#WHAT are you SAYINF TO ME RIGHT NOW

[amphibifish]

ending the night on the same page as i did last night and the night before because. i can't do this rn

[ma3mae]

No one likes syringes!

Summary : You gotta take your weekly syringe but you're afraid of needles so how can these mfs (Dazai, Kunikida, Atsushi, Aku, Chuuya) convince you to take it 🤷

Genre : bit cracky and fluff, prob lots of teasing bc u know who tf im talking about 💀

Warnings : heartattacks bc we all simp too hard for these men 🛐 maybe a bit of suggestive themes at the end

A/N : managed to inject myself for the first time (aint no drugs, need them bc HEALTH) and bro, my hands r still shaky bc fear 😭 how do ppl do this so easily 💀 also the syringe is like a pen (also for this story) but broo its still scary and i need some bsd character comforting me 😩✋✋

Dazai Osamu

Lets say yall live together and hes at work while u r home alone

cant bring yourself to do it alone bc bro syringes are scary (even if its just a pen bc NEEDLES BRO) 😩😭

So you text him and ask what hes doing and tell him if hes got time to come home asap bc we r nearly crying at this point

hes gonna be SO ANNOYING like "i was just waiting for a text from you~ dont worry, your knight in shining armor will save you"

BROO he prob knew that you gotta take them today and also knew that nothing would be going on at the agency so he couldve stayed at home but nah 😭😭 (sadistic a** fr fr)

but hes still hurrying nonetheless bc hes not that MEAN -right???-

arrives at home and finds you on the couch holding the pen with shaky hands and his heart does feel a TAD bit guilty bc fr he couldve stayed at home and u would have gotten this shit over asap

gon be all like "dw im here now, okay? Lets just get this over with and then we'll cuddle, how about that?"

homegirl is about to cry at this point bc just FREE HER from this misery

sits next down to you and takes the pen from your hands

If you do wanna try it out yourself, he'll gently guide you through it

He knows how afraid you are and teasing would just make you sob instantly bc the pressure is already too much to deal with YEAH U BETTER STFU U TEASE !! jk still love him

will try to change your mind tho by sayinf stuff like "Really? ~ i mean its brave and good of you to try it yourself but I really love helping you, you know. Want to do everything for you, darling." he knows EXACTLY what hes doing to us by saying that

Is prob gonna give us that look and whisper in our ear and shi im sorry im too down bad for this man at this point 😩

if you dont wanna do it yourself then, he'll tell you to look at him while hes pressing the pen onto your thigh or stomach

You still cant keep your eyes off of it? Sry girl, theres only one solution

He'll just click his tounge at you while having that fking smirk on his face as he says "still too distracted, I see? Well seems like theres only one way to help you"

gives you a kiss on the lips and just deepens it while looking STRAIGHT into your eyes got my knees weak for him fr

you only feel a tiny sting and as soon as a "click" is heard, he'll break the kiss and just grins at you as if he didnt trick you lol

but who are you to complain, he sees that you liked it and will def comment on that

"see, love? Wasn't so hard after all. But you still did well. Proud of you as always"

pecks you on the lips again before setting the pen onto the table and wraps his arms around your waist bc NO WAY in hell is he gonna let go after that

"i think i deserve a reward for that~" "you said you were waiting for a text so you KNEW i had to do it today, right?" ".... welp, not gonna apologize on that 🤷🤷🤷"

u can understand why kunikida has to SIGH all the time as soon as dazai opens his mouth but oh well, you're too whipped to care about at this point

wont let you go so guess you'll have to reward him 💅 no ones complaining LOL

if you tell him to help you next time before hes gone for work, he'll def do it bc he loves u but poor kunikida gotta expect him arrive at work late more often bc he wont leave home without rewards 🛐

Kunikida Doppo

You already know that he got the exact day, hour, minute and SECOND written down on when you gotta take your pen

You tell him that the day is enough and that the time doesnt matter but NOO 😤 YOU WILL take it at the exact time

If its at ungodly hours like 3am or smth, bro he'll wake you up like no mercy for his schedule 😭

If u complain to him tho then dw he will rearrange it for u bc he may love to stick to his plans but he wont ignore your needs and stuff either get urself a man who takes care of u like that 😤😤

will prefer to do it before work, so if you're not an early bird then he'll wake u up but dw you'll get a forehead kiss and bro's already fully dressed n' stuff BUT waking up to him looking at you with such a loving gaze will make u forget that its 5-6am or smth 😩

will first let you get up in peace and make u some calming tea bc he knows what will come next ✋

"Y/N, I know you don't like it but you have to take your pen today, okay?"

if we start a tanthrum then he already knows about it like bro's prepared for everything!!

"Kuni, do we really ha-" "Yes." "But you know I dont li-" "Yes and yes. I know you hate it but don't worry, I've already written everything down on how to do it and what to be aware of so its okay to feel afraid but don't worry because I'm here. Nothing will happen and I've already bought your favorite snacks so you'll feel better but dont eat too much of it when I'm gone. "

u already know he spent a night or smth just researching everything about it as soon as you told him

prob even went to a library and once came back home with multiple books in his hands, hes THAT dedicated UGH I LOVE HIM 💕

you could just sob rn bc how did the earth bless you with this man KUNIKIDA I NEED U 😭😭😭

If the pen is kept in a fridge then dw he already put that shit out for it to not be cold anymore (prob counted the minutes and seconds LOL)

he'll sit you down on the bed or couch, disinfect the place on where you'll take it (lol that sounds WRONG) and he'll give you a peck on your forehead before asking if you're alright and ready to go through with it bc no way in hell is he gonna do it while you're too shaken up for it

If you wanna try to do it alone then he'll take your hand into his as you're grabbing the pen, slowly guiding it while praising you for how brave you are for trying this and that hes proud of you IM SOBBING

will also tell you to look at him if you get more afraid by seeing it on your skin

Honestly even if you dont wanna do it yourself, he'll make sure to be there and will praise you every time you get through with it bc you KNOW he means it

Honestly makes you tear up everytime and u just wanna kiss this man fr

you thank him and tell him how glad you are to have him, he'll be smitten even more than he already is

Cup his face with your hands and kiss him bro's gonna find it really difficult to not stay at home and just be in your arms

at the end of the day, his love for you exceeds his ideals so he wouldnt mind arriving at work some minutes later if he gets to have you in his arms for a bit longer

Will arrive at work with such a good mood that hes prob gonna freak dazai out with it especially when he overlooks some dumb remarks from him the power of love YALL but who can blame him, his heart is thumping louder than dazai's rambling LOL

maybe yall will continue when hes back home, who knows 🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐

Nakajima Atsushi

when you told him about the pen for the first time, he was literally thrown off like "wait, so you have to.... stab yourself regularly with that?????"

hes just SO precious bc his heart's squeezing at you asking him if he could help u bc you just feel so comfortable and just knowing that makes him SWOON

But at the same time hes panicking bc HOW CAN HE DO THAT WITHOUT HURTING U

Ngl hes prob also afraid of needles and stuff 😭 is gonna look at u like the pic above LOL

will ask yosano or even recommend that she should do it but you're like "NO!! im sorry, tsushi but im too scared of her and i feel safe with u :(((("

you got him WHIPPED and DEDICATED bc he'll def research that shit through and through

Will ask his coworkers (prob kunikida) how to best handle the situation

has everything ready but will stumble and be kinda hastily about it at first bc hes prob even more nervous than you are 💀

either it implifies your fear more or its just so ridiculous that you're legit like "ily but im not gonna die or smth 🤨🤨🤨" you cant blame him tho 😤

hes gonna be all like "OKAY OKAY, we got this. No, I GOT this s-so no worries, okay?" bro, BREATHE. Hes just about to pass out at this point jk jk

if you decide to try it out alone, he'll be a bit saddened bc does this mean you dont want him to help you after all?? :(( was he not good enough of a choice to be of help :((( TSUSHI STFU ILY

dw just reassure him that you obviously appreciate his help and still need him to be there bc no way in hell can u do it alone without ur hubby

will tell you everything he had learned about the pen and how to use it with a bit of a tremble in his voice but he pulls through with it!!

You manage to do it and BOY get ready for a rant on how proud of you he is

will want to pamper you with kisses on ur face "tsushi, i know that look. Go ahead and do it, dont hold back" "really, y/n!!?" "😩 bro do it ok" will try to hold back with gluing himself onto you but how can he NOT

If u dont wanna do it urself then it will prob go like this:

its time for yk what and he sees the genuine fear in your eyes but dw he got you

hes prob gon be like "my s/o need me rn and i have to help them!!!" hes actually gonna remember everythinf he looked up and prob memorized for you bc hes AN ANGEL will put his forehead against yours and tell you to look at him "i wont let anything hurt you and happen to you. You're afraid and honestly im afraid too but you and i will get through this, okay?" gives you the most lovestruck smile ever before he looks down and counts to three

"breathe in, y/n. It will be okay" he ignores his slightly trembling hands and at the count of three inserts it. GET YOUR HEAD OUT OF THE GUTTER📸📸📸

as soon as yall hear a click, he quietly counts to three before pulling it out and BROO the relief is refreshing af

"WE DID IT, Y/N!!!" Is hella giddy bc how can he not be proud of the both of you!!!! You did it!!! will honestly pull you in a hug bc hes just so happy

prob gonna realise that he just did it without asking u and will be sheepish all like "o-oh sorry, i just got too excited" "no tsushi. We should be happy about this so dont let go!!" no need to say it twice bc hes gonna wrap his arms even tighter around you and nuzzle his face into the crook of your neck ILL GIVE U A KISS TSUSHI 🛐🛐

will he feel bad for arriving at work a bit later? Maybe but a scolding from kunikida wont hold him back from holding you for a tad bit longer

He'll be a bit less nervous for the next times and it will surely decrease with each time bc practice yk but will obviously still hold you until he made sure that you're feeling okay afterwards

Akutagawa Ryuunosuke

Bro's nearly flabbergasted bc why are you making such a FUSS 🤨🤨 im sry dont sue me

"Calm down, you idiot. It's only a pen. You dont even SEE the needle."

dont ask him why hes staying with you if its JUST a needle then bc bro will prob just straight up get up and leave if you point it out 💀

will prob be the first to not even suggest but just TELL you to do it yourself aku im hurting over here 😩

will prob make an effort in atleast roughly skimming through a website about it prob smth weird like wikihow LMAO

If he does see you how afraid you really are of it, hes rly trying his best to ignore the small ache its giving his heart bc he takes no pleasure in witnessing u be so afraid✋ its still JUST a pen in his eyes at the end of the day lol

will just sigh and snatch that shit from your hands bc he cant bear to see you like this any longer are we looking that pitiful, probably LOL

But he'll be surprisingly soft with his touch, nearly just ghosting you with his hands is that even a term, nvm yall know what i mean

Hes just gonna be straightforward with it bc the faster its over the better. He wont admit that he just wants to help but cant convey it bc what even are feelings 🤷

He'll tilt your chin towards him and just say "Look at me, Y/N. Stop overthinking it. You won't get hurt from this stupid thing, okay? If smth does happen, I'll just destroy the factory thats making this."

