#You know who you are i know you know my typing patterns.

[drdemonprince]

sorry if this is too long but i really appreciate your perspective and would love some advice

i have a mixed gender friend group irl, however i am the only transmasc in the group (the rest of the group is queer transfems, queer cis women, and our token cishet guy) and ive run into a little issue in that im quite close to one of the cis girls of the group, and we occasionally have deep chats about our queer identities (we're both aro, im ace, shes bi) . these chats are great and i really appreciate her as a friend but one thing shes always bringing up, even in unrealted conversations is how much she hates men .

im not a transandrobro so this isn't gonna be one of those "im one of the good ones" or "i feel guilty for being transmasc" asks dw. the issue came up when i was discussing how i was going to start T pretty soon (i pass decently well without it already but as more of a butch/androgynous type look) and as we were talking about the changes she was acting... genuinley scared and disgusted??

especially when i talked about how i will likely grow more body hair, and how T affects scent and stuff. she was almost horrified. "yeah but you dont want that right? youll shave it?" . i already dont shave my body hair (she does) and i cant help but feel scared that one of my closest friends is going to find me revolting once i start transitioning medically.

i didnt even mention bottom growth after that because i was so scared of what her reaction to that would be.

idk if you have any experience or advice for this? or any reading on the subject? ive found that its only the cis women in my friend group who are acting this way as well. i feel like maybe its because theyve secretly been viewing me as "just" a masculine woman this whole time. i id as nonbinary with the group, but secretly i really do think im a trans man, but based on the disgust with those things im reluctant to come out again.

Honestly this is a really common way that cis women microaggress against trans mascs! Those two identities have competing privilege/oppression intersections and a lot of really wild shit can play out as a result, as well as due to the projection that can happen because both groups have shared a social identity at some point (whether we liked it or not). It may not be fixable, but I think you need to set the tone that this kind of negative commentary on your transition and body is NOT acceptable, and to do so EARLY, so that you are establishing ground rules for how you will be treated.

Example conversation:

You: So I started getting some hair on my neck around my Adam's apple.

Her: Ewwwww, but you're going to shave it right?

You: (pause and look at her seriously). Gender transition is something I'm very excited about and that's very good for me, you know. I am happy about everything that's happening and I hope that as my friend you would be happy for me too.

Let's say that she continues to be somewhat shitty about your transition multiple times. Here is how you might escalate without totally blowing your lid.

Her: Wow, your [voice is so deep/your acne is getting so bad/your hair pattern is changing/whatever thing she is being shitty about].

You: (stop whatever task you're doing if any to give this full attention. lock eyes with her, maybe even sigh). I have told you multiple times not to comment on my appearance. It makes me very uncomfortable. I don't enjoy spending time with people who comment on how I look.

I think your focus should be not on correcting her feelings, which she needs to go like stare at a pond and reflect about on her own, but instead reign in her shitty commentary completely -- and if she won't do that for you, then you will need start ending conversations/walking away/not inviting her to things/whatever other boundary setting strategy you like. I would prioritize nipping the personal comments in the bud over the "men are so disgusting and evil" kind of commentary, because I think that matters more and seems to bother you more -- but if it were me? I would also be pissed that she wasn't including me in the category of "men" when she was talking about them, and would say things like "I'm a man too, you know." Or "Yeah, WE can be kind of annoying/boorish/smelly sometimes." This isn't some transandrobro NOT ALL MEN thing, it's an anti-transphobia don't misgender me thing. And perhaps by taking accountability for all that manhood is -- the good and the bad, the euphoric and the just neutral, you will influence her in a positive way to think about these things more neutrally. If not, well, that's her fuckin loss.

[fayerien]

Birthday Surprise — Caleb

mc x caleb, surprising mc on her birthday, fluff, not proofread!

The clock strike midnight, adding another year to your age. Your phone keep buzzing with notifications from your colleagues, Tara and Captain Jenna wishing you a bless birthday. The warmth and fuzzy feelings spread in your heart knowing that they remember your important day. You typed your reply, thanking them for the wishes.

The day went as usual, you still need to work as a hunter going to mission, fighting wanderers to protect Lincoln City. Everyone keep wishing you happy birthday, some of them even told you that you're supposed to take a day off and enjoy your day. To you, birthday or not it's still the same. It's not the time for you to slack off and laze around. However, deep down you're a bit disappointed when the person you were waiting for didn't even try to contact you on your important day.

Ding.

You reach for your phone in your pocket, looking up for the notification on your lock screen.

apple pilot🍎: "hey, pipsqueak. whatcha doing?"

