#Through the power of yaoi and nothing else

[duncanor]

Yes it did! It saved Livio and Razlo.

The yaoi saved them and it matters !!!!

[babblingfishes]

I just think there should be more fans of Pacific Drive. I just think that "abandoned government facility in an exclusion zone in the woods full of mad scientists and eldritch horrors" is like, the ideal fanfic playground.

Like sure, there's the SCP foundation, you can go into that humanitarian mess all day long. But ARDA? That's a fucking bureaucratic nightmare. Like this organization is recklessly causing all the anomalies and they will not admit it even to their own researchers. They're looking at a pile of car parts shambling down the street like "Wow, wonder what could be causing that. Anyway we need five bajillion more tons of gasoline with which to power our hot new technology to impress the soviets." and "Yeah we know the entire staff had concurrent violent hallucinations of the Hat Man last night but you shouldn't talk about it." and "We know 18 people died last time but we've got to dump more irradiated garbage in that hell portal, stat." and "What's that, Dr. Lombard? You haven't slept in 8 months and neither has anyone else? Don't be silly. Unrelated, we're holding our staff meetings at 4 AM now."

And did they stick it out to the bitter end? Did they go the way of so many other unethical research facilities, utterly destroyed by their own hubris? Fuck no. They just walked away. Gave up and closed down. No cleanup. Nothing but some big concrete walls separating Seattle from 8-foot spheres of acid. And sure they technically evacuated the place, but hundreds of the staff were like "you can't make us leave." so now they're just. Living in there?

Plus I mean, shit, we've got the old man yaoi built in. I just want someone to draw Tobias and Francis carrying each other around like Shaggy & Scoob while some Unregulated Fucking Thing barrels through the swamp after them.

[emilsendo]

Can you please make a muzan oneshot, smut with aftercare and muzan being alittle protective of m! Reader...

Thank you! <3

With pleasure I'll make this request! Take care💪🏼✨️👀

Also, I apologize for any errors in the text. I hope you will enjoy it.

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S!Bottom Muzan Kibutsuji

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Dom!Top Male Reader

warnings: rough sex, brutal scene of torturing someone(Douma), mentions of betrayal, breeding, pain kink, swearing, no preparation, blood, gay/yaoi, etc.

Type: Smut

Request: ✅️

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It was a day like any other, everyone looked the same. You, as a rank 0 higher moon demon, AND as the husband of the demon king, had a wide reputation among demons and humans alike. However, Muzan Kibutsuji didn't treat your strength like the others, he loved you too much to care if you were powerful enough. For him, you were and are his property, which he must protect against possible threats. Mainly rivals created by your handsome appearance. But who would dare to endanger the MUZAN himself? Probably just a real suicide.

Y/N was currently walking through the forest after mercilessly killing a man from the village he was passing by. As an Upper Moon demon, he must eat quite regularly in order for his strength to remain the same or even greater. Even if he sometimes has some signs of humanity in his heart, he still doesn't care much about this feeling. He had long since rid himself of the feeling of guilt in his soul, all in order to be able to kill more effectively and faster. He is about 600 years old, has adapted to living in the body of a creature and killing those who resist his actions. Y/N remembers almost nothing from his past, except for the feeling of weakness... his heart only remembers how he felt then, not what he was like and what his life was like, did he have a family? Did he have a wife and children? Was he someone important? Nothing. Emptiness.

While listening to the sounds of nature, he heard another sound, but of feet pattering behind him and then next to him. It was as if this person was fast enough to somehow teleport. Y/N looked at them, his c/e eyes meeting rainbow ones. It was none other than Doma, who no one likes because... he's the least bit annoying.

— Hello, Lord Y/N~! How is our handsome boy? — he asked with a practiced and false tone of joy, something that was probably the reason why no one liked him. Y/N remained unfazed by his presence, but he felt a certain irritation. Doma moved in on him far too many times, as if he wanted more than a punch to the jaw.

— How many times do I have to tell you to stop calling me that? Don't you have anything else to do? — he replied with a great show of dislike towards the demon next to him, looking at him out of the corner of his eye with his deadly gaze, which usually made every demon and human bend more than one knee. But not Doma, this type has too much of a disregard for other people's needs.

— Aww~ Ice cold as always, huh? I'm just trying to be nice to Muzan's lover~.... — he said. And his voice and facial expression were like a child who didn't get what he wanted.

—You'll be nice when you get out of here.— Y/N finally looking at the shorter man with his full perspective. However, instead of an answer, he received a kiss, which shocked him. He automatically pushed him away and punched him in the jaw hard enough to tear off half his face, staining his hands with blood. Doma looked at him with a strange look, maybe if his face was intact it would look better... The man smiled slyly as if he was proud of what he had done, lightly touching his newly regenerated jaw.

Muzan won't be happy with the fact that his "property" has been touched and Y/N knows it, which is why he felt a slight twinge in his stomach from the stress. Because he'll get hurt too.

—Who the fuck are you? — a deep and loud voice asked, while the sounds of limbs and bones being torn to shreds echoed throughout the room. The muzzled hand was tearing apart Doma's body, and Doma was not reacting much to any of these harms. The brunette's blood-red eyes scanned the demon in front of him, who was kneeling.

—How dare you disregard my order? How dare you TOUCH something that belongs to me? — he grabbed the blonde by the forehead, his claw drilling a hole in the skull. He then caused his cells to slowly melt Doma's body.

Upper Rank 2 began bleeding from the inside, choking on a red substance. Pulsating, almost purple veins appeared on his skin.

—I should kill you....But you are a useful demon because of your loyalty. However, one more move like that... and I will personally expose you to the sun.— Muzan threatened, letting his brother go free.

—Muzan....I'm sorry, honey. I had no way to react to protect myself from Doma's kiss... I didn't expect it. - you whispered, your voice sounding completely different because of the way the veins that carry Muzan's blood tightened around your weave. You were in a kneeling position in front of your husband, who was sitting on a chair, his chin resting on his hand and his eyes down on your apologetic form. He had you like this for a while now, letting his anger out on you.

—.....— Muzan closed his eyes and then stopped controlling his cells, letting you breathe. His gaze moved to the side, ignoring you. You could see from a mile away that he was still pissed at you.

The moment you gained access to breathing again, you gasped. Coughing heavily from the dryness in my throat and the lack of oxygen. But you didn't have time to feel sorry for yourself, you had to console Muzan somehow, before he will kill useful demons.

You stepped closer to Muzan, resting your head on his knee.

—I love you, you know?— you said, knowing that this sentence would calm Muzan down instantly. The man finally looked at you, his gaze still as cold as ice. But his eyes became less wild, clear evidence that he had calmed down. His hand gently grabbed your chin, stroking it lightly with his thumb.

— I know. I love you too, you're like a toxin that makes me sick. But it is also very....addictive.— Muzan pulls your body up by your hand, he also stood up. Making you both switch positions, where this time you are sitting and he is kneeling.

— However, I want you to make me realize this by fucking me.— he said with a smirk. His tone was seductive and his eyes were filled with lust and horniness. Your member twitch at that sight, you couldn't resist your husband's "request", when it was clearly what you desired too deep down. Before you answered, Muzan already was working your pants off, he rip them off to be honest. Exposing your big and hard length that he loves so much, his tongue licks his lower lip, getting ready to the delicious taste he will have on it by a few seconds.

