#Transfem Jun Wheeler

[barclaysangel]

The Juniper Berry (transfem Juniper Wheeler AU)

It’s been 9 months since I’ve started this oneshot and congratulations to me and everyone else, it’s a girl! The sequel to The Birth of Jun is here! I seriously adore transfem Junior AU and here, we get to finally see Jun get the name Juniper! This took ages because I’ve been losing motivation to write and been so busy with grad school and volunteering, but I finally did it and I hope you guys like it. So PLEASE comment and let me know what y’all think because I thrive off of validation!

Thank you and enjoy :)

Tags: @fairchilds-glasses @the-carlos-cow-eyes @morganandtheemorgana @nicascurls @streets-in-paradise

Word count: 3.2K

Jun didn’t expect Andy to be this okay with this. 

Sure, he accepted her for the time being. But she still expected him to think about it and then change his mind, throwing her away. 

But for some reason, Andy didn’t. 

He still called her by the name she chose, Jun. He made sure to refer to her as a girl. He even bought her more feminine clothes the next time he went on a supply run. 

It was sweet, Jun supposed. She wasn’t used to this much support and kept expecting for something to go wrong or for Andy to change his mind and start treating her differently. 

But he never did. 

He still hugged her when she wanted to be hugged, made Jun her meals and coffee, and read to her every single night. Andy even complimented her when she tried on the new outfits he bought her and she began growing her hair out, now almost touching her shoulders and helping her feel just a little more like a girl. Not to mention all the times he reassured her when she was feeling dysphoric, that she was still a girl to him no matter what. 

It was like nothing had changed at all. 

“You’re really okay with this?” Jun asked Andy once, still finding it hard to believe because it all felt too good to be true. 

Andy blinked once, then twice, looking almost confused. “Okay with what?” 

“With me being…you know…” even though she was out to him now, it still felt frightening to admit out loud that she was a girl after hiding it for so long, her entire life. 

He merely smiled gently at her and reached out to brush a strand of hair away from her face, behind her ear. “You’re still the same kid I promised to take care of the moment I found you. Nothing’s changed that. I’ll always accept you, okay?” 

“My father never would’ve accepted me.” Jun said without thinking and almost immediately regretted it when she noticed Andy’s jaw tightened. “I-I’m sorry…”

“No, kiddo, sweet girl, no, I’m not mad at you,” Andy was quick to clarify and relaxed himself just enough to send Jun an encouraging smile, “I’m mad at your piece of shit dad who tried to live vicariously through you without bothering to think about your wants and needs. Not you, I promise.” 

Jun smiled a little, feeling reassured. She almost wanted to deny just how bad it was with her father, but knew that it was no use to try and fool Andy. He knew her like the back of his hand, better than anyone else ever had. 

It was like Andy genuinely cared about Jun, and there was nothing she could do to change that. She wanted to believe it, but it was hard at times. 

But when a few months passed, spring coming and going, and summer almost at its end, everything was still the same. Jun’s hair was longer, Andy still treated her as if she was his daughter and nothing changed. 

Jun really was starting to feel happy. 

Of course, there were bad days. Days where her mind was at its darkest, her body still not feeling right, too flat, so curveless, not to mention her voice and how it still felt too deep. She knew hormone therapy could help with that, to leave her feeling more like a girl than a boy, but that would mean leaving Andy, since he wasn’t ready to leave his self-imposed exile. It was an offer he gave her, on numerous occasions too, but Jun turned it down each and every time. 

She couldn’t just leave him and go back to the life she had before. One where she was so unhappy and struggling mentally. Yes, her former friends and cousin believed that she was dead, but it was for the best. One day, they’d forget all about her, that is if they didn’t forget about her already. 

It’s best to let Junior Wheeler die forever so Jun can keep on thriving in her safe haven in the middle of the woods with Andy. 

“Wanna go explore?” Andy asked her on the first day of September, just a few weeks before Jun’s 15th birthday. She knew what he was trying to do, distract her from her dysphoric and spiraling thoughts by exploring the woods they had been living in for nearly a year now, a usually effective tactic. 

But sometimes, she just wanted to stay in bed anyway and not move unless she absolutely had to, just as she was doing now. 

“I don’t think so, Andy…” She muttered, her voice softer, lighter, trying to train herself to sound just a little bit more feminine. 

“I’ll bring some coffee with us.” He added into his offer. 

Jun looked at him and raised an eyebrow. “Are you bribing me with the nectar of the gods?” She asked him, both of them knowing just how much she loved her coffee. 

Andy shrugged his shoulders casually, a small yet sly smile on his face. “Depends. Is it working?” 

She snorted under her breath and rolled her eyes, shrugging as well. “Maybe. Maybe not. Who knows.”

