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Bun hardware, cat software
Got curious about a bnnuy boy Ashern, and it's now rotting my brain
#ffxiv#if lost please return to isghard#ashern vee#a single esteem#g'raha tia#wolgraha#wol x g'raha tia#viera#miqo'te#ffxiv screenshot#ffxiv gpose#he's stupidly adorable as a bun your honor#of course og cabboi will remain forever#Ashern: bunny experiment
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Have you seen my little lad?
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jin zixun#Everytime I have to write his name I feel like I'm running outside in a blood rain trying not to get wet. Misspelling it feels so inevitabl#But so far so good! He doesn't have too many more appearances before he gets Cheesed.#Dear god I love it when characters go on the war path for someone they care about.#And I love it even more when you have an ambiguity between personal debt and genuine act of selflessness.#WWX saving WN is purposefully messy! Like a lot of our real life reasons for how we act - there isn't a clear single cause or answer.#Sometimes we forget that we are a collection of experiences and learnt reactions.#Sometimes we forget that what we see on the surface is not the point to address. Everyone is more complex than we think. Even yourself.#And yet...it always comes back to love doesn't it? Attachment styles and self-esteem and bonds and relationships to others.#Everything comes back to love and our perceptions of it.#WWX is on a self-destructive war path and he will absorb as much damage as he can for those he feels obligated and attached to.#Does it make him feel needed? Does it give him purpose? Does it ease anxieties of the past? I do not think there is an answer.
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I cannot express enough that if your reaction, as a hobby artist, to not getting that many notes on your art is to say "maybe I should just stop doing art altogether" you need to stop posting art to tumblr
not necessarily forever, not even for long, but just stop putting your art on here and start doing it for you again, remember why you enjoyed doing art in the first place and stop relying on the attention of faceless people on the internet for your enjoyment of your hard work
believe me, I get it, nothing crushes the artistic soul quite like labouring for hours on a piece only for it to get like 10 notes, so you need to find your own source of joy in the act of creation and a lot of the time that means making art and not showing it to anybody
#not art#listen#for real#this is not about any one person because i've seen posts about it from a bunch of people#you think i post everything here? buddy i dont even post half my stuff here#every drawing you see is preceded by five more just like it#that never see my cursor close to the save button#i have a sketchbook i draw in regularly that i do'nt show to a single goddam person#i make cutout art from gels i steal from work and stick them to my windows and do paintings in my living room just for me#because that it the only way you are ever going to be able to retain your original love of art#is by doing it for the sake of doing it#not for the sake of seeing how many people stop and stare#anyways i'm sorry if this sounds terse#but i'm so sick of seeing artists put all their self-esteem and happiness in the hands of a blogging website#stop selling yourself short by measuring your self worth by how many reblogs you get and what people say in the tags#your artistry and your happiness are worth more than that#if you're an artist for a living that's another story#but even then#even then#anyways sorry i'm done ranting
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It’s ya fav cryptid again
#excluding Mothman of course 🖤#mine#social anxiety#selfie#me#gay#gay man#gay single man#low self esteem#lgbt#lgbtqia#bearded man#mustache#so homosexual#my art#at least it’s my art in the background lol
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MAGNETO & WICCAN
"The Avengers don't want to find [Wanda], William. If they find her, they'll have to kill her. And the minute you step out of line, they'll kill you too."
#billy kaplan#wiccan#magneto#erik lehnsherr#max eisenhardt#you ever think about childrens crusade and how the avengers legit threatened billy; a teenager; for making a single mistake#and how hes always struggled with self esteem and it just got worse after this#anyway magneto was right and all that#its criminal they never really interacted with each other again#makes me insane tbh#x-men: magneto testament#young avengers: children's crusade#young avengers special#empyre#x-men: red#also maximoff family retcon who? idk her thats billy's grandpa and i wont hear otherwise
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Every time I see people talk about Sansa and Arya's relationship as "just sisters being sisters" I think about that one girl on TikTok who was basically stalking her sister who went no-contact and kept responding to comments criticizing her with "it's just a sister thing, you wouldn't get it". Like! Being shitty to someone isn't okay just cause you're related to them. Personally thinking a certain behavior is normal/harmless does not mean the person affected by it feels the same way! Arya being mocked and having self-esteem issues is referenced often throughout the story, all the way into ADwD. How people read that (jk I know you guys don't actually read her chapters) and think their issues will magically disappear is beyond me. "Stark sisters lover" but the only time you talk about them is when you're centering Sansa and her feelings 🤨
#it doesn't escape my notice that every single /stark sisters 4ever/ post ignores all of Arya's self-esteem issues#almost like pointing that out ruins the idea that they had just a normal sibling relationship...imagine that#it's literally never about Arya or addressing her feelings cause people only think of her as a prop#/I can understand why Sansa acted the way she did/ is the extent of the analysis people are willing to do#and the thing is we can acknowledge that they have love for each other as siblings and still have issues#those things aren't mutually exclusive! they'll likely be very happy to reunite and still have things they need to work out#this is how I know Arya is gonna get demonized if we get their reunion because she isn't going to fall on her knees in front of#Sansa and take the blame for all of the issues they had like people fantasize🥴#arya stark#anti sansa stans#have to tag this so I can find it later ugh
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thoughts on wash's fighting style and his position in pfl because I can (utc because it's really long lol):
wash is very unique among the freelancers for a variety of reasons, one is that he doesn't specialize in one specific area of anything, he's a jack of all trades who is able to fill in for other freelancers if necessary. for example in s9 when york was supposed to be unavailable for lock picking/infiltration duty, carolina immediately went to wash (and we are ignoring that york is not shown to be good at lock picking!) if she trusted wash to fill in for their specialist in one area, I feel it's not a stretch to imagine that he can do so in other areas as well.