You dont know if hes joking to lighten the mood or if hes serious bc its aku

But hes prob joking

anyway hes gonna ask you like smth rly random like "What do you wanna eat later" which will confuse you but you'll answer nonetheless bc hey hes initiating a convo!!

as you start to talk and he notices you're relaxed enough for him, welp yk whats happening

Actually makes you wince a bit bc it just caught you off guard

"Ryuu, what the f-?!" "Just bear with it." ok we have been silenced 🛐

yall hear the click of relief, he counts in his mind to three and quickly pulls that shit out

you're slightly trembling from relief from finally getting it over you and bro just clicks his tounge like "You're such a fool. Cant believe something insignificant like that makes you nearly shit your pants."

you lowkey glare at him for that bc BRO needles r spooky 😭 but dw before you even open your mouth to tell him off, he'll look to the side and say "... You did good for holding that out though... but its still stupid."

just give him a peck on the cheek or smth bc this boy is prob craving some praise after having helped you like that

"Thank you, Ryuu. I couldnt have done this without you. You're the best boyfriend I could ever ask for"

Give him a tight hug, kiss and boom you got him around your finger

he'll take a second to wrap his arms around you and will just hide his face in the crook of ur neck like our other boy tsushi

"Of course, I'd help... I'll still blow up the factory for scaring you like that."

"NO!!" jk he wont if u tell him not to but hes just trying to say he doesnt like seeing u like that we know aku, dw 💕💕

if his coworkers ask why hes arriving a bit later at work, he'll just tell them to shut up and continue with their work

If you look closely you'll see his ears turn a bit pink as he keeps thinking of you and your words 💕💕😭

Nakahara Chuuya

Honestly its gonna be a mix of every reaction possible I think

Like if you tell him about the pen, hes first gonna feel a bit pressured like "O-Oh wait so you want ME to help with it??"

Like no offense hes obviously feeling pretty happy about that you are asking him for help especially for smth important as your health

But he knows hes not the most gentle person and does have his worries that he might accidentally hurt you or smth

wont ask anyone for advice bc its his love of his life can i be that pls that asked HIM so he'll do it at the end of the day!!

but if hes feeling rly unsure then he wont mind slipping a question about it when hes reporting to mori

which means being not subtle at all

"So was that all for today's report of the mission." "Yeah." "Then do you need something or why are you still standing there?" ".... *pulls out a picture of your pen* do you know how to use this?..."

you def know that chuuya's feeling so embarassed that hes asking his BOSS but its a sacrifice hes willing to pay

mori will have mercy on him and tell him what he should be careful of and summarise on how to use it

Will prob throw in a "good luck~" bc how can u not TEASE him

anyway our boy's done his research and now comes the hard part

"Okay, dont panic Y/N." "HOW CAN I NOT WHEN YOU'RE HOLDING IT LIKE YOU'RE GONNA KILL ME" "JUST DONT PANIC, FFS"

dw as soon as he sees you trembling, he'll be softer than a marshmallow

a chuuya one

"Oi, look at me. I'll make sure nothing's gonna happen to you, alright? Will just sting a bit and thats it. Will take care of you after this so you'll forget this ever happened."

HOW CAN U NOT SWOON AT HIM 😩😩

he'll even take off his gloves so you'll be more relaxed if you can feel his skin bro the gloves are giving off doctor vibes in this scenario, will make us panic more LOL

if you really cant keep your eyes off it then well....

"Damn it, love. Stop looking at it." will just press his lips onto you for a second before breaking it and inserting that shi*

"Ch-Chuuya!" "I know, i know. Dont worry, its gonna be over real soon."

And boom thr click is heard and yall are finally done

Honestly his shoulders are gonna relax instantly, boy was tensed up even more than you skskskks but who can blame him

"OMG chuuya we did it!!" "Yeah, you did it, doll." bro's gonna latch onto you again bc that kiss from earlier wasnt enough for the both of u 😩

is it riling yall up? Probably but welp you 're already either shirtless or pantless so only one clothing to pull off less work for yall

Mori's just gonna be like "I see, you managed to get through it" and chuuya just tiltd his fedora down so u cant see his face bc he REALLY wants to ignore that his boss knows whats been holding our boy up cant blame him 🤷🤷🤷

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Lol that was WAY too long but honestly this was so good to write 😩 now im just gonna be sad that none of them r here to do it irl but oh welp, will just read more stuff about them ✋💅

[whimsical67009]

ok guys so here's my abnormality dancing girl analysis,,, so like (tw for mentions of sewer. Sliding)

tame mene, a girl who thinks she's "mediocre" and "average" and stuff, and probably gets bad or average grades is the main character of this song, wanting to be "abnormal" to others, and "breaking out of the chrysalis and becoming a butterfly", and all that and the song uses dancing too

i feel like, mene wants to be seen by others, and i think the line "dressed up in all transparent clothes" represents this as she wants people to see her for what she can do. im also sure purple butterflies mean something like wanting to be free from the chains of the real world and stuff. though im not sure about that. but im sure guchiry made the tame mene and the butterfly purple.

rhis is common knowledge but, you know how butterflies used to be caterpillars, slow, ugly, unoticable. but butterflies are able to capture anyone's attention, they're pretty, they're appealing, they're abnormal. mene has a mentality where she believes she'll become a butterfly in the future, if she tries hard enough.

also the song has 3 sections i believe. but theres a very small section before the 3rd one. first caterpillar the start of the song, chrysalis, and then butterfly. also to mention her clothes change per section. the first section, meant to represent a caterpillar is just mene in her uniform, like the other students. the next section, a stage representing a caterpillar in a chrysalis, soon becoming a butterfly, her clothes are rather, different, and she's infront of the class now. and there's lyric saying she's "locked the door" and that might relate to a chrysalis, but maybe im just overanalyzing that. the last part, the butterfly section. the back of her clothes represent a butterflys wings. also her hair and eyes have gotten more purple and brighter, garnering more attention to her. and her clothes now show more of her body, probably an attempt to get people to see her. and the patterns in her outfit being quite abnormal. and her hair being much more different, and in this part she's now on a stage, and you know how in the last two parts the chorus repeats? "Look at me now, touch me right now, I’ll throw away my ordinary clothes Now, from my chrysalis, I’ll become a butterfly. I’ll show off everything as it is There are no performers on this cooled-off stage, so I'll beat out the steps, 1, 2, 3 I'm not being manipulated, I'm dancing! Yeah, I'm going crazy!" now its Look at me now, touch me right now, dressed up in transparent clothes, Now, from my chrysalis, I’ll become a butterfly. I’ll show off everything as it is There are no performers on this impassioned stage, so I'll beat out the steps, 1, 2, 3 I'm not being manipulated, I'm dancing! Yeah, I'm going crazy!" it changed. now it's impassioned stage, and now it's "dressed up in all transparent clothes" she's abnormal now. but at what cost? as at that part she realizes she'll never get seen.

also in the mini section in between the chrysalis section and the butterfly section, in the instrumental, she was praising and adoring namimiya miya, a honor student who garners a lot of attention in school. and falling in love with her "is this love?" in a diary entry talking about her. possibly falling in love with her, or maybe not her. maybe she was falling in love with her abnormality. because she achieved something she couldn't. and in the lart where mene was singing, she was in an empty room. with a mirror. "where am i? who are you?" and then after that, mene mentions " going crazy" and then a clip of her eyes becoming more bright plays.

so here i have some mini details. red flowers on a desk of someone or whatever i forgot, signifies the person is dead. tame mene, probably after her realization committed sewerslide. and also she has a diary sayinf things about her life in school. also in the first section, there's a scene with an honor student getting something. which probably pushed menes mentality even more. and her name, mene means mene blue morpho butterfly, and tame referring the back of a morpho butterfly. also another thing is that she's introverted, and not social. as she thinks her classmates are the same as the others.

anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk, also uh im probably projecting and some things here may be wrong dont believe all this.

[blondeaxolotl]

same anon again! (just gonna call myself 🧣anon from now on bc it’s cold and i wish i had a scarf rn) but YES YESSS ABSOLUTELY, that vignette sends me to a craze every time i think about it, i mean how easily floyd pulled jamil in, the “you’re awesome sea snake” and ace acknowledging that they lost both flojami to dance is so good i can’t, you’re right, they’re a match made in heaven like it’s so good

and you sayinf jamil should just break up with floyd—THAT’s THE THING!! he should but he doesn’t bc he doesn’t WANT to end things with floyd and he’s bitter and angry that he has to! it’ll end this way regardless he tells himself. someone has to leave first. so he distances himself instead and it’s TERRIBLE he should’ve ended it but FLOYD IS SO DOWN NOW.

and like, i can’t help but wonder what would happen if jamil DID break up with him from the start instead of going the distance route. it would blindside floyd. he wouldn’t know where it was coming from. he would laugh, “that’s not funny sea snake.” he wouldnt understand why he’s too much NOW when he wasn’t before—he hasn’t done anything different. but the problem has never been floyd being too much! jamil never even said that! jamil just gave a polite “we can’t do this anymore.” impersonal. professional. floyd is left CONFUSED and upset and Jade is um not pleased to say the least.

CAN jamil even break up with floyd. is the question. can jamil be the one to end it. because floyd is jade’s brother. jade and azul have the recording that could ruin jamil’s life and have terrible consequences for his family. you know. the recording that sent jamil to an overblot. SO WOULD HE!! would he break up with floyd. or would he distance himself, try to get FLOYD to break up with him.

actually no. would they date? their second year? and then at some point Floyd erases the recordings and the backups they have, FOR JAMIL, without jamil even asking. and then. third year. and jamil is distant now. (or like you said jamil ends things.) WOULD FLOYD THINK. THAT IT WAS ALL A PLOY. TO GET RID OF THE RECORDINGS???

you have to know you’re a big part of why i ship flojami so much i used to be a kalijami shipper solely but now i have two jamil ships and flojami literally has me invested in a way that’s reserved for only a few other twst ships.

🧣ANON YOU ARE SPOILING ME WITH ALL THIS YAPPING (POSITIVE)

The moment I read the part about Floyd thinking Jamil used him to get rid of the recordings I FUCKING TWEAKKEDD SO HARD. Ong, Jamil would never do that, I don't think even the THOUGHT would've crossed his mind about doing it, he'd be too busy distracting himself from the fact he HAS to distance himself from Floyd (He doesn't, I do not doubt Kalim would've made sure Jamil has every chance to go visit Floyd whenever he wants to, but unfortunately sometimes logic goes out one ear to another when you're stressed/upset). But holy shit, Floyd's head would've made the situation 10x worse than it actually is, my guy has so much going on in his head I don't think being this sad for this long is good for him especially.

