#YOUR THOUGHTS

[saydesole]

Journaling

Write down those thoughts 🤎

Record your thoughts 🫶🏽

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I wish I could just ask you what you think of me.

[companionjones]

Your Thoughts

Pairing: Edward Cullen x Reader

Fandom: Twilight

Warnings: Anxiety, self-hatred, one curse word

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    He first heard them off in the distance. Then, they got louder, and louder, and louder. He finally realized who all the thoughts were coming from as you entered the room.

    Sadly, you immediately walked right in front of a fan. Edward had to physically hold himself back from attacking you as soon as he could smell you. Your blood was like his own personal brand of heroine.

    Aaannd Edward had to spend an entire class with you sitting next to him. He thought that after hundreds of years he was finally going to snap and lose everything.

    What made things worse, was that he could read your mind. All you could think was that you badly reeked and everyone could smell you. Your thoughts only got worse from there.

    By the end of the class, Edward needed to get out of there, but he couldn’t without telling you, “It’s not your fault,” before leaving.

    Edward tried to get out of Biology. When he couldn’t, he was gone for about a week, trying to get his shit together.

    Although you were no longer around him, Edward couldn’t get your thoughts out of his head. He felt horrible that he made you feel like that. Changing your thoughts was the only reason he went back to school.

    When Biology rolled around, Edward headed for the seats in which you and he had been sitting, only to find that you could not have been sitting farther from them.

    Along with your overwhelming scent, Edward heard all of your thoughts again, and they were just as dark and lonely as before. Edward fought past his vampire instincts and sat next you you again. He offered a light smile in your direction.

    Your thoughts responded accordingly. If Edward had to put one word to them, it would’ve been confusion.

    He tried to levee your thoughts with conversation. “Hello.” He cursed himself for sounding so rehearsed. “I’m sorry for not introducing myself last week...I’m Edward Cullen.”

    “I’m Y/n L/n,” you introduced.

    You were scared of him, that much was obvious from your thoughts. But you weren’t scared of Edward in the way he expected. You were scared of him like you were scared of everyone, and you wondered why he, why anyone, would talk to you.

    Edward hoped those thoughts would leave you as he talked to you longer.

    “Do you like the weather here?” He decided that was a normal enough question to ask.

    Perhaps it was too normal of a question, because you thought it a bit odd that he had asked. You replied anyway, “Yeah, I do. It has been raining a lot, though. I miss the sun.” You hoped you hadn’t talked for too long.

    Edward wished you hadn’t thought that. He couldn’t remember ever reading a mind that had as much anxiety as yours did. He wanted so badly to lighten up your mind that he found himself agreeing with you about the sun. It wasn’t untrue. Edward did miss the sun, just maybe a little less now because seeing it would mean he wouldn’t be able to see inside your mind for the day.

    You and Edward talked for the rest of the class. He asked you many questions: How long you had been in town, what was the farthest you’d been from home, etc. He just couldn’t get enough of you or your mind. He had also succeeded in getting your mind to stop thinking such terrible things about yourself. Well, he did, at least until the bell rung.

    Thoughts started flooding your head about how you didn’t want him to go because this was the best interaction you could remember having.

    Who was Edward to deprive you of that?

    He knew he shouldn’t have, but he kept talking to you. When the bell rang and you both had to go to your next class, Edward exchanged phone numbers with you so you could text during class. The two of you did so for the rest of the day.

    “You should really let me drive you home today. It’s still raining.” Edward texted after the final bell.

    You texted back, “I couldn’t ask you to do that.”

    “You’re not asking, I’m offering. Let me drive you home,” he said as he approached you from behind.

    Edward had just made you smile for the first time. He felt his long-dead heart flutter. Edward also felt the eyes of his siblings on him. He knew they had heard what he had just said because everyone’s thoughts were heavily cautioning him to just leave you.

    Everyone’s thoughts except Alice’s. “Just go. It’ll be fun.”

    Maybe it was because she was thinking very clearly, or maybe it was because Edward wanted to hear that the most, but either way, Alice’s thoughts came through louder than the rest of his siblings. It was what convinced him to get into his car with you.

    And so, Edward drove you home that day. He also drove you to and from school the next day, and the next day, and every day for the rest of that week.

    When Friday rolled around, you got into Edward’s car with questions rolling around inside your head.

    “Why are you being so nice to me, Edward?”

    He shrugged. “Because I think you’re kind, and amusing, and beautiful--”

    A few things.

    One, surprisingly, Edward didn’t often think of the words coming out of his own mouth because he was often so occupied by other people’s thoughts inside his head. That was why he had admitted that he thought you were beautiful.