He opens his lips wide, already trying to deepthroat your dick with his tight canal. Making you hiss from pleasure and tighten your grip on the chair, claws digging into the wooden furniture. Your King sucks every good spots, pulling away for a while to spit on your cock to make it more wet. His tongue lick your tip, kissing it passionately as if making out with it, before going back down to your shaft. Licking up and down, massaging your balls and squeezing them from time to time. Making your head be on cloud 9 and resisting the urge to fuck your husband's throat. He wets your cock so good that it made such a sloppy sounds that made Muzan's mind go crazy, he only wants you to rile him like the last whore and then shower with affection. That's why he grabbed roughly your wrist and put it on his head, signaling you to control his movements.

You didn't waste any time in making him choke and gag all over your large cock, you could feel his nails pressing into your skin on thighs from pleasure and the feeling of your rough treatment. The feeling of a colossal hand gripping his hair, that clearly belong to you made his own dick almost cream his pants from excitement. And when you finally came in his mouth, he swallowed it eagerly like a treasure. His lips all red and swollen from sucking and having his mouth filled with something so thick.

— Take my clothes off. Now.— he damanded, but his voice sounds so needy and almost desperate. While he tried to mask it by cleaning your dick off from the rest of cum. You pull him on your lap with one move of your arm, making him gasp a bit. Before you took off his whole clothes, your gaze fixed on his expression that showed a pure lust. Muzan's mouth instinctively wrap itself around your fingers, wetting them as if he knows by the look on your face what you want him to do.

— Good slut.— you said with a smirk and satisfaction, even if your husband doesn't seem to like this nickname. (He feels butterflies in his stomach but his mind refuse to accept it)

— I am NOT a slut.— he said with serious tone, sounding a bit stern.

— Then I'll have to prove you wrong. Cause sluts like you can take cocks like mine without preparation.— You said, making Muzan look at you in confusion and he understood in a second what you meant.

— Oi, no!— he tried to protest in panic, his eyes widen, a loud scream from pleasure and pain left his mouth as you slam your cock inside him with one, smooth move. You groan at the tightness around your cock, it almost felt like it's sucking you inside.

— Don't cry, honey... I know you like it. Good slut-husbands like you are experts in satisfing your beloved.— you whisper in his ear, wiping his tears off from his cheeks. You looked at his expression that was a mix of pleasure and pain, his teeth clenched from the feeling of you deep inside him, touching his prostate with the tip of your cock.

Muzan was quiet for a few seconds, before he chuckles from esctasy and his red eyes fixed on you. He tighten his gummy like walls around your member to tease you and motivate you into fucking him.

— Of course.....I'll take care of your crotch like a good husband slut.— Muzan's lips kissed your face, starting with you forehead and ending at your lips. He really do love you for agreeing for you to call him this way....

Next thing he knows was you making him bounce like a desperate bunny on your dick, making sloppy sounds from going in and out of his entrance. The sounds of his loud moaning, mewling and your grunts and groans spread all over his office. Muzan's hair were messy and wet from sweat. His eyes unfocused. His sharp nails digging intl your shoulders. His legs shaking. His walls clenched and unclenched from pleasure and overstimulation. You hit his prostate over and over again, making him wanna cry to heavens.... or to hell.

Suddenly, you stand up with him in your arms, surprising him a bit as he got placed on his desk with legs spread. His back met the surface of the wooden furniture, he pants like a dog as he watched you put his legs on your shoulders, making your balls made a contact with his ass. He whimpers from that feeling.

— Fuck me.....Fuck your slutty husband.....fill me with your heirs and have the satisfaction of owning the King of demons~— Muzan said with a smirk, chest going up and down from breathing hard. That words went straight to your cock, twitching inside your lover. Your gaze like a predator, as you move oncr again. Hips snapping back and forth hard and deep, as if you were seriously trying to make him pregnant or break. He grip onto the edges of his desk, almost destroying it with his demonic strength. The pre-cum made it easier for you to go in and out of his warm and wet ass. His entrance sucked you greedy in, as if not planning for you to leave it.

— Such a good slut for me, huh? Your tiny hole seems not to want me to let go.— you said between moans, rubbing his pale waist in your hands.

— Uh-huh.....Haah...haaah...haaah...Not let go....haah...HAAH....HAAHH...— he said dumbly, without thinking twice before saying it. Feeling stupid from esctasy.

Hours passed, it was already morning and you two only just done having sex. You slip your cock out of his hole, making the cum drip from Muzan's ass. You looked at your dear husband that you spent your whole life as a demon. Admiring his appearance that looked so messy. It's kinda sad that the marks you left regenerate faster than you blink...But you still felt satisfaction, because you owned THE Muzan Kibutsuji.

— Very well, Y/N......you kept me satisfy.— Kibutsuji said, his voice breathless but his gaze intense. He pulls you towards him with strong grip, making you lay on top of his body. Rubbing your back and head with his hand.

— But you have to make me a bath with rose petals.— he demand, looking down at you with a smile. You snuggle against his chest, squeezing his nipples between your fingers. Making him glare at you.

— Control yourself. I want bath.—

— Hehehe....— you laughed nervously.

[velvees-archive]

Making my case for ManoSouta, Ace Attorney’s token doomed yaoi

Bronco knew, and still he told nobody.

Ace Attorney Investigations 2 full game spoilers ahead!

Chalk it up to lucky guesswork or my expertly honed writer’s intuition (sarcasm), but so rarely do I latch onto side ships that when I found myself gravitating towards Bronco (Manosuke Naito) x Simeon (Souta Sarushiro, hence ManoSouta) simply because of this line, I knew something was up…

…and boy was I right.

Simeon Saint’s fall from grace was a direct consequence of subjection to a corrupt justice system and equally as corrupted individuals. There was his father, who saw Simeon’s existence as a means to an end (the end being a pharmaceutical “recipe” book that could cure Gusto’s affliction and a shiny world class confectioner title), his best friend, who kidnapped him and almost killed him on his dad’s orders, and—if that wasn’t enough to destroy someone’s psyche—there was the presidential assassination trio, who tormented, interrogated, and dangled their judicial and executive power over him like a special-brand curse.

This is a character who hit rock bottom so long ago he believes nothing is left of him except agony, paranoia, and anger. He crafts an intricate revenge plot that dishes Simeon-esque justice to everyone who wronged him. The acts are performed mercilessly, too, no hesitation, regret, or unnecessary feelings involved in the flawless execution of his plan.

Well, almost.

There was one person in the same boat—no family, no longstanding companionship (barring each other)—who set Simeon’s descent in motion. Ironically, it is also through this person that we’re shown what remains of his humanity.

For me to talk about Simeon’s feelings as shown before we found out he was the mastermind, though, we have to see how he reacted after the big reveal. Upon being fingered as the villain, Simeon makes it clear he does not feel remorse towards any of the people “he” killed. After all, they drew first blood; Simeon firmly believes retaliation was warranted.

That is, until Miles clarifies the following points surrounding Simeon’s kidnapping, his memory loss, and the fate of his and Bronco’s fathers:

The reason Simeon was kidnapped wasn’t so Bronco’s dad could kill Simeon’s; Bronco was only meant to stall Simeon so he couldn’t help his dad win the confectionary competition finale

When a murder did occur, the victim of the murder was not Simeon’s dad, but Bronco’s.

This is how Simeon responds:

“He deserved to die!…Didn’t he?”

This line, in conjunction with the contemplative flashback shown in the video, conveys Simeon’s uncertainty/regret about inciting Knight’s murder, though one could argue this is only in reaction to the revelation rather than a lingering attachment to Knight, who he “stopped thinking” was his friend 18 years ago.

