#Too Far Gone
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I didn’t pick a prompt but had an idea for Auston with one of his daughters? I can use something cute/ fluffy and want to see him being a girl dad😍
Daddy's Girl - A Too Far Gone One-Shot
A/N: This is very delayed, and I'm sorry about that. This is a bonus chapter set in the future, after the timeline of TFG. It can be read as a stand-alone piece.
Warnings: None - just pure fluff, maybe some minor spoilers if you haven't been following the asks?
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Word Count: 2,700
Auston loves coming home from road trips. He always has. Years ago, in the start of his career, leaving wasn’t so bad because there was nothing waiting in Toronto except a cold and empty condo. The most he missed was his own bed, some of the restaurants he’d grown to love.
Now he doesn’t care about the bed but who is waiting for him in it. It is not the food being served, but the smiling faces that surround the table. So, when the plane landed at 1pm and Auston knew the house was going to be empty for a few hours, he did what any logical person would do. He dropped his bag at the door, loaded Felix into the back of his car, and set out to spring his children from school.
Only, he couldn’t break all his kids out. Taylour had a math test and Tia would scold Auston if he made him miss that (even though Taylour would appreciate it), and this would be a real scolding not the fun kind he spent days missing. Maddie was having a class party, and even though she was a huge Daddy's girl there was a small possibility she would want to stay in class and Auston didn’t want to subject himself to that kind of disappointment. Even worse, if she said yes and left early, Auston knew she’d be disappointed come tomorrow when all her friends were talking about the party she missed. Benjamin was struggling to adjust to school and make friends, he had been all year. Auston knew that as much as he wanted to see his son, it was best for him to stay put. On top of that, he largely favours Tia, he often is reluctant to join in with Auston’s shenanigans, what if today was one of those days? That left Quinn, and even though she loved daycare, she was his partner in crime, always willing to do anything he suggested.
Auston put his car into park and left it running with the heat on low. He stepped out into the crisp Toronto air then muttered a curse word under his breath. He quickly shoved his hands into his pockets and tucked his ears into the collar of his coat.
He should have brought a beanie; Tia would have made him wear a beanie.
The snow crunched under his feet as he walked through the parking lot. Before he even reached the door he could hear the room kids – excitedly screaming, laughing. For a moment Auston felt guilty, pulling her from the fun solely because he didn’t want to spend a few hours alone, but her face lit up brighter than a Christmas tree when he stepped into the room, and it reassured him it was the right decision.
“Daddy!” She squealed. Excitedly, she jumped up and down a few times, her blue Cinderella dress (the one Tia spent three nights working on instead of sleeping because Quinn kept asking when it would be finished) sways side to side. The tiara atop her honey-blonde hair caught the light the moment she took off running for Auston.
“Hi Quinnie Bear.” Auston welcomed her, immediately wrapping his arms around her small body, and placing a kiss on her temple.
“I mith you Daddy!” She kissed him back, with a wide toothy smile stretched across her face.
“I missed you too.” Auston tossed her playfully into the air, electing a shriek, then brought her in for another tight hug. “I missed you so much Quinnie!”
“How much?” She probed. Her sweet innocent voice makes his heart flutter -she, like all his kids, has that effect on him.
Keeping Quinn on his right hip, Auston stretched his left arm out as far as it can go. “This much,” he told her.
“That’s a lot.”
“Mhm.” Auston nodded and kissed her temple once again. “What are you up to?”
“Making Fwostee.”
“Making Frosty?! Can I see?”
“YES!” She immediately and enthusiastically agreed.
Auston set Quinn down and she quickly wrapped her tiny hand around two of his fingers, then tugged him toward one of the tables. They stopped at her workspace, and she released his fingers, then pointed to the chair. “Sit,” she demanded of him.
From the outside, Quinn looks nothing like her parents. Her hair is light and straight, where he and Tia have dark and curly, her eyes are hazel – sometimes looking more of a green – and again, theirs are both dark. He can look at any of her three siblings and immediately see himself or Tia in them, but when he looks to Quinn, he struggles to see any part of them. Then she puts her hand on her hip, has a sassy comment, orders him around with a sweet yet devious little grin, and Auston instantly knows that is Tia’s daughter.
So, just like with her mom, Auston does what she says. Even if that means folding himself into a tiny plastic chair where his knees are taller than the table. Even if he is worried about the structural integrity of that tiny plastic chair as it creaks and sinks with his weight because it was made for three-year-olds and not the stature of a professional hockey player, he promptly sits in the chair without so much as a hesitation.
Quinn reaches out to the desk, grabbed a mess of construction paper, then shoved it into his hand, and smiles.
“You didn’t make this.”
“Yes, I did,” she is quick to protest.
“No way! This is the best snowman I’ve ever seen!” The snowballs are misshapen and boxy, the black blob on what Auston assumes is the head, looks nothing like a hat and the “buttons” are just a bunch of scribbles. There are three eyes glued and the nose that should be carrot shaped, is misshapen, but at least orange. “This was made by a professional.”
“No Daddy,” she giggled. The sound instantly made Auston smile. She brought her face closer, and pressed her forehead against his, staring directly into his eyes, she dropped her voice to try and sound serious. “I made it.”
“You made this?” Auston held the snowman up to get a better look at it. “You, Quinn Leigh Matthews made this?”
“Mhm.” Quinn proudly nodded. “Look at the eyes.”
“I see –“
“They move!” She squealed. Grabbing the snowman, she flipped it upside down, the black pupil of the googly eye moving with her.
“I see that. This is going on the fridge tonight.”
“Yay!” She jumped into his arms, the smile on her face somehow continued to get wider.
“Do you want to stay at daycare, or want to get some hot chocolate and take Felix to the park with me?”
“I want to go wif you daddy!” Her face scrunched as she gave him her signature grin, his signature grin. One of the few physical traits she took from him.
“Okay. You get your boots and I’ll talk to your teacher.”
The conversation with Quinn’s teacher was quick, they were accustomed to Auston sneaking her from daycare early. Like every time before, they reminded him that Tia specifically said Auston wasn’t to pull her from daycare early (she knew him far too well), and just like every time before, Auston rolled his eyes said he wasn’t going to listen to Tia (even though history had taught him otherwise). Quinn’s teacher just laughed, like she did every time Auston said that, then she wished them a good afternoon, and Auston went to gather her belongings.
