#They’re all so autistic it’s unreal

[autismdeathglare]

Stand Tall is so funny because when the boys zap in from Caleb’s club Luke’s sleeves are GONE and he and Alex both unbuttoned their collars like. They have SENSORY ISSUESSSS

[starbuck]

just found out that my boss’s boss, who responded to a situation where i was harassed by a coworker for a month for being autistic by telling me to “do some soul searching,” is LEAVING MY PARK!!!!!!

my boss broke this news to me by saying “not to ruin your night, but…” as if it wouldn’t be the best news i had received in months.

[willowfey]

starting to think maybe waking up with an anxiety stomachache every single morning and then needing to spend the entire day trying to get rid of said anxiety just to maybe have a few minutes in the evening of feeling relaxed before going to bed is perhaps not normal

[maxilsmaster]

MY AMAZING DIGITAL HEADCANONS

(under cut so people doomscrolling don’t see an unwanted million foot long text wall)

Pomni’s real life name was Martha, Kinger’s was Arthur, and Queenie’s was Elizabeth

Kinger and Queenie are Pomni’s parents

Pomni is transfem

Jax is transmasc

Queenie was everyone’s mom figure in the circus before she abstracted, including Jax’s

Gangle has written fanfiction about everyone’s backstories

Zooble was an unrealized trans person before he wound up in the circus

Kinger has been in the circus for 10 years, Ragatha 7, Jax 5, Gangle 2, Zooble 6 months, and Pomni… well, just arrived

Jax was the youngest of four siblings, and prays for the day when someone younger than him enters the circus (his hopes got crushed by Zooble being half a year older than him)

Zooble has figured out how to get weed in the circus (Bubble is her supplier)

Jax liked Kaufmo’s humor

Jax can take off the purple part of his head, and he uses this to fuck with people

Caine doesn’t like it when people abstract because he develops his own form of emotional attachments

Kinger is Caine’s favorite and Caine regularly supplies him with insects

Kinger can command his bugs as if they were an army

Queenie abstracted between the arrivals of Jax and Gangle

Ragatha, Kinger, and Jax all regularly visit Queenie’s room

Bubble is intentionally chaotic, while Caine is unintentionally chaotic

Gangle’s favorite Pokémon is Sylveon

Everyone in the circus needs therapy for reasons other than being in the circus, especially Jax, Pomni, and Kinger

Yes, Bubble and Caine also need therapy

Jax used to write things down in a diary he got from Queenie, but he ran out of space in it, so he got Caine to give him another one, and he’s currently on his third because he doesn’t write every day

Jax actually writes a lot of things down, partly to remember things so he can fuck with people, partly as a coping mechanism

Every human in the circus writes things down to some extent

Jax’s real world mom was a piece of shit

Gangle is pansexual

Zooble is bisexual

Kinger is bisexual

Jax is asexual and aromantic

Pomni is bisexual

Ragatha is lesbian and biromantic

Caine is hella gay (hey, if Moon can have feelings for him, he can have feelings for men)

Moon is the only straight character

Kinger is autistic

Pomni is also autistic (with an anxiety disorder)

Queenie, I’m not sure about

Jax has ADHD

Jax is the one who wrote the theme song for the circus

Gangle has figured out a way to watch anime in the circus (definitely not legally), and Zooble joins her if they’re feeling bored

Ragatha was a model IRL (please don’t ask me why I headcanon this, I don’t know either)

I’d say more of my Jax headcanons, but they’re pretty dark, so I might put them in a fanfic instead. May or may not post that fanfic I may or may not write. No promises.

[azuremist]

A long while ago, I saw a post by a transfem blogger criticizing those who post openly about how they hate “(animal)girl(body part)” tumblr URLs, saying that, “It starts off as jokes and light commentary. But eventually, it’ll spiral into transmisogyny, all because of transfems doing something harmless that makes them happy, even if it’s slightly annoying to you.”

I remember seeing that post and thinking, “Well, that’s a bit overdramatic, isn’t it? It’s just a few people saying they don’t like this thing that transfems do sometimes. That doesn’t have to evolve into bigotry.”

But over Twitter the past few days, people have started REALLY ragging on transfem humor.