But then he follows it up with this.

“Then what was all this…for…!?”

At this point, you have to ask yourself why Simeon is questioning his entire plan (keyword in the quote is all, not just Bronco’s death) because he realized whose father actually died. Technically speaking, Bronco did still kidnap him. On top of that, everyone else Simeon exacted revenge on still wronged him, so it makes no sense to say this unless Bronco’s supposed role in “Simeon’s” father’s death was pivotal in Simeon’s decision to proceed with his whole plot. In other words, the reason Simeon questions his plot after Miles’ clarification is because this fundamental misunderstanding was what pushed him to take revenge on everyone in the first place. Bronco’s betrayal weighed so heavily on him that Simeon had no choice but to kill him in line with his principles, but he didn’t actually want to.

I’m not saying he wanted to spare Bronco because of the power of friendship or some misplaced sentimentality. It was inevitable that Bronco would die by Simeon’s hand because Simeon vowed to get his revenge on everyone who hurt him. What I am saying is that Simeon’s resolve is clearly shaken once Bronco’s role in his suffering is cleared up. As soon as Simeon realized Bronco’s dad didn’t murder his dad, he regretted killing his only friend. This is the only time Simeon shows remorse.

You might think Simeon’s hatred for Bronco stems from his kidnapping and its consequences, aka setting off the chain of events that would ruin Simeon’s life outside of “his” dad dying. However, Simeon doesn’t hold a grudge over Bronco for anything other than the kidnapping. The statement, ���If you hadn’t detained me 18 years ago…it wouldn’t have had to…end like this” is vastly different from “If you hadn’t detained me 18 years ago, none of this would have happened.” His “hatred” for Bronco was a personal grudge he had against his best friend, who also happened to be the son of his dad’s killer. Bronco was on Simeon’s list because his betrayal stung Simeon most. “What was all of this for” really meant, “I wouldn’t have gone through with any of this if I knew you weren’t involved.”

Had Simeon truly hated him, it’d be difficult to justify why he snuck away from his carnival preparations to talk to Bronco. Why did he pay such an incriminating visit when he’d already delivered Bronco’s chess set during visiting hours? And why did he tell Bronco he snuck something into it, leaving him vulnerable to counterattack should Bronco tattle?

Why did he bother saying goodbye?

Simeon’s actions betray logic because try as he might to hate Bronco with all his heart, he cared. Bronco Knight’s betrayal was the straw that broke the camel’s back, but imagine if the misunderstanding had been sorted from the start. Simeon's reaction to wrongfully killing Bronco was a stellar portrayal of his desire for genuine companionship, and a peek into what remained of his humanity before he was unmasked. He really was all alone.

If you’re still not sold on them being the doomed yaoi representatives of Ace Attorney, if a misplaced desire for revenge cutting their time short doesn’t make this tragic enough, then consider this: Bronco legitimately cared for and trusted Simeon, but unlike Simeon, he was left completely in the dark.

He’s legitimately excited to see Simeon’s performance. He happily awaited Simeon’s chess correspondences because he just likes being around him!!

Perhaps the biggest sticking point in all of this is that Simeon admitted he put something in his chess set, Bronco definitely opened his chess set, and yet when it came time for Fifi Laguarde to interrogate him (aka when she discovers the chisel), Bronco does not tell her he doesn’t own it, he does not tell her he’s been set up, and he does not tell her his best friend—who the precinct knows visited him—is the one who put it there. Why didn’t Bronco tell her?

That’s the greatest pull of their dynamic: we don’t know. Maybe everything happened too fast. Maybe he did try to protest. Maybe he ratted Simeon out but Laguarde was already in hysterics. Maybe Bronco didn’t understand why the chisel frenzied the warden so, and paid the ultimate price for it.

Or maybe, just maybe, Bronco already knew the moment he saw the chisel. Maybe he died a knowing victim of Simeon’s retribution. Maybe he thought it better that the knowledge of their past—Paul Halique’s ring and Simeon’s secret hatred— dissolve with his last breath.

Worse yet, maybe he couldn’t believe Simeon would do something like this. Maybe he continued to have blind faith in him despite the damning evidence. Maybe he believed in him.

[makimacult]

thoughts on madk (spoilers!)

the tension that winds through madk is that demons both require their names to be spoken in order to continue to exist, and hide their names from others so that they can't be controlled

makoto reaches the conclusion that he will be able to speak j's name once he isn't "unnerved" - demons and their names are all a metaphor for hierarchies.

j is powerful bc hes entirely isolated himself so far. nothing can be used against him, and no one knows who he truly is. all the demons in madk aspire to be j (makoto) or consider him their benefactor (makoto, fjord, datenshou)—and then there's kieran, who does still feel a complicated kind of affection for j viz. he still remembers j as a child, and can tailor his appearance exactly to resemble j after centuries.

everyone who aspires to/associates with the world of initialed demons (whose pinnacle is represented by j) gives up more and more "humanity" to belong to that world. datenshou and shax can only carve out a life away from the hierarchy; they give up any chance of associating with the world of initialed demons to live in the slums. it's impossible to pursue genuine love and affection while you exist in a system that's built on exploiting others and showcasing your own supremacy.

ultimately, makoto supersedes j. everyone who survives forgets their hate. initially in vol. 1, makoto says he wanted to destroy j out of revenge. j fulfills his desires and makoto falls in love with him; but at the same time j toys with makoto's autonomy and makes it clear that they're on different levels. j quite literally sticks makoto's severed head onto a dog—it can't be any clearer that altho j has fondness for makoto, at this point he still sees him as nothing but a pet

so by vol. 3, makoto finally confronts j while he's assured of his own superiority. now he thinks—i wanted your respect. how can anyone really love something inferior to them? true love is a thing that can only occur between equals. but in madk's demon hierarchies, there are only superiors and inferiors. falling in love is fatal for a demon, and renders them at the mercy of the one they fall (quite literally, in rank) for.

the ending comes full circle. makoto is now in j's place. he stands at the pinnacle of hell, yet he is no one. no one can speak his name. fjord is the only tether who still remembers "makoto" the human boy j took in. to everyone else, he's m, the archduke. makoto has survived, and now he's forgotten his hate. the only thing he has left is emptiness - he used up all of himself in reaching j, striving to earn his respect. everything he became was in service of j, and now that there is no j, there is no makoto either. you can't exist in this state of suspended animation, no matter how invincible it makes you. if no one can speak your name, no one can hurt you; but that means no one can touch you either. so makoto continues the cycle, searching for someone he can groom into his equal, and subsequently his superior, and destroy him.

madk doesn't try to portray demons as entirely foreign to humans; in fact demons are more powerful the more human they look. madk's demons are raw human urges distilled - they do long for intimacy, but while existing in a hierarchy, they can only obtain that intimacy thru violence. madk's about eroguro yaoi but it's also such a raw look at power dynamics in relationships - someone can save you, but do they actually see you as an equal? what will it take to earn their respect? when you are fully understood, you are also completely vulnerable - and in madk that single moment of vulnerability is both what everyone wants inside & also fatal to demons.

[tinseltrinkets]

I don’t know why people think that in order to appreciate Viktor and Mel, both individually and in their relation to Jayce, one has to be discounted or dehumanized.

It does a disservice to all three characters, putting Mel and Viktor’s worth entirely on Jayce and turning Jayce into nothing more than a trophy of honor.

All three of them had, in different ways, beautiful relationships with each other.

Do I believe in JayVik endgame? Yeah.

