#Tw in the tags for food issues depression and suicide

[quillandrapier]

I need to rant. Sorry I've been so negative lately I'm struggling a bit with life.

[insoukokuhell-434]

Chuuya Takes Care of Dazai Fics

Includes:

Emotional Hurt/Comfort (long term & immediate)

Physical Hurt/Comfort

The format I’m using is:

Title - writer (ao3 link) Fic length Time period (teen/mafia skk, 22! Skk, all ages) Additional tags (Tags in bold added by me for extra info) TW

Some fics have parts of the summary/ comments added for additional info

Emotional Hurt/Comfort

Long Term (multiple instances)

hey look, the sky's falling apart - saffroncassis    

24.8k TEEN SKK (16/17) AU - Canon Divergence Protective Nakahara Chuuya, Angst, Fluff, Humor, Developing Relationship Found Family (the Akutagawa siblings, Oda's kids, Kyouka, Oda, Ango) TW- Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse and discussions of both these, also cw food for the whole fic

Summary - "At age 16, Chuuya defects from the Port Mafia and drags his partner with him not so much kicking and screaming as silently begrudging, and the rest follow suit in time."

Mostly Chuuya helping Dazai, but Dazai supports him too <33

[Really realistic depiction of the relationship between a depressed person and their supportive partner!]

For the Record - zombiemarker

19.1k TEEN SKK  AU- Spies & Secret Agents + Physical Hurt/Comfort Nightmares, Childhood Trauma, they get all dressed up and go to a gala, Implied Sexual Content, Fluff & Angst, Literal sleeping together, Getting together, First kiss, Developing Relationship TW - Blood and Violence, Childhood Trauma

From tags: "Chuuya's a government experiment, Dazai's been with Mori for years, they've both got trauma now"

Mostly Chuuya helping Dazai, but Dazai supports him too <33

A mouth to empty into - series by osamuchuu

Not listing all 4 fics cause this post is already so long, but they’re all amazing pls go read them!

The series depicts depression + CSA trauma so well!

This is my favourite -

Love is not a victory march - osamuchuu

8.7k 22 SKK Soukoku taking care of each other, Angst, Fluff and Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Mental Illness, Depression, Drug Addiction, Blood and Injury, Healing, Recovery, Soukoku Tenderness, Light Angst TW -  Dazai-Typical Suicide References and Attempts, Addiction, Drug Use

believe me darling, the stars were made for falling -communist_sasuke

14.6k ALL AGES Worried Chuuya, Love Confessions, Dazai is a Mess, Angst, Self-Harm , Fluff & Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Canon timeline, First Kiss, TW - Dazai-Typical Suicide Mentions , Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Suicide Attempt

Trust Fall - insi 

3.5k ALL AGES (Dark Era, Post-Dark Era, 22 SKK) Emotional Constipation, Mental Health Issues, Dazai has issues TW - Implied/Referenced Suicide & Self-Harm, Suicidal ideation

From tags: Chuuya has met Dazai on the rooftop many times throughout knowing each other.

Immediate

Emotional H/C

Even the Darkness We're Watching Is So Beautiful - NastyaEx

4k 22 SKK (post-109) bsd 109, Fluff, Dazai Needs a Hug, Dazai is a Mess, exhausted dazai, dazai cries but only a little bit, Cuddling & Snuggling, Sharing a Bed, Soft skk, Dazai centered, yosano is a bit here and she's great

I'll Make A Home In Your Gut Because its Somewhere Warm to Sleep - arahabakii

8.9k 22 SKK Fluff, Angst, Mutual Pining, Feelings Realization, First Kiss, Making Out, Getting Together, Domestic Fluff, Touch-Starved Dazai, Dazai needs a hug, Chuuya needs a hug TW - Dazai-Typical Suicide References

stay- neon_toad

4.6k 22 SKK (pm!skk flashbacks) Suffering Dazai, Dazai Needs a Hug , Dazai is Bad at Feelings, Oblivious Dazai Fluff and Angst, Happy Ending, Hugs, birthday, Birthday Presents, soft skk TW - Dazai-Typical Suicide References

where are you? - doeinstinct

2.8k 22 SKK Depression, Disordered Eating, physical symptoms of depression, Mentions of past self harm, m because they shower together, canon adjacent, meal replacements, Love Confessions, They're In Love Your Honor

Run Away With Me - Anonymous

5.3k Dark Era Grief/Mourning, Dissociation, Suicidal Thoughts, Soft Soukoku, Dazai Needs a Hug , Dazai Has Feelings, Pining, Cuddling & Snuggling, Sharing a Bed, Chuuya Needs a Hug, Kissing, Dazai asks Chuuya to run away with him

stay the night - Shinkirou

3.6k 22 SKK Gen or Pre-Slash, Developing Relationship, Character Study, Sharing a Bed, Ambiguous/Open Ending, Dazai's depression

Physical Hurt/Comfort

Fool for loyalty, or some other word - osamuchuu

1.7k Dark Era Aftermath of Torture, Blood and Injury Light Angst, chuuya deals with so much tbh, what a champ, Fluff and Angst, Pre-Relationship, Established Relationship, chuuya being Dazai's nurse because he absolutely was Dazai's angry nurse

under wraps - Coffeebiscuits

5k Post-Dark era + Emotional hurt comfort Love confessions, deep talks, Light angst, Fluff and angst, kissing, crushes, sharing a bed, Suicide, Self-Harm, Tending to Wounds TW - Dazai-Typical Suicide Mentions, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm 

From tags: “basically chuuya has to patch dazai upand they talk about some things they need to discuss”

Chuuya also gets some emotional comfort

EXHAUSTION

So if you go too far I'll be there - Kimisu

2.5k 22 SKK - Pre-Fyodor | Cannibalism Arc  No Plot/Plotless, Literal Sleeping Together, Some Fluff, Canon Timeline

From Summary: Based on a HC that Dazai spends days before every major arc planning and arranging the pieces in order for everything to 'work'. He also pushes his body limits a bit too far when doing that sometimes.

