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i am bive from regretevator!
i dont particularly miss the regretevator universe.. i do enjoy the game though
i know two infected fictionkins, one of which is also unpleasant gradient and poob!
id say im a 3/10, i tend to be a very rational person (i think)
bive is unlabled mspec but wlw and im aroace transmasc
my fictionkin identity doesnt really effect daily life, if at all. it has to be triggered by specific bive related things. the closest its gotten is wanting to yell out "me" whenever the npc me entered the elevator while i was playing with my friend, who does not know im a fictionkin, so there was like an awkward pause where i stopped myself, and then yelled bive. there are random bits of dysphoria i guess, i dont like talking in third person, but its mild and i can get past it.
my fictionkin experience is mainly unpleasant (gradient) unfortunately. shifts are euphoric but also stressful. i tend to have to consciously ground myself a bit, because i have felt like im being watched in the past. i knew/know i wasnt, i just couldnt shake the feeling. i mean coming up with theories for the game where i can just completely let lose is fun, however it is saddening that i will probably never come up with a real one.
death note, touch tone telephone (i was based on that song so its not surprising), and i recently realized the backrooms does too. theres more im not thinking of
im not sure, its not psychological and i think dont believe in most spiritual things. its probably a multiversal thing, but i dont know from there so i usually just say unlabeled.
i do experience shifts! they are always triggered tho, thankfully. i dont get them too often. the first two shifts i had were me being paranoid abt things (the very first one was very out of control, but i was sleep deprived and depressed at the time). the second time i talked about two questions ago. i didnt have any shifts for awhile after that until i my plushie arrived, and i stayed up quite a bit just missing mediamates. that was rough. my later shifts were triggered by trying to come up with theories for the game, altho i wasnt aware i was shifted, until later, i thought i was just excited. the theories were really unhinged, and i thought i was a genius. it was rly fun tho. harmless shift. today i had a brief shift, i was looking at a bive fictionkin stimboard, and there was like a liminal space gif + music was playing, and it looked.. all too much like the lab. i started crying a bit, even tho i do not think have kinmemories, but it ended pretty quickly cuz my friend msged me a joke and the shock value got to me lol. ive also had phantom shifts, but not much recently. i may have had tail shifts, but its difficult to differentiate between kintypes
my media is regretevator on roblox! i do cringe at it sometimes tbh.
when i see fanart, it sort of feels like it was made FOR me specifically lol. what i know abt my canon heavily aligns with the fanon designs so thats cool. when it doesnt align i do feel a bit off tho- like no, that isnt me. you got it wrong. ironically this happened with a recent canon update, when they added melanie WHO IS DEAD. she was supposed to BE dead and STAY dead. and then also, why do i welcome her back?? why am i so friendly?? i mean i get that shes like friends or smth with split, but i just dont trust her. i have no reason not to, i just dont. that is WRONG. you. NO. get OUT.
ooh ooh! i like this question. i have a large, reptile-like (but hairy) non-prehensile tail! my hands and feet are clawed, with only 4 digits. for my feet i have like thumb things coming out of my heels, similar to a bird. i likely am very similar the upcoming remodel, but i cant confirm as i have not seen it. i just know im not a roblox character, and the previews of splits remodel feel very familiar.
ah.. ships. i dont see much of them outside me n split. if i do i just think its a bit weird, and move on. i wish i was seen as more than just someone who likes her. theres more to me. the majority of bive fans are mainly spive fans. i decided to look myself up on tumblr and i was just flooded with shipart. there is MORE TO ME. I AM MORE THAN HER. PLEASE SEE ME FOR ME.
in current lore me and split have feelings for each other (cant relate, im aro, but spive is in my canon tho) and are GOING to confess but that has not happened yet. i feel kinda weird abt it since i have very mixed feelings on romance, but i think we are a thing in my canon, because MY GOD I MISS SPLIT SO MUCH. I MISS HER.
Alex's fictionkin ask game!
(mostly for fictional characters)
๐ฒ - what is your fictotype?
๐ชฒ - do you miss your home? Or maybe you're happy that you're here?
๐ธ - do you have any sourcemates? If yes, who/what are they?
๐ณ - in scale 1-10, how are you similar to your canon?
๐ฟ - does your fictotype have a different sex/gender identity than your body/you?
โ๏ธ - what aspect of life does your identity affect the most?
๐ชด - is your fictionkin experience unpleasant or enjoyable for you?
๐ - what reminds you of your fictotype? (E.g.: a figurine, a doll, a tv series)
๐ - on what level is your identity? (E.g. spiritual, psychological, psychical)
๐ข - do you experience shifts? Of yes, how do they look like?
๐ฅ - what is your source?
๐ - how do you feel about fanarts of you and fanfictions?
๐ต - do you look exactly like in your source or do you look different? If you do, then what is different?
๐ฅ - what do you think about ships with you?
๐ฆ - do you have/had a loved one in your source?
โชโชโช
So, yeah, that's all! :D
Reblog this, so the others can ask you questions or answer them all right now, if you want to :>
#fictionkin#fictionfolk#otherkin#alterhuman#regretevatorfictionkin#regretevator fictionkin#regretevator bive#bive regretevator#bivefictionkin#bive#regretevator#sorry for the rant#split#regretevator split#spive
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Following you was the best decision I've ever made. Where else am I going to learn things like the types of cacti shown in the Anderfels in game are not ecologically accurate? I am being 100% genuine here I love it when you contribute random knowledge in lore discussions, best parts of my day when it happens
LMAO thank you anon this is very kind. the truth is I am simply an ecologist who cannot turn that part of my brain off even when i know better. like i KNOW the reason why there's cacti there is because someone just picked them from a list of vegetation assets to populate the region with but also ๐ญ ๐ญ ๐ญ ITS TOO WET THEY WOULD DIE
but yeah specifically i double majored in biology and geology in undergrad, then worked in a plant genetics lab during undergrad & the first year after I graduated, then I moved out west to do desert based fieldwork and started adding in a lot of soil science. now i have a masters in soil microbiology and am currently weeping my way through a PhD (dont ask about that one grad school is Hell).
but YEAH MAN specifically i've been living in and researching deserts for the last decade of my life so i'm always extra excited about those in games lmao. I'm the Hissing Waste's number 1 stan they RULE everyone else is just a COWARD who HATES RUNNING ACROSS HUGE MAPS FOR HOURS. have you instead considered taking a job in Death Valley so when you run through the dunes for 10 hours a day in 110ยบ weather you can console yourself with the thought "at least there isn't a phoenix attacking me right now. the worst thing that's happened to me today is falling into a rodent burrow"????? o those were the days. i used to write all my fanfic by headlamp in my sleeping bag while listening to coyotes get alarmingly close, and cursing the moon for how bright everything gets with light colored sand. If there were two moons in real life i WOULD be mad enough to condemn one to the otherside of the earth for 100 years so i could get some sleep too actually.
here have some drylands ive worked in while i'm being nostalgic
worldbuilding is my favorite favorite favorite part of fantasy/sci fi and i know not everyone has my background in how the actual "world" part works. so i don't condemn people who have gone into writing and arts fields for not understanding these things when they build maps but i really cannot turn off the part of my brain that opens a book or game map and instantly sees they have made the rivers 1. go uphill 2. diverge midway through (not a thing) and 3. in places that would make no sense given topography, mountains, etc that would impact weather & rainfall. only my TRUEST AND MOST WIZENED OG FOLLOWERS will remember how much i wept trying to map out the plate tectonics of Thedas in order to explain what the fuck the mountain ranges are doing what they are.
anyway lots of people have followed me in the last couple months so thanks for this excuse to make an intro post with a lil more about me :)
#ramblings#replies#anon#a portrait of the blogger#deserts my beloved i was so hoping we would see Nevarra but alas. necropolis very cool and all but im gonna rock climb up the statue and OU#give me the start open landscapes...
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Ciel, the internal struggle (A Deep Dive)
Ciel can be a hard one to get into the headspace of for writing or creating art at times. With some of the details coming to light of how Our Ciel (O!Ciel) is actually the younger of a set of twins and took the name of his older brother the Real Ciel (R!Ciel) gives more insight into his motivations. (I'm just going to refer to the MC as Ciel and his brother as his older brother to make it easier to read.) Ciel's history is dark, as this is a horror anime/manga, even if it has lighthearted moments. It's heavier than Moriarty, The Patriot and probably closer to DeathNote with the 'I monster I became, lest a monster I become' idea. It certainly has the Shinigami/Grim Reapers along with the investigations. Basically: This is your trigger warning that this post is going to be a bit heavy because this character has been through the wringer. If violence and abuse and s.a. are not something you can handle today, this is not the post for you. Please guard your mental health.
Okay! That said, I will try to be gentle with the subject, but it's not my forte.
Also: expect spoilers. This is a deep dive. If you haven't read or watched Black Butler, you may get too much information. By the same token, this is some very specific character stuff so it just might not make sense if you aren't familiar with the segments referenced. I'm going from early childhood and the conditions of the time period forward to where the manga and anime have covered thus far.) Onward! Ciel was born into an affluent family of privilege as an unhealthy younger son. His brother would have been set to inherit everything. The author, Yana Toboso, really strongly leaned in on the "heir and spare" idea, but seemed to overplay it with the 'why were you even born aspect'. The answer is right in the line heir and SPARE. With the setting, about 2 out of every 5 children died before the age of five in the 1800's as it was a time before vaccines. It is surprising that the family didn't have more children rather than it had two.
So expect that Ciel and his older brother had friends in their circle or heard from adults talking that some of the children they knew passed away before the inciting incident (the moment that started the story arc of the series) began. The Victorian Era is chock-full of examples of death being a regular part of the culture. This is important as it shapes what is 'normal' for Ciel.
Children that made it past the childhood diseases stage usually lived a long time, that would be particularly true of the upper class who had both regular meals, shelter, heat, and adequate clothing. The upper class was also able to have their houses cleaned regularly by staff and their linens bleached which killed off illnesses. (This is part of why 'white bedsheets' and 'white linens' are popular during this period and into the early 1900's. Dyed cloth would be ruined by bleach so such items were just kept white. White showed any stain, so having everything perfectly white meant they were either frequently replaced or scrupulously maintained. The wearing of white gloves meant you didn't get your hands dirty or could afford to replace/strongly clean them on the regular. (That or you were very, very cautious.) White was associated with purity which was associated with godliness. Those aspects show up in the series as well.
From the very title "Black Butler" to the red dress Ciel pulls out to adorn his aunt in, to the lilies Undertaker is seen with meaning "innocent" it's woven into the story. Ciel is also used to strong color in clothing. It was fashionable to change outfits at different times of the day. This showed off your wealth, as well as adjusted for changes in temperature/social situations. True blues, bright reds, and such were difficult to get, and so were very costly. Many dyes were not color-fast and used dangerous reagents to to make them.
That mourning black that you were expected to wear? You called out a tailor to your home and had the family sized for it and didn't go outside until you had the mourning clothing. What was in it? Arsenic. People who had that against their skin and sweated or got it wet could get arsenic poisoning and perish themselves! That saying "Don't cry your eyes out"? If someone mourned too heavily and got their veil wet could go blind from it! So changing clothing to avoid the dyes tainting your skin was also a good idea. Ciel likely had an occasion or two where playing around puddles got him and his brother in trouble because the dyes got on their skin and would take days to get back to normal. Likewise, some of the harsh chemicals, including the bleach, may have aggravated the main character's asthma. Those periodic episodes may have come right after the linens returned and were still strongly scented of the bleach used to clean them. Alternatively, the rainy/damp weather may have drawn out the arsenic in the Scheele's Green wallpaper at some of the homes they visited (made with arsenic again!).
This wallpaper and the stench of the waste dumped in the street and into the River Thames is why "The Season" existed. It came to be noticed that people felt ill when they were indoors (around the arsenic wallpaper) and did better outside in the (relatively) fresh air. So it became common to go out to the country during the warmer months for healthful constitutionals. It also got people away from the stench of the city. (Look up The Great Stink of 1858 in England. Ciel's parents would have experienced it.) Between that and the recommendation of the doctors of the time, Rachel and Vincent would have taken to bringing the children out to the country more.
Quite possibly, his parents originally lived in London more and then went to their mansion estate to stay after their children were born because of Ciel's health problems. Even so, his parents still entertained, as seen during the Noah's Ark Circus/Book of Circus arc. Vincent was still keeping his eye on the underworld for Queen Victoria. As such, he had more than social obligation, but a required need to interact frequently with the people in society in order to feel them out to determine which rumors were true and which were false.
To that end, we can expect that Ciel's father was eloquent and charming. We see him being a tender father and a dedicated, caring husband. He also had a flip side that had to handle taking out the threats to the Queen and he couldn't be squeamish about it. Because of that, the hunting trips with his sister were likely important to him. He could dress a deer or hide a body. Hunting as a sport was a great way to arrange an 'accident'. His sister, who is as good with a gun as a sword, shows an uptight demeanor around Ciel. Some of that is likely that she always worried about her brother and now worries about Ciel. Hence her wanting them to be perfect in both appearance and action. The job of the Queen's Guard Dog allowed no room for error. She may also harbor suspicions of Ciel's actual identity, hence the "fix your hair"! The ill younger brother may not have had to be meticulously groomed all the time, but the elder likely did. Moreover, having a slovenly appearance could lead to rumors of him being an imposter or just unfit for the role and he can't afford that. Rumors could kill.
The boys had undeniably heard about their family line holding this important position. There would be gentle explanations and some success stories or funny ones, then the untold part of why their grandparents were no longer around when other kids still had theirs. Ciel had some idea beforehand of what this life was like, but not the reality of it.
One of the holdovers from his grandparents time is the Undertaker. He was a friend to his grandmother Cloudia, and since she married the Queen's Guard Dog, he likely used his ability to read the records of the dead to aid them...although he then found tangible things like notes in pockets or inquiring in town to the right people. That he knew where to look for that piece of paper or which people to talk to would be considered a "knack". The brothers would also have known the members of Dad's secret club, the Aristocrats of Evil (or Villainous Nobles) as little gets past the eyes of children.
He had his circle of informants that he relied upon, as that was exactly who they were. The current iteration has Chlaus, Diedrich, Undertaker, Lau, Angelina Dalles (his aunt, deceased), Azzuro Vanel (deceased), Pitt, an Unidentified woman, and Unidentified man with a scarred left eye. (See: Kuroshitsuji fandom wiki, Aristocrats of Evil)
Chlaus, Diedrich, Lau, and Azzuro handled external/international threats. Lau and Azzuro are particularly about Chinese and Italian Mafia and the drugs and other contraband such groups were trying to bring into England. Undertaker was the only place to get aid with funerals and a little with medical advice and surgeries (I suspect). He handled news from the less affluent quarters and listened in the corners at funerals as they were big events and people talked. The truth could come out of what a person was really like and these occasions were as important as weddings for networking. Knowing who was arranging meetings with whom could prove important later.
He also had insight into supernatural goings on, however he may or may not have relayed it. Angelina Dalles, aka Madame Red, ran in the social circles of the aristocrats and heard all the latest gossip. Those leads, and her information from being a medical practitioner could allow the Queen's Guard Dog to know who was up to what and then have the medical reports to back up claims if someone got injured suspiciously. Pitt is a paparazzi before that title got popular. People love sensational stories and he would get them or pictures for the paper who ran them. Unlike Diedrich, Undertaker, or Angelina, he has no deeper ties of loyalty to the family and is purely there for the money.
This circle is whom Ciel inherits and it almost immediately begins breaking down. The loyalty to his father did not simply translate to him in all cases. Life also moved on and people change. Hence the attempted kidnapping by Azzuro and the discovery of Madame Red's dark activities on the side. Some are overly attached, such as Undertaker, and the tale is taking some wild turns because of it. That there are multiple supernatural beings having a hand in his life (Undertaker, Sebastian, Grelle), some arcs do not resolve naturally (such as the potential redemption of his aunt at the end of the Red Reaper arc) while his continued existence is itself due to supernatural intervention (the butler).
This causes him to rely more and more on his butler, which is exactly how Sebastian desires it. It is also why when Soma and Agni appear on the scene it is such a consternation for his butler. Soma claims friendship, regardless of how Ciel tries to distance himself, and has the social status to ignore Ciel's attitudes. Likewise, Agni shows himself not only a potent peer to Sebastian, but skilled at organizing others so that their talents shine. (The servants competently preparing things in the kitchen together in the anime under Agni's supervision in contrast to their incompetence being resolved solely by Sebastian in the first episode and at the picnic later with Lizzy.) The selfishness of the demon and his pride made him want to show off his skills and talents. Growing the skills of the others doesn't come naturally to him, nor is it desirable as it would diminish the young master's reliance upon him. That shock is very real and a moment of growth in the butler, but goes a little under the radar for Ciel. The young master was likely just grateful things were quiet for an afternoon among his servants.
Ciel not only needed to step into his brother's shoes, he had to start handling the accounts for the estate. Which begs the question:
Why Ciel?
(Informational) He may have overheard the kidnappers describing the requirements for making a pact with a demon if one showed up. If he somehow had the presence of mind, he may have given the false name to the demon in hopes of getting out of the pact later if he decided he didn't like what was going to happen.
(Coldly Rational) He may have known that there would be other claimants for his family's position and he could lose his position and possibly fall into the hands of the person who betrayed them if he came back as his true named self. As Ciel, even being young, he would be the strongest claimant for the position and it would allow him to investigate who did this to his family.
(Romantic Notion) He could have taken it simply to keep some part of his beloved twin alive. It would be the only memorial he could have for him. This was a difficult thing for him to pull off even as close as he was as it seems his brother was more extroverted and probably tougher and sassier. It's one thing to look like his brother; it's another to consistently pass as his brother. Hence how Lizzy felt so horrible that she had missed it or glossed over the signs once the older brother made his appearance. Falling ill from his asthma would have been a dead giveaway to those closest to him, hence he didn't disclose it even to his butler. Yet his life and plan relied upon it.
Another part of Ciel's life now revolved around social interaction. He not only had to do the books, but he had to tour the lands and talk to the people who worked it for him and provided his living. This is something his brother would have been getting introduced to, but he may not have. In the anime, the butler helps facilitate it just as he handled it up until that point. Having Sebastian provide the names and backgrounds before they arrived and appraising Ciel of what their needs were would help Ciel to ingratiate himself in his father's place. That he actually addresses their concerns and insures things run smoothly at that level even if it costs him some of his funds, solidified the worker's support.
I suppose we must now address what happened that launched the Black Butler story. While the boys would have been sheltered, the trips to their other holdings would have exposed them to some of what life was like in the rest of England and particularly London.
They would see people being homeless in the street, hear about the long hours for the working class where their bosses wouldn't let them have rest breaks off their feet, causing them to have health issues. People losing body parts from industrial accidents, getting illnesses that weren't treatable or were given quack treatments, these were all common in his world. They'd hear some of it from their aunt interspersed with boring gossip as well as their friends and family's attitudes towards the other classes. There were the realities in the world he and his brother were getting introduced to as they reached double digits and were starting to get taken around to learn how to govern their lands.
Somewhere amongst those friends and relatives was someone who planned to overthrow their father. The manga has a meeting between Vincent and Diedrich where the twins are present where it seems like Vincent may have an inkling that something risky is coming up. That or they just finished something that made Vincent concerned for the future as he asks Diedrich to give his allegiance and support to his son should something happen to him. Likewise, the anime showed that Vincent knew his fate was coming to meet him and he couldn't avoid it. However, he didn't expect for his children to be caught up in it, nor likely his wife. Speculation: It may be that when the Queen's Guard Dog becomes too well-known, they aren't as effective. Alternatively, there may be a set term limit to insure there is no question of loyalty from corruption or bribery. That would allow he family to continue to pass down the responsibility each generation, yet explain why they wind up having shortened lifespans. (Not that the job is oh-so-safe in the first place!)