He chuckled lightly and nudged her shoulder with his finger. “C’mon, baby girl. You’ve been holed up in this room and you need some fresh air. Clear your mind. We might find something new out here, like new flowers or plants. Wouldn’t that be nice?” 

Andy really knew what he was doing. Jun was a wiz at identifying plants and flowers, a skill she picked up during her time at Eagle Scouts. 

Finally, she sighed and smiled a tiny bit. “Okay, fine. We’ll go exploring. But…do you think you can braid my hair a little before we go?” 

He smiled more at her and nodded. “Of course I can. Sit up, kiddo.” 

Andy had begun learning how to braid Jun’s hair once her hair started to get long enough. It was a work in progress for a while, teaching himself how to properly braid her hair without leaving the braids too loose or tugging her hair too much. 

But by now, Andy had gotten pretty good at it. Jun moved to sit down on the floor so Andy could braid her hair better since she was still a couple inches taller than him. Some of the tension that Jun was still feeling began to fade away with Andy’s fingers running through her hair, being as gentle as he could as he made a braid down the middle of her hair. 

Jun would’ve fallen asleep from having her hair touched and played with all on its own. 

“Alright, Junbug, all done.” She was pulled out of her almost dream-like state when Andy spoke, patting her on the shoulder. 

“Really? You’re getting faster at this.” Jun said, touching the top of her hair gently and smiled when she felt the braid that Andy made. 

“Practice makes perfect,” He replied with a chuckle before pressing a quick kiss to the side of her head, “c’mon, let’s get going.”

The woods were changing through the seasons, slowly entering autumn. The leaves were beginning to fall and it was something Jun enjoyed seeing, the leaves crunching underneath her combat boots with each step she took during her and Andy’s exploration. She knew the weather would be changing soon too, something else she couldn’t wait for. Jun wasn’t fond of the hot weather, it left her feeling more dysphoric because she couldn’t hide her body. But with the winds picking up, it left her being able to cover herself once again. 

But Jun did like the clothes Andy picked out for her, always making sure that they matched the styles she liked. Even now on their little trip, she wore ripped blue jeans, one of Andy’s red flannels that she had declared was hers, and a black shirt that said ‘Girls Rock’. 

It was corny as hell but it amused Jun too, so she would wear it every now and then. 

“What do you want for your birthday?” Andy asked suddenly after a few minutes of silence while they were both trudging through the woods. 

“Chucky’s head on a silver platter.” Jun replied without any hesitation. 

“Well, of course, that’s a given. But really, what else?” 

“Chucky’s blood poured into a golden chalice.” 

“Jun,” Andy said in a slightly more exasperated tone, making her giggle at his reaction, “come on, I’m being serious.” 

“So am I, and I’d also love some emotional and mental stability too. You think you could find that at a store next time you go on a supply run?” Jun asked with a big smirk and was met with Andy’s deadpan stare. 

“You’re giving me a headache,” he grumbled, “Junbug, c’mon. Work with me here. What do you want?” 

“Nothing.” Jun answered quickly, picking up a daisy that she found and handing it to Andy. “I have everything that I need here. I don’t need materialistic shit. You’ve given me everything that I’ve needed so I’m happy with everything I’ve got.” 

Andy’s frown shifted into a smile, taking the daisy from Jun and carefully placing it in the chest pocket of his own flannel. “Thank you. But I’m still getting you something for your birthday, I’m not budging on that. Everyone deserves something on their birthday, including you, Jun.”  

Jun snorted under her breath and started walking again, shrugging her shoulders. “Fine, whatever, surprise me then. But don’t surprise me too much, I’m not a big fan of surprises.” 

“Neither am I.” Andy replied and patted the top of her head, making Jun half-heartedly swat his hand away in order to protect the braid she was proudly wearing before they both laughed softly. 

Silence fell upon them again, but it was a comforting silence, one that Jun often longed for. Andy was right, she needed to be outside. The fresh breeze, the sounds of birds chirping, it all helped ease her self-loathing and destructive thoughts. 

But, of course, Jun wouldn’t admit that to Andy. No need to inflate his ego that he had been right, even though it’s not like he had much of an ego to begin with. 

If anyone’s self-esteem was as low as hers, it would be Andy’s. 

“What about Daisy?” Andy asked out of nowhere, pulling Jun out of her thoughts. 

“Daisy? Daisy for what?” She asked him, reaching to pick out a few more different flowers, considering making a flower crown for herself. Maybe for Andy as well, she knows that he would wear it even if he didn’t like it. 

“Your name.” He told her. 

“Nah. Sounds too dainty and innocent.” Jun replied, scrunching her nose a little as she put the flowers into her bag. 

This wasn’t the first time that she and Andy have talked about her ideas for her new name. They’ve been bouncing off new names to each other for the last couple of months, each one getting rejected for one reason or another. Jun knew that she was picky but they were both realizing that she actually was very picky. 