Annoyed. You decided to ignore his message and focusing on whatever tasks you needed to complete. Less than 10 minutes later, your phone buzzed again. This time it's not a message, but a call, and you know who was it from. Despite the fact how much you wanted to ignore him, you just can't. It's been almost a week since you last saw him, you'd be lying if you didn't miss him at all. Reluctantly, you slide the answer button.

"hello?"

"pipsqueak, are you busy? you didn't reply my chat."

Coldly, you answered. "Yes, I am. Why?"

"I.." You can clearly hear a pause in his answer, probably thinking the right word to say.

"are you mad at me?" You swear you could here his tone turned whiny.

Ah. I want to see his pouting face so bad.

You knew you couldn't resist him for long, when he acted like this. Suppressing a smile from forming on your face, you replied.

"no? why should I be mad at you?" He scowled, it was loud enough for you to hear through the phone call.

"you're clearly mad. I can tell."

"and I know why." This time his voice turned a bit playful.

You can't help yourself but roll your eyes at his comment. Before you could open your mouth to say something, he interrupted you.

"come outside. I have something to show you." Confused, you step outside the building, looking around to find him.

"are you playing with me? I can't see you anywhere." You retorted, clearly tired with his antics.

"Look up at the sky."

"There's noth—" You looked up at the sky and surprised to see an aircraft there.

"Keep looking." Speechless, you stared at the aircraft flying around in a pattern while releasing smokes.

Happy Birthday, Pipsqueak!

That was what written in the sky. You were too stunned at the grand birthday wishes, completely forgot that you're still on the phone with him.

He chuckled, snapping you back to your senses.

You muttered, eyes still glued to the sky. "I— wow."

His voice turned cocky this time and you knew he was smirking in the aircraft. "Surprised? I know you thought I forgot your birthday. But, no. I was preparing for this."

The cocky tone in his voice completely vanished, turning softer and sweeter this time. "Happy birthday, Pipsqueak. I hope you aren't mad at me anymore."

You felt your lips curved up, forming into a smile. The sight of him doing skywriting to wish for your birthday made your heart leapt.

"Thank you, Caleb." You giggled in excitement. "I love it."

Chuckling at your reaction, you could hear his voice turning playful once again.

"I'm glad you like it. I prepared so much time for this." He joked.

"I know, Colonel. And I appreciate it, truly."

His voice turning a bit husky and seductive this time.

"Just to let you know, I'm free tonight. So, that means, I'm all yours, honey."

Feeling a wave of butterflies in your stomach at his words, you whispered.

"Great. I'm not letting you go tonight."

[elainsgirl]

I’ve seen some people say they don’t mind elriel not being mates because their story will be beautiful regardless, and that it might be better if they aren’t mates because that makes their love more special. While I’m not against that sentiment, I just feel like SJM has written too many hints that they are in fact mates. Some nessians get angry if you say elucien is a corrupt mated bond due to the corrupted couldron. To them you’re implying nessian is also a corrupt bond. But that is not true. Because that would mean the couldron actively gave Nesta a mate. Why would it? It hates her. And if it did, Cassian likely would’ve immediately realized Nesta is his mate like Lucien did with Elain. But he realized later, like Rhys did with Feyre. It’s the timing that gives it away in my opinion. Thus, nessian is a bond from the mother, just like feysand, and elucien from the couldron. Now we have Azriel who is showing clear signs of being Elain’s mate (sensing she is a seer like Madja said a mate would, whereas Lucien couldn’t figure out what was going on with her, and so many other things but I don’t want to type all that lol). SJM loves writing parallels with her main acotar couples because she’s using the Koschei story as her inspiration. Feysand and nessian’s stories have many, but elriel has as well. I believe Elain and Azriel definitely have a mating bond given by the mother. This way, SJM can still write the rejected bond story with elucien like she has been wanting to, while still having elriel ending up being mates, perfectly completing the pattern she started and the prophecy with the sisters and the bat boys. How do eluciens and gwynriels not see this? The answer as you know is that they are in complete denial.

One thing I never understood is when antis complain that if one bond is corrupted that means all bonds are wrong, not just eluciens. And the reason that doesn’t make sense - its stated by Sjm herself that not all bonds are right or perfect, its a mismatch system. You can get a good bond or an illsuited bond. Feysand and Nessians’ bonds are clearly matched and perfect meanwhile the ONLY bond to be questioned is Eluciens. That is a choice done on purpose by Mass.