SICK FIC

Nothing More Important Than You - StormDew2

3k MAFIA SKK (15) Sickfic, Soft soukoku, Vulnerability

Please like/reblog if this helped u find a fic, I'd be delighted to know asjsj <3

“Dazai takes care of Chuuya” recs here

Fic rec masterlist here

[ssobsinternallyy]

hi guys im bringing you my 2012 angst headcanons for the boys because they're silly

on the topic of ANGER:

donnie's anger is very loud, but not like- in the raph way loud. more like "i'm gonna lose my fucking shit" loud. he probably laughs like a fucking maniac when he's pushed over the edge angry. probably screams a lot and doesn't take a single break from screaming. like, take every pent up anxious thought this man has ever had and channel it into this anger. bro is a mess. he probably cries after every anger meltdown he has.

okay okay leo. leo's anger is a lot quieter. he probably funnels all his depression into his anger when he's like, honest to god, genuinely angry. the most you'll probably get out of him 90% of the time is irritation or disappointment. but when he is mad, lord have mercy on your soul. he probably goes to his room to brood after his little anger tantrums and then apologizes later.

everyone knows raph's anger. big loud and scary. he yells a lot of insults and shit. very very very VERY defensive when he's mad. can and will beat the shit out of you and won't feel bad about it unless you're someone he genuinely gives a shit about. after he's done screaming whatever he's mad about, he'll stomp off and listen to music or something. the most he'll do is text you an "im sorry" and then not talk to you for a good few hours.

let's talk about mikey. oh my god, mikey. this man is IMPOSSIBLE to get mad. you CANNOT piss him off. HOWEVER, WHEN YOU DO? bro. you're FUCKED. oh my GOD you are fucked. mikey's anger is COLD. not like, his fake, borderline irritation anger. no, not that. @turrondeluxe has been getting a lot of asks about mikey having anger issues and i SO SO SO agree. the worst part is, he won't say a FUCKING WORD to you, if he's angry. like, if he's fighting you, he will not speak. he can be quiet when he needs to be. and oh my god this man terrifies me. let him go apeshit plEASE. he'd go to his room and blast the most ear-bleeding death metal in existence until he's pushed all of the bad emotions back into their little box in the back of his mind. (as for the aftermath, he'll probably act completely normal the next day, after he's done bottling it all up again.)

more under the cut (tw for eating disorders, mentions of suicidal thoughts/ideations, and just genuinely sad stuff) (also sorry for tagging you fer LOL EVERYONE GO FOLLOW THEM)

some extra headcanons because i like them a lot they make me silly

mikey:

- mikey actually loves reading. he's dyslexic and can't read, but he loves forcing his brothers to read to him. (they secretly love reading to him)

- he probably struggled with an eating disorder of some kind at some point. probably almost killed him too

- also on top of the eating disorder: probably why he’s so much shorter than his bros (bad genes combined with not eating enough [or eating too much to the point of throwing up])

- 100% a metalhead. (i also think he listens to like, green day and nirvana. probably a huge gorillaz guy too. he just listens to whatever)

- master of manipulation. he might not be able to do math but he can crack your brain open like a walnut and pick you apart.

- has a lot of weird not-directly-suicidal thoughts about something happening to him. like "what if that train just hit me and i died" type shit.

- he keeps cat food on his belt so he can feed stray cats in alleyways :3

- raph is his favorite brother. raph is also the only one who knows Just How Much Shit (tm) mikey bottles up. they have a sworn pact to keep it in between themselves because leo and donnie just dont Get It like raph does. and mikey listens to raph and talks to raph and FUCK YOU IF YOU THINK RAPH IS ABUSIVE HE LOVES HIS BABY BROTHER‼️

- he loves april so so so so so much they do everything together. he cries indefinitely depending on how hurt or sad april is.

- gossip king. he keeps tabs on EVERYTHING

- he LOVES hot chocolate.

- trans guy (thanks fer i stole this hc from you)

- “i like everyone as long as they’re nice to me”

- he’s leatherhead’s little baby. LH is like, fourth favorite family member next to raph, donnie, and leo.

- speaks spanish (and russian for some reason?? idk it seemed like a funny headcanon) along with japanese and english obviously

- only texts in slang terms for some reason. donnie’s like, the only one who can semi decipher what he’s saying half the time

- after getting over his ED with the help of raph, leo, and donnie, he begins to treat his body a little kinder. he trains with raph in the morning, and slowly gets his booyah back!

raph:

- he only talks to mikey. he plays up the whole "mehmehmeh i hate mikey he's annoying" in front of leo and donnie but the moment they're alone they are best friends. mikey listens. he listens and he understands and he doesnt get mad at raph and raph loves him so much for that.

- his banter with leo is just petty. it's his second favorite way to blow off steam.

- his first favorite way is to punch old reliable (the punching bag)

- second best cook in the entire household

- he gossips with casey about people at casey's highschool.

- speaking of casey, he likes to spar with casey a lot. not train like he does with his brothers

- was passively suicidal for a long time because of some bad shit he was going through. he only just started realizing he needed help after realizing that MIKEY needed help

- he loves dogs. contrary to popular belief, he likes golden retrievers. (i also hc that he likes chihuauas tho)

- he likes soft indie music. (also probably a huge nirvana fan)

- iced tea lover

- bisexual as fuck

- speaks spanish cause he watches too many telenovelas

- trains regularly, treats his body like a temple.

leo:

- he likes reptiles! snakes, lizards, and little frogs are his favorite :3

- green tea drinker (he likes all tea except iced tea, but green tea is his favorite. chai is a very close second though)

- anxiety 9000% percent of the time, it gets better as he gets older though

- he’s allergic to peanuts probably. he strikes me as a peanut allergy guy

- he loves milk!!! he fucking loves milk!! drinks it every chance he gets!!!