It’s not her fault though, she just happened to have very specific tastes. 

“Dainty and innocent? Seriously?” Andy asked with his eyebrow raised, looking somehow both serious and amused. 

“Yeah, it is. But it’s better than some of the stripper names you came up with before.” Jun retorted, giggling under her breath. 

“Okay, they were not that much of stripper names. At least I didn’t suggest names like Star or Diamond or Chastity. Now those are some stripper names!” Andy threw back. 

“Thank fuck you didn’t or I would’ve forbid you for coming up with names for me right then and there.” Jun laughed louder, rolling her eyes as she continued walking once she carefully placed a few more flowers in her bag. 

“Really? Cause I was thinking that you should definitely consider Star.” Jun didn’t even need to turn around to know that there was a playful smirk on Andy’s face. 

“Oh go fuck yourself.” She said instead, making Andy laugh as she rolled her eyes once again. 

Jun had to admit, she happened to find it really sweet whenever Andy threw out name options for her. He was invested and wanted to help Jun take one more step into feeling more like her true self. It’s something that she knows her father–no, Logan, just Logan–would never have done for her. He would have rathered for her to continue suffering and be the perfect traditional male son for the rest of her life. 

It made Jun glad that she killed him so she would never have to hear Logan’s vitriol words once he found out that she wanted to transition into a girl. 

“Berries!” Jun suddenly blurted out before quickly going over to one of the bushes that she saw, picking one of the berries from the branches. 

“Woah, easy there, Jun, you don’t know if those are poisonous.” Andy said as he made his way over to her, already looking cautious. 

All she did was smirk and then plopped the berry into her mouth. 

“Jun!” He exclaimed, eyes wide with worry or concern. “Spit it out! Now!” 

“Chill out, old man, you’re getting more grey hair the more you yell.” Jun said while rolling her eyes, still chewing before swallowing. 

“You’re the reason I’m getting grey hair, you little shit!” 

She snorted loudly. “Relax, will ya? I know my plants, remember? It’s just a berry from the juniper bush. The berries aren’t poisonous and neither are the plants.” 

Andy sighed loudly and ran a hand through his hair. “You give me heart palpitations.” 

“You’ll survive.” Jun replied while shrugging her shoulders, opening her bag up. “We could make some jam with the berries.” She suddenly gasped. “Or wine. Can I have some wine?” 

“No.” Andy said without any hesitation, making Jun pout. 

“You’re no fun.” She grumbled before picking a few more berries, putting them into her bag, then she handed one to Andy. “Wanna try?” 

Andy eyes her suspiciously for a moment. “You sure it’s not poisonous?”

“Absolutely positive,” Andy still hesitated and Jun rolled her eyes again, “oh my gods, you’re no use to me dead, Andy. Seriously. I’d be so bored without you. Who else is going to read to me and pick out cute clothes for me?” 

“Glad to know I’m useful to you in that way.” Andy grumbled but there was a slightly amused smile on his lips before he took the berry, twisting it around his fingers for a few seconds before putting it in his mouth. “...it’s kind of bittersweet.” 

Jun nodded in agreement. “Mhm, kind of citrusy too.” 

“It would probably taste better as a gin than jam or wine.” 

“Can I have gin then instead?” She offered up an enthusiastic grin. 

“No.”

Jun huffed. “That’s so not fair.” 

“It’s completely fair. You’re a minor.” Andy retorted. 

“So? I’ve drank at parties before!” 

He sighed loudly, sounding exhausted. “How about we just turn the berries into a marinade for some of the meat we hunt for instead? Okay?”

Jun sighed as if it was an annoyance for her. “Fine. But if you do turn this into a gin, I want to try it.” 

“You will not try it and that’s final.” 

“Ugh! Gods, you’re the worst!” Jun complained loudly, even throwing her head back dramatically—which earned a chuckle from Andy—before going back to picking berries and dropping them into her bag. 

Of course, they both knew that Jun didn’t mean it. Andy was far from the worst person. He was kind, supportive, understanding, comforting, and even funny at times when he wasn’t being snarky or sarcastic. 

Jun truly wished that Andy had been her real dad and not Logan. 

But it’s something that she wasn’t ready to admit to to him, not wanting to risk freaking Andy out. 

Maybe one day she will, but that day just wasn’t today. 

“What are these berries called again?” Andy asked for a moment, pulling Jun out of her thoughts. 

“Juniper.” She replied without another threat, pausing when she heard him snort under his breath. “What? What’s so funny?” 

“It’s nothing, it’s just…” Andy chuckled again, shaking his head slightly, “it’s close to your name, that’s all. Jun. Juniper. It’s practically the same.” 

Jun didn’t say anything for a few seconds, humming a little in thought. “Huh…it does sound similar…” they wondered out loud before holding their hand out, “gimme my coffee please.” 