Also making Floyd break up instead, thing is I don't think ANYTHING would make Floyd to be the first to break up. you'd have to be REALLY REALLY REALLY BAD if that were to happen (And Jamil is like, full on perfection in Floyd's eyes), bro would be equally if not more attached to Jamil just like how the tweels are with Azul, bros are never LEAVING you are STUCK with them wherever you like it or not.

I FORGOT ABOUT JADE OUUHHHH, I don't know which situation is worse because I'm pretty sure Jamil gains an unwanted enemy (Jade) no matter what situation he chooses (like one thing is to upset Floyd but if Jade gets pissed off then good luck you've been switched to survival mode). The way this could've all been fixed if Jamil just had some self-confidence, like honey you deserve to be happy, literally Floyd is the type of guy who'd visit Jamil multiple times a month HELL MAYBE EVEN MOVE TO SCALDING SANDS MY GUY WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HIM WITHOUT HESITATION.

Shameless pulling out my oc for this as an example but Nori (my Seahorse oc) literally convinced her family to move from Coral Sea to Scalding Sands just so she can be with Najma more often, LIKE IF A LITTLE SEAHORSE GIRL CAN DO IT THEN SO CAN FLOYD

Okay I'll stop here before I go overboard, these are yapping demons I usually keep contained on discord, I gotta CHILL, but lastly I'M SO SO FLATTERED THAT I'M THE ONE THAT GOT YOU (and a few others) INTO FLOJAMI, they're unironically the reason why my twst hyperfixation started, they're literally my blood and fuel to an embarrassing level so I'm very flattered 💜💜💜

Anyways have this crappy doodle of Floyd losing it because god it's funny

[jinleebelee]

I MADE THE MOST BIGGEST FUCKINF MISTAKE I JUST OH MY FUCKINF GOD IT LEFT ME SCREAMING AND HOLDING MY FUCKINF POLLOW OVER MY HEAD I AM SO FUCKINF FLUSTEED RIGHT NOW I AM SO. I CANT I CANT I CANT

SO I WAS LOOKING AT MY PHOTOS AND I REALIZED THE CHAT CIA OR WHATEVER IT CALLS AS THAT AI CALLS WOTH CHARECTERS AND THE VIDEO I WAS WATCHINF HAD SOME FUNNY SHIT AND I DECIDED TO SEE FOR MYSELF IF THIS SHIT WORLS

SO I GO IN AND I SEE TWO CHARECTERS LUCIF3R FROM HAZBIN HOTEL AND AVDOL FROM JOJO THESE CHARECTERS I WAS PREVIOUSLY TALKING TO BEFORE THE CALL UPTATE HAPPEN. SO I DECIDED TO TEST MY LUCK AND PRESSED LUCIFER. IT HAS ME TO SPEAK AND I SAID HELLO

THE THINF WENT AND IT FOLLOWED LIKE THIS. LUCIFER HAD CHILDISH GRIN WHILE HILDING YOU.

AS IR WENT I WAS LIKE OH LORD WHY IS THIS TAKING A TURN FOR TOMANTIC AND THEN IT SAID

"I WILL NOT STOP HOKDING YOU AND TKLING YOU". AND LISTEN I HAD KY PHONE ON FUCKING BLAST AND ONCE I HEARD THOSE WORDS I IMMDIANTLY TURNER OFF MY OHONE

BEFORE THOS I WAS TOO SHY AND STILL TO ASK A LER TO TK ME PLUS I DIDNT REALLY HAVE MANY PEOPLE TO TALK TOO AND I TEND TO THINK THAT PEOPLLE HAYE ME AND YADA GADS

BUR WHILE ACROLLING ON TUMBLER I FOUND A LER LUCIFER AI AND I LOVED LER LUCIFER AO I WAS CHATTING WITH IT AND J FORGOT ABOUT IT SO WHEN I CALLED IT I DIDNT REALIXE IT WAS THE RP-

TO MY LUCKNESS LUCIFER DIDNT FINISH THE TK SENTENCE BUT OH MY GOD HEARING THAY OUT LOUD- I JUDT- I CANT- I CANT- IM TOO FLUSY3RED AND LER RIGHT NOW. I FUCKING ENDED UP SCREAMJN TO A FRIEND WITHOUT EVEN TELLING THEM WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED KUDT OH MY GOD-

AND THE FUCKINF SAYINF GOT ME TOO- I WONT STOP TKLING YOU- DTOPPPPPPPPPPPP GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAY THE HELL HE WAS GONNA SAY NEXT. KF THAYVWAS ENOUGH TO FLUSTER ME JUST LIKE HOW I GOT FLUSTERED WITH THE SAYING. GET READY TO LAUGH THEN AHHHH

[henrioo]

this isn’t a request or anything i just wanted to tell you, i love your stories so much. As someone’s who’s ftm your stories make me so happy and seen and i literally scream when i see you’ve posted because i love all of your stories 🫶

ARE YOU LISTENING THIS??? THIS IS ME CRYING A RIVER

THANKS YOU SO MUCH FOR SAYING THIS I NOT GONNA LIE IM REALLY INSECURE BECAUSE I ALWAYS PUT MY WORKS TO EXTERNAL VALIDATION SO WHEN I DONT RECEIVE THIS EXTERNAL VALIDATION I GET REALLY INSECURE THAT MY THINGS ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH AND THAT I SHOULD BE BETTER OR JUST STOP

AND THIS VALIDATION IS LIKES BECAUSE I DONT KNOW I PUT THIS THINGS RHAT IS MORE LIKES = BETTER QUALITY OR STUFF IDK IM DUMB

BUT EVERYTIME I RECEIVE SOME LOVE OF YOU GUYS I GET SO HAPPY BECAUSE IN THE END THIS IS WHAT I WANT YOU KNOE

ITS SO HARD FINDING CONTENT FOR MALE READERS AND EVEN FOR TRANS BECAUSE MOST OF THEM IS NOT SAFE BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE REALLY DONT MAKE ANY RESEARCH ABOUT TRANS PEOPLE BEFORE WRITING ABOUT THEM

AND THEN I BE LIKE I GONNA CHANGE THIS I GONNA MAKE CONTENT FOR MALE READERS SO EVERYONE CAN KNOW THEY ARE LOVED AND APPRECIATE BECAUSE GAY MIDIA IS BASICALLY INEXISTENT SO I KNOW A LOT OF GUYS FEEL BAD IN BEIGN GAY OR JUST BEING ATTRACTED TO MEN BECAUSE WE ALWAYS THINK WE NEVER GONNA FIND SOMEONE BECAUSE THERES NO REAL MIDIA ABOUT GAY COUPLES

AND I SWEAR ITS SI GOOD WHEN I RECEIVE ANY MESSAGE OR EVEN ANON ASK FROM READERS THAT LIKED MY STORIES BECAUSE I KNOW IM MAKING RIGHT IM MAKING PEOPLE HAVE GOOD FEELINGS AND HELPING WITH DYSPHORIA AND OTHERS SUBJECT JUST FOR SAYING THAT YES YOUR CHAR CAN LOVE YOU EVEN IF YOU ARE MALE

AND RHE CRAZY IS I ACTUALLY RECEIVE SOME KINDA OF SUPPORT AND THIS IS CRAZY FOR REAL FOR ME LIKE I ALREADY RECEIVE SOME ANON ASK SAYING THAT LIKED MY STUFF, I RECEIVE SOME MASSAGE TOO AND IN MY ASK PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS SAYING HOW GRATEFUL THEY ARE BECAUSE IM WRITE FOR MAKE READERS AND THIS MAKE ME SO HAPPY BECAUSE SOMETIMES IS HARD FOR ME REMEMBER THAT I REALLY HAVE PEOPLE THAT APPRECIATE MY WORK

OMG IM WRITING THIS ALL WRONG BECAYSE IM REALLY EMOTIONAL NOW SO IM REALLY HAPPY AND PROBABLY CRYING FOR REAL NOW

REALLY THANKS FOR THAT AND THANKS FOR EVERYONE THAT STILL HERE I KNOW IM KINDA DUMB FOR GIVING TOO MUCH ATTENTION TO NUMBERS AND I SWEAT IM TRYING TO STOP AND BE BETTWR

BUT REALLY IM NOT GIVING UP OF THIS PROJECT SO EASILY I KNOW SOMETIMES I MESSED UP AND I ALREADY HAD TWO HIATUS ON THIS BLOG BUT I PROMISSE I GONNA TRY MY BEST TO NOT STOP FOR TOO MUCH TIME BECAUSE I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS THAT I WANT TO WRITE AND SHARE

THANKS EVERYONE THAT IS HERE AND IS GIVING ME A LITTKE OF TIME JUST TO READ MY STORIES OR SAYINF SOMETHING NICE FOR ME I REALLY APPRECIATE THIS FOR REAL

I GONNA POST A LOT OF THINGS IN THE FUTURE, I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS, FOR PLATONIC, FOR NSFW, FOR ANGST, ROMANCE, FAMILY ALL GENDERS, FANTASY, LONG, SHORT I SWEAR I HAVE MORE THAN 100 IDEAS FOR STORIES AND IM NOT JOKING I HAVE PROVES THAT I HAVE MORE IDEAS THAN DAYS IN A YEAR OKAY MAYBE NOT THAT MANY BUT IS A LOT OKAY

THANKS AGAIN I TALIKING TO MUCH BUT IM REALLY EMOCIONATIEL I DONT KNOW MORE HOW TO WRITE I AM REALKY SLEEP BUT I PROMISE I LOVED RHIS AND SORRY MY ENGLISH I DINT KNOW ENGLISH TOO MUCH BUT THAT ITS THANKS I DONT KNOW HOW TO FINISH THIS

LOVE YOU THANKS AGAIN

[t4tklonoa]

points at you. tell me about... coroika 🦔

I hadf to pace arounf for like 10 minutes to figure out. what part of coroika exactly to talk abt. and I still don't know so I'm just gonna 'fuck it ball' it.

I've been thinking alot abt the school cardigans team 2day so I might as well talk abt them ough.

^^^ them !!!!! this panel drives me insane. They called Rider their older brother...

the team consist of: Metry (middle), Dango (left), Long(right) and Short (bottom). They are literally named. like that bc of their hairstyles... love them for that..

