#a biscuit's rambles

[spiralling-voids]

Do you ever think about Jon and Tim. About how Tim used to be the funny guy. The happy guy. The "flirting with cops to get info" guy. Do you ever think about Jon being the super dry, stuck-up holier-than-thou boss. Do you think about how back in MAG11 Jon says that Tim is the only one of his assistants to *not* have made up that statement as a prank? How long have they known each other? How close were they? How well did Tim know his friends so they could blindly trust him to not cross any lines?

Do you then think of everything past the worms? The way Jon didn't even trust Tim anymore, who got infested right besides him? Do you think about how Tim couldn't forgive Jon for the paranoia and distrust? Do you think about how Jon got more and more desperate while Tim grew bitter and angry? Do you think about the way Jon naturally knew Tim would come along to stop the Unknowing, that Tim would be the one to blow everything up? Do you think about Tim being grateful for that, but still unable to forgive Jon?

They clearly knew each other for ages. They knew each other well. They must have been close in some ways, at least. They seem very opposite, character-wise, but all those little comments and actions prove something else. And it fell apart so quickly, so easily, and there was no chance for them to mend anything.

Do you ever think about that?

I hope you do now, at least, because I refuse to suffer alone with this

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

okay but it's HILARIOUS that we only call goncharov by his last name. we literally use nobody else's last name exclusively, but goncharov? at this point i'm not even sure my man has a first name. i mean, even andrey calls him goncharov and they're like this close to making out on screen

[enough-spider-noir-stuff]

Hobie is the peak of

"are you a boy or a girl?"

"i'm a punk"

"but what's in your pants?"

"safety pins, a lighter, i dunno, i don't keep track of that"

"what are your pronouns tho??"

"whatever"

"are you a man????"

"no i'm an anarchist"

[i-just-think-that-clones]

GOOD WRITING?? IN MY STAR WARS??

Okay so this blog has veen largely dormant and there's a fair share of genuinely good series (hello Andor that was AMAZING) but hot damn i still have zero expectations of disney or star wars

but the acolyte. holy shit.

a well-written Black female protagonist??? LIKE WHAT. IN MY STAR WARS?? THAT IS LITERALLY SO COOL HELL YEAH also i would literally die for both Osha and Mae (did i spell them correctly idk)

good writing ABD costumes AND sets like. wow. good special effects i didn't know disney still knew what that even is

genuinely the designs and costumes and cultures are so fucking amazing

i love all of them sososo much

finally poc in star wars AND cool genuine aliens we are winning gang

"is he—or they?" talk no more holy hell

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

So like. Drac daily starts again right

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

happy pride specifically to everyone who went "yes i'm very interested in the queer community and trying to learn more and yes some things are very relatable BUT i'm totally not part of it myself" and then needed some time before going "oh"

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

hi. hello. what the fuck

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

Okay but like. Now that AO3 is up again.

Comment.

Please, seriously, comment. Aside from the amazing volunteers, it needs writers to function, and community, and speaking as a writer comments are keeping these fics alive.

Just a "I really enjoyed reading this!" will absolutely make an author's day.

I just got a "!!" every time I updated my multichapter fic and I knew this person was still reading, was keeping up, enjoyed it! It's literally just two exclamation marks but they mean the world to me!

You don't have to be long or elaborate or even comprehensible. Just, show your authors that you appreciate them. Keep the community alive. Keep fandom alive.

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

every mushroom can be a magic mushroom if you love fungi enough (and haven't slept in a week)

[spiralling-voids]

one thing about tmagp that's been driving me nuts is that there's so many episodes i can't properly chalk up to one of the fears. there's some definite slaughter ones and a few buried-esque ones and a handful of others, but a lot i'd put under the stranger for example feel... different.

obviously the entire podcast has a different vibe from tma but. i'm wondering. bc everything in this universe is kinda shifted, just a bit different - what if the fears are also kinda different? there's several episodes dealing with the Self, who you are or want to be, identity. less in a i-dont-know-you or a am-i-even-a-me way. i don't know. but i am going nuts over it

[spiralling-voids]

The first time I heard that tape of Gerry and Gertrude interacting (MAG162) I was really confused at how Gertrude pronounced his name and why he didn't correct her bc personally I'd hate that.

But then I got thinking and. Of course. Of course he wouldn't correct her.

Gerard, emphasis on the first syllable, the way everyone besides Gertrude pronounces it, that's what his mum called him. And there's no way Gertrude would call him Gerry. But Gerard, that's still different. That's better.

so anyway i'll be crying over Gerry again if anyone needs me

[spiralling-voids]

so my friend and i saved each other as tma characters and it has evolved into occasional accidental roleplay. then while playing makeitmeme it led to these gems and this will forever be the funniest accidental tma meme ever. to me

[ID: Two screenshots of the chat in makeitmeme. The first screenshot reads "Martin has lost connection" followed by the message "don't give in to the lonely martin" in all caps and "Martin has joined".

The second screenshot reads "Martin lost connection", Martin has joined", "Martin joined the round". End ID]

[spiralling-voids]

My dad has reached TMA S4 and said something about the way Jon isn't himself anymore. Like. Feeding on people, drowning in work--

idk. it made me think. too much probably. Because like. It's still Jon, isn't it? He's just not human anymore. Wherever you want to separate humanity and identity and self. And where do you draw the line, anyway? He was becoming The Archivist long before he woke up from a coma feeding directly on people. He was physically dependant on statements even before. Was that when he started to slip, lose himself/his humanity? Was it even earlier when he first managed to compel people? Was it the second he took the job? Or was that just when he got set on the path to becoming the Archivist? Because like.

There's no line. There's no specific moment of Jon losing his self or humanity. There's thousands of tiny moments and occurences chipping away at his mental health and self-image and being and then suddenly he can't die anymore and you realise what and whoever he is, it's not a human. But you don't know for how long.

Anyway I firmly believe Jon is also very much still himself. Traumatised and dehumanised (literally) and did I even mention the trauma and so so so messed up, but he's still Jonathan Sims. Which to me is even more tragic than if he'd become something else entirely.

Imagine. You remember being human, and you've changed so much, but you're still you. But that you is also a monster, and despite anything you might have thought years back, you don't even mind it too much.

idk. i'm rambling a lot. but that comment about Jon not being himself.... god there's so much to be said here. tma is driving me mad

[enough-spider-noir-stuff]

noir and hobie speak especially much slang when talking to each other until their conversations are entirely incomprehensible to any- and everyone else. the truth is, they don't actually understand the other one's type of slang either but they'll never admit that because they think it's funny as hell (and you can pry that headcanon from my cold dead hands)

[enough-spider-noir-stuff]

Okay hear me out.

The spider gang calling Spidey Noir "grandpa" because he's from the 1930s and especially because they know he's a teenager