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nazuleo · 1 year ago

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random leo sketches yay

#enstars #ensemble stars #enstars fanart #leo tsukinaga #shu itsuki #leoshu #shuleo #hi again #i remember to post on this account once every 3 months #i should probably change my username to leoshu because i only post them #my art

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legend-had-it · 9 months ago

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4ever yearning for a fic where zoro and sanji are in-canon childhood friends and theyre like, exactly the same, but small

i want zoro to show up to the baratie [kuina and koushirou took him] and Instantly pick a fight with sanji, and this just Keeps on going forever.

and everything is the same but they pull up embarassing childhood memories whenever they start losing

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moonshynecybin · 5 months ago

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i need some post-reconciliation head canons from you. first of all when and where could it happen? i'm curious about what's the trigger in your mind that helps those emotional impaired guys to reach out to each other. also do some topics of contentions come back in their fights? (like marc forgot to unload the dishwasher then it turns into a whole thing)

it depends on the scenario doesnt it... theres so much to consider. is vale having a post-racing crisis? is MARC having a post-racing crisis? are they in a situation where theyre forcibly reminded of how much they like each other? does vale have to look at the simple joy of marc's smile and reckon with that, day after day? what happens if covid doesnt happen and they dont spend all that time apart, and theyre still bumping elbows np press conferences? if marc doesnt get injured? if marc's injury is WORSE and if he races down retiring too young? if it looks like he wont make it? what does all that do to vale and good LORD what does that do to marc....

like. because they ARENT reconciled its hard 2 tell, but i think it would have to take one of two primary modes-- acute and sudden, or slow and gradual as the sea. high melodrama screaming fighting sex in back rooms and ducati racing closets while marc bites at the skin of vale's jaw and feels INSANE that every bit of him feels the same as it did when he was twenty-two and vale wrestles down the feeling in his chest like hes at a WWE match, OR. vale waking up with marc's head on his chest and wondering. ah. how did we get here? as morning light filters in through the window.... coming together so slowly and naturally that he didnt even really know it was happening until it happened, delicate and gun-shy and sweet.... not really letting themselves/each other believe that theyre going to fall back in love (they were always in love.... marc to alex like badidearightoliviarodrigo.mp3.gov) but doing so nonetheless !!!!!

#and then post-reconciliation is just the most insane game of emotional chicken ever while they try to save face AND keep the other #like once the switch flicks physically girl its on. but that doesnt. erase. all the other stuff #and theyve invested a LOT in this rivalry SUPER publicly. and they dont like 2 admit losses. ANDDD they know everyone will care about it #so its weird ! but they also uh. are too into each other to be normal #so i think its a lot of insane romance and sex and commitment stuff that they dont talk much about for a WHILE #motogp #callie speaks #asks #rosquez #my answer to this changes every two months. whateverrrr

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bonicedemandarina · 3 months ago

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More jinx fanart just because

#I already had the lineart for this one so just went and finished it. Didn't have energy to start a new drawing today so yea #But also omg two posts in the same week can you believe that???? Tomorrow's gonna rain or smth #I never post more than once every two months but arcane did smth to me #Idk why I'm drawing sm jinx tho. She isn't even one of my favs #Also artstyle so inconsistent that in a span of a day it already changed again. It do be like that sometimes #was trying something ig #jinx arcane #jinx fanart #Arcane #arcane fanart #i drew something #Jinx #Id in alt #Alt text #I guess? There wasn't a lot to describe in this one tbh this piece kinda boring but I liked it anyways

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 years ago

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Happy Pride month everyone B*) Allow me to reveal a little behind the scenes detail behind my Banner and Icon. Love was always winning <3

#I don't know what to tag this one to be honest #probably a #delete later #I have made a solemn promise that any icon and banner for this blog must be done in a pair. They Cannot Be Separated.#They have had too much of that already #But yes; they have always been together on the same canvas #they originally were just barley not holding hands so I fixed it <3 love wins #I'm hoping to change them out every new season I start so these guys are probably in their last month of life B'*)#can you believe wwx used to have different bangs? blasphemy #Once again throwing out meta content so I can make up for the fact I am running on fumes #starting out pride month by engaging in another sin (sloth (I slept for more than my usual 4-5 hours (this blog functions on insomnia)))#comic tomorrow cause the next batch is 90% done I literally just ran out of time.#I'm in a toxic relationship with The Grind but in a homoromantic/erotic way.#We (the grind and I) would have long metas written about how we are bad lgbtq rep and spark heated debate within the community.