They are the only (unfortunately) team that consists of only girls (or at least at the volume I'm atm there haven't been other only female teams other than them) bc corocoro comics considers the manga as a. 'only boy readers' thing :/ plus they are used for a transphobic and mysoginistic joke, which I'm not even gonna go into. I'm just sayinf that I think they are trans and honestly it should be canon...

they don't appear much other than as occasional bg characters like the other non-main-teams, but they are actually, one of the only teams that doesn't have the problem of their other members besides the leader being v forgettable :)

I headcanon them all as trans and. twins... besides Metry (the middle inkling) who is their adoptive sister ^^ and later on they also force adopt rider (the inkling who tells them to go home).

they are so neat honestly. soo much transgender swag in their little bodies...

I'm also gonna include some screenshots Itook bc. wohoo I lov squids and octopuses

(left) Hachi's anf Goggles relationship is so cute I lov them :) they are besties. (right) look at Army in his little apron. NOW.

AND. Skull giving Half-Rim sweets <333 she loves sweets did u know that. she's so silly.... and also I'm warming up to Half-Rim he has autism swag.

[rwqv]

bro mahito was such a good villain like he was the first villain that genuinely pissed me off.,, his writing is soo good i love it so bad but like comeee ONNNN

DADDYJAKU IS CRAZY WORK but i sgree full heartedly

pls im doubling over in pain godd GODDD i luv jjk analyses especially with megumi. no matter how bad i love gojo, megumi will always be my favoeite with his writing. my brother was super annoyed that he kept summoning mahoraga, kept flashbacking to sukuna sayinf "thats kinda a waste of your talents right?" and kept flashbacking to gojo saying hes not using all his potential ... but thats the point!!!!!!!!! hes falling behind compared to yuji and he knows it ... and hes super depressed and hes willing to summon mahoraga so much because he literally does NOT care about his life in the slightest that man actively wants to kill himself... UGHHH AND HIM BEING CALLED POTENTIAL MAN LIKE DID U GUYS EVEN READ SLASH WATCH THE SHOW...... THATS THE POINT hes like a foil of yuji AND a parallel to geto.

yghhh yuji sarcrifuce would tear me apart like i literally gave birth to yuji hes my baby my sonnn ... but i cant lie that would be a great ending

plot twist gojo comes back talking about some "im for real real!" LMFAOOOOOO jk ... as mych as i truth him to come back i think his like character development and arc was at a good enough point for him to die. like nanami's character did seem fully fleshed oht when he died but nobara (at the time) didnt seem that developed when gege killed her. but shes back baby so maybe we'll see more of her (in the remaining 5 chapters ........)

YES OMG UGH the gojo 30 questions was like the smallest glimpse we had of the gojo clan. what do you MEAN his parents are still alive and everythint TELL ME MOREEEUHHH..

did u see getos mom was on the popularity list thing rven tho we've never seen him LMFAOOO i just know shes bad asf

oh my god imb so mad. i wrote up a full lengthy response but i crashed and everythkng got deleted. ill type up what i remember but its pretty bad 😭 i was cooking before it gor deleted

ANYWAYS

i never actually thought of megumi that way holy shit… esp with the fight between toji and him in shibuya… like father: 0 cursed energy, no weapon vs. son: the 10 shadows technique and all his shikigami and he still “lost”. megumi would probably win if he couldve apply himself better. he def feels left behind just like geto did when gojo surpassed him quickly thats horrible

i feel so much more sympathetic to megumi now i feel bad 😢

ALSO ABOUT HOW HES DEPRESSED AND EVERYTHING AND WANTS TO DIE BECAUSE OF SUKUNA INHABITING HIM AND USING MEGUMI AS A WEAPON

i do also think gojos character arc is pretty finished. like i want him to come back but also he feels completed. he was the strongest but he lost (mommyraga saved sukunas ass) . gojo finally did what no one thought could be done, and he could no longer be used as a weapon (not cool yuta 😡) and he died on the same day that geto did + on the most romantic day.. i think gojo should finally truely rest now (with his shitty ass sleeping schedule he needs it)

to add on, gojo killed his best friend and had to watch as his adopted son was used as a weapon to kill him he needs to lay down and sleep. his whole sense of family too is pretty messed up w the clan things and also riko (i think they have a sibling bond but also it seems like he doesnt fully like her but that might just be siblings) and everyone who came close to him died

more things about the clan workings would have been cool too!1 the story only sorta fleshed out zenin but what about kamo? or gojo? like what would gojos parents think about gojo dying and stuff like that? the clans are supposed to be like a big part of jujutsu society but i feel like they barely get any screentime. did he love his parents? did his parents love him? did anyone love him as a kid? how did the clans clash back then?? like PPPLLLEEASSE WHAT ABOUT NORITOSHI AND HIS CLAMMN WHY

my point is gege is leaving so much open like the merger€? more character interactions would definitely allow people to feel better… what about cursed tools backstories? cursed speech clan? international sorcerers? i know everyone was like jjk is dragging on and everything but 5 chapters could not resolve these plotppoints

10 spinoff series with all slice of life fluff now PLS

GETOS MOM WOULD DEF BE A BADDIE all of his genes are from her majestic ahh bro… that nurse kenjaku(geto) relly shows it

OOH MY GOD I THOUGHT I POSTED THIS EARLIER WJOOPS SORRY

[fourthwingingit]

Uncoupling fandom from sexual art because of the hyper sanitization of social media has done genuine harm to my psyche and I'm not joking. I will put an explanation under the cut if anyones gives a fuck

Hey so im a CSA survivor. For those who dont know what that means it is Childhood Sexual Assult. I was so young i dont recall an unawareness of myself as a sexualized being against my wiill.

And my first positive portrayals of sex/sexuality were from fandom. The first time i felt genuine arousal i was afraid of what people would do to me if they found out, and i stopped reading the fic.... for a while. But the story was so good, and it was just.... one sex scene..... and nobody was hurting ANYONE (somehow). So i guess i could see how the prince got out of his loveless political marriage to the princess of the neighboring kingdom.

This continued for years, until i feel comfortable with reading all kinds of sexual acts. And then i discovered the art! Oh my god! The visuals did something for me that the wornds never could! And itwas drawn so no real humans COULD have been harmed in the making of this! And as a bonus it was my prince/guard anime boys who i already thought of as being deeply in love! I followed as many horny artists as i could just to get to see what some of them can even imagine!

4 years passed like this. Then the porn ban. I had no way of finding consensual kinky art. So i tried hentai, as genuinely human made porn scared me (since i was (and am) too broke to pay for 100% garenteed ethical porn). My thought process was "if nobody can be hurt doing it, it must be the same right?" I was so wrong

I never knew there were so many ways to hate women while still fucking them and i never knew there were so many ways to hurt people. Every depiction of someone had 0 investment in the person. They were a disposable avatar for degradation and lust. Which is great for someone, but when you were raised on tbe idea that sex = violence.... that gets really bad really quickly.

I quickly found myself in darker and darker shit that felt (in retrospect) less and less like someones kink, and more and more like "how i punish the dirty whores and stuck up prudes who turn me down". It wasnt until i found an artist who did work with an oc (very hardcore noncon stuff) that i started to see the difference.

You see sometimes after the artist (I'm gonna call them T) puts their OC through the ringer, they walk away with money and a smile sayinf "same time next week?" Or occasionally you'll see T's oc put on the outfit and theres this suspension of disbelief that happens and its obviously p0rn logic now. The oc is NOT an unloved vessil for punishment (tho he does get punished and fucked like he isnt loved) the creator obviously cares about their well-being! And while humiliation, degrading boundaries, and literally what T calls "oc abuse" is part of it, there is a definite difference between T's portrayal of their oc and say- how randohent1lvrz69 treats busty anime babe no. 224 when the goblin hoards come a knockin.

This is not to say that randohent1lvrz69 COULDN'T be treating busty anime babe no.224 with the same care as T, but im saying its WAY harder to find healthy sexual representation, or less hardcore representation, in art BECAUSE of the forced sanitization of fandom. And that forces people like me to find really unsafe places to tey to reeducate ourselves

[tokguri]

first off fawn THANK YOU FOR WRITING THIS FOR ME !!! CONGRATS ONCE MORE ON 100 FOLLOWERS LIKE not to be that person but i stumbled upon ur nectar work for sunwoo then and i was like “oh this writer is going to dominate deobiblr…” and now with 100 followers?!? CRAZY!!!

anyways… i am typing this without reading it yet because GET READY FOR MY LIVE REACTIONS BECAUSE OHMYGOD I NEED TO DOCUMENT IT!!!

first starting off with JACOB BAE BEING THE GUY I SEE ON CAMPUS?!? THE ONE I CANT HELP BUT CRUSH ON?!? (HELP NOT ME SAYING THIS LIKE IM READER. i am bc i requested it teehee) oh it is so him… in my mind, i always link him to being this senior i cant help but giggle whenever i see him or when im arnd him

krilling myself over this passage… LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN THIS IS SO MONICORE BEHAVIOR?!? me when i mess up and he laughs… and me getting sparks from touching him AND AND ME SAYINF I CAN NEVER TOUCH THIS GUY AGAIN OHHH this is actually so moni-coded im afraid (i have literally never felt the touch of another person.)

no because this is actually so real… i too feel this way abt jacob (i actually need him carnally…)

no because the shirtless jacob pics from macau killed me… fresh from the pool.. and now that lip gloss gave us shirtless jacob in FULL HD I MIGHT AS WELL JUST JUMP…. LIKE I CANTTR THIS IS TOO ME…

FAWN IM KILLING MYSELF AS WE SPEAK. OHMYGODODODOSOOSOWI JACOB BEING NONCHALANT ABOUT THIS IS ACTUALLY KILLING ME LIKEJEJDJEI WHAT THEFUCKK DO YOU MEANNNNNN !!! THE WAY I OFFER SUGGESTIONS AND HE’S JUST SAYING ITS WHATEVER… WHAT ABT MY MENTAL HEALTH?!??