need a snipper but north and wyoming aren't available? wash can cover. need someone to get into the enemies' computer systems in place of ct, south, or york? wash can cover. need someone for stealth or reconnaissance in place of florida? wash can cover. etc etc.
wash's combat style reflects that jack of all trades, master of none thing very well too, as the way that he fights is very grounded and pragmatic when compared to the rest of the freelancers. a lot of people like to portray wash as less skilled than the other freelancers, but in truth I believe that wash being able to keep up and compete with the other freelancers despite his lack of dramatic flare is a show of just how competent and skilled of a soldier he is. wash is so good at doing what he does that he doesn't need all that extra bullshit to get the job done. sure, he might not look as Cool and SexyTM as the others while doing it, but completing the mission and surviving to live another day takes precedence over all else.
another way of looking at it is that wash fights in the same way that the odst's do, that is to say that he fights like a human who cannot plow his way through the battlefield in the same way the spartans can. wash's style of fighting is one that employs careful planning and targeted hit and run tactics—this is most obvious in recovery one and s6 whenever he's fighting against the meta.
I also feel it's important to note that wash is not a cqc fighter, he can handle himself if he gets into a cqc situations but his primary weapon is the battle rifle—which is a mid/long range weapon. if I'm being honest wash's way of fighting makes waaaaaaaaay more sense if you look at him not as someone who is trained to primarily fight against other humans, but as someone who is trained to fight against 8ft 2 ton aliens with plasma weapons that can slice through the hulls of UNSC battle cruisers (ships designed to travel through space!!!) like a hot knife cuts through butter and have the technology to raze entire planets to the ground in a matter of minutes.
I also personally believe that wash has the most military experience out of all the freelancers right behind florida, wyoming, and maine (who I hc as a spartan iii). we know that wash did his basic training in the leonis minoris system (a canonical halo system) and that system had two of the three planets glassed by the covenant in 2537, and wash directly references these events in the washed hands interview in the fan guide and the way he says it implies that he likely completed his basic training that same year. now I have some grievances with the timeline given in the book when it comes to the events depicted in the freelancer saga because it's just kinda weird, but everything prior to that bit is actually fine (though I hate the way that they decide to number the timeline lmao).
now in halo canon the human/covenant war ended in 2552, and according to the timeline in the rvb fan guide that was 1 year after alpha was sent to blood gulch. project freelancer is first cleared for funding 7 years BBG (before blood gulch), and recruits the 50 freelancers 5 years BBG. doing some math we can determine that pfl was cleared for funding in the year 2544, and the freelancers are recruited for pfl in 2546. so assuming wash finished his basic training in 2537 that would mean that he was in the military for 9 years before he joined pfl, and while wash is addressed as a corporal (e-4) in the washed hands interview he was most likely demoted to that after he was court martialed, and he was possibly going to be dishonorably discharged from the military because of his disorderly conduct.
using the current standards used by the us marine corps when it comes to rank progression, wash was most likely a sergeant (e-5) who was very close to being promoted to a staff sergeant (e-6). wash as a sergeant would've essentially been the assistant manager/co-leader of the platoon he was in while his staff sergeant was the manager/leader, and that would explain why he was able to even get into an argument with his CO in the first place. I believe wash held a similar position in pfl, as it's kind of implied that he did some management stuff in pfl (talking with internals/upper brass, him feeling comfortable with openly questioning carolina about whether york should be allowed on the sarcophagus heist, and of course he shows the ability to direct and somewhat lead south in recovery one, and him leading church, caboose, and the reds in s6, and him taking charge of the meta in s8).
even if wash wasn't a sergeant as a corporal he would've been in a position to be the leader of a fire team, so basically wash isn't some rookie who had no clue wtf he was doing as many in the fandom like to characterize him; he is an experienced and battle hardened soldier by the time he joins pfl no matter how you look at it.
to put all of that into context, carolina is born 29 years BBG, which would be 2522. so during pfl she's in the 24-28 range and she wouldn't have joined the military until 2540. I actually personally head canon that wash is the same age as carolina, but that he illegally enlisted at 15 because of a crappy home life, but ignoring my head canon and assuming that he joined the military at 18 instead, he would've been born in 2519.