- classical music nerd. (secretly a theater kid as well, has the entire grease soundtrack memorized)

- almost killed himself once (karai stopped him in time and they talked about it. he never tried again)

- donnie and him have the closest relationship. he likes that donnie doesn’t start fights for fun or lose interest in whatever he’s talking about quickly. (not that mikey actually loses interest, but it feels that way cause mikey hates eye contact. makes leo feel like he’s not actually listening.)

- he secretly really loves ICK. mikey always leaves her in his care when he’s off doing something else

- banned from mikey’s kitchen

- karai is his emotional support sister

- reads to mikey on a daily basis

- owner of the most popular captain ryan x reader fanfic on ao3

- kind of bullies his body by pushing it way past its limit at times, but mikey’s helping him with that

- nearsighted

- token straight brother (ik the transfem leo hcs are great.. but its funny to think about him being the only cis straight guy in his household…)

donnie:

- aroace king.

- treats his body like trash (getting better at going to sleep at reasonable hours with april’s help)

- HE LOVES MICE!!!! any kind of rodent actually. (also bunnies)

- black coffee drinker.

- can speak like four different languages fluently. has the third best understanding of japanese and kanji next to leo and mikey (mikey’s being the best because he retains the most of what splinter taught)

- not very spiritual at all but tries his best.

- probably the most depressed out of all of his brothers (pro tip: don’t compare depression guys, just saying he most definitely struggled the most with depression)

- doesn’t have a favorite brother. loves them all equally.

- got over his weird crush on april after realizing that it was probably just him wanting to feel normal. they’re besties now though

- would belittle everyone at a really low point in his life, got help though :D 👍 (he still apologizes about it to this day)

- also banned from mikey’s kitchen (still a better cook than leo)

- most of his inventions are stupid things his brothers though would be funny if he made (50% of the time they blow up in his face, but it’s still fun to mess around.)

- casey is the only one not allowed in his lab without supervision LMAO

- any bad depressive episodes he has usually ends in a turtle pile (HIS BROTHERS FUCKING LOVE HIM SO MUCH THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO SO SO MUCH FIGHT ME RAHHHH)

- he wears his goggles 100% of the time now.

- surprisingly has really good eyesight. the best out of his brothers.

- and lastly, he loves sweet things. even though he’s a black coffee drinker, he loves pastries and asks mikey to make him little sweet things all the time (mikey always agrees!)

thanks for reading this long ass post :3

[birdnormal]

ok so seeing some of the tags on that post abt periods made me think that maybe some of my like. slow blundering conclusions on things abt me could help people out. so behind the cut some general observations on periods, and some things that can help.

tws: reproductive health, suicide discussion, mental health discussion

ok the big things first:

-if you're an adult (but also generally), painful periods are not normal

-if you have severe emotional issues leading up to your period, that's also not normal (look up premenstrual dysphoria disorder - in some cases (like me lol) it's bad enough that it can trigger suicidal thoughts).

you'll want to consult a doctor to figure out if there could be underlying causes for either or both of those. endometriosis and pcos can both fuck you up if left unchecked, and an informed doctor will be able to help you more than i can.

but the good news is, in most cases, the solution is easy - going on birth control.

what you'll want to ask your doctor for is continuous or extended-cycle birth control. they may give you something specifically made for that usage, or they may just give you a standard pack and tell you to skip the placebo week. as best i can tell either generally works fine. the birth control i'm on has me down to 4 periods a year, and they're shorter, lighter, less intense, and don't fill me with screaming dread. you may have spotting and light cramps, especially early on, but that should fade.

if you can't go on birth control, or if the pmdd isn't helped by it, many antidepressants are indicated for help w pmdd as well as standard depression. zoloft/sertraline is what i see as the standard go-to, but there may be other options. i take zoloft already for other reasons but it is sometimes prescribed for just the symptomatic period, and helps reduce the mood issues greatly.

outside that, take care of yourself. know that your pain is real, that you shouldn't have to 'just suck it up' or feel ashamed, that you deserve help and care. you're going thru hell and that's not normal and you deserve better.

stretching, avoiding spicy and greasy foods, hot baths, lots of rest, and ibuprofen (specifically ibuprofen - other painkillers don't work as well) can all help a lot if you can't get to a doctor rn. planned parenthood can almost certainly help you.

you're not alone.

i'm emailing you a chocolate bar.

[neonsamurai]

V.alentine ~

Name: Valentine DuRoyaume

Alias(es): V, V.al, Veilchen, Bitch, Whore

Gender: Male

Age: 27

Birthdate: Febuary 14, 20XX

Place of birth: Night City, NUSA

Hometown: Night City, NUSA

Spoken languages: English only..

Sexual preference: Gay

Occupation: Mercenary, Bouncer/Security at Lizzie´s, Sometimes helpes out Mateo behind the Bar, Fulltime Mox at heart

I got Tagged by serval people and my lazy Butt finally writes this ( a second time... D:< )

But!! HAPPY MALE V MONDAY ANNYWAYS <3

~Appearance~

Eye color: Red Kiroshi

Hair color: Dirty Blonde with Platinum bleached tips

Height: 1,82 (or TALL in american)

Scars: Small scar barely touching his lower lip on his chin, thin scar downwards over his bellybuton, a three lines claw scar on his back shoulder. Together with his overall freckly, rough skin and plenty of moles he also got a Permanent bruised Eye. SOMETIMES he still got issues with it wich results in a "paris hilton" like lazy eye

~Favorite~

Color: Neons and Purple

Hair color: Blonde or Bleached

Song: Nightcall - Kavinski

Food: Not picky at all...will eat sushi off the street if hes hungry enough, B U T got a recent softspot for Watermelon...(rare Treat)

Drink: A L C O H O L ~ but his fav is everything Vodka and sweet Vodka Mixxed. Sometimes he falls into old habbits liking a glass of expensive scotch and whisky.