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0m3n-0f-d3ath · 11 months ago

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Otto

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bruiisedfawn · 1 month ago

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˙ . ꒷ 🍰 . 𖦹˙—

#im currently at my sister's place. she wanted me to take care of our dog while she and my mom goes home to sort through their stuff #i have a very unpleasant headache after waking up early after no sleep. walking to the psychiatric for an appt. then having minor issues to #get here bc the train tracks were... smth?? and the train was late and idk. it ended up being painless to get here #then i went to buy groceries and then took the bus here. since i've been here once it is easier for me to navigate skskks #now im here and im happy to be with my dog :3 i havent seen him for an entire month :(((((#but it feels weird to be all alone.... i dont like it actually :// i mean if i didnt have my dog here it would be AWFUL #i dreaded a bit to take my dog outside bc she lives on the third floor and he cant walk down the narrow stairs. so i have touse the elevator #but that went fine!! its still not as easy as just opening the door and then go straight outside tho T-T!!!!#idk. i realize that im just.. a person who dont like change. i have lived in the same place my ENTIRE life. i havent moved once.#and even if it isnt as nice anymore bc um literally thousands of ppl have moved in the past couple of years... it isnt as calm at all anymor #BUT. i fkn love the environment and scenery. there are so many beautiful and pleasant places to walk. and sit. i just love and need to walk #i know every road and walkaway there.. i know which trails are calmer and nicer etc. we have parks and forests and all that #here is like just housing areas. like apartments and houses and stores and schools. and roads. roads everywhere... cant find a path without #a road next to it ://// it isnt calm at all bc there are always cars :( and um idk how im supposed to go for walks when there arent anywhere #to go. so yeah what im saying is that even if the place i live has gotten worse.. i still feel. like thats my home.#idk how to live anywhere else. and to think this might be the year i HAVE to move. i .. dont know how to adapt and settle into another place #i LOVE where i live. i love how its built and the neighborhoods and everything. i feel so so attached to that place. i know this is life etc #but since i have lived there my entire life and just now being away from it in a place that has 10% of what my home has im like.#idk it feels really bad and im just not into life at all rn. i wanna live in a place i like and just rot into it. never leave.#i dont like change... im realllyyyy homesick rn T-T esp being alone without my family sucksssss i hate it

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camgoloud · 11 months ago

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you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

#‘out of nowhere’ she says like she hasn’t been doing a lot of reading/thinking recently about various tragic messy breakups #and the later regrets of the parties involved #anyway. tell me not to text her #it’s been over two years since the last time we talked… absolutely no reason to break that streak now. lord give me strength #she was really fucking mean to me! like objectively intentionally unwarrantedly cruel! it ruined an entire year of my life #and fundamentally changed me as a person on a deep level! there’s a lot of things i used to like about myself that i don’t think i’m ever #going to get back #and yet every once in a while we have to do the whole ‘maybe i could make things right’ song and dance 😔#the thing is most of the time i’m not even really angry with her anymore like enough time has passed since all the shit went down that #really i just sort of look at her behavior and feel sad. both because of the impact on me but also because of the ‘that’s really how you #felt you needed to act towards someone who cared about you? you couldn’t have just expressed your feelings in an honest and productive way #instead of just lashing out in the cruelest possible way and ruining the entire relationship beyond hope of repair?’#and i feel bad and sorry that it went that way and honestly i kind of pity her and hope she’s gotten some of her shit worked out #so i’m not like. actively pissed off at her anymore. but also i can’t think about her without thinking about the worst year of my life so 🙃#i don’t actually feel that trying to reopen that door would be very healthy for me at least #we did try a Reconciliation of sorts a couple of months after the initial falling-out and while it was kind of helpful for me in that she #like. apologized lmao. and affirmed that i wasn’t crazy and she did in fact On Purpose say the most hurtful things she possibly could have #said to me given the information she had at her disposal. and that i really had not done anything to her that could warrant that. etc.#it also left a sour enough taste in my mouth that i just don’t see a future where the two of us spending time together is enjoyable for me #and yet… the regret will always live inside me i think. maybe if i were a stronger person…#caseyposting

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arttsuka · 3 months ago

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hey ho I just noticed that amongst many of your posts you have some pretty nasty things to say about yourself! As a concerned follower I am here to tell you that does you no good whatsoever, and have expierenced where it can lead you to! (Even when said in jest)

As an outside observer I have determined that exactly 0 of your negative statements are true, so don't believe the lies you tell yourself! Change statements like "my art sucks" to "my art is pretty neat!" (Because it is) "....just kill me" to ".... just give me shrimp" (or fav food/object) "I feel awful and lonely" to " I see the sun rise and its beautiful, I feel nice." And "I have more friends than i realise" ( notice something beautiful or do things you like and appreciate them, you'll start to feel better I promise!