Look, the minute Mass wrote “why not make them mates?” Between elriel, everyonr should havs clocked on and questioned this. Bcs there was no reason to write that line if elucien is endgame. Absolutely none. From acowar Mass has the readers question why elucien? Why not elriel when it’s clear they’re more suited for each other? Then in the bonus as a set up for elriels upcoming journey she once AGAIN makes you question why elriel aren’t mates. The literal fact she wrote the “how does it make sense that two of my brothers are mated to two sisters yet the third given to another” line - eluciens should’ve packed it up bcs Sjm atp is blatantly telling you where the story is going.

Rhys knew Feyre was his mate long before, she had her transformation and the bond snapped BUT Feysand fell in love first THEN accepted the bond. Their love was established before they became “official” mates- Nessian follows the same path. It shows us readers that these characters aren’t accepting each other bcs of the bond but they fell in love and chose each other long before. The bond is a cherry on top, take it away and Nessian/Feysand would still be in love.

Elucien breaks away from this pattern. Lucien blurts out they’re in mates and what I find extremely interesting- in his monologue during acowar, he does not once state feeling drawn to Elain or how he looked at her and knew she was his mate who he had to save at all costs. Sjm never reinforces that idea within acowar - the same book where she introduces the idea of elriel being mates. Interesting right? Anyways, elucien break from this pattern that Mass has used so far. Their story would be forced proximity and then Elain coming to accept Lucien as her mate and realise the cauldron was right for her…which doesn’t sound romantic does it? Also what author questions if the cauldron was wrong between a couple…only for it to be right in the end? I definitely agree there is 2 bonds at play. A fated/mother bond and a cauldron bond, Azriel is elains second mate hence why he is affected & can smell the elucien bond. Also worth noting, Elriel have mother imagery whilst Elucien have cauldron imagery.

Elain and Az fall in love, choose each other, establish their love and then BOOM! Mass creates their “we’ve been mates all along!” Storyline that she is so fond of and used for Nessian/Feysand. It allows her to maintain the pattern whilst exploring the concept of bonds.

[nozomi-incel]

i openly post about idolizing elliot rodger and hating women, what the fuck are you talking about? Granted I am a hypocrite, but if you couldn't tell by my posts alone that I was gonna be an asshole then that is your problem.

I guess you're right about that, i apologize. I guess this is just evidence that my social cues are shit (it happens a lot, and I've gotten in trouble for it. It's even one of the reasons I am in incel in the first place)

Also, I don't know much about elliot rodger but he seems cool as fuck from what I've heard. If only he were alive to see what he would've become.

Female and male fakecels only exist because of their high standards that they themselves cannot reach, I am not saying they should give up on finding their desired partner, but if you are a person that calls themselves an 'incel' and desires a 10/10 disney princess/prince stacy/chad while being below that standard yourself... then you are a fakecel.

I only brought up the whole disney princess thing because it was a childhood dream of mine that gave me false hope for the future, a mere fantasy I know damn well will never come true.

I never said I was attracted to the guys in those stories.

Infact my standards for a partner are practically lower compared to other women my age, partially because I lowered them voluntarily in hopes it would increase the chances of me finding a partner. (I have a detailed description on what my type is in my pinned post if you wanna take a look)

Also, as a ransom note: I've recently just started coming to the realization that all the "relationships" I've been in were all just glorified friendships with sex jokes every here and there, and that i've never actually "dated" anyone (which is weird to think about, but it is what it is)

I agree with the other guy, male and female incel problems are entirely different. Most people need to accept that.

You're right about that too. Infact I suggested on making a separate tumblr group for femcels so that we can both talk about our experiences without accidentally invalidating the other's experience. The admin of the original "incels of tumblr" group said that it wasn't necessary, but I personally think it'd be a good idea givel hot differently the femcel and incel communities behave.

What do you think?

I don't gaslight people into believing that women are the sole reason why incels exist. I blame the biology coded by mother nature, not the creation itself.

i wish you explained this earlier, and I thank you for clarifying. Admittedly you had me convinced that you were blaming women for your inceldom (a common stereotype made against incels by moids and foids who want to invalidate our experiences), and I can see now that it was just a big misunderstanding.

No amount of stories about your childhood disney fantasies will convince me to feel bad for anybody, woman or man. Nor will you telling me your reason of inceldom; nobody asked to be an incel/femcel. I have never had any hope even as a teenager or child, recognizing the pattern of the blackpill earlier in life will help desensitize you from the propaganda normies use.

