#UGHGHGHGHH

[notyixiangs]

HAVE I ENDURED LONELINESS WITH GRACE?

—mary oliver

[sheepkebby]

Oh by the way!!! Keith wearing a bucket hat was inspired by the fallen survivor zombies also wearing bucket hats. Sometimes when Ellis sees a fallen survivor he mistakes it for Keith, before realizing it's not him. Figured it was a neat little detail I could add :3c

[hyunniran]

Good night.

[patorucho]

sorry i showed my friend cupid the fnaf musical with another friend mc and we went crazy

[janedoez]

my fav types of moments 2 write are def when calamity is forced to interact directly with her humanity. whether its through the emotions of someone she doesnt realize shes grown to care about or art she didnt expect to move her ...... thats the good shit

[d-atalog]

oh gif making my bewretched </3

[vanillamatchadove]

fic idea weeeeeee

the high school units do a "shuffle" for the summer aka they all hang out in each member of the houses or go out somewhere to get to know each other more before ibuki, noa, and towa graduate for four weeks. (one week for each person and they hang out at friday.)

it was decided by picking sticks, the one with the shortest will be the first one, and the long one is last, they picked it out from a box and those w the same color of sticks will be the ones who will visit each other's houses.

the "units" from first to last are:

shinobu, maho, haruna, saki (all the djs)

noa, esora, miiko, rei (everyone feels sorry for them, but noa was -- kind of, at the beginning she's sulking -- alright.)

rinku, kyoko, miyu, ibuki (all the vocalists)

muni, yuka, kurumi, towa (the vjs and towa lol.)

in the first one i want to explore the fact that all four them were alone in some way before they met their unit members, but mostly explore the fact that saki will be "lonely" again since ibuki, noa, and towa will be going to college soon. saki tells them that she's sad, but happy that they'll continue and go toward the next chapter of their lives, maybe she also says that she's glad that they got to meet each other thanks to photon, if they didn't, they wouldn't have met each other at all, or maybe they'll meet each other later than intended. at the end, maybe all three of them say something like 'if u ever lonely, u can talk to us' and such, haruna might make a comment of something like 'thought that would be a bit difficult since i am from another school, but i will try my best!'. haruna is being haruna and being super formal while the others try to tell her she's allowed to just not, also all of them show off their pets to each other, first hanzo, maho's tropical fish, then saki also shows them pictures of schrodinger and then haruna has. um. something. (also the fact that shinobu, maho, and haruna have siblings compared to saki)

second one i want to explore just how sheltered rei and miiko are (even tho there's been a ton of that already, shh), esora and noa show them new or fun things they like, and since noa was the one who got the shortest, they have a oneshot DnD session, or they watch a few plays and musicals, just explore the other side of noa and a bit of her cutie addiction. esora takes them to an amusement park, maybe they try a ride one of them has never tried before, like a haunted house or bumper cars. (they went to the haunted house and rei had to rest her voice for the whole day.) after they finish doing whatever in noa's house, maybe noa just. breaks. she's worried that saki will be all alone and that she feel bad abt it, the other three comfort her, try to cheer her up and tell her that they'll make sure saki wont be lonely ever. that comforts noa just a tiny bit, but she's still a mess abt it so miiko, esora and rei try to do something to cheer her up.

third one, for the vocalists, i want to explore how. just. this change is affecting ibuki, how much it's worrying her, how afraid she is of leaving saki and how it might affect photon immediately, she tries to hide it but the others can see it clearly. rinku, kyoko, and miyu show her how to relax and handle the change, at the end they might say something like 'we'll make sure that saki wont be lonely!', something along those lines. it's filled to the brim w rinku's silliness and energy w a mix of kyoko and miyu's and ibuki just being worried as well. before ibuki fully opens up, they just have fun, talk abt family a little bit, maybe showing miyu something she's never seen before.

fourth one is just all of them trying something each of them like, they try digital art, they try photography (and then the gym, much to muni and towa's dismay), pranking people (merm4id and rondo, sorry), and cafe hopping. maybe towa opens up abt how glad she is that she can still keep in touch w noa and ibuki even if they'll go to different colleges, but she's worried abt saki, hoping she'll be fine on her own and stuff, all three of them make the same promise to make sure they'll keep in contact w them, with saki and with towa, noa, and ibuki.

maybe i'll start w noa and towa first, then go to saki and ibuki last. or i'll go w saki first, go to towa, noa, then finally ibuki.

maybe put an epilogue of photon just being emotional. them hugging and crying bc of everything, idk.

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

YEAH. YEAH.

something something her first ever night out in costume being stuck on a rooftop

[kirimichi]

Violent types UGHGHGHGhh

[honeyviscera]

im reading light novel 9 of the apothecary diaries and it's just so. it's sooooooooo i love maomao so much. it's really interesting watching the way her and jinshi's interactions unfold where she knows by now that he thinks everything through and doesn't just blindly walk into things. the relief she admits she feels when he explains his plans to her. the way she can figure him out.... she still finds him somewhat annoying, but it's clear that she's slowly gaining a higher opinion, understanding, and appreciation of him.

i also really love how much jinshi considers her feelings and needs when he makes decisions, because he genuinely cares for her so so so much. after being admonished a book or two ago for only considering how he himself felt, he's very obviously realised where he went wrong and it's so UGHGHGHGHH /pos like. maomao still and always will be aroace to me but i think the more they grow in understanding of each other the more i believe they will be genuinely a perfect pair, even if maomao's feelings towards him remain unromantic in nature.

another thing these books continuously do well is consider the role of women in society and all of the barriers and challenges they face under the patriarchal society in which they live. everything feels incredibly carefully considered and written with care i looove it

[bluestonewings]

Ughhhgghg I need a haircut badly but my hair is nice and long and I could totally cosplay maya fey. But then I’d need to make a maya fey cosplay. Do you see my dillema. Ughghghghh

[dreamaze]

fake 93 line secretly practicing sax & trombone for god knows how long during their rigorous pre-enlistment schedules for a chance at passing the auditions is such a fake 93 line thing to do ugHGHGHGHH

[aropride]

ughghghghh i need to eat something again. just because i "have a body" and "need to eat to live". this shit is so stupid. i wish i was a tardigrade

[kapncrunch]

Ughghghghh I feel like I'm wasting my teen years away!! I'm CONSTANTLY doing stuff!! But it is always in pursuit of something that is so out of reach!! I'm active, I eat well, I study, I'm challenging myself etc etc. Basically my parents have a rule where friends can't come over if the house isn't clean - understandable. However, they NEVER help with chores and I have to do EVERYTHING by myself!! Dishes, laundry, folding and putting away the whole families laundry, bathrooms, vacuum, any holiday decor, dusting, tidying, etc etc. It is so overwhelming!! On top of school, extracurriculars, etc etc. And I work so so hard to try to keep the house clean, in hopes one day they'll let me have people over. But here I am, mid January, no one has been over to my house since summer. It is just so fucking frusturating to have a carrot fucking held over my face all the time just for no results. Everyone in my family has adhd too and they're always complaining about MY distractions but god forbid they look in a mirror. Idk I'm just so incredibly frusturated and so lonely right now

[astarionposting]

ughghghghh broken mods... i literally just needed to redo ONE more clip b4 my gif set was done...

[neurodivenport]

i for real need to hug chase so bad i know he feels so good to hold.. i know he gives good hugs like he's so. ughghghghh