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jorvikzelda · 2 years ago

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In like a month and a week (okay that’s optimistic, fine, a month and almost two weeks lol) I will fully be able to afford the laptop I've wanted for MONTHS and genuinely I feel like I'm staring at such a bright future now. Maybe I'll be able to play SSO at more than 10fps... maybe I can play Sims at higher graphics settings... maybe I can, idk, get more than those two games or even just all my Sims expansion packs because I'll have 8 times the storage space... maybe I can have large spreadsheets open without breaking my laptop... or even two medium-load programs open at the same time.... the possibilities are truly endless

At least one laptop store had BETTER fucking do like a back to school sale or something. Cmon just give me 20-25% off. It's all I ask (I don't NEED the sale I could still afford it but it has been on frequent enough 20-25% sales that I will NOT buy it full price that would just be stupid)

#not sure what I'll do with my current laptop #maybe put it in storage in the basement for if I ever need a temporary solution lol #would keep it as a work/school laptop but unfortunately it lags even with the medium heavy programs I sometimes need for work/school #and ALSO does not have sufficient storage space #The storage space is probably honestly my largest limiting factor. I have 128gb on this bitch.#The laptop I wanna get has a full TB which is definitely more than I need but the prospect of never having to worry about filling it up?#Urgh. So fucking good #Like realistically I'd be good with 512gb that already is a ton #But hey. The bad boys with good processing power didn't come with less than 1tb. and I will not complain.#z talks #not horse game

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dewwshi · 5 days ago

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can't remember when i realized i was in love (la-la-love) can't remember who it was i was thinking of

#JESUS FUCKING CHRIST #um . yeah so ghost king came to my house and shot me in the head hello #i had a completely different much lighter post planned but then i. yeah then i finished ghost king and i was like well i'm dead now #this scene. and the ENDING. absolutely broke me holy shit #MY GIRL. I SWEAR TO GOD. SHE'S CURSED.#catti-brie suffers more than jesus #homegirl CANNOT CATCH A GOD DAMN BREAK urgh i love her so much #and DRIZZT DRIZZZTTTTTT HIS MONOLOGUE WAS SO FUCKING PAINFUL WAAHHHH THIS BOOK IT'S EVIL IT'S EVIL #the way i fucking screamed out loud audibly for like 30 minutes after i finished it. i'll never be ok again #AND THE OTHER SHIT IN THIS BOOK TOO JARLAXLE AND CADDERLY AND DANICA RAUGHH #also YES THE CAPTION! it's amnesia was her name by lemon demon. a song i never thought would be applicable to catti-brie but... WELL.......#it's a little painful. that it fits that well #i'm almost halfway through neverwinter now WEE neverwinter saga is really good HEHEHE #i'm reading too fast for my art post book club meetings to keep up with. oh well #this drawing is another one of my 'a big render and then i fiddled around with it for 18 business years #because i had to get the shading juuust right' situations. BUT I'M POSTING IT NOW!!!#legend of drizzt #lod #catti-brie battlehammer #drizzt do'urden #catti-brie #dnd #forgotten realms #not to complain but i hope this doesn't flop JDFGJADG

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king-crawler · 11 months ago

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Felix's normal sprites VS when Ralph is missing

HE LOOKS LIKE HE'S ON THE VERGE OF TEARS

#wreck it ralph #fix it felix #felix #the pixel art in this movie is so fucking good urgh.......#screenshot #pixel art

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winged-wolf-s-collection-of-arts · 2 months ago

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That feeling that Something is lurking behind you and getting Closer

#hfgkhdfjh took me around 24 hours to finish. over several days. waugh #jerome heulwen #wolfys art #listen originally this was gonna be for febuwhump (hi hello it’s me the person who drops into random events posts three pieces then leaves)#but I mean it’s days after so. shhhhh I’m not here #ah the prompt was not trusting reality or something like that #what tags do I even use here #gif #rats #I didn’t mean for this to take so long but uh it got out of control #BUT I consider this an accomplishment because I usually have to polish all my pieces... urgh I mean I kinda did still. h. I tried #hghhjfgbn look at the little rat. lil service rat love that creature #FUCK forgot I’ll add an ID just gimme a sec #also because I planned to blow through this I didn’t do anything fancy or good with layout. just a sketch and then immediately to lines. :(#also I know getting into art months can be uh. bad for me. but I will definitely definitely be only doing one or two days

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parlerenfleurs · 5 months ago

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I think what needs to happen for female characters and f/f ships is the female characters need to be more emotionally constipated. They MUST have some hard edge in there of resistance to produce the vitamin of Compelling.

It's fun if they're more unhinged, sure, but it's not just unhinged characters that are interesting and loveable. Kind characters, weird quiet characters, dignified characters, cold characters, gruff ones, it's good to have variety.

But what makes a character compelling a lot of the time? When they take a weird stance on something. A place of stubborn. An integrity of attitude. A mask they're wearing, an emotion they're sublimating. They're holding something back, they have a measure of composure, they are, in a word, emotionally constipated. Not necessarily too much! Just enough so that they have some depth! That the hidden part of two characters can collide and spark some damn chemistry!

It's the same rule as for eroticism, it is created by the juxtaposition of the hidden and the revealed.

Why do we love villains and toxic ships? They're not bland. They have that rule of erotic thing going on, emotionally. Now it's possible to not be bland at all without villainery or toxicity, but for some reason when it comes to female characters, it trips back into blandness a lot of the time. Gruffness or coldness becomes plain harshness. Vulnerability becomes boring weakness. Put two such women together and the bland collides into the bland and only brave souls with very active imaginations manage to salvage some Compelling from this. I'm afraid it's often entirely absent from the source material, though.