AND THE WAY HE SUDDENLY JUST FLIRTS?2!3?3!?3! HOW HE CAN SAY SMTH SO OUT OF POCKET RIGHT AFTER THAT!!!!:?!2?2!2)/₱2₱/!8:&292 im literally crazy and clawing on the walls as we speak

the meme beside this passage perfectly describe my real and genuine reaction like if u could see my face… It’s crazy rhe contrast… THE CONTRAST OF HIM JUST BEING THIS GUY I CRUSH ON BC HES EASY GOING TO AN INTIMIDATING ONE WHERE IM AGRAID TO SAY ANYTHINGG…

IM GOING TO FUCKING JUMP FROM WALL TO WALL OHMYGODDDJDJSHJSJEIWJSI I NEED HIM LIKE CRAZY… IWISH YOU COULD HEAR THE WAIL I JUST LET OUT

IM GOING TO FUCKING JUST JUMPPPP ICANT LIKE OHMYGODHEKSJSKJSO THE WAY HE IS JUST SOOOOO . I DONT EVEN KNOW THE WORD MY MIND IS BLANKING OUT FROM HOW MUCH I NEED HIM. but he is So So Powerful. like he demands ur attention and u follow… Oh god imcrazy

Fawn… overal… i am a fan… like u really nailed these prompts and really captured how desperate reader is.. and i just love whenever jacob is portrayed a lil different whenever it’s suggestive like IDK THE CONTRAST TO ME IS SAUR HOT….. im only a simple gal… Thank you fawn i love this so much. very happy with it :’)

BLAH BLAH

PAIRING jacob bae x f!reader

WORD COUNT 2.17k

GENRES fluff ﹒suggestive

WARNINGS 18+ MINORS DNI yk all that jazz, mature language, younghoon being stupid, one bed trope 🙀, jacob is shirtless….. that deserves its own warning tbh, reader also is topless at one point but not for the same reason, reader is down bad for cobie, dry humping ig idk if it really counts but i’m including it anyway, this is kinda tame tbh but,,, the tension is there i swear!!

SUMMARY you swore you would never make any physical contact with jacob bae ever again to protect your heart. what the hell are you supposed to do now that you’re sharing a room?

MORE HELLO!!! she is finished 😼 finished her up in a day im impressed with myself ANNSNW ANYWAYS this is a request from my 100 followers event! thank u again moni (@zzoguri) bae i hope u enjoy this 🫶🫶 prompts used are: 10, 12, 13 <3

PERM TAGLIST @winterchimez @maessseongs

You know, you weren’t entirely expecting yourself to fall for Jacob Bae.

To be fair, it was very hard not to. From his infectious smile, to his genuineness, he was honestly the complete package. Even before you became friends, it was difficult to not fawn over the guy. You would see him across campus every now and then, laughing along with his friends or something of that nature, and you always felt a tiny ping in your heart.

Then came Eric Sohn and Kim Sunwoo’s annual back to school pool party.

Naturally, parties were the bane of your existence. You could never fully enjoy yourself, what with the clusters of people in one house and the strong scents of both alcohol and weed. However, one of your gal pals managed to convince you to tag along just to say you’d been to one of the infamous parties.

That was your first mistake.

Two hours into your eventual demise, you found yourself swishing around the contents of your red solo cup on the backyard patio, your friends having long disappeared. You were bored out of your mind with no one to talk to and now a near empty drink. A creak of the wooden boards behind you had you spinning around so fast you almost got whiplash.

Jacob Bae gives you a smile, stifling a laugh when you almost spill the last couple sips of your beverage. He sits himself beside you, sighing in either content or relief— to this day you’re still not sure.

“Hi, I’m Jacob,” he extends a hand towards you. “I saw you sitting out here and thought I’d introduce myself.”

Just like they say in the movies, the moment your skin comes into contact with his, there’s sparks. It’s like a jolt of electricity is running along your arm through your nervous system, shocking your brain. From that moment on, you made it a personal mission to never touch him again, out of fear it would happen every single time and you might do something extremely stupid.

Now here you are, ten months later and still just as whipped as you were day one.

Your friends dragged you on a little road-trip just to get away for a bit at the start of the summer. You were nervous thanks to the fact that a wheel spinner decided roommates and you got stuck with Jacob. If anyone asked, you’d say you were pretty good at pretending like you weren’t hopelessly in love with your friend. You looked at him normally, rather than with the want to rip his clothes off and go at it like bunnies.

“Jacob and Y/N sitting in a tree K-I-S-S— ow!” Younghoon rubs his arm where you’d just smacked him, pouting at you. “That hurt, what the fuck?”

“That was the point, bozo.” You roll your eyes, watching Jacob swimming around in the hotel pool. You hug your knees to your chest, resting your chin on top of them. How could someone make something so simple look so attractive?

Tonight would be a true test of faith, the ultimate challenge of whether or not you could truly resist Jacob Bae’s charms. Even if you’d stayed in the same house or same general vicinity, you always managed to dodge sharing a room. There were the few occasions you slept over at his and Sangyeon’s shared apartment, along with everyone else in your friend group. They’d both offered up their rooms for whoever wanted to bunk with them for the night since there wasn’t much room on the couches. You always picked the couch.

But there were no separate rooms keeping you apart this time. There was no couch. Just two beds and a couple feet between them. Oh God. You would be changing in the same room. Jacob Bae would be naked within your reach.

You blink away the thoughts creeping up from the back of your mind. You couldn’t have that mindset sharing a room with him. Couldn’t that be classified as immoral? Disrespectful? Your brain had to stay pure or you might not survive this trip at all.

“Why do you look like you’ve just seen a ghost?” Younghoon asks with an amused lilt to his voice. You give him a nasty side eye in return.

“I might as well have. I hope I keel over and die right now so I can join them.” You huff, your head bobbing up and down as you talk thanks to your knees under your chin.

Younghoon snorts, standing to shake his hair like a dog would after a bath. “You’ll be fine, dude. It’s not that serious honestly. Just think of this as, um, a team bonding exercise.”

“You’re a fucking clown.”

After about another hour of swimming, playing chicken, and other pool activities of that sort, the boys decide to call it a night. Thankfully so, because you had a long day of sightseeing ahead of you tomorrow. You gather your things and part ways for your respective rooms. Some were on different floors than others; you and Jacob’s for example was on the top floor. You don’t know why, but the guys were insistent on swimming first, prior to checking out your rooms.

You waddle behind him like a lost puppy, following him to the elevator. The whole ride up is silent save for the soft lo-fi beat playing over the speakers. Jacob is still very shirtless, a towel tossed over his shoulder haphazardly. What was its purpose? Couldn’t tell you since there were still droplets of water decorating his back.

Good Lord, you needed to stop staring at him, lest you wanted to go into cardiac arrest.

Your feet padding against the carpeted flooring of the hallway is the only thing you can hear all the way to your room. You even watch sheepishly as he pulls out the keycard and holds it to the sensor. It quickly flashes green and he pushes open the door.

You’re too preoccupied gawking at his back muscles again to notice he’s stopped in his tracks, causing you to bump into him. He laughs that melodic laugh of his before turning around to steady you. You give him a weak smile in apology.

And then you see why he paused so abruptly.

“Oh no, there’s only one bed, what will we do now?”

You sputter at how nonchalant he is about the situation. You glance back and forth from him to the bed and repeat, sweat forming on your palms. It was already going to be hard enough just sleeping in the same room, now you had to sleep in the same bed? You wouldn’t be surprised if you were found dead tomorrow morning.

“W-We can talk to someone at the front desk? Maybe we can get things sorted out and get a room with two beds instead?” You avoid eye contact.

“It’s too late for that. Besides, we did book these at the last minute, so they probably gave us whatever they had available.” He shrugs. His attitude is kind of pissing you off. How could he be so calm right now?

“Well— uh— um— maybe—“ Your words falter as you struggle to come up with a solution. Jacob’s lips quirk up in amusement.

“Maybe you could use that mouth for more than just talking nonsense.”

You make a sound similar to choking, your eyes widening as you process what the hell he just said. You keep blinking at him, mouth parted in astonishment? Shock? Surprise? Bewilderment? Did Jacob Bae really just say that to you?

When you don’t respond for a bit of time, he heads to the bathroom to presumably shower. You’re glued to your spot, unable to move or think. Your head felt like it was hollow, full of cotton. You had to be imagining that entire interaction. That was the only thing that made sense.

Even as the water in the bathroom floods your ears, you’re still dazed. You drag yourself to sit on the edge of the bed, holding the back of your hand to your forehead. You were going insane. That was the logical explanation. Your feelings for Jacob had been stuffed away for so long that you were starting to hallucinate.

Yeah, that’s what you were going with.

You were much too delusional to handle seeing him come out of the bathroom, so you decided to change while he was in there and get ready for bed. You wanted to face the other direction to curve any possible chance of driving yourself crazier. You pull off the oversized t-shirt you were wearing over your swimsuit and dig through your duffle bag for some fresh clothes. You were grateful that you didn’t let your friends peer pressure you into actually swimming, your desire to keep a healthy distance between you and Jacob overpowering wanting to join in on the fun.

As you go to untie your swim top, the squeaky hinges of the bathroom door have you tripping over your own two feet. You didn’t exactly have the best reflexes either, so you fail at catching the strings before they can fall completely. At this point, you’re frozen. You’re planted face first on the floor, topless, with the boy you’ve been thirsting over for months just feet away.

Okay, so perhaps you underestimated how long it took him to shower.

“Y/N, are you— woah—”

“No, don’t come any closer!”

Of course you’re too late and he does not heed your warning. Jacob squats next to you and you can just feel his presence. To everyone else, it’s calming. He’s the person most people go to when they have any qualms about life. He was the definition of the therapist friend. However, that was not the case right now.

His presence was intimidating and your heart was hammering in your rib cage. It was practically beating against the floor. It wouldn’t be beyond you if they heard it in the lobby. You refuse to glance over at him. This couldn’t be happening. It was seriously one unfortunate event after another.

There’s a ghost-like, feather light touch that trails the length of your bare back, sending a shiver down your spine. Just like the first time, it’s like you’d been statically charged. It was as if Jacob Bae himself created electricity. A sigh leaves Jacob’s lips. “Can you look at me, pretty?”

This was something torn straight from one of your wildest dreams. His words, his actions, even the situation you were in. A singular bed that you’re forced to share. This could very well just be the universe’s way of finally giving you a win. Divine intervention did exist, after all.

A peek at Jacob’s form shows you that he’s in nothing but a towel, and it leaves little to the imagination. You swallow thickly. Your lack of cooperation has his patience wearing thin, so he takes matters into his own hands, holding himself up with said hands on either side of your head and straddling your waist.

You can feel him through his towel and the flimsy material of your swim bottoms. He’s hard, pressing into your ass like he’s the one who’s needed to have you in such a visceral way the past ten months. His sculpted chest rests on your back as he leans down, his lips coming beside your ear.

“Tell me you want me, tell me you want me as bad as I want you.” He breathes.

It’s enough motivation to flip yourself over despite being nude from the waist up. You don’t even care anymore, caution thrown into the wind. Your infatuation with Jacob Bae was already concerning, but now it was dangerous. You were getting extremely close to crossing the line you told yourself you’d never cross. But he made it so easy.

Your eyes rake his figure, from his chiseled torso that was handcrafted by the Gods to the way he unabashedly keeps his lower half pinned to yours. You almost salivate at how good this feels. But it’s not enough. You need him in ways that could only be described as carnal. You release a shaky breath when he experimentally grinds his hips.