But do I also think that Mel and Jayce had a beautiful connection, not just as romantic partners but as genuine friends, and that this doesn’t have to be ignored for Jayce and Viktor’s to be realized? Of course.

Fandom does thrive off discourse, but it also thrives on appreciation. We can advocate for the appreciation of one character without bringing down another.

A lot of those who discredit JayVik do so in the acknowledgment of the misogynoir towards Mel. This is definitely a factor, especially when she’s made out to be only an obstacle or experience for Jayce to realize Viktor is his soulmate.

But this doesn’t need to be accompanied with ableism towards Viktor and homophobia towards the ship itself.

Some people might ship JayVik because yaoi, but that doesn’t mean there’s no merit to it or that that’s everyone’s reason.

JayVik is not, by any means, forced.

Their motivations from the start to discover something revolutionary is from a displaced need for love and appreciation.

Jayce wants to feel worthy of appreciation and feel that he’s contributed something to the world. He explicitly states when talking about being unable to help Viktor that he hates to feel useless, and I don’t think that’s a disingenuous statement.

Viktor wants to feel that his appreciation is something that matters, that he matters and that by going above and beyond in contributing to society, he’s disproving all the misconceptions of his value that he’s internalized.

The reveal that Viktor was that mage that propelled this dream in both of them aligns both with the plotline and the themes. Two people realizing that their love (however you interpret it) for each other was the real dream, the memories of discovery being re-contextualized to emphasize the discovery of each other rather than of a scientific breakthrough, is truly remarkable.

Along with this, Mel and Jayce’s journey, especially pertaining to Mel’s character, showing that through seeing that the gifts she was taught to value for their ability to manipulate and attain power can be used to heal and connect with others and connect with herself past her expectations as Medarda and discover herself as a person who is warm, kind, and powerful in a way she couldn’t imagined without it accompanying violence, intimidation, and a complete lack of warmth or intimacy, is also remarkable.

While this is wonderful by itself, I’m glad that Mel is going to be the center of a new story, where she doesn’t just have to discover herself, but also hopefully connection with others. A lot of the time, the “strong black woman who doesn’t need anyone else” is sort of an excuse to not flesh out her relationship to other characters. People other than Jayce. Even Jayce and Viktor had other positive connections in their lives. So far we haven’t Mel truly be able to connect with anyone outside of Jayce, which thus far had made sense for her character as she had to keep a lot of her relationships pragmatic. But now she has the opportunity to be herself and use her gifts the way she wants to.

I think instead of hoping that her and Jayce’s relationship will be rejuvenated to fulfill this (because unfortunately, yes, he has been the only character she’s been able to connect with positively), we should be excited for the potential of her having her own story.

[thirteenthdoor]

Wu Qi opens up his phone in the last episode to reveal the charming mobile game he calls "the Spirealm," even though nothing about the game itself seems to indicate that it's supposed to be called that. He says it's a great stress reliever!

Somebody put so much work into these three screens, and in two seconds flat, Wu Qi flips through them:

The title screen, as I mentioned in the assorted doors post, features chibi Lin Qiushi, Ruan Nanzhu (whose hair is parted on the wrong side), Toast, and Chestnut, all posed adorably in front of a chibi version of the Snow Village door. It is important to me to note that if you zoom in, you can see Chibi Nanzhu still has the beauty marks under his right eye.

Featuring Lin Qiushi in his starting outfit and Ruan Nanzhu in his New Year's special costume, perfect for staring dreamily at your beloved while he makes you dumplings.

I'm wondering why the ❤ meter and the ♂ meter at the top both seem to have ... oh, that's a key, not a Mars symbol. And you can buy more keys in the points store over to the left, not more maleness. You have to understand, I'm not doing a bit here. I literally just realized that that's not supposed to be a BL meter up at the top there. Because of course I was just like, well, yeah, of course Lin Qiushi's yaoi score would be off the charts.

Flip over to screen two for the logo! Friends On An Adventure! (At least, if the subtitles I have are to be trusted.) The logo goes through a little door, and there's a kaleidoscope there with it. The little chibi heads of Qiushi and Nanzhi tile the background. There is text down at the bottom, but it is far too tiny for me to make heads or tails of.

And on screen 3, we see the relaxing game itself! Playing in front of the Snow Village door -- which is now appropriately snowy -- we get a litle game screen filled with familiar monster friends.

Zooming in for the appreciation factor here: We're apparenly playing a match-3 game with the Woman in the Rain, the Snow Village girl, the Sunny Doll teacher, the nurse from Waverly Hills (even though her outfit is blue), and Sako's left leg. There's also little yellow kaleidoscope squares and ... whatever the pink thing is. What's the pink thing? Someone else help me identify the pink thing. It looks like it has a little face on it. There seems to be one down at the bottom of the screen, like some kind of power-up, but there it lacks a face.

And that's it! So much work put into a such a briefly shown gag! So again, please enjoy me in appreciating it through the much slower medium of screenshots.

[danmei-hot-takes]

i see a lot of people on this blog talking about smut vs no smut, but I firmly believe that every bl fan falls into one of two camps.

The first one is the group of people that believe smut scenes are simply part of bl; that without it, it's like pancakes without syrup. Fine, enjoyable even given the right pancake recipe, but definitely lacking something. People in this camp can vary in their enjoyment of smut, with some people practically forcing themselves through everything else to get to it, to others simply enjoying it just as much as the rest of the ride.

The other group is made of those who don't believe that smut is an integral part of bl. This camp tends to err on the side of disliking smut. Rather than smut being the syrup on your pancakes, it's like sprinkles on your ice cream. Does it look sparkly and attract a lot of customers? Yes. Does it actually bring anything substantial to the ice cream? No, and it might even disrupt the creamy texture of the ice cream. Like the first group, people in this one can vary in their enjoyment of smut. Some people like it, some are closer to tolerating the scenes when they come along, and others actively avoid it.

My hot take is that camp 2 "should" be correct. And this doesn't have anything to do with purity or the idea that sex is immoral or inappropriate. I myself enjoy smut in various types of media - manhwa, danmei, fanfiction, and even live action bl series. However, I think that one of the main arguments that camp 1 uses to defend their stance is that besides the fact that it can just be enjoyable for the sake of being enjoyable, it's a good insight to the characters, their relationship dynamic, and their development. I don't necessarily disagree, and I think it can be true, just not as often as people seem to think.

The thing is, I believe that if a book is written well, it should be able to communicate those things without smut. A character's personality/development and the way it relates to the other character's personality/development doesn't only show itself through sex. A real human's character is evident in many different scenarios, rather than only when getting down and dirty, so why should it be any different for danmei characters?

If I had to put myself in a camp, it'd be the second one. That said, I have nothing against sprinkles on my ice cream, to bring the metaphor back for a moment. And I have no problem with you if you prefer your ice cream with sprinkles. But I do feel a little icky when anyone starts talking about how you should or shouldn't want them. And if I wished that there were more ice cream that came with less sprinkles, or none at all, that doesn't mean I'm against sprinkles existing as a topping. It only means I don't want sprinkles as a default.

Y’know what this is a completely valid argument and I understand what you’re saying and the analogy is solid.

However… I do believe in the power of a payoff. I’m also old and started my bl journey reading yaoi scanlations and fully support the whole ‘no climax, no point, no meaning’ rhetoric.

I’m more lenient when it comes to danmei because of censorship, though I do favour smut peddling. It’s basically the reason that I’ve never got into manhua. All the manhwa I read is r rated.