Take a moment to slow down and just breathe and observe all the good things around you (go outside if you have to)

Heres a book that talks about changing your inner monologue for the better, "What to say when you talk to yourself" by Shad Helmstetter its definitely worth a read

I love you and sending a crushing bear hug to you! 🫂🫂💙💙💙

Unfortunately yes I have many bad things to say about myself (I am my biggest hater).

I've been around some pretty toxic people in the past (and present, most of them are my relatives, yikes) and I guess it's just easier to say negative things about me rather than hear them say things (behind my back).

I try to do better but when you don't fit into society the way other people do, it's kinda disheartening, makes me wanna give up.

Sometimes I wish I was like everyone else honestly, or have some confidence.

I'll definitely try to check out that book, thanks for the recommendation :)

Many hugs to you too anon 🫂🫂

#I'll say my art is pretty neat when that becomes true #honestly I don't always fit society's 'geed person' archetype so I guess that has settled deep in my bones #I have very low empathy(?) I rarely feel 'bad' for other people. sure I don't want anything bad to happen but I don't start crying when I #hear that someone I don't know died. or someone I know. I don't really cry actually. once or twice per 3 months #I have difficulties with expressing my emotions (and I feel like I don't feel fully. not like other people do)#I'm trying to take moments to appreciate life(?) but even life doesn't always feel real. like a chore you have to power through. most days #surprisingly I go outside almost every day for around an hour to walk. the city I live now has a harbor and I love the sea #there are too many people there tho... I don't like people. they're loud and don't pay attention to their surroundings #the times I've been almost ran over by bikes or cars is surreal #not art #text #ask #anonymous #I didn't mean to make you concerned about me. don't be. there really isn't anything you can do #one of my other negative traits is that I'm extremely stubborn. almost nothing can change my opinion about something #I try to do better but that unfortunately isn't always enough #society has failed me on many levels and it's hard to see the 'bright side' when a literal war is happening #and people you know will hate you for who you are #sometimes I use words like 'disheartening' and I can't remember if the translation I have in mind is for the actual word or something else #I don't mean to sound so depressing I just feel like I might actually jave depression. or autism. or just something wrong

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icewindandboringhorror · 5 months ago

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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting #with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though #you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would #think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page #disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol #THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended #(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever #so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with #no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know #EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably #It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end #point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc #I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc #rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is #not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school #but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia #and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like #the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot #or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are #familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them #Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol

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rohirric-hunter · 4 months ago

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Hey guess who's back on her bullshit

I literally had zero plans to finish this reward track but then someone shared pics of one of the final housing items in a discord I'm in and I HAD to have it for my girl Helena's apothecary wing in my mead hall.

Anyway.

Yesterday at 2pm I was on 33 so I'm actually quite pleased with my progress. Goal is to hit 80 tonight, I'm confident in my ability to hammer out at least ten levels tomorrow and Tuesday, and then if need be I'll buy out the rest with Mithril, which I can replenish with the current coupons.

No I didn't run every single mission in the game yesterday just for fun. It was fun, though. Believe it or not this has been a reasonably relaxing weekend project.

I wish they would make it so that later levels of the reward track took the same amount of LIXP to fill out as earlier levels. It kind of makes the last 30 levels or so feel more like a chore than the rest of it. Or at least give us percentage amounts for how far we've got through each reward so there's something more tangible to track it with.

#lotro #if i was in charge the one thing i would change would be revamping the reward track.#actually i would basically just make one change #it wouldnt be timed #new rts would still drop every 3 months ish #but you could complete them as quickly or as slowly as you like #you would have to do so in order. but each new account/server would start with rt 1 and once that was done #whether it took a week or a year they would be able to move on to rt 2 #either that or i would just take unique rewards off it entirely and add them to a barterer #but you gotta manufacture that fomo huh #anyway #enough of that #im having fun

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pebblezone · 2 years ago

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#hellsing #hellsing ultimate #seras victoria #alucard hellsing #walter c dornez #a #those like 2 seconds of dialogue between Walter and seras hands down best scene like DUUUUUUDE #*seras interacts with literally any character* ‘omg they have the best dynamic in all of hellsing’#I LOVE HER SO MUCH AHHHGHHGGH every dynamic is great because she at her core is such a loving and passionate person that it bleeds into all #other facets of her life like FUCK man even after the betrayal she thanks Walter like she’s been through hell and seen the worst in people #yet she still sees the good in them!!!!!! what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#unrelated but currently very emotional about my 3ds and Pokemon and the beauty of existing authentically #I found my first (caught) shinies!!!!! I found a rattata when I first got heartgold and my brother tried to coach me through but I killed it #so then I’d been playing b2 and was in the ranch and I got this patrat and azuril within 30 minutes of each other #and then seeing other Pokémon that I transferred up or that I got from my brother and the ones my friend traded me #and then like my 3ds is a Time Capsule to 2015 when I figured out I can use the internet on this thing #girlie was on ao3 and I’ll keep some of my dignity but it’s endearing in a sort of way. that was my life once!#people and the passage of time is so sexy. being able to grow and see yourself change as a person. Pokemon.#I got like this a few months ago going through the camera on my 3ds. I have like no photos of me from 8-12so it’s like. woah!! that’s me!!!