“You and your coffee…” Andy mumbled while shaking his head again with an amused smile on his face, “you’re too addicted to this shit.” 

“Yes, but it’s my happy juice, so I don’t really care.” She replied and held her hand out, making grabby motions before Andy handed her the thermos with her hot coffee inside, quickly drinking from it. 

“Whatever. Let’s go back to the cabin, shall we?” Andy offered and Jun agreed, the both of them walking side by side together. 

She was humming a tune absentmindedly, feeling content in the moment. She had flowers and berries in her bag, her coffee in hand. Life was fairly good right about now. 

Then the name came back into mind. Juniper. It was a pretty name, she would admit that. And the fact that it was so similar to Jun was almost perfect. 

She really liked it. 

And in that moment, she realized that this could be her way of taking her name back. 

No longer Logan the second or Junior. 

But something else that felt like her.

“I…I really like that name…Juniper…” she started to say, feeling almost bashful and shy to admit it. “I want…I want that to be my name…I want to be Juniper…”

Andy looked at her and smiled so sweetly, reaching out to touch affectionately the braid he made for her. “I think that name fits you so perfectly, Juniper.”

Fuck, she had never heard a more wonderful name in her life. 

Juniper. 

That’s all she wanted to be. 

But maybe, she would really like to be Juniper Barclay. 

Juniper was practically beaming, a warmth filling the chest. “Thank you…” 

“Don’t thank me, kid, it’s your name. You’re the one who discovered it through plants and berries.” Andy chuckled and gently nudged her shoulder with the back of his hand, which she quickly returned. 

“Still, it’s just…thank you…for…you know…always being so supportive of me. And being so understanding…” 

He placed his hand on Juniper’s shoulder, his eyes soft yet serious. “Hey, I’ve always meant what I said. I just want you to be happy. And it makes me happy that you’re getting to a place where you feel comfortable. You’re my kid, Juniper, and that’s all that matters to me.” 

Once again, it felt like Juniper was soaring. She wasn’t sure if Andy truly understood the meaning of that, that he saw her as his daughter. But she wouldn’t mind pretending that she did, just for a little bit. 

“Wanna race back?” Juniper decided to say instead, a goofy grin on her face. 

Andy rolled his eyes. “Absolutely not. Can’t we just walk in peace like a couple of semi-normal people?” 

She pretended to think about it before nodding, still smiling at him. “Hm? I guess that will have to do.” 

And that’s what they did. They walked side by side, laughing, making jokes, and Juniper had never been happier. 

[barclaysangel]

The only reason Rachel didn’t end up in jail was because Juniper had to basically drag her out while Rachel kept yelling at the transphobic person and swearing at them like a sailor. Juniper was more worried on Rachel getting arrested AGAIN and kept insisting that she didn’t need to fight for her, but Rachel strongly disagrees. Besides, it would’ve been worth it to go to jail for her kid. 🤣

To help you during this grieving time, have a Transfem Juniper living with Rachel AU

Rachel is absolutely so supportive in whatever Juniper needs. She wants to buy more clothes to try out different styles? Rachel will buy it. More makeup to feel less dysphoric? Rachel will buy it. But not only is she supportive, she’s protective as all hell. At a store, someone made a transphobic comment to Juniper. Safe to say, Rachel almost went to jail that day.

Rachel is literally the most supportive parent out there, anything Juniper wants she’ll get without hesitation and of course she’s extremely protective. When someone made a transphobic comment at Juniper Rachel didn’t hesitate, she wasn’t even thinking about the consequences of her actions she was just thinking about protecting Juniper, luckily she didn’t end up in jail but 3rd times the charm right? 😂

[the-carlos-cow-eyes]

Transfem Juniper Wheeler AU (I’ve actually wrote this and shared it with my friend Lucy 4 months ago, now it shall be shared with you and the world. Also based on the Final Family/season 2 rewrite AU where Juniper lived with Andy in the middle of the woods during the events of season 2 until they get to Lord Incarnate with Lexy and Devon to get Jake out)

The first person Juniper told was Andy during their time alone together in the woods. She managed to keep everything inside for several months but suddenly began struggling with it and tried to isolate herself. Andy, thinking that she was depressed over her mother’s death, tried to talk to her but she kept trying to shut him out. When Andy continued gently pushing, Juniper snapped and everything exploded out of her. She screamed about how she wished she was a boy but she wasn’t and how much it’s been killing her. Almost 15 years of hiding everything spilled out of her and she began hyperventilating and about to spiral into a panic attack when she realized what she had done. But Andy just held her, reassuring Juniper that he wasn’t upset at all, that all he cared about in the world was her being happy. And if being a boy wasn’t making her happy, then she could be whatever she wanted. She struggled through her tears to tell him that she was a girl but Andy was more than fine with it and asked Juniper what she would like to be called instead of Junior. She didn’t have a name set yet, so she began going by “Jun”. After that, whenever Andy had to go on a shopping run, he made sure to buy her more feminine clothes and let Juniper grow out her hair. He sees how happy it makes her to finally be herself, so he’s more than okay with spending all his money on Juniper. 

