna drive all the way back home & have this pic on my dash …. im gonna think about it for#the entire 7 hour duration of my trip …. FITTSY IM SO 😭😭😭 T T AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#THANK U FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART IM GONNA CURL UP INTO A BALL AND GO CRY SOME MORE 😭😭😭😭#U CAN HAVE EVERYTHING I OWN U CAN HAVE ANYTHING AT ALL#evie.ss#god his eyes look SO nice inyour . style#his#he#you#fiyysy
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Stories about some silly guys that have so much raw love and joy in them despite pain they may have endured. Love a goofy little dude that forever changes my brain chemistry and how I view the world
#This was triggered by gotg of all things but I've been in A State recently so its about a lot of things actually. I love media#Nitw#guardians of the galaxy#undertale#taz balance#Thank you Mae thank you Rocket raccoon thank you Sans and Papyrus thank you Merle and John#Imagine this with like a jovial tone I swear I'm not breaking down or losing my mind#Don't even worry about it#txt
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if you know anything about me, it's i love collecting tarot cards. i especially love fandom related ones. heck i even have the official fallout tarot cards.
so when i saw that they are coming out with officially licensed good omens tarot cards i was ecstatic
look at them! beautiful! cool as heck!
wait a minute
isn't the 6 in the major arcana usually the lovers card?
what the hell is "the duo" card?
y'all out here really making official Good Omens tarot cards and are really going to "gal pals" aziraphale and crowley? really? REALLY??
#btw this is the ONLY major arcana name they changed#i would have included more pics but yall can look for yourselves on amazon#good omens#crowley#aziraphale#ineffable husbands#more like ineffable gal pals#ineffable duo? should that be the tag now lmao#aziracrow#is my ass dumb enough to actually use the tags#ofc#idk if anyone will care but i just got off a 12hr night shift and saw this and i am FUCKING LOSING MY MIND#also is my dumb ass also going to still buy this?#yes the answer is yes#i can't wait to see what the guide book is going to say about this card#it's pretty normal for tarot cards to change the titles of the minor arcana but i don't think any i own change the major arcana#like not even my officially licensed fallout one or diablo 4 one changed them#any way if you are still here at the end of these tags thanks for enduring me
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I never thought the piece of art that would most perfectly capture the complicated, loving, and fraught relationship between mothers and daughters with generational trauma would be a fucking d&d campaign about stoats and nuclear power plants.
Like at it’s core this is the story of exile, filled with all the generational trauma and grief that comes with it. In just seconds, they lost everything they’ve ever known but each other. They lost their childhood homes, their community, and their way of life. All to find that the thing they were taught to respect and thought was an offer of safety, was just secrets, control, and more danger than they’ve ever known.
People joked for years that Brennan made capitalism the big bad, and then Aabria turned around and went “what if we give communism a turn?”
#dimension 20#aabria iyengar#burrow's end#burrow’s end spoilers#d20#im going insane over it#it’s like someone snuck into the lunches my mom and I have with my abuela#Like I’m out here fighting for my life every time Erika gives me psychic damage#and maybe it’s just that I’ve been raised by a single mom as a Cuban American with a family that literally rebeled against a regime#but this is literally the best depiction of my family I think I’ve ever seen and I might actually lose my mind about it#anyway#d&d is fucking wild man#also aabria I know you go here and I’m so sorry if this comes across your dash#like idk where you’re going with this but fuck it’s incredible and thanks#also before anyone says anything captialism is an horror and I truly believe that the Last Bast could be beautiful#but my spidery senses and family history have me on the edge of my seat
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