~Have They...~

Passed university: Yes , barely thanks to his Parents influence and bribes over the years.... Val was busy partying and drinking being a rich frat boy.

Had sex: Yes

Had sex in public: Yes~

Gotten someone pregnant: No

Kissed a boy: Yes

Kissed a girl: Yes.. not on free will

Gotten tattoos: Blackout Design all over his torso, Blackout on on of his lower legs, Thighstrap tat with code

Gotten piercings: Industrial and overall pierced Ears, Tounge Piercing

Been in love: Yes

Stayed up for more than 24 hours: way to often to be healthy

~Are They...~

A virgin: No

A cuddler: Only arround Friends and Close ones.., maybe if he instand likes you or you catch him hella drunk (and horny)

A kisser: Only kisses his Input

Scared easily: No, not really...but changes quickly if you know his Triggers

Jealous easily: No, would not mind his Input fucking arround if he so desires... BUT if you threat to steal his man he turnes feral really quick..

Dominant: Yes

Submissive: Yesnt

In love: Yes ~ and Yes...

Single: Taken :3

~Random Questions (TW: Self harm/suicide mention)~

Have they harmed themselves: Yes, heavy Drug abuse back at arasaka... mostly Clean now but heavy chainsmoker.

Thought of suicide: Yes

Attd suicide atemptt: Yes, but TT platinum Saved him

Wanted to kill someone: Yes and did...also still will, so...if he recognizes you from back then R u N ...

Have/had a job: Yes

Have any fears: Yes thanks to his Smiling Depression, lots of Insecuritys and weakness hes afraid to show and accept

~Family~

Sibling(s): None

Parent(s): Mr. and Mrs. DuRoyaume

Children: None

Significant other: Trace Adler / Kerry Eurodyne

Pet(s): Nibbles the Cat :3

[nepenthendline]

Mental Health Headcannons - Tsukishima, Kageyama, Ushijima, Tendou & Bokuto

All these are from my knowledge and based off of each character’s actions haikyuu, this is all my opinion so feel free to discuss other thoughts! I’m happy to talk about each more in depth if anyone would like it :) this is just me projecting my own problems on fictional characters

You can also message me if you wanna talk about these too!!

This is going to be long

TW: Mental health, learning difficulties, eating disorders, self-harm

Tsukishima - Depression, Anxiety & OCD

Tbh someone else (I’ve been trying to find their username to tag them but I can’t find it, they’re called something like theguessmonta but idk) has amazing posts about Tsukishima and his mental health which I totally agree with all of it so some of this is going to be pretty similar

I think his mental health problems started when he was quite young, around the time when the Akiteru drama happened so he’s been dealing with these for a while

Having depression can often make a person seem very disinterested/sarcastic/negative as a way of pushing back emotions and self-protection which explains a lot of the way Tsukishima acts towards some people (I have a whole post on how he isn’t just some asshole)

His anxiety stems from a place of terrible self-esteem and self-image, it’s clear to see he has a bad sense of self-worth when he talks about how people are obviously a lot better than him, he’s just there to ‘stop trouble happening’

Tsukki suffers from panic attacks quite regularly (especially when he was a bit younger) but he tends to shut himself off then they happen, he doesn’t want anyone else to see him like that

His anxiety and overthinking is often why he keeps his headphones on him at all times, listening to music helps drown out the sounds around him and those in his head

His OCD got worse over time - first it was things like turning the light switch on and off repeatedly until it felt right, or tapping on his desk before he went to bed, but as his anxiety and self-esteem got worse it developed into him needing himself to be perfect

This included only eating a certain amount of calories a day (no where near the amount he should be eating) or getting a very specific grade on an exam, where even one number over or under set him into a panic

Things got to their worst for Tsukki around the age of 13 - this is where he was much too underweight and self-harming on his hips (so no one else could see)

Probably also thought about suicide a couple times around this point

He has tried a couple different types of anti-depressants in the past, however none have seemed to help

He likes a lot of time alone - he gets too overwhelmed dealing with other people

The only person besides his family and Yamaguchi that knows about his OCD is Kageyama - they both noticed each others odd, repetitive habits until Kageyama asked him about it one day, while they don’t get along too well, they feel some comfort in each other understanding their actions

Kageyama - Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

wow what a smooth segue 

this boy is like a walking definition of ASD - coming from a person with ASD

Kageyama was diagnosed with Type 1/High-functioning Autism when he was very young (probably around 3-5 years old)

He struggles with social interaction, knowing what to say to people and most importantly, how to say it, e.g. when he smiles people often think he looks angry

Kageyama has never had many, if any, friends before Karasuno, as he has often struggled with conversation and speaking in an inappropriate tone that may make some people uncomfortable or even scared

He isn’t very good when it comes to remembering academic studies but if it relates to his fixations (volleyball) he is extremely intelligent - this is seen clearly when Daichi shows their team hand gestures and Kageyama says he remembered them in a day

Kageyama uses masking a lot - it’s a technique people with ASD tend to do which involves copying other peoples actions in order to understand social situations, he does this many times in the anime/manga such as his awkward BBQ song dance, or high-fives

He visited a social worker once a week while he was little until he started middle school, resulting in his behaviours getting worse