Auston found Quinn sitting in front of her cubby with her purple butterfly boots on the wrong feet. He knelt down in front of her, set the snowman on the bench, then tugged at the Velcro to switch the boots around. As he reached for Quinn’s coat, he felt his watch vibrate - he knew who it was, didn’t take a genius to figure it out - but of course he flipped his wrist, saw Tia’s name and the beginnings of her lecture, and laughed. What was he supposed to do? Sit at home for three hours in an empty house?
He slipped his thick, muscular arm through the straps of Quinn’s sparkly pink unicorn backpack, fisted her jacket, then scooped Quinn up. When the door opened, he felt her nuzzle into his chest, and he tightened his grip. There was no point putting her jacket on to walk twelve feet to the car, only to take it off for the car seat, but he still hated the shiver that always erupted following the temperature change.
“Felix!” Quinn shrieked when she saw his head sticking out the window. The pup let out an excited whine. Over the low hum of the engine they could hear his tail eagerly smacking against the seat. “Daddy is taking us for tweats!” She told him through the window as she scratched behind his ears.
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It took a bit to get her in the car seat. Felix kept wanting to be close to her, which lead to him sitting in the car seat, licking her face, and lots of laughter. If Auston didn’t know better, he’d think Felix was the one who went eight days without seeing her.
The drive was short and Quinn had a million things to tell Auston, most of which she told him during their daily FaceTime or video updates Tia would send, but he didn’t mind. He loved listening to her excitedly ramble about everything that happened while he was gone, the highlights of her days. It was less than twenty minutes, but the only time Quinn wasn’t talking was when she was laughing because Felix had snuck in a kiss or two. Even in the drive-thru while Auston was ordering she didn’t let up for a second.
With the vehicle off, Auston opened the back door and squeezed himself in. He gently shut the door behind him to keep the heat trapped inside, then turned to Quinn. He softly brushed some hair behind her ear and let his thumb rest on her jaw while examining her face. He knows it isn’t possible, but every time he comes back from a road trip the kids look different, older somehow.
“Alright,” his voice cracks.
Smiling through the pain of being gone, he unbuckled the car seat, gave Felix a few pets, then turned his attention back to Quinn. She had jumped out of the car seat, so Auston held her coat out for her to slide her arms into the sleeves. He zipped it up, wrapped a scarf around her neck, then rummaged around her unicorn backpack for the pink sparkly beanie shoved to the bottom. “You have to wear a hat sweetie; your ears will get cold.”
“But my tiara.” A large pout formed, and her words were barely over a whisper.
“You can put it back on when we leave.” Auston offered, but the faint quiver in her lower lip told him that wouldn’t be acceptable. “What if I wear it for you at the park, then you can have it back when we’re done.”
Quinn takes a second to think it over, her lips slowly curling in the process. She nodded, then reached up and got to work positioning it on his head. “You’re a pwetty pwincess,” she said.
“Not nearly as pretty as you.” Auston pulls the toque over her ears. “You’re the prettiest princess ever.” Quinn blushes and sways gently from side to side, then gives Auston a quick kiss. “You ready, Quinnie the Pooh?”
She laughed at the nickname, like she always does. “Can I hold his leash?”
“Of course.” Auston kissed the tip of her nose.
He helped Quinn out of the car and waited for Felix to jump out to shut the door. Stacking their hot chocolates, he held them in one hand and passed Quinn the leash. Like he is with all of the kids, Felix was gentle. He didn’t pull or yank even though he wants to sprint ahead, he stayed right beside Quinn, matching his pace to hers. Auston reached over the fence and popped the latch, he waited for the two of them to step in before letting it close. He bent down and unclipped Felix’s leash, looked at Quinn, then nodded.
“Go pway Fewix!” She squealed.
The energetic pup took off and ran to a tree, then the bench, and a garbage can, carefully sniffing everyone. Quinn reached up for Auston’s hand and the two of them moved to the bench. Auston sat down first and placed his hands under her armpits, helping her up beside him, then passed her Felix’s ball which immediately caught the pups attention. He scurried over, then jumped up and down, tail rapidly wagging from side to side. And when Quinn threw it a few feet he eagerly retrieved it and dropped it on the ground at their feet.
“Good boy.” Auston told him. This time he throws the ball quite a distance, working to burn off some of his energy. “Is that good?” He chuckled at the hot chocolate moustache on his daughter's upper lip.
“Mhm.” She beamed. “It’s the best hot chocowate ever.”
Auston bent down and once again retrieved the ball, then tossed it to the other end of the park. “Sure is, princess.” After a few of his tosses, trying to tire him out, he passed the ball to Quinn. She quickly accepts and throws it, smiling, even though it only went about six feet.
Felix bit down and a loud squeak erupted through the ball. His tail excitedly wagged, and he wandered back to them, dropping it at their feet once again. Auston hands the ball to Quinn, who had set her hot chocolate on the bench, and threw it again, shorter than the time before. After the fourth throw that barely had Felix moving, Auston took the slobbery ball and launched it to the other side.
A loud, whistling wind enveloped the park, the branches creaking with every gust. A shiver erupted through Quinn’s tiny body, and she curled herself into her bright pink jacket. Auston scooped her up and tried to use his large body to shield the wind, sharing his body heat with his tiny daughter.
Felix dropped the ball at his feet and when Auston didn't immediately move to pick it up, Felix barked, then knelt his head down and rapidly wagged his tail from side to side, barking again.
“So impatient.”
Auston shook his head, smirking towards the youthful pup. He bent down and collected the ball and tossed it. “You want to go, Quinnie bear?”
“No.” She shook her head. “I like spending time wif you Daddy.”
Auston melts and tightened his grip, bringing her in as close as possible. “I like spending time with you too, Quinnie, but it’s a little cold out.” Auston said. Even though he is keeping one eye on Felix to ensure he doesn’t get into trouble, he can’t help but notice the rosiness in her cheeks and the tears clinging to the corner of her eyes.
“No, Daddy, I not cold.” She promptly replied. But like her mother, she is a terrible liar.