#red vs blue#agent washington#project freelancer#mine#this was supposed to be a sort of compare/contrast between wash and ct cqc styles but i got sidetracked so now it's just#'wash isn't a uwu woobie baby' The EssayTM#i did start a remake of my version of the rvb timeline that's more in accordance w halo canon vs numbers characters have said in show#like i sat in the post the timeline revolving around the events of s9 and s10 is so wack. like pfl was falling apart from the very beginning#which just. doesn’t make sense to me#alt title of this post is 'just bc wash doesn't fight like an anime character like SOME PPL doesn't mean he sucks' lmao#wash saying he's the worst freelancer in s11 is a big fat lie bro just has some self esteem issues bc he was always treated as the butt of#some really fucked up jokes in pfl. like characters being assholes is rvb's whole thing but i feel like wash got singled out a bit#the episodes about the triplets in s14 only further prove my theory#anyway pls enjoy this post!#rvb
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The Lord's Prayer.
damn that one ask got me reminiscing 😔
#my first gay crush was the first and only person who ive ever confessed to#THEN SHE REJECTED ME LMAOAOAOOA 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#and then i found out that she liked someone who was better than me in every single possible aspect 💀💀💀💀 talk about taking an L amirite💀💀💀💀💀#surely that experience wouldn't severely fuck up my self esteem in the future and give me this massive fear of rejection right?#🙂#yk i still think about her sometimes. which is super pathetic of me cause it's been literal years but augh i dont know.#like bitch move on goddamn she probably forgot abt u lmao#on another note church songs make quite the lullabies i like singing them sometimes#my art
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i like to go into a dungeon and perform Very Well on the first boss (shields when newfolk stand in things, i don't stand in things etc.) and then during the second boss stand in literally everything so they have no idea what to expect when the final one comes around.
#.... this is about tender valley kjfaldhfal#i do not know why i don't understand the mechanics from the second boss like. it depends entirely on the day#sometimes i can do them flawlessly sometimes i have four vulnstacks it's a tossup#those people got to watch me push every single wrong button during like three pulls though i'm sure they were like. what is with this guy.#I HAD ESTEEM OUT STILL AND HADN'T USED DISESTEEM I HAD TO SPRINT#and then. instead of sprinting. misclicked ctrl so i dropped salted earth. just on the ground after the boss lmao#and then i stood there and looked at it.#and almost lost esteem.#give me the sprout icon back for behavior#xiv blogging#this is also why i will never run the other 100 dungeon again like if i mysteriously have trouble with this one? no. nuh uh.#too stupid for the ghost dungeon.#like i know it's the yellow arrow. but i do not understand. the path LOL.#.... i stand on the edge of the two long lines and move. the only time i get whacked is when someone is stacked with me and i get spooked#trying not to stand an aoe on them lmao
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really starting to believe that psychic who claimed i’m cursed
#like absolutely NOTHING goes right in my life#i have no friends no social life no partner have never been in a relationship even though i’m almost 30#i still live at home my job has horrible working hours and makes me absolutely miserable#like i can’t name you a single thing that goes right in my life i’m so far behind everyone#i wasted so many years studying and i’ve got nothing to show for it i’m a pathetic excuse of a human#i really wish i could give my life to someone who deserves it way more than me someone who really wants to live#the psychic claimed that my ex best friend’s mother cursed me#and i do find it somewhat silly to blame everything that goes wrong in my life on someone else or outer forces#but our friendship ended VERY poorly and her mother absolutely hated me by the end of it#so it honesty doesn’t seem too far fetched#bc ever since we went our separate ways which i never regretted btw i’ve just been struggling to survive#like if i’m honest i’m intelligent i’m capable i’m pretty i’m kind i’m funny but my whole life is a struggle#i know that my depression anxiety and overall low self esteem closes a lot of doors for me#but it’s just insane how unlucky i am like it can’t be a coincidence anymore#it’s just so heartbreaking when all your efforts are in vain like i try sooooo hard but it’s never enough#the psychic claimed the mother put a curse on me that basically blocks all roads for me#and like i said i haven’t had success or happiness in both my personal and professional life#it feels like every time i take step forward i take 3 back#good things never stay for long and bad things are so excruciatingly bad it’s unbearable#i’m just exhausted with everything… life shouldn’t be so fucking difficult wether it’s a curse or not#i know i also have many things to be thankful for but it seems like all the important milestones are eluding me#☁️
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Still pouty over G'raha not coming with, although Esteem just needs the word and he'll smuggle him onto the ship.