Towards the end of his first year at Karasuno he went back to therapies regularly and has anger-management training in order to help him express himself in a manageable way - he probably won’t admit it but it helps a lot (key note is that having anger-management training often does not have anything to do with anger, simply just managing emotions in general but it often a great type of therapy for those with ASD although he is a bit of an angry boi sometimes)

ASD comes with repetitive, almost OCD-like tendencies - two examples include filing his nails every single day and having a very specific routine before going to bed that consists of drinking milk, putting on pjs, laying in bed and throwing + catching a ball, brushing his teeth and going to bed on his left side - if he doesn’t do these things at the right times/in the right order, he gets extremely anxious and agitated

It is important to remember people with ASD tend to also have another mental health issue, such as anxiety or depression

Ushijima - Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

autism buds with kageyama

I kid thats probably a bad idea

Ushijima was also diagnosed with Type 1/High-Functioning Autism when he was 5

Unfortunately due to the stigma around Autism, his family (besides his father) were not very accepting of this and he was put into therapy at a young age

While this was actually helpful for him, his family insisted his therapies should ‘cure’ him and were dismissive of the many times a doctor told them that ASD is not a curable disorder

Outside of therapy he does not receive much support from his family, except his father who got him a pair of noise-cancelling headphones he used to wear until he 8 whenever they went out together - he was only allowed to wear them if it was just him and his father, the rest of his family thought it made it too obvious there was ‘something wrong with the child’

Extending on this, Ushijima was very sensitive to sensory input as a child, and while he still is, it has become easier to manager as he has gotten older

His ASD is most prevalent in his lack of understand ways of communication, such as sarcasm or jokes, and tends to take things very literally 

@simp4satori and I came to the conclusion that if you were to call him daddy during sex, or ask him to ‘punish you’ the poor boy would have NO CLUE - would probably call your dad and tell him you needed to speak to him, or say you can’t watch anime for a week lol 

He is extremely direct when he talks, to the point where it comes across rude or hurtful but he doesn’t realise this until someone mentions it

Tendou probably helps him rephrase things from time-to-time in order for him to get his point across

He gets very anxious when faced with things he doesn’t know about or understand (this is mentioned by Tendou in the manga), this can include people, going to new places or trying new foods

It is important to remember people with ASD tend to also have another mental health issue, such as anxiety or depression

Tendou - Depression and Anxiety (also a highly sensitive person - that’s not a mental health disorder or illness but it does affect him)

Tendou’s mental health suffered from a young age due to bullying in school

This caused a lot of low self-esteem and low mood, and he was later on diagnosed with depression and anxiety

Only his family, Ushijima and his coach know about this, and even then, only his family know any details

No one would really expect Tendou to deal with such mental health issues as he always keeps a bubbly, happy persona around others - he doesn’t want people to think he is weak or cowardly

It is also hard for others to see and he is someone with high-highs and low-lows, so when he is happy or excited his emotions are quite extreme

Tendou’s anxiety relates a lot to his image, mainly his appearance and the way he acts, but he is also a general over thinker

He doesn’t have panic attacks as often as Tsukishima does, however they do happen occasionally when things just get too much

He often thinks that people are staring at him, or talking about him whenever he goes out, and he tends to hid this by seeming overly cocky or sardonic

When his depression hits, he tends to just feel sad or hopeless instead of numb, which tends to trigger his anxiety too

Tendou used to self-harm often around his hips/thighs however he hasn’t done so since the end of his first year of high-school 

Probably makes a lot of dark ‘jokes’, especially around suicide and people semi are like ‘...dude...you ok?’ and he’s just like ‘hahaha yeah im fine what’

He doesn’t like alone time too much as he tends to get trapped in his own thoughts

As expected of the guess monster, he is extremely good at reading and understanding people, which is how he finds it easier to help and communicate with Ushijima

Bokuto - ADHD

A lot of people at Fukurodani think Bokuto is just stupid, however he actually has ADHD

He was diagnosed a lot later than the rest at 12 years old

Bokuto tends to struggle with his studies as his attention-span is very low and can get distracted easily - either by things in the classroom or his own thoughts

He’s very forgetful, often forgetting his lunch at home or forgetting to do/bring in his homework, and this goes into volleyball too where he forgets how to do certain moves

Taking exams are the worst for Bokuto, he hates having to be still and quiet for such a long time and is very sensitive to little sounds or movements that distract his attention - you’ll often find his bouncing his leg or fiddling with his pen

He tends to butt into conversations or interrupt people when they are talking, he just gets a bit too enthusiastic to share his thoughts

He has extreme mood-swings too which we see often in the anime, especially when he is stressed or someone mentions his behaviours

Is very reckless - Akaashi has probably had to stop him from leaning too far out the window and almost falling to look something

The whole Fukurodani volleyball team are aware of his ADHD and do their best to help him and make him feel comfortable or accepted

They are the only people allowed to call him stupid - they will fight anyone else

I think there are more characters with mental health illnesses or disorders, such and Yamaguchi, Yachi, Kenma and Asahi having anxiety so I might write more at some point!

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Masterlist

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Bridgerton

Fic:

A little empty Benedict tries to get his brother to eat. (TW: discussions of not eating/skipping meals/weight loss, references to depression) 

Brawl This can be considered a canon-divergent tag to 1x07, or you can just assume Anthony got into a random fight while drunk. Either way, this is a bit of the aftermath. (TW: concussion, vomit, alcohol use)

The world is heavy today  When the Bridgertons don’t hear from Anthony for a few days, Benedict is sent to go find him, and is unnerved by what he finds. (TW: self-harm, depression, blood, apparent suicide attempt)

The Old Guard

Fic:

The sum of your years. Nicky always seems serene, unflappable. It’s only at night that Nile sees that he is not.