There is evidence that the older brother knew the people who did it and was likely duped into letting them into the house or giving up information that would allow them to infiltrate. It is unlikely that he was actively attempting to take over. Given his age and skill level, he wouldn't be ready to take over for his father. It could be a Lion King sort of moment, as Yana has drawn from Hamlet for this tale as well, but if so then it would have been to convince the heir that they would like to be the Earl sooner. Wouldn't it be fun?
It would be interesting if one of the people involved planned to manipulate the heir, while those under him had a different idea since they suffered under the Watch Dog and figured getting rid of the family entirely and selling off the kids would be more effective. Either way, our Ciel knows that his brother knew something about their attackers.
They were sold in the underground, quite likely by the Viscount of Druitt himself or an underling. It appeared to be a very upper-class group involved. The images showed rather well-dressed people and Undertaker was caught off-guard by event and had trouble retrieving the twins during that month. Upper class in this case may also involve angels, which would truncate Undertaker's ability to act which may be why he didn't get the older brother back until he had passed. Alternatively, he only got it back when the crime scene was discovered and so had whatever hours the child had been dead to deal with in reanimating him. Yet if the site was burned, it implies he was nearby and able to swoop in as soon as it fell into the grey area that Grim Reapers operate in. Whether or not we will get to see angels has yet to be determined in the manga although the first season of the anime had them. While much of the anime is not cannon, Yana clearly had themes she relayed that she is running with. It would feel a bit incomplete to have the black and the grey without the white for this canvas. What we do have is a play on the spiritual movement and esoteric fascination of the time.
France was profiting on this by selling books said to be "meant for church use" in the introduction which allowed them to hock ones listing supposed demons. Many of them were barely altered names of gods among other things. Such books were considered restricted items normally just as sexually explicit pieces were. Hence the use of the 'for church use' tag to slip it past the censors. These were displayed in secretive collections as Victorians wanted to be 'in the know'. (So just because a source is old doesn't mean it's reputable. People trying to scam others have always existed.) However, this means people were attempting to discover the secrets beyond the Veil. The bored rich had the time and resources to try and summon the demons listed.
One particularly decadent group in the Black Butler setting turned to performing the most perverse rites, harming children bought through Druitt or some other seller. To these people the twin Phantomhive children went. The group spent a month turning them from pure and innocent into terribly shocked, ill, abused children all to try to summon a demon. At the end, they sacrificed one of the pair and it worked. Unbeknownst to them, a sacrifice had to be something that had meaning and closeness to you. Hence the demon went to Ciel. His brother's soul acted as the price for passage. He also had the strongest emotions and desire in the place, a desire for revenge.
During it all, the pair relied on each other for strength and purpose. They kept swallowing their father's signet ring and digging through the dung later to retrieve it and swallow it again so that it wouldn't be taken from them and they could prove whom they were once they escaped. That support is likely what kept them from breaking utterly as with the other children. It was clear they weren't given enough food, and were force fed to keep them alive, and their fine clothes were worn down to or replaced with rags. They were getting close to passing from the neglect. That was when the group pulled one of them from the cage at random. They didn't know they took the eldest, and that was important for the younger brother in order to assume the eldest's identity. With the loss of his brother, Ciel's anger outweighed his despair in that moment and brought the demon to his side. He had nothing left to lose in his mind, so he made the pact. Then his first order was to kill all those present and to burn the place to the ground.
While this would seem to make sense, who wouldn't want to destroy everything after such an event? It also feeds into his mindset after all he went through. Ciel wants oblivion. Had it been him on the altar, he probably would have felt relief and just given up. However, with duty pressed so hard on him and the loss of his brother, he felt compelled to live through the moment. However, once he has satisfied his need to know who did this to his family and exact his revenge, he wants not to die, but to no longer be. Oblivion.
In the first season anime, he showed that he intended to keep his part of the Faustian pact. Interestingly, while he didn't want to continue, he asked that Sebastian not make an effort to be gentle as he wanted the pain of it to be engraven upon his soul as proof that he had a life that was worth living. In that iteration, the butler simply replied, "Indeed, my young lord."
With all he had been through, Ciel would not believe himself able to come back from that damage. There is evidence of this. We get to see him suffering nightmares for months on end as the butler stays by his side and protects him. Likewise, when he faces other children being put through what he faced in a recreation of the rite, he has the butler burn the place down just as he did before. He intimates that no one that has gone through such things is really there anymore. Since he doesn't ask the other children if they want to live, he is answering based on his own experience and mindset - they are walking dead to him. Because of how he treats them, you can see how he feels about himself. He's going through the motions, but he feels he's already dead inside but for duty and revenge.
Given how little mental health care existed at the time, there isn't much reason or chance for him to recover. The Queen certainly has him hopping right away and the breakneck pace of a case every two weeks to a month doesn't allow Ciel much time to sort himself.
One of the best aids for his mindset is the presence of Lizzy. Because she is a callback to the good days of his childhood, and because of his responsibility to her as a fiancรฉ in place of his brother, he pulls upon older memories and reactions. While dusty, they are still there. He indulges her, partially to hide whom he really is, and partially as he knows he can never fulfill her dream and be her husband. It is unlikely that he can view he games of man and maid in any wholesome light after all he had been through. For this reason, I cannot see Ciel honestly being paired with anyone.
It could be he could grow over time and find some form of happiness. Yana drew a 'what if' piece for Ciel if he had stayed on at the circus with Doll. So that if the conditions were right, he might find some level of safety and comfort could have maybe been possible, but given this is a horror anime with a Faustian pact, it isn't meant to be. Moreover, since he is fully aware of his deal, Ciel knows he must stick to his bargain or forfeit his life early. He doesn't dare express too much affection, even if he feels some amount of it, lest he trigger some nullification clause that takes him out before his revenge is complete. We see this in the Green/Emerald Witch arc where Ciel has to recover from his brush with a a dangerous chemical and winds up being too afraid for a while to continue his hunt. At that point, Sebastian goes in to eat him and gets rebuffed. When Ciel asks if he were actually going to do it, Sebastian replies he was only 90% serious. So yes, Ciel has parameters set to continue to have the services of his butler. That also means he can't necessarily take time to heal.
In the anime, Sebastian describes the experiences and emotions Ciel has gone through as a sort of seasoning to his soul. Since he wants his master to be at some desired flavor combinations of emotions, it is unlikely that he would tolerate changes that would undo something the demon considered beneficial towards his later repast.
That is another reason it can be hard to get into Ciel's head as some of what he does is driven by the butler's requirements rather than his own. Ciel does state what he wants to achieve. What he has to go through to get it is not necessarily what Ciel bargained for, somewhat literally.
Another side of Ciel is the further loss of people close to him. Those who should have been on his side, protecting him, became mortal enemies. This was especially true of his own aunt, Angelina Dalles. As I mentioned above, she appeared to be about to repent and possibly reconcile with Ciel when her life was ended by the Grim Reaper/Shinigami she had befriended and run with. Seeing her true motivations and thoughts in her cinematic record, Grelle Sutcliff declared her "unworthy of the color red" and claimed her jacket.
Now it could be that the shock of the events cause Ciel to forget meeting the Grim Reaper, or it could be that once away from such supernatural beings, the events tend to grow fuzzy and slip out of mind. People don't tend to handle such well. Add in the other things Ciel has been through and it isn't surprising that he might throw it all in a box in the back of the attic of his mind and label it as "do not open".
At his aunt's funeral, Ciel went against all custom at the time and ignored the idea that dressing her in white. Dressing someone in white was to prepare them for their arrival in Heaven. Instead he says she always looked best in flaming red and presents her with her own red dress. Whether this is a desire to throw away the pretense and embrace the person she really was or a revelation of her sinful nature and death at her funeral is up to debate. He didn't accuse her for he doesn't see himself as better than her. His hands are just as covered in blood. However, he chose to honor her passing as a family member that he once cared for and shed tears for her although Lizzy shed more for both of them. That loss left Ciel a little colder, more isolated, and more cynical than before.
Certainly it is easier for Ciel to escape dealing with his traumas by keeping busy and moving forward towards his ultimate goal. Yet that feels a little false. People can't run from their experiences forever. When they get overtired or overtaxed those things will come out. Likewise, trauma revisits when people do start to heal. The brain says "you're in a better place, let's process things!" So in some sense, the Green Witch arc forced him to process some of the horrors he's seen before facing more. Likewise, his trust in his other servants, particularly Finny, increases during those trials. Much of Ciel's outlook towards other people is cynical and utterly untrusting. He doesn't believe in goodness anymore or God. If people are being nice, they must be hiding other motives in his book. That's why he thinks he can be transactional with someone like Abberline and can't quite process that maybe there really are people, outside of the ones from his past like Lizzy, that are actually as good as they appear.
With the Campania/Book of the Atlantic arc, Ciel has to face his feelings towards Lizzy. There are hints of him heading towards puberty as he starts feeling more awkward around her, but doesn't know what to do with those emotions. Then he gets to find out how capable she really is and how she can protect him as much as he desired to protect her.
Protective is the primary feeling he has towards Lizzy. She is that last strong link to his past that is positive. For that reason, he's willing to do a great deal to protect her body and her feelings. That doesn't mean he's always good at it or that he's tolerant of all her actions, he's still a young boy just growing into his teens himself, but he tries hard to master his own emotions and find the words needed to be gracious to her when all is said and done. He also knows he can do nothing but let her down ultimately, so he's doing his best to do so gently that she might keep the better memories of him when he's no longer there.
By the Public School arc, Ciel has become better at hiding his true self and being ruthless in his pursuit and smooth with his lies. He learned to paste on a fake smile in the circus and has butted heads with enough adults that he has a good idea of how people work. He's not used to dealing with peers and so underestimates them just as adults underestimate him...with similar results. By the end, he has achieved a level of competence that can carry him towards his final goal.
When we arrive at the Blue Sect arc and beyond, those skills and resolve get challenged as he faces his older brother and is driven from his home and all his resources. This echoes the anime where London is burning and he is forced out and loses access to his butler for a time. His situation and limitations physically are made clear as he can hardly dress himself without help. If the manga keeps going with the theme, Ciel may have to sell off or lose the few things he's held onto such as the family signet ring and the Phantomhive cursed blue ring. This is sort of a call back to the preparation for death. A version of "you can't take it with you" where Ciel must determine what is still important as things disintegrate around him. He can't hold on to relationships nor items, nor is he supposed to. Only he can decide in the end, from a detached point of view, if his life and efforts are worth having lived at all. So we will see how the manga finishes out. This was quite a long and rambling piece that took me all day to complete. Hopefully it will give you, the reader, some insight on Ciel's inner thoughts as well as what shaped him growing up so you can read deeper into his past and story and possibly write him better or a little easier. He's troubled, secretive, and secretly still caring and trying to do what he thinks is right to a degree, while denying that he still holds any such notions dear to his heart anymore. He lies, manipulates, and lies to himself as well, but he still moves forward and embraces his mistakes and learns from them. He has no veil in front of his eyes, and hopes for nothing in his future as he attempts to fulfill a single set of goals/wishes. That's Ciel Phantomhive at this point in time. Whether he is purely mortal, some strange blend of immortal and mortal, or simply a version of Hamlet, he stands in as the wounded character faced with a tragic story that he can't stop, but he can chose how he goes out for that final bow. Let me know if you agree or disagree or see him in a different light.
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today in web animation
mephone needs a hug, cobs needs to be shot, and everyone in Solarballs is also traumatized for unrelated reasons
#Why is there so much death today specifically#in both II and Solarballs#anyways cobs needs to suffer#letโs hope November brings a happy ending to the story#and brings back everyone because#thereโs no way a show this character driven would end like this#it would be stupid and the writers arenโt stupid#also II is still fundamentally a childrenโs show#you kindaโฆhave to have at least somewhat happy endings for those#everyone will be back#it justโฆwill take a while#also I swear if MePhone gets killed off I will scream
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every time someone makes a point to say that "Marinette doesn't wear makeup, she isn't like other girls" I want to SIGH because not only does Marinette Actually Wear Makeup in canon, it is exhausting that it is 2023 and people are still doing the "not like other girls" thing
#i understand personal preferences#and like yes death to the capitalistic makeup industry#but she literally wears eyeliner and mascara in canon and eyeshadow as well in the movie#idk what to tell u#text post#idk why this specific detail bothers me so much#some girls do in fact like makeup as a fun way to express themselves#this is still super prevalent in fics today for some reason.
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Ima eat you and your writing itโs so good can I please get a whiny sub Luffy x domtop male reader whoโs like kinda tall Iโm talking a tad bit shorter then brook type tall you can ignore if this is too specific ๐ love your work
EAT YOU UP โ TOP MALE READER X MONKEY D. LUFFY
synopsis. luffy loved to sleep in your lap. it was warm, comfortable, and a big enough seat for him to nestle into. it didn't particularly bother you, and even if it did, you wouldn't be able to say no to your adorable captain anyway. just like you hadn't been able to say no to him when his ulterior motives re-surfaced. wc. 1.6k
tags. whiny! sub! luffy, dom! reader. size difference, reader's got a big cock, anal sex, virginity loss, cum eating, tongue-fucking, blowjob, he has no gag reflex, luffy being luffy, bit fluffy ngl
Luffy revelled in your size difference.ย
The way you towered over him, your large hands being able to completely encircle his waist. Not to mention, you made such a good makeshift bed that he just couldnโt help but snuggle into your lap most afternoons, just to take a fat nap.ย
You never really minded, as it didnโt interfere with your routine. Plus, having a lap warmer with you anywhere you went was undeniably a huge bonus.ย
Today was one of those afternoons.ย
Luffy hummed a song, squirming on your lap to find a comfortable position for his nap. You didnโt think much of it at first, until he started shifting about, his back pressed against your chest to directly sit on your cock.ย
You froze, feeling the heat rush to your face, and somewhere elseโit didnโt help that the rubber captain never kept still. Still, you couldnโt find it in you to push him off, as he had looked up at you with an adorably blinding grin, his gummy smile having wormed its way into your heart long ago.ย
โLuffy,โ you began awkwardly.ย
โYouโre hard today.โย
You spluttered. โIโm what today?โย
He turned around in your lap to blink innocently at you. โYouโre harder than usual today, y/n!โย
โOh. Hahaโฆ I am, arenโt I?โ You let out a breath of relief. It hadnโt occurred to you that Luffy quite possibly didnโt know about that sort of stuff; or perhaps wasnโt interested in all, seeing as he never bat an eye to the beautiful, well-endowed Boa Hancock who practically threw herself at him at every chance.ย
You were absorbed in your thoughts until you felt a hand palm your hard cock roughly.ย
โLuffy!โ Your hips bucked upwards, nearly throwing him off your lap. โWhat was that forโโย
โSo yours does the same thing, too. Shishi, I thought my dick was broken when I touched it and it turned hard!โย
Oh. So he had touched himself before. Guess you could save yourself from having to give ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝthe talkโ to an absolute airhead.ย
โWow,โ Luffy continued to squeeze and fondle your cock through the thin layer of your pants, making you bite your lip to suppress a groan. โYouโre pretty big!โย
โCaptain,โ you snapped, finally, glaring at him as he pouted. โThis isnโt appropriate.โย
โBut why not?โ he protested, still not releasing his death-grip on your cock.ย
โThisโweโarenโt in that sort of relationship.โย
Luffy simply frowned. โDo we have to be in a relationship to touch each otherโs dicks?โย
โWell, no, butโโย
โGood!โย
Before he went back to straight-up kneading your poor cock, you grabbed his wrists and bound them behind his back with one hand.ย
โBut why?โ he whined loudly, bottom lip jutting out as he stared up at you. โI want to! You gotta let me! Iโm the captain!โย
You sighed. โYou may be my captain, but that doesnโt mean you get to take advantage of your superiority to sexually harass me whenever you want.โย
โIโm not sensually harassing you, or whatever that is!โย
โItโs โsexually harassโ, not sensually harass. Andโwhy do you even want to do this in the first place? Youโve never acted like this before when you napped on me before.โย
โI just suddenly want to! Whatโs the matter with that?!โ Luffy looked petulant, almost angry as he couldnโt get what he wanted, and he retracted one of his legs hooked around your waist to tramp on your cock.ย
You let out a guttural moan at that, and Luffyโs eyes had widened visibly, as though he wanted to hear more.ย
โHey, y/n? My dickโs hard.โย
โIs this what you wanted, baby?โย
Luffyโs knees were pressed into the mattress above his shoulders, making good use of his stretchiness as he shudders and whines a response beneath you. His hole is stretched perfectly around your cock, warm and wet and tight, taking you to the brim so well.ย
โY-yeah, puhโplease!โ he wailed desperately, raking his nails on your back as you angled your hips, thrusting up into his sweet spot. โSoโso bigโah!โย
โThere it is.โ You grinned, hands fully wrapping around his waist to tug him back onto your cock like a ragdoll, perfectly nailing his prostate again. โThink we found it, mm?โย
Luffy nodded his head weakly, trembling all over as you railed him into the mattress with each heavy thrust, before dragging him back. โFeels really g-good! Rightโright there!โย
โHere, captain?โ You purposefully missed, tip of your cock barely grazing it, and he whined shamelessly.ย
โNo! Not there!โ he moaned, shaking his head in frustration as he looked at you with pleading eyes. โY/n, I need it s-so bad!โย
You would have never thought that Luffy was capable of such dirty talking. But right nowโwith your captain willingly spreading his legs for you, hole stretched wide open and insides rearranging themselves to fit your huge cock, you couldnโt even process it except for how good it felt.ย
โAnd whatโs the magic word, love?โย
โM-magic word?โ He blinks at you confusedly. โI donโt know anyโany magic word! Iโm notโa magician, ah, silly!โย
Warmth curled in your chest at how utterly ridiculous Luffy was, and you gave a little laugh, before leaning down to kiss him. Luffy kissed you back with eagerness, biting and sucking impatiently at your lower lip. As you fucked your tongue into that pliant little mouth of his, mirroring your cockโs every thrust, he had sucked on it and moaned around it, drool spilling down the sides of his mouth as though it felt heavenly for him.ย
โSo fullโฆโ Luffy whimpered around your tongue, eyes rolling back in ecstasyโand you couldnโt pinpoint which hole he was referring to.ย
You reeled back after a long kiss, going back to pounding into him as he whined for โharderโ, for โmoreโ, and โwanting to eat the funny liquid that comes out of your cockโ.ย
Your breath hitched in surprise as you realised what Luffy meant. โWant me to cum down your throat, baby? That what you want?โ You could feel yourself getting closer and closer, his warm, spongy walls pulsating around you every time you pulled back, as though wanting to keep you inside forever.ย
โYes, yesโwanna, wanna know what you taste like, y/n!โ he babbled mindlessly, clinging on to your shoulders as you flattened the head of your cock against his prostate, grinding hard and deliberately. โUgh, ughโit feels weirdโโย
โYeah? You gonna come for me, sweetheart? Fucking do itโcum on my cock, captain.โย
With the mention of his title, Luffyโs eyes squeezed shut before his head lolled back with a loud, drawn-out moan, body jerking violently and cock spurting all over his chest and abdomen. His hole clenched around you as tight as sin, and you had to hold back with all your willpower to not come on the spot.ย
Luffy panted, still twitching beneath you as he raised one shaky finger, bringing it up to his face to point into his open mouth. Asking silently.ย
You couldnโt believe what you were seeing, but once you got the green light, you rammed back into his twitching hole, no longer prioritising his pleasure over yours, only able to process how divine it felt to be making love to your captain. As you felt yourself getting closer and closer to your orgasm, you pulled out of his hole all of a sudden and plunged your cock into his ready, parted mouth, cumming so hard down his throat you felt yourself ascend.ย
Luffyโs lips wrapped around the base of your cock, sucking hard and milking you throughout your orgasm. You groaned, low and deep, thrusting messily into tight wet heat as cum steadily dribbled down a vacuum, as though insatiable.ย
You released your hold on his hair as you felt yourself go soft, staring incredulously down at a red-faced Luffy who was sucking at you as if he was trying to swallow your entire cock.ย
โLuff,โ you huffed, gently wiping away a line of his own cum that had somehow splattered on his collarbones. โThatโs enough.โย
It was then that he finally pulled back, frantically sucking air through his mouth. โIโI couldnโt taste it,โ he whined, the corners of his lips turning down unhappily. โYour cum, or whatever. I couldnโt taste it and it went down my throat!โย
Oh. Oh.ย
You suppressed a laughโbecause that was what he was being prissy about. Caressing his face affectionately, you went to lay down beside him. โIโm sorry. Next time Iโll just put the tip inside.โย
โItโs fine. I felt full enough.โย
Luffy had to stop dropping these one-liners that made you gape.ย
โWhat? Whyโre you lookinโ at me like that?โ He looked at you, frowning with confusion. โYโknow, this almost made me as full as the banquet-thingy Sanji put together last week. There was so much yummy food! Your dick was really good, too, thoughโso donโt get jealous.โย
You really had to get used to the way Luffy talkedโbecause he talked way too much and it drove you absolutely crazy. In an almost โtoo goodโ way. This had to stop.ย
โLuffy.โ You pulled him into your arms, pressing a kiss to his cheek as he giggled happily. โStop talking.โย masterlist! # luffy is such a fun character to write lol
#โง blood of reptile.#top male reader#dom male reader#luffy x male reader#monkey d luffy x male reader#monkey d luffy x reader#luffy x reader#one piece#one piece x reader#one piece x male reader#top reader#dom reader#male reader#x male reader#bottom character#monkey d. luffy#bottom male character#one piece smut#no beta we die like ace
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Iโm a Size Medium, Thanks - 2
Part one: https://www.tumblr.com/snaileer/766471879423885312/im-a-size-medium-thanks
Danny stares into the eyes of what has got to be the grumpiest looking 12-14?10? How tall are children?- year old heโs ever met. And he grew up with Sam!
