#Tw's

[panics-side-blog]

Gonna be a bit of a silly post about a dumb thing that made me dysphoric.

When I was just about to start T up to me getting a few shot of it i hated it. Not because testosterone was a bad choice but because i have a big fear of needles due to trauma. But i didn't want to get it in any other form because all of the trans men and masc used needles for injection. They always spoke some type of line of ; how mainly it is taking t in needle form and it makes you a real man and how much of a man you are stabbing yourselves with the needle to get t.

Isn't 100% exactly the words they used but i think you get it, taking testosterone in needle form = being a man/manly.

It made me dysphoric not taking t in that way because i thought i was somehow lesser of a dude for not doing it like they do. So i continued taking t in needle form, even if i felt dizzy and sick before and afterwards. It came up to the point that i fainted, it wasn't just the injections fault but it was the thing that tipped the iceberg.

Lucklly the nurse who gave me the injection could react quickly enough to lessen the damage of the fall, i still got a huge bruised on my shoulder/upper arm tho and i had mild headache for a bit.My fear of needles after that was unbearable, almost having panic attacks if one even got near to me or thinking about a needle touching me.

After that i took t gel and felt awful, i thought i wasn't a real trans man and not good enough because i couldn't suck up my fear like the other men. I felt very guilty.

Now and i don't care i just want my testosterone (and the fear of needles for bearable again).

But the message i want to give here with this story is ; for anyone taking t not as a needle injection and having the same feelings like i had/similar ones. Your not less of a man for that, and you should be proud of yourself for coming so far.

I wish the open praise and casual talk of gel form was as prominent as it is now that way i wouldn't have let it so far that my body and brain just gave up on me out of fear. And i don't want to let this openness of it die down, so i want to make a small post for it.

Your amazing and enjoy your testosterone. It's your body and your choice what you want to do with it, transitioning should be something beautiful and enjoyable, don't force yourself to do something you don't want.

[hmyrine]

on everyone's soul this is what happened

[nakakabaliw]

curly talks

[feefal]

Mold x calico cats!

[sailing-ever-west]

graph of what being hungry is like with adhd

[mostly-funnytwittertweets]

[99fish]

hi heres the entire twilight movie as a stamp

[compassionatereminders]

The worst thing is that there is so much potential for exploring the horror of psych wards from the angle of medical abuse, ableism, forced treatment/drugging, loss of autonomy, power imbalance, demonization, dehumanization, etc, and YET the horror genre keeps defaulting to "insane asylums and psych wards are scary because there are mentally ill people in there"

[saturni-idae]

Down in the dungeon, where hunger resides 🩸

I wanted to make a dungeon meshi fanart for a while, and man, I love Falin, so here we go

I hope you like it :)

[mysharona1987]

A doctor’s angry letter to United Healthcare after they denied covering his patient’s nausea medication needed after his chemo.

[lady-raziel]

I just wanna know if love wins before America loses

[saszor]

Overview of some topics when it comes to drawing characters who are burn survivors.

DISCLAIMER. Please keep in mind that this is an introductory overview for drawing some burn scars and has a lot of generalizations in it, so not every “X is Z” statement will be true for Actual People. I'm calling this introductory because I hope to get people to actually do their own research before drawing disabled & visibly different characters rather than just making stuff up. Think of it as a starting point and take it with a grain of salt (especially if you have a very different art style from mine).

Talking about research and learning... don't make your burn survivor characters evil. Burn survivors are normal people and don't deserve to be constantly portrayed in such a way.

Consider supporting me on ko-fi if you find this to be helpful.

edit: apparently tum "queerest place on the internet" blr hates disabled people so much that this post got automatically filtered. cool!

second way more important edit: How are people seeing this post where I specifically talk about burn survivors being normal, real people, and still tag this as "TW body horror"? Not a single one of these drawings or pictures is a fresh injury. All of them are healed. How the hell would you feel if someone tagged a photo of you as "trigger warning: gore"?

Disabled people are not your fucking body horror. Grow up.

[arcanejude]

ARCANE 1.07 || 2.07

[im-xzikill]

[feefal]

Mold fairies with their berry of choice🍓 Instead of pixie dust they leave trails of mold spores.