#a jo psa

[jolapeno]

okay, so i may have watched the uninvited, had the urge to write more lucien and spent 40 mins giffing him. out of fear of ruining things for anyone (even if it's a scene from the trailer) I'm using the #the uninvited spoilers as a tag so you can block?

[jolalibrary]

hello!

things are going to be changing a little around here and I just wanted put it out there so I don’t have to keep mulling it over.

one, for the now, at the very least, all of MY writing will be posted to AO3. This includes Let Us Pretend, With No Strings Attached and One Shots. I will (where I remember) post a link in the masterlist here and do an announcement post to let you know a new thing is up. but, it might not be the same day I actually publish it live.

two, this blog will continue to exist, and still be about PPCU (and any other odd fandoms I fall into). it’ll be the same just minus the writing, it’ll have my fun thoughts, polls, ask games, pretties and gifs, you can still ask about my writing/fics, it’s just that the writing will have a home somewhere else. and this blog will also be home to challenges (like the April showers one) with a new one coming soon (hopefully).

now, i could list all of the reasons as to why I made this choice, but honestly? I don’t really want to share them here. anyone who knows how things have been for me, will hopefully understand.

but I will say, this is what I need to do. it will mean I can interact in this fandom space (and be a part of the fun) while also writing in a way that feels good for me.

now, I’ll preface this by saying it might not be forever, but it is for the now. I might change my mind on all fronts. and while I’ve struggled and forced myself to keep going on here as I was before, it’s not sustainable to do so and something had to budge.

this change will come into effect from today.

thanks, jo 🫑

[jos-reblog-emporium]

Don’t just demand nudes from people!! That’s so rude!

If you do that you’ll be blocked faster than you can say “send nudes” again. Just GTFO!!!

[that70sshowgoldencouple]

Just in case y'all were wondering about my thoughts on today:

It’s been a day. Been seeing many thoughts and comments on social media and I just felt like I needed to put this out.

I have said little to nothing on the whole trial because it’s had nothing to do with Red and Kitty nor Debra Jo Rupp or Kurtwood Smith, but now their names have been linked to it unfortunately.

I still love and adore the characters of Red and Kitty as well as the actors who portray them. The kindness and joy both Kurtwood Smith and Debra Jo Rupp have each shown and given me over the years does play a great part in my continued support. It’s truly gone above and beyond from online interactions, snail mail, and in person meetings (from a Covid restricted distance)

But there is disappointment today. A great deal of it.

It really hit me in the heart when I saw their names pop up on that list. It soon made my stomach turn. But I try to put myself in their shoes and see where they were coming from. It mustn’t be an easy place. They could’ve said nothing. They did have that choice, they should’ve taken that choice, but having seen first hand their kindness towards others, I can see them wanting to try to help rather than sit by and not do anything. It just wasn’t the best choice to even attempt to help especially with nothing coming from letters other than the outrage and shock from the public after they were released. From what I’ve heard though, it’s common that these type of letters are released so they must’ve know the letters would be released and there’d be a great deal of backlash.

I just hope they both know that even though most are adding their names to a blacklist and turning their heads. I haven’t. I wish they hadn’t written the letters, it stings knowing they did, but I can understand why they might’ve chosen to do it. It doesn’t change much of how I’ve come to adore them and especially hasn’t changed my love of the love of Red and Kitty Forman. I will continue to run this page of appreciation for the Four of them 💛

*These are just my thoughts and opinions. Please keep any other comments respectful or they will be removed/turned off. Thanks.

[watergave]

as i said on johanna, i am going to be moving blogs. i'm so sorry to be doing this right after i just settled on this blog. i just need a fresh start across rp. i'm going to put extra emphasis on making this a place i want to be. this means exclusively plotted interactions ( for me this means figuring out a dynamic between our muses before jumping into things ) and having a relationship that's more than just two mutuals that stare at each other on the dash. it's not fun for me if i open my dash and i realize that i barely talk or interact with anyone on it. i'm not going to be moving anything from this blog ( not that there was a lot on here anyway ). if we don't have something set in stone/solid/we're writing in it right now for our muses, like this post and i will come to you to plot! i'm with family at the moment so i can't promise i'll be super quick, but i will do my best. it's just a better time for me if i'll chatting with my partners and creating new dynamics with our muses. this way, we'll likely be more inclined to like starter calls and send memes to each other! i will not be reblogging a promo or linking my new blog to this one, i'll just be following the folks i want to. thank you so much for understanding!