I dunno, I just find reading smut really calming.

Basically what I’m saying is, the art of writing itself is important and there’s a lot of really good bl creators out there. But sometimes, sometimes you just need to see a monster cock before you can sleep at night.

[mellohiizz]

Heh.... guess whos back to yap even more.... (its glitchduo anon) if this is too long and you dont want to reply thats totally cool however i saw you were interested in ashs character and i just HAD to assist...

(Everything neg here is about the characters not ccs btw, most of it is /aff anyways :3)

Ok so im assuming you know the general gist of s4 which is kind of all i know about it aside from like one or two vods ive fully watched. You also probably know about swagdoons which are the enemies to lovers (sometimes) of lifesteal and they try to kill each other but kiss afterwards..... they are the yaoi ever but ill try to be less insane about them to keep this rant focused

most of my REAL info about ash is from mid s5 and s6 which is when i started watching streams more than the videos, however i know he tries to portray himself as the big scary villain in s4 but honest to god he was apologizing PROFUSELY for the smallest things that guy is NAWT a truly heartless villain although he is pretty selfish and greedy but. Well:

before getting into his character i thought he like fully hated everyone, would never try to help someone else, was a general asshole etc etc but the more i paid attention to him the more i realized that yeah i guess he is those things but there is at least one person he gives a shit about (squiddo) and by god does he care a LOT about her

he also is pretty pathetic actually.... when his peace thing in s5 didnt work out he immediately went back to trying to be evil and selfish in s6... hmm its almost like he reverts back to hating everyone before they think hes a loser hmmm... its also really funny because this guy can BARELY pvp so he's very all or nothing on his dramatic gestures (eg he cant take over the server with pvp so he does it with the wormhole which imo is 500% more impressive, although i dont know very much about pvp)

despite him being pathetic he is def a force to be reckoned with, hes very idle until provoked and the provokation is usually out of spite and malice but that guy will stop at Nothing to get what he wants once he has a good enough motive (and doesnt have collage work)

he also gives me false god vibes but like... hes sort of AWARE hes a false god but does not want to admit it At All. i think its really interesting that the season after he became god he was made a host for a god (he actually confirms hes possesed by the commisioner/overseer/lifesteallord when he talks as them btw absolutely wild) and i think it would be cool if that was intentionally to like. Humble him. Show him a real god, not just an immortal guy with flying powers

(This is a little more of a headcanon but i think its feasable) i think that since his s5 loss, being his first major loss in any season ever, hes lost a sense of self in lifesteal, sitting in his house thats too big with empty walls and emptier reasoning. not to mention hes teamless and his only ally/friend is squiddo and thats not even official 😭😭

so yeah my guy is Going Through It... someone get this man hot chocolate and a warm blanket or maybe a picnic with his Best and Only Friend 🙁🙁

(Oh yea if you want a general idea of s5 onwards and dont have time for streams or really long cinematic videos i would recommend squiddos videos on it, theyre rarely over 15-20 minutes and there are only seven right now so you can get through them in a few days if you're REALLY crunched for time ^_^)

hello again glitchduo anon!! giggles i kind of know some general lore?? but mostly out of things i see on here about it, or like clips/vods i'm able to watch when i have time? so yeah... ash's character is very interesting to me, and honestly, what you said about him aligned pretty well with what i did see of him, but like... not in lifesteal, but the character he played in spoke's unstable videos. bro was literally begging for attention and alliance, and then turned around and BOOM twist villain jumpscare he's actually evil... he was acting off the whole time (ignoring mapicc, probably because he knew mapicc was harder to manipulate, and being very obnoxious about getting close to spoke in particular), so that checked out (sorry, i can yap about unstable for so long, im so insane about it) but yeah, i really really enjoy watching him do his thing, and i want to study him in a lab like a weird microorganism or something definitely was getting the false god vibes too btw from i did see of him in lifesteal (which was mostly just other people's vods) actually the whole being host of a god sounds so interesting?? that's definitely the first time i heard about something like this and i love everything having to do with possessions and stuff like that definitely one of the top characters i actually want to know more about (second close is minutetech i'd say) and don't worry, i really like reading what you send in, it actually helps a lot and it's very interesting!! the moment i opened my inbox and saw a lot of text i was like "oh yeah i know who this is from" (/hj/aff btw) thank you for taking the time to give me more knowledge i guess :33 !!

[butch-bakugo]

Anyway part of the issue with y'all not being able to have any actual reading comprehension and zero media literacy and fandomizing everything into whatever smol shy bean x abusive grump yaoi bullshit in EVERY FUCKING MEDIA EVER is because the only shit you read is fanfiction. When shown any classics and made to read them in school, shit that has serious fucking social commentary about racism, abuse of power, mental disability and so much else wrong with the world and what it covers up, you called it abusive and stunting.

The outsiders was not abusive, huckleberry finn was not abusive, of mice and men was not abusive. 1984 is not abusive literature. The great Gatsby did not stunt your growth into " a lover of writing and books".

Maybe political fiction is not your cup of tea, maybe you have to have a wand in your story to feel something but if you seriously refuse to actually acknowledge that books are nothing more than another medium for stories and not just something to jerk off or cry to, don't bother calling yourself a "book nerd".

If your definition of being a lover of LGBT literature and the only shit you can squeeze out of your white marble polished perfectly safe in the middle class anus is heartbreaker and red white and royal blue, you don't fucking know LGBT literature. Those are not informative tales about the real life experiences of LGBT people like you'd find in stone butch blues or the bisexual manifesto or anything actually historical, they are fluff.

And.

The sooner you accept that your only taste is in fluff, the better off you and everyone else is. Don't come screaming to anyone about LGBT history and mean ugly lesbians or some bullshit when all your LGBT media is fictional and sanitized.

Its the reason you can't get into any stories without an audience surrogate. Its why you hate reading anything other than y/n. Its why you hate 3rd person. Its why your misinformed and spread LGBT stereotypes then turn them into quirky casts of people who are hollow and empty with randomized skin tones, body weights, flags of origin and genders yet still somehow always end up with a bubbily nonbinary Transmasc pansexual and mean bitchy black lesbian and smol bean white trans man and the bulky muscular trans woman. All totally "by accident", right?

I'm not for gatekeeping but I don't think it's unreasonable to expect someone who claims to love to learn but can't even sit through a measly 200 pg book about the historical significance of The butch community but has endless hours for whatever grifter slop gets shat out on Netflix or Hulu where it's the same 5 people with the same 5 identities and still somehow centers two white cis gay men who are blonde and brunette respectively and probably can't even tell me the year stonewall happened let alone the aids crisis to know a god damn thing about LGBT history. I don't think that person should try to speak like an authority. I think they should shut up and listen actually. If you can't even take your fucking Hogwarts house out of your bio in fucking 2025, 10 fucking years after Joanne has been outed as a fucking racist homophobic terfy fucking terrorist, maybe JUST MAYBE that person doesn't fucking know what transmysogny and transandrophobia is and should not be calling shit terf rhetoric or telling entire groups of people their oppression doesn't exist.

Learn your fucking history. Steven universe and Voltron and Drag race isn't fucking LGBT history.