Danny looks back through the door, hoping to everything that an adult walks through. He is disappointed.
โWell?โ The boy snaps, foot tapping.
โUh, can I help.. you?โ Danny says, voice ticking up. Thatโs what youโre supposed to say at a job right? Or maybe the kid wasnโt supposed to be here, โDo you need to call someoneโฆ?โ He hopes not, he doesnโt know how or if the shop has a phone, and hisโฆ well his is wired through a realm of the dead so enough said there.
โMy name is Damian Wayne.โ He says primly. And expectantly.
Danny looks outside again, past the neon sign he specifically hadnโt turned on, then back at the Damian kid, blinking. Thereโs no way this was that โMr.Wayne.โ
The kid rolls his eyes impressively well then drops his glare back onto Danny, โHas this absurd incense burned away whatever meager sense you were born with? I am here to have a so-called โreadingโ with a medium.โ
If Danny hadnโt seen this Damian kid walk in with three whisps of shades wrapped around his arms, Danny would have questioned why, but he did, so he doesnโt.
He does, however, say: โArenโt you a little youngโฆ to be like.. talking about death or something?โ Though honestly, the incense is a real concern, Danny hadnโt even lit any today, Claire had just left it burning and the whole room was saturated.
โWill you fulfill your job description or not, you peasant?โ The kid grits out.
Danny would really rather not. Like really rather not. But nOoo, here he was, waiting for a portal that could show up at any time, pretending he was a medium for a 7 year old just because he could talk to ghosts.
Danny sighs and drags himself around the counter to go into Claireโs weird little seance room. Maybe the fumes will kill him before the embarrassment does.
The kid follows.
Danny drops himself into Claireโs chair with weirdly plush armrests for still being so uncomfortable.
โAlright then, letโs get this over with. Iโm Danny, the -ugh- medium. Whatdya wanna know?โ Danny says as he kicks his leg out to hit a shade getting agitated and grabby by Damianโs feet. They got way too much of a spiritual boost from this room for Danny to be comfortable with it.
Damian watches him with a raised eyebrow, still not sitting down, โArenโt you meant to lead the seance?โ
Dannyโs lip curls in distaste, he huffs a sigh and lets his shoulders drop, opening his mouth to tell this 9-year old something easy about one of his shades and be done-
He spots a sticky note stuck on the crystal ball.
-Danny, donโt forget, the showmanship is important! I trust you know how to meet expectations! Happy first day!
- Claire <3
Danny feels his face go deadpan. He was going to have this woman committed. Thatโs what he was going to do. She could be studied for the degenerative cognitive effects of being freaking bazonkers.
Danny plucks the note off the crystal ball and crumples it, letting the trash drop to the abyss that is Claireโs plush carpet.
He sighs, looking back up at Damian. The kid snaps his head towards him from where heโd been poking around the curtained walls- weirdo- but Danny beats him to the snappy comment.
โYou got any spiritually charged items? Or likeโฆ something?โ Danny says, taking a guess, he can make the thingy glow, say some nonsense, get paid, and close.
Damian narrows his eyes at him, but slowly moves to sit in the other chair, perched on the edge of the seat. He pulls something from his pocket and sets it on the table.
Pearls.
Itโs a clump of shiny white pearls.
Absolutely dripping in ectoplasmic blood stains. So lovely.
Does Claire have biohazard gloves because oh gosh-
Danny hesitantly reaches for the pearls, lifting the strand between two fingers as he looks between it and the 12 year old. โYou sure this is what you want to ask about?โ
The kidโs glare turns challenging, mocking, โWhat? Admitting you are nothing but a charlatan?โ
Danny grimaces, โNot quite. I meanโฆโ He looks at the pearls again, then at the shade trying to hack away at the kids neck, โThereโs definitely someone or something attached to this itโs justโฆ not .. yours.โ
โTt,โ the boy clicks his tongue at him, โand how exactly would you know that, charlatan?โ Damian levels a mocking look up and down at him.
Dannyโs eye twitches as he grimaces a smile, โPart of the job-โ brat. Danny doesnโt say that. Danny canโt say that. Danny has to deal with death obsessed TODDLERS who want to talk about some randoโs gruesome murder just so he can eat tonight. Or find somewhere to sleep. He doubts this will be enough for both.
Maybe if heโs dramatic enough.
Alright get to it then, Danny.
He sighs, dimming the light with Claireโs little remote- he is not so far gone as to turn them green like she had- and actually focusing his energy on the pearl necklace.
โWhat are you-โ
Danny holds up a finger at Damian to silence him, which surprisingly works. He closes his eyes and starts trying to absorb the ectoplasmic remains as slowly as he can.
Feelings of course come with it and- well whatโd ya know, he can definitely feel this attached to a ghost somewhere in this city.
โItโs a womanโsโฆ younger than she should have been when sheโฆโ
He can hear Damian scoff, โObviously, anyone could tell me that.โ
Danny rolls his eyes under his eyelids, debating the merits of opening one to glare at him when his eyes are definitely glowing.
โSheโs still here but-โ Danny says instead, trying to pull on the connection wandering out into the streets, โShe canโt come here here.โ
โWhat do you mean?โ The boy snaps.
Danny tries to focus harder on it himself, heโs never done this before, tried to find or community with a ghost from an objectโฆ it was like Pointdexter and his mirror.
โSheโs stuck somewhereโฆ somewhere more important.. itโs dark and narrow and Danny mentally rears back as images flash into his mind. Accompanied of course by a womanโs scream.
An alley. A gun. A man stepping in front of her to protect her- no not her- a kid- Damian- not Damian- looks like-
Danny opens his eyes and drops the necklace. Thereโs barely any ectoplasm left on it.
Fine with him, he never wants to touch it again.
โWell?โ An impatient voice asks and- oh yeah thatโs right, the rude ass kid.
Danny pushes the pearls across the table with a finger and looks up at him, โWoman in an alley, that familiar to you?โ
Damianโs eyes narrow, โAnyone who knows who I am could tell me the same.โ
Danny snaps, โI donโt-!โ This is a child Danny, a child, โWell she was scared for the kid, and now isโฆ proud of him? Thereโs a lot of concern there, but she still watches him I guess, so thatโs all I got for ya.โ
Damian scrutinizes him for a minute, silent. Darn, werenโt mediums supposed to be vague as heck so that anything could apply and the person would find their own meaning? But did it count if he was just translating the vibes off a shade half a city away?
โThis isโฆ. acceptable.โ
Danny nearly sags in relief and moves to stand, โCool, then-โ
โWait.โ The kid holds up a hand, โYou said something regarding a disparity in the proposed ownership of the apparition you believed to be related to this jewelry.โ
Danny blinks at him dumbly.
Damian scoffs again, โThat the apparition attached to this necklace was โnot mine,โ as you said??โ He snarks, putting air quotes up.
Danny slowly sinks back down into the chair. โโฆ Well yeah I mean..โ does he tell this 8 year old about the slightly murderous shades heโs got around him? โYou haveโฆ you have a coupleโฆ apparationsโฆ yourself. Not related to the pearls that is.โ Danny says hesitantly, eyes skipping over said shades.
Damian jerks his head to follow his eyes and Danny shirks back, eyes back on the kid.
โWho are they? Tell me now,โ Damian demands, standing to loom over the table.
Danny puts his hands up in surrender, โWhoa, I donโt know about that, they donโt really seem too happy with you-โ Another one tries to slice his hand through Damianโs neck, โI think you did something to them or made them angry at some point. I donโt really think you should try to contact them-โ Danny winces, that could end very badly. Thank goodness for limited ectoplasm access.
Meanwhile, his answer seems to have only made Damian more upset, his eyes wide as he stares down at Danny.
Suddenly the kid turns and stamps towards the door, leaving Danny to hurriedly push the chair out and chase after him to the main room.
Except-
When he gets there Damian is already shooting hushed insults at a man standing amongst the crystals.
The man looks vaguely like Damian, black hair, blue eyes, lithe build, and oh also- surrounded by shades of course.
These ones seem less vicious at least.
Please donโt be here for him. Please donโt be here for him.
Danny really doesnโt want to try and fake his way through another hour or however long itโs been of that.
โHey there! Iโm Dick, Damianโs brother!โ The man says suddenly, pushing Damian aside and coming forward with a cheery grin, โThanks for humoring him!โ
Danny tilts his head to see Damianโs scowling face behind the man. Right.
โUh huhโฆ Iโm Danny.โ He says, trying not to be distracted by what heโs pretty sure is a baby elephantโs ghost behind him.
โYouโre the medium right? We were just so interested to see if that old family heirloom would have anything or not. We-โ
โWe?โ Damian cuts him off with a scoff, โI will meet you in the vehicle Richard. I will not spend another minute in this house of charlatans.โ
They both watch as the kid turns and stomps out the door, uncrossing his arms only to open the door and stomp out. The stupid bell rings merrily.
This time itโs not Danny who sighs.
โI wish he wouldnโt say things like that,โ Dick says wearily, โI grew up in places like this.โ Thereโs a note of nostalgia to his voice. Danny just eyes the bowl of โfertilityโ crystals warily.
Dick must see him do it because he huffs a laugh, โIโm Roma, Romani that is. I grew up in a circus originally,โ he explains, โSo psychic places always just kinda remind me of my auntieโs tents.โ
Danny glances at the elephant shaped ghost again, โWow that makes so much sense actually.โ
The guy raises a confused eyebrow at him.
Danny coughs awkwardly, waving it away, โSo, money?โ He claps, โIโm guessing youโre paying since Damian isโฆโ Danny trails off, opting not to make a final guess on age and embarrass himself.
Dick laughs again and they go over to the counter, โYep, here-โ He pulls out his wallet, rifling through cash before pulling some out, โCash only yeah? This should be enough.โ
Danny stares at the stack of slightly rumpled bills, โBut- huh?โฆโ that wasโฆ that was so muchโฆ
โOh I added extra since Iโm sure he probably said some things he shouldnโt have, donโt worry about it.โ
Dick is already halfway out the door when Danny reloads and jerks upwards, โWai-โ
Could Danny really stop him? Should he? He needed this money butโฆ he stops to count it. $20..40..60..80..100..120โฆ.140โฆโฆ160โฆ.180โฆโฆโฆ.$200.
Danny blanches. He lurches for the door, no way he can take this much money just for basically acting as a glorified ecto-translator.
Danny stops in his tracks as he steps outside the shop and spots Dick and Damian speaking to a third, much older person, over the hood of a sleek black car.
This person, of course, also has several, several, shades around them.
What the hell was wrong with this family?
Damian turns and glares his way.
Oh ancients what if they were part of the mob or something.
Danny spins around on his heel-
And smacks straight into the glass door of the shop.
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Ow.
Danny rubs his nose as he fumbles around for the door handle, acutely aware the death covered family was probably staring at him.
He grabs the handle and pulls-
Danny freezes, hand on his sore face stopping. He opens his eyes as he yanks again. Nothing.
Oh heck, he just locked himself out didnโt he?
No please no, they were so definitely still staring, no way they werenโt. Danny pulls again and it finally-
He looks at the door handle in his hand.
Then at the door still closed in front of him.
Then back at the door handle.
Just the door handle.
Crap.
Danny nearly weeps, clumsily fitting the door handle back on and still adamantly refusing to look and see if Damian and his absurdly rich family has left yet. Other people on the street are also starting to stare. The same reason he canโt just use his powers.
He finally gets the handle back on and gingerly lets go of it.
Ok. Deep breath.
Claire warned you about this. With a sticky note, but all the same. Extra key is taped on the bottom of the fire hydrant right outside the shop. Youโve got this.
Danny turns, kneels, and frantically begins trying to find the key on the absurdly dirty fire hydrant.
His hands come away black with grime, but thankfully he has the key.
He puts it in the lock and turns it, hearing what may very well be the newest sound of his nightmares: a snap.
Most specifically the sound of the key snapping in Dannyโs very hands.
Danny stared at the half of the key still held between his fingers.
Did he do something to this city? Was this his fault? Could he not just sit in a closet and wait for the portal to open and go home?
Danny sags against the door, and resigns himself to his fate. Maybe he can go get foodโฆ with the money he left on the counter. Great.
Danny peeks his eyes sideways and catches the guy, Dick, finally getting into their car.
Okay, just a tiny bit just a bit. Danny holds the key again, focuses on the lock in the door jam andโฆ.. intangible!
He yanks the door open and jumps inside, door closing against the flutters of quickly fading shades on the street.
And more than one scream at them but hey thatโs not his problem.
Mostly.
Danny revels in the cool lighting of the shop, glaring at the stupid broken key in his grimy hands. He drops the useless bit of metal on the counter, pockets the cash and wipes his hands on the backside of one of Claireโs million wall curtains.
It leaves a black stain that basically disappears when Danny folds the fabric over it.
Oh well.
Technically the shop was still open.
And technically, Danny didnโt know if the lock did or didnโt work right now.
He went to find whatever storage closet Claire used to store her absurd number of crystals.
He finds it- finally- and using the keys he left in the store to begin with, he is able to unlock the perfect place to sleep tonight amongst several packages ofโฆ. Some kind of incense powderโฆ or something. He doesnโt really care because that plan of hiding in a closet till the portal opens? Yeah, Dannyโs putting that into action right the frick now.
He bends down to start to lay out his sweatshirt over the cardboard bed-to-be.
A bell rings in the distance.
Danny is going to destroy that bell on the door, he swears it.
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Today I visited the National Justice Museum in Nottingham, with a group of friends.
I find myself reflecting on the difference between museums and the internet.
Because the internet promises endless riches - so much history and information. What are the advantages of museums? Buildings with a relatively tiny amount of information, that require clothes and travel and negotiation with other people.
Well.
The highlight of the visit was a pair of performances. First, we watched an actor play the part of an executioner. He talked us through the history of hanging, and then introduced us to a woman sentenced to death - a second performer. Plenty of history to be learned - but also a lot of fun to be had from the interaction between the performers and the audience. Little semi-scripted moments, with the performers clearly enjoying the process of selecting audience members for the various jokes along the way. On top of this, the crowd was encouraged to boo and jeer the condemned woman.
The other performance was even more interactive. A reenactment of a trial, specific visitors were selected to play specific characters in the scene, alongside three actors (who'd all played roles in the execution scene as well). The audience roles were reasonably foolproof - but with plenty of scope to shine for those who wanted to throw themselves into the experience.
And this is the thrill of a museum. It's the fact that you're there with other people. The presence of others enhances the experience. The performances were made so much better by the strangers who happened to visit the museum on the same day we did.
And that's true even when it's less obvious. Queuing at the cafe - walking around the exhibits - shopping at the gift shop. Humans are social by nature.
And I wonder. When we watch a YouTube video, is this why we're so keen to read the comments? Is it why, when I watch a new TV show, I'm desperate to talk to other people about it?
The internet lets us curate our lived experience to perfect precision. We needn't be bothered by anyone else getting in the way with their inconvenient humanity.
Museums recognise that humanity's the whole point.
Trials and executions. We love courtroom dramas. Public executions used to attract crowds of thousands. I think we find this ghoulish. But deep down, I think it's that we all crave shared experiences.