“Daddy is getting cold.” Auston told her, knowing the only way to make her leave would be with a small fib.
“Oh, no. Daddy okay?” She asked, then brought her tiny little hands up and cupped his ears, attempting to shelter him from the wind.
“Thanks Pumpkin.” Auston smiled sweetly at her. One of the things Auston had noticed of his youngest child was her selflessness. She was always checking in on her siblings when they were sick, and whenever he would huff or Tia would let out a frustrated sigh, she would immediately ask if they were okay. She picked up on their subtle cues, sometimes Auston thought she could sense things before they did.
“How about one more throw each, then we go home and watch a movie?”
“Tweee more.” She offered.
“Two.” Auston laughed when her entire face scrunched up before she emphatically shook her head no. She really is her mother’s daughter. “Fine,” he huffed. “Three more, but you can’t tell your mom I kept you outside in the cold.”
Her signature grin exploded on her face. “We get ice cream too.”
It’s Auston’s turn to showcase that signature grin. He can already hear Tia’s hushed whisper as she once again tells him all the reasons, he shouldn’t be pulling Quinn from daycare, does he really need to compound that by ruining her dinner? His move already has him “on thin ice” as Tia will undoubtedly tell him, one that has him dangerously close to not touching his wife that night, is it worth cementing that for a bowl of ice cream?
He glances down ready to deny his daughter's simple request, then he sees those wide hazel eyes practically glowing with hope, and sighs. There is no way he can say no to that face.
“You won’t tell your mom?”
“No.” She shook her head, the devious grin on her lips says otherwise - Quinn cannot keep a secret.
“You got yourself a deal, Quinnie-Bear.”
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Lucille Starr - Too Far Gone (1967)
Emmylou Harris recorded a fine version of this tune, but it reminded me that I had another version (the original it turns out). Lucille Starr was a Canadian country singer, and together with producer/songwriter Billy Sherrill, she recorded this excellent rendition.
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Receipts
(for someone who thinks they’re too far gone)
Today’s Gospel is an odd moment in the life of Jesus.
On the way to Jerusalem, Jesus stops. Thinks about how the Romans are going to destroy Jerusalem in the years after His death (being God, He knows stuff like that). And weeps over the suffering to come.
It seems random. But it’s actually a glimpse into the heart of God.
Do we care when bad things happen to other people? Of course.
But you and I only get emotionally upset about someone else’s problems if that person matters to us. It’s how we’re built. It’s one of the many ways that we’re like our Maker.
The more someone matters to us, the more their problems hit us emotionally.
Weeping for someone else’s loss? It’s a sign of love.
One more thing about today’s Gospel. This is happening when Jesus is on His way to Jerusalem for the last time. This trip ends in a public torture killing (being God, He knows stuff like that).
In a moment when anyone else would turn and run, Jesus is more worried about how someone else is going to suffer.
The people Jesus is weeping for? Are the very ones who will crucify Him.
It’s that kind of love.
If you think you’ve done too much to ever be forgiven. That there’s no coming back. That you’re too far gone for God’s love.
Tell that to Jesus.
He’s got the receipts to prove you wrong.
Today’s Readings
#Too Far Gone#Too Much#No coming back#Receipts#God#Jesus#Catholic#Christian#Church#Catholicism#Chrumblr#Heart of God#Moments Before Mass
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i’m afraid i’d go too far
just for a chance to be in your arms
—too far, 2023
#poetry#prose#poems on tumblr#poetic#poetry fragments#writers on tumblr#writing#poem#poetic prose#poets on tumblr#spilled words#unrequited love#always him#that boy#too far gone#lovecore#original prose#original poetry
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@leafs-lover - so excited to read chapter 56 of TFG - devoting my Friday to it! Picture source: x
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thank you, phone.
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“If you ever looked at me once with what I know is in you, I'd be your slave"
EB's quote that represents my state of my mind when it comes to this man 😮💨
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well f^&K me.
I just looked at labeled 'H' and "C" taps and though "Cloud" and "Hojo"
#too far gone#professor hojo#cloud strife#even 'tap' Cloud isn't safe from that creep#ff7#ffvii#final fantasy 7
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Wait, which prominent dino artist believes in hereditary iq???
prominent paleoartist Emily Willoughby believes in IQ inheritance and race science bs :/
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A person who thinks all the time has nothing to think about except thoughts
#sadgirl#i'm sad#im sad and tired#im screaming inside my head#sad boy#sad but true#sad thoughts#depressing shit#sorry for being depressing#tw depressing thoughts#to many thoughts#head full#help my brain#this is a call for help#this is depressing#this is a cry for help#i need hlep#its to late#too far gone#im sorry#my dms are always open#time to kms#kms kms kms#i hate life#i hate my brain#i hate it here#to many emotions#to many tags#why cant i just be happy#im drowning
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Too Far Gone - Part Fifty Six
Warnings: Swearing, fluff, smut - fingering, cum play, dirty talk, maybe a slight voyeurism kink, interrupted sex, inadvertent orgasm deprivation, light degradation? I think that's it, let me know if I missed anything
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Word Count: 6,000
Auston didn’t know when they went to bed. The curtains had been left open and the faint glow from the moon was filtering in, but he had to make good on that promise from the roof. And even then, he wasn’t done because they were both drenched in sweat, and there is something about warm beads of water cascading over his girlfriend’s chest that always ended with Auston on his knees.
Sure, it could be considered reckless to stay up that late given they have a three-year-old who has been known to barge in before the sun broke the horizon looking for breakfast. But what was Auston supposed to do, not celebrate the fact Tia finally admitted she loved him? They had talked about getting a puppy, having more kids, getting married, they planned their future, but hearing those words roll off her tongue cemented to him that it was real. As if those four years were nothing more than a long and hazy nightmare he finally awoke from.
When Auston did wake up around 9:20, he planned on quietly crawling out of bed, finding Taylour (he knew one of his friends was keeping him entertained for the time being) and wrangling his help to make her breakfast in bed. A simple gesture, one he had been deprived of for so long. It was his plan, and it was a great plan, then he saw the faint marks on her shoulders, the marks he left, and everything changed. All reason was long gone, and his primal instinct took over. If he could keep her there all day, he would.