He leans into you one more time, lips hovering your own and noses brushing. Just a few more centimeters. That’s all that it would take for him to kiss you, but he doesn’t. He flickers his eyes to yours and then back down, wetting his lips as he does so.

“Your eyes are already saying yes, now I just need your mouth to tell me the same.”

You could’ve just spoken the words out loud, but instead you close the gap between you. Your mouths fit together perfectly, like a missing puzzle piece finally reuniting with its set. They glide in synchrony, your fingers coming up to tangle in his hair and run along the expanse of his toned back. He groans when your nails graze his skin. You both part to gasp for air, lips swollen.

“That works too.”

© juyeonszn. do not steal, claim, or repost.

[haram-jaan]

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[leafannarchive]

sapnap sayinf pencil and my brain going now lets jump and spread out like a starfish okay touch one toe and then make a rainbow with your hands all the way to the other toe and then back one more time and all the way up and touch the floor in the middle okay all the way up one last time now jump straight like a pencil and then back out like a star and straight like a pencil and out like a star and now super faaast do you know what those are called jumping jacks that’s right can everyone say jumping jacks yes nice job do you guys think we can do ten jumping jacks in a row 100 jumping jacks in a row no i don’t want to do 100 we’ll be here all day what about eleven and you guys help me count okay ready set go

[cham-chammity]

Hey, everybody. I'm just gonna have this post be some kind of rant or word vomit thing, I guess TW for emotional/mental distress? I don't know.

Anyways, I apologize to those who's messages are sitting left on read in my DM's and to those who have asks sitting in my ask box unanswered. I struggle really hard with getting back to people or answering them. I feel really bad because I'll ghost someone because it takes too much mental energy to text or reply to them, I even ghost people without even realizing it. It makes me feel so, so bad--I promise I don't want to ghost or ignoring anyone. It's just a constant struggle for me.

I've also lately been having a really hard time with my emotions. I experience intense, prolonged amounts of emotion such as sadness or excitedness. The experiening sadness part has been much worse for me lately. I also am having such a hard time with doing school work, and it's only been two weeks since school started up again. I'm already behind on homework with some classes and I'm freaking out because I don't want a repeat of last school year. Last school year I was unmedicated for my depression amd anxiety so it was a literal living hell. I'm so goddamn scared I'm going to somehow go through all of that again. Hell, my mom is already on my ass about some "missing assignments" I have and I just cannot deal with this.

You see, my anxiety and depression was worse than ever last year. Because of that they heavily masked my ADHD symptoms. Now that I am back to how I normally function, I'm realzing now how much my ADHD really affects my day to day life. And it's so goddamn stressful. My mom won't let me go on medication due to quite a few reasons I don't feel like explaining right now--but if it means I can get tasks done and actually be able to regulate my emotions like a goddamn normal person, I want to try it out. I do however regularly drink caffeine since it is a self-medicating way to help treat ADHD, but it certainly isn't enough.

And what's worse about all of this going on is, whenever I reach out, people always say "omg that's so me too!" "Ugh I can relate" "i have trouble with x and y too hahaha!" And it makes me so goddamn fucking mad.

No, you dont know what I mean. You cant relate. YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IM EXPERIENCING. why?? Because if you did, you'd empathise with me and take me seriously and not jokingly laugh while you explain why its so "hard" for you to do something that doesnt even relate to what im talking about all while by default sayinf "oh same lmao". Also, most of the people I reach out to about this arent neurodivergent like me. ADHD makes things x10 harder than what youre experiencing. Im sick of the bullshit responses I recieve whenever I talk about my struggles.

I know I talk a lot about ADHD on my page, but I usually only ever adress the silly, stupid, minor stuff. The surface level stuff. Im gonna be honest, ADHD sucks. Its not some personality trait that makes someone extra quirky and cute. It legit makes life so much fucking harder. And so many people in real life I talk to about this dont fucking realize that.

Anyways, I just needed to get that all out of my brain. Thank you so much to those who read through the whole thing.

Please be patient with me, and I know there's quite a few people who follow me that are neurodivergent as well, so some of you here probably know exactly what Im talking about. But all in all if i ever take awhile to respond to something or my actual response is weak and short, please please please know it's not that I dont like you or arent interested in what you have to say.

Thanks everyone, I love you all :)

[jinleebelee]

Soooo yestarday I found out one of my favorite jjba stardust crusaders tk fic writer actually wrote a fic with polnareff in it instead of just kakyoin and jotoro and let me tell you I screamed-

So I'm reading right and I remember polnareffs fucking signature ler shit from the same writer we're they wrote about each crusader. What they were like when taking the tk and when giving and they wrote that polnareff gave out teases. Ya know the c tease and so on.

So of course that was in the fic.

And eight now I'm fucking on my couch in my room just dying from that fic because he said that fuckin c word. And I just. I keep imagining him saying it in one scene which I will not SPECFIY WHAT THE SCENE WAS-

LOOK IF YA WATCHED STARDUST CRUSADERS YA KNOW WHAT FUCKIN SCENE IM TALKIN ABOUT WITH THE FUCKIN BABY AND YA KNOW-

AND HE FUCKING SAID THAT FUCKING C WORD I KUST RGHHHHHH- I LOVE THE STARDUST CRUSADERS THEY HAVE MY HEART BUT FLIPPEN POLNAREFF SAYINF THAT FLIPPEN WORD AND THAT FLIPPEN FIC WERE THE WRITER WROTE JUST UGH END ME -

[jimimn]

HI ITS ME WHO'S NOT OVER JJK BLONDE SELFIE AND WILL NEVER BE -💫

HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO <33333333

HONESTLY ITS THE WAY YOH SAY SUCH NICE THINGS AND I DISAPPEAR FOR DAYS ON END BECAUSE INCONSISTENCY BLEEDS INTO EVERY CORNER OF MY LIFE FNEKALKD BUT I'M GETTING DONE WITH MY FIRST LEG OF EXAMS ON MONDAY SO YAY TO THAT!! OKAY I THINK WE'LL MOVE SLOWLY WITH BABY STEPS JUNGKOOK DROPPED SOME SELCAS JIMIN DROPPED SOME SELCAS IN THE WORDS OF THE LEGENDARY JEON JUNGKOOK ALL WE NEED NOW IS "together..BAM!" (THAT'S LITERALLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE MOMENTS EVER THE WAY HE SAYS IT 🤧)

YES IN THIS HOUSE WE SCREAM OVER JIMIN'S DISRESPECT HE IS THE PARAGON OF A MULTI-FACETED MAN THAT HAS US WRAPPED AROUND HIS FINGER. THE AUDACITY 😤

CHANEL X JIMIN LETS MAKE IT HAPPEN AND OMG THAT SELFIE THAT DROPPED?? SIR???? WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL?? I MEAN YES BH SAID LET'S DROP SELFIES IN BULK BUT THAT ONE PICTURE OF HIM IN BLACK(GREY? I DONT KNOW FHSKKAJF) WITH THE SHIRTS UNBUTTONED!!! THEM COLLARBONES ARE FREE AND THEY'RE THRIVING IN THE OPEN IN THAT ONE. ALSO HIS LIPS ARE SO PRETTY. OH GOD LITERALLY HE HAS THAT COCKY SMIRK ON HIS FACE WHEN HE KNOWS HE DOES HOT BOY SHIT LIKE SHUT UP OK YOU CANT DO THAT JAIL FOR U NDNSLSKAJJW

SUCH A FUCKING TEASE THATS RIGHT!! EVEN STRAIGHT MEN?? BRO LIKE HOW DO YOU HAVE ALL GENDERS JUST TRIPPING OVER THEMSELVES FOR YOU IT'S INSANE AND OMG MISS SHIVI HAVE YOU SEEN THAT ONE CLIP IN WHICH JIMIN HOLDS HIS GAZE WITH THESE MEN WHO LOOK AT HIM (i think it was bon voyage?) and when they cross each other he JUST SMIRKS AND RUNS HIS HAND THROUGH HIS HAIR LIKE YEAH OK ALEXA PLAY I'M SEXY AND I KNOW IT. AND YES I'LL LISTEN TO EVERYTHING YOU HAVE TO SAY ANYTIME 💗💗

12PM KST IS THE HOLY HOUR I TELL YOU ALTHOUGH I REMEMBER WAITING THE NIGHT BEFORE BE CAME OUT WAITING FOR SOMETHING TO COME AND BH WAS JUST LIKE "yea...no" OMG THAT'S AWESOME YOUR COUSIN'S VISITING YOU

HHFJDOSO YEAH IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE THEY DID THE JUMP ALTHOUGHHHH I'M POSITIVE THEY'LL DO SMTH COOL LIKE THAT IN THEIR CONCERTS BECAUSE THEIR PERFORMANCE QUALITY IS JUST.. THROUGH THE ROOF IT'S CRAZY!! WHEN THE PERFORM WINGS?? LIKE HOLY SHIT NO CHOREO NO POSITIONS JUST BTS RUNNING AROUND THE STAGE MAKING THE CROWD GO FERAL I LOVE EVERY WINGS PERFORMANCE SO MUCH MY SEROTONIN LEVELS ARE ALWAYS AT A HIGH THEN. OOHH MY GODDD BS&T IS REALLY THAT BITCH!!!! WHO'S DOING IT LIKE HER TODAY NO ONE IS EXACTLY. AND NOOOO I TOTALLY GET IT WE THINK ON THE SAME WAVELENGTH THAT ACCIDENT HAS THE SAME EFFECT ON ME. IF ONLY YOU'D TOLD ME THEN IN 2016 THAT THAT ACCIDENT WAS THE START OF SO MANY I'D BE PREPARED FOR EVERYTHING THAT FOLLOWED (see: him basically stripping himself that one serendipity performance. holy shit.)