Aweeeee!! This Is so cute!! We love supportive Andy In this household😌🫶

[barclaysangel]

Y'all remember my transfem Juniper oneshot?

So fun fact: I started writing a sequel where Jun gets her name, Juniper, from...back in June. June 20th to be exact. But my ass got busy and I lost motivation so I haven't touched it...

Until recently.

I'm back to writing it and almost done. It MIGHT be done over the weekend or early next week. I'm not fully sure yet. We'll see depending on my time to write and my motivation.

Sooooo...who wants to be tagged when the oneshot drops? :)

[barclaysangel]

The Birth of Jun (transfem Juniper Wheeler AU)

I literally wrote this within about 5 hours, which is crazy. I lost sleep just to finish this to make sure it’ll be posted by morning. I’m still nervous to post it since this is my first time writing for this AU and I just hope y’all like it. If you guys do, then MAYBE I’ll write a second part where Jun gets the name Juniper. Maybe.

Anyway, this is setting in the Final Family/Chucky season 2 rewrite AU where Jun survives and lives with Andy in the middle of the woods, torturing and killing Chuckys together. Because canon does not exist to me, obviously. I’ve written drabbles/oneshots about this AU before and this is just another one but with transfem Juniper.

If you guys really do like this, pls leave comments, it insanely fuels my motivation! I thrive off it and I’ll also appreciate some feedback since this is my first time writing a trans character.

Thank you and enjoy :)

Tags: @the-carlos-cow-eyes @erasedmystic111 @streets-in-paradise

Word count: 2.5K

Warnings: Internalized transphobia, mentions of suicidal ideation, cursing

There was something wrong with Junior. 

That much she had always known, ever since she could remember. She wanted to be a princess, not a prince. A mermaid, not a merman. She wanted to be something that she could never be. 

But Junior hid it for so long, and she hid it well. She buried that part of herself so deep down that no one would ever suspect it growing up. She became the perfect “masculine, traditional son” that her father wanted. She destroyed every single part of herself and burnt it all to the ground just to please him. 

And even though she killed her own father, she still would have done it all over again. 

Gods, she was pathetic. Pathetic and stupid and dirty and broken. 

Despite Junior’s efforts to hide her dirty little secret from the world, she still had moments where it would bubble and come up again. The dysphoria with her short hair, flat chest, and other features that just didn’t feel right. It would be bad enough at times where she wanted to curl into a ball and cry all the fucking time. 

But she would have no choice but to pull herself together and keep up the act, just like she always did. 

However, this moment wasn’t like the other moments with her father. It wasn’t him she had to worry about, but Andy. 

Andy wasn’t like her father at all. He was patient, understanding, and kind. Her father would be ashamed if Junior ever cried in front of him and tell him to “Stop being a pussy and pull yourself together, you’re a man!”, but Andy would hold her in his arms and comfort her. He had been there through every mental breakdown, depressive episodes, nightmares, moments of self-destructive tendencies, all of it. 

Andy stayed right by her side and never budged despite how much Junior tried to push him away. She pushed and pushed and pushed but he never stayed away through it all. 

Junior wasn’t used to that. When she pushed people away and burned bridges to the ground, it stayed that way. Just look at her relationship with Jake. But Andy refused to be pushed away and has made it very clear to her that he wasn’t planning to go anywhere. 

Yet that still didn’t reassure her for some reason. It still filled her with so much fear if Andy ever looked too hard and realized just how broken and defective she really was. 

So once again, Junior hid it. She hid her secret under lock and key and made sure to keep her masculine act on display. 

But then the dysphoric moment hit hard, harder than before, and she wanted to die. 

Junior didn’t want to leave her cot. Her appetite was long gone. She just tried to bury herself deep into her blankets and hoped that one of the Chuckys she and Andy had been torturing could escape and stab her to death, finally finishing his job that he failed to do months ago. 

Andy had been no stranger to her being depressed. They had been staying at that small cabin for almost 5 months, it was now the beginning of April. Sometimes he would give Junior some space if she truly needed it but most of the time, he would be there to offer her food and water and just an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on. He hardly left her alone when she got like this. 

She didn’t blame him. Andy was probably worried that she would take one of his guns and end it all. 

Not like that idea wasn’t tempting. 

But right now, Junior wanted to be alone. She wanted to forget that the weather was getting warmer, which would make her have to ditch the hoodies and reveal the parts of herself that she hated. She just couldn’t bear to go through this, she would much rather hide away for hours or even days. Just as long as she would feel just slightly normal again. 