#what to tag this #I tried my best to articulate this #but I probably failed #see in the Priory of the orange tree the couple leaves me entirely cold because there's some SMALL initial tension #and then nothing #where is the poignant devotion of the knight to her lady? to the faithful servant to her queen? between ennemies who are friends?#urgh. anyway #we still have Akemizu that's something thank you Blue Eye Samurai #the thing is oftentimes I don't feel the desire at all in f/f ships #WHERE is the desire? the physicality of it?? WHERE is the gaze the touch the faltering words?#it could and should be hot as fuck because it's hot as fuck irl #so why?#where?#gimme good wlw!!#one of the hottest things I've read was by a lesbian writing about her own life #it exists... out there... somewhere...

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ssongsboo · 2 months ago

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this screams world tour btw dOES IT NOT????

#why would they put sm effort into designing this for ONE concert #….or two #at the same location tho ill just count it as one idc #bUT WHAT IS THIS #I AM SO NOT JEALOUS AT ALL NOT BITING MY FIST RN AND DEF NOT RIPPING MY EYELASHES OUT ONE BY ONE GRRRAAAAA #☆ ; dear diary ?#all im saying #younite #here #in october #i was abt to say august but dont even think abt coming here in the summer #none of my summer fits will ever be cute i dont have the energy to look good when im sweating #uRGH I AM FUCKING DREADINGGG THE SUMMER I DONT WANT IT TO COME #BUT ITS COMING SO FAST????#WHYD WE JUMP FROM LIKE -3°C TO 17°C IN LITERALLY 3 DAYS

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puppppppppy · 2 years ago

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ive made myself more wet and pathetic

#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL #its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed #because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH #how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would #be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing #or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late #i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed #the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either #because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember #the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either #the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with #crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure #BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION #im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real #really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and #thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT #you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without #making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY #yapping #doodles #puppysona #edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule #and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened

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aristoteliancomplacency · 6 months ago

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No it’s fine to have six separate tabs open on edit screens for Wikipedia. This is good and normal.

#veni wiki fixit #the problem is I click through to check something on another page and discover that that page is also a giant fucking mess #so I’m like ‘urgh I’ll just fix this one thing’#but the one thing is just tugging on the loose end of a giant fucking knot and Jesus Christ okay fine #this entire page needs rewriting your only list for names of nymphs in group X is the list for nymphs in group Y good job

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aaxzlyte · 4 months ago

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i'm not sure i'll ever finish the wip i have where Near has a white cat named Jetfire

#but i wanted you guys to know it exists #bc im very like #over the top about this idea #i love giving Near a white cat idk #and having him name it Jetfire???#yeah #gimme 14 of em #usually its an emotional support animal #but that shit is half fake anyway so it doesn't really matter #its funny giving near a pet though #bc he cant even properly take care of himself #so its just someone else feeding her all day #and near gets to cuddle her to sleep every night as a reward for doing absolutely nothing #like gevanni is cleaning fucking white cat hair up every day and gets nothing but a paycheck in return #poor guy #oh also i love having the cat reflect near a lot #like a somehow disabled cat #a lot of white blue eyed cats are disbaled/deaf #and i love that #also jetfire is such a good name lowkey #im proud of that one #cant lie #oh and someone realizing how much jetfire reflects near urgh #the character study potentiald #my drafts for this are not few and far between guys #like if she were an emotional support cat then she would alert for when near is distressed and shit #i imagine a younger autistic near needing a little more help with emotional regulation #death note #nate river #near death note

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facetsofthecloset · 2 months ago

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Being an adult means not panic-denying a sudden casual job interview with less than 48 hours of notice

#I prefer 72 hours notice MINIMUM but that’s the anxiety talking #I want to die but it’ll probably be fine #it’s casual and might not even lead to anything so calling it an interview is maybe over the top but urgh #at least I don’t need a suit. fuck me I want to die I hate job hunting #I picked up the phone and I accepted the invitation that’s good enough for now #god it’s stupid to get this scared over it isn’t it #ramblings

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realmikedirnt · 4 months ago

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btw blacklist #yramtd if you dont want to keep seeing these. points if you figure out the song im referencing tho

wins for the day:

got up on time and made it to [redacted campus] when i wanted to

gave my sibling back their ice scraper

i am officially enrolled in college again ! fafsa was very easy, the people there were nice, not registered for classes yet but will be on thursday hopefully

got a light installed at the barn

my check engine light hasnt turned back on, checking with the obs doohickey again tmmrw but it seems to have fixed itself ?

didnt impulse buy anything even though enrollment left me feeling hashtag off kilter.

talked about feelings with my mum AND my friends. like a person does.

EDIT FINAL W OF THE DAY: GENTLY SNORING CAT ON MY FLOOR

#Ls for the day: couldnt find [redacted paperwork x2] (it was fine x2)#generally felt weird and bad after i left [campus]#didnt get any of my holiday stuff put away bc i got home and still felt weird and bad #blerrrrrrrrrgh #nothing actually bad happened today ! it was objectively good ! and i am trying so so so hard to give my bad emotions space and room to be #but its harrrrd. urgh. URGH. i know /why/ i feel weird and bad #its cos i fucked up college multiple times and i am terrified of doing it again bc i feel like this is my last chance to get it right #but knowing doesnt always make it easier. blerrrgh #Blessed St. Dymphna pray for me. blease.#yramtd

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discoshhtick · 5 months ago

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Ah. The piles of gripes and "what the fuck is this" moments with veilguard are growing. Oh no

#Ill write more formed thoughts on it tomorrow. for now just. hm. urgh.#Im still enjoying it. I still see good in it. Its just. urgh.#Im prying this fuck ass game open and digging the good out or so help me god #I had a text post tag but I forgot #dragon age #ah should use the #dragon age critical

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