It started with a piece of art made by a transfem, which made that “having sex with a pumpkin” joke popular with transfems (especially on places like Reddit). That post got blasted with people saying that they found this joke annoying and overly-sexual. Which, like, okay, I guess.

But then, cis people began to promote their art in the replies, saying stuff like, “I make art that isn’t hypersexual / perverted!”

But then, people began to harass transfems in r/egg_irl (a huge gathering place for transfems to share their memes).

But then… God, the Twitter activists came on the scene, and it was over. Justifying everything happening, sparked by transfem in-jokes, by saying that actually, it’s problematic. Do you know how many Tweets there are saying that r/egg_irl (a community of transfems who are sort of unfunny sometimes) is the fucking AUTISM SPEAKS of trans activism? You know, the place that advocates for autistic eugenics!

Yeah, transfems making a few little jokey-jokes on Reddit is DEFINITELY comparable to literal eugenics, dude.

And eventually, another piece of art with a popular transfem in-joke got dogpiled. Except this time, it was a harmless piece of fanart of a transfem character baking, with the saying, “You need to crack a few eggs to make an omelette!” And people (including queer people!!!), who had gotten so used to attacking transfem humor at this point, began to blindly say that this was a “violent” turn of phrase. That the art “promoted forcing someone to admit that they’re trans”, and that ACTUALLY, “egg” (a term BY trans people, FOR trans people, used mostly by transfems, meant to describe an unrealized trans person) was a TRANSPHOBIC TERM.

So, after witnessing all of this go down in real time, you know what?

No. I was wrong.

It really IS that easy for a simple “I don’t like this mildly annoying, but harmless, thing that transfems do” to evolve into insane levels of unchecked transmisogyny.

So, yeah. If you see a trans woman being sort of “cringe”, or unfunny, or something… If they’re not harming anyone, then consider minding your damn business. Everything that transfems do is put under a microscope and criticized. Don’t be one of the people who adds onto that.

Just let them be.

[pissfizz]

dear friend give me any of your tsukkiyama hcs theyre everything <3

Stares at you so So autistically you have no idea what kind of beast you’ve just unleashed

Ok so. This isn’t exactly Tsukkiyama shippy but it’s about the characters and I’ve been thinking about it a Lot recently and so like ok in my head. They both have single moms. Yamaguchi’s mom was a teen mom with some very unfortunate circumstances and the two of them have lived alone his entire life, cut off from his grandparents and living in a tiny shitty apartment while she works multiple jobs. Also, he looks Just like her (except for the height, he is significantly taller than her) and they behave eerily similar, and are very very close. Tsukishima was kind of an accident, his dad only wanted one child and didn’t want to go through with having him, but his mom decided to keep him anyway, which caused tension from the get go. Tsukki’s got daddy issues. Also, Tsukki is very much autistic which his father was not happy about as it became clearer. His parents got a divorce when he was about 7, a year before he met Yamaguchi. His family, unlike Yamaguchi’s, is fairly well off financially though. When the two meet and become friends, their moms also become very close friends too, which aids in the fact that they’re always spending time at each other’s homes. And like, their moms are Total bffs too, and Tsukishima’s mom is always willing to look after Yamaguchi in their younger years when his moms busy.

Also you know how I said Tsukki is like very much autistic right. Another hc I think about a lot with that is like. His sensory things vs Yamaguchi’s. Cuz Yamaguchi is a very physically affectionate and just tactile person in general, he likes being close to and touching the people he cares about. But Tsukki is very sensitive to like. Everything. And hates being touched, especially being hugged or something. And so they have to make a lot of compromises lol. But they make it work :]

Also on a lighter ish note Yamaguchi can sing really well (I mean he’s voiced by fuckin souma saito for crying out loud) but he doesn’t think he can but Tsukki loves listening to him sing his voice is one of his favorite things ever

And Yamaguchi hates kuroo because he sucks and is annoying and steals all Tsukki’s attention and Yamaguchi gets jealous also I hate kuroo so like. Win

And I have. So so so many more it’s unreal how many hcs I have about these dumb little characters but I will hold off for now cuz I’ve been typing for awhile shdhsjshsk

[fake-destiel-news]

On a website with a PREDOMINANTLY autistic user base, the fact that you're not just making these fake news memes but flat out do NOT care and have said you intend to continue and likely find it funny is bordering bullying/predatory in some ways.