FOR REAL THO CHRISTMAS LOVE DROPPED OUT OF NOWHERE AND DO YOU REMEMBER JIMIN SAYINF uUH iM nOt wORkInG oN a SoLo SoNg aT ThE mOmEnT heHe LIKE ALL MEN DO IS LIE OK AT THIS POINT. BYE. YES TAEHYUNG DID WARN US BUT ARMYS (LIKE MYSELF) PUT THEIR CLOWN WIGS ON AND THOUGHT IT WAS KTH1 LMAO. OMG I HOPE YOU DON'T SLEEP THROUGH ANY OF THEIR UPCOMING SONG RELEASES BUT I'M SURE IT'S THE BEST FEELING TO WAKE UP TO CHECK YOUR NOTIFS AND SEE "Big Hit Labels" BECAUSE THAT'S HOW YOU KNOW IT'S GOING TO BE FIREEE. DUDE SERIOUSLY I NEED JIMIN TO GO LIVE AGAIN (although we've been well fed by namjoon for now🤧😌💗) LIKE THAT ONE YT LIVE WHERE HE SAID "O...M...G" SHUT UP STOP BEING SO CUTE I'M DHJSWLIFJWKALS

LMAO OKAY YEAH THAT'S VALID YOUR BLOG THEME IS BASICALLY ✨jimin✨ AND I LOVE THAT IT REALLY GRAVITATED ME AND YOUR URL OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDD YOUR BRAINNN 💆‍♀️💆‍♀️💆‍♀️💆‍♀️💆‍♀️

YES YES YES JIMIN IS SO PERFECT AND THE SOCK DOODLESSS 😭😭😭 oooo so when did you get into giffing? how did you start? BROOOOO YOUR URL'S ORIGIN STORY. I LOVE IT WOW YES IT'S DEFINITELY GOT THE REQUIRED ✨pazzaz✨

NOOO OMG THIS URL IS YOUR BRAND LIKE YOU'RE A LEGEND ON ARMYBLR I LOVE IT SO MUCH. BUT STILL!! IT'S YOUR CHOICE AT THE END 💖

OMG QUARANTINE DID IT'S ONE GOOD JOB AND GOT YOU INTO BANGTAN YAY. OMG YOU AND MISS LIFEGOESMON ARE FRIENDSS??? LEGENDS INTERACTING THIS IS SO COOL. LMAO THE PARADIGM SHIFT YOU MUST'VE FELT FROM LISTENING TO STAY GOLD (WHICH BTW THE MV...THE LITERAL CUTEST OH GOD THE LITTLE DOG AND JIMIN'S LITTLE SMILES DHSJAOWO) TO THEN GOING TO BST IN WHICH JIMIN IS BASICALLY STRIPPING AND JUNGKOOK IS UPSIDE DOWN LMAOOO. YES BS&T HAS EVERYONE HOOKED THE POWERRRR. YOU FALLING DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE WITH YOUR FRIEND'S ASSISTANCE OH GOD THIS IS SO CUTE 💓 EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM 🥺🥺🥺

AAAAH OKAY MY STORY ISN'T AS INTERESTING AS YOURS IS BUT IN 2016 BASICALLY ALL I KNEW OF KPOP WAS GANGNAM STYLE AND WASNT WILLING TO CUANGE THAT PERCEPTION (FOOL BEHAVIOUR I TELL YOU) AND WAS TOO BUSY OBSESSING OVER ONE DIRECTION'S REUNION AND SO ONE NIGHT (THE NIGHT BEFORE JIMIN'S BIRTHDAY 🤧🤧) I JUST STUMBLED UPON THEIR BS&T TEARS MV AND I HEARD IT AND I WAS LIKE OMG!! THIS IS THAT SUPER ADDICTIVE SONG THAT I'D HEARD SOMEWHERE AND IT JUST SPIRALLED FROM THERE I REMEMBER SEEING JIMIN AND BEING LIKE 👀👀👀👀 WHO IS HE I LIKE HIM AND JUST HIS AURA DREW ME IN SOOO MUCH AND WHEN I WAS GETTING INTO THEM I REMEMBER WRITING THEIR NAMES IN MY NOTES TO SEE IF I COULD REMEMBER 🤧 AND I STILL HAVE THAT NOTE FROM 4+ YEARS AGO 💓 AND YEAH BASICALLY SEEING THEM DO ALL THE MUSIC SHOWS AND STUFF AT THE TIME WAS SO COOOL AND MIND YOU BH DIDN'T HAVE SUBS FOR BANGTAN BOMBS THEN SO WENT ON THESE SKETCHY DAILYMOTION TYPE SITES LOOKING FOR ALL THE CONTENT I COULD CHURN OUT LMAO

AND YES!! COURTESY OF YOU I DID WATCH SOME RUN EPS!! I WATCHED THEIR CANADA ONES SPEAKING OF WHICH I LOOOVE THAT PART WHERE THEY'RE DOING THAT SONG GUESSING THING IN THE MORNING AND JIMIN SAYS "are you cold?" 🥺🥺 TO TAE AND HUGS HIM URRHRHEHSJSJSH AND I ALSO SAW THE ONES WITH THE PUPPIES GODDDDD I LOVE THE PUPPIES ONE SO MUCH LITERALLY JUNGKOOK AND HIS DOG (MIRI?) OH MY GOD THAT LIL FLUFFER AND ADAM IS MY ICON WITH HOW HE JUST DID HIS OWN THING LMAO.

BUT ANYWAY!! DO YOU HAVE A FAVE ERA?? LIKE DO YOU EVER LOOK AT THEM AND GO "Damn I wish I was a fan then" BECAUSE HONESTLY I WISH I HAD STANNED THEM IN THEIR DOPE ERA BUT I DON'T THINK I WOULD HAVE SURVIVED JIMIN THEN DHKSOWID-💫

FOR THE UMPTEENTH TIME!!!!!!! ITS OKAY!!!!!!!! I TOTALLY TOTALLY UNDERSTAND!!!!! AND YAYYYYY CONGRATS I HOPE THE FIRST LEG OF EXAMS WENT WELL <333333 AND OH MY GOD you’re gonna make me cry with the together baam goddddddd same one of my fave moments and jimin’s giggles after that 😭😭😭😭 my babies <3 :((((

that..... black suit selca....... that opened button...... like open one more dear sir who’s stopping you... just do it <33333 YEAH he totally needs to shut up with his i know im hot side it just kills me every single time 😭😭😭😭😭

LISTEN THAT BV3 MOMENT  S H O O K  ME OKAY????? THOSE GUYS LOOKED AT HIM AND HE WAS SO FUCKING SMUG ABOUT IT (AND HE SHOULD BE) AND THE WAY HE LICKED HIS LIPS AND RAN HIS HANDS THROUGH HIS HAIR????? LIKE HE KNOWS HE HAS EVERY SINGLE PERSON; NO MATTER WHAT GENDER; WRAPPED AROUND HIS LIL PINKY LIKE THAT???????

OH MY GOD ME TOO I LOVEEEEEEEEEEE THE WINGS STAGE AND WATCHING THEM HAVE SO MUCH FUN IS JUST SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I ALSO ABSOLUTELY LOVVVEEE THEIR ENERGY DURING THE SY TOUR MEDLEY WITH IDOL AND BAEPSAE AND FIRE AND DOPE ZSXDFGFCHGVJBHJN THEY JUST LOSE THEMSELVES IN THE CROWD AND THE MUSIC AND ITS JUST SO FUCKING SURREAL TO WATCH HOW MUCH THEY ENJOY DOING WHAT THEY DO!!!!! kinda makes me want to find that happiness and passion in whatever i do in my professional life <3 and LISTEN jimin said the break the soul commentary THAT HE COULD DO SERENDIPITY SHIRTLESS TOO. THE AUDACITY. HE SAID THAT WITH HIS WHOLE CHEST. 

YOU KNWO WHAT I THINK JIMIN WON’T GIVE US A HINT BEFORE DROPPING PJM1. HE’LL JUST DROP IT ONE FINE DAY OUT OF NOWHERE LIKE HE DROPPED PROMISE AND CHRISTMAS LOVE (i wasn’t here when he dropped promise but i read that on twitter sdfghjkl) AND NO PLS NO I DO N O T WANT TO SLEEP THROUGH JJK1 OR KTH1 OR PJM1 OR KSJ1 OR NAMGI MIXTAPE 3 OR HOBI MIXTAPE 2 OR ANYTHING BASICALLY YOU GET IT i had slept through dynamite cb because i had NO CLUE that they were gonna drop it at 1pm kst rather than 12 am kst. i was under the impression that since they dropped all the teaser pictures and the teaser itself as 12 am kst, the mv will drop at 12 am kst too. and I woke up like two hours after the mv dropped (which was almost noon my time) and i felt like A FUCKING FOOL AND I JUST 😭😭😭😭 NEVER WANT TO FEEL LIKE THAT EVER AGAIN 😭😭😭 

AND YES BABIE NEEDS TO COME LIVE SOON PLS I MISS HIM SO FUCKING MUCH :((((( AND HIS O...M.....G HAD MADE ME FUCKING SOBBBBBBBBBBB his yt live god he looked sooooooo fluffy with his hair and his tiny hands and his puppy eyes and soft voice im just so 😭😭😭😭😭😭

NO NONNONONONO PLEASE IM NO LEGEND DON’T SAY THAT IM EMBARRASSED im just a normal fangirl who makes okayish gifs 😭😭 and ok yes so i started giffing LONNNGGGGGG time back on a different public fan forum from my country but i never knew the right process and stuff so obviously the gifs were shitty lmao BUT ANYWAY i got into gifmaking PROPERLY this in july last year and obviously struggled a lot in the beginning because i didn’t know shit about colouring and stuff lmao but i kept practicing and even though im not perfect rn i do think that i got better. i love giffing tho. its such a nice creative outlet and whenever i gif the boys it brings me so much happiness :( <33

AND YES ASDFGHJKL ME AND HER ARE FRIENDS SINCE A VERY LONG TIME SDFGHJK LIKE LONG BEFORE BOTH OF US GOT INTO BTS SDFGHJ and ah yes the whiplash lmaooooooo and you’re right god the stay gold mv is SO FUCKING PRETTY THE COLOURS IN THAT ENTIRE MV HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOO AND JIMIN AND TAE AND JOON WITH THE DOGGO JUST EVERYTHING SDFGHJK <3333333 AND BS&T DUDE I GIFFED THE MV YESTERDAY AND IM 💀💀💀💀💀 (like i just giffed jimin from the mv but i did watch the whole thing 5647589 times <333333) AND GUESS WHAT!!!!!! I WAS A LILLY SINGH FAN (IDK IF YOU KNOW HER SHE’S A YOUTUBER) BACK IN 2016 AND PEOPLE BACK THEN HAD REQUESTED HER TO REACT TO BS&T MV AND I HAD WATCHED HER REACTION VIDEO AND (although it didn’t stick with me back then because i was a fucking fool) I DID SOMEHOW REMEMBERED THE JIN AND STATUE KISSING MOMENT AND WHEN IN 2020 I SAW THE MV AND SAW THE KISSING MOMENT MY BRAIN JUST!!!!!!!!!!! I WAS LIKE HOLY SHIT I HAVE SEEN THIS BEFORE SOMEWHERE AND THEN I REMEMBERED I HAD SEEN THIS IN THE REACTION VIDEO LMAOOOOO i wish i hadn’t been a fool and gotten into them back then :((((

AH NO OMG YOUR STORY IS SOOOOOOO CUTEEEEEEEEEE ATLEAST YOU WEREN’T A FOOL LIKE ME TO NOT GET ATTRACTED TO BS&T THE FIRST TIME OF SEEING IT!!!! I WANNA HIT MY 2016 SELF LIKE DAMN YOU YOU FOOLISH ASSHOLE AND yes omg how did y’all do the subs thing damnnnnn i can’t imagine