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โ nerd!chan drabble #1
part 1 / part 2 / headcannons
synopsis: the aftermath of what happens between you and nerd!chan following the events that take place in part 2
tags: nerd!chan x cheerleader!fem!reader, established relationship, lots of fluff, lots of kissing, nerd!chan being a cutie, oral sex (f. recieving), unprotected sex (plz do not), basic lovemaking, aftercare, etc
wc: 1.70k
add. notes: idk why i wrote this n how tf it got so long. those pictures (i cannot upload them rn idfk why. if they r uploaded by the time u r reading this then good for us if not then i'll kms) seriously did a number on me i think tho bcs holy fucking shit man he looks so good. like i adore this man to death n beyond GRRR!!! anyways enjoy :3
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saw chan's latest post and now i can't stop thinking about how the pictures are extremely nerd!chan universe's bangchan coded.. specifically, they're the type of photos chan would post the day you guys finally get together, on the first day he gets to call himself your boyfriend at last.
he's long dropped you off at home and is still reeling from the excitement of everything that's happened after the game, not to mention that he was so giddy to the point he ended up texting all his friends about everything that happened, making sure to repeat how he finally, finally!!! got the girl of his dreams at last. his joy is to the extent that when he gets home, he can't stop thinking about you, thinking about how you sounded and felt, thinking about the way you'd straddled his lap in his beat up car, thinking about how you'd kissed him breathless, just thinking about you.
when he's in the safety of his room behind locked doors, he positively melts against the wall, crumbling to his feet with a lovestruck grin on his face as he repeats everything that went down an hour prior and quite literally changed the trajectory of his entire life if he's being honest. when his phone pings with a message, he's immediately shooting to swipe for his texts, giggling at the sweet messages you've sent him to remind him once more that you love him and can't wait to see him tomorrow. he'd reply back with a goofy smile and kick his feet, of course, before impulsively making the executive decision to once again, stalk your instagram.
when he pulls up your account, his heart clenches against his chest, because there you are, plastered all over the feed with your beautiful features that he's fallen for over the last few months. the way your hair cascades over your shoulders, how your face is lit up and beaming in every post he looks through, your uniform or even casual clothes clinging to your body perfectly in specific uploadsโ everything about the way you are makes him feel dizzy in the head. he genuinely can't fathom the fact that you're all his starting today and onwards.
the next day when he sees you, he thinks he might ascend onto a different dimension. he's all dazed and in awe when he approaches you, softening at the way your eyes brighten after falling on his figure, watching with honey dripping as you parade up to and crash into him with your arms wrapping around his waist on instinct, no less in public. when he hugs you back, he can smell the familiar scent of your perfume and shampoo mixed together, burying his face in an effort to cling onto you like he's often dreamed of. though he's a bit pouty when you eventually pull away, he thinks you you make up for it by leaning up to press a gentle kiss to his cheek and grabbing his hand to drag him away for a late lunch date.
the hours pass with you and him spending as much time as you can together to make up for however much you'd lost avoiding each other and sneaking around in private previously. chan does his best to pay attention to what you're rambling on too, something about your professor marking you down for a test when you'd answered correctly, but he truly can't seem to focus with the way he's so down bad for you. everything you do, everything you say, everything you are in general makes him want to swoop in and kiss you silly.
so, he does.
it catches you off guard when he leans over the table you're both sat at and connects your lips together, but you're no stranger to his affection (okay, maybe you are a little), so of course, you kiss him back, giggling against his mouth with him. he thinks your laughter might be his favourite sound in the world.
as the sky turns to orange with the sun dipping down, chan allows you to tug him around campus, going with you to the library to pick up a book you needed for your class and accompanying you to the university cafe where he insists on paying for your drink. you both eventually end up back in your dorm, with you letting it slip mid-conversation that karina would be at her parent's house today. the seemingly little tidbit makes him freeze in his place, but he brushes off the lewd thoughts entering his mind in favour of continuing the impromptu and innocent study session you decide to hold in the middle of your side of the room. he tries, he really does, to concentrate on the material he should ideally be preparing for his next exam, but you look so cute focused on the text you're busy highlighting that he can't resist reaching over to graze his thumb over your palm softly. you look up at the sensation of his touch, cheeks tinting pink at the way your boyfriend is staring back at you.
and so, it doesn't take very long for the two of you to get back into locking lips once more, chan hovering over your sprawled out body as his mouth ghosts the skin of your jaw, neck, collarbone, shoulder, everywhere. you swear he's gotten more bold ever since you started dating, but one glance at the burning red of his ears is enough to make you chuckle. when he asks you what's so funny, you simply shake your head, wrapping your arms around his neck to yank him in for another kiss that leaves both of you practically levitating.
chan makes quick work to have you cumming on his face after that, languid swipes of his tongue flicking against your clit and swirling at your entrance as you let out the cutest whimpers he's possibly ever heard. when his wet muscles wraps around your sensitive nub and sucks, you see stars, clenching around nothing with your juices gushing down his chin as you spray everywhere. when your boyfriend rises to meet your gaze, glasses fogged up and stained with your release, looking like he'd descended from heaven itself, you can't stop the meek "need you inside, please" that leaves you from escaping. it makes his eyes widen, but he's stripping off his clothes in record time at your plea, causing you to laugh quietly in the darkness of the room, save for whatever light is streaming through the curtains.
when chan finally does enter you, despite having done so multiple times, you gasp. you still get butterflies from the feeling of his cock stretching you out, and he still can't shake off how his stomach swirls in delight at the way your warm walls basically suck him in. he moves slowly but surely, deep thrusts hitting every right spot that has you keening and shaking under his hold. his words are barely above whispers, filled with nothing but loving remarks and reminders of how much he adores you and can't believe you're his. he babbles about how lucky he is to be yours, and how he's never going to let you go, to which you breathlessly huff out something about how you'd never want to go anywhere anyways. that sentence coupled with the way your doe eyes blink up at him is enough to send him hurdling to his climax, triggering your own. you both lay there in the comfort of each other's arms for a while after that, snuggling into one another's skin and exchanging short kisses.
it's only after a few moments pass that chan gets up to clean you off, tugging his clothes back on along with the glasses he'd tossed on your bedside table before wiping you down with a wet cloth. the way you look at him as he tends to your needs makes him flush bright under your gaze, which only has you tittering and sitting up to kiss him once more.
by the time everything's done and he has to go home, chan lights up with an idea, lacing your fingers in his and rushing you outside the doors of the student accomodation. he flashes you a grin that makes you weak in the knees, ruffling his hair to slide his hat on before passing you his phone and posing for the camera. you're confused what this has to do with anything, but you click the pictures for him anyways, heart fluttering at the way he beams at the lens, or rather at the fact that you're the one behind it. when you're done, he thanks you with a smooch to your forehead, shrugging off his jacket to wrap it around your frame despite it being one too many sizes big for you. he buttons you up to the end, throwing his head back at the way you look so tiny compared to the clothing you've got on, which only makes you roll your eyes regardless of the smile that creeps up on your face at his joy.
it's only when you've said your goodbye's and shared a last few kisses of the day that you find yourself back in bed, wrapped up under chan's clothes and inhaling the scent of his cologne that brings back memories of today. when you open your phone, you're hit with his notification in an instant, eyebrows furrowing in confusion when you read him asking you to check his instagram but doing so anyways. you think your heart stops when you see what he's referring to.
chan had tagged you in the photos you'd taken a few minutes prior to seeing him off, but not just that, he'd captioned it tooโ
@.gnabnahc: thank you for being mine, pretty girl.
hot infatuation floods your system at the words he'd used, and for some reason, it dawns on you now of all times that chan is yours. he's yours. all yours. you can't stop the smile that graces your features at that realisation, replying back to him with something cheesy. safe to say, you drift to sleep that night with thoughts filled of your precious boyfriend.
in conclusion, chan may be smitten, but you're just as bad as him, it seems.
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comments and reblogs are always appreciated! <3
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in secret | csc
pairing: idol!choi seungcheol x model!reader
themes: secret relationship, situationship
warnings: minors dni! smut, fingering, mentions of reader having breasts and a vagina
ring. ring. ring.
you didnโt bother checking who was calling as there was only one person to call you during your schedule.
โyou know you canโt keep calling me while iโm at work cheol.โ
you hear a chuckle on the other end of the line as you pick up another booty call from seungcheol. you had met him through an event where you accidentally bumped into him as you were leaving your dressing room and the rest was history.
โyet you still always answer baby.โ
โonly because god knows how pouty you get when i donโt.โ you laugh as you wave your collegues goodbye, your fittings and schedule over for the day.
you had walked over to your car still on the phone with cheol as you unlocked your car and got in to continue your call in private.
โwhat is it you want tonight? iโm pretty tired for sex today.โ
ah, yes. you were in a friends-with-benefits type of relationship with cheol after that one incident where you both were at a after party in which both of you had alcohol in your system but still sober enough to decide to have sex in his car before he drove you home to your apartment.
โiโm not calling you for sexโwell tonight iโm not.โ he laughs as you hear the faint sounds of the radio in the background. โi was passing by your favorite restaurant and bought too much food for one person to eat alone so i was gonna ask you if i could come over and share a meal with you tonight.โ
โwoah, who are you and what have you done to the cheol i met first?โ you teased him as you pulled out of the parking and into the street to head home to your apartment a couple of blocks away.
โi can be a gentleman too if i wanted to you know? rude that you think otherwise.โ you could see him pouting my the way his voice sounded over the phone.
โiโm kidding baby i know you are but yes you can come over. the doors are unlocked and iโm a few minutes away.โ you answer.
โhow many times do i have to tell you to not leave your doors unlocked? youโll be the death of me woman seriously.โ
โand how many times do i need to tell you my apartments security is really good. anyways, i got to pass by a shop to buy some stuff for my apartment. iโll see you later.โ
โmโkay, drive safe. see you later.โ
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โโand then they forced them to hug it out with hannie after they had won the prize and could go home early! it was the funniest thing i saw today.โ cheol laughed from the other side of the table as the both of you ate dinner together.
โi wouldโve loved to see that in person.โ you laughed as you imagined it happening infront of you.
you were familiar with his group, seventeen. he had โforcedโ you to watch gose episodes and some of their (more specifically his) fancams from previous concerts during some of your more casual meet ups. you had enjoyed it so much you actually had a slight infatuation with wonwoo much to cheolโs dismay that he wasnโt your bias.
โyouโd love the boys. they are the same on and off camera, iโm super proud of them really.โ he gushed as he sipped on the beer you had bought before coming home.
โiโm sure they feel the same way about you,โ you reassured him as he smiled at you.
cheol was a great leader, he was kind but firm especially when it came to his brothers. he would rather pay fines and reassure his fans than keep them overthinking about things. he was a pure soulโmaybe thatโs why over time you had slowly fallen for him.
โthanks baby.โ he mouthed to you as you both enjoyed the rest of your dinner in comfortable silence.
you watched as he finished his food the same time you had before grabbing the plastic containers and throwing them in the trash tidying up your dining room before plopping down on the couch beside you. you had been planning on setting boundaries with him as you knew your feelings would get hurt if he finds a girl he actually wants to pursue and not just fuck.
you had past flings and relationships before you had met cheol. it was never easy for you to fall in love with the way youโve fallen for cheolโnot even with your exes. you had been the secret girlfriend or lover before so why was it so hard to be that with cheol? oh right. you werenโt even his girlfriend. youโre just a one-call away fuck when he needed you to be. but youโd also be the first person heโd run to when the world around him became too much for him to handle.
โcheol?โ you called out softly as you approached the couch.
โhmm?โ he hummed as he looked up from the tv to look at you.
you watched his brown eyes lock on your own as the nerves in your stomach knotted. you couldnโt do it but you knew you needed to before you hurt yourself by loving a man that wasnโt even yours to love.
could you stomach not being able to hold him the way only you could when it was just the two of you? to live with the thought that heโll settle down with another woman and that he couldnโt do it with you? to know that you were good enough to fuck but not commit to fully?
โhow long will we continue like this?โ you ask as you take the spot on the couch beside him.
โwhat do you mean sweetheart?โ he asked as his brows furrowed in confusion.
โthis cheol. you and me. is this all weโre going to be? a quick fuck and leave?โ you could see the way the gears in his mind were then turning.
he didnโt know what to answer.
โi thought we were fine with this kind of set up? you didnโt want any commitments and i didnโt too especially in the industry we are in.โ
โi was at first. things happen seungcheolโthings even sometimes i canโt stop.โ you argue as you watch him fidget with his hands.
โiโi canโt do it (y/n). thereโs so much on the line for meโfor you! i have an album release coming up. you have your runway and cover launch. if anyone finds out, the backlash would be too much for both of us to quiet down quick enough that it wonโt ruin everything weโve built.โ he reasoned as he stood up from the couch.
โam i really just a good fuck to you?โ the question hung in the air as you watch him try to answer you but decided not to and grabbed his keys making a beeline for the door.
โso much for being a gentleman. goodbye asshole!โ you shout at him as he leaves your apartment in silence.
you broke down in tears burrying your face into your throwpillow mourning a relationship that was never there to begin with. you had shared you body with himโintimate moments of just you and him as he worshipped your body. you had not only fucked but there was that one time in which he made love to you after he had been away on tour for a month. he touched your body as if he was memorizing every mole, scar and dip of your body, kissing every patch of skin he could as he slowly thrusted in and out of you as if trying to engrave you in his brain yet he couldnโt commit to you even if he did all that.
you knew since the beggining that you were playing a dangerous game when you had met and started messing with each other in secret, so you couldnโt blame him fully for hurting and leaving you when you wanted things to get serious.
you cried for him that night, vowing never to let anyone mess with your heart the way he did with yours. you allowed yourself to mourn him and what couldโve been before drifting off to sleep.
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a month had passed since that night, everything was getting better. you had walked for one of your dream brands in their show in paris before being flown back to korea for a cover shoot. you had managed to avoid thinking about him successfully burying yourself in your work.
you had glanced at the calendar hung on the wall in your little office where the date tomorrow was encirled with red ink with his handwriting messily scribbled beneath the date.
new album release in which youโd drool over wonwoo instead of me :(
you had avoided opening twitter to stop yourself from looking at updates from seventeen hoping for a glance of him even going as far as to download weverse to catch a live of him. yet your finger hovered over his contact on your phone wanting to call and check in on him as he was always nervous whenever he had events coming up.
โno stop that. youโre not going to make yourself available for someone who thinks your just a good fuck.โ you mutter to yourself as you close your phone.
your room still had traces of him you havenโt got the guts to get rid of yet. his perfume still sits on your vanity as he sometimes stays the night and always forgets to bring his perfume with him to use which resulted in him leaving his bottle of perfume in your room. his jersey from that one gose episode hangs from the chair in the corner of the room from that time you asked him to bring you home wonwooโs but refused to do so saying it would be weird to see you wearing wonwooโs jersey when you were fucking him. his toothbrush is still by the sink in your ensuite and his spare clothes are still on your top drawer waiting for him to come and use themโbut he wonโt because heโs doing better than you are and moving on from your little situationship.
his side of the bed still smells like him despite you spraying your perfume on it. he just manages to haunt you in the solitude of your own home. youโre thinking gets interrupted by a call from an unknown number on your phone.
โhello?โ you greet unsure.
breathing is the only thing heard on the other line so in your better judgement you turn the call off thinking somebody just dialled the wrong number by accident.
you shrugged it off before tossing your phone to your bed and rearranging your vanity to keep your mind busy.
ping!
a notification interrupts your rearranging seeing your phone light up as a message comes through.
open the door.
โopen the door?โ you read out loud as you see the text. confused as the number isnโt saved you decided to check your front door as a safety measure.
you peep through the hole in your front door to see no one there but you decided to open and check. you glanced at the hall seeing no one there but to your surprise there was a paper bag on the floor. you picked it up and placed it on your kitchen counter before locking the door behind you.
you opened the bag to find an unsealed album with wonwooโs signature on it. confused you rummage through the bag to pull out wonwooโs jersey from that one gose episode.
โwhat the hell?โ you asked confused as you pulled your phone out to check the number that had texted you. it wasnโt a number saved in your phone but you had an inkling to whom it was from.
you decided to call the number to confirm your suspicions. you had waited a while before the call got answered. and boy were you ready to give them a piece of your mind.
โhello?โ he answers as you pace back and forth in your kitchen holding the album in your hand.
โyes, hello to you too. what the fuck is this? why would you send me an album signed by wonwoo and his jersey from that one gose episode? are you that fucked up seungcheol?โ you fumed as you waited for him to say something.
โwell?โ you pushed as he wasnโt answering you.
โhi, uhm, itโs not seungcheol. iโm gonna introduce myself first, my name is joshua hong. iโm seungcheolโs group member and he borrowed my phone to text you. he isnโt here right now but iโll make sure to relay the message you had for him. also, donโt worry about me spilling your secret iโm not gonna tell anyone about the two of you. you have my word for it.โ you could feel the heat build up on your cheeks in embarrassment.
โiโm sorry! i thought you were seungcheol. i probably shouldโve let you talk first before i went off on you.โ you apologize as you hear joshua chuckle.
โdonโt worry about it, i get where youโre coming from. donโt tell cheol but you were right setting boundaries to your situation with him.โ
it was nice to know joshua was on the same page with you regarding the matter.
โyeah but it may have cost me his presence in my life. well, until he had contacted me again today.โ you admitted as he sighed.
โi told him he shouldโve used his own number to contact you but he wouldnโt listen to me. that man honestly, he can be so dumb with things like this but is so smart in other things.โ
โi was debating calling him just hours ago. i know how tense he gets with your album releases but iโโ
โyou wanted him to reach out to you because you already told him what you wanted out of your situation. yeah, i know. he told me about you guys a week ago.โ
โhe did?โ you asked surprised.
you really didnโt think heโd talk about you and your situation with anyone else. truthfully, you didnโt know how you felt about it. seungcheol had all the time during your no-contact period to reach out but he never did so you thought he was fully over your relationship. hearing from joshua that he was talking about it with someone else somehow gave you a thought that he might actually be thinking about you still.
โhe hasnโt been able to talk to anybody else about it because of the circumstances but i could tell something was troubling him so i just waited for him to open up to me without being forced to and he did eventually. i know he misses youโhe hasnโt shut up about it to me,โ he sighs as you pick at your nails. โhe means well, yโknow? he just has a lot on his shoulders being our leader and the shield that protects everyone around him but i know deep down your good for him and i know he knows it too. just hear him out please?โ
โi will, thank you joshua. congratulations on your new album by the way. iโm sure youโll be hitting the charts and winning awards for it soon enough.โ you thank him as he says his thanks and ends the call leaving you to your thoughts.
your phone sits on the counter as you gathered up the courage to text him and soon enough you pressed send.
where are you? we need to talk.
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seungcheol had arrived at your door an hour later, knocking lightly on your door you mightโve thought you hadnโt heard him if you didnโt know he was coming over. you opened the door for him not bothering to look at the peephole as he shuffled quietly past you and into your living room. he glanced around the apartment seeing it was still the same way as the day he left you so suddenly. he normally felt at home but this time he felt so tiny and out of place despite all the times he used to come over. he glanced over the familiar paper bag on your kitchen counter with the album and jersey he dropped off.
he could feel your gaze at him but he avoided making eye contact with you which he used to love doing. your eyes were his favorite thing to look atโno matter what you were doing your eyes always showed how you felt despite you not saying it verbally. he would tell you how much he loved your eyes even if he was in the middle of fucking you. heโd often tell you to keep your eyes on him despite you being so fucked out yet youโd do as he asked because you loved how he looked at you. deep down he thinks he knew that the moment he started to look for you in the people heโd interact with everyday was the moment he started seeing you more than just another person heโd call to fuckโhe loved you long before he had the guts to let you know and seeing you for the first time after no contact truly did things to him.
โhey.โ he spoke softly as he finally looked at you for the first time in a month.
god, you looked so beautiful even if your face held no emotions as you looked at him.
โi did all the talking last time so i think itโs fair i give you this moment to air out your thoughts before i make a decision.โ you answered stiffly.
he nodded in understanding as he tried to gather his thoughts together before he opened up his mouth to speak.
โtruth be told, i got overwhelmed when you were insinuating that you wanted to be more than just what our set up was but that isnโt a good enough explanation for what i was feeling at that moment.โ
it was true, with everything on his plate at that moment it just got suffocating for him so he left without saying anything. it was one of the most stupid thing he had ever done in his life because he wanted nothing more to say somethingโanything to you.
โi had so much time to think about us over the month of no contact. i learned things about me that i wish i knew the moment you confronted me about what we were and how things were going to play out for us in the long run. i want you, (y/n). i wish i told you that night that i left. i donโt want you just physically because you are so much more to me than just a body to fuck. donโt get me wrong the sex is amazing with you and i feel like iโm on another world when i get to touch you, hold you, and just be with you.โ he explains as he inched closer to you.
โbut iโm scared to love you. i donโt want to ruin what we have because iโve seen other couples in our industry get destroyed just because they love each other. i know i can handle the backlash iโd received but iโd hate to be the reason youโd be getting them tooโfuck, i love you. god knows when it happened but i do and i canโt stop no matter what i do to try and supress my feelings. you werenโt and arenโt just a good fuck to meโyour my entire world and iโm lucky enough to be able to orbit around you like how the moon does.โ he could touch your face with how close he was to you by now. the tears falling down your cheeks and he wanted nothing more than to wipe away but he didnโt still unsure about if he could touch you that way again.
โyou were the first person i felt both wildly unsure and unwaveringly certain of and i kept falling for you and the little things youโd do. i missed looking into your eyes, kissing your lips when you rambled too much, playing with your hair when we cuddle after sex, the little noises you make when you lose at games, and the way iโd wake up with you in my arms when you let me stay over. i missed you so much baby. iโm so sorry i didnโt contact you sooner.โ cheol could feel his voice break as you cupped his cheeks. he leaned into your touch as he caught your scentโyour vanilla scented shampoo and a hint of his own perfume mixed together. he loved it.