However, she never really was that lucky. 

“Junior?” She heard after the three light knocks, shuddering deeply and tearing up from the sound of her own name, like something about it was just wrong. “Can I come in?”

Curse Andy for respecting her privacy and boundaries. Logan would just barge in without a warning. Despite everything she was feeling, she still managed a small “Uh huh…” to placate him since she knew he would just be more worried if she refused. 

Andy opened the door slowly and she could smell why. Even without moving from her position under the blankets, she could smell the food that Andy was bringing in. When he stood beside her cot, Junior lowered the blankets enough to see the plate of scrambled eggs and toast in one hand and a cup of coffee in the other. Normally that would make her mouth water but this time, it made her stomach churn. 

“I know you may not feel like eating right now, but I can’t let you go the whole day without something in your system. Can you try to eat something please?” Andy spoke gently to her, placing the plate and the mug on the floor beside the cot. 

Junior merely shook her head slightly. “I’ll eat later. ‘M not hungry.” She mumbled before putting the pillow from under her head now on top of her face. 

Andy sighed quietly but instead of leaving, he sat down on the edge of the cot. “Kid, I can’t let you starve. I’m not asking you to finish off the plate, but just have a few bites with your coffee. Please?” 

She didn’t say anything this time, her silence was enough of an answer. 

“Junior, c’mon,” She shivered and squeezed her eyes shut when Andy said her name again, “I know you’re not in the mood but you’re gonna just make yourself feel worse. Remember what happened a few weeks ago?” 

She wished she couldn’t. Going nearly the entire day without eating only to almost binge afterwards, resulting in her throwing her guts up. But Andy was with her the whole time, rubbing her back and keeping an arm around her so she would stay supported rather than to fall face first into her own vomit from exhaustion along with cleaning her up afterwards once she was finished hurling and crying. 

No matter what, Andy stayed with her through everything. 

Imagine if he found out you thought you were a girl, Junior thought bitterly to herself, He’d despise you and leave you then without a doubt. 

She stiffened briefly when she felt a hand on her ankle from over the blankets before recognizing Andy’s touch, relaxing just slightly. “Do you wanna talk about it?” 

Junior quickly shook her head from under the pillow. She couldn’t, she absolutely couldn’t. For the first time, she didn’t want to ruin something good. She already felt like she was one wrong move from spilling it all. 

She just needed to keep her mouth shut and hold it all in. She could do it, she’s been doing it her entire life. She can keep going. 

Andy gave her a gentle and reassuring squeeze to her ankle. “Okay. I just want you to know that I’m here if you do want to talk. I don’t need to talk, I can just listen to as much as you need me to. Alright, Junior?” 

Junior winced and wasn’t able to swallow down the whimper this time, which immediately got Andy’s attention. 

“Hey, kiddo, what’s wrong?” She couldn’t see his face but she knew that he would be wearing that concerned frown, the one where he genuinely acted worried for her. 

Junior shook her head again, keeping her eyes closed because she knew she would break down and cry. Andy needed to leave now before she would completely lose her mind. 

The hand on her ankle moved to her back, rubbing small circles there to comfort her. “Junior?” 

“Stop…” 

Andy paused from his motions. “What?” 

“Stop…calling me that!” Junior didn’t know why but it was like something shattered inside of her, like the dam in her finally broke. 

She ripped the pillow off of her head and bolted upright, the suddenness making Andy back up slightly. “I have tried so fucking hard to be Junior! To be the perfect son Junior. The cross-country star Junior. The strong and masculine Junior. I have ripped myself to shreds and molded myself to be what everyone else wanted me to be! But for what? It’s not fucking worth it because I’m not! I’m not Junior! I’m not a boy! I’ve tried so fucking hard but I’m not, I just keep trying and trying but nothing fucking works anymore! I’m so sorry but that isn’t me, this fucking isn’t me! I’m too broken and fucked up to be Junior and to be a fucking boy!” 

Junior didn’t realize she was screaming until she finally stopped, her voice hoarse. And no one said a word. Andy stared at her with wide eyes and an unreadable expression as reality slowly settled in. 

Oh fuck…what did I just do?

She started shaking, her breathing picked up and she hid her face in her hands, sobbing. “I-I’m sorry, I d-didn’t mean it, I was l-lying, I-I-I…” for some reason, now she couldn’t even get the words out after everything from how hard she was hyperventilating. 