I’m doing literally everything I can think of to make it clear they’re fake. Because while I do find it funny (to come up with stuff and make the memes) I care a lot that no one gets hurt.

Correct me if I’m wrong, but I was under the impression that even autistic people would be smart enough to see one of like a bunch of warn signals. (All of this is not meant to bash autistic people I’m just trying to point out the weird logic here. Because I’m assuming they’re smarter than to believe something that’s clearly fake.) Let me spell it out for you:

First of all, my name should give you A LITTLE BIT OF AN INDICATION. idk if maybe an autistic person wouldnt know the meaning of the word fake.

Also as far as I’m aware all the memes I make now have something going on that makes it different from the normal destiel meme. Like putting Dean on top and cas on the image below or just putting a completely different person there. Which would at least give you (or the autistic people) a moment of “huh. That’s different than usual.”

Also it might not be so bad to look at the tags for like two seconds. Maybe autistic people can’t click the read more I mean that’s very difficult.

Even if you don’t read the tags, if you have a problem with just believing things whenever you read them on a random meme, you should maybe, and that’s just a suggestion, block #unreality. Or if it’s about this blog in particular then just block ME or the tag #fake-destiel-news. That’s why the option is there in the settings you know.

(Autistic people, if you don’t know how to block tags, let a trusted allistic adult help you!)

And if you see any kind of news from a meme, you would propably visit the blog of the OP right? Just to see if they’re not idk, a bot? Or nazi? Or someone who is known for spreading misinformation? Who might have ulterior motives with something like this? Maybe you’d want to follow them but first look at their other posts at least? I mean this one’s not required but if you did it you would immediately see this:

Oh wow now that seems like a blog that would say something that’s not real.

And even if you don’t see any of that, you would at least try to fact check something you read in one(1) meme on the internet? And the easiest way to do that is if the source to it is right there and you just have to click it.

Damn that’s weird the link must be broken or something, I just get sent to a gif of the pen pineapple apple pen guy with the tags “the meme that lead you here is not real and purely made up”. Must be a typical tumblr error!

If you look at the blog where the gif is from you would again see my blog name (with the word fake in it) and again that there are not real memes.

And like, even if you don’t see all of these things and don’t have unreality blocked and don’t visit the source. Then you would, before you’d idk tell other people about it, at least do one(1) google search to see if it’s true. I mean just knowing “the nestle CEO got poisoned cause he drank water in flint” doesn’t tell you what kind of poisoning, will he be ok, how did that happen… if you’re interested enough in any of these questions you propably would search for more info.

And like, if you don’t? What will happen? You believe that the Nestle CEO got poisoned until you see some proof that it hasn’t happened, or you’d just forget after a while when you don’t see more on it. So if it doesn’t matter to you enough to research it, you propably won’t think about it again much because it’s not interesting to you. So like what’s the big deal there.

Even if a meme gets reblogged it would still have my name and the source there, and you could get to my blog easily. Also if the op is tagged unreality it would still get blocked.

Idk if I’m just vastly overestimating the autistic people on this website but idk how you can miss all of these things.

This got long but If you have any suggestions how I could improve (for all the autistic people here) then please give em to me because I’m at a loss.jpg.

[trans-wojak]

Cool so if misandrist anon gets to be a hateful bitch to all men do i get my get out of jail free misogynist card? I've been sexually harrassed as a 10 year old by both, but men were forced to apologize to me by other men and women, while if i was harassed by women, they thought they did absolutely nothing wrong even though i felt way more violated. I was only ever groped by women in my whole entire life. It heavily affected how my sexual orientation manifests (my attraction to women can be uncomfortable because of fear of them breaching my boundaries and treating it as an innocent joke). Men are always friendly and speak kindly to me at work but women keep taking out their anger from home at me. My boss is completely ostracised by women at work because she (yes, my boss is a woman! And her boss is a woman too!) reminds them of company policies when they get ridiculous with their demands, like wanting to have double break time compared to other departments and do no extra work to make up for it. We have one other man in the department and they keep emotionally manipulating him into working second shift in the evenings week after week because they don't want to do it, despite it being literally part of their job to be on rotation for the second shift (he shouldn't be doing this because it breaks worker safety laws).