“Aus.”
Her nails scratch along his broad shoulder and her body arches into him. Even though she is pulsing with oversensitivity, she doesn’t know if she’s had enough, if she ever will have enough.
“Babe –“ She gasps, sharply.
“What?” He grins, moustache tickling her ear.
“We gotta to get up.” He can tell she wants there to be weight behind the words, but her body is saying something completely different. “So much to do…”
“How am I supposed to get anything done when you’re naked in our bed?” Auston murmurs thickly against her jaw.
“I could ask you the same thing.”
The sheets are a mess. Pillows are on the floor. The stench of sex is heavy in the room.
“So...” His hands roam all over her body. He cups her breast, which somehow overflows in his big hands. “What’s on your list this morning?”
“Yoga.”
“Pretty sure we already did that.” Satisfaction curls on his lips.
“I want to finish up something I’ve been working on…” She trails off for a moment as he licks up her neck, tongue following the bite marks left the night before. “Have to check in with Becks…” Auston grins, the heat flaring behind her cheeks says that won’t happen anytime soon.
“What about fucking your boyfriend?” Auston’s fingers carve into the swollen flesh of her ass.
“I believe I did that already.” He moves his fingers around to her pussy lips and the inside of her thighs, and they are wet, absolutely drenched in their hot sticky mess. “That’s why we’re still in bed.”
“You should put it back on the list, maybe twice.” Auston’s mouth slowly begins to work its way down, first to her collarbone, then her breasts. As his warm tongue swirls around her sensitive nipple, her slick grazes over his member and a deep guttural groan erupts.
“Is that so?” She breathes out a laugh while tugging harshly on his curls.
“Yeah.” Two fingers once again find their way inside. Her body arks toward him and within a few seconds they begin to move. The disgusting slurp of her cunt fills the room as he thrusts them faster and faster. Her walls greedily grasp and hug his digits, never wanting to let him go. Her elbows give out and her body collapses into the bed, quickly and desperately clawing at the sheets.
Auston smirks and applies more pressure. His left hand grabs at her knee and tosses it over his shoulder, earning him a shriek from the deepest part of her diaphragm. Auston fucks his fingers back inside. Every stroke is precise, his knuckles crooked at the knuckle to create the perfect angle. “Can’t decide if I want to eat the cum out of you before I fill you back up.” Auston licks his bottom lip, his fingers massaging her g-spot. “Or if I should bury myself inside and make ya overflow…what do you think?”
“Fuck me.” Tia whispers to herself.
Auston chuckles, a little breathless. “I’m going to.” He circles his thumb around her clit, fingers rhythmically seeking her high. “You taste so good, can only dream of what we taste like together.”
Tia whimpers at the emptiness as Auston pulls his fingers out. He brings them up to her mouth, and without instruction Tia drops her jaw and wraps her lips around them. They both moan as she swirls her tongue around his digits, working to clean the mess. Quickly, he snaps his wrist and runs the saliva and cum coated fingers along her jaw. With a cocky brow raise, he shoves his tongue into her mouth.
“Better than I imagined.”
His hand moves to her hair, and she bites at her lower lip. He knows she washed her hair yesterday. He also knows she will scold him for this later. He just doesn’t care. He moves the head of his shaft down through her folds, allowing it to rest at the opening for just a second, then he buries himself deep inside her warmth.
He messily kisses her once again, taking the time to embrace the wetness that oozes out around his cock. He pulls his hips back, and right before he is about to drive back inside, her hands are on his shoulder trying to push him away.
“Stop.” Her eyes snap open, wide with fear. His brows contort with confusion, then he hears it. Little feet pattering down the hall, his playful giggle getting louder and louder with every step. They both knew they were pushing their luck going for round two, but like a moth to a flame, Auston couldn’t pull himself away.
“Taylour, come on bud, let’s go.” Fred’s voice calls, louder than normal trying to warn those on the other side.
The doorknob begins to jiggle. Tia’s breathing becomes frantic . The slow creak gets louder and louder, and Taylour’s voice enters the room. “I want to show them my trick.”
The more the door opens the more Tia’s face whitens. Auston scrambles off her and scours the floor for a shirt, pants, some piece of clothing to toss on before Taylour barrels in. But everything is everywhere, all he can find is the sheet which he tosses toward Tia.
“Mommy and Daddy are sleeping.” Fred tells him, pulling the door shut. “Why don’t we practice more, and you can show them when they wake up?”
“Because practice makes perfect,” Taylour agrees with a nod.
“Right.” Fred nods down the hall. “Let’s go.”
Auston waits a few seconds until Taylour’s feet are down the hall, then calls out, “Thanks Fred.”
“Yup,” Fred hollers through the door.
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“I’m not sure about this.” Tia runs her finger along the strap, then smooths over her stomach.
Once they heard the footsteps fade down the hall and the stair boards creak, Auston and Tia were out of bed. Tia ran a comb through her hair while glaring at Auston for the ends that had fused together, then swiftly threw it up on the top of her head. Auston grabbed a bathing suit –because every day ends with them in the pool – and one of his t-shirts. The two of them went downstairs and Tia started making them smoothies, and Auston set out to get the avocado ready for their breakfast. After inhaling their food, Auston was outside, showing off his backflips – always a favourite with Taylour - and Tia was upstairs in her sewing room.
Once the workspace was mostly complete, she finished the couple orders that were outstanding, then set out designing a few new pieces to expand her line. She sketched out seven new pieces, three of them made it through the 3D rendering, then she began the process of cutting fabric, pinning it together and trying to bring her visions to life. One was easy, only needed a few minor tweaks but was now ready to go to the testing phase. The other two she has been stuck on. Nothing seemed to work, and Tia was about ready to scrap them both and start over, but before that she decided to reach out to the one person that might be able to help.
Celeste presses her glasses back up her nose and shuffles in her seat, as if trying to get a better view from Toronto.
“Yeah…” She hims through the speaker. “I see what you were talking about…I think the point near your underarm needs to go up a bit.” Tia turns toward the camera and lifts her arm, then points to the area she assumes Celeste is talking about. “Yeah,” she confirms. “It’s a little…” her face crinkles as she thinks over the next word.