[quietwingsinthesky]

I know you reblogged the post about people being like "fictional cannibalism is deep and intellectual and fictional incest is disgusting and morally wrong" some time ago, but I just wanted to add that it’s absolutely insane how people are calling every piece of media that isn’t wholesome and unproblematic nowadays a direct reflection of the creator’s secret deviant fantasies à la "check their hard drive". Like where does the line between getting called a genius and a master satirist and being labeled a disgusting pervert lie? Whenever I see someone make absolutely nonsensical comments like those all I can think of is Vladimir Nabokov getting canceled and chased off the internet in 2023 after writing Lolita lmao. Seriously tho. Especially in the spn fandom, how can people make posts about loving the fucked up family dynamics and the body horror and the psychological terror and the abuse parallels etc and then fall over themselves to put wincesties DNI DNI DNIII all over their entire blogs lol

My take on it is basically that the line people draw between what’s “morally” acceptable to write about or not is really just what they enjoy. That’s why this stuff usually comes down to shipping nonsense, it’s just fandom flame wars in a different trenchcoat. It’s also why you’ll get dissonant opinions like ‘incest is bad and we can’t write about it’ and ‘gore and murder is just fine to write about.’ If someone enjoys writing about their thing, however dark, and can understand why they enjoy writing about it, of course they’ll give it a pass, but other people’s dark things? that they don’t like, don’t understand? Must be evil. Must be disgusting.

(Plus, obviously, there’s probably something to be said about how in ‘incest vs cannibalism’, one of these is going to be assumed to only be about Sex and Perversion, while the other is obfuscated around sex, sometimes a display of desire but easy to deny that at the same time. Which is not to say that writing about incest is even always about sex, only that it will be perceived as such, no matter what you’re actually trying to discuss in your work.)

All that to say that of course it’s ridiculous to assume that someone’s writing or hell, even their internet persona, is reflective of their desires. I’m ace as fuck and get nervous if I don’t have explicit permission to hug someone, and I also have and will write noncon fic. There’s no secret there, nothing hidden that’s gonna lead to me hurting someone. I just enjoy writing impossibly huge power imbalances. I like squeezing characters like stress balls.

The “Wincesties DNI” thing still bothers me to this day. Maybe because I’m not sure where I even fall on that line. I follow wincest blogs, like their posts, I’ve written I think 2 or 3 wincest fics? But I rarely participate in it or reblog stuff here. Am I a wincestie? Am I tainted by association in such a way that I might as well be? Does “Wincesties DNI” mean actually all incest shippers dni, or are you secretly telling me you’re cool with Jo/Ellen, or did you just forget in the midst of your ship war that other interests exist. I don’t usually follow blogs that announce that, but that’s more because putting that label there just tells me even if I passed the test on that specific thing for you, you’re not gonna be cool about all the other weird shit I post lmao.

(I want to stress, I think there’s a difference between “Wincesties dni” and “wincest dni”. I think that asking people to not leave tags on your posts or comments on your work referencing an incest ship is a valid boundary to have. If that content is triggering to you or just not your vibe, I think you should be able to say, ‘hey, not here.’ That is very different than going ‘if you are a part of this group or ever interacted with this group, get away from me.’ Especially in a fandom where. I mean. Sam & Dean being weird is in the text. It’s a huge part of the show to the point of being referenced repeatedly in-universe, it’s a famously huge part of the fandom to where wincest built the very ground (AO3) we all walk on, and I just think that if you walk into a gay bar, you really shouldn’t complain so loudly about all the bears you see.)