    Two, you had been thinking that question so loud and so repetitively that Edward didn’t hear any of your other thoughts as you got into his car.

    Three, you thought of something else so quickly before acting that Edward didn’t have time to react accordingly.

    But Edward has super speed. Shouldn’t he be able to react fast no matter what? Well, not with what you had in store for him. With what you thought, Edward needed at least a second to think before reacting.

    You had kissed Edward.

    Yes, he needed that one second to process what was happening. Edward also needed another second to get his body to react.

    He pulled away from you and got out of the car. Edward tried his best to get your scent out of his system.

    You got out of the car too. “I am so, so sorry. I think--I guess I misread the messages and assumed--I’m so sorry.” You started walking in the school’s direction.

    Your thoughts were a mess. Never had Edward heard as much self-hatred that wasn’t aimed at himself.

    He used his vampire speed to catch up to you before you turned around. “Y/n.”

    When you faced him, you briefly wondered how he had gotten to you so fast. But, just as you had done with Edward, he didn’t give you time to think.

    He placed both hands on either side of your face (avoiding your pulse) and leaned toward you.

    Truthfully, Edward was leaning in a little slow in fear of his blood lust, but then he heard your thoughts.

    “He’s going to kiss me! Yes!”

    That made Edward fully smile before he pressed his lips to yours.

    The kiss lasted about seven seconds.

    When you separated, you commented, “This is insane.”

    “Sweetheart,” he smiled, “You have no idea.”

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Author’s Note: Thank you so much for reading! Fill up that heart and reblog if you liked it. I would also really appreciate a comment, if you have the time, if you would like to read more, check out my masterlist over on my page. Have a nice day, night, or whatever time it is for you! <3 <3 <3

[blackblooms]

Progress Update

Just to inform that despite the lack of post, progress is still occurring. Its just that i am at the stage of development where i mostly work on tweaks, dialogue and big spoiler stuff so i dont have much to show. I was thinking of either posting some character profiles, or maybe talk about my old games. I`m open to suggestion so feel free to ask about anything you would like to learn about.

[natsuki208]

In my Dadbastian AU…

Sebastian goes out into the city with his little baby Ciel, who was sound asleep, until all the ruckus going on wakes him and he starts crying loudly.

Of course Sebastian tries to calm him down, but sadly to no success, and then people around have the nerve to tell him to ‘shut up that kid’.

What do you think he would do?

[send-me-a-puffalope]

istg elizabeth lail is the best casting for vanessa because she’s truly embodying the vanessa trait of never showing up anywhere

[randomnotesstuff]

So, trump won?

... ehhhhhh what are your views on that? I'm not American so I can't say nothing on this but what do yall think?

[nymphet-in-blue]

Me

Rate my outfit please

[honeykiller666]

If you could give Madara an MS ability/abilities what would it be (and why)? Or what ability do you think he got?

I thought about something related to his wish to protect his clan, especially his beloved brother Izuna, but couldn't put an ability to it.

And in addition, what MS ability/abilities would you give Izuna? (Or what do you think he already got?)

Please share your thoughts :)

[teakosart]

[Trying out colours]

Please. Criticise me. Tell me what looks bad/could look better

[therichantsim]

Good morning. How do y’all feel about long story post? I personally don’t mind them but it seems that there is an unwritten rule somewhere that we should break up our post. My question is why? Especially when Tumblr has increased its picture load to 30? I tend to do better on post that are one . When I break up post based on engagement the second half doesn’t get read. So readers are missing half the content. I have a post in drafts and it is exactly 30. Like I didn’t even get to use my banner. But is that spamming? I know everyone has varying opinions about tumblr etiquette particularly in niche forums like simblr. Your feedback would be appreciated.

[piratesexmachine420]

Ehhh should I call an ambulance? You're writing assembly BY HAND?

Are you clinically insane or what?

Lol yeah x86 is an abomination -- we should've moved to ARM or PowerPC or something yesterday.

I just thought it'd be an instructive exercise to get down in the trenches for a sec -- I'm learning a lot about x64 opcodes, the System V ABI and all sorts of neat stuff. I'm hoping that in the next couple days I'll be able to write a little brainfuck compiler from scratch.

[peculiary]

S.W.O.R.D. #6 June 23, 2021

[illustratorsblog]

Okay, I want to talk with us about Lord Celebrimbor. In this shot, people saw that the celebrimbor had a problem with his arm, like a severed limb. Although his facial expression is very calm. This one may be a reference to Celebrimbor's uncle Maedhros, who also walked without a limb . Sauron" I will remind you, elf, what happened to your uncle and I will do the same to you" .bullying towards the lord, who because of the sins of his family has a hard time living

In Game “Middle-earth: Shadow of Mordor” we are shown the death of Lord Celebrimbor. He fights against Sauron and his kingdom is destroyed. Sauron takes the lord prisoner in chains and further we fear that Celebrimbor

Sauron smashes the face of a living Celebrimbor and his skull with a Celebrimbor's hammer.