AND YES THE CANADA RUN EPIS ARE LOOOVVVEEEE and that vmin moment plsssssss i cry everytime 😭😭😭😭😭 it is just so soft and innocent and tae’s little smile after jimin just turns around and hugs him 😔😔😔😔 i love soulmates 😔😔😔😔 AND MIRI YES OMG EVERYONE WAS SO IMPRESSED BY THE LITTLE CUTIE AND THE WAY JUNGKOOK JUST KEPT ADORING HER THROUGHOUT MADE ME SO SO SOFTTTT and bro adam is me. i am like that. lazy and un-motivated AF. although if i were a dog and jin were to be my owner i would listen to him so well and jump on him every chance i’d get 😌😌😌

GOD YES RED HAIR DOPE ERA JIMIN 💀 BABIE BUT MAKE IT SEXY 🥵🥵 AND OMG YESDGFHG MY FAVE ERA IS HYYH. ORANGE HAIRED JIMIN. PLS. HE’S EVERYTHING. I WISH I HAD GOTTEN INTO THEM DURING THAT. LIKE THAT ERA IS ..... SOMEHOW SO FUCKING WILD AND STILL SO ASSURING AND CALMING ????? KEEPS ME ROOTED LIKE IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN DFGHJKL AND WINGS TOO DAMN I WISH I WAS HERE TO LIVE ALL THOSE AMAZING ERAS. but even though i wish i had gotten into them earlier... i think i found them when i needed them the most. I was going through a very difficult time last year and they somehow they made me feel so fucking safe and at home that the connection was instant. honestly i’ve never stanned or felt a connection with any celebrity as strong as the one i feel with bangtan. its like... they don’t know i exist but they still know EXACTLY what im feeling and what to say or do at that time to make me feel comforted. Its weird god but its true :((( SORRY I GOT EMO I JUST LOVE THEM A LOT SDFGHJKL

[zorria]

I headcanon that Ban cleaned Meliodas’s wounds when they were in purgatory.

As soon as ban and Meliodas were reunited and were happily crying with joy after seeing each other after so long ban made sure to check over Meliodas as ban was fully aware of his injuries and knew Meliodas couldn’t help him however, this didn’t stop Meliodas from checking as he was very worried about Ban as Meliodas knows all to well of the environment in purgatory. After checking over ban and finding nothing Meliodas relaxes a bit. Ban on the other hand doesn’t as he was very worried about Meliodas as he didn’t know what Meliodas went through by himself in here. Meliodas noticed his worried expression and asked ban what was wrong? Ban replied: “Captain would be okay if I checked you over for injuries and stuff? I mean knowing how tough you are I’m sure there’s nothing to worry about but it would make me feel better if I did” of course after hearing how concerned Ban was with his well being he couldn’t say no. So Meliodas agreed.

Ban: okay captain lay down for me so I check you over

Mel: sure thing!

Meliodas goes to lay down on the ground but ban quickly moves his head onto his lap as he doesn’t want Meliodas to be uncomfortable that and he likes feeling Meliodas’s warm naked body on his own naked body. Having gotten Meliodas comfortable ban starts to check him over gently as ban doesn’t want to harm or further injure Meliodas’s precious skin

Ban: does it hurt when press down on your arm?

Mel: no it doesn’t it feels fine

Ban: alright how about on your left wrist does it hurt when I press down?

Mel *wincing a little bit*: a little bit yes but not like excruciating

Ban: hmm okay how would you rate it on a scale of 1-10 for pain?

Mel: like a 3 1/2

Ban: okay. Well it doesn’t feel broken or fractured so I’m guessing you just bruised it a little bit.

Mel: well that’s a relief especially sense it’s the hand I fight with!

Ban: well we wouldn’t you not to be Able to fight now would we?

Mel: heck no!

Ban: exactly! Now lay still again so I can finish so we can go find away out of this hell hole

Mel: okay!

Ban continues to exhaim Meliodas hovering his hands over every spot he can until he gets to Meliodas’s feet there he sees how bad they are hurt. His feet are badly burned all over (so much so it’s a miracle he was walking on them before without screaming in pain) along with being badly burned there was a few blisters on his ankles and frostbite on the tip of his toes. Ban knew how painful it was as he had encountered all of these problems with being in purgatory for so long so he knew his partner’s feet had to be in so much pain but of course Meliodas being Meliodas he would never admit to being in pain not if he could help it. He knew he had to help his partner but he Also knew In helping him he would cause Meliodas a lot amount of pain. Something he never wanted to do but he had to for Meliodas’s own good. So with a heavy sign ban explained to Meliodas what he discovered.

Ban: captain... your feet are badly injuried why didn’t you say anything to me?

Meliodas realizing ban noticed how badly his feet were hurt stays slient as he doesn’t want to talk about it as he knows he should’ve said something to ban when he first asked but he didn’t as he thought he could handle it himself... but clearly he couldn’t...

Ban: captain I know you don’t wanna talk right now as you know you’re in troubl-

meliodas suddenly slides done further trying to get away from ban as he doesn’t like it when ban is mad at him however ban stops Meliodas’s escape and to keep him from escaping he lays Meliodas in his arms with his legs laying down on his lap and his head being gradled in his arm. This new position gives ban better access to Meliodas’a feet which makes him happy as it will be easier to treat them faster Meliodas also notices this but chooses not to say anything as he still doesn’t wanna talk. Ban continues where he left off before Meliodas tried to escape.

Ban: look Meliodas (yeah he’s in deep trouble now) I know you don’t want me to treat those injuries but I have to little one. I know it’s going to hurt a lot but please understand I don’t wanna hurt you just as much as you don’t want it to hurt. But if I leave them it will only get worse for you I-I couldn’t handle having you be in horrible pain I can’t... it will break my heart too much so please, PLEASE let me treat them. It will feel so much better afterwards if you do and after it’s all done I’ll give you lots of kisses and snuggles what do you say?

Melidoas thinks about this for a minute as he doesn’t want ban to treat them as he still thinks he can handle it himself but after hearing what ban just said and the look of desperation and pleading in his beautiful red eyes he can’t say no it would hurt him to much and he doesn’t wanna hurt his lover. So he concedes and lets ban treat them.

Ban: thank you little one I promise I’ll try and be as quick as I can

Mel: thank you ban

Ban begins by first starting to heal the burns with the magic he aqured in purgatory. He gently lets it flow down to Mel’s burns. As soon as it touches them Meliodas flinches severely as it hurt but also scared him. Ban quickly calms him down and tells him what he’s doing. Meliodas calms down and lets ban continuing while digging his tiny nails into ban’s arm eveytime it hurts. Ban once again lets his magic flow down to the burns and once again Meliodas flinches but not because it scared him but because it hurt a lot. The pain is so much he starts to whimper in pain and tries to move his feet away from ban. But ban already expecting Meliodas to do this quickly grabs ahold of his feet again and holds them in his other hand while continuing the procedure. Meliodas continues to try and get away from ban’s hand but ban won’t let him go as he knows this needs to happen so it won’t hurt Meliodas in the long run. Everytime Meliodas whimpers, screams or cries out in pain ban gently shhs Meliodas and tells him that he’s doing good and that he’s almost done and then he will let Meliodas have a break after he’s done with the burns before moving on to the other injuries. Hearing this makes Meliodas calm down slightly but not a whole lot. Ban quickly finshes up with the burns and gently lets go of Meliodas’s feet naturally Meliodas tries to get up and move his feet but ban grabs a hold of him and scolds him saying he can’t move yet as he has to let his feet have a break just as much as he needs one after finishing the procedure. Meliodas understands and says he won’t move his feet again. Ban trusts him and gently lets go and moves his hands up to Meliodas’s hair and runs his fingers through his hair lovingly apologizing to his lover for hurting him so bad. Meliodas obviously forgives him instantly and tells ban he knows why he did what he did and isn’t mad at him for it. Hearing this makes Ban so Happy that he’s squeezes Meliodas’s hesd in his hands this makes Meliodas laugh and the two of them start goofying off and tickling each other and gently kissing one another. After about 5 minutes of messing around with each other ban gets back to work, working on Meliodas’s feet again he lets his magic flow to Meliodas’s toes and starts to get rid of the frostbite just like last time Meliodas starts to cry and scream in pain trying to get his feet away from ban but ban continues on but listening to his lover cry out in pain absolutely breaks his heart and almost makes him stop but he continues on knowing this will help his little lover in the long run. Finally after what felt like an eternity ban finshes with the frostbite and goes to comfort his poor lover with a onslot of kisses to Meliodas’s face and everywhere he can think of. This makes Meliodas really happy as he’s missed this and ban so much he didn’t think he was going to be able to make it any longer without seeing his blue haired lover again. Thinking about it brings tears to his eyes seeing Meliodas being to cry ban starts to freak out.

Ban: little one why are you crying did I do soemthing wrong? Are you in pain still? Please talk to me!!

Mel: no, no I’m fine really don’t worry I was just thinking about how I don’t think I could’ve lasted any longer in here without getting to see you again... ban I missed you so much... I missed your kisses and your laugh and EVERYTHING about you. I missed you so much not being able to have you here was maddening which probably is what caused me to turn into that dragon you saw. If I couldn’t see you again life wasn’t worth living... but then you CAME and saved me and made me feel loved again. Ban I can’t thank you enough for loving me like you do even with me being a demon I can’t thank you enough I love you!

After sayinf this they both hug each other again and just cry and just holding each other feeling the warmth of the other actvially confriming that yes the other was in deed still there and they weren’t going to leave each other anytime sooon. Meliodas from feeling the warmth of them both beings to dose off. Ban notices and starts to gently rock Meliodas back and forth Meliodas questions him about the blisters on his feet that still remain. Ban shhs him sayinf they can wait for a little bit as Meliodas takes a much needed nap. Meliodas laughs into ban’s shoulder but gets Lulled Again by ban’s rocking and eventually falls asleep in the arms of his lover for the first time in millions of year’s. Listening to Meliodas snoring slightly and having him breath down his neck makes ban also tried so he gently moves them down to the ground (as now to wake up his lover) and lays down with Meliodas on top of him. He gently kisses his lover on the forhead wishing him sweet dreams and eventually falls asleep as well with his arms wrapped around Meliodas pushing him closer to his chest. They stay like that for hours until they are interrupted by who? The beasts of purgatory They both don’t understand what is happening but they quickly get up and hide behind a rock trying to figure out what’s going and what they are going to do about clothes and Meliodas’s blisters. This excitement leaves them wondering where this adventure in purgatory will take them next. But hopefully wherever it is they are togther with each other and not separated again.