Congratulations, you fucking idiot. You really did it now. You ruined it. Now Andy will think you’re disgusting. He’ll hate you. He’ll throw you out and finally leave you alone, just like you deserve, you pathetic piece of sh–

Andy’s hands went around Junior’s body, pulling her closer to him carefully until her cheek was pressed to the crook of his neck, one hand now rubbing her back up and down soothingly. “Hey, hey, it’s okay, breathe. Take some deep breaths, kiddo. Just follow my breathing, okay? Breathe…” 

She was shaking through her sobs, her hands clinging onto Andy’s shirt tightly in her fists. His other hand went up to cradle the back of her head so softly as if she was something gentle and precious to him. Junior could hardly breathe but Andy kept guiding her, speaking to her kindly until she was able to finally pull in deep breaths with his help. 

They barely spoke, with Junior crying and Andy whispering reassurances to her. When she started to calm down, she didn’t move, she felt too mortified. It felt like one wrong move, and Andy would finally turn her away. 

“Kiddo?” He finally spoke, “Do you remember what I’ve always told you? About what I want for you?” 

Junior sniffled, still crying but not nearly as badly while holding onto Andy’s shirt still for dear life. “For…for me t-to be a kid…” 

“Yeah, that too. But what else?” 

She thought about it longer this time, hesitating. “…that you-you want me to be h-happy…” 

Andy moved away just slightly, making her whimper again but instead he adjusted himself to fully face Junior and hold her face in his hands. “Exactly. I care about you, kid. I’ve had since the moment you basically passed out on my doorstep. All I want is for you to be happy. And if being a boy doesn’t make you happy…then stop trying. Stop putting yourself through that pain, okay? Just…just be yourself.” 

He was looking at her so seriously yet so gently, as if all that mattered in that moment was her. Unshed tears began building up again in her eyes and Andy continued speaking. “I mean it. I will never judge you for who you are. I’m here and I’m not going anywhere just because you aren’t a boy. I swear on the River Styx.” 

That oath meant more to Junior than any other sort of promise. It was an oath from Percy Jackson, and really any kind of Greek mythology. They both knew how serious that oath was. And for that reason, it was what gave her the push that she needed to finally come out. 

“Andy…I…I’m a girl…” her voice was tiny but it was still enough for Andy to hear, starting to cry again but he pulled her back into a hug. 

“It’s okay, I’ve got you…” He reassured her and pressed a kiss to the top of her head, “I’m so fucking proud of you, kiddo. I promise I am. I know this wasn’t easy for you, I can’t even begin to imagine how long you’ve felt like this but never said anything. So thank you for telling me. I’m proud of you.” 

Junior cried a little harder at that, still not entirely used to having someone tell her that they were proud of her. But this time, the tears were more of relief and she just completely leaned against him. 

Never in her life did she ever think she’d actually come out and tell someone this secret. She just thought she had to fight the feeling down further and further until it disappeared or it just ended up killing her. 

But no. She lost it and everything spilled out. But…it didn’t end up badly like she thought it would. 

Andy accepted her. He accepted her without another thought. Strong and tough and badass Andy accepted her and told her that he was proud of her for coming out. 

This felt almost like a dream, something too good to be true for Junior. 

“So…I suppose you don’t want to be called by that name anymore, right?” Andy asked and she nodded in response, gripping onto his shirt again. “Okay. Is there…another name I can call you? It doesn’t need to be your permanent name, it could be like a…placeholder. Just something temporary until you can figure out a name that makes you feel like you.” 

She didn’t say anything for a moment, thinking long and hard before settling on something simple. “Maybe just…Jun. For now. Jun. Without an E at the end.” 

Andy nodded and lightly leaned his cheek to her head. “Jun without an E at the end, got it.” 

Jun could practically hear the smile on Andy’s face and lazily hit his side with the back of her hand. “You’re a dork…” 

“Yeah, yeah I am. But so are you, so…” Andy poked Jun’s side, making her giggle before she yawned, her dysphoric episode and breakdown now tuckering her out. 

“You tired, kiddo?” He asked and she yawned again while nodding, not moving from her position. 

“Can I just…stay here? For a bit? Please?” Jun asked quietly and almost immediately, his hand went up to her hair and stroked her hair softly, causing her to close her eyes. 

“Sure you can. And I’ll stay right here with you too. But as soon as you wake up and get hydrated, you need to eat, okay?” Andy told her, accepting his fate to have Jun fall asleep on his shoulder. 

She nodded, yawning once more as a sense of pure peace and bliss filled her. She knew she was safe now. Nothing would happen to her. 

“Thank you Andy…” Jun murmured under her breath. 

Just before she could drift off, she felt Andy kiss her forehead, one hand playing with her hair and the other being secured around her body. “Anytime. Goodnight, Jun.” 

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Had a dream about transfem Junior

I don’t really remember the dream but that was just the main highlight of what I remembered when I woke up. Like, Jun coming out to Chucky during season 1 episode 7, you know when the whole manipulation thing was happening for Chucky to get Jun to kill Logan. But Chucky accepted her or something. It was just a tiny snippet but the only memorable part of my dream.

