#That’s selfish. Aghhh…

[creepy-crowleys]

If Vile doesn’t end up going to seep, I might. I feel like I’ve been on the phone and emailing and texting nonstop for the last few days.

I think I’d like to not be in charge of trying to organize things for a bit, haha…

[bxnnie-bxwl]

thinking of evil!freddy again… and am thinking doing it different this time inspired by posts I’ve seen about freddy wanting to distance himself from the figure head he has to be.. he wants to be his own person and not this puppet who has to deliver everything he has each second of his life.. and you can tell in the game whenever there’s a voice recording of Freddy he distances from it because it is not truly him..

so in this au I thought that when Freddy glitches out on stage he’s sent to repairs.. but something snaps in him and he decides to escape.. so the rest of the band has have to fill Freddy’s shoes… some being happy to get the spotlight but Bonnie was quite upset to Freddy disappearing ):

And then the story sort of follows a bit the same as security breach but with Bonnie instead of gregory.. but Freddy comes back (((:

So freddy in this is more that he refuses to follow rules anymore., and somehow fuelled by some sort of anger and despair.. I wonder. But he soon joins up with Gregory and Bonnie <33

[immortal-cataclysm]

i think abt the bedman n baiken relationship sometimes..

[flamingo--ing]

mmmmkmm

[transsexualcunt]

stress smoking today!

[cz19y]

😦

EXTRA COACH!MALE!READER X PXG WHAT ABT THATT

LIKE;; Reader's also a soccer player(the good ones yk — pro lvl) and works as an extra coach for any of the teams like an extra help, etc etc.

AND Reader's young, like around Loki's age(17),, and since they're the same age , they're friends(even before Neo Egoist) ehshsh.

So bc of that, Reader chooses to assist Loki ofc bros a single mom w/ +3 kids. Reader was supposed to be a helper but in the end, turned out to be more of a babysitter Charles but he's actually good at it.

Reader is a good player but his dream is not as high — tho, he still wants to stick around Loki and stuff. He's good at convincing ppl(Reader).

Loki can manage his team well- so he's now there more of a decoration and to fill out space — Loki still doesn't mind(ooc but idc). Reader keeps watch and keeps some things in order; update some news and manage some status.

Also keeps company babysits to the team since they're all pretty young still. Loki n' R! Get well together, even tho R! cannot fulfill Charles role(being the best passer for Loki) Loki still keeps him around for the sake of his sanity sometimes. Ofc, he cares abt him.

Ima do a HC that Charles only likes to obey R! just to annoy Loki off. W/ that, both start slowly building somewhat of a bond through all the time they've met each other. Charles & R! have more of a sibling dynamic.

Idk, feel like Rin and R! would kinda get along. Tho ofc Rin thinks that's R! is a waste of talent for being that good but not having a high enough dream. "Mediocre" is his nickname for R!.

Zanzetsu asks R! questions all the time. Tries to show off, fails, but at least he learned something/the correct way.

R!'s main role is to separate Rins' and Shidou's fights when it happens.. Loki's grateful.

Shidou likes how R! gets all "freaky" (he means agitated) when having to stop him from going wild. Likes R!'s 'explosion' on the field when he actually played for once(even if it is for demonstration). Annoys R! for his number.

Treats wounds ofc(Rin).

Tokimitsu would be soooo shy and kind to R!. I just know. He finds it cool that a pro lvl player is not scary and selfish abt soccer for once.

AGHH NANASE <33 Tries to help out on R!'s work. The only time he can relax is around Nanase or Loki. Nanase safe spot fr.

Karasu would be chill. Would make both s' life easier and not make R!'s work harder. Also tries to break the fights. Karasu and R! would have chill convos and soft teasing.

AGHHH THEY HAVE SUCH A CUTE SIBLING DYNAMIC 😭😭 Charles ma new bby <3

[fictionfixations]

all the sad tales

penacony + aventurine spoilers

the wiki probably contains this but for my own sake i need to keep this somewhere.

(it'll be in bold. what im not sure on will not be in bold)

(The murmurs near your ears grow louder, more booming. You can even see another ████ ████████. Let's hope you can hold on until the moment you step onto the stage of the amusement park.)

(whited out parts are parts i cant decipher yay)

im going to try my hardest not to miss anything because i really like aventurine and i want to take my time with this. but i also sometimes have a really short attention span or get too immersed in something that i forget everything else so like...