For everyone but you. Nicky takes care of everyone, except sometimes himself. (TW: issues with food, vomit (brief), blood, temporary character death)

Tired for so long. Prequel-y thing to “For everyone but you.” (TW: depressive episode, disordered eating habits/skipping meals, blood)

Gretchen Nicky loves stray cats.

Steadfast. Part 1, Part 2 (TW: depression, disordered eating, anxiety)

What you won’t let them see. Part 1, Part 2 (TW: depression, disordered eating, anxiety)

Too much and not enough. Part 1, Part 2 (TW: disordered eating, anxiety)

With me. (TW: kidnapping, captivity, dehydration, starvation, temporary character death, blood)

Meaning. What Joe feels doesn’t always match what he paints.

An exercise in futility. Dr. Kozak’s experiments aren’t new. (TW: self-harm, medical experimentation (nothing graphic), body horror, self-hatred, suicidal ideation)

Headcanons/Dumb things:

Ace headcanon for Joe and Nicky

The origin of spooning

Shared wardrobe

Nicky + Cats

Joe and Nicky argue about dumb shit regularly

Nicky + getting carsick

Halloween costumes

They do circus hand-to-hand. That’s it.

9-1-1

Baby!Buck AU - AU: Maddie gets custody of Buck and takes him to LA to start over (TW: Past child abuse).

Promise - Hen notices Buck is struggling and sits him down to talk (TW: depression).

Buck - Buck’s depression through the years (?) starting from before he joined the 118 (TW: depression, overdose, self-hatred).

Welcome Back Buck Buckley - Buck gets a few stitches, Hen brings cake.

You shouldn’t have. (Part 1) (Part 2) (Part 3) Eddie sees something he shouldn’t have on Buck’s phone, and then is dumb about it. (TW: depression, suicidal thoughts) 

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Any stucky classics I can read. I am new to the fandom n all.

Hi nonnie! Welcome to the greatest fandom on earth. 😉 And thanks for writing in!

I sure do have some fic recs for you. Not sure what your jam is, so I’m gonna list out a couple of my favorites and you can go to town. Also, check out my fic recs tag! 

Classic Stucky Fic Recs under the cut! And also, you should definitely check out the Influential Fics for New Readers post over at @thestuckylibrary​.

to memory now I can’t recall by Etharei

Rating: Explicit | Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence

Additional Tags: Time Travel, World War II, Memory Loss, Time Loop, Alien Technology, Identity Porn

Summary: While on a mission storming a HYDRA facility, James Buchanan Barnes touches one of the many strange alien devices collected by the Red Skull. He does this, in fact, twice— in the past, and in the future.

Next thing he knows, Bucky Barnes is opening his eyes in the 21st century, which is full of great gadgets and coffee, and at least includes his old pal Steve. (And, inexplicably, a different Stark.) Meanwhile, the Winter Soldier finds himself in the middle of World War Two, helping Captain America hunt down HYDRA (which is at least familiar), pretending to be Bucky Barnes (which is not), and figuring out the very noisy group of soldiers who call themselves the Howling Commandos.

Comments: This is my one of my absolute favorite longfics in this fandom. It has everything: recovering!Bucky, time travel, tragic comparisons of Bucky’s past and current self, somewhat of a twist on outsider POV (in a weird way), and it is beautifully written and plotted.

This, You Protect by owlet

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences | Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Additional Tags: Humor, I hope humor anyway, cursing, Protection, Strong feelings about coffee, slightly off-canon, Steve is sassy, sam is sassy, Bucky is sassy, Everyone has their sassy pants on, just accept that grilled cheese is the perfect food, old people are Team Bucky

Summary: The mission resets abruptly, from objective: kill to objective: protect

Comments: This is typically most people’s entry for the “if you read one fic from this fandom” contest. Funny, clever, sweet, and a totally unique take on Bucky’s post-TWS mindset. Great fun and great sequels.

Ain’t No Grave (Can Keep My Body Down) by spitandvinegar 

Rating: Mature | Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Additional Tags: Post-Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Drug Abuse, Homelessness, Jewish Bucky Barnes, Catholic Steve Rogers, Religious Imagery & Symbolism, Artist Steve Rogers, Identity Issues, POV Alternating, Not Avengers: Age of Ultron (Movie) Compliant, because I am a desert pony that runs as wild and free as the wind, Period Typical Attitudes, Masturbation, Past Peggy Carter/Steve Rogers, original kid characters, a coupla goddamn kids, Pinkberry, Past Rape/Non-con

Summary: It’s six in the morning, and Steve is heading out on a run when he nearly trips over a bouquet of sunflowers on the front steps of his brownstone.

For a second paranoia takes over, and he kicks the flowers a little, waiting for them to explode. They don’t. They also came with a card, which he picks up. The front of the card has a tasteful picture of the Brooklyn bridge at sunset. It’s very nice and sedate, like the kind of card you would buy to give to your boss. On the inside someone has written a short message in big, shaky block letters.

I AM SORRY FOR SHOOTING YOU.

Steve sits down hard on the steps.

Comments: A really inventive take on Recovering!Bucky, with a super rich backstory and a daring characterization. 

4 Minute Window by Speranza (@cesperanza​)

Rating: Explicit | Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Additional Tags: Surveillance, It’s Like Grand Central Station In Here, Brooklyn Boys, Power Couple, People Are Sick of Conceptual Art

Summary: “Look, if they catch me,” Bucky muttered, “they’re either going to kill me or they’re going to put me in a box with a little window and—Steve, I can’t.”

Comments: Okay, so if you don’t know @cesperanza​, you are in for a treat. Her characterization of Bucky is one of my absolute favorites - he is competent and cool, and she writes him and everything he does so convincingly. That’s the hallmark of a speranza fic: you believe every word of it, and it always feels real. It’s a totally immersive story that continues out into a delightful series. Honestly, you should read everything that speranza has written for this fandom - especially 20th Century Limited. 