“Aggressive?”
Celeste feigns a laugh. “That may not be the word I’d use…but yes.”
“The prototype looked so good.” Tia sighs. She thought the dress was going to be the easiest to bring to life. But when she tried the top on it sat low, dangerously low, to a point if Tia moved too much everything spilled out. Despite Auston’s objections, she added fabric to the bodice to bring the neckline up, only it came up too much. Next, she cut a bit out but then she didn’t like the neckline, it was too squared off and simple, so she tried to curve it but overcompensated as indents are being left in her skin.
“That’s why we test them out. I can’t tell you how many pieces I thought were good until I tried them on.” Celeste tries to reassure her with a faint laugh, but this part never gets easy. “It’s not that far off, dear.”
“Yeah.” Tia’s nose crinkles again, almost at her wits end with this one.
“What about the top you were working on.” Celeste steers the conversation away, hoping it has better results. “You decide on a sleeve?”
A few days ago, Tia sent Celeste a picture of a satin top with a simple square neck and subtle pleats in the bodice. The hem was unfinished and there were many pins, but what caught her attention was the two distinctly different sleeves styles. One was short and puffy, and the other was a simple and slender arm with a bell style sleeve. Tia said she was unsure of which one worked best. Celeste called it a copout, called her out to doubt herself and said she wasn’t going to help. It might have been tough, but Celeste knew she needed to make this decision on her own.
“Yay!” Celeste claps when she sees the long and flowy sleeve. This was always the right choice; she is glad Tia figured it out on her own.
“I love that one. Definitely the right pick”
“It’s playful but classic.” Tia smiles with her mentor’s reassurance.
“Completely elevates that top. Tia, I know I’ve said this before, but you have a bright future ahead of you, some people are years in the industry without the eye you have.”
“Thanks.” Tia softly laughs, a faint blush swarming her cheeks.
Now that the prototype is complete, it’s ready for Tia to make a few more and ship them back to the “testers” back in Toronto and get their feedback. Then there are the edits, photoshoots, uploading details to the website. Just when she thinks the finish line is near, she realizes just how far it is.
The two of them talked for a little while longer. Celeste told her about all the struggles she’d been facing as a store owner while in a global lockdown. Her store was forced closed, curbside pickup and online orders were slow, some days non-existent. It filled Tia with so many emotions but worry and regret were the ones she couldn’t shake. If someone who had been successful in the industry was struggling at the drop of a hat, what did it mean for her? Sales were slow, to be expected for a new line, but how long could they be slow before they stopped all together?
**
Tia put the finishing details on the shirt but left the dress on the mannequin. Normally putting it off wouldn’t be an option. It’d eat at her, knowing there was so much to do but not knowing how to fix it. But today as she walked down the hall toward the stairs, she had zero hesitation walking away because something else had consumed her mind.
“Mommy! Mommy!” Taylour screeches when the patio doors open. “Mommy, help!” He giggles mid-air as Auston tosses him to the other end of the pool, a large splash erupts around him and a few seconds later his head pokes through the surface.
“I can’t help you.” Tia chuckles as she shuffled around the pool’s edge, her feet getting kissed by the exploding water.
“Why not?” Taylour flings his arm around and starts moving toward Auston.
“Because every time I help, your dad throws me in the water.”
“Not true.” Auston winks at her.
Tia shakes her head.
“Please mommy!” Taylour squeals as Auston grabs him by the waist and once again launches him in the air.
Tia flips her wrist and glances at the time on her watch - the very expensive watch Auston brought back from the California road trip because he “thought of her when he saw it.” “We actually have to go, Taylour.”
“Nooooo!” He emphatically shakes his head.
“Yup.” Auston moves toward the stairs. The water line slowly descends, more and more of his chest coming on display for Tia to gawk at. As he moves toward the steps, he grabs Taylour and tugs him. “You said you wanted In and Out for lunch, we have to go get it.”
“Why can’t I stay with Uncle Freddie, and you bring it here.” Taylour pouts. He stands on one of the pool steps, half in – half out of the water, hoping to convince Auston to let him stay.
“Because we’re your parents not Uncle Freddie. Uncle Freddie doesn’t have to spend his time watching you.”
“I want to stay with Fweddie.”
“Well, you’re not.” Auston bites sharply, letting his frustration poke through. “You’re coming with Mommy and I.”
“I don’t want to go with you and Mommy,” he huffs, angrily smacking his hands against the water.
“Taylour, you are coming. Get out of the pool and get dressed, now.” Auston demands, but Tia catches the inflection in his voice and the smirk curving his lips.
“But why?” He raises his voice, becoming more frustrated with Auston’s unusual stern nature. Tia knew it wasn’t going to be easy getting her son from the pool, it never was.
“Because I said so.” Auston barks. “Keep it up and you won’t get to swim for the rest of the week.”
Taylour releases a loud and dramatic groan, then once again smacks his hands against the water. He stomps past Auston, grumbling under his breath, and goes right to Tia who has a warm fluffy towel waiting for him. Having lost the battle with his father, Taylour sets his sights on Tia, hoping for a different response.
“I don’t want to go, Mommy.” Taylour whined softly while he nestled his head to the crook of her neck. She hears the broken exhale and knows tears are on the way – he doesn’t handle Auston’s frustrations well - she just doesn’t know if they are real or fake.
“I know.” Tia kneels and starts rubbing her hands over his back, drying him off while softly comforting him. She gently tilts his head, and swats at the tears clinging to the corner of his eyes. “You have to come with us, sweetie.”
“Why?” Taylour sniffles, barely choking back the lump in his throat.
“Because we have a surprise for you.” Auston cards his hand through Taylour��s drenched curls and grabs his own towel.
“A surprise?!” He immediately perks up, his eyes widen and dart up to Auston. “What is it?”
“Wouldn’t be a surprise if we told you, silly.” Tia playfully boops his nose.
As if the last thirty seconds never happened, Taylour immediately takes off toward the sliding door and gives it a firm tug to drag it open. He runs inside too excited to close the door behind him, then scurries across the hardwood.
“No running on the stairs!” Auston yells after him, but he is too late, Taylour is at the top of the stairs, slipping on the hardwood as he sprints past the railing that overlooks the living room.