โyouโre an asshole yโknow?โ she spoke through her tears as she allowed him to run his fingers through her locks. โi missed you.โ she peered up at him as he smiled at her.
seungcheol had gazed into her eyesโhe stared at her like she was the stars in the sky and he was basking in their glow. he missed her truly and he was going to show her how much he had missed her.
his eyes glanced down on her lips before he had closed the space between them with a kiss. the kiss was full of emotions; longing, happiness, and desire. it had been the longest since he went without being able to touch her body, the longest time being a month when he was away on tour.
he doesn't know when his obsession with you started, but one look at your bambi like eyes and he was hooked. jailed and chained to nights filled with your doe eyes brimming tears and cries of pleasure. oh the sweet sounds youโd make because of him.
"you like that? hmm?" a moan escapes your lips as he palmed your soaked sleep shorts.
โyes.โ you answer breathlessly as you feel him lift you up and lock your legs around his hips. gravity causing you to settle down with your cunt pressed against his hard dick.
โoh fuck.โ he groaned as he felt your wet cunt slide down his dick. โi missed having you like this baby.โ
he had managed to get you both into your room as quickly as he could without bumping into your stuff with his lips on yours before setting you down in your bed. he littered your thighs with kisses as he pulled your shorts down revealing you slick cunt.
โno panties tonight, hm?โ he smirked as you blushed.
โyou make me go insane baby.โ he removed his shirt along with his bottoms bearing all himself for you to seeโnot that you havenโt seen it before.
cheol dipped a finger into your core, working around the sopping wet muscle to fit in a second. he never broke eye contact with you, even as you groaned at the sudden contact as his finger grazed your bundle of nerves .
"it's okay, baby. come look at me, please? look right at me. thatโs it, thatโs my good girl."
as his fingers began to speed up, the tension in your thighs loosened, giving him more access to the rest of you. your walls took them in with ease as you welcome the familiar sensation of his fingers being stuffed in you, the wet sucking noises beginning to fill the room along with your moans. his breath is steady as ever, as if he's breathing you through this in an effort to slow you down from getting there before he even gets to truly have his way with you the way that he intends. he hadnโt fucked you in so longโhe was going to take his sweet time.
your eyes locked into hisโhis favourite sight ever seeing you like that, breath hitching in the back of your throat catching the soft cries of his name that you tried to utter. pulling back, cheol removed his fingers from you with a slick pop, sticking the digits into his mouth, cleaning them of your cum.
"always so sweet," he remarked, dragging his thumb across his lip, and bringing it to yours. instinctively, you began to suck on it, slowly letting the taste of your own arousal coats your tongue. you could feel his hard-on pressing into your thigh, the heat between your legs drawing him in ever closer. it was intoxicating. in all your relationship's timespan, you were never sure of the exact moment that you had started to like him at a different light, but you knew that it lay somewhere in the hours he spent buried in between your thighs as he ate you out like he had been starving for years.
"i wanna feel you," your voice was just above a whisper. interlacing your fingers, his hand much bigger than your own, his entire body appeared massive in the small slivers of light that were in the room. your hand wrapped around the base of his swollen erection, a string of curses escaping his lips as you ran your hands up and down the length, icy fingertips teasing at his prominent veins. shifting his weight and allowed your hands to guide him, lining up perfectly with your glistening slit as his head teased at the entrance a few times, positioning itself just mere centimeters from your cunt.
"i love you so much cheolโfuck." you moaned out as your fingers dug into his back.
with eyes locked onto each other, your mouth fell open as he bottomed out. it took you no time to adjust, but the shockwaves ripped through your body just the same as they always did when you were this sensitive for him. he knew that you didn't have long from the way your walls clenched around his dick. it took a few seconds of adjustment, but he nestled himself inside, lowering his head to whisper into your ear.
"i'm gonna move now, 'kay baby?"
you nodded, arms pulling him down to your chest more as his dick dragged itself against your walls. after a few soft, shallow thrusts, your nails bit into his shoulderโthe signal that he could go faster. his hips began to rock more evenly, building an even pace as the sounds of your walls began to fill the room. each kiss of his tip against your soft spot gave way to a familiar, lewd squishing noise coming from your delicate hole. your whines only urged him to go a step further, nails raking down his back so hard you were sure you had begun to draw blood. his body was marred with scars, but you knew that every scar on his back had been left there by you, an ever present reminder of the sleepless nights together you two shared.
"cheolโplease, please harder," you croaked. he was right where you needed him, but not giving in. he was such an tease.
"are you sure you want more?" his demeanor shifted as lust consumed him.
"i'm not gonna hold back, you know," he started.
"i missed fucking this cuntโfuckโnot gonna slow down until you're shaking."
he started ramming into you even harder, each thrust jolting your body backward and further up the surface of the mattress. he was slipping, eyes beginning to lose their light even as they were still locked onto yours. you could feel his grip around your waist getting stronger, digging into you. the veins in his arms started to bulge, he was losing himself in the euphoric washes of your body. you were shaking already, clamping down on his thick cock erratically.
"not going to stop until you're so cock-drunk on me."
every dizzying motion of his hips had your blood rushing to every part of your body. the wall in your abdomen began to shatter as you could feel your own mind slip.
"cheolโit'sโi'mโbabyโi'm gonnaโ" you could barely manage getting the words out. he placed a thumb in your mouth again, giving you some semblance of comfort all the while egging you on.
curse him and his high endurance.
"go on, cum for me. cum for your cheol baby."
you yielded to him completely, body simply going limp, giving in to euphoria as your climax overwhelmed your frame. you couldn't stop yourself from letting go completely, gushing your own translucent slick over his own lower half, tilting him over the edge.
"fuck," he moaned out as he reached his own high. "here it comesโhere it fucking comes..."
he kissed you through it, groaning into your mouth with his cock throbbing inside you andย painting your insides with thick, milky white.
"Gottaโfuckโstuff my pretty baby so full."
and that he did.
as his own comedown presented itself, he collapsed onto you. you watched his chest rise and fall for a few seconds, assuring yourself that he was still all the way there. his head lifted, eyes meeting your watchful gaze. they were bright, admirable, and warm.
"i love you," cheol murmured into your hairline, pressing a soft kiss to your temple. he had pulled you to his chest to cuddle after chasing your highs. you squirmed a bit, repositioning yourself so that you could run your fingertips up and down his chest, tracing every curvature of his skin.
"i love you too," you cooed.
prying him off you for a second, you were about to stumble in the darkness toward the bathroom only to be pulled back into his chest with his own brute strength.
"i have to pee, cheol," you laughed as he caged you in his arms.
โlet me join you and get you cleaned up.โ
โyou and i both know that wonโt happen when your in there with me.โ you chuckle as you melt into his arms.
โwell thenโฆround 2?โ he smiled.
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you had woken up in a state of pure bliss with your body flush against cheolโs as his arm draped over your hip keeping you close to him.
it wasnโt a dream. he was here. your cheol was here.
you traced over his features as he slept soundly. you couldnโt help yourselfโhe looked beautiful under the light of the morning light. you could get used to this. he stirs in his sleep as you run your fingers through his blonde locks.
โgโmorning baby.โ he greets voice deep and raspy from sleep.
โhi handsome.โ you smile as he pulls you closer to him and pecks you on your forehead.
โi could get used to this.โ
โhappy album release day baby.โ you greet softly as you peppered his jaw with kisses.
โthank you, did you like my gift for you?โ he asked as you pull away and slap his chest.
โyouโre so horny. canโt we not associate everything with sex?โ you tease as he raised a brow at you.
โbaby i was talking about the jersey and the album i had wonwoo sign for you.โ he deadpanned as you beam in excitement.
โoh my god! i forgot about thatโwait right here.โ you run out of the room as cheol laughs at you.
he felt so happy seeing you so happy but he wasnโt that happy seeing you walk back into your room with just wonwooโs jersey on.
โi think this is my new favourite top. whatcha think baby?โ you smile as you twirl around to show cheol wonwooโs name on the back of the jersey instead of his.
โmm looks good.โ he answers curtly brows knitting together in annoyance.
โi know right! wonwooโs built is so much bugger than mine that this looks like a dress on me.โ you played with the hem of the jersey as you hear cheol scoff in annoyance.
โtake it off baby.โ he grumbles as you shake your head no.
โnu-uh, itโs really comfy.โ
โbaby you have my exact same jersey. just wear mine.โ he points towards his jersey as you shrug.
โbut wonwooโs my biasโโ
โโand yet you werenโt cumming all over his dick last night were you? come on baby just wear mine.โ he butts in as you raise a brow at him.
โare you jealous mr. choi?โ you tease your arms on your hips.
โme? jealous of your crush on wonwoo? no way.โ he answers defensively.
โyou wonโt mind me wearing this around then.โ you sit at the edge of the bed turning you back on cheol as you scroll through your phone.
you felt him creep up behind you as the mattress dips from his weight. his hand snakes around your throat as your pulled back into his chest a smirk playing on your lips from how heโs acting.
โyouโre mine baby. so iโll give you two options: change and wear my jersey orโฆโ he tightens his grip on your neck as he whispers in your ear. โi fuck you so hard you wonโt know anyone elseโs name but mine.โ
โi think iโll keep the jersey on,โ you bit your lip excitedly as you hear him chuckle from behind you.
โalways such a brat. well, buckle up baby. youโre in for such an eventful day.โ
letโs just say you were so cock drunk from cheolโs dick that you couldnโt walk straight for a couple hours needing his assistance throughout the day.
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Round 7 Final thoughts/Analysis
First of all, Blink Gone is a banger but we knew that already.
Second,
Till is and also is not dead. Till was used as a pawn for the segyein for entertainment. Keep in mind this is Season 50. 50 seasons of Alien Stage, and you think they wouldn't go off without a hitch? Till was used to lure Hyuna and Mizi back. Hyuna is worth a lot and Mizi escaped live on stage. Think of the Quarter Quells in The Hunger Games. Do you really think... they wouldn't make Season 50 special? Especially since Luka won S49. It was always rigged in Luka's favor. Or is it? (hey, vsauce here-)
Now. Till was EXTREMELY drugged up. He may have had his fighting spirit back, but he was definitely 'roided up by the aliens for the plan. The Finals were rigged in Luka's favor, it was all rigged in Luka's favor. Those drugs in Tills system, for all we know, can be keeping him alive. There is a good chance they don't want Till dead and that they're only faking his death for the sake of the... "special guests."
It might have been rigged in Luka's favor, but there's a good chance he might not be getting out of this safe, sane, or even alive. He may have captured the hearts of the segyein in Season 49, but he is still a human pet. He is still expendable for the sake of entertainment. None of us character stans, Luka stans, are off the hook. ALNST is not over.
EDIT: I would also like to point out that Luka was probably also on drugs. He was in hysterics pretty much the whole time. Luka is trapped in this cycle and is a pet, just like Till.
As for those "special guests," Mizi and Hyuna: there can be multiple ways this plays out, either Mizi goes against Hyuna, or Hyuna goes against Luka. We already had Mizi v Luka, so they wouldn't do that again.
As for the song itself, I picked up a few lyrics:
Luka: "Before this piercing, radiant moment fades away"
"Piercing, radiant moment" referring to Till and/or Hyuna being injured.
Luka: "Neither today nor tomorrow, exist for me"
"Exist for me" is a reference to Ivan's thought process in why he chose to die in round 6
Till (i think): "Blink and gone, relish the present"
"Relish the present" as in Till needs to live in the moment to survive, rather than to win. He is on adrenaline, drugs, and survival instinct.
Till: "Clear your mind, leave the burdens behind"
A reference to himself that he... basically needs to lock in.
Luka: "The dark crimson air embraces us, lifting our spirits"
Ivan reference, specifically Luka imitating Ivan
Till: "And the fiery thrill blazes out to the sky"
Ivantill meteor shower reference
Now as for the meaning of the song itself, that could be multiple things:
Till realizing too late about Ivan's feelings and that he was wrong about his image of Ivan, "And in a blink, gone."
Till's life, "And in a blink, gone." (which is why i say he's dead and also not dead. He very well could be dead and just be brought back to life like the Sualive and Alivan theories)
Luka's ability to mimic others
Hyunamizi also realizing too late that they might have been set up
I think the flashbacks to round 6 are pretty obvious in what they mean and what was intended for it to mean/symbolize, so I'll spare it.
OH YEAH and speaking of the alivan and sualive theories, those are a LOT MORE LIKELY after this. Because what was the point of Till's death... after round 6? Would they (Vivinos, not the aliens) kill Till off after what happened in round 6? Death is too easy. Death is mercy. Yes I wish mercy upon Till, but there are better ways to show him mercy with what we have without him dying. That being said, if he is actually dead. Like dead, dead, (i will kms) then at least he died where Mizi was the last thing he saw.
Mizi was the last thing he saw.
We might have been wrong about Till only loving the "image" of Mizi, but then again, maybe not. Again, Till immediately lit up at the sight of Mizi, recognizing her instantly. It gave him the motivation to continue, he didn't notice of care how different, traumatized, and worn down she looked. He only saw her. Maybe it wasn't her image he was fond of. Maybe he really did love her. But maybe he was also grasping at straws to survive and continue on. Maybe he thought he had a chance. Cause Mizi was also grasping at straws. As we saw in the flashback with Mizitill, they were definitely friends. Mizi might only see Till as a friend, but now both would only have each other left, plus Hyuna and the resistance. Mizi might not give Till a romantic chance, but they can be there for each other because they both understand what the other went through.
Also Issac and Dewey better pull through I swear to fucking god. WHY WERE THEY NOT THERE. If you saw my bingo card, I marked off Dewssac appearance, I thought I saw them, but I was seeing shit so ignore that.
Personal note: I was really. REALLY overwhelmed leading up to this. I lost a lot of sleep over the past 48 hours due to anxiety over this and I'm glad that it finally happened. I'm a lot better now that my anxiety and nausea is gone and even if I'm extremely... scared... for Till... I'm still hopeful that he's alive, and that sualive and alivan are real. Maybe I am delusional, but I mean, I enjoy the Actor AU a bit too much... so...
That's all, I think. I might have more later after I stew on this a bit more.
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hi, angel! i saw that you were open for requests and i was hoping i could shoot my shot ๐ฅน iโm such a sucker for the idiots-to-lovers / ditzy!reader trope lmaooo so could i pretty please request one for eddie where heโs just so down bad for the reader but she just brushes off any kind of affection from him, not because she doesnโt like him back but because she just doesnโt think anybody would ever like her like that (totally not self-projecting woops) lol sorry if itโs too specific or something! totally okay if you donโt end up writing this โค๏ธ ily!!!
AN | Well, well, well, if it isnโt ditzy!reader and blind Eddie. These two are just so ๐ฅฐ
Warnings | Language
Pairing | Eddie x Fem!Reader
Word Count | 2.1k
Masterlist | Main, Eddie
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Your skin was so soft that it was causing Eddieโs mind to practically explode. Heโd noticed it before but there was something so extra about it today.ย
โUmm,โ he heard your soft laugh and slowly came back to reality, โyou can let go of me now Eddie.โ
โOh,โ he shook his head to himself and let go of your waist, taking a step back and clearing his throat, โs-sorry. Are you alright?โ
โYeah,โ you gave him a pretty smile, bright and sweet, โI wasnโt watching where I was going and I tripped over my feet. I hate when I do that. I need to pay more attention but sometimes itโs hard.โ
โIโll be there to catch you,โ he promised softly as you beamed at him. You put your hand on his shoulder and leaned up to press a kiss to his cheek. Eddie opened and closed his mouth a few times, โuhhโฆI-I-โ
โThereโs Steve and Robin,โ your attention quickly went to your friends as they pulled up to the park. You reached for Eddieโs hand and pulled him along with you, โcโmon!โ
There was something about the feeling of your smaller hand holding onto his that made his stomach flip. He quickly followed after you, a dopey smile on his face. As soon asย Steve saw the two of you, there was a knowing smile on his face. Eddie pointedly glared at the boy, knowing exactly what he was thinking. Steve had been pushing Eddie to ask you for as long as he could remember but Eddie always said no. He could never understand why; the two of you were thick as thieves and it was obvious to almost everyone else that the two of you were much more than just friends.ย
โHey guys,โ Steve drawled softly as he opened the back door for you to slide in next to Robin, โthe two of you were looking awfully cozy.โ
Eddieโs face turned a pretty shade of pink as he buckled his seatbelt. You laughed softly before shaking your head, โI tripped and Eddie caught me. He definitely saved me from banging up my face.โ
โCanโt have you hurting that pretty face,โ he agreed; Eddie wished he could melt into the seat. You exchanged a look with Robin and she rolled her eyes, causing you to huff with laughter under your breath, โalright, whoโs ready for adventure?โ
โMe,โ Eddie said pointedly, willing Steve to start driving, โletโs go.โ
โSay no more,โ the two men fell into silence as you and Robin were excitedly twittering about in the back of the car. Steve caught Eddieโs eye in the rearview and offered him a small smile he hoped Eddie would know was a thing of solidarity. Eddieโs lips pulled into a thin line as he offered his friend a small nod.ย
You were absolutely going to be the death of him.ย
Unless he actually did something about it. But that seemed like a hurdle he wasnโt quite ready to take on.
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Eddie startled as he heard loud knocking at his door; it was so urgent and sudden that he heard it over the sound of the rain and the guitar he was softly strumming. He grumbled before setting the instrument down and making his way to the door. It was a rainy mid-week afternoon, so he had no clue who would have come round this time of day.
โHello?โ Eddie opened the door slowly, but was immediately thrown into a warm hug by you. He stumbled backward for a moment before hugging you back, feeling at peace just by having your presence there, โwhatโre you doing here, sweetheart?โ
โItโs raining,โ you pulled back from him and it was then that Eddie noticed you were wearing a rain slicker but your hair and face were wet. You brushed some of the water away from your face as you grinned at him, โoh. Sorry, I didnโt mean to get you so wet.โ
โYesโฆit is,โ he nodded slowly, his hands settling on your shoulder, โdo you want to come in? I can grab some warm clothes and we can-โ
โNo,โ you reached for his hand and held it tightly in yours, โyou gotta come with me! To go to the pond!โ
โWhatโs at the pond that is so important?โ he wasnโt thrilled with the idea of you out in the rain and getting wet.
โEverything,โ you took his hand and started to pull out of the door of the trailer, โall the creatures are out, and it sounds so cool when the rain hits the pond! Cโmon, letโs go and see.โ
โAre you sure?โ he was loathe to deny you anything. He actually thought you were adorable with how excited you were to take him to the pond. You were already nodding and looked at him with wide eyes. Eddie shook his head in amusement before reaching for his jacket and quickly slipping it on along with his boots, โalright then, show me this magic.โ
โYouโre the best Eddie,โ you slipped your fingers in between his and tugged him along with you. You lived near Eddie and the pond was in between your places. It was a spot the two of you spent a lot of time at when it was nice out in the spring and summer.ย
He tried to keep his cool at the way you casually offered him your hand, a token sign of affection. But internally he was freaking out at the feel of your much smaller hand in his. He gave yours a squeeze, not caring that the two of you were getting absolutely drenched. He could always dry off later - making memories was far more important.
You stopped in front of the pond, watching excitedly as the rain fell onto the water, loud and steady but also so calming. There were frogs singing and other critters that were out and gathering around the pond. The excitement on your face was palpable as you took in the scene. It made Eddie happy too; to see the natural flow of life and how it made you feel.
โItโs so pretty here,โ you reached and plucked a small yellow flower from the ground, looking at it for a moment before holding it out to Eddie, โfor you - a flower for my flower.โ
Eddieโs stomach churned as he swallowed the lump in his throat. He reached for it and gently took it from your hand before tucking it behind his ear, โt-thank you.โ
Your response came in the form of a big smile as reached for his hand to bring him closer, โthank you for sharing this with me. Coming here. Youโre the best Eddie.โ
He felt a rush of affection for you, even more than he already did. He squeezed your hand gently, โthank you for sharing this with me.โ
โAnytime,โ you gave him a smile, โthereโs no one else Iโd rather be here with.โ
And that his heart almost burst into his chest.