[jos-emporium]

I need to rant for a second. Bear with me.

I know it’s brash and mean but I always assume that randos who dm me on the internet are idiots from that stupid single-worded “hello” or worse “hi” until they prove otherwise (most of the time that’s the case but there have been plenty of exceptions).

“You are not making the chat interesting.”

I NEVER ASKED to chat with you in the first place. You DM’d me first! It’s not solely my responsibility to be interesting. Ask interesting questions. Give me a reason to want to continue interacting if you’re insist on chatting.

AGAIN!!! (and I know I’ve never said it on this blog but I’ve reblogged it on another blog, but) JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE POSTS KINKY/SEXY/SMUTTY CONTENT ON THE INTERNET DOES NOT MEAN THAT THEY ARE INVITING YOU INTO THAT CONVERSATION!!!!!

(I recognize that typically the statement is that people don’t owe you anything, which is true. But I think this needs to be said aloud instead of implied).

Reasons like this are why I’m constantly updating my pinned post and it gets longer. Oh well. I’d rather it get longer and people know where I stand than have my boundaries crossed. 🤷

[illithidprone]

Idt i have any screenshots of them on my phone atm, but ill be adding my cleric dragonborn Voth & my monk human Seven ♡

[cagesings]

 ways  i  address  turpin.

 i  feel  like  i’m  giving  people  whiplash  when  i  go  from  referring  him  from  the  judge  to  turpin  among  everything  else  i  call  him  in  different  contexts  so  here  is  a  (  hopefully  )  brief  explanation  of  what  i  call  him  depending  on  verse/interaction/etc:  

 the  judge:  this  is  usually  how  johanna  will  refer  to  him  out  loud  and  in  her  head.  this  has  to  do  with  the  fact  that  he  is  a  huge  manipulator  and  he’s  gotten  in  into  her  head  that  he  is  much  more  powerful  than  her  and  referring  to  him  as  the  judge  is  a  sign  of  respect,  but  mostly  of  fear.  this  is  used  in  her  canon  verse  and  post  canon  verse.  it’s  difficult  to  get  that  out  of  her  head.  

 sir:  this  is  how  johanna  will  address  him  to  his  face.  in  the  past,  he  has  tried  to  get  her  to  call  him  father,  but  again  that  fear  she  has  of  him  prevents  her  from  doing  so.  she  has  very  complicated  feelings  about  fathers  as  it  is,  but  she  doesn’t  want  to  give  him  that  title.  in  aus  where  she  has  been  married  to  him,  he  tries  to  get  johanna  to  call  him  by  his  first  name,  but  she  won’t.  it’s  always  sir  to  his  face.  this  goes  for  any  verse.  

 my  guardian:  this  one  is  usually  only  used  in  modern  verses,  since  it’s  a  more  natural  way  of  speaking  according  to  our  modern  language.  it  sounds  clunkier  to  refer  to  turpin  as  just  the  judge  because  not  everyone  knows  who  he  is  here.  johanna  calls  him  my  guardian  when  she’s  younger/in  high  school  and  from  time  to  time  will  refer  to  him  as  my  former  guardian  after  he  is  murdered.  this  one  is  occasionally  used  in  her  canon  verses.  mostly  when  someone  else  refers  to  him  as  her  guardian  or  if  she’s  trying  to  emphasize  a  point  (  usually  about  the  fact  that  he’s  trying  to  marry  her  and  how  much  that  freaks  her  out  ).

 turpin:  this  is  how  i  refer  to  him  ooc  because  i  don’t  respect  him.  not  to  say  that  johanna  necessarily  respects  him,  but  she  was  raised  to  be  afraid  of  him.  it’s  also  easier  to  say  his  name  rather  than  the  judge  or  whatever.  on  the  off  chance  johanna  does  call  him  turpin,  it’ll  be  post  canon  likely  in  her  modern  verse.  but  if  you  notice  that  i  don’t  call  him  the  judge  when  we’re  talking  ooc,  that’s  why.  