[junglejim4322]

thanks bro 🔥 csa and an attempted s/a 3 times is something i'll never truly be able to recover from and i can never fully talk about it to anyone, and that it's hard to really understand why it happened at all, or why you continue to exist, and that its harder to trust yourself and other people but slowly i'm trying to befriend more people and take care of myself for the better,, i didn't survive it for nothing so i try to live for the child version of myself that wanted to survive 🙏 it still sucks but atleast i got my yaoi and a motivation to live 💯🙏 may the world let us both live in peace because we deserve it man 🗣️

It’s true that every type of abuse I’ve experienced has caused such an insane level of trust issues in others but also myself and my instincts that I know is not realistic or healthy but I also have come to learn people are sometimes capable of things you’d never ever ever expect them to be and I don’t think trust is something that’s on the table for me right now (yes I know that’s insane but hez-in-therapy dw) but I agree I’m trying to form more relationships and be more open to getting close with people and I’ve found I’m able to navigate the fact that I am on guard in a way where I can still have friends and get close to people even though there’s a huge barrier between me and everyone which is not ideal but i know it won’t always be that way so right now we make do

I’ve also vaguely eluded to it or whatever with a couple people who’ve been through something similar and by a couple of people I mean one lmao and perhaps a second but I was too drunk to remember (hez-coping-healthily) but it helped a lot because every time I try to talk about it I feel like I’m lying for some reason like real weird guilt idfk but someone else who understands but speaks in vague code as well and doesn’t have to ask for details to understand what you mean is cathartic I think. Me and my homies speak fluent emotionally stunted.

And I completely agree I think that’s a really good outlook honestly it’s true that so many times I’m like man I survived so much shit I’m never going to let something fully take me down. tonight I will never die! It’s true you survived this shit for a reason and making life better is the priority me n you will find peace and the most powerful thing of all is the there’s always yaoi.. you’ll always have yaoi

[cosmicjoke]

Hi, I read your post about shipping and you just said everything that I have been wanting to say. Well , I admit to be an eruri shipper, But for my personal interests about these two very well written characters and the special relationship they share. It doesn't have to be romantic and thier lives don't have to revolve around each other. I won't go out my way insinuating Levi was all about Erwin and shit. That is totally disregarding his character.

I read eruri fics on ao3 everyday and I want to say most of them misinterpret both thier characters for sake of their "yaoi" fantasy. I am sick of it. I won't say don't ship who you want. I am an eruri shipper too but doing this is totally childish.

I think Levi was the one person Erwin trusted with his whole life and he was last and only person who ever understood who he was and saw him as a human. In a way Erwin's own va( Ono daisuke) saying Levi was the last holder of Erwin's remaining humanity. And Erwin being a commander who Levi trusted implicitly. Humanity needed Erwin but now that Erwin doesn't have the drive anymore he wouldn't be able to be the same commander, as you said. Levi saved him from living life of a devil, floch wanted and gave him salvation from the dream that was borne of his guilt and childish curiosity which turned him this cold but coldness was needed for his commandership.

Thier relationship is very well written even more so, in my opinion , Canon ship, I like the complexity and intricacies of thier relationship romantic or platonic. But those toxic shipper demoting thier characters to just revolve around each other and forgetting thier true motives is infuriating.

Levi's priority was and is always HUMANITY,FIRST AND FOREMOST.

Erwin was slave to his dream, Levi freed him of it and Erwin was grateful to have someone take this burden of this guilt and dream away and giving him some clarity and epiphany. Erwin knew Levi would never let humanity down, so hence letting him make his final choice.

Erwin provided Levi a way to serve humanity in survey corps, thier relationship is fascinating. But your point is valid and true to it's meaning. THANK YOU.

Hi there, and thank you so much, I really appreciate it.

I don't have any problem whatsoever with shipping Levi and Erwin, and in fact, the vast majority of fanfic I read is eruri, which is why it's so funny to me that I keep getting attacked over being "biased" against the ship, lol. I'm not at all, I'm just able to separate it from actual canon. Something I don't think should be hard to do.

Indeed, Levi and Erwin have one of the bets and most complex relationships IN canon, far more complex and, imo, meaningful than if they were simply a romantic couple, which is also why I don't understand this fanatical need by some shippers to make it into some cliched romance.

For sure, Erwin trusted Levi above everyone else, and in the end, that trust was rewarded, because Levi saw through to Erwin's heart, in a way I think even Erwin himself couldn't see. Levi trusted in Erwin for a reason too. He saw a goodness in Erwin that Erwin was blind to. So when Erwin doubted his own worth as a leader, and was beginning to question if he'd committed some horrific wrong because his personal motivation underpinned his commandership, Levi reaffirmed his belief in him and gave him a chance at redemption. Indeed, Levi gave Erwin his humanity back, when it was on the verge of being lost, and in the end, by choosing as he did to let Erwin die, he allowed Erwin to keep his humanity and to die worthy of his title.

That's way more powerful and meaningful than some silly, formulaic love story where Levi betrays everyone and everything for his love of one man, lol. I don't even know why people are into that concept, or into the concept of Levi being so rapturously enamored with Erwin, that nothing else matters to him but pleasing him or doing his bidding.

Levi chose to follow Erwin because he believed in Erwin as a leader with a far reaching vision, and as someone who could lead humanity to victory over the titans, and was pure in his intentions to fight for humanity. He saw him as admirably devoted to that duty, and believed in him for that devotion.

Anyway, thank you again for reaching out!

[lixahl]

tell me about illidan and arane. tell me evedyrbing

anyone else love 15 thousand+ year old man yaoi. because i sure do. they haunt my every waking thought. they love each other sooooooooooo much

so it allllll starts in val'sharah where younger teen arane is harboring a crush on illidan and is too shy to interact with him and elects to leave anonymous gifts of various tailored goods (capes, blankets, bags, etc) for illidan at the stormrage's doorstep. eventually he gives up on his little crush and is content to just exist from afar, and then once the moon guard is established ends up getting with a mage there... who's hotheaded and way too self assured. offbrand illidan, even. he gets jabbed at it to this day on occasion, to which arane just responds with "perhaps i have a type" and tries to move on from the conversation LOL

then the first invasion of the legion happens and illidan soft-establishes the illidari (which isn't as large as it is during the second legion invasion - it's very few people who had already been devoted to illidan (like elissae) and a few who note the power illidan gains). arane, who has lost both his grandmother (who raised him and he was VERY close to) and his partner, joins the ranks of demon hunters to get revenge. arane is noted to be especially brutal during this time, which illidan takes note of.

after a while, arane kind of snaps out of it and realizes while slaughtering demons is good, he could do more good for the illidari as a healer - he had previously been a (resto) druid and his knowledge of sewing could also be used in medicine (stitches/sutures all that good stuff). arane approaches illidan to suggest that he could be a main healer for the illidari, so they would have less causalities post-battles. illidan agrees to this, and decides to also raise up arane's ranking to be illidan's right hand man.

this new role means arane and illidan end up having a more personal, closer relationship. arane's old crush on illidan comes back full force, and he tries to avoid illidan for a bit while processing that. illidan ends up getting pretty majorly injured, and arane has to manage tending to those wounds while forcing illidan to rest, as well as sending out orders for the illidari. illidan confronts arane about avoiding him and under the stress of trying to manage everything, arane accidentally confesses and there's just awkward silence. arane apologizes and says to forget it and illidan's like... but what if i dont? and they start a relationship but keep it secret, as it could be used against either of them as blackmail.

and then illidan gets imprisoned for 10 thousand years and before that, he sends off his most trusted illidari (elissae and arane) to keep at work and avoid getting captured. arane pines for illidan and tries to plan ways to get him out, but nothing ever gets done.