(You ████████ ██ ██ █ ██████ discovered a strange child -- He seems to hail from the Avgin origins(?)... Weren't they already wiped out?)

(need to stop sprinting. i keep noticing breakable objects or chest so then i sprint towards them and im going to end up missing something instead of just heading straight into activating more of the story)

bby kakavasha runs so fast oh my god (its kind of sad to imagine that he can run so fast probably to run away from well yknow...)

(You are completely entranced by the Avgin boy. Just who is(?) he? There's still time. Maybe you can catch up to him and ask him exactly what █████████.) (happened?) (the extra whited out part on just who --- is probably a space. otherwise it could be was but hm.)

(im going to cry if i miss checking it because an enemy is chasing after me and i run headfirst into story. yes i am a coward who doesnt like starting battles if i can help it. makes me wish i had acheron but id honestly never use her in battle unless i had someone to regenerate skill points considering i have 5 star dan heng, so other attack ppl on team dont get much attention, and i dont really know how to use her beside tehcnique insta kill?? does that mean i can whip out a lvl 1 acheron and it works??)

dont plan on talking about the dialogue too much (i saw multiple people go through the story before i started ngl) but (also aventurine boss creeping up on me... i literally only have one person on team who attacks multiple at a time, and no one else outside of the team is as built)

LISTEN. have you SEEn hyenas playfighting its fucking adorable. call someone a hyena, i call it a compliment.

i missed the first piece of text... i forgot...

(*Ride the Pinball Machine)

still the same

i dont know why but the puzzles in penacony make me lag so bad. the puzzles, the pinball machine, or that dreamweaver thing. bruh.

(*Win the Hide and Seek game and find the Avgin boy)

anyway from what im understanding you can tell how many letters are missing because its as many characters as a character is missing. whenever ive blacked out text i never do that cause its so much bigger than the original text (i do one block for every two letters ngl. but i also dont do it with the intention of people deciphering what it says)

(*Play the roll of █████ film) (wound?)

i dont know film terms enough to even decipher what it could be. it could be color. black. white.

wound? wound as in rolling? like uh uh. past tense of wind. like winding up a roll. a wound roll. cause the description of wounds.. it could be related to his family. or..

I MISSED IT AGAIN 'there is only water, not rock' or something like that

(*Leave the maze)

(*Check the things you(?) lost)

i cant decipher this one 😭. you??? (Leave the maze you(?) █o) but i dont know what would make sense of it then. idk.

oh fuck i forgot to check the objective. its. probably the same as the other one for when finding a 'lost' object but like...

AGHHH wiki came in clutch

(*Check the lost things and memories)

(*Escape escape(?) the maze escape(?) the past/last(?) escort(?)) (this is a lot of 'idk')

(Failure discarded selfish useless pointless coward murderer gambler blessed discarded loser chosen-one Mother Goddess's beloved crazy murderer blessed failure discarded loser pointless coward murderer chosen-one selfish fool(?) blessed discarded loser chosen-one you(?) loser discarded pointless coward(?) murderer gambler blessed █isc█████ useless loser chosen-one Mother Goddess's blessed/beloved(?) loser loser loser loser loser loser loser loser loser loser loser loser loser ████ ████ ███████████ ███ ██████ █████ █ ██ ████ █)

there might be way more losers then there should be because my eyes were getting confused. and also more of the blacked out character

this line right here makes me wonder why he's still in the IPC after like the end of 2.2 (..im pretty sure 2.3 is the next update)

my brain power is failing on me idk what this one is

im going to turn my settings to max for the picture because its so fucking pixel-y. im going to try to save it before my pc crashes.

my one complaint: the taking a picture function that continues the story disappears when you get close to kakavasha. so i cant take a photo with him and continue the story.,

whatever.where the fuck is the screenshot folder im crying

oh my god the LAUNCHER? HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNow after i go through the star rail folder > games folder > starrail_data folder > screenshots

thats way too many folders for me to even notice 😭

second image cuz yes

I RAN PAST THE TEXT AGAIN

'there'll be one beside you' or something im sorry my memory is shit short term i already forgot

I MISSED MORE OF THE FLOATING TEXT 😭😭

'over plains, endless'

'into cracked earth, stumbling'

im stressed so im getting distracted

ARE YOU READY KIDS? I CANT HEAR YOUUU. WHO LIVES IN A PINEAPPLE UNDER THE SEA

"So run, Kakavasha, do not be afraid, and do not look back."

now go back and reread the previous quest thing.

okay thats it i think

[toastermuffles]

Fit and Ramon are my fav duo page 1/100,000,000

Someone please take me back to the time when it was Fit and Ramon against the world. I don't know... something about the two loneliest people confiding and loving eachother makes me sob uncontrollably.

