#aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[firstkhaoo]

i owe the stylist my entire life

[babygirldilf]

hi guys I'm spiraling again

[juneberrie]

yall ever feel like you'll never find ur people ahahahaha

[oderu]

my shoh mc... bonus red content underneathfjdfk

[completeoveranalysis]

[17]

In which Yuuko and Mokona lovingly tend to Watanuki before IMMEDIATELY ROASTING HIM WITHOUT MERCY

aka, it’s perfection

But HERE’S an interesting sign post. When Yuuko asks if Watanuki wants any of her usual advice, Watanuki says he actually wants to try figure it out himself. 

THE GROWTH

THE JOURNEY

THE BLOOMING WATANUKI CAPABILITIES

I’m so proud of our tiny noodle son and yet - AND YET - it absolutely terrifies me in the way that this is probably a solid sign that he’s close to ready to POTNTIALLY take over the store? To replace Yuuko in her position? 

I don’t want Yuuko to go anywhere but it’s the only plot line I can really see happening at this point. 

I LOVE HIM FOR HIS GROWTH BUT I WANT YUUKO FOREVER

SEE???

LOOK AT THIS EXTRAORDINARY BOY. 

Completely unprompted he’s grown to the point where he’s actually checking in on YUUKO HERSELF to see if SHE has any wishes 

If she has any wants that aren’t being met yet 

IF SHES BEING TAKEN CARE OF THE SAME WAY THAT SHE TAKES CARE OF EVERYONE ELSE 

THIS IS JUST SO UNBEARABLY KIND I JUST CANT TAKE IT

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[moonspirit]

WHAT IS GOING ON WITH TAEMIN'S GUILTY TRAILER NOW

[guidetothegaylaxy]

black mirror fans: yeah this season kinda sucked but it was better than last season. I feel like it would have been better if-

me, who's been trying to place the compound in Fifteen Million Merits freaking out over a Hot Shot mention in Joan is Awful AND Mazey Day:

[spatio-rift]

saiko

[yaggerdangs-remedy]

EVERYBODY SHUT UP, I JUST GOT MY DREAM BASS

[nikolzv]

[obssessive101]

Thinking about the election this year genuinely makes me feel sick like what the fuck am I supposed to do?

[cactisun]

Ph my god i. Cant believe i just finished disco elysium... . . . . . .

[thatstoomanysausages]

I’m dragging my nails against the bars of my enclosure rn……

[pandabearsweetie]

i would pay a million dollars for one kiss on the head for baby from each of my best friends. a million dollars. like four little kisses on the head from people i love.

[agender-simping]

11/22

8:37 AM I woke up feeling healthily dissatisfied. Since being on break, I’ve had a few moments to acknowlegde, my my stress, anxieties, and burdens. I recognized that at school I’m so zoomed in on achieving that I don’t focus on learning. I should want to be the “best” learner, not the person with the best grades who seems put together in class all the time. I don’t have to be the best at being social either. I need to prioritize myself at being the most happy.

This morning I discovered two new mantras: “That’s just the way things are” and “I have to keep going”. I can’t stop everything because I fall and slip. No matter how long it takes me to get off the ground, I have to keep working on getting up.

The reason I considered these things is because when I woke up I remembered how restless my last two nights have been. Both nights, I wanted to fall asleep early, but I couldn’t sleep. I’ve been physically and emotionally exhausted. I’ve been lacking the motivation to take care if myself in order to prevent these experiences. When I look back on this semester, my message this morning is the takeaway. I’ve had so many ups amd downs that are normal for someone like me who can’t relax in uncertainty. I expect myself to have full control of me, but that’s impossible when I don’t fulfill myself. Of course my own mind rebels against me because it needs care and empathy and check-ins ((and my yoga practice)).

And honestly, it hasn’t been fair that I’ve wasted so much time taking the joy out of my work. Because I didn’t know any better, I have to say “that’s just how things are”. And I can’t regret. I will instead learn new patterns of behavior so I can guide my actions and guide my thoughts without engaging in tyranny towards my own soul.

My life is important. I value myself, and I value my time here on this planet. I am cherished, I am young, I have many years ahead of me. There is no rush for me to be my greatest self right now or to be the best person out there. I am developing with time. I am developing.

So this is my message to cool the hypervigilance. I don’t have to be on my ass about every detail; I’m not my own father. Instead, I should find genuine interest in being on top of things for my own care. I want to get excited for what’s on my calendar. I want to get excited to honor my feelings. I want to get excited to state my needs and wants. I want to feel excited for life. I want to feel excited about my reality. I have so much joy stored up in me, so where does it go at night? Where does that joy go when I’m working hard to be a student?

Like a mantra, I want to regularly ask myself: “where is my joy?”

[gravelsong]

I'm going to kickflip into the sun