#ffxiv#if lost please return to ishgard#ashern vee#a single esteem#g'raha tia#wolgraha#wol x g'raha tia#ffxiv screenshot#ffxiv gpose#last pose before dawntrail drops#ho boy
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my halloween costume is going to be hot as hell in case anyone was wondering
#I haven’t gotten to put all the pieces on together yet since half of them are in the wash#and I still need to get the hat and whip. plus add some gold tassel things if I have time#oh god and the makeup is going to be a nightmare probably#BUT. I have been granted a single molecule of self esteem bc the tights shorts shirt and jacket look great#it’s all very Gender#mayhaps i’ll even post pictures when it’s all done#wish babbles
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Tip for people who struggle with body image issues
When someone takes a photo of you and you hate the way you look, especially if it's a professional one, check their other portrait photographs. If every single one of them looks stunning to you, and you know the photographer has no reason to paint you in a bad light, yours probably look fine too <3
#trust the skills of the photographer over your self hatred!#body image issues#self esteem#dysmorphia#face dysmorphia#this is partially a reminder to myself#i've had a few nice photos taken of me and every single one I find myself nitpicking all the things I hate about my face#but the photographer is incredibly skilled and I adore how everyone else looks in their photos so I have to trust their skills over myself#bc like it's not fair to the photographer! you're saying they took bad photos!
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The combination of being used as an adult and being told that this is the rest of my life, and not being able to afford my dreams of a family and never being creatively successful even in a mediocre local way has spewed my brain out into mental disorders that I didn't even know existed and has unfortunately affected the way that I can healthily navigate social media. One of these days I'm going to get smart enough again and I'm not going to come on here and spew out every possible issue or insecurity and I'm going to obtain basic sense and a sense of individuality and confident core sentiment again, unfortunately, not anytime soon
#I'm so sick of my placement in society as an adult and my life in general and people as a whole#and my mental illness and having to fight it every single day and believe me when I say that it's a fight#and the fact that half the time when I open up any app for socialization it's aggressive proudly confident arrogance#that I genuinely feel like I just want to firmly immerse myself into my daydreaming and forget everything forever#it's the only thing that gives me that confidence self-centered self-esteem the way that I used to have when I was in college and mattered#as a human being that I will never have again#everything else just confuses or disorients me or aggravates or abuses me these days
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📩 Simblr question of the day: Do you have a process for making your simblr posts?
answer in whatever way is most comfortable for you and feel free to share this SQOTD around, make sure to use the hashtag SQOTD and tag me in separate posts ~ 💛
This question was contributed by an anon !
Yay! I am so happy to get an ask from you, thank you <3
I guess I will just specifically talk about my story posts because sometimes I like to do renders too, but they're not my specialty.
Play the game/create the characters!! I do have a bit of a storyline planned out in my head before I go in game. My characters all have their own arcs that I want to show them working through at some point in time, so I do a lot of monitoring to make sure they don't go too off course with autonomy. But a lot of the time I do just allow whatever happens in the game to add a new direction or expand on a scenario I've already had in mind (it's so nice when the game works and things happen the way I imagine it would IRL). With things like segs, I almost always let it play out.
Write out storyboards with dialogue. I imagine important scenes in my head the way that I would ideally want them to have gone down in the game. I like to picture it all as a movie, going through the specific camera angles and dialogue moment to moment. Then, I will write it all down with good ol' pen and paper (lol). A small intro of the scene followed by dialogue, then a very rough storyboard of shots, angles, and poses I want to use alongside the dialogue.
I re-create the important scenes/scenarios. Before I go in game, I add all the animation mods that I think might work well for the scene I'm about to make, along with all the poses. I use whatever cheats are necessary to get the shots cause I never save while I'm doing this.
Editing. I take all the screenshots and put them into photoshop to add text and small things like light leaks or bokeh. Sometimes I have to adjust the contrast or brightness, but gshade does most of the work for me beforehand.
That's it! The posts will usually sit in a folder undisturbed for about a month or so until the queue catches up.
#this took me a while because I didn't know how much to add#I am such a new simblr to this community I feel like I don't have much to teach yet#because i am still learning so much every single day#and also the people who i follow or am mutuals with#do the same thing that I do but like#often times a bazzillion times better than me!!!!#could just be my low self-esteem talking#but also just the sheer amount of creative talent in this community is BANANAS#much love!!!!!#simblr#sims 4 simblr#faqs about me#sqotd
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Random AO3 Tags + Sing Screenshots
#sing#sing 2#sing johnny#sing buster#sing ash#sing gunter#sing rosita#sing meena#sing nooshy#ao3 tags#nearly every single character in these movies are theatre kids#literally theatre kids#johnny is drowning in anxiety and self esteem issues here#busters just so sad#both of them have mastered the kicked wet puppy eyes somehow which is just impressive
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