Radfems are so fucking stupid it's unreal

Literally, like I’m technically bisexual but I have a preference for men. But I also find it’s just too hard to date women, I always constantly got put down for the same behaviours THEY do (being open about attraction and talking openly about sex). One time when I lived in shared housing, it was predominantly with women and we had music videos playing. A chick appeared wearing short shorts and I said “hell yeah” - I immediately got attacked by the girls in the room, along with my ex girlfriend trying to tell me I don’t need to be a womaniser to “act like a cis man” to be a man. While those same women would sit around discussing in detail how much they love big cocks, eating ass and licking out pussy.

I’ve been groped by a woman before, and when I tried to tell people in the friend group they told me it was my own fault for not speaking up when it happened and she didn’t really mean it. But if a man did that, they would have called him a violent rapist. Like, I wasn’t even trying to get her to be “cancelled” I’m pretty sure some of it was a misunderstanding cause I went into freeze mode but when I told her about it, she blew me off and tried to say if I don’t speak up it’s my own fault.

Also, whenever I rejected sexual advances from ex girlfriends cause I wasn’t in the mood they would start accusing me of not thinking they’re pretty/hot and I’m like no I just don’t feel like it. I wasn’t given any gentle affection, it always was assumed I wanted sexual intercourse if I was affectionate when really I just wanted to cuddle.

I swear some women will use the fact they have kids to get out of doing their part at work. It’s one thing for people to be courteous and help out but to basically force others to take all the “bad” shifts is so frustrating. Especially when these days, both parents work. And women are allowed to be verbally aggressive and no one thinks is wrong, but if a guy does it everyone acts like it’s the same as physical violence. Whereas for me, I see it the same way. At the share house, one of the women and me got into an argument. She started yelling, screaming and throwing things. I told her let’s stop please, this is scaring me. She started laughing at me and got even MORE aggressive. Like I had to threaten to call the police to get her to stop.

I try very hard to be conscious, I’m on the spectrum and at times I don’t realise the volume of my voice. Especially when I feel strong emotions. When women have told me it’s making them uncomfortable, I ask why (cause I don’t realise my voice volume) and they accuse me of pretending to not know.

Being an autistic man is harder than an autistic woman. Autistic women are seen as cute, quirky and shown sympathy for mishaps in social interactions. People assume the best intentions from them. But autistic men are seen as creepy and full of ill motives. My life was easier when I was a girl cause no one treated me with all these rigid boxes. Now I’m treated as a fucking creep automatically.

I see women as people and people can be crappy. They aren’t special. They shouldn’t be granted special treatment just for being a woman.

[brawnthisway]

I got a new job where everyone is very autistic.

And it’s a very small company so I mean everyone literally. Also I’m autistic so I mean everyone literally. Sorry.

I feel comfortable. I see everyone stimming the way they’re inclined, and I get to stim the way I’m inclined. We have tremendously honest and clear conversations all the time. Unparalleled speed and clarity and trust. I never feel pressured to produce eye contact. Never feel pressured to stifle my opinions to save someone’s feelings. It’s actually magical.

But, at the same time, I don’t know if anyone else is realized. They’re all high-masking. Mostly not as high-masking as me because they’re much nerdier and much freer in their nerdiness than I ever was. Less guarded. But it hasn’t come up. I’ve dropped the subtlest of hints to my own diagnosis and nobody’s picked up. A company of the unrealized. Not like it’s the first time, but it’s the first time for me post-diagnosis.

My gut feel is we’re all happy with the setup, and I don’t wanna force anyone through a very rough few years by breaking it to them. They’re my coworkers. They’re my bosses. I can’t sell them on autism. They’ll discover it in their own time. Or never! It’s up to them. I don’t know if we have studies on the relative damage of unwelcome diagnosis vs longterm unrealization. But first, do no harm.

Many of us have lived our lives without diagnosis, and that’s our baseline. That’s our normal. That’s “no harm” for now. Not many of us have received a surprise peer diagnosis when we were busy with other stuff.

And I would love to learn, decades from now, that I was wrong here. That knowledge is demonstrably better than ignorance. That the status quo is harm, and any deviance is better. But nothing about the world has ever told me that’s true. Nothing about the world has ever rewarded that train of thought for me. So I’ll say nothing.