A selfish, war-hardened man on a mission finds himself loving someone so much he is willing to give his own life just to see his little boy smile.

Having a relationship so deep that no one else would understand. A relationship that changed Fit into someone willing to love again. Being the only constant in Ramon's life.

AGHHH being aromantic means deep platonic relationships are my whole world, so seeing them being portrayed in media so well like this makes me cry. IM ACTUALLY CRYING HOLY MOLY-

[scoonsalicious]

LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS CHAPTER🩷🩷

Pocket is QUEEN and pookie u r MAJESTIC!! I absolutely love this chapter. The friendship between Pocket and Sam, Tony’s concern, Buckerina and Stevenson ‘toxic masculinity’ fight😂 Man, i would love to see them beat the shit out of each other bcs both of them deserves it. Plus, POCKETS NEW APPEARANCE?!!

I have to ask… do you have a picture of Pocket’s hair right now? I NEED IT😭😫. Cherry Pie fits Pocket so much. A combination of cute and sexy😏 I want her in a lingerie and make Buckdoodle suffer more….

It’s very satisfying to see how ‘desperate’ (is that even the word?😂) Bucket is. But seriously…. WHY R U SO STOOOPID BUCKYYY??😭😭 WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS?!!! WHY?!! How dare you call Pocket ‘your girl’ after everything that happened?🙄 You should be glad I’m not cutting your dick.

(bcs I forgive you, IM SORRY IM SUCH A SOFTIE FOR BUCKYYYY😭😂)

And Steve (thank god no sex😂 I would absolutely cry). I love the part that he’s trying to be a great friend (by not pouring/confessing his love out to Pocket that kind of shit and focus on talking about her relationship with Buckwheat). Pocket needs it………..

but i still don’t like Steve.

Honestly, i’m kind of scared for Pocket😥. One of the chapter is called Unprotected. It means either something will happen to Sam, leaving Pocket alone on the mission, or something happen to Pocket (she gets kidnapped and that kidnapper is fucking Jeremiah bcs there’s also a chapter called Unsurprising — making her spiral and shit or make it much more dramatic her EX? again over reacting)

Also, I have a feeling Buckaroo will insert himself into the mission and somehow one thing leads to another, and then the revelation (the stomach bug, Jeremiah, the *cough* sex in russia🤮). Lastly, maaaaaaybe a showdown between Bucket and Joseph? CHILLSSSS….

Just a thought but won’t it be fun if the whole team beats up Jojobean?😂

Anyways, as always…. I love you Pookie. I can’t wait for the new fic too (With Friend Like These) AGHHH!!! *kicking my feet, squealing* I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

😗❤️

Yay! I'm so happy you loved it! Pissed!Pocket is so much fun to write. Like, girl is take no prisoners; she's so over it. I like to imagine that Bucket and Steveoli's fight was very homoerotic (especially once Pocket poured that water on them, cause now they're all wet), and that they continued to punch the snot out of each other once Pocket and Sam left. So, for Pocket's new hair, I had this mental image in mind, and when I got your message, I went searching for something that encapsulated it. This was the closest I could find:

Bucket is definitely desperate rn. He's starting to really see that his actions are having very really consequences-- whenever he messed up before, Pocket was always willing to forgive him, and now, not only is she not forgiving him, she's not even speaking to him. It's throwing him (not that he doesn't deserve it or shouldn't have seen it coming, of course).