“What did we get ourselves into?” Tia jokingly whines when Taylour lets out an “ooh” as he uses his palms to catch himself from falling.
Auston wraps his painted arm around Tia, over her shoulder. Tia brings her hand up and grabs his, then leans against his hard chest. Little drops of water land on her shoulder and in her hair. In an almost scarily still tone he whispers, “you’re going to miss this level of calm.” The worst part is, he is right.
**
Like most car rides, Taylour quickly became impatient. It wasn’t long after he finished his cheeseburger and shake before the “where are we going,” “how much longer” and “are we there yet” started. They knew the almost hour drive would be long, and planned for it, but no amount of movies, superhero action figures, colouring books would be enough, when all he wanted was to do was swim.
“Mommy, I’m bored.” He whines and dramatically throws his head back against the car seat. He tosses the tablet, and it lands on the floor, bouncing on impact.
Auston huffs out a dry laugh. Like Taylour, his patience is wearing thin. “Wouldn’t be if you watched the movie.”
“I don’t want to watch the movie anymore.” Taylour promptly informs him. His feet kick against the car seat and he dramatically sighs, again.
“We’re almost there, Tay.” Tia turns in her seat and silently laughs at his outfit choice. He insisted on getting ready himself and his shoes are on the wrong feet, his shirt must have come from the laundry given the ketchup stain on the chest, and his shorts are bright neon yellow. The fashion designer in her cringes but as a mom, she is thrilled that he is dressed, and understands that some battles aren’t worth it.
“How many minutes?”
“Less than five.” She picks up the tablet and pauses the movie, then puts it in her bag.
“That’s too long.” Taylour kicks his legs out in a frustrated fit.
“Of course, it is.” Auston mutters sarcastically, his knuckles whitening around the steering wheel.
Tia snaps her head to Auston, and she gives him a look, one he hasn’t seen often but immediately recognizes. “I promise, you’re going to love your surprise.”
They continue driving down the quiet rural road, slowly maneuvering turns. Whatever playlist Auston selected is quiet, so quiet the only sound is the air conditioning whirring through the vents and the rhythmic beeping of the blinker. Tia presses her head against the window and watches the dust kick out from under the tires.
“We’re here.” Auston announces once the vehicle is parked in front of a large farmhouse.
Taylour perks up and tries to sit up in his seat as much as possible. He takes in the surroundings, a blue house with a simple white fence, not distinguishing or exciting for an almost four-year old.
“What are we doing here?” He asks, not hiding the disgruntled look on his face.
“This is a boring surprise, Daddy.”
“You sure about that?” Taylour freed himself from the car seat, and when Auston opens the door, he is quick to leap out.
“Yeah.” He crinkles his nose and closes the car door behind him. “There is no slide or pool, nothing fun.”
Tia hears small overlapping barks and yips coming from inside the home, her heart flutters. She has been waiting for this day her entire life.
Gravel crunches under her feet as she strolled around the car. She crouches down and puts her hand on her knees, bringing herself to Taylour’s eye level. She adjusts his ball cap over his curls then smiles. “Would it still be a bad surprise if we told you there were puppies inside?”
His brown eyes glow. “I want to see the puppies!” He blurts out.
Auston crouches down and smiles, almost bigger than Taylour. “What if we told you; we’re going to bring one home?”
“MY OWN PUPPY!” Taylour screams while jumping in the air.
“A family puppy.” Auston corrects him.
“I’M GETTING A PUPPY!” He shrieks, unphased by what Auston told him.
Auston knew he would be excited when he found out. He assumed there would be jumping and screaming, thought there was the possibility of joyful tears. What he didn’t count on was Taylour being so excited he’d sprint past them toward the front door without another word.
Knock. Knock. Knock. Taylour pounds on the door as hard as he can. “I’m here for my puppy!” Knock. Knock. Knock.
Auston and Tia had barely made it two steps before the door creaks open, a middle-aged woman stands on the other side.
“Hello.” She smiles to Taylour, then to Auston and Tia.
Taylour bounces on his heels, even though they can’t see his face they know he is beaming from ear to ear. “Hi, my name’s Taylour. I’m here for my puppy.”
“Taylour, you can’t just – “
“It’s fine.” She laughs, Taylour isn’t the first child to react this way. She moves to the side to let him pass then waits for Tia and Auston to make their way up the porch.
“Sorry, he has wanted a puppy since before he could walk.”
The three of them hear Taylour squeal as an overlapping chorus of barks and whines echo down the hall.
“No apologies needed.” They all step inside and see Taylour standing on the outside of the fenced in area. He is leaning as far as he can without losing his balance, scratching the tops of the puppies’ heads, giggling the entire time. “I’m Sandra, and that,” she eyes over to the full-size Bernese Mountain dog who is across from Taylour keeping a watchful eye on her pups, “is Stella the mom.” Shortly after a white poodle rounds the corner and walks right up to Auston, nudging his hand for some pets. “This suck is Teddy.”
“Hiya Teddy.” Auston bends down and is instantly met with a lick to the cheek.
“Which one is mine?” Taylour’s head is on a swivel. This puppy. That puppy. That puppy. He can barely keep up.
“We have to pick it.” Auston tells him.
“You can go in.” Sandra offers, motioning to the pen.
Auston and Tia step over the gate, then Auston hooks his arms under Taylour’s armpits to hoist him over. The three of them fall to the floor, immediately being swarmed by the puppies.
“Mommy!” Taylour giggles as one with a pink ribbon licks his cheek. “Mommy, I want this one.”
“Yeah?” She grins, gently scratching behind the ear.
“Any with a ribbon have a home already,” Sandra tells them. “They’ve all had their first round of shots and will be ready for the next one in about two weeks.”
“Daddy, look!” Taylour nods to his foot, where one is gnawing on his sock, attempting to pull it off.
“This one’s trouble huh?” Auston scoops up the black and white ball of fur, taking Taylour’s sock with him, then cradles it in his arms.
“He’s silly.” Taylour broadcasts, trying to yank the sock out of its mouth.