[drunklollipop]

(shaking you by the shoulders) YOU GET IT. YOU GET ITTTT. ITS LIKE AN EVIL SPECIAL INTEREST. LIKE A CAR WRECK.

From an autistic person, Autistic Blaire is so true and real. I get she’s supposed to be malicious about gender but she’s deliberately written to want the best for people but not understand boundaries. If someone sat her down and told her (and the author wants to write her as anything but the ex-girlfriend) and said “hey, you’re cis. So am I.” she’d back off. But nobody can say what they mean despite the fact that they do nothing but talk at each other for 300+ pages. You’re right about the QT collective being more interesting/entertaining but they’re the same 1-2 personality traits as all the other side characters who show up to talk for a few pages and then disappear for 5 chapters. We know they’re not gonna get with either of our leads so they’re just “tall stoic one”, “mom and daughter”, “short buff one”, “misogynist” “crushing on misogynist” “trans guy who wants a boyfriend” etc etc. I get everything I need to know out of less than a sentence so I don’t care where their lack of arcs go. Anyway can’t wait for ballroom night in 2 years where all that happens is Blaire asks that DJ lady what her pronouns are, she doesn’t understand what that means, they all go home after 20 pages of filler dialogue and Riley cries alone or something. And Jaden can finally meet One member of the QT collective in maybe five more chapters if we’re lucky where she’ll continue to not understand gender and nothing will happen.

HELP YEAH she'll spend 500 more pages on edging the readers and introducing 10 new brave radfems who appear in one chapter and are never mentioned again and 5 on jaden and riley (the endgame relationship btw) getting closer (idk riley gets jaden a glass of water and jaden is like HOLY SHIT... I'M GONNA CRY... IS THIS WHAT FRIENDSHIP FEELS LIKE...) and the fans will eat it up.

also kinda unrelated but ive noticed a lot of lb fans like hcing riley as autistic and i dont get why. she is so nt its unreal. i guess its cause most of them are like 16-17 and only ever heard about autism from tumblr meme posts so now they think autism is when shy and awkward.

so funny how rusty is all like yeah im an ally and im chill about autistic riley but then when she accidentally writes characters with actual traits (blaire and jacob) its always a mockery. oh look this woman doesnt get boundaries haha its like shes in a cult. haha this kid struggles with empathy and has a rigid set of interests what an entitled moid.

babygirl also reads like that a bit cause while shes a skyscraper sized strawman i feel like her character is inspired by furry transfems on twitter who age regress to cope either with csa or inability to be a functioning adult by neurotypical standards (or both in most cases). also mad funny how lesbian male separatists used to be basically anarcho communist and now theyre a bunch of neoliberal assholes who think being communist is like the cringiest thing you can be (rusty basically implied this in her babygirl design notes. fucking lmao)

[worms-in-my-brain]

As an autistic person I have a little bit of a love/hate relationship with the type of comedy on tumblr where people say something that is not true and proclaim it to be true, of course under the expectation that everyone is being a little silly and not taking it too seriously.

One good example I just saw is a post going around with people arguing about whether or not foxes are dogs. (Generally, only animals part of the species Canis Lupus are considered dogs; so that is most wolves, domestic dogs, and dingoes). They were claiming that foxes are dogs because they’re fluffye. And once I processed that it was a joke, it was funny! Haha, yes, foxes are indeed fluffye and appear similar to dogs. BUT before I realised it was a joke it was really confusing, and I feel like part of the joke is actually at the expense of people who don’t get the joke, initially or at all. Which, yeah, not everyone who doesn’t get the joke is autistic, but isn’t it kinda ableist to make jokes at the expense of people who aren’t understanding sarcasm?

It reminds me a little bit of the issues with Goncharov. Yes the joke was funny, I actually rly liked it lol, but what wasn’t funny was people refusing to tag it as unreality because it “ruined the joke” or something. It is an accessibility issue; if you refuse to tag something because a disabled person might have difficulty with it, then yeah, you’re being ableist.

So anyway this is me asking people to please tag extended jokes like the fox one I mentioned (another example might be the smooth sharks one) as sarcasm, or otherwise try to make it clear it’s a joke somehow. Making it clear it’s a joke shouldn’t ruin it, just make it more accessible.