He loved you. He decided then that he would tell youโฆ.one day.
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โOh! Iโve got a date tomorrow night,โ you threw your declaration so nonchalantly as you and Eddie walked out of the movie theater. Eddie felt like a wave of icy ocean water hit him as you walked towards his van. He really hoped that he didnโt hear you correctly. When you noticed his silence you turned to him with concern etched on your features, โEddie? Whatโs wrong?โ
โWhat did you say?โ he asked as you leaned against the side of the van. The look on his face was not what you had expected; he looked almost angry, but underneath it all was a look of hurt.
โI just said that I have a date tomorrow night,โ you shrugged it off, trying to ignore the prickling feeling running down your spine, โthatโs all. Nothing important.โ
He huffed, unable to control his reaction. Sure, youโd been on dates here and there but it was never anything that had seemed important. But now he wasnโt so sure, โcool, cool, cool. Iโm sure youโll have lots of fun.โย
Eddie started to move around to the driverโs side but you quickly reached for him, wrapping your fingers around his wrist, โEddie? Whatโs wrong? Why are you acting likeโฆthis?โ
His shoulders rose and fell softly as he shook his head. You dropped his wrist, feeling your eyes immediately prickle with tears, โyou donโt get it, do you?โ
โI donโtโฆunderstand,โ your eyes were wide as you tried to figure out what he was saying, โwhat do you mean, Eddie?โ
He ran a hand through his hair in frustration before groaning slightly, โIโm in love with you.โ
That was definitely not what youโd been expecting to hear at all. A million different thoughts raced through your mind as your heart jumped around in your chest, โEddie?โ
โIโve been in love with you for so long,โ he whispered, unable to look at your eyes, โI justโฆIโve never been able to say it before. But the idea of you going out on a date with someone else, someone not me, makes me feel soโฆ.sad. I donโt want you to go out with anyone else.โ
โI-I donโtโฆ.โ you paused, waiving your hand around, trying to make sense of it all. But then it hit you - holy shit. Heโd just confessed his love for you, โyou love me?โ
โYeah,โ he let out a nervous laugh as his cheeks felt like they were on fire, โI do. I have for a long time.โ
โOh,โ you chewed on your lip. You would have never thought that was possible, โI didnโt know. I thought you didnโt like me. Not like that.โ
โHow could you ever think that I wouldnโt like you?โ he came a little closer to you, โI thought it was so obvious. I just thought you didnโt feel the same way.โ
And then you laughed. You couldnโt help it as you looked at him with pure awe in your eyes. Eddie swallowed thickly as he hoped that you werenโt just laughing at him, โthatโs so funny. โCause I definitely thought it was obvious that I liked you too. I just thought youโd never be interested in me.โ
And then it hit Eddie all at once. The two of you were idiots and had been blind.ย
He grinned at you, a matching smile on your face as reality sunk in.ย
He reached for your face, his hands gentle on your skin as he studied. Heโd done this many times before but something about it in that moment felt so much different. Heavier and more important. You leaned into his touch, turning your face to press a kiss to his palm. He studied you for a few more moments before leaning in closer, leaving only a small distance between your bodies.
You could see the questioning look in his eye and nodded softly, leaning in and closing the remaining gap. The feel of his lips on yours was nothing like youโd expected - it was even better than you could have ever imagined.ย
It felt like the most right thing in the world; like the two of you had been doing this for so long. Like you had always been meant to be doing it. You two only separated when you were desperate for a breath of air.
You touched your lips, almost as if trying to make sure that you had actually kissed Eddie.ย
โUmm,โ you were nervous, rocking back and forth on your heels as you beamed at him, โthat wasโฆ.something.โ
โIt was definitely something,โ he agreed with a cheeky grin that made you laugh softly, โI think we should try that againโฆjust to make sure it really was something.โ
โOh yeah,โ you pretended to muse over what he had said before touching his face, โI agreeโฆwe should definitely make sure. For science.โ
โFor science,โ he agreed softly before kissing you again, โIโve been wanting to say I love you for so long and now I can finally say it.โ
โI love you too, Eddie,โ you stole a few more kisses from his pretty, plumped lips, โI like saying it too. And hearing it. Can you say it again? Please?โ
โI love you,โ he said, almost like a promiseโฆyou supposed it was, โand I really like kissing you. Everythingโฆall of it.โ
โI love you,โ you whispered in turn, โeverything and all of you.โ
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โญ ๐ด๐ถ๐ฎ๐ฎ๐ข๐ณ๐บ: 10 dollars on a dare leads you to break one superstition that changes your life forever. you begin to learn secrets tied to your family and upbringing, at the cost of your freedom. who is this mysterious Anshumat, and why does he want you?
โญ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต: ๐จ๐ฏ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ณ, ๐บ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ, ๐ช๐ฏ๐ง๐ญ๐ช๐ค๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ช๐ฏ๐ซ๐ถ๐ณ๐บ, violence, implied stalking, kidnapping, choking, reader gets called a bride once
โญ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฅ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ต: 1,418
โญ a/n: yan sea god was inspired by an Indonesian myth called Nyi Roro Kidul! it's a really interesting legend if you want to learn more abt it ^^ also.... man tits...... meow..
will you venture down this path?
growing up, you would stay over at your grandmother's house every summer. her beautiful seaside cottage made the perfect accommodation for a family getaway. throughout your childhood, the superstitious old woman restricted you from doing specific things. rules like never whistling at night, don't open an umbrella indoors, etc.
you'd eventually found out that these were just scare tactics for children to make them listen. but there was one rule that your grandmother seemed to fear the most, a rule that never made sense... never wear white to the local beach. and when questioning her about the rule, she'd tell you the same story every time.
"long ago...
a cruel serpent god who once ruled these waters would rise from the ocean and into the islands, devouring innocent villagers and destroying temples along its path.
the gods and humans were furious at its actions. fed up with the destruction and death, they prepared a plan to thwart the serpent; a binding curse.
the serpent was cursed to spend its days rotting in a hidden island, where it was accompanied by its servants. it was also tasked with granting blessings to sailors passing through the rocky tides, where it weighed the sins of each individual to seal their fates.
but over the decades... the serpent grew bored and lonely. through a loophole, the serpent found a way to abduct humans. you see.. the serpent loves the colour white and pearls. so much so, it would use its voice, so alluring, to lure the poor victims who happened to wear such things. and once in the water, the serpent would drag the human to its temple where they would become its slave.. or worse...
its spouse."
here you are today, telling the same tale in front of your young niece and nephew. "well, that's one way to get bitches." your nephew, Keona laughs. a scoffing Kehlani adds on, "nah, who would want to marry an overgrown slimy snake?"
"hey now, take that shit to grandma. she just assigned me to be your storyteller," you shrugged. "and this story has a real reasoning behind it, ok?"
"what? sexy sea snake destroying villages?"
"no, it's so that little rascals like you..." you drill both your index fingers onto their foreheads, "are easier to find if you ever get lost at sea."
how did i end up here...
facepalming yourself, you sigh. you were disappointed in yourself. how'd you let those little punks reel you in a dare? where was the self-respect? the dignity? seriously, breaking your grandmother's number 1 rule for what? 10 dollars?
you walk along the shore while wearing a flowy white shirt and neck encased in one of your mother's pearl necklaces. the dare was simple: successfully walk down the shoreline without chickening out and boomโ an extra 10 dollars into your wallet.
you'd prove to the twins that you weren't scared of a little bedtime story. buuut just in case you did happen to go missing (for reasons that are totally not hungry sea serpent related), you brought essentials in a bag, left a letter for your family, and are currently being watched by the twins.
laughing at yourself for the paranoia, you nearly reach the edge of the walk until you hear a feminine wail from between the hidden rocks. is someone hurt? the sound was coming from beyond your finishing point so it wouldn't hurt to check, right?
signalling the twins to come over, you bend down to their heights, "listen, it sounds like someone's in trouble past those rocks. so I want you both to go grab the first aid kit and call Officer Holden over, 'kay?" they nod and scamper off into town.
approaching the rocks, you peek in to find a naked... mermaid?! observing her, you notice the torn skin on her iridescent tail and warily walk over to her. "uh... hey? hola? salve? hallo? i'm ahโ good human! no... nooooo bad.."
you notice the air seems to smell... sweeter?
the woman looks up at you from the sand with pleading eyes, "pleaseโ please help me! my name is Coralie, my master, heโ"
"woah, it's ok! you're safe, help is coming. uh, your master? did he do this to you? are you an underwater criminal?!"
a distant melodious voice interrupts you. Coralie's previously pained face now warps into a sinister grin as her wound disappears. she crawls towards you as your vision fogs up and your knees buckle to the soft sand. the song lulls you into a deep sleep, your body now being pulled into the shallow waters.
you awake to the bright rays of sunshine and lungs filling in with fresh air. but the next in your line of sight knocked all the air out of your body again.
the luminous, barely-clothed body of an unknown man sat above you. his 9'7 self relaxed on the marble throne, with 2 pairs of eyes fixated on you. what the fuck is that?
you gawk at him, "holy mother of god..."
i'm not dreaming, am i?
his gaze shifts into amusement, "wrong. we gods do not have mothers. we were created."
"you're a... a god?"
"is it not obvious enough from my appearance? would you like to see another version of me?" the towering deity begins to warp into a feminine body as if it was melting and moulding itself. "is this preferable?" her new voice is flirtatious, genuinely curious.
then, she tries to warp into a third body. the transformation looks more painful than the one prior, it barely shifts halfway into a gruesome beast before returning back to its first body. he huffs while grasping his golden collar, "this... is not my original form. I have been cursed, long ago, to never set foot on human lands. this island is both my kingdom and prison."
you shakily stand up the marble floor, now noticing Coralie standing beside the throne with a pair of legs. slowly processing his words, you piece together the clues from his story and your memories of the abduction. this couldn't be...
"you are.. you're the sea serpent god! I can't believe grandma was rightโ shit, shit shitโ"
he smirks at your panic, "correct. I am Anshumat; shapeshifter deity of the raging tides, granter of safe travelsโ"
"murderer and enslaver." you complete.
Anshumat roars, "correct again! you're on a strike, dear y/n. though trust me, my servants are treated well."
"..how do you know my name?"
"oh you poor thing, granny never told you? I know everything about youโ a name is barely anything."
"told me what?"
"she used to be my cupbearer. until she escaped with that bastard traitor. isn't that right, Coralie?"
she nods, "yes, master."
"please sir, let me leave. my familyโ they'll search for me! I have a cat at home! I haven't even finished my favourite show.. so please..." you try to list more life goals.
he chuckled, "oh you are so amusing. and why would I do that? we've barely just been engaged, dear."
"what do you mean engaged?"
"I've been watching you since you took your first breath on earth, y/n. so imagine my surpriseโ to see you wrapped up in my favourite colour, like a pretty bride. you're my sacrifice."
fear tingles your spine, "wait, that was just a dare! i didn't really mean it!"
"doesn't matter. you will be my pearl."
"no! I have a family, a partnerโ"
"i said... it doesn't fucking matter." he slams his fist against the throne arm, "and you'll be seeing the head of that twat soon enough."
you don't give him a glance before you're turning your back and run down the staircase of the grand temple. careful not to trip, you focus on the flight of stairs, painfully aware of the loud footsteps approaching behind you. it doesn't take a second for Anshumat to pull on the collar of your shirt and slam you onto the staircase.
he sits atop you, lower region heavily grinding against your stomach. "get off me! don't you have hundreds of other options?! why me?!" you scream.
his bedazzled skin blocks your view of the sun, furious eyes glowing under his shadow, and sharp teeth bared into a snarl. "you do not get to leave me again. you will stay, and worship me. this island will be our eternal paradise."
large hands pressing against your throat, you struggle before darkness begins to cloud your vision.
"this time, you will live."
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First off, not to kiss ass, but I really love your writing! I follow three people, one of which is my best friend, and youโre one of them. I always come back to your account for content! Anyways, I just wanted to voice my appreciation real quick. lmao
Aside from all that yapping, if youโre alright with it, Iโd love to read some Alastor x reader headcanons, specifically about Alastorโs shadows, and how they act (and if theyโre a little naughty sometimes with the reader ๐๐) before Alastor and reader start dating. Maybe they try to encourage him to ask her out? Idk, I just have random ideas floating around in my head. I completely understand if youโre uncomfortable with the idea or just too busy with others, but I just wanted to request since I saw your post about it!
Anyways, ily! โค๏ธ
A/N: i appreciate you so much omg ๐ซถ, thank you sm im so glad you like my writing it honestly means so much. I feel like Alastorโs shadows are so under appreciated but theyโre also probably the biggest Alastor haters out here, like they probably piss him off a lot of the time when he isnโt doing business. As for the reader, they definitely steal Alastorโs girl ๐. I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing this!!
Warnings: shadow magic, AFAB reader, use of she/her pronouns, mentions of death, Alastor being Alastor, his shadows love you <3
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Alastorโs shadows are almost always out to get him
Maybe itโs revenge, who knows, but Alastor hates it
When he first met you his shadows were over the moon about it
They always know what heโs feeling, even before heโs ready to admit them
So after you two first met they started to approach you more
You didnโt notice them at first, going on about your tasks in the hotel
Until you were cleaning a mirror and saw them behind you dancing
You just laughed and shooed them away lightheartedly, but it didnโt work
They tended to bounce between following Alastor and following you around
You had been taking a bath when one of them showed up, peering above the side of the tub
โGo away you, I need some sort of privacyโ You said laughing, a bit of water spilling over the tub and within seconds the shadow was gone
Now we all know his shadows tell him any and everything
But theyโre just as involved in the gossip as Angel
Theyโll go to him and tell him things about you, who you were with, what you were doing, even down to the scent of your perfume
โHello dear!โ
โ Hello Alastor. Anything I can help with?โ You asked. He grinned, his smile stretching ear to ear
โ Well I was just curious if you happen to know where the princess could be?โ
He asks, his eyes flicking to the wall behind you for a minute.
The shadows dancing in with your own, making cringy gestures to Alastor, teasing him.
โ Oh actually I think she left to an interview with Vaggie earlier today. But that was the last Iโd seen her.โ You reply, but you donโt notice them behind you. His smile strains, pulling you close and walking down the hall.
โ Well my dear since we are under unsupervised vision why donโt we go out for lunch! My treat of course.โ
Heโs casual, as if he didnโt just steal you away from his shadows who still wanted to mingle in your presence more.
Whenever he talks to you theyโll just get really excited and cheer a lot behind you, pointing to you and making little kissy faces
he hates it
When you two start dating they only get worse in their antics
They constantly follow you around, acting as if theyโre your shadows
Sometimes they take things from you to mess with you but itโs all in friendly spirit
You were doing your hair once and got distracted because one hand insisted on dancing with you
Alastor can never really have you to himself thanks to them, which he absolutely hates
โ Do you mind?โ
Heโll ask, the static in his voice only louder as he clutches you to his side. The shadows stand and cross their arms, giving him the sass right back
โ Theyโre just having fun.โ You say, and he lets it slide only because it doesnโt entirely bother you
Now they have joined in whenever Alastor and you try to get alone time
This is also the only time they arenโt against Alastor but more against you
If you ever thought of backing up into a wall to get away from Alastor think again because heโs right behind you sweetheart ;)
If you ever do flirt with them theyโll get really excited and run to Alastor about it, excitedly whispering what youโve done
If you ever need Alastor and he isnโt near, youโll usually have his shadows bring him to you
The perks of being with Alastor is he can never really run as long as his shadows are wrapped around your finger ;)
It was late and the hotel was quiet. Sitting in a warm bath Y/n ran the soap over her arms and down her torso, unwinding from the busy day. Until she saw shadowy eyes staring at her from above the rim of the bathtub.
โ Oh hello.โ She said smiling, pausing in her actions. The shadow did nothing, sitting still and watching her shyly. โDo you happen to know where Alastor is?โ She asked, leaning over a bit so the water flowed off her body easily, her torso now visible.
The shadows eyes went wide, nodding furiously. โHmm, how about you,โ she said, now eye level with the shadow, getting closer. โ bring him to me.โ
The shadow had never disappeared quicker, and in its place was a confused Alastor, now kneeling in front of the tub, noticeably lost.
โOh, Hello my dear! Something the matter?โ
He asked, before she grinned, her hand reaching forward to pull him to her by the tie.
โ Youโll find out.โ
Bonus:
โDear they are actively trying to take you from me.โ Alastor says, his smile strained and eyes twitching.
โDonโt be so mean, they just need some love too thatโs all. Isnโt that right?โ You coo, the shadows huddling around you more in a group hug. You giggle as some tickle your sides.
โThis is criminal.โ
#alastor x reader#hazbin alastor#hazbin hotel x reader#hazbin charlie#hazbin angel dust#hazbin vaggie#hazbin demon#hazbin vox#hazbin hotel rosie#alastor
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Withering for You || Seungcheol- Part 4
Pairings: Seungcheol x Fem!Reader
Genre: Angst, Fluff, Smut, CEO! Seungcheol au, Husband! Seungcheol au, Wife! Reader au, Music Teacher! Reader au, Arranged Marriage au, College Sweetheart au, Exes to Lovers au
Synopsis: When you are arranged married to the man, whose heart you had broken years ago, even dreaming about mending things seems next to impossible when he has been holding grudge for all these only to return it to you tenfold.
Warnings (specific to this part): drama, crying, profanities, everyone is hurt and sad, everything is on rocks, mentions of infidelity (doesn't happen to though), mention of alcohol consumption, betrayal, italics represents occurrences in past
Word Count: 6.3k
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They say betrayal is worse than death if you taste it from someone you trust, someone you love. It's stingy, it's sickening, it's scathing.
You have always believed in soulmates, entitled Seungcheol to that word since you've known him, even wanted to make promises of eternity with him. But you should have seen the signs, should have never crossed the lines. Must not have tried to slip into the loopholes.
But you got blinded by greed, a hopeful stance of getting back together. Was it so wrong to wish a happily ever after with the one you have loved selflessly? Apparently it was.
"Sit.", you tell Seungcheol and the later obeys.
And as he does so his eyes fall on a very familiar document kept on the table. Instantly, he goes numb.
You observe him for a moment and play the recordings Jiah had given you. Midway, a panic stricken Seungcheol runs to you and pauses the recording.
He grabs your arms and says in desperation, "I didn't do all this Y/N. I admit I had planned all this because I wanted revenge but please trust me, it wasn't me."
"Unhand me.", you command him coldly, "Your touch disgusts me."
Seungcheol looks at you alarmingly before freeing your arms. He thinks of ways to convince you because in actuality, like he said he had planned it all but something out of scope happened. He fell in love with you again so long gone were all of those thoughts and schemes.
"What goes around, surely comes around.", you let out a chuckle, "Maybe that's why, I'm going through this. I get that you wanted to trample me upon. It's fair, to think about what you've been through because of me, I could have understood.", you look at him, "You could have handed me the divorce papers on our anniversary. Could have had other women and it would have wounded me. But-"
The tears pooling at the corner of your eyes are streaming down, "But how could you stoop so low? Knowing how much this academy matters to me, knowing what music means to me, you went out to attack my soul."
"No Y/N, I was a fool, please please", Seungcheol is crying as well, choking on his words, "It was wrong of me but I would never--"
"They are calling me a thief. Because of this incident those out there are questioning my whole career. The career, I've pursued after fighting the odds, after struggling for years. The one thing that is entirely mine.", your eyes turn darker as you say, "You could have rather killed me, Seungcheol."
Seungcheol gasps and shakes his head frantically.
"Even if I clear my name today, there will be people who'll still doubt my ability. Some out there would assume that I might be guilty and just because I belong to an influential family, I must have pushed everything under the rug with money.", you are hurting yourself with every word you utter at this point, clutching your chest, "My image is tainted, my career is ruined. They will never look at me the same way."