I'm aware. I'm just sick and tired of people dismissing my celibacy because they think i'm "too pretty" to be an incel (they don't know that inceldom is caused by anything beyond the person's control, appearance being common, yes, but things like disability and mental health issues can also cause it)

Also, i've been thinking about getting into the blackpill because I'm sick of foids constantly trying to tell me what to think and what to feel simply because they view me as lesser than due to my autism (a stigma i've faced my entire life), and because most of the trauma I've sustained in my life came from women (with the very rare exception of a few men), but I was always blamed for it anytime i spoke out about it because radical feminists have you believe that women are incapable of abuse (when in reality, they are just as capable of it as anyone else).

Do you have any recommendations for people that are new to it and haven't been desensitized by the normie propaganda yet?

Remember, in the incel community, NOBODY IS SPECIAL. We are all the same, we are all lonely, depressed virgins in here that fantasize about the same love we see in media. We are all doomed to be alone. One of the few ways you can escape the curse of inceldom is through a miracle.

I'm aware. I do wish that I could stop getting my hopes up constantly, knowing that it never comes true. It's a really bad habit that the foids in my life have been planting into my head since my days in the SPED classes (grade school), and it always manages to make depressed anytime i found out the truth.

Also, the whole "fantasizing about the same love we see in the media" thing is (as I explained earlier) what I meant when I brought up the disney princess thing.

The incel community already has a stained reputation on the internet and in the real world, no amount of text will convince normies that a percentage of incels are innocent and kind. The only way you could wash the stain off is by inviting tourists and letting them change every single aspect that makes the incel community so special.

I know, and I know there's nothing I can do or say to change that. Infact, when I first started accepting my inceldom and actively talking about it online, i lost a friend of mine i've been close with since I was 12 (that asshole can go fuck himself after he got the cops called to my house and told them I was sexually assaulted knowing damn well I've never been touched by a guy before and never will unless some crazy miracle happens that gets a guy to molest me or some shit)

Nobody is stopping you from coping, you all can cope all you want. The cope I use is determinism, no matter how much you seethe and cry about your loneliness. No man or woman will feel bad for you, that is the reality of the incel.

I never said that there was anything stopping anyone from coping, I was mention it to highlight how everyone's experience as an incel is different.

Other than that though, i do agree.

You don't introduce the incel community to anybody, people will find it by themselves when looking for minds that think alike. [⬛💊]

I see.

Me personally I started learning about inceldom after hearing about some of the rumors regarding yanderedev (who's no longer involved in or associated with the incel community, but I've heard about his experiences with it and found them extremely relatable)

Some people escape the state of incelism, some people stay with it till death, waiting for a person to come along and save them from the inevitable rope in their closet while time marches on.

Those stories have always been pretty wholesome to me, and it sucks knowing the majority of people in the incel community never actually get to experience that freedom.

It's why I've stopped trying to recover from my mental health issues after I quit my last therapist, because i'm always forced into a loop of thinking that everything's gonna get better and that I'll actually have a future worth living for n shit, only to have something super traumatic happen to me and then boom! i'm back where I started nearly 5-6 years ago with no way to recover from it.

Also, as a final note: even if I weren't an incel like all the foids and moids are saying (which i am an incel and have proven to be one, but let's just say that i'm not in this scenario), the incel community (or at least the femcel community in particular) is the only place where I actually feel like I belong in and feel understood in.

I'm too weird for normal friend groups, I'm too "problematic" for fandom spaces (including obscure ones that are dying), hell, even other SPED kids don't want to be around me, which is an extremely isolating feeling considering I've grown up as one of them since fucking preschool.

I'm basically outcasted from any other group.

This community is all i have. If I lose this too, I see no other option.

I just wish I didn't feel so alone..

Anyway, thank you for clarifying on a few things that I didn't understand at first, and I hope you have a good day.

Men can't be "incels"

Men literally cannot be incels. The word "incel" doesn't even have merit. The term is actually "invcel" and it was created by a woman. Men colonized women's spaces of being disgusting and untouchable. Men should be correctly referred to as "mencels." It is not fair to push women out of a space that originally belonged to them by calling them "femcels".