(And if tagging it as sarcasm did ruin the joke because people stopped arguing, then maybe the joke is itself just kinda ableist since the whole premise of it relies on people who miss the joke misinterpreting the post?)

[wiresandwifi]

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#5

Hey guys look at this beast who just spent 5 minutes walking in circles on my bed before kneading directly on my thigh and then going to sleep because I woke her up in the hallway with my coughing and she started whining about being cold so I put her in my bed

7 notes - Posted December 5, 2022

#4

About Me!

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I’m atlas (you can call me casper or any past listed name that you want if we’re mutuals), I use he/him, they/them and ey/em pronouns!

Fair warning I’m autistic so I may misinterpret tones (you don’t have to use tone tags just be aware that I might think you’re being mean when you’re not)

i like and rb from this account as its my main!

no terfs no transmeds/truscum, no proshippers, no ED/SH blogs, no identity police/exclusionists of any sort, general dni criteria shit like that

No comprehensive fandom DNI because I know no bitch listens to them I’ll just block you if I don’t want you interacting

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10 notes - Posted May 16, 2022

#3

I don’t play genshin but that dottore guy is hot as hell. And I don’t mean his new design i mean this guy

15 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

#2

Getting a little sick and tired of blazed posts these days to be honest. because y’know it wouldn’t be so bad if it wasn’t that every fucking 3rd post is someone’s random bullshit that I genuinely do not care about. I will block every single user who blazes a stupid fucking post that annoys me even slightly idc. It was funny when it was just catholics desperately trying to get people to convert but it’s just irritating now

17 notes - Posted August 14, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

So what I’m getting from tumblr right now is that all the autistic people with special interests in dinosaurs are winning rn

33 notes - Posted June 8, 2022

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[radfae]

im not autistic but i got a 5 on the EQ thing and when the red button popped up i got startled and laughed so hard its unreal, but some of those questions seem so unrelated to empathy wtf

i think a lot of them are pretty related since low empathy goes hand in hand with social awkwardness since you don’t really understand how others are feeling and get social cues, but yeah some of them are just ?? what. i also think it’s a little odd they’re just saying apathy = autism when that’s not true at all lol. it’s often a feature of autism but can exist independently of it, and autistic people can be hyperempathetic as well

[dollsonmain]

So boogeyman came up in reference to That Guy (I feel bad that people are dreaming about him... You’d not even have to know he exists if I would just shut up) and I’ve been ruminating on this post, intending to type it out as soon as I finished my lunch (everything tastes like plastic, ew).

I’ve been isolated for the past 15 years. My world has become very small.

Sitting here in my gold-plated cage watching the news and all of the bad people doing bad things out in the world, they are like far away boogeymen; stories people tell you to keep you in line.

There’s an unreality to it all. Watching a news report for a real life event doesn’t feel much different than watching one in a show.

It’s easy for me to fall into a lull and forget those people are real until That Guy’s friends come over, baring their hatred and vitriol, and they’re in my house with my autistic Son and me making fun of people like us to our faces in our home, let in by the person that’s supposed to protect us and keep us safe but who is one of them, and I’m reminded that yes, bad people are real.

I was thinking about that since Interrupting Cow left, that visit had been relatively nice other than the interrupting, and how I was lulled and calmed by the bigotry being quiet and hidden instead of being bald and bare even though I already know both That Guy and IC hold those opinions and prejudices.

[solarsleepless]

what r max's stims? :)

SHSHJSHJSJSJSHJSH

okAY yes i have many thoughts abt adhd max i am vibrating rn

okay so first of all theres the average well known "flappy hands"

but she really likes it when she has sweaters with longer sleeves because then she can just flap them around

leg bounce leg bounce leg bounce

cracking her knuckles. she does this SO often its unreal

she doesnt have many vocal stims but she goes "ba ba ba" or just humming and singing sometimes

also running her hand on the bottom of her skateboard, and/or rolling the wheels

just being on her skateboard and swaying is a huge stim

chewing her shirt lmao

im also gonna say that she also stims by pressing on buttons and other stuff in the arcade. its just Nice To Do

also stims by kicking off of the ground on her skateboard. very nice

well this is gonna turn into adhd max rant get ready

she had adhd combined (like yours truly) and finds it hard to concentrate in class

she totally hyperfixated on video games at some point

and comics probably

and skateboarding too

she is a VERY picky eater. like she could barely eat stuff in california, so when she moves to hawkins it only gets worse

sensory issues my abhorreeed

can't stand too-loud noises (b!lly of course knows this and turns up music in his car so that he can't even hear himself)

that being said she cant STAND the silence and always needs background noise (she and el bond over liking white noise from tv)