When the puppy keeps his jaw tightly clenched around Taylour’s sock, he sets the puppy on his lap to the ground and crawls over to Auston. He pets along its side with one hand, his other tugging on the sock, laughing the entire time. Finally, the puppy releases the sock only to start chewing at Auston’s wrist.
“I want this one.” Taylour gives it a kiss.
“Really? What about this one?” Tia eyes to the one curled in her lap, eyes getting heavy.
Taylour takes a second to glance between the two dogs, pondering Tia’s suggestion. She obviously knows just because a dog is calm now doesn’t mean it always will be, but something, most likely her motherly instinct is telling her not to pick the one already biting.
“Uhmmm.” He ponders. Taylour scoots closer to Tia to look at the puppy in her lap. “Ohh, this one is cute too, Mommy!”
“Mhm.”
Taylour’s eyes rapidly dart between the two dogs, and he appears deep in thought, but they both know he has zero selection criteria. A twinkle catches his eye, and his entire face somehow lights up even more.
“Can I have both puppies?”
“No.” Tia is very fast to answer.
“Puh-lease!” He turns to Auston. His move always is to try the other parent with hopes for a better outcome. “Please can I get two puppies, Daddy?”
Auston looks to Taylour, then to the puppy curled up in Tia’s arms sleeping, then to the one nibling at his wrist, and sighs. “I don’t think –“
“Please, Daddy! They can play together.” He eagerly cuts him off, desperately trying to bring home two dogs.
“Then who will you play with?” Tia can see the way Auston’s face is softening and knows she will have to be the one to shut this down.
“I’ll play with them, we’ll be best friends, all three of us!”
“I think we only need one dog for now.” Auston says dimly, but Tia knows if she wasn’t here to supervise, Auston would be bringing two dog’s home.
“No!” Taylour carefully climbs over the puppies and their toys to get to Auston and wraps his arms tightly around his neck. “We need two puppies, Daddy!”
Auston makes the mistake of looking at Taylour and sees the large pout and beady eyes, a cuteness barely rivalled by the puppy in his lap. Taylour falls to his knees and gets directly into Auston’s sightline. He puts his hands together as if he is praying, and desperately pleads with a croak in his voice. “Please can we get two, Daddy? Pleeeeease?”
Auston hates how his son knows exactly what to say and how to say it to make him forget all reason.
“Tay,” Auston sighs and prepares himself for the heartbreak, but he knows Taylour will get over it faster than Tia’s frustration if he gives in. “Just one.”
There is a groan that develops deep in his stomach as his shoulders drop. “No fair.”
“Look at how cute this little guy is though.”
Auston holds the wiggly puppy a little higher and hands it to Taylour. An excited yip comes from the puppy and a smile begins to creep its way back to Taylour’s face. “He is cute, Daddy.”
Auston reaches over and grabs a small stuffed pig and gives it to the puppy who wraps his mouth around it and starts whipping its head from side to side. “I want this one.” Taylour informs them without an ounce of hesitation.
Auston and Tia left Taylour with the puppies and found Sandra in the kitchen. They went over the paperwork and fine details. She gave them a bag with some food, a small blanket, along with a binder full of health information and veterinary records.
By the time they wandered back to the living room a few minutes later, Taylour had forgotten about his desire to bring home two. He was on his knees, heels digging into the back of his thighs, squeaking the pig in an attempt to engage the puppy.
“You two ready?” Tia walks to the edge of the puppy fencing, Auston’s hand on her back.
“Mhm.” Taylour enthusiastically nods. He stands up and Auston bends down to help him over then scoops up their puppy. “Thank you for my puppy!” Taylour addresses Sandra while making a beeline for the door.
Once Taylour was in the car, which was a task, he demanded the dog sit with him. Tia was a little uneasy about leaving them alone in the back, she had a feeling she should sit with them, just in case the puppy fell or wandered away and somehow found his way under a seat, but Auston assured her everything would be fine. He could tell she was anxious, so he reached over the console and laced his fingers with hers, then brought it to her lips and placed kisses on the back of her hand, knowing that would bring her to ease.
“What should we name him?” Auston asks as they sit at a red light, the steady sound of the blinker being drowned by the noise coming from the backseat.
“Rex.” Taylour proudly proclaims.
“Rex?” Auston probes with a laugh. The suggestion undoubtedly comes from the recent viewing of Toy Story. “I don’t know if that suits him.”
“Pickles!” He cheers from the back seat.”
“Pickles?” Tia shakes her head; she knew letting the almost-four-year-old name the dog would be a terrible idea. “What about Bernie?” She suggests in reference to its breed.
“No.” They simultaneously protest.
“How about Felix?” Auston pipes up. He doesn’t know why but the second he held him, that name felt right and it’s hard for him to imagine the dog as anything else.
“Yes!” Taylour promptly agrees. “I like that!”
Auston kept his hand linked with hers over the console as he drove the quiet Scottsdale streets. His eyes were mostly on the road, but he couldn’t help glancing in the rearview every chance he got, spending red lights turned around staring at Taylour and Felix.
The next few hours were somewhat of a blur. Taylour was eager to show Felix to Trevor and Fred. He had to FaceTime Mitch, Becks, Emily and Max,Sarah and Charlie, every person he knew. He never wanted to leave Felix, even tried getting him to come to the bathroom with him. He would lay on the floor beside him while he napped, pull him into his arms for pets, dangle a toy over his head, or run around in the yard, trying to get him to follow. Felix was a little overwhelmed at times, often quiet and reserved, unsure about the toys and people around him, but that didn’t stop Taylour. He was determined to be that pup’s best friend no matter what.
**
Auston found Tia in the kitchen checking her e-mail. Some Disney movie Taylour long ago lost interest in plays in the background, he uses the noise to sneak up in front of her. He presses himself into her and chuckles when she jumps.
Droplets of water fall from his hair and splatter on her shoulder, the towel that hangs loosely over his hips rubs against her thigh.
“He’s so happy.” Auston places a gentle kiss on her temple.
She peers out the glass doors to Taylour who is sitting on a lounger with Felix in his lap. She doesn’t know what he is saying, but he constantly laughs and places kisses to his head. Her heart is about to explode. She lets out a contentious sigh and rests her arms on his shoulders, aimlessly fiddling with the metal wrapped around his neck. “I’m so happy we did this.”