[lawrence-songs]

genuinely nothing more embarrassing than accidentally tagging someone you know personally on your fictionkin blog. oh my god. i meant to tag you on my main and I am so sorry. please ignore this you don't know me I promise

[miscisawhore]

Wanna get cursed with an infinite cum hex, and the only place I can think to empty myself is in your womb~

It'd be so hot watching you blow up like a big sexy balloon, your belly all round and sloshy from my endlessly gushing seed~

Before you know it, you're too big and heavy to get up off of me and you're stuck cuminflating for the rest of your life…

But I know you'd want nothing more than that~

hi yes please i would fucking. love that 🥺,, if anything i would find a way to hex you to produce even more cum~ and ofc all of your seed would 100% convince my body that im inhumanly pregnant (maybe i even am ;3), swelling my udders with gallons and gallons of milk in response

[mildcicada]

[icewindandboringhorror]

examining a seemingly normal image only to slowly realize the clear signs of AI generated art.... i know what you are... you cannot hide your true nature from me... go back where you came from... out of my sight with haste, wretched and vile husk

[front-facing-pokemon]

[moonchild-in-blue]

Hiiiii! If you have a minute, look up both Phyllopteryx taeniolatus and Phycodurus eques! (Not necesseraly for a critter drawing just for looking at pretty things, because either would be a nightmare to draw probably with the shapes and colours.) But they look gorgeous none the less! I've been made aware of them by @murkyquirky and they are gorgeous! *v*

!!!! I have so many minutes to look at those bad boys!!! I LOVE sea dragons SO much aaaaa. Sea horses get all the fame but their cousins are so superior imo. Like, legit literal sea fairies 🧚‍♀️🐉🌿 (also, you can't tell me what to do (/j) SO! DRAWINGS BE UPON YE!)

Phyllopteryx Taelionatus aka Common Seadragon or Weedy Seadragon (ha!) & Phycodurus Eques aka Leafy Seadragon (my personal favourites)

What's funny is that, unlike bugs which are super symmetrical and rigid, these bad boys are 1000x more fun and easier to draw.

Cus I can lowkey bullshit my way with leafy-like fluid shapes, splash on a little colour and badabing badaboom, you got yourself a Leafy Boy 🌱🐉

(if i scheduled this right and if tumblr cooperates, i should have a little extra something posted after this 👀)

[solar-halos]

Everlark fans make up the largest group in the fandom, yet they often play the victim when it comes to Gale shippers, those indifferent to the romance, or anyone criticizing their group dynamics. Despite holding widely popular opinions, they still act as though they're the underdogs.

oh snappp things are heating up

[drdemonprince]

ty for taking the time to answer my ask (transmasc anon with the cis woman friend) i've been employing a few of those strategies but a bit inconsistently and i for sure need to get better at standing up for myself without making it too accusatory <3

i think the thing that really freaked me out about her saying this was that i know what type of men she is attracted to (she frequently talks about male celebrities and fictional characters) and many of them have the features that she was scared/grossed out by me developing. like facial hair!

all in all she just seems very eager to still try and read me as "just" a gnc woman rather than an actual trans person. (in many ways she is a lot worse at understanding my gender than my friend whos the only cishet guy in the group).

once again, thanks for the advice. the intersection of marginalised identities here was a bit tricky for me to navigate as i didnt want my upset at feeling misgendered/insulted at my body to come across as some kind of "you nEED to love men, actually" stance haha.

You've probably read my piece on not feeling safe around cis women, anon, but in case you haven't here it is -- it goes into a lot of the research behind patterns like these (cis women are more likely to harass trans masc coworkers than cis men are, for instance, so your experience is not unusual):

but yeah, it sounds like your friend is getting weirdly attached to her understanding of your identity and body and seeing you transition into a man (and the kind of man she is into!) is... challenging her worldview. i can think of several reasons why that might be. but of course we dont need to psychoanalyze her we can just ask her to stfu and go rage/jerk off/reflect about it somewhere else

[curtailedwhale]

Seeing a few too many "this should be a required class in school" posts.

There are other, better, places to learn some things.

[strigops]

old lady boris and her little white leg 🤍

she’s my oldest and largest a. vulgare and even in her advanced age is currently FULL of mancae!!! i regularly check the bellies of my isolated and hopefully healthy vulgare’s to make sure they are aren’t infected, and was pleasantly surprised to see many babies in the grand ol dame’s pouch. the do-over culture has tons of babies already and im so glad these guys have hope. i won’t know for a very long time if the whole culture is uninfected since the disease can take so long to progress to being symptomatic but i feel good about it, knock on wood. may boris and her many kids help save the florida bugs <3

[justanotherfanartist]

idr who it was but somebody I reblogged a post on a while back in which I dumped a bunch of random personal stuff in the tags if you see this this is for you 🙏🙏 also I’m lying I’m just a yapper

[singsweetmelodies]

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