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ecto-stone · 11 months ago

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No need to Work up so much Vladdy. Just sit Back and enjoy the absolute chao that about to happen.

#this is like the fenton science discoveries announcement about ghost #Penelope have studies very hard about every guest that attent the party and prepare a little bit of a suprise #it anounce the result that ghost are just monster from another dimension #but Spectra about to end their wholes carrer as the payment to the favor vlad do for her #mr chang here have a daughter that die in a car accident last year #mr and mrs parker there have their son passway in a war cross sea 3 years ago #mr leuton mother die just 3 month due to cancer #ect ect #their ghost haven't fully form into humanoid form yet but i'm sure they would be happy to meet their family member laugh #Scraming followed by the fenton telling people not to worry and laser shotting everywhere #the special mist is release which strenghence the injured ghost enough to help them form humannoid form #Daddy help me help me #but not enough to save them from being erased from the damage dealed by the fenton weapon which eradicated the ghost completely #thing soon turn into an angry emotional mob directed toward the Fenton once it over #hachi doodle #it free trauma day for everyone that attent this party “chuckle”

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tankgotstuckinthecircusgate · 4 months ago

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im so weak someday ill draw imprisoned carlo from don henry au

#^ i remember bout it like once every few months #still idgaf bout henry but geniunelyyyyyyy i crave to see a high-profile trial of someone from the mafia elite (& a bit of luciano core)#like leo yk. but i also dgaf bout leo (mostly. sometimes i forget he exists)#and this is something sooo funny bout getting into jail bc of your own man (<- death is the most boring & easy solution of #every plot problem. not changing my mind ever. and imprisoned carlo was like a collective decision so my conscience is clear)

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lebada · 1 year ago

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i LOVE when i watch video essayists and they get guests to do voiceover quote reading and its someone else i rly admire that i didnt know the video essayist was friends with

#HI TANTACRUL IN HBOMBERGUYS NEW VIDEO. YOU TWO HAVE BEEN LITERALLY WHAT IVE BEEN WATCHING EVERY NIGHT BEFORE BED THIS PAST MONTH #its almost wild hearing ANOTHER voice im sooo used to associating w video essays #like for a second my brain didnt even register the voice changed bc im so familiar w both of them #OH WAIT i say i didnt know they knew each other but im fairly certain harris also reads out smth in a tantacrul video once #hbomberguy #tantacrul

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famewolf · 11 months ago

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speaking of ocd, I think I'm realizing that I truly don't have anxiety and it's literally just my ocd. im not anxious about anything until it involves me and suddenly I'm spiraling

#[static]#it's hard to describe succinctly but the anxiety I deal with nowadays is directly related to my ocd and autism #some anxiety is so easy to brush off but the ones stemming from my ocd are extremely difficult to get out from under #i'll spiral for weeks about one specific thing and ruminate on it and mentally worry and pick at it forever #it's utterly exhausting jfkdghdf some days are easier than others #and often that one thing I ruminate on becomes multiple things all stemming from the first thing #like recently it's been my car ... the thing is totally fine ... runs fine drives fine but ive been freaked out by it for the last 3 weeks #every time i go into the shop theyre like ... everything is good in fact its in good condition for its age and they'll mention like #one thing that will need to be replaced to keep it in tip top condition and then my brain will fixate on it and imagine all the ways #something horrific will happen if that doesnt get changed and then that leads to all the other things in the car suddenly freaking me out #i defs used to have general anxiety and depression but those went away literally the day i got top surgery #poof instantly gone it was wild and i kept waiting for the other shoe to drop #never did but now my ocd has been really bad the last 6 months cuz of all the extra horrifying things going on #so i thought it was just my anxiety coming back but this week i realized it was my ocd and have been treating it accordingly #and ive seen some relief but i definitely need to go back to therapy once i get my insurance again #its the only way to get a hold on it and my last therapist ended up moving states so we didnt get to work on tools for it very much #im yapping at this point i just needed to vent for a second about how truly yucky ocd makes me feel

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