then the legion returns (burning crusade). illidan is let out, and Officially has the illidari formed. arane returns to illidan's side, once again established as his right hand, and is once more set out onto demons. they take over black temple, and you know. Burning Crusade happens. arane is set out to lead the invasion of mardum, does so, and then is forced to face illidan's death at black temple. he tries to go silly again but is imprisoned by the wardens.

legion returns... TWO!!! during the attack on the vault, arane is let out, and when they get to illidan's body being taken by cordana and gul'dan, it's so over for arane. he goes silly mode and is nearly killed during the confrontation. he's pulled away by elissae, who's just as furious. they manage to JUST recover the glaives of azzinoth, which are entrusted to arane by elissae (who's the only person who knows about the relationship between the two).

then we go through the whole demon hunter class hall questline, where arane is VERY dead-set on reviving illidan. to this end, he also assists in the freeing of the nightborne from legion occupation, joining the raid on the nighthold. illidan is set free after the gul'dan fight, and arane's so excited he runs into illidan's arms and is twirled around in his arms and they kiss. who gives a fuck if people know now, it's been far too long and they love each other a lot.

broken shore happens + arane gets his bat + illidan is slightly jealous of the bat. he won't admit to this.

and THEN we have argus. oh boy do we have argus. at the end of antorus, where illidan is trying to stay with imprisoned sargeras and does that stupid ass monologue. arane begs illidan to stay with him, to return to azeroth, and convinces him. they go back, and illidan doesn't want to live in stormwind (or god forbid, teldrassil), so they find a fairly isolated place in krasarang on the beach. they find a huge fucking tree and just make a treehouse. something like this but with traditional night elf architecture

they're retired nowadays, occasionally giving suggestions/orders to the illidari, who are currently being mainly led by elissae. they end up eventually having a baby, but i don't think there's an established time on when that happens. especially considering night elf ages. they're like people who have an accidental baby at 45.

i do think they're currently (in dragonflight) honeymooning by fishing everywhere on the dragon isles. other champions of azeroth fly past them on dragons during a dragonriding race over water and are like "was that illidan fucking stormrage" and can't address that further.

onto their actual relationship dynamics. because it's cute.

(artist is @ bamicommissions on here, bami_arts on twitter)

they're both very touchy-feely on each other. hands constantly on the other's lower back. arane hanging onto illidan's arm. rubbing each other's shoulders all the time. elissae is forever tired by this pda from her dads. it's jarring to anyone who knows illidan as a gruff edgelord.

arane loves using "dear" and "love" to refer to illidan, who in turn, uses even more ridiculous pet names. think "honeybun" and "sweetiepie". he mostly does this to annoy elissae (and tyrande if she's in the vicinity), and uses "my love" and "darling" and the likes more seriously.

illidan is a dom bottom-leaning switch btw :thumbsup:. arane is getting his hips demolished. get that old man a hip replacement!!!!! his husband is destroying him!!!!!!!! ok bye.

what illidan sees vs what arane sees. thank you for listening

[cantalooprat]

Traces of the Sun (manhwa)

it also has a novel on cg but its not completed yet which is a pity bc the novel has the r19 parts

came here to scream bc this is what the tumblr is for... traces of the sun is really truly peak iceberg black-bellied top with an agenda and "i'd do whatever to get what i want" bottom who wants to die like All their seemingly sweet and romantic moments Always have sa hyeon's serial killer smile peppered and every time i see it im like wtf im reading solo leveling yaoi (lol) not psychological thriller??? and i lowkey have doubts about sa hyeon as ml ngl.

sa hyeon seems crazy and a control freak but somehow i can accept him than just ur average yandere, mb its bc he actually has a goal and isnt just obsessed w jeong yiseon? most other yandere ml seems to fall in the camp of "i dont care abt anything else other than you" but sa hyeon has a plan and it's jeong yiseon's unexpected impact on his life that derails it and that's exactly what makes it so good. beneath all the manipulation and control freak tendencies he really does care abt jeong yiseon, and when jeong yiseon jumped and thought that sa hyeon would be able to move on quickly and forget him i was like nah no more of that sa hyeon has fallen far too deep to just forget. the moment sa hyeon chose jeong yiseon's life over his carefully crafted plan, he's already long gone. despair rly looks good on sa hyeon lmao he always has this calm smile as if he has everything is under his control and even he thinks that jeong yiseon has already been controlled when he admitted his feelings so it was so extremely satisfying when jeong yiseon jumped and sa hyeon Panicked and looked so sad and even jumped after him and then begged for his love... the catharsis... then also when he signed jeong yiseon to go to a therapist bc thats what most ppl do even though he doesn't really believe in it like man thats love right there he rly does want jeong yiseon to get better.

jeong yiseon is also really...driven. although not really in a good way. poor guy has nothing left in his life but trauma and is just looking for a way to end himself, and when he does fall in love it's with a person who just sees him as a means to an end, someone he thought wouldn't reciprocate his feelings anyway. it makes sense that he doesnt go through "character development" bc u dont overcome trauma that easily right, healing is a long process. but ironically his goal is also what makes him a good match for sa hyeon bc he's basically immune to sa hyeon's manipulation, he has a goal and he's using sa hyeon as much as he's also being used. it's perfectly exemplified when jeong yiseon reverse uno'd sa hyeon by revealing that he was also using his feelings to get sa hyeon to use his power on him like bet u didnt expect to get used too, huh?

idk where im going w this i just think traces of the sun is so peak n need a place to dump my thoughts

241223 edit i wanna yap abt tts some more

this shot up to become my fav bl manhwa in one weekend, which in hindsight isnt v surprising considering my fav subgenre in danmei is unlimited flow and dungeon/hunter setting is basically the kr equivalent of it and tts does hit some of the v specific tropes that im v v v weak for

the more i think abt it the more i love how their love story is basically set up to fail from the very beginning. yiseon wants nothing else other than to undo the restoration he did on his friends and then join them in the afterlife, while hyeon is a man with an agenda to overthrow his half-brother and become the rightful guild leader and both of them are willing to do anything to achieve their goals. in the beginning, what they have is purely a contractual relationship, and whatever sweet or nice things hyeon does for yiseon, he claims it's to improve yiseon's conditions and things like that, and yiseon himself just goes along with it albeit rather reluctantly. they fall in love, but hyeon is emotionally constipated (or at least the way he grows up forces him to be like that) and yiseon thinks it's something unrequited anyway. it makes me wonder if that's part of the reason why yiseon fell in love, or allowed himself to, because if he were to fall for someone who would reciprocate his feelings, then he'd have something to live for, and he can't have that now, can he, when he plans to join his friends after he fulfills his contract with hyeon. he's even carefully planned it out by asking hyeon to use his nullification powers in exchange for restoring hyeon's father's heartbeat.

and that's really one of the best parts of their love story---that yiseon does fall in love but doesn't expect hyeon to reciprocate, and that he's willing to weaponize it to get what he wants. a red flag ml needs a strong counter and so many times it seems so imbalanced because it's either the ml is yandere towards the mc and the mc indulges him or the ml knows how to hide his yandere tendencies and the mc is oblivious. but yiseon is perfectly aware from the very beginning and even enjoys the warmth he gets from hyeon---but that's it, he doesn't want anything more, doesn't expect anything more other than the fulfillment of their contract, therefore making him someone hyeon can't control and what makes their dynamic feel balanced. i love it. sa hyeon played himself by agreeing to the contract and then falling for jeong yiseon without realizing it and then getting traumatized because of the contract they agreed on, it's so peak. he set himself up for failure. it's like having a scum top except he's not really scum. it's doubly delicious because there's groveling but it's not like he really wronged yiseon, hyeon did exactly what yiseon wanted, but it was the outcome that he didn't want. like the whole situation could have been avoided if hyeon had realized his feelings a little earlier and pursued yiseon a little more sincerely or even responded to yiseon's "confession" but nooo he's emotionally constipated and thinks that it's safe now that yiseon is "on the palm of his hands" but yiseon one-upped him. like am i evil for saying that i love it when hyeon got traumatized because despair really does look good on him... it's the gap moe. he was smirking and smiling so calmly in the beginning that seeing him fall apart is so cathartic.

