#about other aspects of my health

[xcziel]

my health insurance company just sent me some kind of testing kit in the mail

i didn't ask for this kit, or agree to submit to any tests, and they didn't ask *me* if i wanted it or was willing to do it, it just showed up

i don't know this company that is evidently behind these kits, i've never interacted with it before, and now they are emailing me telling me to hurry up and do the test and mail it back right away???

like nowhere is there anything saying why i would be willing to do this? my insurance company is not a health provider - and i didn't ask it to connect me with any test-by-mail companies?

i *have* a doctor and in fact have an appointment in a few weeks?

does anyone have any experience with this kind of thing? i worry that by submitting this test i'm somehow signing up for something with this random test company. i haven't signed anything or given any approval for them to have access to my medical information, and i feel like sending back the test would be tacitly doing so?

is the insurance company within rights to do this or are they just giving me the 'bum rush' assuming i won't know any better? literally no communication has been from the actual ins. company but everything (envelope, email forwarding) is branded from them

[st-peculiar]

I uh. Finished the first chapter draft for Ouroboros. Little sneak peaks below the cut I suppose.

“Deep down, you know that something has changed. You can’t quite put your finger on it yet.

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That’s what it is. You’re alive.

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Death does not always mean an end. It is simply a pit stop on a very long highway. You still have many miles to travel.

It is best if you get back in your car and begin to drive again.

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How long can you take it? The way you have a mouth but no voice to speak through.

Can you take it?

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You realize you are being rebuilt. It is uncomfortable and itchy knowledge. You feel it in the prickling numbness at the tips of your fingers, the eternal ache in your temples, and most of all, you fear.

Your aches and pains are all fear.

You are no longer human.”

[blairwaldcrf]

But say I do leave her here under your protection, what then?

[tvd 3x13 | every klefan scene ?/?]

[erasedcitizen2]

I feel like we as a society have not actually come that far in terms of it being accepted to talk about mental health openly. In online spaces it has but not in real life and especially not in work places. What has become more accepted to talk about is stress specifically. To the point where I feel it has almost become a catch all for 'mental health'. I feel like stress is the only acceptable mental health issue because then at least you were a good worker, you worked so hard it broke your mental health so that's ok you deserve rest and treatment now. But try talking about depression, anxiety, ptsd, bipolar etc etc etc and it's still pretty much something people judge you for, out there in the real world.

[landfilloftrash]

If I told you there was a series of games created before I was born, developed by Capcom, and that I was obsessed with a pairing of middle aged men within; The pairing being comprised of a someone around a decade or so older than the younger, lighter colored hair, stern and serious with a very deadpan sense of humor, along with “this is my job. I shall do it perfectly” demeanor about his work— very cat-coded in general, if you can think it, it will most probably apply— and the younger being very a determined brunette with firm morals who goes toe to toe with the older man and is frequently one of the only ones who can do so with their hell-bent insistence to do good and defend those who cannot, no matter the cost, who is quite dog-coded in reverse. They spend a few years in each other’s company, learning about each other (even if it’s at a distance and professionally) and then. Something happens. The older one of the pair betrays the brunette — his strings being pulled by a higher power, but it does not excuse him— and in the process reveals a cowardly and vengeful side after the event, causing the entirety of the franchise we play to happen. And then only a bit later in the storyline, one murdered the other, in cold but passioned blood, because destiny deemed it this way and they only heed the call of it. And whether or not it was intentional, leaving said murdered man’s child an orphan completely alone in the world as a side effect. For years after the event, they are satisfied with what happened, if burdened by guilt. But they were right to do so, weren’t they? They proceed to be metaphorically haunted by the man they killed for the rest of their life, however. And that will come to a head for them.

Now… am I talking about Chrisker (Chris Redfield/Albert Wesker), or Shingou (Mitsurugi Shin/Karuma Gou) ?

[brain-rot-central]

I appreciate the tags for snippet Sundays and wip Wednesdays. I see them and I appreciate you thinking of me. I've just been suffering from horrible embarrassment at myself over everything I write lmao

[levon]

that poll that’s going around that’s “are you genuinely interested in having sex with a man 20+ years older than you” . and yes isn’t sweeping …… fake ass old man fucker website of course .

[xehanortsreport]

uwaahh im so old now. it takes me way too long to finish something i couldve cranked out in like 3hrs max....

[dravidious]

I rest my case.

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Fuckin BULLSHIT the one on the right is way better you only need 1 stroke to draw it!

Speaking of some things being objectively better than others for very important reasons, I booted up my brother’s old copy of Hyrule Warriors yesterday and tried to get A-ranks in the adventure mode, only to gradually realize just how important the level-up system is, meaning that no matter how good you are, the only way to have a chance of getting A-ranks on the later stages is to grind until the enemies don’t take 5 whole minutes each to kill.

Then I ranted to myself in my room about how Ultrakill’s P-ranks are way better

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

having a lot of thoughts about how people use 'normalize' when they mean 'destigmatize' or 'make the nature of into common knowledge,' and how they conflate 'the perception of this thing as normal' with the thing actually being a normal occurrence, and how it is in fact incredibly harmful to try to convince people that an ideal situation is normal when that does not map onto their lived reality or the dangers they need to be aware of to avoid. it is 3:33am though so writing up an actual poast about it will have to wait for later

[makerofmadness]

Ok looking at fanart having not seen the ruin trailer in a while I have forgotten what Cassie's actual hair color is is it brown or blonde or something in between I keep seeing art of both

like it's FNAF so I don't mind (FNAF isn't consistent with its own human designs I'm pretty sure Susie had her hair go from blonde in the games to brown in one of the books and Vanessa I think went the opposite direction between VR and AR and SB and then there's Michael in FNAF 4 vs. Michael in SL so-) but I genuinely don't know what she was shown as anymore XD

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread

If I See You Again Tomorrow

YA contemporary/light sci-fi

follows a boy almost a year into a time loop, who has almost given up on finding a way out

until a new boy shows up at his school - which has never happened before - and he’s motivated to step out of his monotony and maybe find a way out

exploring loneliness and social isolation

[nimblermortal]

Me leaving the doctor's office: I have successfully been normal in this interaction

The doctor greeting my mother for her appointment months later: Oh, you're Nimbler's mother? What a neat person she is!

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Anyway, everyone should take a notebook to their doctor's appointment and keep notes when the doctor explains what is going on.

[seilon]

my mom was just talking to a friend on the phone and she was complaining about how all zoomers either can’t hold conversations without them being stilted and shallow or they basically traumadump and talk too much about their emotions and im just…… she is a psychologist. specifically a college counsellor. almost all of the zoomers she talks to are. literally university students assigned to her to seek out long term therapy for trauma, stress, anxiety, depression, behavioral and social issues, etc……….

what does she…expect……… to hear…….????

[jvzebel-x]

🦋

[anoddrock]

A bit of a vent of sorts below the cut, viewer discretion advised and all

Tw themes of self hatred, self harm and generally feeling lost?

Let me know if there’s something I should add or something I missed

I’m thinking of trying to draw it to kind of help myself process everything