[schoenpepper]

Just like the last anon I kinda do think that your writing and story for Ruggie SMAU was the one I liked the most. Do you think you can turn this into a fanfic? Like a continuation of what's happening in Ruggie's life after the death of his lover if you don't mind? ����

When the Time After You Comes

Warnings: bad grammar, awful writing, not proofread, angst, major character death (you)

A/N: PSA I opened up a kofi haha it's on my bio. You don't need to tip, but if you like my work and have a dollar or two to spare, I do need to fix my phone :D Not opening comms tho just req if you want me to write anything kkk

Masterlist

Sunlight peeks through cottony white clouds and bathes Ruggie in all its too-bright glory. It’s nauseating, almost. The birds are chirping too loud and every face he encounters in a crowd looks to be smiling. It could be the truth. It could be his tired brain playing tricks on him—one can’t assume that a sleep deprived hyena hybrid would be very alert or active when the bags under his eyes are almost big enough to carry the takeout in his hands and his steps stagger to the point that the single red rose almost tethers over the plastic holding it in place. He’s not a pretty sight.

Oh, but you always are.

He’d asked his grandmother to take the time out of every Sunday to help clean your resting place, so even now—when it’s the first time he’s visited you in over a month—your headstone shines pristine as the day it was mounted. There are wilting flowers that he has to clear away, likely from your old friends in NRC, but he takes a seat on the grass beside you.

He can still see your smile.

“Sorry, I’ve been away forever, I know,” he places the rose atop the headstone, “I just…”

Ruggie sighs.

He ruffles a hand through his hair, fluffing up the brown and blond mess so that the locks stick up with his twitching ears. His tail taps rhythmically against the engraving of your name, as if the fur was gently caressing each and every letter. “I took up another job,” he moves to open the takeout box, “I need to pay off that loan. I know Leona’s not going to ask me ‘bout it anytime soon, and it’s a damn good deal that he’s not even taking any interest, but I can’t just sit by knowing even at your final moments I was still leeching off someone else.” Maybe it was a sick, twisted sort of possessiveness. He chose your coffin and the plot of land, and the flowers and the people at the funeral. Yet he couldn’t bring out a single dime because you would have despised that.

“I’d be dead and gone, but you would still need to live.”

You understood him. You knew he was just about ready to ignore his own wellbeing for you, and you convinced him his money would be better off feeding his family.

He could never win against you.

Ruggie stabs the flimsy plastic fork through the sauteed beef, almost breaking off the tines. It’s too salty. Not nearly as good as when you used to go to that restaurant with him.

“Maybe they skimped on quality control.”

His words hold no merit when he has to wipe the tears running down his chin.

“It’s soupy…”

After visiting, he needs to get to his part time job. Leona pays well, but Ruggie has so many things stacking against him that the world might as well be atop that list. He needs to pay for the money that the lion beastman had shelved out for your funeral. He needs to pay his own bills. He needs to pay to send the smarter kids to school. He needs to pay to keep his grandma on maintenance. In life and in death, the bills are haunting him.

Even the roses he gives every time he visits are expensive.

Red roses.

Not white lilies or whatever flowers the shops outside the cemetery are selling. He has such a different message to convey; he misses you, but most of all, he wants to express that the love he feels for you has not dimmed since the day you left. It still burns with a raging, passionate fire that allows him to keep going, keep moving, keep living and not just slump down in the back of some alley and wait to join you on the other side.

He cleans up the boxes and plastic cutlery.

He stands up, pats the dust off his pants, and looks at your name again.

It’s already carved into his soul.

“Please don’t be mad if I don’t come for another month,” he sighs, “you know I think about you every day. Just, when the finances get a bit better, alright? I’ll buy you a dozen roses in the fancy bouquets.”

For now, he’ll just have to leave you again.