Silent thunder, as of a thousand wings by kaasknot (@kaasknot)

Rating: Mature | Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Angels, angel!bucky, Religious Imagery, (Now with bonus sacrilege), Angst, Pining, Consent Issues, Agency issues, Gore typical of wartime, Period-Typical Ableism, Racism and racial slurs, PTSD, Flashbacks, Period-typical ignorance of PTSD, attempted suicide, Here there be Google translations, Bucky Barnes is a dirty liar, Steve is a chihuahua with aggression issues, thor is not an idiot, Everyone’s a grade-A potty mouth, Torture

Summary: A theologian once said that angels are constructs of love and holy rage, and chained to obedience through both. Or maybe a theologian hadn’t said that. Maybe it was the Bright One himself, or just Uriel being grumpy.

But Bucky knows that he loves Steve, and he loves his taskmaster of a boss even as he gripes about him over beers after work, and he loves the dames with their red, red lips and smooth, soft curves (and he loves the guys, loves their strength and the tall, proud lines of them), and he loves old Mrs. Greene even when her rheumatism acts up and she turns mean as a wet cat. But he loves Steve most of all, and if Bucky is shackled to mindless obedience because of it, he calls it a good trade, because Steven Grant Rogers is the best person he knows. When it comes down to it, he figures his desire only adds a new dimension to a love that was already there, glowing hot enough to burn.

He was sent to Earth in a cage of mortal flesh to watch over Steve, and Bucky can do no less than love him with all his heart.

Comments: A great, creative alternative universe story that that takes a difficult premise and executed it perfectly. The changes made to canon are so smart and it maintains the urgency and emotion and tragedy of canon while transforming it completely. And the OCs are amazing.

i need a forest fire by tomorrowsrain

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences | Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Additional Tags: Road Trip, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Reconciliation, Recovery, Past Torture, Fugitives, Post-Captain America: Civil War (Movie), Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Deaf Clint Barton, Fix-It, Jewish Bucky Barnes, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, On the Run, Developing Friendship, Healing, Past Brainwashing, Talking, some humor hopefully, Character Study

Summary: "The past beats inside me like a second heart. These fragments I have shored against my ruins."

In which Tony Stark makes a reckless decision, becomes a wanted fugitive, goes on the run with the former Winter Soldier, and learns how to forgive. For his part, Bucky Barnes is just trying to hold himself together. AU, post-Civil War.

(sequel of sorts to après nous le déluge, but can be read alone)

Comments: Love, love, love this story because it’s got Stucky AND Tony & Bucky friendship as well as a really smart characterization of Steve and Bucky.

The Crucible by Dreadnought (@dreadnought-dear-captain)

Rating: Explicit | Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Additional Tags: Post-Captain America: Civil War (Movie), Psychological Trauma, Brainwashing, Teamwork, Science, Bucky Barnes-centric, Hurt/Comfort, Psychological Torture, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Sexual Tension, Internalized Homophobia, Bad Parenting, Intergenerational Trauma, Suicidal Thoughts, Violence, Past Bucky Barnes/Various Female Characters, Sexual Content, Medical Torture, Psychology, POV Bucky Barnes, Hydra (Marvel), Emotional Roller Coaster, Stockholm Syndrome, Introspection, Unreliable Narrator, Trust Issues, Lots and lots of psychotherapy, Homophobic Language, Period-Typical Homophobia, Heavy Angst, Vomiting, Gaslighting, Anxiety, Depression, Recovery, Character Study, Explicit Sexual Content, Slow Build, Friends to Lovers, Psychologists & Psychiatrists, parasuicidal behavior, Therapy, therapy fic

Summary: Therapy's a bitch, but PTSD is worse. An in-depth character study of Bucky Barnes as he reconciles his years with Hydra in the wake of Civil War.

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I don’t really know who I am. I do know that James Buchanan Barnes is dead. He’s a pile of bones at the bottom of a ravine. He’s a side bar in some other guy’s museum exhibit that might not even exist anymore. James Barnes would puke if he could see what he became. His parents and sister and friends would cry.

I don’t know what’s left over now, but I know it’s not good. And I don’t think it can ever be good.

Comments: This is the therapy fic. Dreadnought knows his stuff like nobody else and it hurts and it’s so good. You should definitely read this and then jump into his other fic, a WIP called Baghdad Waltz which will tear your heart out like nobody’s business. It’s a modern military AU, and 100% the best one ever written for this fandom.

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Fic List #2

Making Money Is Not That Easy by HazyBlue

Status: Ongoing

Words: 18,805

Chapters: 8/?

Last Updated: 2017-04-30

Rating: Teen And Up

Tags: ereri, Fluff, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Older Eren Yeager, Younger Levi (Shingeki no Kyojin), Levi/Eren Yeager-centric, Boss Eren Yeager, Rich Eren Yeager, Slow Build, Secretary Levi

Levi was going to have a really, really important job interview. He had prepared very carefully for this day so nothing, absolutely nothing, could go wrong. What he didn’t expect was that the bastard who had spilt all his matcha latte on Levi’s white shirt at the cafe was also his new boss.

Oh fuck. This is a joke right?

Penthouse Suite by Talk_Dirty_To_Me_Levi

Status: Ongoing

Words: 18,752

Chapters: 7/?

Last Updated: 2017-04-30

Tags: AU, No Titans, Alternate Universe - Roommates/Housemates, Eren is of age, canon age gap, but eren is older

Eren is in desperate need of somewhere to live, he only has one year of university left. An ad in a local paper seems too good to be true. He goes to investigate anyway, after all, he cannot afford to be homeless and a place to live is a place to live, no matter the downsides to it.

Color Of Life by SupernaturalHearts

Status: Ongoing

Words: 14,665

Chapters: 6/?