"I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry Y/N", he gets on his knees and clasps his hands, pleading, "I would do anything to clear your name. I'd do anything to win back your trust just give me one chance--"
You take his hands off you saying, "I have always loved you, Seungcheol. Back then, even now, I have chosen you. But none of that matters now. You have stabbed me in the back but I'll be one to pay the price. I thought you'd be different but these genes run in your family. I can't even blame Jiah. You Choi's are no different from her--", you halt.
"What do you mean?", Seungcheol asks confused.
"As I said none of that matters now. You are so petty that you acted out the whole thing. You don't love me and from today onwards I won't either.", you answer him, taking out the wedding ring from your dress pocket, "Here, I'm giving you what you wanted.", you take his hand and place the ring on his palm, "Congratulations! This marriage didn't get through it's first year. But I have a present for you. I have filed for divorce, the papers will be sent to you as soon as they're ready."
Seungcheol is at loss of words. He's unable to comprehend the situation. He wants to stop you but on what ground? The irreversible damage is already done.
"I have all of my belongings sent over.", you inform him, "And if you're planning to create a fuss about the divorce and what's gonna happen after the conference, head on. I won't be giving up like last time. I'll see through the end of it."
"It's happening again", he tells himself and sounds so broken when he speaks through his wavering voice, "Please don't leave me again."
"I had no choice, I was forced to leave you back then", you mutter under your breath, making it impossible for him to hear, "I was willing to stay this time but I have to leave, this time for my sake."
While you gather the rest of your belongings, Seungcheol stands there helpless. And as you walk out of the house, he watches you take away the life of his adobe with you.
Seungcheol numbly tunes in to watch the press conference. He sees you on the screen, out of his reach, out of his life. He listens to each word you say. How sad you look as you address the matter. Even though your legal team briefs the journalists, his eyes are glued to you. He observes how you don't explicitly mention him or the Choi enterprise but throw sublte hints to catch on.
But you make it obvious at the end of the conference by announcing your divorce to Seungcheol.
"I have filed for divorce against Choi Seungcheol and I would like to refrain you all from associating me with the Choi's in future."
Seungcheol is immediately thrown under the bus. People who were coining you as a thief are now praising you and busy portraying him as the villain.
But mopping won't do him any good. His mind reel backs to every word you have said before leaving. He needs to get answers to some questions. Most importantly, he has to get you back.
The next few days goes by Seungcheol handling the legal charges against him which are minor because he digs out enough evidence to prove that he wasn't involved in the slander and Jiah is the main culprit, adding exceptional charges to the list that would nearly ruin her and damage her company's reputation.
The Choi enterprise faces reputation loss as well which results in their stock plummeting and the board of directors complaining about the situation. But being humungous in business, the impact isn't uncontrollable and since Seungcheol is mentally exhausted his father lets him loose taking matters into his hands for the time being.
Everything is manageable or bearable except for the divorce papers which he has received on your first anniversary, that sits coldly on his office table.
"The house I bought is an hour drive from here and I'm planning to stay there for some time, just to take my mind off of things." you say fishing out your car keys, "I have saved my new contact number to your phones."
"But are you sure you don't want us to be there with you?", your mother asks worriedly.
"At least let us help you shift--"
"Dad, I have lived alone before as well. Plus Chan and my friends are gonna help me with the unpacking.", you move over to hug both of your parents, "Visit me after it's done. Plus I'm planning to throw a cozy house warming house, not soon though."
"We're proud of you.", your mother says patting your head.
"I'm sorry for all the troubles and stress you've been through for the past year.", you mumble, quickly wiping your tears, "I'll be fine, no looking back promise."
"We have always trusted you, just take care of yourself and call us.", your father says kissing your forehead.
Chan waits for you by the car and he doesn't let you drive throughout the time it takes to reach your new house. As your friends help you settle into your new home, you are grateful to them for keeping you distracted and not bringing up Seungcheol.
"I'm sorry, Kwan. The academy had to face such an incident because of me.", you say hanging your head low in shame because you don't want anyone to see your tears, the can of beer in your hand remains unsipped, "I have decided to take some time off, please handle the academy and it's okay if you want me to backout. I'll transfer my shares to you."
Seungkwan blames the atmosphere for the tears in his eyes. He wipes them and sits beside you, "I couldn't have done it alone. The reason the academy exists is because we both had given it our all. So take all the time you want but you'll have to return."
You lean onto him and it's your brother who comes to wipe your tears.
"I'm so sorry Chan.", you speak through the tears, "I should have listened to you. I never thought that Seu--", you go quiet because it pains you to even say his name.
Everyone in room goes silent. It's not haunting rather comforting. But the successive ringing of the phones cause a mild commotion.
"Wonwoo keeps on calling us.", Eunsoo mutters, switching off her phone.
"Just tell him that I'm fine.", you tell her, "I'll give him a call later. I haven't visited Wonseok lately so I need to talk to him anyways."
It's amusing, how the night changes.
Seungcheol is distressed. He realises you are not the only one he has lost, he has lost Ms. Oh's empathy, he has also lost precious friend Wonwoo as well.
Wonwoo is back to his stoic self, the version he was when Seungcheol met him first. Only talks business with him, leaves as soon as he's done with assigned work. No more late night drinks, no more taking shots, none of the banter.
He watches you laugh as Wonwoo tells you something animatedly. He watches how your eyes are dull even though your lips are stretched.
Seungcheol had overheard Wonwoo talking to someone on the phone about his brother so he decides to visit him seperately just to check on him. He didn't expect to see you there, making him question since when you knew about Wonseok.
Your face falls when you're suddenly interrupted by Seungcheol's presence. He stands in front of you wordless, you don't bother to strike any conversation with him either.
"I'll get going, let me know if you need anything else.", you tell Wonwoo and turn around walk away.
"Y/N", Seungcheol says, "Can I please talk to you?"
You crane your neck to meet his gaze, "I don't think we have any business with each other. Do me a favour and just sign the divorce papers."
"I can't.", Seungcheol speaks out without missing a beat, "I need you Y/N, please give me a chance, let me make things right. I promise I won't let you down anymore."
"Enough with this act, don't assume you could fool me twice. I'm done with you.", you move around so now you're facing him again.
"You've changed your number.", he says meekly, "I don't get to see you anymore. That house haunts me, it's not the same without you."
You step in, closing the gap within you two, "You're facing the consequences of your actions. Stop acting like a fucking victim.", you spat out before walking out.
Wonwoo is torn. He doesn't want to take sides, it's even more difficult to see both of his dear friends grieving and suffering but there's nothing he could do.
"Wonseok is going through a series of surgeries because his condition had worsened and Y/N has been paying for them.", Wonwoo informs Seungcheol and before he could ask, Wonwoo adds, "You're already paying me more than I should be so I didn't want to burden you more. She had accidentally found out about Wonseok one day and decided to help me out even though I wasn't ready to accept it. She was determined and I couldn't stop her."
Seungcheol isn't surprised rather he is confused. This version of yours is what he was habituated to when you were dating until you convinced him it wasn't on the day you broke up. Something isn't adding up. Something about your nature and the way you act to what you had said that day are contradicting. You aren't mean-hearted, you are a giver so why did you years ago do something so bizarre, the thought is unsettling.
"She has been taking some time off from the academy, no one knows when she'll be back. She is so affected by the incident that she was ready to give up on the academy. The one she had built from scratch with her blood, sweat and tears." Wonwoo speaks disappointedly, "Do you realise what you have done?"
Seungcheol is ashamed, there's an unhealing pain in his heart thinking about you, about how he should be the one aiding you in your tough time but he can't because he's the reason you're in agony.
"As you know, I had also hated Y/N for what she had done. And now that you see me being friends with her is not because she's paying for Wonseok.", Wonwoo halts and takes a breath, choosing his words carefully, "It goes far beyond that. You have always been heedful, I think it's time for you to be vigilant as well. The truth might be far from what you've believed it to be."
Wonwoo doesn't spare another second on his watch as he walks away ignoring the desperate calls of his name.
Seungcheol's mind is not in place anymore.
Your thoughts are everywhere. Peace and happiness are some of the things you haven't gotten to feel lately. Though you've decided to spend time alone at home, the loneliness is caving you in.
Maybe tonight you're feeling a little more lonely than usual. Maybe you shouldn't miss the person who had pushed you to the edge of the cliff. Maybe you shouldn't be good with dates. Maybe you shouldn't trace your thumb on the calendar reminiscing about the day, you both had made it official years ago.
The damned tears aren't stopping, your heart isn't healing.
The bell rings and you are surprised because no one is supposed to visit you today. Quickly wiping your eyes and cheeks you don't bother to check the monitor and open the door.
At the other side of the threshold stands Seungcheol. Your red eyes gape at him as he looks at you shivering from driving all the way here in the snow.
"What are you doing here?"
You know getting your new address and number wouldn't be a big deal to Seungcheol given his network runs deeper.
"Can you let me in atleast, I'm freezing."
You cross over your arms and step aside. He saunters in and wanders off to have a tour of the house. He stops when he senses the glare you're sending him.
"If you realise that this house too plain for your taste you can always contact me. We're best in the business.", Seungcheol says as his lips purse in a line.
"I wonder from where did you get the audacity to come here?", you ask plainly.
"Just wanted to see you", he admits, "I miss you, Y/N."
You scoff at his words.
"Also, there's something you left behind, I found it while going through the drawers.", Seungcheol fishes out a notebook from his inner coat pocket.
You immediately recognise the object, raising your hand flat for him to handover it to you.
"I instantly got reminded of you always carrying it and scribbled down if anything came to your mind. Seems like you had kept this notebook from prior to university days.", he hands over the notebook and touches your hand gently in the process.
His touch turns to strong grip and he doesn't let go.
"Thanks.", you say trying to free your hand, "You should leave now."
The wedding ring on his finger feels cold on your skin.
"I know you remember what day it is today.", he says pulling you closer so that now you're colliding into him, your faces an inch apart. Your eyes are wide and the notebook falls as you're grabbing onto his shoulder out of reflex.
He has an undeniable look of longing in his eyes. You should just push him away, even kick him out but you find yourself frozen.
"I still remember falling in love with you, every moment of it.", he whispers, his gaze switching between your eyes and lips.
"So I do, Cheol.", his nickname slips out of your mouth so casually, there's a pause before you speak, "Why did you have to ruin it all?"
"I regret it all.", he gently holds your face, "But I realised that I never stopped loving you otherwise why would I despise you if I hadn't been in love in the first place."
"You could have broken my heart but you went after my soul."
"You did the same to me years ago. You took my soul away and I became just a shell.", he isn't complaining, just letting you know how difficult it was for him as well, "I planned everything to get back to you but what wasn't planned was my feelings resurfacing, falling in love with you all over again. I had forgotten all the schemes, had forgotten the reason why I hated you in the first place."
When he rests his forehead against yours, you close your eyes basking in the moment. What he did was definitely beyond any excuse but Seungcheol isn't entirely at fault. The fact that he was ready to start again with you after how you had treated him years ago proves the truth behind his words. The difference is you were forced to act out but he wasn't. He chose to destroy you.
So your eyes snap open and you're pushing him away.
"Leave Seungcheol.", you step away, "And never come back again."
Seungcheol sighs, "What should I do for you take me back? If you want I would never show myself in the vicinity of the academy. I wouldn't even ask you anything remotely related to your works or the academy. I'll stay all out of it, I promise."
"Nothing you do would make me go back to you.", your words taste bitter in your mouth, "We are not meant to be, we're not good for each other."
That is basically you firmly rejecting him, letting him aware that he has axed the mended fence.
Seungcheol smiles sadly, "Only if I could show you my heart and mind."
He then leaves with a heavy heart.
The next few days goes by Seungcheol racking his thoughts to make up his mind. Every time he thinks about you wanting to desperately cut ties with him, he relents. He laments on himself for what he has caused. At nights when he deliberately stays late, he mentally prepares himself to sign those papers because that's the only way to atone for his sins.
But those divorce papers get through every night without getting signed. Because when Seungcheol thinks he's ready that's when the realisation gnaws on him that he's actually not, that he'll never be.
And it gets harder each time he tries.
So one night, he lets his intrusive thoughts get the best of him and he ends up calling you.
"I'm trying but I can't bring myself to sign those papers", he speaks into the phone clutching it hard followed by a shaky breath, "I really want to give you what you want but whenever I think about not having you in my life, my willingness deters."
You stay quiet.
"Sorry to disturb you. Don't know what I was thinking. Please take care of yourself, bye.", he hangs up and collapses back on the chair.
Wonwoo watches through the blinds and he isn't new to this. Years ago Seungcheol had gone into a spiral, had almost given up on living post the breakup and now it hurts Wonwoo to see the history repeating itself.
So this time he promises to intervene for both of your sake, specially Seungcheol.
He has two things on his to-do list and though he isn't sure what the outcome will be, he's going to do them. He gathers everyone and let's them know of his plan.
"Mingyu, Eunsoo, Seungkwan", his gaze sweeps on the three, "You're gonna go and convince Y/N."
"I'll go to uncle and aunt.", Wonwoo says.
Eunsoo looks at him questionably, "We get our part. But are you sure your friend's gonna be okay?"
"Most importantly, I'm not sure how this will end because both of them are unpredictable as fuck.", Mingyu adds.
Seungkwan who was silent the whole time, speaks, "Guys, let's go for it. We will handle the aftermath.", he looks at Wonwoo, "You'll have to take care of Seungcheol because he's gonna hurt the most."
"It's better to be over it, Seungcheol deserves to know."
"What's wrong with you guys?", You ask absolutely astonished. All of your friends have suddenly busted into your house and are now advocating you on something that is supposed to be out of their box.
"Why are you suddenly siding with Seungcheol?", you say with a frown, "I'm feeling betrayed. I'm gonna call Chan now."
Eunsoo and Mingyu break into cold sweat knowing how scary your brother can be. Seungkwan sighs looking at the other two and gets that he has no other way but to sort down to what he's best at. He says, "Y/N, do you think we'd ever think ill of you? Do you think we'd be at your door because suddenly we felt emphatic towards Seungcheol? That's how lowly you think of us?"
The look on Mingyu and Eunsoo's faces are absolute comedic. They didn't expect Seungkwan would pull out his trump card.
Your gaze is unwavering when you say, "This won't work on me you know right?"
Seungkwan smiles, "Of course I know but we also know that you love Seungcheol and won't be happy without him. So we're saying all this just for your sake, not his, not anyone else's."
"You're wr-"
"You had 7 years but you couldn't get over him, even accepted his family just to marry him.", Seungkwan continues, "You had come across so many good men all these years but no one piqued your interest because you only had Seungcheol in your heart."
"Y/N, I did believe him when he said he fell in love again. I had seen the way he looked at you, the way he was protective around you. The way his eyes were always on you, radiating love. It may have started as an act but at some point it became real.", Eunsoo smiles at you, "He loves you."
"But Soo--"
"If you really loathed him, you wouldn't have waited for him to sign those divorce papers, you would have upsurged everything. You have the power to ruin the Chois wholly but you're just buying yourself some time.", Mingyi adds and immediately shifts to hug you, "What Seungcheol did was incredibly wrong, wait he didn't even do it. It was Jiah."
"Are you not getting Jiah did all just to separate you both again?", Seungkwan ask and you look at him wide eyed.
"She had done the exact thing years back and was successful. Please don't let her win again. If she can't have Seungcheol, she has planned all this for you to not have him as well.", Eunsoo voices out her concerns, "Don't let all these heartbreaks, tears and sacrifices go in vain just because of some misunderstandings. Don't do something you'd regret because you didn't mend it when you had a chance."
Your heart sinks at their words.
"Take your time but choose what you think is the best for you.", Eunsoo rubs your back gently, "Rationality shouldn't always take the stance, sometimes hearts should be listened to."
You take a deep breath and say, "Fine guys, I'll think about it."
The smile on their faces are unmatchable.
Seungcheol is worried when he receives a call from his mother asking him to urgently come to their house. Wonwoo is already waiting by the car and though Seungcheol asks if he knows anything he stays tight lipped throughout the ride.
"I'll be waiting for you right here. Call me if you need me.", Wonwoo says with an intone and for some reason it doesn't resonate well with Seungcheol.
He is led into his father's study where he sees both of his parents waiting. They are heartbroken seeing their only son. Seungcheol has lost weight, accumulated bags under red eyes, appearance unkempt.
"Take a seat.", his father says, "I have something to tell you and it's regarding Y/N."
Seungcheol immediately perks up at your mention. An eerie silence falls upon the room. Seungcheol's anxious gaze searches for his parents'.
"Y/N was forced to break up with you years ago. I had made her do so.", his father admits.
Seungcheol freezes. He thinks he's hearing things that are not supposed to make any sense.
"Ever since I had started the business I had been diligent to it. Dedication and honesty does account for success but so also being money minded and cunning. As years went by that consistency and success made me cling to riches, fame and status that came along with it.", his father says as he takes a seat gesturing him to do the same. "You must be remembering that we were facing financial crisis because one of our major investor had withdrawn. It had affected us greatly."
Seungcheol nods, "We were on the verge of facing bankruptcy."
"Since Jiah's father runs a finance company, we had made small sort of deals previously but that time the amount required was large and no one was willing to help us not even her father. But later Jiah came to me and offered me a deal."
"W-What deal?"
"That she would convince her father to provide us support only if", there's an ominous pause before Mr. Choi looks at him and says, "I remove Y/N out of your life."
A tear falls from his eye, as he hears the tale of betrayal from none other but his father.
"I have never liked Y/N, the reason was basic, she didn't belong to our circle. Initially I thought she was just a fling but so I agreed with Jiah."
Seungcheol is numb at this point, he just sorts to listening.
"One day I had brought in Y/N to let her know that she needs to find her way out of your life.", Mr. Choi's gaze falls, "She instantly refused. No matter what I said she wasn't willing to leave you. One meeting turned to two, two turned to three but she was hellbent on not letting you go."
"With Jiah constantly pressurizing me, threatening to nullify the deal if not taken action soon, I became desperate.", he confesses, "So I resorted to one thing I should have never done. I can never forgive myself for that."
You say in utter disbelief, "Why don't you tell your son to breakup with me instead? Stop pestering me, you know we both love each other and Mr. Choi let me make this clear, this is the last time I'm meeting you."
Mr. Choi gives you a sickening smile. He casually says, "Your brother is currently studying in Australia, if I'm not wrong."
You pale instantly, "W-What about him?"
"You're right, this is gonna be our last meeting. If you don't breakup with my son, I'm not sure what I'll do with your brother. What if you don't get to see your dear little brother anymore?"
"Mr. Choi, you can't do this. Please--"
"I'm not here to negotiate. I think you're smart enough to make the right choice. So tell me Y/N, what did you decide?"
You are crying and begging but there's no mercy reserved to spare for you. How are you supposed to choose between your brother and the love of your life? You will have to so you choose what's best for all, you choose both.
"Fine, I'll breakup with Seungcheol. So stay away from my brother."
Mr. Choi smiles in mirth, "You made the right descision. Rest assured."
With job being done, he is walking out of the hall when your call of his name reaches his ears.
He turns with an incredulous look on his face as he waits for you to speak.
"Promise me that you'll never tell Seungcheol about this incident.", comes your strained voice.
"I wasn't planning to anyways.", Mr. Choi says, "Even better for me, I promise to not tell Seungcheol about any of this."
Seungcheol runs to his father with the intention of doing something unspeakable but he stops right in front of him and collapses on the ground.
"How could you do this?", he sobs uncontrollably, "How could you stoop so low?", he balls his hands into fists and channels the anger on the floor, hitting it again and again that's when his mother steps in to stop him.
He looks at her and say, "How could you not tell me? How could you tolerate your husband even after knowing all this?", he then swats her away.