Taglist:

@yummyyummyinmytumny @fsh1 @lemon-koii

[waitmyturtles]

Final Thoughts on The Trainee! (TL;DR That Last 4/4 Quarter Was a Major Fumble, But It Didn't Ruin the Whole Show For Me)

I had promised my friends @lurkingshan and @shortpplfedup that I honestly wouldn't write too much about The Trainee while it was airing, because I was mad sus about the crew of this show. Many of the crew of The Trainee had worked on an ill-fated GMMTV het drama called UMG, which aired last year, and which starred Nanon Korapat, Namtan Tipnaree, and Milk Pansa in an unfortunate, chemistry-devoid love triangle. It was a flop and I never finished it.

I had thought to think about where this crew came from about four episodes into The Trainee, when I realized that the MO of this series was to center not Ryan's and Jane's budding romance, but the inner workings of an office, and the infrastructures of making filmed content instead.

UMG was framed in a similar way. While the show struggled to contextualize romance among its characters, the center of each episode was actually about describing concepts regarding extraterrestrial life -- things like crop circles and whatever. (There were aliens in this show.) (Dammit, I can't find a gif of the aliens!) (Here's Milk with some boogie eyes instead, whatever.)

As @lurkingshan wrote often during her watch of the series, The Trainee was ultimately a workplace BL, and I'd add to that that it was meant to serve as an educational series to GMMTV's unique audience. I wondered, early on in The Trainee, if I was just too damn old, as a working professional, to be an audience to this show. GMMTV's audience, of course, skews Gen Z and maybe very-late millennial -- GMMTV's shows are equivalent to shows airing on MTV or The CW by way of its majority audience market.

I certainly had a lot of experience by way of how interpersonal relationships mostly played out in this series (although I reeeeeally needed Judy to acknowledge her kissing Ba-Mhee and to talk about it, the way Jane acknowledged the power gap between him and Ryan after they started dating).

But, honestly? I ended up LOVING the breakdowns of how creating filmed content works, especially in regards to how viscerally and intensely these concepts were depicted.

And The Trainee stepped into some other territory, y'all! Many of us had intense discussions regarding bisexual inclusion and erasure once Tae and Ba-Mhee got back together. These concepts are sophisticated and important to ruminate on -- again, especially for a younger audience being fed most binary male-male and female-female queer media and concepts by a giant like GMMTV, which makes a ton of money on branding same-sex actors together. Queerness has a lot of spectrums, and bi inclusion was something I was glad this series unexpectedly took on.

So, against all this good stuff, that last 4/4 quarter sucked. I felt terrible for Ryan's 20-something hormones. Jane went to get a masters', and didn't even *call* his.... his boo? (Ryan wasn't Jane's boyfriend, obviously, maybe we could call Ryan his crush, his boo-boo, whatever.) Like. Jane didn't even come back to Thailand to visit, ever? Come awn now. If a show is feeding realism to a young audience by way of how corporate workplaces work, and how the art of an industry is made, at least please make the final romance a little more realistic!

(All y'all 20-somethings who were watching this show and wondering if you should wait five years for a potential boo to come back from overseas, please listen to your auntie here, GO DATE OTHER PEOPLE. Don't be like Ryan. Focus on *YOUR* NEEDS. This has been your reality-based PSA.)

But the rest of the finale was lovely for me. Jo, to me, was a realistic boss. He had a priority in keeping on Jane as an assistant director, because Jane was a great assistant director, and served well in that role, which served well for Jo's company. When Jane expressed an interest in growing, Jo knew that Jane couldn't do it in Jo's shadow -- and Jo said so. Jane taking a risk to LEAVE is a kind of risk I've had to confront time and time again in my own career, as I grew out of a workplace, and grew out of what that workplace was demanding of me. It's a wonderful notion for young people to contemplate on -- that movement in one's career must be first and foremost driven by the individual themself, for the sake of their own accountability to their growth.

I was thrilled to see Sea Tawinan in them white pants Ba-Mhee and Tae's engagement, Tae setting guardrails for himself to focus more on Ba-Mhee, and omg Pie's and Ba-Mhee's breakdown had me howling. Poon's a new fave as well. The Trainee confirmed my continued deep love and appreciation for Piploy, I think she's cute and great-great.