Last Updated: 2017-04-30

Rating: Explicit

Tags: Additional cast appearances eventually, Explicit Language, Eren Yeager Has Heterochromia Iridum, Alternate Universe - College/University, Eventual Smut, Art student Levi, Musical Eren, Probably very cliche, Character’s Name Spelled as Hanji, Other Additional Tags to Be Added

Levi’s a sophomore at Kent State University working towards his art degree but has not idea what he wants to do with his life. Eren is a freshman musical prodigy with an unusual medical condition.

Ein Riese, der Fliegen Wollte by Closet_Cleaner

Status: Ongoing

Words: 63,743

Chapters: 16/?

Last Updated: 2017-02-07

Rating: Explicit

Tags: Titan!Eren, but also Human!Eren, Alternate Canon, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Canon-Typical Violence, actually probably less than canon-typical, canon has a lot of violence, eventual slash, slow-burnTitan experiments, smut will be made easily skipable, but that’s not going to be for a while, Families of Choice

He needn’t have worried. The small one was strong.

He sees the human many more times since then. It seems as if the herd doesn’t venture out without it. He wonders if that one is the pack-leader. It seems logical, but humans are not always creatures of logic.

He forces back memories of that one, and continues to shadow the herd whenever it ventures out. He makes a habit of waiting in the small grouping of trees near the gate so as not to miss one of their outings. Eventually he learns to distinguish the small one from the others even before it takes to the air, and he feels proud of this accomplishment.

Months later, only hours after the humans had returned behind their walls, everything changes.

(In which Eren is not a human that can turn into a Titan, but a Titan that can turn into a human.)

Hazy Memories by ReluctantHero

Status: Completed

Words: 19,890

Chapters: 6/6

Tags: Older Eren Yeager, Younger Levi (Shingeki no Kyojin), Top Eren Yeager, Bottom Levi (Shingeki no Kyojin), Implied Sexual Content so far, Might change, haven’t decided yet, Reincarnation AU, everyone remembers, Except Eren, Eren is confused, Level Headed Eren, Pining Levi, Angst, Everyone Is Alive, Fluffy bits, Good Parent Grisha

Eren’s eyes snapped open and he jumped up into a sitting position before the pain and dizziness hit him all over again and he groaned again; clutching his head and squinting around the room to figure out where he was and why he was there.

He had concluded that he was in his hotel room, he had what was probably the worst hangover of his life, he was completely naked, and there was an equally naked dark haired man curled up beside him.

Uncuffed by SimplyTsundere

Status: Completed

Words: 3,284

Chapters: 1/1

Rating: Explicit

Tags: Cop Eren, Top Eren Yeager, Mafia Bodyguard Levi, Bottom Levi, Car Sex, Shameless Smut, It’s a smut piece, Writing request, anon request, Writing Prompt #33 1000 Ways To Say I Love You, Bite me - If you insist, One-Shot

Police officer Eren Jaeger deals with a troublesome CI. When he’d saved his life months ago he’d have never imagined that they’d be in the front of his police car exchanging information and bodily fluids. There’s only one problem: the good officer is tired of their arrangement. He wants more from the mafia bodyguard but will he be allowed to have it?

An Assembly of Scavengers by OrangeJuiceHP

Status: Ongoing

Words: 33,364

Chapters: 10/?

Last Updated: 2017-04-23

Rating: Explicit

Tags: literally everyone will be mentioned at some point, Criminal AU, criminal Eren, criminal levi, club owner Eren, older Eren, College Student Levi, Top Eren, Bottom Levi (Shingeki no Kyojin), they’re all horrible people, tw: death, tw: murder, Mentions of Suicide, Modern AU

They’re both criminals, but Levi’s paying his way through college and trying to put food on the table. What’s Eren’s excuse?

Take My Life by Malum_Discordiae

Status: Ongoing

Words: 16,746

Chapters: 9/?

Last Updated: 2017-04-23

Tags: ereri, Bottom Levi (Shingeki no Kyojin), Top Eren Yeager, Bully Eren Yeager, Bullied Levi, Jock Eren Yeager, Alternate Universe - High School, Homophobia, Depression, Uke Levi (Shingeki no Kyojin), Seme Eren Yeager, Possessive Eren Yeager, Bully Jean Kirstein, Mikasa Ackerman & Levi Are Siblings, Friendly Armin, Anxiety Disorder, Levi plays piano, Crying Levi (Shingeki no Kyojin), Erwin’s a sweetheart, Cutting, Levi isn’t weak, only when it comes to Eren, Eren doesn’t know when to stop, Broken Friendship, Mikasa and Armin hate Eren for what he’s done to Levi, Mikasa’s a good person, Protective Mikasa Ackerman, protective Armin, So many tags, Harsh pranks, Humiliation, Eren Has Anger Issues, and a big ego, Eren sleeps around with girls, Virgin Levi (Shingeki no Kyojin), Eren’s got a hot bod, Levi’s short af, but his ass is damn fine, Good Parent Grisha, Alive Carla Yeager, Levi’s smart

Levi Ackerman, a senior in Sina High School, is constantly being harassed by a certain jock with two different colored eyes. Levi isn’t exactly a weak willed person, so why can’t he fight back?

Inconsistent by Dressed_In_Darkness

Status: Completed

Words: 17,582

Chapters: 1/1

Rating: Explicit

Tags: Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, Gay Sex, Public Blow Jobs, Anal Sex, Anal Fingering, Bottom Levi (Shingeki no Kyojin), Top Eren Yeager, Pointless, Read it for fun, Please no critiques, It’s old, omgI just finished reading it, It’s so embarrassing, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting

Eren becomes infatuated with Levi from the moment he lays eyes on him at a club. Since then, he tries everything within his power to get the man’s attention.

(please read beginning notes before reading)