“Me too.” Auston tugs at her pony and tilts her head back, then places a kiss on her lips. “I love you, babe.”
“I love you, too.”
Tia is expecting another kiss on her lips, only Auston ducks down and starts sucking along her neck.
“Auston.” She tries to scold him, only to shriek when he grabs a handful of ass from under her damp bathing suit.
“I want to kiss my girlfriend without a little parrot announcing it.”
“I know.” Tia sighs, because he has been announcing it - six times so far. “But we should go to our boys.”
Our boys.
Auston loves the way that sounds and even though it’s only been a couple hours he can’t wait until their family grows even more.
“They’re fine, Fred and Trevor have it under control. “Besides, you have a boy here who needs you.” He rolls her hips over his slowly growing erection and carves his nails into her flesh.
“Auston.” She playfully swats at his chest, letting out a breathy laugh.
“I told you to add fucking me to your list of things to do today,” he growls.
His fingers trail over her skin, pricked with goosebumps, until they find the bows that are holding up the barely-there bikini bottoms. His fingers tangle in and he begins to tug, loosening the knot.
“It’s like 4 pm.” It’s a futile attempt. They both know it.
Having heard no reason to stop, Auston quickly hoists her onto the counter. The towel drops to the floor as he presses her knees apart. He gently teases his fingertips past the seam of her lips, sending a ripple of goosebumps up her spine.
She wants to give in.
She can’t help it.
She spent too much time without him, her heart (among other things) physically ached for him and his touch. She never wants to be without it again, never wants to crave his physical touch like she did.
Following the hitch in her breath, two fingers slide inside, and are greedily welcomed by her heat. She arches toward his electric touch and his mouth moves toward the sweet spot below her ear.
It barely takes two minutes before a slew of curse words roll off Tia’s tongue. The air between them gets sticky and Auston licks up her neck. She can see the bulge beneath his bathing suit, rapidly swelling as he continues to stroke her inner walls. Through the pleasureful haze Tia barely manages to get her fingers under the waist band.
“Such a good girl, aren’t you?” Auston purrs against her neck, teeth nipping at her warm skin. Pressure builds inside her – everywhere – as Auston pets her silky inner walls. “I’m gonna bend you over this counter.” Auston’s breath is hot and heavy against her skin, fanning over her in hypnotic waves. “Kitchen’s gonna be so dirty we’ll need a hazmat team.”
Tia shudders. Her cheeks colour pink.
She wraps a leg around his hip and pulls him close. His left hand immediately finds her thigh and runs up and down. Fingerprints are left on her hips; bright red scratch marks decorate his shoulders. He’s hungry and he won’t stop until he’s had his fill of her.
“That’s what you want, right?” All thoughts disappear from her mind when his thumb starts caressing her swollen clit. Every part of her is consumed by him, and she struggles to even breathe. “To use my cock to christen this place, huh?” Her breasts bounce following every thrust, threatening to spill out of the stringy bikini top any moment. Little butterflies dance in her belly. She is barely keeping it together and Auston can tell. “M’gonna fuck you so hard a black light will break in here.”
“Mngh.” Tia chokes out, as if her tongue is glued to the top of her mouth.
“Let my friends hear.” Auston encourages her. He spits in his hand then it disappears, slathering his cock in saliva. She shudders when his warm erection nudges against her throbbing clit. “Cum baby. Show them how good I make you feel.”
Auston kneads at her fraying nerve as his breath gets hotter and heavier against her skin. They are so absorbed by the coil tightening in her belly, her release building and building -
“AUSTON!” Ema howls, absolutely horrified.
Nothing would get Auston to stop. Nothing, except his mother would get him to stop.
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I will be a shadow, you won't be able to reach me
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Try again
There’s no coming back.
You’ve done too much. You’re too far gone.
There’s no way God would ever take you back, much less forgive you.
These are some of the Enemy’s most effective lies when it comes to keeping us away from God after something has gone wrong in our lives.
It kind of doesn’t matter whether was something that we did to ourselves. Something that was done to us. Or something that just happened.
Once we see it this way, once we see ourselves this way, we close ourselves off from God’s mercy, love, and forgiveness.
I think we’re vulnerable to this for a couple of reasons.
First, there are people who claim to be “Christians” who are all too happy to condemn things they don’t like about others. Even though a moment’s thought reveals their over-eagerness to condemn as (1) proof that they’re not really Christians (no matter how much they may think they are) and (2) evidence of what they hate about themselves, there’s something about that abuse of the Faith that stays with us. That leaves a mark.
And we’re protecting our pride. By claiming that we’re too far gone, then we can (falsely) excuse ourselves from the hard work of admitting that we were wrong and trying to change. Because that’s a blow to our egos. That leaves a mark too.
The real problem, of course, is that’s not who God is. That’s not how God works.
In today’s first reading, Jeremiah shows us an image of who God really is. Of how God really works, “I went down to the potter’s house and there he was, working at the wheel. Whenever the object of clay which he was making turned out badly in his hand, he tried again.”
Jeremiah is showing us how God sees us. In God’s eyes, there is no such thing as too far gone. No one is ever beyond God’s mercy, love, and forgiveness.
God never gives up on us. Even when we have. The door of God’s heart is always open.
But make no mistake, God isn’t just willing to try again with you.
God wants to try again with you.
God loves you too much to ever throw you away.
Today’s Readings
#Try Again#Too Far Gone#Close ourselves off#Vulnerable#Pride#How God Works#God#Jesus#Catholic#Christian#Church#Catholicism#Christianity#Moments Before Mass
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I fear decades will go by and every rare moment that our eyes meet, every tragedy we share that brings us together, every nail I’ve bitten out of nervous compulsion and every cup of coffee you have spilled out of the thought that it’s been too long- the feeling of unfinished business, the dust has settled and we have both settled down.. compromised. Separated. The pain we had in our stomachs that crawls out of our mouths and beg to hold each other- that we are both afraid it will live forever.
#we know that it’s too late#too far gone#but what’s it called when I’m in your head and you’re in mine#personal#drafts I never thought I’d post#you drove me home and walked me in and I knew#we knew
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Too Far Gone - Smrtdeath
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