I truly enjoyed this show. The crew ultimately de-centralized romance for most of the show to focus on how work lives and personal lives realistically intertwine. We are the same people at work as we are at home, with all of the messiness we bring to those tables, including unrecommended romances that may traverse age and power gaps. Things can get messy, but I think, other than the whole Judy thing and Jane ghosting Ryan for years (wtf man), The Trainee handled that messiness with empathy for the young people who did a lot of growing up during the course of this series.

[jolapeno]

2024 has been a difficult one for many of us, for lots of reasons. for me, while writing, this place and the lovely souls I have the fortune of knowing have been bright spots in the dark, it's been a bit harder lately to smile as much as I used to. this week, I had to make a decision to ask for some help, which I have no shame in, and because of that I am battling some pretty rough side effects (all expected) that are making writing really, really hard.

while I have the next chapter of WNSA, I'm not sure if it's my brain being unkind or if I know I can do better, but I dislike it. and so, while I had originally said the w/c 16th, I'm going to work on it a bit more after I've got my head on right. because I love them so much, and I want to write them the best I can.

I'm still going to be here and the tootathon will be going on (so show me your fave thingssss). but I just need to take a week or two to adjust and prioritise myself in terms of trying to write.

[jolalibrary]

so, i know i hinted at it, but in november—my secret project is—I’m writing an original story.

I mentioned last month that I’d be around less in november and all of that still stands, workload, assignments, but I was cagey about the secret project—for absolutely no reason other than I am terrified.

this isn’t the first time I’ve written an original story (although was YA), but that time I did have a lot of personal things happen all at once, leading me to have a large mental health slip that now feels attached to me writing original, hence my fear. so, this is the first time getting “back on the horse”, so to speak and writing a different genre.

im sharing also to offer a preemptive apology if i seem off, more anxious and even more slow than I have been at getting back to people.

while I know I’m in a much better place, that I’m prepared health wise, have good people in my corner and a story I’m really excited about, my brain is slow to fully take that in. even as I just share this I’m anxious, and likely will be for the rest of this week. but some info for you:

this is a complete original story, so no fanfic works will be amended or taken down

it is a adult romance, because of course ✌️

it does have text messages (heheh)

I do want to stress! I am still writing fanfic (vampire!javi and blue and frankie will still be posted in november), I just will be slower.

and while I don’t wish to make this into a thing, I have being sneaky, and i think it’s also good for me to say what I’m doing to hold myself accountable, and have a place to run to and hide if I need it, while keeping those who support me in the loop—and explain why things might be slow.

anyway, I have rambled, i love you all, wish me luck 😂

[jos-reblog-emporium]

Hello my dearies!!

I just want to update you all. Life has thrown me for a loop. I might not be around for a little while. Or I might be on here a bit too much to cope.

If you’ve sent an ask, I opened it and started to respond. I’m sorry I haven’t finished or posted it yet. I will when I can.

Thanks for the love!

Jos

[cant-get-enough-btr-forever]

Big Time Hot Take #35

Kendall and Jo (Logan and Camille as well, actually) look too much like siblings.

Yeah, I said it. This is even lampshaded in "Big Time Tour Bus": Remember the hater who says Kendall and Jo are like brother and sister? People really were saying that, in real life.

Frankly, Katelyn Tarver (Jo) looks more like Kendall's sister than Ciara Bravo (Katie Knight).

PSA: Your Friendly Neighborhood Rusher here is running out of useless opinions. As such, I will be publishing Hot Takes a bit less often.

PSA over. *steps off podium*

[real-total-drama-takes]

okay time for a very important PSA

TEAM MEN AND TEAM DUDE ARE TWO SEPARATE GROUPS.

team men = scott, lightning, brick, sam

team dude = jo, lightning, brick

also, if team men is gonna have an honorary girl it would be DAWN because at least she was on the same team at the same time as team men. jo never interacted with sam or scott (because god knew shed be too powerful if she teamed up with scott). just need to get this straight because SOME OF YALLLLL 🙄🙄🙄🙄 arent getting right. fake ass total drama fans smh.