Steveoli was decent in his interaction with Pocket, but a lot of it was out of guilt. Would he have stopped it, himself? Who can say? Oh wait, me. I can say. No he would not have. He's not evil, but he's been selfish, and he's finally starting to see that here. I love hearing everyone's theories based on the chapter titles; they make me smile! Let's see... what can I say about Unprotected? It's got double meaning. Maybe triple meaning? UGH, too much possibility to give things away. And of course Bucket is going to insert himself into the mission somehow; come on! Gotta get those two crazy kids back in the same room together at some point! ;) And the showdowns are coming. It'll be like a Showcase Showdown up in here. Pookie loves you so much

[kitcheninaman]

okay he has my tumblr but idc if he sees it he sees it i need to talk to him about it anyway

its been like a month and a half since me and my ex broke up with me and thats like cool. yeah. ive been mostly okay past like the first week like yeah it sucks but its fine. weve still been talking and we're still really close which is something i probably shouldnt have let happen but also id miss him too bad if i asked for space. he said he didn't want things to change much between us and neither do i but i miss him anyway which like. lol. he absolutely does not know how i feel about this which probably makes it worse haha. anyway i started talking to and flirting with this guy a couple days ago which has been FANTASTIC but ive had to call it off because im 100% not over my fucking ex and its like. man. and now ive been thinking about it and i am still just so upset about it. his reasons for breaking up with me were totally reasonable and i dont blame him at all but goddamn if it hasnt been hurting. the way hes moved on as if nothing ever happened has made it feel like he never even liked me in the first place because i am hurting so bad but hes like??? fine??? and i know he did like me and he does like me but sometimes that's hard to believe and i just want what we used to have back. to be honest. i miss him. and i know its probably selfish of me to think that and it was a dumb 3 month long teen relationship but man im feeling so many emotions right now. aghhh

[mobolanz]

SISTERS FB WATCH: I can't believe you picked it up & I never back down from a wave fight

Awwwww :(

*she grips into the pillow* My anger issues....

Go get it back ... it's okay to be selfish... why is she not being selfishhhh.

Hiro coincidentally right after she says that : so selfish

AGHHH! (⁠┛⁠◉⁠Д⁠◉⁠)⁠┛⁠彡⁠┻⁠━⁠┻

For once I'm starting to agree with his anger! Turn him into a sheep and throw him!

Oh god NO. NOT YOUUU .

No shigure you should leave her locked thereeee

Why didn't you lock the damn doorrrr

She should just take the brat with her and leaveeee

....shigure? 😰

Are you sure this is the right anime...? That's the home of scary one right? Oh there she is.

They're so fucking annoying it's like a reverse of yandere simulator but so many against one girllll

SHUT UPPPPPP (⁠╬⁠☉⁠д⁠⊙⁠)⁠⊰⁠⊹ฺ

Tf are they touching her stuff for that's so rudeeee😐😐😐

Just put a curse on those girls already. Like idk they get out of the house and we see 3 frogs instead

Haaaaa xD

MAN THOSE FANGIRLS ARE SO STUPID! Just like those gang girls like broo they're obsessed!

[crowvainn]

sighh, big vent/rant abt my life issues bc im lowkey tweaking 💔

had a mental breakdown bc im stressed about what will happen to me in the futureeee (anxiety! how fun /sarc) and im really unhappy with the fact that my mom will never accept my gender identity (shes islamic…) and i genuinely feel like a piece of shit bc i seem to always act like a ungrateful and selfish bitch-

a couple days ago i had heartburn, because i don’t eat particularly well (binge eating and eating unhealthy food in general… i really try to not to do so but it’s hard :() and that made my mom pretty stressed and i felt horrible about it and im scared with the possibility that i could damage myself greatly.

i also generally act stubborn and, well, not the best- it causes her to be pretty snappy with me (which i understand, i just wish she isn’t so harsh) and when i was being very much random and like… i don’t fucking know, just me being a weirdo again- she said to me “something bad will happen in your life, mark my words” or something like that. im not sure if she actually meant that (bc we were already stuck in the rain at that time and had came back from a reoccurring meeting thing she doesn’t exactly enjoy… can’t really say here for privacy reasons-) but that freaked me out big time. like… sorry for just being who i am, silly and well, myself… like jeepers give me a warning before you drop something very much not good at all that makes me question myself deeply 😨

i really wish i could change how i act, even my identity, because i just wish that my mom accepted me. i wish i was a better person, i wish could meet her standards, i just wish that she supported me. but no, of course not. im sure she still loves me, even with me being a freaky goober, but she definitely doesn’t like how i am. i wish i can improve how i act for the better, but god damn that’s hard.