Getting up, he's gasping for air, unable to comprehend with the pain in his chest and head. Restlessness engulfs him but he doesn't let both of his parents to even touch him.
"I'm ashamed to call you both my parents.", he spats out, "I'll never forgive for ruining our lives. I hope all of this was worth it."
Then he's running out of the house ignoring the calls of his name. Wonwoo is immediately grabbing his friend, making him sit and drink water.
"You also knew but didn't tell me?", Seungcheol asks as fresh tears stream down his face.
"I only came to know recently and Cheol even if I had known, it's not my story to tell.", Wonwoo answers.
It takes Seungcheol over an hour to calm down.
"You don't need to attend me, I'm fine.", Seungcheol says stoicly, "You can go, I have somethings to take care of."
Though Wonwoo refutes but Seungcheol is adamant, leaving no choice for him but to obey his boss.
As soon as Wonwoo gets out of the car, Seungcheol drives off.
You are extremely tired, mentally and today for some reasons are you feel thinned out physically as well.
Staring at the cello, ominous thoughts fill in your mind. Because no matter how hard you try, you are unable to produce anything. There are no notes or no tunes, it's all blank.
And you're scared, what if music doesn't choose you anymore? What if you can't produce anything for the rest of your life? All these possibilities scares you enough to spend sleepless nights. It has disturbed your appetite as well.
Tossing and turning, as you've been doing for nights with minimal sleep at dawn hours,ย you sit up startled when the doorbell rings.
All the exhaustion is now replaced with concern when you see Seungcheol who continuously weeps at the door.
"What happened? Are you okay?"
Just a shake of head and he keeps on crying.
It's been about twenty minutes since he arrived crying and you're seriously considering about calling Wonwoo.
The way he's visibly hurting, hurts you too and you resort to hug him, patting his back, "If you're hurting because of me, please don't.", you say softly, tears pricking at your eyes subconsciously.
Seungcheol pulls away, looking at you. His sobs stop and the first thing he does is hold your face and kiss you. You're surprised, his lips graze yours but you don't kiss him back. Your hands push his chest and he's detaching himself mumbling a string of apologies.
"It was all for nothing.", he sounds so heartbroken when he speaks, "All those years spent in pain, hatred and resentment towards you, you didn't deserve any of it."
You have an inkling and it doesn't settle well in your bones, "Whatever you're saying is making no sense. Why are you here?"
Seungcheol looks dead in your eyes, "Because I know now. I know what happened all those years ago."
Your soul leaves your body at his words. You never wanted him to find out because you knew it'd tear him apart.
"W-Who told you?"
"Does it matter?"
And your very first instinct is to grab your phone and make a call to his father but Seungcheol doesn't let you. The phone gets snatched from your hands and thrown away somewhere.
"Why did you do it?", he asks and his questions irks you.
You scoff, "Are you seriously asking me why I did it after knowing everything? Seungcheol, I was threatened with my brother's life, what did you expect me to do?"
Seungcheol shakes his head, "No that Y/N. Why did you make dad promise you about not telling me about this?"
"What could I have done Seungcheol?", your voice cracks, "I loved you so much and trust me, I tried everything I could to be with you, to not hurt you but-- it killed me to lie to you. I went through hell and back trying to stop myself from telling you 'no I'm lying, please don't leave, I love you as much as you do'.
"That day I took your heart away.", You exhale sharply, "I didn't want to crush your soul as well, didn't want to make it anymore difficult for you then it already was. I knew how much you looked upto your father, how much you cherished your parents. I didn't want you to fight your family", your heart twinges as you continue, "Though it wasn't possible for me to love again, I prayed that you would move on, meet someone who'd make you forget all the sorrows I gave you. I wished for you to fall in love again and live happily."
You chuckled through your tears, "Won't lie, it would have hurt me but if it assured your happiness I'd have hurt myself all over again, all of the times."
Seungcheol observes you quietly, he absorbs your words to his heart.
"What does that make me, Y/N?", he asks defeated.
"You weren't at fault, Cheol. I chose what it seemed the best for all of us."
"I hated you, married you and plotted revenge. Hurt you and now indirectly lead to something that almost ruined your career.", he speaks as if he's narrating a monologue, "I kept wounding the wounded and siding with the foes."
"Stop blaming yourself. What you did was indeed wrong, you should have never attempted take a blow at my career. But years ago, even after all that you were ready to start again.", you remind him.
Seungcheol completely shuts himself out.
"Till yesterday, I was in a dilemma. They say if you love someone you should let them go. Call me selfish but I couldn't even think of parting ways with you. I wanted to fight for us. I'd have courted you until you got bored of me. I would have waited for a lifetime, even if you'd have moved on.", he avoids eye contact so that his resolution doesn't deter, "But how could I tie you to the people who tried to harm you, harm your family?"
"I won't beg for forgiveness anymore. Honestly, I don't want you to forgive us. If you're having second thoughts about us, discard them. Please just discard me.", he voices out in desperation, "Be selfish and choose yourself this one time."
He takes out a paper from his coat pocket which you recognise very well.
"Till yesterday signing these papers seemed impossible for me but it's surprising, how events turned out to be.", he takes your hand and places the paper saying, "I have signed them. This time I chose what's best for you."
There's a sickening churn in your stomach that makes you realise that there's nothing you can do.
"I love you, Y/N."
The weight of those words fall heavy on you as Seungcheol closes in.
"For one last time, please.", he says holding your face.
You incline towards him and instantly his lips are on yours. One of his hands now settle on your neck firmly as your lips dance on featherly. His other hand is gripping your waist to hold you in place. The saltiness of his tears burn on your tongue, making you suck in a gasp. His kisses you till his heart's content because it's a kiss of goodbye before resting his forehead on yours.
"Don't go", your strained voice whispers, "Please don't go."
Seungcheol whispers back, "I have to. Please don't stop me, I'm not strong enough to refuse you."
The tears stream down your face, "Would nothing I do be enough to stop you?"
"Y/N, please", he pleads, "You were right when you said we're not meant to be because I have only hurt you. I don't deserve you."
"Cheol..."
He steps back and you're suddenly engulfed by coldness.
"The chapter named Choi Seungcheol in your life ends right now.", he balls his hands, grits his teeth, does everything to not let those tears spill, "Since you might not submit the divorce papers, I have already handed over a copy to your attorney."
He turns back, rubbing his chest, the pain is unbearable.
"Cheol, please..."
"It's snowing so don't follow me outside, you'll catch a cold. Goodbye Y/N."
Then he leaves, from your house, apparently from your life.
And you realised not all stories have a happy ending, there's not always a happily ever after.
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Special thanks to @marifilue and @n4muqr for requesting a Halloween-themed one-shot.
Laura watched as Logan cursed out the oven for what seemed like the fifth time today. The burly man had been set on making cookies for the past 45 minutes with minimal success. Jingle twisted his way through Laura's legs and meowed for attention.
Scooping up the cat, Laura got up from the kitchen table and walked over to Logan who was standing over a failed sheet of cookies. Laura dipped her finger into the bowl and pulled a small piece of the dough off to eat.
"It tastes fine." She comments, peering over his shoulder to see the oddly paper-thin, burnt cookies on the tray.
"Dunno what m' doing wrong." Logan sighs pulling the oven mitt off his hand
"Maybe you should just start over." Laura suggests, "Probably added too much or too little of something."
"I followed the recipe perfectly." Logan growls
Jingle meows in disbelief and Laura shakes her head, clearly, he's done something wrong.
"Keep baking then, chef, I'm going to watch a movie," Laura says walking off
She switches on the TV and clicks on Netflix, scrolling through the choices while Jingle sits down on the sofa cushion next to her. Logan's grumblings reach her sensitive ears and she looks at Jingle who seems unbothered by the man's distress.
Laura knew why Logan was trying to turn himself into the Pillsbury Dough Boy, he was trying to get out of the doghouse. For the past three days, Logan had been banished to the couch for some unspoken reason. Laura wasn't worried, things always worked out but it was certainly entertaining to see him so stressed.
Perhaps she should watch Coraline, it was the perfect movie for Halloween.
Logan wanted to rip his hair off his head. Not only were the cookies failing but he felt like he was wasting his time. You'd been giving him the silent treatment for three days now and had him sleeping on the couch like he was some animal unfit for your bed. Which, much to his dismay that stupid cat he had gotten for you, was sleeping in his spot every night now. It was an anarchy.
The worst part about all this was it all started with a stupid lamp.
Three days ago, Logan had been a bit drunk, he was sitting on the couch, his elbow dangerously close to the end table that held a lamp you had found at some thrift store. This of course was no ordinary lamp, it was a lamp that looked like a flower. Now, Logan didn't specifically care about this lamp, but you? Oh, you were obsessed with it. This flower lamp, with its baby blue shade and golden stem, had you completely bewitched. Every day he'd catch you staring at it like it was your kid or something.
Of course, he had ignored your request not to rest his elbow anywhere near this lamp and somehow knocked it over when he went to take a sip of his whiskey.
It was like it was slow motion, the way it fell. Logan had reached a handout, trying to catch it, but his reflexes were dulled by the alcohol and the lamp went crashing to the floor. With glass everywhere, and that fucking cat staring at him from across the room, Logan knew he was fucked.
Three hours after the death of the lamp, you were back from a shopping trip with Vanessa. He was sitting on the couch again, gaze fixed on the TV, hoping you'd focus on him and not the lamp that was now at the bottom of the garbage can. He adjusted his white tank top, and slightly pulled it up to show a sliver of his lower stomach off, you had mentioned how hot it was when he did that. Maybe, just maybe he'd be enough to distract you. He tried to subtly flex his arms in a way that looked natural while you pet Jingle who had greeted you at the door. He meets your gaze as your eyes scan the room slowly.
"Where's my lamp?"
Shit.
Now, he was standing over another sheet of cookies, praying these ones would turn out okay. So far every tray had come out paper thin and tasting terrible. He wasn't sure where he went wrong, the raw dough tasted good but the final product was shit.
His phone ringing had him sighing and tossing the next tray into the oven.
"Hey there, my hairy little beaver. HA! That sounds like a name for a vagina."
Logan groaned, he was too annoyed to deal with Wade right now.
"What do you want?" He sighed into his phone
"Just wanted to see what you and Pumpkin were doing tonight for Halloween. Ness and I are going to this huge haunted house, you three want to join?" Wade asked
"I dunno. I'm uh..." Logan trails off, not sure if he wants to tell Wade this.
"What? You're what?" Wade chimed
"I'm just in trouble right now," Logan says vaguely
"With who? I'll get my suit on and be over in 10. Actually, make it 20 I kind of need to take a massive shit." Wade says
Logan grimaces at Wade's oversharing. When was he going to learn not everything needed to be said aloud?
"Not that kind of trouble," Logan says, "She's mad at me."
Wade's laughter has Logan wishing he could strangle the other man through the phone.
"It's not funny, Wilson. I've been sleeping on the couch for three days and she won't even talk to me." Logan groans
"What did your hairy ass do to be in such deep shit? I mean seriously someone call Porta Potty company, get this man cleaned up!"
"I broke her fucking lamp and lied about it. " Logan says
"Oh c'mon that's no big deal." Wade scoffs, "One time I lied to Vanessa about shoving a ringpop up my ass and then-"
"You don't get it, man. She loved this lamp." Logan says
"Well, you better think of something to get you out of the doghouse, cowboy. Flowers, oral sex, probably a new lamp would be best though." Wade suggests
"Can't do that." Logan says
"You don't go down on your girl?" Wade gasps
"No!" Logan yells, angrily, "I mean, yes! But that's not-"
"I know. I saw you two once."
"What?" Logan seethes, he was so going to kill Wade for this.
"I'm joking. Anyone can look at you and tell you're a munch." Wade laughs
"I'm hanging up," Logan says exasperatedly
"No!" Wade says, "Why can't you buy a new lamp for her?"
"She got it at some thrift store. It's some magical unique shit." Logan says
Long silence follows and Logan's nearly sure Wade has hung up before he speaks again. Perhaps he'll have stellar advice for Logan's current issues.
"Well...let me know if you're going to the Haunted House. Good luck, Peanut."
The line clicks off and Logan rolls his eyes, Wade was no help at all. What a waste of time.
The sound of the front door opening has him rather nervous. His cookies were still shit so he was going to have to depend on words this time around.
"Hey." He greets walking out into the living room where you're holding Jingle and greeting Laura who is currently watching some evil clown dump...salt on...a lady with no skin? What was she watching?
Your eyes scan him up and down as Logan realizes he still has a bright pink apron on. He pulls it off and looks at you. You look extra pretty today, he wants nothing more than to walk right over and kiss you. Of course, he's aware if he does that you'll probably send him flying across the room, or perhaps blow a limb off his body, just because you can.
"Wade invited us to this giant haunted house. You two want to go?" He asked
Laura nodded enthusiastically and Logan looked over at you, expectantly.
"Laura, could you please tell Logan I'll go to this Haunted House tonight." You say
Laura opens her mouth but Logan stops her by raising a finger.
"So that's how you're playing it? Use the kid to communicate? What are you seven?" He seethes, upset you won't even look at him.
"So fucking annoying."
Your under-the-breath mutter has Logan's anger boiling over. He hasn't been this upset with you since before you two started dating. In a flash, he paces across the room and pins you against the wall, startling the cat away from you.
"You're driving me fucking nuts." He says ignoring Laura yelling at him, "I'll say it. I'm sorry about the fucking lamp."
He hopes you'll cave right there and accept his apology, maybe kiss him too. Instead, you're sending his ass flying across the room and into a fake witch, you insisted on putting in the corner of the room.
He hears the bathroom door slam shut and he remains on the ground. You were impossible.
You're dead silent for the entire subway ride across town to the Haunted House. He must not entirely be blacklisted in your book though since he catches you standing a bit closer to him during the ride when some shady-looking guy steps into the car, opting to stand near the three of you.
He feels you press your body to him and gently squeeze his forearm when the man inches even closer and is just two short feet away from you.
"Fuck off." Logan snarls at him as the man looks at you with desire.
"Pretty." The man compliments you in a lustful voice and then looks over at Laura on the other side of Logan, staring at her with even more interest.
"You want me to toss you out of this fucking Subway, bub? I'll beat your face into the fucking tracks so good they'll be mopping you up." Logan threatens, still a bit wound up from earlier when you tossed him into the wall.
Blowing off some steam would be nice right now. He looked down at this creeper, daring him to take another step or lay a single finger on you or Laura.
The man takes the hint though and disappears out the doors when they open.
Logan fights the smile that tries to worm its way across his face when you nuzzle your face into his chest, a small barely audible thanks falling from your lips.
Laura nudges him and wiggles her eyebrows, her face saying "Looks like you're winning this argument!". Logan feels embarrassment flood his system as he kicks her foot gently.
Much to Logan's dismay, the moment you step off the subway and see Vanessa and Wade, the tender moment is gone. Unfortunately, Wade greets everyone with a bear hug and if Logan wasn't in public right now, he'd be on the ground, with six new holes in his body.
He walks next to the toupee-wearing idiot while you walk ahead, chatting happily with Laura and Vanessa.
"Looks like you're still in trouble." Wade chimes
"Not even my fault." Logan dismisses with a wave of his hand, knowing full well he was wrong.
"Have you even apologized?" Wade asked
"Course I did." Logan scoffs, he wasn't an idiot.
"Clearly not well enough." Wade teases
The haunted house isn't all that scary. It was a bit darker than Logan would've liked, he's nearly tripped three times now as he tries to follow behind Laura, Wade, and Vanessa. Apparently, not everyone agrees with his definition of scary because he's pretty sure Wade and Vanessa have screamed at least 7 times already.
Laura seemed fine as she walked along a few steps ahead of him. He swore nothing rattled that kid.
Logan keeps glancing behind him where you walk. He's a bit worried about you but you don't seem scared at all either. You're silent as you walk along, letting him keep an eye on you.
He sighs and turns to face forward, watching as Wade converses with someone dressed as a clown who's been dipped in fake blood.
"Love what you've done with the place! I hope you're on HGTV soon!" Wade exclaims
Logan smirks a bit, Wade could be funny sometimes.
Wade snorts a laugh when he sees a guy holding a fake bloody arm, "Gordon Ramsey called, he's looking for the lamb sauce!"
A loud scream has Logan whirling around. At some point you must've fallen behind since you're absent from his side.
His long legs carry him quickly back through the rooms he'd already passed through and finds you facing off with an actor twice your size, a fake chainsaw in hand.
"Move." You order staring up at him
"You don't want to stay?" The guy asks in an over-the-top voice
In the low lighting, Logan can see another masked person, sneaking up behind you, clearly ready for a planned jumpscare.
"Wait!" He calls out to the actors, knowing how this is going to end,
He'd only seen it once but once he scared you in the middle of the night. He'd been waiting for the bathroom and you had opened the door and turned the corner. His sudden presence had you startled and before he knew it you'd used your powers on him. Warm blood had run down his right arm, soaking his clothes as you'd blown his arm clean off out of fear.
You'd apologized for an entire week out of guilt. Lucky for you he could grow that hand back. These actors however weren't blessed with such immunity.
Logan is of course ignored by the workers and the one from behind grabs your shoulders. Logan hears you let out a startled yelp before he's on his ass for the second time today because of you.
The chainsaw-wielding worker has landed on top of him somehow and Logan pushes him off with a grunt. He rushes over to you, checking to make sure you're okay before making his way over to the one who scared you.
To his luck, the stranger is whole and fully conscious.
"What the fuck?" the actor groans on the ground
Logan looks over at, trying to wordlessly assure you that they were okay. He steps away from them and grabs your hand, pulling you away before they ask questions.
"You okay?" He asked, his hand in yours as he led you along
He half expects you to continue to the silent treatment but much to his relief, you answer him.
"Fine." You sigh
"Good." He huffs and looks around to try to see if he's caught up to Wade yet.
Logan doesn't miss the way you refuse to let go of his hand for the rest of the night.
Back home, you're cuddled into his side, Coraline playing on TV after you nixed Laura's suggestion of watching Terrifier 2 aka the clown and salt movie Logan saw her watching earlier. The scent of the pumpkin spice candle you've lit fills his nose as he takes a deep breath.
"Dangerous what you did today, bub," Logan says, glancing at Laura who has passed out in the recliner. Jingle in her lap and a bowl of popcorn resting on her knee.
"I didn't mean to." You murmur, eyes fixed on the screen
"I know." He sighs glancing at the end table where your lamp once was, "Got lucky though. Remember when I lost a hand after you got scared?"
"Yeah..." You sigh, "I probably shouldn't go into any more haunted houses huh?"
"Nope." He says softly
Logan watches the movie as Coraline's other mother suggests sewing buttons into her eyeballs. He doesn't miss the way you're staring at him instead of the screen.
"Sorry, I made you sleep on the couch the past few nights." You say, "You can come back to the bed tonight."
"Apologize to my back." Logan chuckles
"You're fine." You scoff, poking his side with your finger.
The movie fills the silence as Logan sighs, knowing what he'll have to do now.
"I'm sorry about breaking your lamp." He says, sincerely this time
"I know you are." You say, head resting on his chest
"I'll find a replacement...somehow," Logan vows
"No, you won't." You giggle
"No, I won't." Logan sighs, knowing his chances of finding a perfect replacement are low.
Logan presses a kiss to the top of your head, happy that this fight has ended and he's survived his nights on the couch. He's excited to be able to sleep with you in his arms again tonight.
"Logan?"
"Hmm?"
"If you ever break something and lie and try to blame it on a fucking ghost again, I'll ship you off to Wade for a week."
Next Part
Currently not feeling well. This will be the last update for a bit.
I fear this doesn't feel like Halloween enough. That being said. I have another Halloween part in the works.
For reference, here's the lamp Logan's dumbass broke:
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