SHE LOVES TANGLERS SO MUCH

goes nonverbal sometimes because of the fear that if she says anything itll just make things worse. the party + steve is very concerned at first, then learn to live with it

WHISTLE STIM WHISTLE STIM WHISTLE

she has so many weighted blankets. she couldnt actually use them much because it was too hot in cali but then in hawkins she used them all the time

SPINNY CHAIR SPINNY CHAIR

undiagnosed

loves fluffy jumpers. she never really used or felt them earlier because of the hotness of california but when she was cold and lucas lent her his fluffy jumper...

well let's just say he didn't get it back

rubbing her hand over lucas's knuckles :)

i know i've already said singing stim but just imagine her singing 'material girl' or 'old time rock and roll'

echolalia! only sometimes tho

like erica will go "hey max me and lukie are gonna make a cake wanna help?" "cake?" "cake" "cake!" "cake!" "cake"

also the sinclair family is so accepting. they're confused but they just accept max and thats okay

once the party started looking up what adhd was, max brought it up once and immediately they all went 'that's only for little boys'

(which is bullshit obvs)

remember that sleepover scene where max is dancing? yeah that but its a stim

the party + the teens have a running joke of max being moth because she stares at lights so much. visual stim

she scratches as a(n unhealthy) stim but it gets worse after billy's death

hates it when people shout, usually goes nonverbal if it's directed at her

jumps when she's happy!!

you know how she just wears basic and unlayered clothes? yeah she chooses them on purpose because tight stuff feels Bad

she hates labels with her entire being

she seems like the kind of gal to bite her nails

also adopted dustin's "grrr" as a stim

"hey max- grrr" "...what was that?" "...grrr" "could you teach me how to do that" ".. o k a y ?"

will and max (i hc will as autistic) both have lil stimming sessions! they just notice the other stimming and join in, just leaving them laughing at the end!

lucas is super understanding of her stims

he learnt to recognize when she's understimulated and gives her fidget toys!! and if he doesnt have any then he'll just straight up grab her hand and start rubbing his fingers against the knuckles

i'd like to say:

*SLAPS ROOF OF MAX MAYFIELD* THIS BITCH CAN HOLD SO MUCH RSD

she wasnt doing so good in the first place

thinking stuff like

"maybe if i wasnt born then my parents wouldn't have divorced"

and stuff like that

(billy intentionally makes it worse because of course he does)

but then it gets so. much. worse.

you know mike said "because you're annoying" in s2?

YOU CAN BET THAT TRIGGERED HER RSD SO HARD

and also when el just walked past her in s2? yeah well

that didn't go off well with her rsd either

lucas has to reassure her that she's not a mistake, she's not annoying, he doesn't secretly hate her, etc etc

he doesnt think he'll ever forgive mike for triggering her rsd so badly

this has so many hurt/comfort possibilities in fic holy fuck-

lucas immediately shuts down her deprecating comments

like IMMEDIATELY

he wont stand for that shit

he is glaring so badly at anyone who triggers max's rsd

unless it's someone they love (like erica) who doesn't actually know what they did wrong and want to make up for it

once erica activated her rsd by accident

just with a lil lighthearted comment

"ugh i hope you arent as annoying as lukey's little friends on the walkie talkie"

once erica finds out abt what she did she feels SO bad. babey

she does everything she can to make up for it

apologizes properly when they're both brushing the barbie's hair

she finds out max stims by brushing barbie's hair when max has to look after once

so when she can see max is understimulated she'll just toss a barbie and a hairbrush her way

also likes max's echolalia (can you hear that? its the sound of max's euphoria boosting)

erica learns to lower her voice around max

max can't watch anything without subtitles btw

she just cannot

she'll watch it and cause she's smart she'll figure out what's going on

but often has to turn to lucas and go "whats going on???"

she loves the feeling of snow thru her gloves

maybe its the cold but still. very Nice

uhh i have more but i cant be bothered also this is too long already

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