Is this a sign to write transfem Juniper?

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Ok so I’m writing a oneshot where transfem Junior comes out to Andy in the Final Family/Season 2 Rewrite AU

I’m already at 1.6K words and have been working on it for about 4 hours. I’m gonna do my best to finish it tonight so I can post it tomorrow morning. I’m nervous but also excited but mostly nervous since this is my first time writing a trans character but I do love this AU.

I have shared this oneshot idea before with @streets-in-paradise and @the-carlos-cow-eyes but now I’m actually fully writing it out.

Sooooo…would anyone like to be tagged in it? Feel free to comment now and I’ll make sure to tag you :)

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Y’all remember the transfem Juniper Wheeler AU?

Ok so I kept searching and searching and searching for a proper fc for Juniper that actually looks like Teo and is Filipina. Couldn’t find anything…

…then my dumbass remembered that Teo has an older sister, Isa. I could’ve been using Isa Briones this entire time.

Like, the similarities are insane (photo credit to @the-carlos-cow-eyes )!

So this is an official post saying that Isa is Juniper’s fc for this AU :)

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TRANSFEM JUNIPER WHEELER COMMUNITY GROUP IS UP!

Surprise! I made a Juniper fan community! Juniper is one of my favorite AUs of Junior and I just really wanted to make something dedicated to her, so here it is! Please join, have fun, and feel free to share this community around! :D

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Transfem Juniper and Jake headcanon

Jake used to suspect that Juniper wasn’t a boy.

Whenever they’d play pretend when they were kids, Juniper would insist on being the princess and Jake the prince, or want to play “mermaids” but Juniper would never say “mermen” since they were both boys. But Logan often chastised and scolded Juniper for trying to act more feminine and she slowly stopped until she became the “traditional masculine son” that Logan wanted.

Then their friendship ended and Jake basically forgot about it until the cousins reunited.

He saw how uncomfortable Juniper was in the boys uniform she was forced to wear at the catholic school, how she stiffened and flinched every time someone called her “sir” or “young man”, especially if it was from Father Bryce. He even noticed Juniper staring at Lexy and Nadine’s skirts from their girls uniforms with a strange look, almost like she wanted to have it.

Jake strongly believed then that Juniper wasn’t cisgender but still didn’t know how to talk to her since they were just barely making amends and rebuilding their friendship. The most he could do at the time was just to silently be there for her until Juniper was finally ready to tell him.

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Transfem Junior (Jun) dressed up as Poison Ivy and Lexy dressed up as Harley Quinn for Halloween

That’s it. That’s the post. Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

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No thoughts, head empty, just thinking about Lexy letting transfem Junior (Juniper) wear her clothes. Lexy gives her a bunch of skirts and dresses and crop tops for her to wear and Juniper loves them, especially when Lexy begins complimenting Juniper and calling her “pretty girl”. 

That’s it. 

That’s the post. 

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Juniper Wheeler artbreeder

I did my very best to make her look like Juniper. Hopefully y'all see it. May use this as a profile pic if/when I make my Juniper secondary rp blog

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“1 ticket to Barbie please”

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Upcoming fics I’ll be writing/dropping soon, in order

Part 2 of Guardian Doll (original character that’s low key based on me when I was younger and Tiffany Valentine)

Oneshot of Andy Barclay x self-insert OC (character will have my dream job so I’m kinda excited to have that play out and hope one day I will get that job)

Part 2 of transfem Juniper Wheeler and Andy Barclay (final family AU, this one is how Juniper gets her new name)

Part 2 of the Little Junior Wheeler AU (basically how the new family dynamic plays out and exploring more of that)

Oneshot of young Tiffany Valentine x self-insert OC based on the song “Prom Queen” by Mad Tsai (will have the same name as the one for Andy’s oneshot)

A human girl and a murderous mermaid/siren falling in love oneshot/short story based on the song “Milk of the Sirens” by Melanie Martinez (original characters, a story I started writing last summer but never got around to finishing because I ran out of ideas)

A mostly original healthy sapphic Chiffany oneshot/short story based on the song “Lilith” by Halsey (original characters, one will be based on the girl playing Lexy with the chainsaw at Halloween Horror Nights in the Chucky haunted house…please ask me about her and I’ll ramble about how I fell in love despite only seeing her for less than 30 seconds)

This will probably take months, especially for the last 3 stories. But this is what I plan on writing, hopefully it will actually happen. I'm actually nervous about the last 2 stories, I've never posted an original character story on here before, but I think I will this time.

Sooooo...let me know if y'all want to be tagged for any of these stories, especially the last 2. It'd be greatly appreciated :)

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Caroline: Do you or do you not feel Bonita?

Junior: *face covered in messy makeup and realizing some things about himself* …I feel Bonita. 

Caroline: Wonderful, because you look Bonita! :D