[the-mcyt-crackships-brackets]

Also demon yaoi is the couple that should really be divorced but aren't.

They have schedualed dragon egg omlete and mimosa brunches once a week that involve bit- complaining dramatically about the gay winged men in their lives (as well as everyone else) and multiple posioning/murdering attempts.

To quote a completely different crackship: "Only two terrible, terrible HIGHLY Dramatic, self serving, incredibly damaged, gay peacocks."

It's power grabs and threats and "dates" and claws-around-the-others-throat and one-upping through gifts and something-something-honda-odyssey-something-something-knee-deep-in-the-passanger-seat-something-something.

- the Fwhilza Analyst (also consider the psycic damage Phil and Scott would get from learning about their relationship. Especially if it's after Fwhilza becomes an actuall thing.)

Nothing better than two creechurs who starts dating to fuck with the guys they're related too before ending up really liking each other

[absolutebl]

Hi, absolutebl.......Do you mind if I ask you some random thing? I used to love shoujo/josei manga and het romance kdrama equally....But ever since I found BL manga 3 years ago, my interest in shoujo and het romance decrese a lot, and what I search for is just the dynamic between mc (male) and male lead...I don't want to read or watch mc (female) and male lead or mc (male) and female lead...

What do you think happen to me? (Sorry for this weird ask)

Really love your blog....Thank you so much, for sharing your BL analyses, reviews and recs. I learn a lot from you. Some of my fav BL series, I found them from you.....Thanks.....

Do you mind if I ask again for BL recs? Because I know here are users that did not want to receive different asks from the same person.....

Also, have you watched dmbj or read orv? Both series based on a novels that have very strong bromance vibe.....

Do you know that sotus, manner of death and 2together are adapted into manga? Before I found your blog, BL that I read are from manga and manhwa, and I was surprised when I knew that the series above are from thai drama (I know the manga first, sorry).....

Last ask, what do you think about BL or GL that make it better than het romance? Do you feel that too?

Sorry for this very long ask, if you mind, I will not ask again......Hope you have a wonderful day.....

Honestly I don't know. But I can say it happened to me with manga a very long time ago. I switched from reading bodice rippers to yaoi and pretty much stopped reading anything het romance after that. (I still read scifi & fantasy that's not primarily romance, although not as much as I once did.)

Fortunately for me, the M/M self publishing revolution, and then BL, came along.

That said, I did pick up Kdramas (via Kpop), and they are now the only het I watch.

I've gone through phases where yaoi or m/m or BL was ALL I was consuming for a couple years. And then just stopped. Stared reading more widely for a while. (I'm making the comparison with books because I have never had the opportunity to do this level of obsession with cinema before, there has never before been enough on screen queer romances for me to just watch those and nothing else until 2020. Now there is.

Honestly, I don't know why this happened or me, or anyone else.

To understand why we like a thing, let alone obsesses or fixate on a thing, is so complex. Maybe it's because I come out of kink but I've learned to just go with the fetish... as it were.

It's like trying to understand why you like a particular dish, song, fashion, color, painting, architecture, even a plant or animal. I mean we can come up with explanations, flavor profiles, childhood formation of taste, family backgrounds, and so forth. Or academic analysis to do with disenfranchisement and the psychological appeal of narrative and beauty.

But sometimes often we like a thing because we like a thing.

I know, for humans, the "why" is our most powerful question. (Marketing also knows this, incidentally.) One of the reasons we tell stories AT ALL (to ourselves, to others, around a campfire in ancient times) is our search for the eternal why. It gave us mythology. It gave us religion.

But sometimes, especially with art, I feel like it's better just to dwell in wonder and grey spaces. The awe and the enjoyment itself, without understanding, it part of the experience.

Worship at the church of BL? Is that what this is? Maybe?

Some kinda thoughts anyway?

Generally these narratives provide a sense of comfort. Perhaps our love is something to do with characters who normally struggle (and usually are marginalized, tortured, killed and/or miserable) getting their happy evers? Perhaps it's because it's pure fantasy in terms of relationship. (I think for a lot of straight women there is something profoundly alluring in a gay relationship that they had/have no chance of every experiencing or being part of, the otherness itself is part of the appeal.) Perhaps its the lack, we never before had enough content to get obsessed over it to this level. (Let's not talk about the number of times I rewatched Latter Days after I got it on DVD, okay?)

I mean it's worth putting yourself through a thought experiment. Write down a list of ten things you like about BL that make it differnet from other kinds of media.

But you may find it's just like "why do I eat at Wendy's instead of Burger King?"

Because I like it better. They do the thing I like. (Spicy chicken sandwitch, FYI).

Perhaps it's something more profound, a kind of narrative sexual identity. It's the thing you desire. Then again, I'm pretty fluid in my desires, so I am comfortable with the idea of being attracted to different people at different points in my life. Just like being into different kinds of media at different times in my life.

I wouldn't worry about it if I were you, so long as:

It's not to addition level (damaging your emotional/financial well being)

You're comfortable with the notion that your tastes may change again

Other Questions

Do you mind if I ask again for BL recs? Because I know here are users that did not want to receive different asks from the same person.....

I am always happy to give out BL recs! The more specific the better. I consider it my primary service to humanity, at this juncture.

Also, no offense but I get so many asks from so many people I rarely remember who's asked me stuff before. Unless you have a very notable icon or style of writing, or interact with me regularly in comments & DMs. My memory is CRAPTASTIC. And I run multiple social media accounts several of which have much higher volume interactions than this one. It's not you it's the law of Dunbar's number. The human brain only really has the capacity for 150 social connections. And frankly, I don't know if I can manage even that many anymore.

Also, have you watched dmbj or read orv? Both series based on a novels that have very strong bromance vibe…..

Nope. I don't watch bromances if I can help it. Too much actual kissing these days to distract me, and I am one of those who wants some kissing for my queers.

Do you know that sotus, manner of death and 2together are adapted into manga? Before I found your blog, BL that I read are from manga and manhwa, and I was surprised when I knew that the series above are from thai drama (I know the manga first, sorry)…..

Yes and Yen Press picked up SOTUS for the USA print market. I'm hope to read that someday. I haven't tried MoD or 2g. I tend not to read reverse adaptations in general, not sure why. Also, I went off manga when it went primarily online. Never even experienced the manwha revolution. I'm old school enough to not enjoy graphic media scrolling. I miss turning pages "backwards" and getting amused my misstranslations.

Last ask, what do you think about BL or GL that make it better than het romance? Do you feel that too?

I don't like a value judgement like "better" on pop culture. I would just say "I personally enjoy it more" so I guess "better for me" would be how I might put it?

In my case? I think it's primarily that I spend so much of my life with little to no queer romance in it. And I mean modern romance all sappy and happy and cheesy and safe. It's just pure joy to have it available to me in such volume on my screen with such pretty trappings, flawed as it may be.

But also.

I just like it.