and with the fact that i have anxiety (i have a lot of symptoms, i can’t get professionally diagnosed, soo self diagnosed), anger issues, im super emotional andddd im stuck home with not much to do but be on devices n shit and just,, being alone with my thoughts a lot,,, i’ve just not been coping well, at all-

eugh… i wish school started earlier, so i’d be able to talk to my friends, as well as just being in a environment where im not??? alone with me myself and i??? this fucking sucks

i swear therapy would make me feel so much better, but im lowkey scared to talk about this to the counselors at my school about it, and i did ask my mom about getting therapy like a couple weeks back and she waved it off and said i didn’t need it… bitch you clearly know that im broken asf and you dont let me? :( ik it stresses her out but pleas….. do something that can help me feel better again aghhh

i also really hate that i have short term memory, and i can’t really understand some things correctly. it’s so damn annoying :C and with the fact that i was let on the internet at a pretty young age didn’t help either. like, fucking 2nd grade, is when i lost my innocence. god damn (then again, that’s when i moved to one of the other boroughs from queens, so. i got immediately exposed💀) and i was left unsupervised so much. im still on the internet a lot, and im not happy about that at all. but because of summer break, im stuck at home, andd i don’t have a lot to do besides basic chores, hw and reading. being on the internet is a escape from reality for me, but i really wish it wasn’t. im trying to do stuff other than being online but all the negative thoughts keep flooding back in my head… it’s literally so miserable even being online isn’t working to make those thoughts go away.

i feel dumb and useless. i feel like im a nuisance to everyone. i just wish i can belong, and i wish i was happy. im fucking scared of growing up, and im scared of what i’ll become. what the fuck will i even do when im an adult? i can’t fathom it at fucking all. im worried my life really will take a turn for the worst. (what if what my mom said is true…?)

i hate panicking. it’s starting to become more prominent :( and i’ve also been panicking with the thought of me being a therian, in which it’s like “oh no sam you might be a cambitherian or a therian and not animalhearted” to “no you can’t be either of those animalhearted resonates with you the most.” “righttttt…..?” and repeat. i don’t think i really identify as a cat at all but my brain is funky :< but like i do feel better with being cathearted. cats are my found family, but not my kin. if i had the ability to i’d def be a cat though. it would be a more stress free life 💔💔

now im using my ipad to take my mind off of the stress and rant abt this. welp… not helping that my ipad has a cracked screen and i have to get it fixed for the third time…. and that i have to deal with the hassle of moving soon… the only decent thing is me going to the beach on monday. maybe i’ll be a bit less active tomorrow. well i’ll try to- the summer reading homework isn’t doing itself…. sobbing

i feel like im typing gibberish now oopsies. its 11pm💀 sighhh I just hope things will get better soon, maybe when school starts again i’ll be able to cope better. (i feel like im repeating things a lot, but oh well)

[siphonophorus]

thinking about my past and being sexually harassed/fetishized/objectified esp at a young age aaaaand made to do stuff with other kids by other kids and adults and aaarggghhhhhhhh. i have to remind myself it was csa. it was csa. and then later on it led to me being groomed and then i ended up in a bunch of codependent relationships with people some of them being adults while i was a minor and... i hate how people can fetishize and excuse that or consume it just because theyre so selfish its so scary. i cant escape it. aghhh. please. please i have bpd and i give everyone even distant friends my heart and i feel like even strangers are close to me. its so warped!

[sidebaxolotl]

Bbestie brought up the fact that we might not live together next year and im like shut the frick up🔪🔪🔪🔪

[neptunebeetle]

Egh

[ghostcradle]

the entire narrative of noragami is about the lengths we will go to for the people we love— we’ll change ourselves for them, we’ll protect them, we’ll put ourselves in harm’s way for them, we’ll even give them up to keep them safe. every single action taken by the character has been out of love, and most of those actions are for the sake of the one loved— they are completely selfless in nature. but that doesn’t exempt those actions from selfishness, in fact, almost all the characters are very selfish people. (i strongly feel like there’s a line in noragami about how gods are inherently selfish beings but i do not remember where. maybe i dreamt it). some of the character’s most selfless actions— for example, yato choosing to go after father alone— have incredibly selfish motivations. yato’s explicit motivation in doing so is that he doesn’t want to lose yukine and hiyori. that’s subtly but crucially different from him wanting to keep them safe, and it’s not as if he considered their feelings on the matter. there’s (quite literally) countless more examples but the point is that noragami is a narrative about love’s selfish selflessness

noragami’s thesis of “love is selfless but it is not unselfish” i wanna. i wanna talk about it