Ps I'm still cold and have pain from this scene since I had gamed ☹️

In Book canon Celebrimbor died from his torment; his body was shot with arrows and hung upon a pole, and was later paraded as a banner when Sauron attacked the Grey Havens . The conclusion is that the death of the celebrimbor, as it was, will be very terrible.

Will Celebrimbor die in season 2 episode 8 or not? What do you think? And what will be his death?

[ant1quarian]

YEAAAAH I CAN FINALLY GET THIS OUT!! THANK YOU,,..,

BEWARE THIS IS SUPER LONG 💀

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So .  Frisk does a pacifist run, monsters r free, yknow the drill. One thing: the barrier, AKA a bunch of concentrated, human magic, doesn’t rip. It explodes, sending out a huge shockwave of magic that humans unintentionally absorb (the barrier was made of human magic, after all), and they all turn into various different, new species.

A lot of humans turn into bitties. Frisk does, for one. Monsters take pity on the bitties and start to make the adoption centers and such that most bitty AUs have. However, monsters aren’t exactly the best towards bitties- most treat them as pets or pests, or just lesser in general. Particularly racist monsters form bitty rings as a kind of… “punishment” for the former humans ‘cause of how their ancestors sealed monsters away so long ago.

Now, here’s where it gets a bit more interesting: some humans turn into nagas and sirens. Both are very powerful, like boss monsters almost. I’ll talk abt sirens in a moment, but I’m gonna focus on the nagas first.

All three formerly human species are still, you know, human, and don’t want to hurt people. but since literally all of them are incredibly confused and scared (imagine waking up with a snake’s tail instead of your legs. it’s cool in theory but god, the body horror) a lot of nagas end up killing monsters. This results in nagas being hunted down and drove into forests, in which they finally find other former humans and pack instincts kick in, forming colonies of nagas. The nagas are a tiny bit more peaceful than sirens, generally. That doesn’t mean defenseless though- nagas are just a tad more defensive than offensive. Speaking of offensive…

Sirens are a bit different. Back when the barrier exploded, humans that turned into sirens were put in a trance and just endlessly sought out water until they found a large enough source. Then they walked in and woke up as sirens. The same thing that happened with nagas happens with sirens- most sirens that didn’t end up in the ocean die, and eventually the remaining sirens find each other.

Here’s where sirens and nagas start to deviate in terms of ideology (specifically towards monsters). Nagas, generally speaking, don’t actively hunt monsters. They do kill any that venture into their forests, but that’s nothing compared to sirens. Sirens are more often than not very spiteful and vengeful towards monsters. They blame monsters for turning them into sirens (body horror my beloved) and also for killing other sirens. They sing to lure in monsters and drown them. Any monster they spot is already dead. No beach is safe- sirens lurk everywhere in the water, even in the arctic.

I first thought of this… AU? As a Sans x reader, but I don’t know what species the reader would be. Maybe something like the Trappist System where there’s multiple readers romancing different Sans AUs? Originally, reader was a spiteful, cecalia siren that met Sans on a dock- maybe as spy of some kind, to gather information for the sirens? But I love nagas as much as (maybe even more than) sirens, so now I just can’t pick. 

The main thing that started this was the idea of siren body horror, and the sheer terror of becoming something like that. The power you now wield, but having no idea how to use it. The unshakeable feeling that your body is horrifyingly wrong, twisted into something inhuman without your consent. I don’t see many fics touch on that kind of thing with sirens and nagas, and it’s such an intriguing idea to me that my brain cobbled together… whatever this is lol.

Apologies for the SUPER long ask, I wrote this in my notes before sending the ask so tumblr couldn’t eat my writing halfway through. Thank ye kindly for letting me ramble about my little au idea in the first place :]

YOU!!

POINTS AT YOU

HAVE AMAZING THOUGHTS, THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR BLESSING ME WITH THEM!!

That concept is something I love and adore and if I had motivation to write (instead of, y'know, being completely kidnapped by Minecraft-), I would love to write this.

Don't apologise 'cause I really like it! :D

Long rants/asks are always welcome here!

,,, Ngl I thought I replied to this but I must have gotten sidetracked lmao.

The thought of doing this like how I'm doing the Trappist system intrigues me! I feel like it would be very goofy indeed

THANK YOU FOR BESTOWING YOUR WONDEROUS THOUGHTS UPON ME! 'TIS MUCH APPRECIATED!